Trans Horror Books
Looking for some trans horror books to read for Halloween? Here you go:
Book titles:
Hell Followed With Us by Andrew Joseph White
The Spirit Bares Its Teeth by Andrew Joseph White
The Ojja-Wojja by Magdalene Visaggio and Jenn St-Onge
Let Me Out by Emmett Nahil and George Williams
The Honeys by Ryan La Sala
Even If We Break by Marieke Nijkamp
Tell Me I’m Worthless by Alison Rumfitt
Brainwyrms by Alison Rumfitt
All the White Spaces by Ally Wilkes
Bound In Flesh by Lor Gislason
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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".
Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"
And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".
Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.
At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.
So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!
Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!
Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!
Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.
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there's something deeply gutting about being a writer right now. watching studio execs brag about starving people like you out of your very house just to not pay you anything above the pennies you currently make. watching some people cheer over AO3 being targeted for a DDOS attack. the complete lack of profitability of writing commissions or writing in general in transformative spaces, especially in contrast to fanart. the pivot of so many social media platforms to be video and image based near-exclusively.
I don't know. it just makes me sad to know that the hobby that kept me alive while growing up homeschooled with dial-up internet and local antenna TV... is only ever gonna be a side job with minimal engagement. I know this site is good about supporting libraries and the concept of books but, do me a favor? Reach out to a writer friend you know. Leave a comment on your last five read stories on your favorite website.
Tell us you care.
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Even If We Break by Marieke Nijkamp Review
I don't post a lot of book reviews on here, but whenever one includes a discussion of LGBT+ issues, it just feels right to share it here.
This book really wasn't the story I'd wanted it to be. It feels weird to say this, but I actually would have liked for it to be less dramatic, for the danger to have remained fictional. I loved the idea: a group of troubled friends coming back together one last time before graduation to try and patch things up and put an end to the story they'd crafted in their role-playing game. There's so much potential there! I would have loved to see these kids explored a bit more in contrast to the characters they'd created for themselves. But, because the danger becomes real so quickly, we didn't get to see as much of that as I would have liked.
It just would have felt like a more natural way to explore the characters. What we got instead were a bunch of passages that felt like tangents-- old memories they'd suddenly start reflecting on in the middle of something much more pressing. Priorities, please.
As a whole, I didn't find the characters to be particularly likable. Very little effort was made with Carter and Liva. Finn never grew on me. Ever was written to be the most sympathetic, but it's hard to relate to a character who has no flaws. Maddy was the best of the bunch in that regard, the most balanced. So it's unfortunate that she started feeling like such a third wheel to Finn and Ever's romance. I feel like this concept could have been the kind of story where everyone was flawed but also relatable in some way, if only the time had been spent to properly explore them all. And if some characters hadn't been written off so early. It really wasn't the kind of friendship story I'd been hoping for.
Which brings me to one last point I wanted to make. But be warned. It includes…
!!!!SPOILERS!!!!
There's this awful trope in a lot of older media where, if an LGBT+ character was included at all, it was basically a given that they would either be demonized as the villain or killed off.
This book feels kind of like the opposite of that. It doesn't really feel like a coincidence that the villain was the only one in the group who was both straight and cisgender. (In one of those weirdly-placed tangents, they shoehorn in after his death that even Carter was bi.) And why was Zac's character included at all? He only exists in flashbacks. He literally has no role in this story except to remind us every once in a while that the only other straight, cis person who used to be a part of the group was a bigoted jerk.
This book follows a group of people who just want to be respected and accepted for who they are. The message that sort of story preaches is coexistence. So it's hypocritical to just demonize the other group instead. And I think what bothers me most about that, is that if reversing the trope felt intentional, I might have still enjoyed it.
It still may not have sent the best message, but… Who doesn't like a good revenge story every once in a while? But those types of tales are only satisfying if there's a happy ending. The surviving kids end the tale even more messed up than they started it.
Even If We Break felt like a good idea that went in every wrong direction possible.
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This is sad but unfortunately I think this is just going to be the norm for the next few years as streaming services die a slow death.
HBO Max should in theory be able to make money from a show that was at one point the top new series in the US. At the time, David Jenkins said "This is what happens when a major media company invests in inclusive mainstream stories" (agree!) but unfortunately that major media company, like all streaming services, has a terrible business model that can't support that investment.
This is an interesting article about how streaming services are losing money and scrambling to make it back by trying to convince people to buy cheaper, ad-supported options or bundling with other streaming services. Unfortunately for them, I think that's like... all of the options? At some point they're just going to continue to lose money. Making shows is expensive and very few consumers are willing to pay more when they could just cancel and use a cheaper service (or, you know. 🏴☠️)
This is also a good article that was written after Shadow and Bone was cancelled by Netflix about whether it could be saved:
"The problem is that while saving shows used to be plausible, at times, the cost of Shadow and Bone combined with the fact that streaming services are really, really starting to cut back on spending means that this would be an extremely tough sell. WB Discovery’s Max is being lambasted for killing finished projects for tax breaks to chip into its massive debt. Disney Plus has done the same thing and has said they will cut back on things like expensive Marvel shows. Amazon Prime is mired in expensive creator deals going nowhere and throwing insane amounts of money at projects they are realizing are not panning out. Paramount Plus losing $500 million a year. NBC’s Peacock is losing $650 million a quarter."
TLDR; Streaming services have reached such a dire point financially that they have to cancel some of their most popular content (Marvel shows on Disney+???? These have seemingly been very successful; it's wild to read that they're "cutting back") in the desperate hope that a new season of something that's cheaper to make will get more attention.
What I gathered from these articles is that steaming services are dying a slow death and sadly, a lot of good shows are going to go with them.
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