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joshlmbrt · 1 month

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Hey! I came across your account recently so I would like to make a request where Eddie and reader are secretly dating because he says he doesn't want to ruin her reputation (she's not a cheerleader or very popular, but still) but some people are starting to suspect you two, then Eddie starts bullying you so no one can continue talking about it, but there's a catch, he does it without warning you. So one minute you're in his locker and the next he's humiliating you in front of everyone, but that only increases the rumors, because everyone starts saying that not even the school freak wants you. If u dont like ignore me pls 😭

thank u so much for this request, i absolutely LOVE this type of request:p. i hope i do it justice and i apologize for it taking so long! w; secret relationship, angst!

eddie gets nervous when dustin brings something up about you - a fidgety nervous.

then eddie gets nervous when steve brings you up at a hang out you were at since you were robin and steve’s best friend - this time it’s a sweaty nervous.

he’s beginning to suspect that people realize that you both are dating and he doesn’t want your name run through the dirt just because you decided to fall in love with him.

so he does what he does best - try to ‘distract’.

you stumble when you feel a shoulder bump into yours, brows furrowing as you quickly lift your head up. you see a mess of curls and a leather jacket. you can hear other people around laugh when they notice the look on your face - confused and slightly hurt.

it was never your idea to keep the relationship a secret, it was eddie’s. you never understood why he wanted to keep it a secret - he never elaborated on the why.

it was probably only an accident, is what you think. until it happens more through the week. and you couldn’t even ask him about it because he had kept pushing you away, ignoring you.

week three was worse.

a feeling of dread heavy on your shoulders as soon as you stepped into the chilly building, fingers gripped around the strap of your bag.

robin meets up with you, a sympathetic look on her face. “did you sleep any last night?”

you give her a look. “what do you think?”

judging by the bags under your eyes, she thinks you did not. she looks away.

“sorry,” you say softly, stopping by your locker. she stops next to you, giving you a worried look. “i’ve just… i’ve never been bullied, over looked maybe, but never bullied. and i’ve never bullied others. and eddie’s my-” you pause, hand gripping the chipped locker.

robin tilts her head. “your what?”

you lower your voice. “my boyfriend.”

her eyes widen comically wide as she gasps. “what?!” you’re quick to shush her. “sorry. when did this happen? how come we never knew?”

“6 months ago,” your eyes cut over her shoulders. “and he didn’t want… anyone to know. i don’t know why, i don’t have any problem with people knowing. but i wanted to respect his wishes.”

her brows pinch together in confusion. “why would…”

“your guess is as good as mine,” you turn back to look in your locker when a group of friends pass, eyes cutting over to you before giggling, a couple of whispers shared. “and i can’t talk to him because he’s been ignoring my phone calls and hasn’t been coming over for our usual saturday movie nights.”

she frowns a bit, head turning just in time to notice the boy, eyes narrowing at him. he peeks up before quickly looking away, noticing her stare.

she knows.

maybe lunch time he went a bit to far.

went a bit to far by knocking your lunch over your chest on accident.

conversations are stopped. eyes are on you both. and there’s tears welling up in your eyes as you stare at the tray and food spread over the floor.

dustin, mike, and lucas are staring at you, a worried expression on their faces.

jason is the first to burst out into laughter. a shrill thing that makes the hairs on your arms stand.

soon, everyone joins in. thats when the first of many tears slip from your eyes.

“i hate you.” it slips before you can catch yourself and its raw with emotion, the words getting choked up on as you watch his face fall.

you turn away, wiping at your cheeks with the back of your hand furiously, head down. the heavy door closes behind you when you walk out.

you can hear the door open and close again, your name being yelled. you keep walking because you know who it is, and eddie is the last person you want to speak to right now.

a hand wraps around your bicep, turning you around. “hey… i’m-i’m sorry. i-” you flinch away from his palms when he tries to reach up to wipe away the tears.

“no. don’t… don’t touch me,” you step back, shaking your head. his shoulders slump and he stares at you. he didn’t know what he expected - especially after three weeks of torturing you. “why are you being so mean to me?”

his heart breaks when he hears the crack in your whispered voice. he thinks you probably didn’t want him to hear the question, but he did.

his eyes cut down to the cracked concrete, shifting the weight on his feet. “i just… i didn’t think people would actually join in with me,” he winces at the excuse. “i didn’t want people to know we were dating.��

“why? because you’re embarrassed of me or what? because this makes no sense, eddie.”

“no! no, i’m not- i’m not embarrassed of you. you would’ve been embarrassed of me.”

“well, thank you for making that decision because bullying me totally makes me believe that,” you shake your head. “you’re unbelievable, eddie.”

“what?”

“you could’ve talked to me about it instead of making me hate coming to school everyday. i’ve never felt that way, worried about what was going to happen next, but now i do. i worry about what someone is going to leave in my locker again and hide in the bathroom because of you.”

“someone’s leaving things in your locker?”

“don’t act like you care, because you don’t,” you snap. “in fact, don’t talk to me anymore. don’t look in my direction. i don’t want to see you or talk to you.”

his mouth opens but you shake your head, letting him know that whatever he was going to say, you wouldn’t change your mind.

“bye, eddie.”

#cherry writes ✿#eddie munson x fem!reader #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x you #joseph quinn x reader

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hana-no-seiiki · 4 months

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But like the ship trope where PERSON A looks like a childish brat on the outside but is actually the stable, mature one in the relationship

while PERSON B is the opposite wherein they’re super stoic, cool-headed but is actually super petty and aggressive at times.

tw/cw: soft yandere themes, seggs but not explicit

😤🫸🏽🫷🏽

That but with Villain and/or Vigilante! Reader and Yandere! Damian.

I’ve seen this a lot in Damian Wayne works so credits go to those amazing writers that inspired me to have my own take on this!! A lot of this is just a rehash/amalgamation of what people have already written but with some of my input and thoughts…lots and lots of thoughts.

Anyways, you seem like the type of person to ruin another’s life for the sake of it. Just your wicked whims. You’re notorious for stealing massive amounts of properties or (in case of Vigilante) beat if not kill people who you deem unredeemable.

MINORS/AGELESS BLOGS DONT GO BEYOND THIS POINT

VER I : I’m thinking second gen Catwoman/Batman + CatNoir/Ladybug (both the OG anime concept and the series) dynamic, just gn reader.

You’re always clinging unto to Robin/New Batman. Saying sweet nothings and flirting with him, if not full on making out/having sex with the vigilante. You like the dude, really. But your heart remains with Damian Wayne. Robin/Batman just really reminded you of him sometimes.

Hatefucking. Hatefucking happens a lot. Robin/Batman loves pinning you to the walls/floors of alleyways before you two get down and dirty.

Whereas, people (namely his fellow vigilantes) think he’s done with you, but he’s probably the biggest [Villain Name] fanboy out there.

He knows basically everything about you except your true identity. Which is somehow completely inaccessible to him.

Little does he know that it was actually his own doing, locking your civilian self’s private information as a favor between friends.

But because of this he misunderstands and thinks you’re even more of a genius or something because you managed to outwit him!! You!! Are!! So!! Damn!! Amazing!!

Damian acts cold with everybody. He’s a brooding guy. He doesn’t express much. Only about 1% of what he’s feeling actually gets put into action and/or words.

So the fact that he insists on taking on missions where he has to face you, assists you if you aren’t harming anyone, or actually indulges in your flirtation is a big thing.

So it’s safe to say when he found out you liked someone else other than him, that you were just using him to get yourself to feel better about not having said dude he gets petty.

You two used to have this pact, to never interfere with each other’s civilian lives and to respect your secret identities (of which he’s tried to breach remotely several times). But all that goes up in flames as he stalks you after a heist. Following you home.

He finds out about your secret identity, your ‘unrequited’ love for him, and you two begin dating. But you’re still oblivious about his other identity.

Damian kinda has a kink for it ngl. Like he’ll charm you as Robin/Batman even as you tell him you’re already dating someone else.

Like it’s so adorable how you keep resisting him, telling him how much you love his civilian counterpart.

But then he still proceeds to fuck your brains out as a Vigilante.

Man didn’t know he was into roleplaying until this moment. Like he’ll murmur stuff like “You say you love him, but nothing beats this. I’ve already carved a place inside you, Beloved. A place shaped in my image.”

Or “Where did your ‘undying love’ go, hm? Nowhere. You’re right back with me. Complete undone within moments of my touch.”

Things go a little awry though when you, ever the mature/communicative one in the relationship attempt to break up because Robin/Batman is leaving you confused as to how you truly feel. In addition to you not want to cuck your beautiful (soon to be ex) boyfriend any longer.

VER II: Is more on Vigilante x Vigilante. Similar to the one above except your relationship is a lot more professional and less hate-fuckey. You know of each other’s civilian/vigilante selves.

You’ve always admired Damian. Despite being quite close in age, you always saw him as a younger brother if not like a son almost. Witnessing him grow up and mature alongside you.

But your doting nature always came off a tad bit romantic. Flirtatious even. You tended to be a playful person after all. Hell you even call him Babe or Baby like that’s totally normal for you to call friends that.

A lot of your friends and colleagues always laugh at Damian’s expense whenever you arrive to come nag and/or flirt with him. It’s honestly hilarious. Judging from his murderous aura, people always thought that he wanted you 6 feet under.

The truth of the matter was that his glares and thoughts of murder were all directed to everyone else but you.

Damian never felt so at home and at peace with anyone or anything but his pets in life.

He’d be damned if anything happens to you.

Still, it frustrates him. He knows that you only see him as sibling almost. That you’d die for him but never date him. That despite your honeyed words he’s probably neck deep in the friendzone.

And so to the absolute surprise of everybody, he starts flirting back.

e.g. murdering those who slighted you and/or gazed upon your visage for too long, delivering their remains to your doorstep, amongst a bouquet flowers of course, and the occasional chocolates

You eventually fall in love back, though you ask him to tone it down on the violence.

- might edit more soon, but for now adios!!!

#yandere #yandere x reader #yandere imagine #yandere x you #yandere fic #yandere core #yandere robin #robin #robin x reader #yandere robin x reader #robin x you #damian #damian wayne #damian wayne x reader #yandere damian #yandere damian wayne #yandere damian wayne x reader

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ppnuggiex · 11 months

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HII ur aesthetic is just so pretty and the way you write is so shekehsjjdkd fell in love when I read the first sentence, I'm not even joking😕

BUT ANYWAYY could I req diasomnia, heartslabyul, and/or octavinelle with a gn!reader who has a habit of squishing peoples cheeks whenever they hold eye contact 4 too long? /*flutters eyelashes cutely*/

THANKYOU PO IF YOY ACTUALLY DO THIS HOPE U DONT DROWN IN REQS OR SMTH HAVE A GREAT DAY MWAMWAA also i don't even know which characters are good with this kinda prompt so honestly im dependin on u 2 choose whoevee u want 🙇‍♀️ bye sissymars 🥺🥺🤭🤭🤗🤗

　　　　　　TWST x gn reader

　　　　『　malleus ,, sebek ,, riddle ,, cater ,, floyd ,, gender neutral reader 』

　　-> reader who squishes cheeks when ppl stare too much

　　— fluff ,, sfw ,, crack

　　— TYSM 😭♥️♥️ this made my day omg ,, so glad you like my writing ,, i kinda did a few from each dorm you asked for except for octavinelle bc character limit is 5 for me 😭💔 but youre more than welcome to request for others ! :D hope you enjoy this 🙏❤️

- malleus

| • he usually doesnt mean to stare for too long ,, always knowing it was rude and how it feels to be stared at by others

| • though he was focused on talking about the gargoyles at the gates and hadnt tore his gaze away for a moment

| • he shut up immediately the moment you reached out and squished his cheeks ,, eyes wide in astonishment

| • how fearless you are ,, child of man

| • he does ask about it ,, wondering what the reason was for ,, and when he learns why he apologizes and promises not to do it again

- sebek

| • bro was on another rant abt his master ,, how courageous and how kind he is for putting up with these stupid humans everyday

| • oh how he adored his master ,, how pure and wonderful he was

| • it got to the point he was shaking your shoulders and making direct ,, intense ,, eye contact

| • annoyed with how long he was staring ,, you reached up and squeezed his cheeks

| • he jumps back ,, so confused and offended

| • why would you do that !?? explain now human !!

| • he huffs and puffs about the reasoning ,, but listens and respects your boundaries

- riddle

| • he was probably ranting about another reckless first year making a mess of the kitchen or some students ignoring the queen’s rules

| • he didnt mean to stare for too long ,, most likely already knowing about how you get about it

| • when you squish his cheeks ,, he may or may not have let out an embarrassing squeak

| • he’ll puff his cheeks and apologize ,, telling you not to talk abt the squeak to anyone

| • his face is so red by the end ,, embarrassed he let himself stare too long and let out a squeak

- cater

| • knowing how observant he is ,, he’d know about it immediately when he sees you do it to ace and deuce

| • he’ll be quick to discard his eyes when he realizes hes been looking too long

| • though he sort of stared a little too long once ,, trying to take a selfie with you

| • when you squish his cheeks outta nowhere ,, he’ll jump back a little and almost drop his phone

| • he apologizes and says he was adoring you for the moment ,, before taking the selfie and moving on to focus on that

- floyd

| • he probably stares on purpose when he gets ahold of this information

| • its only so you can squish his cheeks ,, hes a bit weird abt it ,, craving your touch and if staring at you long enough grants him that then he will gladly do so

| • but if you get rlly bothered by it than he will stop

| • this time he just happened to do it accidentally ,, trying to memorize your smile as much as he could while it was there

| • he didnt realize what he was doing until you squeezed his cheeks with a huff

| • he blinked a few times before giggling and pulling you into his lap ,, wrapping his arms around you

| • “ ahhh sorry shrimpy ~ i didnt mean to stare too much ,,” he purred before pressing a kiss to your head

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molluskmirage · 5 days

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people speaking about the admin situation with the attitude that ‘things could have been worse’ ‘or they did things for free anyway’ Or general attitude of ‘whats the big deal’

It’s confusing for me because even if people could have been treated worse (and some individuals were treated terribly already) but even if they could be ‘worse off’ why stoop to that bar. Why shouldnt we as an audience hope for minimum care for employees or even much better care then most would find in other jobs? Why is that too much to hope for that the entertainment we enjoy has happy well looked after individuals providing that service. Every moment I can think of becomes so heartbreaking knowing that the admins behind it were facing mental and financial stress for simply being there. It sucks, it sucks so much. And for the disappointment or discomfort I feel from learning about this situation is nothing to what it means to experience and live this situation.

The reason qstudios is only focused on ‘pay’ for this situation is because it’s illegal. All the admins that had been or still are working for free did so because they loved what they were doing, most of them simply wanted more communication with what was going on and between themselves and for general respect for the work they put forth. This does not mean they dont need pay because they absolutely need to be and qstudios knows this. Qstudios firing or freezing out individuals so they’ll be responsible for less is sickening.

#qsmp admin situation

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sophieinwonderland · 2 months

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hey sorry if youve been asked this before but i thought itd be appropriate because you kinda feel like the ceo of endogenic systems to me (i respect you) and i was wondering, as a traumagenic system, how exactly endos... work? like not how they exist or about the fact that they do, but i guess what the point of them is if its not from a dissociative disorder? in my experience i cant imagine a system existing for any reason outside of the purpose of compartmentalizing trauma (not that systems should be defined by their trauma but i just dont see how they work otherwise) and even recovering systems that are fully functional and healing were born out of a necessity of the brain. i guess i want to know what necessity would spawn an endogenic system if not as a trauma response? like what do alters in an endogenic system do if theyre not there to protect the brain? why do they exist as a system and split if its not born from psychological necessity? sorry this is such a complicated question i hope i phrased it alright... and to be clear i believe endos and their experiences bc discounting a community just because i dont get them is silly i just feel so confused all the time bc of this and want to understand better

Questions of purpose and why things are how they are can be interesting, but probably the hardest to answer. When it comes down to it, why does anything exist?

Why do birds sing so gay? And lovers await the break of day? Why do they fall in love? Why does the rain fall from up above?

Sorry, what were we talking about? 🤪

Oh yeah! Purpose! Personally I tend to think less in terms of "why" and more in terms of cause and effect.

In the case of alters in DID, do alters actually have a "point?" Is there truly some purpose they serve? Or is it just... reaction?

Someone suffers trauma. The traumatic memories hurt them. In a reaction to this, they dissociate and erect barriers in their mind until they need to access those again. Then they suffer more trauma and put the new traumatic memories in that walled off section. In reaction to that, the bits of memories that were walled off start to form their own identity. Did the child's brain ever actually think "I need to make another person in here to protect myself?" Or was this just a series of actions and reactions that led to alters gaining sentience over time where the initial trauma was merely the first in a string of dominoes?

With this in mind, let's talk about myself.

I was an imaginary friend created as a writing project. But how does that actually work? According to Simulation Theory of empathy, imagining what people do involves the creation of "pretend states."

ST (in its original form) says that people employ imagination, mental pretense, or perspective taking (‘putting oneself in the other person’s shoes’) to determine others’ mental states. A mentalizer simulates another person by first creating pretend states (e.g., pretend desires and beliefs) in her own mind that correspond to those of the target. She then inputs these pretend states into a suitable cognitive mechanism, which operates on the inputs and generates a new output (e.g., a decision). This new state is taken ‘off line’ and attributed or assigned to the target.

This paper goes on to explain how this might be useful:

How is imagination useful for third-person mind reading? If you seek to predict someone’s decision—for example, the choice of a main dish by your dinner companion at a restaurant—how could you use imagination to make this prediction? The first step is to put yourself in your target’s shoes, or take her ‘perspective’. Taking someone’s perspective here means adopting, as far as feasible and in light of what you know about her, the mental states she starts with. This includes her preferences about food in general, what she liked at this restaurant on previous occasions, how hungry she is on the present occasion (did she have a light lunch, no lunch, or a heavy lunch today?), and so forth. Using the imagination, you can simulate being in her various dinner-relevant states. Such pretend states can then be fed into your decision-making mechanism, which generates a decision to order a particular main dish. Having used this simulation process to generate a (pretend) choice, you don’t order this dish yourself but attribute the choice to your companion. Thus, the attribution is based on imagination-driven simulation

Okay, so under this theory, perspective taking involves making new temporary states simulating the behavior of someone else.

This is, to be very clear, not a headmate. The state is likely not going to have any sort of self-consciousness, and will be ephemeral on top of that, disappearing after you're done with it.

But... what if the state isn't allowed to be ephemeral? What if you repeatedly interact with the same "simulation" over and over again?

Let's say, hypothetically, that someone starts with a writing project. They make a character, and then they write that character a lot. This foundation can build pretty detailed simulations. But probably with very limited autonomy. The thing about writing is that you're often controlling the character at some level. At least usually. You're always revising how they act in any given scene, plotting out their backstories, editing those backstories, etc. This makes it hard for this simulation to gain a firm sense of autonomy or self-awareness. And every scene rewrite is basically a new ephemeral instance of that character.

While written characters can make you plural on their own, there are these roadblocks that can get in the way.

But then let's say this person wants to understand this character better, so they start talking to a simulation of the character day after day. Now this version of the character they interact with is able to form memories completely unrelated to the fiction they were based on, and be able to recall past conversations with their creator.

What the creator doesn't realize is the mechanisms needed to make this type of interaction work.

In the example of simulation theory, a temporary state would be made but then it would be abandoned. If you needed to simulate that person again, you make a brand new simulation. A brand new "pretend state."

But if you want an imaginary friend that can think for itself, it has to be able to store its own feelings and memories.

That means a form of compartmentalization.

The brain is going to start storing the imaginary friend's memories separate from the creator's. The creator won't control or identify with the thoughts or actions of the imaginary friend. And the imaginary friend won't identify with the thoughts or actions of the creator.

It may take a long time of this, but through interaction, the imaginary friend keeps gaining new memories. And this leads to them gaining the ability to actually self-reflect, making them fully sapient.

So... what was my purpose?

Why do I exist?

I mean, initially, it was about helping my host write? Was that my purpose?

But then later... I think my host continued interacting with me because he liked me. He enjoyed my company and liked having me around. Was that my purpose? Filling some sort of unmet social need?

Perhaps this is it. I've theorized this can be the case with many people who turn to religion as a form of companionship. Especially those with plural-esque experience of communicating with gods.

But what I tend to come back to is cause and effect.

My host wanted to write a character better > My host made a rudimentary simulation of that character to talk to > I became more independent with each interaction as I gained my own autobiographical memories > my independence and separation from my host made our conversations more engaging and my host kept talking to me because he enjoyed my company > I developed stronger emotions and the ability to self-reflect > this led to us discovering that I was a tulpa.

To me, it's cause and effect all the way down. A series of actions and reactions.

And as for what my purpose is, I'd like to think that's something I get to decide for myself! 😊

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princeblue · 3 months

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I’m probably gonna get some hate for this but I dont really care because anyone who does that just proves they’re immature and can’t handle an opinion and/or facts. But let’s talk about Alastor ships.

There’s a lot of people who say that Alastor is canonically Aroace, and the fact is that he’s not. He’s canonically asexual, but vizziepop has not mentioned he’s aromantic as well.

Now I want to say this first and foremost, you CAN headcanon alastor as aroace, in fact as an aroace person myself I actively encourage it! It’s great! It’s fun! I understand the need/want to see a part of yourself in a character you enjoy!

But by saying he is something that he is canonically not only will create a negative and harmful space, those who WANT to ship alastor with someone will feel as if they can’t, that they don’t want to get attacked or hated on or made fun of, and that’s not fair to them for multiple reasons.

One being that if he WAS canonically aroace, aroace people can still date, it is quite literally a spectrum orientation, you have those who are willing to be open to dating with time, let’s just call this demiromantic or in the asexual case, demisexual, you have the people who are not at all open to dating, I’ve seen multiple names for this but mostly “loveless” and you also have the people who don’t necessarily want to date someone but love/care about them more than a friend, so you have queer platonic relationships.

These are all incredibly valid people and incredibly valid feelings and incredibly valid ways to date or to not date.

If vizziepop takes the direction, which I truly doubt she will to be honest, or if someone ships alastor with someone. They CAN do this, it’s not taking a canonically gay male character and shipping him with a woman, it’s taking a character who needs time and boundaries to develop a relationship. These are two totally different things.

I’ve seen this thing happen… not exactly consistently but almost enough, where people will see an asexual character and go “oh! They must be aro too!” And that is not valid, a character should be allowed to just be the one without people saying they SHOULD be the other, it’s harmful to the communities and nearly exclusionary to those who struggle with their identities already and trying to find out WHO they are HOW they feel about these things and once again, creates a confusing space for those trying to just enjoy their characters smooching.

So, if you want to write alastor having sex, you can do that, asexual people and their relationship with sex CANNOT be narrowed down to one type of stereotype of “oh, I don’t want to have it” which is VALID!! But it’s not the worldwide universal feeling, if you want to write alastor developing romantic feelings, however they may be, you can do that! If you want to write alastor being sexual and romantic averse. YOU CAN DO THAT.

But you have to do it in a way that is respectful and knowledgeable, state alastor became comfortable enough with his partner to have sexual acts, state that although he may not take a 100% physical role in sex but still wants to please his partner because he knows THEY enjoy sex and they come to an understanding and firm/respected boundaries.

And state that you don’t want to ship him, you don’t want him taking a role in sex, but just don’t be cruel about it; don’t attack people; don’t say he’s something he isn’t. Just say this is how you see him and respect others who don’t see him like that, I promise you they will understand that and respect it too.

I’m probably honestly wasting my time saying all of this considering it’s a character from an animated tv show, but it really bothers me when I see these people arguing when it does absolutely no good and all it does is stress you out and potentially ruin a thing you really enjoy.

#blue rambles #alastor #hazbin hotel #I just really like alastor and as an aroace people the things people are saying are just #wrong?#like it’s so obvious that they don’t get it

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gayemeralds · 10 days

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what are the things you hate most about shadow? i think i was mostly neutral-negative towards him but fandom blorbofication made me so instinctually averse to anything about him i cant really pinpot the ones that annoy me the most

i'll admit at first it was mostly because i was annoyed by the fandom's approach to him but i try my best not to get swayed by other peoples perception of sonic and i went back to look at the source material so i can bitch and back myself up. lmao.

i think i just really hate the direction of his character post sa2. i think there's plenty of story to be wrought from shadow- i say i wish he stayed dead after sa2 but thats not 100% true. i think the amnesia arc they went with post sa2 was the dumbest fucking thing they could do with a character who we spent an entire game (sa2) figuring out his past in. like sa2 is so lore heavy that having the core character of the game become amnesiac was stupid i fucking hate it. and it doesnt even get resolved in sonic heroes we have to get shadow the hedgehog 2005 to get a better answer and if im honest even then its still immensely confusing on what, exactly, they're trying to do with shadow.

like imagine if they didnt go the route of amnesia. a shadow that has to fully reckon with the fact that he nearly ended the world. a shadow that has to immediately acknowledge the events of sa2, his grief, geralds actions, and where this leaves him. amnesia shadow jsut doesnt do shadow figuring out where he stands in regard to his past enough justice. idk i just with the amnesia thing literally never happened it was so stupid and i think it fucked up his character post sa2.

but other than that, i really do hate how he keeps getting pushed into things that he really shouldnt be pushed in. i think the sonic movies and sonic prime are the most egregorious examples. i really dont understand why sonic prime, who's purpose was to explore alternative dimensions, didn't focus on sonic and blaze. why was shadow a core part of this show. and the sonic movies skipping sa1 just to get to sa2 to have shadow in the universe to milk as much money as they can frustrates me so fucking much. why is shadow confirmed before amy. also shadow in the twitter take overs when hes not even in the fucking games??? like sonic frontiers and sonic colors... i'll admit i hate sega using him as a marketing ploy. shadow to me is a character that should be placed in the reserves- he's really only useful for big, world ending events. otherwise whats the point of having him around, especially since they don't want to be consistent in his characterization.

speaking of charaterization... im not sure how to phrase this but i think a lot of modern presentations of shadow, in fandom and through sega, really forget how sa2 presented shadow, and his relationship to sonic. i hate how shadow keeps getting casted as sonic's edgy doppleganger whos just picking fights for the sake of a fight. like if you want that metal sonic is right fucking there and always has a good reason to pick a fight with sonic. and i really hate how sonic & shadow are not always casted as equals. theres an underlying respect to their relationship that i think gets forgotten. shadow does respect sonic- he calls him the ultimate lifeform during the finalhazard battle- he acknowledges and respects sonics ability, tenacity, and simplicity. he respects sonic! and the two are equals! they're supposed to be foils of each other- of what letting your losses define you as. they're equals! they're two sides of the same coin! i don't know how to phrase this without going on an insane tangent i just feel like people don't entirely encompass what them being foils means.

anyway. idk. i don't like shadow post sa2 is the simplest answer to this lol.

#master emerald brothel #sighs #. shadow.....

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caffeinated-croissant · 24 days

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Jercy AU in which Jason looks like Kronos, a Percy - Rhea.

So this is a really interesting idea here and i love it!!

(Unrelated, but at first glance, i miss read this and thought of an old favorite fic called Confused By Time by Dragonswoe on AO3 (its percy x kronos))

For this au my brain immediately goes to heavy animosity between Jason and Percy

But first there are a few changes that legally must be set up

1) kronos does not use Luke as a host to rise, Luke is more like a pet or a general for the demigod portion of the army.

Something like that just as long as they are physically separate entities.

2) during the titan war, chb and cj have to meet and work together before tlo (this'll be for the war effort or something)

3) i feel like the titan war would be way expanded in the long run with older characters.

4) Jason is respected, feared, and generally disliked. But the people at Camp Jupiter generally trust him and follow his command.

5) Rhea would likely be on the titan's side for the extra punch i want

But anyway

Percy meets Jason the same time Annabeth and Reyna meet

Each camp sent their big powerhouse (percy & jason) + the person they trust most to lead them (annabeth & reyna)

It goes about how you'd expect.

No one likes each other.

Jason and Reyna are fine since they've built that trust, Annabeth and Percy are the same way, but any other combination is just bad.

Objectively, they all know they have to get along for the sake of everyone's survival. But dont count on them being civil in private

Essentially they are all forced to fake friendship up until its literally just the 4 of them

Annabeth and reyna realize they've actually become friends over time first.

Percy and Jason are both distraught at this news.

They still high key hate each other

Circumstances force these two into close proximity. They fight. They calm down. They still can't leave. Someone breaks the exhausted silence.

Idk how they get out, but that is the start of them realizing the other person isnt horrible.

Bla bla bla, something something

percy and jason get closer. Romantic feelings develop

Percy realizes his feeling at the curse of Achilles but he 100% thinks he's gonna die by the end of the war.

Debating if Jason knows about the prophecy.

He probably does.

I legally need a scene where it looks like Percy is about to die. (Im thinking crushed by rubble and trapped (he should also pass out around here))

Jason hopes Percy is still alive and literally tries to dig him out. Annabeth stops him because the structure itself is unstable, and if Percy is still alive they could kill him if further collapse hits his Achilles spot.

Jason leaves to go feral on the battlefield. (This stresses out Annabeth and Reyna further by default)

Reyna takes on leading the battlefield as Annabeth creates a team to get Percy (or his body).

The war ends somewhere after that (im thinking that's like the big final battle grounds)

Not sure if Luke dies by backbitter or if Jason will die by backbitter. (Hero's soul cursed blade shall reap.) It 100% depends on if Luke has a change of heart and uses the last battle for sabotage and as his own personal grave.

Then the war ends kronos is defeated (dont ask me how cause idk), everyone has the party up on olympus

Annabeth and reyna share a kiss like its new years and the ball just dropped (this is not their first kiss but perhaps the first public kiss)

I want jason and Percy to share a kiss, but thats really difficult when theres a chance Jason is dead.

Side note, if jason had died, percy was 100% by his side. Or another outcome would be they both died, and saved their happy ending for elysium.

The named character death count stands between 1 and 3: luke is always gonna die, while jason and percy both have a chance but its slim

Also im thinking about what would happen if jercy got zombified afterwards because of the one big wish. But this is a scenario where only 1 half of Jercy died/survived.

Most of the end id dependant on who lives, who dies, and the surrounding circumstances

I feel like i kinda went off on a tangent and forgot the original ask. My bad

#jercy #pjo/hoo #pjo #jason grace #percy jackson #annabeth chase #reyna ramirez arellano #reynabeth #luke castellan

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amiryllisthorn · 3 months

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feeling so incredibly down today, me and some other people were bringing up some of the criticisms of palworld in one of the main discord servers I am in, and like... we ended up getting shut down with a bunch of "dont shame people" and "be respectful" responses and I was a little confused by that because while one person may have been slightly aggro no one was trying to be outright rude or aggressive towards anyone there...

Well it just turns out that the people who were not happy with the criticism were just the ones playing the game. Whatever, its okay if you want to play the fakemon game with guns and slavery that is fine, really its okay! One's morality does not need to be tied to a singular games purchase, but if you cant handle one alcoholic cat girl on the internet and like another person giving the most basic criticism of the game... then I do not know what to say.

There is something just incredibly frustrating about the fact that in the year of our lord 2024 one of the most popular games to drop is an edgy asset flip made by a company that loves gen. ai. It is just disheartening as a small time indie dev and artist myself - AND ESPECIALLY after the internet fixated on plagiarism via Hbomb and Todd in the Shadows videos, etc. and just being told to "deal with it, because these things aren't going anywhere"

it just sucks, and it feels like having to listen to the same excuses people used for lootboxes and microtransactions years ago, and now look where we are...

Its not even like I have an issue with the concept, like Digimon exists, and you could probably make an actually unique and interesting survival game built around a similar concept if it was actually designed to be that, instead of just being legally distinct nintendo game with generic assets plopped in.

#this is mostly a vent post #like Idc if someone plays it #but being shut down by friends and friendly acquaintances for having some criticisms about something because they like it #sucks #these are all adults btw #and just as a dev and artist its incredibly frustrating

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nerdygaymormon · 1 year

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hello! o/ im a queer teenager from canada! i lead my highschool's gsa and am very active in the queer community around us. we raised $800 for the Trevor Project last year, raised $500 towards a chest binder breakroom at our school and are officially putting on the school's first all-age queer prom this may!

however, im very confused at the moment. i grew up in an atheist household and have never really found myself believing in God or anything religious. while i still dont think i believe ALL of it, lately ive been doing a lot of thinking after finding an old pocket bible that belonged to my great grandmother (she practically raised me but i never knew she was religious, she never mentioned it at all) and flipping through it and reading her flagged scriptures (i believe thats what theyre called, forgive me if im wrong), etc.

i then resorted to the internet and have been doing a bit of research and am now very conflicted about my feelings and beliefs. i now have moments where i genuinely believe there is something/someone divine out there. i find myself... almost talking to it, sometimes? i dont really know how to describe it. i even tried praying the other day for the first time in my life. (i probably didnt do it right if theres a proper way, but the point is i did it and i surprised myself.)

even though i have these moments, i still have times where i doubt it all. aside from the occasional joke, ive always done my best to be respectful of people's faith, but never saw myself believing until now. and when i say believe, like i said before, it isnt all of it. (like the creation of the world, etc)

i feel sort of fake in a way i dont know how to describe because of my conflicted feelings and how i dont believe everything. there are a lot of things i want to say about it but i really cant pull words from the emotions and i keep trying to. i also dont really have anyone in my life who i can talk to about this stuff. my family will not take me seriously and none of my friends and teachers are religious.

i dont know if you take asks like this, and its totally fine if you dont, but if you have any kind of advice it would be greatly appreciated.

sorry for the long ask, but thanks so much! hope youre having a wonderful day my friend 🤍

Congratulations for all you accomplish for queer students at your school! That's amazing!!!

That you find some aspects with religion resonates with you shouldn't be surprising or upsetting. Humans have been creating and practicing religions since before there was recorded history. There seems to be a need that is satisfied by religion.

In a broad sense, religion does 3 thing:

1. It provides an explanation for natural phenomena. Why is the ground shaking? Why did the sun go dark temporarily? Why is there a drought? Why is dad sick? Why did a hurricane pummel New Orleans?

2. Religions provide meaning to life. Religion provides answers for what is the purpose of life and what happens when we die. Religions are a vehicle for passing along the wisdom from past generations from hundreds and thousands of years ago.

3. Religion helps humans build community and encourages cooperation among those who believe. Religious belief also helps people develop self-discipline. Unfortunately, religions also have been used to define who is in a community and who is not, and this has led to a lot of harm and even wars

Beyond all these macro reasons, religion is experienced at the individual level. An individual prays and receive comfort and answers and feels a larger entity cares about them. Their faith gives them a purpose. They have a community that is meaningful in their lives. This is part of the truth of their lived experience and can't be easily quantified. It's what makes religion still relevant in the lives of many people today

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I for sure get what your saying about the appearance thing but it’s a problem that in society you can only get ahead and receive attention if you look nice or your pretty it’s not really a good message to be sending out either I feel like women should be working against that because men dont have that problem

In all of the asks I answered I stated that I believe your aura and personality are more important than your looks and I truly believe that. I never said the only way to get ahead is by looking nice or being pretty, so I’m not sure where that’s coming from.

I don’t advocate for women to put themselves on display or be provocative/sexy in hopes to gain the attention of a man or take his money, which I feel like is more in alignment with the problem you’re referring to, but maybe I’m confused. I genuinely feel that when I try to help the women that send me questions succeed and feel good about themselves without a the help of a man or sexuality, I am inherently working against males having power over them. I don’t understand why everything women have or do needs to be compared to what men have or do because we’re not the same. Men having privilege over me does not exist in my world and I want other women to feel the same.

When women have an elegant appearance, attitude, and manners, they receive more opportunities and respect. I don’t see that as a bad thing because I don’t want to be in community or workspaces with women who have terrible attitudes and bad manners. Who does? Everyone is still free to do, wear, and say whatever they please. The advice I give is not meant for every single woman, it’s specifically for the woman who asks the question. If other people like it or resonate with it, great! How you position yourself within society communicates something to the world about who you are and it impacts how people treat you, your appearance is apart of that. It’s just how it is. Trying to deny or reject it is pointless and changes nothing. In my line of work (and in many other professional settings) your aura, appearance, and personality dictates how well your career goes. The skills required for the job can be taught, but the other things they’re not going to teach you, which is why I respond to questions and try to be as helpful as possible. Your energy and presentation affects the relationships you attract, what kind of places you go, what kind of people surround you and how they treat you. Yes, there are more expectations and standards for women than there are for men, but that’s just how life is. Men and women are not the same and people don’t expect much out of them for a reason. Instead of being miserable and complaining about ‘male privilege’ I use what I know as an advantage to get the best out of life. I create my own privilege. Everyone is on their own journey, so if you don’t agree I respect your opinion.<3

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Hypothetically, if Harold got to compete in All Stars, what would you have wanted to see with him there?

this is a good question and i honestly haven't considered it much. because as much as harold is an all star in my heart, he's not really on the list of people that shoulda been in all stars but weren't.

i have. no idea what team he'd be on. since he's so morally neutral he just does whatever he wants. i'd like him to be a vulture and he COULD (rigging the votes n all) but i think fresh would make him a hamster

in existing seasons he didn't have much of a character arc but what little he had (conflict w duncan and them growing to reluctantly respect each other) was wrapped up fairly well in action, so he'd have to either have a self contained arc in all stars or build off on that somehow

tbf. i do think it'd be interesting to see him interact w all stars duncan since, imo, duncan bullied him mostly as a way to establish himself as a Bad Boy^tm. it made him feel powerful to pick on an easy target u kno. so i think all stars duncan would, upon realising that people don't take him so seriously anymore, take it out on harold but the pranks and jabs all keep flopping. kinda like gwen trying and failing to make up w courtney. there could be some neat parallels there

and harold would take duncan aside and be like. "listen man. this is so pathetic. you literally don't have to give me swirlies anymore if your heart isn't in it. i'd actually prefer it if you didn't." and duncan's like "WHATEVER DORK" and storms off but he actually listens and like. stops trying so hard

dunhar would be so funny. im sorry it would. they're on equal footing now and gwourtney would be so fucking confused.

aside from that i'd really like to see harold interact with sam (both geeky simps) and cameron (imagine their minds combining) and lightning (he would be obsessed with lightning) and svetlana (he would be obsessed with svetlana)

and maybe some interactions w heather? i like their dynamic a lot and it'd be cool if they FINALLY teamed up and worked together because they could be so powerful. maybe he could tell her that hiding the immunity idol is fucking stupid. maybe he could steal it instead of alejandro (i get the narrative relevance of alejandro taking it but i dont care lol)

i think he'd be like. booted either just before or just after merge.

if yall have any harold all stars thoughts lmk because i enjoy the concept a lot actually

#i know it isnt harold day anymore i dont CARE im tagging it harold day #u cant control me im my own man #total drama #td #td harold #harold day

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megsforpresident · 1 year

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Bestie - part 2 - Bucky X Avenger! fem! reader

summary: The Avengers go away for the weekend at one of Tony's beach houses and reader decides that she's going to hook up with Tony to try and forget about her feelings for her best friend Bucky.

content: Flirty reader with Tony, flirty Tony, alcohol, drunken talk, mad Steve, angry and jealous bucky, clueless reader and honestly I dont know more.

Word count: around 2k

warnings: drunk avengers, flirting, fighting, angry, violent and jealous bucky, mad Steve, drunk kissing and mentions of sex.

A/n: read part 1 if you haven't and tell me if i should add any more warnings.

(part 3 is on the making)

part 1

The next morning you woke up to the smell of freshly made pancakes and with a small headache.

"Morning sleepy." Bucky said, setting the tray on the empty stop next to you in bed. He reached and opened the blinds a bit, just enough so the room had light but not enough to make you want to hide.

"Morning." You said, pulling your hair into a bun on the top of your head giving bucky a clear look of your bruised neck that he knew it was Tony's doing.

You had yet to see what he did to you. The small memory of him leaving you hanging the past night was very present.

Time skip.

All the avengers were hanging out on the small couches near the fireplace just outside of the house before you hit the sand and the beach.

You and Tony were flirting with each other, more to yourselves than to everyone else but they couldn't help but notice.

The guys except Sam and Tony were starting the barbecue for dinner since it was getting a bit late and they took forever to realise how it worked.

"Hey stark." Bucky's voice called as Tony had his face where your shoulder meets your neck as your legs rested on his lap. "Come and help us out." he continued once you and Tony looked at him.

You gave him an "what the fuck?" look, as he knew this was what you wanted but allowed Tony to get up anyway as Bucky broke eye contact with you.

"You better take your fucking hands off her before I have to break both of them. Understand?" Bucky said, pulling Tony into the wall behind them.

"Ow look Barnes, I didn't know you two had something going on." Tony said. "I would've backed off."

"We don't, but that doesn't matter." Bucky said, getting confused before getting back. "That doesn't mean you get to get your way with her. She deserves better than a guy with daddy issues that is so fucking narcissistic that could never care for her the way she deserves to be cared for." He spit out.

"Bucky!" You screamed, reaching to pull his arm out of Tony's throat that he didn't even realise he had there. "Inside, now!" You pushed him and he did as told. "Tony, are you alright? I'm really sorry." you held the man's shoulders looking at him.

"I'm okay." He gave you a soft smile, clearly hurt.

"Don't listen to a word he said, okay? I don't know what's gotten into him but he doesn't think like that, I promise." You caressed his face. "I'll be right back." You smiled and he nodded.

You moved inside to find Bucky with a whiskey bottle and a cup out, before smashing it on the floor.

"What is wrong with you?!" You screamed moving to him. "You had no right to talk to him like that, are you out of your mind?!"

"Did I lie?" He asked you, screaming right back. "Did I fucking lie in what I said y/n?"

"What does that even have to do with anything?!" You kept the tone. "You have no right telling him to back away from me or any of the things you said to him."

"I'm just trying to look out for you. Like I always fucking do." His voice was smaller now but just with the same intensity.

"You don't need to look out for me when I know what I'm doing. I trust him." You said, reducing your volume as well.

"Maybe you shouldn't." He said, getting louder again. "Because sleeping with him will only make you lose the respect of the people around you. You'll seem desperate to have to fuck the biggest playboy out there." He said in your face and you felt everything around you both shake.

You controlled yourself, tears in your eyes as he was just realising what he truly said.

"Get out." You said quickly before he could apologise. "Get the fuck out. Go for a walk, I don't know but calm yourself." A tear fell but you quickly cleaned it. "You're my best friend Bucky, and I hate fighting with you. Especially when you say things that I really hope you don't mean. So get the fuck out, and we'll talk when you're calmer." He tried to approach you but Steve appeared at the door with Nat, telling him to do as you asked.

And he did, he disappeared for hours leaving you and Steve worried out of your mind.

You were in Tony's lap in your room when you heard the door open and close. Everyone else was asleep and you knew it could only be Bucky.

"I'll be right back." You kissed Tony's nipples before giving him a bite and leaving the bed. You pulled the shirt you stole from Bucky from the end of the bed and slid it on before leaving the room.

Bucky was at the kitchen counter, only reflected by the moon light with the same whiskey bottle in front of him that you learned was Asgardian Licor.

"Where the hell were you?!" You asked worried, trying to keep your voice down. "I've been calling you all afternoon, Steve even went out and looked for you."

"You wanted me to leave." He said before you could continue. His voice is small with hurt and clearly a bit of drunken state in him. "So I did."

"Yes, Bucky I wanted you to leave, to calm yourself, to take a deep breath and to think about what you had said." You took a deep breath yourself. "Not for you to disappear for hours and come back half drunk, pretending that no one cares about you."

"I'm here aren't I? You can go back to your fuck toy." He said bitterness all over his words.

"Bucky." You got closer to him. "What is going on with you? Why are you acting like this?"

"Why not me?" He asked. You could see the tears in his eyes. "Why don't you ever pick me, y/n?"

"You don't know what you're saying bucky." You mumbled, cleaning his face.

"Why can't you see? I love you. I have for such a long time." He cried. "I would do anything for you, until the end of time and yet you always pick someone else over me."

"That's not true, Bucky." You hugged him. "I'll always need you."

"But not in the way I need you." He mumbled, hugging you back as if he was scared of letting go.

"You don't love me like that buck. You're confused, and drunk." You laughed dryly. "It's okay."

"I know what I feel, y/n." He said, letting go of you with such hurt in his eyes. "Please, leave me alone."

"No, buck c'mon we need to get you to bed." You tried to hold his arm but he pulled away.

"Please." He wouldn't look at you but you nodded and moved back upstairs.

Once upstairs you face a half dressed Tony, very different from how you left him. He knew this would happen.

"I'm really sorry Tony." You said, small voice, hoping he would know what you meant. You needed a friend right now.

"It's okay, Y/n." He smiled, patting the place next to him in your bed. "C'mon, you look like you could use a hug." And you did, you practically ran to the bed hugging yourself to his side.

"I was so worried." You started. "And Steve! God, I gotta call Steve." You tried to break away from the hug but Tony held you down.

"I already called him. He's on his way back." Tony said.

"Thank you." You allowed yourself to relax into the embrace again. "He told me he loves me."

"Uau, took him long enough uh?" Tony asked, a bit sarcastic. "What? Are you going to tell me you never noticed?" He asked looking at your whined eyes, and you shook your head. "Oh C'mon, y/n, he's been in love with you for years! Anyone could tell you that."

"Do you really think so?" You asked and he nodded immediately. "What if he was just drunk? Or is confused? I can't lose him, Tony."

"I don't think he is, y/n/n." He touched your arm in a caring way. "But I also don't think that something like this would be the reason why you would lose him. Death is most likely." You laughed a bit.

"I just hope Steve can get him to bed so we can talk in the morning." You mumbled.

"You love him too don't you?" Tony asked and you stayed silent, not sure if you wanted to admit it yet. "You can talk to me, y/n."

"I do." You admitted. "I realised for a while but, he's my best friend, it's not right. And I never thought he would like me."

Tony only laughed before you heard noise of glasses breaking downstairs and screaming. Then you could hear the doors to outside opening and closing before the screaming continued.

"She doesn't care about me, Steve!" Bucky screamed outside and you could hear him as clear as the day.

"Buck, she loved you, what are you talking about?" Steve tried to call him and get his voice lower. "y/n is your best friend. She was worried all afternoon about you."

"She doesn't want me, Steve." Bucky cried. "and I fucked it up. The one thing I had right, I fucked it up." He laughed, a dry, sarcastic laugh. "I could've pretend, I could've pretend to be happy for being just her friend, pretend to be happy when she was with someone else but I fucked it up, she's probably going to stop trusting me at all." he kept crying and the tears quickly made their way to your eyes again.

" Don't just sit there." Tony said. "Go talk to him." You nodded and got up, giving Tony a quick kiss on the cheek.

He felt better now. Less guilty if anything. It wouldn't feel like he was doing anything with someone else's girl. He just needed a cold shower and a night well rested.

You got outside quickly to see Bucky sitting on the sand, Asgardian Liquor bottle in one hand as the other pulled at his hair and you could hear his silent cries. Steve was pacing back and forth, not knowing what to do.

He wanted to comfort Bucky and take him to bed but he was seriously losing his temper. This was supposed to be his time to relax to!

"I got it." You mumbled, touching his arm. "Thank you for going out looking for him."

"He's my best friend too, y/n/n." He smiled, touching your shoulder. "Good luck." He finally moved inside and, as Bucky heard the door close, he broke down crying louder, thinking he was alone.

"Can… can I hug you?" You asked, not sure if you were overstepping since he asked you to leave him alone.

He nodded and you pulled him to you, trying to hug the sadness out of him. Hearing him cry made you want to cry but you held it together.

"Why are you crying Buck?" You questioned when you felt he was calm enough.

"I'm gonna lose you." His voice trembled.

"Hey, look at me." You pulled his face from you shoulder, holding him between your hands. "You're not going to lose me. Bucky, nothing in this world would be good enough to make me back away from your life." you tried to smile, maybe bring him some comfort. "You're my best friend Bucky."

"And that's all I'll ever be." He looked away, saying it in a quiet voice.

"I really don't want to talk about this when you:re this drunk." You mumbled too. "Can we please get you to bed?"

"What do you want to talk about?" He asked, a bit confused. And you ignored.

"Let's get you to bed, cyborg, c'mon." You reached your hand, after getting up, to help him up.

"Y/n what is it?" He questioned again, using your help to get up.

"We can talk in the morning Bucky, let's go." You put his arm around your shoulder and pulled him from the sand throuwards the house.

"Tell me." He stopped. "Please, I can't take it anymore." Tears left his eyes again but his voice remained untouched. "If you're just going to stop being…" He started but you stopped him by talking over him.

"I love you." You said. "I'm in love with you too Bucky. I didn't want to talk about this when you're drunk because I want you to remember what you said and what I said and not just pretend it never happened because I can't do that anymore." He walked to you, holding your head in place with his hands.

"Say it again." He asked in a whisper, Blue eyes filled with emotions.

"I love you Bucky." You in a whisper said, y/e/c eyes filled with emotions as well.

"I'm gonna kiss you now. Is that okay?" You nodded before he could even finish and he closed the distance between you two with the most meaningful kiss you ever shared with anyone.

#bucky barnes smut #bucky barnes #bucky fluff #bucky x you #avengers #tony stark #tony stank #marvel #buckysam #bucky smut #avenger smut #steve rodgers x reader #steve rodgers imagine

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molluskmirage · 17 days

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The situation with the qsmp admins is not a safe cozy one. You’re allowed to be shocked, feel betrayed, and express frustration and disappointment but if that is aimed at the ones who suffered you are actively perpetuating harm.

The little info we have is enough! It is enough harm. And with something of this nature it is only the tip of the iceberg.

-Twitter admins were not paid and fired without a word.

-Lea and Pomme were expelled without word and payment. (What payment there was was pity change)

-Og Ramon was fired without word and replaced without any knowledge to audience and even worse CC’s

-EGG ACTORS WERE NOT PAID

the reason I emphasize this is that these were not unknown people, we could see, know, and love there work as an audience. If the audience isn’t showing concern for them what hope does nameless faceless people behind the scenes even hope to have for there plights and stories of abuse.

this isnt a popularity contest IF YOU DO WORK YOU DESERVE PAY. End of.

-young adults and minors were taken advantage of for there inexperience

-the mistreatment became so unbearable pushing Lea to speak up, that is a horrendous position to be in against something that is popular something that you love because it was that love that carried her through such treatment and that was known and abused!

-Artea (Ramon’s 2nd admin) has said and has been backed up by many other admins that they have a statement to make that they know wont go over well in the community, and it sucks they have to feel this way. Just because it has not been shared yet does not mean it hasn’t happened or to blindly hope for the best. Hurt has happened here. Given everything that we already know of the situation its not gonna be pretty and I want them to be able to have the space and opportunity to feel safe to share.

-Admins were not allowed to discuss with each other OR there was uneven care amongst the team. This has been enormously concerning to me, this is a tip of the iceberg. if a spouse is cutting you off and isolating you from friends and family it is the red flag of abuse and is just the same in the work place with this type of treatment. This ‘boss’ knew what they were doing and did so maliciously. (Even if ‘only one’ admin had been given this treatment it would be enough. but it hasn’t been just one and we still and may never come to know the scale of how many were hurt by this)

These are facts of harm were barely scratching the surface of, and its already enough. If you are being treated this way in your own life, if you have not entered the work sphere yet and do not know your rights, this is them, you deserve to be treated with respect and paid for your work. It does not matter if someone doesn’t like you, you make a bad comment, you’re bad at your job, its your dream job and you’re lucky to be there, you still need to be handled with respect and given your earnings for work done. The world can judge you for your actions but you are still owed basic human rights. People love to jump to superlatives to the worst case scenarios but that is so so very rarely ever the issue. Far more common is that people do the work ‘good work’ even and are taken advantage of and demeaned for small or subjective offenses to ‘rationalize’ their mistreatment.

There are admins in different positions to others. That uneven treatment is also by design. It confuses and muddies the water so it becomes in-fighting instead of focusing on the source of the issue. While it obviously sucks to have had nothing but poor treatment since the beginning it is also terrible to be in a position where you’re happy loving life thinking things are great and then to be slapped in the face that people you work alongside with have been treated poorly. Do you believe them? Do you feel shame that you were cozy while they suffered? Its an awful position to be in as well.

This also plays into the fact that some either dont know better or have been treated worse elsewhere so its ‘better’ then that. Ricardõ is a disabled player as a person in that position myself I could greatly sympathize why they might not feel inclined to leave even as their friends depart, because even in terrible circumstances it’s probably a better option then leaving. Being lonely, in pain, poor and vulnerable sucks, it sucks so much. I started playing mc just to interact with others because I cant see anyone and I break down crying so often because someone says my name, acknowledges my existence. I am in pain every day and can see no one but the one chance I can to exist in a world that I cant irl in mc is the highlight of my week, month or year. Ricardõ has an element of health that I do not but even if they are more able then I it is something I consider a lot when breaking down why they might make the choices they do.

I could be completely off base for them and only projecting my own problems here but even through projection there are still things incredibly unacceptable about this entire situation.

I never ever condone attacking others for what has happened but things have happened and they need fixing. You can have accidents and hurt people without meaning too but that doesn’t mean you dont treat the wound because you didn’t intend for it to happen, it happened, so spreading comfort and care to those hurt needs to be the priority and focus. There is no more waiting to see if more has happened, enough has already happened and if we give care to those that have come forward we’ll create a space for those that havent to share and address those issues once surfaced.

Hurt people may not say the right thing, may not be someone you morally agree with, they may not be someone you like and they may act out in ways you think is unjust THEY STILL DESERVE CARE, proper treatment, and space.

If you believe I cannot feel empathy for those that are the perpetrators, wether intended or not, then you are wrong (however of course welcome to your beliefs) I can afford grace to all. life is murky and confusing I understand that. There are many complexities that I simply wont have access to, no one is unforgivable but that also means a show of forgiveness is necessary before moving past it. You cant move past something that hasnt been moved. Also rhetoric that surrounds culture and attaching an individuals actions to their entire culture of people is never ok to either do or weapoinze against others in an attempt to invalidate them. People may unconsciously do so and it is not right but it is also not right to equate or read into others accusing them of such without significant trial. That is perpetuating what you are trying to defend against. If you are boiling down individuals that have a relationship with one another and there personal frustrations they may find against one another to just the culture they are from that is contributing to the us versus them mentality that reduces a person to a number and not a human. Culture can and will factor in to decisions and views, its a fabric of life that if you pull apart the seams becomes a tangled web. Culture is a part but so are relationships, relationships are their own quilt and those involved weaving their threads together, regardless if they have different strings or fabric are telling a story together and have an ability to communicate and critique in a way that others outside the process should be reserved on wether their criticism is needed. Be reserved in judgment about wether its that they’re trashing on the fabric itself or that they simply wanted it to be placed in a specific design which is a fine and healthy discussion for the two quilting to express. They may clash in perspectives and thats fine but that shouldn’t make someone their entire culture. Wether you’re trying to attack or defend, They are an individual. I can understand past hurt and projection you may feel about a situation as I have done with my disability but people should be able to be considered on a base by base here if speaking of individuals scrutinize more individually and if we’re speaking of masses give extra affordance of consideration in particular on cultures that are not your own, every culture is made up of individuals and they do not all agree with each other nor represent everyone as a whole.

Thank you so much Lea. Thank you so much egg admins. Thank you so much Twitter admins. Thank you so much builders, writers, coders, artists, assistants, actors. Thank you so much unnamed and uncredited individuals. You all did amazing work that was a true joy to watch. Thank you❤️

your work is worth thanks, love, and support. Wether you share or dont you are worthy of so much compassion❤️

#Qsmp admin situation #Discourse

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Just watched Nimona! Spoilers because I need to ramble!

Dudes just gonna say the obvious! Its an amazing movie and I love it so much! To me, and many others in the lgbtq+ community, it’s the perfect representation. I’d like to say its like a love letter to the community, but i don’t know many love letters that bring up the negatives and struggles that the person or group receiving it goes through. It definitely feels like a gift though. A gift I am overjoyed to know exists and so many people are able to watch it. Not just people in the community, but anyone who has Netflix or a friend that has it! Because it brings up struggles that minorities have that are inflicted on them by society, and it’s done in SUCH a perfect way. Warning my rambles might be all all over the place and maybe a little over dramatic lol

I’m a little tired brained cause I decided to watch it late at night but honest to god this movie made me cry. you don’t know me personally but I don’t cry a lot during movies, unless its a pixar film but those guys are masters when it comes to making you love a set of characters and then lets the story pull at your heart strings so i don’t wanna hear it XD. I immediately fell in love with the art and designs once I saw clips of the movie online, but I gotta say, the character writing with Nimona and Ballister had me grinning ear to ear each and every time I witnessed it. Their dynamic that is created the moment they meet to the middle of the movie and then at the end was my favorite part. The ending was the part that hurt a lot. When Nimona was hurt by her best friend and left as her anger exploded and she basically gave up on the world. That hurt. A lot. Because I know there are so many people in the world that don’t have someone like Ballister in their life. Someone who does their best to understand them and be there for them, to have empathy and work past their own personal biases for the sake of that person, and recognize when their words have hurt that person and rectify that mistake. Or maybe people do have someone like but that person or people dont make it in time to save them, like what if Ballister didn’t make it to the tip of that sword to save Nimona from herself. I personally relate to ballister in a way. I can’t say I was ever taught when I was little what even gay or trans were because i was and still am a little sheltered and have to educate myself on topics I wasn’t exposed to growing up that prolly would have helped to know. Though I am a little glad I had complete control on learning about the community on my own instead of what my parents unfortunately might have fed to me if it came up when i was little. I am not trans myself, as far as I know. When i was first introduced to the community when i was about 12, I was confused and didn’t know how to process such a new concept in my life but maintained a point to try and be respectful of my friends who were trans or gay or had any part in the community. In doing so I discovered that I was queer as well. I since have grown to understand the different aspects of the community and actively research when I learn about something new. I have a platonic partner that is a huge part of my life and I have aer to thank for a lot of my development as a person. I related to Ballister because I want to understand, I see these people in the community and I want to be that person they can find safety and comfort with, someone they can relate to and that I can relate to and also learn from. I want to defend and protect them like how Ballister did with Nimona. I think this is the perfect movie for right now on a political standpoint admittedly, though I’m only educated on the subject minorly so I’m going to try and explain the comparison with how the movie is set up and hopefully it’ll makes sense and i dont sound dumb. Nimona is highly implied to represent the trans community as I see it. When she describes to Ballister what shifting is like for her, she says its freeing and she feels like herself, not just what the world wants her to be. She has fun shifting and changing her looks and when she isn’t shifted, she doesn’t feel alive. Of course this can be taken from the basic lesson of ‘Be yourself’ but the unfortunate circumstance presented in the movie is that when Nimona is herself, the world around her goes into an uproar of screams of fear and hatred.

This city is shut out from the rest of the world and their main belief, as its been for centuries, is that Monsters are dangerous, and the Knights of the City will save the people from these Monsters. Children in this city are raised on this belief that they are a hero if they stand up against what society deems a monster and slain those monster for the good of the city. But when in reality, the story they are taught wasn’t what they thought. I do love the representation with Ambrosius and Ballister because it feels so normal. So natural and interesting. Admittedly I got frustrated with Ambrosius because he seemed to really believe Ballister aimed to kill the queen. But then when I see the blatant manipulation of the Director that doesn’t just affect Ambrosius, but everyone. She sees a threat to the ‘traditional’ way of life and aims to stamp it out no matter what, refusing to see reason and a different perspective from what she and so many other people were raised on. And okay, I know i’ve been saying a lot of the word perfect when describing this movie, but as it is in many cases, its not perfect. I have my own critiques on the movie itself but there are certain aspects in it that i’d describe as very close to perfect as ive mentioned. It’s charming overall and when it really counts, it is beautiful. I’m a sucker for expressions and fun poses and movements and designs that stick out and good dialogue. This movie did a pretty good job at those things, all things considered. But I do wish the people working on it had gotten a chance to really flesh out the world and the backstories and motivations. I love Nimona as a character, I definitely wanna read the graphic novel that led to this movie so I can see more of her! I was worried about how she was presented at the beginning of the movie. it seems like something people in the real world can see as an argument against people like Nimona. That her chaotic and seemingly violent tendencies would of course make the people around her fear her and that she either isn’t good representations, or that to some people, this is exactly how they see the community nimona represents. But then in watching the movie as a whole, if people took even a second to think about it, they’d see that Nimona had no choice. What she is, as she says it, is Nimona. She is a shape shifter that can turn into a variety of thing and people don’t like that. Ballister when meeting her has moments of requesting she turn into something that makes him more comfortable. He asks questions and shares viewpoints that are rather insensitive to Nimona and she rightfully describes him as close minded. This close minded-ness is a reflection of the city Ballister was raised in and also a reference to people irl who don’t accept communities that are different. and then as the movie progresses, we see Ballister become more accepting of Nimona and who she is and that Nimona is different, yes, but also loyal, caring, and sticks by him and his goals, mostly and that’s a lot more than Ballister can say about the people to turned against him in an instant at the beginning of the movie. This feels like a video essay script I’m writing and admittingly I thought it a good way to maybe revive my youtube channel, but im already a busy bee and i wouldn’t want a video like that to be posted months up to a year after the release of the movie so im posting my thought here. I’d love to hear what you guys have to say so please, comment, send me a note or dm and we can chat (as long as we agree we can be respectful individuals if and when there’s a difference in perspective). Have a good night/day everyone and I hope you enjoyed my ramble, even though it was kind of a “way to state the obvious” kind of ramble. lol.

#Smol brain thoughts with Jackie #nimona #movie chat #ehehhe #hopefully 3 am tired thought dont affect my writing too much #apologies if it do tho #^^#nimona spoilers

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