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actualhumansunshine · 2 years

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Thank you for being kind sneering my ask. It brings me down feeling all these negative emotions and I hate the person I become when I do and I usually shut down completely when that happens because I don’t want to be mean and nasty to anyone. I just feel like he has changed and not for the better and I miss the way he used to be before her. Does that make sense? I don’t know how to deal with those emotions and I feel like they’re eating me up sometimes. I feel like a horrible person wishing for her to go away because things like that…you don’t wish for heartbreak for anyone but ultimately I read your anons talking about people missing on loved up Niall and how great it is and I just want to cry because it’s not great. I miss him every day but lately it feels like he doesn’t care about his work or his fans or anything else apart from constantly being with Amelia and taking her on fancy holidays. Makes me wonder if maybe he has always been like this and him caring about us was just a show and now he has given up pretending or maybe she is the one who is jealous and doesn’t want him to be around us. Every time I think about it I spiral and I go into such dark places and it makes me feel so sad all the time. And I know Twitter people will screenshot this and make fun of it and think they are so edgy but on this end of all of it is a person who is trying their hardest to manage their mental health, their life, things that used to bring them joy and no longer do and trying to get it back and feel somewhat okay again.

god, i really am sorry that you're feeling so down!! that's never a good or fun place to be in and i'm sure it's been really hard for you, and only made harder by feeling like the thing that brought you so much joy in the past is kind of disappearing at the same time. but i'm gonna give you a little bit of tough love here: i really don't think it's fair to yourself to depend so completely on someone else (especially someone that's basically a stranger) to bring you joy. i know sometimes it feels like you might need the distraction, especially if it feels like there's nothing else in your life that's bringing you the same happiness or joy, and sometimes distraction IS good, but when it becomes so much of a fixture, it can kind of turn into a bit of a crutch??? and then when that crutch inevitably falters or fails, you're kind of left feeling like your world is falling apart because it can't be there for you or provide for you in the way you need yk???

these days especially, it's so so so important to take care of yourself and your mental health as much as you can, and a lot of that involves little things you can do for yourself in the real world: taking care of your body, taking care of your mind, and finding ways to connect with others on a person-to-person level. i find that social social media and fandom and all of that can kind tend to do the opposite for me??? it's kind of a mindfuck that messes with your head and makes you set expectations for yourself and others that aren't really fair or good for you, so sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself is take a step back from them and focus more on yourself and what makes you happy in the real world.

now on to what you were saying about niall: i really truly don't believe that his step back is a case of him 'not caring' about his work or his fans. i think that he cares DEEPLY, but i think he also has a life away from the spotlight that he cares about just as deeply. because of the pandemic situation that we're in right now, it makes sense that he's shifted his priorities and is focusing on the part of his life that's normally doesn't get as much attention yk??? normally, the majority of his life is all about his career. he's constantly on the move- writing, recording, promoting, touring, etc etc etc. he doesn't get to be at home in his own bed every night or spend lots of time with his friends or family, even tho he clearly cares about them a lot. that's a sacrifice that he's made for the amazing life and career he gets to have and he's clearly ok with that, but i don't think there's anything wrong or selfish about him seizing the opportunity to live the ~normal sort of life that he normally doesn't get to have yk??? cause eventually he WILL go back to his day job—he's writing and recording and we know there's music on the way, it's just a matter of when—and when that happens, he's going to have to sacrifice that sense of normalcy all over again.

and as far as him changing, i really don't feel like that's the case??? at least not to the extent that people make it out to be??? cause i remember back when he was with hailee, we never really got random little ig stories or a lot of fandom interaction. and the only difference between then and now is that back then, he was on tour and there was something else going on to distract people from zeroing in on how much he was or wasn't posting yk?? right now it can be easier to notice and harder to deal with because there's not really anything else going on to distract from it, but i think (or at least i hope) it'll be better/easier when there's new music and something for him to promote again

#hopefully something in here helps 💕#also i want to say that i find the fact that you're fighting so hard against the impulse to be mean and nasty really commendable #it shows that you're a kind and caring person yk #and i don't think that's always an easy thing to be #especially when you're struggling with your own shit that no one else knows about #lots of love babe 💕💕💕#answered #anonymous

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aspiring-house-husband · 2 years

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I mean,, don’t be so sure no one would be interested, I know a couple of us here switch (I do and so does Bunny) and in all honesty I’m a top, personally (though I like the idea of bottoming so that tends to be what I play up in fantasies/online)

It’s up to you if you want to share and no pressure if you don’t want to, I just wanted to say that there may be some interest =)

(Also I know we were doing a thing but my brain decided no more sub mood for me rip. I do feel a lot calmer though so <3<3)

🌌

i did end up sharing, but like. here’s the thing, right? i’ve got a lot of fucked up stuff going on that’s all leftover garbage from past relationships in which i thought i was a full time top/dom, because that’s what men do, yk? internalized homophobia presents itself in weird ways. even worse bc my first long term relationship was with a woman, which... not for me, y’all. but my point is that i’m super desensitized to being a top. like, its fun, i’ll do it happily for y’all and get entertainment from it, but i rarely get anything deeper from it.

subbing, on the other hand... those relationships did a number on me. my xgf made me feel awful about wanting it at all, and one of my two xbfs never ever delivered when he said he was going to because he’d always have anxiety attacks thinking about pleasing me in a way he was inexperienced with. ive done a good amount of healing, involving a very special ex boyfriend who did way more healing of me than he could ever know, but it’s still left me with this interesting little disconnect.

am i comfortable being a top/dom on tumblr for all of y’all? absolutely. i love how safe my account has become and how many people i’ve lit a praise/dumbification kink into.

am i comfortable being a bottom/sub? eh... it’s way more... sacred, to me, i guess. share fantasies of it, if you’ve got them, absolutely, but i probably won’t get nearly as graphic nor.. fond? nicknamey? about it, because it’s something that hits way closer to home.

wow that was overshare hour sorry about that

#inbox #night sky anon #fawn speaks

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normal-thoughts-official · 3 years

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Do you think the polycule has any holiday traditions?

POLYCULE ASK! POLYCULE ASK! POLYCULE ASK! YESSSSSSSSSS

that's actually a pretty interesting question because the polycule is very culturally diverse. like of course we have simon who's jewish, but the rest is kind of in a weird place. i'm pretty sure shadowhunters don't have holidays at all, and since clary was raised by a shadowhunter and a former shadowhunter, i'm pretty sure she would have been raised without any either? like maybe she'd celebrate the gregorian new year because you know, they have to pretend to be mundane after all, but i think that and birthdays were probably pretty much it for her. oh and halloween i guess which is also not religious-affiliated, are there any other holidays in the states? i guess there's the 4th of july and thanksgiving but both celebrate imperialism/colonialism and i don't want to write about that so i'm gonna pretend there aren't. plus i doubt shadowhunters celebrated those either

so ok we have izzy and clary with no holidays, we don't know whether or not maia is culturally christian and i don't wanna just say "yes" by default... and then there's meliorn whose holidays and traditions will be typical to seelie culture, which are gonna be... unique to them obviously. we don't know how they are celebrated, how long they last, what is the milestone, how or even IF they count time - like maybe they go by when a specific flower blooms and that only happens every 10 gregorian years or some shit. so that's a question mark i guess

and there's also the fact that the seelie realm is very politically closed which. i like to think changes once they get rid of the old queen! but it's still a slow process to just allow other people there. then again izzy was a shadowhunter and she used to hop by so it's probably not a huge deal for meliorn to bring their partners and metamours to seelie celebrations? or at least to the ones that aren't Super Sacred or anything. so like parties and dances and stuff like that? yeah. which i guess brings me back to the other "meta" i wrote about seelie dances (link) and what it would be like for the rest of the polycule to participate in those and shit

then... well obviously there's the gregorian new year which we have obviously just gone through (well, we had when i started answering this ask. it's march now so rip. update it's april now. i'm so sorry anon) so like! i think it was always kind of hell for both raphael and maia, autistic icons, because of all the explosion sounds that just made them feel really upset and feel really stupid for it. with raphael i think it was more bearable when he had rosa because she would spend the day with him and hug him and let him squeeze the stress out you know dauhdasuihda also she was always the one he felt the most comfortable stimming in front of. and then after he lost her it only got worse because on top of the fireworks there was the clear absence of rosa that he just FELT everywhere. you know?

and with maia there's the added trouble of her being AMAB and what with being raised to "black men" standarts of masculinity (to be clear, as in: due to racism black men are expected to be even more macho than white men, ESPECIALLY by nonblack ppl; not as in wow black ppl are so backwards or whatever. white ppl invented gender norms anyway so lmao), she was definitely shamed a lot for being so distressed by the fireworks when she was little methinks. we love that combination of transphobia, racism and ableism! so it was just hard and filled with bad memories. and then once she ran away from home it got marginally better without the constant telling her to "man up" and shit like that, but it still came with the added memories you know

and also with them (plus simon) being vampires/werewolves the hearing gets even more sensitive so that's... fun. meliorn realizes it stresses them out and makes up a special kind of spell that muffles their hearing of background noise, so they can feel more comfortable and for the first time there is not that added stress that comes with the new years and it feels so nice?? they even try watching the fireworks but it's kinda like eh, not that great, especially because even looking at them brings out memories you know doahdsaoh so instead meliorn shows them some magic and it's so much prettier with all the glowing lights and stuff, you know?

maybe after that the polycule starts spending the new years in the seelie realm instead, that'd be cute, just like. enjoying that pretty place with all the lights and shit. i think they would all prepare some kind of light show some way or another like using magic and witchlights and whatnot. that'd be cute

as for other holidays! i think their holiday traditions would start with simon's first yom kippur after he was able to eat solid foods again (shut up a potion WILL be created and i don't accept any other option). before that, with simon being unable to eat, he was also obviously unable to fast. he wouldn't feed during yom kippur but it's not like vampires need to drink blood every day so it's not really the same thing. and it felt particularly lonely that, besides being away from his family and community, he also couldn't fast

i mean obviously simon isn't the only jewish vampire in the world, or jewish downworlder for that matter, so i'm sure he makes jewish friends he would at least get together and pray with for yom kippur, and that's what matters the most, really, but being unable to fast when he wants to and also not being able to participate in the break-fast meal just. sucks djdnudhsus

and then he's able to eat and he can do all that again! but it's also kind of emotionally charged for all of the vampires to fast for the first time when for so long they associated not eating with feeling unhuman, you feel? so like it kind of hits all of them hard

so the polycule decides to make him a little surprise and cooks the break-fast meal for them. clary probably knows what simon and his family used to eat after yom kippur so they try to recreate that for him? and maia and raphael are lowkey nervous about it because they had never made stuff like noodle kugel before and while they could at least try it (yay potion!) they have no idea if it's tasting like it should, ya know what i mean? and it's kind of sweet that they are so worried about making this the best possible experience for simon and the closest to home it can get. and simon is super emotional about getting to eat that stuff for the first time, as well as the other vampires, so you know. it's very emotional all around. but in a good way? and i think after that it kind of becomes a tradition that they make him the break-fast meal after yom kippur too

and then the next years they lowkey fuss over him for the last meal before the fast too, which i'm not sure is something simon would do with other people so they would go ham, dude, particularly raphael because he is a worrier first and foremost. so catch his ass all lovingly planning a meal he can make with zero (0) salt whatsoever so simon doesn't get too thirsty during the fast for MONTHS, planning so he gets the most amount of sustenance, lots of fiber, etc., and simon is like "you know i don't even have to eat, right?" but rapha is just all "you know food still matters" and simon doesn't say anything because it does. it matters a lot

and raphael is all sweetly nervous because like... it is a simple meal, that is the point, but he still wants simon to enjoy it and simon can't stop smiling through the whole thing. raphael and the others also eat it with him too in solidarity before simon goes to the synagogue with his community and it's like a sweet send off you know?

also this is not exactly a celebration or a tradition for that matter but since YK is the day of forgiveness i like to think that eventually simon asks for raphael's forgiveness on YK for the whole rosa thing, and although that isn't religious for raphael, raphael asking for his forgiveness for how everything went down, too. and it's just a sweet moment where they leave this whole story behind and look for a better future - i imagine this happening before they get together, so again, it doesn't really count as an answer to your question, but i just thought i'd include it because i find it sweet

then after that there is sukkot and i just really loove the idea of them helping him build the sukkah (for those who don't know, the sukkah is a hut covered with vegetation under the open sky, where jewish ppl live in for the duration of the sukkot). i know that they could just buy a certified one but where is the fun in that when we could have shenanigans? also i think that that would have been part of simon's personal/family traditions because i bet him and becca loved to build the sukkah for their family. so like on that spirit it is a little sad that they can't help each other with that anymore since simon can't be seen by the rest of his family, but of course as soon as he mentions it and how fun it used to be the whole polycule is Immediately On Board. let's help simon build his sukkah!

first of all other than simon none of them have ever built a sukkah before and simon usually followed becca's lead tbh, also he's just not great to Lead And Control people in general, and the polycule is already messy as all fuck. so it's a disaster, especially with raphael and simon's superspeed and strength thrown into the mix, and meliorn's almost impossible to hold back mischievous nature. izzy is lowkey responsible for keeping them in check and okay now that i think about it clary might have helped simon's family build it before, especially when she was a kid because kids just love that shit, but i don't know if she would remember the steps tbh (read: she wouldn't remember the steps) so yeah all in all the sukkah falls down more often than not and they might have to replace a few materials when simon and raphael accidentally snap their bamboo poles in half. rip

meliorn is probably all like "you are all weak and pathetic, i am a seelie, i can literally control living things. simon needs a vegetable covering? watch me get all the nearby trees to form a beautiful roof" and simon is like "actually the sechach cannot be alive" and meliorn slowly dies because they have no power over dead nature. also simon forbids magic usage in general because this needs to be an authentic building experience for him, so meliorn is left as the most useless one since they only have experience building these things using magic and the help of the trees or whatever

also i bet they would love to go EXTREMELY hard on the lights and decorations. i know that hassidic and to my understanding general orthodox jewish communities don't decorate the sukkah but i don't hc simon as part of those communities so i think he would want to decorate the sukkah. like even if it isn't fully covered in decorations, he would want what few he has to be well done, you know what i mean? like he would want to make the holiday posters himself (i dont know if it would be appropriate for clary to help make these but if it would, she totally would and i like the idea of simon giving her a very specific prompt to make the posters and clary doing it for him, you know? and maybe them all helping paint it with colorful themes), making decorations, and okay, at the very least fairy lightning? please? come on. it's another whole ass dramatic experience to get electricity in there so that's fun for sure, but i think meliorn and maia in particular would be all over the idea of making a pretty lightning system, and simon is definitely not gonna complain because he loves pretty things and the idea sounds rad. raphael smiles fondly through it all and basically saves the day by being the only one with organizational skills who is actually able to help them make a working plan for the sukkah

(catch these idiots making a blueprint. TRY and tell me they wouldn't)

(every year they make a new blueprint and the sukkah has different designs and proportions - always following the requirements like having four at least 32 inches tall walls, of course - and they start completely anew. the sechach must always be new but not the general structure, but they redo the structure anyway because again, it's fun)

and then of course they have meals together in the sukkah for the duration of sukkot and just idk i really dig the idea of the lot of them holding trays of food wearing oven mitts as they get inside and turn on the lights and it feels really nice and sweet you know? and then of course promptly turns kind of messy because it's their way but that's what they want. also, at least once a year they manage to sneak becca in for a meal with simon in the sukkah and they are just both so happy and aaaaa :')

and that's how "kidnapping" becca so she can see simon and his sukkah becomes another tradition lmao. they do it in the most dramatic full of flair way they possibly can while still not being found out and then promptly tell simon all about it in the most dramatic and exaggerated retelling during the meal, which always makes both simon and becca laugh (reality: becca just told her parents she would be off for a few hours to do some school thing or something and then they picked her up and she got a superspeed piggyback ride so she and simon wouldn't miss a minute. their story: "it all began with a carefully planted lie,")

there's also pesach which many (reform) jewish friends of mine have told me they like to do with goyim because the whole point of that holiday is to welcome strangers and share jewish history, so i think simon would like to do that as well. so yeah i think simon would enjoy having them with him during the Pesach Seder - again i think simon would want to be with his other jewish friends but it would be fun because they all could bring their pet goyim that they know would be respectful and nice to have around, run the Seder, and celebrate with them. also for their first one i think simon would have gotten excited about explaining the order/15 steps to them, so like cue lots of fond looks as simon tells them everything about it, how this is the first time he'll be able to have the feast, the four cups of wine, and how he's excited even to have the bitter herbs again. and then over the years they all become pretty much used to the 15 steps, they come naturally, they know what to expect, they already know the story of the Exodus after retelling it every year, and it's nice both when it's new and he gets to share and when it starts to be something in their element because it became their tradition and they want to be there with simon for the holidays, you know what i mean?

then there's purim!!!!!!!! god they would sure have so much fun on purim it gets me really excited to think about. purim might be the one that they get to participate the most in from what i've seen, and i have lots of thoughts about it, like:

first of all, making hamantaschen!! they each make a batch with a different stuffing and it's lowkey a competition and lowkey a surprise and as always with cooking together it is very fun and homey. and also kind of silly as they usually are, but purim is a holiday that is kind of supposed to be silly and for ppl to let go so it matches that mood, you know what i mean? like they're all covered in flour and "stop trying to LOOK at what i'm making!" and blind testing and stuff

then, food gifts! so from what i've seen it is preferable that the food gifts jewish ppl send each other on purim are sent by a third party, which is usually a kid, but they don't know many kids and i really like the idea of the polycule serving as simon's messengers for the day lmao. going everywhere round the shadow world and beyond ("hey mel since you can portal i have this friend in argentina-") and then bringing him the other gifts people send simon in return :)

dressing up in costumes! there is absolutely no way simon doesn't dress up for purim and the whole polycule is absolutely dragged into it, including an absolutely reluctant raphael. it quickly becomes a tradition tho that they change costumes every year and try to make them funnier and more outrageous (as you do) as time goes by. trust the polycule to turn pretty much everything into a competition. and simon always laughs with so much glee and joy when he gets to see what everyone dresses up as so really, how could they say no?

(maia "wins", like, every year. she is totally huge on costumes and her and simon are very attuned in that sense, so, you know. catch her dressing up as memes and just generally making the most creative costumes. she may or may not think them months and months ahead of time)

maybe they hold purim meals with particularly themed costumes every once in a while when they want to spice it up, but i think generally it's more of a freestyle thing

simon also loves reading the purim torah tbh, it's just fun. and then of course there's the megillah and booing when haman's name is mentioned. they are all banned from using graggers because half of them have superstrength and the other half doesn't technically have superstrength but is still super strong and they destroyed the poor thing on accident after the first ten seconds when they tried

food yay! and the very long meal. they usually get pretty drunk, tbh, at least the ones that can. and just generally i think it's one of their favorite celebrations to do together and more often than not ends in them all curled up together in the couch so u know, that's sweet uwu

and then of course rosh hashanah, which is the holiest joyous day in jewish tradition, so of course it's a huge deal for them all. and i just think they would all be super excited about making the evening (especially the meal ofc) the most incredible for simon it could possibly be. again i think simon would want to spend it with his downworlder jewish friends and community, and they probably have their own synagogue they go to together and everything, so obviously they are all involved in making preparations for rosh hashanah, but i like to think the polcyule and simon's friends' pet goyim would help with what they can as well (provided it's not something that should be done by a jewish person like baking the challah; but if not with cooking, they would at least want to help with stuff like decorations and the like. honestly i imagine all of simon's partners sitting together very seriously with a paper in front of them writing down all the stuff they can do to help with rosh hashanah preparations and everything. especially once they learn that like being happy/joyous is a mitzvah so they're just like "we want to make u as happy as possible then :)" and it's sweet and simon may or may not tear up a little)

and then we have other holidays that aren't associated with religion like halloween, which was kind of implied to be the official downworld holiday, so i'm pretty sure they go big on that too. not dressing up because again, one day where they can all afford to be themselves, but definitely meeting up at the hunter's moon, getting spectacularly drunk, roasting the mundane's costumes, and then once they get back to whichever of them's homes, watching some shitty movies and throwing stuff at the screen together

i'm on the fence about día de muertos. i know it's not exactly a sad holiday but i feel like it is for raphael because it kind of represents everything he's lost - his culture and his family, and he can't even go to the parade during the day, you know, although i'm not sure that would have been his thing, but i do think he would have loved to watch the arrival of the monarchs when he was a kid but he'd have to be in méxico for that. and particularly after he lost rosa i just feel like it would have been so emotionally charged for him, you know? he would definitely make her an altar every year and it would be just... big and well thought-out and something really emotional and important for him, welcoming his little sister back the best he can. and i feel like that's something he'd want to do alone because my boy loves to punish himself

but there are little things i think they would have wanted to do with him, and that they might push a little to be able to, like being with him while he eats by the altar and hearing him tell stories about rosita. and i think they would help him "undo" (?) the altar once día de muertos is over, which is always extra emotional for him and aaa. and then the next day they kind of just get to be with him and cuddle a little bit as he recovers emotionally, you know?

also it has just occured to me that raphael is christian shit fuck fart bitch cock. so okay i guess that puts xmas and easter somewhat on the map? again mostly for food. us latinos celebrate xmas on the eve, not on xmas day, and raphael is totally the insufferable xmas meal obsessed bitch who's on the kitchen all day and refuses to let anyone help (he can't pull that particular stunt for the meals they have for simon's holidays obviously but he can on xmas soo). but it's worth it because it is always a great one. and he also gives a lot of thought into getting everyone presents so that is sweet and it earns him lots of kisses on the cheek and stuff. and that's pretty much it for latino xmas, we don't really do stuff i'm still not convinced gringos haven't made up like the socks and the eggnog and xmas music (????) so it's more lowkey. and i think raphael would keep the more religious aspects of it to the stuff he does at church (again, there are downworlder religious communities idk what to tell u) and for the nursery home. which is not to say that like... oh wow xmas is totally not a xtian holiday! or whatever, just that the version the polycule does is more lowkey on the religious aspects and the things they do together on that day are more about being together with raphael on a day that matters to him, you know, especially since again, he is the only xtian and that's gonna be a sensitive thing for simon especially

and i think for easter it is mostly something they do to shower maia in sweets lmao. again she misses chocolate and i'm sure they spend a lot of their time trying to figure out how to get around that, either be by like trying to make special chocolate that doesn't make her sick or sweets that really really resemble chocolate or that are so good she doesn't even mind that she can't eat chocolate anymore. so that's their tradition for easter (and raphael goes to church ofc)

oh yeah and i forgot valentine's day! i have this funny little idea just for the shits where they have this little thing where they setup one-on-one dates for all the parts that are actually together and each of them lasts, like, 10 minutes (poor maia who dates everyone is just running around town) and it's more about the fun of running around from one day to the other like this is a bad romcom where some bastard is trying to juggle having two (monog) girlfriends at once. but then they actually get all together at the end of the day and trade presents and funny cards both among their dates and metamours ("roses are red, violets are blue, you're my girlfriend's girlfriend, and i love you platonically"). usually ending up with them drunk and debating how exactly they got to this overly complicated arrangement and trying to figure out the best way to explain this to an outsider and trying to make, like, fluxograms that explain all of their different relationships visually and they all look so messy it just leaves them more confused lmao. so yeah it's fun

and i think that's all i've got? i say, as if this answer isn't longer than anyone will have the time to read and took me over 4 months to write. but anyway

a special thanks to "a group where non-jews can ask questions about judaism and jews can answer" on facebook and all my jewish friends for helping me write about the jewish holidays and customs. i also used the following sources: Rosh Hashanah (link), how to build the sukkah (link), more on the sukkah (link), how to celebrate purim (link), more on purim (link), how to celebrate passover (link), what is a passover seder like (link), laws of yom tov (link), yom kippur (link), what to eat before and after yom kippur (link), a classic yom kippur breakfast menu (link), menus for the pre yom kippur meal (link). if there's anything inaccurate or disrespectful, however, please let me know, and feel free to add more ideas as well if you're jewish :)

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kangtaebins · 3 years

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Weird Asks That Say A Lot

I said I was going to just answer all of these bc of boredom,, and so here I am

1. Coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? Teacups are aesthetically pleasing idc what anyone says

2. Chocolate bars or lollipops? Lollipops

3. Bubblegum or cotton candy? Cotton candy supremacy

4. How did your elementary school teachers describe you? I was told that I was a leader a lot, and was told that I was very intelligent. Ah yes, I suffered from gifted kid burn out in high school-

5. Do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups? Look, plastic cups are the best. Specifically the ones with the lids and reusable straws

6. Pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? It truly depends on the day bc some days I would say goth and other days I’d say grunge, but most days- pastel

7. Earbuds or headphones? Earbuds

8. Movies or TV shows? TV shows bc- idk actually I’m just not a movie person

9. Favorite smell in the summer? I have a weird obsession with the smell of cheap sunscreen and I have no clue why

10. Game you were best at in p.e.? I hated gym in high school and rarely participated despite the teacher being irritated with me (truly she gave up after a few months bc I really did not care at all) HOWEVER- I went to town in volleyball and still enjoy playing volleyball v much

11. What do you have for breakfast on an average day? I don’t eat breakfast often,,,

12. Name of your favorite playlist? Probably my Navy or Indigo playlist

13. Lanyard or key ring? Key ring

14. Favorite non-chocolate candy? Anything green apple!!!

15. Favorite book you read as a school assignment? I actually genuinely enjoyed Romeo And Juliet tbh

16. Most comfortable position to sit in? I always curl up in a ball on the couch, but in a chair I manspread ngl

17. Most frequently worn pair of shoes? Nike slides <//3

18. Ideal weather? Between 50-70 degrees, sunny but not warm, being able to wear a hoodie and not be hot or cold

19. Sleeping position? I usually either sleep on my left side or on my stomach (my back once in a while when it’s hurting bc I’m a hag)

20. Preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? I write on my phone more than anything

21. Obsession from childhood? Hm- I was really obsessed with High School Musical as a kid. My friend and I would put it on and lip sync to the songs and pretend we were the characters

22. Role model? Is it- wrong to say myself? Bc I feel like that sounds arrogant but genuinely it’s bc I’m constantly trying to better myself mentally and learn and grow. Idk I just am proud of who I am and look to myself when I need to find motivation

23. Strange habits? Strange? Idk if it’s strange but I’m constantly twiddling with the hem of my sleeves bc I love the feeling of it

24. Favorite crystal? Citrine

25. First song you remember hearing? WH- bitch idk tf

26. Favorite activity to do in warm weather? Stay tf inside in the air conditioning

27. Favorite activity to do in cold weather? Stay tf inside in the heat

28. Five songs to describe you? To describe me?? Girl idk I'm all over the place. How about songs that resonate with me instead,,, Alive by Khalid, Paranoid by Lauv, Phobia by Dvwn, Fake Smile by Ariana Grande, and Breathin by Ariana Grande

29. Best way to bond with you? Truly I'm not very difficult to get along with, just don't be an asshole. Talk to me about psychology, current events, say Soobin is the cutest to exist idk it's not that hard

30. Places that you find sacred? I- hm. I'm not like a church person or anything so idk. Maybe just anything really old or places with very detailed and unique architecture

31. What outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? I don't own many clothes,,, let alone nice clothes. I also don't really dress to impress I'd much rather be comfortable

32. Top five favorite vines? Oh god if I h a d to pick???? The lipstick in the Valentino bag, they were roommates, it's an avocado- thaaanks, jared 19, and uh,,, zach stooppp you're gonna get in trouble

33. Most used phrase in your phone? Tbh it's probably "girl what-" or "no bc"

34. Advertisements you have stuck in your head? That 877-CASH-NOW ONE JFC

35. Average time you fall asleep? Between 11pm-1am

36. What is the first meme you remember ever seeing? Probably the troll face one or smth

37. Suitcase or duffel bag? Suitcase

38. Lemonade or tea? I mix them together!

39. Lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? Lemon meringue pie bc I don't really like cake

40. Weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? Y'all I- went to a hs/college mixed school,, I've seen it all. Weirdest?? Idk but one weird thing I remember was when we were making whistles in art and some dude made a penis whistle 😭

41. Last person you texted? My best friend :))

42. Jacket pockets or pants pockets? Jacket pockets

43. Hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? Hoodie 100%

44. Favorite scent for soap? I love soaps that smell like soap. Like ok duh I know that sounds dumb but yk what I mean? I don't want lemon or mint or whatever, I like the plain soap smell

45. Which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? Fantasy

46. Most comfortable outfit to sleep in? Oversized t-shirt, no pants. I question anyone that is comfortable sleeping with pants on-

47. Favorite type of cheese? Feta!

48. If you were a fruit, what kind would you be? I feel like I'd be a pineapple and I have no clue why

49. What saying or quote do you live by? Not necessarily a quote but more of a thought: live for yourself, enjoy each day, do what gives you joy

50. What made you laugh the hardest you ever have? I have had so many instances in which I have laughed so hard I peed and to even attempt to name one is impossible

51. Current stresses? Making sure my family gets their vaccines and stays safe

52. Favorite font? I don't think I have one? Anything except comic sans

53. What is the current state of your hands? What does this even mean 💀 I mean,, they're holding my phone, cold, and my nails are unpolished

54. What did you learn from your first job? That people are assholes but I'm capable of not giving a fuck bc life is not that damn serious

55. Favorite fairy tale? Is The Three Little Pigs considered a fairy tale?

56. Favorite tradition? Putting up the Christmas tree with my mom :( it's always a lot of fun

57. The three biggest struggles you’ve overcome? Depression, grief, and hopefully one day- smth I'm currently dealing with

58. Four talents you’re proud of having? Makeup!! But also: singing, crying on command, and tying cherry stems with my tongue

59. If you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be? Sick of these bitches

60. If you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? I don't watch anime so idk

61. Favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.? It's this line from Eleanor & Park: "Eleanor was right: She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something."

62. Seven characters you relate to? Holy hell, 7?? Probably won't get that many but hm,,, Darlene from Roseanne, Hermione from Harry Potter, Emily from Pretty Little Liars maybe?? Idk I suddenly blanked

63. Five songs that would play in your club? As if it's Your Last by BP, anything from SHINee, anything from Ariana, also anything Rihanna, just a bunch of women tbh

64. Favorite website from your childhood? FUCKING WEBKINZ BRO

65. Any permanent scars? I have a few on my arms idk where they came from tbh, I also have one on my hand from my sister 🧍🏻‍♀

66. Favorite flower(s)? Sunflowers!!! I also really love lilacs 💔

67. Good luck charms? My dog's collar that I wear as a bracelet

68. Worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? Licorice-

69. A fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? It takes repeating a piece of information 12 times at random to memorize it completely

70. Left or right handed? Right

71. Least favorite pattern? Fucking chevron- and realistic camo, and anything with the American flag

72. Worst subject? Yall im awful at history. American history, world history, all of it-

73. Favorite weird flavor combo? Either pickles and peanut butter or cheese and grapes

74. At what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? I'm stubborn but also always in pain so I've become numb to a lot of body pains. I have to be at like a 7-8 before I take smth otherwise I'd always be taking it

75. When did you lose your first tooth? I was probably like 5 I was definitely in Kindergarten

76. What’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? I fw baked potatoes

77. Best plant to grow on a windowsill? I have a love for succulents

78. Coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? Oh my- I don't drink coffee but coffee from a gas station

79. Which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo? Driver's license for sure

80. Earth tones or jewel tones? Jewel tones

81. Fireflies or lightning bugs? I say both,, but I think I say lightning bugs more

82. PC or console? PC

83. Writing or drawing? Both

84. Podcasts or talk radio? Podcasts definitely

84. Barbie or polly pocket? Barbie

85. Fairy tales or mythology? Fairy tales

86. Cookies or cupcakes? C o o k i e s

87. Your greatest fear? Losing people I love

88. Your greatest wish? To live comfortably and be a great mother

89. Who would you put before everyone else? My family

90. Luckiest mistake? Guessing on 90% of a test and getting an A 💀

91. Boxes or bags? Bags are easier to carry-

92. Lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? Fairy lights!!

93. Nicknames? Sam, Sammi, my sister calls me Sams, my best friend calls me Bub, and my gf calls me Baby if that counts- 👀

94. Favorite season? Fall omg it's gorgeous and has perfect temperatures

95. Favorite app on your phone? ✨tumblr✨

96. Desktop background? Its literally a pic of Soobin, Taehyun, and Beomgyu

97. How many phone numbers do you have memorized? Like 4-5

98. Favorite historical era? The one where white people learn their fucking place and stop being racist, homophobic, classist, sexist, all the -ists and -phobics,,,, so none. Fuck history :))

#idk what to put in the tags so if you actually read all of these then damn you're the real mvp

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what do you think about the prophecy? "He is the one who shall bring an age of darkness upon the world" what does this mean? is griffith really going to turn out being the bad guy( I hope not) or guts is going to change this prophecy somehow? (because he should have been a sacrifice but he is alive?) also why does schierke call griffith false?

Ok so I re-read a bunch of scenes relating to the prophecy to try to come up with a decent answer, and honestly I think I might’ve been better off just going “idk probably depends on your pov” lol.

But I came up with some things to say and I’ll try to lay out my thoughts in a somewhat organized way here, so bear with me.

At the end of the Eclipse, Slan is all, now that the fifth angel is here the time of darkness descends. Then she defines exactly what the Age of Darkness will entail:

Soon Farnese shows up and recites the prophecy. This also happens right after the Eclipse, before the Black Swordsman arc will have taken place, two years before the next time we see these guys:

The fifth angel, the Hawk of Darkness, pretty obviously Femto. There’s no mystery here.

And honestly, the Age of Darkess is pretty explicitly discussed during the Conviction Arc. There’s really no mystery there either, at least not yet.

(I’m relatively certain that last line is essentially identical to “they sensed intuitively” from NGriff’s resurrection, and which I’ve also seen translated as “knew,” and so I wouldn’t put too much stock in the word “believed” there as purposefully leaving room for doubt, just fyi.)

Like, this is hammered in over and over. This prophetic dream of plague and natural disasters and war and famine, followed by Laban bemoaning the state of the world as these events come true and he encounters a landslide and a village full of plague, and we see tens of thousands of starving refugees outside the Tower of Conviction, and Kushan war elephans make an early appearance, etc.

Dark shadow, darkness that covers the world, thick darkness, utter darkness, etc etc. It’s not subtle, and it’s pretty clearly the intended follow-through to Slan’s words and Farnese’s prophecy. The Conviction Arc shows us the world that’s shitty enough to motivate humanity to will a saviour into being.

Also while Age of Darkness sounds a little too impressive to be boiled down to a measley 2 years that suck extra hard, I’d argue that this is more like the straw that breaks the camel’s back. Plague and famine etc just draw into sharp relief the divide between the have and the have-nots, which is largely what the Conviction Arc is about. It’s about nobility terrorizing peasants through the Inquisition, and neglecting peasants as Laban muses that the King is too obsessed with trying to find Griffith to allocate resources to relief efforts, and how much this fucks the world up.

The Conviction Arc shows us a pretty good example of a world where darkness, ie wickedness, hatred, hostility, the dead, and illusion (I’d argue Mozgus’ brand of religion, especially with how much fun the narrative has with painting it as super fucked up and hypocritical etc, like God’s love being a torture chamber, fits that bill) covers the light.

And it’s the kind of world that Femto requires in order to be incarnated physically.

So whether the “Hawk of Darkness,” directly caused this “Age of Darkness,” or whether it’s more like, yk, humanity/fate caused it itself because humanity’s negative emotions reaching a critical point allows him to incarnate and change shit up as per humanity’s desires (this is all there in the Lost Chapter), I’d stay it fits the prophecy. Femto = Hawk of Darkness = Age of Darkness = all the darkness of humanity emphasized.

But this gets muddy once NGriff does show up and we get the sequence where his apostle captains meet him etc:

Like okay, so Schierke’s maybe just reciting the old prophecy, since it’s the exact same wording Farnese gave us, so maybe this doesn’t change what we were lead to believe was the Age of Darkness? I mean at this point we’d be still in the midst of it, going by what was stated in the Conviction Arc. The future tense could just be because it’s an old prophecy.

But the future tense is there (and I double checked with a scanlation lol, and it was there in that translation too, so I’m assuming it’s part of the original Japanese wording), and it’s worth considering that this is still meant to be foreshadowing and the Age of Darkness is yet to come. In which case it would presumably be Fantasia.

So one possibility is that the Conviction Arc is either a giant Age of Darkness red herring or it has been retconned out of being the Age of Darkness, and we’re meant to understand Fantasia as the prophecized Age of Darkness brought down by the Hawk of Darkness.

I’m not fully on board with this possibility because a) the Conviction Arc was pretty damn straightforward and made perfect sense as the AoD and I hate retcons, and b) Fantasia is defined by light lol, not darkness. Both literally in that a bright white light envelops the Earth as it changes and it’s often described in terms of light, and figuratively in that I’d suggest every one of Slan’s examples of light up there (love, hope, etc) is illustrated in the nature of Fantasia. Humanity joining together despite differences including apostles, hope, astral planes merging (which I’d argue makes the world more real, not less), the living (NGriff’s funeral services make people more at peace with the idea of death and able to emotionally recover from the loss of loved ones much easier), and I’d also argue that this chill easy going accepting version of organized religion we’ve seen fits the ‘sacred’ bill a lot better than Mozgus’ horrific version.

Admittedly you can argue the opposite for some of these points, like maybe Griffith’s funeral services making people more cool about death is a bad thing and an example of death eclipsing life. Maybe the astral plane is supposed to be more illusion than reality. Maybe we’re eventually going to see hostility and hatred in the world outside Falconia. Hell, maybe the Sea God slog was meant to be indicative of the ~darkness~ (and to be fair I did not re-read much of the sequence to try to find examples of the narrative evoking darkness as a description, so it could be there. But it’s gonna take more than an anon ask to get me to re-read the entire Sea Sea god subplot lol.) But even from Guts’ perspective the joining of the astral plane also includes wholesome Elfhelm-y shit, so it’s still not as simple as evil sea gods and monsters now getting to fuck shit up, we also get helpful mermaids and stuff.

So yeah so far given what we know, the pre-Fantasia world fits the description of the Age of Darkness perfectly and really heavy-handedly lol, with all the references to darkness involved, and Fantasia is a lot less clear-cut.

So the way I’d interpret this prophecy is that Griffith is both the Hawk of Darkness and the Hawk of Light, which imo is likely to be in part an on the nose reference to Femto as his inner darkness vs NGriff who does, in fact, save the world in a way characterized by light lol.

And which one you see him as depends on your point of view. It’s not that Sonia is wrong and being tricked and Schierke is right and sees the truth. It’s that Sonia, living in the Age of Darkness, losing her parents and almost being enslaved etc, and being saved by Griffith, is in a position to see Griffith as a saviour, along with most of the rest of humanity, which was collectively crying out for a change that Griffith’s dream and goals in particular are suited to enacting.

Schierke, distanced from humanity, not actually in danger of being burnt at the stake or starving to death or whatever, and more knowledgeable about the astral plane, sees Griffith as the Femto-y Hawk of Darkness, king of the blind white sheep (his human followers, one presumes), master of the sinful black sheep (apostles one also presumes).

And the fact that this chapter doesn’t end on Schierke’s assessment but on Sonia looking on at Griffith in awe, followed by yk 150 odd chapters of NeoGriffith being portrayed as the protagonist of his half of the story rather than the antagonist of Guts’, followed by seeing those “sinful black sheep” and “blind white sheep” up close as interesting and likeable characters in their own right who go out of their way to help people (Sonia rescuing Kushan children, later apostles helping humanity, eg), make friends with some of Guts’ rpg group including Schierke, at one point join Guts and co in a fight against a greater enemy while being directly paralleled to Guts (Zodd), etc suggests that maybe that particularly harsh description is not fully accurate or fair.

If Fantasia does turn out to be the (an?) Age of Darkness after all, I imagine that would also be depicted as a more dual thing depending on your perspective. For those getting eaten by dragons, yk, maybe Age of Darkness is a fair description. For those living in peace, maybe it’s not.

Also as an aside, to address a counterpoint I just came up with lol, I don’t think the relative tininess of Falconia vs the rest of the world has much bearing on this. Miura’s Berserk is pretty solely focused on this one particular chunk of the world, and there’s virtually no acknowledgement that Midland and the surrounding area is actually just a tiny microcosm of the world. I mean, the Godhand and the Idea of Evil are presumably not solely the manifestations of fantasy Europeans’ negative subconsciousnesses, but it’s their suffering and their inequal society that allows Griffith to manifest physically. No acknowledgement as to whether like, the wildly different societies throughout the world, some of which are probably more equal and less hit by plague and famine, and therefore more content, should counterbalance all the suffering in Midland and area lol.

To me this feels like a pretty typical issue/trope with medieval fantasy that Miura’s just kind of casually playing into bc he doesn’t particularly care about subverting it or making a point about it so much as he cares about using this established structure to tell his own story. Even during the Fantasia montage, we only saw medieval pseudo-Europe. The lone acknowledgement that the world is technically bigger than a stretch of land between Midland and fantasy India (+ Elfhelm) was the page of the bright light spreading across the Earth as seen from space. And like, a secretive conversation between 2 of Guts’ current allies (Magnifico and Roderick) discussing the possibility of colonialism lol.

Again, maybe we’ll see acknowledgement in the future? Maybe eventually the narrative will come out and say that yeah, it’s absolutely absurd to think that a happy kingdom whose residents number in the thousands is a beacon of hope for 99.99% of the world that has no way to get to it lol and is presumably, in theory, stuck with their own dragons and stuff now. Maybe Berserk will ultimately turn out to be a giant thoughtful subversion of European-esque fantasy stories that treat Europe as the centre of the world. But based on what we’ve seen so far I don’t think there’s much reason to assume that lol.

Like even the Elfhelm warlocks don’t point that out when they had the perfect chance to, they just say that it sucks that Griffith made his kingdom the only peaceful place, forcing people to choose between Fantasia and Falconia. They don’t say that the vast majority of the world doesn’t even get access to that choice lol, and so I don’t think it’s meant to be relevant.

I also want to point out that Miura redacted the Lost Chapter because it gave too much away too soon, and has since spent some time hinting about things those of us who’ve already read it probably know.

Like Flora doesn’t know what that something lurking in the abyss is, but we do, and it’s humanity’s dark, painful subconscious itself.

Griffith is essentially the avatar of humanity, hence why he’s humanity’s “desired,” and is remaking the world in humanity’s collective image. And like humanity isn’t all good or all evil but contains both, so does NeoGriffith, imo. Even the “Idea of Evil” isn’t evil itself, it simply fulfills a role humanity desires - the role of villain, essentially. It’s the reason why bad things happen, it’s the scapegoat for humanity.

The Hawk of Darkness is symbolic of the darkness of humanity - and that’s pretty much the point of Femto, I mean just check Slan’s heavy-handed Eclipse commentary of “this is what it means to be evil. This is what it means to be human” - and the Hawk of Light is symbolic of at least the potential humanity has to overcome that darkness, imo.

I’ve always puzzled over pain vs salvation there, and I still do, but hey one possibility is that it’s a suggestion that humanity’s over the Idea of Evil being the scapegoat that brings them pain (fate making bad things happen basically, so humanity has something to blame), and wants it to bring them salvation instead - light. And through NGriff’s transformation of the world, humanity reaches that light themselves by uniting in peace to survive against their own demons. Even outside of Falconia, humans are only going to be able to live in a world full of fantasy monsters by uniting together lol.

And like until I’m conclusively proven wrong I’m going to maintain that

Fantasia being defined through joining humanity together is pretty solidly framed as a positive thing. Maybe humanity working together in peace is light and salvation, love over hate, hope over hostility, reality over illusion (the ultimately meaningless differences that divided people), etc.

SO I guess at the end of the day what I think is that Griffith is simultaneously the Hawk of Darkness and the Hawk of Light, that while Fantasia has some downsides to say the least lol we’re not necessarily supposed to take Elfhelm Warlock dudes’ assessment as the be all end all either. We’re getting 2 sides to this utopia story and we’re probably meant to judge for ourselves whether it seems worth it or not. Schierke would say no and prioritize the darkness of Griffith, ie the Hawk of Darkness, Sonia would say yes and prioritize the light, the Hawk of Light, and neither are wrong. But idk, maybe both might be able to grow from seeing the other’s point of view and incorporating it into their own understanding of the world.

I’m also thinking this dark vs light stuff is going to come into play in a big way when Guts and Griffith confront each other, and I imagine that their relationship is actually going to get the final say in all this. Hate or love, hostility or hope, illusion or reality, the dead or the living, wickedness or sacredness. Does this not to a tee describe them post Eclipse vs pre Eclipse?

Maybe if the Age of Darkness is still to come afterwards, they’ll end up plunging the world back to its original status quo when they conflict and kill each other or whatever, and take Falconia/the world tree/whatever down with them. Maybe NGriff’s unfrozen heart will come into play as the final piece of the thematic puzzle if the Hawk of Light represents the light of humanity, which ofc includes love. Maybe all it will take to conclude the themes in a satisfying way is a moment of understanding of that “true light” between them, discovered in darkness, while they fight.

Like you’ll pry my reading of Berserk’s themes as consistently and thoroughly existing to symbolize Griffith and Guts’ relationship out of my cold dead hands lol.

Fuck sorry this got so long and meandering. What did I say about trying to keep my thoughts organized lol?

Anyway tl;dr I don’t know shit and I don’t think the world of Berserk actually makes much sense, but let me throw out some theories and interpretations of possible contradictions and weird ass world building lol. And I mean, Miura is pretty consistent in interviews about saying Berserk isn’t about plain old good vs evil, so it wouldn’t surprise me at all to get something more complex and interesting than “Griffith is the evil Hawk of Darkness tricking humanity into seeing him as the Hawk of Light, and Guts is going to save the world from him.”

OH SHIT AND I ALMOST FORGOT: I have no idea where Schierke calls Griffith “false,” so you’ll have to point that part out to me, unless it’s just a difference in translations or something. Sorry I can’t address that part, hopefully you’ll at least scroll to the end and see this even if it’s super tl;dr lol.

#Anonymous #ask #a #berserk meta #b #lost chapter spoilers #theme: fate #character: neogriffith #theme: true light #theme: morality #berserk is a lot of things but it's not overly simplistic i'll give it that #theme: spirit world

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All The New Albums Coming Out In February 2019

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Keeping track of all the new albums coming out in a given month is a big job, but we’re up for it: Below is a comprehensive list of the major releases you can look forward to in February. If you’re not trying to potentially miss out on anything, it might be a good idea to keep reading.

Friday, February 1

American Authors — Seasons (Universal Island Records)

Andrew Wasylyk — The Paralian (Athens Of The North)

Astronoid — Astronoid (Blood Music)

Atomic — Pet Variations (ODIN)

Beirut — Gallipoli (4AD)

Big Wild — Superdream (Counter Records)

Blank Range — In Unison (Sturdy Girls/Thirty Tiger)

Broods — Don’t Feed The Pop Master (Neon Gold/Atlantic)

Boy Harsher — Careful (Nude Club)

Bravo Delta — Unbreakable (self-released)

Business Of Dreams — Ripe For Anarchy (Slumberland Records)

Busted — Half Way There (EastWest U.K.)

Cassadee Pope — Stages (Awake Music LLC)

Cherry Glazzer — Stuffed & Ready (Secretly Canadian)

Dave Harrington (of Darkside) — Pure Imagination, No Country (Yeggs Records)

Deep State — The Path To Fast Oblivion (Friendship Fever)

Deer Tick — Mayonnaise (Partisan Records)

Emily King — Scenery (ATO Records)

Finlay Shakespeare — Domestic Economy (Editions Mego)

Folamour — Ordinary Drugs (FHUO Records)

G Herbo — Still Swervin (Machine Entertainment Group)

Gentle Heat — Liminal EP (Skeletal Lightning)

Girlpool — What Chaos Is Imaginary (ANTI‐)

Guided By Voices — Zeppelin Over China (Rockathon Records)

Hajk — Drama (Jansen Records)

Harriet Brown — Mall Of Fortune (Innovative Leisure)

Highasakite — Uranium Heart (Propeller Recordings)

J.S. Ondara — Tales Of America (Verve Forecast Records)

Jealous Of The Birds — Wisdom Teeth EP (Big Space Records)

Jon Samuel — Dead Melodies (Hidden Pony Records)

Karolina Rose — Invicta EP (Violet Sunset Records)

Le Butcherettes — Bi/Mental (Rise Records)

Leon Vynehall — DJ-Kicks (!K7)

Lexie Liu — 2030 (88rising)

Listen To Girl — Long-Term World (Earthly Habit)

The Lonely Heartstring Band — Smoke & Ashes (Rounder Records)

Lost Cousins — In Scenery (Pheromone Records)

Lou Doillon — Soliloquy (Wrasse Records)

Luttrell — Into Clouds (Anjunadeep)

Mandolin Orange — Tides Of A Teardrop (Yep Roc Records)

Masaki Batoh — Nowhere (Drag City)

Mörglbl — The Story Of Scott Rötti (The Laser’s Edge)

The Moth & The Flame — Ruthless (Robot Farming)

Nina Nesbitt — The Sun Will Come Up, The Seasons Will Change (Cooking Vinyl)

Onydia — Reflections (Revalve Records)

Patrick Daphier — Say I’m Pretty (YK Records)

Pedro Vian — Pedro Vian (Modern Obscure Music)

Rustin Man (Talk Talk’s Paul Webb) — Drift Code (Domino Recording Company)

Small Talks — A Conversation Between Us (Common Ground Records)

Soen — Lotus (Silver Lining Music)

The Sonic Dawn — Eclipse (Heavy Psych Sounds)

The Specials — Encore (UMC)

Spielbergs — This Is Not The End (By The Time It Gets Dark)

Thyla — What’s On Your Mind EP (REX Records)

Tim Bowness — Flowers At The Scene (Inside Out Music)

Tiny Ruins — Olympic Girls (Milk! Records)

Ward Thomas — Restless Minds (Sony Music CG)

The Western Den — A Light Left On (The Western Den)

White Lies — Five ([PIAS])

Within Temptation — Resist (Vertigo Berlin)

Yugen Blakrok — Anima Mysterium (Cylid Sarl DBA I.O.T Records)

Friday, February 8

Ageist — Babyface (Arctic Rodeo Recordings)

Amy McCarley — Meco (MECO Records)

Ariana Grande — Thank U, Next (Republic Records)

Be Forest — Knocturne (We Were Never Being Boring Collective)

Bob Mould — Sunshine Rock (Merge Records)

Busted — Half Way There (EastWest U.K.)

Cass McCombs — Tip Of The Sphere (ANTI‐)

Charlie Faye & The Fayettes — The Whole Shebang (Bigger Better More Records)

Charlotte Adigéry — Zandoli EP (DEEWEE)

CJ Boyd — Kin Ships (Joyful Noise Recordings)

Flat Worms — Into The Iris EP (GOD?)

Geezer — Spiral Fires EP (Kozmik Artifactz)

Health — Vol. 4 :: Slaves Of Fear (Loma Vista Recordings)

Henry Jamison — Gloria Duplex (Akira Records)

Jessica Pratt — Quiet Signs (Mexican Summer)

John Diva & The Rockets Of Love — Mama Said Rock Is Dead (Steamhammer)

Jozef Van Wissem and Jim Jarmusch — An Attempt To Draw Aside The Veil (Sacred Bones)

Kicker — Pure Drivel (Tankcrimes)

King Of Foxes — Salt & Honey (Olivia Street)

LCD Soundsystem — Electric Lady Sessions (DFA Records)

The Lemonheads — Varshons 2 (Fire Records)

Matty Carlock — The Jailbirds (115 Collective)

Michael Chapman — True North (Paradise of Bachelors)

Moes Anthill — Quitter (TOURBOmusic)

Panda Bear — Buoys (Domino Recording Company)

Queen Zee — Queen Zee (Sasstone Records)

Radiant Baby — Restless (Lisbon Lux Records)

Rosy Vista — Unbelievable (Steamhammer)

Ryan Lott (of Son Lux) — Pentaptych (This Is Meru)

Said The Whale — Cascadia (Arts & Crafts)

Silk Road Assassins — State Of Ruin (Planet Mu)

Sister Hazel — Fire EP (Croakin’ Poet Records)

Talos — Far Out Dust (BMG Rights Management (US) LLC)

Tunic — Complexion (Self Sabotage Records)

Various Artists — Music Inspired By The Film Roma (Sony Music)

Windswept — The Onlooker (Season of Mist Underground Activists)

Xiu Xiu — Girl With Basket Of Fruit (Polyvinyl Record Co.)

Y La Bamba — Mujeres (Tender Loving Empire)

Yak — Pursuit Of Momentary Happiness (Third Man Records)

Friday, February 15

Andromo & Chris Fortier — Shape & Form EP (Rainforest Music)

Anemone — Beat My Distance (Royal Mountain Records)

Avril Lavigne — Head Above Water (BMG Rights Management (US) LLC)

Baby Goth — Baby EP (Republic Records)

Bedstudy — Dot Wave EP (Grand Jury Music)

Bellamy Brothers — Over The Moon (Bellamy Brothers Records)

Betty Who — Betty (Kobalt‎)

Bis — Slight Disconnects (Last Night From Glasgow ‎)

Bjarki — Happy Earthday (!K7 Records)

Black Taffy — Elder Mantis (Leaving Records)

Boo Ray — Tennessee Alabama Fireworks (BRRB Music)

Broken Social Scene — Let’s Try The After — Vol 1 EP (Arts & Crafts)

Brookhaven and Scatter Swept — Modern Remains (Expel Records)

C’mon Tigre — Racines (BDC)

Chain Wallet — No Ritual (Jansen Records)

Chaka Khan — Hello Happiness (Island)

Crystal Lake — Helix (SharpTone Records)

Czarface and Ghostface Killah — Czarface Meets Ghostface (Get On Down)

Dale Watson — Call Me Lucky (Compass Records)

Dead Pollys — Strummerland (Too Loud Records)

Dear Seattle — Don’t Let Go (Domestic La La)

Electric Mary — Mother (Listenable Records)

Elena Setién — Another Kind Of Revolution (Thrill Jockey)

Endon — Boy Meets Girl (Thrill Jockey)

Florida George Line — Can’t Say I Ain’t Country (Big Machine)

Gemma Ray — Psychogeology (Bronzerat)

Golden Daze — Simpatico (Autumn Tone Records)

Greg Jacquin — Clocks Slow Down (self-released)

Hajk — Drama (Jansen Records)

Hayes Carll — What It Is (Dualtone Music Group, Inc.)

Holiday Ghosts — West Bay Playroom (PNKSLM Recordings)

Holiday Gunfire — Holiday Gunfire (Cornelius Chapel Records)

Homeshake — Helium (Royal Mountain Records)

Hugh Marsh — Volinvocations (estern Vinyl)

Insane Clown Posse — Fearless Fred Fury (Psychopathic Records)

Jon Fratelli (of The Fratellis) — Bright Night Flowers (Cooking Vinyl)

Komraus — Untie The Ropes (M.A.R.S. Music)

Ladytron — Ladytron (Nettwerk)

The Long Ryders — Psychedelic Country Soul (Omnivore Recordings)

Lucille Furs — Another Land (Treehouse Record Co.)

Marlon Hoffstadt — Simple Communication EP (Midnight Themes)

Methyl Ethel — Triage (4AD)

Millencolin — SOS (Epitaph Records)

The Munsens — Unhanded (Sailor Records)

Nubiyan Twist — Jungle Run (Strut Records)

Peter Mulvey — There Is Another World (Righteous Babe)

Perfect Son — Cast (Sub Pop)

Picture This — Mdrn Lv (Universal Records)

Piroshka — Brickbat (Bella Union)

Quin Galavis — Victim / Non-Victim (Super Secret Records)

Rina Mushonga — In A Galaxy ([PIAS] Recordings Holland)

Ry X — Unfurl (Infectious Music)

Ryan Bingham — American Love Song (Axster Bingham Records)

Savage Mansion — Revision Ballads (Lost Map Records)

Seth Walker — Are You Open? (Royal Potato Family)

Shiny Darkly — Bronze (Crunchy Frog Records)

Shook Twins — Some Good Lives (Dutch Records)

Signo Rojo — End Of Tether EP (No Echo at THIS LOCATION)

Sir Babygirl — Crush On Me (Father/Daughter Records)

SP’s — Rise/Fall EP (Baby Robot Records)

Stats (of Dua Lipa) — Other People’s Lives (Memphis Industries)

Swmrs — Berkeley’s On Fire (Fueled by Ramen)

Trdmrk — Trdmrk EP (Hot Plate Records)

Tourist — Everyday (Monday Records)

Volcano — The Island (Tee Pee)

Voyou — Les Bruits De La Ville (Entreprise)

Wicca Phase Springs Eternal — Suffer On (Run For Cover Records)

Woman’s Hour — Ephyra (Practise Music)

Xixa — The Code EP (Dust & Stone Records)

Yann Tiersen — All (Mute Records)

Young Hunting — True Believers (Gold Robot Records)

Friday, February 22

A Fragile Tomorrow — Generation Loss (The ILS Group)

Adia Victoria — Silences (Canvasback/ATL)

Andreya Triana — Life In Colour (Hi-Tea Records)

Andy Frasco — Change Of Pace (Fun Machine Records)

Badflower — Ok, I’m Sick (Big Machine Records/John Varvatos Records)

Bayonne — Drastic Measures (Mom + Pop Music)

Bellows — The Rose Gardener (Topshelf)

Benny Sings — City Pop (Stones Throw Records)

Booze Control — Forgotten Lands (Gates Of Hell Records)

Burnt Tapes — Never Better (Wiretap Records)

Candlemass — The Door To Doom (Napalm Records)

Chris Welch And The Cicada Killers — Shook (Denton independent)

The Claypool Lennon Delirium — South Of Reality (ATO)

Cochemea Gastelum — All My Relations (Daptone Records)

Cyrille Aimée — Move On: A Sondheim Adventure (Mack Avenue Music Group)

Dead Witches — The Final Exorcism (Heavy Psych Sounds)

Down To The Bunker — Misery (Tenacity Music)

Dream Theater — Distance Over Time (InsideOut Music)

Drekka — No Tracks In The Snow (Dais Records)

Drenge — Strange Creatures (Infectious Music)

Dronte — Quelque Part Entre La Guerre Et La Lâcheté (Apathia Records)

Emilie Kahn — Outro (Secret City Records)

Feed Me — High Street Creeps (Mau5trap)

Feels — Post Earth (Wichita Recordings)

Fling — Fling Or Die (Dance to the Radio)

Funeral Advantage — Nectarine (Sleep Well Records)

Gatekeeper — Grey Maiden EP (Cruz Del Sur Music)

Ghost Iris — Apple Of Discord (Long Branch Records)

Ghost Ship Octavius — Delirium (Iceburn Multimedia)

Gypsy Chief Goliath — Masters Of Space And Time (Kozmik Artifactz)

Haulm — Posture EP (Grand Jury Music)

Higher Brothers — Five Stars (88rising)

Hot 8 Brass Band — Take Cover EP (Tru Thoughts)

Idyll Green — When Love Ends, Be The Water EP (Guac, Don’t Run)

James Yorkston — The Route To The Harmonium (Domino Recording Company)

Jocelyn & Chris Arndt — The Fun In The Fight (Bridge Road Entertainment)

Julia Jacklin — Crushing (Liberation Records)

Kim Lenz — Slowly Speeding (Blue Star Record Company)

King Apathy — Wounds (Lifeforce Records)

Lil Halima — For The Dark Days EP (Universal Music/Def Jam Recordings Norway)

Lil Pump — Harverd Dropout (Warner Bros.)

Lily & Madeline — Canterbury Girls (New West Records)

Luther Russell — Medium Cool (Fluff and Gravy)

Major Murphy — Lafayette EP (Winspear)

Martin Frawley (of Twerps) — Undone At 31 (Merge Records)

Maxïmo Park — As Long As We Keep Moving (Cooking Vinyl Limited)

Michael Rother (of Neu!) — Solo (Groenland Records)

MSB — Short Stories (CEN/The Orchard)

Mxmjoy (Maximum Joy) — P.E.A.C.E ()London Field Recordings

Moving Panoramas — In Two (Modern Outsider)

Murray A. Lightburn — Hear Me Out (Dangerbird Records)

Mykele Deville — Maintain (No Trend)

Nakhane — You Will Not Die (BMG Rights Mgmt France SARL)

The National Lights — Whom The Sea Will Keep EP (BloodShake Records)

The O’Jays — The Last Word (S-Curve)

Peter Bjorn And John — EPBJ EP (INGRID)

R. Stevie Moore — Afterlife (Bar/None Records)

Red Beard Wall — The Fight Needs Us All (Argonauta Records)

RKCB — Shores EP (AllPoints)

Sanhedrin — The Poisoner (High Roller Records)

The Saxophones — Singing Desperately Suite EP (Full Time Hobby)

Sleaford Mods — Eton Alive (Extreme Eating Records)

Spelling — Mazy Fly (Sacred Bones Records)

Susanna & The Brotherhood Of Our Lady — Garden Of Earthly Delights (SusannaSonata)

Susto — Ever Since I Lost My Mind (Rounder Records)

Tedeschi Trucks Band — Signs (FanTasy)

Telekinesis — Effluxion (Merge Records)

Vandoliers — Forever (Bloodshot Records)

Various Artists — Kitsuné Parisien 4 (Kitsune)

Yola — Walk Through Fire (Easy Eye Sound/Nonesuch)

source https://uproxx.com/music/new-albums-coming-out-this-month-february-2019/

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