#and went about my day

[public-trans-it]

I've experienced a lot of horror and trauma in my life. A lot of it has had lasting effects.

At one point I thought that realizing there were other people in my head and not just me was the scariest thing I could ever experience. At the time it certainly was.

Now its... really empty in my head. I didn't realize how much I'm not used to that quiet anymore. And I didn't realize how much I defined myself and my alters by looking at each other and going "I'm not you, so I know which one I am right now, cause I can't be the one talking to me"

But... now it's quiet. And I don't even know which one I am that is the last one left and... I think I have a new scariest experience in my life.

#for those very close to me: I was on autopilot at work earlier #i bought some chocolate and ate it #and went about my day #it didnt even register as noteworthy at the time #talking about myself #maybe its just my amnestic barrier came back... #but im scared even that is just wishful thinking #my memory recall the past few days has been too good for it to be that...

[spiribia]

once you hit adulthood a day will come when you’re suddenly like VEGETABLES 🔥 🔥 🔥 🔥 🔥 and it never goes away

#talks #its not about previously disliking vegetables. #I specified adult just because of the way my body started decomposing and rotting once i went meals without. #also i was just making a joke abt myself getting randomly more into vegetables one day. its really not the kind of one sentence post #that should justify weirdly accusatory assumptions

[beybuniki]

they should go on a fishing trip pt.1

#DONT COMMENT ON THE BACKGROUND I KNOWWWWWWWWWWWW #anyway this is day 1. they take a bus. the bakugo household has fishing gear so ´deku is wearing bakugo's onesoe (?) and bakugo is wearing #his dad's. and notices he has grown :') #anyway they take a BUS and don't feel like doing this at all it's awkward for so many reason #also trying to relax after everything is neurologically just really hard they might be hyperivgilant dik #and there's so much they never got to unpack bnut they have to and they have to start somewhere and with someone #deku makes that flower crown while bakugo preps everything and they both look at it and are thrown back into their childhood 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️ #and at first they just sit and wait for the bavarian fish to bite (rody should make a cameo tbh) but then bakugo breaks the iceeee. #and he starts with their moms because their moms have been such a stubbron connection between these two :') #and deku answers with the usual 'good :) how's your mom :)?' and to everyone's surprise he actually opens up #and tells deku about his mom's insomnia because she watched her son die (that shit was live streamed tpo 10 bnha tweets btw) #idk i love to think of their moms being a very easy subject to connect through i think it's easier for them that way to be more vulnerablei #and then some fish biteeeeeeeeeeee #but like 3 small ones so they have to gather berries and mushrooms and make stew (dw there's an aldi this is bavaria after all) #but yeah day 1 is a bit weird like it's just them in the woods with no distractions #which is so different from whatever went on during their 1st year of high school #don't read this i will throw up i just need this somewhere this is my public scrapbook #bnha #deku #midoriya izuku #bakugo katsuki #the flower crown on their knees makes this a bit homosexual but fishing is always homosexual im not fighting against that #au: #fishing

[slavhew]

hm

#hom3stuck #homestuck #john egbert #jade harley #dirk strider #dave strider #karkat vantas #davekat #lil hal #autoresponder #inspired sketches because i went thru a bunch of artblogs and wanted to be dynamic and artsy too #also love to listen to songs and then try my best to draw something for the duration of it. this isnt quite one of those times but #hey the names matched up nicely #idk man. tonight is a sad about dirk strider day turned into sad about dirk strider night. davekats to make it go down easier #anyways ever think about how a captcha of 13 year old dirk doesnt want to die but the 16 year old version does. #cause i do . plenty. #these seem like sketches ripe to do something with but i dont feel like touching them more so. black and white up they go

[egophiliac]

ENG PLAYERS I BESEECH YOU

I have been informed that you guys are getting part 4 of episode 7 tomorrow, which means we are FINALLY going to get the official romanization of Revaan's name, somebody please tell me because I need to know what it is.

like, yes, it's probably just Revan/Levan, but look, I'm sitting here with my finger over the button of all these Laverne and Shirley jokes and just waiting for the opportunity to deploy them --

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers #(not me realizing that meleanor doesn't actually appear non-silhouetted until part 5 so uhhhhh. whoops.) #(i know a bunch of you read the spoiler-tagged stuff though so i'm putting my life in your hands) #revan would be the funniest one i think because it's just raven but with the vowels switched and i'd be over here going WHAT COULD IT MEAN #anyway i'm here to give the people what they crave and it's obviously references to 70s american sitcoms that spun off of happy days #mork and grimdy. i-is that anything. #the problem of course is now that i might have to actually come up with a bunch of laverne and shirley jokes #when i haven't...actually watched it in a million years #(my personal pool of media i consumed growing up is a good 60% made up of random things i found to watch at 3 am because of insomnia) #(this probably explains a lot about me) (the opinions about zorro adaptations anyway) #hold on let me marathon all eight seasons and -- wait i'm just now finding out there was also an animated series #in which they joined the army and their sergeant was a literal cartoon pig but also they went to space and fought giant gorillas? #but how does boo boo kitty factor into this

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#selfie bee #good evening friends!! how are you doing! C: #I'm very very sleepy I got a new ikea office chair and I build it all myself #I think it went okay! I don't think I pulled the back screw tight enough and now the back is a bit loose #I can probably fix it but I can also ignore it for the next 18 years #thats how long the old chair held up!! in germany it could now drink vodka and drive a car!! #not at the same time that is illegal! not at the same time!! (❁´▽`❁)*✲ﾟ* #but the day is not over yet my uncle asked me for a big art quest and I do not want to disappoint #he wants a muppet tattoo and asked me to draw it #my uncle has started to get tattoos a few months ago #as far as I know he has now gotten 3 note clefs 3 stars a flower and multiple birds #he also started getting piercings but so far I managed not to know exactly where #I think tattoos are super cool (´｡･v･｡｀) I wish I had a good idea for a tattoo but the last time I was very sure about getting a tattoo #it was heath ledgers face as the joker #at that point I was 12 and would not see the actual movie for two more years #a muppet tattoo is a way better idea!! he asked for the count van count! that is also one of my top 3 muppets ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡ #I always thought I knew a lot about muppet lore but since I started looking up muppet pictures I think there are still a lot of secrets #can the muppets from the Sesame Street actually leave the Sesame Street? #I think Kermit is both on the Muppet Show and on Sesame Street but he is also like the boss muppet #he might have special abilities #I hope you're having a good day friends!! C: #I think I'll post a Sherlock comic later this week #miss you!! ♥♥♥

[ionomycin]

Traveller

#artists on tumblr #at it again with the detailed backgrounds #there's something so relaxing about drawing 49285947 leaves #it seems we've kind of skipped the colorful part of autumn here #went straight from summer hot days to winter depression grey #all of my DMs are on hiatus or travelling so no D&D for a couple of weeks #bless them all on their journeys and forays #i hope every DM is having a good day actually #thank u for your service

[captainkirkk]

Concept: Fire Lords traditionally dress like the stages of the sun to match their reign.

When Zuko is first crowned, he dresses in the colours of dawn. Bright yellows and pinks and even purples. He starts to wear more traditional crimson-and-gold robes after a few years, the colours of midday when Agni is at his strongest. And towards the end of his reign, when he's getting ready to pass the crown onto Izumi, he starts dressing like the setting sun.

#i haven't been able to stop thinking about this for DAYS please free me #avatar #atla #i imagine this was something that went out of style with sozin's era #because fire lords refused to wear anything but the colours of midday #because they believed that was the only way to signify that they are strong #anyway i'm just losing my mind at teenage fire lord zuko dressed like the rising sun #my posts #atla headcanons #au ideas

[ccorinthian]

fuck you ageism fuck you life ending at 30 fuck you makeup industry forcing us to feel bad about a natural process fuck you hustle culture fuck you instagram fuck you youtube fuck you glorification and deification of youth fuck you who make people feel bad for not having "achieved anything" in their 20s fuck you people who peaked in high school and try to drag everybody down by insisting it's all downhill after 19

#im not dedicating hours and days and weeks of my 20s of hard work on my mental health to cope w shit i went through #for some bitches on websites to tell me ill shrivel up and die when i hit 30 unless my life is perfect by then #youre not dragging me down to that mindset and i wont let your doom and gloom about turning older make me feel like shit !! #some of us have to rebuild ourselves from ground up and that shit takes time and thats FINE and if you think otherwise fuck off honestly #ageism is such a disgustingly overlooked aspect thats so ingrained in our culture and you need to recognise it #or you'll just feel worse and worse about yourself with every passing day bc guess what baby you cant go back!! #SICK of the negativity surrounding age on this website get yourself the fuck together honestly

[pearl-kite]

I made a pillow!

It took four months of non-stop cross-stitching, but I finally finished a pattern I bought from @8pxl a little bit ago, and tonight in a bizarre burst of productivity I finally sewed a back to it and stuffed it into a cute little pillow! It ended up being pretty much perfectly sized for a neck pillow, but I'm a bit worried about it getting dirty that way.

I highly recommend the patterns from 8xpl's shop, there are SO many gorgeous ones to choose from. I might end up getting another one soon o3o

#cross stitch #embroidery #fiber art #fiber crafts #cross stitching #xstitch #needlepoint #needlecraft #I went so long without drawing because I KNEW if I put this aside for anything I'd nver pick it up again #because that's how I usually am with cross stitch #but I finished it about a month ago and todday for some reason was just the day that I spontaneously finished the rest of thee project #I would have liked to do a nicer pillow #like with that piping kindd of stuff along the edge? #but if I actually waited to get some of that it'd never happen #so super basic straight lines around the edges flip insid out stuff an stitch down the opening #no zippeer #it will NOT be easy to clean so I need to be careful with it #but it is absolutely a perfect neck pillow on the back of my couch right now

[sualne]

sleeping & chatting

#one piece #eustass kid #killer one piece #nami one piece #trafalgar law #my art #undescribed #more sleepover art. im v tired so idk about these. i might go back and redraw the first one some day. couldnt for the life of me draw the #k&k angsty hug properly so i went for a sleepy hug instead. #ps last one isnt meant as ship. lesbian nami truther here. first also isnt really meant as ship (qpp in my heart) but tag how you want

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[mayhemspreadingguy]

Someone was sobbing. After a moment, Anakin realized Oh. That's me. And then his knees were buckling and he was heading for the ground. Obi-Wan caught him. "It's all right. I've got you." -K. Miller

#I haven't read the Clone Wars Gambit - Siege but this quote fits so nicely. My thanks to Magnusbae for helping me to pick the perfect quote. #This background gave me so much grief. -laughs- I painted Obi-Wan and Anakin in a day and then paused for a whole week because I didn't kno #what the hell should I do about the background X'D. It went through so many filters and gradient map changes before I finally settled on th #s. -shudders at the memory of eyes getting burned by bright colors- #mayhem art #obikin #obi wan kenobi #anakin skywalker #star wars #sw art #anakin skywalker fanart #obi wan kenobi fanart #obi wan and anakin

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #matt smith #karen gillan #i miss them so much... #i'm listening to the latest diary of river song #and there's been a lot of 'asking river about her mother' situations and i'm just like ;____; #the story with river and jackie tyler and the krotons was very fun #anyways i'm very tired... my class went on a field trip to the pumpkin patch today #and it was raining all day #but i think they all had fun #ok bye good night friends

[b4kuch1n]

polymer broadcast signal hijack

#pikmin #captain olimar #ft. louie captain shepherd and collin #as well as #moss (pikmin) #watched a stream series of pikmin 4 (its frankenbugs' series) thats what this is about really #but mostly. I just love olimar. I just really enjoy that man #also this really got me flexing those bande dessinée muscles from back thens lol #Ive missed drawin with this kinda proportions... I should do it more #Im gonna draw an olimar to put in my wallet. I need to make my life harder to explain to strangers #I also wanna. add more details to his space suit. make it look more like real life space suit for fun & entertainment #man I enjoy the animals in pikmin so much. they really are just like. animals. theyre animals #its great I love how genuinely bug-lookin the bugs are even with the stylization. pikmin and pokemon are really good at that #would like to learn how to do that... sometimes in the future #oh yeah fun fact. my effort at cleaning up my undercut a few days ago went badly. right before I went to a family reunion thing for 2 days #so I was goin out of my mind at that event postin abt olimar bc I love him #and then. when I got home. I decided to shave my head instead of trying to fix the haircut again #and so the sequence of events becomes I post about olimar -> I enter my bald arc #I am okay with this. have a good night lads. binding books is actually really fun u should try it

[southern--downpour]

#marble hornets #tim wright #timothy wright #tim mh #mh #...i couldnt think of a caption that wasnt just 'AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH' #anyways. can you tell my favorite entry is 65 :) #virgil arts #went back and forth on whether i wanted this to be day time like in the entry or not #still not 100% on that decision but whatever doing darkness is easier #and making a day time sky look overexposed like itd show up on camera is weirdly difficult for me #idk maybe ill do another couple of entry 65 drawings and actually try that out #also this was meant to be perspective + painting practice so if things look weird dw about it <3 #its been so long since i did a full forced perspective drawing and i remember why i dont usually do it!