#but like... like isnt that the whole message of the good place too?

[gogomatthew]

Sensitive

DAY 1 OF KINKTOBER: EAR PLAY

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Dom!Spencer x fem!reader

summary: Your boyfriend has a theory about you that he is desperate to prove and after you drop a little comment about him not being dominant.. the opportunity presents itself

warnings: ear play, dom!sub dynamics, squirting, fingering MINORS AGELESS BLOGS DNI ! 18+

The way you flinched away every time someone would whisper into your ear or fix your earpiece made a shiver run down your boyfriends back. He had a theory about you and he knew just how to prove it.

“I can be dominant! you just have to let me!” he exclaims pouring sugar by the pound into his coffee mug “I think the fact that you have to beg to be dominant kinda takes away the whole purpose” you giggle as you bringing your mug up to your mouth just as Hotch makes his way into the small kitchenette area at the BAU effectively stopping Spencer from yapping on about your sex life. He stoops his head down to your ear and whispers “ill prove it to you” his warm breath brushing your sensitive ear gives you goosebumps as he walks away chuckling ignoring the questioning glance from Hotch.

-

By the time you’re packing up your things and getting ready to leave the office for the day, you have come up with about 15 different ways to torture your boyfriend for the way he embarrassed you today but ultimately deciding against it due to the fatigue overtaking your body. The ride back home is mostly filled with comfortable silence, you assume its just because you’re both too tired too speak as he gives your thigh an occasional squeeze as you drive. You enter your shared apartment and make your way to your bedroom desperate to lay in the comfort of your own bed as Spencer follows hot on your heels. You lay down flat on your back letting out a strained sound. You see your boyfriend loosen his ty and kick off his shoes but you miss the look of hunger in his eyes. He crawls over you and his mouth grazes your ear lobe so gently “this is what you wanted all along isnt it?” his raspy voice sending shivers down your body as you try to squirm away from under him only for him to pin your hands over your head. “Who would’ve thought this was all I needed to do to have my way with you” he places an open mouth kiss to your ear lobe before taking it in his mouth and sucking on it causing you to let out a loud whimper “s-stop y-your not being a good boy” he thinks it’s funny yet impressive that you still want to take the dominant role even when you’re pinned under him. He takes your lobe out of his mouth and kisses it “im not? im just trying to make you feel good.. im giving you a what you want” his tone is teasing, he knows he has the upper hand here and he’s going to use it “all you have to do is let me baby.. tell me what you want” he finishes his statement with a lick down your ear “ah- ngh” you’re moaning from every touch already feeling overstimulated but needing more you start bucking your hips up desperately to get your message across but being quickly stopped by his large hand coming down to hold them in place “you have to say it baby cmon” you whine “p-please I want you to touch m-me” you look up pleading.

Hes never seen you like this before, hes never seen you this desperate, its always been the other way around but it was beautiful and he was becoming addicted to it very quickly “you can do better than that sweetheart” it sounds like he’s mocking you but to be honest he could get off just at the sight of you begging for him. “I need you please I need you to make me feel good I-I promise ill be good” you dont even care about how desperate you sound right now, not when his tounge brushes your ear so slowly as the sounds of his breath invade your hearing. Damn these profilers! he figured out your sensitive spot just by observing. He smiles down at you as his hands start roaming your body. He unbuttons whatever buttons his shaky hands manage to get too to watch your chest rising and falling with each sound of pleasure leaving your lips. He cups on of your boobs from under your bra gently playing with your nipple though his erratic movements and shaky breaths that give away how truly desperate he is too, not to mention his rock hard cock rubbing against your clothed thigh making him let out breathy moans in your ear every time he got some relief from the friction making you not feel TOO pathetic anymore. His hand slides down from your boob down your tourso until it reaches your hips, he unbuttons your jeans with one hand as he bites down on your ear a little harder than intended as you let out a yelp and loud strangled moan that reminds spencer to find out if you have a newly found pain kink in the future. He slips his hand under your panties as he starts circling your clit slowly. You feel tears start to well in your eyes desperate for more “faster please” he obeys and starts circling the bundle of nerves faster, he slides his fingers down between your folds until he reaches your opening, he slips 2 fingers in and without giving you time to adjust he starts pumping in and out of you with them.

He curls them at just the right spot enjoying the view of you squirming and your legs shaking as your thighs try to close in around his hand but he goes even faster pulling lewd sounds out of you “f-fuck!!” you turn your head denying him access only for him to move to your other ear and take it in his mouth “SPENCER!!” its all too much you’re practically screaming now “I-I cant please!” hes power drunk right now he cant even stop himself from moaning into your ear with every ounce of friction your thigh gives his aching cock “I- I need to cum- please let me!” part of him wants to deny you just like you have done to him multiple times but he wants you to enjoy this just as much as him so who is he to deny his baby? “im not gonna stop you.. go ahead and finish all over my fingers angel” his thumb comes up to rub your clit as he continues to pump into you “cmon dont keep me waiting” he tops it off with a nip at the shell of your ear. “AHHH-“ your screaming now moving frantically intentionally giving spencer some much needed friction. Relief washes over your body and you squirt all over his fingers. Its not new but it dosent happen very often but when it does.. it makes spencer incredibly cocky. He places a kiss on your ear making you shudder as you attempt to calm down from your orgasm as he takes his fingers out of your pussy and into his mouth “who knew all I needed to do was whisper in your ear” he laughs sweetly making you giggle slightly out of breath. You push him on the bed “you didn’t get to cum..” you give him a slight pout as he stares at you with admiration “I guess I just have to find your sweet spot now” lets just say you both didn’t get much sleep

A/N: first time participating on the writing end of kt hope you all enjoy!! reminder english isnt my first language. REBLOGS APPRECIATED!!

#criminal minds #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds x reader #spencer reid #spencer reid x y/n #spencer reid x you #spencer reid imagine #spencer reid smut #dom spencer reid #kinktober #ktober

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I an asshole for making fun of someone’s name and interests but then apologizing? I (16M) recently became friends with some people in my lunch hour. They are Z (17NB), M (18NB) and K (17M). M is dating A (18FTM), who i have met twice and had maybe two brief convos with, and he seemed sweet at the time. However, A is friends with the whole group, so they all know him and talk about him. We have joked in the past about the fact that A has the same nickname as one of my other friends. For the sake of fake names, lets say the nickname is Alex. I refer to my friend as Alex and Z,M, and K all call their friend Alex too. However, one day i called my friend by his full name- again, fake name, but lets say- Alexander. M makes fun of my friends name, saying its a bad name. In retaliation I jokingly say ‘your partners name is worse!’. A’s full name is a different spelling of a rather nice name, for this lets say its Alexyus (like Alexis). I mention that i like the name alexis, just say “but who spells it with a y!”. I also add, “plus theyre literally a dsmp and homestuck fan!”. OKAY BEAR WITH ME! i will fully accept and admit that thus far i have been an asshole. It wasnt okay for M to make fun of my friends name, but it also wasnt okay for me to make fun of their partner.

Anyways- no one seemed too upset by it in the moment, but later when i got home i received messages from M, K, and A. M’s had some odd sort of long copy pasta which basically said i hope you suffer, but it felt like a joke to me so just responded withh “i aint reading all that”. K’s message was wild tho- he said “i was just hoping you would kill yourself, overdose, hang yourself, or even just cut ur wrists. what is wrong with you, you fing freak!”. which is… wow! After i read the message i saw him edit it to add a “/jay” (meaning joking) at the end, but the original message had no indication of it being a joke. However, i accepted it as a joke because…. Why would he tell me to kill myself lol…. Anyways, A’s message was polite and formal, asking to talk about something i said earlier at lunch (A isnt in our lunch, he wasnt there when i made the comment about his name, but i assume M or K told him). I respond equally politely and we had a good conversation about it, i realized that it wasnt at all my place to make thats jokes or poke fun at A in that way, and i apologized. A said it was all good and honestly i was impressed with their forgiveness and maturity. I hoped A and i could become potential friends in the future, even. I was still peeved that K literally told me to commit suicide, but whatever yknow. The next few days at lunch were awkward but my other friend, Z, and me mostly just didnt talk to M and K. At some point my other friend, who i told about this, mentioned to K kinda offhandedly like “yo it was kinda fucked up u told (me) to kill himself..” and K informed us that he actually didnt send the message, it was A on his phone. M corroborated this story and then we left, but i was honestly so shocked.

Now i dislike and feel uncomfortable around M, K and A (although not Z, who agreed that what the rest of them did was not okay), because to me it feels like they all were okay and agreement of the message. But ultimately i’m really conflicted- it was definitely wrong of me to make fun of A (even if it was not meant to be serious, i dont know A well enough to joke like that), but i feel like telling me to kms is unjustified. Maybe it all is stupid drama tho, and i should just let it go?

*** i forgot to add- if its worth noting, since A is trans, he chose his own name, and mentioned that was one of the reasons he was specifically upset. Should i have not made fun of his name because i know he chose it himself? (Idk if it matters but my friend alexander is also trans and chose his name too. Also i love him and his name to death so maybe thats why i was specifically defensive of it.) but anyways:

Am i the asshole? Are we all assholes?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

[itspbandjellytime]

The Assistant [Hailee Steinfeld x Fem!Reader] - Chapter 3

Plot: Y/N Waldorf is fresh out of college and her first job is being Hailee Steinfeld's personal assistant, but what Y/N doesn't know is that Hailee is hiding a huge secret from the general public and from her, as her assistant.

Notes: This is a multi-chapter fic, you can also read this on wattpad under the same username "itspbandjellytime". This fanfic is also going to contain NSFW themes in the near future, so if you're under the age of 18 please don't read this. Thank you!

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Word count: 1.4k words

[Y/N's POV]

The next day arrived, today is the day I move in with Hailee. I already packed my bags earlier this morning again, I looked at Jackie with a smile on her face and gave her a tight hug "Girl, don't be sad, at least we live in the same state now." I reassured her as she fake cries. Jackie pulls away from her and laughs "I know, I am just being very dramatic and besides, West Hollywood and Malibu is a 40 minute drive. You can visit anytime you want." Jackie told me "Hailee isnt expecting you to show up, that quick right?" Jackie asks me as I reached for the door. I respond with a shrug "Eh, better to be early.", Jackie grabs my wrist all of a sudden which made my eyes widen. "You good?" I ask her with a confused tone, Jackie told me to sit down on the couch with her for a bit.

"Yeah, It's just that I've been hearing something online about Hailee... you know... Keeping a secret from the general public?" Jackie said, as much as I love Jackie, she's my best friend, I will jump off a tall building and sell my organs for that woman... There are times that she relies on random and odd stuff on the internet, especially engaging in blind item pages like Deuxmoi. I furrow my brows, oblivious on what Jackie was telling me "What do you mean? Also what did I tell you interacting with those pages?" I said in a very motherly tone despite the fact that Jackie is two years older than me. 

"Heard it from Deuxmoi before you got here, someone said that Hailee Steinfeld is hiding a secret from the public and only her manager knows about it." Jackie says, and then gasps "Do you think she's pregnant?" 

"GIRL WHAT THE FUCK?!?" I yelled "You've been on Deuxmoi way too much! We both know that site is like the fifth? or lower circle in hell, you know what Tree Paine did when Deuxmoi went after Taylor Swift, right? Also we don't know these people personally!" I said, I let out a sigh and rubbed my temples, going silent for a while. "Look, whatever that is... I won't believe it." I said standing up, putting my hands up with a smile on my face.

Jackie smiles back, understanding what I just told her "Alright, but you know I am just one call away and we can meet up like once or twice a week." Jackie said, standing up again and giving me a hug. I hug Jackie back and nodded "Yeah, just message me if ever." I said, grabbing my bags and finally leaving the apartment.

Forty minutes later, I finally arrived at Hailee's lavish looking house located in Malibu. The house looked amazing from the outside and made me think what's in store inside as well, I parked my car somewhere and grabbed my bags from the trunk. I walked up to the front porch and rang the doorbell, waiting for her to open the door. 

Seconds later, she opens the door for me. Hailee is wearing a pair of black yoga pants, a pair of sneakers and a black sports bra that shows off those toned abs of hers that makes me weak on my knees. She looks so hot, my heart starts racing and a lot of thoughts run through my mind seeing her like that. But I still kept my normal posture in tact to be a little bit professional "Hey, you're here! Come on in." Hailee says, inviting me to enter the house. 

I enter the house with my bags and I look around the place in awe, I knew that her house would look this good even though I've never seen the whole thing. "I'm sorry if I look like this, I just finished working out." Hailee says, leading me to her living room "Make yourself comfortable, Y/N." Hailee says again, I nod with a smile on my face and I sat down on her couch. I just stare at her walk to her kitchen as she grabs a bottle of cold water from her freezer, the way I look at her is filled with admiration and adoration. My little moment was broken when all of a sudden I heard two high pitched barks, I look down to see her yorkies Brando and Martini looking at me, their tails wagging in sync. 

"Oh my goodness, are these Brando and Martini?" I say, smiling at the dogs having some second thoughts if I should pet them both, I am a huge dog person but I have a huge fear of dogs biting me. "Yep, in the flesh! Don't worry they don't bite, they're super friendly." Hailee says, heading to the couch to sit next to me. Hailee puts Brando on my lap and he starts to lick my fingers, which caused me to chuckle and gently pet his head "He's starting to like you, are you a dog person?" Hailee asks. I nod in response as I kept petting Brando while Martini is lying down on my shoe "I have a German Shepard in Washington, his name is... Well... It's a ridiculous name." I said, trying to keep up with an actual conversation with Hailee. 

"Well, what's the name of your dog then?" Hailee asks, her hazel eyes looking into mine. I swear, I get lost in those eyes every time.

"His name is... Sir Tenderloin McAvish the Second... We call him Tendy for short." I answered, Hailee starts to burst out laughing once I told her the name of my family's dog. Her laugh is so contagious, it made me laugh as well "I am dead serious, that's his name." I said, pulling my phone out and showing a photo of Tendy to Hailee. "He's a rescue dog, we got him back in 2003. He's like a big baby." I said, showing her a photo of me and carrying Tendy like a baby. Hailee laughs and smiles at the photo of me and my dog, zooming in the photo to see him up close.

"Well you're not wrong Y/N, I treat these two like they're my own children. Oh wait, that reminds me... Come, I'll show you your room." Hailee says, standing up from the couch. I gently put Brando down on the floor again and watch him run around the living room with Martini, I picked my bags up and followed Hailee upstairs. I continued to admire the interior design of Hailee's house, it looks cozy and comfortable. "Alright, we're here." Hailee says, opening the door of my room for me. I entered the room and looked around, I have a comfortable bed and my own bathroom and TV. 

I sat down on the edge of the bed and looked at her "Thanks, your place is cool. Who's your interior designer?" I asked, Hailee leans against the door frame, crossing her toned arms. "My mom, she's the best." Hailee chuckles and looks at me, "Well I gotta say, your mom is cool. Quick question, have you ever done this before with your past assistants?" I ask, Hailee shook her head in response "Nope, most of my old personal assistants are people older than me cause you know I started this whole acting and music thing at a young age..." Hailee answers, taking a sip of water from her water bottle.

"So I am the first assistant to stay in your place then?" I asks, with a little hint of casualness.

"Yeah, I feel like you're going to be an assistant that will last long." Hailee responds, winking at me with a smirk on her face "Anyway, if you need anything else. Just let me know, this is your home now... Well once you get a place of your own." Hailee says, closing the door of my room.

I flopped down on the bed, lying on my back as I stare at the ceiling, letting out a sigh. Everything is happening all at once, it feels overwhelming but in a very positive manner to say the least. I furrow my brows a bit, looking back as I was looking around the place before heading to my room earlier. 

There was this room at the end of the hallway and it was dark, I didn't ask Hailee about it because it might come off as invasive and I might lose my job. So I just quickly assumed it was a storage room, or a room that has her awards, or a room that has one single box that has her scrapped music or that damn album everyone in the fandom is waiting for. Whatever lies in that room, I'll just ignore it and focus on one thing and one thing only. My job as Hailee's assistant.  

#hailee steinfeld #hailee steinfeld x fem reader #hailee steinfeld imagines #hailee steinfeld smut #wlw imagines #celebrity imagines #kate bishop #hawkeye #nadine franklin #emily junk #emily dickinson #emisue #kate bishop imagines #kate bishop x reader #kate bishop smut #fanfiction

[lust4lzfe]

MASTER ANAKIN x PADAWAN READER

you knew that you were meant to be at a jedi training session with anakin in only a few minutes, but god you were just so horny, you couldnt go to a whole training like this could you? but missing one lesson wouldnt hurt. so you lay down on your bed and begin running your hands up and down your inner thighs, getting closer and closer to your wet pussy every time until you gently run one finger over your sensitive clit, making you whimper softly and slide your middle finger inside, your mouth hanging open but no sound coming out. as you start slowly sliding your finger in and out another moan escapes your lips. "mm anakinnn.." you whine, imagining it was your masters hand instead of yours until you hear the noise of someone clearing there throat. your head shoots up and you quickly pull your hand away from your core. it was anakin. "i came up to check where you were, thought you were maybe just late but," he pauses and does that hot smirk you cant stand, "you were just too horny and needy to come down, isnt that right, you fucking slut?" you looked at him, unsure of what to say. "um, but-" you stutter before being cut off when anakins hand hits the side of your face. you rub your cheek. "what the fuck?!" you shout at him before he does it again and puts one finger on your lips to tell you to shut up. he begins to crawl on top

of you and now hes the one running his hands up and down your thighs. you whine at his teasing touches, just wanting him to fuck you. "your such a needy little whore arent you?" he whispers in your ear before kissing your neck, leaving a few marks. "so you tell me what you want." he demands, pulling away from your neck to look in your eyes and hold your jaw in place so you look at him too. "i want you to- um, i want you to fuck me.." you basically whisper. he squeezes your jaw harder in his hand. "speak up bitch." he orders. "i want you to fuck me." you say more confidently this time. he stands up and clicks his fingers, pointing to the floor. "on your knees, now." you whine and get down on your knees infront of him. "take all of your clothes off." he indicates to your lingerie you had on. your perfect tits bounce as you take off your bra and your slick was basically dripping down your thighs when you take your thong off. "good slut." he says before using the force to choke you lightly for a few seconds to let you breathe before doing it again. "do you really think it was smart to not come to training just because you were so needy you needed to touch yourself, and pretend it was me aswell? you little whore." he says, releasing his hold on your neck after and watching you gasp to get your air back. he begins to undress himself and drags your hair closer to him when his hard dick pops out of his underwear. he holds your hair and slaps you again before shoving his dick down your throat while you gag on it. he uses your mouth like a flesh light and pounds his dick into your mouth. you try your hardest to suck it without gagging, his precum dripping down your chin. "can you not do any better?" he degrades you, lightly kicking your stomach so you get the message to suck it harder. you shut your eyes and take his big dick better in your mouth, bringing him closer to climax everytime it hits the back of your throat. minutes later, he fills your mouth with his cum, holding your hair in place on his dick while he cums. he pulls out, watching your mouth drip with cum. "swallow." he says, breathing heavily. you do as he said before he gives you another order. "on the bed, whore." he demands before you climb onto the bed and wait for his next order. he gets on the bed aswell. "face down ass up." he tells you and you what he said again. "you want me to fuck you princess? ill fuck you good." he says, handcuffing your hands behind your back. "isnt that right?" he pulls your hair back off of the pillow and slides his dick inside you, making you moan out loud. he uses his other hand to put two fingers down your throat to gag you so you cant make as much noise. he pounds into you ruthlessly, spitting on your face before he drops your head back on the pillow and uses his free hand on your hips. you feel yourself getting close and you try to tell him as you gag around his fingers. he takes them out of your mouth. "im about to cum pleasee anakin." you beg, but he pulls out just before you cum. "noooo nooo please ani" you beg for him to stay and let you cum. "sorry baby, your lessons over." he says, getting dressed again and starting to walk out your room. god he was so filthy, but you wanted him so bad.

#anakin skywalker #anakin skywalker smut #anakin x reader #star wars

[requiemsystem]

Hey.

I saw your post to help out newly found systems/questioning systems. It was really helpful, I just have a question. How do you live with being a system?. It’s honestly so hard, whenever a lot of our alters front they don’t do things to keep up with day to day activity’s, so then me (the gatekeeper) and the host are forced to do a lot of those things. Communication is already extremely hard for us, and I’m getting super burnt out already.

-Gatekeeper

yeah, it really is hard. im not gonna lie and say i enjoy being a part of a system, because truthfully, i dont. i do want my own life and my own body. i think the best thing to keep in mind is that it is ok to be upset about being a part of a system, its ok to be hurt and not love being a system. a lot of people want to make it seem like its all positive, but its usually not that. yes, there can be good moments, but for us at least it usually sucks now, for the more practical part of living as a system. setting simple expectations and even system rules can be incredibly helpful for situations like this if you can get everyone on board with following them. for us, we have a few simple rules and guidelines with a simple rewards / consequences system in place to ensure everyone follows them. our rewards / consequences system looks something like this: if you follow the rules, you get more time in front or money to buy things you want or anything else practical that you want to request. if you repeatedly break the rules, you get put on front monitoring (another alter watches you when youre in front, usually a gatekeeper), sent for innerworld counselling, etc. depending on severity of rulebreaking since some of our rules are just like "go to work and keep up with responsibilities" while others relate to safety we will probably have a much more in depth post on system rules coming out in the near future, so if this seems beneficial to you, maybe keep an eye out for that as for the communication thing, id try starting with external communication since that tends to be easier. if this isnt possible for you, maybe look into other methods that may work for you. we have a whole post on communication that can be found here if you havent seen it yet if other alters are fronting and not doing things, maybe try to figure out why they arent doing these things. is there not enough incentive / motivation? if so, how can you make it more motivating for them? maybe you can implement a rewards system like discussed above, or you can find something else that would motivate them. are they not doing it because they are too busy with other things? what are they busy with? is this something they need to be doing? maybe ask them to re-evaluate how they spend their time. are they capable of doing the task that youre asking them to do? etc. just figure out why they arent doing it and try to problem solve from there i hope some of this advice is helpful, and i wish you the best of luck! as always, our inbox or messages are open for any further questions or comments! - grey

#did osdd #did system #osdd did #osdd system #osddid #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder #complex dissociative disorder #dissociative alters #dissociative system #actually did #c did #complex did #did alter #osdd #traumagenic system #actually osdd #osdd 1b #did #osdd community #osdd 1a #did community

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

Anyway i know the show started with luz king and eda but it ABSOLUTELY shouldnt have ended with just them. The whole show is about community! "Weirdos have to stick together" and they have been! Theyve been taking in weirdos left and right! Befriending them and giving them solace in a world that otherwise hasnt been good to them!

Willow who was bullied for being bad at abominations! Gus who was used for his academic excellence! Amity who was being controlled by her parents! Hunter who was abused by belos! Lilith who was tricked to go on a 30 year quest to heal edas curse! Camilla who had to grow up in the oppressive human world! And even the collector who was shunned by his own kind!

But instead only the initial trio faced belos, and aside from raine, all the friends they made along the way were off doing a sidequest that didnt need to be made into a sidequest in the first place. Everyone had a reason to face belos. More importantly, everyone had a reason to help luz king and eda. But instead, they were contrived out of the opportunity by the plot. If they wanted to convey the message of community, it was a weird choice to have the main trio fight belos with barely any of their community.

What i think could have been an easy fix would be for camilla, MAYBE hunter too, to take care of the puppets while the rest of hexsquad went to help luz. The palace being broken and them needing to get the puppets out was a valid concern when belos posessed the titan. But i dont think they should have thought it was such a big concern at the start to need EVERYONE there. Camilla could have gotten her big moment to use luzs glyphs while the hexsquad could help luz in the epic anime battle. They could wake up lilith from being a puppet too and have her help in either camp. Maybe have the collector help with the puppets in the end as well. The hexsquad dont know much about the collector but lilith does. Its more meaningful if he helps her.

Hexsquad doesnt even need to do much in the battle because there isnt enough runtime for everyone to recap their character arcs or whatever. Just have them run around blasting away belos goop like raine was. Maybe have amity drop an epic one liner if theres time for that. And obviously at the end theyd make way for luz king and eda to do the most damage, and let luz have her azura moment ripping belos from the titans heart.

But just their presence would continue the theme of community in the show and show how far theyve come. It started with just luz, king, and eda against the world. But it doesnt have to be anymore.

#shut up pandora #the owl house #toh #luz noceda #eda clawthorne #king clawthorne #amity blight #willow park #gus porter #hunter toh #hunter noceda #lilith clawthorne #the collector #emperor belos #phillip wittebane #watching and dreaming #raine whispers #im just saying #theres a reason everyone expected the hexsquad and usually raine lilith and camilla to be in the final battle to before the finale #it makes more sense according to what the show laid down by that point #one of a few major gripes i have about the finale

[huskin]

I have to talk about when Husk says 'I thought you were better than that' in regaurds to Angel's drug use in the latest episode, because it really gave me a He would Not Fucking Say That moment. Its not even like, I disagree with this interpretation of the character or would want to see him differently, its just literally in direct contradiction with the values he's previously stated to have in an episode where he was a more focal character. It almost feels like he has a different person writing his dialouge when he's the focus vs. when he was more in the background here. Being judgemental and passive aggressive to Angel for doing drugs is directly contradicting the message of 'Loser, Baby'. What happened to 'baby thats fine by me' in response to Angel being a 'coked up dick suckin hoe'?' Like the entire reason they *bond in the first place* is that Husk is accepting of Angel and not trying to change him, not saying he has to stop doing drugs in order to be a good person and cared about (which is the message that Charlie is giving him unintentionally and why he gets sad and runs off when shes praising sir pentious).

I think it makes sense for him to be *concerned*, he doesnt want Angel to hurt himself with drugs, but he knows ultimately its Angel's life and Angel's decision and wouldnt be a passive aggressive prick about it. I feel like it could have been like story boarded that Husk is concerned and wants Angel not to do drugs here and that would make sense but then someone filled in the actual lines with something that completly misses the whole point of Husk's character as it has been shown so far, like all they understood about him is that hes a grumpy cat lol. Which is weird because this show usually has such an attention to detail that I just dont understand how this got in. (though the high detail is usually in the animation so maybe thats how?????)

Also it weirdl acts like alcohol somehow isnt a drug by having husk be drinking a ton while still judging angel for indulging in his own vices, as if they arent the same fucking thing. Husk should have said something like hes worried about it and like to try not to do too much or something about harm reduction. Like I know they wanted cherry and husk to be an angel and demon on Angel's shoulder, and they still totally could have done that in a way that wasnt so surreal and ooc for Husk.

#hazbin hotel spoilers #bar talk #vent

[spicybylerpolls]

i cant ignore all the lord's work he has done as the captain of the byler ship.

even if noah wasnt gay i think he would be fully invested in this pairing, i mean imagine being second to el (and millie when doing interviews) for YEARS because your love story is a spoiler? YEARS. for a kid actor? props to him man, this is big work to keep a secret.

and because this is spicy central after all, from what ive seen of him, he doesnt seem the kind to shy away from getting a little bit weird with it. like, wasnt there a pic of him eating a cracker from in between sadie's toes while she was in character in the hospital with a cast on for max? and there's countless videos of him eating food/expressing how much of an epicurean he is. like that cast game where they all blind put their hands into bowls of different stuff! he was loving on the shaving foam lol. thats someone who isnt afraid to dive in and enjoy the sensuality of the world.

i just think he would want will to have a proper love scene - after so many years, i think he would think will deserves it, and deserves for it to be shown on screen. it doesnt have to be Sexy with a capital S, but the scene should still exist and the whole storyline of attraction and shame get its due diligence. i think by being coy and omitting this kind of scene, the overall impression would be that his shame was correctly placed.

its like the duffers saying 'go will! embrace your gayness! but we dont wanna see that ew'

its not even about censorship or younger fans or offended people. thats just one small portion of fandom. young teen fans are welcome - i would have watched ST at your age too (and been attracted to mike and will for sure, they're good lookin lads) - but theyre not the main demographic that would tank the show if the duffers ended up offending them by making byler too explicit.

i dont think it's about what we fans 'want', in a good or bad context. i see a lot of mlvns saying 'why do you want mike to be a liar?' its not about what i want, it's about letting these characters have and do and be who they are meant to be. the writers are in service to these characters and the story. we viewers are just along for the ride.

These are all very good points! Not including some kind of scene, even if only implied, could send an unintentionally strange message... especially since they've already gone there with the straight couples.

Byler having sex would def be an antidote to shame.

Lol @ "go will! embrace your gayness! but we dont wanna see that ew!" It reminds me of the Byler meme where Mike rejects Will by saying, "I know I said crazy together, but not that crazy."

#byler #spicy byler #no poll #spicy byler meta

[scaredgirlsilly]

sad rant about an album i really like below the cut

butterflies drink turtle tears by human people is a deeply sad album, or it is to me at least. multiple songs have repeating choruses that amount to "please kill me", the whole album is kinda just a girl wailing about how all she does is get high and wish she was dead, even the instrumental parts of the songs drive home this feeling of just. feeling like absolute shit. its the type of sadness that makes you wail at 3 am that everything is awful and will never get better and it would just be great if a plane crashed into your house, but then you fall asleep and carry on to do the same thing and not change anything.

there is a reason why i like this album so much

this album has been with me through truly my lowest points in my life. i have played this album from the moment i woke up some days, desperately hoping that everything would just. stop. that being a functional person and just life in general is just too hard, and it would be better for everyone involved if i just died.

this album does not end with a happy message about how these feelings are wrong. it doesnt say anything about these feelings. it doesnt have a hopeful message at the end about how life gets better. it just lets them out. like bloodletting. just throwing these awful feelings into the void. maybe someone will connect with these feelings, the album seems to say, but it doesnt really matter cause i still feel like shit. it is an album that explores these feelings of depression and isolation from someone who has not figured it out. that connected with me (i wonder why)

just today i went to go look for the lyrics so i could sing along. i just looked up the album title and nothing else cause ive always read it as nonsense. just a jumble of words to go along with an album that is just a jumble of feelings. its kinda charming honestly.

then i saw this

and i immediately started crying

butterflies literally do drink turtle tears

im not sure why it hit me so much, but the idea that the name isnt just random words really affected me

i immediately told my dad, then my friend, then changed my discord status, and now im making this post

it feels... odd. almost out of place with what i imagined this album was as a piece of art. so many things clicked into place, or at least it felt like it. thinking about it now still makes me tear up

just. the idea that this album, pretty much 30 minutes of uninterrupted suicidal ideation and depression and isolation, an album that i have listened to on some of the worst days of my entire life, an album i relate to a scary amount. the idea that its named something so... hopeful. almost to say,

"we are here for you. people are here for you. you are not alone. if even a turtle has someone to wipe their tears away, then so do you.

and if you dont, let this album be that for you. let this be the butterflies that drink your tears when no one else will"

it really made me think about the album in a totally different light. go listen to it. its really good

#look at my posts boy #idk its just been on my mind all day

[iesnoth]

Any advice for a Christian who "technically" isnt a Christian? A few months ago, I was on the rocks with my faith. Everything I stand for like LGBTQ acceptance (I'm undecided on my sexuality) and being pro-choice and what not goes against the Bible. At one point, I felt lost- like I didn't believe anymore because that's not what a Christian should believe in. But then- I felt this warm blanket cover my shoulders and it reassured me I still believed in God, even if I believed in those other things too. It makes me conflicted because obviously- if I don't follow the Bible's teachings, I'm going against God's word. But whenever I talk to him and pray, I never feel shunned for thinking such things. If anything, I feel reassured.

I'm saying all this because my By-the-Bible Christian friend says I'm not truly a Christian for these reasons (as does just about every single other "real" Christian I've seen on those videos like "Conservative Christians vs. Liberal Christians". So I don't know what to do. I still believe in god. I still pray, and love him- and I feel that deep down he loves me and all his other children no matter what. What do I do? Have I guaranteed my place in hell?

Thank you for reaching out with your very thought-provoking message.

First of all, I'm not going to tell you whether or not you are a Christian: that is between you and God. I'm also not going to tell you "The Rules," because it seems you know them. But I am going to take a few statements from what you've written and, Lord willing, give you some encouragement.

You mention "going against God's word", and though I agree in the sense that we all sin and we all doubt, our salvation isn't contingent on what we do. There's a whole theological discussion to be had about how "works" fit into "faith," but the crux of salvation is:

"If you confess with your mouth Jesus is Lord and believe in Your heart God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved." Romans 10:9

That's all it takes for salvation. That's it. There's another verse that's been a great encouragement to me recently:

"--work out your own salvation with fear and trembling [ie: respect for an absent authority], for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure." Philippians 2:12b-13 (ESV)

In sum, God has made all of us (Christian and non-Christian) because He loves us. Christianity is reciprocating that love and entering His confidence. He has a path for us which we can't change, but we can share in His joy by sharing in His plan. Each plan is designed to suit each person, and through the Spirit we discover it. But if you are in the Spirit you will discover it. (I'm sorry to the non-Christians out there for the religious lingo, but it's the shortest way for me to say this atm.)

You say you feel reassured when you pray. I don't know your situation well, but the Lord still loves you, and will always love you all your days. And He does want a relationship with you. (However, if you're receiving affirmations about beliefs you know are contrary to the Bible, I implore you to really dissect that warm feeling and make sure you know where it's coming from.)

Finally, you have not guaranteed your place in hell. No one alive can do that, because Jesus can wash away ALL sin if we ask Him to. And God gives us that opportunity, every day until we die, no matter what we've done. As long as we believe in Him and love Him, He forgives. Because He has loved us from the beginning of time.

My advice to you, as much as it is, is to make sure you truly KNOW Jesus. This is the "working out your salvation," what all Christians should be doing all their lives. Read the Gospels and KNOW Him, read the Old Testament and the prophecies about the Messiah. Ask hard questions and research them out without bias. The problem I find in both conservative and liberal Christians is the tendency to make "their Jesus." 'Judgmental' and/or 'all-tolerant' are two terms which should never be used to describe Him. Jesus of history fits into no box: He loved those society hated, He said controversial things to make people upset (Jesus could be quite the edgelord), He was endlessly compassionate, but also tired and angry. He was all this while blameless, all human while God. He did not bend to society then or now, but because of (and in spite of) that, loved everyone. You will not agree with some of what God says, because our sin nature keeps us from being in line with him. But Jesus said the most important command is just this:

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength."

If someone is lazy, a coffee addict, a murderer, whatever, it doesn't matter to God as long as they love Him enough to surrender to Him. But if the coffee addict refuses to give up coffee if He asks, do they love Him with their whole heart? If a lazy Christian refuses to get up when God asks, do they love Him with all their strength? God takes into account our weaknesses. He won't ask the impossible of us unless He equips us for it. But just as He sacrificed for us, He tells us we will have to sacrifice for Him, if for no other reason than this world is in opposition to Him.

Again, He knows our weaknesses. He knows our thoughts, our questions. And He knows how to answer us, if we'll reach out.

"The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." 2 Peter 3:9

I could go on and on about this, because there is so much nuance here. Instead, I'll leave you with a few resources.

I know Christians can get into echo chambers, where they come to believe God only works in a set way. Something which helps me avoid this is listening to other peoples' testimonies. Delafé Testimonies on Youtube is great for learning the myriad of ways God works. I've been surprised by how gentle He is in these stories.

This might seem hokey, but The Chosen series has helped me steer my understanding of Jesus in a more Biblically accurate direction, and it's genuinely one of the best shows I've seen. You can watch all 3 seasons on the Chosen app.

Mere Christianity by CS Lewis, or anything by Lewis. I've heard critiques about the man, but in consuming his theological work, I've found him to be progressive when it comes to sex and gender identity, especially for his time.

I hope this was helpful. I understand what you're going through, and am working out my salvation right along side you, friend. It's normal to have questions about theology and your own salvation. Let me know if you have any more questions and I'll be happy to help: I'm not an "expert" by any means, but I like talking about Jesus. I'll be praying for you, and praying for empathy and love in your friend group.

Peace be with you.

#theology #christianity #bible

[aita-blorbos]

AITA for almost making someone die?

ok ik thats a lot, so ill try to start at the beginning. i (17nb) have been working with this one environmental organization since it was started when i was 12. ive devoted a lot of time to it n to seeing it grow, n when the group got big enough that we could rly expand to more places than just my country i was actually assigned to be in charge of running things here. i dont do it alone or anything bc i do have help from our real leader (40s m) n the people who run the branches in the 2 other countries we operate in, especially the one whos also been here since the beginning (30s nb), but its still a rly big responsibility n its important for me to b able to focus n not let other things distract me from my job.

a few months back, i thought it mite b nice to make my own account on the social media site where our group has the most presence so i could post abt personal things. i didnt mention my connections though (the stuff we do is kinda a bit illegal). it went rly well, n i ended up talking to this one person (20s f) who was rly nice, n we became friends p quick. the big problem was that she didnt like my group at all bc she was rly mad abt some of the stuff we'd done in her country, so there was kinda a conflict there. but some stuff happened, she ended up finding out who i rly was, n surprisingly she wasnt rly that mad at me? n she promised to keep it a secret, n it kinda went well from there other than it being kinda uncomfortable that she liked me n not what i do.

i mean, it did for a while. eventually though it became rly clear that talking to her was distracting me from my work, so my boss n coworker asked me to cut her off. n it hurt kinda a lot, but i did it. n thats where the story shouldve ended.

then i kinda fucked up. i was feeling rly weird bc of of smth that had just happened, n my boss n coworker weren't able 2 pick up the phone. my other coworker (??? i dont even kno this persons pronouns) isnt rly good w emotional stuff, but that was the last person i had to contact for support. n that person wasnt there either.

n i kno it was a mistake. i kno i shouldnt have done it. but i was kinda desperate for someone to talk to, n i ended up calling the friend id cut off even though i knew i wasnt supposed to. n she answered, n we talked. n i tried to go back to normal after that, but she started texting me again, n eventually i broke n answered her.

fast forward to today, n i just found out that my coworker had to try to kill my friend bc i couldnt control myself w her. the person who told me says it wasnt my fault, but if id just been able to resist the temptation to contact her again there wouldnt have been any messages for them to see in the first place. n on top of that, i kno that caring abt ppl too much makes them die, n i still let myself make that connection w her in the first place.

i mean, i think its p clear im the asshole here. basically the whole posts just been stuff i did wrong. but i kinda want to get confirmation, just so i dont have to keep thinking abt the thing the person who gave me the news said.

#aita #am i the asshole

[face4radio]

One thing I think gets lost in the overall conversation surrounding starwars is that the whole "attachment bad" thing was never supposed to apply to everyday people.

The Jedi aren't evangelical.

They are carriers of what amounts to a genetic disorder and their rules exist to help them manage that disorder.

(Whether disorder is the correct term is a whole separate debate for another post. I definitely think it negatively affects their lives along with giving them super powers, and having ADHD myself I feel that.)

They aren't right, but their dogma is understandable when one of the symptoms for the untreated condition is genocidal rage.

This was prompted because I see people saying Andor is a rebuke of the message of the earlier starwars cannon.

Specifically that the importance of family and community in fighting facism counters the earlier message that attachment is bad.

I can definitely see where this opinion comes from, and from a Doylist perspective it may even have some merit, but from a Watsonian perspective it completely misses a lot of key facts about the starwars universe.

Also I think the two perspectives are compatible thematically as well if you look much past the surface level.

Like I said, the Jedi arent evangelical except with other force-sensitives, and I don't think starwars media has ever really been intended as propaganda for those anti-attachment beliefs, even when it has been read as such.

I see Andor, which btw is my favorite starwars ever too, as a much needed look at the non-force-sensitive people of the galaxy and how love and anger and hatred and fear are all important emotions that deserve space, and in extremis are some of the most potent tools for fighting facism.

I don't think Luthen is a jedi but I find it telling that people are speculating in that area because he is the one for whom the story paints as risky the same things that would be risky for a force-sensitive person.

So I dont think Andor is a rebuke of the earlier themes and works except insomuch as by shining a light on the part of the world so many of us knew was there and longed to see, it highlights the negligence of others in not doing it so much sooner.

Andor isnt a change or a slap in the face, it is the missing puzzle piece that has been lost under the couch for the last four decades, and oh does it feel good to lovingly slot it into place.

I am so thankful to Tony Gilroy and all the amazing, talented and hardworking people that gave us this show we all new was missing from our lives.

So not a rebuke, then. More like grabbing the stick of the floundering franchise and shouting a desperate but hopeful "CLIMB!"

#andor #starwars #jedi #andor show #star wars

[polygonate]

time to do some half analysis, half memeing on the eurovision finalists costuming

Loreen from Sweden

not my favourite look, its very muted and a lot of the cut-outs feel unnecessary, that being said, i loved the thick stitching on the bottom of the bra, the power of the nails literally carved from stone, and the sleeve elements covering the hand tattoos, overall some really great ideas but they dont give any cohesive vibe and feel underwhelming for the spectacle expected rom eurovision outfits.

Käärijä from Finland

this man and his performance is unhinged. the costuming reflects that perfectly, we got spiked collars on them, reminiscent of a rabid dog or a club goer, the backup dancers have cutouts and additions to the outfits whch seem erratic, chaotic, and best of all, serve no purpose whatsoever. the spikes on his jeans add to the superfluousness of it all and add a level of consistency in the design. we have chaos, we have vitality, we have the ridiculousness of it all. and this isnt even talking about the power in this mans not-shirt like what is he doing? i love it 10/10 no notes king.

Noa Kirel from Israel

you know those fantasy videogames where the women have breastplate with weird fantasy shapes which will stab into their chest if they bend over? here we have been given that idea in real life and it looks absurd (in the most wonderful way) more importantly they all look really comfortable which is amazing to see especially with all the movement in their choreography. i really like the lead/backup distinction in the pants with the what looks like pleather black/white highlight. amazing construction, could have gone harder but i dont think it needs to. after her performance of her song unicorn, we see her relaxing with a fluffy unicorn headband and i just thought you should know that.

Marco Mengoni from Italy

bead shirt, shirt made outta beads, pretty to look at, interesting gradient, nice addition of glam, theres not much here to mention.

Alessandra from Norway

the power, the presence. the cape. she is going ham with the aesthetic of both luxurious queen and intense club-goer. i love it. she goes hard, and so do her backup dancers (they look quite similar but less extravagant, as they are her subjects)

TVORCHI from Ukraine

they look like if techbros tried really hard but the only references they had were anime, techwear and egypt for some reason. not for me but i'll still cheer when they get invited to smash brothers

Gustaph from Belgium

let me break this down for you. pink ass-less chaps, on top of pink shorts, on top of pink pants which are too baggy to lie flat. who does this?? ontop of that we have the whole Boy George BigHat (tm) and a white blazer. this man is homo sexualling all over the place. combine that with his entourage of women in high coverage outfits, absolutely living their best lives and someone in a laced bodice with knee length stilletto boots, the energy of this is really well executed, especially for eurovision.

Alika from Estonia

i love a good pantskirt but this? not a pantskirt. this is a marvel of engineering and fabric manipulation. you have to see this one in motion i am begging you.

Vesna from Czechia

!!! the performance of these artists are actually unbelievable. literally perfect. the costumes allign really well with the whole message of the song with its power of the feminine and power of a support system. no notes.

Voyager from Australia

really good cohesive group outfits, the pattern on them is houndstooth but its silver and black which is an amazing aesthetic choice its so good. very fun ride and very eurovision

Teya & Selena from Austria

you cannot convince me they dont have tumblr. really striking outfits, the gloves have a really fun addition of texture to them which elevates the costuming for me.

Mimicat from Portugal

how many elmos did she have to kill for that dress. will she kill again? (i think so) 10/10

Remo Forrer from Switzerland

hes just wearing clothes.

Luke Black from Serbia

didnt know if i should use this pic or the one where hes surrounded by gorpcore ninjas while a mecha kaiju poses dramatically but you can see the pirate shirt better here

really good ruffling, lovely stitchwork on the trousers, just a well made fit overall.

La Zarra from France

this dress is entirely handsewn. the beadwork alone took 4 whole weeks and it is worth it. absolutely delectable. i cant stop looking at it. also the tower of a skirt that she begins in is ridiculous. 11/10 fashion capital of the world for a reason.

Blanka from Poland

she is literally a model. i think that counts as cheating. stll the dress has amazing colourisation and the sleeve is a statement.

Andrew Lambrou from Cyprus but secretly australia

well tailored but thats it? like wheres the anything.

Blanca Paloma from Spain

the top looks uncomfortable, interesting but uncomfortable.

Albina & Familja Kelmendi from Albania

the shapes, the jewelery, the giant sleeve flaps, i love it all. the thigh cut outs confuse me but the rest is amazing

Brunette from Armenia

i dont even know what to call what she is wearing. but it is cool major respect to whoever applied those grommets and to whoever laces it all up for her.

Pasha Parfeni from Moldova

all the costumes here are both intensely connected to the cultural roots of moldova and at the same time just go wild. you need to watch this one. i guarantee you will not be bored.

Lord of the Lost from Germany

anyway i could critique this misses the point of its existence. the purest form of the word egregious.

Monika Linkytė from Lithuania

the fabric manipulation here is crazy. like really technically advanced. only thing is it looks kinda gross, i dont like it

Joker Out from Slovenia

this boy band look like they got their clothes from an op shop. the vibes are quite wholesome which works with their whole performance. they need to stop winking at the camera tho.

Let 3 from Croatia

their costumes take inspiration from croatian military uniforms and combine them with feminine and goofy aesthetics as a political statement against warmongering and some other stuff.

good stuff, actively ridiculous, 10/10

Mae Muller from United Kingdom

well constructed pieces. i love a cropped jacket and this jacket is the most cropped of all. other than that is kinda basic but she makes up for it with all of the graphic design being her passion in the rest of her performance

overall p hype, cant wait for next year :)

#eurovision 2023

[trickstarbrave]

unsolicited online critiques are just insufferably annoying and like %99.9999 of the time are unhelpful.

you don't know this person most of the time. they don't know you. you don't know where they are at in their journey. they don't know how much of a fucking 'expert' you are or not. why should they give a flying fuck what you say. why should you give a shit if they are doing something "wrong"? like what do you even want out of this. do you want them to be better? because if so maybe ask them, after you first ask yourself if youre a good person to give them that critique

related to the above: critique is a skill you learn. bad critique can be even worse than none at all. and if you are an expert at critiquing the subject i dont think you would be insanely eager to do it for free for random ppl online without their permission

pointing out something being done badly or incorrectly doesn't tell the person how to make it better. they probably fucking know their anatomy is bad or their word choices are lacking. you pointing this out is not the wonderful help you think it is. you dont just hear "you did this wrong" and overnight research and implement it perfectly. it takes time to learn, do studies, research, and implement these things correctly.

too many people cannot tell the difference between personal preference and actual flaws. just because the story isnt what you wanted to read, doesn't mean the author necessarily told it badly. maybe it was the story they wanted to tell and you wanted a different one. maybe every color for the painting they picked was intentional and has a careful message, you just think that message is unimportant and a waste of time. i see stories or pictures i don't like all the time--but just because they aren't to my tastes doesn't mean they are done badly

"well it's just my opinion!! if you don't wanna hear opinions dont post it!!!" look being a hater has a time and a place but no one appreciates you coming up to them in public to tell them how much you dislike their outfit and would have picked something different. it's fucking rude. you are not an objective authority. if you wanna bitch and moan to hear yourself talk (i do this all the time, see: this post) do it on your own time in your own circle. otherwise you are doing the social equivalent of walking into the barbie movie loudly complaining about how much you hate barbie the whole fucking movie. no one gives a shit dude. talk to your friends or make your own post in a way where it won't give the creative a bunch of hate.

you need to make peace with seeing people express themselves in harmless ways you don't personally like without being insufferable about it. let people make ugly art or write bad fics or short stories and post cringe poems or wear ugly outfits. they posted it online to share joy not to get into a bitch fest with you personally. you HAVE to learn to do this to be a healthy, functioning member of society. there will always be people doing harmless things that annoy you. YOU are doing harmless things that annoy something else. learn to cope

[markets]

hi markets how is life going for u bc basically the guy who was my best friend for years well we stopped talkign last spring completely bc long story short he was Very in love with me and i could not get myself to feel the same even though i TRIED girl i genuinely tried sohard but that just ended up with him feelinbg led on and hurt and asked to never speak to me again hahalol well yeah he just texted me out of the blue bc he got a leaked frank ocean song and sent it me. because he knows i love frank ocean and knew i wouldg love it and whAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT DOESNT HE REALIZE THAT NOW THIS SONG WILL BE FOREVER ATTACHED TO THE FEELING OF GUILT AND HEARTBREAK AND ILL NEVER BE NORMAL ABOUT A SONG THAT WILL PROBABLY NEVER BE RELEASED AND WILL ONLY EVER EXIST AS AN ATTACHMENT IN OUR MESSAGES????? anyway yeah. the song wasgood

ANON. anon listen to me because i literally had this exaxt same situation with my (now ex) best friend SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL almost two years ago. i also tried and i also accidentally led on and hurt them and they didnt ask me to never speak to them again and actually jsut ignored me all summer instead and likely got all our shared friends (aka most of my friends lol) to do the same so i just didnt bother trying to reconnect once school started again. im also currently on the other end of this kind of as the best friend who took that old best friends place (though we probably wouldve ended up becoming best friends even without that whole mess i hope) broke up with me after a few very good months of dating and a few very bad ones and i asked him not to speak to me for a while but then decided to reconnect with (which judging by the fact that im active on tumblr could be going better).

so yeah now that ive given you my credentials heres what you do you thank him if you havent already and tell him you hope hes doing well and then you put your phone down and go on a walk far far away from it and think about the whole thing. that isnt the best advice because there realyl is no good advice for this situation its one of those things that tears you apart and then points at you and says haha oh YOURE torn apart you say wow what a selfish asshole haha!! but honestly its so clear to me just from this one ask that you care about him so much and im sure he can see that too. if hes texting you he can at least see it a little, and if you would like to do so im sure your friendship is salvagable. the person who put me as the heartbreak emoji in their "people i had feelings for this year" tik tok last december invited me to their house last month and we laughed and joked even though last time i had been there i had been pretending to feel something i could only wish i truly felt. and i dont think theirs an effort more admirable and beautiful than trying to save something like that, than looking the world straight in the eyes and saying "you want me to leave this for dead but i wont because i CARE and that means something." i mean if he wants too of course. which if he sent the text he might thats kind of how i wnet about it when i tried to reconnect too. maybe take this with a grain of salt because im in a highly emotional time in my life but all im going to say is im sorry anon. i know how awful it is to lose a best friend. and im hoping everything goes well for both of you

#angieanswers.txt

[foxfairy06]

HIIIII poookkksss its ollie, u banned me so ill yell at you on tumbllrrr <33333. YOU ARE A JOKKKE. "No cause i literally got diagnosed on the phone but ok hunn go off". okay sure, seriously doubtful because you could lie over the phone... did you know that... bet you didnt. anyway. like thats your reply to what u actually have to do to get a diagnosis, so your over the phone shit is actual bullshit. like its not covid no reason to do that, and also they need to see you in person and have you explain how your feeling aswell as your movements and the way that you respond to questions to get a diagnosis, or they will ask your family and friends or your teaching if they have noticed behavior that is needed for your diagnosis. so BULLSHIT BULLSHIT :333. Telling me to touch grass, god you so basic oml. also calling me a hypocrite when your a literal exclusionist , which you get to decide what is and isnt in the lgbtqia+ community is hypocrisy. from the merriam webster "a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings" and something you said in our messages, "The basis is lgbt topics. It's meant to be a place for lgbt exclusionists to gather" you say you support ppl of lgbtq but if they dont meet your criteria or if you dont think their queer you exclude them. thats hypocrisy. anyway hope you actually get the help you need so you can WAKE THE FUCK UP for you stupidity <3 which i will continue to state because my proof above proves it <3.

-ollie p.s you are still a ball of sperm we all are its not rude its a literal fact

p.p.s if you bring up what i said in the server here is a message i sent to you "i was spewing BULLSHIT" which you know is because i am a troll and i was gathering dirt on you pooks

p.p.p.s i have screenshotted all of out chats <3 karmas a bitch she is coming for you.

Karma for??? Being a good person? I didn't say anything rude, homophobic, or bad to you so you have no actual leverage here. That's like saying "i took screenshots so karma is coming for you<3" to the poor child you just harassed that eas being respectful and kind to you the whole time.

For those who don't understand, green text to the rescue!

> be ollie

> be sitting at your moms computer, bored

> decide your life isn't angry enough

> create an entire Tumblr spewing radmed shit thinking transmeds will follow you

> find a transmed with a server

> start saying super homophobic shit and harass everyone

> get muted for being homophobic and transphobic and harassing people

> message all the mods and call them names for muting your

> admit you were trolling then scream and cry at the owner for being transmed while calling him names and making strawmen and adhominem

> get banned

> still be a pissbaby who can't stop being angry with his life

> decide touching grass is too much

> go leave a novel of an ask under the owners Tumblr that makes several assumptions and zero sense then question their means of diagnosis.

For those who don't have context, i am trans, I am duosex, I went to a therapy place for free, and saw a therapist. He immediately started going through the criteria for dysphoria because I asked but we ran out of time. So I'm getting my diagnosis finished over the phone. It took me two appointments and $0 to get a gender dysphoria diagnosis. So stop acting like this is difficult or hurting anyone.

It's not hypocrisy to provide a safe space for a group and exclude people. You would provide a safe space for enben that has binary people in it? Because they aren't enby. Thus they don't need that space, and could fuck it up.

You're the hypocrite calling me names and crying and screaming at me calling me crazy. Seriously get some help. Therapy is an option. If you don't feel safe in your current mental state you could always check in at an ER and tell them you need help. You could also look around. Many places provide therapy for free. Utilize these resources and stop harassing strangers online. I hope that goes well for you.

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