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chaos-bites · 24 days

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💀 Subtle Hel Worship 🪦

Honor your ancestors or passed loved ones

Visit cemeteries; leave flowers at graves (with permission!!!)

Try veiling

Have a candle that reminds you of her (no altar needed)

Wear jewelry that reminds you of her

Keep a picture of her in your wallet

Have imagery of birch trees, cemeteries, skulls, snakes, wolves, or dogs (dogs are huge) around

Have a stuffed animal dog, wolf, or snake

Practice mindfulness; try meditation

Explore abandoned places (urb-ex; be safe!!!)

Take time to yourself every day to decompress

Drink relaxing teas or beverages; black tea or coffee is especially good or dark hot chocolate

Eat a comforting meal

Engage in activities you find calming; drawing, painting, crocheting, reading, etc.

Feel your feelings; cry if you need to, scream if you need to, etc.; find a healthy outlet for these emotions (drawing, boxing, dancing, etc.

Support homeless or animal shelters, healthcare or humanitarian organizations

Volunteer at homeless or animal shelters

Feed neighborhood dogs, cats, birds, etc.

If you have dogs, play with and take care of them; play with/take care of any pets c:

Cook a meal for someone you love

Donate supplies to animal or homeless shelters

Cook a warm meal for someone in need

Collect animal bones (please thank the animal's spirit after doing so)

Recycle, make/use compost (great with gardens)

Spend time with loved ones; spend time with any elderly or older folks that you love

Take care of your basic needs; eat three meals a day, get some movement into your day, take a shower when needed, etc.

Revisit things from your childhood; keep any stuffed animals from childhood or buy ones you've always wanted

Practice patience, especially with yourself

Take a walk at night, especially on the new moon (only if it's safe in your area!!!)

Have a nighttime/bedtime routine

Learn more about death; get more comfortable with the concept itself; focus on figuring out what your beliefs on the afterlife are (if any)

Collect old items or antiques; try to restore them or give them a fresh coat of paint/polish; keep them or give them to someone who will love them

Have compassion towards those who are often looked down on by the wider society, such as addicts or the homeless; donate to causes that aid them /their recovery

Eat an apple; go apple-picking; visit an apple orchard

Wear clothes that make you feel comfortable; when at home, get comfy!

Learn to get comfortable with change, especially necessary change; try spontaneous things, go outside your comfort zone, find effective ways to manage stress during changes

Take note of the seasons changing; maybe capture the moment of an Official Season Change™ in a painting or picture

Take time to reflect on yourself objectively; if you find yourself being unkind, take a step back

Observe the life cycles of animals; learn more about the natural world around you

Practice compassion and forgiveness towards yourself and others

Set healthy boundaries; learn what your personal boundaries are

Let go of what no longer serves you; release what you no longer need in your life

Go out in weather that reminds you of her if it's safe to do so (may sound weird, but I associate fog with her)

Be kind to children; play with them if offered

Start a new hobby - something that is calm and enjoyable; crocheting, carving, painting, etc.

Live your life unapologetically

I'll likely add more to this later as I feel it's incomplete. For the time being, this is my list of discreet ways to worship Hel. I hope this is helpful! Take care, everyone. 🩵

Link to Subtle Worship Master list

#norse paganism #norse pagan #norse deities #paganblr #norse heathen #pagan tips #deity worship #hel deity #hel worship #hel

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within-your-eyes-if · 5 months

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A Few Updates

Hello everyone!

I have some exciting news and a few thoughts I want to share. Another long update, I'm sorry!

Codex Update: As you know, I've been working on updating the Codex. I've put a lot of thought into each entry, balancing new ideas with existing lore. While a lot of elements were already established, delving deeper into some topics has inspired some new ideas, and I want to ensure everything fits seamlessly. With this in mind, I'm considering releasing what I have so far while I continue to ponder over some of these newer concepts and refine older ones. In the next few days, I'll be going through more feedback to address some issues found before I plan to release the update.

New Story: I'm excited to share I've released a prologue and first chapter for From Here to Again! Writing something different is meant to help me grow as a writer and expand upon things I might not have considered before, especially when writing Twine.

I will not be making a Tumblr for this story right now, sorry!

I know I've shared other stories that I planned, and here are some updates on those:

Nautical Lost would definitely benefit from a later release as Within Your Eyes grows, as this story will expand upon the world lore and some events that will happen.

The Innkeeper (a working title), I decided to hold off on because I'm terrible at management games, it seems. It was meant to be a fun little story with shenanigans. However, I do want to revisit the idea later.

Short Stories: I've expressed I want to make some short stories, but I feel like there's a point in WYE I want to pass first before getting into them. But I do have one I'm working on that I want to release alongside Part Two that delves into the past.

Worries About Burnout: I know some of you are/might be worried about burnout, but I feel like I have a good system for myself. Writing is a journey I haven't explored much before. I did write, but it's something I didn't think I was good at because, honestly, I was told I wasn't. I know I'm not the greatest, but I want to grow and learn as a writer. I've been taking breaks to focus on other things I enjoy, even if it's still writing out ideas for other stories.

I appreciate all of the concern in this regard, not just for my well-being, but also for the love of my story. To see it abandoned would be heartbreaking not just for my readers, but for me as well. 'Within Your Eyes' has been an idea long in the making, shifting and growing. It's something I've always wanted to share, and I'm so happy I have!

Time for Questions: I'm ready to start answering some of your questions regarding Part One. Enough time has passed, I believe, to start delving into these. To respect those who haven't caught up yet, I'll include any spoilers under a 'Read More' tag. However, be mindful that some questions themselves might contain spoilers.

Regarding certain asks/scenarios, I think that discovering the answers through the story rather than in a post might be more rewarding. While I may still respond to these, I'll be thoughtful about placing them under a 'Read More' tag as well.

Regardless, I've been thinking more about how I should approach questions, not only in a way that's satisfying to you, but also benefits the story.

Closing Thoughts: Sorry again for the long update. I've been very reflective after releasing a second story, and I hope no one sees this as me diverting from WYE. I'm grateful for every one of you and for all of your words of encouragement and love. I hope you enjoy From Here to Again (if you decide to check it out) and continue to look forward to our Warden's journey.

Thank you!

#within your eyes if #wye progress update

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elitadream · 7 months

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OH MY GOODNESS, YOU DRAW THEM SO CUTE <3

Can't wait for the segment of the bros reunion. Also, do you plan to draw Mario and Luigi and/or Peach together in the aftermath after Mario and Bowser are swapped back to normal?

Thank you! ☺️💖

Something I haven't mentioned previously, but which felt fitting to say here is that I ultimately wanted to try something a bit different for my next (and "final") body swap post. It will not be a drawn sequence! 👀 After seeing all the wonderful oneshots that you and Mrpockify and Pianokantzart have made about my idea, I felt inspired to write a little something too. 🤗 Although, there will likely be an accompanying piece for it. 💙

I was planning on moving on to other ideas after this, seeing as the aftermath itself has already been tackled and wonderfully portrayed by you guys. 😌✨️ But there's a high possibility that I'll revisit this concept again later, if - say - I feel inspired to draw more "evil Mario" in the future. 😈 There are a few other scenes that I'm considering to draw at some point, such as the confrontation/battle between Mario and Bowser while their bodies are still swapped! There's a lot that can still be explored with this, and I always keep the ideas that I scribble down just in case. ^-^

#asks #mario #luigi #princess peach #bowser #body swap #personal concept #headcanon #story #fanart and fanwork

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provedlovelessindeath · 10 months

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Welcome to Proved Loveless in Death

An Interactive Tumblr Poll game where you choose who's your favorite... and who dies <3

Basic Idea: You are the poor victim of the Court of Fey, targeted with a spell called 'Rose Tint' that makes you able to see choices and decide on what path fate will take in the name of madness and love.

I'll post snippets of backstory and character designs and then write chapters of the story with a poll in the end of updates every once in a while, having votes for how things will proceed. Scuffles and ultimatums, life and death. You've made quite a lot of boys devoted to you throughout your life. Now, years later, see how far the fay's corruption and lovesickness twists their actions through this game.

TW for horror with gore, maiming, psychological abuse, gaslighting, and dub/noncon.

You are trapped having to see the sweet memories and friendships you shared turn into red splatters of blood. The versions of them you remembered, marred forever by how sick and twisted they became as soon as your friends realized this was a competition. You are the prize.

Whoever comes out of it will be your fated lover, and own your heart whole-y (along with getting some compensation from the Fey for the good show of course).

Choose wisely.

Short Profiles and Concept Art of the Friends You've Gathered Throughout the Years:

Cassius (5-10): Violent, protective, entitled.

You were next door neighbors as kids. He played pranks on you at first but would get mad at others and hit them if they tried to do the same. Although you thought he hated you because of how mean he was sometimes, he would not stop hanging around you instead of going home.

After you heard yelling and shattering from his home, you'd let him slip inside your house in secret too. You really became his security blanket, and he eased up on the teasing. But he'd be mean again if you ever tried partnering with anyone other than him.

When you had to move, he bullied you into promising you'd marry him. You eventually relented as you saw him cry for the first time. He's taken this oath way too much to heart and has been doing his best to become someone reliable and strong for you.

Even years later, he can't stay interested in anyone because of how strongly he clings to the fantasy of you. That his goal has only ever been to become someone you could be proud of. He feels like it's a betrayal to let you go.

So he starts chasing after your trail.

Ami (10-13): Girly, manipulative, spoiled.

You came to his school as he was getting retribution for bullying his classmates. He had been snide, unsympathetic, and cruel to them, toying with everyone's emotions. Finally, his classmates snapped, and he found out how powerless he could be against a mod. He started getting bullied himself. He had been so sure the adults would help, but there was no response from his teachers, and his parents never noticed. He felt alone for the first time in his life.

He was at his lowest, accepting his fate, and you saved him without having context to the full story. You became his his knight in shining armor; the person that proved to him again that he had value. He clung to you.

With new resolve, he rebuilt himself. He regained his confidence, and began living two-facedly, as he promised himself you'd never know about his mean side. He kept finding ways to shut anyone who tried talking to you about his past... then, because of his overzealousness, he threatened ANYONE who even tried befriending you too.

He couldn't trust them with you. You were *his*friend; his person to play with, spoil and adore... Up until you had to move far away. Again.

He was distraught and tried so hard to convince you to run away, to hide in his house. He'd take care of you! Of course, you couldn't. It was just a dumb, kiddish fantasy. But even now, years later, as his life went on without you, he keeps revisiting the possibility whenever he misses you.

He's made an enemy out of everyone. No one else has treated him as kindly and as sincerely as you. No one is meant for him like you are. He can't let you go.

He just can't.

Ragnar (13-16): Depressed, asocial, cold.

His mom passed away and his dad moved them to another state. He fell into a deep depression and started having bad, bad thoughts. You were both new to school.

You clung to him because of this; after relying so much on only Ami previously, you were so unsure of how to make friends again that you were terrified. Ragnar was initially disgusted being smothered with attention, he just wanted to be left alone and not care about anything. It was sad, but your classmates started seeing you both in negative ways, and it furthered a divide between you both and them. All the more reason for him him to feel overwhelmed by you. You and your manner of being probing, kind, funny, and so... persistent. He thought he hated you.

But then you got sick and had to miss a few days of school. Getting his wish, being alone all school day and at home, Ragnar realized it was the opposite. He'd unfortunately gotten attached to you.

And he was looking forward to seeing you again.

When you came back, to your shock, he slowly started clinging back. e kept making up reasons as to why in his head. You came to him first anyways, so this much attention was fine, right? And... making sure you weren't be allowed to get close to anyone else was also okay... because it's not like anyone would be able to understand you the way he does.

He began monopolizing you. Everyone in the school was such a fake, you needed someone loyal to look out for you. That could only be him. He was always by your side, ready to give you anything and to keep everyone away. Slipping up on his undiscovered true emotions and telling you at random sometimes, poetic stuff about how much you mean to him and how you two were made to make each other happy.

He was always sweet to you.

When you told him you had to move again, he took it really hard, as if you were the one deciding to leave him. You'd made him want to live again and just took that hope away. He became cold and detached the following weeks, it made you both depressed up until your last day when he was finally to the point of breaking down. He ran to your house, knocked, and hugged you tightly, crying. He didn't say anything as he handed you an envelope and ran away. It said 'Don’t open until we meet again.' You've been obedient.

He knows it's stupid but... he still clings to you as the light in his life that he needs to get back. His life is yours, and yours is his.

Varrik (16-18): Top student, smart, diligent.

You met him in the later years of highschool as all the pressure put on him being on top was beginning to make him break his charming persona. After moving so much, you'd become tired of trying to keep friendships and were settling into being a loner. But, you caught him having an anxiety attack in an empty classroom and helped calm him down.

Because you were new, Varrik let his guard down and felt like he could open up for the first time in years. You didn’t have a preconceived idea of him. You didn't care. It was freeing. After he was done, you tried giving him reassurance, but he lied about being busy and fled the room. Embarassment caught up to him, but when nothing came of his vent session, he started to relax again.

And the prospect of talking to you started to excite him. Ever since, he'd keep an eye on you, and sometimes, when he caught you alone afterschool, he'd linger just a bit around you, hoping you'd find some reason to talk to him. You fell right into your curiosity everytime and would ask him how he felt. Getting to talk to you in private like that would make his day.

It meant the world to him to be able to have someone understand him. In return, he realized your grades could be better and decided for himself to help you by hosting a lot of study (date) sessions. Also in private.

He knew how much of a loner you were, and that talking to him during school could open you up to other friendships... but he liked things as they were already. You were always available and a little expectant about you activities with him. It was cute.

He tried keeping your meetings a secret for thsoe years, but eventually, someone noticed. To combat this, he readily convinced them that he was set up by teachers to be your tutor in private because you had poor behavior that had to be monitored. He made a convincing story about the real reason you never socialized and always kept to yourself. No one doubted someone as reputable and kind as him.

He got his wish. No one else talked to you, and honestly, you couldn't be bothered to realize what had gone on. Now he never had to worry... but just to be safe, he started moving these (dates) sessions to other places. Like cafes, libraries, the park, his home... You were so close outside of school... even hanging out during the breaks. Giving gifts in secret. He was so happy... he wanted to stay that way.

Come senior year, he had a plan. He'd push you to go to the same, elite college as him. He really did his best to monopolize your time and energy into it with extra tutoring, volunteering, and scholarship hunting. He was picturing a future that HAD include you.

Finally, letters were sent and… You weren't accepted.

He was.

It broke his heart more than it did yours. He-He had to go, he couldn't just… not. His parents, his efforts, it'd all have been in vain otherwise. But he hated leaving you behind and felt wrecked with guilt. You did your best to console him. He pretended it worked.

As you waited with him in the airport, you thought about how what a weird twist of fate it was to be the one seeing their friend off now. You hugged him and reassured him you could meet up again sometime. But with how intense his program would be, you both know that was likely impossible. The last call for his flight rang and he had to let you go. You handed him one last gift before you left him. He opened it when he sat in his seat. It was a little keychain with a small photo of the both of you. He couldn't take his eye off it the whole ride.

He still has it, and stares at it when he needs to feel something again.

Ludovic (18-21): Domestic, dependable, protective.

Roomies assigned when both your actual roommates dipped at the last second.

Ludovic started off terrible. He was in a shitty friend group that he'd followed into college just to party. He thought you were a stick in the mud and would intentionally get on your nerves a lot. He was the worst during the first semester, and you planned to ditch him as soon as housing gave you the clear.

But, after staying late studying for semester finals, as you were going back to your dorm on your car, you saw Vic being dragged away by two people. As you get closer it looked shadier and shadier.

You stopped the car and told them you were his roommate. You tried to appear friendly as you told them you'd take him back to your shared dorm. They refused, until you recognized one of them (someone Vic had brought over before) and you called her name. That makes her nervous and their bravado broke. They loaded him in the passenger seat and walked away.

He was definitely, unusually out of it.

He was a mess as you drove back home. He puked on your car. And while going up the elevator. And in your room. You had to help him change and he finally he realized who you are. He started crying about how he knew he was a shitty person, and you didn't deserve putting up with him. He was really starting to blabber about how he knew his life was spiraling with his clique, but that he felt helpless. He had no motivation to change.

It made you pause your initial opinions of him and reevaluate him. You were up all night checking on him and thinking about it as he's passed out. You couldn't help doze off after a while... and woke up feeling like you were watched. You turned around and saw him looking at you. Really looking at you. He didn't say anything, and turned around in his bed. You thought he was embarrassed and let him be, going back to your slumber.

Things changed a lot after that. He dropped his friend group, he became a bit more serious about his degree, he cleaned up after himself and... he valued you a lot more.

He had an epiphany after going through that; that he had to make better life choices. He needed more dependable people around him. Like you. He really wanted to make it up to you. A year later, he has gotten very involved in your life.

Once a week, he'd treat you to something you like, walk you to your classes when possible, and inadvertently memorize your schedule, friends, preferences, quirks.

He'd go above and beyond for you, even taking up extra chores and learning to cook things you liked in the communal kitchen. You felt guilty, like you weren't worth all this attention, but he always told you honestly that he just wanted to work on himself. And part of that was by becoming a good roommate to you. That quelled most arguments.

He's still a bit of an asshole sometimes; he likes to tease you a lot because of your inexperience to a lot of things, but he's never mean. You can finally say you're fond of him, and even look up to him for helping you whenever you were in trouble.

Meanwhile, as time went on and he had more introspection, Vic comes to terms with knowing that.. he loves you. But he's afraid. He can't trust himself anymore. He can't trust his judgment on what's right and wrong. On if he's really a good person or just pretending to be so that he can stay close to you. Against better judgement, his thoughts and urges slip into fantasies that aren't... healthy. It's a vicious cycle that feeds into his guilt, wanting to make up for it by doing something special for you, you give him a compliment that gets to his head and makes him think of more. He can't help it.

Another year, and another. Everything is great. Stuff gets lost and he makes fun of you for it. You binge watch shows and always try to eat together. Other friends you make start to drift away, but he remains your constant.

He'd follow you anywhere... it gets so domestic, anyone would mistake you for a couple already! But unfortunately, that last line is never crossed...

It's time for you to graduate. Because of certain mistakes and a lack of concentration in his classes, he isn't able to join your year. This is it. He'd been spiraling over through all of your final semester. You were leaving him.

He helps you pack, hiding the dread he feels, like his life was slipping away. He had to say something, to confess... Or... did he? Could you do long distance? Would you consider waiting for an idiot like him, still stuck in school?

He didn't want to burden you... after everything was loaded into your car, you both wavered. He joked that this wouldn't be the last of him. Next time you need a roomie, he'll zip right over. You laughed and told him you'd take him in a heartbeat.

In a heartbeat.

You drive off and he's alone, trying to tell himself he can always sneak back into your life. He's gonna graduate. He'll go after you. And even if you're in a relationship, married, or just uninterested, he'll find a way to convince you you two were perfect, and he'd claim you.

He just has to wait.

Xander (21-24): Socially awkward, weakwilled, obsessive.

A tall, gawky, nerdy guy who joined the company you work at the same time as you.

Both of you were given the same assignments so you could help each other out. Xander was super flighty, nervous and stuttered a lot when you first met him, but with you were persistent. You'd take over the reigns when he couldn't, you gently tried making him feel comfortable when he was anxious, and you encouraged him when he did things right. You were a good, sweet coworker, and the man was starstruck, feeling blessed to even be in your presence when he was such a.. screw up.

The reason for Xander's awkwardness was attributed in part, because of his fearful and overbearing parents. He was home-schooled his whole life, kept to the house and taught schooling the 'proper' way. He was told meeting kids his age would only dumb him down, and yet, he felt like he was drowning under his parent's expectations anyways. He was never as good as they wanted.

Finally, he was allowed, at least, to escape to college. He was so nervous and excited. He tried so hard, too hard, to socialize... and found out very quickly that people did not like his ticks. The people in his class thought he was annoying, and he could never get the courage to talk to anyone outside of what was mandatory. Making friends was... too hard. He was hopeless without the tools to express himself well. In the end, he couldn't make any genuine connections up until he graduated.

His dreams of being happy were crushed. He was kicked from his parent's home and felt dread, believing work would be the same kind of hell in a different form.

How lucky he was, that you were there.

You, patient, kind, funny and cool. You, who seek him out even when you're not paired up, who wants to hang out with him for lunch, and doesn't shame him when he makes a social mistake. You're the first person he can call a friend. He's ecstatic and way too overeager... subtly, without realizing at first, he's even building a shrine to you in his head.

Which slowly became into an... actual shrine.

Obsessive. He can't help himself. Overanalyzing the things you talk about, looking for ways to feel closer to you, getting into all the things you're into so you can talk about it at work, stealing your lunch when no one is around and offering his own when you cant find it, soon even coincidentally moving somewhere closer and suggesting carpooling to save on gas. It's all pretty obvious if you weren't so trustful. It's not like anyone cares, no one bats an eye. Xander can get away with it all... for now. The long looks, the extra shifts, random (offerings) gifts in your desk and his constant, looming presence.

You're perfect. There is no one else in Xander's world but you.

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skylertheminish · 25 days

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I currently have Rise of Darkrai playing again and I like how it's part of a much larger story.

Spoilers for old films I guess. I'll put a keep reading.

Normally Pokémon movies are just their own self contained story. The Pokemon movie, Pokémon 2000, cursed of the Unown, celebi etc. they're all self contained stories (maybe referenced here and there in the anime and other films).

Again I like how Rise of Darkrai is part of a larger story. The fight between Dialga and Polkia and later Ghiratina are all connected by an incident that happened an age ago in Arceus's movie. To save screen space, and my awful memory, it basically happened like this; folk from long ago asked Arceus to save their land. He did that on agreement they give this orb back to him that he made when asked. King of this land however didn't trust Arceus or something so betrayed him and sealed Arceus away.

Come present time. Arceus breaks free and is rightful pissed off and is set to "reset" everything and start over.

I hope they'll revisit this concept again sometime with future films.

#inane ramblings #pokemon #pokemon films #would also like an mhs film capcom #but not by whats their face you keep hiring. have it animated too

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minzart · 29 days

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hey I have a question about your Au where Lute is Adam's guardian angel

Sorry if I ask too much about your Au :"0

does cain and abel exist in this Au? If so, what would be the fighting relationship with Adam's children? Would she be good to them or would she not support them or treat them like children?

Don't worry about asks! I love them, makes me revisit somethings and work more on projects XD

Funny enough I made Cain and Abel designs especificaly because of this au so yeah :D they exist

I didn't understand clearly what your first ask is, so I'll answer with the two interpretations I made for now, if no-one of them are correct please feel free to send again

Abel and Cain's fight: the way I'm interpreting Abel and Cain in the au and in the hazbin universe is with Cain, being older, is the biological son of Eve and Lucifer, however he's extremely attached to the dad he knows and who raised him, so he is Adam's baby boy basically, has a hero like worship with his dad, being the first son, and for a while only child, adding that he is half angel, made his mom very... blind, to the way the boy was turning out to be, a spoiled brat, even after Cain came she still didn't belived something with Luciffer blood could do that much harm(also first time parenting and having no fucking idea how babies work, for them babies could very well be just clones of the parents).

Cain was raised more stricticaly than Abel because he is fully human and part Adam(keep in mind the "clone of the parents" mentality I'm running with this concept for how Adam&Eve viewed children until experience teached them the truth), turning at the end of the day a mommy's boy, with mommy inssues, the focus on him was extremely on the line of "learning empathy".

Despite it all the brothers did loved each other as siblings do, they fight, they pranked, they protected and they shared. But, Cain is a jealous little shit who is desperated for his father's aproval especialy if(still undecided) Eve told him who his blood dad is, or if the angelic conection kinda started creating a certain disconect. At the end, God's trial was the last straw for Cain, having seeing his mom and dad proudness of Abel's old ass sheep instead of his seeds made the boy just beat his brother to the death with his own hands, not that he knew he could do that(i kinda belive bc of Adam's ego they didn't belived humans could die of anything that isn't a spear)

At the end it was the first homicide, and letal accident, that's also why Abel is besides a crying Cain here.

Lute's relation with Adam's children: to understand her relationship with the brothers first I'd like to brief how I'm doing Adam and Lute's, they are friends first and lovers later(much MUCH later), moving on. There's also the fanfic side of the au, the apple of knowledge consequences in here, besides now Adam&Eve can see the nude human body, they also lost the capacity to actualy see and interact with angelic beings outside of profetic dreams or the voice of God.

So, by the time Cain and Abel are born Lute's role is much much more subdue as a guardian angel, she can only give dreams, and watch, by the time they are teens she's no longer going to earth constantly(besides the shut down of the guardian angel program bc of her failure+Lucifer). However she saw them grow, and in a way was the first angelic interaction with Cain and second handedly teached the boy a bit more about himself, and yes, she had her suspicions about the dad's identity.

When Abel dies and goes to heaven she was assigned to be the boy's guide and figure out whatever the hell he can and can't do, the differences of a human souls and an angelic one etc. It's a nostalgic blast bc she sees Adam's old curiosity in Abel, she absolutely has a soft spot for him. She's kinda aloof but likes them all the same, like that wine rich aunt who gives weird , kinda wise but reckless, advice and you start wondering what the fuck was her life like, but most importantly, she treats him(and every sibling later) as his own person, not a clone, not a baby, only a grow inexperienced adult&angel as he is at the time, so Abel does see her as a mentor(half ass one but one nonteless) and only in heaven he could actualy grown to be his own soul, even start the "guardian angels 2.0" the cherubims :)

#hazbin hotel #hazbin guardian angel au #hazbin adam #hazbin lute #hazbin oc #hazbin cain&abel #hazbin au #hh #yes this is the first time i'm talking about the apple thingy. it seemed better now than never XD

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bread-elf · 8 months

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This is a post that's primarily directed at people who have known my character Jiroki for a long time and know of her family.

Recently I've been undergoing through some negative life events (I won't talk about it here but my dms are open if anyone would like to know, but ultimately I am ok), and it's made me heavily reconsider my priorities in life. I still intend on rping on my free time as a hobby, but I am undergoing some changes with my character for the sake of my mental well being.

So for those that would like to know what changes, details are below.

First and foremost, my character is no later mated, and she is no longer engaged either or in any relationship. I am having her previous mate dead, he doesn't rp on my server nor am I rping on his anymore, and it's better this way. Her mate, who is a demon hunter named Aztook, is going to be considered dead. The player has not been active since bfa, and their separation will leave an opening for the chance to him to possibly be alive if he were to return, but as it stands that is unlikely.

Jiroki was engaged to Jason Helsong, but because of what I'm going through irl that is not something I can go through with. The player is incredibly supportive and one of the most amazing person's I know, and he is understanding.

We agreed for them to go back to casually dating and we may revisit their romantic story in the future, but at this time I don't want Jiroki to be in any form of relationship. The occasional fling may be fine as a change of pace for me, but my game time has already been reduced drastically since I been focusing on my life, and I'd rather not hold anyone back from rping freely.

Jiroki has four children that she's given birth to, and quite honestly I had considered retconning them entirely, but I don't think I can do it. So I've decided to make them older older they are (as of right now in Dragonflight the oldest who are twins would be 9), and they'll all be sent off for apprenticeships. The Kirin Tor, the druids in Val'sharah, the Tian Monestary, the Explorer's League, etc. Perhaps in the future I may rp them as adults, but at this time it has become more burdensome then it's worth to keep them involved in the story.

Jiroki may even move from her home in Pandaria to elsewhere. I haven't decided where yet, she does own a cabin in Grizzly Hills, so that may be what happens.

I had considered writing short stories for all these changes, but frankly I just couldn't make the energy for it. A lot is going on for me and there's too many memories as is associated with Jiroki and the events I'm going through, so I may even dabble in new character concepts or just focus on other games.

But I'll still be around and doing rp events that I'm already involved in, and still plan on sparkling with all the lovely Tarts. If you took the time to read all this I am genuinely happy at your investment, and will reassure once again that I am safe and ok. Maybe not mentally, but physically yes. Thank you for your time.

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wundrousarts · 11 months

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I revisited this 2021 podcast interview with Jess for research for a theory post I'm writing, and wanted to share this excerpt:

“It’s absurd, because there’s so much that’s contradictory in here. I can’t explain to my editors very well why it’s important to me that why one thing might be really important to me for example but then it’s totally fine to me that I talk about Christmas. Ugh! It’s fine! It just is. Because this is gonna be 9 books, and I’ve only really shown you the tip of the iceberg so far, but, but there are really specific reasons for a lot of that. There’s a really specific reason, for example, about Christmas, the word “Christmas” and the concept of Christmas exists in this world. And that is something that we will probably learn about in later books, but yknow, I couldn’t say why that’s totally fine and then something else that they would suggest like is there this kind of machinery or infrastructure in this world, and I would be like “well, no, of course there’s not.” I want to be able to break my own rules whenever I want just because I feel like it.”

What do people think about the bolded statement? Anyone have any ideas as to why Christmas, in the form it does, exists in Nevermoor? I'll be sharing my Christmas idea more in depth sometime soon, but I'm also curious as well about any thoughts on the excerpt as a whole. As a fervent Nevermoor theorist, I do kinda love how she's like "I have rules, but also I don't. Don't think about it too much."

#nevermoor #nevermoor theory #<- or. well. it's coming! eventually #jess talks soooooo fast in this and there was no actual transcript so this was so hard to write out lol #anyways the bolded phrase has haunted me since 2021 i want to know other ppls thoughtsssssss #i would looooove to be able to sit down w jess and talk abt nevermoor I do honestly feel like we have some similar brainwaves/tastes.#or i'm just insane. who knows. the brainrot is real.#jess: don't think about the rules of the world too much #me: noted. and also ignored. lol

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kuliak · 10 months

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I'll be honest, this one is a banger - from concept to execution. Demo of the track below as well.

My intention coming into this patch was to revisit a patch concept I made when I had just gotten Cold Mac and was using it as a crossfader/VC panner to distribute audio back and forth between ears. One of the shortcomings of that experiment was that I didn't have any "real" LFOs, so I had Mac tuned negative and the function from Pam was asymmetrically driving it - not awful, but not exactly what I wanted.

I'll be honest, I still don't have any dedicated LFO's - just Peaks, which I always use for Envelopes, and normal old oscillators. Thankfully, though, both of my oscillators have LFO range switches, so I got a bit funky. Rather than using Pam as a clock, I'm using Banshee Reach in LFO range, with the pulse output going into Bloom which is sequencing and acting as a clock multiplier to bring everything up to a more groovy tempo.

The sine out from BR goes into Mac's survey input. Ts-L's wavefold goes through Sinc Bucina and then Mac's "left" input, and the +/- outs go into Data Bender, on which bend and break are toggled and repeats is played by hand throughout the patch to bring some excitement to the lead pluck. Wavefold is modulated by an envelope from Peaks on the same trigger as the Kick (which I'll get to later) to further integrate the rhythm.

Ts-L's PWM output goes first through Ikarie, receiving the same LFO as Mac for stereo panning, and a long envelope from Peaks on the base/unmultiplied beat to sweep the cutoff. This goes into Melotus Versio for the background texture - it's also receiving the multiplied clock and an attenuated LFO from BR to keep the movement and structure consistent.

The rhythmic structure is where this patch really gets interesting. The multiplied clock from Bloom goes into Zularic Repetitor, on which I found three complimentary patterns to structure the piece around (Gahu, Clave, and Rhumba). Mother goes into Akemie's Taiko, tuned to be like a snare with noise going into R2 and Ratio for variation. Child 1 triggers a sample and hold modulating Ts-L's wavefold. Child 2 is used to trigger SB for the main voice. However, since it is velocity/level sensitive (which I just learned), I'm running it through an attenuator first so I can control how hard the LPG is struck in different parts of the song (this is how I get the long-release, loud hits in the B section and outro, without having it blend into one long tone in the main section. Finally, Child 3 triggers the aforementioned envelope modulating wavefold, as well as the kick from ABD.

Finally, the odd part out, the hat rolls. I'm using channel 2 of Tyso-Daiko with high wavefolding and a short release to create the hats. A retrigger chokes the previous notes, so it makes each ratcheted trigger sound like its own, one-part sound. But what's triggering it? D-gate out from Telharmonic, with degree sequenced by Bloom. Earlier in the night, I'd been making the patch with tH as the main voice, but it just didn't sit right with me. The hat pattern is perfect though, so weirdly enough here I'm only using this amazing paraphonic module as a trigger sequencer - but I guess that's the joy of modular: you can do that!

That right there is the beta-version. You'll notice the sequence has a bit of polymeter going on - that's from the other Bloom channel into degree! Sadly, I filled all the timbral inputs of Ts-L or I'd have loved to carry that over, and I don't have space to rack Quantus Pax to transpose the sequence. I'll have my bigger case set up in just about a month, though, and I'm looking forward to even more elaborate sequences once I've got everything in once place like that!

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thesherrinfordfacility · 9 months

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thoughts on the fall

i had a really awesome debate with someone in the replies of one of my posts (here, with @mayapapaya33✨) and they raised a hugely valid argument on god's own morality as concerns the fall. it was awesome, and i wanted to ruminate on it more, because i think it could potentially really recontextualise how i saw the fall before now. in summary, I think points they raised were essentially the following:

if the reason why Angel Who Crowley Was - AWCW - fell (possible unreliable narration notwithstanding) was minor, does that say more about the person that committed the infraction or more about the rules that deems it to be worth the fall?

was what he did morally wrong? and if so, does this call into the assessment of "corruption of initial intent" vs "the initial intent was flawed from the start"

ie. the argument of god being wrong, and leading on to everything she did and created being flawed as a result, ie. heaven being fundamentally wrong

given the above, is crowley responsible for his fall? was he aware of the consequences, and would this have changed anything? did the demons deserve what they got? why didn't AWCW and the rest get mercy if She truly is omniscient, and potentially knew in some cases that their intention was not malicious?

so my first building block in the following is the definition of omniscient; from Merriam-Webster:

so to be all-knowing, it would be fair to extrapolate this as omniscience meaning you can see and know everything - past, present, and future. which has serious implications for god's culpability in the fallen angels' suffering when they were cast down. she, who presumably loves her creations, condemned them to be torn away from her love and grace, and did so in response to what - if we take crowley's narrative at face value - is a minor infraction (and questionable even at that). that is cruel, and wrong, by any standard of being a cognizant human being with any conceptual understanding of morality.

it would be very easy to see this as god in fact not being omniscient (and whilst iirc god is not explicitly described as such in GO, but we can surmise it by the fact that all of the events of the book appear to be told in her voice - 'all-knowing'), and that she didn't know what would happen and the suffering it would lead to, this plainly has to be false. she had to know what would happen. i'll revisit this later*.

now in terms of whether morality exists in heaven; i do not necessarily think, at the point of s1, we can be reliably sure that it does. Lucifer and the guys are painted by crowley as being Up To Something, but it's not necessarily indicated that they knew at the time that what they were doing was wrong. if it was even arguably wrong to begin with - the full circumstances of Lucifer's part in the GO!fall is not described, nor their inner thoughts on whether they knew it would be Bad.

but we do know from the pre-fall scene in s2 that there is the potential concept of punishment. aziraphale would, presumably, not deter AWCW from questioning god if he felt that god would be welcoming to it, and love him and cherish him all the same for asking questions. i talk about it more here, but aziraphale must - by this account - know something that crowley and by extension the other angels do not. that god would in fact not welcome it, or indeed it would be disrespectful to do so... so here's where i contradict myself: why is this even a thought process in aziraphale's head, if the concept of morality does not exist? if the concept of punishment, "i don't want to see you get into any trouble!", does not exist? this dialogue of aziraphale's shifts the picture entirely.

he may not understand what that punishment would look like, but aziraphale seems to know something. and the thing is - despite the warning being pretty clear, AWCW does not take it for what it is... a suggestion to proceed with caution. so if AWCW then presumably goes ahead and asks questions to god, what does that say about AWCW? naive and innocently minded - yes, potentially. but we don't know what questions he asked and how far he toed the line to the point of crossing it. it may have been benign questions, it might have a suggestion that he could do a better job ("if i was the one running it all..."), and in either case if meant with good intention it is clear to us that morally it did not warrant his fall.

but the fact that he did it anyway, and then proceeds to downplay his error in s1 post-fall is where i think his characterisation as an unreliable narrator begins. he was not wrong to ask the question and to ask the question he did, but he was wrong in asking it despite the clear warning, and to not accept his own actions being reflective of his culpability in his fall. god presumably did not just wake up one day and decide to cull half the angel population; whether she was right or wrong to consider asking questions as an infraction is immaterial - AWCW did it anyway.

*but this is where i come back to the concept of god being omniscient. because the thing is - to my mind, action borne of omniscience is a direct contradiction of free will. free will exists in heaven; there are many narrative/plot indicators that say support this. so imagine this - AWCW comes to god, asking questions and toeing the line in suggesting he could do a better job. he starts to question the purpose of his creations made in her name. he laments that it's for nothing, it'll be destroyed, 'what is the point?', and starts to intimate that he doesn't want to continue his purpose if this is how she's going to treat it.

now god, being omniscient, knows that AWCW is upset, and hurt, and indignant. but she knows it's borne out of love and pride in his work, and the work he is doing for her. but if she were to show him mercy, and forestall his emerging reckoning to break away from her if this is How It's Going To Be, is she contradicting his free will? well yes, arguably she is. if she told him the consequences of him breaking away, a consequence that by all accounts may not have been conceived as a notion until it actually was, would that derail his decision?

well that is arguable, because that's not necessarily contradicting free will; that's giving him a choice. but let's go back to the aziraphale-angel dialogue in s1:

a: "what i think is that there obviously has to be two sides; that's the whole point, so people can make choices, that's what being human means... choices. but, that's for them. our job as angels should be to keep all this working, so they can make choices-"

this is where the true paradox lies, i think. morality is an emerging concept, punishment seems to potentially exist, and free will definitely does. but what about choice? this is where we need s3 narrative to fully explain this; was crowley given a choice to inform on his free will? was it his free will to fall, and would he have done if he was fully aware that there was a choice involved? would he have doubled down, or would he have retracted all his thoughts on questioning god - a fundamental characteristic he embodies?

choice basically is free will, but with the added ingredient of knowing the consequences, the cause and effect, of exercising that free will. but would crowley have chosen any different, betrayed his nature, if he were to choose to stay in heaven knowing the alternative is falling? would that actually hinder his free will? that, i think, is still very much up for debate.

#in this house we get existential on saturday mornings #might add to this over time #good omens #i am built predominantly for shitposting and the occasional philosophical debate on morality #the fall/the great war spec #pre-fall aziraphale spec #AWCW spec

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