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jeongjaebae · 1 year

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kim sunwoo is literally going to be the death of me i sweaarrrr 😭😭😭😭 and yeah now that you mention it LOL i guess my bias line is dance line ft. sangyeon (you can imagine how well i was faring during the no diggity special stage jwhdkwkfek). i usually don’t have a specific archetype i gravitate towards for biases i think? usually the loserboys get me LMAO but i usually just go for anyone who i think is cute and who i’m endeared by !! like for seventeen my bias is hoshi which came kind of out of the blue for me but idk i want to keep him in my pocket T.T and for nct 127 my bias is doyoung but my nct dream bias is haechan so its a vast assortment of different personalities LOL. do you have a bias line or a type u like to gravitate towards too (for tbz and/or svt haha)?? i might be missing some off the top of my head but i think those songs def are in my top picks for bsides from reveal !

and yeah i noticed that too :(( it didnt help that 2022 was really hectic for them esp with the world tour jebdkwkdn ist is so …. 😭 i mean we all know how ist is lmfao but they’ve all said they talked a lot with each other and the company about what’s coming next so i’m really excited to see what’s gonna be in their future! and yes ! i think the comeback in january is gonna be a continuation of whisper? they teased the whistle sound at the end of the whisper mv at their kbs song festival performance so i think its definitely gonna be connected!

and i am actually… in the process of writing a tbz fic right now HAHA its a sunwoo fic! i’m probably gonna post it over at @/svnzwu for fandom consistency’s sake rather than my svt blog haha but im hoping i can take advantage of this winter break to get all if not most of it done ! BTW. UR LATEST SUNWOO FIC WAS SO ….. AUGGHHH so so so cute !! always always loving your writing <3 and yes we should make an initiative lmao Operation: Revive Deobiblr HAHA

and happy holidays!! i hope you had a merry christmas and christmas eve (if you celebrate) 🫶🫶

ngl all your talk about sunwoo (esp in that racer outfit) has gotten me in a slight sunwoo phase like.... have you seen the way he dances 👀 but yeahHHH the no diggity stage had all ur faves!! oooh you bias hoshiii 😍 i swear... when i saw him with that bird.... omg. do you have a svt bias line? also the way haechan and doyoung are the ones who like to fight each other LOL. oh yeah there was a saying in deobiland about how your bias wreckers tend to be the rest of the "line" that your bias is in - if you bias ju then your wreckers might be hyunjae or younghoon, if you bias sunwoo then wreckers might be changmin and chanhee. which seemed to be true for the people i've seen around here but you have an interesting bias line!! i think i tend to like the members who get teased by other members LMAO. so... like mingyu 😶 otherwise for svt i'd say junhui, hoshi, minghao, wonwoo! and for tbz sangyeon, younghoon!! (always rotating tho,,, as i once said "why have a dish when you can have a buffet" hehe)

ohh yeah i heard tbz were talking about the comeback on vlive and it seemed like it'd be darker/sexier? or at least a smoother choreo like no air, which i'm looking forward to!! is there like a particular concept you want to see them do? and omg ist really be making mistakes here, did you see the whole thing about eric's new song and how the producer plagiarized it.... yikes. the poor guy just got back from hiatus too like pleaseee 😭

ahhh ty for reading and for your comments!!! 🫶 the fics definitely hit different when it's for your bias right?!?! ooh what's your sunwoo fic about? and yesss i have a couple more things for Operation: Revive Deobiblr but hopefully we get some more traction with the other award shows and jan comeback 🤩

and yesss hope you had a nice christmas with your family!! happy new year too, may it be filled with all the nice things coming your way!!✨💖💫

#ask #cat <3

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diorjadore · 2 years

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I’ll Be Home For Christmas — Vinnie Hacker

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Pairing/s: Vinnie Hacker x fem!reader

Summary: I’ll be home for Christmas, you can plan on me. Christmas eve will find her where the love light gleams.

Warning/s: Language

Word Count: ~2.6k words

Song Suggestion/s:

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Y/n’s POV

Christmas Eve, 1:24 pm

The clock is ticking. I’ve been staring at my laptop screen for a good amount of 20 minutes trying to think if I should fly over to Seattle for Christmas. I don’t even know why this is such a hard decision for me, of course, I want to spend time with Vinnie and his family even if I already spent Thanksgiving there. The only problem is if he wants me there. Things have been rocky between us because of being on both ends of the country, me in New York and him in Los Angeles. Add to the fact that it feels like we’re only together because it’s what we’re used to at this point so we decided to cool off for a minute, just until after the holidays to figure out if we still want this. I don’t need to decide if I still want to be with him because I truly do. I love Vinnie and I would do anything to be with him and to make him happy with me. I love Christmas in New York but I overlooked the loneliness this city and its dreadful cold causes me. It feels empty, emptier than usual, and I don’t want to be here.

I finally booked a 6 and a half hour flight to his hometown that leaves in…2 hours. I’ve been texting Maria to try and get a feel if he wants me there. I don’t want to ruin their Christmas by showing up unannounced so I told her that I’m going.

To: Maria Hacker

Hi Maria! How’s Vin?

I plan to book a flight to visit u guys. Would that be alright?

U can totally say no!

N dont tell Vinnie hehe

From: Maria Hacker

Are u kidding me Y/n? Of course we want u here!

Vins been down. he misses u

Btw lmk what time Nate could pick u up

To: Maria Hacker

My flight leaves in 2 hours so ill land by 9-ish!

Sorry for d hassle :((

From: Maria Hacker

Okay, thats perfect! N dont worry abt it

Keep safe Y/n

I quickly dressed up and got gifts for the family and went to Vinnie’s favorite bakery and restaurant to get an apple pie and lobster mac and cheese so that I could at least have some contribution to the celebration. I remember when he first visited me here, we went to the bakery to get a late-night snack and all they had was a single slice of apple pie. We had no choice because we were starving and it turned out to be the best thing we ever ate together. And the lobster mac and cheese because when we went on a date, I teased him about getting something a kid would order but he shoved it down my mouth and I still remember how I made him switch our meals. We were so in love back then, so alive. I hurried back to my apartment to pack my bags and now I’m on my way to the airport.

2:50 pm

I’m finally at JFK and the whole place is packed. Everybody’s trying to get home to their families and a lot of the flights were getting canceled because there’s a mild snowstorm. I’m finally at my gate as the flight attendant announced that our flight would be pushed back till 5 pm. I texted Maria about the situation and she told me to not sweat it. I could almost cry from frustration and just when I felt like no one’s eyes were on me since everybody’s got their own thing, an old lady tapped me by the hand.

“Dear, what’s wrong?” She asked me and I flinched in surprise.

“Oh, nothing. I just wanna get in time to see my boyfriend for Christmas.” I wiped the tears that I didn’t know were there and chuckled to ease my emotions.

“Don’t worry, we’ll get there in time.” I just nodded.

After a minute of silence, I spoke up. “You know, I think I’m losing him.” I looked down at my hands in embarrassment. I did not just share my love life with a stranger.

“How come?”

“I don’t know. We weren’t what we used to be, I guess. He’s not in love with me anymore.” I sniffled at my confession.

“Is that why you’re going to see him? Is this your grand gesture?” Her warm smile made me tear up more.

“Yeah, I guess it is my grand gesture. But enough about me, how ‘bout you? Why are you going to Seattle?”

“I’m gonna visit my husband. Married for 43 years. He passed away last year.” She gripped my hand and I felt the pain that she was carrying but it was masked behind her smile. I could never fathom the thought of losing a loved one.

“43? That’s amazing.” I smiled. “So how did you guys make it work?”

“Well…” She sighed. “We always made sure to communicate. But most importantly, we made sure to always, always understand.” My stomach dropped at her statement.

She continued on as I just listened: “You know, sweetheart, there will always be a time wherein you’re not in love…it’s inevitable. But simply not being in love isn’t a ticket to immediately leave. The both of you have to try to make it work because there’s love itself, in its purest form. Nothing will ever last if you’re only focusing on the ‘falling in love’ aspect of it. That’ll fade and you’ll be left with what you think is nothing. But it’s not nothing, it’s just the absence of the chaos that is being in love, and there you’ll find comfort, peace, and simplicity. Even stability.”

“Have you ever noticed with new couples or those in the dating stage that they’re always doing something? Be it dinner dates or Disneyland trips?“ She asked and I nodded. “They could never sit still and just be there. It’s because they’re falling in love. But once you find love, you’ll learn that just existing in each other’s arms and watching TV at home is just as satisfying.”

And then I understood all at once. “Oh! So, of course, you go on dates, the not sitting still, so that you can find love within them and when you finally do, then you’ll constantly find love in them even in the most basic of things like you know…sitting still?” She nodded in agreement.

We sat still for a minute until I spoke again. “So how are you now that he’s gone?” I frowned a bit knowing it’ll hit home.

“Oh, my dear. He’s not gone, he’s just not here with me physically. But I miss him. I really do. There’s not a day where I wish he’s here with me. Even 43 years isn’t enough, I suppose.” She lightly chuckled and my heart stung in pain. Vinnie and I failed to see the big picture.

I was about to speak when she spoke again. “Hold on to each other, I can tell you really love him. You are willing to sit still for a few hours for him.” We both laughed at the irony.

“Thank you…” I began but I didn’t even catch her name.

“Barbara. And you are?”

“Y/n. Thank you, Barbara. I really needed that.” I spoke with sincerity.

I looked up at her and smiled as I said: “So what was he like?” She smiled back as if she waited her whole life to tell her piece.

“He was everything to me. He was kind, an awful cook, but he was a great father and husband.” I saw her shed a tear. “He always made sure I was okay first. It was always like that with him: me first and him second. He definitely knew how to make me feel special.”

“Wow, he’s kinda like my Vinnie.”

“Well if my Anthony’s just like your Vinnie then I think you’ll last a lifetime.” We both laughed.

After a few more hours of talking, it was finally time to board the plane. We parted ways but made sure to keep in touch just in case I needed any more elderly advice. That conversation was enlightening to me because what she said was true: you don’t always have to be in love. Being in love means expecting the next big thing and then bigger and then more grandiose. But love and loving means you can rest your bones and hold each other. It’s the comfortable silence and little things that matter most.

10:42 pm

Just a few more minutes. I squirmed around my seat anxiously as if that’ll make the plane fly faster. I’m worried that I won’t make it in time for our call. You see, Vinnie and I made an arrangement that we get to call at a certain time if we still want to be with each other, just like Miranda and Steve from Sex and the City, and if we didn’t then we won’t call or pick up. But theirs is that they’ll meet at the Brooklyn Bridge. Our time was at 12:05 this coming December 25th and I know I’ll make it but I’m still on edge.

Vinnie’s POV:

“Nate, honey, could you bring this to your sister’s house? You know she doesn’t like cold roast chicken.” My mom smiled at my dad as he fulfilled her orders. I can admit I’ve not been the great since Y/n and I made the decision to cool off but I think it’s for the best. I know my answer though and that is I still want to be with her. She makes me the best version of myself and that’s what I constantly want to be for her.

“Hey, mom?” I called out.

“Yeah?” I could hear her from their bedroom as I went and asked for her advice.

“Do you think Y/n and I could still give it another shot?” I was being truthful to her about my relationship problem because I know she could help me.

“Of course, Vin. You have to make it work because I like her and she’s like the daughter I never had.” She pointed her finger at me as if I was being scolded.

I leaned on the door just in case she still had something to say. “Do you want my advice, Vin?” I nodded. “Your problem is fixable. You just have to talk and not talk for the sake of being heard but to be understood. So what if the ‘fire’ died down? Light it again! And again and again!” She said as if in disbelief.

“I didn’t raise no quitter, okay? You’re lucky you’ve found a girl that puts up with you.” She cupped my face and kissed my cheek.

“Hey! What’s that supposed to mean?” I pouted but she just laughed and ignored my question.

It’s almost midnight and my dad’s still nowhere to be found so I asked my mom about it. “Hey, mom? What’s taking dad so long?”

“I don’t know, Vin. Just sit tight and we’ll eat by midnight or when they get home.” I notice her perk up as if in panic.

“They? Who’s they?”

“I said he, Vin. You really need to lay off on those video games, it’s hurting your ears.” I just shrugged it off, not caring anymore.

Y/n’s POV

11:24 pm

I know we’re supposed to hate those people who rush to get out of planes but I understand now because the second they told us we could exit the aircraft, I ran at lightning speed. Well, not really. I’m finally at the doors of the airport when I saw Nate. I ran up to him and I hugged him and now we’re on our way home.

“Uhm…Nate…how many minutes till we get there?” I looked at him warily.

“In about 30 minutes. Don’t worry, we’ll get there.” He just chuckled.

“Thank you for this, by the way. I didn’t wanna be a burden to you guys especially on Christmas Eve but I just really wanted to spend the holidays with him.” I looked out the window so that he couldn’t see the tears that were about to fall from my eyes.

“You’re never a burden to us, Y/n. We’re glad you’re spending it with us because Vinnie’s being a little bitch with his moping.”

“I think I’m to blame for that.” We just laughed it off. “Has he…has he ever talked to me about you guys? Cause we’re kind of figuring it out if we still want each other.”

“Are you kidding me? He talks about you all the time! He keeps on joking that he’ll bail on us just to be with you in New York. And as for you guys figuring it out…I think traveling across the country during the Christmas rush shows how much you still wanna be together.” He said as if it’s a matter of fact. It’s true though and even if you asked me to ride multiple trains just to get here then I would.

“So why’s there chicken at the back?”

“Prop.” Nate answered as we both laughed.

Christmas Day, 12:03 am

After what felt like hours, we’re finally at their house. The minute Nate pulled the handbrake, I ran towards their door. I think I gave everybody a fright when I opened it because they all looked at me with wide eyes. Vinnie’s the last to look up because he was by the Christmas tree staring at his phone, sulking.

“Hi.” I said breathlessly to Vinnie as my heart rate picked up. I didn’t know what else to say. My eyes pooled with tears and a single one even dropped down to my cheeks. This smells like a Hallmark movie.

“Hi…” He said and I saw he was holding back his tears. “I was uhm…I was just about to call you.” He sniffled and that’s when I ran and leaped into his arms. A huge amount of relief fled my body because he still wanted me. He still loves me.

“I know. You don’t have to. I’m here, my love. I’m not going anywhere.” I hugged him tightly, missing his warmth on mine. “You know, I would call but I’d rather tell you myself.” I smiled at Vinnie as I cupped his face in my hands and I kissed him.

“I’m sorry I almost gave up on us.” He whispered to my ear when I was hugging him. I could sense the tears and how he’s choking up from his own emotions.

“It’s alright, Vin. I’m sorry too. I love you so much.” I pulled his head off of my shoulder and looked him in the eyes, my fingers brushing the hair on his forehead.

“I love you.” He kissed me, family-appropriate of course. And when we pulled away, we heard Maria clap her hands as she told us to get on over there and eat because she’s hungry already.

“Thank the heavens you came, Y/n. We wouldn’t have been able to handle a moody Vinnie till New Year.” Maria said as she rolled her eyes.

As we were eating, I couldn’t help but think of how I got so lucky with Vinnie. It’s not every day you find someone you truly wanna spend your whole life with and even then you’ll, unfortunately, find things to resent about them but no, not with Vin. Not to mention his wonderful family that treats me as their own and definitely, definitely, treats me better than their son. I don’t know what I did in my past life but I’m so grateful it led me here.

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Author’s Note: Merry Christmas! I hope u guys enjoy this one :’)

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chasingpj · 2 years

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🎉 you back! and happy holiday to you too 💕 honestly i cant wait to see what post you gonna post later (i will admit im excited for young god series).

anyway i have hard time choosing which blurb i want..i guess i will choose 35 with persassy- i mean percy jackson.

btw enjoy your holiday course my mom gonna make me be her maid this christmas (love u to mom). Byeeee

[𝟒:𝟒𝟐 𝐩𝐦]

“You make me miserable, you know that?”

pairing: percy jackson x gn reader

warnings: no

category: slice of life, fluff

a/n: haha, oh no! my mom does the same. i always end up helping her in the kitchen and cleaning the house for guests 😭 i'm planning on posting the new chapter soon! sometime this week or next week so stay tuned. i hope you enjoy this, my love <3

“Harder!” Your demand barely leaves your lips before Percy presses hard on the apex of your foot. “Ow!”

Percy squints, playfully annoyed, as you snatch your feet away from his lap, and he sighs at the sight of your 100th pout of the day. “You said harder.”

“Not that hard!” Carefully, you adjust yourself on the pillow fluffed behind your head thanks to the boy in front of you. “Perseus Jackson, I’m afraid you have forgotten what today is. May I remind you?”

Percy’s face drops at the sound of your awful attempt at a posh English accent. “Hmm. I’m pretty sure it’s Tuesday,” he says, scrunching his face when you dramatically gasp.

“Not just any Tuesday; it’s my birthday!” You declare once again, giggling at the way he rolls his eyes. “And our agreement is that today, you will do everything I ask of you, PROPERLY.” The little plastic princess wand in your hand points right at the tip of his nose, and just as Percy glances down at it, you raise your foot in its place. “Now I suggest you make a second attempt at giving me a foot massage, or you’re fired.”

“You make me miserable, you know that?” Percy huffs, his lips unable to resist tugging upwards in amusement. You’re spoiled, incredibly so, and well, it’s definitely his fault. This birthday butler agreement wasn’t really his idea, but it was too funny to deny, especially since you’re being as ridiculous as you can be just to mess with him.

“Then how come you’re smiling?” You arms cross over your chest, and another exhausted sigh leaves Percy’s lips. With his miserable expression contrasting the brighten in his eyes, he returns his gaze to you.

“Because if I don’t smile, I’ll cry.”

join in on my welcome back celebration <33

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aziraphales-library · 3 years

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Looking for Christmas fics!!! Or winter fics!! Preferably both!! Happy or sad, smutty or not, but this year I’m starting to celebrate early (I deserve it) and I would love to do so with some good omens!! Thank u so much for all the work u do here btw, I’m pretty new to the fandom and ur blog has helped me discover so many amazing fics! Would also like to thank all the good omens writers! Never have I been in a fandom with such good and creative writing! I’m constantly surprised and amazed at the wonderful stuff u all come up with!

Hello!

Here’s a few Christmas human aus:

Snow Angel by Vagabond (T)

Human!AU. Aziraphale needs a date to his brother's Christmas party to avoid getting set up with someone. Anathema suggests Crowley, the office bad boy. They go, get snowed in, and have a heart-to-heart that ends in a Happy Christmas.

From a prompt: Human!AU: Aziraphale needs a date for family Christmas. He invites the office rebel/bad boy, Crowley.

muddle through somehow by curtaincall (T)

Aziraphale Fell runs a successful food blog, Celestial Comestibles, where he shares mouthwatering recipes and heartwarming stories about his happy domestic life in a cottage with his husband and son. As promotion for his upcoming cookbook, his publishers run a contest: one lucky winner will get to spend Christmas with Aziraphale and his family.

What the publishers don't know is that the real Aziraphale Fell is a single city-dweller. And if he wants to keep up his happily married persona, he'll have to acquire a cottage, husband, and son before Christmas.

As it happens, his friend and neighbor Anthony Crowley has his nephew staying with him for the holidays. One fake marriage proposal later, and everything seems tickety-boo--as long as Aziraphale can keep from developing inconveniently real feelings for his pretend husband...

Taking the Cake by Caedmon (T)

Aziraphale has noticed his handsome neighbor, but hasn't had an excuse (or the nerve) to talk to him. He gets his chance, though, when a bakery delivers a package to the wrong door a few days before Christmas and his neighbor comes knocking.

The Grinch Who Sold Christmas by darcylindbergh (T)

Anthony J. Crowley, a big-time attorney from London, is sent to small-town Tadfield to close a deal before Christmas that would sell out half of high street to a fancy developer and put him up for partner at his firm. The deal will run the local businesses out and change the landscape of the town forever, but that’s none of Crowley’s business; he’s just doing a job.

But as the town invites him to share in their lives, their hopes, and their holiday celebrations, and as the enigmatic Aziraphale invites him to share in something more, Crowley starts to wonder: if everything has its price, is he still willing to pay what this deal will cost?

And here’s some canon-verse fics!

Holidays in the South Downs by TurnipTitaness (G)

After stopping the apocalypse, Aziraphale and Crowley have retired to a little cottage in the South Downs. This is their first holiday season together. It's fluffy.

Deck the Bookshop with Decorations by Elphen (G)

Not one to decorate the bookshop for Christmas, Aziraphale nevertheless finds ornaments, baubles and other decorations hidden among the medley of items, not clutter, of the shop. What's more, he discovers that more is added over the course of December. There can only be one culprit, but why? Of all the things to Aziraphale is going to find out, one way or the other. Even if it means he has to actually ask outright. Set post-canon.

Christmas Gifts by Amaranthology (E)

Crowley has plans for Christmas this year.

It's posted so that you can read Chapter 1 and get no smut or continue with Chapter 2 for the full experience.

A Christmas Miracle (A Very Smutty Christmas) by IneffableScript (E)

After the Non-Apocalypse, Aziraphale feels he can finally enjoy Christmas. He thinks the only thing to make it perfect, would be to spend it with Crowley. But Crowley has a secret that might ruin Aziraphale's plans! Lots of fluff and smut, only a dab of angst.

Hungry for more? Here’s a link to the Christmas tag on AO3!

As always, if any of our follower have any recs, feel free to leave them in the notes!

~ Mod G

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jojotichakorn · 2 years

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I meant “sun” sign actually. 🤦‍♀️ But I understand, I won’t undermine your judgment. I was just curious about how the “making of” those natal signs. ☺️

And omg, lmao, I obviously don’t speak Russian! 😳 Also, yes of course it’s the Russian Orthodox church and their Julian calendar. 🤦‍♀️

And finally, in my enthousiasm I may have used the wrong term, but I didn’t mean to side with any team! 😥 It’s just that I have been obsessed with Pat’s shirt in ep. 6, pt. 4…well…ever since ep. 6, pt. 4 😊 So to me it kind of felt like I finally had my confirmation. 😅 But as a proud bisexual who finally completed her

Well anyways, I just hope you have wonderful days. A wonderful weekend.

Love,

— Thel. 💚

P.S. And because I am an annoying nosey parker…may I ask why you don’t celebrate Christmas? 🧐 I.e.: is there another holiday when I can send you my well wishes for? 👼 (apart from 31 March ofc 🏳️‍⚧️ -> you may celebrate me on my birthday the day after 🥳)

ah, that makes more sense, yeah! basically, i analyze the traits of every sign in every placement and think which one fits the character best, then i write out all the traits of that sign that line up with them. as for the specific reason why i think pat is definitely a pisces rather than an aries - he is not nearly stubborn or hot-headed enough to be an aries in my personal humble opinion (not a dig at aries AT ALL btw, i love y'all to bits, just as a fact).

of course, i think headcanoning pat as bi or pan is equally valid, everyone can choose whichever they like best!!

as for why i don't celebrate christmas: it is solely a religious holiday here in russia. because soviet union was a strictly secular country, we couldn't have nationwide celebrations of any religious holidays, and so everyone started celebrating new years instead. and as i am not christian, i don't celebrate christmas (since there is no such thing as "culturally" celebrating christmas here). so yes, the winter holiday that you can congratulate me on is indeed new years, on the 31st of december! and if you wish, you may also say happy birthday to me on the 6th of march!

hope u have a wonderful rest of the holiday season!

#hope the explanation makes sense gjdfgjfdklgjfdlkgj #thel tag #archer responds

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t-shrt · 4 years

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cute qs

doing it jst cos its fun lmao; qs by @sweetestsuggest

1. what languages can you speak? english, indonesian, some japanese! used to be able to use it in convos but now im super rusty

2. describe your ideal/perfect day? when everything feels harmonious...hopefully w a visit to the beach too :)

3. who do you love most in your life? me lol

4. what color are your eyes? do you like them? dark brown, im okay with the color lol

5. favorite candle scent? vanilla!

6. favorite type of flowers? blue/red roses, sunflowers

7. if you could smell like anything all the time, what scent would you pick? elie saab’s le parfum honestly lol

8. favorite constellation and why? haven’t really explored constellations lol...ill get back 2 u on that 9. what color is your favorite and why? blue all the way! idk i’ve been loving it for as long as i remember; maybe cos its a comforting color to me...idk its just Nice lol

10. do you prefer the ocean or the mountains? the ocean !!! 11. favorite type of weather? describe it? warm sun gently shining on u + cool breeze u cud feel on ur skin n ur hair 12. what are you most passionate about in life? making myself happy n on the way it’d be super nice if i could help others grow too 13. favorite songs? at the moment: selene - niki; i’m good at goodbyes - bibi; not shy - itzy; on the way - jhene aiko; big poppa - the notorious B I G; so, soo pretty - lany 14. what is your go to snack? used to be gummies but im kinda watching what i eat nowadays :( so nowadays i go for carrots w hummus or bell pepper lol (delicious btw) 15. chocolate or strawberry milk? uhmmm chocolate! 16. do you like journaling? if so, what do you journal about? i used to journal! but nowadays i don’t really 17. what are your biggest dreams in life? i guess to be able to do something with my art skills... that isnt only for me 18. what are your religious beliefs? ooofff im gona pass on this q my dude 19. would you rather have 100 kittens or 100 puppies? 100,000 kittens :( but tbh id be giving them away n keeping probably 5-10 since i don’t trust myself enough lollll 20. cotton candy or funnel cakes? cotton candy pleaseeee 21. do you prefer hand holding or cuddles? cuddles! lolol 22. favorite place in nature to be? describe what it looks like or post a photo of it? the beach :))) i find so much peace in relaxing on the beach. either during the day when the sun warms up ur skin n makes them shimmer golden brown as u lay with ur sunnies and summery music playing on ur bluetooth speaker, children running around making sandcastles; teens and adults playing volleyball or flirting or wtv; or intimate hangouts when the sun is setting and the waves are slowly crashing, as u share ur deeper thoughts to someone else 23. is there anyone you'd die for? who? my nephew probably 24. do you have any unusual fears? what are they? intimacy HAHAh 25. museum dates or aquarium dates? art museum dates pleaseee <3 26. favorite fruit? i like peaches, blueberries, mangoes, bananas 27. do you have long or short hair? which do you prefer to have and why? i have long hair! on me i prefer longer hair cos i have a rounded face shape; i really do wish i could pull off short hair cos it looks so chic on some people :| 28. what makes you happy? feeling in control of my own life; seeing my family and closest friends genuinely happy 29. do you collect anything? if so, what? now... probably lipstick? lol 30. favorite sea creature? ummmmm i have no idea...maybe dolphins? 31. talk about the person you love most? she’s been through a lot and she always manages to pull through despite so many doubts, all whilst retaining a good deal of kindness in her heart, that she’s learned to accept as a strength instead of a weakness. she’s learned to use that kindness more for herself and for the people that actually matter, instead of spreading herself thin, and i’m very proud of her. i’m looking forward to see how she’s going to own more of her special, wonderful sides that makes her uniquely her. 32. favorite soda? dont drink soda lol 33. have you ever dyed your hair before? what color(s)? yes maam i do so every year now lol. i’ve always been pretty safe, it’s always a brownish color, either slightly lighter or darker but it’s always been in that spectrum. 34. favorite emoji(s)? 🥺♥️💘😭(when used 4 laughing purposes) 35. how tall are you? 157 cm :((((((( 36. if you could travel anywhere in the world,where would you want to go? taking covid out of the picture, japan lol. but with covid in the picture, honestly, home :(

37. favorite number? 8! and 11 38. are you a night owl or an early bird? night owl.......... 39. favorite holiday? how do you usually celebrate it? christmas + new years probably lol. partying or sleeping in !!! 40. favorite movie(s)? (not in order) whisper of the heart howl’s moving castle her garden of words 5 centimeters per second eternal sunshine of the spotless mind harry potter 3 lotr 3 before sunrise sleepless in seattle

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MATCHING PJs, Dance Battles & Quality Family Time Were All The Makings Of A FAB Christmas ’19 – Here’s How Celebs Celebrated!

It’s the most wonderful time of the year! See how celebs celebrated Christmas ’19 when you go inside…

Christmas ’19 was all about family and fun. Celebs and their kiddies got all dressed up (or dressed down) in matching pajamas to see what Santa brought them this year. And it looks like everyone made the Nice list.

Ciara & Russell Wilson, reunited LaLa & Carmelo Anthony, Gabrielle Union & Dwyane Wade, Steph & Ayesha Curry along with their kids were all decked out in cute PJs this Christmas SZN.

The Wades decided they wanted to be warm this XMAS, so they jetted to Maui for the holidays. Swipe below to see their videos:

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Christmas with The Wades in Maui! #YBFLiving #YBFHolidays #YBFFamily

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The Wilsons turned all the way up to Mariah Carey's "All I Want For Christmas Is You":

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Every time Christmas rolls around, Will Smith and his family never disappoint. This year, there was a karaoke competition and the Oscar nominated actor showed off some hip action and flexed his vocals. “How Santa Got His Groove Back,” he captioned a video of himself and his daughter Willow Smith that his wife/Red Table Talk host Jada Pinkett Smith recorded.

Get your laugh on below:

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How Santa Got His Groove Back : @jadapinkettsmith

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Ha!

Oh yeah, Willow and her boyfriend Tyler Cole are still going strong, spending the holidays together:

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BIG SHREDZ//<MERRY DRIPMAS>

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New dad again Chris Brown loaded his daughter, Royalty Brown, with CASH!

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Dads the best!

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"The Real" co-host Tamera Mowry Housley, her husband Adam Housley and their kiddies - Aden & Ariah - wished everyone a Merry Christmas:

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#MerryChristmas guys!! Wishing you all a beautiful day #holidays #family @thehousleylife @adamhousley #thehousleylife

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Lil Nas X celebrated Christmas '19 with his pops and his MTV Moon Man:

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gave my dad my moon man! happy holidays! (ITS NOT HIS PRESENT)

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Zhuri James melted our hearts when she started singing Beyonce's "Brown Skin Girls" after opening up one of her dolls:

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By the way, Zhuri James has an Instagram & YouTube channel coming in 2020 thanks to dad LeBron James & mom Savannah James. Get the deets HERE.

Sadly, this was Megan Thee Stallion's first Christmas without her mother and great grandmother. She hopped on Instagram to remind her Hotties to uplift one another.

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We love you Meg! Via @theestallion

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"Power" star/singer Rotimi and his girlfriend Vanessa Mdee were all wrapped up in love on Christmas Day...literally:

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Merry Christmas from The Buttascotch’s

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"Power" star Naturi Naughton and her daughter Zuri spent the holiday with family:

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Wishing you all happiness, joy and peace this holiday season! Cherish those you love not just on Christmas but the whole year through! #MerryChristmas #BabyZ #mymommyanddaddy #NaughtonChristmas #soblessed

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Joie Chavis shared a Christmas shoot she did with her daughter Shai Moss (whom she shares with rapper/actor Bow Wow) and Hendrix Wilburn (whom she shares with rapper Future):

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Merry Christmas y’all : @patty.othon

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Steve Harvey's wife Marjorie Harvey had WAY too much fun with the kids' toys:

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Why am I having this much fun on the kids toys

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Ha!

Singing sisters/"Grown-ish" stars Chloe x Halle served up a light Christmas twerk for the holiday season:

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

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"BlackLightning" actress Nafessa Williams had fun with her sisters and her nephew at 3 in the morning Christmas Day:

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We still going up at my house! Litty Christmas 3:23am Safe to say I earned it! [Btw, my sister been on the phone with her boyfriend ALL day, she’s holding the phone while doing this video, MAJOR boo love] #Woah

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Ludacris & Eudoxie's daughters gave away Christmas gifts in Gabon, Africa:

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@unspokenangels Christmas in Gabon. My little helpers spent the day giving presents and also learning new dance moves. They had many questions about the orphanages we gifted to and wanted to know why the children didn’t have parents... #childrenarethefuture #leadingbyexample #love #caring #unspokenangels

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T.I. and Tiny's daughter Heiress Harris served up laughs on Christmas:

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The obsession is changing a bit still a big @itsjojosiwa fan but to add to that she loves @ryansworld & these eggs he got!! Anywho this kid was made for this thing we call entertainment!! @realnickroses u better get into now 20/20 Happy Holidays #PrincessHeiressDiana #RyanWorldsEggs #Christmas2019

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Another amazing Christmas with my big family!! @majorpharris & @troubleman31 was out all night being Santa Clause.. I’m more than Thankful for all of my Love #OurXmasEveTradition

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John Legend, Chrissy Teigen and their kiddies celebrated Christmas in Wyoming:

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The snow is very bright in Wyoming

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Kevin Hart, his wife Eniko Hart, and his kids Heaven & Hendrix spent Christmas at a Lakers game:

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#Harts #HolidayHarts #MerryChristmas

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Kev got sat on by Lakers baller Anthony Davis:

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Look out @kevinhart4real!!

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Hilar! By the way, Kev's upcoming docu-series "Don't F*ck This Up" will be available to stream tomorrow on Netflix.

City Girls' rapper Yung Miami's daughter Summer served up all the kiddie Christmas cuteness:

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@thelifeofsummermiami

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Rev. Jesse Jackson spent Christmas posting bonds for a handful of inmates at Cook County Jail in Chicago so they could spend the holiday with their loved ones. Here's a clip of Rev. Jackson walking with the newly released inmates below:

Here's Jesse Jackson walking out hand-in-hand with three of the men he bailed out of jail on Christmas. Two were in on marijuana charges and the third had a DUI, all unable to pay the $500 needed to get out. pic.twitter.com/rbShPAIzw5

— Nader Issa (@NaderDIssa) December 26, 2019

And there's tons more! Swipe through our gallery below to see what all your faves were up to this Christmas SZN!

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holiday blues. [ timothée chalamet ]

PART TWO | PART THREE | PART FOUR

summary: reader slips up that she has a boyfriend and begs timothée to be her pretend boyfriend during the holidays

warnings: one swear word lmao

word count: 2,006

author’s note: happy birthday to my baby boy! 💗 in honor of his birthday and the holidays, i thought of writing a holiday themed imagine hehe these will have three parts btw hohoho (reader celebrates christmas btw!)

(y/l/n) - your last name

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the holidays, for some people, is considered as the happiest and joyful time of the year. it’s the time of the year where family and friends gather together to celebrate the birth of the savior, Jesus Christ with numerous plates of food at the dining table and gift giving to show one’s appreciation and love of their loved ones.

i grunt and drop my clothes inside my luggage, wiping the sweat from my brow from the packing i’ve done for the past hour. as i was about to get the remaining clothes i need to pack, i feel my phone vibrate inside of my pocket. i fish it out, the sound of my ringtone echoing throughout the room.

“hi mom!” i cheerfully answer as soon as i see the caller id plastered on the screen. “(y/n)! how is my sweet girl doing?”

“i’m good, mom! i’m just packing my stuff for the holidays.”

“when are you coming again? are you going to be bringing someone?” my mom asks, her voice full of excitement of hope.

not again.

i sigh. “i’m coming over two days from now and no, i’m mot bringing someone.” i roll my eyes. “mom, we’ve been over this.”

“i know, but honey, you haven’t been in a relationship for years! everyone around your age is getting married and having kids and is settling down except for you.”

i bring a hand over my face then to my hair, brushing it in frustration. “mom, i don’t care if everyone is getting married and having kids. i’m at my own pace and i want to get myself a suitable job before i start thinking about all that stuff.”

“(y/n),” my mom says, tisking and i could imagine her shaking her head from the other line. “what if you get a job when you aren’t able to conceive children?! what if you aren’t able to find ‘the one’ in the right time?! what if—“

“you know what? i am bringing someone over.”

once those words left my mouth, my eyes widen and i cover my mouth in shock. no, i did not just.

“you are? i thought you weren’t bringing someone over?” my mom asks, voice full of confusion and curiosity. i swallow the lump forming in my throat before continuing. “u-uh, yeah. i didn’t want to spoil the surprise, you know.” i nervously laugh and cross my fingers hoping that my mom would buy it.

i don’t like to lie, especially when that person is my mom, but for some reason, i couldn’t bring myself to tell her that i was lying. i just wanted all of this ‘marrying and having kids’ talk in my family to stop and i know that it won’t stop until i actually do have someone to bring over.

“oh,” my mom says then laughs. “who is it then, darling?”

i could feel the sweat dripping down my eyebrow and my face go pale when asked that question. ‘shit!’ i mumbled under my breath.

“o-oh,” i clear my throat. “it’s a surprise, mom. i already spoiled that i was actually bringing someone over, so i don’t want to spoil on who it is.”

nice going, genius.

“oh, how lovely!” i could hear my mom giggle over the line and i could imagine her jumping up and down in excitement. “i can’t wait to meet them, darling.”

“well, that’s great and all, but i really have to go, mom. see you! bye!” i say in a hurry and hang up the phone before she could say something else.

i groan out loud and flop myself on the bed, burying my face on my pillow.

is it possible to marry someone and have kids in under two days?

——-

i hear knocks on the front door and someone calling out for my name, making me get out of bed hurriedly and open the door without checking who it is. there stood no one other than my best friend, timothée.

“hey (y/n)! i—“ before he could say another word, i pull him inside my apartment and lock the door.

“woah, what’s going on?” he asks, worry and concern evident in his voice. “so, i’m going straight to the point and you can’t say anything until i’ve finished explaining, okay?” timothée raises an eyebrow and hesitately nods.

“i need you to be my pretend boyfriend for the holidays.”

“what?!”

“timothée, what did i just say?!” i scold him and he closes his mouth, apologizing and looking at the floor before he gestures for me to continue.

i take a deep breath before saying, “my mom called and kept telling me to get myself a boyfriend because people my age are getting married and having kids and ‘settling down’ as she says. i got so frustrated with it that i blurted out that i was bringing someone over for the holidays and here i am begging you to be that person.”

“then why don’t you bring a friend and introduce them to your family as your friend? why need me to be your ‘boyfriend’?” timothée asks, placing imaginary quotation marks when he says ‘boyfriend.’

“because my family is expecting a ‘boyfriend’, not a friend.”

timothée is quiet, making the silence between us awkward and intense before timothée sighs. “i don’t know, (y/n). this seems kinda risky,” he says, breaking the silence.

“c’mon, timmy! i’ll pay for everything. i’ll do anything!” i beg him, desperate for his approval.

besides timmy, i don’t have anyone else to go to. he’s my only hope.

he raises an eyebrow in interest and the corner of his lips perk up in a smirk. “anything, you say?”

dear god, what did i just get myself into?

——-

i brush off the snow from my clothes before i ring the doorbell to my parents’ house. “i can’t believe we’re doing this.” i hear timothée chuckle from beside me.

the dark night is accompanied with the windy and cold breeze from the winter season, making me wrap my coat around myself in attempt to warm my freezing body.

“don’t worry. we’ll be fine. plus, this was your plan.” he puts his hand around my shoulders and i jerk back. i groan and face palm myself before the door opens to reveal my mom.

“(y/n)! you’re finally here!” my mom greets with a wide smile. “hey, mom!” she pulls me into a warm and tight hug. “i’ve missed you so much, my darling!” she says, making me chuckle. “you ought to get a job in town rather than in the city because i’ll miss you too much.”

when she pulls away, she spots timothée who is standing beside me with a small smile on his face.

“and who is this?”

before timothée could say anything, i say, “i’ll introduce him when you let us in, mom.”

“oh! right!” she steps aside to let us in as we chuckle. “let me get these for you.” mom moves to get our luggage, but timothée says, “it’s okay, mrs. (y/l/n). i can handle these,” and brings the luggage inside when he steps into my parents’ house.

the room was filled with lights and christmas decorations. even if you look everywhere, it seems like there isn’t a spot that doesn’t have a decoration or a christmas themed item. not only do the decorations fill the room, but also the people inside. every single family member is in the room, filling the air with laughter and comversations. behind the voices and laughter, christmas carols play in the background and the sweet smell of freshly baked cookies makes my mouth water.

when we step in, timothée places our luggage down before he helps me remove my coat and place it on the coat hanger beside the door. i smile gratefully at him and thank him.

“everyone! (y/n) is here and she brought someone!” my mom says, making everyone’s attention turn to us. their eyes widen (my dad’s eyes being the biggest) when they see me standing with timothée.

timothée must’ve sensed my discomfort because he intertwines his fingers with mine and squeezes it comfortingly, making me squeeze his hand back.

you can do this, (y/n). just act it out.

“h-hey guys! this is timothée,” i turn to the brunette boy and smile. “my boyfriend.”

as soon as those words leave my lips, everyone approaches us and starts asking questions.

“(y/n), you have a boyfriend?! why didn’t you tell us?”

“when did you two get together?”

“where did you meet?”

“where can i find someone as handsome as him?”

“when are you two having kids?”

“what?!”

“okay, okay!” my mom shouts, breaking the crowd that formed in front of us. once everyone calmed down, mom sighs and says, “i know that everyone is excited to meet and get to know timothée and to catch up with (y/n), but please let them settle in for a while and then you can ask them all your questions over dinner, okay?”

everyone mutters and gets back to what they were doing, letting me breathe again. “thanks mom.” i kiss her cheek and she smiles. “it’s no problem, honey.” she looks between timothée and i before motioning us to follow her. “c’mon, i’ll show you to your room.”

“wait, ‘our room’?!”

“you both will be staying in one room since all the guests are occupied.”

we continue walking until mom stops in front of my room and i pray to god that she cleaned it up and hid all of my stuff from my childhood and teenage phases.

“i hope you don’t mind that you room is still the same from when you left. i didn’t have the enough time to clean up your room before the holidays.”

oh fuck.

before i could refrain mom from opening the door, she opens it wide to reveal my hot pink painted walls filled with posters of the bands i loved during my teenage years.

i feel my cheeks burn in embarrassment, making me groan silently and place my hand over my face to hide my blush.

after timothée and i place our things inside, mom says, “so, i’ll let you two settle in and dinner will be in 15 minutes.”

“thank you, mrs. (y/l/n).”

“oh, timothée, you can just call me mary!” she says, chuckling. “you don’t need to be so formal. we’re family now, after all.”

he chuckles. “okay. thank you, mary. we’ll be down in a while.” mom waves goodbye to both of us before closing the door, leaving timothée and me.

after the door closes, i flop on my bed filled my stuffed animals and groan out loud. “god, this is so embarrassing.”

“c’mon, it isn’t that bad.” timothée approaches one of the posters on my wall. “i mean, backstreet boys? they’re the best.”

i grab one of the teddy bears on my bed and throw it at him. “shut up. not only that, but we have to sleep in my room, on one bed and my family is embarrassing.” he laughs and catches the teddy bear, placing it on it’s previous spot on my bed before he sits beside my body.

“hey, i don’t mind that we have to share a bed and your room is fine. plus, your family is awesome! especially your mom.”

“you clearly haven’t met the rest of them, timmy.”

he’s silent for a while until i feel the bed dip beside me and he wrap his arms across my back. “don’t be like that, (y/n). we’ll be fine.”

we stay like that for a while until i lift my head from the covers and smile at him.

“thanks, pretend boyfriend.” he chuckles at my nickname. “you’re welcome, pretend girlfriend.”

“(y/n)! you both better not be having sex up there! c’mon, we’re hungry!” we hear the voice of one of my cousins shout, followed by the giggles from my other cousins.

i groan once again and bury my head on the covers again, hiding my blush as timothée laughs before pulling me up to eat dinner with my family.

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moonraccoon-exe · 5 years

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Oh no don't worry I wasn't upset. Well, not at you. I'm sending a separate ask to keep private but other than THAT, things are good. Foot is all better, Coctura is happy and healthy, I'm still with Coach, whose team just got silver in a competition btw. I think I just needed a break from social media in general, which is fine bc it gave me time to play LOTS of Red Dead Redemption 2. -Breakfast Girl

*HYSTERICAL INHALE*

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*HYSTERICALLY SHORT CIRCUITING AND EXPLODING OVER AND OVER AND OVER*

Lemme add a very nice keep reading right here :3

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BG BUDDY IT YOU!!!!!!! ( ´ ▽ ` ).｡ｏ♡

*snuggles*

Omg BG buddy, thank you SO much for dropping another ask!! PHEW, I?m so sorry it’s taken me this awfully terribly long to say something. Holiday season has been sorta busy for me this year, which has been both pleasant and time consuming. Definitely enjoyable, though! It’s the first year my family decides to take the week, so I’ve been busy with that!! Sorry, but thank you for understandin and waiting :3

I’m glad to know that you weren’t upset at me! But also very sad to know that other thing you sent in the private ask. I did worry a lot reading it, but at the end you reassured me it was fine and it’s all back to normal and that’s such a giant, immense relief, you have no idea. I’m happy it didn’t get any worse and that things turned out alright!! Aahhh, makes me wanna hug you both ( ´ ▽ ` )

Your foot is all better now!!! HOOOOOOOOOORAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ BG Buddy I’m SO happy for you omg, in the meanwhile you were quiet, I was wondering about your foot a lot. It also happened that in a fic I’m currently writing someone is dealing with a broken leg, so I inevitably thought about you even more, ahaha. Aaah, I’m so happy and relieved to know it’s all okay now!! o(>ω

*SQUEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK* DEAR COCTURA SWEETIE CUTIEPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hapy and blessed and lkasjdkladfja that you let me know about precious smol Coctura!!! *SQUEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK* THAT PRECIOUS ANGEL THAT DESERVES THE WORLD OMG I’M SO HAPPY FOR THE PRECIOUS FLUFF ;A; Happy and healthy..I mean, it’s you looking after her, so it really doesn’t surprise me. You’re a kind and good person so of course lil Coctura would be in such a wonderful state

YOU STILL WITH COACH, AAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! THAT’S SOOOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! :’’3 Hgfhfghklnfghklfnh, I’m so happy that things are apparently working out between you two. It’s WONDERFUL! Means it’s been okay and that is a delight to hear. I’m so happy you both are alright, as in, both as a couple/friends and individually

GASPS Her team got silver recently!?!?!?! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE THAT IS SOOOOOOOOOO BADASS AND EPIC AND SO COOOOOOOOOL, AAAAAHH!!!! o(≧▽≦)o

TELL HER- TELL HER THAT YOU HAE A RACCOON FRIEND AND- AND AND ANDANDNDANAD AND THAT IT SAYS ZOMG CONGRATZ ON SILVER!!!! :D

ASKLDJLKAJFAKLDJFADLKGADJG SO COOL!!!

Ooooh, yesyes, I understand the whole thing about needing a break from social media. Looking after yourself is important, and it doesn’t always mean to do something, sometimes it means to leave something, even if just momentarily. And somehow, for some reason, social medias have this…energy? Or this thing that consumes your energy, it’s sorta…draining. I don’t know why,, it looks like a simple task, but yes, internet-ing can be exhausting…

I’m very, very happy and glad that you decided to take a break, buddy. It means you were aware you needed it, and it takes something to acknowledge it, even more to actually do it. Social medias can be so…addictive, even when you know you n eed a time away.

So congrats, BG buddy. Once more, you prove to be a strong and mature homan being who knows you need of You, and you need to look after yourself. And you handled it nicely. Like always, I’m not just happy for you, BG buddy, I’m so proud.

You truly are one brave person, I hope you’re aware.

BUT YEAH

I’m happy to know that you did what you had to. I missed you terribly, but so long you were away to do best to yourself, then I can wait for years, still gonna be here when you’re back, and I’ll definitely be cheering you on. You is important, and I’m glad that you know that, and that you’ve worked so hard on taking care of You. So proud you’re so strong, so happy you’re better now. That’s my BG buddy. ٩(◕‿◕｡)۶

OOOOOHHHHH!!!! Red Dead Redemption 2!!! I’ve heard FANTASTIC things about that!! (*°▽°*) To be honest I missed a lot of the game world (never had any of the PS, and latest thing I had was a Wii), so I don’t think I ever heard about Red Dead Redemption 1? And if I did it didn’t seem important at the time. But now with the release of RDR2 I’ve heard WONDERS about it, everyone going nuts about its release, and it being a fantastic game!!!

I can’t say I know how much you’re enjoying it because I’m clueless on the game, but if you’ve been playing it lots, it means it must be lots and lots of fun to you!! And so epic and entertaining and aksjdakldgjadg omg BG buddy, that’s PHENOMENAAAAAAL!!!!! Games are always a fantastic experience, and one that seems to be so particularly epic? Gawd, I’m so happy you get to play lately, BG buddy!!! :3

Bg buddy, there’s not much more to say. I’m so, so, so happy to see you around again, and so happy to know things are going good. I’m happy that you did what was best to you, and I?m happy to see you wandering around again, and it’s, like always, my delight and honor to see you drop by my inbox. I missed you terribly, buddy, and it makes me happy like you have no idea to see you around again

I hope to hear from you again soon!! How are things going? I haven’t checked Endings in Reverse in a while.Gotta check it later!

Meanwhile, I hope that you’re doing FANTASTIC, buddy! I’m sorry again for the awfully late response. I’ve been feeling very drained from asks, lately. Maybe it’s because of the two on going fics I’m writing, giganormous...so it really is only my fault, haha!!! But I’ll try to answer when I can, even if it’s by bits. And even when I don’t reply, I read all asks straight away as they arrive, so do feel free to message me if you ever feel like it, even if it takes me a while to reply

Buddy, I don’t know if you celebrate anything in these dates? But happy holidays. Merry Christmas, if that’s as you celebrate!! I wanted to reply to this before the 25th, but I failed ;w;Still, know that I’m sending you lots and lots of my warmest, luckiest, happiest, and most loving raccoonie hugs and vibes. Wishing you a very good rest of the year and a fantastically beautiful start of a new one, regardless of what you may or may not celebrate :3

Dear BG buddy, it’s a delight to be talking with you again!!!!

I hope you’re having a MOST FANTASTIC day or night, buddy!!! (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ

#coonreplies #breakfast girl

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Update for the first time in SO LONG

Hey guys!

So it’s the 4th of july and I’m tipsy. Happy shitty ass holiday to all of u who care about it. I don’t. Fireworks are boring and sound like gunshots and loud ass cis white republican christian people get louder than usual about how “great” this country “used to be,” and get to celebrate the day this country was founded on native american genocide and rape and began an era of slavery and racism and a bunch of other motherfucking goddamn bullshit.

Anyway.

I told a storytime on my youtube channel about my ex who I called Gregg (bc he looks like Gregg Sulkin, or at least I thought he did back then. It’s actually a two parter so far. I have yet to get to the part where he dumped me over text and then tried to be friends with benefits with me, I refused, I tried, he refused, we fought a lot, repeat cycle. Wow that was a fucking shitstorm. Finally unfriended him a couple of months ago because of a shitty ass facebook post and I just didn’t have the energy anymore. Plus, he has a girlfriend now, and at this point any desire to communicate with him was based on a pure physical attraction and/or wanting to have some sort of intellectual conversation with him because, as much as I honestly still kind of resent him, I do admire his brain. Anyway.)

So when I told the storytime, I spent a good hour going through my tumblr for posts about him (and his, for posts about me, which I remember desperately hoping for back when I was still with him or right after we broke up) and it kind of made me miss blogging.

This has been the longest intro in the fucking world. Oh my god. Ugh.

Anyway.

I just kind of wanted to get on here and talk a little bit.

I don’t remember what my original pushing thought was, since again, I’m tipsy, and I got so sidetracked talking about “gregg” (though let’s be real, if any of you watch that storytime and have followed me for long enough, you know exactly who I’m talking about. He doesn’t even follow me on tumblr anymore. He unfollowed me a long time ago, actually. And now that I’m talking so much about him I’m kind of tempted to text him, which would obviously be a fucking bad idea, but you know. I’m a masochist. We’ll see what I do later I guess. I don’t know.)

I’m kind of miffed today. And by that, I mean I’m actually hurt but too prideful to say I’m hurt. My family is very clearly celebrating for this shit holiday, which they don’t know that I don’t care about, by the way, and no one even invited me. Yeah I was working most of the day but I got off at 8, and anyway I hadn’t told them I was working. My mother probably just “assumed I had to work and couldn’t make it” again. Even though she promised to make more of an effort to invite me to things. My heart hurts.

Yeah I don’t care about fireworks, but I love my family and I miss my niece and my sister isn’t talking to me because apparently I’ve changed and she misses “Amber,” not “Kye.” (Oh yeah, I go by Kye now. Just, btw.)

What she doesn’t seem to realize no matter how many times I tell her, is that Amber, that girl she grew up with that she apparently misses so goddamn much, she doesn’t exist anymore. She was a fucked up piece of shit too, if I’m being honest. I call my past self Amber instead of “past Kye” because I don’t know her anymore. You know why?

Because I’ve been through so much motherfucking goddamn bullshit since then. I was raped. I left my family for a goddamn year over some slightly shitty but WAY overexaggerated bullshit (that, let’s be real, I’ll never fully forgive myself for) that was twisted into a horror story by the evil ex whose name I can’t even fucking SAY because it makes me feel fucking nauseous. I almost killed myself a couple of times. I cut over and over and motherfucking over again because I was so goddamn depressed, I got kicked out of TWO apartments (once because my roommate was just a bitch and wanted any made up excuse she could find, the other because my alcoholic roommate who sexually assaulted me MY FIRST NIGHT THERE and who is STILL my dm for one of my dnd games and tries to pretend he fucking cares about me, hallucinated our neighbors trying to kill us and made me take him to the hospital and file a police report when it was just his goddamn mind). I’ve been so broke for the past couple years I was a camgirl for awhile. I did live camshows for money. I also sold photos and videos of me naked, sometimes taking requests. It made me fucking miserable and gave me flashbacks but I was jobless and had to pay rent. I’m not going to lie, I’ve been considering starting again because I’m broke as fuck and I want to cry from how stressed I am most of the time, but I haven’t yet. You know why?

Again, I was raped. And sexually assaulted, not just by that roommate, but also by two family members (like when I was a kid) who will remain unnamed (who never even said I’m sorry, by the way, even when I brought it up. I still hang out with one. How fucking sick do I have to be to still hang out with a family member who sexually assaulted me and apologized to my sister for touching her, but not me?). But also because I’ve been in this deep disgusting ass pit of self fucking loathing recently. I feel fat and ugly and nasty more often than not, every time I get a crush or a lust-crush on someone I start to feel guilty about it because how dare I burden someone with the weight of having to deal with my affection? I feel lonely and also selfish for feeling lonely, I miss my family but I also avoid them. And then I get upset when they don’t invite me to things.

This is the last holiday I’m ever going to spend living in North Carolina. Connor and I are leaving for Los Angeles on August fucking 5th. I’ll be around for my brother’s and my cat’s birthday (incidentally they’re both on August 2nd), but then I’m gone. I won’t be able to make it to Christmas this year because let’s face it, I won’t have the money. The soonest they’re going to see me after I leave is MAYBE Christmas 2018, and I’m not even sure that’s going to happen. Hell, I’m not even christian anymore, celebrating it feels weird.

Also, going back to this whole name shit and “I’ve changed” bullshit, Amber was an asshole. She made racist comments and used to say the “n” word back in high school. She literally laughed in boys’ faces when they asked her out if she wasn’t attracted to them, not even just because they were “out of her league” because she (rightfully) didn’t believe in “leagues,” but just because if she was going to say no, she was going to be a bitch about it. I remember one of my best friends’ little brothers asking me out in 9th grade, and he was in like 7th. He was OBVIOUSLY too young for me but I should have been fucking nice about it. Instead, I laughed at him, literally fucking laughed at him, and just said “omg bye.”

She also didn’t know how to stand up for herself. She was mousy and depressed and anxious and small and hated herself and so who gave a fuck if people used her because what good was she herself anyway? Like yeah, Kye is fatter and her mental health has gone down the fucking drain (no really, my counselor thinks I’m borderline and I really need to be medicated honestly because it’s so hard to function I’m scared I’m going to fail at trying to be alive) but at least she can mostly say no, and she can cut people out her life when she wants to. At least Kye can pinpoint when people are trying to manipulate her (though if we’re being honest here, and holy fuck we really are, since the fucking evil ex aka my rapist, my mind is warped as fucking hell and I don’t know what’s real anymore. The amount of manipulation I have imagined and overreacted to is insane. My uncle wallace won’t talk to me because I overreacted when he had a shitty opinion and posted it on a status of mine, and I took it as him attacking me. I want to cry every time I think about it but I already sent him one long message explaining why, and then the next day I sent a really long apology message. I don’t know why I keep fucking things up with everyone I care about. It feels like Connor and my cat are the only ones I have anymore, and even Connor can drive me crazy sometimes because obviously, that’s how people are who live together and have known each other for 8 fucking years, and I’m so hard to live with and deal with because of the bpd and the fact that my anxiety shows itself in irritability and the amount of times I’ve snapped at them for fucking nothing is absolutely ridiculous. I’m mad that they still haven’t learned how to drive and we’re moving in a month and it’s looking like I’m going to have to drive by myself from one coast to another while they blissfully chill in the passenger seat and doze off or play on their phone or whatever, but in reality they’re probably really anxious about it too and they probably feel bad but can’t make theirself do it and it’s just I feel so shitty all the time oh my god).

I don’t even know what the point of this post is, I just think I needed to vent somewhere that I don’t have to be careful what I say because no one reads this shit anyway. The second I vent where ANYONE in my family can see it, they’ll all jump down my throat for being “disrespectful to my parents” or some other bullshit. They fucking love bandwagons. One of their favorite phrases is “my army is bigger” and honestly that shit scares me because yeah, it is. And that goddamn army is too fucking prideful (like me) to accept when they maybe should hear someone out, and they will literally cyberbully you if they can. It may sound whiny, but I really do feel like I was cyberbullied that day with uncle wallace. I’m not even kidding (and again, no one reads this so I don’t feel bad saying this because it’s tru) I legitimately wanted to kill myself that day. Everyone was jumping down my throat AGAIN over something I said that hurt my mom when I didn’t even know it hurt her. If I had, I would have taken it down and apologized. They were also attacking me for an immature snapchat saying “fuck you and your shitty ass opinions” which was about my uncle, and yeah I deserved a little of that bullshit but I admitted that was wrong very shortly after. He wouldn’t even hear me out, but I was the bad guy, the disrespectful, ignorant black sheep who treated everyone like shit. I keep trying to pretend I’m over the whole thing but I’m so not. I won’t forget who said shit to me and who didn’t. Because that shit fucking hurt.

I don’t want to tell Connor how mad I am over something they may not be able to control, I don’t want to fucking rub my sister’s face in how ‘not’ Amber I am (also, just, sidenote, the main reason I changed my is really because I hated Amber and wanted some control over my life and it really has made me happier, but also honestly it was partly because my fucking rapist has never called me “Kye” and so when I’m having fucking rape flashbacks I can separate myself from it so when she insists that Kye is horrible and she hates me now (she didn’t say that but she said I wouldn’t be in her life if I weren’t family and let’s face it, I’m not in her life rn anyway and I may as well not be family with how I’ve been treated recently, not that it’s not partly my fault, but still) and that she misses Amber, who she grew up with, who is the one she misses, not me, not who I am now. Honestly, when we were fighting it felt like she only said that because she needed a concrete reason to be mad at me so she grasped onto the fact that I’ve changed, which my whole family complains about, but

Look at all the motherfucking goddamn fucked up shit I’ve been through in the past few years. OF FUCKING COURSE I’VE CHANGED. It hurts like hell that my ENTIRE family is mad that I’m not the same girl who left them for an abusive fiance. Like yes, I’m kind of a bitch now when I need to be, and yes I overreact to things BECAUSE I’VE BEEN THROUGH TRAUMA U DON’T JUST FUCKING GET OVER THAT, and yes I changed my name and I’m not the motherfucking goddamn same but how dare you want me to be?

I WANTED TO DIE. EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. I HAVE NEVER HATED MYSELF AS MUCH AS I DID THEN. I HAD TWO EATING DISORDERS, AN ADDICTION TO CUTTING (for which I’m now getting urges so I’m going to end this soon), I HATED EVERYONE I KNEW, I WAS FUCKING SO DEPRESSED I COULDN’T EVEN, UGH, I WAS ONLY SLEEPING ONCE EVERY TWO NIGHTS SO I WAS HALLUCINATING, I PUSHED AWAY EVERYONE WHO EVER GAVE A SHIT ABOUT ME, I SNAPPED AT EVERYONE WHO WAS NEAR ME WHEN I WAS ANXIOUS AND I DIDN’T KNOW MY TRIGGERS. NOW I CAN AT LEAST SEPARATE MYSELF FROM THE SITUATION SO I DON’T HURT PEOPLE AS MUCH. I DON’T TALK ABOUT THE VIEWS I HAVE THAT CONFLICT WITH EVERYONE ELSE’S SO I DON’T HAVE TO ARGUE WITH ANYONE. I HAVE MADE MYSELF SMALL, THEN MADE MYSELF BIG, AND REVERT TO SMALL WHEN I’M AROUND THEM, BUT IT’S STILL NOT FUCKING ENOUGH FOR THEM.

WHEN, please fucking tell me WHEN, when will I be enough for them?

#angst #family #drama #blogging #update #happy fourth #fourth of july #independence day #trauma #survivor #venting

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