#apologies for being quiet

[darealsaltysam]

im at my fucking limit oh my god atreus running to kratos to hug him after freeing garm and kratos hugging him back and then letting go and then realizing atreus ISNT letting go and NEEDS comfort and continuing to hug him and asking him what happened and not getting mad or impatient and just letting him know he’s there for him and even as EVERYONE berates him for freeing garm kratos steps in and defends him because he understands how unbearably COMPASSIONATE his son is even for an evil hellhound and telling him they’ll fix this together and how he’s not angry and is only happy that he’s safe and and and and and AND AND-

#IM IN FUCKING SHAMBLES #THAT WHOLE SEQUENCE BROKE ME #and then the two of them in hel being so quiet and gentle with each other #theyre both angry and want to apologize to each other at the same time and all thats coming out is these quiet reassurances of love and care #kratos understands he fucked up and atreus understands he fucked up but now theyre gonna fix that fuck up TOGETHER and its OKAY and #and then kratos is just letting atreus talk about what happened in asgard and being so considerate of everything he tells him #and atreus is so broken and sad and quiet and kratos is trying to draw more out of him but he CANT so hes just hes just trying to be there #for him and. holy shit i need a minute #sony santa monica im gonna need u to pay for my therapy after this #god of war #gow 5 #god of war ragnarok #gow kratos #kratos #atreus #gow atreus #writing this post through TEARS

[legallybrunettedotcom]

ROT AND ASSIMILATE II STAR WARS II YOUTUBE LINK

#my videos #star wars #sw #starwarsedit #empire strikes back #darth vader #anakin skywalker #obi wan kenobi #kylo ren #filmedit #scifi #💾 #📹 #it's almost 7 minutes long i can only apologize i just had this song on repeat and was like actually i must do some damage #i think i would thrive as a fight scene choreographer #also i kinda love the moments in the song that sound like a lightsaber moving #sleaze vid is up next per poll results i just needed to exorcise my demons #ALSO i hope this doesn't make me look like a reylo shipper #i literally couldn't give less of a fuck i am 25 years old #i apologize to everyone who didn't know i was a star wars fan i was just being quiet

[talkethtothehandeth]

Me: I fucking hate everything I don’t get why I’m even alive it’s so pointless I don’t even do anything anymore because my body is breaking down so much that I can barely leave my bed, WHY would anyone want me I can’t deal with this anymore I don’t even know what’s wrong with me I can’t do anything without fucking up im literally the worst person to ever exist i really should just die

*pain medicine kicks in*

Me: oh.

#personal #it was never that serious #chronic illness #arthritis #disabled #scoliosis #chronic pain #ehlers danlos syndrome #yeah pain makes you a little cranky doesn’t it #I forget that and then my brain goes from zero to one hundred because of my bpd it’s so hard to control #but I NEVER accept pain as an excuse to be mean to those around me and apologize immediately if I find myself being snappy #it’s no one’s fault and they overall genuinely want to help me #but I still go 👹 each time it gets too much and the pain dragon 🐉 just unleashes #so I usually tell people I need some quiet time because oh lord #cw suicide

[sparring-spirals]

no this is fine actually this is so fine. you're so tired. you're so tired. you're given images of a beautiful world, visions of a better future, of things peaceful and idyllic and everything you could have, if you're just willing to- stop. step away. be normal again. if. if. if. (the devil is in the details. the devil is in the details of the moon and- whatever. the devil is in the if). you're tired and you've been fighting with what feels like yourself and the world for so long. theres a beautiful vision, theres beautiful promises, theres a promise of peace, of a sure answer. it sounds so appealing. you're so tired.

(your friends are tired too, you know. he looks at you and his arm is tattoed red and heavy, with grief and with the way he fights so hard to protect you all. He has every reason to regret, everything to hate. He has something on his skin that has such different meanings, now.

He says: no, it didnt taint it, not really. its still them. its still him, and will.

its okay that its different than what he thought. everything about his life is different.

it can mean whatever, the red and the white and the moons. people have been making meaning and crying and weeping under them for ages.

its not tainted. its still his.

she looks at you and says. shes worried about you. that she understands the appeal. she understands considering. but theres more unknown unknowns.

she tells you. you have the choice. thats your superpower, more than the other ones you have. you can make whatever choice you make, and ill support you, you understand? you can have peace without making this trade. you can have peace on your own terms, a quiet life. you can have it. you have that choice. you have it. its yours.)

you are so tired. if you could just be normal- if thats what you want. if it could give you what you want. if.

"Our weirdness makes us right."

"the better halves make a better whole. you have to love all of it."

#critical role #cr spoilers #cr liveblogging #imogen temult #c3e49 #ohohohohohoho does this make sense? is this cohesive?? am i being indulgent??? DOESNT MATTER #character meta #my meta #character meta by the thinnest margins tbh this is about me having Queer And Other feelings and i will not apologize for that #probably #imogen meta #narrative meta #....? #🤔 #AAAAAAAAA #and in a way its NOT a choice. you cant CHOOSE to be normal right. but you can choose to embrace the 'weirdness' that IS your choice #the illusion of normalcy and the visions would never manifest and its not your fault. but you can still have that happy ending. #you can still have that quiet life. #you are not what you thought but it does not have to taint it. #what a BEAUTIFUL microcosm of conversations AUGH

[fishy-lava]

ya know having spent the last year living in a trailer has changed my perception of adam parrish a little bit do you gave any idea how silent this kid had to be to avoid getting his ass beat every day? how careful he had to be about all of his movements? you can feel and hear literally everything in a trailer like someone rolls over in their sleep and it shakes the whole thing sometimes and I literally cannot stress enough how you can hear everything both inside and out and it's so stressful sometimes and it gets so fucking hot in the summer and if the heating goes out in the winter it gets so so so cold to the point where really the only difference between outside and inside is that there's no wind inside and honestly this kid's gucking willpower is insane just to keep living in that trailer with his father despite having people who could very easily get him out like i get why he didnt want to leave that but holy shot dude it could have been so much easier if he just did I get why he's such a bitch now

#that last part is said with love #i love adam but he is absolutely a heinous bitch sometimes #i feel like i already had a pretty good understanding of adam because of similar things weve been through but wow #adam probably accidentally snuck up on people all the fucking time because of how quiet he was used to being all the time #like noah levels of just showing up suddenly #adam parrish #trc #the raven cycle #now i kinda wanna write about adam repeatedly scaring the shit out of the others by silently moving around and just kinda popping up #i apologize for all the typos i was very tired when i wrote this

[chenfordspiral]

I don’t get heartbroken over storylines on a TV show very often, but I do over this one.

Because I don’t understand how someone like Lucy can truly love UC (and say it with a smile on her face). Short term, fine. I might be able to get on board with that. But she doesn’t know what it’s like to be gone for months (she said it herself), and how that would impact her and all the people around her. I cannot see a world in which Lucy Chen, the most kindhearted, empathetic, likes-to-take-care-of-the-people-she-loves person ever, would actually love being separated from her family for months (while knowing that at least one person would be hurting the whole time, no matter what he says).

All we’ve seen of her since the season 3 finale makes me believe that she doesn’t actually love UC as much as she says she does. That might just all be wishful thinking on my part, but that’s the vibe I’ve gotten from her for the last two seasons. Did she even talk about UC at all in season 4? But now she’s suddenly so interested in becoming an undercover cop? Does she think she has to do UC and is still pursuing it because of that?

Either way, I don’t get it. Make it make sense, please.

I don’t want to be that person and ask someone, especially a woman, to walk away from a career path for a relationship, but that’s the thing. It’s a path, not the ultimate path to being a successful officer and have a great career in the LAPD. Look at almost everyone around her. Only Nyla and Isabel have gone that route. And we all know what it cost them.

Yes, Tim said Lucy is different. And she is. She wouldn’t bottle it all up the way Isabel apparently did. But that’s not all it is about. No one can guarantee her safety while she’s under. And I think that’s part of why Tim is so scared. He knows she likes UC, knows she’s good at it. Knows she would most likely want to talk things out with him, at least as long as it doesn't reveal too much about the op. But everything has to work out perfectly for her to come back in the first place.

I guess it all boils down to this: they need to have an honest conversation about it. Really honest, no holding back for the other’s sake. And for Lucy to really make an informed decision about UC, she needs to experience a long-term op (and I’m talking months here, not weeks) to know what it’s like. Right now, she’s basing her opinion on all the short-term assignments she’s done and what she thinks she needs to do. She should know whether she really likes long-term or not before fully committing to being an undercover detective. Once she’s a UC, I’m not sure how easy it would be to walk away from it if she only has her first long term op then and realizes it’s not for her.

And let’s not even begin to talk about the other two things. I just don’t understand how she can still do UC with those doc eps. Or how they would make it work for the show in general. They’re already juggling Patrol, Detectives and Metro. How would UC fit in on a weekly basis?!

Anyway. As I said, I don’t get heartbroken over storylines too easily or too often. But this one does things to my heart that I don’t like. Because neither one of them is happy, but they don't talk about it (yet). They're both not being completely honest with themselves, so how are they supposed to be honest with each other?

I don’t want Lucy to compromise something she apparently loves so much. But I also don’t want Tim to compromise himself and go against every single one of his instincts to make her happy. They need to find a balance.

And at the end of the day, he’s her priority, right? When it comes down to it, she would choose him over UC, right? Because he's the most important relationship, and thus most important thing in her life. I'd like to believe she'd make that choice.

Yes. She should do what she loves and is passionate about, but is it worth it if all it does is hurt the person you love the most?

Also, Tim is the most selfless human being ever. We do not deserve this absolute gem of a character. I love how much he loves Lucy. I know I'm kind of contradicting what I said two paragraphs above, but I love his willingness to try and soldier through (no matter how much it hurts him).

I know I'm very emotional right now and it's showing. I just absolutely hate angst and seeing these two hurting because they're not totally honest with each other or pressing the other to be honest is making my heart physically hurt. I know that, with a little distance, I might see things a bit differently. But right now, I'm sad that they're sad and haven't fully talked about the obvious elephant in the room yet.

#chenford #therookie #i clearly have feelings about this and I don't think I'm handling them well #apologies if this sounds totally unreasonable #i'm just a litte sad that it still hasn't been honestly dealt with #but i do have a weird sense of hope that the whole Lucy being UC storyline will be wrapped up soon #and that this was just the beginning of that deeper conversation that needs to happen soon #i hate angst #and need my babies to be happy #anyway #i'll be quiet now.

[ciderjacks]

Weird observation but I just noticed that when Dulcie is talking to Cath (especially in episode 4) her body language changes, sort of subtly, but you can see the way her movements become more awkward (shifting on her feet and clearly not being sure where to look, etc) and how she tries to make herself smaller (sticking her hands into her pockets, hunching down, lowering her head), contrast with how she is around Eddie, where she’s clearly comfortable in taking up the space.

In her fight with Cath, she is very deliberate to stay on her side of the desk, she keeps her voice quiet and controlled for most of it, and even when she has her big “are you kidding me?!” moment, discovering how much Cath lied to her / kept from her about the case, she stays out of Cath’s bubble entirely. after that outburst, despite being angry, she doesn’t confront Cath physically, she instead sits in the corner, hunched over with her arms crossed.

It’s only in the makeup scene, when Cath is apologizing for everything and they’re reconciling, that you see her body language open. When they kiss she reaches for Cath’s face and not her waist, she isn’t hunching, she’s also more firm with Cath too and in that scene Cath actually listens to her.

Also Kate Box should receive a million billion awards and one hundred thousand dollars

#deadloch #Usually you see this body dynamic shown when it’s an abusive relationship #And while at the point we see them Cath is definitely not being a great partner to Dulcie #Shes not abusive or controlling #In fact she clearly wants Dulcie to come out of her shell and enjoy life more too #In their case Dulcie’s body language is probably more the manifestation of her feeling real soul eating shame for the Sydney incident #She clearly feels like she’s lost the right to Cath’s love and is trying to make up for it by letting Cath lead in every single way #No matter how miserable it makes her #She doesn’t feel like she has the right to be an equal in their relationship anymore so she hunches down and stays quiet #And this isn’t helped by Cath constantly affirming this feeling by holding what happened over her head and using it to guilt her #Into doing things #thats why in the fight while she is definitely still closed off her outburst is probably the most open we see her with Cath at that point #And why in the scene when Cath apologizes she opens up bc it’s at that point she realizes that they’re back to being equals #And Cath doesn’t want her to be unhappy or have to fold herself for her #character analysis #i guess #i like body language

[paintedscales]

chilling at glitter hall with the partner. :>

#i have to apologize for being mostly quiet #i'm at a mental impasse of wanting to be at social / rp events #but also being reluctant to engage in rp after some hard decisions in recent time

[pharawee]

I won't leave you. You're not alone, Name. You have me [...].

» BONUS:

Mom. I feel sorry for Name.

#remember me #remember me the series #emname #title teshin #man supakrit #remembermeedit #thai bl #thai drama #bl drama #bl series #my edits. #i'm still trying to wrap my head around the 'helping you overcome your fears' thing #and the whole apology for the girl who called name 'mute' felt like an excuse #(but to be fair I think in the ov em told the girl name 'didn't speak' instead of being 'quiet') #(so calling him 'your mute friend' probably was said in carelessness rather than with malicious intent) #(which doesn't change how it was received but at least she apologised by proxy i guess) #i'm also a bit 🫤 about em suddenly spending all of his time with name again like nothing happened #but sometimes you won't realise what you have until something bad happens so... #but em's still the only one who really gets name #who doesn't treat his inability to speak like it's a flaw #who's always been there to listen #who feels so much for name that he thinks that he's got to be the strong one #oh this better have a happy ending #i want to see name reach out to em for once

[space-mantis]

every time i see someone infantilising sun i double down and make it more unhinged, normalise how canonically sun has a pretty wild temper and will hold grudges for a long time after (even against children, yes)

yeah sun is nice in general but it really doesn't take that much for it to change especially if sun feels it's justified

#mantis mumbles #fnaf sb #temperamental sun tag #like imo the virus makes the animatronics personalties x10 more extreme #like vanny def tampered with sun and moon too there is a lot of evidence that says she did which i've mentioned b4 (especially for moon) #so core parts of sun's personality are being playful fun and a bit anxious (which is true for moon too) #but the major part imo is how angry sun actually is bc it stands out so much more to me than the other stuff and is extreme in comparison #however moon is just like playful friendly and quiet #they're like 'oh it looks like it's past your bedtime time for sleepy sleep!! also look at my funny walk <3' *waves at you* #apologies for tag rant im thinkin again 😔 #those are my fave parts about sun honestly

[heartslight]

sora does come back from quadratum a little different but the biggest change is that he loses the mindset that self-sacrifice is a necessary requirement to achieve a better future for everyone. anytime there's a mission or a problem, it's either we go together or we don't go at all. he becomes adamant on that, you cannot change his mind.

#smaller differences is that he gets quiet more frequently #lost in thoughts lost in memories #some days it's just a little hard to stay in touch with reality! #the company of his friends really helps during those days just to reinforce the truth that he's THERE #he's not stranded in another reality he's not the dead among the living he's back home he's IN the realm of light again #another difference? he's more openly selfish! leans more into the 'darkness' within his heart and does things for his benefit #he goes out of his way to spend more time with his friends! acknowledges the hurt he's caused and tries to not apologize as often #living in that grief doesn't benefit anyone #it truly took him being just completely WIPED from existence for him to really appreciate the life and the friends he's been given but ykno #better late than never! #'you can't save everyone' 'you cant go against destiny' yes he can. he can and he will and his friends will be right beside him #and then they'll all go home #✧ ˚ · . ✦ STATION OF AWAKENING. #sora coming back from quadratum like maybe the it really is about the friends we make along the way...

[munamania]

i won’t apologize for being a hater. seeing comments on chappell roans posts about being too hypersexual and needing to dial it down (mmm dial what down. say it very explicitly to me. what is making you uncomfortable in your own very clear words) and directly contrasting it with renee rapp just made me not like that girl even more i’m sorry! maybe she should try not being an annoying blonde bi girl who only seems to hang out with other blonde bi girls making mediocre pop. whoops

#is my opinion on her subject to change sure maybe and if you like her by all means don’t let me being mean take that away from you #but that was just. the quiet part out loud. renee is accessible and still not so visibly overtly queer but enough to be like #Tehe girls are sooo pretty #and um cater to that sort of crowd. chappell you have to love and celebrate and embrace queerness wholeheartedly #it’s making me sooooo mad like chappells music is so representative of the fun flirty ways EYE like to express myself #and has made me feel comfortable in that literal sexuality part of my sexuality. and ur gonna sit here and put her down in favor of… #i can’t like i can’t i’m sorry i want to watch that show and you know how much i want to support women and queer women specifically #so yeah again i’d keep my mouth shut in the general public but that fucking brand of sapphic queer Will Not Say The Word Lesbian vibe of #person. i can’t stand you. #you are a traitor to dykes everywhere and you need to do a lot of work. not saying that’s all her fans but WHATEVER i’m not qualifying my #stupid complaining right now it’s my blog #abby talks #this is giving smith college problem and i accept that #and general blanket apology for comparing two queer things when u know there r so many more serious issues in the world #however i’m here to complain about whatever the hell is annoying me. so.

[hopetorun]

i love my wonderful friends for so many reasons but one of the reasons is that we understand the value and importance of having points in the day where everyone sits quietly and looks at their phones for a little while

#anyway my apologies to anyone sending me asks i am simply being dragged from pillar to post for the next 2 days #i like this side of my family so much they are thoughtful and interesting and curious about the world #and oh my god i need them to have more quiet times

[true-blue-sonic]

Do you think there's any topic that could have Espio and Silver devolve into genuine fighting? Mayhaps not under normal circumstances, but maybe if Silver were to be particularly stressed and ended up completely cracking under the pressure, he might be more willing to get into a loud fight

I think Silver's brashness and self-sacrificial nature is something that he and Espio can bicker over, to the point wherein it becomes a full argument. Silver is reckless: he is in over his head without even knowing it, he's got full faith in his abilities, and logical thinking and ensuring his own protection are not his strong suits. And while Espio knows that Silver's PK and spirit are both tremendously strong, he dreads the day wherein a foolish mistake might cost Silver his life. But Silver argues back that he needs to fight to ensure the world is protected and doesn't care about putting himself on the line, and so far it has always gone just fine and he has recovered from any injury he ever sustained! It is one of the very few topics that can result in a genuine fight between the two of them. Espio's temper here plays a huge role as well: if he saw Silver nearly perish before his very eyes, he is not going to remain his calm and collected self once the battle is over. Similarly, if Silver is still high on adrenalin and suddenly he's getting yelled at about being careless (which I figure is a huge kicker for him because he takes pride in the extremes he's willing to go to to protect the world), he will respond in kind. They'll manage to work it out between the two of them, because Espio eventually puts a stop to their fight and just grabs Silver by his scruff to go patch him up, acting as if the other's hissing and glaring are leaving him cold (they aren't). It could definitely take a few hours before either is willing to go back to talking more civilly!

#once things have calmed down they are absolutely able to think about each other's perspectives #but when they're hardly two minutes out of a battle it is NOT a good idea to have discussions like that #and I think Silver also does not *want* to talk about it because for him it is highly important that the world remains protected #and I think he can absolutely rationalise in his mind that he is less important than the world and so it is alright if he suffers- #-if it means the world is safe because of it #Espio does NOT AT ALL agree but this is one topic wherein Silver's stubborn thick-headedness is not easily swayed #silver the hedgehog #espio the chameleon #espilver #to resolve it Espio would go in with an apology about yelling and ask Silver if he's willing to talk it over #(Silver is not but he hates being mad at Es and having Es be mad at him so he says yes) #and with lots of gentle prodding and quiet conversing they try to work it out between the two of them

[rat-rosemary]

"Why is Dream beefing with Tommy"

MOTHER FUCKER THE MAN HASN'T EVEN SAID ANYTHING????

#sorry. sorry #i shouldnt yell #but like. you guys wanted him to stay quiet hes being quiet now! #but somehow hes 'beefing' with Tommy by not saying anything yet #hes allowed to be mad! its a shitty joke about how he and his family got doxxed and stalked #dreamwastaken #discourse #the dog barks #tommy situation #tommyinnit #and tommy is not a kid anymore. he can think before he posts and he can apologize for fucking up without someone holding his hand #controversy

[oculusxcaro]

Hi there, everyone! Not going to be on much tonight and tomorrow - I have a surprise hospital visit first thing in the morning that'll almost definitely knock me on my ass and I've got an 8 hour shift to look forwards to which uhh, won't be fun.

#🌈 || ooc #;; delete later #;; mun bullshit #I got the call suddenly and it's fucked with my 'tism so much #And it's an invasive procedure too being a lymphogram so I'm kind of shitting bricks rn #Apologies if I go quiet or not very chatty asdfghjkl #I got that in the morning and working from 4 until midnight reeeeeee #Lymphograms sound painful too but ehh has to be done #I know I shouldn't complain bc the NHS can be super slow but I'd have liked a little more advance warning than less than 24 hours #Got to wing in work also and FUCK