#THIS IS REAL HOLY SHIT

[greededling]

fullmetal alchemist fans will say shit like 'tbh him getting impaled was one of my favorite moments in the story' and they will be talking about their beloved protagonist.

#fma #fullmetal alchemist #fmab #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #hes my favorite guy and holy shit when he got so real stabbed so bad i felt so many emotions

[inkskinned]

kids remind me, often, of the things i've taught myself out of.

i have a big dog. he looks like a deer. he is taller than most young children. while we were on a trail the other day, a boy coming our direction saw us and froze. he took a step back and said: "i'm feeling nervous. your - your dog is kind of big."

goblin and i both stopped walking immediately. "he is kind of a big dog," i admitted. "he's called a greyhound. they are gentle but they are pretty tall, which is kind of scary, you're right. their legs are so long because they are made for running fast. i am sorry we scared you. would you like us to stand still while you move past us, or would you feel more safe in your body if we move and you stay still?'

"oh. i didn't know that about - greyhounds. i think i ... i want to stay still," he said. at this point, his adult had caught up to us. "i'm nervous about the dog," he told her, "so i'm - i'm gonna stay still." she didn't argue. she didn't make fun of him. she just smiled at him and at me and held his hand while goblin and i, with as wide of a berth as we could make, crept our way through.

behind us, i heard him exhale a deep breath and kind of laugh - "he was really big, huh? she said it's because greyhounds have to go fast."

"he was big," she said. "i understand why that could have made you a little scared."

"yeah. next time i - next time do you think i could maybe ask to touch him? when - i mean, next time, maybe, if i'm not nervous."

later, going to a work event, in the big city, i stood outside, trembling. my social anxiety as a caught bird in my chest. i took a deep breath and turned to my coworker. she's not even really my friend yet. i told her: "i feel nervous about this. i am not used to meeting new people, ever since covid."

she laughed, but not in a mean way. she said she was nervous too. she reached her hand out and held mine, and we both took another deep breath and walked in like that, interlinked. a few people asked us - together? - and i told the truth: i feel nervous, and she's helping. over and over i watched people relax too, admitting i feel really kind of shy lately actually, thank you for saying that.

the next time i go to an event, and i feel a little scared, i ask right away: wanna hold hands? this feels a little dangerous. i hesitate less. i don't hide it as much. i watch for other people who are also nervous and say - it's kinda hard, huh?

i know, logically, i'm not good at asking for help. but i am also not good at noticing when i need help. i've trained myself out of asking completely, but i've also trained myself to never accept my own fears or excuses. i have trained myself to tamp down every anxiety and just-push-through. i don't know what i'm protecting myself from - just that i never think to admit it to anyone.

but every person on earth occasionally needs comfort. every person on earth occasionally needs connection. many of us were taught independence is the same thing as never needing anything.

each of us should have had an adult who heard - i feel nervous and held our hand and asked us how we could be helped to feel safe. no judgement, and no chiding. many of us did not. many of us were punished for the ways that we seemed "weak".

but here is something: i am an adult now. and i get nervous a lot, actually. and if you are an adult and you are feeling a little nervous - come talk to me. we can hold hands and figure out what will help us feel safe in our bodies. and maybe, next time, if we're brave, we can pet the dog that's passing.

#spilled ink #warm up #so i have worked in childcare as a teacher for like 15 years #hence the language behind ''what helps you be safe in your body?'' #like you can tell by what i say here i have EXPERIENCE with kids. #but tbh the REAL teacher moment is watching a 6/7 year old say #''this makes me nervous #can you please not come closer?'' #as a teacher i was IMMEDIATELY like ... ahh whomever is raising you is doing an EXCELLENT job holy shit #verbalizing your fears? trusting an adult to listen? #ability to recognize a way you might feel safer? #like .... this kid's caregivers.... that one moment... i was like .... who are u i wanna french kiss you big on the mouth

[linddzz]

Thinking about Weird Barbie and how she's the very obviously queer outsider of the Barbie world, she straddles the lines between Barbie and the Real World. She's the most aware of the performative nature of it all. She supports Barbie while also gently mocking her panic at losing the hyperfeminine perfection. Her weird house is also home to the discontinued reject weird Barbies, the outcasts (including very gay earring Ken) who never fell into either the original matriarchy or the Kentriarchy brainwashing.

The other more classically heteronormative and beautiful Barbies both pity and fear her, and at first the narrative pities her as well. She's the vessel of girls going weird and crazy and feral on their dolls and that's amazing. Weird Barbie is aware of who she is and how the world sees her and she loves it. She's Weird Barbie and She Owns It.

#i couldnt identify with a lot of the Barbies Feminine Crisis on as deep a level as other women i know #but holy shit did i see what they did with Weird Barbie aka Queer Barbie #GOD this movie did such a great job capturing the feeling of #gender is fake and but also its real #ive been having gender thoughts #mostly about how im so goddamn ambivalent about gender that i can't even identify #with the idea of thinking about What Is My Gender enough to say its nonbinary #my gender is Sure Okay #she/her yeah fine its whatever #barbie

[moldspace]

i painted a mural!!!

#art #my art #painting #mural art #public art #mural #its so big holy shit.... the creatures are real theyre on a WALL

[doberbutts]

Recently Youtube's algorithm really wants me to watch Schindler's List and I never had so the other night I sat down and actually watched it.

Having a lot of thoughts about it but a major one I keep coming back to is how even an immensely and deeply flawed human being can go against "just following orders" and instead put in the work to actually help.

It may never be fully enough. It may never save as many as you'd hoped. But when you have a choice to either follow orders or save your fellow humans in front of you, I hope you choose the latter.

Schindler died in poverty. He was not a renown war hero nor was he at all famous or widely beloved. But he saw that he could help, even in some small way, and so he helped.

He was a Nazi who saw what the Nazis were doing to Jews and said no more. Enough. If I can even spare those under my charge, maybe a few extras, then at least I will have tried to do something about this.

I think a lot of people do not fancy this type of activism. It is messy, dangerous, and often completely thankless. Schindler survived as long as he did after the war due to those he saved helping him with donations. He was not popular in his hometown due to his association with Nazis, he was not popular in Germany, he was not popular in Argentina. His businesses all failed. His wife left him. A movie about his deeds was released several years after his death, where he would receive none of the benefits. He went to prison multiple times for simply refusing to hate Jews.

I think a lot of people like to think they're activists, but are sorely unprepared for doing this type of work, and then in truth become activists in name only. This is hard work. But without him, another thousand or so people would be on that death toll.

He took his position of extreme power- a Nazi owning a factory almost entirely operated by Jews, making oodles of money off that cheap slave labor- and said you know what? No. I'm not doing that. I can't save everyone, but as long as they are within my factory, you will not kill my workers. As long as I'm here you aren't harming one hair on the head of any Jew under my care. You're not sending or keeping them in Auschwitz. You're not randomly executing them for entertainment. They're people. You're not murdering them.

"Just following orders" they say. But they didn't have to. They could have helped. They could have did what he did, look around and say "what the fuck am I doing here", and stop. He did. They could have. They didn't.

#I think it's also intereating that he did not do it out of compassion at first #he did it because it was smart capitalism #jewish labor was super cheap and they were desperate to be considered fit to work because otherwise execution was waiting for them #only after the cleansing of the ghetto did he say whoa okay holy shit yeah no I'm not doing this anymore #that's also true of the real man the movie is about #I also think it's interesting that not everyone he saved thinks he was a good person #but even still despite his flaws they respect and admire what he did for them #his motives were not always pure #but the fact of the matter is that when he saw what was happening he chose to act against it #he did not shrug and saw welp orders are orders #nor did he succumb to hopelessness when it became difficult to keep up what he was doing

[stickandthorn]

inspired choice in the new Percy Jackson show styling Clarisse after an Instagram baddie. Matte lipliner and blended eyeshadow and a fucking meticulous curl routine. That is exactly right. The most terrifying girls at my high school all had hair routines and razor sharp cut creases and rage like her. Real Ares kids get it. That’s MY Clarisse.

#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #clarisse la rue #that show is taking me so back #holy shit. #transforming into my 11 year old self real quick

[ovaryacted]

Just sitting here thinking about Leon’s physique in RE4R in comparison to all of his other eras. Like Capcom really sat down and was like, “we’re upgrading the twink into a MEGA beefy boy fighting bisexual demons” for the remake and decided to make him so thick and broad like hello!?

Meanwhile Leon’s never really been scrawny or lanky, he’s kinda slim-thick. Like he has muscles and probably has nice shoulders and thick thighs, but he’s not beefy in the sense of looking like a power lifter. They said fuck all that and just gave Leon huge pecs and biceps in RE4R and he’s thick as hell. Like don’t get me wrong, I love his build and honestly the fact that he doesn’t have the classic dorito build but his waist still tapers in a bit is so…MMMMM FAWK!

He’s so…whew…I keep thinking about it. I honest to god want to take a tape measure and just see the distance from shoulder to shoulder and across his chest. He looks like he’d give good hugs, just consumes you whole and his chest is so inviting and warm. I need him…BAD!

#ovaryacted thoughts #leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #leon scott kennedy #leon kennedy icons #resident evil #I don’t even like him super beefy #never liked big muscular guys #but holy moly I need him to put me in a chokehold BAD #real shit tho #give me the id/di body thank yew! #his chest and back are KILLING ME

[hrokkall]

Mama gave me music lessons,

now I play the saddest songs

#ULTRAKILL #Ultrakill spoilers #<- God I hope everyone who hasn't played the update has that blocked by now #Gutterman #Gutterman ultrakill #Mother mother mother of me. Save me mother mother mother of me. Save me. Mother mother mother of me save me #Also shoutout to ME for writing a snippet that predicted this in DECEMBER of last year. That I completely forgot about. #It was not NEARLY as emotionally devastating as what was in the game though. Holy Shit. So I HAD to draw something for the real 7-2 poem #Also if you scrolled through the tags this far; caption is from an unreleased Mother Mother song that I've loved dearly for many years. #Hrokkall art #1k

[fuzzyhairedfreak]

um uh uh um. so. did anyone else used to follow Nate Stevenson's D&D campaign drawings back in the day or-

#fantasy high #fhjy #dimension 20 #nd stevenson #brennan lee mulligan #like. uh. god. #in november 2022 i went insane and watched a ton of avdenturing academy #and found out brennan used to play w molly ostertag (nd's wife) #and was like. wait a fucking minute. i was obsessed w jericho rose #so i refound that pic just to be like hmm i winder if any of these were brennan's characters that'd be crazy #and then further episodes in he mentioned playing a lawful good rogue and i was like HOLY SHIT #bc lets be real. kipperlilly copperkettle is SUCH a brennan name #but i thought my theory could only ever be that! right! my haha silly red string board in my friend's dms! #WRONG #IM SO FUCKING SMART #anyways. thank you for coming to my ted talk.

[andr0nap]

DEATH RIDES A PALE WHITE HORSE THOMA 💀

#trigun #trigun stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #angelina the draft thoma #cowboy au #andr0art #murderbird has her own tag now #angie my beloved #its real giant bird hours besties #drawing in black and white is fucking hard holy shit #suffering for the aesthetic™ #never doing it again

[lesbaurinkos]

they call me the world’s number one fan of dnp’s ffxiv catboys (who bought matching red and blue carbuncle mounts if you care). just like they call fditl the most important video to ever exist in the world

#do u guys even care. that they bought. MATCHING RED AND BLUE CARBUNCLE MOUNTS IN FFXIV #BECAUSE I CARE SOOOOO MUCH #THOSE COST REAL MONEY DID U KNOW THAT. AND THEY GOT MATCHING ONES. IF U CAREEEEE #can more phannies pleaaaasee also be xiv girlies like this knowledge is so important to me and few understand…… #anyways also. i keep rewatching fditl to cope with the dapg drought. as we all must do. obvi #and those sweaters i got an ad for on instagram and was like holy shit…… dude……… dnp for real #so anyway im having the time of my life lately. god bless! #dan and phil #dnp #daniel howell #phil lester #phanart #<- tag that truly brought me back to being 13 again. feels good feels organic. AMEN!

[ilovelumity3000]

Even if Gwen isnt trans, or her arc really is just meant to be an allegory...

I swear, her and Miles might be the queerest straight couple i have ever seen

#across the spiderverse #spiderverse 2 #spider man: across the spider verse #spider gwen #gwen stacy #miles morales #miles x gwen #gwiles #transfem #transgender #anyway #trans gwen stacy #is real #HOLY SHIT I LOVE HER SO MUCH #i love this movie #spiderverse is gonna be the greatest trilogy of all time

[ria-the-camel]

This episode had some incredible viusuals…

…which i’m gonna leave to better artist to actually draw

Chetney being immediately done with the lava room was hilarious Travis is killing it

#critical role #cr3 #cr spoilers #critical role spoilers #crit role #my art #c3e75 #chetney pock o'pea #i mean. fair. when ashton jumped in i had a real moment of panic #and then fearne did too and i was laura bailey level of pc panic #but the scene of them getting the shard out and surfacing together? holy shit that was cinematic #amazing episode #critical role fanart

[uncanny-tranny]

Trans dude whose favourite NFL team are the Packers

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #trans meme #do NOT talk NFL with me though because i don't care for american football #i know how the game generally goes but i was a band kid #my friend was an angel for reminding me about this #im now a Packers fan just because of how meta this is holy shit #ngl though wisconsin does not feel like a real state and i always forget it exists #actually anything too north or deep in the midwest just doesn't seem real to me #actually this is goving me an existential crisis because what do you MEAN these states are actually real #(yes i know these states are real and i have always known they exist. i just never hear shit from them so i always forgor they exist) #i wonder if people do that with my state (insert [REDACTED] state)

[boffix]

OH?

#they’re real holy shit #splatoon #splatoon 3 #frye splatoon #shiver splatoon #frye onaga #shiver hohojiro

[dropitdoeeyes]

it’s her, yknow

id: two digital drawings of ivy alexandria on a light grey background. in the first drawing, ivy sits on a ledge, holding a book as she looks off to the side, dangling her legs. in this drawing, ivy wears a green dress, green platforms, and has her hair pushed to one side, the other side shaved, showing plates of metal. in the second drawing, ivy is shown from the thighs up. she looks off to the other side, but this time her short hair covers her eyes. ivy is topless, showing top surgery scars. she wears a green pair of pants and holds her flute, as well as a book. both drawings are lightly rendered and lit with warm lighting. end id.

#a real gender freak over here. love her the ivy archivist #the mechanisms #the mechs #holy shit its a des art tag #ivy alexandria #described #big fan of ivy beard #ivy sideburns save me