#and probably always will be

[jirai-kei-freak]

idk I just hate how mean everyone is, especially my generation :(

#Yeah yeah ik it has always been this way #And probably always will be #But damn people are just cold and hateful for no good goddamn reason #And social media certainly isn’t helping #I just feel so embarrassed when I’m out and I’m wearing anything that’s not general clothing #I’m always so afraid someone will take a pic or photo of me and post it on social media to laugh at me #And honestly it probably has already happened a few times #For example in middle school I didn’t have earbuds at the time (I refuse to use those devil airpods) #So I would have my music at the lowest volume possible and put it up at my ear to listen to it #Since 5th grade I’ve been a huge fan of Vocaloid and I’ve been listening to it non-stop for years #And I’d do it at school and… #Yeah you can probably guess how kids were #Wouldn’t be surprised if that got filmed/photographed #And I’ve been mocked/humiliated so many times for being autistic ugh #Vent #emma.txt

[dragonartist56]

We’re all just human, huh?

#since the dawn of our existence #kinda cool to think about #I put my handprints on the wall with my stage crew of a production I’m working on #and came to this realization #almost made myself cry #no matter how much has changed #over hundreds of years #we’ve always been the same #and probably always will be #dragon speaks

[silkysong]

forgot to post the whole thing

#year after year its always them pilots and them undeads and im not mad theyve been my bands since 2013 <3 #and probably always will be

[courtofmuses]

I'm going to be adding Tyler, Bianca, and Enid to my Wednesday muses and re-do my carrd here soon. All muses from this verse are 18. Now to make icons.

#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ EXPERIMENT 626 SPEAKING. #st muses are still my top muses #and probably always will be

[the-spencery]

Kids...as a child,

a mentally ill

Li’l autistic

with ADHD

living in an abusive environment

I was told repeatedly and with relish that the way I enjoyed things was unacceptable

that all the glorious energy and joy I had bursting out of me was

too much! Always too much.

So I learned how to keep it all in keep a straight face never admit to investing emotional energy into anything don’t make too much noise don’t move so much sit still and be more careful and look people in the eyes when they are speaking to you and

I’m tired.

I’m tired of holding in all the pleasure and excitement and joy I feel.

My discomfort is instinctually suffered in silence, so what’s being held back is my happiness

...My good humour and effusive warmth.

I can’t say it’s the same for everyone on the spectrum but I’d reckon I’m not the only one.

So what if I experience the world through my entire body? So what if happiness can be made through sound and comfort is deep pressure and apprehension can be flung away with a flick of the wrist?

I giggle at my own thoughts and I talk to myself and that makes people uncomfortable. I seem odd, but only just enough to mention. All my worldly knowledge and effort only gets me that far.

And I can’t care anymore.

I’ve had a long day and this post is a mess, but today I’m giving it up.

Allistics and Neurotypicals no longer get my grace or sympathy, and I will exist in this world how I see fit. Your perception of me is not my problem 😘🥰

I am giving myself the permission to erupt out and colour the world that I was denied as a child. I am taking what I am owed.

-JLC

#adhd #autism #actually autistic #mental illness #stimming #I don’t know why but today I just cannot do it anymore #I’m done masking my goddamn joy #just because it looks fckin #cringe or whatever #pissed off #and probably always will be

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath. #not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first. #I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*. #Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about. #I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/ #Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight - #The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room! #Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

[liquidstar]

If my mom sees a significant amount of blood she gets lightheaded, and has fainted on some occasions. Once it happened when we were kids, I wasn't there to witness it but I heard the story from my dad. Basically my brothers, around 7 or 8 at the time, were playing outside while my mom was making their lunch, and she accidentally cut her finger. It wasn't anything serious, but it drew a fair bit of blood and she passed out. My dad saw this and rushed over, but he didn't really know what to do so he just sort of started slapping her to wake her up (not recommended, but he had no idea and panicked)

At that exact moment my brothers both came in from playing, and all they saw was our mom unconscious on the floor and our dad slapping her. So, like, without even saying a word to each other they both just INSTANTLY start whaling on him, like, full blown attack mode to defend our mom. Which obviously didn't help the situation, but she did wake up and everything was fine.

Now our dad says that he's actually really glad they attacked him over what they thought was going on, because it means he raised good boys. And I still think that's true, they're very good boys.

#i think about this story sometimes like yeah I'm proud of them for that too actually. good job baby brothers #they're not babies anymore of course they're turning 20 next year which is crazy #but they're still the type of people who'd do something if they saw something of this sort happen for sure #respectful of women and everyone else too. they're good guys #I'm glad I ended up with them living in my house against my will for like 14 years #anyway i have no idea where i was for all this but my best guess is probably a friends house given the time period #i was always at my besties house lol #i hope she's doing well too actually. haven't spoken in forever... #bestie from greek elementary school... if you're out there... let's get muffins and fanta at the bakery across the street again someday 💜☮️

[rubarb69]

Resisting the grotesque urge while cutting peppers !!

#i love cooking tho #im making a pasta dish #and despite my lack of wanting for it #its still there #and probably always will be #addiction or whatever one would call it #its crazy to imagine one bad choise and a rusty razor blade would define so much of my life #https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJag19WoAe0

[luminarai]

hey, hi, I was just on the former bird app and came across this info from a brand new study and now I cannot stop screaming internally??? what the actual fuckkkk

theres' an article from the guardian here and here is the actual study:

#period products #menstruation #what the fuck what the fuck!!! #i know i probably shouldn’t be surprised but wtffff #idk what to tag this but #science #menstrual bleeding #heavy bleeding #period problems #reproductive health #alt text #described #physical health #blood mention tw #periods #edit: btw I skimmed the article overview and I’m glad to say it seems very inclusive #so once again: terfs can go fuck themselves in the not pleasant way <3 #it always bears repeating and I will ad naseum

[autumn-may]

Mostly spoiler free summary of my viewing experience

#The boy and the heron #how do you live #studio ghibli #ghibli #in all honesty that movie was legitimately so fantastic and im like changed as a person #Story wise as well! It hits really hard if you know a bit about miyazaki and his legacy. Its a very personal movie i think #And you can feel it in every aspect #The eng dub voice actors were really good as well and the animation was beautiful as always #Also really loved the tone!!! The story really relied a bit on the use of negative space in both sound and pacing and i enjoyed that alot #in conclusion go read a article about miyazaki and his son and then go watch the movie it’s probably going to be one of my favorites #image id in alt

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it'' #while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good'' #to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.) #edit to answer why we had so much vanilla: #my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house. #it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out'' #even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter. #my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out) #listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it. #3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael teaches FNAF movie Vanessa, Aftons never win

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #fnaf vanessa #vanessa afton #vanessa shelly #fnaf #fnaf movie #sister location #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #Michael has a habit of being too honest for his own good #you’re scaring the locals Michael #Vanessa is legit spooked of what the future holds for her #if she’s doomed to be scooped and or become Vanny #shes gotta learn Aftons always lose even if they are ‘good’ #but she’ll probably be fine- #being purple ain’t too bad too 🙏🏾 #Michael never stopped being a blunt older brother pff

[loveaankilaq]

Fantasy books stop having arctic kingdoms of all blond hair blue eyed white people.

#i just. hate it #its so overdone and kinda racist esp because it always evokes that old nazi idea of an ancient arctic empire of blue eye blond haired peopl #it erased actual arctic indigenous people and is completely untrue #so idk if youre gonna go the arctic route maybe try to learn about actual arctic people because they probably wont be white #fantasy

[courtmartialme]

they got caught in the rain after their date but it's ok !!!

#fullmetal alchemist #fma #riza hawkeye #roy mustang #royai #i've always wanted to draw smth corny abt the rain not bothering roy when hes w riza #he never feels useless if shes w him ! kya #this is probably my best draw of the year .?? with 2 days left of 2023?? wowza

[aviomons]

All of Grian's signs to other Hermit's in this video.

Excluding Mumbo's because it was kind of a diss on the back of his base. I'm so proud of all the Hermits this season, and i'm so excited for season 10. Can't wait for all the amazing things they will do.

#grian #hermitcraft #goodtimeswithscar #tangotek #bdoubleo100 #joe hills #pearlescentmoon #impulsesv #geminitay #ethoslab #keralis #falsesymmetry #vintagebeef #docm77 #zedaph #zombiecleo #let me know if i missed anyone! i probably did lols #i almost didnt get cleos because i didnt take a screenshot of it sobs #anyways. through tears i say goodbye to season 9! my lucky number #i will always love u season 9 <3

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#selfie bee #good evening friends!! how are you doing! C: #I'm very very sleepy I got a new ikea office chair and I build it all myself #I think it went okay! I don't think I pulled the back screw tight enough and now the back is a bit loose #I can probably fix it but I can also ignore it for the next 18 years #thats how long the old chair held up!! in germany it could now drink vodka and drive a car!! #not at the same time that is illegal! not at the same time!! (❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ* #but the day is not over yet my uncle asked me for a big art quest and I do not want to disappoint #he wants a muppet tattoo and asked me to draw it #my uncle has started to get tattoos a few months ago #as far as I know he has now gotten 3 note clefs 3 stars a flower and multiple birds #he also started getting piercings but so far I managed not to know exactly where #I think tattoos are super cool (´｡･v･｡｀) I wish I had a good idea for a tattoo but the last time I was very sure about getting a tattoo #it was heath ledgers face as the joker #at that point I was 12 and would not see the actual movie for two more years #a muppet tattoo is a way better idea!! he asked for the count van count! that is also one of my top 3 muppets ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡ #I always thought I knew a lot about muppet lore but since I started looking up muppet pictures I think there are still a lot of secrets #can the muppets from the Sesame Street actually leave the Sesame Street? #I think Kermit is both on the Muppet Show and on Sesame Street but he is also like the boss muppet #he might have special abilities #I hope you're having a good day friends!! C: #I think I'll post a Sherlock comic later this week #miss you!! ♥♥♥