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reasonsforhope · 7 months

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Heads up/warning that I'm going to start posting articles related to the Israel-Palestine War

I've worked really, really hard to keep my blog about positive news only, and that's going to continue - these posts will be only about good news related to the war.

Of which there really, really isn't much, so I don't know that there will be a lot of posts, but I will be posting articles about humanitarian aid reaching those who need it and actions that will prevent more lives from being taken.

I know that, no matter my position on the war, this is something that would be very controversial and make a lot of people upset, so I wanted to be explicit about my position on this - and my posting policy, which is not the same thing. I also wanted to give people a heads up because I know the war in general is really, really triggering for a lot of people right now, for a lot of different reasons. I'll be tagging all relevant posts, so if screening those out is something that you need to do, you can.

I have worked very hard to make this blog a space with only good news because I know how much it can matter to have just one place, if nowhere else, that you can count on to not give you emotional whiplash with horrible news. To know you have one place you can go where you are guaranteed not to see bad news that will send you into a tailspin. That's why I've had a policy of not including signal boosts or PSAs about tragedies, no matter what they are, on this blog. (I do post about some of that stuff, including the Israel-Palestine War, on my main blog, though. I consider this blog to be me trying to run a public service, basically, and so have specific policies for myself around that, including my editorial and fact-checking standards.)

I'm going to be honest, I was really, really hoping the war would end after a couple of weeks, which has historically not been uncommon for wars with/involving Israel.

But that's clearly not happening, and I can't keep not acknowledging what's happening on here, so, this post.

With that, I imagine people probably want to know my actual stance on the war, since that's what I'll be posting in accordance with.

So, here's the official stance of this blog:

Every time a civilian is killed, it is a tragedy; Every time a child is killed, it is a tragedy, no matter their nationality. I condemn all antisemitism and all Islamophobia.

I support all calls for a ceasefire, as well as demands that Israel immediately stop its repeated bombing of hospitals, ambulances, shelters (including UN shelters), and refugee camps.

There is no situation in which the repeated and/or intentional bombing of hospitals is justified.

There is no situation in which the repeated and/or intentional bombing of shelters or refugee camps is justified.

There is no situation in which the repeated and/or intentional bombing of ambulances is justified.

There is no situation in which the killing of children is justified. Yet more children have now been killed in Gaza than in all global conflict zones combined in each year since 2019.

There is no situation in which cutting off an entire country and/or territory's supply of food and water is justified.

Yes, this applies to every group involved in the war, including countries supplying either side, and any countries or non-state organizations who may yet join the fighting.

The initial Hamas attack on Israel was a tragedy. The continued Israeli bombardment and invasion of Palestine is also a tragedy.

Most of the things I post will be about aid reaching Palestinians or news about tangible, confirmed progress toward a ceasefire. I probably will not be posting good news posts about aid reaching Israel, unless it's explicitly and only humanitarian and/or barring drastic unforeseen changes in circumstance. This is because as of yesterday, November 7, the Palestinian death toll is over 10,000 to Israel's roughly 1,400 (only about 200 of whom have been killed in the past month, starting on October 8, aka outside of the initial attack by Hamas). At least 3,195 children have died in Gaza, 33 in the West Bank, and 29 in Israel.

The Palestinian death toll is nearly 8 times the Israeli death toll. The number of children killed is 110 times higher in Palestine than Israel. (Source for death toll here, ratios via calculator.) Every single one of those deaths is a tragedy - and there have been far, far too many tragedies this past month.

(On a related note, Israel stands very, very little chance of actually eliminating Hamas with this war. The US has attempted this same strategy and failed many times: the US failed to eliminate the communist/North Korean regime in the Korean War, which is technically still ongoing 70 years later; failed to eliminate the Viet Cong in the Vietnam War; failed to eliminate numerous groups of Iraqi insurgents in the Iraq War, which triggered Iraq's civil war; and failed to eliminate the Taliban in the Afghanistan War, even though that war lasted for literally 20 years. Afghanistan is once again under total Taliban control.)

The last thing we need is another 20 year war. The last thing we need is more civilian deaths. Bombing civilian settlements, as well as hospitals, shelters, and refugee camps are war crimes under international law, meaning that both Israel and Hamas have committed war crimes.

It's time for the war crimes to stop.

Humanitarian aid reaching civilians is good news, and I will be posting accordingly.

Ceasefire now.

#also heads up that I'm turning off anon on here because well it seems prudent #I'm not actually going to litigate technicalities numbers or international politics with anyone #I don't plan to talk much more about this aside from the aforementioned posts #including probably not answering any asks #because I really am trying to keep my content based only on good news #any asks that are trolling or threatening or supporting the deaths of any civilians on either side or are obviously in bad faith #will be deleted immediately #which has always been my blog policy btw so that's not anything new #I do actually get a certain number of troll and insulting asks/replies and I just delete them #also I reserve the right to turn off asks altogether but hopefully there won't be any need for that #mostly those happen whenever I have a new anti Trump post #gaza #save gaza #palestinians #isreal #free palestine #gazaunderattack #israel palestine war #international politics #cw child death #tw war #tw war crimes #tw child death #tw bombing #ceasefire #ceasefire now

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capybaratrait · 3 months

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But Daddy I Love Him!: A Disney Princess Legacy Challenge

I didn't really like any version of the Disney Princess Legacy so I decided to do one myself! I tried not to repeat traits, skills... But sometimes I couldn't figure out, sorry! I also included a color scheme based on the princess. You have to complete the aspiration, career and max the skills, unless stated otherwise. I also included some extra goals!

It's not playtested, so I might make changes as I play. I have an edited lifespan that makes Young Adulthood and Adulthood a little bit longer, but Teenagehood and Childhood shorter. My guess is that you could finish the challenge in normal lifespan, but you also can do it in long or with a custom lifespan, or even turn aging off if you want to! Whatever you want to do!

Also, I had to be quite... Creative in some of the princess descriptions, because their personalities are very similar.

Also, there's not really any general rules. Your heir can be any gender you want (Everyone can be a princess!), if you want to cheat, cheat, if you wanna change something, change it!

Generation 1. Snow White 🍎

Packs: Cottage Living, Parenthood

Running away from a terrible family, you find yourself in a tiny cottage in the middle of nowhere. You dedicate yourself to keep it clean and make it a home. A hopeless romantic, you dream of finding your true love and form a beautiful family.

Traits: Cheerful, Romantic, Childish

Aspiration: Soulmate

Career: Stay-at-Home Parent

Skills: Cooking, Parenting, Cross-Stitching

Colors: Red, Blue and Yellow

Make seven friends

Marry your first love and stay with them all your life. Don’t woohoo before marriage

Befriend wild animals (bunnies, birds, foxes)

Have three children

Grow an apple tree of magnificent quality in your backyard

Generation 2. Cinderella 👠

Packs: High School Years, Cats and Dogs, My First Pet Stuff

Your parent instill in you the importance of being a hard-worker, but you can’t help but wish for a better life! With your two siblings making your life impossible, you spent your teenage years working a part-time job and saving as much money as you could to get away from them. As a young adult, you move to your own place and start working in the world of fashion.

Traits: Ambitious, Overachiever, Perfectionist

Aspiration: Fabulously Wealthy

Career: Style Influencer

Skills: Writing, Painting, Charisma, Photography

Colors: Silver

Have a bad relationship with your two siblings

As a teen, reach max level of a part-time job of your choice

Always have a rat and a cat as your pets

You need no one to achieve success! But, eventually, you find someone as rich as talented as you have become (aka, don’t marry/move with before you have completed at least 3 tiers of your aspiration)

Generation 3. Aurora 🛏️

Packs: Nifty Knitting, Get Famous, Parenthood, Island Living

Unlike your parent, you don't even have to move a finger to get what you want. Born and raised in a wealthy family, you might be getting a little spoiled. That’s why your parents send you to live in your uncle/aunt’s house. There, you learn some good lessons, like the importance of generosity and hard work. Although some things never change… And naps are still your favorite pastime!

Traits: Lazy, Creative, Generous

Aspiration: Lord/Lady of the Knits

Career: Career Hop

Skills: Comedy, Knitting

Colors: Blue, Pink

Move out to your uncle/aunt’s house as a teen. There, they teach you discipline. Make sure you get at least two good character value traits!

Meet your future spouse at your uncle/aunt’s, but don’t start dating him until you are a young adult. They have to be a mermaid!

As a young adult, you don’t really know what to do. Career hop everytime you receive a call!

You love to knit! It is something you can do while sitting. Unlock all types of clothing and buy objects available with the Knitting skill

Generation 4. Ariel 🧜🏻‍♀️

Packs: Island Living, Snowy Escape, Parenthood

As a teen, you discover that you are not a normal sim: you are a merfolk. Your curious nature makes you move out from your family house to the place where your parent was born and raised, and reconnect with your roots. But when you fall in love with a normal sim, you decide to renounce your other form and become a boring, normal human.

Traits: Geek, Adventurous, Child of the Ocean

Aspiration: Beach Life

Career: Conservationist

Skills: Logic, Fitness

Colors: Red, Green, Purple

Get the Irresponsible character value trait

As soon as you become a young adult, move out to Sulani

Complete the Seashells collection and another collection of your choice

Befriend a dolphin

Stop being a mermaid when you fall in love with a human sim!

Generation 5. Belle 📚

Packs: High School Years, City Living/For Rent, Growing Together, Cats and Dogs

Ever since you were a kid you loved to hide under the covers with a good book and immerse yourself in a world full of magic where everything is possible. You love to read, it is your favorite thing in the whole world, and to think you also could create those beautiful stories? That's your dream. You also love your family, but you want to have your own life, so after graduating high school you move to a shared apartment looking for a little more independence. Turns out your roommate is a monster, but for some reason you can’t stop thinking that there is goodness deep inside them…

Traits: Bookworm, Creative, Good

Aspiration: Best-Selling Author

Career: Writer

Skills: Writing, Charisma

Colors: Yellow

Try to become a valedictorian or at least graduate with honors in High School!

Share an apartment with a sim with the evil trait. Fall in love with them, and try to change its trait for another one with the self-discovery system!

Keep a rose in your house

Always have a dog in your household

Generation 6. Jasmine 🧞‍♂️

Packs: Get Famous, High School Years, Get Together, For Rent, Romantic Garden Stuff

Stubborn and impulsive, you are not interested in love at all, especially with your parents pressuring you to give them grandkids and introducing you to suitors all the time. You want to triumph, be something for yourself! You might come across as a little self-absorbed, but you have a good heart and will help everyone in need. You move to Del Sol Valley looking for fame, and there you find someone that sparks your interest… But if you do commit to someone, it will be your decision. Your parents will have nothing to say in the matter.

Traits: Self-Absorbed, Hot-Headed, Party Animal

Aspiration: World Famous Celebrity

Career: Actor/Actress

Skills: Acting, Dancing

Colors: Blue

Have a bad relationship with all the sims your parents introduce you, especially with one of them

Fall in love with a sim in the criminal career. Your parents do not approve of them, so they have a bad relationship

Go on a vacation to Tomarang and adopt a tiger!

Make three different wishes with the wishing well over the course of your life

Generation 7. Pocahontas 🌳

Packs: Seasons, Outdoor Retreat, Discover University, Spa Day, For Rent

You grew up in the buzzling city of Del Sol Valley, a place that never sleeps, full of luxury and fake appearances, but you never felt comfortable there. You always had a connection with nature, and as soon as you reach young adulthood, you leave your parents mansion, looking to find inner peace. A natural leader, you decide to devote your life to guide and teach young generations.

Traits: Loves Outdoors, Self-Assured, Vegetarian

Aspiration: Outdoor Enthusiast

Career: Education

Skills: Research & Debate, Herbalism, Wellness

Colors: Brown, Blue

As a child and a teen, be in scouts and collect all the badges!

Have a failed relationship before finding the one you form a family with

You are a deeply spiritual person. Max the friendship bar with one of your dead grandparents

Get the Wise trait as an elder

Generation 8. Mulan 🐉

Packs: StrangerVille, Paranormal

You have a huge sense of responsibility, so you join the military thinking that that is the best way to help people. But then, you are transferred to the town of StrangerVille, and start suspecting the military wants to cover something related to the Secret Lab in the outskirts of town… And you are gonna figure out what it is.

Traits: Clumsy, Active, Family-Oriented

Aspiration: StrangerVille Mystery

Career: Military

Skills: Fitness, Logic

Colors: Green, Blue, Yellow

Fall in love with someone also in the military career. You have to have a bad relationship with them first

Befriend three other co-workers

Matchmake your friends!

Get the Brave reward trait

Generation 9. Tiana 🐸

Packs: Dine Out, Cottage Living, Growing Together

You have a passion for good food, are a very hard-working sim and will do anything possible to achieve your goals! You start working at a restaurant hoping one day you will open your very own, where you will make people happy with your dishes. Oh, you also are obsessed with frogs, but you don’t know where that comes from…

Traits: Foodie, Animal Enthusiast, Self-Assured

Aspiration: Master Chef

Career: Chef/Restaurant Owner

Skills: Cooking, Gourmet Cooking

Colors: Green, Blue

Open your own restaurant after completing the aspiration. Reach the 5 stars!

Complete the frogs collection

Have a best friend

Adopt at least 1 child; They will be the heir. Have a strict family dynamic with them

Generation 10. Rapunzel 🌞

Packs: Get to Work, Horse Ranch, City Living

Your parents were always very protective of you, and you never understood why, until they confessed to you that you were adopted. Because of their strict parenting, you couldn’t do crazy things and learn from your mistakes; you crave adventures and want to discover who you really are. You really are a creative force! You love painting, you love singing, and you also seem to have a gift to make other people feel better, so you decide to become a doctor and spend all your free time looking for your biological parents.

Traits: Art Lover, Music Lover, Genius

Aspiration: Painter Extraordinaire

Career: Doctor

Skills: Painting, Logic, Singing

Colors: Pink, Purple

Find your biological parents as a young adult or an adult

Have a very long hair

Have a horse in your household

Have 4 kids in total. 3 of them have to be triplets!

Note: If I finish the legacy, which I don't think I will because I never finish them 😂 I will make extra generations for Merida, Moana and Raya.

#Sims 4 legacy #Sims 4 legacy challenge #Sims 4 legacy challenge rules #Disney Princess Legacy Challenge #Sims 4 #Sims 4 gameplay #ts4challengehub

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tired-teacher-blog · 1 year

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Bonjour 💫, I hope this is not adding to a moutain of stuff you have to do but I do remember something that I thought was fun 🌺 And for once it's fluff lmao unless you wanna spice it lol which is fine 😂

Basically Y/n coming to her ( / their ) boyfriend and give them flowers. My favorite characters are too much lol and I don't want to overwhelm putting them all but just to show them ( Izuku, Katsuki, Shoto, Denki, Kirishima, Tamaki, Itoshi, Neito, Dabi, Tomura ) but let's just go for the colorful ones because it's a LOT 😂 ( Our boys are the same age as in the season 6 but now I'm thinking that people are not monir anymore and I too 😂 canon personnality because it's cool 💎 )

As awlays no pressure and take your time ( only if you want to write )

Bonsoir ma belle 😘 how about all of them? It was a challenge I'm not gonna lie 😂 I was mainly afraid of repeating myself so I kept going back to reread what I've written so something like that wouldn't happen. I kept their personalities as canon as possible (like I usually do) but I changed a tiny something here, which is their age. I know you requested their canon age but tbh I'm more comfortable making them older (with the exception of Dabi and Shiggy who are already 20+ years old) but you won't really notice the difference so I hope this is fine.

For you

Characters : Bakugo/ Shouto/ Izuku/ Shinsou/ Amajiki/ kaminari/ Kirishima/ Monoma/ Dabi/ Shigaraki/ Fem reader

Genre : Fluff/ Suggestive in a few parts/ imagines

Please do not read if you're a minor

Masterlist|Second Masterlist

Bakugo :

_ "What's this?" he sounded a bit confused while eying the bouquet you held in your arms.

_ "This is for you, here." you pushed the beautifully selected blooms against his chest and offered him an equally beautiful smile.

_ "Yeah but, what's the occasion?" you were practically able to see the wheels turning in his head as he tried to remember what he could have missed.

Was it his birthday? Valentine's day? Your anniversary? No, it was none of them.

_ "There is this cute little flower shop on my way home, and it sells the most beautiful roses so I wanted to surprise you with this." you seemed incredibly bashful as your head hung low, wondering if he actually hated them, or if he would give you one of his usual snarky remarks.

Your self confidence dropped to the ground in an instant, and you seriously considered playing it off as a joke, however..

_ "You're really cute you know that?" did he really mean those words?

He held the bouquet in one hand and used the other to gently lift your chin up and place a soft peck on your flushed cheek, "I love them, thank you so much beautiful," he murmured faintly, lips gliding along your skin until they reached your smiling ones, "kiss," was his sole warning to you, before stealing your breath away with a deep passionate liplock.

Shouto :

_ "For me?" he blinked innocently, tilting his head to the side.

_ "Yeah! Do you like it?" you were practically jumping in excitement as you watched him hugging the bouquet to his chest.

_ "I do, of course I do, it's from you after all." he replied with a smile as he grabbed your hand and pulled you closer to him.

He did not demand further explanation, didn't need to, he was just happy to receive something as beautiful from you.

His mismatched irises gazed into yours for a moment, a gaze full of love and appreciation, one that you returned with the same sentiments they reflected.

All he wanted at that moment was to kiss you, to feel your warmth against himself, -and so he did- leaning in slowly to capture your anticipating lips.

It was soft, almost as soft as the delicate petals of those beautiful roses you brought for him, and you got lost in it at once.. lost in him.

_ "I'm so happy you liked them Shouto," you breathed out shakily before kissing him again, a gentle peck on the tip of his nose, bringing out that adorable chuckle you loved so much.

_ "I would love anything from you sweetheart."

Kirishima :

"Hi babe, how was your day tell me! I'll be home a bit later than expected today as well and I'll bring food with me so just relax until I'm there. I love you."

You reread his text and sighed in despair as you gazed at the beautiful roses you picked out for him. He's been working long hours lately and it's been affecting him greatly, but even in the midst of it all, he still made sure to call and text you throughout the day to make sure you're doing well.

You wanted to do something nice for him, to try and alleviate the stress he must be feeling lately which is why you purchased that beautiful bouquet as you wished to see that bright smile on his face while presenting it to him, "I have to see him now." you were determined, and couldn't possibly wait until he comes home, so you decided to surprise him instead.

You drove back to his agency, accompanied by a warm meal that you made in a jiffy, in addition to your special little gift..

You knocked on his door after asking his assistant not to notify him of your presence since you wanted to surprise him.

_ "Yeah come in." your heart dropped hearing how tired he sounded, but you kept your smile for him nonetheless.

_ "Is this a bad time Mr Kirishima?" your cheerful voice came as soon as you opened the door, and those were the only words you could utter before being engulfed in his arms.

It happened in a flash that all you could do was allow him to hold and kiss you all over your face.

_ "Alright alright let me breathe Eijiro!" you couldn't control your giggles as you pretended to suffocate in his strong hold.

_ "I'm sorry gorgeous, I'm just so happy to see you." and it wasn't until then that he took notice of what you were carrying.

_ "Oh yeah, I brought dinner and.. something else." you couldn't control your nerves as you handed him the bouquet, taking advantage of the food packs in your hand to change the subject, "oh, so guess what's for dinner!"

_ "This is for me? You brought this for me?" he was clearly not talking about food as his bright eyes admired the bouquet.

_ "Do you like them? You deserve so much more Eijiro." you kissed his cheek and watched as his smile grew wider.

_ "I'm the happiest man alive because you're mine."

Izuku :

You were excited the whole way home as you kept imagining his reaction to your little gift. He would be a blushing mess, -that part was already guaranteed- but what would he say?

_ Y/n.. you brought those, for.. for me?" you guessed right, he was in fact timid as he nervously held the bouquet in his arms.

_ "What do you think of it Izuku? Do you like it? I just wanted to do something nice for you." and at that moment, he wasn't the only one blushing, since the same soft pink shade that was dusting his cheeks duplicated itself onto your own as you spoke.

_ "What.. of course I love them! They're beautiful! I just can't believe you thought of me that much.." he looked adorable as he attempted to hide his face behind the bouquet.

You took a step closer and tried to move the roses -separating you from each other- away, so you could look at him clearly.

You were tempted to fluster him a bit more, as you placed a small peck on his quivering jaw, and another on his heated cheek, "I just wanted to see this cute look on your face Izuku." you murmured faintly, lips caressing his skin and ghosting over his own.

_ "That's mean. Still, I love your gift and I'm about to show you just how grateful I am." and with that, his cute bashful demeanor was instantly replaced with a primal desire that sent blissful goosebumps all over your body.

Hitoshi :

_ "Hitoshi! Are you home?" you called out for your boyfriend as soon as you stepped into your apartment, hoping he would show up and tell you that he's been waiting for you.

And he did, emerging from the bathroom all wet and steamy, wearing nothing but a towel that hung low around his waist. And for a moment you forgot how to speak as your eyes studied his flexing muscles.

_ "Welcome home babe! Oh, what's that you're holding?" he approached you casually, unaware of the indecent thoughts dancing in your head, but you somehow snapped back to your senses and replied quickly.

_ "These are for you, no particular reason I just wanted to get you something pretty." your eyes were locked on the delicate roses as you did not trust the blush threatening to creep up your face.

_ "Something pretty huh? Well I already have you," he spoke suggestively, placing an arm around your waist and pulling you flush against him, forcing the bouquet to squish between your bodies.

_ "Hitoshi, stop it." you meant to scold him for paying little attention to the roses you picked so carefully for him, but your words came out in a little whine that amused the man in front of you.

_ "I'm sorry, but you're so fun to tease," his chuckles were muffled against your forehead as he kissed you gently before moving back to gaze into your eyes, "I really love them sweetheart, you never cease to surprise me."

Shigaraki :

You tiptoed your way out of his room after leaving something unexpected on his bed, you didn't know how he would react to your gift, and didn't dare hand it to him personally so you left it in his room secretly when he wasn't looking.

_ "Y/n, what are you doing here? Were you looking for me?" his voice startled you but you faked nonchalance as you giggled nervously.

_ "Yeah I was.. but it's nothing! I'll see you later." you tried to flee the scene but he was a lot faster than you were, grasping your arm and pinning you in place.

_ "What's the matter y/n? Is everything okay?" he studied your face and awaited a response that never came, "alright come with me."

He dragged you along into his room and closed the door behind you two, and before he could turn around to face you, something strange caught his attention.

_ "Are those.. roses?" he was confused for a moment, brows knitted as he tried to comprehend, until finally everything started making sense in his head, "oh, so that's why you were acting weird huh?"

You gritted your teeth and braced yourself for a scolding or a mockery, but what came instead left you wide eyed and speechless.

_ "They smell really good, I like them." he declared with a smile, holding the colorful blooms in his arms.

You were still quiet, wondering if that wasn't just a figment of your imagination, until you felt his rough palm caressing your cheek, "thank you darling, they're beautiful."

Amajiki :

You giggled softly, leaning against the doorframe and watching him sleep peacefully.

It has been hectic for him lately, with more night shifts added to his already cramped schedule, leaving him with minimal time to relax and even lesser to be with you.

You missed each other too much that even the regular phone calls were no longer enough for either of you, but today was a rare day off for him, one that you decided to take full advantage of.

_ "Tamaki, can you hear me sweetheart?" you felt a little bad for interrupting his well needed shut eye, but you honestly wanted to see and talk to him.

He groaned against his pillow, still unaware of your presence, until you sat down by his side and caressed his bare shoulder.

_ "Tamaki, can you open your eyes for a moment baby?" you whispered your plea and leaned in to kiss his warm skin.

_ "Y/n, hi sweetie.." he slurred a reply while rubbing the sleep from his eyes and blinking repeatedly until you came into focus.

He looked so cute that you couldn't help kissing his pouty lips, "I'm sorry for waking you Tamaki but I promise this won't take long, I just want to give you something and I couldn't wait until later."

_ "What.. yes of course, what is it?" he sat up -still a bit confused- but something in your lap caught his attention, it was a gorgeous bouquet you specifically went out earlier to buy.

_ "This is for you, I hope you like it," you averted your gaze and bit down on your lip nervously, "you have been down lately because of work so I wanted to make you.. smile."

You felt his hand on yours, squeezing lightly, "you did this for me?" and it was barely above a whisper.

You nodded slowly, finally turning around to face him, and placed the beautiful blossoms on the nightstand next to him before standing back up and preparing to leave, "that was all, you can go back to sleep now and I'll wake you up when dinner is ready."

_ "Don't go!" he grabbed your arm and pulled you down again, "stay with me, and don't worry about food, we'll order something later."

You couldn't say 'no' to him, not when he was looking at you with those big hopeful eyes.

You slipped underneath the covers with him, burying your face in the crook of his neck and relaxing in his hold.

_ "Thank you they're beautiful, just like you."

Dabi :

_ "What part of me makes you think that I'm a flower boy?" he looked unimpressed, crossing his arms over his chest as he spoke.

You knew he would react in that exact same way when you decided to buy him roses on your way to see him, so why were you hurt by his words then?

_ "Yeah I know, sorry.. you can throw them away or burn them or whatever." you placed the bouquet on his couch and took a deep breath as you tried to ignore the sharp sting in your heart.

He was right though, roses? For him? The more you thought about it the dumber you felt, so honestly, you were the one to blame..

_ "I'm sorry Touya, let's forget about this," you feigned a smile as you approached him again, "so how was your day? Anything interesting?" you were on the verge of tears as you desperately tried to change the subject, but he saw right through you.

His eyes moved between your pained expression and the forgotten roses that he finally decided to pick up, "these aren't that bad I guess." in reality, he hated them, he hated how disgustingly bright and delicate they were, but what he hated the most was being the reason of your dejection, so if accepting them would bring back your smile, then so be it.

You were so easy to read, so simple to fool and for some reason, the twinkle illuminating your eyes, and the smile reappearing on your face after hearing his words, warmed his heart and relieved him.

So maybe you weren't the only fool there, maybe he was one too, a fool for you.

Monoma :

_ "Oh, these are for me?" he expressed smugly while that usual annoying smirk -that you loved so much- was plastered across his face, "well I guess I deserve them right?" and there it was, that obnoxious laugh again.

_ "Come on don't be a jerk, I knew this was a bad idea," you shook your head and crossed your arms over your chest as you started regretting what you've done, "everyone said I could do better, but I picked you instead." you tried as much as you could to keep a straight face and stifle your laughter.

_ "Of course you did gorgeous, I'm the best of them."

He's a conceited self-centered asshole, so bringing him a gift with no particular occasion would only boost his arrogance. You knew that, but you still wanted to do something nice for him because even a jerk like him still made you happy, he's the love of your life after all.

_ "Yeah yeah I get it." you still feigned annoyance, but deep down you were actually amused.

_ "I'm sorry sweetheart, come here," his chuckles resumed as he dragged you close, nuzzling your neck and breathing in your scent, "hmm.. sweet," his lips lingered there, right above your pulse, and his free arm pulled you even closer to his chest while the other one held the bouquet, "they're beautiful and I love them, thank you love." and that was a rare moment of humbleness that he only dares to show you because you're the one who owns his heart.

Denki :

_ "Yes! Die you bastard! If you think you've got a chance against Chargebolt then you're clearly dreaming!" his loud shouts reached the outside of your shared apartment where you stood, and you let out a knowing chuckle before opening the front door and walking in.

Your days off are usually lazy, warm and cozy, and it's a nice change of pace from your usual stressful lives as pro heroes, which is why you two prefer to spend that precious free time doing typical ordinary things.

_ "I'm back honey!" you called out for him as you placed your shopping bags at the entrance, except for one thing that you kept holding in your arms.

He clearly couldn't hear you due to all of the infernal shooting and explosions coming from the game he was focused on, so you called again and this time it worked.

_ "Oh! Y/n you're back sweetheart!" he seemed like a little puppy who's excited for his owner's return, throwing his game console away and running up to you, "did you have a good time with the girls? I missed you so much! You were gone for so long!" yes, a little puppy.

He was so happy to see you that he failed to notice the colourful roses you held in your arms, until you pushed the fragrant blooms to his chest with a smile, "I'm sorry for being late, here is an apology gift." it was merely an excuse so you would see that sparkle in his eyes.

_ "These are amazing!" he took them off your hands, peppering your cheeks, nose and forehead with sweet little kisses, "you're the best y/n," was what he whispered to you before finally connecting your lips.

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melanieph321 · 1 year

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Ruben Dias x Reader - Don't Look and Don't touch

Another one for the people!😅

Summary - Reader is a dancer at a strip club where Ruben Dias is the birthday boy.

Enjoy!

All of the girls sat in front of the mirror in the dressing room when Jessie, the manager, walked in.

"Alright ladies, seems like we have a full house tonight!"

You watched as most girls cheered around you.

"This means that all of you should be on your best behavior tonight. Tuck your thongs, stuff your tits and keep reminding your clients to look but not touch."

"Unless their stuffing your bra with cash!" A girl named Mika hollered. Her words were followed by laughter, all but yours.

"Foxy and Y/N" Jessie said, calling you and another girl over. "You two are going to work the birthday party that I got going on upstairs. There's alot of guy's up there, apparently professional football players, with alot of cash in thier pockets. They've paid for drinks all night and that no one disturbs them up in V.I.P. Foxy I'm going to need you on the floor entertaining the fellas at the tables. We've made sure to set up a pole for you center stage."

"Nice." Foxy said, popping her gum. She was more experience than you and had more talent. She had worked at the club for over three years compared to your five months. Foxy had a boyfriend and baby at home, so perhaps this job was her main income. You were just trying to make some extra money as a university student. Perhaps save money to buy your own computer instead of having to make a trip to the library every other day.

"Y/N."

"Huh?"

Jessica brought you out of your day dreams.

"Whilst I have Foxy out on the floor I'm going to need you to entertain the birthday boy."

"Me?" You exclaimed.

"Her?" Foxy frowned. She was as suprised as you were because giving private dances wasn't for everybody.

"Yes you. I know it's your first time out but the birthday boys friends describe him as a square kind of guy. A simply guy with simply needs. There is no need to do a flip on him like Foxy would. Just be you, cute and vanilla. He'll definitely have fun with that."

"Right." You said and rubbed your sweaty hands together.

"Come on Y/N" Foxy jumped. "Don't be afraid you'll be working with me, this makes us the dream team, alright."

"Okay." You nodded. Ten minutes later you had changed into you spiky lingerie and were making your way upstairs to the V.I.P salon. There were loud cheers as Foxy was already doing her thing on the pole. The guys were tipsy with expensive alcohol and didn't seem to care how much money they were throwing away on stage. You walked behind Jessie as you were led into a place the club called The Evil Lair. That's where all private dances happened.

"Is he already in there?" You asked.

"Blindfolded and ready." Jessie smiled. She was in a really good mood today because of the money the footballers were bringing in. "But just rember." She said, her smile disappearing. "Don't look and don't touch."

"Don't look and don't touch." You nodded.

"You got this girl." Jessie slapped your ass, leaving you at the door. You paused and took a deep breath before entering the purple lit room. There were no furniture in there. Just a red velvet chair, currently occupied by a man in a suit and a blindfold covering his eyes.

He turned his head at the sound of your heels.

"Yes?" He said, raising his brow as if was expecting you to introduce yourself. However you did not move from your spot by the door.

"Tell me the rules." You said.

The man sighed. Jessie probably had him repeat it several times before your arrival.

"Don't look and don't touch." He said, voice deep.

"Good." You nodded. "If you do I'll have security escort you out of here as well as if you try anything else that hasn't been agreed upon by both of us."

He nodded, confused as to where you stood in the room. The sound of your heels echoed as you approached the chair, stopping just infort of the man who sat with his legs spread before him.

"What's your name?" You asked.

"Ruben." He said, a bit hesitantly.

"No last name?"

"None of you business."

His words caught you off guard and made you chuckle. Jessie said that the man wasn't like the regular clients. Good, you thought. Regular clients were usually men in their fifties, here to get their quick fix of the week. This client was young, perhaps a bit older than yourself. He had a sharp jaw and handsome lips which sparked your fantasy of what his eyes look like.

"My name is Trixie." You said, taking another step forward to stand between the man's legs. His reaction was to shift his legs a little as not to make yours brush against each other. This made you frown.

"Is this your first time at a strip club Ruben?"

"What's it to you?"

"Well, it let's me know weather to go easy on you or not."

He smirked. "Depends on what exactly you are planning to do to me."

This would be a challenge, you thought. Ruben seemed to clever for his own good. Perhaps he was one of those no it alls at school. Every grade used to have one.

"Well...what do you want me to do to you?" You threw a leg over Ruben's thigh and suprised him a little by taking a seat in his lap. His natural reaction was to lift his hands and try to catch you. However, you were quick to slap them away. "Ah-Ah, rember the rules Ruben."

He smirked. Perhaps because you were using his name more than necessary.

"My apologies."

"An apology won't cut it. I'm afraid I'll have to punish you."

"Punish me ho...."

Ruben gasped as your long nails clawed the buttons to his shirt, flashing his bare chest and grabbing a hold of his nipples.

"Easy big boy." You said, twisting them between your fingers. He weezed in pain, but did not raise his hands to touch you. Good, you thought, he's a fast learner.

"Now." You said, after letting go of his nipples, allowing him to catch his breath. "What should I do with you?" You traced a nail down his naked torso. His lean body indicated that he worked out every day. You paused however at the sight of somthing purple, a bruise. Looking up, you saw Ruben clenching his jaw, he had been doing so ever since you jump in his lap.

"I'm sorry." You said. Quick to climb off him.

"For what?" He smirked. "Thought I deserved to be punished?" He turned his head in search of your voice.

"Yes, but you're hurting."

"Oh." He put a hand to where the bruise was. "You saw that?"

"My boss didn't tell me that you..." You paused realizing that you were breaking character. But there was no way this could go on if you were causing him more pain than necessary. "Ruben I don't think this..."

"I never took you for a coward."

"Pardon?"

He chuckled. Having silenced you. "I mean you sounded so confident coming in here. What happened Trixie? If that's even your real name?"

You stayed silent, contemplating calling security. However that wouldn't sit well with Jessie if you had the birthday boy kicked out. Surley his friends and their money would leave with him. Perhaps it was better to keep him entertained, just for a little while longer.

"No." You said. "It's not my real name."

"What is it then?"

"Y/N" Your heart skipped a beat knowing you just broke one of the ultimate rules at the club, "No government names".

"Y/N." He repeated, twisting the letters with his tounge. "That's it, no last name?"

You chuckled. "What's it to you?"

"I'll tell you mine if you tell me yours."

"I prefer not to. I've said too much already."

He smiled. "I make you nervous don't I?"

"You wish."

"Oh, so you're always this distant with your clients then?"

"Ruben you're hurt." You snapped. He was pushing your buttons in a way you didn't like.

He waved his hand. "It's just a bruise from training, nothing serious. I liked having you in my lap, there is kind of a draft now." He elevated his unbuttoned shirt that you left upon.

"Shit, sorry." You made your way over to him, stopping in front of his chair. His head turned in your direction as you bent down and started working on rebuttoning his shirt.

"I could have done that myself." He said a sincerity to his voice.

"It's the least I can do." You muttered. How terrible you were at this job. This was so not sexy. Foxy would have handled this situation a thousand times better than you. Once the buttons were up you took a step back, maintaining distance between you and Ruben who still sat blindfolded.

"I'm guessing I've made it difficult for you to do your job?" He said.

You shrugged. "It's your birthday, you decide."

He sighed. "If I got to decided what to do on my birthday I wouldn't be here, talking to a stranger whilst blindfolded."

"Let me guess, your teammates dragged you down here."

"Thay said I needed to loosen up more. I was basically kidnapped."

"I see."

"You don't believe me?" He frowned.

"Oh, no. I believe you're a person who needs to loosen up more. My job has never included this much conversation with a client before."

"That's because your not sitting on me."

"I..." Your mouth fell open. "This is not up for discussion Ruben, I'm not suppose to cause you pain just pleasure."

"Well so far you've only caused me pain."

You raise a protesting finger. "That was because you tried to touch me."

Silence fell. Behind the door loud music played. You ran a hand down your face probably ruining your make up. What was gonna happen once Jessie finds out that you've refused to treat a client. What if Ruben tells her what happened but with his own words. Surely that would be worse.

"Why does a girl like you work here?"

You raised your head. Ruben sat in his share facing you. Perhaps he could hear your silent sobbing.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Well, you seem too compassionate to be working here."

"Trust me, compassionate is what you have to be in order to work here." You thought of the regulars that came here. The disgusting old men. How you have to play a role and pretend to enjoy what you were doing to them.

"Do you have another job or another occupation?" He asked, sounding genuinely interested in hearing what you'd say.

"Yes, I'm a student here in Manchester."

You watched a curious brow raise behind his blindfold.

"What? You don't believe me?"

"Oh I believe you. It actually makes alot of since why you'd choose to work here. "

"And why is that?" You said, folding your arms.

"It's easy money, no?" He said, his accent flourishing.

You choose silence as your answer.

Ruben nodded his head understandingly. "It would be easier money, if you didn't have me as your client."

"You said it not I."

He chuckled. "Tell you what, let's make a deal."

"A deal?"

"A deal." He nodded. "I'll pay for whatever it is that you need to get payed for, if you agree to take this blindfold off my face."

"I..."

"I know it probably violates one of your many rules, but I've been imagining what you look like for the past minutes but I just can't seem to figure you out."

You shook your head. A bit suprised. "W...why would you want to..."

"Cuse I know you're probably very beautiful."

"Ruben." You sighed. "I'm sorry that I've haven't been able to please you the way I should have this evening, but I'm not sure I would like for you to witness me like that."

He nodded his head. "It's only a deal if we both agree."

"Thank you." You found yourself stepping forward, however you weren't aware that you were doing so until you felt two warm hands rail you in by the waist.

"Ruben."

He was determined but not in a way that frightening you. He railed you in til the point that your body pressed to his. You had yet seen him stand but you suspected that he was tall, very tall. In the end you surrender by falling into his lap, letting him catch you in his arms, breaking a thousand rules.

"Happy now?" You whispered.

You sat facing each other, your face hovering above Rubens as he held you up.

"Very happy." He smiled. His breath was warm against your face. He groaned a little as you shifted you weight, perhaps putting to much pressure on his bruised side.

"Ruben." You sighed. But he fought your urge to get off of him.

"I want this." He said. "I want you."

His hand traveled down your body, tracing the fabric of your lingerie. "You're beautiful" He muttered.

"You can't even see me."

"Then let me."

He fitted his head into the crook of your neck, latching onto your skin with his lips.

"Ruben. " You moaned, twisting your head. He continued down to your collarbone, his face burying in your cleavage. You kept him there with a hand around his head, letting him serenade your breast with his lips.

"Y/N" He groaned. "Let me see you."

It would break a million rules and surely result in your own resignation. But the way he cradled you, held you and wanted you, was just too damn tempting.

You raised his head with a hand around his chin, letting his blindfold äed eyes meet yours. Rubens hand fell to his side, reassuring you that he wouldn't try anything. Your forhead knocked against his, the tips of your noses caressing each other. You broke another rule when you tilted your head down and kissed him. Your hand went up to the side of his head and under the fabric that hid his eyes. As you pulled back from the kiss you tugged the blindfold, reavilng a pair of hazel eyes.

"How do I look?" You smiled.

He batted his lashes adjusting to the neon lights around the room. He took you in, shifting his eyes from side to side. A grin appeared on his lips.

"Like I imagined."

"Beautiful?"

"Nah. Intelligent and sexy."

You chuckled. "Your favorite combination?"

"I dunno." He shrugged. "We'll just have to wait and see."

You gasped as his hands cupped your ass, pressing you against his groin, letting you feel his excitement for you.

"Fuck Ruben. You're going to make me brake a billion rules."

"Then let us break them together."

#fanfiction #man city #manchester city #ruben dias x reader #ruben dias #football x reader #football imagine #ruben dias imagine #football angst #footballer x reader

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libbee · 2 years

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THE SECRET LIFE OF 8th HOUSE NATIVES

Everybody has an 8th house. Transformations are a part of everyone's lives. Every single person. But the 8th house placements especially with dominating energy are the ones in whose life it will show a visible impact. You can see their person and say "Oh yeah, this person definitely has 8th house energy going on" -- it is that visible! In my family, both my parents and my brother and I have 8th house placements. Even though our lives turned out differently with different themes and patterns and turning points, there is an 8th house energy in our personalities and life events.

These natives keep their lives secretive. Few people know what is going on in their lives. They tell their problems to few people only.

Money has been a theme. Saturn in 8th house native works really hard to earn money. Jupiter, Venus, Moon in 8th house natives inherit money earned by other.

No social media or private social media account or dont post much. Unless there is also some other house placements, like 1st house placements + 8th house placement = uses social media but posts less. Major 8th house placements = private social media or fake name account.

People pleasing tendency and lack of boundaries. This is something I have seen so much in 8th house natives. They give away their hearts to others. Then they face betrayal. Then they feel hurt deeply. From here on, the paths diverge. Self aware people will introspect themselves, change themselves and become self actualized. Whereas non-self aware people will keep repeating the same old pattern and getting hurt again and again.

Every year, literally every year, something happens in their life that rocks their boat. 8th house natives cannot keep still. Their life keeps bringing unexpected, unseen, unpredictable, unknown events, accidents, misfortunes, revelations, shocking, life threatening even, traumatic, self destroying events in their lives. Every year. Physical, mental, psychological. Every single year. As a result, these natives become brave hearts with very strong will power and even stronger emotional strength. Their lives are strongly visibly determined by fate.

Loneliness and solitude. No matter if they are surrounded by crowd, there is a solitude in their lives. Their personalities are also such that they retreat to themselves a lot and appear closed off to others. I have seen these natives battling the hardships of lives mostly alone. It is a strange kind peaceful loneliness. In their presence you will feel like you two are the only people alive on earth. The solitude is non threatening. It keeps them safe and nurtures their soul and psyche. Even they are not aware of it.

Not all 8th house natives are into occult though. I would suggest they do get into occult but a lot of times these natives take a lot of time to get into occult or do not use occult or fear occult. If only they explore themselves will they understand the need for occult in their lives.

Ups and downs, turns and twists, long periods of adversity then sudden improvements. 8th house is a car that has a shaky useless brake. Sometimes life gets out of control. Unexplainable and painful miseries happen. Saturn in 8th house native faced cancer that was diagnosed in antardasha of 8th house ruler. Cancer is very rare and doctors cannot tell why, how and when it started. Treatment does not work because the cancer is literally manifestation of 8th house energy. Radiation and chemotherapy have no effect on shrinking tumor. Stuff of nightmare. One after another, problems keep appearing that doctors cannot control. Top doctor of country literally says "It is God's will. God's will is hard to understand. It is a rare case. We just don't know what is going on. I have worked in this field for 30 years and cases like this just shock us." It is beyond human control. It is fate. It is shocking, life threatening and extremely confusing. This is what 8th house energy looks like. This is the life that you see and say, "8th house energy right there. Oh my god!"

8th house natives before they become self aware get into many different things that make them feel shame and regret. It is because they do not know how to manage their feelings. They do not know how to channel their feelings. 8th house gives such strong feelings that literally blind the vision and overpower the decision making. They cannot distinguish between feelings and facts. They are that consumed by feelings.

Self actualization is a life tool for these natives. Do not let emotional turmoil eat you from inside.

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felassan · 1 year

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Some more snippets of interest and insight from Mark Darrah PART 2, from a Mark Darrah on Games YouTube video where he is livestreaming playing Dragon Age II [link to Part 1] -

These last bits are collected under a cut due to length:

Chat asked "I don't want to know what was decided, but was there ever a decision on WHAT Andraste was in back rooms in DA:O times?" Mark explained that questions like that are intentionally not answered. They're answered when they're needed to be answered but are otherwise left open for as long as possible." A follow up comment in chat said "Is it undisputed fact that Andraste was a historical figure?" Mark replied "I don't know that it is undisputed fact, I mean you only ever hear about her through the writings of everybody else. Basically nothing in DA is ever presented as absolute fact, it's always presented through the eyes of somebody so nothing is actually confirmed unless you as the PC actually met them, pretty much. I think she's presented as probably real with unknown - [something, was cut off by in-game combat]".

A user in chat asked, "So what Solas said, that everyone was able to use magic before the Veil was a thing, could that have been a lie or him just not counting people that couldn't use it as people?" Mark replied that it could be true or could have just been Solas referring only to people who he saw or who were seen as real people. "The Veil was down so magic was a lot more accessible though, so it could be real. Solas would definitely not include dwarves in his assessment of 'everyone could use magic'. Solas is focused on fixing his mistakes, he isn't thinking about any of the other races very much"

Companion armor in DAII not changing was about making the companions visually distinctive. It probably also served to save dev time, as it meant that they didn't need to make elf and dwarf versions of every armor. "It does give up a degree of change. Though I think there's a way to do it so that they could change but still be [visually distinct]"

DA:O was written originally with the assumption that it wasn't going to get sequels, which was a mistake, but that's how it was. By the time it was coming out, the devs knew that it was going to get sequels, but it was a bit late at that point. So it was kind of retrofitted

Morrigan and Varric are pretty iconic, they also have very strong visuals. Alistair is also iconic, "except that he kind of looks like anyone else in full plate mail. He looks like Generic Fantasy Protagonist and then his arc is like 'I don't wanna be this guy'"

During DA:I development, there was a chess-like game that one of the designers made that they talked about implementing

On DAII's repeating environments, they lampshaded this in DA:I when Varric talks about how all caves look alike to him. "Maybe if we had lampshaded it a bit in DAII and had maybe one other cave, and not all caves looking exactly alike, maybe then we would have gotten away with it. If we had thought of it earlier there would have been time to make the cave in question look more generic and less identifiable. But there wasn't really enough time left to make another new cave"

Chat asked about adding polearms to the game. Mark explained that they "are custom animations, you can't really use the normal 1- and 2-handed animations for them, though there is a little bit of staff stuff in DAII. It's been discussed. Polearms also kind of work differently, you need a bit more ground control and Dragon Age has never really been great at letting the player control territory. So polearms couldn't really serve the role people would expect given the limitations of how the combat AIs worked historically. DA:I spent the most amount of time on control of all 3 DA games, it's the one that cared about the topic the most, but it still doesn't quite pull it off. Javelins are not polearms, spears have a throwing animation"

Chat asked ''Why did you switch from the gold silver bronze coins to just a flat 'gold' currency in DAI?'' Mark replied "I think we thought it was just simpler. I think there's a point at which you're simplifying because you aren't really getting anything out of it for your troubles. Moving away from bronze and silver was seen as an accessibility and streamlining thing. Was it a good idea? Probably not. I think you can simplify away your personality. I don't think the gold thing is a big deal, but it is going down that road. For the purposes of buying stuff, a single flat currency I think is easier to wrap your head around as a player. But from the perspective of looting, having a mix is cool and more interesting. I think there's a middle ground for sure"

Chat asked "Was there ever an attempt to make Kirkwall a seamless open-world?" Mark replied "In the early days of DA:I, one of the programmers got Kirkwall running in Frostbite as a seamless open world. But there was never an attempt made in DAII itself to make it that. But all of Kirkwall itself [during this time on DA:I] was running as an open world, unpopulated, single level in Frostbite at one point. The level of density with the clips, you were never doing this as a single level, it would just have had a heart attack"

One of the advantages of first person view while in Anthem's hub area was that it let the devs do really tight streets, which is cool

The lore in Dragon Age isn't always paid off by the gameplay. "This has always been a problem in Dragon Age"

There have been several times where DA has "lored around" its 'No Teleportation' rule to allow for the gameplay of fast movement without actually introducing teleporting into the setting. Characters actually move very fast in a straight line - DA:I has a ton of superfast movement. On mages who teleport or seem to teleport, Mark said that "I think we would probably lore that out, patch over it. Like Fade Step's lore is literally 'you move really fast'. Eluvians are presented in Trespasser as being more like planar travel. The reason for a lot of the magic rules in DA is that problem of D&D, where if you pick at the magic system you realize, you have a first level spell which is mind control and no-one seems to care, or you could literally teleport into the throne room of the king and stab him in the head. So it's trying to 'patch over' the high fantasy issues of magic by either eliminating some things from the lore like teleportation and making others be viewed with a lot more negativity, like mind control in the case of blood magic and peoples' attitudes to this"

Part 1 of this post can be found here. :)

(pls note that in places there is a bit of paraphrasing of the info, the best source is always the primary source with full quotes in their original context)

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#dragon age #bioware #video games #long post #longpost #dragon age: dreadwolf #dragon age 4 #the dread wolf rises #da4 #anthem #morrigan #solas #queen of my heart #alistair theirin #fav warden #sry these posts were originally posted early unfinished w/ some broken links by mistake and in the wrong order #they're now finished & fixed ^^

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nogenderbee · 9 months

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may i request the letters I, J and M from the yandere alphabet, for yandere ena and mafuyu? have fun writing!

Of course you can! And I did had fun writing! Maybe even a bit too much... but well I just hope you enjoy this as much as I did! <3

Mafuyu, Ena I, J, M yandere alphabet

TW: unhealthy obsession, argument, death, suicide, abuse, classic yandere stuff

TagList: @bleachtheidiot @prsk-krow @qxmmi @modyuki @m3g-luka

⊱ Improve = Will they be willing to recover from this psychotic state for their lover?

Mafuyu will repeat that what she's doing is simply showing you how much she loves you and it won't be easy to convince her to go to doctor unless you play it off with "doing it for you"! But you better be patient and pick right words because it's not gonna be easy to convince her! But it's not impossible either!

And when she does go there, she'll get locked in mental hospital quicker... sure you get your break but Mafuyu is good at pretending so she goes out rather fastly! Of course still a lot time passes... but when she's back she'll be mad at you, she'll think that you wanted to lock her away from you even if you payed her visits, but if you payed visits, she won't be this mad. But after that, she absolutely refuses to continue her healing, especially that she sees nothing wrong with her behavor.

"Y/N... did you do it to take a break from me? You know I respect privacy and I could give it to you if you'd ask... there was no need to lock me."

⊱ Justification = Why are they acting like that? When did it started?

Mafuyu has that classic yandere troupe... she never felt much emotions but when she met you... she immidietly felt her heart flutter. She knew she want's to feel this more often so she wanted to spend some more time with you but the more time she spent, the more this feeling grew and the more time she wanted to spend with you.

She didn't even noticed when she her feelings started to become a bit... unhealthy... but she ignored them, she thought it was normal as she had no previous experience with emotions.

"There's nothing wrong with how I'm feeling... I remember people saying love changes your mind... it must be simply it."

⊱ Moving on = If you die or escape, will they be able to move on? How easy it'll be for them?

Mafuyu will not be able to move past it. If you died, she's quick to realize she lost you for good... if you simply escaped she'll still look for you but she's also quick to realize there's no going back when she tries everything and looks in all places, including your and your friends houses.

No matter what you did, she wants to be with you, she wants to still watch ove you and the only exit she sees is to follow you in afterlife. So the very night, she'll end her life.

"I... I need to see them again... I need to be with them... no matter in what form..."

⊱ Improve = Will they be willing to recover from this psychotic state for their lover?

Ena will not agree to take specialists help untill she sees how her behavior is affecting you. If you point out how many times she had yelled at you or even hurt you for small things you did that she simply didn't like, that's whe she notices it... But if you happen to yell at her or choose mean words, it won't convince her so act patient, calmly and sweet, and you'll get her!

Once she notices, she'll go to therapist on her own but she'll do whatever is needed to not be locked. She will attend to therapy session for your well being and will try doing her best to recover but if she happens to be locked... first few days she's absolutely furious and most likely even destroys some furniture along the way... she calmls down with time tho. But you better visit her once they allow you for it! She still wants to see you!

She really takes healing seriously so as time passes, she really get's better! There are still signs of her not being fully healthy but she did get on better path!

"I'm doing it for you... I don't want to hurt you so much anymore so... I'll try to recover... but you need to promise me that you'll stay by my side!"

⊱ Justification = Why are they acting like that? When did it started?

At first it was just a simple crush for Ena! But with time... she felt like she needs your attention more often... it began rather casually... she initiated more talks and hangouts with you. But later... she started literally asking for attention from you but her words were rather demanding... And that's when things started to get concerning... she would not let anyone else have more of your attention than she has. She wanted to be your number 1 priority like you were to her! From there on, she was only yearning for more and that's where her yandere behavior REALLY began!

"Hey! Why are you paying attention to them?! I'm right here!!"

⊱ Moving on = If you die or escape, will they be able to move on? How easy it'll be for them?

At first, Ena will be absolutely furious. If you escape, she will not give up so easily and will literally look all over the world for you! If you die, she'll know she has no chance of getting you back... she knows she can't keep the body even if she'd want to so she probably takes some of your belongings and makes a shrine. If you escaped, she does the same but with thinks she managed to get before your disappearence.

She's not the type to just end her life from that loss even if it is tempting... but she decides to stay on this world and cherish every breathshe spent with you when you were still by her side.

"Heh~ I remember when this happened~ this is photo from our first date! I remember every single detail about it~"

❉⊱•═•⊰❉⊱•═•⊰❉⊱•═•⊰❉⊱•═•⊰❉⊱•═•⊰❉⊱•═•⊰❉

#project sekai #colorful stage #project sekai colorful stage #x reader #project sekai x reader #colorful stage x reader #project sekai colorful stage x reader #mafuyu asahina #ena shinonome #mafuyu asahina x reader #ena shinonome x reader #project sekai mafuyu asahina #project sekai ena shinonome #project sekai mafuyu x reader #project sekai ena x reader #yandere #alphabet #yandere alphabet

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cyle · 2 years

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you said that there is no inbalance between likes and reblogs, and that people made it up. how can you be so blind when it is so, so painfully obvious? this used to be a blogging site, but no one reblogs anymore, and most of the art/edits go unnoticed. and this is not just me, all of my content creator friends are experiencing the same thing, many of them even quit editing because no one even reblogs anymore, and the content never gets spread around. the only stuff that gets lots of reblogs nowadays are funny shitposts or tiktok/twitter screenshots. fandom gifsets only reach 2k+ if they are on the trending page. are you aware that this site is no longer the home of fandom, but the home of shitposts and leftovers from other apps? if likes AT LEAST showed up on dashboard like on twitter, it would do miracles to us. please consider making changes to the like button before you lose all your content creators.

i believe you must be referencing this and this?

first, i don't believe anyone "made it up". i know people (including other members of tumblr staff) are worried about this, and for good reason. but let's break this down a bit more.

your specific screenshot is a cumulative total over time, and reblogs repeat much more often than likes, since people can reblog many times and can only like once, so of course the further back you look, the more the ratio will be better for older posts. also, the interface back then didn't even separate the like count from the reblog count, so how would anyone in 2015 even know the ratio? probably by looking at their activity, but even then, if you're actually a popular blog, you're probably drowning in activity items and can't "see" the ratio.

i can almost guarantee you that if you were counting the ratio for the first 3 months of a post's life in 2015, and compared it to the first 3 months of a post's life now, you'd see very little divergence in the reblog-to-like ratio. i literally have access to see this ratio across the whole platform over time, it's part of my job, and i can't find strong evidence that the ratio has changed. i was really worried about this too!

the big caveat i'll concede is that for some individual blogs, the ratio may be different today than it was 7 years ago. if you're comparing tumblr in the universe of 2015 to tumblr in today's ecosystem, you're in for a hard comparison no matter what, because the world is not like it was in 2015. that's not altogether a bad thing. times change. we have to adapt with it. some blogs that were popular in 2015 simply aren't going to be as popular today; and likewise, some popular blogs today wouldn't have been popular in 2015.

also, "if likes AT LEAST showed up on dashboard like on twitter, it would do miracles to us" -- they do! it's called "Based on your likes", and you probably didn't realize you turned it off in your Dashboard Preferences, so you never see it. it's on by default for everyone, unless they turn it off. it's a really amazing discovery mechanism for many, many people on tumblr. that's part of what we've been trying to do to adapt the platform to any such changes in behavior over time.

regardless of whether or not the ratio is changing, though, i definitely agree with you that there's more for us to do to try to keep content creators around. making it clearer how content spreads around the platform is definitely one of those things. stay tuned, because there are lot of improvements in that regard that we've been working on. but they don't look the same as what we may have done in 2015 tumblr terms, they look closer to what other mainstream platforms do today.

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villainengine · 5 months

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The state of things.

I am cooking.

I recently experienced a hard drive failure but I have managed to back up and recover what I needed. Like always, I'm bouncing back and forth between several things at once to keep my brain entertained but I think it's about time I double down and focus on one thing.

I spent my time writing a little prequel for Eternal Fault and liked how it turned out so I'm also making a little game out of it. Little, I repeated, trying to remind my brain that it should stay little. I really liked fancy little elves so I made them into fancy little elves.

It's about how a woman who is a goddess and even gods aren't infallible to wrongdoings. Which... doesn't hit much now that I wrote that down. I... will think about it more later.

I also write and rewrite so often that I can scarcely recognize anything I've written these days. A lot of my stuff I hoard and covet like some gremlins in deep mountains. I also wrote another little thing, which sadly spiralled a lot out of little scope but I kept it strictly text save for the few decorative illustrations so it should be fine. I said, convincing my mind to believe in a hopeless delusion.

This one is about a dead prince and the desperate schemes and machinations to cover up the fact he's very dead. You get to play as a hot lady of the court, as always.

I'm in the habit that I don't want to reveal much unless I know for a certainty that I will release the thing in a soon timeframe, so I have a lot of stuff going on underneath the surface, but as always, I don't really want to show anything because I've learned from my experience of creating past disappointment.

I also spent a lot of time practising writing smut in the past few months so my level of degeneracy is high. I'm currently editing Eternal Fault to implement more mature scenes into them since I left them to last due to my inexperience the last time I wrote.

In doing these, I also had to change other scenes around them because... dynamics.

...Anyway, here's the main cast of all three stories. I try to cater to different flavours/preferences, but since each main characters have her own personality, their sexual contents would also be wildly different from one another.

You can't really pick to be submissive or dominant, but like I mentioned before, I provide the option to skip if they aren't to your liking.

#eternal fault #development log #(did you change title again) (yes)#interactive fiction #visual novel #otome game

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angelgoddard · 11 months

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i would like some of your views for my situation right now. i found out about loa and stuff 2 years ago. i’ve always wanted to manifest an entire differe life, everything different. i did affirming, visualization, void, sats, and many more but nothing worked. i came up with my own rules then, just deciding and affirming once then the desires will materialize into 3D, that didn’t work either. i don’t know what to do. everything is suffocating me, i literally cried for like an hour before i decided to ask you. everything is getting hopeless. i don’t know what i’m doing wrong. i keep repeating to myself, i have it i have it, done it for like 2 years. nothing worked till now. i kept questioning me if all these success stories could, why can’t i? i’m literally so discouraged and exhausted i just cry so often these days. please help. sos

hi baby :( i'm really sorry to hear about your struggles with the law! i was actually like this myself for a while too, i understood the law but i couldn't make any meaningful change in my life.

the way i got it together was by going back to the source. the book that helped me realize everything was "how to manifest your desires" by neville goddard. it was a long book, so i took my time going through it and read it whenever i was free to do so. the most important things to know are:

1. conciousness is the only reality.

2. persistence is key.

3. thoughts/emotions do not manifest.

4. you are not doing methods to "get", you are doing methods to stop hunger.

5. the sabbath state should be the goal, not getting desires in the 3d.

the manifestation process is very simple. one, decide what you want. two, persist in the assumption that you have what you want. three, fulfill yourself and the law will do its job. stop placing value on the 3d, and dwell in imagination. the reason you've been unable to make progress is because you're placing value on the 3d and not focusing on ending the inner man's hunger. you know these essentials, and all you have to do is apply.

settle down with one method. for you, i'd recommend staying away from the void and doing sats. (if you need a different method, feel free to send another ask and i can suggest smth else!) pick a single scenario that lasts no longer than a few seconds and loop it as you fall asleep. don't worry about feeling emotions or anything, just loop it. throughout the day, close your eyes and think fo your desires from the perspective of having them. do not attempt to police your thoughts or force them to be what you want them to be. let them pass by your mind with no acknowledgement unless they reflect the state in which you wish to be. do whatever you need to do in the 3d, but don't identify with any of it if it doesn't reflect your desires.

eventually you will get to the point in your journey where your thoughts will begin to naturally flow from the wish fulfilled state. you will begin to not feel the need to participate in any methods or affirmations. your desire will no longer be a desire, and rather something you have. your desire may be on your mind so much that it "haunts" you in a way that's familiar and not in a lacking one. this is called the sabbath state, which should be the true goal. the sabbath is the gestational period where movement occurs to grant you your desire in the 3d. (during the sabbath, you can still engage in methods if you wish.) when it does come, it shouldn't feel like something you've been desperately waiting for, but more like a pleasant event.

tldr;

1. focus on imagination only.

2. fulfill the inner man until you stop desiring.

3. place no value on the 3d.

4. stop forcing yourself to do something to "get". there is no getting because creation is finished.

you can do this! there is no failure in the law <3 i believe in you with my whole heart!

#law of assumption #answering asks #manifestation #miss know it all ♡#minnie luvs the law ♡

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brazenautomaton · 9 months

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re gender dysphoria: what are those other criteria, though, do you think? i share your intuition that the number of people who claim to have dysphoria may be higher than the number of people who really do, but i struggle to think of a better way to ID those who do other than "ask them if they have it." do we just disregard their "yes" if it comes with the caveat "and also i think we should broaden that concept to include people who want to go by 'they' sometimes but otherwise change nothing"?

see now that's the tricky part, figuring out how many people are lying or mistaken about a completely subjective experience

as I understand it the neurological origin of transgenderism is that your body develops one way if there's sufficient testosterone present, and another way if there isn't. this is what SRY-activated genes are. everyone contains a complete genetic blueprint for themselves as a man and themselves as a woman, and it's the presence of testosterone that determines which one to use.

your brain forms at a different time than the rest of your body, and if the testosterone level goes above/below the line between those two points, then you have mismatch. your sense of self and your sense of your own body are made for a body you don't have. you literally have a man's/woman's brain in a woman's/man's body. since you cannot change the nature of someone's identity, and it would be evil if you could, the solution is to change the body.

as I understand it, there is a part of the brain you can look at to determine if it's male or female and in trans people it's much more likely to be mismatched, but the part is so small you can't really see it unless you do an autopsy, and no research on this has been done in like 30 years and if it had been it'd be too ideologically captured to be useful.

so I believe that trans people do exist and it is a real condition and it has nothing whatsoever to do with anyone's culture, opinions, decisions, or ideology. it has nothing to do with gender roles, it has nothing to do with how you are seen, it's that your nervous system is wired for a different model and is constantly reporting "there's this thing here that isn't supposed to be here, and stuff is missing, and your balance is off, and and and..."

you don't have to have an ideological declaration of the true ungraspable essence of gender-truth, and before trans rights became devoured, this is what I observed: "dude I don't know what it is that makes a True Man or True Woman I just know I'm the wrong fucking one."

this was ideologically inconvenient, so it's not the story any more. now the experience has to match what the ideology wants to be true, which is that there is no subjective experience of gender whatsoever and it's only contemptible, punishable sexists who ever think otherwise.

so now we have to have to repeat that there's "so many genders" and accept it as "scientific fact" even though it's based on nothing but devouring. there's two genders and they're "SRY-activated" and "not SRY-activated" and they exist independent of any opinion or culture or identity. no matter what cultures associate with them, the fact that different things can be associated with it does not change underlying material reality. but we're not allowed to notice that because it would mean sexism isn't maximally easy to solve and might require something other than yelling and making demands.

this is all only vaguely connected. my conclusion is that there are in theory ways you could screen for it like "has this been a thing you have felt since you were young and only recently were able to put a name to" and "did you develop strong opinions in gender politics before or after you realized you were trans" or "if every other human being on Earth died and you were doing some I Am Legend shit, would you continue to present as this gender and would you seek HRT in the apocalyptic Afterscape?"

but it is impossible to actually communicate "no you have to answer this question honestly instead of repeating the thing that affirms your ingroup status" and even if you could, it's impossible to have the people looking at those answers care about the truth instead of playing cruelty games and telling flattering stories to themselves about their ideology

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I have not been around for a reason, OK? There is a reason that you have not seen me, that I have been absent, that everything has been either really late or low quality. There is a reason. And yeah, I as I'm talking into my phone, I screamed that because I'm so * frustrated. Like I'm also, I'm not well, I'm not doing well and I am trying to keep my **** together. What little bit of it I have a hold of right now and there it's just not going well. OK, I am doing my best in every * aspect. I am doing my best and it's * pathetic right now. I know, but there is nothing that I can * do about it. There's nothing. I have one Med that I have been off for a couple of weeks now through no fault of my own. The pharmacy won't give it to me. OK my mental health across the board off the charts insane. Just so so bad. It took me 3 hours. To go to bed last night, and that's just walking from one room to the * next. Typing don't even * start. There is a reason that this rant is coming out through voice. It's because two type. All of this would drive me insane. I would have even more of a breakdown than I'm already having right now. I am trying so hard and every second of every day is so much * work for my brain right now. It has been like this for a long time, but it is just so, so bad. there is a reason I am trying so hard to get into this program cause I need help. This is not going to get better on its own. It's not and I'm doing what I can, but it's not a lot. It's not, it's not going well. Nothing is going well. I'm home alone for a couple of days here. And that doesn't go well. My anxiety is. Also insane. I feel a little bit like I'm losing my mind. It is non-stop torture. And I don't want to cry, but here it's kind of starting to happen. And it's pretty common these days because I am just so, so tired. I am so tired. Of everything, of all of this, I. I am doing what I can. And I cannot do more than that. And I need some patience and some understanding. And I need people. To to take what I have given if I give you something and you want edits. At the moment, do not come to me if it's a typing project, don't even I. I literally wanted like a couple of changes and I lost my * mind that triggered this * rant. Like the straw that broke the camel's back sort of a thing. I. I I'm laughing like a lunatic. I just. I'm losing it. I'm not. I'm not doing well. I'm not doing well, I feel. This isn't good. This isn't good. I. I can't do this anymore, but I have to and that's the *. I wouldn't say it's the * worst, but it's not a good * time. And no one understands what it's like unless you have. The fun concoction of mental illnesses that I do. You just don't. But I need, I need you. I need everyone to believe. That I am doing my best. As tragic as that * sounds right now, with the way with that, with what I'm doing, it sounds like nothing. But it's what I've got. And. I need to be. Supported, but also kind of left alone. But also kind of to not be * triggered because on a good day I have low key anger. I have anger on the back burner like I'm the * Hulk. I'm Bruce Banner . That is where I am at on a good day. And when my mental health is tanked and I'm not feeling the greatest cause I'm also dealing with a tooth infection too. And I just got over being sick. I am the worst off I've been in. A month or two. The last time I was taking three hours to do something. That was last time it was this bad I. And it's it's been getting worse again, even worse. And. I know I am just repeating myself and I am rambling but I need to get this out or I'm going to scream. More than I kind of already have, honestly, I've startled the cats a little bit. I just I. I'm tired and I'm frustrated and I'm angry and. I for sake. My food is here, I'm gonna eat my ** chicken wings and watch some stuff to make myself happy and try to not think about. How awful everything is.

#venting via speech to text #maison speaks

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ask-obt · 1 year

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What steps do you usually have for creating each page, and how long does each one usually take you? Do you do stuff like thumbnail entire chapters in advance, etc?

I don't know how big your page buffer is, but you seem to get pages done at a really impressive rate, especially considering every page is clean and colored, so I'd love to know how you manage it :)

// this is a long ask, so buckle up!

all of my pages start with an outline, which is then fleshed out into a script- over time I've found that having an entire chapter done before starting any other step cuts out unnecessary fat that comes with editing. if there's one thing I learned from preboot OBT, trying to figure out what exactly happens on a page as you're drawing it can lead to a lot of heartbreak if you decide to change it (a lot of preboot OBT's chapter 4 was subject to this- I have a million drafts of rune and fienne in the market because I didn't know what I wanted them to do there). my scripting program is actually the beta version of a program one of my classmates in college made, and if it ever goes public I'd be happy to pop a link since I believe they want to make it open source eventually. on average my scripts are about 5000-6000 words long, and are written (casually) like film scripts since that's the format I was trained on as a film student.

my outlines are a bit sloppy because it's just like a stream of consciousness flowing out while I try getting ideas slapped down as quickly as possible. I try not to worry too much about details unless I have a clear vision in mind because I think writing the plot out in one go flows the most smoothly.

and then from there, I expand that outline into a script.

after the script is completed, and assuming I have enough buffer, I thumbnail the entire next chapter- or at least as much as I can stand in one go. I'll usually either be working on rendering the previous chapter during this step, or I'll have the previous chapter completed so I can devote my attention to it. either way, I try and give myself room to do a variety of tasks depending on my mood. thumbnails are easy to work on while on-the-go for example, but they require a lot of thought to put together. coloring can be tedious, but it's great to do while multitasking of on lunch at one of my jobs.

part of the thumbnailing process for me includes putting down text bubbles. surprisingly, this is a very tedious task, so I try to get it all done in one go so I don't have to agonize over it. and this is where my process gets a bit convoluted, so bear with me.

to do this, I take a look at my script and break all the dialogue into different text bubbles. I've gotten to the point where I think I do pretty well naturally finding breaks in pages, and I just go in chronological order putting text down. for this step I have page templates prepped, which show the safety margins that I need to follow to prevent text from getting stuck in the binding when printing into books. I make sure all the text is safe, and then move onto the next step.

after that, I copy the page with text bubbles, and then shrink it really small into thumbnail size. on a layer above this screenshot I trace the text bubbles, and then treat those bubbles as "dead zones" to draw around while working on the thumbnails. this might be an unnecessary step if you have a good grasp on how much text takes up a panel, but I am historically awful at judging that so knowing the exact text bubble size when thumbnailing helps prevent my bubbles from getting in the way after the art is already rendered. then, rinse and repeat for the rest of the chapter!

some chapters I'm quicker at thumbing than others- on the low end we've got chapter 5, which I wrapped up in 2 months (I did roughly 1 thumb per day)

and then chapter 6 which I dragged my feet on a little bit, at around 6 months

(and chapter 7, which is twice the length of a normal chapter for me, took 4 months!)

after that is sketching, the part I dread most when working on a chapter. it's the part that requires the most thinking on my part, and I did away with sketching completely for most of chapter 3- but I've been trying to make my lines thinner lately, and until I build up the confidence to work without sketches, I'm afraid I'm stuck with them. I try to do 1-2 sketches per day, but some days I just don't do them if I'm not feeling up to it.

(I'm actually avoiding sketching while I work on this ask)

while most of OBT is done in CSP, the one thing I don't do there is lines- for that I use Autodesk Sketchbook. sketchbook has a pretty incredible predictive stroke tool that adjusts your strokes after you make them. it takes a bit of time to get used to, but with it I can draw much faster than any other program or with any other stabilization tool. I gave CSP an honest shot with lining by trying to use it for 6 months, but sketchbook was just too powerful so I live the multiprogram life. I try my best to keep all my lines closed during this process because it'll make coloring WAY easier. like I think coloring used to take me an hour, now it takes me 20 minutes tops.

then I flip off the visibility on all layers except the lineart layer, save as a PNG (saving a working file as well if I'm feeling spicy), and then import to CSP! where the most fun part begins.

to start, to do that colored lineart thing where the lines on my characters are darker on the outside than the inside, I start by coloring characters their inside color first (using the "lock transparent pixels" layer option). for comics this is reduced to a simple "warm palette" color and "cool palette" color, which are brown and blue respectively. it's subtle, but you can see it in action with rune and eilwyn here.

then I use the magic wand tool, my best friend. I select the negative space around the characters, invert it, and then with the dark color selected in my palette (for me it's a dark brown approaching black) and the transparent pixels still locked, I use the "outline selection" option to outline the characters. I usually outline them by 6 px, but it'll depend on what looks best.

then for coloring, with the characters still selected, I use the "shrink selection" option to shrink it by 1 pixel. this helps prevent aliasing when I use the fill bucket to fill characters in with a base color! after that I pick them out by character and manually add their main color by hand, so they look something like this.

and here's the part where I impart upon ye, dear reader, with the forbidden knowledge I learned while doing the Monster House Marathon this month. see, I really like doing these daily events because they push me to my limit. a page a day is the most comfortable fast pace I can work on the comic, but it can still be a bit of a strain to get a page done before my bedtime, so I'm much more willing to learn shortcuts in order to get a nice juicy 6 hours of sleep instead of 4.

if you do a closed lineart method like me for most of your character's markings, the "Set Reference Layer" tool is going to become your new best friend. using this, I set the lineart layer as the reference layer (and only the lineart layer), move over to my coloring layer, grab my fill bucket tool, and then I can just start literally filling in characters within seconds. some characters have unclosed markings that I'll have to do by hand, but this is extremely quick and I love it so much.

finally I add a multiply layer where I do some light shading. this step used to be full cel shading, though over time I've found that my art reads a little more clearly without it. and shading also used to be miserable because it was another 30 minutes to an hour of rendering that kept me from completing a page, so it sometimes got a little miserable.

and finally, I add backgrounds and lighting effects. I have a pretty decent library of pre-rendered backgrounds I've made that I can just plop in a scene, but sometimes for new or one-time locations I'll make a new one by hand.

and that's a completed page! it's a bit hard to calculate how long a singular page takes start to finish since I try doing everything before the lineart in batch style, but I'd say it all roughly evens out to 2-4 hours. breaking it down, it looks something like:

Thumbnail - 10-20 minutes Sketch - 30 minutes - 1 hour Lineart - 30 minutes - 1 hour Coloring - 10-20 minutes Rendering - 10-20 minutes Background - 20 minutes - 1 hour

so pages are pretty quick for me to make! this helps me build a pretty sizeable buffer, I think my previous record was somewhere around 40 pages? maybe 70 if I included dielle's wish. though I will admit during this Monster House Marathon, I actually ran out of buffer on day 7, and I'd been laying the tracks in front of the train until, uh, checks watch, the 27th! as of writing this I finished the buffer through the MHM, so I can rest easy. this ask probably won't queue until after the MHM has ended so this probably sounds a little comedic. the main reason I was able to manage these daily updates without a buffer was because of an art high I was experiencing this month, which is also why I did a marathon in the first place.

though usually, I really am an advocate for buffers. having a buffer of at least 3 months means I can hop around with different processes as my interest in them flips around. my brain usually likes to focus on one task at a time, and a lot of it, so having that freedom is great for me. and sometimes, I just wanna take a month off to play a new game or hyperfixate on stardew valley once again! it all comes down to practice and developing a workflow and schedule that works for you.

#on borrowed time comic #ask-obt #ooc #wip #behind the scenes #page process

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timeoverload · 3 months

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I didn't want to do anything over the weekend because I was tired. I'm sorry for not posting as much but I just wasn't in the mood to scroll through tumblr or spend hours writing. Honestly I just wanted to play video games because I don't get time to do stuff like that during the week usually. I wanted to continue watching the show I started last Sunday but I didn't end up doing that. I talked to my grandma on the phone for a while yesterday but that almost always makes me depressed because she is so unhappy and I wish I could do more for her. I wish I had the energy to clean but I felt like death but that's nothing new. I don't know if my room will ever be clean again at this rate. I have a hard time living my life mostly in one room. I'm starting to think I need a storage unit for all the shit I'm not using. I really miss having my own walk in closet. Eventually I will get my shit together.

I'm not a fan of Mondays and it was a long day as usual. I was supposed to only have 28 cases but then I had 3 add-ons throughout the day. I had 3 rooms going for a while so that wasn't super fun.

I was trying so hard to be in a good mood. Apparently I wasn't trying hard enough because I had multiple people ask why I was in a bad mood. That just made it worse.

The morning team lead asked me that shortly after he spent like 10 minutes giving me a lecture about training the lady that works at night. He was lecturing me while I was still setting up for the day and he can't keep it short whenever he has a conversation with anyone. I had a lot to do and I was scrambling before he even started to talk to me. He was trying to tell me I needed to come in later on Wednesday and Thursday so I could train but I know that's not going to be necessary because it's not going to take me very long to show her what I need her to do. That's not his decision to make and it will also make it more stressful for me in the morning. He has to repeat himself and talk to me like I don't know how to train people. I had to take a class to do that and I'm still a preceptor even though I don't do it that often anymore because I don't have a ton of patience left for that but it's justified. Unfortunately I had some very bad trainees in the past but that's a long story. I suppose there have been a lot of good ones too so I can't complain too much. Anyway, he and I have been getting along better recently but he still drives me crazy sometimes. I think he scared the 2 new people away with his antics. He loves to talk about how he is against everything being "politically correct". Whenever I hear people say that, it makes me think that they think it should be ok to be a disrespectful asshole without facing any consequences. It pisses me off and I have to bite my tongue a lot.

I was annoyed at lunch because I just wanted to eat and have 30 minutes by myself but that didn't happen. I wanted to sit and eat in the cafeteria because it's a lot easier than trying to eat in the locker room. It was great until that creepy guy showed up and sat down across from me. His shift didn't even start until noon so I don't understand why he showed up so early. He left me alone for a while but he has been trying to talk to me more again and flirt with me in an indirect way so he doesn't get in trouble. He can't seem to take a hint. He also bought me and a couple other single girls chocolate for valentines day. It was weird and of course he didn't get enough for everyone else. Unfortunately he still works up in my department sometimes even though he was supposed to start working in the basement full time in January. I made it a point to let management know that he makes me uncomfortable but nothing has changed. They aren't going to do anything about it unless he does something really bad I guess. I know he has a bad temper and I'm afraid he is going to snap sometime. It makes me uneasy and I need to try harder to stay away from him. I guess I have to start eating lunch in the locker room or in the stairwell again.

I didn't get to leave until 6:30 because I had to wait for the last 2 cases to get done and I had to train. I have a pile of stuff on my station that I'm going to have to sterilize in the morning because I didn't have time to do that. I'm not looking forward to that but I need to stop thinking about work now.

I didn't realize that my next appointment is on a Wednesday again. I'm lucky that I actually have enough PTO this time so I requested the 20th and the 21st off. Hopefully that will get approved.

I was looking forward to sleeping in a little bit Friday morning but that's not going to happen because I have a dentist appointment. I forgot about it. I don't know why I always make such early appointments but I guess it's nice to get it out of the way so I don't worry about it the whole day.

I don't want to do anything right now. It's hard to move. I have to get up and feed the cats soon. I don't think I want to eat dinner tonight because I had too much for lunch and it made me feel gross. I feel like I gained weight over the weekend but I was stress eating so that makes sense. I also didn't go grocery shopping so I don't have much food left. I need to try to relax now and hopefully I can fall asleep at a decent time.

Thanks to everyone that tried to cheer me up today. I hope you all have a great day tomorrow!!! :) 💖💖💖

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arklayraven · 5 months

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I really want to continue playing nb and the og obey me, but my main issue is the events that not only because they happen so often so you have to choose between story progression or getting the cool new thing! There is also the fact that unless you have time to grind and grind and grind, have money, and/or saved up a bunch of devil points there is little to no way to get what you want especially if it’s a cool card. Also the boxes piss me off cause I’ve been cheated out of a card so many times because of the boxes that I’ve just given up on the games.

Sorry for the rant I’m just really pissed I can’t play a game I like.

It's alright, I'm fine with ranting over this.

And I completely understand ya here and agree. The events are honestly too much, little breathing space in between, and they are becoming more stressful and draining by how much you have to grind in them. Especially for the CB events, which look to be becoming constant near month long events, but are so much more stressful. As well just chances to get what you want are near impossible. Unless you are very lucky in both the event, and if you try, summoning in Nightmares to get those needed cheat cards.

Yes, Lonely Devil is a thing now, but with these constant events, its hard to give LD a chance because it'll be a decision on using resources on LD, or the current new event, and of course as you mentioned, the main story lessons if they happen to release during those times.

Like its very clear, whether some players(devoted PTP solmare supporters) like to admit it or not, both og OM and NB have become very PTP only and anti-FTP with all the restrictions and all. Like if you really want to make real progress in the game, get all the rewards/cards you want, etc. You'll have to throw real money in for guarantee wins/gets. And I'm sorry to PTP players but your advice to FTP players is kinda pointless now. I've seen it given to others a couples time now to make things sound easy or possible through FTP means but in reality, it really isn't. Also the fact FTP players have to jump through many loops to get event a taste of good stuff compared to PTP players, is just ridiculous at this point to me.

So I completely understand ya for not being able to continue playing the game. Tbh, I want to drop it too, but just can't, it sadly has a hook on me, and I'm a FTP player. As well, my love for Asmo is just too much now. lol Yet, Solmare treats him so bad in these events/nightmares(I mean look at what happened to his bday event/nightmare).

If Solmare cared about their players, all types. I feel story battles should be very easy to beat, and more story driven focused than battles progression focused.

Also, don't run so many events during the times main story lessons drop? Yes, some say we can just take our time. That the main lessons will still be there, but they don't take into account if you don't read it on release it, you will be spoiled hard and that ruins it for many to keep playing.

Also Nightmares, should have better new cards got rates, and less annoying repeats. Especially for new special limited time Nightmares. I don't even know when we'll get revivals now, if we do....Which is why I feel so desperate to try to get my fave cards while I can. But my luck has been worse since their supposed increased gacha rates and I fear I won't get my Asmo again...

lol I started ranting myself here, so will end this before I go on too much.

I'm sorry Solmare driven you, and many players, away with their greedy and selfish changes and decisions. I can only hope they will listen finally and change/improve things for players but...I really doubt it now.

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