#im just fragile rn about everything

[ecstarry]

i cant believe i told a friend like “damn he really made me cum and cry in the same day” and their response was “weeeeell, get you a man who can do both”

#yes that was renn #iconic line by them #its all okay #tbf he didnt make me cry #im just fragile rn about everything #but he did make me finish soooo #yes tmi early morning #ahshdidj i really should delete this soon #but damn renn you’re too funny not to share

[hourcat]

piarles really just. like each other so much :(

#yes i just read that twitter thread and got emotional. and what about it #like listen even with my crazy posting aside. their friendship being so sturdy and solid for all these years #through hardship and conflict and everything. they just keep choosing each other because they like each other. #charles saying in that monza (?) interview that not all f1 friendships are genuine but with pierre it always has been.... #it all just makes me so Fragile . even the casual throwaway stuff gets me. they are so integral to one another's lives #im done. im fine. its fine. we're normal. we're so okay rn

[horrorwebs]

i guess ive been feeling kind of empty passion-wise lately

#i dont know where im heading and i dont know what i want. #i feel ive disconnected so much from all the things i loved to do. and lately ive been having doubts about what im studying #no coincidence that the career is fucking destroying me. like idk if this should be like this #i feel like i should talk to someone about it but i dont know who #the only thing going right in my life rn is my relationship #everything else is making me feel like a fragile child with no sense of self. i guess that is just what i am #spikeposting

[arolesbianism]

Trembles like a small dog hey klei you're going to be nicesies to me right

#rat rambles #the good news is that my general wagstaff thoughts and hcs are still mostly in tact #the bad news is that good god are they fragile and any amount of wagstaff content rn could shatter everything #not that thats a super bad thing just annoying for au purposes fndnfjd #I am a bit confused abt the current timeline of things but based on wjat Ive seen so far this might put him in his fifties about? #idk Im assuming hes like early to mid 20s here but he could technically be older #just we've already seen a younger wagstaff in wx's animation before so he rly cant be too old here #this was probably around the start of his science career and while Im not exactly hopeful I think itd be fun if wx was the one holding the #camera here like Im seeing some ppl guess #like its possible and would be a massive win for me but as far as Im concerned I cant even confidently say klei thought abt it that much #idk they might have I wouldnt be suprised if they did I just also wouldnt be shocked if that detail never gets mentioned #but I sallst simply pretend wx was there and that theyre also somewhere in their 50s and that Im correct forever #also me looking into the timeline and remembering just how much time it covers #and being like thank god the constant has a different time flow than earth cause otherwise the carter twins would pose a Problem

[pyromore]

microdosing on upheaving my life by destroying all my current genshin builds to center my entire account around scara

#he doesn't become a god in the archon quest so im building him like a god 🥰 #accidentally got c1 for him and really fell in love with his playstyle so basically after i get haitham/dehya (whoever comes first) #im saving to pull for his c6. and then hopefully his weapon. #for now he is using widsith . which hurts me the most bc it has completely ruined my dps barbara aka my pride and joy. #but these are the sacrifices i have chosen to make. this is the path i have chosen to take. #trying to get through the archon quest as fast as i can while still enjoying it and not rushing so i can start farming his talent mats #man. i remember joining random people to just fight raiden boss when i hadn't unlocked her yet. the way i would not do that anymore 💀 #after talents i'll probably use my 116 fragile resin on the desert pavilion domain 🥰 and i can give his current artifacts back to heizou #HEHE. thank god i have this game because everything else feels like a lifeless husk rn 🤪 #um. is anyone even seeing this. hi everyone. #yeah i disappeared for a bit bc my genshin fixation died down a little so i decided to go back to my old/main blog #im still thinking about maybe turning this into my new main but we'll see ig. i would miss my old mutuals a lot if i move here permanently. #op

[glacierclear]

Having some mad fuckboy!Leon thoughts rn

After he's unlearned all the stuff he taught himself and is basically done with the whole fuckboy thing oh man he would be SO soft. Holding your hand? Check. Cuddling at his dorm? Check. Being more gentle and loving during sex? Also check.

Also, stealing his hoodies. He'd melt for sure

oh, for sure. healed fuckboy!leon would be a SIGHT TO BEHOLD.

he wouldn't be perfect...

progress isn't linear. he'd stumble a lot. make a lot of mistakes and backward steps. you would need to be patient. you would need to be careful. especially in the early stages. because damn, he's trying. he's trying so hard. and you need to acknowledge the effort, even if it's hard to see, because any praise towards this will mean so much to him.

it'd come out especially on his bad days. he's more impatient. short-tempered. lashes out over seemingly mundane things. you'll need to be firm but not demeaning. catch his tells, his habits, and figure out the real reason he's behaving the way he is.

you'll need to slowly teach him the true depth of his words. that they hurt you just as much as they hurt him. he's unfamiliar with the idea of accountability, so you need to teach him about consequences. let him know you're upset and angry at him. but just because you're upset doesn't mean he's irredeemable. he'll assume any pushback is you ending things permanently. he needs the space to fuck up and forgive himself.

and damn it all, he's the jealous type. possessive. protective as all hell. it's toxic, and you need to teach him boundaries. it'll be tough. he worked so fucking hard to get you, doesn't he deserve to have you the way he needs? but no. you need freedom. he'll learn eventually, but be prepared to send a lot of "im safe and i miss u" texts to him when you're out with friends.

speaking of toxic. the toxic masculinity will be hell to unpack. sometimes it's nice! he insists on you being passenger princess. he insists on picking up the bill (well, once you're actually dating). he doesn't mind taking care of spiders (and fine, just because you asked nicely, he won't kill them). but...the bads get real bad.

displaying any kind of vulnerable emotion is like pulling teeth. when he's nervous, scared, anxious...he'll take it out on others. or himself. early progress will be made when he's blackout drunk and spilling everything to you. he reveals the deepest, most fragile parts of himself on these nights. it's like he's an entirely different person. and the next morning he'll do his best to sweep it all under the rug, but you have to fight for it. accept him and love him despite how "totally fucking lame" he acted (his words, not yours).

that being said. the good parts? oh yeah. Boyfriend Material 100%.

he'd do anything for you. anything. don't even say shit as a joke because he'll do it. at a certain point he doesn't even care if his friends think he's being stupid. you're his whole world. he'd wear stupid t-shirts for you. go to that concert you're dying to see even if he thinks the music sucks. he'll bash his head into a wall and learn to bake french pastries if it'll get you to smile. through hell and high water, he'll follow.

and yeah, he weans himself off social media. stops posting thirst trap photos and cuts ties with his sneaky links. but the lack of external validation is felt, and it kind of falls on you to fill the void. clingy won't even begin to describe what he is. he'll resort to begging. he will. late to work in the morning? that's not his problem. you're staying in that damn bed and you are cuddling him. you think him wearing tank tops in the middle of December is just a dumb mistake, but you catch on quick when he starts to shiver and needs to huddle you for warmth. "you want me to die of hypothermia? c'mon, babe. get closer." and yeah. those ice cold hands are going straight on your stomach. have fun.

part of the excitement will come from truly learning who he is as a person. most of his herculean facade is a persona. he doesn't actually like beer. he likes dry whiskey and refined clear liquors. he doesn't actually enjoy parties. the crowds make him nauseous, and he can always blame it on the alcohol. he's not actually all that into sports. you figure out he has a well-loved public library card and he knows the mystery section like the back of his hand. he's vibrant. shockingly intelligent. gets that light in his eyes when you nudge him about his interests. it'll be hard to get him to admit it, but his favorite part of the week is huddling on the couch watching nature documentaries with you.

and it's a two-way street. he remembers everything about you. early on in your relationship you casually assume he'll never keep track of the important dates. that's the stereotype, right? you couldn't be more wrong. birthdays. anniversaries. doctor's appointments. your fucking dog's yearly vaccine. he won't necessarily go all-out, not until you're more of a long-term thing, but what he does is meaningful. sincere. you won't get $500 of flowers and chocolate for valentine's day, but he'll abduct you from work, drive you out far, far into the countryside. lay out a patchwork blanket and stare at the night sky. he brought your favorite brand of pita chips and sneakily worms a gift box in your hand. it's that stupid $15 thing that's been sitting in your online shopping cart for weeks that you could never justify buying. and yeah, he'd appreciate a blowjob under the stars, but seeing you happy is enough.

and you could never begin to imagine how loving and passionate he can get during sex. it's totally different than his usual flavor. casual hook-ups and one-night stands are merely a fraction of his power. he tends to avoid intimate gestures on those nights. no eye-contact. hardly any kissing. he likes it rough and he likes it fast. but with you? he takes his time. commits your body to muscle memory. his gaze is intense, and he watches every reaction, trying to map out your flesh like a cartographer. he'll happily make out with you for upwards of a couple hours before you even begin the real foreplay. and you always cum first. always.

oh, but if you're not a fan of PDA...he might be a problem. he's proud of you. you're the hottest thing on two legs as far as he's concerned. he'll have no issue grabbing your ass, wrapping a hand around your waist, kissing along your neck, whispering the most obscene things in your ear. it's not even to make a point. there's no rhyme or reason. he just wants to. and you're right there. and what right does the world have to tell him to stop? does it make people uncomfortable? who cares. he'll lay off if it really bugs you that much...but if he catches anyone staring at you too long he'll ramp it up. it's almost aggressive. you turn to scold him, noticing how his eyes aren't even on you. he's staring at someone else. someone who's looking at what's his.

he's a yes man, too. if you need restraint and careful guidance in your life...he's not the one. he'll support any weird, out of the blue hobby you want to pursue. if you even joke about quitting your job he'll egg you on. "i'll drive right up there and tell your boss i'll fuck his wife!" and you have to talk him down. he'll punch the sun for you. he'll be behind every impulsive purchase. every 4am trip to walmart. every instinct to feed your id. any "little treat" you want to have he'll get it. because you deserve the best. if you ever want to have a stable bank account you need the be the voice of reason. because it's not gonna be him.

yeah. he'll have a lot of problems. don't worry about that. but, at least with fuckboy!leon, you'll almost never have any doubts that he loves you. once you manage to pin his heart on his sleeve, it's there for life and it'll always be yours.

#fuckboy!leon #leon kennedy #resident evil #shut up glacier #suggestive #headcanons

[thewritingmagician2022]

HELLO IM INLOVE W THE HCS (ngl hitting sol rn meanie boi),,, if its not much can I request a chp.2 of them finding out mc is infact disabled and they're not just clumsy,,, i love your writing more each day,, (you can ignore it if you want 👀👀👀)

Aw, I’m so glad to hear that! I lowkey love this request simply because I’m a chronically ill/disabled person now (still so weird/new to admit) and it’s so nice to see it being represented in media. I hope you enjoy this second part just as much.

Barbatos: Barbatos is out of his element for once. He doesn’t know much about human ailments, certainly not to this extent. He can handle injuries and sickness but disabilities? That’s rather new. He’s going to be full of questions and eager to learn what you require most from those around you to get the support you need. He’ll be going to Diavolo with this information and trying to make sure they’re able to offer you and everything you could ever want or need in regards to your disability. Treatment, medication, mobility aids, better accessibility around the Devildom, whatever. In fact, they’ll probably drag you in as a resource to help them restructure the medical aspect of the Devildom so they can better support any living being who may struggle like you do. You’re sort of their inspiration - you never let this bring you down or stop you, and you’re just the best example of a human they could have asked for.

Solomon: He knew it; there was no way that you were just so uncoordinated without a reason. That doesn’t mean he’s happy about being right though. It's a sharp reminder of how fragile humans naturally are and the many things that can plague them; he doesn’t miss that and he hates that it’s something you still have to deal with. Or is it? Solomon is convinced that he can fix this for you. He’s traveled the world, the realms, for thousands of years. He has more knowledge than just about any living creature and he’s determined to use that knowledge and experience to make things better for you. Natural remedies, technology, magic; whatever you will let him use, he will try. However, if you’re resistant to those things and want to continue living the way you do, he won’t push you. As a human, he can understand that sometimes our weaknesses are just such an inherent part of us that we couldn’t imagine life without them even if it would make our lives “better”. He’s happy to keep using the bouncing charm on you and keep his arms around you like he’s been doing.

Simeon: Oh no, that was one of Simeon’s biggest fears. He hates that idea that you’re suffering or struggling and that it’s a permanent thing for you to deal with. It’s just not fair that someone as great as you has to deal with this but he also admires how gracefully you handle it, pun not intended. He doesn’t want to be condescending or smother you so you won’t do much more than ask questions about your condition and learn everything he can to be as helpful as possible. He’s still going to do his best to keep you safe and, if there’s any treatment or medication or modalities that can help you, he’s going to make sure you have access to them and utilize them so you’re as happy and safe as possible. He certainly doesn’t mind watching over you either; he loves being able to support and care for you.

#obey me #obey me imagines #obey me asks #obey me headcanons #obey me barbatos #obey me solomon #obey me simeon

[sips-tea-cutely]

Everything I know about ‘Love’

WOAHHH GUESS WHO 😓😓😓😓 i came back from my rotting in bangtan jail they are like gorgeous as im typing this kim taehyung is dragging me by the leg with those visuals ughhh actuallyi should be showering rn bcus my extended family is having a fathers day celeb and those shrimps arr good as helll gotta grt like 13 and also my cousin wants to bring me and some of our others on a cruise hes so nice right 😻😻😻

OH BUT THE TITLE!!! so i have not actually listened to laufeys album im a fake fan i only listened rn to val, beautiful stranger, LYBMHA and from the start and i am so bored of my happy crush playlist like she keeps sending me kisses and then she sent me a screenshot of her listening to how you get the girl by taylor swift like do i kiss her or do i type the lyrics so this is my entering into the laufey fandom

by like… listening to every song and thinking of a cute boy bcus one has been stuck in my head forever 🤭🤭 (kaveh, hes my new obsession.)

Fragile - Kaveh

“Will you let me come closer to you?”

Beautiful Stranger - Kim Namjoon

“Beautiful stranger sitting right there”

Valentine - Osamu Dazai

“I’ve rejected affection for years and years…”

Above the Chinese Restaurant - Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu

“I still freeze when I look at these faded photographs…”

Dear, Soulmate - Alhaitham

“Do you live in New York City?”

What Will Love Do To You? - Kim Taehyung

“I don’t know where to look…”

I’ve Never Been in Love Before - Tetchou Suehiro

“I've never been in love before, now all at once it's you”

Just Like Chet - Akito Shinonome

“In a perfect world, I wouldn’t have met you at all”

Everything I Know About Love - Ryunosuke Akutagawa

“So enchanting in every way”

Falling Behind - Rantaro Amami

“Moved out to a new city~…”

Hi - Min Yoongi

“I want to say ‘Hi’ to you”

Dance with You Tonight - Cyno

“Still boy, don’t talk to me…”

Night Light - Chuya Nakahara

“Up the staircase, first door to your left.”

Slow Down - Tamaki Amajiki

“Slow down, give me just a moment…”

Lucky For Me - Doppo Kunikida

“I just want to take you home”

Questions For The Universe - Kaeya Alberich

“Why do I love the moon so much?”

Bonus:

From The Start - Multiple Scenario (Alhaitham, Kunikida, Tighnari, Taehyung)

“Don’t you notice how I get quiet when there’s no one else around?”

#mod maki #forgot what a pain tags are ughhh #bungo stray dogs x reader #bts x reader #bangtan sonyeondan x reader #genshin impact x you #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs x reader #kaveh #kaveh x reader #alhaitham #alhaitham x reader #tighanari x reader #cyno #cyno x reader #kim taehyung x reader #kim namjoon x reader #min yoongi x reader #osamu dazai x reader #fuyuhiko kuzuryu x reader #tetchou suehiro x reader #project sekai x reader #akito shinonome x reader #bnha x reader #danganronpa x reader #rantaro amami x reader #tamaki amajiki x reader #chuyu nakahara x reader #doppo kunikida x reader #kaeya alberich x reader

[xplrvibes]

so the second colby goes under and starts (whether consciously or subconsciously/unintentionally) channeling and focusing in on the spirit world, EVERYTHING starts happening? and he hasn’t even said a word yet.

I DARE ANYONE TO TELL ME COLBY ISN’T A CONDUIT OR WHATEVER THE FK

bang in the morgue, music box goes off indicating someone walking out of the morgue and towards the kitchen, first thing colby says is “take them” … dude i’d be halfway back to melbourne.

“take them… the girls… they won’t stop” to me its like there are girls in the room and someone wants them taken away from snctb in a protective way? like in an old fashion ‘women are fragile and must be protected from harsh things’ way

“everything is going off!” sam… this happens almost every time colby is under. are you surprised anymore?

“that’s me” 😳 ….just gonna aggressively cross geelong gaol off my list of places to visit

i was just thinking ‘colbys been under a long time’ and then colby said “get him out”

it is actually super creepy the way colby just sirs there like a statue, saying creepy shit, while everyone else freaks out abt knocks and responses lol

and aaallll the activity stops when colby is out?

no one argue with me rn. colby just… yeah man. he’s got direct access to the other side. he can open that door and shut it.

ok that was good :) better than anticipated and im SO PLEASED not a single fan of dipshit moment of the other stuff made even a hint of an appearance.

Ok, so here's the problem -

I STILL haven't had a chance to go back and watch the middle part of this video. 😬

I just got too much going on. I plan on downloading it to watch it on the plane, but until then, I decided to at least weigh in on the Estes Method, since that's the only part of the video I truly remember.

Anyway, I agree with what you said here, but I also have to be controversial and state this for the record: The Estes had the potential to be top tier.

And I say this knowing it sounds like I hated the Estes, which I didn't. It was really good. There were lots of interesting answers that lined up with everything going on, it was creepy, Colby was in his zone...

...but like, all of them talking over one another was driving me up a wall.

It was too much. It was 9 Sam's a'Samming.

I needed silence and calm so I could truly start to decipher some of what was happening. It was just too much.

Anyway, aside from that - Colby is really fucking creepy when he gets into his little conduit mode, huh. The way his body moves, the inflection of his voice, the way his head sometimes moves around? I don't know what all of that is, but it adds to the creepy factor. He is so freaking good at that shit.

And that isn't knocking others who do the Estes Method; there are others who get brilliant results as well. But something about Colby's whole aura and demeanor when he goes under has always felt so charged and different. He's truly putting himself in a trance or something, I don't know.

Also, side note - but can someone make a compilation of all the times shit is going down and snc seek each other out for reassurance, either by touch or just by making sure they are in each other's line of sight? I saw a mini-compiliation on tiktok of Colby reaching for Sam while in the Estes Method (from a different epsiode) and Sam in this episode moving to stand as close to Colby as humanly possibly when shit was going down during this one and it just made me think that they have a habit of doing this shit, huh 🥺.

Anyway, the Estes would've been a 10/10 but I'm deducting 2 points for the annoyance factor with the yammering lol...so 8/10!

#asks #snc video review #aussie anon #sam and colby

[hungrypuppiey]

« Period Cuddles »

Fandom: Obey me

Characters: Belphegor, Beelzebub, fem!reader

Tags: cuddles, cuddling, hugs, tw period, tw menstruation, fluff, domestic maybe?, familiar??, period cramps

Author notes: im on my period so now is time for a very needy period post, im so lonely and i can't take the idea of having those two adorable demons cuddling with me and taking care of me (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)

Also, don't mind if there's some translation problems, my native language is portuguese and i still learning english, im also very sleepy rn so i didn't beta read what a just wrote down hehe

Belphie..

Belphie.

"Belphie wake up please" a voice tried to get his attention within his consciousness. The demon rolled his eyes behind his lids, opening only half of one eye, seeing his human's face.

"Hmm?"

"Can I lie on you? Please"

"Because?"

"I'm in those days." Oh. He remembered when you gave them a little lecture about how hard being a human is, your body was disgusted with yourself for not getting the baby it wanted.

"Bleeding?"

"Yeah, now open your arms, please"

"So needy" Belphie said, but he opened his arms, sighing as you snuggled into his inviting warmth, your right hand resting on top of your half-swollen stomach from the internal pains caused by a churning uterus, while your left hand held tight. strength in the shirt he wore, even so tense and full of pain, you rested your head on his arm while breathing in the common scent of belphie, somehow this lazy demon smelled really good, comforting.

The two of you still like that for a long while, you weren't really sleepy, you just wanted something to cling to and snuggle in this moment that you considered the most fragile moment of your month. It was so quiet you thought he'd fallen asleep again, but when you lifted your head, he was still awake, looking at you with those beautiful dark eyes.

"It hurts?"

"It hurts." You felt the pain under your hand, it felt like you had a heavy anvil inside your stomach dropping its weight on top of you more and more.

Gradually you curled up in Belphie's arms, and he held you the entire time.

"Belphie?" A new voice entered the room, it was Beelzebub, for some reason his voice was low.

"Yea?"

"She is sleeping?" Footsteps were heard, you just curled up more, everything hurt, every kind of noise made you sensitive, it felt too hot, too sickening, God what did you do wrong to be in this situation every single month?

"No."

"She is fine?" Beel seemed to notice her discomfort, curled up like a ball armadillo, you just turned your head to look at Beel, again saw the dark eyes, this time on the ginger.

"Are you?" Belphie asked to you.

"I feel like I'm dying"

"Why??"

"She said it is that time of the month. The period"

"Oh" Beelzebub stopped beside the bed; "Can I join you?"

"Two heat packs are better then one" you laughed for a moment, nodding your head to let him in.

"Here" Beel got into bed, cuddling with you and Belphie, both used to it, your back turned to Beelzebub, he was careful not to look like a pervert as he glued his body to yours, all now together, you felt inside a hot dog, two buns on each side and you were the meat in the middle. It was so warm and comforting, a joyful sigh came out of you.

"Thank you two, I feel much better"

"Right? we should do this more often, it's good," Beel commented, closing his eyes as he felt your pain-weary body go limp, lying down with a sloth and a warm bear made you sleepy.

"We sure do."

#my first post #obey me x reader #obey me #beelzebub avatar of gluttony #belphegor avatar of sloth #cuddles #i adore them #so much #:( #ueueueueue #beelzebub x y/n #beelzebub x mc #beelzebub x reader #belphegor x reader #belphegor x y/n #belphegor x mc #obey me fluff #obey me one master to rule them all #im not even on the obey me fandom #but im doing my thing #hehe

[pinkpicket]

What is blocking your success?

Mfs be ready for typos bc I haven't reviewed this 🤡

Choose an image starting with pile 1 to 6 from left to right.

Pile 1

Wow okay so remember how the society and capitalism constantly screams in our fuvking face telling us the reason why we're not successful? How u don't work hard enough? How u should actually be waking up at 3am to hustle bc that's how billionaires do it? Well that's fucking bullshit so get that shit out of ur mind. U genuinely think bill gates and ms kylie jenner hustled day and night to get $7.25 an hour? No baby they did not. So leave that mindset, it's stupid and it's literally damaging u. My advice would be to actually relax and spoil urself instead of shitting on urself for needing 9 hours of sleep. Baby i will be honest with u, as long as u treat urself harshly the universe will treat u the same. So give urself some love and relax, u deserve it.

Pile 2

Ya u need to stop thinking about relationships and dating and actually start planning and shit bc guess what? Shit needs planning it dont just happen out of thin air. So sit ur ass down and write down a plan and change the plan 74747 if that's what it takes for it to work out.

Pile 3

Communication. Baby u really lack the ability to properly communicate and persuade others. Trust me i get where u r coming from, people are fucking annoying but in this society we have to basically learn to stfu at times and not be honest bc truly that's what everyone does. So keep ur thoughts to urself and form relationships on a superficial level ( be detached ) just so u can progress in ur life and career. Remember people's ego are fragile so dont fuvk up ur life with being unnecessarily harsh and honest with ur words, be diplomatic and suger coat that shit till it turns so sweet they get hooked.

Pile 4

Whatever direction ur heading toward rn holds no success. So u wanna be the hermit and find urself? That's great but in this fucked up capitalistic society that wont bring u success. I genuinely hate to say this but spirituality is not possible with success ( materially and career wise at least) for you ( this is just for u bc others actually require to be spiritual to be successful). Also it's time for u associate and talk to people more, being an introvert is a big disadvantage for you, so go out, make friends and soon u will find success. Group work will bring you success.

Pile 5

Enough of planning, it's time to work. Dont just sit around and expect great shit to happen only bc u manifested it ( remember saturn rules everything material in this world, so if u want a successful career with good money, u gotta go by saturn's rules which are being disciplined and hard work) dont relay on shit that people from tiktok snd tumblr tell u to do "all u have to do is manifest by this technique" and not do shit?? Baby that's not how real life works. U work and u get what u deserve ( at least for u this is like this, hell manifestation might work for others but for u i see this as a different case)

Pile 6

Baby ur tired and i know, i truly see u worked hard and nothing happened. It's like all that hard work was wasted but relax now bc something big is coming. Baby u r getting what u deserve, idk when but it will come. Honestly im genuinely soo happy bc u truly deserve this. So what's blocking ur success? Nothing. Whatever it is, it will come at the right time.

Okay bye uglies. Hope u liked this NOW FOLLOW ME BC IM LITERALLY SO HELPFUL AND PRETTY 🥰💕

#free tarot #pac reading #tarot reading #free card reading #pick a card reading #pick a picture #pick a card #tarotonline #free tarot readings #tarot #tarot of the day #pick a pile

[holllandtrash]

Can you list your top 5 pieces of work? Either fic or smau or whatever I’m just curious what you love the most personally out of your whole masterlist💕

this is so hard because Im so proud of EVERYTNINT I’ve written and I’m slightly drunk so I might have a different answer in the morning but

1. Red flags (Charles Leclerc) idk man I just think it’s my best piece of work even tho it’s so toxic

2. 6 to 1 series (Lando Norris) and everything about its, it will never end

3. The people’s Princess (Charles smau) ITS JUST SO CUTE AND FUN

4. Last call (max Verstappen) I never write max so this was outside my comfort zone but I am super proud of it

5. Fragile line (Danny ric) this may actually be moved up soon bc the more I analyze it the more I love it so much but idk we shall see how i feel about psrt 2 when I post it

Again, this was hard and the answers might change tmr but as of rn at 1:10am this is how I’m feeling

[warmpilsner]

i dont feel Great about sadposting on tumblr particularly when im not really on here much for much else but i dunno man theres that growing up a sad lonely teen on the internet itch that only angsting away on social media can fill. so im giving myself one (1) post because i feel that the state of my me is just plummeting so hard its a little scary. im safe and all im good at keeping myself safe but otherwise ive just fallen back to a point of anxiety agitation dread constant urgency constant restless energy intrusive thoughts to hell and back deeply deeply fragile which is not good at all when i work as a THERAPIST!!!! if i didnt have this holiday coming up i would really be having to consider taking extended sick leave bc i am finding it so hard rn to do therapy im getting triggered by stuff my clients bring to sessions, like not in session in session im totally fine but then later that night or whatever im finding myself experiencing things i havent experienced for years and im like huh wheres that coming from before remembering a client was speaking about it earlier. they warn you about this in therapy school but until now ive been solid enough to cope, like its obviously difficult working w people who experience [fill in the blank of whatever self destructive behaviour thought pattern whatever which i have in some cases very tenuously recovered from] but until now i have been able to stay grounded enough to empathise, draw from my own experiences to do so, but ultimately leave that in the therapy room when i go home. but now im like ouuufhhhhhh oughhhhh and i just feel so awful all the time like my resting heart rate has gone crazy which tbf might be the new adhd meds but man theres just so much shit going on. every time i get a text from literally anyone i want toccry because i feel like they are upset with me or going to ask something from me that i cannot give right now and actually it feels that responding to messages is something i cannot give right now but also im so desperate for connection because i feel so deathly so i am frantically spamming the discord with annoying shit like Hi!!!! Hi!!!!Hi!!!!! everything is so intense and urgent and shaky i feel explosive and out of control i need to MOVE HOUSES i need christmas break i need to lay down and for all of my friends to lay on top of me like a weighted blanket of friendship . we did that on my bday last year like 6 friends i think maybe ill ask for that again on my bday this year it was very calming. breathe breathe breathe baby youre brave you're strong you're doing it youre a bomb ass therapist and your colleagues are gonna love you for bringing them lebkuchen

[magnoliamyrrh]

. ive got such a long list of reasons to be bitter and fed up and angry. i have so much pain within me. sometimes i feel like pain, deep, deep, sorrowful pain, mourning, grief, anger, a desperate need to stop feeling suffocated is what i know best. and u know as much as i think all thats justified and as much as i think my anger is important for my sanity , and as much as tbh i like by this point to an extent that my over it little tolerance for bullshit angry kinda agressive vibe is a part of my personality - that my bitterness is earned and aged like fine win. but idk, i have tired to rein it in these last months progressively bc it was consuming me and my nervous system literally couldnt handle it

but. something i still havent figured out how to deal w is my very, very, very bad case of survivors guilt. maybe its gotten a bit better but that makes me feel guilty too. it always does. i try not to let it haunt me but It Always done it haunts me that its somehow not supposed to consume and haunt me

. after everything my own pain and trauma is not what fucks me up the most. its always that its not over for so many others. for so many others its not over, its never over, theyre going through it rn, many worse than anything i ever went through. many that wont make it out alive

.

my best friend says its not my responsibility especially with my crippled health and the little of my fragile sanity to try to do something about it. that spending years trying to do something about sex trafficking or whatever else would break me, eat me up inside, that people who aint traumatized end up killing themselves or alchoholics, shells from what they've seen, so what would it do to me? he says. ive earned my rest, ive earned looking away, ive earned my peace

...

but what does that matter? what it would do to me? he says he doesnt understand why i spend so much time writing and speaking on this shit. at first it was to understand myself. now it is the horror that it is so much more horrible and bad and keeps going, its not me. its others. i always have felt more impacted by seeing others in pain than myself. i never can stand seeing my pain on someone else.

he says he doesnt understand why i look. he says he doesnt understand why i think. he says he doesnt understand why i study. doesnt understand why i want to do something about it when its so horrible

........

but ive been.... lucky. not so but lucky. lucky enouth to live. to get out. to get my "freedom."

but what does "my" individual freedom mean? when others dont have it? what does it matter?....... what does it matter?

it feels like my trauma isnt over through them. its not. im just one person, but for so many its not over. it wont be over. they may never see over until their graves.... time is a flat circle and all

...

and i think, how many? how many? and i think too.... in the history of the balkans, of my people, my women and little girls... how many? for how long?

how many today? everywhere?

how am i supposed to rest easy. how am i supposed to live my life ignoring it

why shouldn't i burn myself out. i already am. why shouldnt i take on the trauma of getting back into it for the sake of others

.

what does my freedom mean without theirs?

.

their screams echo through my head. they were my own once. i have stopped screaming

they have not

[kkami-writes]

HI OP HI KAIA I just finished bingeing literally everything that is out rn in the waiting for us series and. I have to start by saying im so sorry for spamming ur notifs

I HOPE U CAN FORGIVE ME I AM SO SORRY BUT IT'S 1AM RN AND I JUST DISCOVERED THIS SERIES AND I LOVE IT TO DEATH

the premise alone had me so so hooked but I absolutely ADORE the social media format?? like the combination of texts/tweets/writing is actually so genius to me like it is such a creative and engaging way to tell the story and I absolutely fucking love u for it <3

MIO MY HEART ACHES FOR MIO I WANT HER BROTHER (AND PARENTS??) TO DIE A SLOW AND PAINFUL DEATH SO SHE CAN JUST BE HAPPY FOREVER W HER 8 SOULMATES ALREADY :(

the amount of angst in this series I love sm. when seung was texting hyunjin about mio?? broke me. I am so not okay I almost cried real tears at that chapter like how dare u do that to my fragile little heart (/pos !!!) I also noticed u being super considerate with your sh tw for that one chapter, a lot of authors don't rly do that so thank u for that tldr at the end I love u and u deserve a kiss on the forehead

aside from the angst I absolutely adore the crack humor and fluff in this series LMAO <333 I just can't describe it but waiting for us!skz is just. so skz. like it is so them I have no idea how u managed to put their exact entire beings into these texts and tweets but u did and it's incredible and I'm so immersed in the series I love u sm

ANYWAYS I'm so sorry for the entire essay... if u didn't read this and u end up blocking me for spamming ur notifs sm I understand BUT I HOPE U KNOW I LOVE THIS SERIES SOOO MUCH <33 idk how the taglist works bc I think it said 50/50 but? please tag me in future updates if you're still open to adding people!! I can't tell u again how much I adore this series and how invested in it I ammmm thank u for your incredible writing op!!! <333

- heather <3

haha omg. I don’t mind the spam!!! i’m goad you’re loving it. the social media format has definitely been my favorite since I discovered it!! I’ve always enjoyed writing dialogue more than anything so texts are a great way to do that.

I accidentally made seungmin a little too angsty but!! he’s just a lil tsundere who’s kinda afraid of his feelings because he feels them so strongly and so intensely. there’s definitely a little more to his backstory that you guys can look forward to 🤭

of course!! tws are super important to me as someone who is easily triggered by things. I had wrote mio/yn as someone who struggles a lot because as someone who deals with depression and chronic anxiety, writing about it and having someone be comforted by it is really cathartic. I know it’s not for everyone and that’s ok!! I have much more less angst fic ideas too.

AAAAA thank you so much!! as a baby stay I’m really glad people enjoy my characterization of skz! I’ve been binge watching a lot of content and I was worried about writing them in the beginning because I am a baby stay but i’m very happy 🩷

don’t worry!!! I absolutely LOVE your long message and kind words!

right now the taglist is full but i’ll put you on the waitlist! thank you so much for enjoying waiting for us! this fic is my baby tbh.

#waiting for us asks #starsandrqindrops

[lunargrapejuice]

Hi Luna ❤️

How are you? Just checking in to see if you’re doing okay and have been keeping well! 🥰 I hope you’re not too stressed at your new job and have some time for yourself and your husband!

I saw the post of the anon about Diluc and it made me feel so fuzzy and warm.

It took 2 years for Diluc to come home as well 😭😭😭 I am still taking my time building him because I am using other characters for my overworld and I don’t often play the abyss.

My boyfriend started playing Genshin before me and he has a c3 Diluc 😭😭😭

Every time I would lose a 50/50 I would hope it would be Diluc but it would always be Jean, Mona or Keqing. It’s been a little over 2 years since I started Genshin but till date, I haven’t gotten Qiqi yet 😂 idk if I am lucky or not but I love her and for the sake of the meme, I want her! She and Dehya are the only ones in the standard banner that I don’t have.

I am saving for Neuvi and Wrio’s banner but it’s a 50/50. I am hoping that if I lose my 50/50 it’s either a Diluc Con or a Qiqi. 😭

hello my beloved beautiful nats🥰💕

i hope you’ve been doing well too & have an amazing weekend!🩷

i have been doing okay! very ready for the weekend but also not because my husband is gonna be out of town for a week starting tomorrow & in our 7 years together we’ve never been apart that long😭 i will be fine but i am gonna be a baby about it😂

my new job has been amazing! it’s been so long since i’ve been able to go to work & actually enjoy what i do & this position has been doing just that 🩷 it’s a lot of new stuff & im learning a ton but it leaves plenty of time for breaks & being able to enjoy my time off & i couldn’t be more thankful for it

that anon had me in tears over our dear master diluc it was sooo cute & soft, everything he deserves & is for you ❤️ im love sick jdkfkfkf

IT ALSO TOOK YOU TWO YEARS OMG😭 im so glad our waiting paid off 🙏🏻 how dare hoyo do that to us tho & WHILE LETTING YOUR BOYFRIEND GET HIM MULTIPLE TIMES - that’s just cruel 😭 when my husband was playing i told him id legit cry if he got diluc before me lolol he stopped playing before that could happen tho. i built my diluc like as soon as i got him (goodbye all my fragile resin lol) but i would be changing his artifacts allll the time as i got better ones so i totally get waiting to get the build just right hehe

you have never gotten qiqi?! damnnn i would say that is good luck to some extent for sure 😂i actually really loved all of her stories that you get through friendship so i hope you’ll get her so you can see them too!🥰 she is so cute & I do enjoy seeing her - when she brought xiao to baizhu i was emotional to say the least hahha

i just got dehya the other day on the standard banner! she been really fun to play but i just can’t replace diluc on my team 🩷 i don’t have jean or tighnari from the standard banner but id be totally happy to get either

im also saving for neuvi! ive got like 140 wishes for him rn & no guarantee but my wallet is ready if needed LOL i also really want his weapon but I have never ever had good luck on the weapons banner so we’ll see if i get it

are you guaranteed your next 5*?! i will be hoping you get both or diluc/qiqi! after the trailer today it had me very 👀 at wrio heh

#thank you so much for checking on me nats I adore you to pieces 🩷🩷🩷🩷 #sorry this is long I just wanted to talk so much to you heh #lovely moots <3 #🌙asks