#i hate it here so much 😭

[fiddlepickdouglas]

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#i live in hell #im barely climbing out of the hole of a major depressive episode that i barely made out of alive #and i agree that for my own sanity it was a good call that i not move away from here as soon as i had planned #but i have been lowkey harassed twice while shopping for groceries entirely unprovoked #and some dude decided to preach at my work just now for over an hour with like prayers and everything #and that's just within the past 5 days #i felt so uncomfortable #evangelist christians really have no clue they could be sending someone hurrying home as fast as possible #because my religious trauma is so fucking deep and i really wish my manager had kicked the asshole out because #THAT PLACE IS PUBLIC. NOT EVERYONE IN THIS FUCKING STATE BELIEVES THE SAME SHIT. #I WAS HOLDING BACK A PANIC ATTACK UNTIL I FINALLY JUST GRABBED MY SHIT AND LEFT AND KRPT MY EYES DOWN SO I WOULDN'T GET CORNERED #and i had already spent half my night waking myself up having mini panics too #and other bullshit that im really too frustrated about to repeat today #i hate utah #i hate it here so much 😭 #im terrified #i wanna be openly queer so bad but if strangers are feeling free to see anything questionable about me #and think it's fine to be outright assholes then i really don't want to imagine the danger i would be in if i were out #i don't have my therapy appointment until wednesday and i already hate that im gonna have to dump all this too #please someone just take me to whatever queer utopian island alternate universe there is i need a break

[kimtaegis]

may you find happiness there, may all your hopes all turn out right! ↳ for @magicshop 🌸

cr. dwellingsouls, atoz v; insp.

#btsgif #btsgfx #btsedit #gfx #usergif #bts #bangtan #namtaegi #usersky #userkelli #trackofthesoul #userzaynab #userines #usersan #underbetelgeuse #*yg #*nj #*th #*gifs #*gfx #andi I'm soooo sorry this is so late 😭 #really just had zero time I hate it here #but here we go!!! your favourites are bringing you a little spring magic <3 #(HAD to use 'magic' in this somewhere hehe) #I used every little scrap of this unit photoshoot there was noooot much unfortunately :( hence the little ot7 appearance :) #most of the text are lyrics from ben howard's 'keep your head up' #this song reminds of a beloved friendship from my youth and just warms my heart so much #it's perfect for this time of the year and gives me this fondness that I also feel when I think of you #I hope you spent your birthday surrounded by happiness and love #and that this new year of your life will be filled with hope and positivity

[glittertimes]

Put a finger down if you spent the first 22 years of your life living with your abusive religious parents with very little autonomy or sense of self due to the abuse you went through and then you finally got to move away to college for a year and you made friends and found a relationship where you actually felt valued and safe but then you had to go back to your abusive house because you couldn’t afford rent to stay in your college town after you graduated and now your 400 miles away from your partner 😭

#I am having a very hard time #dad just tested positive for Covid #I used to get tested for Covid every week at school and managed to avoid and I only get exposed when I come home #I hate it here so much 😭 #personal

[sweetgaleria]

Help a college student graduate by answering a survey!!

Hey!! Are you over 18 and in the miraculous fandom? Then this is for you!!

Hi everyone, this is my last semester of uni, and one of my final projects to be able to graduate is to write a scientific paper. I'm writing an article about adult fans of children's animation, specifically Miraculous Ladybug. My goal is to understand what makes adults (like us) want to join fandoms centered around shows aimed primarily at children, and to do that I'd love to hear directly from the source! The survey takes around 10 minutes to answer, it's 100% anonymous and it would help me immensely!

>>Click here for the survey<<

I need at least 30 people to answer, but honestly the more the merrier! I've also made a little thank you gif at the end, so if you see it let me know! If you have any questions feel free to send me an ask, as well!

Please reblog so it can reach more people! Thank you so much!

#what do we love (or hate!! I know people are here bc they dont like the show as much too) abt miraculous that #makes us want to spend so much time thinking and creating things for and about it? #miraculous ladybug #i am once again asking for your support #insert bernie sanders meme here #alskdjasd #no but really if you answer this it would help me so so much #and i'll be so thankful #i will reblog this post a bit frequently so please be patient with me 😭😭 #also the point of this is not to shame anyone for watching kid's shows in any shape or form #i just love animation and kids cartoons too #my first intentions with this research were to ask why do we mostly view animation as a kid's genre instead of a technique to tell stories #in the west at least #but it was too broad of a question and I dont have enough time to dedicate myself to it #so i narrowed it down to something i'm familiar with #which is why i went for #so uh anyway #pls reblog #and answer my survey #thank you so much

[spaciebabie]

"but spacie, i have no followers why should i reblog things" let me answer this question using myself, a person who has been using tumblr for almost a decade now, as an example. pre 2022 the most followers i ever had was like 125. most of them were dead blogs. killed in the porn ban or just people who had left for whatever reason. out of the people left who were still active, i had like 3 people at the most interact with my blog on a monthly basis. for years b4 this, i had ZERO FOLLOWERS but upon making my blog i saw all the other ppl who had been using this website longer than me talking abt how important it was ta reblog shit, and throughout all these years on tumblr, even when i had no followers i reblogged things. b/c i understood that it was integral ta the way this site functions.

now mind you, just b/c i had no followers didn't mean ppl wouldn't stop by and reblog things from my blog. every couple months id have a new person find me and reblog something. maybe they'd reblog a lot of stuff! the point is that id go months without any interaction at times and i STILL reblogged things because i knew people could find me and see something they liked on here. eventually people who frequently checked my blog ta see what i would reblog followed me!! im sure there’s ppl who dont follow me that ta this day who still reblog the stuff on here!! the point is that it genuinely doesnt matter how many followers you have. sure, it certainly helps, but ppl can still find and interact with the things on your blog without you having thousands or even hundreds of followers. so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE reblog things.

#spacie spoinks #i keep seeing this mentality and guys its genuinely harmful ta the site pls 😭 #tumblr is not a popularity contest your reblog MATTERS!!!!!!!!!! #a lot of the problems we've seen in recent years with reblogging is b/c yall are using tumblr like you would use instagram or twitter #please dont use tumblr like that #also scoop the rot out of your brain that says if you interact too much with your favorite blog on here they're going 2 hate you #if high school was an internet website it would be twitter (derogatory) #i wont hate you if you're constantly sendin me asks or messages i can just. distance myself. #if i get overwhelmed #im not tethered ta tumblr as if it was my only lifeline skjfsakjlfjkads #like there are so many ways ta customize my experience on here its chill

[unicyclingdogs]

sky!!! 💙💙💙 I tried out a new coloring style here and tried to put less emphasis on line art, and I really liked how it turned out!!! :)

#linked universe #lu fanart #lu sky #uni art :) #IM ALIVE‼️‼️‼️ #schools almost basically done 🥳🥳 #I have like two more classes and then I’m free!! #but yeah this drawing was fun to work on bc normally I color everything on separate layers and it’s time consuming and boring #so for this drawing I just colored and rendered everything on one layer #it was fun and a lot faster and I really like how the hair looks #but I’m not sold on the face idk it’s ok ig #in other news #I really want to be more active on here so im gonna make an effort to reblog more stuff #I hate how quiet my blogs been it’s so sad and even if I don’t have time ti draw as much I should still reblog stuff so yeah 👍 #now I NEED to change the blogs banner bc that art is OLD and I DONT LIKE it 😭😭😭

[xiaoming56]

Hated that last episode so i drew this to convince myself i liked it

#didn work i still hate that last ep #LIKE OK LEMME RANT HERE #they cld hav had LITERALLY ANY OTHER VILLAIN #but they chose to undo stranges whoooole character development from szn 1 bcos The Voices i guess #and sure u can make the argument of oH greif isn a linear recovery process AND YES IT ISN BUT IT DOESN MEAN SUDDENLY FORGETTING #WHAT UVE LEARNT WHEN U INITIALLY FUCKED ARD N FOUND OUT!!?! #aaND ALSO it wld hav been SO MUCH BETTER if it was like a different villain who was trying to feed the forge #but strange realises that it requires a powerful being to be fed into it #so he sacrifices himself to the forge to rebuild his universe #ultimately making good on his words from szn1 where he tells the watcher to punish him instead of his universe #AND STILL MAKE HIM THE HERO BECAUSE I REFUSE TO BELIEVE HES A VILLAIN #MCU STOP VILLAINISING STRANGE CHALLENGE!! #srsly he was sortof villainised in spiderman nwh and then all his variants in MOM are bad dudes N NOW UR GNA MAKE IT SO THAT SUPREME IS EVIL #NAHHH I REFUSE #i reject ur canon #ok rant over sorry abt that guys :) #im v passionate abt this character 😭 #doctor strange #stephen strange #strange supreme #marvel #mcu #marvel cinematic universe #what if #what if...?

[penaltyboxboxbox]

the annoying fandom post is so funny like. as someone who used to be active in like a lot more classical and big name fandoms. the shit that happens here is so much less annoying to me than any of that ever was........

#i feel like. in rpf fandoms we dont.....have the same horrible purity culture of fictional fandoms #like here i have never encountered things like blocklists over liking a fictional character #or a weird ship or something... #stress about liking the media the correct way yk.. #like we have different drama but it is the same drama that is always #borne from Sports Rivalries so i find it much less annoying. idk. #like yeah people will hate you and block you for supporting a driver sometimes #but like. idk. that feels so much more substantial than causing shitstorm over....liking a character in a tv show #who literally doesnt exist 😭 #i also just find rpf fandoms generally to be MUCH less judgemental by just their nature of being one of the outcast parts of fandom

[harmonysanreads]

Aventurine? More like ANGSTTURINE.

#thy brain is mush #on the verge of a breakdown #wtf was that ending #what on earth is even going on here????????? #i knew it was going to happen to aventurine but 😭😭😭 #was i prepared? kind of #did i still feel like my heart was being torn apart? yes #did i hated it so much but couldn't complain because this is written so well?? of course #does it still hurt? hahahahahahaha #seriously... i'm going to make sunday suffer don't ask #shaoji cooked so hard he cooked us all in the process #how do i even recover from this #if any of y'all want to cry with me plz #harmony suffers #hsr spoilers #hsr #harmonysan.txt

[gunsatthaphan]

(*♡∀♡)

#middleman's love #tutoryim #tutor koraphat #yim pharinyakorn #domundi #maijade #mandee channel #middlemans love ep1 #thai bl #bl drama #okay so this show is a literal cartoon dkjhdf #but im kind of into it #like is it the most ridiculous thing ive seen since why r u? yes #but am I here for it? also yes #literally everyone is hating on it and meanwhile im here like JADE MY CHILD #😭 #i love him so much #hes a clown but look at him hes a babe #:( #let him be the anime character that he truly is #jkdhgkdf #also idk what people expected exactly lmao especially when theyve seen bed friend??? #these are the exact same characters #just slightly more clowney lmao #but yeah we all know what you get from domundi so idk why everyone is so surprised

[spacedlexi]

the way the ericson group were at the outbreak just a bunch of troubled kids who made various mistakes or committed crimes and were judged by a system that punished and abandoned them instead of giving them the support and love they needed, are then nearly a decade later put into a situation where now they must judge a troubled child for the mistakes and crimes hes committed against them. and 5 to 3 vote them out 😭

#twdg #i love the way s4 connects back to lees whole 'murderer' thing back in s1 😭 guilt...atonement.....systems of punishment #i love thinking about s1>s4 themes and crying #anyway this is partially why i hate when i see the ericson cast reduced down to 'just some teens' its so much more than that #them being abandoned in a boarding school for troubled kids is SO IMPORTANT its not 'just some school' #anyway its also probably why theyre my favorite cast #theyre literally one of if not the most mature group of the series even while being a bunch of kids who make choices i dont agree with #because they actually love and care about each other. even when theyre mad. because theyre all they have left #i do think the vote was a fair way to handle it even tho i still ultimately find it cruel. they couldve talked it out #but this is still a story that needs conflict to resolve so is what it is #they would rather they leave than have to face their confused feelings. the most immature thing they do. but understandable #they did such a good job crafting that cast for clem GOD an entire ensemble built around her and aj....delicious #zombie/post apoc media about love and community my beloved 😭 #sorry but get tf out of here with that 'humans are evil and everyone dies' lame ass bullshit we are nothing without community #the amount of love pouring out of s4 is like getting my ass kicked but then they give me a big hug and kiss after and send me on my way #s4 my absolute beloved i really love it more and more every time. so much to appreciate even with it the way it is #the themes bro the themes........ the connections between seasons 1 and 4 you are everything to me #it speaks

[vyeoh]

Having been through the exact airport they likely flew in through makes Jimmy's customs story infinitely funnier

#vio.txt #like i went through customs there as a us citizen will a full us passport omw back from an international flight #the agent is like why are you in this country. im like i live here. agent goes oh really where do you work? i say im a student #and my parents say they work in reseach. agent goes so what were you doing in [country] is there a lot of research there???? #i go. i was on vacation? we were literally there to see family??? at no point in the process did we ever say we were there for work???? #hate tsa so much ive never felt more racially profiled #the way its organized for non citizens was like infinitly worse as well #i think customs just attracts every high school bully that wants to live out their power fantasy #theyre treating u like a criminal for no reason 😭

[s0ckh3adstudios]

EVERYWHERE I GO I CAN'T AVOID MARTLET SHIPS. /NEG

#ok I'm more chill with Martlet x Moray #bit more flexible with that one #but i REALLY hate Martlet x Ceroba #and i really don't understand why people ship it in the first place #other than to meet their lesbian quota or something #/lh #Martlet literally calls Chujin her father figure and Ceroba is the wife of that father figure #Chujin and Ceroba are older than Martlet #and this is why i don't like Starlo x Martlet either very much HFGDFEH #aside from that i just can't see them romantically either #like i said the other day i wish people didn't immediately jump to ships #there's a lot of interesting friendships and dynamics you could delve into here #ANYWAY. point of todays Sock Stresses post is that It Makes Me So Uncomfortable. #and I can't really avoid it anywhere #why does nobody realize the weird implications 😭 #but i digress I can't stop people from doing these things #sometimes it be that way #just going to sit in my corner and do my own thing LOL #sock talk

[rustyreveries]

i finally decided to start using my pen to draw instead of my index finger and holy shit it made a huge difference wtf. i should’ve switched a long time ago

here’s a little doodle of my OC aster to celebrate the change :]

#normally i don’t post my OCs butttttt i like this so. have it #wonder if any of you remember him from that one drawing i posted months ago #uhhh okay let’s figure out the art tags for this one #god i hate using a lot of tags i feel so guilty 😭😭😭 #original art doesn’t get as much attention </3 #oc art #aliens #alien oc #original character #illustration #artists on tumblr #digital art #idk i’m just putting whatever here #art #original art #ok i think i’m done #my oc #> rust’s art <

[omaano]

Last Line Challenge

Rules: in a new post, show the last line you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or as many as you feel like). 

@wrennette and @frostbitebakery tagged me 💕, and it took me a while to have a few lines to show on any personal work ^^;

Look at this pathetic old man trying to chill in front of his little hut XD when did drawing faces become so impossibly difficult???

In turn I’m tagging (show off what you’re working on!!👀): @ominouspuff @insertmeaningfulusername @traumschwinge @razzbberry @lesquatrechevrons @nicolabarth @battlekilt @ninjigma @nautilicious @sidhebeingbrand

#my art #last line challenge #hades au #obi wan kenobi #Wip #so… the more I draw him the more difficult it is and that is NOT how drawing and practice works #the beard does A LOT of the heavy lifting but god do I hate how he looks here I will need to sleep on it #I DO like the pathetic look tho that is 100% intentional XD #will have to do a better job with his younger lightsaber in hand self though #sketching nowadays feels like my new personal hell though I don’t like it here very much 😅😅😭

[kideternity]

[Image ID: Inked digital drawing of Digimon character Justimon. Justimon is a humanoid with a heavily Tokusatsu superhero inspired design- wearing a bodysuit with multiple different armoured parts particularly around their left shoulder, elbow and wrist, ankles, knees and chest and abdomen area as well as rivets dotted around their body. They have a belt with a large circular belt buckle spiked at four corners in the middle, as well as a very long scarf. They have a metal helmet on with no facial features, and four metal antenna- two longer ones that are sticking up and two shorter ones sticking down at each ear area respectively. Their right arm- a redesign of the accel arm- is much longer and bigger, with sharp claws at the end of it. It is very mechanical looking, with tubing and more rivet and gear motifs, their right shoulderpad having a blunt spike coming up from the middle. They are in a mid action pose, as if they were jumping or running, looking to the side with their head slightly lowered, their left arm bent closer towards their body whilst the right arm is fully outstretched. There are dark patches of shadow around certain parts of their body and scarf as well as small action lines. /End Image ID]

His strange fighting pose

#digimon #justimon #digital monsters #digimon fanart #dinu yells into the void #dinu yells in the void #dinu's sketchy art #digimon tamers #if literally any one person understands the like band reference im making with the like post caption ill. #idk ill get you lunch or something #WITHOUT LOOKING IT UP BEFOREHAND ill know #anyways i like justimon a lot. #hate ryo more then literally anything godbless but i LOVE justimon generally #its one of my top 5 digimon of all time tbh #rabbit coded ass digimon with those big ol metal antenna #i will say though. i like the different arm concept. but i dont like the execution #so that is yeah an attempt to redesign the accel arm #i LIKE the blitz arm the blitz arm is cool #but the accel + critical arm like. clash too much if you look at it as a whole. #like i dont think they match thematically with both the blitz arm and just justimons overall design #too like. i suppose mechanical and ‘crust punk’ y instead of very sleek and streamlined #thats a giant tangent i think only i care about this that much 😭 lol #but yeah. justimon. i liek them #technically this counts for digi ocs too but. god knows if ill ever talk abt them in depth here