a house up on a hill
Part 2 of ‘a life where we work out’
Pairing: Dean Winchester x fem!Reader/Dean Winchester x past!Reader
Word Count: 1.5k
(i forgot!! tw: non-graphic mentions of suicide)
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I woke to the sound of a muffled voice calling my name.
The ground was much comfier than I remembered. It almost felt… Soft? I pushed my head back slowly, realizing that it was soft.
The voice called again, though this time it was much clearer.
I opened my eyes, slowly blinking until it all came into view. My heart stopped when I saw her looking at me. She sat next to me on the bed, a hand on my arm, smiling. She looked happy. Healthy.
“Hey, sleepyhead,” she said with a grin before she leaned down to kiss me.
Although, she came up confused when I didn’t react in time. She furrowed her brow, looking down at me.
“Too tired to even kiss your wife?”
My eyes widened, and suddenly I looked down at the hand against my bicep. She had a pretty little diamond ring on her finger.
“What—“
“How much did you drink last night?” she asked with a laugh. “I know you and Sam can get a little out of hand, but geez. How’s breakfast sound?”
“Yeah, okay,” I nodded, still in a haze.
I watched as she left the room, giving me one last confused smile before she did. I took in a deep breath. This had to be a dream. That was it.
I stumbled out of the unfamiliar bed that I somehow knew very well. I looked around the house. It was a little small, but so clearly a happy place to live that it practically slapped me in the face. I looked around the living room, quickly spotting a photo that was meant to be our wedding day. I set it back where I found it when she called my name.
I turned to see her leaving the kitchen with two bowls of some kind of scramble.
“Come on,” she said, tilting her head towards the front door.
I followed after her blindly, unable to keep my eyes off of her. She was so happy. She was practically glowing. I sat down on the front porch swing, accepting the bowl and another kiss. The porch wrapped around the house, and flowers lined all the windowsills. My attention was captured soon after by two cute kids on playing in the field down the hill. They couldn’t be more than three and four.
My brow furrowed as I glanced around at the open spaces around the house. Where were their parents?
“Jamie! Violet!” she called out to the boy and girl. “Come say ‘good morning’ to daddy!”
I sat in shock watching these two little people come running for me. They looked like us.
“Mornin’, daddy,” the little girl— Violet, said to me. “Lookit!”
She held up a bundle of wildflowers in her soft little fist. Her face lit up. My eyes, and her smile on one sweet, tiny face.
“Real pretty, baby,” Y/N said, looking at me funny when I didn’t reply to the little girl.
Meanwhile, I accepted a hug from a little boy who could’ve been my double at that age. Just without the scary parts. They all had a danger-free life. We did.
She told them to go clean up, but I could place her motives quickly.
“Did you do hard drugs last night, or something? What’s up with you?” she questioned, incredulous.
Her face dropped a little when she looked at me, quickly wiping tears from my face that I hadn’t realized were there in the first place.
“Baby?”
I cleared my throat. “I— I’m sorry. I just…”
I looked at her, not sure how to explain. Last I remember is that we had been broken up for several months. Seeing here now, mothering our children…
“Maybe my hormones are transferring,” she said with a little laugh, wiping the remaining tears.
I tilted my head in question.
She merely smiled. “I was gonna wait until my parents had the kiddos, but…”
She trailed off, the hand with the ring on it resting on her stomach suddenly.
“How’s baby number three sound?”
My eyes widened. “What? You’re pregnant?”
She nodded. “Yeah.”
“Oh—“ I started, kissing her on instinct before my words could get the better of me.
She laughed, pulling away a moment later.
“I know we said we weren’t sure about having another, but…”
“No!” I exclaimed. “No, this is— this is amazing. You’re amazing.”
“There’s my Dean,” she said softly, caressing my face. “I was worried about you this morning. You’re not being your usual self.”
“I just…” I sighed. “It’s hard to explain. Not important right now.”
She sighed. “It’s always important, babe. We talked about this: if you’re feeling bad, I’m here to talk it through with you.”
I watched her a moment, then nodded.
“We’ll talk later. Promise,” I said, still needing to figure out what kind of dream I was in.
“Okay,” she agreed with a nod, taking my hand and kissing my knuckles. “You know I love you?”
“I know. I— I love you more.”
She smiled again, leaning into me to finally eat her breakfast. I followed suit, at least letting myself enjoy this while I could. We were soon joined by two minis who insisted on cuddling, and I wasn’t going to deprive them of that.
Hours passed, and eventually her parents came. Her living parents just walked right in and took our kids for a night. And if felt good and safe to let them out of our sight. We didn’t have to worry.
I walked around our house as she took a shower, seeing that I’d missed several photos in our living room. Our kids as they grew up. Me, holding them as babies looking happier than I’d ever seen myself. Us. Her parents. My parents. Sam and Jess.
Wait. That felt eerily familiar. Why did that feel so familiar to see?
Well, that question left my brain temporarily when she walked in.
“Hey,” she called, dressed in nothing by my t-shirt.
I stared openly, unable to do anything but stare. She smirked.
“Don’t look at me like that,” she said, warning me. “It’s bedtime.”
I swallowed, still not quitting. “Right.”
She wet her lips, holding out a hand for me. I walked towards her like we were magnetic, immediately leaning in to kiss her. It’s like I couldn’t help myself. She was there. She was still in love with me. She was my wife and the mother of our kids. How could I stay away?
She must’ve shared parts of that sentiment by the way she dragged me into our bedroom, not even bothering to shut the door behind us.
I woke up the next morning to her curled into my side. Even in this perfect world, her hair still covered half her face in a mess when she slept. It was still the prettiest thing I’d ever see.
Unfortunately for me, memories started flooding back as I’d been asleep.
We had seen each other after the breakup. We even started on a hunt together. Going after a djinn.
I let myself watch her a while longer, knowing what I had to do to wake up in the real world.
My heart ached as I thought about it. I needed to wake up. I just didn’t want to. I wanted to see our kids grow up. I wanted to see our baby be born. I wanted to grow old with her. We were doing so well for ourselves here, in this life.
She woke up a few minutes later, giving me a soft smile, and brushing her fingers against the frown lines on my face.
“Always so grumpy when you wake up.”
I shook my head. “Not grumpy. Just thinking.”
“About what?”
“You. How much I love you and this life and our babies,” I said, not allowing the tears I felt to fall. “How much I missed you.”
She furrowed her brow. “Baby, we were only asleep for like seven hours.”
“Not what I mean. I just—“ I sighed. “None of this is…”
I stopped myself, realizing it was no use to try and convince her this wasn’t real. Why ruin the magic that was already slowly running dry?
“I just love you. So much,” I settled.
She kissed me. “Love you more.”
I smiled softly, kissing her one more time.
“I’ll be back soon, alright?” I lied, reluctantly climbing out of bed.
She nodded, watching me with adoring eyes as I left the room. I finally let those tears fall, finding the gun safe and pulling out my handgun. I walked out to the front porch, sitting on the swing again as I watched the blue sky come alive. It was peaceful. It was someplace I was determined to see again in my dreams when I left.
I took a deep breath, preparing myself for what came next.
And I pulled the trigger.
part 3 here ->
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the first tea that i'm going to spill starts with these infamous four words: so there's this guy.
let's call this guy aaron. aaron is a senior (i'm a freshman), and i really like him. i've been friends with his sister since seventh grade, but i didn't meet him until the end of eighth grade. i had to practice singing a solo for a chorus concert, and my chorus teacher asked me to go sing for her high school chorus first period. so i was terrified, as any eighth grader would be in this situation. i was sitting there talking to one of the only people i knew in the class, let's call her allie. remember her, because she'll be important later on. so i sang my solo, and i did pretty well. i was walking out, and aaron went out into the hallway to throw away his gum as i was leaving. he told me that i did really good, which meant a lot to 13-year-old me.
skip ahead to the weekend after, when we had our chorus show where i was singing my solo. i was rehearsing, and he came through the auditorium with one of his friends. they stopped and sat in the front row until i finished singing, then stood up and clapped and yelled and all the things. he was the one who started the standing ovation after i performed during the concert. he was also singing in it, and middle and high school had a song together. everyone was getting on stage, and he came up next to me and smiled, pointed at me, and just said "it's you." and i pointed back and did the same thing, and then we went on with the show.
that summer, i got snapchat. one day i was sitting there on my phone and i got a notification that aaron had added me. i added him back, and waited for him to snap first. he snapped me almost immediately, and we were sending full-face snaps back and forth and all this stuff. i ended up deleting my snap because it was taking up too much of my time, but he was in my chorus class at the beginning of this year.
we got closer through chorus, and ended up exchanging numbers because i challenged him to a game of cup pong. we never really texted much, but we did play games a few times.
later on, we went to a chorus audition together. it was me, him, four other girls, and two other guys. we were all hanging out together, and one of the girls happened to be allie. remember her? she admitted to all the girls that she's had a crush on aaron since third grade. we all encouraged her and told her she should shoot her shot, but she hasn't so far. so now, i can't tell any of these girls about the crush on aaron. me and aaron played imessage games together all day that day, plus we talked a lot on the bus.
nothing majorly important happened until about a week ago. we were in chorus together preparing for our big show, and he has a solo in it. he was singing his solo, and we locked eyes. we held eye contact through the entire song and the next two songs, until my friend started talking to me. later on, during baby it's cold outside, we started looking at each other again. we were singing, and the boys had the line "gosh your lips look delicious." when he sang that, he looked down at my lips and winked at me. we kinda flirted through the rest of the class until we had to leave.
nothing happened through the next couple of days, until thursday. chorus was optional unless you had to make up time, but we both just came because we wanted to. so it was the two of us in there, plus about four other people. we sat together and talked through the whole class. he told me how it's his last chorus class ever, and we talked about how much it sucks that his other solo for the concert got cut from the set. we walked up the steps together to go to third period, and he was singing this song. i asked him what the song was, and he told me. the song is "a life where we work out" by flatland cavalry, and he told me i should learn to play it on the violin. we kept talking until we got to third period.
last night, we had our chorus show. we flirted and talked before the show and during the intermission, and i got up the nerve to text him after. and now, it's been 17 hours and i haven't gotten a response.
mixed signals suck. boys, don't do this to a girl. please.
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So I've already shared parts of this on a discord server, but I have to scream about Ketheric Thorm on here as well. Obviously spoilers about the character under the cut! It's a long one.
The entirety of act 2 is about him, right? Jaheira, Shadowheart and numerous other NPCs shit on him for his fickle faith. First Selune, then Shar, then, as we meet him, Myrkul. You hear about his changes of faith on a whim, you hear that he's the person responsible for the shadow curse, he is painted as a villain, plain and simple.
You can figure it out pretty early on that Isobel was resurrected and that she is his daughter; the detail as well that he wants Isobel alive is so on the nose, it gives him away completely but there are still a few questions that remain unanswered, mainly about his faith.
And then you get to the mausoleum and the picture assembles; this entire tragedy, the death of hundreds if not thousands and the complete ruination of a landscape was all, ALL because you had this absolutely wrenched, heartbroken father who had lost everything and nobody answered his grief. He was left woefully alone, the Goddess whose daughter his daughter was involved with did nothing to save Isobel.
Imagine outliving your wife and your daughter. Imagine dedicating your life to fight the Lady of Loss, your Lady of Silver's enemy, and then be left so completely alone and in silence with your grief, with your loss. It's so, so poetic how and why he turned from Selune, and it's so understandable as well; he broke. His spirit completely broke. He couldn't deal with that void of having lost the only two important people in his life, seemingly undeservedly so. He was going mad with this and a lot of his ire was likely targeted at Aylin who, in his eye, represented Selune; she's literally her daughter, after all, and it was implied that even before the deaths of his family, he sort of saw Aylin courting Isobel as Selune taking his daughter from him, despite his service. This relationship was clearly not seen by him as a boon of "giving his daughter to the Moon-maiden".
His ways in the past clearly didn't spare him from tragedy and having to cope with it (which he clearly didn't, he snapped under the weight of his grief). He was clearly angry and unable to do anything, furious and helpless, which is a dangerous combination. A good part of his first change of heart must have been fuelled by a sense of revenge.
But then Shar didn't provide any balm to his aching heart either. If you read his letters in Grymforge and in act 2, he is so focused on enacting the will of Shar because he believes that healing lies in oblivion. Everything would be easier if he could just forget, if the damn world could just forget, if nothing was remembered because without Melodia and Isobel, nothing was worth remembering.
Then came Myrkul. Literally the only god who was not only able, but WILLING to give back his daughter to him. Imagine spending your all, EVERYTHING you have to serve two gods who would not give a single shit about the greatest suffering in your life. You were basically nothing, your loyalty didn't matter for shit, everything that was taken from you amounted to no recognition whatsoever: you should simply cope and seethe. Your grief will not simply go unanswered (which is not inherently antagonising) but ignored.
And then comes this supposedly evil entity who can alleviate your pain just like that, snap of a finger and it's a done deal.
I am so serious when I say that I believe Ketheric's main incentive was to extend Aylin's immortality to Isobel as well. You can read in her diary that she feels a taint after having came back, and there are things not even Selune can cleanse, but at this point, Ketheric doesn't care about Selune, vengeance is secondary if not tertiary, he's done that war during his Shar years and what did it give him? Literally nothing.
He doesn't even care about the fact that Isobel is still her cleric. He cares about the single most important fact: Isobel is back. Life is worth living again, there is something for him, and it was not Selune or Shar who gave it to him but Myrkul, and for this singular gift, he would raze the world for the Lord of Bones. Like people can clown on him for being disloyal but the man has the loyalty of a dog bonded to its owner.
He is powerful and is willing to go to insane lengths for crumbs. What is raising a single life for a god? Nothing. It has happened and it will happen again. But Ketheric will go to the ends of the earth to serve the single god who actually listened to him. The one god who didn't ignore him.
He knows that what he does is not the morally upright thing! He is so insanely self-aware that allying with Orin and Gortash and doing this entire plot with them only to then betray them is morally reprehensible at the best of times, he knows that people hate him, etc-etc. He was a Selunite at one point and he's not stupid. He just doesn't care; it could be literal Asmodeus and he wouldn't care as long as he got what he wanted, no matter the price.
He is probably the only one from the three of the chosen who has complete clarity over his situation, he almost sways (if you pass the check during his confrontation), he is not an inherently evil man blinded by power.
But he is inherently loyal to those deserving, and as of the story's standing, completely broken by his grief. In his eyes, at this point, the only one deserving loyalty is the one who actually listened to him. Isobel lives. It doesn't matter that she hates him, that his entire life has fallen apart, that literally nothing else that is good has come of it, because Isobel lives.
I don't think he regrets a single thing. His consciousness might tear at him at the end, but I believe he would do everything over again, exactly as he did, because in the end, his daughter was brought back. Because what would a grieving, broken parent give to bring back their child? Everything. Absolutely everything. And it's such a simply given answer, no second thoughts, no doubts.
Nobody can tell me that this man is fickle. Nobody. This man was willing to burn the world to the ground, create a Boudica destruction layer all by himself for the one single thing he wanted. For any God that would listen.
I don't know, I just have a lot of thoughts about his character.
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