#autistic childhood

[helen-magpies]

Little rant:

Don't you all just hate it when your family say that you should lie, be manipulative, get a better attitude, have a nicer tone, stop rolling your eyes, stop being aggressive, stop yelling, and overall just berate you about being autistic and acting autistic because you are autistic and they refuse to listen to you when you say that you are autistic? I try to explain that i cant hear my tone, i dont roll my eyes, i physically cant lie, i refuse to be manipulative, im not yelling im just slightly raising my voice out of excitement or passion or frustration, im not aggressive im just unmasking...they say i just need to "learn" to essentially mask better...literally related to idiots :/

I am so sick of this ablism!

I am so sick of getting introuble for unmasking and being myself, im so tired of being lectured for my "attitude" and autistic traits. Im so angry at continuously being called weird because i dance like a bug, screech like a pterodactyl and call out unjust and harmful behaviours in others! I AM SO ANGRY AT THIS STUPID HIERARCHICAL SYSTEM I DON’T CONFORM TO! I WILL NOT CONFORM TO YOUR IDIOTIC SOCIAL NORMS!!

GENDER ISNT REAL! FEMINITY AND MASCULINITY ARENT REAL! SITTING PROFESSIONALLY ISNT REAL! NOT MAKING EYE CONTACT BECAUSE ITS RUDE ISNT REAL! MAHAHAHA YOU CANT STOP THE AUTISM! WE WILL DESTROY THIS STUPIDITY >:D

#actually autistic #asd #autism #autistic adult #autistic community #autistic experiences #autistic things #nerodivergent #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #rant post #rant #autistic traits #autistic trauma #autistic females #autistic struggles #autistic children #autistic childhood

[saturnniidae]

Shout-out to young child me who was an autistic freak that had an incredibly poor grasp on gender while simultaneously hating men so much I couldn't accept having male favorite characters so I just convinced myself they were all masc girls 👍

#hiccstrid was lesbian to me #hiccup haddock #<- butch to young me #ash ketchum #yeah #lukas mcsm #no explanation #james team rocket #no not bc he cross dressed. he was just Like That to young me #gym leader clemont #saw clemont and was like 'hell yeah weird science girl!' and refused to agknowledge anything else. #autistic childhood #autism stuff #pokeani #httyd #htthd shitpost #i still sometimes come crawling back to thr butch hiccup lesbian hiccstrid hc for comfort even tho to me theyre mostly t4t m/f and bi #does thaf make sense? #probably not #whatever #lesbian #autistic lesbian #moth.txt

[enbycrip]

If any parents of autistic kids are reading testimony from autistic adults about how damaging ABA is, and wobbling because their doctor told them “ABA is the best ‘evidence-based’ therapy”, then please feel free to read this collection of peer-reviewed scientific sources, testimonies from autistic people subjected to ABA, and former BCBAs who have realised how abusive their practice actually was, on how deeply damaging and abusive ABA actually is and how it increases CPTSD and suicidal ideation in autistic people.

https://neurodiversenby.wordpress.com/2021/04/30/aba-is-abusive-evidence-and-testimonies/

We know there are parents in awful situations from courts etc who have no choice in their child being forced into ABA, and that BIPOC parents are terrified their autistic child will be killed by law enforcement if they are not compelled to mask.

This is not intended to add additional guilt to people in survival situations. It is a fact of the intersectional disableism our society is full of that the more marginalisations anyone has, the more likely you are to have less choice in what happens to you and your kids, and to face choices between awful situations.

It is there to give everyone *more* information to combat the deadly misinformation that the *very* well-funded ABA lobby pays to entrench within the medical-industrial complex.

To give you information if you are a parent who has money and privilege to choose services for your child. And to bring to a doctor or a court who has not heard or considered information from survivors or the growing body of scientific evidence about the long term effects of ABA if you do not have these privileges. Especially for BIPOC parents, for autistic parents, for female-read parents in court situations, who are already marginalised and need all the extra “weapons” to fight for your child’s safety you can get.

There’s also information in there on the links between ABA and “LGBTQIA2S+ conversion therapy”. Yes, they were created by the same person and are basically the same thing. They are both *incredibly* abusive and incredibly dangerous for long term mental health. Autistic folk are more likely to be queer, particularly trans umbrella, than the rest of the population, so if you are the cishet parent of an autistic child you need to be aware of this in advance and be ready to support your kid in who they are.

#aba is abuse #autism #autistic adult #autistic childhood #aba #aba is autistic conversion therapy #intersectional disableism #cptsd #suicidal ideation #peer reviewed sources #bipoc autistics #autistics are more likely to be queer esp trans

[lifeonkylesfarm]

each year I sense more strongly that autistic childhood is so inherently traumatizing because of ableism that a truly untraumatized autistic person is an essentially impossible find.

#autistic pride #autistic spectrum #being autistic #autistic blogger #autistic brain #autistic community #autistic culture #autistic children #autistic childhood #autistic acceptance #autistic and proud #actually autistic #autistic stimming #autistic life #autistic trauma #autistic tumblr #autistic thoughts #autistic things #autism activism #autism acceptance #autism appreciation #autism acceptance month #autism experiences #autism community #fuck autism speaks #autism pride #autism is not a disease #autism is a spectrum #autism unmasking #autism thoughts

[finnslay]

"I don't have autism. I can do small talk great!"

Me at age 8 in the mirror:

*Okay, first start off with hello. No, you'll seem to formal. Hey. Let's go with hey.*

"Hey"

*Okay, now ask how they are too seem polite*

"How are you?"

*if they say they're good, say that's good. And eye contact. Long enough to see the color of their eyes.*

That's good.

*say you're good too so they don't ask*

Yeah, I'm good.

*Ask a simple question*

So what's your favorite color?

*And another*

Do you have any siblings?

*more eye contact. Count to three. Ask them what they like to do*

#autism #its the neurodivergency #neurodivergency #actually autism #actually neurodivergent #actually neurodiverse #autism awareness #audhd #autism things #autism thoughts #autistic childhood #making scripts for conversations so i dont come off as rude #being seen as rude was one of my bigest fears #scripting was the cure #i have to plan it out in my head #it was the autism all along

[ashethewitch]

Any other autistic person who watched backyardigans as a kid didn’t realize the whole point of the show is that Theyr imagining the plot until an embarrassingly late age? I didn’t realize it until my little brother watched reruns of it when I was 10 and It was like: “wait they weren’t actually pirates/wizards/castaways???? What the hell???”

is this an autism thing? Or am I just stupid

#the backyardigans #autism #autistic #childhood #autistic childhood #nostalgia

[thefiresofpompeii]

on the train journey home from visiting the town i spent 4 infuriating years going to secondary school in. hadn’t been back once since late 2019. still feels like a casual visit to hell. the most horrific part of it all? nothing there’s changed, at all, apart from maybe a few shopfronts. the toy store’s still in the same place, the coffeeshops all in their rightful order, the traffic lights in the familiar spots and gaggles of schoolgirls standing chatting along the pavements in the same uniform they’d — we’d — worn all those infinite lifetimes ago.

five years isn’t a lot, but a lot can happen in five years. a lot of reconsideration and reconciliation and forgetting. forgiveness, maybe, because holding a grudge against your teachers and peers back from when you were all a bunch of spoiled kids is an exercise in futility.

still found myself stepping warily and with caution as i approached the school building itself, the black tiling of its roofs looming over the little street. too genre aware for a character in a realist story, i half expected to slip through some unseen crack in time and find myself face-to-face with my awkward, dishevelled younger self, her uneven pigtails and tangled wire headphones, her too-long pleated skirt and ungainly walk, probably trailing on the sidewalk behind two friends, firmly deluding herself into believing that she’s part of an indivisible ‘trio’.

but i must have missed her. must have arrived too late. didn’t get the chance to hug her and tell her, “nothing’s wrong with you. it doesn’t get better for us, not really, but we make do, find new ways to deal with the fact that we’ll never be quite seen as human by the people around us. in my time — you still don’t have many true friends, you still dream of escape, still fictionalise and romanticise the everyday to cope with the knowledge that there’s no-one coming to save us. but we survive. we live. the future’s still ahead of us and there will be many beautiful moments. that’s what’s important, so keep holding on to that hope, baby”. and then she’d yell at me or hit me and run away to catch up with her “friends”, loudly complaining about “that crazy bitch back there” to impress them

but none of that happened. no temporal gaps, no magic, no horror. no ghosts but the ones that refuse to come out yet hide in every dark corner. haunting the sports field. the chapel. the benches in assembly hall. beckoning into a cursed past you never want to revisit.

i ran as fast as my legs could take me. sprinted all the way down the shadowed footpath back to the station to take me away. and i swear i could hear cruel laughter follow

#guess this place is just my public diary now #jamie.txt #autofiction #kinda?? #haunting #ghosts #autism #autistic childhood #actually autistic #bullying

[rebeccawritesbooks]

I LOVE MY CHILD LIKE STIMS!

I spent my whole life suppressing my child like stims in fear of judgement, and ridicule and I was bullied enough during school I didn’t want to give them another reason.

But since being diagnosed with Autism & ADHD, I’ve realised how important those stims are to me, and to let myself do those stims is in a way setting younger me free, setting her free into a world full of love and acceptance.

For me: I dance, and jump up a down in the same spot, or in a circle, a flap my arms and more… and all of these make me happy, and I will not be ashamed or discouraged to do them or to share them!

What are you’re favourite childhood stims?

If you like my work and want to support me as an autistic and adhd creator, then cash app & Kofi is in my linktree ( https://linktr.ee/neurodivergentwriter )

#ActuallyAutistic #autistic #neurodiversewomen #autisticme #neurodivergent #autistic adult #autistic adhd #autistic and proud #autistic childhood #autism awareness #autism acceptance #autistic pride #autistic me #stims #autistic stimming

[toffee-zilla]

Ok so I just remembered something

My family would always repeat a story from when I was younger to enforce the fact I was a "problem child"

One day, we were doing errands and iw as with my aunt and grandmother, who I thought was my mom (long story) and I got hungry (I was around 5 to 6 at this time) so they took me to taco bell to get me a taco

They specifically ordered it without lettuce because younger me hated the purple lettuce and associated all lettuce with that terrible texture of that lettuce I hated

But the employee still put lettuce on it and I refused to eat the taco since it had lettace

My aunt told me to just take the lettuce off but I couldn't because I didn't want to so she fuckong chucked the taco put the window and told me to starve

Realizing it was my texture issues and sensory issues with lettuce that prevented me from eating the taco

And I had many other issues like this with food when I was younger so now I'm question how many family doesn't belive I'm autistic when they "are so educated because their son is a high function autistic" when im suffering because the spund of an automatic toilet makes me want to cry

Fuck me ig

#actuallyautistic #autistic childhood #why did they not realized this #how ignorant are they #im autism #autistic meme

[digestive]

Anyone else besides me and my undiagnosed family members that feel comfort in watching stand up comedy due to the easy to read social cues that began as a mild obsession back in teenage years to help the feeling of transitioning out of childhood and realising that the world is less forgiving to someone whos autistic and now you can't play down the strange habits that only you seem to have and can't follow along with conversations so you watch these shows and follow along with the out of date references to feel a sense of belonging with people cause it's easier to react to these clips compared to real life?

#autism #autistic #autism symptoms #autistic adult #autistic children #autistic childhood #being autistic #autistic things #autistic feels #also thia but with scripts and/or acting as well #comedy #stand up #stand up comedy

[probablyaseamonster]

Top 3 mid-to-late 2000s animated movie protagonists that I realized were super autistic-coded later in life:

1) Mumble Happy Feet

2) Remy Ratatouille

3) Flint Lockwood Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs

(honorary mentions goes to Sam Sparks Cloudy, Alfredo Linguine Gusteau Rat, and Will the Krill)

please debate me

#autistic headcanon #animated movies #2000s kids #happy feet #happy feet 2 #ratatouille #cloudy with a chance of meatballs #there has to be an abbreviation for that last one #please the allegories are strong and i want to discuss with friend #autistic childhood #like if you agree

[saturnniidae]

Dear animal jam user Macky28, aka my 5th grade online gf (if ur not her this isn't for u) I'm sorry for lying about my gender (that arctic wolf wasn't my 'sister' it was just my 'girl' account) and cheating on you with some random guy on my alt by role-playing warrior cats with him and following him whilst spamming the blushing and heart eyes emotes.

It is unlikely you will ever see this, but if you do, hope you can forgive me for my foolish 10y/o selfs actions and I wish you well in these trying times.

#shout out to aj online fake dating for helping kids figure out their orientation 😭🙏 #i had two accounts one id pretend to ne a girl to 'date' boys and the other id pretend to be a boy to 'date' girls 💀 #fr helped me figure out im repulsed by guys #lesbian #autism #animal jam #autistic childhood #queer childhood #its almost 7am and ive not slept yet someone sedate me #moth.txt

[blackmoonrose13]

This is for @enby-scientist Whose tags in a post link here I wanted to answer but I didn't want to derail the point of the post

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I saw a ticktock of someone who was getting orthopedics for their autistic child

Because he waled on his toes???? Hello What

So Yes I can confirm this is a thing. This is a thing that has been around since the 90s AT LEAST

I am autistic have been walking on my toes for a very long time, only time I am flat footed is when I wear my work boots...some times.

Now in the 90s (I was not diagnosed till like 2006-2007) I was about 6? single digits in age. I was at my doctor's office and the doctor noticed me walking around on my toes and then said. "You need to make her stop doing that or she is going to be forced to have surgery done on her" Basically threatened with surgery if I didn't stop doing the thing.

Now little me hearing that kinda spooked the crap out of me cause come on even as a little kid the idea of surgery is scary. So if the doctor was also talking about orthopedics for me I don't know.

Now there is also a period of time where I was told to stop walking on my toes if I was seen up on them people would yell "Heels" at me...ugh let's not unwrap that bs.

But for me at least as a 30 something disabled adult who still does walk on her toes, My Tendons are fine, I had them scanned a while back nothing was wrong.

So me hearing there are tiktok parents, and those social media parents wanting to put their autistic kids they most likely use for content and clout in orthopedics to make them stop walking on their toes...especially if they are little boys and oh god the layers of bs that is. It's not shocking me at all which sucks. I don't get why people want these picture perfect things...and like you said in later tags that I forgot to ad. Unless it is causing major health issues they shouldn't be "perfected" or "fixed"

#growing up autistic #autistic childhood

[lifeonkylesfarm]

this month is for all the autistic people who went through trauma because of ableism.

#autistic kids #autistic children #autistic people #autistic pride #autistic spectrum #autistic positivity #autistic things #autistic community #autistic acceptance #autistic and proud #actually autistic #autistic experiences #autistic representation #autistic rights #being autistic #autistic blogger #autistic brain #autistic culture #autistic childhood #autistic stimming #autistic life #autistic love #autism activism #autism blog #fuck autism speaks #autism pride #autism #autism experiences #autism positivity #autism masking

[amyyythestarry]

Autism Bingos

I have some more feedback!!

So when I was 5 months I used to watch this learning show all the time and would repeat the same phrases from the show a lot even, when not even watching it. The show expanded my vocabulary.

I used to watch whatever show my father watched, like football or the flash or any other sport show.

Toe walking.

But that’s it. I didn’t ask my mother about the meltdowns, nonverbal episodes, or stimming bc I thought she’d be on to something. 😅

Also, I didn’t fill in the echolalia, “autism traits change with age”, acts deaf, doesn’t respond to own name, and doesn’t act interested in others but it was supposed to be filled in.

Hope u all r having a wonderful day and enjoy my post.

#autism tag #autism stuff #self diagnosed autism #neurodivergent tag #neurodiverse stuff #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #funny childhood #autistic childhood #autistic child #neurodivergent childhood #autism bingo

[specks-of-time]

#oh..okay #this just explained like 80% of my childhood trauma #neurodivergent #autism #actually autistic #autistic #sensory issues