#deleting memories

[mariana-oconnor]

The AO3 search/filtering system has just ruined me for every other search function ever. I genuinely go onto websites, click 'advanced search' and then look at what paltry options they've given me in utter horror. How does anyone find anything? How do people survive?

#AO3 #I'm not saying that I can always find exactly what I'm looking for if I want a specific fic #but 9 times out of 10 I can #And yes this is as much down to the dedication of the users tagging things effectively #If people didn't use the tagging system it would be useless #But people do #and then the tag wranglers make it all work so well #Glory to the tag wranglers #and it's just beautiful #I could weep #Also I'm pretty sure some of the fics I'm looking for have been deleted #Which is tragic #and I can't find them on the wayback machine either #Lost to the abysm of time and now living only in my memory #Alas #alack #alas and alack

[jeeaark]

last shirtless silly I swear- Friendship power ref and Sexy pjs ref

I always thought it was a glitch when Halsin and Jaheira appeared in this scene, but maybe the tadpoles are getting stronger. Or maybe even tadpoles are capable of character growth and are now considering non-tadpole people part of the tadpole gossip family???????

Love how it was the ol' folks of the team that the tadpoles snitched to. Maybe they were all awake at the time. Having a 'back in my day' or 'kids these days' chat.

So part 2. USUALLY. I try to separate my patch 0 play to any patch 5+ plot-hole fixes. Because when nobody said ANYTHING after the tadpoles snitched on Greygold's ass, I had to play the rest of the game while going on a whim of my own interpretation of that WTF moment.

Had to surmise that maybe squid buddy somehow convinced everyone it was 'just a dream', so nobody wanted to talk about it. So. At least I wasn't too far off???

But, after hearing officially that the Emperor did a 'you-didn't-see-that' jedi trick, I thought of a funny so. I made an exception.

#bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #the emperor bg3 #bg3 emperor #bg3 comic #bg3 fanart #greygold #Now greygold don't have time to unpack ALL OF THAT #BUT they would definitely like to have A Talk about squid buddy trying to delete all of its blooper moments #like YEAH IT'S A BIT CONCERNING EMPS CAN “UNDO” MEMORIES BUT so can magic peeps and vampires and gamers(me) SO- whoamItojudge #one time Lae'zel tried to murder Greygold cause they wanted to explore the secret monk room instead of going in the artifact portal so- #had to reload! Say 'just kidding babe ilu lets immediately go in the portal' so-I GET IT EMPS #maybe squiddude just uses “memory mod” like any other adventurer idiot: when they fuck up

[bigshotautos]

I really like your theory about Spamton basically haunting a mannequin after death. Have you ever touched upon the reaction from Jevil (or anyone, really) upon seeing the new Spamton? Especially considering Spamton isn't even aware he 'died'.

^ how i think jevil's first sight of Spamton would go. i love this ask. this is referring to some headcanons I made a while back, I'll link it here for the one post and the general ghost spamton theory is linked in that one as well. Going to elaborate on it more under the cut for those interested + more art.

In general I think that people from Spamton's past wouldn't really care if they notice at all, since he wasn't in the business of making close friends with anyone. With the Addisons, in my interpretation he had a "weird co-worker" relationship with them, and while Addisons in general treated each other like potential business competitors that they had to make-nice with, Spamton is especially easy to single out for being visibly and temperamentally different. His altered, current state is something they'd feel at least uncomfortable by, but many wouldn't have been too close with him to begin with for them to talk about it with him directly. Would get whispered about between each other for sure, like we saw with them talking about Spamton after the NEO fight. It moves him from the "disgraced guy I used to know" category to the "actually unpleasant to look at or think about" territory. This goes for Swatch, Queen, and Seam (less so), who seem to buy heavily into the Lightner and Darkner dynamic, with Spamton corrupting the Lightner's dream being a strong taboo against what it means to be a Darkner.

As for what Jevil thinks, Spamton during the NEO fight is both a beautiful and horrifying display. Jevil at this point hasn't seen him in years since his imprisonment, and in their time apart Jevil has grown to find novelty in the cage that everyone else besides him is in since he's created huge emotional distance between him and the reality he lives in. Seeing the fact that Spamton had corrupted an abandoned dream of a Lightner and was causing so much chaos to the established order of the world would be exhilarating, but at the same time seeing that Spamton had accomplished this and still had his strings visible (and changed to a marionette puppet with no symbolic agency), it'd be a painful confirmation of his worldview that even Spamton, who deep down he still cares for, could never have been free.

Jevil would think at first he'd just gone through some nebulous situation to change what he looks like, since ofc he himself has toy-like traits (arguable if that happened with Gasterfication or not), Seam is a plushie cat, and other Card Castle Darkners are based on toys, but feeling the lack of life combined with the symbolic body of Spamton would mean to him something bigger had went wrong. He wouldn't dare to bring it up in an empathetic way, stuck in his mindset that it doesn't matter, but it'd still hit a part of him he doesn't like to think still exists. It's something he gets over quickly, almost performatively going back to fucking with him and taking advantage of his fear for entertainment, but it didn't sit well at first.

To me, the fact Spamton "died" isn't really a huge deal, kind of like with the ghosts in Undertale where no one really cares they're just ghosts. They're just doing their thing. To me it'd be fine if neither of them find out what happened for certain, but it's something that adds Flavor to his character.

#asks #deltarune #spamton #jevil #SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER ANON LOL. its been a month or something #i asked tumblr user funnywormz for consulation on this for his thoughts as well since he's my accomplice in ghost spamton truthers #my art #ofc this is all just my internal worldview on the thing it's by no means definitive but its just for Fun! #btw as for queen im hardly even joking i think she would have deleted spamton from her memory banks because he was so sucks. #also in the image up top susie cant hear jevil saying this shit it definitely wouldnt have helped. #i think darkners can detect the itemized darkners but lightners cant like with tasque manager and spamneo noticing jevil

[pusangkambing]

Common Miconceptions about qJaiden!

She likes or is proFederation! False!

-She is not fond of the federation at all and the only ones she truly cares about from them are the Cucurucho's, the ones she spent 2 weeks with in isolation, which obviously has problems of its own. She has stated and told people multiple times that only cucurcucho matters to her and not the federation as a whole.

If it doesnt matter to a character in the server or to you as a viewer and you align cucurucho the same as the federation, thats completely fair, but its important to include that distinction when talking about qjaiden's character as the difference is important to her and her perception.

She was raised/an experiment by the Federation/Cucurucho! Uncomfirmed!

-it has not been stated anywhere the true nature between qjaiden and cucurucho's/the Federation's past. All we know is that qJaiden "helped" the federation/cucurucho in some way and they need her help again. It is not canon that Cucurucho was ever her father figure nor that Jaiden is somehow a mother figure/caretaker of them.

qJaiden is naive! False!

-Jaiden is fully aware of cucurucho's wrong doings and is not naive about the fact that they may be manipulating her. Although she IS attached to them, remember that the whole reason she started working with the Federation is for the gauranteed safety of the eggs, which they failed to do. She is not ignorant of this fact btw, she's aware that they failed to keep their end of the bargain but she's also aware that she's gotten far with her relationship with the Cucurucho's and consequently the Federation, which she believes may be used to her advantage. She's also not always agreeing or in line with what Cucurucho does, as seen when she found out about the Happy Pills and Forever being drugged, which ended with her waiting for hours to confront Cucurucho in anger but spiraled to somewhat of a breakdown as she becomes scared and nervous and tells herself that she cannot mess up their relationship now as she has gotten so far. QJaiden is fully aware and understands the drastic consequences that her actions may take, she is not naive or ignorant.

Impromptu list because reasons. If im wrong about anything or if you want to add something then tell me!

#impromtu qjaiden misconceptionlist that may be missing lots of stuff but idk these come to mind because im tired #the one that bothers me the most is the federation one because shes said it so mamy times and always explaims it that shes attached only to- #cucurucho amd not the feds #AAARGHH WHATEVER #RAAAGGGHHEHWHW #paimon!speaks! #qsmp #jaiden animations #also full disclosure that my memory is shoddy and if i am wrong about a lot of thjngs tell me and ill edit/delete it #i need that blinkie about being wrong about anlysis and shit and being human

[firefox-official]

someone just sent me an ask informing me that responding to awful asks just encourages them. Yeah i know buddy. the really bad ones dont see the light of day. they just see me. My eyes and brain

#i delete them as quickly as possible so i dont have to commit them to memory

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst

When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.

It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.

“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.

“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.

“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.

“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.

“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.

“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.

“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.

“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.

#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this #and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj #but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!! #I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written #there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone #and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost #and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again #but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same?? #they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem #not them* heck #it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself #where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’ #and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories #but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you #and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time #you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them #so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT #sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in #okay bai #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[hesokuri-wars]

The next 4-star set has been announced and we’ve got more high school Matsus! This time they’re ready for swim class, simply called the Swimsuit (High School Student) set. 

They attack many enemies at once and have high HP and attack. They also power up the skills of other characters within the same set as well as characters from the original 3-star Swimsuit set.

This set will be available in the gacha on July 00!

💙 Mod Kara

⬆️ Mod Kara’s words from 2019 ⬆️

⬇️ Mod Ichi’s additional commentary as of 2023 ⬇️

IF TUMBLR WOULD FINALLY LET ME POST THIS THAT’D BE NICE. ANYWAY.

As you can see above, Hesokuri Wars was going to add a set of the 18matsus in swimsuits, but for whatever reason, they ended up never seeing the light of day. A bit of an explanation on how these pics were uncovered:

Back then, the news bubble that popped up whenever a player launched the game was sourced from a webpage. Given that the staff would sometimes write the news in advance, they had a full section prepared announcing the release of this set, and so Mod Kara ripped the images from there and drafted this post in anticipation of its release. Needless to say, that never happened, but we couldn’t just post these, so these guys have been stuck in limbo for the past 4+ years. Buuut now that the game’s been shut down for over a year, it’s probably fine to release them, right?

Gotta wonder what happened that caused them to never be put into the game. Cheers to the set that never was!

🐾 Mod Ichi

#hesokuri wars #hesowars #money wars #osomatsu san #osomatsu san the movie #osomatsu #karamatsu #choromatsu #ichimatsu #jyushimatsu #todomatsu #news #mod kara #mod ichi #memorial and legacy #it would feel wrong to delete mod kara's words so i won't #not deleting the tags either

[aduckwithears]

Your... boss said that to Job, do you remember?

I most certainly do.

Good Omens S2/Ep2

#that look on crowley's face... #oh yeah that's when i was Bildad! should i grow a beard again? #angel what do you think? angel?? #aziraphale is deep in memory land #crowley leaves #grows a beard #decides against it #deletes the beard #we were robbed #good omens #good omens gifs #gif set #aziraphale #crowley #goodomensgifs #goodomenssource #a duck gifs #good omens s2 #good omens 2 #gomens #gos2

[calista-222]

So weird how modern video games give players so few save slots, usually only 1 or 3, rarely more. With some consoles you have to make a new account if you want to replay a game without losing your other save file...

Meanwhile early 2000s games: "Yeah, players will probably need 99 save slots"

#maybe it has something to do with space limit but like‚ when I had no space left in my gamecube all I had to do was delete a few things #or use a different memory card #so why not give us the option

[llumimoon]

Hehehe this was a great way to draw some characters I don’t draw as often! <3

#dndads #dungeons and daddies season 2 #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies #cal draws #normal oak #hero oak #lincoln li wilson #stud stampler #terry jr stampler #DOES HE HAVE AN OFFICAL LAST NAME? #nicky freeman #nicholas foster #SPECIFCIALLY i was asked for Narcolas lmao #BTW I WROTE UP ALL MY FUCKIN TAGS AND THEN THEY ALL GOT DELETED FSHGJKLHDILBD #so here i am rewriting them to best my memory </3 #sorry to the person who asked for poison ivy #i couldn’t tell if u were asking for poison ivy Hermie or just the character #OTHERWISE i just took the first 6 requests genuinely! :D #this includes asks as well as the comments left of the post #Hero being from an anon ask that told me to draw one of my favorite characters #BTW. WHICH ONE OF YOU WAS THAT !!!! I KNOW IT WAS A MUTUAL PRE DATING MY DNDADS ERA #I LOVE YOU BTW MWAH HOPE UR DOING WELL WHICH EVER ONE OF YOU THAT WAS #this is me getting back into drawing digitally in my free time <3 hehehe

[turnipoddity]

this is really random but I remember the time I drew a horror comic for my assignment and didn’t sleep for like… 2 days

I drew an old lady as a subject of horror and draw her in the creepiest positions i could think of at the time, and it was 2 am in the morning when i hear traditional javanese singing from outside my dorm, and a spitting image of what i drew is standing there in the hallway with her back facing me, but slowly turning her head towards me as she realized I was staring at her

#and then i just went… i am fucking delusional and i went to sleep #AKSHSKDHDFKFKFK #i haven’t sleep for 2 days straight i was probably hallucinating #pretty creepy memory for me though #idk why i randomly remember this #delete later

[periwinklemoonlight]

I understand people have good intentions when they do this, but please don't tag my art of jellie that was created when she was alive and depicting her as such, with #tw animal death or anything similar.

#delete later #sorry it's just been upsetting me to see in my notifications #Those posts have nothing to do with animal death regardless of what happened #I think that tag should probably just be used for actual memorial posts or posts discussing her #sorry if this sounds unreasonable she just made me very happy and it really sucks to be reminded of her death over and over #especially on art that also made me happy

[la-haine-x]

#delete #memories #love #sad #vintage #old #tumblr

[soracities]

Tomas Tranströmer, “Midwinter″, The Deleted World: Poems (versions by Robin Robertson, bilingual ed.) [transcript in ALT]

#q #lit #quotes #midwinter #poetry #tomas tranströmer #the deleted world #beyond the river lethe there is memory healed #where ghosts and shades do tread #typography #the bone bare season #reading #swedish lit #m #x

[melit0n]

Hey! Just letting the, like, three people who follow me for Lovejoy/Wilbur, I won't be posting about him anymore.

I can't take back four, almost five, years of finding comfort in him, interacting with that community, and listening to his music (and finding a Hell of a lot of comfort in that), but I can and will support Shelby all the way.

Always support and listen to the victim. Remember this is Shelby's story, not Wilbur's.

#although this is directed at not posting about lvjy/Wilbur anymore remember this is SHELBY'S case. not his; don't make it about him at all #i won't be deleting the few posts I have on them (especially my concert clips because those are a wonderful memory for me) because -> #I'm using this site as an archive. It was a point in my life that will be staying up even if it has nothing to do with me #wilbur soot #the band lovejoy #lovejoy #mel's rambles

[vee-is-a-clown]

Preklance, Keith temporarily loses most of his memories of Lance (remembers that they went to the Garrison together but nothing since) and ever since he lost his memory he thinks Lance is weird for wanting to hang out with him. He says things like, "No, that's really gay. We're not dating, are we?" , "Dude, that is some homoerotic bullshit." , or "No, I won't spar with you one on one really early in the morning before everyone else wakes up because I'm not a repressed gay boy who'll disrupt my few hours of sleep to hang out with you." And honestly, Lance is a little confused. Like, Keith's gay. Why does he have problems with gay shit?

#Keith gains his memories back and is mortified #voltron #keith voltron #vld keith #keith kogane #klance #lance voltron #vld lance #lance mcclain #if this flops I'm deleting it