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#but puppets bunker is so so good and I'm sad
asleepinawell · 11 months
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justice for puppets bunker 💀
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cerise-on-top · 2 years
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I’m a huge fan of CSR and there interpretation for batter, could I get some fluff/angst of Csr!Batter x Y/n? Perhaps y/n and him bunker down for the night and share there dreams with each other, hurt/comfort is a trope I rlly like
Hurt comfort is good too! The more painful it is, the better! Unfortunately, I couldn't remember his dream at the inn near Midnight Tower all that well, so I hope this is alright! I just remember it vaguely! Also, this got really long! Like, fanfic length long, so I hope you don't mind! It's also not proofread since I'm in a hurry today ^^;
C/S/R!Batter and Reader Sharing their Dreams
Notes: Mentions of death and suicide
He didn’t even jolt up from what he saw. He better didn’t, the people next to him were asleep, thus rendering him incapable of making even a single sound. The words he swallowed down, would anyone hear them if he let them out? And if they did, would anyone listen? Batter has heard the pleas of other people, but he never listened. His tunnel vision, that ravenous mountain he climbed to get on top to succeed, swallowed him whole to show him what he truly was. Not a beast, not a monster. No, he was neither of those things. In fact, he was nothing at all. No purpose, no allies, no reason.
A sigh from the bed next to his caught his attention. Were you awake too? You better went back to bed, there was a hard day ahead of you. Whether he had the energy or not didn’t matter. Nothing did. Somehow, the mere thought was pretty painful. He had done what he could, he did everything right. He completed his quest, he got his reward, and yet, as he rolled over, he looked at you. You, who pulled all the strings. You, who made him do what he did. You, who left him an empty shell. Another sigh from you, more shaky and breathy than the other one.
And yet, in spite of it all, he couldn’t bring himself to hate you. You were still with him. Many reasons led him to believe you could have just left him, and yet you were still there. Why? How? There was nothing to him at all. Staying with literally anyone else would have been more interesting.
This time, you sat up, staring emptily at your lap, Batter assumed. The moonlight didn’t reach your face, but judging from your position, he was likely right. Were you okay? Did his pathetic existence bother you already? More so than usual? Or did you have a bad dream as well. “My Player,” he whispered quietly, unsure if you could make out the words and hear more than just words, “are you okay?”
The sudden attention startled you, given how you jerked away from the source of noise. Had you really not noticed him? So preoccupied with your own thoughts, they must have been painful if they made you cry. You were usually so cheerful and optimistic, quite unlike him. But rain can extinguish any fire, no matter how bright it may shine.
Having turned to the source of the noise, you were silent
 for another moment, likely collecting your thoughts. Or maybe trying to make out what he said. Either was fine and likely. But finally, you whispered back: “Why are you awake?”
“I had a rather unpleasant dream.” All four of his eyes were opened for once, he hadn’t even realised such a thing until he saw you stare at his second pair. Momentarily, he closed them once more, hoping you would forget the sight. Third time’s the charm, third time’s a sob you choked down. You were so brave, if only your voice hadn’t disagreed and cracked.
“Me too. Heh, they really make you think, don’t they?” He just couldn’t sit by idly and do nothing about the fact you were suffering. What kind of worthless puppet was he if he couldn’t even do such a simple and small thing for you?
“Would you like to go outside for some fresh air? I am certain we could both benefit from such a thing.”
Maybe he saw you nod, maybe it was just a figment of his mind, but either way, oh so slowly and soundlessly did you get up, waiting, expecting for him to do the same. Even in the dim moonlight, you kept your head down, hoping it would conceal the sadness in your eyes. The tears that flowed every time your heart cracked open a bit more wouldn’t dry tonight.
Taking after your example, Batter also got up, not as gracefully as he had hoped, leaving Ghost Batter to stir in his sleep and turn to face the other way. What little illumination there was aided him in finding the door, giving him a chance to not have to stumble around aimlessly to find his way. Opening the wooden craft, he let you go outside first, who hurried into the hallway, almost forgetting what the initial goal of going outside even was.It was only when the silence was disrupted by the door’s creaking that you realised what it was you had wanted to accomplish. Your companion was nearby, and thus you left for outside, where you could talk quietly.
But around midnight, there was little to talk about. Where the stars take up most of a conversation, nothing meaningful was said, as they basked in the empty praise they had been given in a beautifully haunted place. When the flowers slept and the owls ceased their lonesome songs in hopes for a mate, the night was finally completely quiet, aside from the two shivering, their hearts so far apart, they couldn’t feel each other’s warmth anymore.
And when the pointlessness of it all hit the duo, was when one of them decided to head back inside, attempting to leave for a hellish scape of voids and vandalism of their head once more. “My Player, will you join me in resting for later?”
A lack of response thrilled and filled his heart with dread up until its very core. Everything must have been alright, for it was up until mere moments ago. Perhaps his worries were for naught, perhaps they had meaning. And yet, ease and relief filled his mind for the shortest of seconds when your voice echoed in this town of abyss. “I wish I had friends to die with. Right now, I only have ones to die for.”
“Pardon?”
Clutching your arms with your opposing hands, you stared at the moon. When had it become so big? “I remember thinking that during my dream. They abandoned me again and it hurt so bad. I don’t know what to think of that anymore.”
Batter realised you opened up about your dream. And a dream was a gateway to someone else’s mind, their being of past, present and future. You left yourself vulnerable with him by laying yourself bare in front of him. He wanted to say something, he really did. You hadn’t been abandoned, you had him, didn’t you! …was he not enough?
“Everyone left me behind the same way I wish I could leave them behind.” During your small pause, he opened his mouth, wishing to at least try to convince you of the truth. But alas, he never got that chance. “When I was with my friend, someone put a knife in my back as I protected them. Without looking back, they just ran, leaving me alone with the murderer. No one came back, even when everything had passed. I felt myself bleeding out. I felt myself growing cold. I felt myself dying all alone when I was surrounded by people at first.”
No one came to your side when you needed it. He understood that. Very well, even. People never bothered to help him either, aside from you, so shallowly, to keep him alive and well enough physically. Whatever. He might as well appreciate your openness. “I met a faceless woman in an empty world. We talked before I entered a house, where I ended up meeting my demise through my own hand. Corpses of myself littered the hallway as I watched them slowly become more and more disfigured. I recognised myself less and less as time moved on. Until there was nothing. Not even me.”
How sweet the moonlight slept upon this hill. So useless, for it barely gave Batter a glimpse of your eyes, all he could tell was they were on him. His four that make people deem him more a demon than he deserved to be. If anything, they should crucify him and call him the devil, it would be more fitting.
“I’m sorry, Batter. It sounds like you’re going through a lot. For what it’s worth, I’ve also had dreams where I committed, well, suicide. If you would like, we can talk about it. I’m sorry I don’t know what else to do.” Your voice was ladened with the guilt of incapability. What else was there to do but to apologise for something you couldn’t do. But that was what partners were for, to listen to one another and try their best at helping.
“My Player, that sounds-”
“Call me (Y/N). It’s easier.”
What an honour that was. “(Y/N), do you think I have a purpose? A reason as to why I’m here? Something, that makes me more than just a puppet?” Genuine questions, even if they made him seem like a freak. At least that way he could say he was anything at all to someone else.
Sombre melancholy infested your tone with its malicious, but fitting context. “You won’t like my answer very much, but I don’t know. I don’t know what your purpose or mine is in life. I don’t know anyone’s purpose. Who knows, maybe there is no such no. No reason for living. All of us were just put into this world without being told what to do or who to be.” You took a step closer to him so you could get a better look at his face, giving it your best to smile at Batter. “But, even if there is no such thing, even if the universe doesn’t care about our existence, you can make your own reason. Look for one, even. If what you want to do is make people happy, then go for it. If you want to start a flower shop and see that as your purpose, then have it be that. What I’m trying to say is there’s nothing you can’t make your reason for being. You just have to try and find something that makes you, personally, happy. Oh gosh, I’m rambling. I didn’t mean to, sorry!”
“Make your own reason,” he mumbled to himself, repeating your words and considering them, giving them even more meaning in his head. Somehow, hearing that something like a purpose for being doesn’t need to be inherent is comforting in and of itself. It was so simple, and yet, he had never come to that conclusion himself. One hand washes the other, so he simply needed some input as to what his purpose could be. “What is your reason?”
“Simple: I want to make people happy. The feeling that I get to have made a single person smile while I was here, knowing that I was the cause, it fills me with more joy than I can put into words. It’s silly, but I just want to see the world become a better place.”
“That is a very nice reason. I can admire something like this.” Somehow, despite the adventures you have both gone through together, Batter has never felt this close to you before. You have shared beds together when there was only one, he has felt a connection with you, a strong one too, from the very beginning, and yet, all these moments paled in comparison to now. “Will I find my reason too?”
Your soft chuckle sounded, ironically, like heaven to him. “Give it some time and you will. You may not find it now, or tomorrow, but one day, you will have your reason, and then you can live life around that and feel better.” You were so kind. Your reason for being made so much sense indeed.
“Thank you. You are living out your reason very well it seems.” He couldn’t recall when the last time was he willingly did so around someone else, but he opened his four eyes around you. And even when you saw them, your smile didn’t falter.
It was a surprise to you to see them again after all this time, but you didn’t mind. If anything, Batter’s ruby red eyes made him more unique, even if he wasn’t particularly hard to pick out in a crowd, no matter the size. “Kind of, it gets a bit lonely here and there. But I’m trying, and that’s all that matters.” The chill of the night was slowly starting to get to you, but you didn’t want to leave, not yet. This conversation was flowing so well.
“I can believe such. Still, some people must be appreciative of your kindness, leaving them to become part of your life. They come and leave, but most important are the memories you make with them. Whereas they are painful and sorrowful as of right now, one day, this significance shall fade and you can look back at them with a smile and without the hurt.”
“That’s the most I’ve ever heard you talk, you know?”
“My apologies.”
“Nothing to apologise for. But you’re right. One day, all of this will be over and I can move on, you put that nicely into words.” There was a pause where you considered your next words carefully? Should you really be asking this? Well, what did you have to lose anyway.
“Batter, can I have a hug?”
How awkward of a question. Batter wouldn’t have minded one bit if you had simply wrapped your arms around him, but all things considered, you acting the way you did made sense. Naturally, he wouldn’t say no to something like this. “Of course. You are My Player, after all, (Y/N).”
There was no hesitation, only gleeful joy upon hearing this response. Still, for as melancholically happy as you were, you still wrapped your arms around him rather slowly, leaving him enough time to pull away if he so desired. But he never did, reciprocating the hug instead. He was tall and somewhat muscular. It was nice.
“I’m so glad to have you. Thank you for everything.”
“Same here.”
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Destiel Chronicles
Vol. XC
It was a love story from the very beginning.
Breaking Walls (Part I)
(12x20/12x21)
Hello my friends! I'm here with another meta from season 12! This time I'll try to resume these two episodes pointing important subtext and foreshadows I found in them.
We/Us vs Only Dean
Resonating with the previous episode, the mixtape one. We will meet Tasha Banes and her son's Alicia and Max. And with them will come the difference between WE/US and I/ME.
First of all, we were fed with Dean Winchester's worries for Castiel.
Gif set credit @starlightcastiel
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The scene opens with a close up to Dean's hands. This focus on the hands will continue through the episode, related with my Quantum theory about Dabb's era, it talks about a foreshadow. And because is centered on the knuckles, is a foreshadow of Dean hitting on the door from the Burger Shop after praying to Chuck in 13x01. Linked to his worries for Castiel, opens the door for the incoming mourning for him.
Dean: That freaking baby isn't even born yet and it sock puppeted him. Think about it.
Is very meaningful Dean uses this word PUPPET here, to explain Castiel's odd behavior. But is also related to this episode: a witch killing people and constructing puppets she can command as she wishes. If this sounds particularly known by all of us, is because is a very smart Foreshadow for Chuck appearing in the ending of season 14 and the whole season 15. The puppet master.
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This is what makes Dean feel so worried: CAS having faith in Lucifer jr. As Dean calls it. Is not good sign for him. And because he knows what CAS is willing to do when he is in soldier mode, when he has faith in something. He can give everything in exchange. He knows it. And he is worried because CAS is in danger now. And he can't understand how CAS is having faith in that nephilim he was trying to kill hours before. He needs to understand what's going on, Because Castiel's safety is in danger. And Cas' means everything to Dean.
SAM: I don't know. I mean, look, this doesn't make any sense to me either, Dean. But if we wanna have some shot at finding Cas, the we have to...I don’t know. Uh, try and think like him.
DEAN: How? Seriously...
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He sounds desperate here. He knows exactly this is the first time he saw CAS like this. Again brainwashed? He is scared. Dean is afraid of losing CAS. He didn't recognize Castiel looking back at him. Because CAS had a new mission now. Cas had determination in his eyes. And the mission comes first.
Then, one phone rings, and is Max and Alicia. And the dialogue here will separate the therms WE from INDIVIDUAL again.
ALICIA: Yeah, sorry to um...Uh, Mary gave me a couple different numbers to reach her, and we thought –
Max loudly interrupts Alicia to make a point that this is not his idea.
MAX: No. No. Mnh-mnh.
Alicia looks exasperated.
ALICIA: I thought Mary would be down to help. Uh, be our backup on this, um...
The parallel with the Barnes brothers here is loud, not just the missing parent in a hunt, but the blatant difference between WE/US vs INDIVIDUAL (Alice and Dean).
Max doesn't want his sister use him as a shield for showing his worries. Just like Dean used Sam in the mixtape scene or when CAS arrived at the bunker.
After Sam accepts to help, Dean turns into worried boyfriend mode...
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He is like: 'Come on Sam, didn't you heard all my worries? We have to find CAS! CAS CAS CAS!'
Then we have Dean calling Mary...
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His face here is loud. He was thinking about Castiel being in danger since CAS left. I bet you he couldn't sleep neither. And he needs to talk with someone about this. But how he feels about this. Becay Sam ia confused but he keeps doing his job. Dean just can't go on if he can't rescue CAS from the 'evil child'.
The Foreshadows
Before jumping into the symbology of this episode, let's show another example of we/u vs me/I:
ALICIA: Well, then why didn't you call us? I mean we–
MAX: Ahem.
Sam and Dean look slightly uncomfortable.
ALICIA: I called and texted a lot.
TASHA: I'm sorry, baby. My phone hasn't been charging all day.
Is the difference between the amount of worrisome and the effort from the writers to point out that to us. To make it noticeable.
Now, let's go with Mary Winchester: there's this scene in which Mary discovers Mick's corpse and she uncovered his face. Is a sad foreshadow of Dean in episode 13x01 uncovering Castiel's face when he laid dead on the table.
Also the finding of the corpses ina dark place by Dean and Sam, was a foreshadow of dead and the Empty.
Then, Tasha attack Alicia and Max, as a foreshadow of Mary coming against her own boys.
But it caught my attention what Ketch says to Mary:
KETCH: But I can keep you safe. If you just play your part, if you play nice...
In an episode where we are talking about puppets Ketch asks Mary to play her part. And I just recalled the whole season 9 with Metatron and the repetitive quote: Everyone needs to play their role. As an attempt coming from the writer to control the story and the characters. This is very important because is anticipating Chuck's plot in season 15. Mary answers: 'I don't play nice' as a reflection of TFW.
When Alicia dies, the dialogue between Sam, Dean and Max is another example of loosing a brother/family and loosing the love of your life.
SAM: Hey, Max, um, this is, uh... Look, you – you're probably in shock right now, but it's gonna pass.
DEAN: And then it's gonna hurt.
They're talking from their places, they had lost many people in their lives, family. Wich is pointing too what we will be seeing at the beginning of season 13, the big difference with loosing the love of your life, incarnated I'm Dean mourning Castiel.
Eileen's death and Brainwashing
Just a few words about episode 12x21.
Is the episode in which Eileen dies, in a dark Forest. Saileen always had been a Destiel mirror and showed the path for our ship. So when Eileen dies, is talking about the lovers separation through death. Sam uncovering her face in the morgue, again, as a prelude of Dean doing the same with Castiel.
BMoL brainwashing Mary, and using her as a puppet against the boy, is slightly showing how Dean sees what's going on with CAS.
But is also a foreshadow of AUMichael!Dean.
Later in the episode, we have Crowley who was controlling Lucifer's vessel as a puppet too, but something goes wrong this time.
DREXEL: The ability to control is transferring from Crowley to you.
LUCIFER: So you're saying that Crowley's gonna be my puppet.
This could be showing two interesting Foreshadows: first, when AUMichael will take control over Dean's body and kidnap him in episode 13x23, and second, what will happen once Dean will lock Michael down in his head, taking full control of his own body.
Then, another parallel between CAS and Mick. Remember Samadriek saying he has too much heart and that was his problem? Okay...
TONI: Oh, Mick's dead.
SAM: He's dead?
TONI: Quite. It was determined he was too sentimental for the job.
So Mick also had too much heart...
To Conclude:
Dean is a mess of worries for CAS and it shows. He is afraid of loosing him this time for real.
There are foreshadows of Cas' death all over the episodes, preluding the finale.
There's also a lot of references to puppets, for the incoming plot of Chuck and Dean's possesion.
Hope you like this volume. See you in the next one!
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lxdyred · 5 years
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Witness, Judge, Executioner
Requests: Open!
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“I only remember h-how my mother…"tried to speak Y/N as she hold onto her glass of whisky and had her gaze focused on the fireplace. "My mother’s screams are all I remember. There was also a lot of blood. My father was face down. My brother told me to hide, and I did. I ran upstairs and hid under my bed, while I was crying and trying to hold my breath… quiet as a mouse, trying not to make any noise noise.” said Y/N as she turned away the tears that started to rolled down her face, began to tremble at the memory that kept haunting her 20 years.
She rose from the couch where she was sat and walked towards the fireplace, where she took the whisky glass with her and gave it a sip.
Steve, un the other hand was quiet, rubbing his hands as he nodded and looked down at his lap. Clenching his teeth as he learned the part of the story that followed, he couldn't help but stand up and go to were his friend and teammate was, to try to comfort her as he put one of his hands on her shoulder and he squeezed it as a sign of reassurance.
“Suddenly my mother’s screams ceased after hearing the echo of a gunshot. At that moment I knew that I had no one left in this world, that I was alone.” she said before she finished drinking her whisky. “I heard his footsteps crawling up the creaking stairs… his fucking steady, slow steps approached the hallway leading to my room.. And-And then...”
“Y/N… Please.” Steve begged with tears in his eyes as he looked at his friend with supplication. “Don’t. You don't have to keep telling me this. Just-"
“Every night I heard in my dreams his slow and tortuous steps that are getting closer and closer to me. I also hear the cries of my mother and her gasps and moans from crying so much for my father and brother, Steve. I can still hear her, begging for him to stop and to leave me alone! Like that night.” Y/N said as she threw the glass furiously into the fire and looked at her friend. “He knew perfectly well where I was hiding. We both knew what was coming for me. That’s why when he grabbed my foot and dragged me out from under my bed, I thought it was all over and that at least... and t-that at least, I would be reunited with my family. That he was gonna kill me, that was going to put an end to my misery, but no.” said furiously the woman, feeling how the anger invaded her, as she watched the fire consume the wood. “He looked at me like it wasn't worthy... killing me, like it wasn’t worthy spending one more bullet for a six-year-old little girl."
"He did the worst thing he could do to me, Stevie..." the young avenger sobbed with a frown, as she could savor those salty tears that came down her face. "He left me alive."
“You need to understand that it wasn’t Bucky who did all that. It wasn't him. He had no choice or– Look. He was being controlled by HYDRA. You-you know he didn’t–”
“I don’t care! I don't care, okay!?” shouted Y/N. “I was a child and I witnessed how that son of a bitch killed my family... My entire family! First to go was my brother, then my father and finally my mother. And he left me alive? Why!? Huh, why!?” screamed Y/N with more anger and pain than before, as she approached dangerously to Steve, who was looking at her with sadness and pain in the eyes because of her words. “I don’t care if that sick bastard is a friend of yours or if he was being controlled like a fucking puppet for all those bloody decades! The nightmares he has and all his demons are more than well deserved! It’s what he deserves.” said the las thing in a whisper while she pointed at him with her finger.
“Are you listening to yourself Y/N!? This is not you!”
“Oh, you are damn wrong there, Cap. This is me.” said Y/N as she pulled out her gun and loaded it. “But... you know what?" she looked at her gun and later to Rogers. "What that son of a bitch really deserves is the bullet that I’m about to put in his head. But first I'm gonna beat the crap out of him. It's the least I can do for him, isn't it?” the female faked a smile before she left the room in search of her prey, but not before take care of locking Steve in the room, without him being able to escape in any way.
"No! Don't do it, Y/N! Please! NO!" was the last thing Steve said before his teammate ran out of the place.
Steve kept repeating that scene in his head over and over and over again, as he sat on the floor and stared at the wall - waiting for his friend to arrive and tell him she had committed her purpose, which terrified, pissed and saddened him deeply.
The room in which the Captain was locked was upside down. He had tried to use every possible object and piece of furniture to try to open the door of the bunker in which he was, which was one of the panic rooms in the tower. Although, it had to be admitted that several of the broken furniture was because he had paid all the frustration and helplessness he felt by broking them.
He felt like an enclosed beast looking for a desperate way to escape a trap.
"Crap!" he said as he threw a wooden chair against the steel door. "Fuck," exclaimed as he accelerated his breathing and began to cry again. He had lost count of how many times he had done it since he was locked up. "This can't be happening..." he sobbed as he fell on his knees, hands on his face.
He had not only lost Bucky that day, but also Y/N, who would do anything to accomplish her personal task, even if it cost her her own life. He knew that the fight that had taken place could have been fatal for either of his two friends.
"There must-"
Suddenly the enclosure door opened, the blonde man looked up and with red, watery eyes and watched Y/N, who was trying to catch her breath and was covered in blood. He didn't know if it was hers or Bucky's, maybe it was from both of them. "I did it," whispered the young woman with a trembling voice.
"Y/N..." Rogers tried to get up slowly, carefully.
"I did it, Steve. I have... done it. I-I've killed my family's murderer," the female said with a tired sigh as she approached her friend. "He... Al-he was... I- Goddammit, I was s-so..." Y/N, exhausted, tried to talk to him before she fainted, Steve catch her.
Okay, first of all, this was an idea I had a long time ago and that I'd like to turn into a series, but I'm not sure if I'm going to do it or not. If so, I would like to publish it this summer, when I have more free time and have managed to finish most of the requests I have right now, so everyone would be happy.
Btw if anyone would be interested in being tagged in the story, just let me know so I'll start doing a tag list for this story!
And that's it, good night my dudes!
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