Doesn’t matter, nothing matters, I don’t matter. I should just kill myself.
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have had an absolutely awful past few weeks and all i want is to be babied by him
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on the verge of a complete nervous breakdown, shaking from angry tears and exhaustion: i am so normal and cool about everything!!!!! <3 coquettecore darling dream girl princess angel <3
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Every time I get a brain gremlin telling me I’m faking my autism, that my symptoms and struggles really aren’t that bad, I get hit with a day like today where I take my kid to a 30 minute doctor appointment then have to come home, make myself a comfort drink, change into the least stimulating clothes I own (the less the better, too) and get absolutely all of my hair up so that it’s not touching my neck. Just to not have a meltdown. And I’m absolutely exhausted.
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remember when the last few days of school were fun and not the most stressful experience ever
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physical touch being my love language is the worst,, bc like- don’t touch me but also please hold me i’m about to have a breakdown
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Part one of me breaking down and making predictions off of the teaser for shadow and bone season 2. Also spoiler warning for the whole series 🚨 as in shadow and bone (book and season one) seigle and storm
Screams- Nikolai and Alina together. Yes Alina is a treasure. there are so many places this could be, but it could be on a boat? That makes the most sense. Though looking at costuming, they are both dressed very well making me think this could also be on Nikolai’s elegant parade home, because it does mildly have that essence
Alina looks a lot like she did at the end of season 1 here so I’m assuming this is near the very very beginning of siege and storm.
It doesn’t look like Mal is in the same place as Alina but I’m guessing this around about when the darkling finds them both, hence the reason Mal is running?? We can see the Ravkan army in the background, so it’s something to do with darkles 100%
Underground. Ok so like we know what happens underground in siege and storm, buuttt, this looks very very eerie, so I wonder what’s going on, especially because well who do we have in this shot?Toyla and ??
See this, could be anywhere. And who is hanging from the rope? Nikolai, wylan? Or Jordie? But I feel like this might be a crossover moment that we will just have to wait to watch to understand
Im just in love with them. The costumes oh my they are perfect. The stare. The whole dynamic of them is perfect and this is just one small shot. But they look ready to kill. Whether it be a person or a sea serpent?
The three of them together. I am in love. I think this is self explanatory because well we’re on a boat so this has to be towards the start of the season!!
Im just so excited!!!!
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A person who comes from a toxic household knows how to cope and get themselves to recover from a breakdown better then anyone else.
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the wedding is two days away and i still don't have a dress what the fuck
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Idk if its for the better or the worse but doing shots and taking diazepam before social events or just to get through the day started to help again, ill pair that up with not eating so i can not think about how no one genuinely ever liked me romantically nor from the inside nor from the outside:))
which left out parts of myself do i have to destroy to be finally seen and loved by others ? I feel so tired its pointless and since I stopped caring about school theres nothing left out there for me i just pointlessly exist
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