#i do it because it's detectable to other people and it's what they do for me and it makes them happy which makes me happy

[662607015]

i've been too busy to post about it lately but the current situation surrounding disability rights in the uk is horrifying in a way that most people have zero awareness of. i would appreciate it if more people could spread awareness of this, because the situation is dire to the point that the united nations have officially recognised it as a human rights violation, and there is still little to no discussion about this present online that i'm aware of.

on march 22 this year, the united nations published a follow-up report - found here - on its 2016 inquiry into the human rights of disabled people in the uk. the original inquiry found "grave and systemic violations" of the human rights of disabled people, and the follow-up concludes that no significant progress has been made concerning the situation. the report details "deep poverty" becoming increasingly common for disabled people; media rhetoric "aimed at raising hostility against welfare claimants, including disabled people"; increasing rates of institutionalisation of disabled people; concern about ai tools being used to automate fraud detection in social security with little oversight; and reports of "benefit deaths": the phenomenon of disabled people resorting to suicide after having their social security removed by the state, which has evidently become so common that they have a name for it.

on april 19, just 28 days after the un's official condemnation, the uk government published a new press release announcing a "moral mission" to "reform" our disability welfare system - meaning plans to even further reduce or entirely remove what little finanical support is available to disabled people, in addition to removing the ability of gps to issue sick notes and the introduction of a "fraud bill" which would enable warrants for seizes, searches and arrests in addition to increased digital surveillance of any welfare claimant suspected of fraud. again, this comes less than a month after the un announced that the uk has taken no action to address human rights abuses of disabled people - and the only action they're taking on this is to actively make the situation worse. i don't know how to end this post other than that it's legitimately terrifying to be a disabled person here at present, and this is made even worse by how little media attention the situation is getting - if you're able to speak out about this, please do. the human rights of disabled people are being violated and our government needs to be held accountable.

#hi. not a fun post but one i feel the need to make right now. #disability #ableism #uk

[definitelynotafurinasimp]

Eula with a reader that’s full of kindness

characters: Eula x gn!reader

warnings: none

Anyway, hope you enjoy!

Eula

There weren’t all too many people in Mondstadt that were ready to lend someone like Eula not only an ear, but even went so far as to offer her kindness and friendship from the beginning. And yet you did.

Eula wasn’t proud of saying this, but she couldn’t help but be very suspicious at first, trying to keep you an extra arms length away from her, trying to figure out your motive for trying to cozy up to her the way you did, only to find… nothing. Once she noticed that there was no secret scheme of yours however, she started to also notice how your kindness wasn’t just limited to her. And before she knew it, she started to appreciate it more than she probably had any legitimate reason to.

It was cold, snow was falling from the skies and covering every inch of surface as far as the eye could see. It didn’t take any kind of magical heat vision to see her own breaths every few seconds. And still, you were nowhere to be found. Did you stand her up? No, that was impossible, not even someone as cynical as her could believe you breaking your promise. Probably got yourself into some sort of weird situation again…

Just as she finished her thought however, you appeared in her vision, hurrying over towards her with your hands pressed between your armpits.

“I hope you didn’t have to wait long, Eula. I… met an old acquaintance”, you lied as obviously as you shivered, an uneasy smile on your lips that made her want to groan. As the weather got colder, you managed to bump into old acquaintances more and more frequently, only for your gloves, scarves and other winter wear to coincidentally go missing.

It didn’t take a master detective to figure out what was going on, and frankly, Eula felt a bit insulted you thought you’d fool her for even a second.

“Which made you so busy that you forgot to bring along gloves, I see”, she stated, her sarcasm not exactly subtle and yet all you did was awkwardly smile at her. Dear Gods, what was she going to do with you?

“Just because you grew up in a wealthy household doesn’t mean you can just gift your stuff to whoever you see. Or did you forget your family is far from affluent now?”, Eula gave you a brief lecture, before letting out a sigh and pulling off her right glove, holding it out to you.

"Put this on.”

Just as you were about to protest about how her own hand was going to get cold however, she shut you up by grabbing yours, keeping both of them warm.

“Let’s go, we don’t have all day.”

#eula #eula x reader #eula x y/n #eula lawrence x reader #eula lawrence #eula imagines #genshin x reader

[queerlyvictorian]

I reblogged about this on another person's post, but it's too important to me to not have my own post about it.

I'm hearing that some people might be coming for Crystal Palace of Dead Boy Detectives for "getting in the way" of Charles x Edwin, i.e. Payneland.

Let's be clear. I adore angsty friends to lovers as much the next hopelessly romantic queer (sort of) guy. But what we're not going to do is become yet another fandom that denigrates a female character because we see her as an obstacle to a mlm ship. It honestly kind of triggers me, and it can never not feel at least a little biphobic to me. I am sure that is not the intention of the vast majority of people with this take, but that's just what my past experience in the numerous fandoms that have done this makes me jump to first.

I want us to think about this. If Charles is currently or eventually in love with Edwin back, he will be confired bisexual, or some other non-monosexual identity, or just fucking queer and vibing. And that means his attraction and feelings for Crystal, and their ship, should be respected as a part of his story and the story of the show. Let a girl live. Don't erase Charles's attraction to women, and leave space for non-monosexual identities. Let's all be mature queers about this, and breaking the fucking cycle.

We're not about to tear a bestie down just so our male leads can kiss. We're better than that. I hope we can be better than that.

#slight apology for the rant #i had feelings i apparently had to GET OUT #dead boy detectives #dead boy detectives spoilers #crystal palace #charles rowland #edwin payne #bisexual #pansexual #biphobia #bisexual erasure #fandom discourse #shipping wars #queerlyvictorian posts

[worldunbent]

a difference between the experience of reading the natsuyuu manga and watching the anime which is only interesting to me is that there's no distinction between special chapters and regular ones in the anime. the reason i find that interesting is that the specials are, so far in my reread, the only chapters that spend any time completely outside of natsume's POV. when we see other characters' perspectives in regular chapters, it's typically part of an extended monologue or a memory being transmitted to natsume, so we're still not really leaving his perspective. the only times we leave his POV are when he's physically not present in a scene, and in those instances we usually don't get any narration or interior monologue from the other characters.

tanuma in "a suspicious visitor" is the only exception i can think of off the top of my head, though i'm sure there are others i'll get to and just don't remember at the moment. the scene between matoba and ban at the end of the homura arc, for example, is outside of natsume's POV by necessity but is pure dialogue with no interior narration because these are not characters to whom we have that kind of access! (for more on matoba's elusive subjectivity see sp15, says tumblr user worldunbent.)

the special chapters jump all over the place; so far i've gotten to chapters from the perspectives of little fox, an unnamed youkai, nyanko, tanuma, and hinoe (although hinoe's chapter is framed as a story she's telling natsume, so it could have fit in a regular chapter). they have a separate numbering system from the regular chapters, are much shorter, and almost always come at the end of volumes*. in the anime, however, there's absolutely nothing to distinguish the episodes adapting the specials from the ones adapting regular chapters other than the POV shifts, which gives anime-only viewers a very different impression of how the series approaches character interiority. i don't think there's anything wrong with this as an adaptation move and it's pretty much necessary, but it's just notable because in a series that's all about how people see the world differently, the choice to make such a distinction between chapters in the protagonist's POV and chapters from everyone else's POV is a significant one.

the reason i'm paying so much attention to POVs in this reread in the first place is because i've been listening to the podcast media club plus and jack, who is pretty new to anime, keeps pointing out the constant perspective shifts in hunter x hunter and the other hosts are like, "yeah, that's normal." this post from another listener expands on how and why it works as a genre norm in shonen battle anime/manga specifically. so now i'm just cursed to be hyperaware of POV shifts in anime/manga, and given that the three series i'm reading/watching at the moment are hxh, dungeon meshi, and natsuyuu, natsuyuu really stands out in how rarely it leaves natsume's head in the regular chapters. i guess i need to go read some more shoujo for a larger sample size lol

*i have a chapter spreadsheet 🤓 and the exceptions to this are sp18, which is just stuck in the middle of v22, sp20, which is the second-to-last chapter of v24, and sp21, which is the first chapter of v25. i understand the placement of sp20, which is "intermission detectives" and makes sense to have as an break between regular chapters, but i'll have to figure out what sp18&21 are doing when i get to them.

#i think as i get to more plot-heavy arcs with more characters there will be some POV shifts within regular chapters #but either it hasn't happened yet in what i've reread or i haven't noticed lol #natsuyuu.txt #the conversation between ban and matoba is fun to me because it's one of those only times in a regular chapter #that the reader gets access to concrete information that natsume doesn't have #there are definitely other moments like this such as the locked room in the miharu arc #but that's more about characterization and vibes. #after 100 chapters midorikawa is finally like you can have some dramatic irony. as a treat.

[catbeeisafraid]

I don’t have like a ton to say about this but I have mixed feelings- also spoilers ✨

I like Crystal I really do but at times her dialogue bothered me and some of her behavior was kind of obnoxious to me- like at times when she started aggressively inserting herself into situations and just kind of made it about her? Like in episode seven (though this happened many other times too) where she was having a total fit about not going to hell when it’s clearly for her own good and not about her no matter how much she cares? and I totally understand that this is her being written as an immature teenager who hasn’t been dead or a teen for 30-100 years but as a teenager this sort of selfish immature writing kind of gives me icky feelings because I know so many people who are mostly emotionally intelligent not just raging all the time.- and I mean that for a lot of teenagers and teen girls in writing, to make them tough and likable they are made volitile and annoying which to me is not likable (my opinion, I just don’t like the trope that’s not what I’m talking about right now anyway-) I do think she had good development and I liked her a lot better by the end, some people on other forums were saying that her actress was weaker than the rest of the cast and I don’t really know about that? I think maybe she was artificial at times but I’m blaming that on the writing. I also didn’t like her dialogue about her “crazy demon ex” either, it felt very forced? -Not her emotions about the whole mind cage thing I get that but just all of the “UGH WHY ARE THEY SO FUCKING NOSY IM JUST TRYING TO GET OVER MY STUPID STUPID CRAZY ABUSIVE STALKER DEMON EX BOYFRIEND UGHHH ILL DOUBLE KILL THOSE BOYS IF ITS TGE LAST THING I DO” that felt out of place to me- Lastly I get that this is also an aspect of her teenager-ness but I didn’t like the amount she cursed? I have no qualms with cursing but it felt to me like when little kids and middle schoolers start cursing where they just explosively yell fuck when like literally nothing warranting that kind of expletive has happened? She curses too often it makes her sound really stupid? Like the ep 7 “take me to hell I won’t die” thing, she was screaming at Charles who was being pretty reasonable like “fuck that I’m going he’s my fucking friend too fine then fuck it- fuck you ill find another way to get to hell” like yes she was emotional but that isn’t what teenagers sound like guys?

idk- I’d love to hear what other people think and to be clear I do like her I just focused on the negative- I guess it’s a human thing. She had lots of strong points just I ending up not liking how much she was on screen, this isn’t really about you? It’s about the dead boy detective? Give me more ghosts or Edwin or Charles or Jenny or Niko or Mr walrus please? They were fun I like them? I just felt like there were times where she was over shadowing Edwin and Charles and they are what’s actually important to the show? I think I’d like her more in smaller doses- I felt like I spent too much time having to stop and be like “girl step back this is not about you, you are not the star right now”

and to the argument of her actress being inexperienced or over acting or just not great- I have no specific feelings on this but like the other main cast had for the most part very little screen acting experience and were Fantastic so i don’t know what to feel in that area? so yes, i think crystal is an interesting character and i think she grew on me and developed in the season but i also definitely think that she’s annoying and I’m conflicted because i don’t want to not like her-..

what are your thoughts? Id love to hear different perspectives but please be nice to me because I’ll probably delete this and cry (unless that was your goal, then carry on)

that was all like super ramble-y sorry- but I hope I communicated semi accurately! Thank you

#neil gaiman #dead boy detectives #dead boy detective agency #george rexstrew #kassius nelson #jayden revri #good omens #spoilers #crystal palace

[marcishaun]

OC Deep Dive Questionnaire Tag

Thanks for the tag @natolesims! 💗

I chose Deidra, a sim I had created almost 2 years ago. I had created a save just for her, and gave her extended family members. She eventually fell in love with & married a townie, and when the Growing Together ep came out, she became my 1st sim to have an infant. They eventually had 4 kids!

1. What uncommon/common fear do they have?

Being alone. It led to arguments with her sister, Kendra, who felt Deidra rushed into a relationship with Stan because she wanted to get married & have a baby before it was too late.

2. Do they have any pet peeves?

Laziness. Deidra gets frustrated easily, & hates when others don't help.

3. What are 3 items you can find in their bedroom?

Baby toys (their youngest sleeps in their room), perfume & lotions, hair wraps.

4. What do they notice first in a person?

Probably how they react to her. She can be self-conscious, and seems to be on high alert & observes how people perceive her.

5. On a scale of 1 to 10, how high is their pain tolerance?

Maybe a 2. It's low. She's never had a major physical injury, and prefers to not deal with any emotional or mental ones.

6. Do they go into fight or flight mode when under pressure?

Absolutely flight mode. After constantly bickering with her sister, because Kendra didn't accept her now-husband, Deidra stopped speaking to her.

7. Do they come from a big family/are they a family person?

Deidra comes from an average sized family. She has 1 younger sister (Kendra), and 1 younger brother (Shawn), and even has the family oriented trait.

8. What animal represents them best?

Maybe a lioness. Takes care of all of the babies, hunts/cooks, and is the one REALLY in charge.

9. What is a smell that they dislike?

Trash/dirty dish water. It means someone didn't complete their chores.

10. Have they broken any bones?

No.

11. How would a stranger likely describe them?

Quiet, but nice. Seems well organized and put together.

12. Are they a night owl or a morning bird?

Night owl. Her mornings are chaos.

13. What is a flavor they hate and a flavor they love?

Deidra loves vanilla & cinnamon, and just the smell of pickles makes her gag.

14. Do they have any hobbies?

Reading and art/painting/sketching.

15. Boom, surprise birthday party!How do they react to surprises?

Pleasantly surprised, but anxious.

16. Do they like to wear jewelry?

Not really. Maybe for special occasions.

17. Do they have neat or messy handwriting?

Very neat!

18. What are two emotions they feel the most?

The last time I played her, they were Flirty & probably some form of Tense.

19. Do they have a favorite fabric?

Probably cotton. Simple.

20. What kind of accent do they have?

English, United States. Just realized most of my sims don't have regional American accents, and maybe it's because most people tell me that they can't detect a regional accent in me.

Tagging: @changingplumbob @deardiaryts4 @oofiesims

#simsbymarci #simblr #ts4 #the sims #the sims 4 #sims 4 #aboutme #tag game

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 46

To help with their civilian identities, most of the Justice League refers to each other as their DnD party. The thing is though, several of them start learning how to play, mostly those who aren’t too sure what it is at first and then it spread. Now they actually are playing a DnD game. At the Watchtower, with the Bat ending up as the Dungeon Master. How he has ended up as such, he isn’t too sure, but he’s pretty good at doing different voices. Helped along by bringing the kids sometimes and them insisting on voicing some kobolds or goblins. 

#DnD #dcu #dc #prompts #dnd crossover #dc crossover #justice league #Bruce can speak in so many accents and languages that they end up loving the characters #Several times people will argue with their rolls #What do you mean I fail the flip? I can do a flip right here and now watch me! #*Proceeds to fail* #Those who know their civilian ID get short videos sent to them of this chaos #Sometimes they also play at each other's homes or in public as civilians too #The media eat it up because there are several famous people alongside a reporter a detective a conman and a few others vibing #It is utter chaos and they are all here for it #Helped along by several of the league members purposely eating dirt when they insist they can do some sort of parkour move

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

Calisto Yew was so cool, honestly. Wish they'd bring her back

#me and my constant melody of 'they should bring this underrated amazing female character back' #everyone's always going on about simon keyes this & simon keyes that like. you all really saw a twink in makeup and lost sight of all else #huh #shih na did it so much better. she was the moment and she was soooo cool. she literally used aa fans' predisposed sympathy towards sad #sister characters against them. gave a performance so convincing she tricked a top prosecutor and detective into working with her for YEARS #turned around and got close enough to a top interpol agent again for YEARS without any of them catching on #and all without using the soft docile saccharine persona most the other deceptive characters use #she was so brilliant and poised and clever i miss her so much #i know they probably executed her but i feel like she could be one of those people who get taken in by the govt and used in their own #secret services and shit. she's good enough for it. also she was so? complex? like she was EXTREMELY good at keeping her personal feelings #out of her professional work but she didnt have that malice or hostility that a lot of these types do. she calls lang an idiot but that #mockery is just who she is. she does that for everyone. it's not personal. and there are times when you can tell that she did like the #people she was with. she admits as much with lang yet she always maintained her distance. because she's a professional. she's just so. #she was brilliant truly. what an amazing woman #i miss her so dearly #calisto yew #shih-na #ace attorney #ace attorney investigations

[always-a-joyful-note]

may I also bring this contribution as you wander down the enstars rabbit hole (it's enstars characters and their supposed crimes)

OP I appreciate you so much, but I fear that you are trying to kill me? Just -

Just a few questions.....

- Why are Switch and the seniors of Ryuseitai and Wataru??? on kidnapping?? (wait, did he kidnap Hokuto is that it?) - Wait, what did Tetora and Sora DO? - Midori's in attempted murder?????? WHY??? - What's with forgery?? Why's that on there? Why am I questioning forgery when sexual harassment and murder are RIGHT there??? - Yeah, I still can't believe there's a literal idol duo who is also a mob group.... - "tried to break the windows with an iron pipe" what - of course Hokuto has the ultra specific one (I love him so much. Rich airhead princess to me, so far anyway). - Bullying for Subaru NO what have you DONE starshine boy??? - and at this point I've given up on getting mentally tortured by the others

I am eternally grateful for this list. Why did it have to exist? OP, come back here and let's just talk - actually. No, I desperately want to sit down with the writers and ask what they've experienced to do this.

#look i know the idol industry is not sunshine and starlight #but whats with it becoming a literal conglomerate and yazuka series? #the more i learn about this game the more im convinced that the writers really just spun a crazy roulette of any genres tropes #you have urban fantasy portal fantasy rpglit steampunk victorians nonsense literature historical fiction drama poetry etc etc #also detective fiction and war fiction and thats just the roulette of genres #stars i want to write like them #you guys in the fandom arent okay are you....you guys are all so nice giving me all this #but to let this get to my head youre also doing this to torture me specifically arent you? #my mind is already lost i dont know how i can lose it further #enstars #ensemble stars #fandom spamdom #things i find funny #stuff i say #this reminds me of my bsd starting days #i was so in denial that i was into bsd because it was so insane and unreal #and somehow a slice-of-life idol media is equally as unhinged and deranged i hate and love it here #(but in all honesty thank you for the ask op! it's SO fun to see people engage with each other in this fandom) #coincidentally i am pretty sure ive also blocked the most tags in this fandom because youre all insane (affectionate...i think?)

[theramblingvoid]

Sometimes I think about how even when I'm trying not to be, I am entirely made of the people I love. I recently reconnected with a close friend I hadn't seen in about three years. Apparently they're into watching video essays now. I'm more of a gaming YouTube person, but to each their own, I've always known this friend to be a touch more academic than me anyway. Fair enough. We find other things to talk about.

It is two months later. My watch later list is entirely filled with video essays. Three years is not enough time to forget how to love somebody. I'm glad of that.

#voidrambles #how to explain. it's like #i don't know when to hug or how hard and direct complements make me uneasy and i just #affection in the way most people know it does not come naturally to me #i do it because it's detectable to other people and it's what they do for me and it makes them happy which makes me happy #which makes me sound quite disingenuous? i think that's the word. with my love #but #the games i play most are ones i saw one friend get very very excited about and i loved them before i even started playing them #i haven't thought twice about deep sea creatures since maybe middle school but i do now，all the time，and bugs too #i get excited when i see one because another of my friends would #in 2021 i made this one specific vanilla milk drink in the microwave dozens of times even though I don't like sweet vanilla that much #it tasted so good to me for the time i was close with the person i got the recipe from #i get excited when i see yellow flowers. yellow is not one of my favourite colours #I write because of all the things I've read and loved I keep a list of books friends speak highly of #I cook my pasta with oil even though it makes the pot harder to wash and i don't know if there's a difference to the taste #because i can't tell it apart from the warmth of someone else's proudly given tip joining my own routine #i don't know how else to say this #I'm running out of examples not because there are no more but because i can't tell them apart from things i am on my own #that used to upset me but i don't think it does anymore #this post stops here. it's late and i have a video essay to watch #i love you

[steakout-05]

eeuuaghh i would like everyone to know that i apologise if i have not responded to your reblogs/mentions/posts on tumblr, i have really terrible social anxiety and for some reason people talking to me makes my nervous system think i'm being hunted for sport by a resident evil boss. sorry if i havent responded i'm not being rude i'm just having a panic attack :P

additionally: social anxiety is actually the reason why a lot of my old posts from late 2022 had weird spacing and spelling mistakes. i was too anxious to type properly

#sorry this seems like a random thing to post but it has been bugging me for a little bit now and i want to post it #and by a little bit i mean the entire time i've been on this website #as for the reason i have social anxiety: i went to a really terrible high school full of dangerous people- #-who were literally like. the worst most bigoted people ever. not everyone there was bad of course but 90% of them were- #-and that stunted by social development by 5-6 years and now every time someone talks to me i feel like i'm about to get murdered #also primary school was. bad. the other kids could sniff out the autism in me and didn't like me for it #this post isn't directed towards anyone specifically but also it kinda is because there's a DM from someone- #-that i haven't responded to in literally 8 months and every time i think about it i get anxious #i'm sorry!!! i'm not trying to ignore you on purpose and i want to say something but my brain literally will not let me out of fear :( #i'm not used to getting talked to directly so every time i do my entire nervous system starts screaming and running in circles #it's kinda ridiculous because it's like. come on. why are you having a panic attack over a message on tumblr it's LITERALLY just words on- #-a screen what are you freaking out about. but also it's like hhhhh unfamiliar social situation scary. help. #unrelated to that but i am very worried about what people will think of me and like i know i really shouldn't worry about that- #-because i can't control what other people think of me and it really shouldn't be any of my or their business. but also- #-i have legitimate trauma that backs my fears up and every time someone is even slightly critical towards me my brain just goes- #-''see? it happened again i TOLD you it would happen again. idiot. you shouldn't have said anything'' #and then i hide and cry and lay in bed thinking about how i'm going to die until i suddenly snap out of it and think- #-''wait hang on why should i care. i love being a weirdo on the internet why should i let my anxieties stop me'' #and then it happens AGAIN and it's just a viscous cycle at that point #be silly on the internet -> detect slight criticism -> think everyone hates you again -> go back on your bullshit after 3 days of crying #and it makes sense because that exact same pattern happened to me countless times as a child. #be silly in school -> get made fun of for it -> get hated for it -> rinse and repeat until you think everyone is dangerous and they hate yo #if i could put it in a metaphor it would be like me being a little rabbit who thinks everyone is a scary wolf because of their big shadows- #-even though they're all also rabbits and i'm just paying attention to the scariest parts of them because i only know what wolves look like #trauma does fucked up things to your psyche lemmie tell you #social anxiety #anxiety disorder #i'm literally the ''too scared to order food'' stereotype except it's not a stereotype because it's real and every time i look at the 7/11- #-at my campus i go ''hm but what if they hate me for the food i buy there'' even though they're LITERALLY SELLING IT what is WRONG with me #anyway um. social anxiety sucks and i don't mean to not reply ro everyone who talks to me i am sorr y

[leatherbookmark]

actually i have discovered the only true and correct reading of md/zs: wgxn are the true Evil Men of mdzs. just look at how they’re dealing with lxc post-guanyin

#'how' = not at all. #it's almost unbelievable how little wwx cares about lxc now that the whole case is over #it's just a fun puzzle for him to solve which isn't necessarily a criticism of him as a character because boy howdy do i Know that he's not #some kinda bleeding heart. but he just... basically explains everything at the end like a triumphant detective in a classic mystery novel #and you have lxc. having JUST found out that jgy was Obviously provoked into violence and that the only reason he went to the temple #instead of making a beeline to the nearest port was to pick up his mother's remains. he's heartbroken and confused #and even the narration is almost cruel in its 'well if jgy's best friend doesn't know then how could the others know?' and then wwx goes #'welp! gotta call people and take care of this coffin mess i think!' #AND THEN wgxn just casually decide not to reveal the VITAL (for lxc) information about jgy to him. because it would make him look #sympathetic. just tell him if he asks lz! i'm soooo tired of this bullshit u_u #what is he supposed to ask about you soggy banana. 'hey didi is there something you didn't tell me about jgy?' like this? like this? #bastards BASTARDS i say. and then they go on to fuck in the bushes without hearing the boring and annoying gossip from the jianghu! #brother? ah forget him. wwx's butt won't fuck itself we've got a busy day ahead #hashtag wgxn hateposting i do what i want it's my blog #like. i understand Dignity and stuff and lwj probably couldn't and wasn't even the type to hug his brother in public and go 'there there' #but he doesn't. he doesn't do a thing. at all #the only thing he says to lxc is 'jgy's killing intent.' that's it. at least in cql he leads him out of the temple and #physically supports him. here? nothing. lxc is repeatedly described as 'not realizing what had happened' 'lost in thought' 'startled' #and even 'in normal circumstances zewu-jun would have immediately understood it'. he is Mentally Unwell. but that's his problem because #he liked the guy we decided was a villain. 😬 #shut up shrimp #(i know the bushes of love didn't happen /immediately/ post-guanyin (imagine that though.) but they're fucking haunting me)

[martyrbat]

[ID: Batman flinging himself off a building and grappling through the air. His thought bubbles read, "For years I've hoped Harvey's good side would take over, once and for all... But I've begun to despair that will ever happen... This side of the grave." END ID]

[ID: Harvey Dent and Batman standing closely together and exchanging a quick talk as Harvey gets arrested by a cop. Batman's back is to the viewer but his head is turnt to look at Harvey. Harvey hesitantly requests, "Batman... Will you tell Gilda... Tell her what I did?" Batman promises, "I will, Harvey. Thank you." Harvey is surprised and asks, "For what?!" Batman tells him, "For giving me hope." END ID]

#you ever think about how people mock batmans belief in rehabilitation being possible and his no kill rule #when its literally something bruce clings to out of love and wanting to see the best for everyone #when literally everyone close to him would be labelled criminal. hell HE is a criminal by all means just his actions reflect HIS moral code #and where HE has to draw that line. #but its hypocritical to place him higher than the same ppl he stops and for him to not give them a chance to redeem themselves/do better #how he clung to that belief of harvey ever getting better and JUST NOW after he threathened babies with a shotgun and kidnapped them #thats what makes him START to doubt if he will. then harvey does the right thing and its that sign. that little spark of hope. #B is the world's greatest detective. hes smart hes intelligent thats literally his thing and how he as a man earned his seat amongst a #league of gods. but he leads so much with his heart and that CHANCE of hope. even if it seems impossible or irrational to try - #if theres even a single possibility? hes going to try. that goes for rehabilitation and for saving people and gotham and 'hopeless' cases #hes always going to try. hes always going to have hope because its what keeps him alive and he cant deny helping others if theres a chance #hope can be such a dangerous thing. but the alternative is ever more so. #bruharvey #bruce wayne #batman #two face #harvey dent #crypt's panels #c: batman: two face strikes twice! | i: 2.2

[unopenablebox]

i had never bothered to like. check this before? or think about it very much? but i just bought & downloaded a book and read it in one sitting and happened to glance at the clock the second i finished, and i was like, oh, i could finally find out how long it takes me to read books by checking the download time

so i checked and it was almost exactly an hour start to finish, but like, it’s a YA/middle grade mystery novel, so you know, not totally surprising, but i thought i’d estimate the word count just to have a ballpark

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apparently it’s an 83000-word book and this means i read like 1400 words per minute which to my understanding is. uh. unusual amongst people not specially trained for it

for some reason this has distressed me intensely

#i knew i read unusually fast but i figured i wasn;t much faster than like other people i know who are voracious readers #such as 🌸 who periodically insists i read remarkably fast but i thought they were being self-deprecating as they often are #but apparently they were correct that i read 2-3x faster than them??? hate this #i'm actually not sure what to do with this information. i feel like i should be using it better somehow #im a genetic freak and im not normal and it doesn't benefit me at all because my job is not very reading-dependent #so all i do is miserably consume detective novels at a rate of like two per day. miserably because what if i run out of them. #then i'd probably die. #box opener #i'm like really disproportionately disturbed by this information #it feels.... bad to know.

[detectiveconnor]

the way human (2) has all these little flags of just. casually unhealthy but not destructive, just unhealthy, habits connor has picked up. they’re just things he throws in, passing thoughts that cross his mind and then he keeps going:

Briefly, Connor wished that it was colder.

passing things that are flags for people who know him well, but people don’t know him well, in that verse. not quite the beginning of a slippery slope because he doesn’t slip and doesn’t fall, but things he is aware are less healthy than they could be and things he thinks anyway.

human (2) connor breathing in the ways he is able to breathe. human (2) connor taking shortcuts to air which aren’t that safe, but they end up in air. human (2) connor balancing - and steady - there on that cusp of something, he’s steady (will not fall, is in no danger of going anywhere), but he keeps himself balanced just-so.

#about connor #anyway the point of this is someone be snappy/gruff with him or upfront about 'i saw you in the news you're short lol' or ask questions or- #he is so tired of people skirting around it or pretending it didn't happen or trying to tell him 'well *I'm* polite though' #has had enough of people not being Real with him #meet him in the real or don't waste his time. #(the way human (2) connor is sharper about wasted time than any other connor) #(the way human (2) connor is wary of how much more to the point he is. because he knows that can cut) #(when people are being hesitant because they are trying not to hurt themselves when they share.) #(connor is Never cruel. but you can watch human (2) connor take a break and recommit himself to Holding Space for people) #(in a way nobody has ever held space for him. because the truth is just the truth and they just do deserve the holding.) #human (2) connor consciously giving people room to breathe and consciously letting them heal and consciously Listening #he's so. it's so much who he is all the way down. and that he has to be wary (?) of the way being traumatised has hurt him #the fact maybe not 'has to be' but the fact that he is. the fact he Is cautious sometimes about the way he's quick to... #See Through people when being seen through is not what they need. people very often just need to be seen. #he very very often commits himself to Seeing. and it annoys him that his knee-jerk might not be that anymore #(he worries that it isn't) #(he is incorrect. it always has been. he has always knee-jerk tried to see and find people. Connor Is A Detective.) #v; truth is his true north (human 2)

[gibbearish]

idk if that makes sense. i am currently very high and when that happens i lose all frame of reference for how the way i say things translates to others so i just put down Exactly What I Mean and just hope for the best but if its phrased weird i apologize

#interacting with others is a delicate game of telepathy wherein i try to psychically detect if you understand #the things i say and do in the ways that i mean them #bc one of my core beliefs is kinda based on the way that colorblindness works #specifically in the context of all those posts that go around where people discover for the first time in their life that they might be #colorblind #because never before had they stopped to consider that what they considered blue was not the same as what everyone else considered blue #similarly i think on some level no two peoples brains work exactly the same #our understanding and use of words is built up on a series of guesses we've been making our entire lives #and generally this doesnt cause problems because while the perceptions might not be the same‚ the differences are too small to #actually cause problems #however if you have‚ say‚ a neurotype where one of the main effects is communication difficulties #and just general 'being normal' difficulties #then thats a problem you tend to encounter a lot! and then you become paranoid about it happening so you hyper overexplain #to give as many context clues as possible so that even if youre getting the words wrong‚ your meaning still comes across #lol