#god im so fucking alone

[clouvu]

Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine

#genshin impact #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short #ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half #i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved #like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can #but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay #and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up #and maybe no one else ever will #DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak #but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB

[spaciebabie]

SHUT UP DO YOU UNDERSTAND???? DO YOU UNDERSTAND??? DO YOU??? DO YOU UNDERSTAND????? DO YOU SEE??? DO YOU FUCKING SEE???? HES DOIGN!!! HES DOING THE THING SWHERE THEY!!! THEY YANNO THEY!!!!!!!!

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #springtrap #william afton #purple guy #springtrap fnaf #fnaf springtrap #springtbun #what do you thingk hes . thinkgin abt. #uuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhgrgrgryufjygfkjDFHUAhfujHKUHKASJFKJHKSUHAGKASUHGKASUHFIAUSHFYAS #I WANNA DO 2 VERSIONS W/HIM AS ANTHRO AND THEN AS ACTUAL BUNNY #I WAS GONNA DO ACTUAL BUNNY FIRST BUT I GOT THIS STUCK IN MY HEAD AND I NEEDED IT OUT FUCK FUCKING HELL #WHY DO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LEAVE ME ALONE #((((please dont)))) #UHJMN UMMUMM OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GODDD IH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH FMY GOD OH MY GOD OH MO NOH #MT GOD OH MY GODOH MY GOD OH MT ODF UMM YMM UJM OH MY GOD #IM. #VIBRATES #OBSESSED WITH THAT OLD MAN #spacie scribbles #i think. #im. im

[thekidsarentalright]

btw now the only songs off folie that have Never been played live before are the (shipped) gold standard and wams. and there is no doubt in my mind that by the end of this tour every folie song will have been played. after the band had such a horrible experience touring folie that stopped them from playing those songs for over a decade. almost every song has been played now. if u even care

#i care so deeply this makes me feel so fucking emotional ;___; #almost every folie song has been played on this tour alone or will be at this rate like oh my god #edit: they also havent done pavlove ofc but. im talking only standard album tracks for this fjdjdnd #txt #p: 100

[skrunksthatwunk]

thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

#banana fish spoilers #I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT #mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol #yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY #whatever hope this makes sense. anyway #banana fish #okumura eiji #ash lynx #asheiji #hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh #anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god #and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character #that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1 #dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him..... #anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up #edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras #ing that i forgot >;/

[dromaeo-sauridae]

one day i will figure out how mechanical stuff works for now have this

#my art #jack #promethea #i had to physically hold myself back from having the too much gene on that gif istg #as soon as i went in to edit his hair i knew oh fuck im just gonna be here all night #im glad i finally got into it though making my art move is so satisfying #ANYWAY enough of that #finally actually gave him a prosthetic arm hopefully now i will stop fucking messing with his design #first it was the face then the horns then the mask now this i need to leave him alone #SAME WITH WALT TBH. GOD

[lululeighsworld]

THEY DEVASTATINGLY WALLOPED ME FOR THESE BRIEF FEW SECONDS

#leigh's magneto hours #THERE'S SO MUCH TO UNPACK HERE. ESPECIALLY THE ALMOST TOUCHING FOREHEADS BIT. #magneto's 'my path is too littered with error' #;WWWWWWW; #and rogue's 'you have to earn people's trust' #LIKE!!!!! AND THEN HE DIRECTLY GOES FOR THE 'ooooo i feared you'd do your best to avoid being alone with me.' WITH THE HAND GRAB!!!! #YOU FEARED???? YOU FEARED?!?! FEARED FOR WHAT. OLD MAN WHAT ARE YOU SAYING #AND THEN HE GOES TO TRY AND TAKE OFF THE GLOVE. AS IF WE DIDN'T JUST ADDRESS TRUST #dnvjdxbvjhdbvhdx. this man. i swear. you are giving me signals that you want to be more open and then YET YOU BRING UP OLD BAGGAGE #he's like 'oh i just got rejected. well now time to deflect.' LIKE AAAAAAAAA #this moment coupled with the moment at the end is making me crazy #sorry to my followers who never expected me to be into xmen???? im here now. im so ill with it. #i can probably assure there will be more rogneto on this blog here in the future. this is your warning #i just feel like ive been fucking SPOON FED oh my god. crossing my fingers we get more messy feelings between them.

[hootiee]

WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK

#aoex #blue exorcist #ao no exorcist #IM SO FUCKING HYPED I WAS SO WORRIED IT'LL BE RUSHED WITH ONLY 12EPS #BUT I WASNT EXPECTING THREE COURS THIS IS INSANE THIS WAS BEYOND MY EXPECTATION #GOD IS REAL #this new season alone is gonna revive my love for anime #.txt #BTW this is from a reliable source. all their leaks have been confirmed (they also correctly leaked the op & eds before it was announced)

[jestroer]

Can Scar please please please please team up with someone this week. Anyone. Please, I don't want the repetition of Last life. He is going to die alone again please

#im being dramatic but my god #please Scar's last life made me so sad #He can die whenewer he wants but there needs to be someone who would be really sad about it bro i can't do this again #please #the fact that he didn't team up with grian because oh his task is killing me HE DIDNT EVEN SUCCEED IN IT BRO WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS WORL #FUCK THIS GAY EARTH #shitpost #secret life smp #secret life spoilers #goodtimeswithscar #secret life #like please #Mr Goodtimes you need to be in a team in the death games you cant win it alone Mr Goodtimes pleASE #im having a moment

[m00ngbin]

Guess what FUCKING DAY IT IS

#smtwo thursday #OK SO. WE LEFT OFF WITH TOME AND REIGEN AND SERIZAWA GETTING THROUGH TO MOB #AND OBVIOUSLY HES LIKE DEVESTATED #i would be too i would lose my mind #Serizawa got away THANK. GOD. #KITTEN WHAT ABOUT THE KITTEN WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN TO IT DID IT LEAVE TOO?? IS MOB GONNA GET IT OUT OF THERE BEFORE HE LOSES HIS SHIT? #is Mob going to beat Teru's ass (deserved) #whats happening with shou? WHERES RITSU?? WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING WITH TOICHIROU RN??? #DID HE WAKE UP #IS HE ALONE #OH wait no i think Rei is still there #yeah Rei's still there #will she be able to stop him from leaving if he wakes up? probably not but at least hes not by himself rn #will i lose my mind this chapter? #idk #all WONDERFUL questions that im sure I'll have some of the answers to by the end of this chapter #youd better believe im keeping you updated

[xxinkyshadowxx]

Little reminder for the people who forgot Kieran is 14 years old FOURTEEN meaning that any suggestive content of him automatically makes the poster of it weird as fuck ESPECIALLY if they are an adult but even if they are a minor posting suggestive stuff of a fourteen year old is still super weird so maybe don't do that

#kieran pokemon #pokemon indigo disk #rival kieran #pokemon dlc #pokemon teal mask #kieran sv #trainer kieran #pokemon kieran #IVE FUCKING HAD IT WITH THE R34 AND SUGGESTIVE SHIT OH MY GOD IM SO DONE STOP IT EVERY DAMN SITE I GO ONTO ITS ALWAYS HEY LETS GO LOOK AT #KIERAN FANART THAT SHOULD BE FUN! and OH DEAR GOD THATS R34 OKAY! HOW ABOUT WE GO LOOK ELSEWHERE AND OH! HAHA THATS AN ADULT SHIPPING #THEMSELF WITH KIERAN A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD OKAY WELL HOW ABOUT I GO LOOK AT FANFICS AND HCS? AND OH OKAY WELL THATS SUPER SUGGESTIVE EVEN THO #HE IS FOURTEEN HAHA! FUNNY GUYS SO FUNNY SO HAPPY FUN TIMES LETS SEXUALIZE THE FOURTEEN YEAR OLD!!!!!! #Like duh no shit it's the internet I can't stop it but at the same time fucking knock it off? It's not that hard and as long as it's there #You will see me ranting about it because it's not okay it's just not Im just so done with seeing it please leave him alone

[bruciemilf]

Whatever you do, don't imagine little Bruce Wayne trying to shake his parents awake; Don't picture him trying to restart their hearts while their blood is drying on his face. Don't think about little hands drenched with red. Don't think about Bruce laying on Thomas' corpse to be held for the last time before they go in the ground.

#im so. fucking. emo. do you ever think that he was ALONE with his parents' bodies until the GCPD arrived. do you think that he must've #tried so hard to save them. because they're not dead. they cant be. they're just SLEEPING. he just has to wait and they'll wake up #and he'll tell alfred on them for scaring him #bruce wayne #dc #dc comics #text #batman #im. god.

[dandeydraws]

I'll never say your name again if you don't want me Don't want to lose you Don't want you to lose me

#the wayhaven chronicles #twc rebecca #twc detective #erin sharpe #a du mortain #ava du mortain #I JUST THINK. erins relationship w her mom is garbage......and she barely knew her dad..... #and the ppl she loves keep up all these walls and secrets #and say they love her but never rly Show That until shes dying #and then they leave anyway #shes just so tired of being alone......im going 2 crawl into wayhaven and bodyslam ava for breaking my girls heart #thank god for nat. book 4 au where erin says fuck it and kisses nat instead dsklfghjdgf #im joking if i dont get a fucking hard-won happy ending after ALL THIS then ill blow this whole place up #fanart

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the high prices of fucking Everything is so exhausting i stg

#i need to take an uber to the vet TEN MINUTES AWAY #i repeat IT IS A TEN MINUTE DRIVE #and its gonna cost me nearly 60 bucks. the FUCK #and who knows how much the checkup for my cats is gonna cost #let alone whatever prescription they need for the long drive #im so tired. im so so tired #its moments like these where i can see my future #ah yes. working 9-5 for a company that sees me as nothing more than a tool to be replaced when broken #just barely scraping by on minimum wage in a world where that isnt enough to pay for essentials #left with no time or energy to actually enjoy being alive or do the things i love #years and years of the same exact shit over and over and over again hating every second #and KNOWING it could be so much better but also knowing that it fucking Cant. sigh #sorry sorry im just. angry again at the absolute state of things #i would love to love life but my fucking god the world at large makes it tough #white-knuckling the little things once again #man its just. its so STUPID lmao #like why are we torturing ourselves like this? why are we just Accepting this #life could be so great but stupid shit like taxes and inflation and utilities exist #most of the shit we have to pay for should be free. it should be free. #it shouldnt be difficult to Live just because the majority of us don't have the fake fucking paper to buy things #its pointless its ridiculous and it makes me furious #why should i kill myself just to survive huh. why should i. why should any of us. #we all deserve to fuckin. idk enjoy sunsets and good food and art and each others' company. #instead everyone's stressing themselves to death over making rent and getting groceries and paying bills. fuck. #id love to be able to create art that Sells and open a shop or something #but also the thought of creating purposefully marketable art purely to make money fucking kills me inside #comms are one thing but... just... sighing sighing sighing. man idk #i just dont know. ill deal but everytime i manage to think positively reality comes in with a sledgehammer and now i want to go back to bed #the point is to live BUT YA CANT FUCKIN LIVE BC POINTLESS STUFF REIGNS SUPREME. WHO'S GONNA COMMIT ARSON W ME CMON LETS GO #this stupid fucking country and this stupid fucking government. i hate it here

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[violottie]

lesbian: breathes

everyone: but what about men? men should be part of this. this would be better if men were involved. youre not doing it right because youre not including men in this

lesbian: can i breathe? damn

#literally im so sick and tired. lesbians cant do anything or even fucking exist without you lot screaming and crying about the poor men #fuck them. ugh god. leave us alone #lesbian #lesbophobia #man hating lesbian #lgbt #lgbtq

[mockingmolly]

I think it’s really funny that not only was Matt actually looking forward to BH meeting VM, but that one of his biggest hesitances regarding the timing of which they finally did meet keyleth, was in wanting to make sure they couldn’t find a way to make her their personal taxi like they did essek

like, just knowing how cordoned off PC crossovers were in c2 (to the extent that would couldn’t even get council names out of anyone they met) and as someone who was convinced that vm was gonna be off-limits in regards to their current situation, I think it’s SO funny that Matt basically went “ok you guys can have keyleth for the attempted rez of laudna but dear god you CANNOT make her your new essek”

#Critical role #bells hells #cr spoilers #4 sided dive #4sd #keyleth of the air ashari #I feel like I’ve been super quiet on here that last few weeks bc personal stuff but im making it known that I am DELIGHTED by these #turn of events sdfhj #I was so fucking convinced that vm wouldn’t be an option and that they’d need to be really clever with their wording to get keyleths #attention. let alone help! #I’ve been dying to see VM again. dying to know laudna even has a path forward. and now she does! and I was wrong! #very happy that I was wrong! #also everything abt Marisha not committing to a new character until she knows for sure abt laudna’s fate. AND her considering the trauma of #waking up in whitestone. AND wanting to give a bit of a Came Back Wrong twist if the Rez *does* work #god I am SO intrigued abt it 👀👀 #gonna be juicy stuff