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#i went out w my coworkers !!!!! i had fun <3
izurou · 1 year
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hi i looked pretty yesterday
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rubberbandballqueen · 10 months
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hmm i have like, 500-600 taiwan dollars leftover in a tin from the last time i visited relatives... i wonder what would happen if i just handed it to my little cousins like. "yep. here is gift. have fun."
#i heard them trying to sound out 'eidelweiss' on the piano so i've also been thinking of giving them this little music box i bought#a while back that plays eidelweiss. put it in little box with money and letter that is like. 'hello. cousin cares about you.'#'but cousin is awkward and has bad hearing and speaking skills. anyway here's some money and a music box for you.'#i checked n it's like the equivalent of almost 20 usd so like. that's an appropriate gift for nine-year-olds i think#today at work i was cutting glow sticks in half for our craft and i was not wearing any gloves so i got minor chemical burns <3#like part of the skin on my thumb n pointer finger got bleached so i went around n showed alllll the kids#like. 'hey. check out my chemical burn. this is why we wouldn't let you guys cut open the glow sticks yourselves.'#'because it will do This to you if you touch them too long. this is why we had you wash your hands when you finished.'#n some of them were like 'just wash it off' n i was like. 'it is a chemical burn. it is on my skin.'#at least i Think it was a chemical burn but i mean it was very minor (makes sense bc it's just glow sticks) so the skin's flaked off by now#similar happens when i touch my hair bleach w/o gloves so i'm Pretty Sure it was chemical burns#we had a table of kids who were speaking cn to each other so at some point i pieced together they didn't seem to pay attn. bc low en skills#anyway i broke my own rule abt no phones at work to look up 'chemical burns' in cn for them bc although they know i speak Some cn#(by giving them minor instructions for the glow stick craft) i was like. 'chemical burns... how to say....'#apparently they are mostly from taiwan which is fun i love it when i Don't receive microaggressions for writing in traditional c':#today's my only camp shift for the week tho... one of my coworkers died last week so i told my boss i could pick up his camp shifts#if no one else had but apparently i'd go over hours this week... feelsbad man. it's summer + we're always understaffed#so there's gonna be a point when the front desk worker is gonna be covering the camps for a little bit which is. i feel bad ahaha#the worm speaks
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cozycreaturescorner · 8 months
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oh hey i got some hair cut
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lenasprouts-words · 14 days
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olderbrother!skz headcanons :3
gn!reader with a scenerio w menstruation in changbin’s! maknae line
i want an older brother… anyways
bang chan
oh ho ho you KNOW hes gonna be super duper protective of u
like nuh uh the kids can NOT meet you
but u still get to hang out w maknae + jin line (closer to their age)
age gap is like three years or smth so
his parents adopted you when he was four and u were one
movie nights every weekend frfr
or atleast movie nights on call
and whenever you got tea, he’s on the ready
best best advice, like, ever
sometimes you wonder if this is his nineteenth life or smth
so wise
you painted a mug for him once
no one is allowed to touch it
it has its place in the gym bros’ dorm
sometimes picks you up and runs when your talking to someone
and if you ignore him he’ll start cuddling up to you
’channie get tf away go annoy seungmin or whatever im studying’
gives you nicknames like ‘buggy bear’ and ‘baby duck’
makes you learn languages with him
when he learned ikaw for manila, ph concert he showed you first
bc he knows you like listening to tagalog
he has videos of you singing and falls asleep to it when he gets homesick
lets you listen to his unreleased songs and tracks on his laptop
you got to make one that one time at home too
you send little messages to him thru out the day
and scold him when he’s up working
you know bc he gave you his location
you bought his bubble and constantly tease him
when he comes home he takes you and berry to the aquarium
he picks you up and spins you when yall hug
its the funnest thing ever
will not hesitate to bring up that time you ate hamster poop thinking it was choco chips
lee know
okay he’d be really scary to your friends but like a cat around you
your age gap b like, one or two years
he annoys you about anything
crushes, enemies, good animes or mangas
stuff like that
in turn you bug him about the members
’whats jisung like when hes sick’ ‘oh do you know innie’s plans are tomorrow’
he finds your hyunjin pc collection and blows your phone up
but his hugs are so nice and warm
he holds you by the shoulders and his hands go down your back
eventually he starts tickling you
but you use the self defense moves he’s been teaching you
one of your middle school friends had a crush on him
they were flabbergasted when you walked home together
buys you things that remind you of him
and leaves it on your window sill/table/bed
his favorite hoodie is the bunny w the middle finger bc you gave it to him
makes your lunch for you and leaves slightly passive aggressive notes in them, still sweet tho
although once you got a note that said
’give me back my hoodie or i’ll shove a water bottle up your asshole. xoxo lino hyung’ that was for jisung
once decided to pick you up from work to get sushi
your coworkers were like
’wow i didnt know they had a boyfriend’
you cried laughing hearing that and so did min
teased you about the fanfic you wrote when you were thirteen
and you tease him about the 2PM shrine he had
obviously you both r cat ppl
so he takes you to cat cafe dates all the time
insists on paying and saying you’ll pay next time
sends random ass pics on tour all the time
changbin
he absolutely cherishes you
like holds you up like a trophy infront of his friends all the time
youre two-three years apart from each other
he loves loves giving you piggy back rides
also loves squeezing the life out of you
youre the one he goes to when he buys something
and he’s the one you go to for relationship advice
once you took him to an amusement park
your camera roll was full of blackmail
tens of millions of inside jokes
one of the kids will fix their hair and you’ll both burst out laughing
bc once changbin ran into a pole fixing his hair
your ultimate group is newjeans so you went to a fansign
and got bin a signed teddybear
he cried when you gave it
he constantly tells you to be safe
when your going somewhere
’bye baby cub (nickname lol), be safe have fun love ya!’
when you need a little pick me up
he comes to you with your favorite ice cream flavor and his laptop
your emergency contact
one of your friends has to text him and he gets super suspicious
’cub who tf is this? why were they texting me?’
almost started a whole ass fight
its okay tho he apologized and bought chocolate
constantly tells you to go to bed early bc he doesn’t want you to ‘become like channie-hyung’
will run to get you what you need
if you got your period and arent prepared he’ll know
just sprints to the nearest cvs
even cleans up your nasty bedsheets bc u leaked
’oh dont worry cub i can handle it’
your on his close friends list on instagram
most times its just dedications to you that he puts on his story
hyunjin
his day one frfr
like your only a year apart so your tight asf
his hugs will be gentle but so warm
bear hugs>>>>
his huge ass hands will totally go around your neck for comfort
he also digs his face into your shoulder
he paints many things for you
like he’ll also give you his unfinished projects when he’s sick of them
shines when you compliment him
teaches you choreos and lets you make up some
dyes your hair often too
spa nights where its just the two of you with a movie of your choice in the bg
those are the days where you can just. let go
tea gets spilt. i mean like, you know absolutely everything abt the other atp
spontaneous karoake nights
he gets worried when you drink tho
’noooo what if you fall on your face and then it gets ruined!!’
when he’s tired or down tho
one of the members text you and you come over with your comfort box you packed for these situations
face masks, iced americanos, watermelons, fluffy blankets, llama eye masks for sleeping, an air purifier, room spray, and a huge hoodie and sweatpants/shorts bc he probs did NOT shower in his funk
when he goes home you take walks together and catch up
also you just. really like smelling his room
it smells like flowers and the perfume your late grandfather used
gifts you things from versace
his favorite colors are black and white; yours are brown and grey
picture wall of polaroids w photos u took together
you stream his music 24/7
he writes sad sad songs abt missing you
worse than hannie and his break up songs 😭
working on the maknae line!
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junkdyke · 8 months
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GIRLIESSSSS i had a cute gay ass day!!
So me and my dyke (soon-to-be) roomie went to this queer market to check it out, and my tattoo crush and her gf just happened to be there too! Roomie and my Crush have already met bc when Crush still worked at my studio, Roomie came as a guest and we were the only 2 that could speak spanish and really chat with her <3 so the 4 of us ended up hanging out, i hadn't seen my crush and her gf since we went out of state together so i caught them up on all my girl-drama and work chisme, and talked about more travel plans for all of us to go tattoo together! Lots of spots and dates just got added to our calenders!!
then we went to the dyke event and AS IT TURNS OUT, this gay bar is right down the street from my workplace! I've been right next to it so many times and never knew it was there, so now I know where i'm gonna go with my other lesbo coworkers. Anyway, it was leatherdyke themed and the amount of fucking dykes that showed UPPPP it was actually overwhelming, the outdoor area was PACKED and there were sooo many hot butches jfc
we ended up staying mainly inside, me and my crush's gf danced and were the icebreakers for other girls to come over and fill the dancefloor. There was an older butch who came over to dance too and she looked sooo shy but was just vibing and eventually another girl got her to hop into the dance circle and we were hyping her up ugh she was so fucking cute and it was so fun! I got approached by this really short cutie, we danced, chatted, got to know each other, kissed, she was super sweet. At some point another girl came up and asked me where I got my shorts, so I tried to show her my tag LMAO and her friend, beautiful black girl with locs, leaned into my ear and told me I was gorgeous. I told her I loved her locs and TRULY i wanted to swap info with her but I didn't wanna be rude in front of the girl I was already talking to, so they wished up both goodnight and left BUT YANNOOOOO crossing paths, universe, w/e w/e
Anyway, Crush and her gf left a little earlier, and then Roomie needed to leave and I was her ride so we left along with the girl I met, and then my roomie was like "can we go to the dollar store?" cause she had never been lmfaooo so the 3 of us spent a fucking HOUR just grocery shopping and pointing out snacks and grabbing random stuff. Roomie ended up buying a bunch of stuff for her picnic tomorrow and a GIGANTIC unicorn balloon for her soon-to-be-girlfriend lmfaooo and we kept teasing about how gay it was. The girl I met got me flowers <333 And she offered to drive us to where my car was because she "was just looking for an excuse to spend more time with me", so we did and then I asked if I could give her a goodnight kiss, and it was a very very nice lil makeout, while my friend waited outside with her balloon LOL. SO fun, I felt cute, saw so many hot people, reminded me of what's out there, reminded me to be more confident with approaching people, informed me that lesbians DO leave their house and while we still don't have many designated lesbian bars, we do have a nice array of lesbian events. AMAZING dyke energy <3 <3 <3
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heelwriting · 4 months
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Right, darling?
Day/Prompt: Day 5 - "I'll be your date for the party if you don't have one yet"
Fandom/Character(s): NJPW / Wrestling / Zack Sabre Jr x F!Reader
Warnings: none
Wordcount: 785
Summary: Reader is invited to an office christmas party but gets unwanted questions of when she is going to have a family so Zack steps up as her date.
@12daysofchristmas
She had been roommates with Zack since they were in their late 20s, at first it was just an add searching for a roommate but eventually they became really good friends.
Since Zack wrestled all over the world sometimes it was months since they saw each other and she was in charge of paying the bills and feeding the cat, they had a stable friendship but for the most part they didn’t go outside together, they had separate groups of friends and since she wasn’t on the wrestling scene she didn’t want to get involved and Zack was very respectful in that regard.
After working for her office for many years and getting picked on for never bringing a date, she was talking to another friend who was over for dinner one night, Zack was supposed to be on his room but accidentally overheard them.
When her friend left Zack came out to watch a movie with her on the living room.
“Did you have fun?”
He asked.
“Sure, we left you some salad on the fridge if you want it”
“Thanks, I’ll leave it for tomorrow”
Zack started hugging a pillow from the couch, she was watching tv but she suddenly felt his eyes on her.
“I heard you have the annual Christmas party on Friday”
She paused the tv and looked at him while nodding.
“Yeah, I just want to get over with it”
"I'll be your date for the party if you don't have one yet"
“W-what?”
“Yeah, I know how much you hate those and if I can help you get through that night I’ll do it”
She was still too perplexed and trying to understand, he never intervened in that way so she didn’t get his change of heart.
“Are you sure?”
She asked with a confused look on her face that made Zack smile.
“Hey, why are you so surprised?”
“I don’t know, it’s not the kind of thing we do together usually”
She explained.
“Maybe it’s time for a change”
Zack said getting up.
“Just tell me the time we leave and I’ll be ready”
Zack left for his room but she was still weirded out by his offer, she wasn’t complaining but it was uncharacteristic of him to volunteer for a party. While in the other hand, Zack had heard her complaining about the people on her office getting on her nerves about getting married, especially her boss who was happily married and had 3 children.
Zack had a plan for the party but since he knew she wouldn’t like it he had to do it before she had the opportunity to back off.
The week passed by quickly and they finally went to the party, she walked close to Zack but not enough to be touching, she said hi to some of her coworkers, then she had to talk to her boss, she had told Zack to stay back but to her surprise he came after her a few seconds after she greeted her boss.
“And who is this handsome gentleman?”
Her boss asked watching as Zack put an arm around her shoulder.
“Well, he’s my…”
“Her husband, nice to meet you, she’s told me lots of good things about you over the years”
He put his hand out, the woman shook his hand but was very confused because of what he said.
“Ohh I thought you were single?”
Zack immediately intervened.
“Well I’m kind of in the public eye so we keep everything low key”
Zack paused talking to look at her with a warm smile.
“Right, darling?”
“Y-yes! That’s why I couldn’t talk about it”
The woman seemed pleased to hear she was actually married the whole time which as odd but it was better than the nagging she normally did, Zack had actually come to save her and she was grateful even if he didn’t tell her beforehand that he would lie.
“Well I’ll leave you two lovebirds to enjoy the rest of the night, I need to go back to my table, thanks for coming guys”
Her boss finally went away and she finally dropped her smile, she hit Zack in the chest.
“Ouch”
“Why did you do that?”
“I wanted to help”
He shrugged his shoulders, she had a hand over her face.
“You should have told me!”
He just laughed and she hit his arm this time.
“I knew you wouldn’t go with my idea, but see now no one will tell you anything because you have a hot husband”
She laughed with him.
“Thanks for doing this, I really owe you”
“Go get your husband some food and we’ll be even”
He winked at her.
“Right away, my dear”
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captawesomesauce · 6 months
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Thoughts at noon...
This is a long winding rambly post about my lovely W...
I had originally sent most of this to @littleblondesoprano but ya know what, I should share it with all of y'all!
She asked, what have W and I been up to lately? and this was the answer:
W and I went and looked at a really pretty plane today and then she took 2 long naps lol.
The first time, she woke up really groggy and everything she said simply sounded like squeaks and not words lol… She went back to sleep and this time she woke up able to communicate with actual words!!!
This is a SOOC shot from today.
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So many of our friends have COVID right now and so many of her coworkers to… Some are really super sick and.. I dunno… The air show is this weekend and while it's outdoors… I'm concerned.
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The weather has been warm but school is back in session so we have been out and about more! We took a walk along the beach and the canals to look at all the Halloween decorations of the "richie rich" folks.
Dude… It was insane! Some had 3 story inflatable Frankensteins, another house had a super realistic multi story Jack and Sally from nightmare before Christmas!! That whole house was done up in Disney Halloween stuff!!
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W took some pics while we were out of her little toy sea turtle and I made a Tumblr for it, the LBCTurtle! LBC for long Beach City, and because it's a sea turtle…c-turtle lol
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And here is the turtle lol We bought it a pretty base that I'm going to attach it to and she's having so much fun taking these photos lol
She also has some new diamond paintings and a 3D globe puzzle, and a draw/build your own globe arts and crafts thing.
So she's set for a while with fun stuff.
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So that's the run down of what's been going on ... throw in the fact that our dishwasher latch keeps breaking, that we went and got the oil changed in our car and they FUCKED UP!!!!! and didn't put the drain plug in right so it leaked all over the garage floor, and some other little bullshit like that. lol
BUT, the car is smogged, the oil is changed, the gas is full, we'll get the car washed soon, and then next week will be the fun week. Sat is the airshow... maybe... but next week I want to explore a new nature preserve, go to the beach, and some other trips and outings depending on my little w's napping schedule :)
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phenomenalgirl9 · 2 years
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Idol! Seonghwa x Producer! Reader: I'm curved??
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A/n: I just randomly got this idea by seeing a few edits (I'll add them), please don't hate me 😭 The writing is messy, sorry!😭
Summary: You are a producer of HnS one of the most happening rising K-pop duo. However, you've had a crush on one of them from the very beginning, but never worked on it as you thought he wasn't "straight".
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Being a producer led to the fact that you were often working nights through the studio as you're in a "flow".
The duo were leaving the dance studio, when they found the lights to your studio still on.
You heard a knock on your door and were surprised and almost scared, who would knock on your door at 11:45pm?!
"W-who is it?" You said
"Its us" two familiar voices were heard, and you sighed in relief and said "Come in!"
"Did I hear you stutter?!" The face of an amused Seonghwa was seen to poke inside.
"Yah! If you knock at 11: 45 what else do you expect?!" You said.
You watched him laugh and entered the studio with Hongjoong behind him.
"Seriously Yn, what are you doing here at this hour? It's seriously unsafe." Hongjoong said.
"Don't worry, I don't intend to go home, I'm feeling good about this track, I'm gonna make it workable by tomorrow" you said nodding and sipping your Americano and you flinched and almost gagged at the taste.
"Why are you even drinking this if you're unable to even swallow it" Seonghwa said tutted and walked out.
"Why are you so stubborn to complete it by tomorrow?" Hongjoong asked "It's not even close to the due date"
"Cause I want to" you said fiddling with your fingers. When suddenly Seonghwa came back, four cans in hand, he placed all of them in front of you and took the americano and dropped it in the dustbin. You grabbed a can and said "That's my favourite cold coffee"
You watched Seonghwa grin and nod, He knew? How?. You thought but smiled.
"I actually wanted to try something new with a track and that is why I am hurrying up" you said as the two made themselves comfortable on the couch behind you, you made a few clicks and played the other track you and your coworker had made a few days ago.
"It's a bit different then the normal songs you make, Jongho and I were thinking if you wanted to switch roles and make this song, as a gift to the fans for your 3 years anniversary next month" you asked.
"I think that's a brilliant idea" Seonghwa chirped.
"You want Hwa to rap and me to sing?" Hongjoong asked and you nodded. He hummed and nodded and you smiled wide.
"I think it'll be fun" Hongjoong said and got up and said "Okay. See you, I actually have some work tomorrow morning" and walked away, in you nodded and watched Hwa gathering the couch pillows and getting comfortable.
"What?" You asked
"Don't mind me I'm just guarding you" with a smile that made your heart flutter so bad. He looked just like:
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Damn he looked so cute, you just wanted to squish his cheeks but you controlled your urge and nodded and turned around to walk back. You felt eyes on you from time to time and turned around but Seonghwa was busy on the phone, occasionally eating some snacks that you had gathered for yourself for tonight, maybe it's just your tired mind. You were on your 3rd can when he finally spoke up.
"Wanna eat Ramyeon?"
You were shocked as blood rushed to your cheeks and ears what? WHAT?!
"Sorry?" You asked.
"We-we could drive to the convenience store and get some Ramyeon?" He explained. And then it hit you, he actually meant it in the normal way, you mentally hit yourself and turned on your seat and said, "Okay. Lets go" with a nod.
It was common for Seonghwa to stay back with you when you work overnight, at times Hongjoong would also stay and help you, so it was generally and him wanting to est was also normal, there have been days when he himself went to the building kitchen and cooked food for the two of you. So going on a drive and Ramyeon with him is not something new as well.
One thing that always happens with Seonghwa is that conversations are very easy with him, you both talk about everything and anything and he always makes you feel happy and safe.
"How are your cats?" He asked
"They are great" you said slurping your noodles.
"How did Kookie's vaccine go?"
"He was actually much calmer this time. Actually, better than Chips" you said, and the conversation flowed.
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"Which one do you think is better?" Hongjoong asked, as he showed you the pictures.
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"We're deciding on our next album cover" Hwa said.
You looked at the pictures and felt your heart sting a bit. Yeah you have had a huge crush on Seonghwa ever since you've joined the company, working with them, increased and deepened your crush. Until, one day, you found an upset Hongjoong on the roof top and after talking to him you got to know, Hongjoong was actually gay and had a huge crush on a close friend of his. Everything was well, unless you realised, the friend he spoke about was Seonghwa, seeing them up close and interact made you realise that. Yeah, it did hurt watching the two be so close and being playfull, but you couldn't move on. You thought of moving on but as soon as you took one look at him, you'd run back to the same ways.
On one side you were so glad to have Seonghwa and Hongjoong as your close friends but sometimes, it does hurt, but you only wished the two happiness. Coming back to the shoot photos, the duo, Jongho and you had a discussion and ended up choosing the third one to be best for the new cover.
However the way your smile faltered from the moment you saw the pictures. You were his good friend and he hated to see you sad.
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So, Jongho was done watching you sad hence he set you up on a blind date with a friend of his and said he'd take over the recording of a new song which was scheduled that evening.
"Are you sure?" You asked again while packing your bags.
"Yes Yn! I'll be fine, it's just a recording" Jongho said.
"Okay" you said and sat down
"Why are you nervous? Yunho hyung is nice and a gentleman. Besides it's just a blind date, he won't ask you to marry!" Jongho said and you both laughed. Ultimately you fixed up your hair, did a light make up with whatever you had handy and left, after repeating all the requirements of the recording to him for the 40th time at least.
You were outside the designated restaurant and looked around and tried to find the guy Jongho had showed you when you felt a tap on your shoulder and you turned around to see
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"Sorry, Yn?" He asked visibly nervous
"Yes. Yunho right?" You asked
"Yeah, thank God it's you or else it would have been embarrassing" He said and you both laughed and entered the restaurant.
The two of you instantly clicked you got to know Yunho was actually Jongho's Highschool senior and they were on the same football team. Now he's a lawyer in a really renowned law firm. He was really excited to know you're a composer and seemed to be a fan of HnS duo and was amazed to know you are infact Eve, the producer of most of his favourite songs by them.
"You've gotta be kidding me Bellatrix wouldn't win against Draco, c'mon!" You said taking another bite of your cake
"How can you say that?! She killed Sirius!" He said. Yes, you were having a debate about who'd win a duel Bellatrix or Draco Malfoy, after finding you both hold immense love for the Harry Potter series. Yes you were having a great time, Yunho seemed like a huge excited puppy and you really liked that about him. He talked very freely and you liked that. Hence, you told him about Him, Park Seonghwa.
"Look Yn, I'd really like to know you more, no matter what form. We could just get to know each other and see?" He said with the most genuine smile. And you nodded and said "Yeah I would like that too"
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Meanwhile, In the Studio
"Heeeeeeey! Jongho??" Seonghwa looked visibly shocked. He was quite sure this session was supposed to be with Yn, rather than with her alone. Why is Jongho here? Where were you?
"Hey Hwa Hyung. Disappointed to see me?" He said with a smirk
"Uh? No. No, just surprised. Um. Where's Yn?" He asked while still looking around awkwardly.
"She had a date so I'm covering for her" he said, he was shocked to see the moment the words left his mouth, Seonghwa's demeanor changed. He almost seemed to Jongho like an abandoned puppy. And Jongho knew, he had Seonghwa right where he wanted him.
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The next two days were the weekends and you pretty much stayed home, watching movies and thinking. Jongho had texted to tell you that he thinks Seonghwa likes you. But you felt doubtful, no, not self doubts but, you were sure Seonghwa didn't because he liked Hongjoong. Right? However, Yunho has been quite active from sending messages and memes or cat pictures. You both were glad to have found each other, no matter in what form.
Hence, Jongho found you walking in with a smile the next morning and felt proud of himself.
"Someone seems happy" he chirped.
"What? I'm happy everyday" You said
"How was the date?! Give me the tea, hyung wont tell me! Did you guys you know?" He shot questions
"Jongho! No! We ate, talked, and he just walked me home and went home his way" you said "Anyways how was the recording?"
"Seonghwa said he had a headache and was missing the notes so we couldn't record shit" he said, sipping his Americano and shrugged.
"So I put Seonghwa and Hongjoong Today the first thing" He added.
"Oh" you said. You were seriously shocked, Seonghwa had perfect vocals even when he was running high fever and he HAD to record as you all were behind schedule.
You got the whole set up ready, and almost on queue Hongjoong entered with a groggy looking Seonghwa.
"Good morning" Hongjoong chirped.
"Morning" you chirped back, but you were kinda shocked to see Hwa, hair messy, sleepy tired eyes.
"Hwa are you okay?" You asked concern laced into his voice.
You were kind of taken aback when he just replied with a "Hn". Why was he being cold towards you? Or may be he's just tired?
The recording was painful, Seonghwa kept messing the lyric of a line, either he said, wrong, stuttered or paused. You and Jongho had to keep on taking takes of that part.
"What's wrong Seonghwa?" Hongjoong asked from the mic.
"Nothing" he almost spoke through gritted teeth. You guess he wasn't feeling too well so you grab the microphone and said "Hwa I think you should take a break"
"Yeah, wouldn't you know all about it" he said, his voice was almost laced with venom and you felt like it hit you directly.
"Sorry?!" You said in shock.
"Dude-" Hongjoong started but before he could say anything more Seonghwa stormed out of the studio.
"Leave him, he's just over worked and tired" Hongjoong said "Let me do my parts"
It was ultimately decided that Hongjoong and Jongho would record Seonghwa's part later that afternoon that too exactly when you take a break. You tried to think if you could have remotely done something to annoy him. But, nothing comes to your mind, Hwa seemed fine the other day after the shoot, that was the last time you spoke to him. You simply shrugged and tried to concentrate on work when:
Yunho 🐶 sent you a message:
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-> Oh my god! 🤣 Does he know you have this?
No and I'd appreciate if he didn't 😂😂
Else he'd 🔪
-> Dw I won't
How's your day going?
-> Almost ok...
Oh no what happened What did he do? 🫤
-> How did YOU know it's Hwa?
Isn't he?
-> Yes but... Fine
You told him all about what happened and how your studio got high-jacked. You felt better after talking to him. That evening you left your office to find Yunho waiting near the lamp-post closest to the exit and you almost ran and hugged him. Something about his aura was so comforting, it made you feel warm.
What you didn't know was a pair of eyes had accidentally seen you from the second floor. The said eyes, got glassy as they forgot what they were going towards that way and rushed back to the dance studio.
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It's been a Week since Seonghwa snapped at you, this past week you've grown quite close to Yunho. This past week, you never spoke to Hwa, nothing outside work. He was avoiding you, and you didn't know why. You were sad, but you thought it was for the best, you often found him laughing and talking to Hongjoong or with other staff, and you did feel a bit envious towards them, but you thought it was for the best. You were thinking about all this stuff while walking, not seeing where you are going and suddenly hit something firm. You looked to find nobody other than Kim Hongjoong.
"Hey Yn what's wrong? Everything okay?" He asked
"Sorry. I was just zoned out and didn't see where I was going, Sorry" you said
"It okay. But, how are you? I didn't get to stop by for some time." He said.
"Yeah I've been fine" you said trying to bring a smile but what he asked next rubbed it off your face.
"And how's your boyfriend?" You asked.
"I'm sorry?" You said "I don't have a boyfriend! Joong!"
"Hey! A tall, hot and handsome guy picking you up from work every other day? Yep, not boyfriend behaviour at all" He said putting his hands up.
"What? How did you know?"
"I have ears Ynie" he said
"Oh God! Yunho is just a friend, nothing more." You said and after a while the two of you went your own way.
That evening Jongho had to leave early so you had to lock up and leave, but before that you were completing a few final touches on a song that you're supposed to submit the next day. A knock was heard from the door and you said "come in" thinking it was some staff. It was when you heard a throat clearing you turned to see Park Seonghwa.
"You here?" You asked in a low voice.
"Why? Can't I come here?" He asked
"You can, but you haven't for a while so I was a bit shocked"
You see him smile sadly and ask "It didn't even affect you did it? Did I mean so trivial to you?"
"What do you mean Hwa?!" You stood up and walked where he was near the door. And suddenly, even before you understood, he held your shoulders and pinned you to the door.
"What's all this Seonghwa?"
"Why did you never talk to me?!" He asked and looked straight into your eyes. You felt weak at your knees and would tumble down any moment. If this man, an extremely handsome looking man towering over you wouldn't have been holding you.
"I wasn't talking to you because YOU SNAPPED AT ME!!" Your voice raised in frustration and also of nervousness, having him stand in such a close proximity drew out all the air from your lungs.
"Then why did YOU GO TO THAT DATE?" He almost growled
"WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING?!"
"Because I LIKE YOU! DAMN It!!" He spoke.
"But! YOU'RE GAY!" You shouted
"WHAT?!" he shouted mouth open in shock "Yn. What are you even saying!"
"I know, okay. I've always thought that you and Hongjoong were too close. Y'all do stuff and Hongjoong said that he loved his best friend, which has to be you" you said, and what you least expected he burst out into laughter, he was laughing so much that he literally supported his head on your shoulder and you felt blood rush to your cheeks.
"What?!" You asked
"Just because Hongjoong said he likes his bestfriend and I am practically his bestfriend and I am well, yeah at times we're a bit too close, but yeah, you thought I'm curved??" He asked and you nodded.
"You know Song Mingi?" He asked again
"The head of the dancers? Yeah." You said.
"He is also Hongjoong's bestfriend and the person Hongjoong likes" Seonghwa said.
"Tha-that means your-" you were cut off by a pair of soft plump lips on yours and it's like your body reacts on its own and he arms snake around your waist and he pulls you impossibly closer and your hand tangles at the back of his neck. You kissed him back with the same intensity as he kissed you, he finally pulled away and said "You're the only one I like and want, as much as I love Hongjoong, I'm still straight"
"I like you too" you said blushing red
"So don't you dare go on dates with anybody else. Cause I'm gonna take you to one and only I can do that" he almost growled.
You pulled him by his collar into another kiss.
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ask game here!
7. How do you choose which POV to write from?
i mean usually the story im trying to tell will make it clear what the pov should be. if im writing a story to explore a specific character’s experience/emotional state, obviously it’ll be their pov, and for romances, its down to which character will have the more interesting perspective to explore and which character will be more interesting in the story if you (and the pov character) Dont know their every thought and have to piece it together yourself. (i think ive only once written a fic w switching povs, and while it was the right choice for that story since the romance was deeply abt their intertwined character development, i dont usually read like those ya romance novels that swap povs between the protags bc to me it feels like a copout LMAO)
16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?
oh man i. have countless fic ideas in hibernation but for the ones im Actively working on… i have three revalink fics, two miphvalink, and one thats loosely sidlink but in a particularly aroallo way bc its also abt sidon’s relationship w mipha again lol. plus three linked universe fics (thatve been in my drive for YEARS) still chugging along. i still think im really funny for my “revali and link work at rito mcdonalds fic” (i went into more detail abt it here) so heres a snippet of that:
Link looked at him, expression unreadable. Revali felt something in his chest tighten. There was no trace of the focused but cheerful cook he’d spent today working alongside—outside of the kitchen, he’d reverted right back to the wall of impenetrable silence.
Revali pivoted on his foot to leave. He’d already crouched down on the landing platform across the restaurant and spread his wings when Link’s voice cut through the silence between them.
“Where are you going?” he asked. Quieter than he’d been in the kitchen, and Revali didn’t think it was just because of the lack of noisy coworkers.
“I’ve already lost a whole day of training,” Revali snapped. He could feel something inside him burning. “I can still reach the Flight Range before dark.”
He didn’t turn around. He waited for Link’s response, but as the moment stretched taut, it became clear that none was forthcoming.
Of course. Who was Revali kidding, thinking anything had actually changed between them?
Beak clenched shut, Revali shot upward into the sky, leaving Link watching silently on the landing.
66. How do you deal with writing pressure (ie. pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc.)?
i. dont LMAO. luckily i havent gotten any negative comments before, and random strangers’ telling me to update doesnt really pressure me to write unless its like, a nice request and its out of sympathy that i try (keyword: try </3) to get back to it. deadlines on the other hand are Wonderful i actively miss the fanfic competitions i used to be part of bc i was churning out 1-3k oneshots every two weeks, it was so much fun and i wrote so much. but i dont think they really have those anymore esp for any fandoms im actually part of, so theres no external pressure for me to write and so im the slowest writer ever.
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8:11 anon here again. Wow. W o w. Brain empty but just. Wow.
Went through all the endings and then had to go back to Arrival Point S to cope with all the other ones. And, as expected, the first ending and S destroyed me. Cried at least two times. My god. It's been a while since media made me cry, and I certainly didn't expect to get so emotionally invested in CoE.
However! I have questions!! Spoiler-y ones? If you don't mind, of course. Sorry if it's a lot?? I'm definitely going to re-watch everything again to connect whatever is left.
First off: is there a "canon" ending? Surely S is what everyone wishes to be canon (although E is pretty good too, in its own way, definitely wouldn't want it to be canon, though) but is there a defined one by the developers? Actually, what even is the first ending gotten before S?
Second: what triggers change the endings? I figure that for deaths it's mostly a matter of wasting time, which is really neat and genuinely puts urgency into the situation.
Connected to that, what's the blue-colored person speaking at the end of most endings? The one who "guides" the player on what they missed to try again?
Third: honestly what (and who) the hell is Kanou. Man shows up as quickly as he dies, reappears in like two endings, commits suicide in both. Is he just the local cryptid? A doll? There's something going on with him, between the Told You So death, the text about murdering coworkers at a previous lab, and his corpse disappearing (and, in specific endings, showing up as...human? Dialogue specifies that)
Fourth: you mention the DLC, but also Hermits Room and Interlude, however I don't see them in the playlist? Do they have to be played specifically as there's no uploads?
Fifth: wow Utsugi is so incredibly fruity. My god that guy is gay, good for him, good for him. That's not a question just need to state it. Also Sanemitsu being emotionally not there ever and Atou threatening him every five seconds. Peak dynamic, love them all so much. Shinano being happy. S ending my beloved
Sixth: I heard something about a...cipher? An art book cipher? Or an ARG? Idk but if you're willing to explain.
That's...it? Surely I have more questions but these are the main ones I can think of now. Again, sorry if this is a lot???
And!! Enjoy 8:11 whenever you get the time for it!! It was so fun to play and mind-boggling.
CONGRATS ON FINISHING AAAA!! i'll answer all these in order!! let me know if you need clarification on anything <3
Yes, there is a 'Canon' Ending'. S+ is considered the canonical ending! This actually answers the other part of this question: the Ch 8 Arrival point S goes through S (Future), which directly leads into S+ (Empyrean Point). The two endings are connected, and S needs to happen in order to achieve S+! OH ALSO. THERE ARE POST-S CHANGES, which i will put under the cut bc I have collected them <3 These technically happen in S+, but we don't see them bc we only check back in when Atou is in ch 8 already. The DLC (Records of Sanemitsu Isoi) takes place almost exactly 3 years after S+. (These are shown in the playlist after the Ch 4, 6, and 7 extras <3).
ENDING FLAGS: Fun bonus fact: the purple text will tell you what you missed, and this changes based on what you did wrong! S Root: get all the info, don't let anyone die. A Root: keep everyone alive but don't get all the info. Ensure that you have charged Shinano's Phone B Root: everyone alive but Shinano's phone was not charged or unlocked. C Root: Succeed in saving Yanagi. Fail in Saving Karen D Root: Succeed in Saving Karen. Fail in saving Yanagi E Root: EVERYONE DIES!! YIPPEEE Mx. Purple Text is something that you'll learn about in the DLC, so I'll RAFO you for now (Read and find out). It is purple specifically! (though i also made that interpeted it as blue at first sdajkldsjkal)
Kanou Flag: in Chapter Four, you can read Yuusuke Aiba's Journal without Kanou (this is shown in the extras for chapter 4). This starts the kanou flag. This is what triggers a couple of small changes surrounding Kanou (the quick flash of him in ch 6 comes to mind) and grants access to the kanou elevator scene. TLDR Kanou was infected with cells, which let him live a little longer, but not enough to grant abilities. They talk about dying as a 'human' because if he lives longer, his cells will morb and he'll become a doll or a creature. He also gives us a Note that says something like 'live for me'. This note gives us a buff during the origin beta boss fight (his "curse" protects atou <3)
The first Five records of the DLC (+ the intro) are in the playlist! for anything beyond that point, contact me here, on discord (@ ariapmdeol), or on twitter (@ AriaPMDEoL ) and I'll help you!
UTSUGI FOREVERRR HE'S SO. he makes me so emotional i love you noriyuki utsugi. Sanemitsu my darling my beloved he is trying but he also sucks so much <333 i love him. The Reiji-Sanemitsu-Haruki family means so much to me. they make me emotional UEEEE. S and S+ make me explode,,
YES there are ciphers!! there's an official artbook for COE (which unfortunately isn't being sold right now orz orz) Which has a few ciphers in it! The one that i was looking at is HORRIFICALLY warped (i genuinely don't think we were actually meant to solve it LMAO) but I solved it and a friend was kind enough to translate it for us! There is also a Cipher in DLC, and a few others in the DLC 2020 credits! I have solutions to all of those as well. It's less 'ARG' and more "here's some information hidden behind a cipher." They're not REQUIRED reading but they help a lot with theorizing, and I've been finding it to be a lot of fun :D
I CANNOT WAIT TO PLAY 8:11 I AM VERY EXCITED HEHEHE
OK POST S CHANGES ( you'll have seen one of these before). These are sorted by chapter. DON'T WORRY IF THESE DON'T MAKE SENSE TO YOU YET.
CHAPTER 1.
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"You want to forget the rat without a head" has been changed from Red to Purple.
CHAPTER 4.
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There is an Item on the floor in chapter 4 (the room that you have to walk through in order to get to Aiba's journal) which reads "Zero Does not Exist".
Chapter 6:
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This document has been replaced, the first time you look at it, by a document by CODE:DANTE. This one is a little long so you can DM me and I'll grab it for you!
Chapter 7:
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ok so. this is shown in A root but it's not an A root thing, it's a Post S root thing (it's because of how the YT translator got their endings, dw abt it). All mentions of Seodore Riddle have been removed
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This text has changed (both in normal vision and in Vision shift. it reads:[normal vision text] 'This is not the start of a nightmare but the end of a peaceful dream' and 'but what will you see when you wake' is added post S. [purple text] 'Aare you enjoying this divine comedy?' with 'i'm glad, you've enjoyed the love of god' added post S.
^this section was translated by tumblr user hermitroom!
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💔,🎉,😬,🧐,🥺 !
Hello hello hello!!!! Thank you for the ask!!!!!!!! sorry as with the rest this got. Long. Below the cut for length and some spoilers for (already published) chapters of S2G2:::
💔 Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?
I'd say a tie between Moved on Memory, my M*A*S*H fic where Hawkeye becomes literally (?) haunted by iterations of his past self, and S2G2 with a specific eye towards chapter 4 (Hawkeye runs away), and chapter 15 (BJ sits outside the bar). Augh. Just. I got a little misty-eyed writing BOTH of those chapters and I'm really not a crier. So emotionally intense and deals with such personal, and I think to many people relatable, feelings and situations--isolation, helplessness, despair, loneliness, anger at yourself and a past you can't escape, etc. etc. Heartbreaking, but like, a good, cathartic heartbreak. I don't think I'm capable of writing something that wouldn't break for the better, if that makes sense.
🎉 What leads you to consider a fic a success?
This is a fascinating question. I think I tend to write for myself more than for an audience (hence why so much of my fic is Patently Fucking Bizarro Weird), so I think I consider a fic a success when I have fun with it and like it. If it makes me Feel Something, that's a success. I aspire abstractly to the idea of "literary" fiction, but also that's pretentious bullshit and I just like getting Weird With It mostly. Audience definitely has a little influence on it of course--I was very scared S2G2 would be a flop w/readers just because I spent just a stupid amount of time and effort on it and I want people to Talk To Me About It So Bad. So Bad. But on the other hand, I'd consider my Clerks (1994) fic Nearly Lost You There to be a success despite capping at like 200 hits because I had a bunch of fun with it, and I think it did what I wanted it to do!!!
😬 Which of your fics would you be most horrified for friends, family, or coworkers to stumble upon?
Okay well the real answer is any one of the approximately ten fics I've written anonymously throughout various fandoms (3 in MASH lol). they're on anon for a Reason, whether it's Concept Too Stupid and Self Indulgent to Own Up to Writing or just NSFW I didn't want the pressure of linking to my account, those guys r the main answer. Out of the fics currently not on anon, I think that the only possible answer is the queer reading I did of Judas. Yes, that Judas. Bible Judas. What can I say, I've got a minor obsession with guilt, narratives of blame, doomed characters, and historically vilified figures.
🧐 Do you spend much time researching for your stories?
Yes!!! I read a few books on 1950s queer movements before diving into Somewhere to Get To, talked to a couple Korean and 'Nam vets I'm acquainted with re: draft stuff, and skimmed a couple books on histories of the Korean War and 1940s-50s culture in general. I also transiently researched stuff to make sure things like cars, clothes, setting, subway tokens, etc. were as close to verifiably accurate as possible. Sometimes I intentionally violate the timeline--I slipped an Auden poem into S2G2 that technically wouldn't be published until 3-4 years after the scene, but I really wanted it in, and so it went in. Same timeline slippage for a joke about the Mets BJ makes in Moved on Memory. I'm sure I also unintentionally violate the timeline plenty, too.
Maybe the most extensive and probably weird research I do for MASH -- and CW for discussion of surgery, I guess, in case that's icky for anyone -- is on anatomy and surgery. It's important for me to feel like the inside of BJ and Hawkeye's heads are steeped in years of medical training and practice, so I do (sorry) watch example training videos of surgeries that I describe to make sure they're accurate and 'feel' at least relatively real from the surgical point of view. I also have BJ and Hawkeye both think in scientific and medical metaphors more often than I think most characters would: in S2G2, BJ and Hawkeye both compare emotional pain to a sternotomy, and BJ has an extended sequence in which he imagines his life as a dynamical system and proximity to Hawkeye as a strange attractor, for instance.
🥺 Is there a certain type of moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels?
Absofuckinglutely, and you can tell 'cause I write 'em over and over again. There's almost always a moment in all my fics where somebody is loved for all they are. That moment of 'I love you, no caveats' is such an emotional heavy-hitter for me. Central conceit of all my romance writing basically. To be Seen and Loved Regardless...wow...
I'm also a sucker for characters taking care of other characters. Like, looking after each other. Food, rest, a hug, whatever. Fucks me UPPPPP!!! Any fics where one character dotes on another in any way is my bread and butter. Just caught on to the fact I'm so transparent about this being a central theme in my romance writing when I realized more than half of the chapters of S2G2 prominently feature a scene where somebody cooks for or thinks about feeding someone else. When you add in brings blanket to / hugs / etc., it's basically every chapter. Essentially everything in all my Romance Scenes boils down to little acts of caretaking because These Scenes Melt Me Into A Tiny Puddle.
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⋆ ✧₊ may 24th 2022 ☀️✨🌷 ⊹ɞ
hello diary ! its been sos long sinc ive wrote here :S thahts okay though, life gets busy soemtime and sometime i not able to write becos of it <3 today was great!
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hmmm where should i start disry ?!??! i havent seen u in so long ))): i lay on teddy comfy back as i weite this bc he make a fluffy cute pillow and he is so generous 💕💕💕 i luv teddy .
umm so the last time i weote was on may 14, si mayb i make list of notable thing ! here it is (:
felt sick one day so stay home n then m found out ir was plumbing day
my cat discover new window n he lobved it so much. was up on bhis tupy toe n was enjoyin fresh air .
had olumbing com over n get toilet fized >_>
may 15 made toast n agua for meself on a lil chop boar dn enjy brekafast
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may 17 i groute d my mosiac media ezploration . i did an ugly magenta tbh and it iddnt turn out how i intended but then again ir was only media ezploration )): next time i go fir darker grout. here was finished mosiac before grouting
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may 17 at work befor my shif i also saw thes realky chte tanks !!! i trie them on but they didnt rlly hav my size n the pink didnt look as nice as i thought it would but the white did n the blue ehhhh ,, here they r ! i also found out my fav coworker too has the same disorder as me and i felt not so alone knowing tht . it made me feel like someone understood my struggle an di am so grateful to have a coworker like her. i am not happy that she suffers with the same issues but i am glad thqt we can both fight our hardships together . <3
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may 18 very sad day ): am work very hard on makeup but had not so good time at school dance so was vert sad. m felt very out ofnplace )): but in hindsight, m also call tht one guy n ask if hed like watch stranger things this friday ! so we hav that day for him n i <3
may 19 m thought of very cute leggings, leg warmers n new aesthetic more , so now am want to change my room up and go for my pink idea ! i always felt bad for wanting it to be all pink ebcause it doesnt necessarily align w my feng shui but i wa s like , “ let me stop confinin myself “ , so im plan 2 get cute pink posters (n design them,) more ffske folliage, hanging plants , lace curtains/ transparent , pink rug and wayyy more plushie !!!
may 19 i also went get my mediciatuon refile , they gav me 67 when they meant 74 but utl l b ok cos i up dosage upon next appointmen maot likely ! i also saw pretty lipblam 🥺🥺 may 19 i paint my mosiac frame black !
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fri may 20 i wok up too late 2 get ready n missed bus so instead of adking relativ who im not fond of,,, I WALK 3 KM!!!! 3000 m in 40 minute to my school n cross highway ^_^ it acc big feat for me bc ive never cross highway bflre when walking n also NEVER have walk that much in ine moring. i was determine to get to school and i did !! did NOT MISS SCHOOL !!! 😎
fri i also went to awerie n se etheir flare n i tried them on and i relalt like d them !!!! i didnt buy them rhoguh becaus when i tried to it didnt work out bc theyw erent accetin phon paymen t / it didnt work ): so i put on hold.
fri was grwat doe cos i ALSO MADE MY LUNCH !!!! LOOK LOOK LOOK. IS SO PRETTYYYY I SO HAPPY BOUT IT ! i wish i had sandio lucnh box tho so i will get one soon. is was yummy bc usuall i wake up too late to make lunch ): so i had ice tea , 2 pb sandwich, cheeseit, breton veggie cracker, granola and croutons ! yumyum
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friday i work bery hard in fitting room to make sure every cloth wa s detail so i proud myself ^-^ i sad tho bc on fri i found out my one friend isnt who she rlly was n she like dark humor for attention which made me feel really invalidated )): so i never hangout w her anymor and gonna distanc
saturdy i did pintwrest, made new board n cleaned up pinterest but still hav to work on it, clean some cameraroll, shop n hav fun ! i thin k i also watch show another close friend n i kinda hav lil crush on him ))): we wathc 5 episode n fall asleep in calls o i b his alarm clock . funny thin is tho before we hungour he called me while i was showering n it was funny cos i was wondering ‘why my music so quiet?’ peek out curtain and see a pleasant surprise ! i told him call me back doe cos ofc i busy cleaning meself !!! hmph , we laughed abt it tho cos😁 i was happy he called me tok bc he was on my mind n i always wish hed call instead of me doing it first . n then later he put me to bed cos i got drowsy cos mediciattioon aargeghh but we spend whole day together <3 n i folded my cloth too! i also look at more room inspo n made list for wht i want to buy !
sunday i did LOADDDDSS of math hoemwork n i so proud myself for it , i finish and got caugh t up! sister b so kind n she help me clean room , so i fibish xleaning and also DID MY LAUBDRRRRYYY I SO PROUD I HAVENT DOBE THT IN FROWVER
monday i fibisb painting , did more pinterest work on spotify n look at shein for little, n during weekend i learned how to weite upside down ! coolio . i slso took walk, wore cute outfit black stocking w plaid skirt black sweater and white collar and did my makeup 😋 i soend time wi my cat too !! i also did sims 4 reblogging on other acc hehe
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n now we in present ! today i wore the same fit i wore the other day bx ir wasntn dirty, woke up in time but had trogbl gettin out of bed bc it was rlly cold. blanket so warm so i lau at floor of staircase burrowed in blanket cos ellie so warm aargrggh then got ready.
i didnt hav kuch in lunch but moma camw in cluctch with making more pasta so i toon tht for work n also had breton cracker n 2 made good granola bar.
i brin canvas n wallet cos today i want handed in. y canvas n buy the flare legging ! school was good n i did really well in math w anawritjng question and understanding material :3 i so happy abt that bc usually i feel like i am strugglin behind , but my misophonia kept kicking in ),:
theguy still havent stopped courhing and the orher person vocal tics (whxih i know they cant help) relaly made me angry . i know not to be angry and i am not acc angry at them rhouvh it is very irritating ): ofc i am bery stonefave so no one can tell i am angry , and plus i dont want to make anyone sad .
art class went bot so well ): ,, i was finishing my sides and the sand when I accidentally tip uellow paint all over my cabvas 😭😭 theguy who sat across fron me was kind and saved my canvas from fultl flipping over , dude had great reflexes but there was a big fat blob of yellow pajt on floor witb some splatters . it got over my canvas so i had scrapped off w cardboard n then scrapped the paint w the cardboard off the ground and back jnto fhe conrainer, and then i use dawn soap, brown paper towel and sponge to scrub dub dub, and then u couldnt even tell it was there . i am proud for cleaning ip it sow ell but i think mybe god was telling me tht i had to do one kr more finishing touches, sooo i went to work w canvas and home w it, and also saw dat my framw wasnt black emigubso i brough it home too to paint it more black.
i bough flare legging tho, got free agua at satrbuck bc i forgo watnottle, had starbuck popcorn (yumyum i luv popcorn !) and it wa great!!! 🍿💛
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hehe, i felt so pretty wwaring the legging rht i wore it to work hehe and i got compliment on mt outfit too. i favetime sisrer during lunch too. and guess wha diary? i ddi amzing at work today :33 i also listen to my sleepy agedre playlsit rn while i write this !
i did 3 stock boxes in 30 min!!! thrts 10 mins for wach unpacking, and then i hung then up n tagged them all by myself ^w^ i was so proud tht i got it done (securi tagging in 57 min, total time took for 3 boxes is 1 hr 48)
my ocd was kicking in ahain with the number of aecurity tags i had and it was a little difficult but i trudge through it n tried to not breakdown over it n so i didnt !! i also met new coworker today, her name angelina 😇
i was so happy tht i did it i felt unsfoppable, n i got praises for my pretty painting from wmployees when i walk into shops n also praises from my coworker s n pll were impressed that i did stock so quicj so i very proud ^⏝^ i put clothes out on sales floor too but at end of shift i went back to get my canvas cos i forgo x_x
when home came my ankle pain rlly kcike din bc it was sore during my shift n still hurts as i weite this ))): hopefully i sleep it off n it go away . i didn do much homeworks until 7 ish but i still trusges through my sampling math homework and painted my frame black and fixed my painting yellow mistake n then got ready for bed 💤💤 i beush my cat today too n he got lots fur, i saw him climb up a carpet n it remind me of spiderman !! he gwtting realt confident n it make me happy
i felt little meh abt wanting to self care but i pushed myself to do so ! 😼 so i lotion my sof skin, gargle w mourhwash, brush teef brush hair n then got into bed w comfy comforter ! i also went on walk w sister n went barefoot, got feet dirty but i wash it before bed, n also walk in grass which is theuropedic !
anyway diary, i look at list, go use lou, and shop for a lil befor ebed. love u!! i check in once in a lil bit. baiiii!!!! 👋👋😴
p.s ⭐️🌻 i forog mention, AHHHH kendrick lamar is in town soon !!! when i am not agedre/agere, i would LUV to see his concert n i think i migh b able go so im gonna b stoked for that OMGOMOMG 🌼💛
╭┈─────── urs truly, ࿐ ˊˎ-
╰┈➤ sweetheart xx
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blackvail22 · 7 months
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10/01/23
12:48am - i always have my hopes up... i always want the best possible outcome to happen. everything needs to go right... it just has to. i need to keep low expectations. he doesnt care, and if he wants to leave me on read on two different platforms for 7 hours, hey... who am i to judge? i knew this would happen.
im the sad girlfriend, the one that overthinks constantly. i cant help it.. its something i was taught. so many ppl around me keep lying, and im tired of it. so many things im anxious and overthinking do end up happening.
i want to be happy, but i cant let myself .. i sabotage myself, doing things i know i shouldnt, and its... killing me.
i mnew things being at a high would make my lows go even lower
at this rate ill need my counselor every 3 days after my appointments because I AM STRUGGLING
also i think i developed some sort of ... something w my science teacher last year because every time i see photos of him my heart stops and i almost start crying. i would always want to look the best esp for his class like i never wanted to be a mess near him... so thats unhealthy!
but i am struggling.... what's new!!!!
12:31pm - yesterday did have some fun parts though, and i habe to remember that. my friends visited me at work yesterday before they went to homecoming, and i had fun with my coworker. i focus on the negative a lot... its a habit i need to get rid of
2:20pm - thinking abt how my new coworker invalidated my identity like u dont have to be androgynous to go by they/them, just like u dont have to be masculine to go by he/him and feminine to go by she/her.... like...
11:50pm - im not going to lie, i really dont want to work tomorrow. that means i only have one day off this week... even though my shift tomorrow is only three hours, thats three hours i could spend in my bed after my appointment. and i have to wake up early tomorrow to do a lab that the place i went to couldnt do for my appointment tmrw... im so stressed out. oh, also, someone i went to school with and have mutual friends with said to me today they dont remmeber me at all,, and that kinda sucks! i mean, i didnt talk too much, but you still have to at least notice me... we have mutual friends... she sat behind me in lunch??? during our music department trip, we talked to each other. all well. it doesnt matter anymore, does it?
i cant stop feeling sorry for myself. if i want change with myself, i have to di it... why is it so hard? i really want to live in someone elses body... im sososo tired of mine. i want a different life and different experiences. i want to live in my ideal world, and its impossible now...
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cloneboywonder · 7 months
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I had sooooo much fun Today i brought my nail stuff to work and painted my coworkers nails and then we had a big pep rally and I asked very nicely if one of my students could help shoot the t shirt canon and he had fun :-) and then my mom called me and said she wanted to go to a store by my house so she picked me up and on the way there Lydia messaged me flipping out about that shirt and she was like please call every store please find us them please please please and the girlies at my hot topic were so excited that I was excited and put them on hold for me and I was like telling my mom about it and she’s like oh what album and I’m like girl you know it’s folie ,,, and she was like omg yeah I loved that when you used to play it and so we stopped by my house to get bracelets to bring my buddy and one of my folie cds :-) and we played it and we listened to the whole thing and also pavlove 3 times :-) and I like SPEWED folie lore and all the little bits it was fun I love my mom. And the girls at hot topic were so nice and I got the two shirts and that cool springtrap shirt :-) and I went by the record store to give my buddy the bracelets but he had gone home already by the time I got there :-( it’s okay I’ll go tomorrow and then my mom drove me to a restaurant so I could meet up w my dad. I’m soo excited I’m gonna send Lydia all her stuff tomorrow bc she’s very excited about the shirt and I don’t want her to have to wait for it so I’ll just send her birthday stuff early :-) OOOO and I was sooo excited like a week ago she showed me some stupid ad she had in a cd bc I LOOVE them and I was like oh I don’t have that ad :-( and today when I was looking at my folie cd I looked at my poster AND TUCKED BEHIND IT WAS THE AD ,, JUMPSCARE STUMPSCARE
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letterstojori · 1 year
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4.10
Dear Jori,
My emotions be up and down all day today but I think I’m beginning to feel a lot better. I climbed in the morning with Thuan, my coworker. I told him a bit about you and what’s been going on with me. He also helped me climb a little bit in Valuo.
And then you hit hit me up. We played some TFT and I ordered food for you cause you couldn’t find your credit card. Threw in a churro cause I know you like those :3
Today I officially accepted the Japan job. I’m really going to Japan huh.
Tu asked how I was doing today. And so did Amy. And Solon randomly texted me so I told him what was going on. I just felt so supported by friends today because it’s nice knowing that my quality of friends is A1. Amy was sharing a bit of how she felt when she went through something similar. I wonder how it’s been like for you. If it’s been hard at all.
And then Solon always has some of the right words to say. Like when I came out to him he said something that made me feel a lot better about religion. And today he told me
“It’s up to you if you wanna choose this guy you already have something w/ or if you wanna choose someone else who’s better cuz no matter what it’ll be okay :)”
Idk why that get so nice, not just the it’ll be okay part but the part where I’m allowed to chase after you. Cause you already know what I choose.
Then I got to catch up with Matt and Meglo again today to tell them about you to. Which I love doing cause it’s such a fun story. They’re growing up so fast. It feels like it wasn’t that long ago I was staying up with them on campus when they were freshmen. They just seem… older.
Then back home and the ups and downs but mostly just overthinking. The weird thing that Anthony posted in chat something but bearbear I friggen can’t but when I talked to you later it sounded like you had no idea what that was about. I had that hot flash of embarrassment like maybe I did something wrong. Idk it just reminded me of HS vibes where everyone knows something that I don’t and I felt idk.
And then you were playing Valuo but I didn’t realize you didn’t want to play w me cause I’m too low haha. I was just overthinking that you didn’t want to play with me. But then we ended up staying up till 5:30 again even after you talked about how you want to sleep early. It really felt just like before minus the flirting and the sus jokes but I’m okay with that. Two friends that just stayed up playing and talking about league and Valuo and TFT. I think that was the reassurance I needed. That even when you were tired you still wanted to degen with me. And then you called sleep this time because I couldn’t even think straight because I am literally so behind on sleep but if it’s because I’m spending time with you it’s totally worth it lol
I was literally about to fall asleep after you said goodnight but I needed to write this letter because today was such a good day.
Goodnight Jori :3
-bearbear
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