#I can only be queer online

[thistookmybloop]

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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH TO ALL MY FELLOW QUEERS

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#queer #I can only be queer online #we are all valid #lgbtqia #pride month #omnisexual #lesbian #gay #bisexual #trans #intersex #acexual #pansexual #aroace #non binary #demisexual #genderfluid #I wanna go to pride parade so bad #pride #lgbtq #lgbt

[tainted-sweet-meats]

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[dykefaggotry]

instead of telling people to touch grass I'm gonna start telling people having insanely stupid queer discourse on tumblr dot com to go to a drag show. or a gay club/bar. or genuinely any queer space In The Physical World. it would fix many problems.

#like yall will really just say things that make it so obvious you only interact w other queer ppl through a screen #and like trust me I have been there I used to be the same way #finding community can be hard but it's worth it #don't let the online community be your only community

[wavebiders]

LRT that is such a thing with queer fandom spaces tho. It's like that post that's all "yeah your story is so gay but how are you treating your female characters" you know?

like yeah it's great that this is the queer fandom website but a good chunk of the time that just means placing a lot of focus on the white guys and that's still not great lmao

#this isnt anything I just need to spit my thoughts out somewhere #but it's been kinda bugging me ever since folks got all bug eyed about the bg3 romance stats #all the brushing Shadowheart's popularity off as straight guys that dont actually care about character depth #first of all saphic women and bi/pan exist believe it or not queer does not always = attraction to men #and believe it or not many straight men do have actual thoughts in their heads besides 'oooh im a tough guy banging a hot girl' #like do you guys actually go outside and talk to people or is your only experience with straight guy gamers angry youtube comments? #even just sticking to the internet you can find folks on reddit having discussions about her whole deal with Shar/Selune as early as ea #people have always been interested in her story #it just feels weird to brush off a female character's popularity as just being shallow #while considering the vocal online love for male characters to be inherently more deep #again this isnt anything it's not a call out sometime a bitch just needs to be petty and vent yeah?

[girls-and-honey]

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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages #me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my #pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones #idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when #everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that #and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for #this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100% #myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too #and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for #networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and #then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first? #which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else #anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me #i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so) #oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like #alright that's it for now i think #gah emotions and whatnot #missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon #personal

[toastsnaffler]

in a hilarious turn of events my flatmate didn't even know I use any pronouns....

#i thought when she was talking abt how her parents thought i was gonna come out as trans and kept checking my name/pronouns- #that the joke was that im ALREADY trans but in ways they dont know abt.... but nope she genuinely didnt know 🤭 #to be fair. i dont rly let anyone in on my gender business unless we're close enough to be dating or its an anonymous online space #like im legally cis and thats fine. idc abt ppl using my name + she/her bc thats not my gender identity its just AN identity that i use- #to navigate the world without ppl being fucking nosy bc i pass as + am sociopolitically treated as a woman (if butch lol) #to ppl who are friends ill joke that my gender is dyke (true) and to friends whose gender falls on a similar spectrum- #or who are transmasc ill talk a little more honestly abt it bc theyre usually able to understand better than anyone else #other butch dykes w a weird gender going on are the only motherfuckers who actually Get It but theyre hard to come by tbh #to be frank i dont fucking know whats going on w my gender. and i dont rly care enough to do the introspection to figure it out rn #i have so many other problems in my life and im lucky that most of my beef w gender can be solved by presenting butch + binding #and using any pronouns around other queer ppl. its actually incredibly funny to me when ppl she/her me bc its like tch. this chump hasnt #unlocked my level of gender yet. pronouns and names in general are so far disconnected from the way i exist in the world... #its just smth thats fun for me to play around with + makes me feel weird sometimes but in ways i havent distilled yet yknow #and this has been my approach to gender for like?? 4-5 years now??? and likely will continue to be for a long while.. #anyway. its not actually that surprising my flatmate doesnt know bc shes cis so ive never felt compelled to have a deeper conversation #abt gender with her. but also i could sweeaaar its been mentioned bc almost all our other friends are trans lol #and also ive been introducing myself at queer sports socials w any pronouns and i swear i talked abt that w her..... whatever #and my pronouns are on discord and shes def seen my tumblr before but maybe i didnt have them in my bio at the time... i digress #i kind of prefer cis ppl she/hering me tbh. theyre not able to they them or he him or whatever else me in a way that matters..... #altho i do find it fascinating when she or other ppl elect to use neutral or masculine terms for me. raising an eyebrow and taking notes #like when she got a job and joked abt me being her househusband.. pulling up the fem/masc tally chart and chalking a line up #a la nona the ninth.... ive been trying to figure out whos inhabiting this body my entire fucking life with no luck girl #ANYWAY just smth to think abt. im so tired i think my brain is gonna start seeping out my eyeballs #im gonna watch some more pluto and read and then -> 🛌 #another 6:30 start tomorrow woohoo #.diaries #zzzzz

[wild-at-mind]

Had a really stupid conversation via minor emotional breakdown with a queer friend about what makes an LGBTQ person 'assimilist'. From what she said I'm kind of forced to draw the conclusion 'if you say you're not assimilist, then you're not'.

#i love her but none of it makes any sense to me #i think i really just wanted her to see that this kind of rhetoric is no good if you're fundamentally unable to see yourself as having valu #to a community- which is where i'm still at sometimes unfortunately. #i would say that i may not be the only one since mental illness + self esteem issues + being lgbtq are not exactly unlinked #but i have basically never found anyone else who has my particular hangups...maybe online once ages ago #so in my own mind i'm the most assimilist lgbtq who ever existed- not even worthy to call myself queer #and it's nice that she thinks i am not like that and in fact am 'one of the good ones' #who is not assimilist- look i know that 'one of the good ones' usually means the opposite ok i know! it's just an impression i get #she's like telling me obviously i'm all good because i look like i do but all i can hear is #that if i didn't look like this then i'm an assimilist #i fucking hate my brain honestly no one asked me to have a mental breakdown at their house (thank god i didn't cry) #and then go home and that's when i cry because i saw a trans guy's 'this many years on t' post and i felt like shit because #i haven't done anything about transitioning in ages and i'm not even out at work :'( #like i know i'm an assimilist because my main reason for not coming out at work is not wanting to do the beaurocracy #of changing my name on my email and every fucking log in i have on everything- telling every single person i interact with #i just can't it's too much and my line manager is worse than useless #but i have 'my job is computer and doing emails all day' privilege so i don't like to talk to people about it

[electrobiology]

this is going to be an annoying rant so feel free to ignore it but so actually are there no good universities in all of the united states that don't leave you in lifelong debt?????? like hello???????? everywhere i look at that seems interesting and doesn't have reviews talking about how no one cares about you and you're on your own the entire time you're there or the staff/students are -ist/-phobic or no one does work and just goes to parties or other such things they're talking about the expenses. i want a degree because i need one if i want to do anything but i don't know if i want it enough to be in debt for my whole life. and why is the us like this. i just want to go somewhere else this country does not seem worth it to me. i want to go back in time and find a way to sink every european colonizer ship that landed on the land of the americas

#genuinely the more i look at college prices the more reasonable it feels to just go overseas somewhere instead... japan #if i'm gonna be paying at LEAST 15000 a semester wherever i go why don't i go do that in japan where i'm actually passionate about the #language and have reasons to use it and a potential to do something with it and can get places without a car and. etc #and the 15000 semester is a 15000 YEAR #only reasons the idea of being in america has ever appealed in the slightest to me is that it's a little easier to be openly queer #in certain places. not all of them! #and it's probably one of the most racially diverse places #whenever i look online people say that degrees in japan aren't worth anything but i feel that might just be them being racist #surely there are numerous people who went and got degrees in japan and are living happily. and idk bc they aren't on reddit #or posting on blogs or anything #god i feel UGHHHHH i hate everything #i know that as a Country with History japan is not particularly better than the us i know #but it's just the small things like being able to get places w/o cars and not have to pay an arm and a leg to heal like a small cut i got #that needs to be stitched. or not paying my whole body to pay off the debt of going to college because getting an education is #just not what they. want from you. they want your soul and your entire life in their hands #why am i living in this world #1 am thoughts i know but god

[toesuckler]

in the era of "gay men cant say dyke/id as femme" and "transguys cant say femboy" i think we need to recognize ppl dont ask your identity before they call you a slur.

#its so silly #like imo i think its chronically online. because the only place where ppl who hate you can see every part of your identity is online #ive been called a dyke and a fag and im neither of those things #ive been called a HeShe and a femboy and im not transfem. #ollie rambles #queer #transgender #anyways if you have a bad take on this im just gonna block you idc #f slur tw #t slur tw #d slur tw #f/mboy #anyways block me 4 this if u want or like justify it in my dms i dont mind but im not obligated to discourse

[caleohateclub]

im gonna be so honest right now: i dont think sherlock holmes could solve fnaf

#it's the shit that can only be solved by a mentally ill chronically online queer fan #sherlock holmes #but could benoit blanc....? #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #benedict cumberbatch #okay i didn't have to tag him but I DID #random fact i used to think “super wholock” was just the name of the bbc sherlock fandom i never connected it to supernatural and dr. who #so i used to say me and my mom were in the “super wholock” fandom but really we just watched bbc sherlock

[wallbeatjournal]

HOLY SHIT IT'S MINE!!!! i'm now officially the proud(?) owner of a riverdale athletics plaque from gay-homophobic uncle frank's office on season 7 of riverdale (delivery pending) ❤️

#riverdale queer-coding sportsboy media means SO MUCH TO ME perhaps more than to any other poster online. i might argue #genuinely can only list a few setdec items i would want to own THE ORIGINAL AUTHENTIC PROP OBJECT of more than this #and they really are the kind of shit roberto (or the actors themselves) probably kept for his personal collection #i manifested this by spending the evening working on a zine titled “13 riverdale props i wish i could buy at auction (and 1 i DID)” hahaha #can't wait to put this next to my big mouth billy bass animatronic. or maybe my telegraph key #either way it will align w my home decorating aesthetic perfectly. cannot wait to bring her home #god what a nailbiter. what a rush. #no more bidding for me unless paintings start coming up. (would break this resolution for a riverdollar or a lodge andrews boxing poster)

[devilfruitdyke]

the she/theys vs he/theys and wlw vs mlm posts are symptoms of a larger problem within the queer community 👍

#1. lack of consciousness of beauty standards 2. no grasp of intersectionality 3. focus on online discourse and not queer theory #'discourse' used very literally there. this is not a sick dunk on Minors These Days #anyway we as lgbtq people are very focused on ourselves as oppressed that we dont realize how we are perpetuating/internalizing... #... oppressive beliefs #see how all 'g ender envy' is almost exclusively skinny *white* conventionally attractive cis people #i saw someone say something like 'dont tag as gender envy be yr own person' the other day #and that really opened my eyes ? #we can be so caught up in the politics of being trans (usually as yr only minority group) #that it basically turns into 'skinny white cis men are the ideal of manhood dont ask me why though idk' #its deeply internalized #same goes with the 2 posts i mentioned #ps. i KNOW gender envy is what you personally find enviable and you shouldnt forced to change yr attraction for political reasons #but its the same shit that cishet beauty standards have been for centuries #very similar to how the only models in magazines are skinny white cis women #they dont say that fat people/trans women/woc arent worth their pages. its implied. #we just need to think about what we're implying every day as a community. #also i have a personal thing against gender envy culture because you guys forced me to see FUCKING V OMITBOYX EVERY DAY IN LIKE 2020 #/JOKE I SWAER. unless i get told one more time that im not really trans because i dont want short hair over my eyes. then i snap #<3

[bat-luun]

oh also im like 80% sure one of my bitchass classmates was making fun of me today by humming circus music every time i entered the room because im the only visible faggot in that class with sick emo eyeliner

#bat rambles #hope this doesnt turn into actual bullying tho #those girls would 1000% call me slurs if i wasnt their classmate for the next four years #ah love it #im the only queer in a class of like 25 people #well not really #theres another trans guy but hes a huge asshole to my roomie so #guess things like me are destined for loneliness :P #tho at least i have online friends #i can maybe make it my mission to piss those girls off with my emo faggy existence #im gonna get so cringe it fucking kills them >:D

[britneyshakespeare]

james somerton is just one of those people who wants to do whatever he wants and cannot stand the consequences of their own actions, which they willingly chose to do. entitled and self-absorbed motherfuckers. and that's the only way you can think to do the things he's done in the first place. having no base respect for the people you steal from and your audience, of course you think you can somehow do something to win them back. you can't. no one but an egomaniac would do what he's done in the first place, and only an egomaniac would think they can come back from that and still deserve to be praised and respected and have your cozy career like you did before you were exposed for what you've done. people like this cannot be worked with in the public eye.

#as a human i dont wish for his life to be ruined but as a 'professional' creator he absolutely does not deserve a career #he only had it because of theft. theft which he did because he felt he was owed riches and privilege that the ppl who stole from #apparently did not. #theft and lies! and his lies are another can of worms entirely #monstrous venomous worms #text post #he just needs to go away and his personal problems need to only affect himself and the ppl around him. #the online lgbtq/cultural commentary community should have nothing to do with him. #he's done nothing for anybody else in the digital space. he NEEDS. to LEAVE #nobody here should ever have to think about him again. as a human being w a drop of compassion. #bc he was never really in community with anybody in fact he's actively been hostile to the idea that he's not on an island #where he makes the most important and best queer content. #let him be a lesson and close the book on him #he should genuinely be banned from all platforms so he never has access to steal from or manipulate anyone ever again. #he should NOT BE A PUBLIC PROBLEM ANYMORE. #the only way he can exist in public after all he's done is as a menace. and that's his and his doing only. so goodbye james. go away #you learn how to live with those thoughts by yourself. it's not *our* issue

[vulpinesaint]

absolutely unreasonable over this coworker that i rlly like rn. thank god i don't like men or i would have fucking Lost it by now! as it is i don't even know what has me so dkfjghsdf about him i'm just sitting there with my head in my hands going "he's so normal about trans people..."

#he's a like. fr nerd guy which i don't know if i have a value judgment for but! it gets me points cause i can pull out nerd shit too #thought he was Significantly older than me but he is only four years older than me and not the estimated six. so it's not that bad #once i'm twenty in like three months it really will not be that weird for me to be friends with people in their twenties. #YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS. HE'S NOT NERDY HE'S GEEKY. DIFFERENT VIBE BUT DEFINITELY MORE LIKE ME #like. ordered a working spiderman mask online but also likes my alt radio station. y'know #and he wants to be my friend too!!! we talk nd have similar senses of humor #and he says hi + bye to me every time he sees me AND says my name every time which i think is a like. positive sign #when people take the time to say 'hi [name]!' i think that's a like. 'i'm invested in being friendly with you' thing #AND AGAIN!!! HEAD IN MY HANDS!!!! HE'S SO NORMAL ABOUT TRANS PEOPLE!!!!!! #went 'wow. it's the ignorance' when one of the kids asked about my dead name (kid obviously did not know what being trans entailed) #and when i went 'i mean adults ask me that too' he went 'what??? fr??? people are so uneducated :/' like a little disgusted ab it #which. dude. what a fucking world. so normal about trans people that like. not being normal about trans people is a foreign concept #not EVEN transphobia just not being educated on what's decent to ask a trans person!!! NOBODY knows that stuff!!!! #except for skye my best friend skye apparently. this dude is so fucking normal about trans people #laughs at my jokes about being trans!!! consistently!!!!! is rlly cool about it!!!!!!! #made a joke about using my dual citizenship to go check on the girls who were taking a really long time in the bathroom #and he found it as funny as i did and like. that's a kind of joke u'd usually have to share with other trans/queer people... idk... #would also make that joke with my coworker who is gay. but he's also really chill about me being trans haha #anywayyyyyy i don't know if he's queer or anything (strikes me as straight) but it's. god. world-changing #AND HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. WHO HE TALKS ABOUT A NORMAL AMOUNT. VERY POSITIVE THING #so i don't have to worry about things being weird at all :D #and he knows for sure i'm 19 and is chill about it. which. i was the only one making that a big deal but it's a relief all the same haha #asked how old i was (talking about graduating from college in a year nd a half) and gave me a FIST BUMP when i told him. #A FIST BUMP. WHO DOES THAT. #straight people. that's who. guys who are just guys. #guys who make me go 'oh so i DO want guy friends who are my friends in a 'we're both guys' way. those other guys just suck' #which i don't really want but ALSO. he's normal about trans people! so he recognizes me as a guy no matter what i look/sound like!! #my like. supervisor's supervisor made a joke about him being childish and like. girl. #idc frankly that's skye my best friend skye you can't tell me shit about him we listened to the radio while driving the kids to the beach #valentine notes

[unproduciblesmackdown]

a decade later sure i'll put it into Text Post "tumblr user claims: plausibly may feasibly" form, starting with these classic screenshots i still have saved

this being dialogue from 2015's always watching: a marble hornets story, which is like hey this is a pretty well produced indie venture & you can sure like sit through it even if you then never watch it again b/c it's still kind of overly on the beaten path & "i'm not sure this choice is justified in much of anything" (see: bizarrely omnipresent thread of a love triangle just to be There; typical Mental Patient(tm) Harbinger; several real marked More Is Less instances arguably) that is still a better time than other random horror material i've seen & hated vs. only mostly been underwhelmed by but in an Overall Shrug way alone. yeah imdb's 4.7 out of 10 seems fair enough if you consider like 5 stars truly middle of the road solid if forgettable vs that anything < 7 stars is for [Bad!] or whatever

anyways the main character is named milo & indeed the creator(s) / actors / writers troy joseph & tim were involved in the production at all: tim at least by being the first step in doug jones's casting by reaching out directly (online), but troy & joseph also via Some writing, like in that slender game sequel also: not the Primary creators / writers, but still officially involved in the creative process at all. & i knew of them & they knew of me by this time & in a [source: dude just trust me] style of way, i, a tumblr user, am like "i think milo alwayswatching Could be named after me, milo unproduciblesmackdown. lol." b/c also like yeah i can take it on the chin if it's a coincidence, which is also likely. great name & it's just not being used enough in fictional & nonfictional people's names. you might also be aware that some role in tribetweIve is named milo (maybe the main guy. i never watched it) so you might also speculate it's named after that guy, which seems plausible also, But: afaik there are no other similar plausible shoutouts at all, to that series or to emh which was just as majorly like One Of Those 3 Biggest Online Series. may or may not add a grain of salt to take it with. like my own "of course, there's a grain of salt in 'milo just like me milo, and Uncoincidentally?' b/c how wouldn't there be. a name people have"

the dude just trust me argument: distilling it down to "i went to their first convention & then the same one the next year, & in these experiences i Know they knew of me from that + also online, where people knew my name was milo as well" and "it seems feasible enough it's an easter egg Not Coincidence that i first knew this character's name happened to also be milo b/c someone who experienced a clip sent me an ask about it, so they assumed it was a possible actual connection too lol." and, of course, it might be a fun coincidence after all. but i'm still like "yeah no it Could be a funny little shoutout to me specifically for real" and mean it and, again, i can endure it if i'm completely wrong. b/c who could care, and also b/c it's so funny that the character is a guy who basically just is like "i am going to have a bad attitude. b/c of the insistent tiresome love triangle thing. well now I'm insistently tiresome" and fucking everything up but like, sure. exasperating epic fail protagonists

the only relevance i think it has besides "to me, b/c i can go haha yeah. that might be like: just like me!!" is that it's Also plausible b/c yeah marble hornets Is the kind of series that might go "this could be an easter egg about some queer autistic tumblr user we know about" lmao, its Inherent Queerness both re: the material and in the creators' knowledge like yep that's how our Appreciators skew! like it's low stakes to be like [lol, Me. perhaps] b/c it's obviously of zero importance like it adds no info, i'm just some rando queer fan from back in the day, but it's this potential Fun Fact that's funny to know & it's about "yeah like they knew i was trans back then too & that it was like, amidst the MH Fans, like nobody's cishet man (shaggy rogers voice)" Gay Rights!

#marble hornets #It's Possible And Someone Should Say It #and like fr i'm saying it with a swagful humility b/c yeah ofc it feels like an overreach to be like ME Milo???? but it could be fr #and ofc it's just a funny little detail If So so it's also really not that much of a reach b/c nobody else could care one way or another #the only possible Reactions beyond ''main character named milo? this has zero extra meaning for me'' #is Me; Specifically going [gasp!] (which i did anyways b/c Pointing! & b/c yeah thee whole time it's like It Could Be Just Like Me Fr) #and tribetwelveheads going ''like as in tribetweIve?'' which like still maybe but gotta keep it real with you chief: Less Likely #it's funny if i'm right And it's funny if i'm wrong so like yeah ofc i'll Just Say It. i can endure in good humour if Knowing no it's not #and like i could just ask. but in my prior chitchatting with [Yeah We Know Of Each Other] quadruple A status #(amicable and/or allied acquaintance) like it just hasn't ever been much or really At All abt marble hornets or anything else ''official'' #yeah i Could barge into tim's dms like HEY do you MAYBE KNOW this trivia?? about MEEE??? but like. i'm not gonna lmao #i'm gonna be like: post more new kittycat pics worstie!!!! if anything. #or be like ''you're So right. recommend skinamarink to all past present future marble hornets fans'' hell yeah king #(as someone who Hypothetically enjoys horror; thus in actual practice virtually always hates horror. That Fr! sm good fckg food) #anyways like it can't possibly matter. sure just as plausibly a ''haha no it Is coincidental'' situation like & so i can endure that though #it's most plausible thanks to the [i did manage to make it to their first convention! a lot of fun. & i bought their mask] #like this fact was 99% irrelevant to Anyone Else; e.g. anyone online then or now #but it did boost making me a specific person the main creative / production trio guys Knew Of lol. being a queer autistic fan can do that #i also never use these screenshots lol but i did save them & still like just now stumble across them like oh yeah that guy! that Mystery! #we can keep it up for that mystique & ambiguity. & b/c again i have no cause to barge in at an A.A.A.A. like Answer My Trivia Boy!! #this would Also be funny but for the sake of any actual 4A rapport i will not be attempting it for Detached Jests #(conveniently this prevents me from bravely enduring taking it on the chin anyways! hence casually posting a Fun Fact. we'll never know) #also remembering i don't even have my name being milo on my blog header. But It Is