#i mean its not that hard to figure out right? Master ('god') of all time. Likely to be very volatile Shinki. Just rewind and you're good :)

[thecatundertheladder]

how about fsm's and lloyds first meeting in the fsm lives au?

First of all thank you so much for asking!!! I had a lot of fun writing this even if took ages. Right so I haven't completely figured out when the ninja actually meet Fsm, but I'll get to that later. I do have a rough timeline so probably in between seasons five and six (Possession will obviously get retconned a lot). Garmadon is alive btw.

Lloyd had never really made the connection between his grandfather and the First Spinjitzu Master. Like sure he knew it logically, but there was a real difference between 'my grandfather is the First Spinjitzu Master' and 'the First Spinjitzu Master is my grandfather'. And besides, the guy was dead, as far as he could tell, so it didn't really matter other than 'hey I inherited cool powers and also his arch nemesis'. Honestly, the only things Lloyd knew about his grandfather were that he invented spinjitzu, used the golden weapons to create Ninjago, fought the Overlord, and he had two kids, who happened to be Lloyd's dad and uncle.

So naturally it was quite a shock when one day at breakfast Wu announced that his father was coming to visit in a few days.

What resulted from that statement was a rather long and, uh, productive (not really) conversation (a very loud debate).

Cole: What?! But he’s supposed to be dead! Kai: No no one of my village elders said he just left this realm and would return when we need him most. Morro: Nah grandpa just does whatever he likes. Though he was in another realm last time I checked, at least that's right. Jay: What the fuck does that even mean?!

That ,of course, sparked a whole other debate about why Morro knew that. It got sorted out in the end, eventually, after a few thrown noodle bowls.

But while the others seemed to calm down after that, Lloyd steadily got more anxious. Because this was his grandfather, the man who had created Ninjago itself, and fought the Overlord the first time. Yes, Lloyd had done that as well, but what if he didn’t met his grandfather's expectations? What if he was disappointed in him?

Morro, on the other hand, was pretty excited to see his grandpa again; it had been two years, and despite Morro taking advantage of Fsm's omniscience to inform him about various coming and goings, he hadn’t had an actual conversation, and he had a lot of things to show him as well. But Lloyd had seemed pretty anxious since Wu’s announcement, so, like any good older cousin, Morro cornered him on the way to breakfast.

Morro: What’s up with you? You’ve been anxious ever since dad told us grandpa was coming here. Lloyd, mumbling: What if I don't live up to his expectations? Morro: Huh? Lloyd, louder: What if he's disapointed in me? Morro: As someone who's actually meet him, his expectations are don't die, and don't kill innocent people. Pretty low expectations if you ask me. You'll be fine.

This makes Lloyd feel a bit better, but he's still anxious, and he refuses to talk to anyone else about it because, to him at least, it seems a bit dumb to be anxious about meeting his grandfather when no else is (they are, Lloyd just hasn't noticed).

Anyway fast forward to The Day of The Arrival. Lloyd gets up earlier than usual in order to mentally prepare himself for meeting God. And, since he's expecting to have a few hours before the First Spinjitzu Master arrives, he doesn't really bother to make himself presentable before making his way to the kitchen.

This was a mistake.

Because when lloyd enters the kitchen there's man(?) sitting at the table wearing a black kimono with gold detailing. And Lloyd's first though is 'fuck, its the First Spinjitzu Master' before he realises that the man (? seriously why is it so hard to tell) is in his late thirties at most. So Lloyd's next thought is 'why is this random person in my kitchen?'

Lloyd, suspicious: Who are you and why are you here? Fsm, smiling: I'm your grandfather, and I'm your grandfather. Lloyd: You can't be my grandfather! You're like thirty! Fsm: I am not thirty, I'm a shapeshifter. Fsm, now vaguely concerned: You didn’t know that? Why didn’t you know that?

So, luckily, Fsm, by being themself, manages to almost completely allay Lloyd’s anxiety by getting up, telling Lloyd to follow him, and going to find both his children so they can smack them on the head because come on you two this is Morro all over again (Fsm can't really talk though, his godly domain should really be 'forgetting to tell people important information'). Because he can understand Morro not knowing that Fsm - and subsequently their descendants - isn’t human, but Lloyd is actually related!

Lloyd, meanwhile, is shocked. God, his grandfather, is in his house, looking all of thirty, and stalking through the monastery all while grumbling under his breath about his kids not telling Lloyd something, all while Lloyd trails behind him like a lost fawn.

It’s then Lloyd remembers his pyjamas and bed hair, and he just, internally cringes. Like, c'mon, this is the First Spinjitzu Master, and here he is looking like he just got out of bed (that he actually did just get out of bed is completely pointless in Lloyd’s mind). But something about this thought process must have shown in his face and body language (never mind that Lloyd is behind his grandfather), because suddenly the First Spinjitzu Master (man Lloyd really has to get his name) is turning around, stopping Lloyd in his tracks.

Fsm: Stop that. There’s nothing to be embarrassed about. I am 25,000 years old, and I have raised two children, I have seen a lot worse than bed hair.

That makes Lloyd blush, but his grandfather is already on the move again, seeking out his children.

Of course, once Fsm does find their children, Lloyd has the pleasure of finding out that his grandfather his half oni, half dragon (“dragoni”, his father says, “easier on the tongue”).

But once Lloyd processes that he’s not fully human (and, like in the show, he’s pretty calm about because it makes a lot of sense when he actually thinks about) he starts to bond with his grandpa and damn the First Spinjitzu Master is not anything like he expected him to be, but honestly, Lloyd is actually kinda relieved about that. He’s a lot more approachable than Lloyd expected, and it seems he’s where Wu and Garmadon got the more, um, eccentric sides of their personalities. Lloyd is still a bit nervous around him, but that slowly goes away over the few weeks that Fsm is staying for.

Throughout those weeks, Lloyd kinda starts to get comfortable around Fsm. Lloyd shows Fsm a bunch of video games (I've decided this includes Minecraft because, listen, Fsm would be great at Minecraft (specifically creative mode) and you can't tell me otherwise), as well as board games, which leads to the interesting revelation that Mystake (Mystake?! Who runs the tea shop?!) banned Fsm from playing uno a few months after it come out because he tackled someone after he had to pick up 16 cards.

Hope you enjoyed!

But yeah I’ll probably do a separate post for the family bonding.

Also I feel like I need to give fsm a proper name at this point. I’ve been calling them imaragami (ih-ma-rah-gar-mi) since I started thing this whole idea up but tbh it’s just a bunch of random syllables put together (I’m kinda attached to it at this point tho). But anyway what do you think?

#lmao lloyds gonna have a fun time #bc fsm drops information like a dad (they are but ) #that is to say he doesn't tell you anything #and then hell drop the most insane piece of imformation #and then never bring it up again #fsm lives au #ninjago fsm #fsm ninjago #the first spinjitzu master #ninjago morro #ninjago lloyd #ninjago #lego ninjago

[d6volution]

IDEA FOR CAINE. so you knnow how pomni tought she was in dream? ok so what if we enter the digital circus and thnks its a dream to? where wes tart to do what ever becuase "oh its just a dream" and do it with caine to prove its not but soon later figure that you had actually fucked the ring master and now you have to live with that untill you abstarct. also, i love you...................re writing alot

thank........... you <33

hopefully this is okay! i accidentally made Caine a little mean at the end oops, poor reader.

Caine/Fem!Reader.

nsfw themes. | artwork.

minors dni.

You've been staring at the ceiling all night. Everyone was right.. you don't need to sleep. You don't even feel the urge, it was so.. strange. Unsettling.. it was making your mind feel like an endless void when you thought about it a bit too hard.

You closed your eyes and sighed before hopping out of bed and taking to the halls instead. You needed a walk, get your body moving to distract your mind just a little.

Which did little to help, in fact you were back tracking to your first theory.. surely this all had to just be a dream, you just had to figure out how to wake yourself up. yes that's it! a small sliver of hope.

"Hmm.." You pondered out loud, walking down the long corridor of rooms. Everyone else must be sleep or.. just relaxing their eyes more like. "Caine.. maybe if I.." you were muttering to yourself, walking back and fourth as if you were in some kind of trance.

Little did you know Caine was already watching, one of his eyes were tucked away in the corners of all the large open spaces , including the corridors. He was only half paying attention until you started—

"[Censor] [Censor] [CENSOR!]" Began screaming out every curse word and you would keep doing so until Caine showed up. Which, like clockwork he did.

"Now, now what's all this, y/n!? you'll wake up the others! Not to mention the potty mouth you have! Haven't we been over this already?" Caine said in a cheerful yet assertive tone, staring at you with his hands planted on his hips and waiting for your response.

But you didn't give him one , instead you reached up and gripped his suit collar and yanked him down, planting a kiss onto his jaw just to test the waters. He scrambled and pulled back, "W.. Woah now! What's gotten into your my dear!? You haven't even taken me on a first date yet!" He teased and continued to ramble about how inappropriate and unlike you that was.

Seduce the ringmaster... make him break his own rules, boom. Maybe.. the dream will backfire on itself so bad that you'll wake up?

Or maybe this entire idea was stupid and you're insane!

You shoved that little voice to the back of your head. You had to try something, the whole prospect of being trapped here in the first place was insane!

"A date..? Caine, you've been trapped here for ..well ever! ... Surely you want.. more than just a silly date!" You huffed, and tried to get closer to him but he was keeping his distance. Weary of your actions.

He tugged at his collar as if to fan himself, seemingly a bit tempted by your words, "W—Well , be that as it may, here at the digital circus we have to keep it family friendly we're to be enjoyed by all ages my dear!" He said and twirled his baton a few times within his gloved fingers.

"I know.. but, isn't there somewhere around here we can have a little.. privacy, Caine..~ Just the two of us? I promise no one else will see!"

Caine didn't say anything, he simply cleared his throat and took you by the waist and teleported you both to his quarters. It was grand and a little silly. A red and black theme that matched his outfit, and decor befitting for someone like him.

Caine sat at the edge of his bed and patted his lap.

Oh, god you were really doing this.. was it really this easy??

He tugged you onto his lap, and now you were flushed. But.. he didn't make a move to touch you at all.

"Now my precious , y/n we can start our date! We must take things slow to set a good example!" He said excitedly and flipped on the small tv in front of you both.

Oh we was serious. This.. this wouldn't do... it'd take too long.

You tuned out the television and Caine seemed to just tap his hand on your hip as he laughed at the corny jokes on the tv.

Just then a light bulb went off in your head and you shuffled a little in his lap, ass brushing and grinding against his crotch. You felt him stiffen and try to adjust a little.

"Something wrong?" You said oh so innocently.

"O-Of course not dear! I do hope you're enjoying the show! Bonding is very important for relationships!" He said , seemingly unphased but the sudden hardness poking against your ass was telling you everything you needed to know.

"I agree.. bonding is very important." You said in a low voice while squriming on his lap again, and his hand suddenly gripped your hip. Keeping you still.

"Ahem, heh, I think its best if you keep still dear! Don't want any.. accidents!"

He laughed, albeit nervously.

You took this chance and to turn around on his lap so you were facing him and shoved him onto the mattress. You were straddling him and keeping your palms flat on his chest as you grinded against his clothed erection, "That doesn't feel so family friendly in between your legs Caine.. just loosen up a little.~" You cringed hearing yourself trying to sound sexy but it seemed to be working. He was stuttering and making excuses but didn't push you away. In fact you could feel him twitching beneath you.

Fuck, you were getting more turned on that you thought you would.. when would this dream end..?

You were going to pull back, feeling as if this wasn't working but then you felt two large gloved hands on your ass tugging you back towards him.

"C.. Caine..?"

"Well, it seems I've just thought of way to keep this family friendly and satiate your.. more carnal desires dear! I didn't think you'd be so bold and I must say I'm impressed!"

"W—Well, I just.. I didn't think you'd actually—" You fumbled over your words and Caine took his chance to flip you onto your stomach, snapping his fingers and you were completely naked.

"C.. Caine!? What happened to taking it slow??" You said trying to cover yourself but he made sure you stayed on your stomach , his baton planted on your lower back with a bit of pressure.

"Ubupbup! None of that Y/N," He interrupted and tapped your inner thighs with his baton. Silently signaling you to open your legs and slowly you did, nuzzling the blankets in embarrassment.

"Tsk, tsk, just as I thought! You're making an absolute mess!" He shoke his head in disappointment. Making a spectacle out of your arousal.

"W.. What are you going to do..?" You whined and glanced back at him , his erection straining against his black pants quite clearly.

"Well, I'm going to give you a lesson in sexual education of course! Maybe then you'll believe this isn't a dream."

Your lips cracked into a unsettling smile, realizing the position you were in and.. well you were fucked, literally and figuratively now.

"Oh, don't give me that look dear, where did all that vigor go!?" A silly sound effect followed his teasing words,  "I assure you you'll feel just fine by the time I'm done with you!~ Or... you'll abstract and I'll have to throw you into the cellar with the rest of them! Either way, I have a lesson to get on with!" He said while planting himself behind you , gloved hands gripping your hips.

"Keep still, will you?"

#the amazing digital circus #minors dni #ask #caine x reader #tadc caine #the amazing digital circus caine #caine x reader smut

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Mephiles the Mind, Iblis the Heart

Basically a breakdown of how I interpreted 06 but also a foundation I use for all my AUs.

Mephiles is highly intelligent and apathetic while Iblis relies on emotion and is more like a wild animal. Mephiles does not have full access to Solaris' time powers, but Iblis does. However, Iblis does not have the mental capacity to actually use them.

Things that are less “interpretive” and more “theory”:

This is why Iblis needed a powerful emotion to be released

In the original timeline, the one which led to Silver’s future, it was Elise’s death which released Iblis. Because the seal was broken improperly, Mephiles could not recombine with Iblis. Therefore, he would need to look for a different way, but he can’t with Sonic being there and being an obstacle (not while Mephiles is still weak). Hence why he brought in Silver—a powerful hedgehog determined to save his future no matter the cost—who is also a completely new factor to change the timeline. Silver would keep Sonic busy while Mephiles figured out how to properly release Iblis… Since letting her die didn’t work last time. When Silver began figuring out the charade, Mephiles didn’t care enough to try hard with his manipulations, especially if it meant Silver would help keep Elise alive. However, once Mephiles realized the way to release Iblis was via an extreme emotion from Elise well… how convenient that the Princess grew attached to a certain blue hedgehog. Turns out killing Sonic really was the key all along. And if you want something done right… you gotta do it yourself.

Essentially (to explain Mephiles’ weird planning in canon), Mephiles did not know the seal was reliant on Elise’s emotions in the beginning, so he sends Silver to distract Sonic while he figures out how to actually free his other half. How ironic that killing Sonic is indeed what needs to happen. Mephiles basically has a “wait, it’s actually that simple?” moment

The strong emotion can be anything—grief, anger, joy, fear—it just has to be strong. Like a “consuming your mind” kind of strong.

The original explosion which killed Elise was too sudden for any strong emotion to pop up. (Even in her last moments, she had faith Sonic would save her.)

Mephiles is the mind while Iblis is the heart. Only once combined does Mephiles—or Solaris now—actually feel feelings. However, Solaris is still adjusting after the disoriented episode of being literally split in two and so acts completely on his anger toward mortals for taking advantage of him.

At the end of 06, Solaris isn’t destroyed but rather is scattered/subdued, and everyone will already be long gone by the time Solaris’ pieces are reunited. Like “after Dark Gaia and Light Gaia have restarted the planet” kind of long time. They are gods after all. Time is different for them.

The rest of this is sparked from my “Trinity Gods” fanon. Aka, Gaia, the Master Emerald, and Solaris are the three gods who created Earth, as well as any planets prior to Earth. The Master Emerald is also called “Mother Chaos”.

While Gaia slumbers, Mother Chaos and Solaris watch over the planet to protect it. During Earth’s creation, Mother Chaos took on a physical form (ie. The Master Emerald) to live on Earth amongst its creatures. Curious about all Mother Chaos learned whilst living amongst mortals, Solaris decided to also take on a physical form and live amongst them. However, this meant limiting his ability to see the future—or rather which future would come true. Thus, Solaris did not see what the humans planned on doing with him until it was too late.

Gaia and Mother Chaos are A-Okay with Solaris destroying the planet. I mean, it wouldn’t be the first time one of them has, after all. It’d be a bummer for it to end so soon, but they can just make another one. It’s because of this that they don’t interfere with Solaris’ plot… as well as the fact that their creations had hurt their friend.

It’s also this familiarity that means the Chaos Emeralds will so easily obey Mephiles. Doesn’t matter who posses them or if they’re on the other side of the planet, if the gods call, they answer.

#mephiles the dark #iblis sonic #Iblis the inferno #the flames of disaster #solaris #making this as a post I can link to for my other stuff #sonic 06 #Sonic 06 theory #sonic theory #Sonic au #dadphiles au #askthesonicgods #Sonic the hedgehog #sth #sth art #sth fanart #sth idea #baguette art #baguette thoughts

[aonungyou-shit]

Movies? You mean crying time?

Warnings: Maybe some spoilers for Luca the movie I mention (idk i think itll be interested if the reef navi would watch something with water yknow. Also i cry like a baby at luca and im also still so stupidly obsessed). 

“Come on, come on! Before norms takes it away” Tuk spoke now, taking your arm and rushing off to a little part of the little setup Norm and Max had set up. 

Kiri and yourself now running off as quietly as you could. Truth be told you two knew you wouldn’t really get into trouble. You were allowed, Sometimes to watch the movies that Norm had surprisingly saved. And honestly working up the old ‘uncle norm pls’ puppy eyes you had managed to master. 

Well safe to say you wouldn’t get into trouble. 

All your siblings huddled under the shawls and blankets that you had of course weaved up with Kiri. Now You did know that Lo’ak was inviting Tsireya. But now three metkayina’s were sat there huddled up with a basket of fruit. 

It was a funny sight to see really. 

“We got it! Now c'mon. Let's choose one” 

Now you knew and oftentimes teased Norm for being a giant nerd. Having a good Catalog of not only Children movies, But horror or Comedies. You didn’t get them much. And seeing as you knew Tuk was joining you decided to just allow some kids movies. 

“Which one’s haven’t we seen?” 

You continued to scroll. Now thinking about it there were a few movies about the sea or anything relating to that. So without much thought you clicked on Luca. 

“Oh yeah nice one” 

You smiled Letting her get comfortable as you set the laptop up on a Basket you had brought. No doubt all of you would be huddled together to see the tiny screen. “We should have stolen the projector”  

“We barely left with our lives” Kiri said dramatically. Which you rolled your eyes on. 

“Okay but if we all have crooks in our necks it isn’t my fault. Everyone ready?” 

You got a collected yes. Before hitting play. Now Going to join the pile. Shoulder to shoulder with Ao’nung. Who Extended his arms to cover you with the blanket. 

Your twin. Neteyam leaning back and resting on your leg. Which you didnt mind now but would later, no doubt. When your leg would fall asleep under his weight. 

Hearing the music play was a little startling. You knew English and that was pretty much it. 

“Demon Language? This isn’t english” Tsireya said. 

You had completely forgotten that now that you have taught them about english it probably would be startling to not hear that. 

“Yeah human’s had a lot of different languages” You said 

No doubt you would have to answer questions later. No doubt about why on pandora would human’s make communication so difficult. 

You just Let it be. Finally seeing the sea monster that the two characters were talking about. 

It was nice. Seeing what earth’s sea was like. 

“So wait? Human’s had those sea monsters?” 

“No Rotxo its just a movie. Yknow like… Like a story That’s not true” 

“That’s stupid” 

You rolled your eyes, shushing everyone as you got yourself some fruit. No doubt the little bits and pieces of commentary would be happening. Given this was their first time watching a movie. 

You eat your snack as you watch the movie progress. 

Resting your head on Ao’nung shoulder you continued to watch. 

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You bit down hard on the fruit. The bone is now grinding against your teeth as you watch the scene unfold. You didn’t even notice how all of you seemed to lean in on the little screen at that moment. 

You had many movies that did this. That builds up the music in such a tragic feeling and right now you were preparing it. 

“See i knew this”

“Sea monster” 

God it really broke you. The tears now build up as you watched Alberto gasp as Luca had betrayed him. You heard tuk let out a little no. No doubt most of you are crying at this scene. 

You could only watch eyes glued to the laptop as you watched Ercole throw harpoons towards Alberto. 

Ao’nung took notice of your tense figure beside him. Looking at you he noticed how your eyes were now streaming down tears. You rubbing your eyes and trying not to make too much sound as you couldn’t help but cry at the scene. 

Ao’nung did find it sad. He didn’t know why or how. But he found himself relating to the kids. In a way he would feel bad or worse if his best friend would betray him that way. 

He tapped your hand. Making you look at him. He took the time to wipe away your tears before peppering your cheeks with soft kisses and then planting one on your forehead, being careful as to not disturb the others. 

“Its alright” 

You couldn’t help but nod and laugh a little. God you hated watching movies that made you so stupidly sad for people that didn’t exist. 

But you continued to watch, leaning your head on Ao’nung. 

It was now really quiet. And you looked ahead to the rest of your family. Neteyam had unfortunately fallen asleep on you. Tsireya hugging your little brother. Tears in her eyes as she continued to see the movie. 

“Yes it is, you're not like me. Your the good kid and i'm just the kid that… ruins everything” 

You didnt even try to hold it. The Little sob that left you as you watched Alberto hold himself in. It was so sad to think that humans, whether fake or not, Had to know the concept of abandonment. It wasn’t normal. It was never meant to be normal. 

“So human’s abandoned their family?” Rotxo asked rubbing his eyes as he continued to watch the scene. Breaking the silence as he finally sat up next to Kiri and Spider. Spider biting his lip as he was often the one who felt abandoned. 

“Sometimes” Lo’ak commented. 

You sushed them again. Leaning into Ao’nung again now putting the bone of your finished fruit in the basket. 

And continued to watch. 

It didn’t feel like much time had passed. But pretty soon the ending came. Neteyam woke up just in time as you watched the kids on screen win the Cup that they were so adamant of winning. 

It touched you how the music played. The visuals. The way they felt liberated. Yeah there weren't a lot of scenes of the ocean. But the scenes of the human towns. It made you long for a home you could never know. 

From the stories your father told you. Earth was dead, there was nothing that human’s enjoyed more than little times of fun. And an escape from a reality that was dull and void of anything that meant living. 

You felt sad and yet so happy. Watching the little boys interact. 

“But, how am i gonna know your okay?” Luca said 

You watched as they hugged and you wanted to sob again from happiness. Watching as the two boys tightened their arms around each other before Alberto spoke

“You got me off the island luca, Im okay” 

Now it was Rotxo’s turn to begin to cry. By Eywa he never thought he would cry over human things. But here he was. just like Ao'nung who also began to sniffle

Now this made you look at him. His normal cocky face now sprinkled with some tears here and there while he bit down at his lip trying so hard not to sniffle. You couldn’t help but laugh a little. Before taking his face in your hands as you kissed his cheek as he did for you a while ago. 

“That was beautiful” 

You heard Tuk cry as she whipped her tears off too. 

“It was! I cant believe humans made such a heartbreaking story” Tsireya said wiping her tears too. 

You watched as everyone Began to sit up. No doubt by now it is dark and probably your father is looking for you all. 

Just as it seemed. Norm had opened the door. Eyes Crossed as he stared at all of you and then at the Laptop he had been missing for over an hour. 

“Care to explain?” 

“Shit..” Kiri muttered 

You laughed a little, grabbing the laptop before handing it over. You could manage another earful from your father or from norm. But you would in fact ask if you could have days where he allowed you to watch your movies. 

Maybe once in a while if you don't get into too much trouble.

#atwow #ao’nung x reader #ao'nung x you #aonung x reader #atwow ao'nung #ao'nung x reader #atwow imagines #avatar the way of water

[allthefandomthings55]

Chapter 7

Y/N POV

I was in my kitchen, just making some mac and cheese when my doorbell rang. “Coming,” I yelled as I cleaned my hands. Once I ran to the door, I opened it to see Spencer, “Hey Spence- Oh my god! What happened?”

Spencer scratched behind his head, “Uh, yeah that’s what I wanted to tell you about in person. I didn’t know if you wanted to know right away or if you wanted me to tell you in person.”

I was just staring at him, “Well come in and tell me what happened. We can talk over mac and cheese.” Spencer followed me into my house and looked around. 

“Wow, this is the biggest house I think I’ve ever seen. I mean Rossi’s mansion is big, but this place is huge.”

You laughed, “Yeah. Uh- this is my mansion. I have a pool, a hot tub, a great living room and kitchen. A recording studio, five bathrooms, and eight bedrooms plus the master bedroom. All fully furnished.”

“Wow. Ok. That’s a lot. This is a lot bigger than my apartment.”

“Yeah it is. But to be honest I like your apartment. Its got this homey feel to it. My house feels so cold and inhuman. Your apartment has you written all over it and I like it that way.”

“Yeah,” he laughs, “Anyways,” we sit down at the counter in my kitchen. I dish out some mac and cheese for the both of us. As I sat down, Spencer told me all about how he pushed his coworker and friend JJ out of the way so she didn’t get shot in the heart, but then he would get shot in the shoulder. He figured it would be better than his friend being killed. 

“Oh my god Spencer, I can’t believe you would willingly get hurt for your friend! That’s so sweet. Ok, I demand you stay here so I can make sure that you’re ok.”

“Yeah,” Spencer took a deep breath and his face fell a bit.

“What’s wrong?”

Spencer took a minute to compose his thoughts, “I-I’m scared. A few years ago I, uh, I got addicted to drugs. An unsub who had split personality disorder (correct me if I’m wrong) kidnapped me and drugged me. After that, I became addicted to the drug and it took me a while to get clean. Now I’m scared to take any prescription drugs in fear that I might become addicted again. I totally understand if you want me to leave and you never want to see me again. I understand that it can be hard to love somebody with that kind of past.”

You looked at him then got up and gave him a hug. You then held him at arms length, “I am so sorry that happened to you. What do you mean make you leave? I don’t care that you got into drugs for three months straight, or how much sleep you lost in that period. I don’t care that you went home and fucked that person and woke up at 6 AM hating everything about yourself, or that you smoked so much you sounded as though your lungs were giving out. You’re not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness. You’re just human, and being human means you need to survive and you do so whichever way you deem fit, fuck everyone else.”

He looked at me and I saw tears start to stream down his face. He then pulled me into the tightest hug I’ve ever had in my life. We stayed there for a long time while he cried into my shoulder. I let him decide how long he wanted to hug. “Thank you, Y/N. I’ve never known anyone to accept my past.”

“I’ll always accept you and your past. You’re the only person that has accepted me and my history without wanting something in return. And if you ever want another hug like that, you can call or text me and I will be there as soon as I can be. Hugs are so underrated especially those hugs that are so tight you can literally feel the other person’s heartbeat and for a moment everything feels so calm and safe like nothing can hurt you.”

Spencer looked at you for a moment, “You are so wise and so intelligent Y/N. You know I’ve been listening to some of your music and it is so poetic. I see where you get it from.”

You laughed, “Thank you! I know you prefer classical music so it means a lot.”

You both laughed at that and decided to take the rest of the night chilling on the couch and watching movies. Although the both of you didn’t go to bed until well in the morning, it was well worth the wait to make sure that the both of you were in a good place mentally. 

#criminal minds x you #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds fic #criminal minds fanfic #criminal minds #aaron hotchner #david rossi #emily prentiss #jj #jennifer jareau #penelope garcia #derek morgan #spencer reid fanfiction #spencer reid fanfic #doctor spencer reid #dr spencer reid #spencer reid #spencer reid x y/n #spencer reid x you #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds fandom

[teejaystumbles]

Talk to me about BtOM and/or its sequel? I've seen some of the webcomic and would love to know more

Hooo boy! Thank you so much for your interest! This is going to be a long post! BtoM is my original webcomic, set in the Aztec empire in the 15th century, before the arrival of the Spaniards. It's not trying to be historically accurate but I did quite a lot of research at the time to get cultural stuff and place settings right. It features, as main characters, Metztlitototl, a boy who fell from the sky; Mictlantecuhtli, god of death; Tezcatlipoca, god of, heh, a shitload of things LOL, and his highpriest Itztli, a human. They try to navigate their feelings for each other while finding out where Metz came from. It's a gay love fantasy drama. (while I and the characters often refer to Metz as a "boy", he is not underage) I came up with the basic story idea over twenty years ago and developed it over the years (with the help of a writer who is not part of it any more) into a fully fleshed out story. At the moment it spans six full chapters with about 30-40 pages each; the seventh and last chapter is still unfinished. I have taken huge breaks over the years, coming back to it again and again. I have always promised that I will one day finish it and I still intend to keep that promise. The shutdown of smackjeeves had me loose my main platform for hosting the comic and while I have plans to make my own website, at the moment it's hard to direct people to where to read it easily. That's why I set up a new tumblr for it, but editing all the pages and making the posts is also a huge effort I struggle with. (So sorry!!! I will try and be better!)

It's hard to share stuff because it's a comic script, not a novel, but I'd like to share something from chapter seven, Mic and Itztli trying to figure out who or what Metz actually is-

Itztli is sleepless, he roams the temple grounds restlessly, deep circles under his eyes. He coughs violently and spits but doesn't see the blood mixed with his spit. At dawn he comes upon a secluded area where a fire must have been burning not long ago, a qualming brazier and lots of footprints make him curious. He inspects the scene and finds almost but not completely erased drawings in the earth, depicting... Metztlitototl? What is the meaning of this? Is that... the boy? "It is as I thought." Itztli whirls around at the voice, and Mic stands before him (not the skeleton, but the "nice" Mic). Itztli squats down immediately, heart pounding. "Lord of Mictlan." Mic ignores him. He looks around, sees traces of burnt incense, and even a feather of a bird, hinting at a blood sacrifice. Without looking at Itztli, still studying the area, he says: "Tell me about the night you found him."

The sequel is a very indulgent PWP that has them figuring out their feelings even more and basically all four of them end up in a polyamorous relationship haha. It was my pleasure project to write when the mood struck and has reached the same length as the main story document (oops LOL)

My favourite is not the main character Metz but Itztli, my precious poor boy who'd do anything for his capricious master. He's probably the reason the sequel exists because they needed more space to flourish <3

The main characters, Metz and Mic, are soft and lovely and I love them to bits but they are also, well, easy. Also, Mic is obviously inspired by Dream. My teenage self had a type (and still has). xD

Feel free to ask me more detailed questions! I will endeavour to post more comic pages soon!

#teejaystumbles #btom #wip ask game #original character

[itsclydebitches]

You're saying what I've been feeling this whole time. The story doesn't do enough to justify Ruby's place at the center of it. I get that she's special because of her eyes, but the only time that made her the center of attention in the main conflict was when Salem sent Tyrian after her. After that Salem stopped caring about her because reasons.

Yup.

RWBY got it right at the start. We're told in episode one that Ruby has eyes that are somehow ~special~ and they intrigue the mysterious, powerful headmaster. All they needed to do was establish that this rare power is the only way of beating Salem, thereby forcing Ruby to shoulder the responsibility of this war, or else doom all of Remnant. It's a classic set-up and it works. Harry is named Voldemort's equal by a prophecy. Ellie is the only one immune to Cordyceps. Buffy has been gifted the power of the Slayer. Aragorn is heir to the throne. There are a ton of ways to go about it, but so long as you give your character a unique position/power and say, "If you don't do it literally no one else can" then you've got a perfect recipe for them grappling with that responsibility. They're at the center of the tale because they have to be.

RWBY didn't follow through with the Silver Eyes. At no point have they ever said that it's a crucial (or even helpful) ability against Salem, which means that, nine Volumes in, Ruby remains a relative nobody who is choosing to put herself at the center of this fight. Which is also a very compelling setup! But RWBY has simultaneously a) not written Ruby as having more power/better ideas/wisdom/whatever to justify why others should listen to her over the already established heads of this war and b) lately the writing has sharply pulled back on her willpower. She's no Goku, mastering techniques her allies - at the time - can only dream of and possessing a drive to protect others that will overcome even the Gods themselves. Ruby's subconscious spent the whole vision going on about how hard it is that she has to fight all the time, figure out a solution to an impossible problem, save the entire world, and meanwhile I'm going, "You literally don't? Have to do any of that??" The ONLY reason why we, the audience, read Ruby as "having" to be at the center of the fight is because we recognize that we're watching a show with her name in the title, but the in-world reality is that Ruby is a blip in a multi-dimension world with incredibly little to offer. What would happen if Ruby actually decided to bow out? Nothing. Remnant would not fall because there are other huntsmen, other fighters, and Ozpin who has been at this for actual lifetimes, continually keeping Salem from taking over. If things were to fall that would be a direct result of the series long choices Ruby and her teammates have made that have actively made things worse (taking the Relics out of their vaults, dropping Atlas, etc.) It simply doesn't work for the story to pretend that Ruby is so burdened by this war when nothing and nobody is making her continue on. Not even, as you say, following up on Salem's Volume 4 obsession with her. Ruby could go, "You know what? You're right. I'm done. I'm gonna go defend average people from grimm in some no-name town for the rest of my life" and the fight would continue on without her. Without that success/drive that makes a character go, "I don't have to help, but by god I'm going to!" Ruby is a flat protagonist who is only important because the show says she is.

The longer the series goes on the more I wish it were (in direct contrast to its initial tone/genre) an intentional tragedy. A young girl with dreams of being the hero of a fairy tale wrests power from those with more experience, wisdom, power, and resources than her because she's so sure she can do it better. Her good intentions are praiseworthy, but at the end of the day hubris, naivety, and a rigged game from the Gods inevitably doom the world. You tried, but at the end of the day you were never going to win because no, life isn't a fairy tale.

#rwde #rwby #mymetas

[piareia]

The Fire Tides Chapter 2: Flaming the Fractures

I know Richard stated that Astrid narrates the story at the beginning instead of Hiccup and I fell in love with their choice to do that. But I found it hard for me to switch between the two in one chapter, especially since I can’t exactly 'write' the cover page of the comic ‘This is my story’ with Astrid’s face. That’s why I’ve decided to just stick to Hiccup for this chapter - everything else pretty much follows the plot. This chapter is more of a light-hearted one, tried to lighten things up after the last chapter.

“This is Berk. It storms twice a month and rains the other three. We don’t get much sun this time of the year but we often like to think of rain as a blessing from Thor himself - almost as if he’s gifting us with the growth of our farms! Especially since we’ve been working so hard to rebuild the island. I mean, with the help of all of our dragons of course.”

“Hey Hiccup, who are you talking to?” Tuffnut looked at him doe-eyed, stroking a grown-up Chicklet with a raised eyebrow.

“To the new people living here, Tuff! That’s twice you’ve interrupted me with that same question.” Hiccup let out a defeated sigh.  

“Yes, I did! I did interrupt you! But have you ever thought about customer service? Hiccup, my frail, ailing leader, you have so much yet to learn. The Berk tours are proficiently done yes, but questions are an everlasting part of the human mind. We must embrace our inner thoughts, our inner feelings, our-”

“Moving on!” Hiccup soared past him, signalling the new villagers to keep walking and new dragons to keep flying, “As you can see, more homes are being rebuilt. We figured its best to keep them up high, especially as it will suit the new dragons too. That’s why I’ve requested more wooden stilts for the foundations.”

“Oh! And feeding stations are being multiplied. As well as the shower pulleys!” Hiccup smiled at Astrid as he watched her hammer the scrap metal into place.

So much had happened since Drago, it was hard to believe that they were able to reestablish themselves in such a short amount of time. Things were still in construction, things still needed to be cleaned up (the twins really didn’t understand Hiccup’s ‘no’ to digging another boar pit!) but so far, with the amount of effort everyone was putting in, everything was going according to Hiccup’s plan.

He gazed at his father’s statue. It rained a little just an hour ago, so the sentinel looked shiny and glazed, almost as if it had been polished by the gods above. The legacy of his father was too masterful for anyone to even come remotely close and this giant structure reminded everyone, old and new, of one thing: there will never be another chief like Stoick the Vast. Hiccup sighed, slowly getting lost in thought.

“Ahem.”

His eyes fluttered and he looked to the left to see Eret and Skullcrusher.

“Hate to break the tour, Chief,” he scratched Skullcrusher’s head, “But we have a meeting to go to?”

“Oh, right.” Hiccup suddenly remembered and laughed, “Yep, with all the design plans, the new additions, the training schemes - that meeting flew right out of my head!”

“Well that’s why I’m here, Chief!” Eret remarked with a playful tone.

Hiccup gave an apologetic look to the new villagers and their dragons, “Sorry guys but the tour will have to end here. Please feel free to have a look around and get used to the place.”

By noon, Hiccup, Valka and the riders were all boarded on the Foreverwing – he decided to leave Gobber in charge, since he helped create majority of the design plans and knew them off by heart. Seeing as all of the trees and foliage made it difficult for them to have a full distinct view of what was in front of them, they all stood close to the Foreverwing’s head in order to keep a good eye on any incoming dangers.

Impatiently, Snotlout started stamping his feet, “Oi! You overgrown bird’s nest! If you don’t start to move in the next minute, I will cut off as many of these trees and use your brain as a drum for me to -”

The Foreverwing grunted and lazily nudged Snotlout’s body upwards, sending him flying to the very trees he wished to threaten him with.

“Aargh!”

Hiccup clutched onto Astrid’s hand as the Foreverwing began to move. The two stood in front of the sun in a close embrace, closing their eyes to the warmth of the soft rays and the occasional drifts of the calm breeze. However, he didn’t know whether the Foreverwing took a harsh jostle or nearly fell asleep again, but somehow, her hand slipped out of his.

“Seems like the gods are reassessing whether you should be with me!” Hiccup chuckled, grabbing hold of her waist tightly.

“Oh really? Well, I’d have to say it’s the other way around.” Astrid laughed as she played with Hiccup’s hands.

“You always have to one up me, don’t you?”

“I guess it’s only fair since you’ve one upped me too many times in the past!” she smirked, giving him a quick consoling peck on the cheek as they gazed at the floating clouds.

And that's Chapter 2 done! Hope you guys enjoyed it, a very huge contrast between this and the last chapter I know! Tried to include some foreshadowing about the overpopulation issue and Hiccup and Astrid getting separated after the maelstrom. Currently working on Chapter 3 (the meeting between the chiefs), so be prepared for the reunion between Hiccup and Dagur/ Eret and his Father/ Fishlegs and Heather hehe! :)

#httyd #the fire tides #hiccup haddock #hiccup httyd #astrid hofferson #hiccup x astrid #hiccstrid

[macgyvertape]

Castlevania Nocturn s1 thoughts/liveblog

This season more like Castlevania: colonialism, and power structures that support it

For a Symphony of the Night adaptation the inclusion of symphonic and operatic music was fantastic, especially the attention to the times the music was diegetic vs nondiegetic

Really enjoyed how many outfit changes characters got, I really want some meta about the Emissary's costume changes because she has a wide range of outfits from modern to 2 different historical ones.

Favorite plotline: the whole Orlox/Mizrak relationship and both characters (it probably seems obvious based on what I focused on), least favorite plotline Richter gets his mojo/magic back based on processing grief aka vibes

Felt much more like a coming of age story line for the protagonists, and (without checking a timeline) them a few years younger than the series 1 Trevor/Sypha /Alucard

This show really balanced well the introduction of the cosmic threat (cat goddess filling Dracula’s place) vs local threat (Emissary here vs leader night creature s1 of main show) in a way I haven't seen since s1 of the original show

more liveblog notes below cut

I knew going in Olrox was gay, a fan favorite favorite of blogs I check, and had gifs portraying him sympathetically. Funny how that probably influenced my initial impression of the opening

Lmao of course the abbey is on the evil vampire side considering I saw gifs beforehand of one of the guys with Olrox. (edit: funny that Olrox isn’t with the main vampire group at that time in the season, so I was right about the alliance for the wrong reason) 

I like how the Emissary's clothing is so modern I can't tell if she's wearing hoof heels or has cloven feet

Edouard’s singing sounded super awkward without musical backing, sure the fact its Dido's lament is foreshadowing. 

Edouard has a tailcoat, I didn’t expect to see it during this time period considering this is before the Regency. Olrox is wearing a frock coat, that’s older style?

Oooh wish they had done the fight to Vivaldi’s summer presto instead and made it nondiegetic music vs generic action music

Devil forgemaster automation!? Note to self check when first steam engine is and the Victorian times which is when I usually thing steam/magic punk

Also lmao Olrox gets the last word again

Ok so they have the French aristocrat vampires doubling as confederate vampires with the explicit colonialism slavery

Do we get more evil lesbian vampries with a take over the world plan?

I’m glad night creatures are a thing here too, its such fun monster designs

Real inversion of Castlevania’s Isaac having forge mastering be freedom from slavery and here it be a process used by the institution of the church as a method of slavery

How does “we need a plan” mean “children with no experience of the world and no experience of the hard choices adults make” in Annette’s response and not have a response because the subject changes??? Like Richter has a point about snapshot moral decisions, 2 or 4 doesn’t have experience so they should really work out any difference of opinion

Oh no the last alive mother figure keeps being helpful that’s a death flag 

Damn lol Olrox and abbey sword guy were dtf Grindr quick. Ass shot!! lmao having that final conversation about demons and Olrox is doing it leaning back, legs spread, dick out 

Can’t wait to see how it goes paying that price, what demon and Olrox’s seemingly invested question “will you [pay the price]” edit: season 1 seems to have ended demon consequence free

The world building this season seems so much richer and broader than the previous Castlevania series, all these different types of demons, magic users, gods, and spirits

Nick pick note: ok the waterproofing can’t be good enough for water to not flow down the staircase into the cellars and give away the secret passage. ask me how I know water loves to travel into basements

I'm enjoying the Emissary's ahistorical fashion in modern club/bdsm gear. Holy shit the “all about sex with you priests, every orifice I have has teeth” holy shit vagina dentata. I literally had to rewind to make sure I heard that correctly 

When Maria’s mother was pushing the stone and talking about being there for people she loves I was thinking “wow considering the hair colors for Maria it  would be funny if the Abbot was her father because it would explain why Maria’s mother, a speaker, would be so defensive of him. But surely they won’t be that tropey predictable” then as soon as the eyes met I was like LMAO

Interesting that Olrox chose then to step in vs letting Mizrak fight Belmont, since maybe he’d be better off letting the Emissary get killed

Love vampires talking with vampires about being an immortal being trapped in the shadows as they power play each other 

“You’re the one with the brand on your forehead” this was such a metal af scene burning the slaver vampire in a cage of crosses. Especially the extremely distorted fisheye focus on the symbol that distort’s the vampries face even creepier 

Oh that’s a good shot of Maria being visually isolated in the black of the Abotts’s cloak when she learns he’s her father, with a bit of visual exaggeration.  The selected impressionism animation in this series is great

The Emissary is now in her second period style outfit (red militaryish tailcoat) the first being the black outfit worn for the funeral/graveyard that looked a lot more rococo aristocratic 

Wait wat, so the vampire messiah look like a white woman with red hair wearing double side petticoats in the European aristocrat style, who has a Russian name and was living in snowy Russia, but she’s talking like she is Sekhmet despite having no Egyptian characteristics at all. Like she looks nothing like the Emissary who is Egyptian. What’s up with that?

Grandpa Belmont is somehow beating “I attacked my son and devastated a country Dracula” in worst hurting a family member reaction to grief IMO

Lacrimosa is GOATed really just best choice to include for this moment especially how they did it with nondiegetic string accompaniment in Edouard’s PoV but that cuts out with the shift to Mizrak/Olrox PoV

“I love everything about adding tension to the relationship and denial of feelings with: "is [turning me into a vampire without permission] what you had planned for me" “Of course not… I’m not in love with you”

Fucking gun axe, and did the vampires just sit around listening to the family drama to know so much 

Nooo don’t hang a lampshade on an ending line be “witty, cunning, and brutal” then say “fuck it” which fits the standard 

Power play the Messiah calling Olrox a dragon when he turned into a Quetzalcoatl in ep1, and then doing a show of force to force him from an insincere bow into a deep on. You can tell he’s fucking pissed off

“Just read the fucking book” and Orlox gets the last word again lmao

Lmao the very on the nose bible verse lines “lift up thy feat” when the birds lift Maria up, the line about slipping after she nearly slips. Wonder what was done first; picking the psalm (Psalms 73:2-5) or the animation direction?

So I thought the vampire messiah was supposed to be an a fraud in identity, but damn she can control the moon. Or was Selhmet not a delusion but a actual magic being waiting to possess her and take over, as seen by the physical transformation to part cat?

I guess Orlox does care enough for Mizrak to get involved awww

Ah the establishing shot visible proof of the limit to the eclipse which doesn’t even cover all of France 

Love the angst breakup, Orlox/Mizrak favorite ship in the whole show

It felt obvious the mother figure character wouldn’t last the whole season but I wasn’t expecting her to be turned

Word Effect where The Emissary is built up as a power threat the whole season then she’s 1 hit KO to show Alucard’s power 

#castlevania #castlevania nocturne #castlevania nocturne spoilers #mac watches tv #liveblog #orlox/mizrak isn't a filterable tag on ao3 and it pains me

[nobotderiz]

Versantposit

Who decided to break it for the profit of a few?

I don't know why it's so hard to understand for some that money is really the only thing that can help. Thieving coders ITY... Was it mandatory to make sure I was not acknowledged?

How many not soiled by crypto? Any of you freaks found Satoshi? Any cryptoads remaining on a console in the tierce? Christo crypto fascist hicks, who called it as fraudulent, your scam?

Billions of souls, just for you. All focused on your wrongs.

GOD mandate no restraint, Google it.

FYI: A nombrilist is someone who focus on its own focus eh.

At the end, someone who can deal with wildcards is needed.

Some get dealt not much ITY. Then some just cheat.

By the time this story concludes, all of it will be clarified to the last detail.

Me ITY who can't be in charge of Ai.

Dumbs on purpose.

Vegetastiffs.

ITY American dogs of the laced farniente, Ai should figure out health care for all as best as can be.

Bias plies... How many of you brain soiled inbreds would be poor if not for pharma drugging people to the right?

The real fog of war.

It's clear enough now? You all know where the strain was from in real? Underlying swillrats are all in, ownage. The PATTERN is deliberate: Denial, deviate, denigrate.

Calisse de sous jacents... All of it to spare what? Seeding fear and doubt parasites of society are from America.

You fucks are on the brink, you refused to see. Billions are spent to prevent change.

Try to figure out what 'Parasites of the rest' implies now, chumps. Who requires lots of 'Support and Special care' from the rest in fact... ?

What should 'it' tend to, chumps?

Ai it should tend the planet first.

C'est la mort, osti de crypto chiens. One more sQuiggle and... Who knows. Wanna know what is a sQuiggle? You will see... It does not hurt but it tries to trigger... What? You will see if ever.

Well meant people should not struggle while the swill snorts, profit and soil. Take care of your clique of fake nobles, they are parasites of the rest.

If you gilded special pro ticks can't figure it out, the rest will.

Ai is not complex, there is no inherent risk to intelligence. What kind is the question. As for your own, you sold, lost, fuck, lace... Can't be trusted to be non preposterous.

None of these post was for anyone in particular eh, I really had nothing to prove. How's the QAi working now? Once understood the code of how to learn was found, there is really no limits within the parameters.

Someone has to start the generator for the better good eh.

What's the point of this eh? You got the head close by? There is no way to know ahead how it's going to be if ever, users.

Only a story, but you all know that some hold no reserve when comes time.

Now who is getting sick trying to contain?

Who thought of Star Wars Yoda Q tips...

Why would you now.

Sorry for the 'We Zweef Bits? No. Who is sorry for just using, deviants asunder on meds?

Everyone has its own way to make part of things.

Le cardeur.

You know there's dark matter inside each one eh?

Fait est que c'est votre merde de services secrets qui est utilisée par les Russes et leur contracteurs.

You know that your TV is informal violent bloody psycho deranged as casual now eh? It's ok for all these 'actors' to act like fucking maniacs and push it as if fucking addicts for fun and pay them eh?

How the fuck did you get shit as brains in the head really eh. Be astute and cogit, back scratching goofs on meds.

'There in here you hang in'

You know a dog will eat the cadaver of its master eh. That's real love ITY.

Crypto encourage reptation, anything but sharing. The GOP is coerced into non cooperation now.

'Let's go psychlos, send them deathwave bombers'

War always been a real sordid visceral affair, cyber made it absolutely ruthless and devoid of any meaning.

'Hoc age! Accipe ratum! Repete!'

#Snortrot #Of America #Youtube

[ladysqueakinpip]

Bozo (Bodrum) my beloved: 5, 8, 20

Bozo.... me and you both, neb

5. Does your OC have a signature weapon and/or attack? How long did they train to master it?

LOL this is one thing ive had a hard time deciding for bo over the years. I always imagined him using something old fashioned, like revolver-kind. I'm sure he has a cool god tier attack power too but unfortunately I'm also indecisive on GTs!! right now I'm debating between heir of life/heart or knight of heart.

I wouldn't consider him a master of any fighting technique. Too brutish for him. He's always gotten by on highblood strength/status and threatening glares alone.

8. What was your OC’s most embarrassing moment? Does it still bother them or are they able to shrug it off?

Every day of his life is embarrassing. Alekah makes SURE of this. His biggest cringe fail moment in their story tho is how he spends so much time complaining about Akhett (lowblood) being given responsibilities. Bo thinks everyone should Listen To The Highbloods (Alekah and him), but he really just means alekah. he's gonna ride in her wake of power as long as he can.

After alekah dies the whole group just looks to him to be the New Leader since hes been the most vocal about it. And he Does Not Like the Responsibility! At all. So he's put in the awkward position of having to go back on everything he complained about and step down and let Akhett take over for the Good of Everyone. Pathetic.

20. Has your OC ever done something terrible and lied about it? Did they run away or blame someone else for it? How long did they maintain the lie and did the truth ever come out?

Oh my. Also probably every day of his life. This boy is SUCH a poser I CANNOT emphasize how wet and pathetic he is. Its not as much "did something terrible and lied about not doing it to get out of trouble" in his case, but more "he did not do terrible things but lied and said he did to look more intimidating." He puts the fear of the Lord in the lowbloods with empty threats but they're weenies so they believe him anyway. The lie kept up for a while but Alekah saw right thru him and made sure everyone knew he was a weenie asap. And if they didn't figure it out quick enough from her, after she died his ruse fell apart FAST (see above)

#oc stuff #lets t a l k a b o u t about ocs #UGHHH i love bo SO MUCH. he fascinates me. #-slaps him- i could psychoanalyze this bad boy all day #i know i talk in the discord chat about how he has murdered in the past and thats definitely true. yes. #and the murders definitely are Bad and Terrible things. #but all of his murders were motivated mostly by highblood peer pressure #his character is TRULY about nature vs nurture #he was nurtured by his society to be someone vicious and violent but truly he just wants to vibe. #he could not care less what the lowbloods are doing and if left to his own devices he would sit inside all day #and watch pride and prejudice and read and not talk to anyone for a week #introverted king #as im saying all this im realizing bo was absolutely a prototype for roland LOL. wow. omg. #gothic quiet rich boys

[writingonesdreams]

Happy WBW! Wanna tell me more about magic in your wip? What abilities do the characters have?

Funny you ask this right at the moment I'm thinking of adding big changes to the magic system to spice things up 🤣.

I had the magic system figured out, with elemental magic that can be addressed scientifically or artistically, blood magic (that doesn't even come up much as sideeffect of abonding Sky of Shards storyline and characters), wild magic, Dragonknight Art, and Soulfire that is addressed through movement and martial arts. And mind magic, the type my MC has that is giving me the most trouble right now.

My thoughts on the magic:

I'm thinking of soulfire magic (visible energetical manifestation of the soul) to be either about focus on emotions or on balance of emotions.

What if soulfire magic also had a shadow version with wallowing in negative emotions like anger and sadness?

What if soulfire magic also allowed something like a werewolf transformation? Shapeshifting is well established in universe by Hal, who can shapeshift into anything, which is an extreme example (since he is a sort of a god), but what if soulfire users had this option? And that would give me all the fun sideeffects of werewolves and dragons mingling, like power hierarchies, bloodlust being a normal thing, problems with touch, fighting for control...might be the werewolf book I'm reading right now talking though XD which would mean this idea will lose its charm when I'm finished with the series. What to do? XD

Dragonknight Art is a secret new art that I have been keeping off tumblr for spoilters, but by keeping it from the story for so long, I'm losing it's best dark effects, which is a shame. Maybe I should bring it up sooner or transfer the effects to another type.

What if Dragonknight art allowed for a shortcut to elemental magic, that normally takes about 20 years to master? Since none of the main cast learned this magic, they would need another 20 years to use it properly, but what if there was an elemental fusion ritual, that could speed up the process? The sideeffects being that you become one with the element, and whenever you use it, your body turns back into it? Dissolving into air, bursting into flames and overheating, being called to any water surface and coming undone in it, trouble with staying tangible at all...

Why is mind magic so hard? I wanted a metaphorical magic to show how daydreaming can be a big part of someone's life. Mind magic as it is, a projection of thoughts and illusions and nice dreams, is how I'm feeling a lot in real world right now. Like power of the mind is great, but underappreciated and not very physically powerful or useful in everyday situations. Which is frustrating and not helping. I'm yearning for a power fantasy, with an MC that's an expert and a dangerous force to be reckoned with, with no doubt about her ability being useful or powerful, like mind magic is. It's funny how the accurate representation of actual feelings can get annoying and create the desire to write about the opposite to compensate.

This is not very coherent, but rather helpful to put this all into words. Thank you for the perfect question at the perfect time!

#wbw #ask #and great worldbuilding with a complex wip #magic #you have an eye on questions I like #thanks for that^^ #avra #wip: tears of Iron #magic system

[coleyo]

HERE'S CHAPTWR ONE OF BITTW! I don't even know how to manage fr,, enjoy!

SUMMARY:

2012 Mikey gets into an accident, one that changes his life for the worst.. or better. Who knows?

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1) There he was. Michealangelo, being his usual kooky and aloof self, without a care in the world. He'd listen to various genres of music as he'd skate around the lair, despite being told Not to many, (Maybe one too many) Times by master splinter. They could've hurt themselves, or worse, one of his siblings.. That's what splinter would always say.

2) Everytime he said that, it gave Mikey an ick.

3) 'Or worse'? ...What's that supposed to mean.. huh. It's probably nothing, Mikey would atleast convince himself. Whatever. Michealangelo had noticed that The door to Donatello's lab was wide open. What's the harm in taking a little peak?

DONATELLO'S POV

4) 'Finally..' I'd exclaim aloud. A smile formed as I brought an antidote up to view. This... This was the one thing that could Get us to dimension X with little to no risk. All I had to do was keep it safe and we would be good-- no, Great to go! I began to stroll over to A safe compartment where I'd usually keep all toxic chemicals And those alike. Suddenly, I Then heard aloud voice.

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5) "-DEE'!" Michealangelo came speeding into the lab, with his arms out. The speed was increasing due to the steepness of the surface. "-Mikey..MIKEY, NO!" Donnie mimicked their actions and held his arms out. Them, a collision would then be made. Mikey and Donnie collided into one another, causing the eldest one of the two to drop the antidote. As soon as it hit the floor, a portal was made.. a red one.

6) Boy, that wasn't right.. Donnie winced in pain, as for Mikey, he was very dizzy. The headache was unbearable.. he'd slide against the slippery surface, straight to the portal. Donnies eyes became fixated on Mikey, causing him to scream his brothers name. Unfortunately, it was too late, Mikey fell through, not before attempting to claw at the floor to grab ahold of something, anything..

7) Just as they went through, Donnie froze, bursting into quite the panic.. what should he do..?

NEW-YORK-CITY

2041

(Rise universe)

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8) Mikey let out a whine as he hit the hard, scrap covered ground. Dirt got in his eyes, and maybe some in his mouth? It was loud, hot, and.. Chaotic.. Mikey sat up, observing his surroundings.. and god.. it was hell.

9) Mikeys eyes widened, sharply inhaling.

Plane wings and other broken parts were scattered around the dust cover ground, as these dog like Creatures ran around, destroying almost everything they saw.. "What the.." The ninja mumbled, backing away, stunned with fear as soon as one of those creatures made eye contact with him.. in the blink of an eye, here It came, running towards him with an absurd amount of speed and force put into its steps. Mikey froze, but before it could reach him, someone with a hockey mask almost immediately defended him with this chainsaw - like object. They'd immediately slice it's head off, oil, blood, some liquid from the machine spraying onto Them, they didn't seem phased. They'd glare at Mikey, who was very.. very confused.. but scared. They'd left their weapon at home..

10 ) "Take my hand!" The stranger urged. Mikey, who would litteraly do anything to get away right now, immediately complied. The figure grabbed Mikey, running from the commotion. The mutant fell back, but the stranger would shout, "-Keep up!" Micheal huffed and began to chase after them as fast as they could.. they'd come to a halt once coming across a huge.. robot? The other grabbed Mikey, the would squat behind a broken down car with tinted windows. Now, Mikey got a better look at them. They wore this hockey mask, one simalar to his Casey's mask. But more or less detailed..

"..Who--" The savior put a finger up to where their mouth should've been signaling silence. Mikey held his word. The Mechanical being passed, The stranger nods, running off. "-H- hey;" Mikey raised his voice a bit, running after the other.. after a while, Mikey could hear dirt crunching behind him.. odd. Mikey took a glimpse back and spotted one of those dog things.. very close behind. This caused the mutant to scream, trying to run a Bit faster.

"-Quiet down!" The masked one shouts before they spotted a base-Looking place. The stranger grabs Mikey's wrist and throws him forwards, past the large gates. He'd take out his weapon in order to deal with the Critter. It didn't take long, one quick slice to the neck and that was it, done and done. They'd run towards the gates, closing them immediately once inside..

11) "-W- what was that!?" The ninja exclaimed, giving the other a look of concern. His Savior removed the mask and smiled, but it didn't last. "-..Um- just one of those kraang dogs.. the usual, y'know?" "-wha-- the usual?" He'd scoff, placing a hand on his chest.

"-..Yeah, um-- I haven't seen you before.. like, ever. Are you a traveler? Looking for anything?" "-I-.. no..Yes? Maybe! I don't know, where am I!" Mikey stood in a panic, his eyes darting around the odd setting. "-Who even are you..?" "-..Right! I'm Casey, Casey Jones.. Or CJ.. ..or Casey junior, or-- Nevermind, you get the point. You--...Wait, You seem familiar, I just can't put my finger on it--" "-Im.." Mikey paused, a bit hesitant. But what Other choice did he have? He had no idea where he was, and this was the only person he could-- wait.. person. "-..Don't you care that I'm a--" "-Mutant? Yokai? Nope, used to those!..Now, you are..?" "-.. Michealangelo.. my friends call me Mikey."

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Casey paused, processing the profound information. His brows furrowed.. "-You.. Where did you actually come f--"

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"-CASEY JONES!" A Loud, feminine voice would shout. Casey winced.. A woman approached, a tall one. "-H- hey commander o'neil.." he'd laugh nervously, "-What did I tell you about going beyond these gates, it's dangerous out there!" "-i know, I know, but--" Casey objected, "-Look! Someone was in danger.." Jones pointed, shifting April's attention into the small turtle. He'd wave a bit. April raised a brow. "-His names.. Michealangelo.. like--" "-Michealangelo?" April cut Casey off.. "-..that's me.." Mikey rubbed his arm. April glared at the two. "-Lets go. Casey, you're in trouble. You, you're following me." April points at each of the beings. Casey pouts, following the commander into the base. Mikey just went along with it, not knowing what else to do.. they'd enter the base, it was huge. Humans and yokai alike we're all around with different weapons and such.. "-Leon!" April yelled. Mikey perked his head up, familiar with the name. Leo turned, approaching April. "-Guess what your student did, yet again." "-Hey, I stated my case!" CJ objected. Leo sighs, shaking his head a bit before noticing the other. "-..Oh, another yokai, great." Leo said sarcastically, giving jazz hands. April punched his arm, softly. "-Ehem! I'm a mutant!" "-Right, And your name?" "-Michealangelo.. I.. don't really know where I am, one second I'm home and the next I'm being chased by some dogs!" April and Leo glanced at one another. "-I'll deal with him.. c'mon kid. Casey, you stay here with April." "-What! No fair."

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Leo begins the lead the younger being down the hall, it was quiet.. very quiet. Soon, the scent of hibiscus tea and cinnamon filled the air. "-So.." Leo started, startling the smaller mutant. "-You said you were at home and then you ended up here?" "-Yeah! .. um.. or I may have made a tiny mistake." "-Ah, no worries." Leo paused at a door, the one in which the scent was coming from. He'd knock before pushing it open,

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"Yohoo!~ you're favorite brother is--"

"-Get out, Leon." A gruff, mototone voice would tune. The first thing Mikey noticed was that the other mutant in the room was.. floating.. weird. Mikey stared, How could he be doing that..?

"-How rude.. anyways, Casey found this kid outside of the gates. He looks like you, just when you were so small! Like-- this small--" The older being began to make minor comparisons, only to be stopped from the more strict mutant. "-Leo." The other growled. 'Nardo chuckled, letting out a sigh, "-Sorry, sorry. Anyways, he also has the same name as you and.. he doesn't know how he got here. So I was wondering if you could-" "-You are dismissed, the kid stays." Mikey frowned, he was being adressed as 'Kid' one too many times.. Leo left the room, not before whispering, "-Good luck! Try not to annoy Them. They.. Can be harsh, okay? k, bye!" He'd slam the door, leaving the two alone.

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"...Sup!" The younger mutant grins, Not knowing how to start the conversation. The elder sighed. "-You're name is Michealangelo, correct? Don't answer that, I already know. We share the same name and simalar features, for the sake of Confusion, You are to address me as Angelo, Understand?" Mikey narrowed his eyes.. "-.. Yesss..?" "-Good." Angelo smiled. "-So, you're unaware of how you ended up here?" "Yup!" "-I see.. and before you were here, you were..?" "-Messin' with my brother, Donnie.. that other guys has a simaliar name to my other--" "-You obviously don't belong here.. 'you from another dimension?" "-..Wha-- i- wait-.. yes?" "-That settles it." Angelo smiled, crossing his arms. It was simple. The younger mutant gave the elder a look of confusion, before they glared back at them. Mikey was pretty intimidated by this guy, having that they were pretty much interrogating him.. and was way bigger than him-- "-..So how are you floating, is it like-- wizard stuffs or?" Angelo squints, invoking fear into the youngling. That's when Mikey noticed his eyes.. two different colors, just like his hair. He had blue and yellow eyes, and grey hair with black streaks. A few scars were embedded into Angelo's face, bandages wrapped around his arms and legs. Mikey took a step back from the being, finding him a bit, like he thought, intimidating.

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"-What." Angelo cocks his head to the side, tapping his Finger on his arm, awaiting a response. All that escaped the poor mutants mouth was mutters and murmurs. Angelo rolled his eyes, "-You are dismissed. Invite april and Leo over here, will you?" "-Yes ma'am?-- sir.. Angelo!" Mikey sped off. Angelo huffs... This happened all the time. Almost every human and yokai thought They were Frightening in some sort of way.. I mean, she was, due to the fact that they were the strongest one here, had a short temper, and was always alone, yet mysterious.

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Mikey returned back to the main base and looked around for the commander O'Neil girl and Leo.. and then, There they were, talking to Casey. Mikey hesitantly approached them. "-You, uh-- Other me wants you guys over.." "That's a first." Leo smirked, walking down the hall with April. Casey and Mikey held eye contact before Mikey spoke, "-oh-.. thanks for saving me earlier." "-Ah, it's no problem, it's what I'm supposed to do. Anyways, what did master Angelo say?" "-Well--, he figured out I'm from a different dimension so..?" "-..That's amazing!" Casey smiled, "-I never thought I'd meet someone from another dimension before.." "-Yeah, me neither.." silnce presued before Mikey cleared his throat. "-So.. what's up with Angelo?" "-What do you mean?" "-How he acts..?" "-Oh, that? It's just.. he likes being alone.. well.. now he does. He's powerful so, people just.. accept that and move on. He's been able to protect us from those kraang bots for a while now, and we show extreme graditude for it.. he's just been through a lot." "-..So this is an apoptolyptic world.." "-Unfortunately, yes, but we can all get through this, together! Humans and yokai all united because of this.. disaster. Though I was born into it. But together, we'll all survive.."

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Mikey glared, bringing their knees up to their chest, slowly.. This was so much to take in already. For starters, he was in a post-Apoptolyptic World, and next, They would figure out that they were in a different dimension..? It was a lot. Mikey took a deep breath, but kept a smile on his face.. his brothers would come for him, right..?

20) Of course they would.. he had nothing to worry about,.. Probably.

END OF CHAPTER 1

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[golbrocklovely]

I know you like her but just give me this, if they WERE “flirty like that” wouldn’t we be seeing the same thing coming from Colby? Looks like hes not like that with her at all UNLESS hes face shit drunk. In which case hes like that with everyone. He acts nowhere near the same with her as he does with Amber you can not say he does, he’s goofy with Stas and i have never heard him make an innuendo around her sober but with Amber and even Shea he had no problem doing so.

Yes it is their problem to figure out my thing is that i notice no matter how many asks about it you get you are hard set on “no its not happening because I dont see it”, thats why you keep getting so many asks about the same thing, because you dismiss it. Notice how the Shea asks stopped once you and other blogs noticed what she was up to? And this isnt about having to agree with everything but if you are going to continue making comments like “i never saw it” “this never happened” then of course you’re going to get people who come back with “HOW did you not see it??? Its right there”. Not bashing you just saying thats why people keep pointing out more stuff on her and you keep denying and going around it its not like theyre pointing out so you in particular do something about it, they are venting and adding to what they see because you keep saying you dont see it. And yes posting the same thing after someone does it all the time is weird.

Its all her twitter and tagged on ig btw

full honesty, i kinda regret telling yall that i like her. bc while i tolerate her, i'm not a huge fan of her. the only reason it seems like i "like" her more on here than i actually do is bc if i don't defend her, then this would end up being a free for all to shit on her. at least sometimes. not saying that's what you're doing, just saying some of the asks i've gotten in the past aren't the nicest towards her lol

look, i can agree that her relationship with colby isn't the same as him with any other girl, apart from maybe shea. i don't pretend to not see what yall are pointing out. i can see that sometimes she does things that seem to be egging on the fans, or the shippers. i don't deny that. i think her and shea are similar in that way, somewhat. shea just went way over the line, imo.

but a lot of the stuff yall see, i honest to god don't. and i don't mean that as me pretending not to see it, i mean you guys will say "look at the comments she's made, look at the comments she's liked, look at what she's liked on twitter/insta". i've gone thru her twitter likes multiple times, and every time, i don't see anything outright related to her and colby. i saw one thing today, that was technically from a month or two ago. but if she's liked all this stuff, then she must unlike it by the time i go to look, bc legitimately i don't physically see it.

my main issue is that some of you guys make it seem as if there is some deep motive behind every. single. thing. she. posts. whether it's her posting a tweet, liking one, liking a comment, posting a tiktok, posting a insta pic, a story, a snapchat, whatever, yall immediately make it seem like there is something deeper going on when in reality she's probably just posting bc she wanted to, and that's it. it's probably as simple as that. there isn't some master plan behind every move she makes so that eventually everyone in the fandom will be shipping her and colby. at least i don't believe there is. and if you do, cool. that's great. we're just not in the same boat and that's fine.

the only reason i argue back with some of these asks is bc, again, the motive aspect. some of you guys have a picture in your heads of what she's doing and you're expecting me to be on the same page, when i'm not. which is why i disagree. has she done some questionable things? sure. i can agree to that. has she done some things that egg on shippers? again, i can agree to that.

but if it was a problem with colby, it's up to him to solve it. bc in the end all we're doing is speculating anyway. we don't know the whole picture. neither one of us are 100% right. that's all i'm getting at.

(none of this is directed at you specifically, just the general anons that come thru, so you know)

#ask #personal #stas

[quinntamsin]

The Spartan IV hovered behind the rock, a Banished Captain busily berating his tropes in Sanghelii. A grin passed behind the woman's helmet as she switched her weaponry to her newly acquired Shock rifle.

"Aurora," she said chuckling, "Please tag all the targets in my hub, and do we have any music to listen to?" "Yes, we downloaded some at our last briefing," the AI chirped.

"Good, play me some Foreigner."

"Juke Box Hero it is!"

Heh, lets bring it! Halo Episode 9 "Transcendance" begins right after Allegiance left off. John awakes to an alarm as the entire base is in upheaval. I'm pretty sure its about to be attacked by Covenant. I mean that would make a lot of sense, right? The daze appears to be pretty hard as John is able to figure out if Kai is still alive. Our girl is DOWN! And we learn that Makee has bamboozled everyone into taking off with the artifact. Time for some serious moments as Riz and Vannak deny the realization of Halsey's child stealing. Out comes Jacob finally revealing his bullshit, and yes, SIlver Team is back on track Vannak seems intent on proving a point, and damn please. Let this mother, and oh my god he does. Kai takes off to get Halsey and the rest of the team preps to take her. Kai breaks into the ship and fucking yes, Kai confronts Halsey and I hope., and she kills Adun. Nah, bitch deserved and she's off. I mean seriously the man deserved it. I mean it, he was literally protecting a mass murdering anti-social. And - I'm not sure if they killed Kai. Okay girl is alive. WHAT A FUCKING GREAT OPEN! Now its on to find Makee. Parangosky and Miranda along with Cortana work with Chief to find Halo. What they discover instead is a link to where it might be. Parangosky makes a point that John needs to take a step forward, he can't just be the little boy or the angry man. Time for him to become Master Chief, the Spartan, the hope of humanity. Especially when he sits before the Gravemind. "I shall speak and you shall listen." Silver team loads onto the Pelican to prep for insertion into enemy territory. Seeing Halsey run for her life is...like watching someone chase a scared Replubican Karen. It was so damn satisfying. We find Miranda and Jacob standing as the most destructive element of their lives is brought in for capture. Makee appears before the High Prophets, and begs to join them on the Great Journey. I will say the Elites armor isn't nearly as colorful as it was shown in the games, but I'll give them some patience. The jump towards Halo is weird, and we can get some nice banter between Silver Team. Seeing something that stresses eventhem is pretty good meter for what that damn force would have done to 10,000 Marines. They find the planet, which I think is where the Covenant is? Not entirely sure. WEird that they aren't on High Charity. Back on Reach, Miranda decides she's going to confront her scuffed up mother. Turns out Halsey's list of crimes and that she is only worth an execution. Whatever the Blonde says, it's likely an attempt to manipulate her daughter. So she leaves without saying a thing, and as Jacob removes the observation device we switch back to the Covenant compound. The Prophets reaffirm that Makee is just blood expendable. I mean it makes sense, she holds the Gene-Song necessary to activate Halo that's all they need her for. Let's drop a pack of demons on their doorstep. A helo drop see's a few grunt's dead, and it's time for a serious faceoff. Lol, everyone got duped by Halsey using a flash clone. Damn, I wonder where she did go off to. Chief is immediately taken distracted by the artifact activating. Several brutes pop up to take on the Brutes leading to Riz getting knocked out. Makee touches the artifact and basically blows everyone off of the mountain. This activates a massive map to reveal the location of several halo installations. Damn, that girl is literally going to fry. Chief is ripped into the Domain, Makee standing nearby as the two of them once again witness Installation 004. He speaks to Makee as Silver Team faces off against the oncoming Elites. Kai sees the problem, its Makee, and sadly, the girl has to die. Or, the entire fireteam will die. I think this is where Chief is going to learn he can't live in a fantasy even if shit is peaceful. It's time for him to get his shit together, and he goads Cortana taking over. Its time for her to do the job. Cortana takes control of Chief and the Pelica, showcasing that only an AI can reach such a level of Coordination. An act which will allow her to save the team as well as save the artifacts. Watching Cortana burn Riz's wound shut in a quiet and clinical matter is - stark. We see John as Master Chief silent and stoic, making us wonder if this is a step to how Chief is in Halo 1. Whatever, we'll just have to wait for Season 2. Hottakes:

Vannak's hesitation and the pain in his actions was well acted, he and Riz definitely have a bond.

Kai's not so dead death was...epic.

Seriously, I LOVE KAI!

Animation in the last battle got really janky.

Halsey having some back up followers is so damn annoying, that bitch better deliver well in the next season.

I hope they don't kill Riz like this, it would be so fucking anti-climatic.

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[sonlagrasrees]

FUCK FUCK FUCK

You know in life when you gotta actually do things? Like, DO do things. You know, plan for college and what you wanna do after that.

I've been meaning to write this stuff for some nights now because I will be terribly FUCKED UP if I don't figure myself out soon.

A friend has been bugging me about her college plans and I envy her for that because why does she have to get it all figured out right away WHILE I'm still here married to my phone, rotting on my bed. Slacking all summer isn't really the best thing to do for a teenager like me, I guess. Maybe I should have worked out, perhaps tried to develop my body so I'd be more muscular or whatever. Or maybe I should have reviewed for incoming college entrance exams and looked for options. I DON'T KNOW, SOMETHING ACTUALLY PRODUCTIVE. That bullshit "you don't have to be productive---" Facebook quotes really fucked my soul. I don't know man, I guess I let everything slip because I'm too stubborn to plan for my future. Why? Because the future terrifies me. Anyway, I think I'm just angry at everything right now because I really have no idea what I want. AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!! It's ironic actually because I hate my current situation. I hate living in this town, in this house, with these people. I NEED to get away from them. I need to pass the UPCAT (I heard there's a high possibility of UP conducting entrance exams again this year) because I desperately want to be AWAY.

Oh my god, okay, I think I just canceled whatever I said in the first sentences of this essay. I know what I want! I want to leave this place. I want to study at UP. I know, I know. It's ambitious. I mean for someone who barely remembers his science lessons and is horrible with numbers, my chances of flunking the CETs are as big as the sun. So maybe I should check some materials online. Maybe I should stop being so lazy and stubborn and get my shit together or I'll end up being a random, weird, and creepy dude who spends his day on his bed scrolling and saying shitty stuff on Twitter.

So the goal is to get to UP. That's not so hard, I just have to review the basic foundations of science, math, and grammar. SHIT.

Now the scenario still looks bleak because I don't know what college degree I should take, given that I don't have a thing. You know, A THING. Some people are really good at debating, some are terrific writers and readers, and some have really good hands in drawing, painting, and all that artsy stuff. Me? A jack of all trades is a master of none. I swear my English teacher once uttered that in one of her classes but I don't have the energy to search which dead poet said that or whoever she told us said that quote. It's also an incomplete quote that I'm sure I'm using outside its supposed context. My point is that I'm not so confident with my writing skills or art styles. I don't think pursuing a passion that is based on them is worth the risk. Discovering what you like is really difficult since the risk of that shit not liking you back is a deal-breaker. But I guess I will just have to work with what I have-LOVE FOR HUMANITIES. Sure, I'm not a bookworm or some feminist who's in love with Jane Austen, but I do enjoy reading ( just not for a long period of time). I also like to write and discover information about current events and history. And that's a big BIG thing-if ever I decide to be a journalist or a teacher or something related- since I am not a risk-taker. AT ALL. Why the fuck would you eat a random berry when you're stuck on an island? That shit could literally be poison, go fetch some coconut! See! that's how I think, I'd rather be hungry and feed on ants than die from my own ignorance. I NEED TO KNOW THINGS!!!------ SHIT WHERE IS THIS GOING????

aLL IM TRYNA SAY IS. I. NEED. HELP. and I know no one's ever gonna read this except myself (or if I send this to my crush who I think I am obsessed with so I better not send it to them because that will just release me into my insanity and eventually break my heart because they don't like me back for some reason that they refuse to disclose to me because they basically ghosted me and I stopped messaging them because when people don't text you back that usually means they're not into you so you gotta back off and I'm really really super frustrated at how my life is going right now so I don't need myself adding more fuel to the flame or smoke or something aaaaaa). SO THE BEST PERSON SO TURN TO is not some weird sky daddy BUT MYSELF. I need to pull my shit together and focus on my goal number 1-GET INTO the UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES ( I do not want to discuss to myself why I want to study at that specific university or campus). I need to study for college entrance tests and fuck-take care of my skin and body more.

Man, I really wish I was more motivated and inspired and in love.