#I’m in hs and my class eats that shit up bro

[thedevilundercover]

There’s such an easy way to wrangle all of the Batchildren. Bruce, take some notes: stickers

Especially the golden star stickers. If you pull one of those out? All of them are going fucking feral

Maybe he learnt it from some other single mom of too many kids™️ at some PTA meeting or whatever

*clears throat* here’s a demonstration of what I think would happen.

Batman: I have acquired some new knowledge and have decided to implement them into our training

Batchildren: yeah; ok; whatever; no one cares

Batman, pulls out some stickers from his bat pouches™️:

All of the fucking Batchildren: *going feral, ballistic over the stickers, actually listen for once*

#I’m in hs and my class eats that shit up bro #I would love to get some stickers :) #Man I’d be a great parent #tim drake #red hood #bruce wayne #batman #red robin #jason todd #dick grayson #damian wayne #batfam #dcu #duke thomas #cassandra cain #steph brown #stephanie brown #nightwing #dc robin

[nancythebisexualslutwheeler]

Reddie Tutor!AU

So what if we do a tutor!Eddie AU, where everything is #normal, it’s just shitty, normal HS. So Eddie is a junior and he’s on the track team and he’s little but his speed makes up for it.

He’s smart as hell, for real. In all AP classes and honors. I mean in math they only offer AP Calc as the highest option- which is what you need to pass twelfth grade. It’s not hard, even though it’s AP, the school just needed the extra funding. In Derry, everyone needed extra money.

So he’s smart and does track and that’s about all his mom allows him to do. She barely allows track, but the insurance money from his dad’s death is running out and words like scouts and scholarships made their mark. She never left the house of course, so it was nice for him to be able to have something to himself. It had taken a lot of convincing, but finally it was his. And then his principal who’d wanted him to apply to their student council and run for class president and more things that Eddie’s mother wouldn’t allow him to do, asks him to be a tutor. He will need to dedicate one afternoon after school and his Saturday mornings. He only has two friends, Bev and Ben, who are dating each other, so no one is too worried about him. Not all the time at least. (That’s mean. They’re good friends, he’s just bitter.)

He accepts the job without even asking who he’s tutoring. Mainly because tutoring means they’d have to have a chance of passing the class. Richie Tozier does not have a chance in hell at passing the class.

Cue mean girls style montage... let me tell you about Richie Tozier. He’s a dick. He’s cocky and rude and dirty and he’s 19 and this will be his second go at his senior year. So no, he has no chance of passing.

He can’t very well say no after he’s said yes so on Wednesday afternoon, he’s in the library, in the back corner, to avoid being seen caught dead with the loser, when Richie shows up.

Yadayada when Richie sees him he has a field day.

But eventually the two find an uneasy relationship.

So I’m here for when:

***

Richie gets a D on his first test because it’s not an F!!!! And he pats Eddie so hard on the shoulder he’s sure he’ll have a bruise.

***

One day Richie is staring at Eddie. His legs more precisely.

“What are you wearing?”

“Track shorts,” he holds a leg out. It’s obvious. They’re purple.

Richie rolls his eyes,

“No shit.”

“Why?”

“Practice after this.”

He nods...

“Um, what kind of-“

“Track.”

“Oh no shit.”

“You run?”

He snorts,

“I only run from cops.”

                                             ***

  “Hey I can’t meet on Saturday this week.”  

“Why?” Richie demands. He looks a bit frantic, their test is on Monday. But Eddie also knows it probably has to do with the way Richie put his hand on Eddie’s leg as he drove them home. Eddie had reassured him with a small smile, but he figured the older boy still needed validation.

“I’ve got a meet.”

Richie raises an eyebrow,

“Yeah,” Eddie itches the back of his head.

“Where?”

“Gravesville.”

“Oh.”

“I have one on Friday night too though. Here.”

And Richie makes some dumb excuse about being busy and yet on. Friday night he’s out there. Well, at the bottom of the bleachers right before the fence and he watches Eddie and smokes a cigarette.

And Eddie is so shook and ends up running over to him after like wtf? And Richie’s wearing a leather JACKET and they lean against the fence and chat and Richie lights a cigarette and Eddie can’t take his eyes off of his mouth and then Richie offers him some and Eddie’s like ... ahhh.. but then does and chokes and Richie’s like alright my innocent bon bon, none for you.

                                                          ***

Then Richie starts bringing them coffee on Saturday’s. He’s got a new job. He always makes Eddie’s coffee perfectly. Like he’s memorized it or something. A hazelnut vanilla latte with less oat milk (he’s lactose intolerant) than espresso and three sugars. Sue him, he likes his coffee sweet.

Richie is vegan. Eddie about falls over when he starts talking about the environment and passionately. The mistreatment of people of color comes up and the fact those words just came out of stoner Richie Tozier’s  mouth is making him rethink everything he knew about the world.

                                                           ***

Richie fucking lifts weights which wouldn’t be a problem if he arms weren’t so fucking buff.

                                                       ***

Okay the thing is Eddie knows he shouldn’t like Richie, but’s he’s just so damn attractive that it’s hard. His dark hair and beaming blue eyes and ridiculous glasses that happen to work for him. He has a goddamn hoop nose ring and he’s always biting at his chapped lips. He has a chest tattoo (Eddie has only seen what pokes out of the too tight, stretched out necks of his t shirts. He wears assorted band tees or white T-shirts that ride up when he stretches his arms over his head and shoves off the treasure trail that Eddie wants to lick.

So anyway the first time Richie takes off the flannel he’s wearing over a T-shirt, Eddie balks at the artfully decorated tree on his arm. It’s an elegant oak tree with autumn leaves adorning the branches. It’s... exquisite, and before Eddie can help himself, he’s reaching out to touch it. He stops himself before he does and when he looks up, Richie is smiling at him. He offers his arm and Eddie traces the tree,

“It's beautiful.”

“Well thanks Eddie spaghetti,” he says.

Eddie realizes he’s still touching his arm and quickly pulls away.

                                                      ***

It only takes a few times of mentioning his mom before Richie asks. Richie is trying to offer to drive him home after a study session runs late and it’s dark.

“You’re not walking home.”

“It’s fine, I promise.”

“You scared of my driving skills?” Richie swings his keys around his index finger.

“No, I mean yes, of course, but my mom’ll flip.”

“You say that a lot. What’s her deal?”

Eddie pales,

“Nothing. Just overprotective.”

They head to the door, Richie still insisting on a ride, and when they step out into the chilly fall air, Eddie wraps his windbreaker around himself tighter and then Richie offers again, knowingly.

“You have to drop me off around the corner.”

Richie looks at him curiously and then nods,

“Of course. Can’t have mom seeing you with big bad huh?”

“Yeah, you’re not meeting the parents material, huh?”

“That’s what they tell me,” he shrugs, “As long as they let me sneak into their bedroom.”

Eddie makes a face. Girl’s rooms.

***

One Saturday Richie doesn’t show up. He thought they were over this, Richie ditching. He hadn’t even texted. So Eddie is annoyed. No pissed. Because it’s 8am and Richie isn’t even there to give him a coffee. So he calls because he’s fuming.

Richie sounds like shit,

“Hello? Eddie? Wait. What day is it? Fuck. Eddie I am so sorry. I’m sick as fuck.”

Speaking of which, Eddie doesn’t remember seeing him in class on Thursday.

“You couldn’t call? Text?”

“Bro, I’ve been in bed for days. I’m about to die of dehydration, my parents are out of town and I can barely manage to get out of bed to pee so no, I couldn’t text.”

Eddie pauses. Hesitates. He does it to be nice. That’s all.

“What’s your address? I can bring you a few things.”

“That’s unnecessary.”

“I’m not, I’m not taking a no for an answer.”

Eddie buys too much but he can’t stop himself. About three kinds of cold and flu meds, Tylenol, cough syrup, OJ and sprite and saltines. A couple of magazines. He’s pathetic.

Richie answers the door looking like death and Eddie is Lowkey in love because he looks like a muffin. (A very sick muffin) but a muffin nevertheless.

                                                         ***

Richie returns the favor by inviting Eddie over for a movie and pizza night. He thinks about it because they’re not friends. But Richie seems sincere and he did take care of Richie. He’d changed his bed sheets and everything. They haven’t mentioned it.

So Richie’s house is nice and he has a thirteen year old sister who is way cooler than Eddie was at 13. Anyway Richie orders pizza and he orders Eddie a regular pizza but he wants to try Richie’s because it looks good. And he does and it’s good and Richie just grins and turns on some dumb Netflix movie.

They absolutely do not cuddle, but Eddie sits a touch closer than he needs to and Richie’s arm ends up draped behind him on the couch and it’s nice and goddammit, Eddie is gay for Richie Tozier.

                                                      ***

Richie never seems to tire of him, or make any move to stop their tutoring sessions even when he gets a B on their latest test.

                                                   ***

One day it’s raining and Richie is sitting across from him and parts of his white shirt are see through. And his chest is hairy and Eddie is in to it.

                                               ***

Richie’s birthday comes and goes and Eddie brings him a single German chocolate cupcake complete in a container and everything.

Richie doesn’t stop absolutely beaming. He eats the whole thing and fawns over Eddie.

“It was so good. Best thing I’ve ever put in my mouth,” he says with a wink.

“Richie,” he complains.

“Scouts honor,” he salutes, “the very best.”

“Gross!”

                                                       ***

So idk what happens but somehow they’re alone together, maybe in like a bedroom. Richie’s got his big hands open in his lap, palm up, and Eddie is firmly pressed against him and Eddie nudges Richie,

“You’re a lot cooler than I thought you’d be.”

“Aww, you too Eddie spaghetti.”

“Puh-lease fuck off.”

“Never.”

Eddie nudges him,

“Promise?”

Richie looks down at him then,

“Promise.”

Eddie stares at him and licks his lips.

Richie leans down slowly, giving Eddie plenty of time to move away. He doesn’t.

#reddie #richie tozier #Eddie kaspbrak #it 2017 #it 2019 #fan fiction #my writing #head canons

[zepdeans]

season 1 character thoughts!

tl;dr im aching 

1. eva: I feel bad because I honestly struggle a bit to come up with thoughts on eva? one thing I will say- she’s so inherently kind. she really went out into a crowded party searching everywhere for chris just to find a friend for a crying stranger. I also related to a lot of eva’s story and her insecurities. being that person who gets teased about stuff that actually hurts and when you get upset, you’re told to just laugh it off or you’re a buzzkill? it makes a lot of sense that she turned to chris, who complimented her on being smart, when jonas was constantly ragging on her being dumb. this season was so cathartic for eva as well- finally letting go off her guilt and standing up for herself!! she really grows into her own confident person :-) my favourite line of this season is when eva says “I wish I could go back and do it completely differently, but I can’t” because shes finally making peace with what she’s done and moving on! you can fuck up, struggle with self-hatred and insecurity and guilt, make amends, become a better person, and keep going.

2. isak: ohhh man. do not compare s1 isak to s3 isak bc it hurts real bad scoob. like I always noticed yo s1 isak’s clothes are so cool and stylish? and I love his s3 clothes but they are definitely more sloppy dude-bro-y and it’s definitely related to what gabie said abt him completely closing himself off + actively hiding any sign of his sexuality post-s1. ALSO. you ever think abt how isak was basically caught between third-wheeling his best friend (for whom he has confusing feelings for) and his gf vs. being with elias & his teasing (that actually cuts way too deep) vs. being at home while his family falls apart?? like I know a big part of eva’s arc in s1 is being alone but isak probably only had jonas as his friend too? imo isak isn’t someone who can easily make friends or be comfortable with someone, so he probably spent a lot of time alone. and even when he was with jonas there was still a feeling of isolation caused by elias’s presence :( also I’m not defending what isak did because it was a shitty thing to do but. imagine how sick with guilt he was when he thought eva was going to transfer schools. he obviously cares a lot about her and it must suck also secretly resenting her too?? he also says he was drunk when he DM’d nissenhook but since iben found out in the same episode isak did (end vs. beginning), he would’ve sent it during the week. isak getting drunk by himself on a week night being upset enough about jonas and eva to pull that shit :((( FINALLY- isak dissing bakka media students. honey you’ve got a big storm coming

3. sana: where do I start with this one. throughout the season she comes off as harsh, cold, stubborn, bossy and rude BUT much like a lindt chocolate once u crack that hard exterior u get a beautiful soft inside. not to go all 10th grade english class on u guys but this is exemplified through her wearing literally only head-to-toe black and dark makeup all season (except when she wore those cute heart hijab pins like sana I see you!! I see your soft side it’s in plain sight!!!!!). it makes sense that this is eva’s read on sana though! but once sana’s true intentions are revealed to eva and the audience (she actually cares about vilde a lot! vilde is her friend and she’s concerned for her!) then she comes out in all white... hello symbolism! like sana is SUCH a good friend. she really is. she was so adamant about the girls being cool, sticking strictly to the plan, “eva breakup w jonas lol”, but as soon as the pepsimax girls shit on vilde? she doesn’t HESITATE throwing a drink in their faces like she’s so loyal and cares so deeply even though she hides it. even though vilde hasn’t been a good friend at all to her. I think a lot of why she comes off as rude and cold is because it’s so much easier than being vulnerable (self-projection lol). also. this ties so beautifully into sana’s season but you can really see how she’s the friend who pays attention to everyone but who no one pays attention to. like when she’s missing in ep5, the audience and girls don’t even really notice it? (okay I did but yall know what I mean). but imagine being sana, constantly struggling to make friends because it’s hard for you to show you care about people and you come off as harsh to everyone, and then seeing your new friend group hangout all without you? fuck.

4. noora: I love s1 noora sooo much. genuinely such a unique character??? I don’t even know how to describe her- she’s weird, dorky, cool, confident, funny, headstrong, outspoken, mature, mysterious, alluring? she’s just so strange and captivating. the mom friend but instead of being overprotective of her friends, encourages them to go for it!! clearly a very moral person and a feminist, but not obnoxiously or performatively so. I think the cool thing about her becoming eva’s first friend and later her best friend is the contrast between them in s1- noora must seem like an enchanting, perfect being to eva: she knows exactly who she is, has no insecurities, is incredibly sure in herself and everything noora does is for noora. she’s not concerned with what anyone thinks of her! she’s so separated from what constitutes highschool popularity but her confidence is like... magnetic? in summation peak s1 noora is when she was in the cantina with her feet just.. up on the table sjdsfhjdf. anyways I love s1 noora I wish she stayed around a little bit longer :(

other fun things: -standout actors for me this season: lisa, ina, and iman! -pchris wearing that fedora dancing like that.... this rly is the hottest most popular boy at nissen huh -isak sending the aladdin phone meme gjkjdkgg -when 5 fine frokner plays at the party my ears perk up like a dog -speaking of the party. crazy shit really does always happen on skam halloweens huh -jonas: lies to eva, tells her about how much he lied. jonas: babe u have to start trusting me -JAEVLA HORE also iben biting eva? sffjsdfdjsjhfsd?? -vilde’s retelling of eva “stealing” jonas is SO dramatic but hs really is like that -honestly there’s something about a bunch of girls eating breakfast together, not wearing makeup, not caring about looking nice for each other... this is the moment they truly became friends!!!!!!! -BUTT

thanks s1 love u long time

#rambling but make it incoherent #also i did not plan this at all but i just realized all of these r about the mains. wow my mind! #clownfest 2019 #blabbey

[snakuchan]

about me tag 

aye listen up @13-scoups, yoongi needs to make way because my heart...you own it asdfghj thank you for tagging me again :”))

The rules are:

Tag the person who tagged you. 

Answer the questions.

Tag 10 people.

How tall are you?

5 feet and 3 quarters. I’m the runt of the group, those 3 quarters mean the world to me 

What color and style is your hair?

Medium brown with blonde highlights and copper tones. Since it’s getting hotter and I’ve already spent some time in the pool, she’s getting lighter uwu. I have my hair in an A-line bob but it’s been a few months and the shortest ends are past my shoulders already :^( I’m planning on getting a simple bob right above my shoulders cause i dont wanna grow my hair out just yet 

What color are your eyes?

Light brown? Hazel? Tbh it depends on light. I’ve worn grey contacts that straight up make my eyes look a bit blue and people think yeah those are your eyes

Do you wear glasses?

Yeet, I’m blind :^(

Do you wear braces? 

I had to suffer with them for 3 years from 8th to 10th grade and im never going back idc if those bitches are getting crooked again 

What is your fashion style?

Feminine? I only wear dresses and long skirts uwu. Miss me with them skinny jeans in this Miami weather bro 

Full name?

Cynthia~

When were you born?

December 11, 1999 (love making fun of my 2000 people even tho i am in spirit a 2000 child)

Where are you from and where do you live now?

I’ve lived in Hialeah my whole life and plan on dying here fam 

What school do you go to? 

Uwuu let’s not go to into too much detail ;) My uni’s a pretty popular school and it’s essentially every Florida student’s safety net if they can’t make it into the more competitive unis. There’s like 60k students parking’s a bitch pls help :)

What kind of student are you? 

Uh the quiet type maybe. I’d rather not do teamwork and I just mind my business. Really I’m more of a get in get out type of student, I refuse to stay on campus for longer than necessary. I either get As or Cs because I sort of prioritize which classes are more important so I guess I still have hs mentality where I ignore the “elective” type classes. Need to work on that oof 

Do you like school? 

Sometimes. I actually took the most recent semester off (which ended like last week) because anxiety :))) My body was just not handling it well. The times I do like a school are honestly when I feel like I could get a moment of peace and quiet on campus but that’s not often 

Favorite subject? 

Any science subject really but probably more chemistry (I’m majoring in biochemistry)

Favorite TV show? 

You mean favorite netflix series? asdfgh no it’s probably Buffy the Vampire Slayer pls never let this masterpiece die off

Favorite movie? 

I love so many movies so I could never really pick but let’s just go with The Fifth Element cause why not. I have weird nostalgia for it and idky 

Favorite books? 

I haven’t read in the longest time what a shame :(( but Esperanza Rising and Tennyson are my absolute childhood faves. Also Strange Sweet Song idk it just hits me in a way. You could say I’m still a whore for teen fiction. Oh shit that’s right The Night Circus is fucking *chef’s kiss* delicioso 

Favorite pastime? 

Coloring in those therapeutic coloring books, bingewatching anything and everything, yelling at my dumbass friends on Telegram, and doing laundry. I actually like doing chores now holy shit

Do you have any regrets?

I feel like I could have worked harder in high school, especially with some of my AP classes (I could’ve fucking passed my calculus exam if i just hnng :)) and I also could’ve enjoyed myself a bit more as a teen cause now I just feel burned out. Interesting these contradictions 

Dream job?

A physician. What field? We’ll see

Would you like to get married?

YEET 

Would you like to have kids?

I would love to have kids but I’m afraid of being a bad mother simply because I feel I have no motherly bone in my body I’m just sdfgh :’((

How many?

1, just one kiddo is enough 

Do you like shopping?

I rarely do, I honestly get really exhausted so I only go when I really want new clothes and have the money for it 

What countries have you visited? 

Besides visiting family in Cuba, none :^( and honestly Cuba isn’t a real vacation cause dealing with some of my relatives is a chore. Ask any Cuban-American really 

Scariest nightmare you’ve ever had?

OOF I’ve had lots but here’s one from when I was 15. It’s basically my high school, all dilapidated and whatnot. I’m scrambling around trying to get to class when I reach the third floor of the main building and walk into the main hallway to see my principal, nude and morbidly obese with chains in his hands leading to a dozen naked and anorexic women with black button eyes (Coraline?) and like a mouse’s head? The women were scrubbing the floors and walls until their hands and knees bled. It’s all I remember but it’s stuck with me all these years and every time I think about it I get a bit nauseated 

Any enemies?

Probably not. I really don’t care about anyone around me besides the people I befriend. I’m probably an enemy to someone but I wouldn’t know. When I tell y’all ignorance is bliss 

Any significant others?

Been single my whole life :)

Do you believe in miracles?

Hmm I am religious so I’d say yes 

How are you?

Well, my sunburn’s healing fantastically thank fuck can’t say ass about the scrape on my knee tho. About to shower and eat dinner :)

Tagging @mycandylover0822, @ilovewonu, @girlwithluvs lol i need friends *twitch* Why the fuck do I write so much?? Hopefully this has been a wild ride for u fucks ily all 

#if u guys read this in its entirety u own my ass #uhm why in the fuck is it thundering so much ok

[badgalyadi]

random survery. / 474 + 560.

How’s your mood? Do you feel any different than you did earlier today? def better than it was earlier

What do you look for in a friend? Is it important that your friends have similar hobbies and interests to you? Or is it more important that you just enjoy their company? i think as long as i enjoy your company, we’re good.

Has anyone ever spread a malicious rumour about you? people have been doing this since middle school lmaooo

Are you comfortable with talking to the opposite sex, about sex? yeah, sex isn’t that deep of a topic lol.

What are your views on people who claim to have had spiritual or paranormal experiences? damn that’s crazy.

Have you ever had a friend that you were really close with, but you ended up drifting apart? Why do you think this happened? lol, life.

How much of an issue would you say peer pressure is for you? FAKE. no way ur gonna get me to do something i don’t wanna do, idc.

Would you be able to give up eating your favourite food(s), if your doctor said you had to? nope.

If you’re single, do you ever feel jealous of people who are in relationships? And if you’re in a relationship, do you ever feel jealous of people who are single? no.

What’s in your pencil case? pens, unsharpened pencils, mechanical pencils, erasers both big & small, a sharpener, a stapler, extra staples, and highlighters.

Is there anything in your room that you wouldn’t want your parents to find? maybe so.

Are you wearing anything fragranced atm? i’m wearing the fragrance i brought back from cuba. it was only $3 and it smells so good, deadass makes me it :(

Was your last illness something contagious? i had a cold, so i guess yeah.

When did you last update your Facebook profile photo? it’s been a year.

Have you ever felt confused about your sexuality? in middle school. terrible time to wanna figure that shit out but 💀

If you found out your friend was sleeping around, what would you say to him/her? nothing b/c i don’t care lmao do you.

How should someone of the opposite sex go about starting a conversation with you? it’s not that deep, just say hi.

Tell me about someone you dislike. Why do you dislike them? Do they know that you dislike them? obsessive and shady asf, can’t mind her business.

Have you ever felt so strongly for someone that you believed them to be totally irreplaceable, as if you could never be happy with anyone else? yeah, and i don’t think i’ll ever feel that way about somebody again b/c i learned u really can live without anybody whether u like it or not.

Out of all the horror films you’ve ever seen, which one scared you the most? uhhhhhh sinister or insidious idk

Who was the last person to tell you that they were disappointed in you? not airing out names. she didn’t directly say it, anyway.

If you’re an only child, do you ever wish you had some siblings? And if you have siblings, would you like any more? i always wish i had other siblings lmao i see people w theirs and be feeling sad as hell :(

Are you friends with the last person you texted? yeah.

Your last Facebook friend request - was it from someone of the opposite sex? no.

What does the eleventh text message in your inbox say? issa meme.

Has anyone ever called you easy? yeah LOL

Would you consider having a child with the last person you kissed? whommm... can’t be having a baby rn when i’m still the baby myself

Is there a cover version of any song that you like more than the original? soooo many.

Have you ever liked someone who was a player? yea lol

Do you own anything that has sequins on it? also yes.

Have you ever done anything to embarrass your parents? not on purpose but they def do shit that embarrasses me too so we’re even 

Do you own a teddy bear? yethhhh

What’s the worst relationship advice anyone has ever given you? all of it. nobody ever knows what they’re talking about LMAO.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you with yourself as a person? a 6.5 lmao.

Would you ever kiss someone with facial hair? yeah. Have you ever drooled in public? nah. Do you agree that facebook is taking over the entire teenage population? ???????????? what 80 year old wrote this Have you ever met a mainstream band? no. Have you ever yelled at an electronic as if it could hear you? i get mad sometimes & be fighting random shit LMAOOOO so yes Have you ever been bitten by a dog? yeah LMAO

Would you ever shave your head? if i didn’t have to? no. Have you ever spelt your name in Alphabet Soup? no. What do you think would happen if the Earth suddenly stopped spinning? my stupid ass has no idea & i’m not boutta guess so i can be made fun of What did you want to be when you were little? probably some generic shit like a princess idk Have you ever drawn a picture with sidewalk chalk? yeah. What is the worst possible way to die? slow, painfully. Have you ever burnt yourself with a lighter? sooooooooooooooo many times. Would you ever meet someone you met online? mayhaps. What’s your favorite online game? cricket noises.. What do you think of gay/bisexual people? A1. Have you ever kissed the TV? no. Have you ever thrown your cell phone across the room? yeah, then regretted it LMAOOOOO Have you ever been hit with a ball in gym class? not often but once in hs i got sockedddddddd in the face during volleyball & thought it was on purpose so i hit her w the ball even harder and ended up getting suspended cuz i wasn’t discreet about it lmao Will you be single over winter? [brain muscles overworking themselves] what season is this Where do you wanna live when you grow up? out of miami mayhaps. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? pajama pants. Would you get married if you could right now? nope. Do you consider yourself spoiled? maybe so. Do you get annoyed when you see someone you don’t like? i usually just focus on other shit. Could you see yourself dropping out of high school? surprised i didn’t. Is there anyone you want to see right now? santi?! What were you doing 12 a.m. last night? fixing my living room. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? :] Are you a mean person? no, i really try not to be. What woke you up today? yesterday*, alarm clock. Have you kissed anyone whose name started with a T? probably lmaoo

Did you date anyone last summer? nah, i was minding my business, enjoying my life. Where will you be twelve hours from now? class. Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? yeth Have you ever slept on a couch with that person? also yeth Have you written a letter to a soldier? no. Ever been in a perfect relationship? lmao “perfect” How do you feel about the person who texted you last? loveeee me some them. What are you looking forward to? cricket noises.. Do you think you are an argumentative person? hhhh.. maybe..  How did you feel when you woke up today? tireddddddd asf. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? mhmmm What time did you go to sleep last night? i always go to bed late asf. i’m boutta go to bed now just to be up in two hours. What color are your eyes? brown. The last song you listened to? a veces, it’s literally on repeat. When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep? if i don’t get up, yeah. Do you believe change is always good? sometimes.

How long was your longest relationship in highschool? 3 years. Do you know who Philip DeFranco is? nah. What’s the most illegal thing you’ve EVER done? 💀 the OP responded to this with weed, i’m really screaming rn.. Where did/do you want to get married? all these questions about marriage, whew. What’s the highest level of education you’ve reached? i’m in college rn Is your last name extremely common, like Gonzalez? no, but i don’t think it’s rare either. Ever notice how most flags are red white and blue? no. Have you ever had a crush on a family member? what the fuck How old is your YOUNGEST friend? bitch.. i don’t know How old is your OLDEST friend? i don’t. know. How long should people be together before they propose? these questions are starting to make me uncomfortable lmaoo Have you had your first touch screen phone yet? that’s how you know this survey is old. Don’t you hate when parents divorce but then still argue regularly? can’t relate, hope i never do. Would you ever join the military? sike. If you could have any dog, what dog would you have? a shihpoo. Would you ever kill a bunny and make soup out of it? what the fuck x2 Do any of your friends own a ferret? no. Do you believe that Christians are better than non-Christians? no? Do boys really rock pink more than girls do? ????????????????????? Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? yerrr What’s your view on the Islam culture? hard to have an opinion on something you know nothing about. Do you know what, “C'est la vie” means? i know i’ve seen this but idk what it means Do balloons make you have a better birthday? nah; they’re loud asf too when they pop, so. Krispy kreme donuts aren’t as good as Dunkin Donuts, are they? DELETE THIS. What is your favorite song from, “Aventura?” THE SPANISH GROUP?! WAYMENT...... i don’t even know. prob something generic. yesterday i was listening to por un segundo lmao :( If you could legally assassinate any celebrity, who would it be? bro.. Do you use Twitter or Formspring? twitter. rip formspring babie love you. Why did you last cry? a few hours ago, real crybaby bad bitch hours. If you had to lose 5 lbs, how would you do it? lower my calorie intake. Is there anyone who seems to think that you are a pillow? ???????? Tell me about your BEST New Year’s Eve ever. wasn’t this one. If you HAD to change your name, what would you change it to? alejandra, idk why that name sticks with me. i just feel like i look like someone named alee & idk how that makes sense but it does to me LMAO. Lunapic editor is amazing, no? whommmm... How do YOU write, “Okay?” depends on my mood, who i’m talking to, what we’re talking about.

How old was the last person who kissed you? 28. Do you have any plans for the day after tomorrow? not that i know of. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yeah. What time did you wake up today? 7. Name something you can’t wait to do: idk. If you had to choose, would you rather be an alcoholic or a pothead? pothead. What has pissed you off today, if anything at all? cricket noises. Can you honestly say that at this point and time you’re happy with the way life is going? no lmao. Can you easily tell if someone’s fake? mmmmmmmmmmm.. depends. Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out your life? yeah. Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours? yeah. Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl? feel like most ppl have been thru this. Has anyone ever sang to you? yeah bfsjklj Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other? LMAO yeah. Coffee or alcohol? oof.. both. together. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with C or J? yeth and yeth. Do you ever cry during movies? hell yeah w my crybaby ass Do you have any piercings? ears. Have you ever found someone you really like? my BOO. 🗣 Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today? yeah LMAO Do you remember who you liked three months ago? was that november... idk how to do math LMAO pretty sure i liked ques by then.

#sᴜʀᴠᴇʏs /

[liagibasunandmoonflower]

So, some backstory is neccessary (imo) for some of the ideas in my album to really make sense. (TRIGGER WARNING- it gets dark, and is about mental health, so if you arent in a great place maybe dont read, but it's your call)

I am the youngest of 3 biological siblings, but a total of 6 siblings, but one of them no longer remains in contact with us. And the other is incarcerared. But, my sister's are pretty freaking awesome people.(btw My parents basically raised my mom's step sister's children, so i really consider them to be my siblings). My oldest brother (bio bro) was 11 years older than me, my eldest sister and first born of my parents is 13 years older than me, my second sister is a blessed middle child and is 7 years older than me, and my youngest brother is 5 years older than me. Needless to say i was the baby of the family and treated as such 😂

Moving on, my oldest brother was 17 when he enlisted in the Army. He needed my parents permission. They talked it was what he wanted to do and so he went. I was 6, and omg it was terrible. My mom has found old school journals of me writing about how much I miss my brother. I would have really bad nightmares as a kid (up until i was 11 i slept in my parents room on a little blanket bed on the floor because of how terrifying these nightmares were i didnt want to be alone at night). And i would cry at night. And i wouldn't really be sure why. But it would be so intense and i just could not stop.

And my family would surprise me, and other people in the family, when he was on leave. He would just walk in the door late at night and everybody would be crying and be so happy and excited. One time he came home and my parent kept me home from school for the morning, and i was like "okay im ready to go to school" and they were like "let's just wait a minute" and i was like "um weird but okay" and then some time later, i hear the basement door in our kitchen open and this dude walks around the kitchen corner into the living room and then as he came closer i realized it was my brother and i was so excited and happy and im sure i probably cried.

But dont get it twisted. My brother was a dickhead. Like one time we jumping on the trampoline and he was just tormenting me and i finally broke down and called him an asshate because he kept calling me an asshole and i thought he was saying asshat (tbh he probably was, he was weird, it's were i get it from).

But anyways, when he finally got out of the military, I think it was only 2-3 years but for a 6 year old that's forever, he still lived with my parents and me and my other brother. And then he went to work for the gas companies and we would go visit him when he was out of town on the job. Dickhead was always leaving.

But, Dickhead was also one of my most favorite people I have ever known or met on this planet. I used to take dance lessons and every year they would put on a spring show and i was apart of it one year. We had an afternoon and evening show. My parents and grandparents and i think my sister and aunt and cousin probably all came for the afternoon show. Somehow it got arranged that my older brother would pick me up from the evening show (i think he still lived with us im gonna have to check with my parents). Well, the show was running later than expected and so he came at the time he was supposed to and i was still dancing, so he got to see the second half of the show for free. And then, we bullshitted in the car, called each other foul names as was the usual and laughed about it, and then he took me to the local Wegmans, and used pocket change to get us some gummy cherries. And he showed me this neat trick where if you hold the bag up just a little you can get the candy for a cheaper price. I'm pretty sure my 13 year old self thought this was totally badass and amazing. Still kind of do. Fuck capitalism. And so he's driving us home, its dark out by now, we're eating the gummy cherries and he says they look like dogballsacks. So now, that's what we called them the rest of the ride home. It was really great that he just did that for me. And he actually sat and watched the show. He could have easily turned around and waited outside in his car. His red Cadillac.

Anyways, he eventually moves out, gets an aparment near my aunts house, moves out of that apartment into a new one, his gf moves in with him, and he starts taking classes at the local college. Just gen eds, he planned on transferring to get a degree in nanotechnology. I was in high school, and one time we switched homework because he hated math and I hated english, but i didnt know how the college math class he was taking wanted me to solve the problems so basically i got him to do my hw, and he still had to do his hw too. But I'm pretty sure I had to add to mine too because my hs english teacher wanted us to annotate a certain way and shit. That was in tenth grade I think.

In 2014, the same year, my eldest brother took his life. He was 26, a few weeks shy of 27. I was 15 at the time and immediately stopped attending public school, and eventually made a full transition to home bound. It's where a teacher comes to your house and brings your work and tutors you like two-three times a week. It was really nice, but really isolating and lonely. I started tsking antidepressants and going to therapy, both individual and family, but stopped all three of those things eventually all at different times for different reasons. For my junior year i did online school through the local hs. It sucked. It was terrible. Probably the worst i ever did academically. Like C's and D's started popping up with my A's and B's. I just wasnt learning and wasnt understsnding and didnt feel comfortable reaching out for help.

I would say I've pretty much been in emotional turmoil since I became counsious and could remember things. Yes. It is all in my head, but that's the problem. And now, im ready to get professional help. Because i want to remember my brother. Every single memory of him i want to always keep. But I've spent a really long time trying to actively forget and black out the memories because it just hurts so fucking much almost all the fucking time. I feel like ive been burning my brain away with marijuana just to survive. And now im ready to change and need the help to change. But i have no money to pay for that help. And my insurance does not cover it fully which is what i need. So, im just out here, trying my best and living my life. Im always going to try.

I've found music to be really healing, and have put everything i have into making this album. It's raw, and personal, and explicit. It's physically difficult for me to express myself by talking, but singing and writing are so natural and easy to me. And no im not a great singer, or writer, but it's what i love and enjoy doing. More practice=more skill/talent.

I hope anyone who stumbles upon this, (including my future self) is inspired to do something they love not because they are good at it, but because they love it. That's the only thing that matters. When im old and wrinkly and dried up and crusty, I want to remeber myself as happy, kind, caring, strong, passionate, and i want to have so many memories of peope, places, and things that I love.

#bsl #i #hope #proud #of #me #storytime #family #creativescommunity #music #self love and respect #mental health journey #you're

[euphoric-hours]

𝕱𝖔𝖚𝖗 ⁽ᵉˢᵗⁱᵐᵃᵗᵉ⁾ 𝕸𝖔𝖓𝖙𝖍𝖘 𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖔 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖄𝖊𝖆𝖗 𝖔𝖋 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝕻𝖎𝖌

Wowza, I haven’t wrote on this blog in a fat minute. When I say the end of senior year was hectic, it was fucking crazy. Though, now my personal hell is over, I am positive a new one will start in a few weeks, no cap. But future me will deal with that. 

Anywho, lets get to it! Update on my four months and a half into the new year: 

Not only did I have to cram a bunch of information into my fat head, but I also had to watch out for college deadlines, finish out my spring sport’s season, get a reasonable amount of sleep, remember to eat, maintain my social life to a minimum, and finish all the fucking homework the hs teachers assign at the end of the year. What do they gain from that? osrs. 

Though, I managed to take like four to five trips this past year bc why the fuck not; it low-key felt good to flex on some of my peers (who are not so nice) that had to stay at school longer than me. I mean, it balanced out I guess you could say. From me missing more than two days, I had to take finals regardless of my A’s and B’s. It was worth it. My first trip was in Sep 2018 (beginning of the year) and that was to a bts concert; my second was in Mar 2019 (middle of spring sports) and that was back to San Fran, but just to spend time with my close friend in the bay area for Spring Break. (some of my softball teammates were heated about it for some reason??? Idk why though when the ones who were mad are the ones who talk shit behind my back lol, wild) Then the next three were to Vegas, SoCal and Phoenix. SoCal was so much fun! I hope to go back soon. 

Starting from my last post, at the first bullet. 

- yes i did get into usf, but sadly I did not have the money to attend. (it was 65k per year? ofn) i cried about it for about a week, but now i am somewhat over it. Like I still get somewhat iffy about it, but i am more excited about the university I am going to this fall. They gave me a full-paid tuition scholarship (covers half of the cost) so I’m content, I can still party and study yuh yuh 

- LOLOL I really thought I could do three nights classes during my softball season when I could barley do hs homework. I ended up dropping those classes and focused on my season. that was that lol

- Still out of shape 

- still cry but not as much 

- still not working? (wtf k*le-)

- Now that it’s the end of May, I am really really excited for college this upcoming August. Not September, thank god. I attend my orientation yesterday and today, it was alright. Just some students who think they are exclusive and self-rightous. But besides that, it was nice. 

^^ WAIT WAIT WAIT, FORGOT TO MENTION: my ass is going to get cheweddddddd out by my schedule for my first semester of college. It’s two subjects of science: Chem and Bio. Four classes overall. Two lecture classes for both subjects. Two lab classes for both subjects. Then the other two classes are culture class and first year seminar class. Fuck my brain bro huh. 

- In the end, I managed to find myself and realize that i am all that matters in my own life. (not like righteously, but more of self-care, self-love and so.) one of my good friends left my life and that lowkey hurt me, but it’s alright bc I know she has her reasons. I am sure she will be fine and I still hope the best for her. anyway, it’s been about a hour since I started typing this, and my wrists hurt lol. Plus I need to go scoop my friend for late night adventures. 

See y’all in another minute,

Later. 

[bing-suho]

VOLTRON COLLEGE!AU KEEF (KOREAN!KEITH) - moody art major with focus on mural arts + art as restorative medium - keith as low income who used to do graffiti but then saw how mural arts actually change communities - KEITH WHO VOLUNTEERS AT PUBLIC SCHOOL AFTERSCHOOL ARTS PEOGRAM - KEITH WHO WILL FORGET TO EAT SOMETIMES WHEN HES RLY CONCENTRATING ON HIS WORK UNTIL EITHER SHIRO OR HUNK (later lance) REMINDS HIM TO EAT AND FORCES HIM AWAY FROM HIS ART TO TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF - keith who is SICK OF CULTURAL APPROPRIATION BULLSHIT IN ART COMMUNITY - keith as hellllla gayyyYyYy - KEITH IN DIRTY DOCS AND RIPPED BLACK JEANS + RED SHIRT THATS BEEN STRETCHED AT THE NECK AND HIS HAIR IN A PONY TAIL USUALLY (but he still had a mullet!!!!!!!) - KEITH FROM TEXAS - KEITH WHO LIVES WITH HIS COUSIN SHIRO AFTER HIS PARENTS DISOWNED HIM AFTER BEING OUTED - KEITH WHO DECIDES ITS BETTER NOT TO OPEN UP BC OF THAT(until ppl HIS SUPPORTIVE AF FRIENDS change his mind) - AWKWARD BB KEITH WHO NEVER??? HAD REAL FRIENDS??? - KEITHS BEEN WORKING SINCE HES BEEN IN HS SAVING UP FOR COLLEGE/ADULTHOOD - Keith who also works at campus bookstore across the street from lance and likes TO READ?????? - KEITH WITH HEADPHONES AND STILL LISTENS TO ANGSTY EMO/SCREAMO MUSIC - KEITH WHO ALSO LISTENS TO PODCASTS ESP ABT S P A C E - KEITH WHO DID TRACK AND FIELD IN HS AND CONTINUES TO RUN LONG DISTANCE TO KEEP IN SHAPE + ZONE OUT/MEDITATE/DESTRESS (think that one taekook fic i gave yall but less angst or the same lvl) - KEITH AS A CAT PERSON AND LOVES SOFT PLUSHIE THINGS BC THEY C O M F O R T HIM - keith who hates lance's guts/attitude when he initially meets him and makes assumptions abt him as a "typical frat bro" and complains to shiro one day and shiro fuckin defends lance by telling keith abt how lance is the one who doesnt tolerate toxic masculinity practices at ALL and is the one who brings it up during meetings AND THEN KEITH KEEPS LEARNING DIFF DIMENSIONS OF LANCE AND WELL SHIT - KEITH AS ULTIMATE LIGHTWEIGHT WITH PIDGE - KEITH WHO IS NATURALLY GIFTED ATHLETICALLY AND ARTISTICALLY (that doesnt mean he works FUCKING hard) - keith who sort of fumes into the library and tries to burn down the math section BC FUCK MATH WHO THE FUCK CREATED THIS BULLSHIT ALL U NEED IN LIFE IS ADDITION SUBTRACTION MULTI AND DIV until hunk + lance + pidge try to stop him and help him with his math hw and shiro will be there for moral support bc shiro is just as clueless abt math as keith is 😀 - keith who is gets caught up in everyone's competition during monopoly but is a p okay player - keith who bumps into lance after volunteering at the afterschool program and begrudgingly says hell treat lance to boba as payback for math tutoring bc pidge and hunk both arent the best at explaining concepts sometimes and lance's were the easiest to understand I JUST DONT WANT TO BE IN DEBT TO YOU OKAY? (lance offers indiv tutoring and keith initally REFUSES until he sees the practice midterm and ???? what the fuck are these symbols FUCK) LANCEEEE MA BOOIII (CUBAN!LANCE) - lance as marxist econ major who DOES MAJOR RESEARCH ON #FIGHTFOR15 AND CUBAN/LATIN AM ECON POLICY ESP DURING US IMPERIALISM AND HOW THISE AFFECTS HAVE LASTING EFFECTS ON LABOR + ECON - LANCE AS BISEXUAL AS HELL - lance who TUTORS AT SAME PUBLIC SCHOOL AFTERSCHOOL PROGRAM EXCEPT MATH - LANCE WHO's FROM FLORIDA AND IS FIRST IN THE FAMILY FOR COLLEGE - LANCE WHO SEES HIS FAMILY GO THRU WAGE THEFT FUELING HIS WORK IN UNDOCU LABOR RIGHTS AND ECON POLICIES - lance who joins latinx affinity club with hunk (whos half filipinx) and while hunk is the master chef taste+recipe wise NO ONE MAKES _______ LIKE LANCE CAN BC HIS ABUELITA TAUGHT HIM THE FAMILY RECIPE - LANCE AS A FRAT BOI WHO FUCKIN SERVES AT BEER PONG AND FLIP CUP - lance as vp of said frat and wont let shiro pick the music at parties bc shiro only listens to old 80's classics, shiro we live in the 21ST CENTURY THESE PPL WANT BEYONCE AND NICKI OKAH (lance who listens to hella pop music) - lance who KNOWS HOW TO DANCE AND RELIGIOUSLY GOES TO ZUMBA CLASS WITH ALLURA WHO DRAGS PIDGE's LAZY ASS AS CARDIO BEFORE DOING HIS MUSCLE WORKOUT WITH HUNK AND SHIRO - lance who works at the campus hip coffeeshop/cafe and fucking snapchats the shit out of his shift - LANCE WHO LEARNS ABT HOW DRAWING/DOODLING CAN HELP WITH ANXIETY FROM KEITH AND STARTS TO CARRY AROUND A SKETCH NOTEBOOK - LANCE WHO IS EQUALLY AS GOOD WITH KIDS AS KEITH IS BC HELLO? SIBLINGS??? - LANCE AS AN ANIMAL PERSON BUT LEANS TOWARDS DOGS - lance who needs to be alone at the library when studying and mutters to himself softly a lot when thinking but is on top of his group project/study game with HELLA STUDY GUIDES + tutor tips - lance who chews on pen tips 😭 - LANCE WHO HAS ANXIETY THAT HE ISNT GOOD ENOUGH/SMART ENOUGH AT SCHOOL AND CONSTANTLY THINKS ABT THE SACRIFICE HIS PARENTS AND SIBLINGS MADE FOR HIM TO GO TO SCHOOL AND HIDES HIS ANXIETY+LOW SELF-ESTEEM BY TRYING TO BE RLY EXTROVERTED AND FUN AND FLIPPANT LANCE WHO OVERCOMPENSATES - lance who is initially jealous of keith's "easy" art degree until he fuckin sees the work that keith puts into his art AND THEN APOLOGIZES FOR UNDERESTIMATING KEITH - LANCE WHO ALWAYS LOSES AT MONOPOLY AND STARTS RANTING ABT DECAYING FORMS OF CAPITALISM SHEEREROOOOOOH - shiro as a senior after taking a gap year from a life-threatening injury on his arm FROM A CAR ACCIDENT (SHIRO WITH A PROSTHETIC LIMB??) - SHIRO WHO IS SCARED OF CARS IN RELATION TO INJURY WILL TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORT UNLESS HE HAS TO TAKE A CAR - SHIRO AS A POLI SCI MAJOR BUT HES NOT A BRO AND INTERSECTIONAL AF - SHIRO WHO IS STARSTRUCK WITH ALLURA's BRILLIANCE IN A CLASS THEY TOOK TOGETHER ONE TIME - Shiro who gets approached by allura for his insightful comment about aapi's for blm during a blm meeting AND THEY CONNECT - SHIRO AS FRAT PREZ AND STARTS CHANGING FRAT CULTURE TO BE LESS TOXIC/PATRIARCHAL/FUCKEDUP - Shiro who has to do rehab for his arm but also works out!!!!!!!!!!! HUNK WHO SPOTS HIM AND MAKES SURE SHIRO ISNT RUINING HIMSELF - SHIRO WHO ALWAYS CONSIDERED KEITH A LITTLE BROTHER SINCE THEY WERE KIDS AND RLY WORRIES FOR HIM SHIRO BEING AWARE OF KEITH's HURT AROUND BEING DISOWNED - SHIRO WHO WANTS TO BE AN IMMIGRATION LAWYER????? - SHIRO WHO GREW UP NORMAL MIDDLE CLASS (will think of family tree later) - shiro who listens to classic 80's pop and rock HE IS A REAL DAD - SHIRO WHO MAKES SURE EVERYONE IS SAFE WHEN PARTYING AND DRINKING ENOUGH WATER (ESP LANCE AND KEITH WHEN HE DOES COME TO PARTIES) - SHIRO WHO GETS ACTUALLY HELLA TACTICAL WHEN GAMING WITH HUNK LANCE AND PIDGE TO THEIR SURPRISE (the unknowlingly competitive type) - shiro who is merciless at monopoly/settlers of catan - DEMISEXUAL SHIRO B Y E PIDGE - GENDERQUEER!pidge - White!pidge (is this even, like a thing or do we already assume pidge is white?) - aromantic!pidge - Pidge as compsci/math slave major who always ends up doing their allnighters to finish their labs - pidge who lives off caffeine - PIDGE WHO IS SICK OF SHITT CISMEN IN GENERAL + MALE DOMINATED TECH INDUSTRY AND WANTS TO EMPOWER WOC/QTPOC IN TECH - pidge who is MORE ruthless during monopoly than shiro - pidge who is a fuckin genius at video games will whoop anyone's ass - PIDGE WHO IS AFRAID NO ONE RLY LIKES THEM AND USES SARCASM AS A DEFENSE MECHANISM - PIDGE FROM A DIVORCED FAMILY AND ADDS TO THEIR GENERAL DISTRUST IN ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS - PIDGE WHO HASNT MET THEIR BROTHER IN 10 YEARS BC OF THE DIVORCE - Pidge who met lance and hunk in compsci 101 when lance accidentally stepped on pidge's toe when they hadnt had their morning coffee yet (pidge hisses extremely loudly at lance and hunk giving them death glares) - pidge who forgives lance (and in extension hunk) and started hangin after lance got them an aesthetic avocado toast on the house the next day at the cafe - pidge who actually has a hella basic instagram + PIDGE WHO IS OBSESSED WITH GETTING THE PERFECT FOOD SHOT FOR THE INSTA - pidge and lance's snapchat streak is over 9000 - PIDGE WHO CANT EAT SPICY FOOD (i'm FUCKIN WHITE STOP LAUGHING GUYS) - pidge who studies with hunk in the library bc they need background noise/study partners until lance emerges from the quiet floor and they all do a study break leave to get fruit snacks - PIDGE AS LIGHTWEIGHT - PIDGE WHO IS ALSO COERCED INTO BIRD CLUB AT FIRST AND STAYS FOR THE MEMES WAIT HUNKKKKKKKK - hunk as PREMED/VETERNIARY TRACT - HUNK WHO VOLUNTEERS AT ANIMAL SHELTERS AND IS ALSO A ENV JUSTICE ACTIVIST - HUNK WHO LOVES ALL ANIMALS AND IS THE FAIRY OF ANIMALS IS GOOD WITH ALL OF THEM - HUNK AND LANCE AS FIRST YR ROOMMATES TURNED BFFS - HUNK WHO DESTRESSES BY COOKING/BAKING OBVS - Hunk who is actually p insecure abt his body type and isnt comfortable with showing a lot of skin - HUNK WHO WAS BULLIED FOR BEING "GIRLY" AS A CHILD AND WILL NOT STAND FOR THAT KIND OF SHIT AT ALL HE IS INTERSECTIONAL FEMINIST AF BC FUCK GENDER EXPECTATIONS AND MACHISMO - HUNK WHO IS THE BEST SPOTTER FOR WORKOUTS - hunk who cant touch HIS TOES BB - HUNK AS HALF FILIPINX/LATINX - hunk who comes from the east coast but cant stand the cold at all and wears 50 layers - HUNK WHO RUSHES FRATS WITH LANCE BC HE WAS WORRIED ABT LANCE GETTING TOO FUCKED UP AND KINDA ENDS UP IN A FRAT I GUESS BUT HE LIKES SHIRO's LEADERSHIP AROUND GENDER EXPECTATIONS - Hunk who'll be the realest with anyone being an asshole, even if its his friends - HUNK WHO IS PERCEPTIVE AF ESP WITH LANCE WHO TRIES TO HIDE HIS ANXIETY/LOW-SELF ESTEEM - HUNK WHO FUCKIN KILLS AT KNITTING - HUNK IS IN BIRD CLUB BC ACTUAL INTEREST W A I T - Hunk who gets regular morning coffee check-ins with allura and buys coffe for pidge when they come crawling into the cafe - HUNK WHO ACTUALLY RLY LIKES THE BACHELORETTE AND WATTES WITH ALLURA - HUNK WHO MEETS SHAY WHO ALSO VOLUNTEERS AT THE SHELTER AND HAVE A WARM SHY BUDDING RELATIONSHIP ALLURAAAAA MY QUEEEN - Black!Allura - allura who was adopted after living in foster care for so long (Corran adopts her) - Ethnic studies and polisci double major allura who DOES NOT tolerate polisci bros/toxic af bros in general - ALLURA WHO WANTS TO BE A CRIMINAL JUSTICE LAWYER - ALLURA GOES TO ZUMBA WITH LANCE AND FUCKIN KILLS THE ROUTINE BOTH BOND OVER DANCING - fierce sorority queen who believes greek life shud be accessible to all fuck this elitist bullshit - ALLURA IS AS OBSESSED WITH INSTAPERFECT SHOTS AS PIDGE IS - allura who meets shiro at a #blacklivesmatter meeting and hits it off - ALLURA WHO HAS A RLY STRONG SENSE OF JUSTICE but sometimes it makes her rigid when it comes to giving ppl the benefit of the doubt which she did with keith+lance until she gets to know them better + apologizes for making assumptions - CORRAN's NICK NAME FOR ALLURA IS PRINCESS OFC - allura who sees a father figure in corran b l e s s - ALLURA WHO IS AFRAID OF COMMITMENT DUE TO EXP IN FOSTER HOMES AND SHIRO BEING UNDERSTANDING OF THAT - allura who gets competitive at all games MOST ESP with monopoly - allura who works at the cafe with lance - ALLURA ASKS HUNK TO TEACH HER HOW TO KNIT (SHE KINDA SUCKS BUT PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!!!!) AND THEY BOTH WATCH THE BACHELORETTE TOGETHER - ALLURA WHO KNOWS MARTIAL ARTS - allura who drinks tea instead of coffee - allura who will join hunk and pidge at the library bc she also needs background noise to work - allura who teaches shiro math bc shiro is actually useless at math - allura who is actually heavy weight af when it comes to alcohol - ALLURA JOINS BIRD CLUB BC THEY ARE JUST FLUFF BALLS OF SOFTNESS (hunk: what bird is that allura: A GOOD BERB) - ALLURA HAS 3 HAMSTERS AS PETS OFC???? CORAN - your eccentric ass prof in the soci/anth dept with an INSANE mustache - teaches intro to soci/anth which a lot of students take for requirement credits - fuckin speaks 7 languages (two of them are coding lang to pidge's surprise) - loves puns + trivia - invites allura's study group for dinner and burns the pasta so hunk and him end up collaborating with the crew making dinner fest - your favorite uncle - always gives wise ass advice in times if need but will usually give out badly translated sayings (he speaks 7 lang give a break) - rigorous activist scholar - is mistaken for "easy prof" bc of his air-headed nature but actually doesnt take bullshit papers esp for a course that introduces race theory to a lot of privileged straight cismen (who underestimate coran) - will fuck u up with knowledge - asks lance for skin care tips and they bond over latinx music (lance hella impressed with coran's dancing actually) - cooks with hunk - pidge exasperately tries to teach coran abt sns: what is this chat that snaps??????? and these instant grams???? - shiro allura and him with have deep ass convos about systems of oppression + lance sometimes when he gets a chance to join + keith who will quietly absorb their convo if he's nearby (but pretend to read a book) - everyone needs to REST BC SELF CARE IS IMPT DONT KILL YOURSELVES BC OF THESE UNREASONABLE DEADLINES - voltron crew all take coran's class for variety of reasons and meet each other when they all rush to office hours and only to find coran's mess of trying to throw popcorn into his mouth - will stop by library during midterms and finals to give out encouraging messages + snacky snacks (will sneak extra for voltron crew's table) some moments id like to consider (klance and otherwise): - LANCE SEEING THE GWIYOMI VIDEO AND FORCING KEITH TO DO IT IN A GAME OF TRUTH AND DARE AND KEITH DOES IT A GLARE THAT FUCKIN BURNS UNIVERSES AND LANCE AND PIDGE RECORDS THAT SHIT shiro sigh-laughs hunk laughs nervously next to keith allura laughs brightly corran does not know what the fuck keith is doing - Keith and Lance find out they listen to the same NASA podcast when lance annoyingly takes out keith's headphones while abt to enter the school for afterschool program - Keith searches out soft things when he's drunk like hunk's hair or pidges sweater or lance's skin-WHATINTHEFUCK - lance teaches keith how to REALLY dance when he brings voltron crew to a latinx heritage month party (and keith secretly enjoys it) - keith had a big ol crush on lance the minute he saw him until he started acting like a "frat bro" and was turned off (but not rly?) - SHIRO AND KEITH GO HAVE BROTHER BONDING DATES AT SHIRO's INSTANCE BUT KEITH LOVES IT INSIDE - lance and hunk both cry when they watch titanic together - pidge lance and hunk become better friends over avocado toast and rly annoying debugging procedures during lab in compsci101 - they also bond over video games - the voltron crew have board game bight which usually ends up being monopoly and things get fuckin ruthless - the crew once tried to play mario party wii but people broke windows when their remotes went flying off their wrists and they vowed to never play again - they all meet each other (like ALL of them) in corab's intro to socianth class and create a study group-ish thing for it - lance and hunk rush shiro's frat thinking its gna be rly shit but shiro genuinely wants to do teamwork bullding exercises and talk abt feelings and lance and hunk are fuckin set on a frat if shiro's gna lead it - hunk will secretly let keith play with the cats in the shelter - hunk will also secretly let lance play with the dogs - pidge starts to memorize the zumba moves unconsciously and their body will move automatically when they hear the musIC FUCK - they all go out for kbbq on keith's bday bc keith loves korean food bc its home before his home abandoned him and voltron fam try to repaint those memories of hurt with memories of love and NEW family B Y E keith is kinda speechless - keith shows lance how to make ssam with lettuce garlic kimchi meat and miso paste and laughs as lance stuffs it into his mouth - allura fuckin kills at meat grilling - pidge refuses to eat veggies until hunk gives them the mom look - corran is vegetarian but loves seeing his students sated and full - shiro and allura keep their pinkies intertwined the entire bbq when they can under the table - keith and lance hook up once after a frat party one night and the morning after they kinda ??????? oh?kay????? thishappened???? at the memory until they fuckin realize theyre attracted to each other - keith gets slurs thrown at him by other frat fuckbois and lance goes fuckin livid until hunk is there to stop an imminent fight and hunk gives off some p threatening vibes to fuckbois - voltron crew help pidge try to reconnect with their brother by calling diff numbers going thru yellow pages - keith recommends books for lance to read and lance makes keith playlists and tells him to "listen to smth bubblegum happy for one" (keith kinda likes it?) - the art kids start to recognize lance when he drops by to pick keith up to go home together after the program js over - they all do secret santa at coran's house for christmas - coran gives shiro some salad tongs that are decorated with rhinestones he found in a vintage store and shiro is just ??? okay?? (he uses it when they all have dinner at shiro's place a few weeks later) jk coran also gives him some hella effective medicine for muscle and bone ache for his injury hes not that insensitive - shiro gives hunk a rly nice apron that says youre a FINEapple and baking mittens and hunk almost cries - hunk gets allura like new knitting needles and yarn as well as hand-knit cap. allura squeals bc FLUFFY - allura gets keith some good books both nonfiction and fiction + live podcast tix (she got from a raffle) and keith's eyes glows a little brighter - keith gets pidge some yellow tinted glasses bc "pidge your eyes are gna get worse and youre basically already blind" and a fisheye camera lense for smartphones and pidge yeLLS AESTHETIC PHOTOOOOOOOS YESSSSS - pidge gets lance some face masks and a customized snapback that says QUIZNAK on it and lance's eyes go all sparkly ✨✨ - lance gets corran some bombass latinx music cds from his favorite artists and a mustache care kit that coran just "✨✨"'s at - for dem romance: keith invites lance to the podcast with him and lance just smiles his lopsided truly happy smile while handing keith some cute hair-ties ("??? what am i supposed to do with these????" "wear them so that u can look even cuter than u already are????" keith goes beet red and punches lance in the shoulder as lance laughs. lance finds keith wearing them the next day) - shiro gives allura a note planner with her favorite quote on the front and allura gives shiro a handknit scarf its zSo fuckin SWEEET - hunk and shay go in their first dare - pidge and coran have rly fuckin good hot chocolate on the kitchen island and revel in their friends' happiness and recount good memories of the past year - they then bring out the wine and the karaoke machine - pidge gets p drunk and both them and lance sing one of the zumba songs pidge can somehow remember all the lyrics to hoW THE FUCK do I RMEMmber this?!?! (allura laughs evilily) - allura fuckin perfectly raps superbass - lance sings taylor swift ironically but not rly - corran tries to sing a thai song and its gets like awk quiet as ppl are like ?? okay ?? - HUNK STARTS TO BELT OUT BONJOVI AND SHIROS LIKE HELL YE AND JOINS IN - shiro then tries to sing country music but everyone reaches for the cancel button - shiro and allura sing Lucky (jason mraz and colbie caliat or smth) - pidge starts to sing linkin park's numb and gets rly into it. everyone is hype esp keith - keith tries to sing screamo song next but lance cancels before he can start and instead turn on the tune of gwiyomi from his phone and keith chases after lance with intent to kill lance cackling he runs away everyone else shrugs and continues as if nothing happened (keith and lance later return looking a little disheveled and everyone gives them knowing looks: lance averts his eyes and starts to whistle while keith just goes rly red and face palms) - everyone gets spectacularly drunk and decide to all sing bohemian rhapsody together. it kinda works. - They all go to the beach one summer

#voltron #fuck me was awake until 3 am writimg this after ONE stupid post #mine

[spudthecat]

So Last Night's Dream

I’m writing this down before I forget. So here’s what I can remember:

- It started out at some uni (this happens a lot).

- Apparently at said uni, it is common for students to ride cheap ass plastic children’s scooters to school. It was also acceptable to just straight-up be in your underwear (cause I apparently was only in my underwear).

- I had trouble finding my class. I was sitting in an empty teaching theater…that was next to another teaching theater that had some guy who looked like President Snow lecturing. And also, these teaching theater’s weren’t walled in. It was like some big ass open room…connected to the hallway for some reason.

- So I’m like “oh snap,” and I went back outside to move my cheap ass scooter only to return to the same damn teaching theater (even tho I found where I needed to go. Quite literally on the other side of the wall. And like, it’s right there when I enter the building).

- This time my dad and brother are with me and some weird shit goes down? Idk.

- The class that I was supposed to be with passes our teaching theater and then goes up this wide, long, carpeted staircase that spirals all the way up the building. The professor of my class (who turned out to be an old HS teacher of mine) is all like "Oh there you are! Come join us in this thingy!” (I forgot what it was called. It sounded like some weird ass thing from a superhero movie or something that could destroy worlds or something.) So I’m like, “ok”, and then POOF!

- We’re now in a cornerstore in a mall and I now actually have clothes. My dad and bro are with me.

- My dad, for some reason, is wearing Link's cap that still has the tags attached (like it was bought from a Halloween store). Some woman wanted to see (we were also like, kinda behind bars for some reason?) and my dad just gave her the cap and she bolted and he was like “Ah damn.”

- So I chase down the woman, yelling “thief” and a mall cop helps me out and restrains her! I bring the Link cap back to my dad.

- Also during this entire time, we were torturing some ‘ol chap who I can only describe as a Clubs Deuce-esque character from Homestuck. Idk why we were torturing him, but we were. I guess we were like, the Mafia or something. Idk. Like, we weren’t really doing any serious harm to him or anything. It was kinda pointless? Like, I can only describe it as silly torture. I mean it’s still torture, but like, idk. We weren’t inflicting physical harm on the guy. Don't know if that makes any sense. Also, Geoff Ramsey was apparently also there to cheer on the torture.

- There was also this scale in my mind of “torture” severity, from 0-5. The theft occured when we were near 5, but afterwards we decided to reverse it and headed back towards 0.

- There was then a moment where I was trying to figure out which candy I wanted to buy from the cornerstore. I settled on rainbow Swedish Fish and a giant ass pack of Lee Sin malt balls (they were a peach color and if you eat one, you gain the powers of Lee Sin from League of Legends. Idk why this popped up. I haven’t played that game in like 2 years. I also don’t care too much for malt balls.) Regardless, I was planning on using them to torture our guy. I also almost bought some big squishy legos for my lil bro! I ended sending a pic to my mom to see what she thinks.

- Also, during this whole shebalalalclle, I was texting @quinintheclouds . They were apparently in the same class as me at the uni and they were with the class doing whatever, which was apparently watching something? They mentioned something about an old HS acquaintance of mine joining them, and then they ended it with like a 50 text long message of the same word repeated endlessly. Idk.

- When I got back to my cornerstore pals, one of my friends was suddenly there and playing Magic. I showed them the candy I bought and mentioned how I was going to use the malt balls to kill our Clubs Deuce-esque fellow...so that escalated quickly.

And then I woke up. Yup. This one felt more tame (as in not as balls to the walls random and weird) compared to some other dreams I’ve had, but it still doesn’t make any sense to me.

#my dreams are wack #like what the hell #how did this weird assortment of bullshit come together #oh well #i wonder if there's some deeper meaning to this weird shit

[marfanclub]

4/27 - Back-propagation

Reading : Some pitifully small amount of “New Proofs for the Existence of God” by Robert J. Spitzer. 

I picked up this book because I’m so sick of the cult of atheism that permeates the culture of science these days. Every one from Hip Cool Black Science Guy (who’s kid actually went to my high school. Travis Tyson at Stuyvesant HS, look him up. I kicked his ass in Smash Bros. all the time. He mained Falcon) to professional sophist Bill Nye (who I hated way before it was cool, btw - I’ve always been wary of pop science figures) will religiously preach the fallaciousness of religious preaching. It’s fucking annoying. From what I know, every scientific community from the ancient Greeks up to the explosion of revolutionary physicists and mathematicians in the 20th Century thought about the grand philosophical importance of their findings, or at least held personally theistic views (I think Einstein was agnostic, but he heavily criticized atheists). But now, it’s considered totally cool and radical and hip and unique and intellectual to deny the existence of God and live hedonistically and le Reddit “Rick and Morty” nihilism nothing matters look at me I think I understand Nietzche. And there’s no discussion or debate as to how science can actually contribute to a theist’s belief system, or even in which areas scientism could not adequately describe all Universal truths, so people just go around thinking science is the new religion and science is orthogonal to any theism. And I have no idea why either of those things have to be true. P.S.: Trump needs to deport anyone and everyone who watches “Rick and Morty”. 

My only prescient issue with this book is that it offers evidence for various philosophical proofs for the existence of a higher Being using modern concepts of physics. I don’t know anything about the modern concepts of physics, so I can’t really fact-check or determine whether Dr. Spitzer is misusing or misinterpreting the conclusions of modern physics. Like, when a wannabe philosopher tries to use Gödel’s incompleteness theorems to assert the lack of existence of any real truth, I know that they’ve completely misunderstood Gödel’s conclusions and totally misapplied them in an area where the original findings weren’t mean to be applied and the invocation makes absolutely no sense. But if Dr. Spitzer wanted to use recent findings in cosmology to assert the existence of God, I wouldn’t be able to quickly spot and fact check whether those interpretations are valid or not. And the book isn’t too popular or something, because there is no online discussion about the findings of the book I can go and check up on. I’m just gonna have to trust that Dr. Spitzer has the credentials and the ethical principles not to abuse my lack of knowledge. 

Math : Read up on Shor’s algorithm. I still have no fucking clue how Quantum fourier transforms work on any level deeper than “amplify the correct answers; incorrect answers destruct their amplitude”.  And what the fuck is a complex root of unity? I guess I have to delve more into analysis before I jump back into quantum information theory, even though I am antsy about learning more about that. But in order to learn complex analysis I think I have to learn real analysis first, and in order to do that I have to lay the foundation for my mathematical maturity. So, until I finish it, this section of the blog will be necessarily devoted to reading through “An Introduction to Mathematical Reasoning” by Peter Eccles. I already know a lot of the elementary set theory stuff in the book so it should be a breeze. 

Social media : A MISERABLE fucking day today. Like, 4 hours or something. I always do this on Thursdays because I don’t have any class Friday. And this week especially has been bad because I’ve been going through a major depressive period where I just totally feel suicidal and completely out of it. Holy shit. This has to stop. Now that I’m documenting it on the Internet, I’m fucking ashamed of myself and it WILL stop. 

Exercise :  3x5 Squats : Bar + 20 lb on each side 

1x5 Bench Press : Bar + 10 lb on each side

2x5 Bench Press : Bar + 12.5 lb on each side

1x5 Bench Press : Bar + 15 lb on each side 

2x5 Deadlift : Bar + 17.5 lb on each side

2x5 Dips  (w/ 30-lb aid because Im a weak noodle fuck)

2x5 Leg Press : 160 lb 

A good day, I guess. I’m a little sore but I feel like I should be more sore. I was pushing myself, though. I think I’ll stick to 2x5 Bench Press at 15, 1x5 at 12.5, because I really don’t think I can handle the full 3x5 at 15 on both sides just yet, as sad as that sounds. I hate bein’ a noodle. As for the leg presses, I know it’s bad to use the machine memes, but I felt like the squats were putting a lot of strain on my back but not enough strain on my legs, so I went and supplemented the squats a bit. Plus I like being in the gym longer even if it’s just fucking around because it makes me feel productive and it very briefly relieves me of the knot in my stomach. 

Caloric intake : 

2 Au Bon Pain blueberry muffins - 950 Calories

1 Domino’s cheese pizza slice - 210 Calories

1 Chipotle burrito bowl with double meat and guac - 1000 calories 

1 cup steel cut oatmeal - 680 calories

2 cups milk - 300 calories

1 spoon honey - 60 calories

Total : 3200 Calories

I was totally wrong about my BMR the other day. Turns out it’s closer to 1800 Calories. Which means I actually gained 4/15 lb the other day. Close to 1/3rd. Which is a little more than I’d like. 

If my BMR is actually 1800 Calories, and I burned, say, 200 Calories walking and 50 Calories existing (the other functions that my body does when it’s not in rest that burns calories that BMR doesn’t account for), and about 300 Calories in the gym, then my body consumed about 2350 Calories. My excess was 850 Calories, or about 17/60 Calories. Between yesterday and today, I gained close to .55 lb. Since I only want to gain 1.5 lbs a week (i.e. only about .43 lb every two days), I should offset the extra gain tomorrow by only consuming to an excess of ~.1 lb, or an extra 300 Calories. Tomorrow’s not an exercise day, and I’m spending it inside the house, so I expect to use up no more than, say, 1900 Calories. So I should eat about 2200-2250 Calories tomorrow. 

Body pictures : 

Holy fuck I look like I belong in Auschwitz. And look at those fucking hips! I could be an Arab belly dancer! This is the most embarrassing feminine shit ever. Honestly, the only reason I let myself go on Tinder dates anymore is because I have a friend who has a body just about as noodle-y/feminine as mine, except with an uglier face and about 5-6 less inches of height. And he’s the most sexually active friend I have. If he gets to fuck, so do I. 

What time I slept :

Felt really depressed around 1 AM, spent a couple of hours watching KSTV and fucking around and deliberating whether I should drink myself sick. Decided not to and passed out at 4 AM. I’m already too burnt out on self-loathing to criticize myself for this. But I know it has to stop now that I’m writing about it.

General mood :

Awful, duh. At least I finally fapped. Got my sex drive back. Tinder date lined up for next week. 

[jeena-aesthetic]

all the questions please

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? i like don’t even have closet doors in my room bro2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? no that shit is... well. shit. 3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?oKAY who the FUCK can sleep with the sheets tucked in? do you like, not feel trapped when you do that?? ?4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before? ....no. but now i want to. 5: Do you like to use post-it notes? más o menos 6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? one time zooty gave me coupons but they expired like months ago 7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? big bear8: Do you have freckles? yes9: Do you always smile for pictures? if i’m trying to look acceptable, yes10: What is your biggest pet peeve? Hypocrites 11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk? lol nah 12: Have you ever peed in the woods? nah 13: What about pooped in the woods? i can barely poop anywhere that isn’t my house wtf 14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? if whipping counts as dancing 15: Do you chew your pens and pencils? no thanks 16: How many people have you slept with this week? i am a child of God 17: What size is your bed? full 18: What is your Song of the week? too cool from camp rock.. it’s literally just what’s on my spotify rn 19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink? hell yes 20: Do you still watch cartoons? I really only watch Disney movies, does that count21: Whats your least favorite movie? don’t have one22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? if i told you it wouldn’t be a secret anymore, HA can’t fool me 23: If you're a girl, bra size? If you're a guy, pants size? ????? are girls just, not supposed to wear pants ??? i mean i’d be okay with that but like what kind of sexist bullshit 24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in? my... mouth ??? idk ?? chicken nuggets are mostly good enough without having to dip it in anything 25: What is your favorite food? Pasta 26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love? high school musical, anything disney 27: Last person you kissed/kissed you? stop 28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout? nope 29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? depends on much it pays.. and how broke i am.. 30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? end of first semester 31: Can you change the oil on a car? lol nah 32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket? nope 33: Ever ran out of gas? i have anxiety over that so no 34: Favorite kind of sandwich? don’t limit me to one kind of sandwich 35: Best thing to eat for breakfast? all the breakfast foods. breakfast is the superior meal. 36: What is your usual bedtime? like, 9:3037: Are you lazy? sorta 38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? princess 39: What is your Chinese astrological sign? .....is the Chinese different than the normal ones  ? 40: Are you horny? No?41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions? No?42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs? lincoln logs hurt less when you step on them 43: Are you stubborn? not compared to other people 44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman? i’ve heard both names but i really don’t know who either of them are 45: Ever watch soap operas? my life is one 46: Are you afraid of heights? i’m afraid of falling to my death 47: Do you sing in the car? of course wtf 48: Do you sing in the shower? nah the walls are too thin 49: Do you dance in the car? i’m limited, i am also driving 50: Ever used a gun? a bb gun ? 51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? September 52: Do you think musicals are cheesy? NO BUT IF I DID I’D STILL LOVE THEM I LOVE CHEESY THINGS 53: Is Christmas stressful? school makes it stressful 54: Ever eat a pierogi? what the fuck is that 55: Favorite type of fruit pie? can’t go wrong with apple pie 56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? vet 57: Do you believe in ghosts? yes58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? basically every damn day 59: Take a vitamin daily? nah 60: Wear slippers? nah i hate shoes. especially shoes, that you’re supposed to wear inside /???? like ??? just get some fuzzy socks dude 61: Wear a bath robe? no 62: What do you wear to bed? clothes 63: First concert? 5sos 64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? walmart 65: Nike or Adidas? nike 66: Cheetos Or Fritos? fritos 67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? sunflower 68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? three good ? no 69: Ever take dance lessons? that one time in pe class when we had a dance unit 70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? something that makes a shit ton of money 71: Can you curl your tongue? yeah 72: Ever won a spelling bee? noep 73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy? yes 74: Own any record albums? no :/ 75: Own a record player? no :/ 76: Regularly burn incense? no77: Ever been in love? meh 78: Who would you like to see in concert? panic! at the disco 79: What was the last concert you saw? 5sos 80: Hot tea or cold tea? yes 81: Tea or coffee? tea82: Sugar or snickerdoodles? sugar 83: Can you swim well? i can’t swim at all my dude 84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yeah 85: Are you patient? i read this as “a patient” and i was like ??? not currently ?? but like not really 86: DJ or band, at a wedding? DJ 87: Ever won a contest? i win a lot of photography contests 88: Ever have plastic surgery? no 89: Which are better black or green olives? neither 90: Can you knit or crochet? nope 91: Best room for a fireplace? my entire house 92: Do you want to get married? yes 93: If married, how long have you been married? n/a94: Who was your HS crush? you’re asking.... like i’d just have one crush... over four years.. as a teenage girl... HA 95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? i used to when i was little 96: Do you have kids? well like no but yes. i have friends that are my children but i didn’t birth them 97: Do you want kids? maybe 98: Whats your favorite color? that pinkish-orange color of sunsets 99: Do you miss anyone right now? i miss the way people used to be 

#overagainhes