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asteroidzzzn · 9 months

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more than just a dream - spark, 004

pairing: college!ellie x reader

synopsis: you transfer to a new school where you only know one person; your childhood best friend. he invited you to a beginning of the year party to meet some new people, but one person, in particular, catches your eye... his other best friend.

a/n: dina bonding time!

genre: social media au, fluff

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bria 🧚

hey!

dina 💋

hi whats up? :)

bria 🧚

im bored and everyone else went out but i dont feel like drinking rn..

can i come over?

i know the two of us arent super close but this could be our chance to bond outside the group 🤞🤞

dina 💋

omg ofc!! i was feeling the same i just wanted to chill and stay in today 😭 but ya come over whenever

bria 🧚 ❤️ a message

we can watch mission impossible if ur into that!

only if u bring snacks...

bria 🧚

U HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IVE BEEN WANTING TO SEE THATTTT OK im omw now ill put the best i have in a bag 🙏 cya!!

dina 💋 ❤️ a message

bria 🧚

hey dina, sorry i had to leave right away

i have to study for the first unit test later today

wish i didn't, this is so boring

how are u?

dina 💋

im fine

good

im good im great actually

but i really think we should talk about it

what happened last night

bria 🧚

later, ok?

sorry

i need to go right now stepping into class

dina 💋

oh ok, bye :)

dina woodward

hi y/n im literally going insane r u free to talk

y/n

omfg 😭 whats going on

dina woodward

you'll never believe what happened last night

y/n

ughhh i wish i was there! sorry i wanted to stay in to get some sleep, i have a test next period

dina woodward

oh no worries i actually stayed in too so this isnt ab the outing

do u know who bria volentas is?

y/n

yeah i do!

shes really nice ill sit next to her in history in a few minutes actually

dina woodward

oh 😭😭😭 i wanted to talk to u ab this bc i thought u were the only one in the group that didnt really know her

can u keep a secret? just need to get this off my chest

y/n

u can trust me :)

dina woodward

sooo... ive had a crush on her since the dawn of time

y/n !! a message

and we hung out last night alone!!

y/n

!!AWEEE yall will be so cute together i can see it now

dina woodward ❤️ a message

also im so glad u said that bc i wasnt ab to be the one to com eout first 😭😭

dina woodward !! a message

dina woodward

YOUW AHT?!?!?!?!?!?

i didnt wanna assume but i secretly knew.........

y/n haha a message

y/n

🤝🤝🤝

OKOK GET ON W UR STORY

dina woodward

we were watching mission impossible bc ellie ditched me (i wont forget) and she goes 'im cold' so bc shes the actual loml i let her under my blanket

y/n

awwww

dina woodward

then our feet kinda touched then our hands kinda touched and we were getting rlly close... then we fucked

y/n

AHH????

that went from 0 to 100 sO FAST

dina woodward

I KNOW LIKE IMS TILL SO IN SHOCK RN

y/n

SO YGS ARENT TOGETHER YET THO?? HAVE U TALKED AB IT ALL??? FYB? ONE TIME THING?

dina woodward

IDKK I HAVE NO IDEA

this is the average wlw experience i say while dry heaving and crawling onto the roof and howling

y/n ❤️ a message

y/n

LMFAOOO it literally is tho we have it so difficult

dina woodward

HELPPP ME AND BRIA ARE IN CHAT RN BUT WE'RE NOT SAYING ANYTHING

SPEAK UP WOMANNN FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

i said i wanted to talk ab last night and she was so avoidant so she BETTER say something rn

y/n

yall rn

lurking in chat.....

dina woodward

😭😭😭

i need to be distracted rn

eye starts twitching

tell me smth thats going on w u

y/n

ok u trusted me w ur crush so i can trust u w mine right..

dina woodward

ofc ofc

y/n

so u know her actually like really well from what i know

BLEEEH I HATE TELLING PPL I LIKE THEIR FRIENDS

is ellie williams gay..

dina woodward

take a look at her what do u think

yes she is gay! AND U LEIWFAGJEDFANJ YOU LIKE HER??

y/n ❤️ a message

y/n

angels harmonize and descend from heaven

BLESSS 🙏🙏

yes i like her... i think. its been hard to like anyone since my last relationship but im feeling rlly hopeful about us

im heavily delusional tho she was prob just being friendly when we hung out

dina woodward

she recently broke up w her ex too, and shes been kinda staying away from relationships :(

ur amazing tho youd be so good for her

if she acts like a bitch to u ONCE run

y/n

damn jesse warned me ab her too 😭 what happened with her and her ex? if u know or if ur ok with telling me

i know its not really my business

i just wanna know what lines i cant cross

dina woodward ❤️ a message

dina woodward

yeah i totally get it

i actually dont know all the details

i think she only told jesse bc theyre way closer than me and her

if u want to know everything, id ask him or get it from ellie herself

just get closer with her and she'll tell u everything, and u can decide what to do from there

y/n

ok , thats a good idea

ill just use my amazing charm and incredible beauty to captivate her in chemistry

dina woodward ❤️ a message

dina woodward

HEHEHEHE

speaking of,, she sucks at chemistry. u could get closer to her by tutoring her if youd be up for that?? shed appreciate it sooo much

y/n

#1 wingman award is presented toooooo dina woodward!

dina woodward ❤️ a message

ill def talk to her ab that ill be like heyyy u need help 💋

shit gtg now, test time!

dina woodward

good luck!! with the test and ellie🙏

y/n ❤️ a message

a/n: a lot longer than the last chapter!! but i had a lot to say in this one :D love in the future for my girl dina!!! love to see it

hope u enjoyed as always (✿◠‿◠)

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#ellie williams #tlou game #ellie williams x reader #the last of us #tlou 2 #wlw #ellie williams fluff #tlou part 2 #jesse tlou #dina woodward #the last of us fanfiction #tlou smau #lesbian

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skalecsz · 1 year

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If you could how would you fix ino's development

i love you and also im sorry.

ino is such an interesting character, kishimoto took your average pretty mean girl and made her actually super sweet and caring, adaptable, and intelligent

i actually like her personality a lot, she values her looks and can be a bit crabby but compared to sakura, ino is a lot more willing to work with her teammates. she actively takes charge to the point that shikamaru and choji look to her for what to do

id keep her "crush" on sasuke but id instead make it something that sakura misinterpreted and ino went along with bc she thought sakura just didnt want to be friends anymore. she still flirts with sasuke but in a joking way.

id keep her rivalry with sakura but makes it explicit that she wasnt the one that instigated it, id also make her less "mean" in a stereotypical bully way since she was the one that defended sakura from bullies in the first place. she should still be sassy and a bit of a hot head but not overtly rude to others.

also id have her win her fight with sakura, just bc i think it contributes better to sakura's development, but also opens up an extra fight in the chunin exams. not sure who id pit her against but im just saying it would give her more stuff to do (maybe shino? they were both top students at the academy)

she goes on the sasuke retrieval mission and stays behind to help choji fight. theres no reason that she shouldnt go, choji can still almost die and ino can use the time he bought her to finish off orochimaru's lackey but ino has PROVEN to be a good ninja, even if her fighting isnt that great shes fantastic crowd control…come the fuck on.

development wise…no healing abilities…it just felt so tacked on and she didn't nearly have as much passion for it as sakura did. id focus 100% on her clan's reconnaissance bc their abilities are super interesting. would def give her an upgrade regarding her body switching jutsu so shes not left unconcious on the ground with every technique. when shes a genin thats fine but ur telling me sasuke can summon God and ino still can't control people without falling asleep?

okay the puppet scene with the "Mind Puppet Switch Cursed Seal Technique" literally has not left my mind its SO cool and I wish ino learned to use it. is it "ethical"? no. might even be a war crime. but thats fine i think. let ino be a little scary.

AND!!! SUNA LITERALLY HAS A PUPPET MASTER!!! Ino can train with kankuro or at least ASK for assistance

ALSO. OH MY GOD. GIVE HER MORE TO DO IN THE HIDAN AND KAKUZU ARC HOLY SHIT. that arc literally just ended up being about shikamaru (based) and naruto (???) why weren't ino and choji more present!! naruto literally appeared to save the day with his new jutsu when this mission shouldve been team 10 and team 10 ONLY (kakashi is on thin ice)

i like the confrontation between shikamaru and hidan in the forest, thats fine, but ino and choji should be absolutely duking it out with kakazu and his family of puppets! you know who else uses puppets/external tools? INO. Have her try to control kakuzu's external guys while choji beats him up, naruto arriving on the scene feels cheap :/ have kakuzu remark that "oh the strategist is gone" and then ino just immediately takes over as the leader and thinks of a plan because shes teammates with shikamaru's lazy ass and also BEING SMART IS LITERALLY SO IMPORTANT TO HER CHARACTER

AND GIVE HER (AND CHOJI) A SCENE WHERE SHE MOURNS ASUMA. OH MY GOD. HER FUCKING TEACHER JUST DIED. Ino is sidelined sooo much in team 10 its insane. maybe she and her dad (while not super close) talk about what its like to lose people you love, her dad has been a ninja for decades, he would comfort her. have her arrange a bouquet and place it on asuma's grave, have her break down crying over her teacher! this would also be interesting since we dont spend as much time with team 10, but would be able to see that the side characters have their own lives and feelings outside of naruto.

regarding romance ive personally always seen her as a lesbian but her relationship with sai is fine i guess. if she and sai are endgame id like more of a buildup to it. but if i can get my way she and sakura end up together <3

i think shes fine in the war arc, but the war arc itself is something i just wouldnt include if i were to rewrite naruto

also her blank period outfit is UGLY throw that shit OUT girl

#naruto rewrite #ino yamanaka #mine #sorry for rambling im just angry at how dirty the manga did her #she and tenten are tied for most abandoned characters :(

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haknom · 11 days

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hi kayla!! i havent sent u an ask in a while loll n srry if this questions stupid,, but may i PLEASE be given a whole rundown on ur blueberry situation cs i am lost rn

OMG i havent been asked something like this HELP BUT OFC this is so long and jumbled im wishing u luck

basically blueberry was a new kid in my food and nutrition (fnn) class and honestlyyyy i just found him interesting and paid a lot of attention to him cs he was like... eye catching ? LMFAOO but i never bothered him or anything i would js glance at him a bit BUT THENN october hits and Boom im like wait do i like him and girlll yes u do...! but it wasnt like 100% there yet yk he was js nice to look at for me HELP...

it was kinda funny tho BUT ANYWAYSS i didnt care much abt him since i was like hung up on some other guy which gladly ended and then i started to care abt him a bit more and um Yeah um this happened ? we would have a few convos before his friend move but then we stopped interacting after that LMFAO,, there was a time where i asked him for help on work and bro was SOOO invested??? I ASKED HIM FOR HELP ON TWO QUESTIONS BRO PICKED UP HIS PENCIL AND WROTE DOWN STUFF FOR ME TO REMEMBER AFTER HE EXPKAINED EVERYTHING LIKE HELLOOOO I WAS GIGGLING SO BAD ?

i miss that day omg and then i remember he went away for a week cs he was sick and came back and was sooo behind on work SO he had to ask me for help Guys i swear!!! he hesitated cs he finished all his work and even went to the teacher and she was like "ohh whyd u leave that blank" and hes like "i couldnt find it sorry" and she told him to ask MEEEE i was smiling so hard Best believe!!! bro sits back down behind me and asks me for help 5 mins later BUT GUYS HIS TAPS ARE SO GENTLE LIKE BFF U SMACK A VBALL FOR A LIVING WHATTTT i miss him wait ...... there were also moments where id catch him looking at me then hed look away

LIKE GUYS TRUST I SWEARR IM NOT CRAZY (half of this is me tryna justify my delusions istg) and even on his first day in class he was looking at me Text msg proof!!! i was kinda scared tho LMFAOO but i was like okay... (i sat in a diff seat at the time) umm then second sem hit and he have no classes but he has class w my friends so we would still run into each other since i pick her up and all And guys he would look at me My friend even confirmed!!!!! and he goes quiet whenever im around like Hi.

im not scary I SWEAR ... and appearance wise umm hes 6'1, hes lowkey fit, has a right dimpel HI, idk what else oh hes mixed (half filipino half turkish) idk what else to say tho IM SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG AND ITS NOT EVEN ALL OF THE BLUEBERRY LORE LIKE U JS HAD TO BE THERE FROM THE START LMFAOO

#🍧 — k’s mutuals #i love him still dw guys

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minalblood · 8 months

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Been a looong while but I'm back with a new episode commentary. 1x09 here we go!

The instant recall to finale of spn s 1 is just as delicious and jarring this time around. Find it very very interesting that it's the vampires that mimic the Winchesters here and do so in order to learn their fate and fulfil it. I'd definitely call this a dark mirror to begin with.

I also adore these vamps, they're sooo fun looking.

John and Mary really came out of that near death experience losing no time in getting together.

The appreciation of Dean being paralleled to the appreciation of Baby is just... sooo funny considering the sheer amount of connections there.

Soo Kyle is instantly suspish here. Not even hiding it, damn. You can tell the shift in personality just based off his demeanor. I also think the little hand gesture he does as he walk away is interesting, it's almost like he's saying "im washing my hands off this bullshit". It subble enough that you could think it's jealousy.

The little hints at Lata and John friendship! My beloved!. Also Lata is suuuch a gossip I love her!

I once more am asking John Winchester to stop trying to be subtle, it aint his strong suit. But alternatively, I sorta get it? Like I can understand why it would be confusing if u don't get where Mary is coming from, since she has no problem letting strangers (and exs) on the street see them together, but not their close friends? But I also completely get Mary as well, she's actually lived as a hunter her whole life which means bagage already, then the fact that their relationship is new and fragile. Plus both her parents and his haven't had the easiest time with relationships. Cautious makes sense.

Ah yes, "fate is what u make it". Dean hearing it from John who heard it from Millie. All of them have their very personal reasons for that saying to apply, but also... Dean saying he didn't expect where things got when he "pushed that first domino" reminds me of Cas and him talking after the 1st Apocalypse that wasn't and about how free will sometimes means things aren't really gonna go the way you like them.to or expect them to (peace or freedom?). It's sorta funny then (read:ironic) that in both John's life (SPN!John) and Dean and Cas after Swan Song the outcome was actually quite tragic over all, John's life literally going out in flames with the rest of it being a living nightmare and in Dean and Cas' case Sam is dead and Heaven is starting a Civil War. This episode then does something really nice in subverting that expectation by setting up the tragedy (John is to die, can't change that) and allowing him to survive and not just that but ending it with him getting exactly what he'd wanted here in the beginning of the episode, getting to freely be with Mary.

I adore how Carlos calms down the driver, showing once again the full range of their skill as hunter and empathy as person. Love them so so much!

Couldn't get a hold of John, says Mary, being more suspicious then if she and John had shown up together... I find that hilarious!

Also also, love that this clarified that fangs are still teeth aka u can identify people (vampires here) based on them. I love love love that!

Uuuù Betty is suspish about Mary.

God! Dean had to have loved the vampire robbers. Vobbers? Rompires? Vambbers?

Oh noooo John! Don't be ur children! Don't just pick up random amulets like a moron! (At least we know who they got it from?)

Carlos is almost just as bad, my God! You see ur friend drop it like it hot and you just bend to.pick it urself?! Ah, Carlos, the range you got babe.

John dying by vamps begins my headache of the night because it is 1000% a callback to Dean's death in 15x20. And I wish that wasnt the case.

Ok let's talk Ursitoare (Uhr- see-too-ah-reh) a sec. So this is Romanian myth. To give an overview of it, the myth largely relates to the Ursitoare (or Fates you could say) blessing or cursing a new born after they've been born. Usually the legend states that the mother or midwife would have to leave out gifts (generally food like bread or water or salt etc) to basically appease them and make sure the baby gets a good destiny foretold. It's also states that those who eavesdrop on them as they tell the childs destiny shall die. They are also said to be quick to anger if spurned. Another interesting think tho about the myth is that (while there can sometimes be 7 or 9) the 3 ursitoare are generally known as Ursitoarea, Soarta si Moartea (aka the One who Wishes your fortune, Fate and Death) again the Greak Fates work very well and there's def overlap between the myths here. But importantly, Ursitoarea is the oldest and Death the Youngest (or othewise simply stated as the 3rd).

Now based on this we have a few things to keep in mind, mainly our vampires. They esentially eavesdrop on John's fate here and get exactly what the legend states - killed. In other news, the Ursitoare are very much neutral beings generally. They can be plied with offerings sure, but overall they just spin the thread as it goes. Its only ever an active role when wishing the newborns destiny. Now John's our newborn here, new to hunting at least, reborn once already after the war and a second time after confrunting everything he has since hunting became his life. More importantly, in some versions of the myth, the ursitoare give either the mother or the midwife dreams the night after the baby is born that need to be carefully interpreted afterwards - exactly what the Gem does here.

To wrap this part up a bit, I am.endlessly happy about the way they tackled this myth. SPN had sadly a bad bad record with Romanian mythology and lore - 1st with the witches in s7 which I'd argue was ... 'inspired' by rromani mythology rather than Romanian which is its own culture and as such its own racist connotation to that whole mess. And 2nd with the Imaginary Friends in s 11 aka Zanna .... which has absolutely nothing to do with Romanian mythology beyond slapping a horrendous mispronunciation of Zână onto a piece of lore that doesnt exist in Romanian mythos - we don't have any imaginary friend stuff, its literally all imported from the US. So this lore here? This is fucking aces! It actually makes sense, is actually a Romanian myth that is still being invoked nowadays - especially in the countryside as tradition of baptising/birth and it works very well in the context of the episode. Now, it would've been perfect if they didnt add that shh sound in Ursitoare making ir Urshitoare... Like its funny a bit cuz I constantly think of bears (urşi - ursh is plural for bear in Romanian) but its ok since its just that. I can live with a minor mispronunciation. I will say the Gem itself is fully made up tho for TW.

To answer Carlos tho, the Ursitoare themselves tell u 2 things: the future and also a future they are willing to bless or curse you with. It's essentially both. They show u the future, ur life as it's meant to be exactly, no deviation, but only in pieces or really a piece as a dream and, importantly the sorta end result of ur life which they wish upon u as newborn. How u get to that wish is up to you. The Gem.appears to have merged these two.

I also love love love the show of community that hunters have, that a hunters network is important to getting the job done. It makes me strangle SPN!John worse because he actively isolated himself aaand his kids. Ffs!

Awwwweee I like Betty! I mean shes a cop soo... not great but shes nice and cares so much and is worried :((

Millie does a good job here I think. She's not dismissive of Bettys concerns, but shes also careful to dispel them if possible. She shows once more how good she is at manipulating people, tho admitedly this time it isnt anything malicious or even generally negative.

I also gotta say that Betty (and id say John by extension) is very naive to think that war could in any way shape or form help with the issues John had had. Like he had trauma from his fathers abandonment and his mothers general treatment afterwards, had trauma from the disfunctional relationship the two had before Henry died/left, which all was underscored by deep-seated guilt that he let out as rage. Like all war would do is make it far far worse. It shows just how young Betty is truly and how she really hasn't lived through too much yet. And i said John too because Im fairly sure he also thought going to war would help in a similar manner.

I also headcanon that Betty was very inspired by Millie... but thats just me.

Carlos continues to be a dumb dumb about Anton... unsurprising, but omg.

I forgot the stone was carved from the Ursitoare's ribs... is it just me who though of the birth of Eve here??? Also yes, Il Soarta is def Italian I realize now. Do i question why an Italian cult was obsessed with Romanian myth.. absolutely not.

Im think that the 'most times not'part of what destiny the Gem shows u is due to essentially the stone acting as ... well... an eavesdropper. Literally. It was given to specific people to use by the Ursitoare as recompense for their worship - so good fate; but then as time went on it became a useful artifact for the benefit of Il Soarta so it became a way to eavesdrop on destiny so said destiny changed in them because that worship became.in name only. As mentioned, the Ursitoare arent patient and dont take well to being spurned or used in this case.

God the drip on the vamps, love them so much!

I would also argue that fate ultimately doesn't care about anyone if the whole universe is in jeopardy and uve a bigger destiny like John Winchester does.

I agree with Mary calling Millie here. Especially since she actually.knows what it's like to just ... lose someone like that. John does too, but he's also the one in the middle of it.

Ironic that Mary says "even if i have to kill every vampire in the tri-state area " ... a version of her actually does do that... for her kids. And simultaneously, its ironic also that another version of John will tell their kids that vampires are extinct (which could get them killed fyi).

Millie and Dean would be horrible together... all theyd do is work in the garage and shittalk research... and I kind love that for them.

I also like that Millie does in fact tell John bout Betty and also basically tells him.to not bullshit a bullshitter. This convo between Millie and John might be the 1st truly empathetic one we've had for them. Like yes, John's defenses go up instantly and he immediately assumes that Millie agrees with Betty and is judging him, but Millie, this time, doesnt do that. She just wants to check-in on how he's doing. And does so softly. And believes him more importantly.

And of course, back to the tried and true Winchester feelings avoidance after we've just had a helluva emotionally vulnerable talk.

I live for Carlos being disappointed in the vamps housing choices. I too would judge that. (So would Dean tbh)

Aaaaand Carlos once more gives us the biggest puzzle piece to where the vamps are.

While Lata is once more absolutely delighted by the magic lockpick like the wonderful nerd she is.

Millie to John "Dont do what u always do, not today" --> leads him directly to the room hes gonna die in. Irony at its finest.

A lot of irony in this episode, i realize now...

God I adore Carlos v vampires fight scene, its soo good. And its followed by the equally as fantastic Mary v vampires. Ahhh, I love them all so much.

Ppl really shouldn't fuck with Mary Campbell when shes pissed and worried.

I will miss the vamps tho... i really liked them :(

Ah yes, Winchester ingenuity at its finest... 🙈

I like what this ep says about how dead mans blood works? It implies that vampires literally drain the life force through the blood because the dead mans blood only came into effect once John did actually die - a few moments after he got bit thus implying a certain supernatural link between the blood just ingested and John's lifeforce. I vibe with that.

Ah yes... the full context - still drives me.mad. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN ROBBIE?! Especially with all the parallels TW has to SPN.

I appreciate the CPR not stopping until only after they think he really did die for good. U DONT stop CRP for dramatic pause ( advice to othee shows/movies or in ro aviz amatorilor)

Antoooooonnnnnn!

Anton and Carlos!!! 💓💓💓 yay!

And they're using their words! They're communicating guys 😭 im so proud

Damn... Mary and John are being cute too 🥲

Dun dun dun!

Betty and Kyle and Kyle is Akrida! 😱

Sorry, i dont got anything revealing or deep to say about the ending here 🤣🤣🤣 its all plot and relationships.

Aand so we reach the end of another episode, 4 more to go!

I will say time and distance made this episode easier to watch for me. 15x20 had fucked me up before and made it very hard to watch without refering back to it. It has several parallels to Dean and dying specifically. The main one ofc being death adjacent to vampires. But it also has John killing himself for the sake of the hunt which sadly doesn't bode well either because it reminds me of a really bad couple of weeks back in 2017 when i had the realization that Dean has literally been shown as suicidal every single season (and i can name the ep, its so clear) and then Advanced Thanatology hit the Tv screens on nov 9th 2017... not a fun realization and def not a fun series of events afterwards. Sorry to bring this up here, but well... its relevant sadly.

Thankfully tho, this episode works well to deconstruct that and to subvert the spn finale by allowing John to live and to fully embrace his realtionship with Mary.

In other news, next ep will anger me a bit... for.multiple reason, some having already been discussed by people better equiped to talk about it then me. But rest assured, ive shit to say outside of that too, so see y'all for ep 10. Im aiming to have that up by the end of the week.

And thanks to @noybusiness and @shallowseeker for encouranging me to continue this.

#spn #spnwin #spnwin rewatch #john winchester #mary campbell #lata dar #carlos cervantez #the winchesters #dean winchester #spnwin 1x09

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dylanmunson · 2 years

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wasnt gonna post this on here, but im lowkey an attention whore sooo...

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an: REQUESTED! I have anxiety 😂😂 and other mental health problems, this is kinda just what happens when I have an attack as I know everyone is different, I'm also not tryna romanticise it at all it's fucking horrible. However if you do be suffering there is people and things to help, I'm also here to chat if anyone wants to. Anyway... I had three ideas so there's three imagines / one shots in here lol. 2 Joseph & 1 Eddie.

TW: anxiety and panic attacks

1)Meeting Joe for the first time

2) Panic while he's away

3)Panic in the trailer after the upside down with Eddie

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meeting Joe

You were in the queue for the autograph signing when you felt it. Your hands started getting all clammy and you could hear everything like it was dialed to 100. You started getting all hot and bothered, but knew you'd be fine, you started taking deep breathes and trying to find things to take your mind off of the attack that was coming.

You were so close to the front of the queue, and you were alone, none of your friends interested in meeting Joseph quinn, so you were alone, in the queue of more than 100 fans on the verge of a panic attack.

There was one more person in front of you before it was your turn and you felt like you were gonna throw up. You'd already put your hair up and back out of your face and neck to try cool down, as well as rolling up your sleeves to try cool down. But nothing was working.

"Just stay here for me" the women says at the front of the queue as the girl in front goes to meet Joe. You nod and can feel your heartbeat racing, tears start forming in the corners of your eyes, but you close them and take a deep breathe.

"Awh sweetheart there's no need to be nervous he's just a guy" the women chuckles, you half smile before she says it's your turn, you go to the table and hand them your photo, leaning on the table.

"Hi love" Joe grins, you try smile at the man, but everything gets to much. You bite your bottom lip and wipe at your eyes "hey" he says moving around the table pulling you into his chest.

"Hey breathe for me" he says rubbing your back, you cry a little into his chest, "hey hey hey" he says "can you copy my breathing for me?" He says looking down at you. You nod your head trying to sniff wiping your nose.

He smiles and puts his hands on your shoulders "this ok?" He smiles softly. You nod and copy his breathing, he pulls you back into his chest to carry on, you concentrate on his breathing and his heart beat as the attack comes to a stop.

"I'm so sorry" you mumble into his chest "shhh" he says rubbing your back "your alright yeah?" He smiles "thank you" you sigh he shakes his head "not a problem sweetheart, could see you kinda struggling in the queue" he sighs giving you a sad smile. You nod and sigh "thank you" you say again, he smiles and pulls you into a cuddle "it's not a problem, shall we get your photo signed" he chuckles, you nod as he goes back around the table to sign your photo.

"Thank you Joe!" You half smile at the man, he nods "have a lovely day sweetheart" he smiles.

2) your on FaceTime when it happens, and he can see it, he could see it coming, "sweetheart go run a bath" he smiles "put your hair up, and go run a bath and sit in it for me" he smiles noticing your behaviour changing.

You nod, taking the laptop with you you start running a luke warm bath to try calm yourself. "Baby, go grab a towel ok?" He smiles talking you through everything, you nod again walking out the bathroom and grabbing a fresh towel out of the cupboard. "Babe" he smiles softly wishing he could be there to help you in person.

You slowly strip off before getting into the tub, the laptop on the closed toilet seat. "Do you want me to read a story or?" You nod your head. He nods, going to Spotify to put some rain sounds on knowing it helps calm you, before going to his suitcase to grab one of his books.

He sometimes reads you to sleep, while on the phone, he turns to the page where you finished off and starts reading. You sigh softly feeling yourself relax into the water as he talks slowly and calmly. He keeps looking up into the camera to see if your alright.

Once he sees your visible better he pauses, "how you feeling sweetheart?" You nod "thank you joey" you mumble softly "want me to carry on?" "Please" you sigh, he continues to read to you until your ready to have a little wash before getting out of the bath and going back into the bedroom. "Sweetheart take any of my clothes" he says smiling as you grab one of his tees to put on. "Miss you joey" you mumble climbing into bed.

"I'll be home soon love" he smiles softly "get some rest ok? Want me to read to you some more?" "Please" you smile softly at the man, he chuckles before starting to read again.

3) you've woke up from a nightmare, drenched in sweat, your heartbeat racing. "Hey hey it's ok" Eddie says wrapping himself around you. You sob out as the attack takes over, he sighs softly pulling you into his lap your back against his chest as he tells you he's ok, and your ok.

And how it was all a dream. But it doesn't calm you down. "Come on sweetheart" he sighs "need you to breathe for me Kay?" He says you nod while sobbing.

He moves round you picking you up and taking you into the bathroom, putting you into the shower before stepping in with you.

You freeze at the cold water but Eddie smiles softly pulling you into his chest, placing a soft kiss to your lip. "Breathe baby" he says you gasp for air as everything almost reboots itself in you.

"Baby breathe for me" he mumbles placing another kiss on your head. Everything starts to calm down, Eddie turns the water a little to make it a bit hotter "better?" He mumbles, you sob crying into his chest "sorry Ed" you mumble. He smiles rubbing your back. "S'alright sweetheart, it happens" he says "I've got you, your safe, we're safe alright" he mumbles

#eddie munson fluff #eddie munson stranger things #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x fem! reader #eddie munson x reader smut #eddie munson headcanons #eddie munson fic #joseph quinn x you #joseph quinn x y/n #joseph quinn x reader #joseph quinn imagine #dylan munson request #dylan munson fic #dylanmunson #mine

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waaaa it makes mi so happi to hear tht u’ve been rllie happi ! ! ! ‘ve actually been feeling vrie accomplished recently ! just feels like ‘ve been able to get so much work done 4 m classes ! which is somethimf i struggle wif an embarrassing amount . . heh . speaking of doing work for classes tho , i dn’t think ‘ve evr told u bfore but ‘ la petite fille de la mer ’ has become m token study song ! ! i only learned abt dis piece through ur bloggie but m so glad i did <3 ‘s vrie nice 2 listen to while i study bcos i cn’t rllie tell wen it ends n restarts so like . i hv no idea how much time passes while m doing sometjing which i s’ppose cld b a downside but idk ! n anyway i thimk ‘ve trained m brain to hv da motivation 2 study wen m listening to it . . ( i hv no idea how brains work so i dunno if m jus making thimgs up but like . wtv ! ) i find that it puts mi in da right headspace 4 studying if dat makes sense . . ? but ya ! i hv been Okiez ! ( i jus texted m best fwen earlier todai after basically ghosting her for 3 monfs n then 1.5 months n she’s seen it but hasn’t responded yet so m tryin not to thimk abt it aaaa i miss her idk why i hv’t been texting her (⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝ ྀི) i rllie hope we hvn’t fallen out of sync wif each othr . . ‘s gna b okie tho trust )

++ omgiez i too am looking forward 2 spring a bunnie bunchez ! n chara reruns too ! i believe your haiyi will come home 2 uuuu ! ! ! if anipaw deserves haitham cons , ‘s coco ! mhm mhm ! n yisyis i saw boff’ arlecchino n boothill ! ! i dn’t think m gna roll for either of them bcos their designs dn’t appeal to mi as much ? but if arlecchino’s gameplay is supa fun to mi i might consider hehe ! there’re also jus lotsa charas i wanna pull for on reruns ! i hv neuvi at c0r1 but m gna go for his c1 + i wnna get furina her sword ! also waiting for a wrio rerun bcos i uh . skipped him on release ᑦ( ◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀི)ᐣ LOL . n re : hsr i rolled 4 both jing yuan + sparkle dis phase ! ! i cn’t rllie believe i managed to get them both but m so happi i did hehe

++ on da off chance u’ve nvr heard it , m gna rec u shostakovich’s the gadfly suite , op. 97a : viii romance <3 i wonder wat th violin solo melody wld sound like on cello ooo i bet it’d b positively magical . . .

ilu 5eviez n beyond u sweet angel girl <3 — 🌷

m beloved rosebud ,

huwwo sweetest bbie — i do hope u're having a splendid weekend so far ! ! ◟꒰ྀི◍ ´꒳` ◍꒱◞ 💝🍀 what did u get up to?? tell me all about it if u wanna :D feeling accomplished is one of the best feelings in m vrie humble opinion . . u feel joy + free + an entire weight off your shoulder + all the more capable that u cn do it again . . . i too struggle far 2 much w staying focused n getting work done in a reasonable amnt of time , so im vvv happie for u rosebud ! ! ♡ n ‘ la petite fille de la mer ’ ! ! oooh im so glad u find it to b a good study song , bcos i do too heehee :3 a staple study song for sure . . i find there isn't rllie any climax to it n it is rather repetitive in it's melody so it makes it easy to focus on other tasks while listening to it ! n Yes i sooo agree w u when u say u can't rllie tell how much time has passed listening to it ^__^

re : ur best fwiend texting sitch . . has she responded ? if not — give it some time but if it worries u then maybe reach out to her again ! ! if she's a good friend then she'll understand the reasoning for late replies . . we r all adults w vrie busy personal lives n maintaining friendships at this age shouldnt require so much effort as consistently texting u kno :C at least . . dis is how i feel . . ! i do hope things work out for u ! ! ♡♡

n' oooo ! did u see arlecchino's burst animation leaks . . 0////0 i wasnt rllie considering wishing for her but that animation js hv changed Everything for mi LOL$&^*)$(# jk . kidding . actually Nothing cn pry mi away frm haitham's arms it's alwys gonna be him >>>> . . good luck on ur neuvie + furina weapon + wriwri pulls ! ! i think bcos . . u r d sweetest girl in da world , they will come home to u ^__^ u must belieeeeeve it is true ! i sure do :3 ! ! n YIPPEE ON GETTING YUANNIE + SPARKLE ! truth b told . . i deleted hsr frm m phone a few weeks ago ๐·°(৹˃̵﹏˂̵৹)°·๐ it was js taking up too much space on m phone for an app dat i barely ever open . u know :C hoping i cn get back into it when i hv more free time !♡

n shostakovich stoppp omgie i faintly remember playing one of his suites in high school but i hv never listened to the gadfly suite ! ! i had the piece u rec'd playing as i typed up m litl love letter to u hehe — went straight into m playlist ! :D i love it so much thanku for thinking of mi + recommending it waaah ! ! !

anywhosies . sigh . sorrie i talked so much . . i never seem to kno when to close m mouth when im chatting wif u hehe ! sending u a piece of m heart w this letter — i hope u cn feeling the love radiating frm it ! ! ૮꒰๑´ `๑꒱ა

#( ˶˘ ³˘(｡˃ ᵕ ˂｡ ྀི)#making sure rosebud is d last person i tlk to before going zZzZ . . so that i may meet u in m dreams 2nigh :3 ⭐️ ! !#pwz come visit !

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I find it pretty funny that Keith David is a president/vice president in Rick and Morty and Saints Row 4. Do you think their universes could be connected?

To be honest with you, I do. ive thought about this since i was like 16, but i also thought the idea was slightly cringe (at the time, now i let my cringe free). i could soo totally see boss and rick getting along so well, the fact theyre both reckless and flirty, the way they both act like "im tough, i dont care about anyone" but in reality they care so much that theyre willing to sacrifice themselves for their loved ones. plus cmon, the fact they both can not only avoid authority so well, but the fact theyve both been able to get out of jail with little to no actual punishment for their crimes? oh thats best friends right there i think. plus we can imply that saints row has some sort of canon/lore connection to adult swim tv show lore anyways, since jimmy - the guy who makes Johnny tag in the clones dlc for saints row 3 - is clearly supposed to be the nerd from robot chicken (literally even featuring the same voice - which iirc is done by seth green)

additionally with the fact that a song from the tim and eric show (the sports theme) as well as the aqua teen hunger force them and a MF doom song being included on the radio sound track? i mean i know adult swim did contribute to the game, but its not entirely clear in what way the adult swim universe is tied into saints row. especially cos they drop nearly all references to it outside of the fact im pretty sure you can have johnny tag and clone aisha as companions in sr4 (not entirely sure though since its been months since i played sr4 last and you do have to unlock them).

plus the line that the president has in the "get schwifty" episode' "...I'm the goddamn president of the united fucking states"... totally sounds like something he'd say when being confronted by boss for his backstabbing...

which honestly not to be tangential but i have to talk about that now bc im sooo realizing how genius it is to make keith backstab boss.... especially because he does it right before you get put into a simulation where you have to fight Julius little? i may hark on saints row 4's writing but goddd the fan service they give to us can be soo good. It almost makes me wonder if keith david is a clone or hologram that zinyak made specifically to betray/trick boss - especially since hes the only one (other than Benjamin king, but this you could argue Ben wasnt immune to it, since it was teased in the cutscene, plus you could make the point that boss doesnt see Ben the same way they see someone like johnny whos been a long time friend and companion and even someone like matt miller, who may be a genuine threat - posessing skills boss doesnt have/understands - but boss still sees him as "lesser" or equal to them bc of who matt is outside of his keyboard) who rejects boss' advances in the ship. especially because his bitterness not only towards boss, but zinyak. He makes a mention of originally campaigning to be the president before "zinyak kicked the stool out from under him", and since hes aware earth is gone... why would he care abt being president of holograms? some of the plot points they make in sr4 are a tad annoying for the reason that they love to set up stuff like this, and the audio log collectables tell us so much, yet, they wont do anything with it unless its inherently funny.

dont get me wrong, love saints row's humor but i just wish they wouldnt sacrifice interesting plots and characters for it. And i wish they would solidify canon more.

TLDR; i do think saints row and rick and morty are connected in some way yes. the way i think the saints row universe is indeed intertwined with other adult swims shows due to saints row 3 giving us plenty of hints that the universe are connected in some way.

#saints row #sr #ask #i love getting questions like this tb #tbh

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you will probably murder me in a painful way for saying this (based on the anger you leashed out in the previous asks) but saw 1 should be a stand alone film all along. even leigh&james who wrote the first 3 films think like this because theyre not involved in making the rest 7(?) films.

im not sure what u mean by anger in the last one? i think i kind of just answered their question about the screenplay as thoroughly as i could. who knows im a know-it-all whos dogshit with tone so its entirely possible. the first, sure i see it. i think its p obvious by my acc that im passionate about saw lol. i could see the whole 'the idea of disagreeing w this statement is insane' or 'i have eyes' are a bit rude! but also consider, i exaggerate to prove a point and be a little silly. a little joke, even.

honestly im not sure why im being asked these questions? dont get me wrong, i definitely enjoy them. clearly, given how long my responses are. im not an authority on saw, but i AM someone who thinks hes right abt everything so i do have a lot of things to say about it. i never claimed to be polite or personable, which is why i tend not to post my opinions unprompted. not everyone agrees with me and i have some pretty controversial opinions but different opinions rarely bother me. though, mark x amanda is just kind of strange?

i know a few ppl who agree that the mark saga was not... the best. and people are upset that leighs wishes were ignored in order to continue making sequels. i know he wasnt too happy abt the extra tape and stuff, which makes sense bc this is their franchise, but if they were not happy with it... im not sure why they bankrolled the rest? theyre producers on all of them after the first iirc. leigh might not like hoffman, his bastard child, but he seems content with us enjoying it so thats fine by me. if they truly hated it, i dont think theyd attach their names to it. that just looks like an endorsement. i think theyre just content with us enjoying it, leighs never seen them and probably never will but that doesnt mean he thinks we shouldnt see them either

i think a lot of horror would benefit if people were able to do things like this with franchises after people are done with them. theyre not always for everyone but i think a lot of people are fond of horror sequels. theyre just kind of a genre staple and i like what the rest of the films contributed to the lore. imagine if every horror franchise had a more open patent, like great gatsby? i think itd allow for more creativity. horror as a genre has so much world building bc it has to justify sooo much suspension of disbelief which means theres usually a lot to work with! imagine michael myers as a free character. id love to see what other writers think of his whole "fear personified" thing. if we allow more leeway with horror and less criticism at its imperfection, i think ppld enjoy it more. theyre cunt, theyre camp, and theyre fun and i consider myself a guy who likes fun

my favorite saw film when i first got into it was saw v for about a month and a half. its basically been a year since then and i would sacrifice the other films in a heartbeat for saw 2004, but i think theyre neat

#i prob was rude the first time but i also dont enjoy seeinf empaths completely disregard his canonical low empathy #feel free to disagree on the npd headcanon but if u ignore his low empathy then youre lying to urself #what is so hard for ppl to accept abt this trait?#it doesnt ruin him or make him worse? he can still be ur poor little meow meow #idk its just something im passionate abt bc empaths tend to act like its an insult to say that about a character #larry.txt

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sunnybubblezzz · 4 months

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SUCH A GOOD WEEK

okay well first of all i’ll start with just how great this weekend was. like UGHHESAHDH and then im just gonna say how grateful i am to God because woah im soo happy.

okay well first of all, DUHHH BIRTHDAY WEEK. i genuinely forgot this week was my birthday and MANNASND IM SO HAPPY. like i didnt get to do ALL the things i wanted for my birthday and i didnt get everything i wanted ofcofc but woah this week was amazing.

I GOT TO SEE THE HUNGER GAMES. THAT MOVIE WAS INCREDIBLE and i got to go with two of my close friends. i was really really sad bc i thought we wouldnt be able to go and i DOOO wish more of my friends were able to come with me.

BUT LIKE IT WAS SOOO GOOD AND I LOVE THE FRIENDS WHO CAME WITH ME.

you guys are never gonna see this but i loved that day and it brought me sm joy you have no idea. PLUS I GOT TO SEE SNOW???

my birthday day was eh BUTBUT EVERYONE SENT THEIR BIRTHDAY TEXTS TO ME AND I NO LIE GOT SOO HAPPY. i didnt expect all my friends to remember idk but they did and i was OVERJOYED.

THEN I GOT TO GO ICE SKATING FOR A BIRTHDAY PARTY? it was SOOO nice and was SOO much fun plus that was an amazing time with my friends

and my friend gave me a birthday gift..

I LEGIT SHED TEARS (okay not in front of her but still) LIKE I CANNOT. it was only one person but man sometimes i forget how good it feels to get a gift from someone.

like… im always the one giving gifts but it really really touched my heart to get one from her and I LOVE HER SM AND I CANTTT IT MADE MY DAY.

i love you i really do.

then ofc i saw one of my closest(?) friends (and i lowkey felt we were drifting apart) like FOUR TIMES THIS WEEK BACK TO BACK. okay okay trust me thats a lot for us 💀.

we went to the mall together which was lowkey weird bc she never asks me to hang out like that. AND I GOT THE PERFECTT DRESS LIKE I LOVE IT SMM??

then WE WENT TO THE GENSHIN CONCERT

moment of silence for just how GRATEFUL I AMMM.

i love you SMMSMM for getting me tickets like the opportunity of a lifetime?? ngl i lowkey was kinda mad bc the friend we took wasnt as grateful as i felt she should have been… thats how grateful i was like “how can someone not thank this girlie with all her might”

it was a WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE and im only sad that one of out other friends couldnt go.

I WAS JUST

AHSDHASHDHSDHHS

IT WAS SO GOOOD

okay and now for one of my favorite moments..

okay so we were taking pics with some of the cosplayers and then this other cosplayer talks behind us… i look behind me, look at her cosplay and immediately say, “YING?” AND SHE SAYS YES???

like in the car we were looking at twitter for who’s going and was AMAZED that ying was and hoped we get to see her. I DID NOT EXPECT US TO?

LIKE I JUST RECOGNIZED HER FROM HER VOICE. the last time i listened to this girls voice was months ago but SHHH that’s unimportant.

what ISSS IMPORTANT IS THAT I SAW HER, FANGIRLED OVER HER, SHE CALLED ME PRETTY, THEN I WAS JUST OVERJOYED.

THENNN I WENT HOME, POSTED THE INTERACTION ON TWITTER, AND SHE SAID SHE REMMBERED ME.. HELLO??

LIKE WHY ARE SO MUCH GOOD STUFF HAPPENING TO ME ITS NOT ADDING UP.

i wouldnt call myself an unlucky person (luck isn’t real). but i will say that a lot of unfortunate things happen to me usually and ive just learned to go with the flow. but idk im just just so HAPPY and so GRATEFUL and and im scared that it’ll all get ruined when i wake up but man cant i live in this moment of happiness forever?

then today was just such an amazing day like such a great end to my birthday week i just. im just.

anyway to end it off, one of my friends from a while ago texted me asking if i ever drew this picture for this girl named sarah.. it took a sec, but i recognized the drawing and remembered.

I WAS IN SHOCK IT WAS A LITTLE BIRTHDAY DRAWING I DREW FOR THIS GIRL LIKE YEARSSSSSSS AGO?

she said she really loved it sm, kept it for years, and that i was super nice.

OKAY LIKE I CANT BELIEVE SHE KNOWS THAT ONE OF MY FRIENDS FIRSTLY. BUT SECONDLY WHAT?? LIKE IM JUST FROZEN WITH JOY SHE KEPT MY DRAWING FOR YEARS? not a rip in sight…

its just SO encouraging and so so idek im just so happy.

then to end it off, the artist WHO WAS MY MOST LISTENED TO ARTIST OF 2024 WITH 2,000+ MINUTES OF LISTENING??? SAID SHE WOULD POST MY SKETCHBOOK SPREAD (inspired by her music) ON HER STORY WHEN I FINISHED IT?

i love you God so much.

just i was feeling so down this past idek month or more because i just have such idek its just so much things happen to me and i just have to go along with it and not let it phase me. i feel so much emotions but none of them bring me down yknow? like i have to be happy and i dont FEEL happy…

but this.

this week makes me feel like God loves me and all of these things happened because of Him. I love him and I love all my friends, I really do love all of you guys.

some of you guys DOO get on my nerves, some of you guys ARE confusing, some of you guys are kinda weird, and i do feel like i love some of you more then you love me.. but in the end you guys are my friends. i love you guys.

and i love you God. I love you for everything you do and I dont know why you love me but I’m sososo happy you do. no one will ever love me like you do. thank you for always being there for me. i love you.

and so we end this. i KNOW that ill cry bc of sadness again (probably in the near future ngl) and I KNOWW that this happy feeling wont last. but for right now im gonna treasure it… please ANDDD thank you.

happy birthday to me.

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romanarose · 6 months

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Hello hello! Seattle anon again :)

So reading your reply was so exciting! Getting more insight as to how + why you wrote Marc and Rebecca the way you did was super interesting!! Also I totally agree - while Rebecca is clearly a very strong person, she is human and had a very tough life which would make anyone vulnerable to abuse! Thank you so much for the recommendations too, I think I'm gonna start with Leather and Lace but honestly I'm excited for your whole masterlist 😊😊

Also just want to say I read your little update about how you've been doing and I want to say that I am so sorry you've been going through a tough time and wish you the absolute best. Like you said it takes time to feel better but I am so glad that you're here and hope you have more good days 💜 Also I am SO impressed by how you are doing in your classes. The topics you are studying also seem very interesting!!

Now, I have read all your TF boys headcanons bc they are just SOOO good. I truly want to praise every word, but that seemed like it would make the ask way too long so I just licked some highlights:

Benny having struggled with bulimia bc of his athletic background was such a genius way to incorporate his characterisation and to write one of the most heartbrakingly realistic aspects of mental health struggles, which is that when it happens to someone you love it can feel so different from how it feels when it's haopening to you. Like SO so often when we hear negative self-talk from friends it is to say "that's not true" but when we look at ourselves the negative things we think feel like it's just the truth. The way Benny was basically doing the same thing but with bulimia (it's "justified" when he does it but he can't figure out for the life of him why his partner, whom he thinks if so highly, would do such a thing) was such a well thought-out detail.

Will being extra excited about the pie in the acts of service love language headcanon? ADORABLE

Having to frame taking care of Will as asking for a favour? Yeeeeeeeeeaaah

Hope you have a nice day :)

Hello again!!!! so happy to hear from you!

As far as life update, im getting through it. I saw a childhood friend the other day which was nice. She and I have known each other for like 16 years and despite each of of moving around we've managed to see each other like once a year or more. This year we've about an hour and a half apart but she went to visit her mom and we met up for coffee with her new baby so that was nice. I told her I wasnt myself and didnth think i'd be good company, but she said she wanted to see my if i was up for it, weather or not i'd be "fun." She also brought me a lil care packege and I got to hold her two month old baby <3

Hoping to make it to shabbat tomorrow which i think will be nice, haven't been able to go since Rosh Hashanah

Every kind of person can fall victim to abuse, and I appreciate Marc's defense of her and caretaking but still trying to allow her her dignity. Like in chapter 3 at the end, Steven meeting Becca he was trying to hard to make her feel welcomed, take away her worries like paying for things but that's not what Rebecca wants. She wants to be indipendant and relying on Marc is embaressing to her.

You mentioned before that you wanted to check out leather and lace, and 0 pressure but the fun thing with that is it's a whole universe, so if you choose to keep going, after that is Frankie's story, and im currently working on Will's, then Benny's. It'll be touched on in Will's story but come up more in Benny's, his struggle with bulimia. I think about these boys a lot and have a lot of hc's that are canon to me, like benny having a drinking problem and eating disorder, Frankie loving grunge, Sant always has an older sister to me and the Miller boy's dad was abusive.

Im glad you seem to love will like I do. he's my baby

#romana answers asks #seattle moon knight series

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highpriestess-stuff · 1 year

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Wooow what a day who knew getting a solid routine would help your life so much i mean it could be better cause im still praying for my grandma doing everything i can so things turn around for me and my family but im pretty sure im on the right track cause 4:44 popped on the clock right before i went to bed i know my angels are listening to me and helping me so im trying to do everything i can its just so hard when you have so much anger and resentment but i guess for someone like me its just best to sit with it and experience the emotion instead of always impulsively popping off on the person even tho i want to so badly go off on my mama like damn karma really is a bitch but he really fucked things up for me and my cousin & now was am i supposed to do just watch her be against me for the rest of my life because her dad never gave me the respect i deserve oh but she does? with the bitch ass shit shes doing and some how i was always the bad guy? like how does that make sense she tries to humiliate me every chance i get just the way he did so im just supposed to keep me fuckin distance and her for her to just learn on her own like why are we even family i spent my entire life loving her so much for what just for her to turn against me this fucking sucks so bad and i dont know what to do about it i hate how much i love my family i wish i didnt because *the shit i do for them i know they wouldnt do for me * i wish i wasnt like this its so hard to just sit still and be quite but unfortunatly thats my path and thats what i have to do i can control people ... story of my FUCKING LIFE i just wanna shake her and be like what the fuck are u doing? but u know what not my problem he can deal with it im just ill figure it out so what if i never had a single loyal bitch in my life im just sick and tired of all these fuckin men i just wana some loyal mother fuckin women in my life but they always seem to stab me in the fuckin back i just never thought it would be her too i know the path shes going on is wrong and i just wanna be there and protect her so bad but i cant and it fuckin breaks my soul like its not even about me but theres nothing i can do so thanks a lot to my fucked up family the best advice my mom had given is just dont say anything & god damn is that harder then ever i guess i can just keep journaling about it.. and just keep my damn mouth shut cause it has been going well so far i just need to focus more on things that make me happy.

Its so crazy cause i was working at CD06 and out of now where A shows up with his buddy whos like do u know this guy and A's energy just went from depressed looking down to so happy and just owning his fuckin space like all his attention was on me it made his buddy so uncomfortable telling me how he called me on my birthday but i changed my number like damn where did that confidence come from boy. I guess when something is meant to be it truly does find you at the worst time of my life when my grandma is in the hospital im at the lowest ive ever been and he found me. I remember when i was in the best time of my life he was at his lowest and i found him. Its so crazy how these things happen & now hes in a good place clearly and now he wants to be there for me.. like what i remember he was so lost and when we first hung out i brought him 2 rockstars 1 for me 1 for him and it brought the biggest smile on his face.. i guess he never forgot about that its just so crazy to me like how can these guys love me sooo much and my family just wont even give me a chance like what it makes zero sense to me i didnt even have to try i was only ever being myself and my family cant even appreciate who i am its just really weird hes also met S and he knows about him i just wonder what it could all mean i know i should stop trying to figure things out and just live but i hate not knowing things i mean if i knew A was going to be such a huge part of my life i wouldnt have fucked it up the way that i did although it wasnt my fault at some point i was pretty tempted too but i knew it just wasnt going to go any where do i never wanted to give him the false hope cause we just have such an amazing friendship and he just gets so fuckin protective its crazy i hate leading people on but its like i am so clear about what i want i dont wanna lose any more people it hurts so bad i think about our friendship all the time but i can never give him what he wants like its not him its me i know myself so why would i do that to my best friend? who i love so dearly and only ever want the fuckin best for him although i am the best... lol chemistry is just so important for me and its like if it aint there it aint there i dont want it to be another S situation cause my love can make a nigga go crazy & thats the last thing i want whats wrong with just wanting company? why do they always want more .. i wish that wasnt the case i dont wanna lie and go behind his back like thats the fuckin problem and if im already doing that as your friend because im afraid of hurting u how can we ever be more? yeah we look good together we would have amazing fuckin babies im just always all about doing the right thing and i hope we can stay friends and still grow individually :( i hope he can do that like nothing would make me happier if he just was on the same page i cant keep going on like this i just want everything to go back to the way it was i need him to think of me stictly as his best friend not another girl on his roaster like bruhhhhhh get over it !!! we are family lol

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caruliaa · 2 years

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omg okay it isnt that late but it feels sooo late to me so quickly these days but also. since it isnt a school night )and also it happens sometimes on school nights lmaoo) but i prob will j stay up for no reason a while longer SJSBJSJS but ill try not to… so yah anyway im gonna try to sleep now but!!!! im so excited for tomorrow in the case that we may get to vc??? like if we do get to then i just really think that will be so so lovely and im rlly excited for that possiblity and to get to again yah;;;!!!!! and yeah i want to thank you so so sooo much my ladybird for being such such such a wonderful considerate friend who is so so here for me and makes me feel so much warmer and better each day and also brings such joy to my life and just yah u rlly rlly r sosoooo good to me and i rlly am so lucky to know you and be friends with you;;;!! and im also j so lucky to know you because you are such a cool wonderful good person peaches and i know that you said earlier that today wasnt all so great for you and also u were headachey and stuff so i really really wanna send so many good wishes your way and also say that if you ever want to talk to me about anything like tht then youre always free to and im always here for you pink and you are j always so so loveable no matter what and i love you so so so much!!!!!! (hugs youuu if u want to ofc🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻)

no i get that sm love like staying up for no reason even after ur tired GHDGHFG but i hoe ypu did get some good rest my belovedest and yaya omg im so so excited for when we get to call too like. im free for all ov today and my family (? actually idk abt my dad bc hes working but hopefully he doesnt get home too early) will all be out until 9 my time so ya hopefully we should be able to and it rly would be so lovley if we do get too i rly agree !!! :'> and ough omg im so so so glad i hope you know that i can be a good friend to you and be here for you and help make you day better and warmer my bleovedest i rly rly am i hope you know beucase i really do want to both becuase you deserve it and just beucase you really are soso dear to me my dearest !!! and i hope you know that you absolutly are the same to me so so much and make me feel soso loved and cared for and just rly are so so good and kind to me and and bring soso much joy and happiness and light into my liife and are really just such such a wonderful incredible lovley lovable endearing amazing person my belovedest and just really really do mean the whole whole world to me and i really am soso glad and greatful to have you in my life and to be your friend my belovedest and i rly am just sos oglad and greatful to know ythat you always here for me and i just really do love you so so much my dearest i rly do !!! *hugs you back sososo much so so so so so much* 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

#ILUSM MX I RLY RLY DOO SOS OMUCH !!! *hugs u sm if u wish* !!!#flappy rambles #asks #lucy !#fave

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lixbf · 2 years

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tbh eternals felt kinda underwhelming

#like you have one guy whos power is literally being strong but for some reason the flying bitch w/laser eyes is considered the strongest #while im on the topic of ikaris. that bitch got off wayyy too easy. he shoukd not have been allowed to end his life on his terms #not after what he did to ajak and what hapoened to gilgamesh and all the lives he was willing to just sacrifice #honestly that movie felt both way too long and way too short #their stories and their characters should have been explored way more imo #you cant tell me that druig thought the colonization of tenochtitlan was too much but that he then stood by for all other genocides #like i def need some sort of explanation for why he wasnt doing anything during slavery or ww2 or other times when natives were murdered #also why didnt sersi as like the one who was arguably closest to humanity side with druig?#and why did that movie insist on making sure druig didnt think of himself as a god but went around calling thena a goddess???#ofc they can say that sprite was the origin of mythology surrounding athena or smth like that #but straight out saying 'yea thena is the goddess of war and protector of athens' hell nah thats just weird and unnecessary imo #but yeah there wasnt nearly enough time to explore the idk how many characters and the like three separate villains #but at the same time everything just felt sooo drawn out #what was dane abt to telk sersi? why did it have to end on a cliffhanger? why was harry styles there? all that couldve been cut imo #plus that harry styles thing really feels like random famous acturs being cast as voice actors. it's jyst completely unnecessary and weird #and now that the multiverse is a thing and everything seems to be more connected than ever i just dont see a connection to other movies #idk. kingo was cool just wish he didnt have to be the funny one. wish we couldve seen more of both gilgamesh and makkari.#druig was right. and ikaris shouldve been left to rot in the asshole of that fucking celestial like the piece of shit he is #in conclusion: eternals felt like infinity war/endgame except we didnt actually know any of the characters beforehand #and yknow infinity war and endgame are just ughh in my opinion sooooooo

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the-winter-spider · 2 years

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If I Could Fly - Pt 3

Warnings: Swearing

Word Count: 1.4k

A/N: Not really liking this part but I wanted to give y'all the whole Nat part sooo many of you messaged me about! Is its kinda a filler. Im excited for the next part! Not edited or proof read.

BOLD letting is readers memories

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“I'll go” Steve gave your hand a squeeze and what you’d assume to be his best reassuring smile “Buck” he nodded to his friend on the way out.

“Is it okay if I, uh, sit down?” He fumbled with his words his hands retreating to to his pockets

You nodded, gesturing to the chair beside the bed. He sat down and you tried to turn to face him, letting gasp escape your mouth as your hand went to your wound as you turned. You could see him move slightly forward, his eyes darting to your bandage, rubbing his hands up and down on his pant legs. You could feel the anxiousness radiating off of him, you knew he had so much he wanted to say and you had so much you wanted to ask, and at this point you had nothing left to lose, bracing yourself you decided to break the silence but “Why?”

His eyes lifted to you, eyes finally meeting yours “What?”

“Why’d you do it Buck? All of it?”

“I wish I had a better explanation for you because the one i have isn't good enough and you deserve the world y/n”

“Id still like to hear it”

He nodded “W-when we were calling your names after Nat and your comms went out, and then the only sound was a gunshot, I panicked. When I saw you standing there holding Nat, you were screaming my name, I felt like I failed you. If I’d cleared my area faster I could have been there. I was mad at myself and I took that out on you. I’m so sorry y/n, please believe me” His eyes were burning, he swallowed the lump in his throat, the silence from your end was making it hard to not let the tears fall his eyes were searching you for any type of response.

You knew Bucky was sorry, you knew it with every being in you and god, you swear you wanted to forgive him and live in his arms but your heart was shattered on the floor beside you and everything you had built with him came crashing down: every dance, every laughter, every stolen glance, every kiss, all the hints of the possible feeling of love was gone.

You were struggling to gather the words you wanted to say because well you didn't know what to say and when you said nothing Bucky waited and waited till he stood up to leave you with your thoughts. Your head snapped up, your arm reaching for his “You don't have to go, please don't go '' He nodded sitting back down. “I had so much faith in you Buck, in us. I just thought we could have been something more”

His mouth was dry “I th-thought we were something more”

“We almost were” You had an aching feeling in your stomach and it wasnt from your wound, you reached out taking his hand in yours giving it a squeeze “I thought we could of found an opening to do this right, that there was a chance for us, but i think it's too late”

He brought your entwined hands to his mouth, kissing the top of yours his lips lingered, you felt wet droplets landing on the top of your hand “I'll fix this, let me fix this”

“Bucky..”

“I would give anything if I could take it back, I would do anything y/n. You're it for me, there's no one else for me but you. Doll, i know im asking a lot and you’ve already been so patient with me but p-please give me one more chance, thats all im asking”

Your eyes had been shut since Bucky left a couple hours ago, you were trying to sleep but it was a slideshow of memories, your favourite memories of Bucky and you were on replay in your head. Your mind landing on the last happy one you had of the two you before the mission that led you to where you were.

“I was just about to get comfy” You sighed pushing yourself off Bucky’s bed. You two had just finished training and getting cleaned up, you came back to his room to nap with him before dinner something the two of you did often but Steve had texted the two of you to suit up, and that only meant one thing.

He reached over placing a fallen hair back behind your ear “I know doll, but duty calls”

His hand still lingering on your cheek “Fuck our duty, who says we need to get on that jet and kick peoples asses every damn day”

A smile crept up on his face “Well y/n/n, it is Captain's orders”

“But we were gonna nap, and my favourite naps are with you” You whined

He pulled you into his arms, kissing your head “We’ll nap when we get back, i promise”

You pulled away “I'm holding you to that Sarge”

He tossed his arm over your shoulder “I wouldn't have it any other way”

“Y'know i thought you’d be the one visiting me in medbay not the other way around”

You rolled your eyes “You can wipe the smirk off your face Nat”

You heard her footsteps get closer “How do you know i have a smirk on my face? Your eyes are shut” she laughed

Opening one eye, she was taking a seat in the chair Bucky was in meer hours ago “I know you like the back of my hand”

“Lucky you” She smiled “So wanna tell me why your acting so stupid?”

You sighed “Nat i swear i thought he was dead i didn't mean to get you shot, im so-“

She waved you off “No, i don't care about that” she lifted your blanket down pointing at the bandages that were lightly stained red “Im talking about this”

You pulled the blanket back “You almost died”

“Um, so did you”

You sighed “I didn't even know till after the mission, and i didnt think it was that bad”

“You’re not on the run anymore, this isn't the red room, this isn't hydra, you have nothing to be afraid of, everyones here to help y/n/n” She placed her hand on yours

“I know, i just, i dont know, it was stupid i know” You shrugged

She let out a breath of air, leaning back on the chair “I heard about Barnes”

You finally met her eyes “From?”

“Rogers”

“Of course”

“Not like you were ever gonna tell me what he did” It was her turn to roll her eyes

“Were spies, were built for secrets” You offered her a small smile

“Were also sisters, and if a guys being a douche, one your in love with or not you tell me, so i can kick his ass”

“Who said I was in love with him?”

She winked “Like you said, were spies”

“That obvious?” You laughed

She nodded “So what are you gonna do?”

“Whaddya mean?”

“I mean, you cant let him treat you like that y/n” Her voice was softer but still firm

“I know Nat, he won’t again”

“You forgave him didn’t you?”

“Not quite, uh, I’m thinking we start over?”

She scoffed, crossing her arms in disapproval, you didn't blame her, you would have done that exact same thing if the roles were reversed. “I get it i do Nat, but” you took in a shaky breath finding her eyes again “i love him, i am deeply in love with him” You let out an airy laugh “And with what we do, we live on borrowed time and why cant i want to live in the time i have left in love?” when she didn't respond you continued “I know what he did and said was wrong, i know. But we’ve all been through so much and, god knows how many chances i was given to right my wrongs, he deserves the same” She sat forward wiping a fallen tear from your cheek, your voice just above a whisper now with her face being so close to yours “He makes me feel something I didn't know I could”

“Okay, okay you win. I wont kick his ass” She laughed kissing your forehead

“That's the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for me”

Natasha stood up shaking her head “Not quite” She reached down into the bag she had with her pulling out some clothes “Getting you out of here is”

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kanmom51 · 3 years

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one of prev anon told jk is textbook bi , ys ofcourse it can be . but for me he exibited closeted gay behaviours especially from 2013 - 16, for me i personly think he wasnt sure of his sexuality in those times / knew dont wanted to accept / maybe some internalised homophobia , it happens especially if u r from a very conservative country like mine . here in asia , i dont know about korea , but in my country irl it is considered as some personality disorder or immoral way of sex n in our movies its considered as a joke just to laugh upon,even dragging gay people without thinking how we feel , i can quite confidently say in my country most people are homophobes, heterorelations r considered norm,real pure n valid . so NO one wants to accept they r gay atleast in their beginings n most stay in closet n will only be coming out or be in a gay long term relationship when they finally defeat their internal homophobia n fear of society. here all most all of bisexuals wont even come out , even to very close freinds or be in same sex relationships coz why they need to risk their life in name of love when they can be in a "normal " relations infront society. i can see this behaviour from jk in those early yrs ,when i really looked through his actions , coz i relate damn too much , ive been there. the first time when i saw km i knew jk is in LOVE with jm then saw their history , then i went back again to specifically note jk n his growth through yrs n saw many of his 2015 were closeted baby gay behaviours , as how i see it. i think atleast some of queer people who have been closeted n confused in early yrs could relate to him. i , personally couldnt see much of this struggle , as in sexuality , from jm. whatever he was , maybe he knew for himself, not confused but dont want other to know???but we can see him struggling in finding a way to present himself. his own way of masculinity. i feel very painful while watching jm from 2013,14 period,as he himself said he was trying too hard. to conclude i think we relate to km in diff ways the way one relate to them is very diff from other. so some may find their behaviours as gay/bi/pan or straight. what are they we dont know. but as someone who has been in closet confused as hell n afraid i relate to jk sooo much. even if he is not in relationship with jm i personlly dont think he is straight. KM was really a surprise factor happened while stanning BTS . i became ARMY in may 2020 n noted the things going b/w KM in june , looked in to them , saw many things i experienced through their growing up journey .(i havent been in relationship but now i can confidently say im comfortable in my sexuality n more confident after being an ARMY , the comfort BTS providing can be really felt by the people who go through wt they r saying in their songs, KM has also been one of the major factor in this ) And as of now both of my speculations of km being gay n in relationship has not been contradicted i continue to believe it. even if they r not , i support them as im here for our 7 boys first n their music.

Wow anon, thank you for sharing your story and personal pov.

I can’t imagine the struggles and hardships you went through that brought you to this day.

I see JK & JM through my eyes, with my gut feeling guiding me, and that is based on my look on life with my life experience. I have only seen others go through these struggles, you have lived it and are living it on a daily basis.

So, thank you for giving us your take on JK, his behaviour, the way you see how he was struggling, just as you were.

Don’t let anyone tell you you are less than perfect the way you are. Be you and be proud of being you.

You are amazing. You are brave.

I wish you, now that you have come to terms with your real self, that you find all the happiness in the world, because you deserve it.

#Anon #Ask #Jungkook #Jikook #JK #You are brave #You are amazing #You deserve to be happy

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