#but i still see posts and think

[cuckoo-on-a-string]

Does anyone else hesitate to reblog because of the usual childhood traumas, or is that just me?

After decades of conditioning to not engage unless I was 105% sure someone wanted me to interact (or be mocked, called "annoying," etc.), I'm so used to quietly leaving likes and moving on that the idea of reblogging is still a little terrifying.

Like, this shit still happens on Facebook. With people I know. Let alone strangers.

So it's really, really okay to just reblog? I know the logical answer, but the conditioning is SCREAMING.

#i am trying my best #reblog most often from mutuals I know won't be mad #but seriously #not an excuse #i'm working on being a better tumblr citizen #but i still see posts and think #oh that's a cool person thing #do not touch #do not invite harm #reblogs #reblogging #tumblr biosphere

[fairydriver]

if you post an image in discord itll round the corners, but once you hit a certain smallness it rounds into a circle. so basically if you make an image that is 32x32 and you post it in discord itll go from this

to this.

so you basically can just draw a little face in mspaint or something and paste it into discord and itll look like a little emoji. you can potentially mess around with this a lot, its proportional to your image going smaller and it doesnt have to be a square either.

#I THINK THIS HAS A LOT OF FUN POTENTIAL #discord #i am reblog locking this bc i lack the ability to properly issue corrections (see replies) #and also because getting notes like this causes me some distress #please feel free to issue a version of this post that is more accurate yourself (any reader) #but i will refrain #i still think its fun tho i initially noticed this at the 16 scale where it works regardless #just have fun and express yourself in a carefree manner

[salamispots]

something something giant isopod sharing is caring pass the detritus

inprnt

#giant isopod #marine biology #artists on tumblr #inprnt #I tried coming up with a pun but nothing popped up #cackLES #there's also another print up on inprnt that I'm waiting to post when I have other stuff settled 👀 #technically inprnt is getting to see stuff a little earlier haha #also been noticing how my process has changed haha it's interesting #like I'll spend waaaaaay more time now nitpicking/adjusting colors which is fine #but like before when I was still in old process mindset I'd get frustrated and think the colors weren't coming out right #when what I needed was to spend more time figuring it out

[mingyusbinch]

REST IN PEACE, DEAR MOONBIN (1998-2023)

#moonbin #astro #moon bin #i don't want to be here right now honestly i just wanted my last post about moonbin to be the ones where hes smiling as my last memory #it kills me to see my posts reblogged with sad messages now #and i still can't believe this news either #i've been mia anyway but now im even less inclined to go on tumblr rn #im so sorry for everyone including family/friends of bin #and himself but i cant think about that bc it will break me apart #rest in peace bin i'll miss you more than anything

[rice-enjoyer]

#felt like i needed to make this after some interactions today #i did this with burning text generator! #my overall tumblr experience has been amazing after 6 months of radio silence #this is directed at everyone who's mutuals with me. even if we are not in the same fandoms anymore or have anything in common #i still love you and get happy when i see you post/ramble about topics that are interesting to you #just fyi if we are mutuals i actively think about you with your pfp and username in mind at least once a day #<<< past rice being based with this tag #mutual appreciation #:-)

[deerteatime]

im having very strong feelings about AI art in this chilis tonight. [ID in alt.]

#art #artist meme #ai art #tea's posts #made this while I was really angry but i think it still has some merit #really tired of seeing generated art getting tens of thousands of notes while amazing artists I follow struggle to reach 50 #even the most popular art in tags i follow usually reaches a maximum of like two thousand!! and not very often!!! #cw scopophobia #cw eye contact #<- my last bugs meme got tagged this a lot so im doing it preemptively

[timeskip]

This is maybe a bit of a petty complaint since I don't think that anime adaptations HAVE to adapt the source manga without cutting things out, but I do think the Dungeon Meshi anime is worse for the fact that this particular conversation isn't there:

This chapter is the final chapter before the one where the red dragon appears. In addition to adding to the mounting dread about what Falin's fate is, it also gives context as for WHY Falin's body being found completely digested (excluding the bones) is so bad. I saw someone (and my brother said something similar while we were watching episode 11) be confused on why Falin's skull is so shocking, since the rules of revivals haven't been laid out as well as in the manga

#my brother was MOSTLY joking when he said it would be fine and they'd just bring her back #but i do think that the manga giving more context on why they need her as whole as possible is important #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #<- i feel like that tag will exclude a lot of anime onlies from seeing this post but. anime spoilers are still spoilers #1k

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[wasyago]

the brainrot won

#GUY S i know i haven't posted anything in a while and thats because im working on a big cool project that i really want to finish without- #distractions. but uh. as you can see. ive been distracted 😔. still working on it tho!!!! and im very happy with it turns out its just- #super time and energy consuming so ive tried to limit my intake of other media to not make myself want to draw other stuff #i also haven't read the last two (two already?????) chapters of RnS and im very sad about it and i want to read it but you know that if i- #read it ill want to make fanart and then ill never finish my project :( #SO. sorrey for the lack of art itll be coming when im free to draw!!!!!!! #but also. yes ive watched new life because i dont want to go insane with nothing but this project on my mind and umm. had to take a little- #break to do a couple designs for fun... and to switch it up a bit because for real im going insane i think #ALSO. friend got me into zelda botw and i haven't played a whole lot yet (because project) but ive tried to take some inspiration for- #designs from there. at least for joel and scott. everyone else not so much... #WELL ANYWAYS this is getting long. i should really stop rambling in the tags and just make separate posts for all this but i dont want to #umm. tags. #new life smp #smallishbeans #mythical sausage #geminitay #pearlescentmoon #smajor1995 #inthelittlewood #my art #sketch

[nigesakis]

lord almighty they are doing crazy things to this guy's cerνix on ao3

#i think this image fits cause its how i enter the fitzier ao3 tag #to see things unknown to mankind #the fitzussy has seen more than a simple man like me can imagine #but thats what the discovery service is about isnt it #jfj #james fitzjames #the terror amc #the terror #n #terrorposting #fitzier #text post #screencap #still

[kaogens]

redraw!!!

old version here ^_^

#splatoon #marina splatoon #splatoon marina #splatoon 2 #splatoon fanart #i still see ppl reblogging the old one from time to time to this day and i eeughh awww … aw shucks #i think its one of my first posts that like. officially blew up too wow this is so awesome

[comradekatara]

azula as zuko’s evil advisor is so funny to me i actually fuck so hard w this concept. she gives zuko advice and then zuko looks across the room to sokka and sokka just discreetly gives him a thumbs up or thumbs down. one weekend sokka, aang, mai, toph, suki, katara, and anyone else who might have a modicum of common sense all go out of town for like. omashu coachella or smth. and when they come back the entire palace is in shambles, zuko’s just sitting on his throne shinji style, and he’s just like “i’m so sorry….. her advice seemed so cogent….. she made trickle down economics seem so reasonable……. why weren’t you there….. YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE, GODDAMMIT!!!!!!!” while azula slyly sips from a cunty chalice she had personally made just for moments like this.

#the fact that I literally corrected the typo 3 seconds later and yet ppl are still reblogging the original stupid fucking post this. is why #I don’t make posts at 2 :49 am. smh #zuko #azula #sokka #azula&zuko #postwargaang #<- barely #also the reason katara is listed last here is only bc I don’t think she would spend a lot of time in the fn #she mostly sees zuko during his bimonthly visit to the south pole #whereas sokka would die if he couldn’t micromanage him #so he and azula are rly fighting for their lives as they try to wrest control over zuko and by extension the country and by extension #the entire world #while zuko is just sitting there thinking ‘it’s so nice that sokka and azula are getting along so well these days 🥰’

[hellspawnmotel]

even after settling down, theyre pretty cautious.....

.......it doesnt last long

#princess tutu #princess tutu spoilers #ahiru #fakir #fakiru #art tag #my anime straight couple ever. nobody is doing it like them #anyway i know theres not a lot of reasons to think the 'confessing love = disappearing' rule still applies post-canon #but ahiru being human again necessitates that there are still reality-warping powers at work #and it's because of drosselmeyer that she was ever human in the first place so i can see them being nervous about it #also this is an aside but i picture after fakir writes ahiru back into a girl they kinda have to flee gold crown town #to avoid fakir getting his hands chopped up by cultists and everything yknow #they settle down somewhere else in the german countryside with a little village nearby and have a simple life #ahiru keeps practicing ballet and fakir keeps writing and theyre happy :)

[couch-house]

yippee knuckles comic done! wanted to try several things: tell a story in 4-7 pages, attempt to style layouts and writing a bit more like stc comics, and lump my "knuckles raised unknowingly by the m.e." headcanons together. mixed results I think but I still think it turned out nice :)

#sth #knuckles the echidna #sonic the hedgehog #fanart #can you see how i picked up and lost steam over the course of this lol #anyway the basket is not actually a hc thats . a silly #pages 1 5 and 6 were originally the only ones I had strong ideas for #everything else was just. attempting to connect things #i took sooo long making an actual thumbnail script for this and i still needed to change the last panels at the last second lol #also um the layouts def look better when starting the pairing from 1+2 but. #for posting reasons i wanted pg 1 on its own #okay thats all I have to say i think <3 #id in alt text #comic

[mblue-art]

BAD SANSUARY // [14] tears for owl-bones's event !

"...Killer, it just looks like I have running mascara."

"it's such a look though."

messy kisses and post-nuzzles

#badsansuary #killer!sans #self insert #mblue art #m rambles #yes he is rubbing his tears on my face #he is a menace but he is also my skrunkly my little meow meow so i still love him #i was also attacked (/lh) with goofy dorky romantic guy SOFT killer and #and with lots of giggling and playful rumble tumbling #and smooching him up until he's melted on the floor and cartoon hearts float out of him #i also think about very similar thoughts w lust my bbg beloved but this post is about killer LOL<3 #bc showering this dork w smoochies n genuine love n interest and seeing his reactions to all that is very cute methinks #adding to this bc again i was given thoughts #(girls) boys night w lust and killer but we're actually messing around with makeup and thats how i get the real running mascara look #and other whatever experimental creative makeup looks theyre gonna try on me because apparently im their canvas for the night #woohoo? yippee.