#ITS IMPORTANT TO ME THAT U UNDERSTAND THIS LOL

[kamil-a]

to be clear i like when horror scares me and going EEEEK!!!!!!! is part of the fun for me. im getting anxious someone's gonna be like "okay kam put down the scary podcast" like no i enjoy it.

i think there is a very real chance based on past experiences it contains themes that might trigger some really bad mental health events in me however im an adult its a risk im aware of and prepared to take etc etc. i will do my best not to bother you guys with it if so!!!!!

#sayerposting #crosspostie #ITS IMPORTANT TO ME THAT U UNDERSTAND THIS LOL #also i hopefully just by now like. have more tools in my mental toolbox than the last time i interacted w similarly to me scary things #If the sayer crew was reading this post theyd b like so ur anxious abt ppl restricting ur activity in the name of ur health Hm ?🤨🤨

[rewritingcanon]

no girl tell us what you think about jegulily!! im so here for it (tone is weird but I mean that genuinely, I don't ship them so I'm not here to be weird)

dw bae ur tone is fine ! (i’ve been waiting for an ask like this 💀) i think jegulily is... yeah its…. like usually as long as its legal idgaf as long as shippers portray their characters right but regulus fans are literally incapable 😭🙏 WHY WOULD U PAIR A MUGGLEBORN AND A BLOOD SUPREMACIST IM SO DONE WITH DIS FANDOMMMM!! that actually goes for a lot of lily ships like bartylily as well (no clue where that came from either but it’s equally as stupid lmfao).

and jegulily just feels like shoving in lily because people feel bad for ditching her, or shoving in regulus because some people like jily and jegulus and want them (for some reason) to coincide even though it makes zeroooo sense for it to. like, idk if i said this with jegulus before (i yap sm on this account i forget what i say), but like it, jegulily can be done well if a realistic dynamic is taken into account, but the marauders fandom is allergic to nuance and so just chalks up everything regulus does and believes to his neglectful homelife. hes not all-bad, sure, i do feel bad for him, but im nowhere close to shipping him with a woman whos part of the people hes trying to eradicate, or with her man who purposefully went against all pureblood tradition (which is such a large part of james’ character— he is a pureblood that chooses to be seperate from that culture hellooooo plz wake uppppp).

marauders fandom has a chronic “i can fix him” mentality when it comes to wizard neo nazis, i have never understood it. but thats a topic for another day.

jegulily should be filled with envy, toxicity and prejudice stop nerfing it to be some fluffy feel-good polyamorous stable marriage where they raise harry together. yall are looking over the potential. this ship has blood and guts in it plz act like it or else idk what to say 😭 if it doesnt end with at least one of them getting murdered i dont want it.

#imho ​it just feels willfully ignorant of all three characters to ship them #this goes with most the regulus ships tbh except like bartylus. bcuz barty is just terrible too LOL #just characterise ur characters right people. not to majority fanon interpretation but to who they are CANONLY #you may think its less fun but to me. that’s honestly what makes those three so appealing #+its generally important to understand the media u consume. and yes. that means harry potter as a book series if ur in the marauders fandom #u are not seperate from the hp books if u are attached to its characters (no matter how far youve spun their personalities away) #on a seperate note people are allowed to ship what they want and im being lowkey serious when i say im not gonna find someone weird if they- #-ship something as long as its legal #maybe some jegulily people follow me so let me just say i dont hate the shippers i just heavily dislike the ship 😭 #worse than jegulus but somehow less annoying idk how to explain it #harry potter #hp #marauders #marauders era #anti jegulus #anti jegulily #lily evans #jily #pro jily #james potter #lily potter #regulus black #anti regulus black #the marauders era #the marauders #ask #anon #rewriting #tyyyy anon for the ask i luv to yap 🫶🫶

[opens-up-4-nobody]

hypothetical struggle between Christianity and paganism in bbc merlin? 👀 one that's very neurodivergent? 👀 do tell

Okay, so Athurian times take place in the early dark ages. Which was probably a weird time for religion in Britain. Because the Roman occupation had just come to an end, leaving behind the structure of catholicism at least with those in positions of power. But religious beliefs were still in the process of blending together with the local practices and other religions, leading to some odd gnostic beliefs. Obviously, bbc merlin doesn't talk about Christianity within Camelot but I think we can assume the catholic church would have a position at the round table. Presumably, Arthur would grow up instructed in catholic belief, go to mass, and have bishops or whatever advising him. He would rule by Devine right, sanctioned by the pope and magic would be characterized as demonic. And that somehow raises the stakes for me, imaging magical merlin within the walls of a very catholic Camelot.

I just have this image of merlin in the back of a cathedral as Arthur attends mass. Kneeling in this beautiful building, head bowed low as the congregation sings praise to a foreign God in a foreign tongue. A God that would apparently have merlin tied to a stake and burned alive. And merlin choking out his empty prayers, echoing in the verbal praise under the isolation of his nonbelief and magical association. Full of fear and venom.

The hypothetical struggle I imagine is one of catholic enforcement pushed by Arthur's religious advisors and Arthur's morality. Because Arthur is a good person and slaughtering a people on the basis religion is insane. So, what does it mean for Arthur if he stops listening to his advisors and starts accepting magic? He has to contend with a spiritual struggle, not just the secular issues presented in the show. And I would looooooove to watch that. The bending of Arthur's beliefs into something more flexible and less rigidly Christian according to the church of the time

#my knowledge on this topic in terms of historical accuracy is blurry so im im wrong: pls for the love of god correct me #but idk if arthur was catholic the entire structure of his idea of the universe would have to change if he started accepting magic #and i think that would be a super interesting transition. where would he land? would he shift to being a more gnostic style Christian? #lose his faith? idk id probably make him like my dad who thinks hell is a human construct and that all are welcom in the kingdom of heaven #and that people should just be kind to eachother. very les mis to love another person is to see the face of god #bc i loooove that idea. i find it fascinating. idk i just think religion is interesting #bc its like how ppl fundamentally understand the universe to work and that is so wild. like i can understand why it was so important in ye #oldy times lol. idk im just a bit fixated on it atm. like its the type of obsession thst feels too big for my head so its straining at the #seams. its also weird bc since its religion my brain is doing that awful thing where its questioning my interest in the topic like r u #questioning ur lack of faith? and im like bro no this is academic interest leave me alone. bc im prone to intrusive thoughts and obsessive #behavior. so thsts fun. but its not too unmanageable rn. so its interesting #idk i probably sound unhinged. lmao i headcanon ✨️ catholic!arthur ✨️ and his fall from grace in the eyes of the church rip #ay religion in not necessarily bad but human institutions are usually fucked #merlin rambling #unrelated

[infizero]

also i havent known peace since i saw someone point out that acht willingly being sanitized after marina left could be akin to them committing suicide in some ways.........

#serena.txt #suicide mention tw #you dont understand acht reads as so aroace to me not just cause of their romance hater attitude #but like. important friendships like that make me crazy as an aroace person. the fact that marina hung out with acht despite them being #a slacker or whatever and that its implied that marina leaving had a negative impact on them. AHRHGHRHHHHHH #like she was their FUCKING FRIEND DAWG!!!!!!!!! POSSIBLE THEIR ONLY ONE! AND SHE LEFT WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE #and then acht went on to totally willingly give up their identity and personality..... in a sense basically dying...... #GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #idk lol like obviously just. having friends does not make u aroace LMFAO but having a specific friend who impacts you like that #if i dont interpret that dynamic as romantic then it always gives me the Vibes. yknow. idk #anyways. no one can handle acht's nonbinary aroace suicidal puppy-eyed swag

[darabeatha]

ANYWAYS- I don't have much energy in general but I just wanted to drop by and say I had a thought in regards to the rather unique shape of the scar on his forehead in his fate design (which is a reference to the oftentimes more commonly known version of his story that recounts the motif of his death being by dying from his people throwing rocks at him which is the version f.ate seems to have followed) that it's not just there to represent this version of the story but could also be a reference to an iconographic pre-Hispanic attribute from Tezcatlipoca itself that is called the Ezpitzal, which is this:

(though in this piece, Tezca is shown under the guise of Tepeyollotl, it's still tezca) The Ezpitzal is often shown as a stream of blood that emanates from Tezcatlipoca's head. Professor Batalla pointed out that this term also relates to the Nahuatl concept of expressing anger

'it’s worth remembering that Tezcatlipoca was a god notorious for sowing discord and deceit'

So I just thought of how fitting it would be for Montezuma to have this and how similar it looks to his scar (or well, how fitting it would be to a fictional stylized version of course) as Moctezuma's name is basically a compound of the noun 'lord' and the verb that means 'to frown in anger' which altogether gets interpreted as 'he who frowns like a lord' or 'he who is angry in a noble manner' and well, how this ties back to the Ezpitzal as a symbol that expresses anger

NOW IT COULD just be the shape of his scar and there's no deep meaning behind it but I still think it would be a nice little detail about his design if that was the case (if not then its just me overthinking symbolisms again), not to mention that even after the Spanish conquest took place and how as a consequence, a lot of characteristic traits and symbolisms were lost in regards to images, even then the Ezpitzal was still depicted (though barely there) with these protruding rounded edges

#;about #about #;m.octezuma ii #i am once again going insane about him and about symbolisms and character design #f.go fans about his clothes: lol he's just f.ate's black panther #me: WRONG! WRATH OF HISTORY CULTURE AND SYMBOLISM BUT PORTRAYED IN A MODERN FICTIONALIZED ANIME VERSION OF IMPORTANT FICTIONAL AND HISTO- #-HISTORICAL FIGURES #always important to note that f.ate is fictional interpretation and doesnt seek to portray history or mythology in a 100% historically- #accurate version #at the end of the day; they are all anime pngs #but as a writer and character design enjoyer i just really enjoy putting pieces together and formulating theories #maybe there is no meaning behind it! but as an rp writer its fun; that's really it #also i understand the black panther memes dwdw; being silly rq his outfit does kinda look like a big feline (mask included) #me not being able to shut up ever: WHICH JAGUARS ARE TIED TO TEZCATLIPOCA AND THE COLOR BLACK BEING ASSOCIATED WITH SMOKE AND OBSIDIAN AND- #its just; people complaining that some servants look really random but then its about the subtle details that u would normally not look at #in a general quick glance #I MEAN; sometimes they are just silly like that; but then there's other times where it is there -nods- #do u see my vision- #its like the ends of his scar has these rounded ends like the ezpitzal #they are almost 6 ends as well; let's pretend there are 6 #;headcanons #headcanons

[simmonsized]

Today I'm thinking about the fact that a lot (a LOT) of Homestuck fanfiction is written in second person and how I don't remember when that happened or who made it prevalent, though I'm sure you could do research to figure it out but I'm lazy so I'm not doing that but it just genuinely amuses me and also delights me because no other fandom I've ever been in has done that except one (1) author in rvb and that was such a specific case, and a very specific voice which gave it such cool power and intention but idk I just

I am sure it has changed the way I write in a way I can never go back from but I don't even care because it's fun and because it works so fucking well and sure you can write Homestuck fanfiction in third person, that is your god given right, but there is just something about that second person perspective that really does it for me

#there is a reason that different perspectives exist and they have different uses and that is so important to remember because like #sure i could have written rng in third person but i actively chose not to and the use is intentional #i dont understand reader/self insert/your name fanfiction but i imagine perhaps there's a bit of the same in there maybe #it's very.... visceral if that makes sense #but all this to say i will not read first person pov fanfic unless its epilogue fanfic #yes i read epilogue fanfic no i dont like the epilogues yes we exist #if you told me back at 18 that i would be writing and reading shit in second person i would tell u to fuck off and stop lying but #here we are over ten years later lol #im also thinking about this because i know part of harrow is in second person and im very excited about it #anyway yes you can write things in different perspectives but like. fics would not be the same without their chosen voice

[bixiaoshi]

why r ppl so worried abt being left on read so much. is it rlly that deep

#like unless we're having an important conversation i will never take being left on read that bad idk maybe its just me lol #especially if i know the person irl. like is it rlly that deep #if i met the person online n they leave me on read constantly then my first thought is hey they're busy w smth else #if they straight up dont reply for weeks then i assume they're not interested but even that has exceptions #i feel like the read mark has fucked up everyone's perception on what a normal conversation is #why r u so worried someone left u on read. why should they tell u they're busy for u to understand #idk maybe its just me lol

[sad--tree]

keep saying i don't want 2 work another retail xmas but canNOT 4 the life of me make myself finish my goddamn fucking job applications !!!!!! death & dying & despair etc. etc.

#i dont dislike the application process for gc jobs on principle BUT #it does not mesh well w/ my difficulties re: starting & finishing tasks #but like i understand why u cant just send in a resume n hit done #NOT that there are many IT listings up atm...... and ill apply 4 clerical/admin stuff too #but an IT-1 STARTS a good $10k a year higher than a CR-5 soooooo :/// #which is whatever its fine money isnt everything!! ill gladly make less if it means not hating my job!!! #but i also wanna. u know. LIVE. move out of my parents house. buy brand name snacks occasionally. maybe -gasp- go on a vacation #(not 2 say i dont make an attempt at travel now but thats with very finite savings that are def only going down not up) #also extremely frustrating 2 me the emphasis put on having a degree that completely locks me out of certain job categories #like. yes. there are for sure some where having the bg knowledge is important eg. an AU (auditor/accountant) or MA (methodologist) #and there are certain skills a degree (in theory) provides eg critical thinking research etc. #but not all of us have $40k+ to get tge fancy piece of paper saying we have those things. and u can have those skills w/o a degree #and smth like an EC which needs a degree in economics sociology or statistics is so arbitrary #and maybe not necessarily actually based in the majority of work done by the majority of positions in that category #ANYWAYS not me being bitter abt education standards YET AGAIN lol #idek if i could go to uni even if i could afford it. even tho i have 2 college diplomas id probably have 2 redo my grade 12 english 😶‍🌫️ #also if money were no object id probably go for like. film studies or smth lol not sociology #tho. ngl. if i had the willpower and determination 4 smth so rigorous (i 100% dont) accounting does seem. interesting asdffhkkfdghh #ANYWAYS pt. 2 all this 2 say this is why i instead spent $10k+ on the only possible 2 yr diploma #that can still get u in2 the higher paying public service jobs. even tho ive discovered i Dont Particularly Care for programming. :( #thats an understatement actually i was actively in hell for like 80% of that program and the remaining 20% mostly wasnt coding

[favoure]

Hello Favour :) I wanted to ask if you had any tips for poses and expressions? I found your art from the aggie (is that how its spelled?) event and Im OBSESSED! Your arts phenomenal, and your poses are so expressive! :D

Have a great day and thank you <3

HI HUNTER !!! sooo glad u enjoy my art i am honored . . . . for the aggie sketch i . i honestly just picked up this reference pic from pinterest xD literally spent an hour before the aggie planning that sketch out, searching for other pieces that had a sorta soft and sweet vibe and leaving those open alongside the ref so i can "Absorb it into my brain"

for tips regarding poses and expressions... IM JUST REALLY PICKY WHEN PICKING OUT REFERENCES TBH 😭😭 Like i wont stop searching until it fits the mental image i have and until it has the feelings im trying to convey in the piece . i also frequently use statues as inspiration too ig . went ham with explaining my thought process in the tags btw i got shyyy ^_^

#asks for ain #IS THIS ANYTHING . im reaaaaally bad at giving tips for poses n expressions SAWRRY #I DONT HAVE ANY PREPARED ADVICE WHEN IT COMES 2 THESE. I CAN ONLY PROVIDE MY THOUGHT PROCESS OTL #ITS BC BC . I SWEAR ITS JUST MY PERSONAL TASTE THAT MAKES ME LEAN TOWARDS THESE KINDS OF POSES YK #AND WHEN IT COMES TO EXPRESSION I JUST THINK OF WHAT FEELING IM TRYING TO MAKE THAT CHARACTER CONVEY #OR WHAT I WANT THE OVERALL PIECE TO FEEL LIKE #actually that can apply for how i think abt poses too #especially for ship art im very particular about how the characters should interact n where their hands should go #i think hands r important .... #also feelings . what u want ur viewer to feel when looking at the piece ur making i put so much thought into feelings .... #im mostly using duo pieces as an example here but it can also work for solo chara sketches tbh ..... #like i think about what part of the character i wanna emphasize #most of the time i show off the face bc . well i think i draw pretty faces DFJHFGDF #but other times i might wanna show off a part of their body instead #like with pieces w scar sometimes i want to show off the Scitties . or his Abs . so i figure out a pose that emphasizes those .... #the focal point of the piece ..... bc i want u to LOOK there yk #but i also think about the attitude of the character and how they act ... if they're charming or smug or serious etc etc #gotta keep them Sorta in character after all (a bit of ooc is fine . as a treat . and if done well LOL) #im ESPECIALLY picky w how i interpret my characters too... very particular with my version of them that lives in my head #Understanding of anatomy would help lots too #forgot 2 mention that im an anatomy FREAK i love obsessing over proportions and getting them right and making them look nice #ANYWAYS U PROBABLY ALREADY KNOW ABOUT THESE GYAAAAA but still ..... i hope it makes u think about poses and expressions differently ....... #like in a POSITIVE WAY !!! its sm fun to think abt poses and expressions tbh u can fit a lot of meaning into even the subtlest of details #tldr IM PICKY AND I OVERTHINK ^_^

[possumteeths]

when i was in middle school i was just obsessed with having white skin. i googled a thousand things, went to the asian beauty store to get skin bleaching products. I took weird fkn lemon baths and stuff. And like i guess I never realized how fucked up that was?

Every time I come across the term porcelain skin I want to throw something. Bodily descriptions in books these days are much much better than they were when I was twelve but fanfic is still very much in the past. Obviously i’m not inserting myself in everything I read, I like to be like fifteen steps away from the story but someone exceptionally beautiful is always described with such white centric terms and often the stupid term porcelain skin. Its annoying and stupid and can we stop saying this dang phrase lol.

#even the whitest goddang person isnt porcelain #im pale as hell compared to the rest of my ppl and its just kinda weird to think back and remember that I was once so ashamed and #embarrassed of my skin color id cover every inch of my body and had long ass hair to hide my face #and everyone was like lol ur goth but like nah! its much worse #i also understand this might just be a me problem but like i think there is something to be said that something beautiful or lovably fragile #is always goddamned described with white ass terms #Also u need to be conscious of the way u describe side characters when ur main character is ~porcelain~ and white #If ur mc is so cool and badass sexy u need to be so conscious of the way they speak and the terms they use and the terms you use to describe #their thoughts and actions #U need to be conscious of how u describe side characters as well its just important to understand the indirect ways that your privelege has #affected you #Yknow also its important to understand the way the world has shaped your thoughts and your person esp when ur a white person writing a poc #I dont rlly feel like idk explaining this in detail but I guess im saying that people need to be more conscious of the way they indirectly #come across and the way that certain terms are outdated and just about harmfull #if ur describing a corpse sure use porcelain skin lol but dont have every instance of bodily description circle around their whiteness #and especially dont have poc characters described in any less affection #if ur white mc is porcelain and beautiful and ur supporting poc character is described rough and u talk abt their scars and etc its weird #cause like CLEARLY everyone on this earth doesnt have perfect perfect skin #its much more interesting to describe ur characters skin and the minor imperfections they have because it tells me about them #it builds something yknow? if ur character is porcelain then theres nothing that tells me abt the character other than that you as an author #find this to be fitting as a descriptor and it says a lot #and like this goes for poc also like poc can write just as harmful things as white ppl #Anyways I read a mass effect fic that described sooo many things soooo bad

[theloveinc]

ur post abt the roommate. wow the audacity of white ppl never fails to amaze me. they rlly only perceive the world through their lens and think if someone hasn’t established themselves in their community they’re a nobody. u had to find out abt kanye west due to a white woman prevalent in ur community? what does that say abt u more than anything? it’s so funny how they rlly think poc success relies on whether they’re relevant enough to white ppl. it makes me understand now why a lot of them will be obsessed with and hype up artists like tyler the creator, since 90% of his audience are white. i experienced this first hand at one of his concerts earlier this year.

It def changes the narrative a lot, but I'm also white and I was really shocked, too. I knew it was possible, but I never really thought someone would be so blatant (and intentional, too) in their cultural deafness and blindness about a topic that's not only easy to understand but also... important?

Like... idek know what to say. The fact that there are (white) people out there who have never had to challenge their worldview, even with different styles of art and music... to the point where distinct history, at the very least, isn't even remotely important? Or considered at all?

Not only does it touch upon what you say about it reflecting poorly on them (which, BIG FACTS) but also... you wonder how that's something to even defend or take pride in. It's pure stupidity... and overall just hard to watch, someone having the nerve to so wrongly but confidently have opinions about a topic they never even bothered to learn about.

And exactly as you say about TTC, too. We were just talking in one of my education classes, about how culture can be alienated at the exact same time society starts to accept it. Like, who is truly benefitting from making something mainstream? Not that this is inherently/automatically bad, per se, but when art, music, food, etc, becomes popular at the expense of the people who made it and who it was made FOR... what's really going on? Definitely nothing mutually beneficial, that's for sure... and ESPECIALLY not if this version is the only thing shared, valued, and understood of the culture.

Like Kanye West at the VMAs vs. the impact of his entire discography, for example.

(though it's funny, I said to my roommate, "haven't you heard about stuff like this in passing?" and she deadass said "no."

What. The. Fuck.)

But yeah. People will really value one famous white lady who makes nothing but mediocre love songs about her own life over popular and meaningful expressions of black experience... and then say they aren't racist.

It is depressing. Lol. But thank you for this! I agree + appreciate the insight SO much.

#some ppl don't realize im white so i just had to put that out there in case if changes how comfortable u are with me #but i agree with everything ur saying #and i'd love to be like. oh its not that white relevance determines poc popular but that white ppl dont realize theres anything else... #but idek if i believe that #my roommate seemed pretty confident in her answers #i really had to explain to a full on adult that all music is valuable because it offers different things to different people. #and even i was stunned like... i feel like people and parents always says try to understand that everyone has had a different experience #growing up #and it's often clear now that im an adult bc. obvs we have different backgrounds #so for her to just. throw away the significance of rap. and even just. refuse to acknowledge how it sits in society #i was shocked #that she could so easily disregard something so important #and the fight was huge too #not screaming but arguing abt a lot of stuff #and her telling me taylor swift was a better song writer than kanye bc xyz #how can anyone say that??????????? even if u like her... u just cant act like that or like his music isn't smart and important and iconic #esp since like... #ugh you already know im sure. i just need to walk it off LOL #or move out lol #after i left she started the fight again and i had to walk away all over and now she's probably even more mad #but no im not gonna say taylor swift is good even if i haven't listened to a full album #and that doesn't mean i know nothing about the subject #oh well #good night to u anon ily #sorry if this was a stupid response #caitie answers #popcul

[arinmoss]

women and femmes is like. what the fuck r u talking about lol.

like ppl will be talking about shit that effects me but postulate it as something that effects only women and femmes, two things i am not lolol

#its like even the video essay girlies i like say this kind of stuff #women and femmes or women and nonbinary #or women and femme presenting #like that doesnt mean anything what the fuck r u talking about lolol #maybeee women and people percieved as women #or sometimes people with marginalized gender identities maybe depending on the topic but like idk #its just something i still being used even by well meaning people #and it sucks when the converstions their having are important and good but like #idk idk man #women and nonbinary people is like the fucking funniest to me #but also i remmeber someone was talking about how woman and femmes would techincally include men cause men can be femme presenting #and like u know the girlies who say shit like women and femmes arent talking about men lol #idk i just think people should like think a little bit more before saying things and using words they dont understand lmao #like u wouldnt men and masc presenting people cause thats fucking stupid #masc presenting would include women whether u like it or not and masc women arent exactly treated the same as cis men #same with femme men and cis women lol #masc women and femme men are treated like shit for their mascunalnity and femininity but cis ppl do not fucking care about that #whatever anyways theres a lot you can say about htis shit but im kind of stupid and bad with words and idk waht the fuckim talking about #anymore just wanted to rant a lil #anyways its just like afun reminder people dont respect nonbinary people or people who arent what they think a man or woman should be

[shikanjis]

my mums still kinda weird abt it tho.....

#she thinks being bi is inherently slutty and like bi ppl r more prone to cheating etc etc #she gave me the 'ur body is a temple' talk like ma'am im not getting laid any time soon u kno it i kno it #i think like #i think part of what made it better is how my personality nd preferences are p compliant w her purity culture ideas #and so she wasnt too alarmed but like #she sees it as inherently promiscuous and its just weird but like i think #now that she knows im bi it sortof helped her break some stereotypes in her mind its fine #i lov her shes an amazing person #yea lol i promised her im never gna long term b w a anyone of the same gender but like. #i think desi ppl will understand theres some tradeoffs nd like. we can make it better for the next generation #i just cannot live without my family theyre more important than my orientation or romantic life dude like #whtever partner i might hav had hasnt even entered my life yet #im not going to love anyone in this world more than my mother and brother #why would i ruin my relationship w them over something like this #i know theres a huge emphasis on living authentically and all but like. #my love for my mum nd bro is more authentic than anything else #when we are dead and turned into stars in the sky there will be no sexual/romantic orientations but my love for my family will still b real #u kno wht im sayign?

[murasakiyuzu]

so

its time to start the countdown rewatch i guess

#im not Super in the mood for it tbh #but i had already decided id rewatch once before the final final chapter for real this time part 3 #honestly not sure if i can do it all before the 5th but lets see lmao #ill be making some remarks on things i always thought abt the series and things i came to understand #bc yknow i love recording shit that only matters to me #also p sure my first post here was crying over how much i love armin so it Is only right #and this is 10 years of my life following this story so its p much as important as it gets to me LOL #be sure to block the next tag if u dont wanna see my YAPPING ya #rewatching shingeki no kyojin #mumbling yuzu

[mysicklove]

𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐈𝐍 𝐀 𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐘

DAY 31: MASTURBATION

With: Izuku Midoriya

Word Count: 1.5k

Warnings: subish! Izuku, fem/afab reader, izuku masturbates to your voicemail and pretends to fuck you, reader calls him baby, and he calls u hun, needy izuku

A/N: masturbation fics are so fun to write for no reason. anyways, my last kinktober fic. crazy. it doesnt feel this way cause i wrote it halfway through lol.

Izuku was left alone for too long. On the verge of three weeks to be exact.

He wasn't left completely alone, of course. He was just overseas, on an important mission. He was separated from you, but that to his love-sick brain, meant he was left alone. His sleep schedule is all messed up from the times he stayed up late at night to wish you goodmorning, or the times where he woke up super early to catch you before you ate dinner. 

He missed you, an ungodly amount. When he comes home to his luxury hotel, and flops onto the bed, the only thing he can think about is you. What it would feel like to wraps his arms around you, and melt in your warmth. The way your fingers would run through his hair, and comfort him from all he did that day.

Of course he had those innocent, romantic thoughts most of the time, but somehow one way or another those fantasies began to change. The touches reach lower, your words begin to drip with honey, and your lips seem to be more passionate, desperate even. Until five out of the seven days, he daydreams about fucking you. 

He lays against the bed frame, shirtless, and dick pulled out of his boxers. The trip back to the hotel was long, and he's been thinking about doing this for the past hour now. He prepared everything ahead of time, because if he was doing something as pathetic as this, at least do it right.

The lights were dimmed, and his eyelids are drooping, exhausted from the day. He slowly reaches toward the nightstand and grabs a couple of tissues, setting them down next to him. Then with a sigh, he puts his phone up to his ear, and brings his hand to his cock. 

He gulps when he hears your voice, wishing desperately that you weren't asleep. Its got to be around 5 am by that time, and of course he wished he was patient enough to wait a couple hours for you to talk to him. But, he was desperate, and the voicemail you left him a couple hours earlier did the job.

“Hey baby,” Your voice broadcast, and immediately he seems to melt. His eyes fall shut and his hands begins to move up and down his half hard cock. He hums in reply, not caring if you cant hear him. “I miss you. Saw a kid walk by me with your merch on, made me smile,” You say, your voice slightly muffled from a task you must be doing. 

He huffs a laugh, head falling to the side. “Yeah?” He breathes, thumb rubbing at the tip, and then falling back down to his shaft in a repetitive motion. You continue on about your day, mentioning nothing too important, just how you went grocery shopping and a nice walk after work. “You shouldnt be working. Can take care of you,” Izuku mumbles, eyes peering open just slightly to watch his movements.

His cock was on full display now, the tip a pretty shade of pink, and beginning to leak. You always called it pretty. A strange thing to say about a penis, but he soaked up the praise, taking pride in his cock now. 

The thought made his mind wander. Would you praise him for what he was doing now? He wasnt supposed to touch himself without you, but its been three weeks, you have got to understand. Were you touching yourself thinking about him? The thought sends a thrilling shiver down his spine.

Your voice was now a background noise, just listening to the tone, the sound of it, but nothing of what you were saying. Maybe you were cooing at him. Telling him how good he is doing. Or maybe you were calling him a pervert for doing something so gross without you knowing. He lets out a shaky moan, mewling out and picking up the pace of his hand. 

“I miss you,” He warbles into the phone, on top of your speech. What were you talking about now? A dog you saw? Nothing important. Why weren't you touching yourself to his voice? He would die for an audio of that. Or even an audio of where you give him directions of how to do touch himself correctly.

No Izuku, slow down. Don't hurt yourself, baby. Your voice clouds his mind, and he nods, peering back to his cock and slowing his hand down. Thats it. Tighten your hand, and focus on the tip. He obeys, moving his hand up to the head, and making small pumps there. “S-Sensitive there,” He groans to the empty hotelroom, shaking his head from side to side when his heartbeat begins to pick up.

“Went into Victoria's Secret today,” You hum, and his eyes widen, attention snapping back to your voicemail. He quickly turns up the volume and pressing the phone closer to his ear. “Bought something you’ll love. Red is your favorite, yeah?”

Lewd images flash through his head of dark red lingerie sets and he nods. “Fuck. Please,” He moans, wishing he was there to pick it out with you. His dick twitches, and a glob of precum leaks out. Green eyes flicker to it, and he uses his thumb to swirl it around the head, flinger glazing over the slit. “Wanna see,” Izuku pants, growing hot.

You seem to have heard his reply and it makes him whine. “You don't get to see till you get home. A nice reward for doing so good all this time you are away,” You purr, making a short kissing noise into the mic and laughing.

His eyebrows furrow at the possibilities and his mind drifts off from your voice again. Suddenly he is there with you, his rough hands trailing up and down your body. The dark lingerie looks perfect against your skin tone, and his mouth waters at the sight. Well, look how needy you are Deku. Do you want to fuck me that bad?

He nods his head frantically, hand unconsciously picking up the pace. “Please. Please, beggin’ you,” he chants under his breath, his back slightly arching off the frame. He dully notices that the voicemail has ended, but doesnt pay attention to it, too immersed in the movie playing in his head.

His mind cuts the scene forward, growing too impatient and desperate as his orgasm begins to approach. You are under him, sending scratch marks down his back while moaning out. His thrusts are frantic, and he tries to pretend that his hand is you. Its not the same, but it will do. 

“Am I doing good?” He mumbles, dropping his phone onto the bed and resting the other hand on his thigh. You nod at him, kissing his cheek with redden cheeks, and lazy grin. A view he has seen so many times that he has a perfect mental image of it. 

So good, Izuku. You wanna cum inside?

He moans, louder than he should, considering the thin walls, but he doesnt care at the moment. He never gets to cum inside – this was something he was waiting to hear. “Fuck. Pleaseeee,” He whimpers, eyebrows furrowing and hand frantically moving up and down. His cock is lubed up with pre, and its easier for his hand to move now. 

He climbs closer and closer to his high and now hes hunched slightly over on himself. Suddenly, he hears his phone ringing, cutting him out of his perfect daydream. Just a couple of seconds, he just needs a couple seconds more of fucking you, and then he can take this call. He whines slightly, and peers over at it, not stopping his movements.

When he sees your name his eyes light up, and he grabs the phone and brings it to his ear immediately. His hands makes a lewd squelching noise, but he too fucked out to care if you hear.

A couple of seconds go by, and he breathes into the mic, waiting. And then he hears a groggy, “Hey baby,” and he cums on the spot. Groaning into the phone without a care as cum spills out on his hands and his whole body shakes. 

Another second goes by, as you wait silently on your side, confused on what was happening, but too sleepy to put two and two together. Izuku's chest rises and falls with every breath, and he stares at his cum covered hand, trying not to let out a sound of complaint when he realized he forgot to cum into the tissue.

He blinks a couple times, exhausted but glowing. “Hey hun. Was just thinkin’ bout you,” He hums, grinning at his sticky hand and closing his eyes when he hears your girlish giggle.

PREV POST | MASTERLIST | NEXT POST

#mello.writes #Barkforme! #Kinktober 2023 #dom! reader #dom reader #fem reader #fem! reader #x reader #reader insert #afab reader #afab! reader #female! reader #izuku smut #izuku midoryia smut #izuku midoriya x reader #sub izuku #izuku midoriya #izuku x reader #deku smut #deku x reader smut #mha smut #mha x reader #mha x reader smut #deku x reader

[yuckybaby]

just a thought

#outspoken straight allies are so prone to talking over queer people and i experience it so often #maybe they think their knowledge of being good allies is more important and relevant that queer experience?? idk #but there really are things that can only be understood when you yourself are queer esp cause ive been out for like 10 years now #im talking about stuff like making a joke and having allies go *you cant say that because you cant assume things abt gay people* #like those rules are for you not me lol #not even offensive jokes like i joked to someone that ive known since childhood that theyre clearly not gay and they responded so #aggressively abt how you cant assume things about peoples identities and how am i supposed to know looking at her that shes not gay and #how its offensive and préjugé and i was just???? you litchrally will NEVER understand that gay people really do have a sort of gaydar that #straight do not you dress like an old navy catalogue from 2015 any gay person would be able to clock u as straight immediately #or me talking to my mom abt queer stuff and her interrupting with things that she read jn an article abt what i can and cant say #these things are written for cishets NOT queer people and by talking over me youve already lost the ally game lmao #anyways im not upset just frustrated ig #rambles