#i hate how much detail i put into this

[artheresy]

I can’t stay quiet about this, I need to scream it to SOMEBODY ANYBODYYY

Dan Heng and Blade were Dan Feng and Yingxing. “Dh and Bld are Df and Yx!” Nope, their current selves aren’t them, that lacks nuance. “Dh and Bld aren’t Df and Yx!” THAT ALSO LACKS NUANCEE they are still connected and fundamentally shaped by their past identities, they aren’t entirely separate from them while also still being separate in a way. The best way I can describe it is like a venn diagram, there is overlap, but there also are still areas where they don’t.

To expand more, I wanna talk about the way they foil each other a bit in this sense. For Dan Heng, even if he is a botched rebirth, simply a “de-aged Dan Feng” not fully reborn, he is still not Dan Feng. While Dan Feng has made up the basis of his personality and he accepts him as his past, I think we forget that Dan Heng had his own entire childhood after the molting rebirth was completed. One he spent imprisoned by the Ten Lords Commission, and then he was exiled when he was old enough leading to his whole journey until he became apart of the Astral Express crew etc etc. Dan Heng is made up of a basis of Dan Feng + All of his own memories and experiences. While he shares traits with Dan Feng such as personality aspects like his stubbornness, his technique with a spear, and being able to connect with his old items, he also is very much himself with his own outlook and traits shaped by what he’s learned rather than what he has been born with. To treat him as if he is Dan Feng exactly is a disservice to both of their characters and the greater narrative that they apart of. He may still carry the burdens and karma of Dan Feng, but Dan Heng is still making his own future.

Now, Blade. Blade similarly is not Yingxing, not completely. Though he accepts Yingxing’s sin as his own and is intent of repaying the sin of Dan Feng and Yingxing (and getting Dan Heng to repay it too), there still are distinctions between him and Yingxing. In fact, I’d argue there are more things separating them. I could talk for so long again about the layered use of craftsmanship to connect, or rather disconnect, the two identities of Blade and Yingxing, but there’s more than that. “Now, ██ had died. His first — and only — death.” “From this moment on, that body will be the one and only "Blade."” Although Blade was Yingxing, a disconnect exists between them through the death of Yingxing. He awoke with no memories of his past, no even his name, until Jingliu came along, instilled in him her ideologies, made him remember, not only his past sins but the feeling of death so that he might inflict it onto others. As she said, he was reborn and had even given himself a name…

I want to add that the specific ways in which their current identities exist in proximity to their past ones foil each other. As I said, Dan Heng, in part as his sabotaged rebirth, is built upon the foundation of Dan Feng and all of his own experiences and memories. He has the capacity to gain back more memories of Dan Feng as his DH IL character stories outline, and though he is still himself and still moves forward, we see him accept his relation to Dan Feng eventually. Though that past life of his is clouded by fog and mist, he may eventually be able to push away the clouds that block him and understand more, about Dan Feng and in turn about himself. With Blade, it is so heavily emphasized in game from his relic lore to the very sword he uses that his mind is essentially broken, due both in part to the trauma of Jingliu’s “teachings” and the mara that was brought on by those lessons. He can’t fully remember everything about Yingxing, in fact actively remembering such or seeing familiar things is harmful to him. Like his shard sword, he is made of broken pieces, put together in a way that can never erase the cracks, and continuously shattering before being glued together again. His life is shaped by Yingxing’s past, the trauma he has endured is directly caused by his past actions. Unlike Dan Heng, he hasn’t had this whole life to build up and live. Though he’s experienced new things, they don’t shape him and change him in the way that Dan Heng’s built his identity up.

Where Dan Heng basically has supplements to Dan Feng’s identity that make him who he is, Blade is the broken shards and pieces of Yingxing that weren’t lost to the waves, making him who he is. Dan Heng is a next chance, finally free from the Preceptors’ control and of the role that stripped his past selves of their individuality, meanwhile Blade is the husk left behind of Yingxing’s regrets, broken by trauma caused due to Yingxing’s past actions, forever tormented by his past until he inevitably is able to die. If Dan Heng is more than just Dan Feng which is why he is separate but intertwined with him, than Blade is less than Yingxing, in a way that has caused such a severe disconnect that has caused Blade to have his own identity still shaped. And looking at this, not to again bring up my craftsmanship post about Blade, Dan Heng can connect to Dan Feng. He can clear the fog, remembering his memories through dreams even if he can’t fully connect emotionally to him, and he finds sentiment in many of items that once were his, smth not many Vidyadhara actually are capable of doing. To contrast, Blade is forever separated from connecting completely to Yingxing’s identity. His memories will always be fragmented, his own path entirely changed. He can’t connect to Yingxing’s past goals and passions, seen through the distinct decision made in his character stories to talk about how he can no longer use his hands to forge weapons (something that completely defined Yingxing’s life and legacy, tied to his childhood trauma and hatred of the Abundance, something that became his genuine passion), and how none of that mattered to Blade.

All of this, the ways they foil each other and the separation between their past selves and current, just makes me love their dynamic and their lore a lot. Makes me want to cry most days of my life if I’m honest. And it’s part of why I do take issue with the way nuance has completely left this argument, only having two extremes of “Dan Heng is Dan Feng!” Or “Dan Heng isn’t Dan Heng!” Again… Dan Heng WAS Dan Feng, he wouldn’t be Dan Heng without Dan Feng, but he is still himself. That’s part of the tragedy between them. They are still fundamentally defined and shaped by their past selves, similarities able to be spotted if they can be remembered, but they’ve also experienced so much that has changed them, and they can never truly go back to being Dan Feng and Yingxing. It would never be fully the same again.

#okay rant over #ahahahha #i hate seeing arguments about them #especially on tiktok this is unfortunately where i see the most nuance lost #i just needsd to rant #especially once my brain finally clicked how they foil each other in yet another element #that being ofc the supplement vs fragment style with their past selves #they make me insane #i hate them sm #(i love them way too much #they make me SICK #even if hyv has fucked up a bit in the actual quest writing at times #the sheer level of detail and care put into dan heng and blade’s lore is RAAAHH #i am having allergies #my leg pain is still awful today #and think about these two is only making my health worse HELP #hsr #honkai star rail #hsr blade #yingxing #dan heng #dan feng #renheng #hengren #xingyue #fengxing #I wrote this last night at 1 am but held off posting it until now o7

[ashironie]

i hc that the Usher Foundation (that was in Washington, DC, probably for the sole fact that’s the capital) is now somewhere in Ohio.

#tmagp #the magnus protocol #tma #the magnus archives #The Usher Foundation #i’ve never agreed with the choice to put that in DC #like it doesn’t make sense on so many levels #socially geographically paranormally #im convinced jonny was just like ‘ah perfect. the magnus institute is in london so i’ll just make the american version in THEIR capital!’ #‘this decision makes so much sense and will not piss of a very specific and random american to no end’ #probably gonna make a post soon detailing just how much i hate the usher foundation being in DC

[mayordoi]

hold my hand even if i cry

#mayor doidles #fanart #vocaloid #vocal synth #ghost #ghost and pals #kevin synthv #?????? whatever #digital art #painting #i need to do more digital paintings cuz i always like how the colors look on them but i hate doing it with really detailed character designs #but anyway yeah i love this song so much. it reminds me a lot of my oc xane and its pretty much his theme song in my brain #to the point where i hc his singing voice to be/sound like kevin… yeah #i finished this very fucking quickly?? like after i finished the last robin drawing #i went out to dinner w my pals and after we came back i spent like a few hours hacking away at this #and then it was done. crazy #*actually more like one hour according to the stats…. wow im getting faster #i always think painting is one of my more tedious and slow processes but its really not #especially with my refusal to render detailed characters. LOL #anyway maybe i could have put that in the post #but then i couldn’t have the aesthetic song lyric caption!! :( #art #artists on tumblr

[mishy-mashy]

WE GOT EN'S FULL NAME AND VIGILANTE/HERO NAME!!!! YEAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!

#FINALLY #EVEN A NEW PANEL OF HOW AFO SEES HIM #hey AFO.... can you share more about the past users? youre the only one who remembers their details anymore #you hated kudo so much you wiped out the women and children he was close to and any relatives so #you probably know a megaton about kudo especially right? #please oh please with yoichis hand on top #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #spoilers #banjo daigoro #lariat #EN TAYUTAI #GAEN #THATS CUTE #EN PUT HIS REAL NAME AS A PART OF HIS ALIAS #my boy did the equivalent of “En123” for his name #I WANT TO HOLD HIM UNDER HIS PITS AND SHAKE HIM AROUND LIKE THE SHORTIE HE ISSS #BABBBYYYY #SO CUTEEE #en tayutai #the name tayutai just reminds me of the guy in fairy tail who goes “tai tai!” and hes got a stupid looking face #no thoughts head empty #oh en thats ADORABLE. #edit: if this is when enemies were assigning aliases to their enemies #then what if someone just when “gaki en” (“brat en”) and combined that #because yeah en is a brat. look how young he is #idk the writing for this in japanese but. what if

[basofy]

rambling time

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ive encountered many points of view that imply that the player's feelings over the garth jack scene do not matter, but i can't distract my brain from the possibility that yes, it does

one of these that haunt me severely and i made a doodle reminiscent of this is, the fact that brad does not get to know of this happening. he only checks the mags after but we don't know his impression of them, he might've not thought much about them. this is between garth, jack, and the only other person watching (the player)

the fact that there isn't any mention of the events of this scene after this. this is what initially infuriated me, i didnt know if the intention was to make it matter to us or not, it felt like not. there's no more mention of it, no changes to the characters save for, maybe, your perception of them after this. but that's the thing, and maybe, leaving some stuff up to you is the way to make it connect with you, (this takes me back to there being so much about lisa that was either unexplained or not too developed, and how this served as a way for fans to connect with her more). rather than it being the game distancing from you it's putting this scene in your hands as in 'here, i trust you with this'. it's not going to tell you to care, it's trusting that you will

i keep thinking about how one of the motivating factors for the definitive edition were lisa and buddy, for austin realized the fandom was unsatisfied with how their characters were handled, and he himself admitted to not be proud either. so he knew how much these 2 girls and their circumstances mattered to lisa fans, and a big part of the new content went into humanizing them (better done wit lisa than buddy imo but anyway) part of it also went into expanding brad's character more as well. so i'm thinking, if with this scene austin decided to create another victim, it feels like he's handling us this scene and trusting us with it

that and his words about finding something worthwhile in all the tragedy. finding something worth pointing out, worth caring about in a very uncomfortable 3 minutes scene that's got no more mention of it after it happens.

if this doesnt end up being the case, and he wrote it very carelessly, well it ends up being hilarious that the scene turned out deep on accident. but i've talked about it with friends multiple times, and some of them have commented on the way it's written, it being 'carefully crafted' and after finding the other stuff in the games (stuff that's always been there) that ties perfectly to this interaction i can't get the thought out of my mind that this thang can't be just a joke, that the player is supposed to care at least a little

#i didnt intend for this to be long #its 2 am augggggagaaaa dont pay me too much attnetion #if u need my posts abt this ting tagged pls tell me i just love talking #lisa ramblings #this was going to be a draft but uhhh no post it miguel whatever #going back to point of the post buuuut well i mean its lisa #it's the game about how memories and abuse haunt you your whole life and etc etc #so why not #years ago i noticed jack's most hated thing when i'd see ppl on the wiki putting him in the same place as the grown ass adults #that were going after buddy and i thought #this is a kid whos possibly been wrongly influenced and wants closure of sorts #and then this scene happened and AUUUUUUGGH #i swear i noticed that little detail at like the third day of this thing existing

[talentforlying]

one of these days i'm going to write up all that i've changed from azzarello's bullshit era and the one (1) piece i've kept from milligan (and also changed) and the only thing currently stopping me is that it is going to be so, so inside-baseball incomprehensible. and i almost never want to go reading/screencapping azzarello and milligan to add references but i Want to add references.

canon is goop, just know that we continue to ride the bus down "hellblazer ended at #250 and looks like swiss cheese before that" street.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #i'm doing page maintenance before i fuck off to work rip it's got me thinking #anyway i think i said WAY back on this blog that a side goal of mine is to make hellblazer lore accessible to non-comic readers where i can #bc it's such a Heavy comic & i love it so much & i always felt Terrible recommending it to people only for them to be disgusted #and like. @ past me that particular goal is NOT as easy as you thought it would be lmao #esp because i have a habit of getting VERY detail-oriented when it comes to talking about hellblazer i think #but by GOD it's still a goal. i can put in some motherfucking references here and there when i talk about The Lore #like. azzarello's writing style never translates well for me in synopsis bc he Loves to put the audience in the outside perspective #where we are bystanders/with the rest of the bystanders to constantine's actions and not to his motivations/inner monologue #and i HATE that. hellblazer has ALWAYS been about what this guy has going on underneath the masked exterior #all the things you can't say out loud when you're queer and working class trying to survive in 70s-80s-90s england #but that you FEEL with your WHOLE fucking chest. how that feeling drives you to enjoy little rebellions wherever you can get them #(also azzarello just fucking Sucks LMAO but i'm talking style rn) #so i end up relying on frusin's art to tell the story a little more bc i think he understands the Theatre of constantine's public persona #and when that theatre is Absent then it's really REALLY noticeable. so frusin keeps me in it most of the time #and if i'm digging into frusin art then i'm Going to want to compare it to older panels bc i like body language consistency #milligan on the other hand has NOTHING to save his sorry ass bc his writing is drop-jaw fucking terrible AND the artist seems to like it #but the loss of john's thumb being tied to his mental health (ignoring the bullshit with shade) has always felt. important to me somehow id #anyway MUCH thinking about my favorite loser on this about-to-be-annoying day shdjksd he has been done so dirty #hellblazer brain go brrrr

[lovsome]

am i so hard to care about?

#i need to vent and i know u guys cant stand me because i can feel it (and certainly from the anon hate) but i think im gonna have an ulcer #if i dont put this out somewhere #SH s*icide tw !!!!! #i need some advice or opinions because i feel like im losing it #i dont understand why my friends cant care about me #i know !!! i know i seem out of touch and insane because i say this so often and the question to someone reading would come natural: maybe #it is just ur perception…. maybe u suck ass as a friend too #and i do ponder about that!!!!!! i take those possibilities into consideration i do. and i genuinely dont think i suck as a friend. i always #check in. if they seem off i ask how they feel. i ask updates on their stuff. i dont think i deserve this tbh #but especially when i am struggling they just disappear #like even when i reach out and let them know im doing bad. they clearly read my measages and choose to ignore them #these are supposed to be my best friends #these days ive been so bad. and trigger warning again #i just feel so suicidal and i have been hurting myself in the desperate attempt to cope and manage these thoughts #and i dont tell them these things #i dont share the details because 1) it is too much to dump on someone and 2) they dont show any interest even on the surface level of my #problems so i just wouldnt tell them the deeper issues #i am just in so much pain. and i also feel a lot of anger because of their behavior. i feel so so hurt by it. so many years of this going on #of them just not even acknowledging my struggles while i was in the midst of them and trying still to support them and be there for e #whatever they had going on. and getting nothing in return #i hate that i feel so angry but i do. and ive been swallowing this anger and pain for so long i feel it eating my insides #even my therapist doesnt understand why i am friends with people that dont care about me #i dont know what i should do #i want to say something #actually i already talked about this to one of them one year ago exactly and i told her all these things and she just said she didnt know #why i was ignored. and then still kept being a part of it #the thing is i am so upset and my mental health is so so so bad. i am supposed to spend new years eve with them in two days but i dont know #how i can do that feeling like this #but if i speak to them about it i think it will also ruin the mood #if someone has any thoughts or advice it would be very welcome….

[skeletalheartattack]

theres another member of zarbons species in the moro arc of dragon ball super! he transforms into a differentmonster form than zarbon

Yuzun! i know him! or well, i kinda know him. i'm not really caught up or invested in anything Dragon Ball related beyond Buu Saga, but i've learned somewhat about him.

i think he's pretty neat! and i'm really happy they expanded Zarbons race just a little bit with Yuzun. though you hate to hear how he went out... there's no peace for my mans race. i hate this solar system. fuuuck.

#ask #shelbybunny #i like his design :) although its really hard to top zarbon's.............. <- sorry just those combinations of words turned off his brain. #understand okay? #i think his monster form is cool! idk if id be as weird about his monster form as i am with Zarbons :) but i like him #i dont know if Super would have this part in the anime... idk anything about super... but i imagine Yuzun having a surfer dudes voice #kinda like yajirobe's voice yknow #atleast that was always my first impression. though i guess i could see a similar regal voice coming from him #though ogh those wrist bands. i dont think anything for me could top Zarbons arm warmers #Zarbons arm warmers have always stuck out in my brain as like one of my favourite details. #literally would love to have some like... thick pink nylon arm warmers. thats how ive always imagined Zarbons to be #or a fabric similar to nylon. that smooth soft fabric yknow. that good shit. #i think if i wore those my brain would turn off because id be stimming those shits. #anyway :) yuzuns really neat. continuously happy knowing theres more of his race than just Zarbon #fuck frieza girlies. there'd be so much more of Zarbons race if it werent for that bitch bastard. #i'll never get behind the frieza zarbon dynamic. ive always kinda seen zarbon as being afraid of frieza #like its more obvious near his last few episodes in the show but. ugh man. #i believe what zarbon said in his final moments of saying he'd turn to vegetas side and go against frieza. #then that little bitch put a hole in him. horrible horrible. hate on planet namek. #anyway! thank you for the ask :) i appreciate getting to talk about Yuzun a little bit

[puppyeared]

I hate drawing eyewssssss

#hating my art style again tonightttt #every time I try to draw the lower lid it looks like an eyebag. Even if I draw it thinner it feels so off to me #and the eye shape bothers me. either it’s too big and it takes up too much space or it’s too small and it feels off #EVERYTHINGG feels off #I hate drawing the dip where the Chin and eyebrow are on 3/4 shots. I hate Mapping out the skull and head shape #I jst need to complain. I’ll look at more references tmrw now that the self loathing and self consciousness is mostly out of the way #maybe it’s my body telling me I’m tired and it can’t draw properly. or I don’t have the energy to like the way I draw rn #I hate eyes I hate hate hate hate drawing the pupil and deciding how to make it look normal cause all I do it draw a circle and call it a #day. I should put more Detail but when I try it’s so distracting… UGHHHHGGHHHB #EYES MY BELOATHED #they’re the whole reason I change my art style alllll the time. I can’t find a good way to draw em #ok reference time #yapping #Personal

[alagaisia]

I’m reminded of that post about how goths and people who wear only lots of pink are actually the same because “wearing only one color” is a specific choice in opposition to just looking Normal

I’m flying to a friend’s wedding today, and I recently acquired from my neighborhood free page a very pretty vintage suitcase in like a brocade upholstery texture in all of my good colors, so of course I needed a coordinated airport outfit à la Midge Maisel. You guys don’t know me, but I usually dress very put together, in what my sister calls Outfits, with a capital O to distinguish it from just wearing clothes. And since getting a full time job I’ve been slowly adding to my collection of vintage and 50’s-vibes clothes, because I just really like that aesthetic (my bridesmaid dress for the wedding is a vintage tea dress I got from Etsy. The fabric is in great condition but I had to reinforce pretty much every seam with my sewing machine, because the structural integrity of the original thread was breaking down, so that was an interesting learning experience).

All of which is to say that I Dressed Up for the airport in a vintage-y outfit that coordinates perfectly with some of the colors of my suitcase, and my hair is curled, and I have a vintage leather purse that my grandma gave me that matches her watch that I’m wearing and the shoes she bought me last summer at the same vintage store that my skirt came from, and a teenage-ish girl with whatever you call the 2023 teenage equivalent of emo/punk vibes, like the dark maroon mullet and not a lot of makeup and dark comfy clothes but like, very on purpose, told me I look cool when I walked past on the way to security

And like, she Gets It! We have different fashion goals but I think we put a similar degree of intention into the way we look compared to just wearing regular clothes. Which is cool! It’s validating. Not that I really need validation, but it’s always nice to get compliments, of course. And the way I dress is really not terribly distinctive most of the time, other than being Outfits and a little dressier than maybe the norm is, like I think most people who see me one time in passing would see that I look Nice but not necessarily see it as a cultivated Look. But punk mullet girl gets it.

#struggled with not sounding *too* pretentious here #I don’t feel pretentious but I have a hard time talking about like. specific choices and things in any detail #like to my friends I just said what happened with a picture of my outfit and was like ‘and she gets it!’ and they were like ‘yeah!’ #but to strangers I have to go into much more detail to get the point across #even though really it’s not like I’m putting all of that into it every day I just get up and go ‘i want to look nice today’ #in accordance with my personal fashion preferences #and then having to explain those preferences like ‘my name is alagaisia midge maisel darkness way and I’m wearing vintage whatever’ #i do look so cute though #i got these shoes last summer and then lost the heel cap off of one of them the very first time i wore them #finally took them in to have them fixed last week so I could wear them to the wedding #needed a deadline so that I would actually get around to it #i hate flying it’s really a testament of how much I love my friend that I’m flying #instead of driving ten hours to Nebraska #but it made more sense and to make sure i won’t be late or run into car trouble or anything #and I’ll stay looking nice right away instead of getting gross and sweaty in the car or having to change for bachelorette activities #i only know the bride so I’m definitely going to make a very specific impression on all of these strangers lol #i joked with my dad about adopting a trans Atlantic accent for the whole weekend just for shits and giggles #turns out you cannot do it over the top. have you ever listened to JFK’s ‘we choose to go to the moon’ speech #it’s very silly sounding #we had a good time saying things one might say at a bachelorette party in a goofy voice #‘we cho~ose to ohdah thihs maiule strippah… ahnd the othah things.. nawt becahse it is easyh.. #but becawhse he is hahd’ #highly recommend #mine #personal

[steampunk-raven]

whoever made the artistic decision to have one frame (with a bit of tweening) last for like 4 lines I’m in love with you. by the way.

#this is for the stray gods thing lol #it’s been going well!!! I just hate how detailed I have made the backgrounds lol #since i’m redrawing it to be that street in bassuras but there’s this one shot that lingers for a while on the sky so I had to fuck around #with clouds for like 3 hours. do you know how much I hate backgrounds #I’ve gotten to the part of the song where I lasso fill random colors then add a pink glow dodge gradient and call it a day which is good #almost a minute and a half in!!! #there’s two frames that I’ve been putting off lol because the perspective is funky and it looks daunting lol but we’re ignoring that lol #art ramblings

[demonsfate]

i forget that i'm too autistic for reddit until i post on it again.

#✏️ - ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏsᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ // (ooc) #// I SSDFGDJFGNDF I JUST CANNOT GET ALONG WITH THE TEK FANDOM THERE NO MATTER HOW I TRY - #// like i pointed out about jin's tek7 outfit in tek8 and how low poly it was #// and how YES - regardless if you see it as a bad or good thing - it IS lazy #// and of course ppl pointed out my infodumping and took it as me 'raging' #// even tho i just thought pointing out the texture details was a genuinely interesting thing #// and it's like bros... it's ok to say you're a lil disappointed in something even if it's a small detail #// like that doesn't equate to you saying the game it ruined or condemning the devs or saying you can't play it bc of a small flaw #// i hate that 'infodumping' is always equated to 'caring about something too much' or 'not having a life' or 'being angry' #// it's like... sorry that i notice things and wanna point them out #// and LIKE... these posts only take MINUTES of my 14+ hour day that i'm awake #// how is that... not having a life or being sad LMAO #// tho really i do put some fault on me for continuing to argue with some ppl in the comments - should've let it be LOL #// oh well at least i didn't call 'em fucked in the head like i got called JDSFDFJFG

[somelazyassartist]

There is. A reason I like to live in the middle of nowhere surrounded by a bunch of farms and cornfields. The city is terrifying what the fuck is happening

#my mom wanted to take me clothes shopping since she's got a bit of extra cash rn and most of the clothes i have are all hand-me-downs #we didn't end up doing much today though because the mall we were in??? got put on lockdown????? #i don't know a ton of details cuz they were getting ready to shut things down as we were already leaving but. what the fuck #the city is so scary how does anyone live here???? #yeah we kinda hurried out of there as soon as we heard sirens and shit. hate the city i miss my cornfields already

[confinesofmy]

is it okay to tell someone you don't want to be around their stupid boyfriend.

like, when you're hanging out and about to go somewhere and she says "oh my god, i could invite my rancid boyfriend!" because she's obsessed with him, he's like her jungkook, etc is it inappropriate to say "i don't want you to and if you do i will go home"? he's done nothing to you btw, he just doesn't like being around you and is always vying for dominance when you're together because he's a meathead moron and this is why you don't like to be around him. but when you bring this up she says "i think he's like that because he thinks you don't like him :(" and then what can you say but "i don't" lmao...

like. it's two things, right. you both clearly dislike each other. for whatever reasons. so why should you hang out. then secondly. what even are you to each other. why would you have a relationship. whose bright idea was it to mandate there be anything above civility in this type of relationship. but how do you explain all this in a way that doesn't make you sound like a dickhead.

#i've been in this situation uhhh let's see 20 times probably #i've never had a friend's boyfriend like me. they've always been straight white guys who despise me from what i can tell #i did have one who ''jokingly'' asked my friend to invite me back to their bedroom with them #which she told me about. for some insane reason. #and one who tried to start having sex with that same girl in front of me either as a show of dominance or an invitation? 🤔 i'll never know #usually they just tell my friend to stop hanging out with me #like that particular detail has gotten back to me with.... 7 different guys whose names i remember #very common thread here #i don't know why these girls tell me this shit 😩 #they act like i'm crazy for being standoffish then after the breakup talking ab '& he was always telling me how much he hated your ass 😂 ' #hello 😭 tell me while it's happening or never don't save it for when you've been gaslighting me for months or years #😭😭😭 god i'm so sick of being in this position #people always put my opinions on a pedestal then when they don't like them it's a psychological catastrophe for them like who caaares #ofc i don't like your boyfriend do you think i'm chronically single as a bit?? in my personal opinion the dating pool here is a sewerrrr 😭 #don't take it personallyyyy i'm not that invested in yoouuu or your fucken. romantic relationships with strangers like hello??? #😭😭😭 #adam YAPS #big time YAPS

[nyxdimandis]

with the full disclaimer that i might be missing some context or significant piece of information & am fully welcoming anyone to inform me, i feel like. it really just doesn't seem like a huge deal that one of the "poison" storyboard artists is into "dark" kink. like this really feels like a non-issue to me

#tw sa mention #<- this is the only tag im putting on here cause i dont wanna get jumped #but like. idk. i feel like this is really just coming from people who don't..... understand how kink works? #and to preface im ace im not into kink im DEFINITELY not into hard/dark kink #but like ...... noncon is a whole genre of fanfic. cnc isn't an unpopular fetish. people who are into either of those things aren't #saying they find real life instances of assault to be hot. its fiction. its a fictional fantasy that in plenty of contexts is being #projected onto exclusively fictional characters #it sits super badly with me that people say 'you shouldnt let people with these kinks work on this show/hire these people' because #the sex lives of your employees being a deciding factor in what you allow them to work on seems. hm. really fucking weird ?? #and ALSO also this person was JUST a storyboarder. they literally cannot be 'glorifying' or 'romanticizing' or whatever because #they are only STORYBOARDING they do not control the actual writing direction of the issue or #how it is framed by the narrative or handled within the writing #and the writing of hazbin hotel very clearly and repeatedly says 'hey this is a really bad thing that impacts angel super negatively and #he is all but verbatim saying he hates it and it is destroying him from the inside out' #and again i AM open to being corrected on this if there's some crucial info i'm missing or whatever and i DO think #there ARE glaring issues with the treatment of the subject of sa/harassment within the show #im not even going to get into the viv drama on twitter about this because. jesus christ #but. idk. i feel like this detail gets dragged on SOOOO fucking much when there are MUCH more productive discussions we could be having #mine

[thumbalinabarbie]

i'm having a megamind bart moment :))

#also bart is lying abt the mojo jojo thing he just felt like cosplaying :) #also!!!! look at my cloth and leather textures!!! #they have movement!! #i opened references for this!! #also absolutely hating to report in that references do in fact work and make things look good :/ sad to say #also i rlly like the little kon and tim off to the side i think they look very cute :)) #mini bart less so but he's also the main drawing so he can't have it all ig #crazy how much detail i put in the clothes that i didn't for the skin lol #usually that's reversed #my art #art #digital art #digital drawing #bart allen #impulse #tim drake #dc #conner kent #kon el #superboy #robin #young justice #yj #megamind