#i enjoy talking to people

[quibbs126]

You know, when I try to lie down and just relax, let my worries wash away…I can’t

I sit there and I try to, but then my brain goes, “Do your homework. Do that prescreening for class. Make your resume and apply for a job so that you can pay for your college tuition. Apply for scholarships so you don’t have to pay all that college money”, at least that’s what first comes to mind

And I look over at my roommate, and she’s typing away at her computer, looking through her online textbooks, applying herself and being productive. And here I am. Lying around in bed all day just watching videos on the internet or just thinking, barely ever being productive. I’m half surprised she isn’t sick of me knowing I’m so lazy. But then again, that’s not her problem

And also this entire week, the first week back at school, it hasn’t felt right, like, I don’t have something to agonize abut and feel guilt over. I mean I do have some, like the fact that I lied about not having to take 206 and 152 again this semester. I mean I didn’t lie completely, I did pass those classes, and I do have to take more Calculus and Physics after these two, but I didn’t get high enough grades to fulfill the requirements to go to those next ones, so I have to redo them. Or that I haven’t gotten my tuition this semester paid for, and it’s about the same amount as last time, and I don’t think I can get away with just asking for that extra money again, that’s why I need the job. But back to the idea of not having something to feel horrible about, I guess I was just so used to the feeling after last semester and last break, that it doesn’t feel right not having something, and maybe part of me not doing the things I need to is me trying to sabotage myself, giving myself something to agonize over and feel like garbage about so I feel normal

…What am I doing here? Not here writing this, I mean here at college. I have no true dreams or aspirations I came here to work for, I’m just here because you have to be at college after high school. But I can’t leave because I’ve already been wasting everyone’s time and money, but for it to be for absolutely nothing? I know I’ve already said this spiel before, but I guess it’s back

And I have solutions to these problems right in front of me, I’m just too lazy to do anything about them

*sigh* every day, it’s something to complain about, whether new or just repeated. And cry about because it’s started again

#sorry just thoughts #I feel like saying “I’m never happy” but that’s not really true #I’m happy when I play Cookie Run or am just enjoying a game #I enjoy talking to people #so it’s not that I’m never happy #but I just don’t really feel that great outside of those moments #I can never truly relax or just be #I don’t know #real life stuff #school stuff

[hannaxjo]

so i just started my first job, and it’s telemarketing. i have done it for one day, and my hatred for capitalism (which already was higher than average) just fucking doubled. because this is the most useless job made, and it exists purely because of capitalism. i work, because i need money, because that’s the only way you can survive in this shit ass world. but the whole thing is so fucking inhumane. for the seller and the customer. a society doesn’t need fucking telemarketing to exist. but because of this shitty ass system, we need money. i hate capitalism so much, and i hate this fucking job.

#capitalism #capitalism sux #i hate capitalism #telemarketing #job #first job #and it sucks #capitalist society #society #rant #capitalism rant #capitalism ruins everything #and like #i enjoy talking to people #but all these conversations are so fucking fake #and both sides just feel shit after it #if i get another job i’m so fucking out of here #text post #capitalism critique #every minute kills the last shreds of my mental health

[ink-mania]

The small freedom that comes with turning your discord status invisible. *chef's kiss*

#i enjoy talking to people #it's just that sometimes conversing can become draining #introvert that i am #sometimes i just need to recharge #knowing people can see me online makes me feel obligated to respond #is this just a me thing? #or can someone else relate? #inky rambles

[werewolf-transgenderism]

do you ever think about how a series of tiny choices like "I guess I'll watch that show" can like totally and entirely change huge aspects of your life

#miles existential hours #my friend Robin asking if I'd watched a tv show *butterfly flaps its wings* I'm doing emdr #also *butterfly flaps its wings* there's a whole set of new people who I care deeply about and enjoy talking to etc #emo hours because things are actually starting to look up a bit now #aaaaughhhfhghbhbh #🥲✌️❤️

[machinerot]

#my art #you know he was being a little shit #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #harrykim #disco elysium #disco elysium fanart #this is the first drawing ive managed to finish in over a year (we dont talk about the 3 million wips) #so thank you gay people for getting rid of my art block 🫶 i love you #i didnt use a reference though so apologies if the proportions look a bit wonky but GOD i had so much fun making this #ive missed Enjoying doing art. like actually enjoying the process and not just impatiently rushing for the finished piece #like maybe art IS fun.. #crazy. anyways #this sideblog is brand new so i doubt people will even see this but!! if you do then i should have some more DE art on the way :-)

[knifearo]

this year my challenge for everyone is to unlearn the association between love and morality. love is not something that is inherently morally good, and the absence of love is not something that is inherently bad. sex without love isn't morally bankrupt, it's just an action. people without love aren't less kind or less good, they're just people. when we can get past this false (and often unnoticed) dichotomy of good love/evil lovelessness then i think we are going to be able to take leaps and bounds in sex positivity, aro advocacy, certain discussions of mental health...

#and also. not the direct focus. but love doesn't make things good. you can be in love and do terrible terrible things. #people do bad things in the name of love and in despite of love all the time. #but!! imagine a world where people could exist as people and not be demonized. #sex positivity means being cool about All sex. reexamine your internal systems of moral judgement. #this goes for sex workers. for aroallo people. especially aroallo men. for aro people in general who might enjoy sex. #and frankly i think it can easily bleed into discussions about mental health disorders around 'not feeling' certain things #especially demonizing ppl who don't feel as much empathy. i think there's definitely a correlation between that and the emphasis on love. #our support needs to go out to Everybody and i think these things are all structured together in one way or another!! #it might not be immediately obvious but when i tell you it all leads back to amatonormativity..... little bit wild.... large bit wild.... #anyway. horror movie psychopath 'oh he can't feel emotions or love' damn alright. well. let's take a closer look at that. #silly that there's an association between lack of love and Murdering. feel like that might affect some stuff. #love is just an emotion/a feeling it doesn't mean anything about you one way or another #same with empathy. you can feel it all you want but it doesn't inherently change the actions you choose to take #anyway. thesis statement. there is a socially constructed link between love and morality. unlearn that. #kiss kiss (<— lovelessly) #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #talking #aroace #aspec #sex positivity

[ruporas]

asking and receiving (bonus below readmore)

[ID: A black and white, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood. In the first panel is a close up of Wolfwood's mouth as he says, "Vash". Accompanying it is a close up shot of Vash's eye, widen and cheeks flushed. Wolfwood presses a knee against the open space between Vash's legs and says, "Tell me everything you want from me." Wolfwood's face is equally as flushed. He continues to say, "I'll give it to you. Everything." As he talks, a wide shot shows the both of them in white space. Vash is sitting, leaning a little back with both hands pressed against the surface he's sitting on. Wolfwood is in his white dress shirt, stripped of the blazer. He's still leaning in with one knee in between Vash's spread legs, his right hand touching Vash's lips and his left hand behind his back.

The shot closes in on Vash's mouth and Wolfwood's hand against it, pressing down on the lower lip as he says, "You have to ask though. Go on." His hand moves down to Vash's chin, gently holding it. With a shy and uncertain expression, Vash hesitantly asks, "Um... K... Kiss... Please?" Wolfwood, without wasting a second, leans in and kisses him and indulges by pressing deeper, eliciting a small noise of surprise from Vash.

Wolfwood moves away from Vash first and with a smile, asks, "What else?" Vash tugs on Wolfwood's left sleeve, wordlessly budging Wolfwood to give him his hand that was still behind his back. In the next panel, Vash utters, "Hold me..?" He's holding Wolfwood's left hand with his own while his right hand is reaching for his waist. Wolfwood complies, moving his left hand to Vash's shoulder and his right hand continues to touch Vash's cheek. Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

More comfortable now, Vash leans in to kiss Wolfwood. Wolfwood catches him immediately, pressing his thumb against Vash's lips to stop him before demanding, "Hey. Ask." Vash looks back in surprise and Wolfwood meets his eye with a quiet, insistent look. They're quiet for a moment before Vash leans in again and curtly requests, "Kiss. Me." Wolfwood says "Good", smiling as he lifts his hand away, and meets Vash's lips. In the next shot, Wolfwood had adjusted his position, sitting on Vash's thigh. The hand that was once on Vash's cheek has moved its way to Vash's nape, pushing away the collar of his jacket with his pinky. His other hand continues to grip on Vash's shoulder. Still kissing, Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

In the next shot, Vash is starting to turn, moving Wolfwood with him. Vash asks, "Let me on top of you?" Wolfwood says, "Mhm" before asking again, "What else?" The next panel shows a close look of Vash's face. He's looking down, flushed and shy just as he had been at the beginning, but now, more decisive. Vash asks, "Wolfwood... Let me have you..?" A panel of Wolfwood taking Vash's hand into his, pulling it towards his chest. The next panel shows Wolfwood lying down where Vash had laid him. Vash's hand is on Wolfwood's chest, covering the cross of his rosary while Wolfwood's hand lingers against his, loosely pressing Vash's hand in place. He looks up at Vash with a shy smile of his own, flushed cheeks. He says, "All yours."

A panel shows a close up of Vash's tender gaze before he leans down to be closer to Wolfwood. The final shot is a front view of their positions, Vash's face turned away from the viewer; Vash is leaning over Wolfwood who's lying down with his right leg draped over Vash's legs. Wolfwood's left hand holds onto Vash's left arm. With finality, Vash says, "...Mine." End ID]

[ID: A follow up bonus comic in a looser, sketchier style. They're laying comfortably in bed when Vash asks, "What was that earlier?" referecing to the start of the previous comic. Wolfwood glances away and says, "To get you used to it. Asking. And getting what you ask for. Since you're alwasy hesitant about it." Vash's eyes widen, tight lipped. Wolfwood continues, "Knowing you, it'll be a tough habit to break..." When he says this, Vash can't help but laugh, unable to deny it. Wolfwood slowly brings a hand to Vash's cheek and continues to say, "So I'll keep trying -- whatever ways I can... to get it through your thick skull." Vash takes Wolfwood's hand with his, kissing the the palm gently. Wolfwood's eyes soften and holding onto Vash's cheek, he leans in to try for a kiss. Vash says, "Hey..." before stopping Wolfwood's lips with the back of his hand, a smug look on his face, "Ask." Wolfwood's embarrassed and with little irritation, asks, "Really?" Vash smiles, saying, "You're in need of practice too." They pause for a moment, Wolfwood looking contemplatively, before he's leaning in again, asking, "May I please kiss you?" Vash looks him in the eyes and says, "Yes." The comic ends with a "chu", indicating an off-panel kiss. End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #it took me so long to post this even after getting clarification about the maturity warning and stuff #bc i am so shy about it. SDGMKDSGMKSD I LIKE THIS COMIC BUT IM ALSO SO LIKE... AUGHHHH.... #when i posted this on twitter though it was like... a few days after ep 11? ive always had the thought circling about vash deserving of #asking for things... and getting what he wants bc he never gets both. doesn't get the opportunity to ask and hardly does he get what he want #maybe the results can go in his favor but at some point along the way he'll still lose something bc nothing can ever go perfectly for him... #and he's usually the one begging and pleading with people to not. do something. it's not even asking at that point it's just straight up #please believe me. please trust me. please don't shoot that person. please don't kill anyone. please don't do it. #and wolfwood.... it was not always this lovey dovey ok. he wouldv noticed this habit miles away and they got into a fight about it the first #time they talked about it bc wolfwood is being hypocritical too. as he always is!!!! but i think as they get more intimate #wolfwood finds ways to make vash understand. smth smth insatiable want and love and desire for wolfwood that makes it much easier to ask. #wolfwood can also just be so compliant. sometimes. which is also an issue in of itself that id love to explore at some point #but he also just enjoys giving into vash fully and completely. #bc he loves him a lot. but anyway #i hope the id is comprehendible.... please lmk if there's something wrong with how im doing it asfdgkdsmgs #ruporas art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Welcome to the Dungeons of Fear and Hunger.

#Fear and Hunger #D'arce Cataliss #Cahara #Ragnvaldr #Enki Ankarian #Unlike Dungeon Meshi - I cannot in good faith recommend this game to a broad audience. #My background with F&H goes as follows: I am hanging out with a friend. He says “hey try this game I've been playing.” I say “Okay!” #I have never heard of this game. I pick the mercenary. I go through 5 min of character history and background. I am mauled to death by dogs #It took me 4 resets to even get in the dungeon. But I finally get there. I am caught by a guard. He cuts off all but one of my limbs #I am forced to crawl around in a blood and corpse pit until the game tells me 'give up idiot'. #I reset. I am mauled by dogs again. I realize this is not for me but I am intrigued enough to go home and watch some playthroughs #And WOW what an interesting game it is! I really do appreciate games that blend their design philosophy with the theme it wants to set #This is a game about fear and hunger. And persevering. And penis (my god is there a lot of penis) #I recommend this to people who like extremely challenging games and can handle the many *content warnings* within this series #If the idea of Bloodborne/eldenring and undertale having a little RPG maker baby sounds appealing to you - give it a shot #It's made by ONE GUY and it's a great horror game. I am just really bad at it. #My friends just enjoy putting me in situations where I scream and yell. We don't talk about the corn mazes. Or the other horror game nights #Apparently I'm funny when I'm Scared! #As people who follow me on twitter might know; I am deep in the pits of this series right now. I will be back with more art.

[spooksier]

thinking about jon jarchivist sims as i often do and one aspect of s5 jon that i LOVE but dont see too many people talking about is how shot to hell his morals get (due to him being the Literal Antichrist) but he still remains a character very very driven by his morals. which surely won't cause any issues at all.

like he asks other people what *they think* he should do so often or just does what *he thinks* is right because he's running off avatar morality which is basically 'fuck it, we ball' and jon wants to be a good person SOO BAD but he's LITERALLY THE ANTICHRIST!!! you guys....

^ this guy is fucked in the head

#text! #tma #jon ily forever and always #my favorite jon traits that aren't talked about a lot: this and how much he enjoys being able to hurt people who've hurt him #he's an avenging angel and he's going to beat your ass to death <3 #'i helped you' GO TO A THERAPIST NOW!!!!!!!

[a2zillustration]

Buddy we literally JUST read a scroll about hubris AND you were just inspired about something called "Don't let history repeat itself," that 10 wis stat is really coming through.

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#ahhhh that insecurity is showing again croissant :) #I do enjoy reading people talk about the patience tav has to have with Gale as he keeps backsliding #meanwhile over here it's more like 'yeah of course the ambitious guy with the prestigious background was eventually going to abandon you' #I am once again making a long form comic for the other big romance scene and I am rubbing my little goblin hands together about it #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #act III spoilers #croissant adventures #tav #gale #gale x tav #comics #WAIT I ALSO WANTED TO SAY #/LOVE/ HOW GALE CONSISTENTLY THROWS IN “FOR BOTH OF US” AS AN AFTERTHOUGHT #GOOD WRITING #breadweave #gale dekarios

[captaindamianos]

#captive prince #lamen #my art #laurent of vere #damianos of akielos #captive prince fanart #artists on tumblr #damen of akielos #damen x laurent #since i said i would post :') #endless thanks to B who talked me through a lot of hangups i had about posting art again #and made me realize i was viewing it from the wrong perspective #and thank you to everyone sticking around and to the people who keep liking and reblogging some of my art #it means a lot to me that there are people who enjoy what i'm doing

[notthesaint]

I took a break

I wanted to make hornet more realistic, but I wanted to keep the canon design :)

#my art #I heard that many people in my notes enjoyed my new art style :) #so i decided to use this art style often because i also fell inlove with this #i didn't communicated anyone that much in the past days since i am quite really busy #but HOLIDAYS IS HERE YIPPPEEEEE AND I AM FINISHED WITH SCHOOLWORK #hollow knight #hollow knight art #hollow knight fanart #silksong #silksong fanart #hornet #hk hornet #hollow knight hornet #silksong hornet #i didn't drew anything and talked to people in here before that much due to stress and conflict but i am alright

[phoenixyfriend]

something something one of those those "Jango falls for Courtesan/Stripper/NightclubSinger/TrophyWife!Obi-Wan" AUs...

But instead Obi-Wan actually being a sex worker, he's undercover and still a Jedi, and either:

They split ways and run into each other a few months later with Obi-Wan in full Prude Beige Knight mode OR

The situation goes pear-shaped while they're still flirting and Obi-Wan has to break cover to grab a senator and jump out a window and suddenly this half-dressed glittery Person is batting away shots with a lightsaber and there's a bratty twelve-year-old who ALSO has a lightsaber threatening people with I Will Eat Your Liver if they keep staring at his dad's ass just because the sequined sheathe dress tore in a sexy place

#jangobi #jango fett #obi wan kenobi #anakin skywalker #star wars #phoenix talks #undercover au #undercover as sex worker #to be clear: I do enjoy sex worker AUs both as a form of entertainment and in their surprising weight in normalization of sex work #they've done an unprecedented amount of work humanizing the profession #for sheltered young people who might have otherwise needed a lot longer to get over their prejudices #and while in my case I started on that path of Recognizing People As People through reading firsthand accounts by sex workers online #the impact that sex worker AUs have had on that whole situation is not to be dismissed #but also they're just fun to read? they're entertaining in the way any profession-based AU can be #I'm just as eager to read a sex work AU as I am to read a senator AU or racer au or college professor au etc #...anyway I just realized that the original post could theoretically be read as 'sex worker AUs bad' and I don't want anyone to think that

[corxoran]

haunted

#asoryuu #asogi kazuma #asougi kazuma #kazuma asogi #kazuma asougi #naruhodo ryunosuke #naruhodou ryuunosuke #ryunosuke naruhodo #ryuunosuke naruhodou #cork art #don’t ask what this is supposed to be #idk #i personally like to see this as a kazuma md two different people au #masked disciple #masked apprentice #both kazuma and md would be in love with ryu obv #kazuma looks away for one minute and that weirdo is talking to his best friend again #enjoy #^^ #“the long weekend is over so i'm gonna take a break from drawing” i'm a dirty fucking liar #i couldn't NOT draw this

[littler0b1n]

This came to me in a vision at 11pm one night

#when I was drawing this all I was thinking was #the gay people on tumblr will love this #lol anyways #prismo the wishmaster #fionna and cake #adventure time #art #my art :d #prohibitedwish #comic #this was done on my new tablet if you guys even care lol #it’s good btw #if you care :) #ok I’ll stop talking now lol #enjoy your silly comic #scarab #scarab the god auditor

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

you know, as an asexual who still enjoys viewing sexual content in like books fanfiction and films and things, it's all fun and games until I remember that people actually DO THOSE THINGS?? LIKE IN REAL LIFE?? REGULARLY??🧍🏻‍♂️like WHAT DO YOU MEAN SEX ISNT A FANFICTION TROPE??? 😭 crazy out here man

#i genuienly forget sex is like #a super duper important part of life to majority of the population #like what are you talking about #what do you mean #stahp #what do you mean people look at me weirdly when i say me and my fiance do not in fact have sex?!?!? #what do you mean that would be a deal breaker for you!??!?!?!! #what do you mean you actually go out and DO THESE THINGS IN REAL LIFE?!??!?!?!? #anywayz hope yall allosexuals are having fun i forget youre real <3 #this is a light hearted post woo sex liberation woo yall are allowed to enjoy sex 🥳 #and im allowed to enjoy sex by convincing myself its only inaginary <3 #lmao #asexual #fanfiction #asexuality