#be the change you want there to be in the world... yeah but i dont know if im brave enough for that yet

[mins-fins]

pearls.

&&. its easy to let go around you, mark is so glad he has you as an escape.

pairing: mark lee x m!reader

genre: angsty but it ends fluffy, idol x regular joe

warnings: mentions of overworking

word count: 1.4k

notes: wrote this for the n01 markf ever in the world!!!! if yk who you are, yk who you are 🫶 anw, i am so terribly in love with mark this is absolutely vile 🙁 save me from this insanely pretty canadian man (DONT SAVE ME), if you can forgive me for not updating for literally TEN DAYS, take this as my apology.. i am so so very corny so those little ending love confessions come from real words i have said to my own very real bf 😞 again sorry for not updating for very long my knee is pretty injured AND life is so shitty.. okay i love you all bye 😓

you won't try to come up for an explanation as to why you were up at one in the morning.

yeah you were tired, but you were still up making coffee in your kitchen. your mind was racing with thoughts of work, god your job stresses you out so much, it's going to end up killing you one day, you can't close your eyes without hearing the loud shouting of your manager and overbearing customers who think they own the world.

sleep has never came easy to you, so coffee at one in the morning it is. the aroma of roasted beans makes it's way around the air of your kitchen, a smell that has become a staple of comfort to you, yeah the excessive coffee intake might kill you someday, but right now? right now you felt like you were in heaven.

your coffee drinking is interrupted by a knock at your day, your head shoots up like your a deer caught in headlights, and you blink at the unmoving wooden door of your unit. you're not expecting anyone, and especially not at one in the morning. your mind races with questions as you place the heated mug onto your kitchen counter, groaning silently as you make your way over to the door.

you can't think of who could possibly be at your door, maybe your manager? one of your coworkers? a guy from amazon delivering a package originally for your neighbors?

the last option seems like the most probable one, so when you open your door, you prepare a small sentence for the delivery person you expect to be at your door. "for the last time unit 17 is on the second floo—"

you pause as you open the door, it is not a random delivery guy from amazon. when you look up to meet the eyes of the person who had knocked on your door, you come face to face with a person you had missed more than anything.

mark.

you find a small smile coming to your face at the sight of your boyfriend, but your smile falls as you take in how he looks. his eyes are red and puffy, he's fidgeting with his sweater strings, and he's bitten his lips so hard that they've begun bleeding. your lips turn downward at the sight before you, he looks stressed, he looks miserable.

"oh god, hi babe, i didn't even know you'd come around".

mark blinks at you, continuing to fidget with the strings of his sweater, the sweater he's wearing is one you bought for him back last year when you went on that trip to vancouver. "sorry" he whispers, blinking again. "i just— i don't know i feel overwhelmed".

you tilt your head, immediately getting what he meant by that. you open your door wider, pausing mark's fidgeting momentarily to grab his left hand to intertwine it with yours. "come in" you don't wait for his response, just tug his hand gently, lurching him forward into your unit and smoothly closing the door behind you.

you catch on to mark's heightened anxiousness, but he seems to be want to be avoiding that topic as much as possible. "did something happen?"

mark is quick to shake his head, way too quick, you narrow your eyes at him and his weird change in behavior. "no, nothing, i'm just.. work, it's all becoming just a little too much for me".

ah, a small frown forms again on your lips. mark is a hardworking person, you know that, but it sometimes all gets to his head, those unbearable thoughts that he's not doing well enough, the unbearable feeling of anxiety that settles whenever he thinks about his future as a musician, the feeling that he's not doing enough even though he already does so much.

you hate that this has become a familiar sight. a distressed mark with tears welled up in his eyes, clearly trying his best to stay put together as he stood in front of your door, each time, it seemed to be getting worse and worse.

you've seen mark at so many of his lows, many more than you like to count, and just the thought of him feeling like he isn't doing enough upsets you.

you're not thinking about anything else when you step forward, not your untouched coffee on the counter, not your shitty job, nothing but making mark feel better. your arms wrap around him instinctively, and you loop your left arm around his waist to pull him into a hug, a hug he doesn't try to fight.

you hear a small sniffle leave mark as you tighten your hold on him, a few years escape his eyes, wetting the top of your sleeve, but you don't care, much too busy embracing him. "i'm sorry, i'm so sorry" your words are nothing but a small whisper in the expanse of your apartment, as if a secret shared only between the two of you, but mark hears your words well, he hears everything he has to. you raise and press a kiss to his forehead, an act of affection that just makes mark even more emotional than he expected.

"you shouldn't have to feel like this, you work so hard, you do so much.."

your mutters only get a small chuckle in response, and you just snicker as well.

mark has always found it easy to let go around you, it's been a staple of your relationship since forever, even before you began dating. around you, he doesn't feel like he has to put on a show, he doesn't have to live up to all of these unrealistic expectations. with you, he doesn't have to be world famous idol mark lee, he doesn't have to be star trainee mark lee, he doesn't have to be perfect, flawless mark lee.

with you, mark can let go, he can just be himself.

mark has no idea what he'd do without you.

when you pull away, arms still caged around mark, he doesn't let go immediately, head still pressed against your shoulder.

nothing else matters at the moment to you. so, instead of trying to move away from him, you let him begin moving you backward, you just allow for him to, lightly squeaking when he pushes you onto the couch and quickly moves to lay on top of you.

you giggle at his dedication, but he doesn't say anything more, just wraps his arms around you and lays his head onto your chest, listening to the beating of your heart. "you tired?"

mark just nods against your chest, letting out a small sigh as he cracks one eye open to glance at you. "y/n?"

"hm?"

"i love you.." he mutters, grabbing your hand and lacing his fingers with yours. "love you so much, i'm so happy i have you".

you laugh. "mark—"

"hush" he places a finger against your lips, cutting off your oncoming words. "let me finish" he gives a tired smile as he continues.

"i can't believe how lucky i am to have you, your always here taking care of me and i.. i can never figure out how to repay you, you're one of the best things to ever happen to me, everything becomes much more bearable with you, i love you so so much it's literally driving me crazy".

you blink as you listen to mark pour his heart out to you. he has always been like this, oh you're so in love, even at some of his lowest points, he never fails to remind you that he loves you, and that he feels so deeply for you. his words always strike you in a strange place, they always get a smile and red face out of you.

oh mark lee always knows how to leave you speechless.

"hey" you whisper, noticing mark slowly looking away from you. "you don't have to repay for me for anything, i'm your boyfriend, i'm always going to look after you because you're wellbeing is important to me, and don't start with all of that, you're one of the best things to happen to me".

mark snorts silently. "love you".

"love you more".

mark leans closer, moving his soft hand against yours. "i know" he whispers.

you run your fingers through his hair, slowly coaxing him to sleep with your ministrations.

"good".

#mark lee #nct #nct 127 #nct dream #nct u #mark nct #nct imagines #nct drabbles #nct scenarios #mark lee imagines #mark lee drabbles #mark lee scenarios #mark lee x reader #nct x reader #mark lee x male reader #𑁍 ࣪˖ 𓂃 isa's works!

[angellurgy]

squeak

#when i am gone it will be no more impactful than a tree falling in a forest with no one to hear it. #my death will have a meaninglessly small impact on this world. maybe it'll have a larger impact on the incorporeal. #there is something in my soul. something hungry. a serpent of unstoppable magnitude held captive in my stomach. #it wont stop until it or i kill us both will it? like a cancer. #im so deeply sorry im so bad at responding to everyone's kind messages. even more so sorry for what will eventually happen next #i have some plans. to excise this tumor that is myself. to rid the world of this putrid filth girl who is nothing but a drain on her compan #we'll see what happens. at least i got my body to a point of self approval before. at least i tried music. at least i tried to be me. #even if it changed nothing. at least im more secure in my being. if only the people around me werent so emotionally far. if only we cld tal #if only i could live with my self approval instead of loving and wanting so dearly. instead of having a mind corrupted by love #and friendship #i was so much. i know you all barely know anything about me in reality. if i asked any you'd probably just list off kinks and species. #but still. ty those who'll remember yk... #and as backup. if it doesnt work. well. please dont hate me. im just a girl who needs out. and cant keep her thoughts inside more #i hope i can be happy in the afterlife. i hope i can see these angels and maybe be one myself. #gonna put a post on top of this to hide it from brand new ppl lookjng at my blog. bc yeah. you all dont need to hear all of this #its the last one of these for this period either way #god i wish i couldve gone to toronto. i want to so bad still. god. why did i have to realize my hopelessness now of all times #bye

[leafeonb]

sometimes i think about the armor they're a little sad

#i like that their story is just a concept but i keep thinking of the possibilities #i want to give them friends i had this concept for a character who makes/fixes armor pieces that would be a friend of the armor for a long #time already but also idk if the armor goes around telling people they're actually empty or if thats something noticeable or not... maybe #only friends or people they want ro scare the shit out of see that (help) #the armor is kind of funny to me because they went through basically all stages of grief they're chill now but at some point they were #kind of an asshole scarying people in dungeons and doing pranks and stuff (HELP) so sometimes they look back and its like #that wasnt even them because it was so long ago and they probably dont even have the pieces of armor they used to have at that time #the armor of theseus... talking so much about ocs these days its how you know i have other stuff to do but theyre haunting me #actually ive been thinking about this one other old oc story and slightly changing parts that one is the true oc story of theseus #to me because i keep changing it. but also this time im like why didnt i add this thing here... i need it... #like when you give a character a specific trait and now because of that they mean the world to you yeah 🫶 #lulu.txt #thinking about ocs. blows up it feels embarrassing sometimes so tumblr post not even about the ones that are making me blow up

[batcavescolony]

I'm back talking about Harry Potter and Snape's worst memory because while I hate the author y'all bug me.

Snape worst memory isn't James bulling him or string him up in front of the school, (that was bad I'm not saying it wasn't) it was Lily ending her friendship with him because he called her a Mudblood. With evidence.

To prove my point we have to go read the Deathly Hallows when Snape gave Harry his memories! We get to see the scene again but this time the thing that sticks out the most is Snape calling Lily a Mudblood. Now if that's not enough proof the next memory goes like this.

*Outside Gryffindor Tower*

Snape: I'm sorry

Lily: I'm not interested

S: I'm sorry!

L: save your breath... I only came out here because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.

S: I was. I would have done. I never ment to call you a Mudblood it just-

L: Slipped out? It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you? I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine.

S: No-listen, I didn't mean-

L:-to call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?

*Lily leaves. Memory ends*

The next memory is Snape becoming a turn coat for Dumbledore so he could keep Lily safe because Voldemort wouldn't spare her.

Snape has had worse experiences then a teenage James Potter being a bully (even if it was shitty). so we look at the rest of the memory and lo and behold what do we see? The actual worst moment of Snape life, the moment he lost Lily forever.

#I just saw someone say they hated Lily because he's was too hard on Severus all he did was call her a Mudblood. #Yeah just called her a slur...And found it funny when dark magic was used on someone. And joined a hate group that would kill her. #And would've let her child and husband die if it ment she lived. bffr 🙄 lets put this in real world terms! #you're a minority (pick one) and you go to a school but their are some people who hate you for existing. but its ok you've got your bff! #now years go by and bff is still your bff but theyve changed. they're hanging out with those aforementioned people who hate you for existin #and yeah you dont like it but they're your bff since for ever so you make excuses. but then bff starts calling people like you slurs... #now bff hasn't called you slurs so maybe its just peer pressure you let it slide its your bff. now you find out that not only are there #people who hate you for existing there is his hate group and they want you and people like you dead. obviously you dont like his. now bffs #friends they want to join this hate group... and bff doesn't deny it. ok thats not great. bffs friends who wanna join the hate group have #now moved passed just calling people like you slurs. they've went and beat the shit out of a person like you that you considered a friend. #and bff.... they say that it was just a joke. but are again not denying wanting to join the hate group that wants you dead. you love bff so #you just keep your mouth shut. now the day comes! bff has now called you a slur. and you cant make excuses anymore. they're just like their #friends and you cut your losses because again bff and their friends want to join a hate group that wants to kill you!!! #its not poor litte Severus its poor Lily. she thought she had a friend and HE betrayed HER! but but but why didnt she stop him from joining #she was a child! she was in a new world with no idea! she was in a whole nother house! and its not her fucking job to fix him! he joined th #hate group HE KNEW HATED HER! if he truly loved her he wouldn't have joined. but but but its not that- ADROMADA TONKS could be a Slytherin #and not be a Death Eater and her family was pure blood. she could do it! so could Snape. #severus snape #lily potter #snapes worst memory #the marauders #harry potter #the deathly hallows #lily evans #put some more respected on her name. #fuck jkr #james potter #slytherin #how can you be a snape stan and not like lily that 80% of his personality. #snape

[katyspersonal]

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Recently I just can't stop having a bad mood! I just don't know what it is :/ I am trying to focus on the things that make me happy and combat my wish to vent and turn irritating things into positive ones but every single good thing improves my mood for maybe like 3 minutes, and then I think about things that make me angry ANYWAY! I want to be around people but I can't because if I keep talking about things that make me angry - minor or big - I'll just exhaust them. But I've been trying to focus on good things for a while now and now it feels like it is a daily hard battle.

I really need to either finally have a mental breakdown (but I can't control when it happens, you know?) so I can cry, or have a justified reason to get angry that won't feel like petty over-reacting on my half. Hhhhrg

#/vent #look i am TRYING to stay funny or chill or simply based #but you dont understand - *everything* online makes me angry or bitter! #i dont even know what happened.. nothing about internet changed yet it feels like it did??? #like a sound you cannot hear but the waves still shake you biologically.. #as much as i judge people who built their audience on being reactionary at least- #-they have privilege of being negative as much as they want and only get 'yass queen kick ass' for it #meanwhile i should watch myself to not extend venting limit gfhhjhv when i vented too much i should- #-stay cool for a while before i can feel bad again #am i overestimating the importance of my negative emotions though? #like.. am i being vain thinking my vents will 'poison the world around me' when my anger is- #-as threatening as barking of an alerted pomeranean? #yeah maybe....... #maybe i just have microtrauma from people that treated me like a dangerous monster for having- #-emotion of anger to begin with. this summer this issue was dialed up to 11 #right i am probably being too focused on self at this time! #i should watch some youtube trash-reviews or petty dramas to feel angry on behalf of someone ELSE. #gotta.. get out of my own head. now.

[viralpurrz]

im sure im just bein a bitch but i kinda wish the modern book world was less fanfic-y and like, had literature. like theres nothing wrong with escapist media but i feel like... I cant get into more modern books not bc i dont want to and im a lit snob but just i havent found books that arent like DO YOU LIKE FOUND FAMILY ENEMIES TO LOVERS FAKE DATING ??? like what are the themes. am i going to question my entire life after reading. is there any philosophy in any of this.

#b4 i mention blood meridian and how it changed my view on storytelling as a whole keep in mind its fukcking got terrible shit in it #but there has never been a book that has made me question how good and evil actually is more than blood meridian and im glad i read it #its not something you can write a whole fanfic abt there isnt room for aus bc that just defeats the purpose of the kids story #i dont think every book needs to be so distrubing like blood meridian... but i wish literature and characters in more modern books made me #think about my life and the world even if i dont agree with the author at all i want to be able to think on their words #even if my conclusion in the end is yeah fuck that guy i hate that guy and his shit

[mariautistic]

Saw the dumbest fucking post the other day that said something to the effect it's actually good the UK and the US aren't protesting for better working rights because any progress they get affects the third world so actually it's more progressive to not get any progress on that at all unlike ze french who are so selfish that they protest for better work conditions and that it's pointless anyways bc advances are too small . What fucking self respected commie is like actually not getting any rights for workers is good 👍 can't you just admit that the working movement isn't as organized/willing to defy the status quo enough and you're jealous instead of trying to turn it around

#.txt #i waited q day to get into it bc i was still marinating how stupid it is #like #yeah in a sense its technically right but if you had a 14 hours day would you be like wr cant change this because what if it makes a third #worlder sad. like any progress in terms of working class is a global achievement and encourages people around the world to organize #anyways. still on mg mind i guess #also very funny to use the french as an example when they're protesting the increase of the retirement age macron proposed #these selfish frenchman who dont want (check notes) middle aged people to work beyond what they're expected to

[camptw1nk]

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#not 2 be like. negative but i just kinda got hit hard by the way my relationship w my best friend has changed #dont get me wrong i understand that her girlfriend will be super important to her esp bc she lives across the world and is only physically #here for another 2 or so weeks #but my best friend just got back from a trip to another city to see an artist she loves and as she came in i got up to go see her and ask hl #how it was but she was in her room w her gf before i could and thats fine i get it and like she hasnt done anything wrong i can not #emphasize that enough like i hold no bitter feelings to her she is excited to talk to her gf understandably #it just hit me that like. oh yeah. i have no one else that i go to about literally anything but she does #and its less ab her so much as its. its just hitting me that i dont really have? friends? #i have one or two people but like. i only have One Person thats my go to fave person always tell them everything #and i just. I've realized that its not reciprocated the way it used to be #and that i think is just like a part of growing up #i dont have a partner i dont have someone my life is intrinsically linked to #like a best friend is great but its not. relationships are placed to a higher level you know like its jusy more important #and i just. ive nevr Had a partner really. unless u count a like 2 month thing when i was 12 which i dont count #not to be depresso but i am just not the kind of person that people want or desire #and thats been the case long before i came out as trans but its extra complicated now since i dont. Fully pass #idk not 2 sound sad i just wanna be loved #and i think theres only so many times i can hear the most important person in my life come home and talk excitedly ab things thru the walls #and then never actually get told anything myself. not just ab things shes excited for but just in general #we were meant to go to a house viewing together a few days ago and it was only half an hour before it was happening when no one else was #home that i messaged them to check in and they were like oh yeah we're not going we have this and this going on #which like. fine whatever but i dont drive and getting anywhere fast is hard so it just. was stressful #but it just seems like i am constantly out of the loop. everyone i live with is in a relationship w each other and i am just here #in every aspect of my life i am Just There and im tired of it #not to sound desperate or needy but i just would like to. be noticed? or feel prioritized? or even wanted #idk this is. i just needed to rant i think im emotional bc my hormones r a bit wack #im due for my testosterone shot in a few days but i dont have the money or time to go to the doctors lately so its being pushed back #a few weeks and its just. i think its messing w me a bit #i mean i feel this way literally all the time but just the like. the being upset and emotional and posting ab it i think is bc of that #idk i needed to get it out idk it this will stay up or not

[griffworks]

Hmmmm

#griffin's diary🪦 #i feel like every day i get a little braver #sorry i keep talking about the same thing but im really excited about getting a haircut #i feel like im gonna be the happiest little guy at the barber #i think ill get an eyebrow notch #i hope my mom isnt too mad #after that i might go to hot topic and get something to celebrate #i havent even called yet but im really really excited so im making plans #ill try to call tomorrow! #i just hope this feeling doesn't go away... i wanna actually go out and do stuff and make friends hopefully #i wish my uni had clubs bc i would join one #be the change you want there to be in the world... yeah but i dont know if im brave enough for that yet #i hope so though #it would be nice to have an irl friend #i dont think I'm just shy i do think ive got some sort of social anxiety... #cos do shy people physicially shake when you do group social project in class? i don't think thats the norm? #i really considered dropping out of a class at the beginning of the semester bc i learned there would be a presentation as the final #i was really upset about it. didnt turn out to be that bad thankfully #im gonna stop before this fully turns into a vent i wanna preserve my happy mood

[save-the-villainous-cat]

Alright everyone STOP sending prompts so that she can work through the ones she has already 🙄

(this is a joke)

#no writing #I have dropped into a deep depression. very serious stuff. watching the first got seasons make me sad. this tv show couldve been the best. #it couldve changed the world and in certain aspects it did #but no. d&d wanted to work on their star wars show or whatever and the long fucking night was reduced to one episode #i watch people talk about the long night in s1 and then I think oh yeah this plot actually had value. the characters were actually scared #and then i watch dany being assulted and i think how she was betrayed by her lover in a moment of intimacy and i am like #oh yeah thats what a great comment a vicitm of abuse dies because she trusts the man she loves #also her transformation into super hitler is ridiculous. tHe BeLls made her mad? what the actual fuck? the bells? seriously? #so targaryans are seriously just a flip of a coin huh? I am the dumb one huh??? thats what youre showing me. you point at the screen and say #HA Cat youre a fool! you rooted for her! you thought she was good! #you thought plot lines and character development actually means something? HA how foolish Cat how dumb you are! #Jamie Lannister? learning about how to care for others? WRONG back to cercei!!! #you think tyrion is smart? WRONG lets put the kids and women in the crypts full of dead people when the bad guy creates zombies #you think dany is actually going to stick to the values shes gotten through her character arc? CAT DONT YOU GET IT? YOURE DUMB YOURE STUPID #JONS HERITAGE DOESNT MATTER #DONT YOU GET IT CAT? EDDARD STARK DIED FOR NOTHING! #ISNT THAT WHAT YOU WANTED? ISNT THAT CINEMA? THE LONG NIGHT? HM? BATTLE OF WINTERFELL? HM? ISNT THAT WHAT YOU WANTED? #no. d&d. this is not what i wanted. in fact. i hate you for ruining a clever show. perhaps the cleverest show on this planet. #i love house of the dragon. but its simply not the same. #this makes me want to quit consuming media #and then i watch chernobyl and i am like. hm. maybe there is hope for cinema and tv #just maybe there is hope for writing. maybe quality is more important than quantity

[navramanan]

Aquiring knowledge -> getting filled with frustration and anger and dread -> wanting to stay informed regardless -> aquiring knowledge -> getting filled with frustration etc etc

#i am fucking talking to the void and vallahi i WIIIIISSSHHHH i had a proper oulet to let out my frustration #but FFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKK #nothing scarred me and showed me how fucking alone we were in our struggle and grief than the muslim world's reaction to rojava's invasion #in 2019. you know ok i know kurdistan gets little media coverage usually bc it's not relevant to american interest #but the invasion 2019 was HEAVILY covered by western media as it was the direct result of trump withdrawing the troops #and having a phone call with kerrrrrrrdogan saying hey you can invade now #so there was ZERO reason or possibility the muslim world wouldnt see what was happening #it was EVERYWHERE it got great western media coverage #but when i saw big muslim news accounts staying either silent OR siding with turkey i felt so fucking enraged and disturbed #and rejected. in turn there also werent individual muslims showing support as big crowds #like obv there were some here and there but not as a collective. they either sided with turkey or simply didnt care #you have to clock that. i cant say how many died but hundreds of thousands were displaced #turkey USED FUCKING WHITE PHOSPHORUS. WHICH IS A WAR CRIME. IT'S A CHEMICAL WEAPON #they literally said theyd create a strip of land to move syrian refugees there. arab refugees on kurdish land to change the demographic #and every fucking one went yeah that's fine nothing wrong with it. vallahi those people's plights are on you #and allah will ask. dont think he wont. while we were screaming for the muslim world to see us #they in turn pointed there fingers at us. said turkey was fighting terror. said they wouldnt hurt civilians #but what ever do you guys know what it's like to scream and scream but have no one bet an eye? #that's how i feel. that's how we kurds feel #man fuck off whatever i want to strangle someone #nesi rants

[aahsokaatano]

getting so fed up about the lack of trans voices in rhetoric on an academia level while trying to find sources for a class project that i am considering changing my career goals

#i'm supposed to lead a class discussion on intersectionality in women's rhetoric #so of course i want to look at queer women! so i've got alison bechdel of course. #gonna figure out an excerpt from gender troubles by judith butler to use #debating stone butch blues by feinberg? not sure yet #but what i really want is a trans or nonbinary rhetor to examine #but i am having A LOT of trouble finding a single one! #it was fucking difficult to find a trans masc journalist for an assignment in another class but i did it #this? this feels damn near impossible! WHERE are my trans academics rhetoric academics!!!! #but yeah this is literally making me consider doing a 180 on my '5 year plan' or whatever #maybe i should get a masters in rhetoric instead of aviation management #bc like. i do always say 'be the change you wanna see in the world' bc i do enjoy the sentiment at the very least #maybe i should fuckin pony up then and listen to my own damn self #be the trans rhetor examining our space in not just academia but the rhetorical sphere for the next queer kid looking to do a presentation #idk! idk! idfk!!!!!!!!! #gahhhhhhhhhhhhh its so frustrating just. in general. to lack sources that you know SHOULD exist #but they DONT >:( #max is talking #damn those are some long ass tags

[youmustfixyourheartt]

fucked up what happened to mike crew.

#i think that and maybe leitner voice debut and the whole dark ritual story arc are some of the only things ive actually really really- #disliked about the podcast #NOT THAT THE LEITNER VOICE DEBUT WAS BAD #i just think that it took away from a lot of the tension that was building however i do love brutal pipe murder #also making the avatars so easy to kill just humanizes them too much to me which i think is the opposite of what was trying to be done #like the put so so so much emphasis on how michael isnt michael anymore he's something else and how jon is slowly losing his humanity #and thats a lot of the horror is losing your humanity #which i understand some avatars are going to be more human than others but yknow #its also a horror podcast #theres something terrifying about living so long being stuck in a not quite human state not being able to go on without feeding your fear #you technically dont have as much autonomy as you think you do and thats terrifying #but that kind of gets lost when you make it so easy to kill some of them #and like didnt jon also...have to go see the flesh to even get bones out of himself like he was having physical issues with?? bleeding?? #i dunno #i actually didnt mind gerry's explanation of things #i know some people did but its just as cryptic as any other explanation #like the fears cant really be rationalised whatever you think you know about them is wrong #like he also didnt really know fuck all about anything else jon asked him #you gotta remember he really just wanted to get out of that book as well #“yeah the world changes in terrible ways for YOU. im a book” #“you cant be serious.” “im dead serious” #so realistically with how little gertrude actually told him about any of it and how much he just wanted to get out of the book yknow you #gotta take everything he said with a grain of salt #SORRY FOR RANTING ON MAIN I WAS JUST HAVING THOUGHTS #stickers lore

[s0fter-sin]

let’s say the live action is good (lmao) what’s even the plan? it’ll probably cover up to the usj but what then? are you really gonna make five or more movies after that to complete the story? and if that’s not the intention then what’s the point other than money

#mha #mha live action #if theyre feeling really saucy and just want to fuck up everything they might make usj the midpoint and just skip straight to kamino #look me in the eye and tell me they wouldnt do that #one for all has the highest rating of the entire season you really think they wouldnt add it in #same with the united states of smash #if you account for the op and end the first season has like 4 ish hours so obviously theyll skip a bunch #theres no way they wont condense the shit out of it #and i just know theyll change midoriya #a main male character that constantly cries? yeah that wont stay #maybe before he gets into ua but after? hes a big strong hero student now he cant cry anymore #there was just no forethought in this #i bet they havent even thought of more movies beyond thatll make more money #they dont care about the story or the world or the characters #they just know people will see this first one and itll probably make back budget #i hate it #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #go beyond plus ultra

[leafeonb]

i need to go to sleep but im not sleepy =_=

#lulu.txt #hamster running in a hamster ball in my head. i need to go check if i want to change the classes im #going to register too... i might also try to put an art class or something fun in there too so i dont go crazy 👍 #oh also i started playing pk.mn platinum again ^_^ i have a piplup named pudim and a shinx named amora #i didnt get that far but they are my best friends in the entire world i also forgot that on older #games you could only teach a tm move once and then its gone... when i saw the professor saying that i was like ''oh yeah'' #this is making me want to play firered that i played when i was a kid but never finished bc i didnt know #what do after the 6th (?) gym.... #wait i said playing platinum again but its bc i started it a while ago but had to restart 👍

[bayleaf-2]

*takes off glasses and pinches bridge of my nose* god hpw much vivi lore have i posted here again

#asked a friend what they thought vivis lore was based on what id posted and their reply was like. #something involving the words vague and meta #Based on the 'do it all differently' post probably #anyway #lore drop #So Vivis an undertale oc based on an RP i did with a friend yeaaaaars ago. like. the year undertale came out and in early middleschool #they were much better at it than me on accounr of being 2 years older and also a DM so theres the disclaimer on her og lore being shitty #Uh. The reason I dont talk about it is because there Is no plot. the plot of vivi constantly changes #originally it was just goofing off in the world messing with magic the occasional edge trademark of middleschoolers ya know how it is #for a while i had one of those angsty things canonized that being g//ster kidnapping her for no reason no im not exaggerating #altho i did give him a reason #that being that shes the 2nd human to fall being purple and so SOUL EXPERIMENT TIME BABY #CURRENTLY and emphasis on the currently the experimenting does happen but hes not. evil he just makes a grave miscalculation #that being the power needed to take down the barrier. if you havemt seen her toyhouse basically sjes the reason they know the exact #number of souls at the price of hers getting really damaged #where was i #oh yeah shes also the skelebros adopted sister because that was the easiest way to label and carry over the relationship she had with #s//ns in the og rp (it was not weird or romantic in the slightest my friend just wanted a character to play and he happened to be the one #they chose) ive been playing around a lot with the 3s dynamics its fun lol #uhhh what else. Oh yeah shes an undertsle oc rrom middle school so half the stuff i draw is not canon events that happen vivis like a jar #of raw edge and 'idc if it makes sense its fun to draw' that i crack open every once in a while (cough like weekly) #As for when she gets on the surface thats a bit more cringey lore wise but this is tumblr and yall can just fuckin skip past this honestly #if youve made it this far hi???? sorry for mmakin you read this many tags??? haha aw man #anyway basically shes. classified as a glitch because of the whole barrier incident and when frisk falls (yes that happens) everything #Breaks and shes suddenly on the surfsce. Alone. #After months of rrecoverin and being with her family and in a nice town shes suddenly got no one #plot holes abound but stories and ocs are for fun so #until she meets a girl who seems to know stuff about mt ebbot like shes been down there before. she also??? doesnt have anyone??? which is #scary (shes little. not single digits but Little) so vivis like I need more information and also you are smol come here #And for whatever god damn reason because luck hates her Gasters there! yayyyy!