#it has only gotten worse

[disabled-dragoon]

I have my covid booster booked for tomorrow but I am riddled with cold

#isnt it ironic #sigh #was hoping it would go away but alas #it has only gotten worse #curio rambles #covid

[digitalgirls]

i......really hate how bighit market / treat txt.

#idk if anyone wants to hear me rant about that so i wont LOL #but like #having stanned txt from debut till now #it has only gotten worse #j.txt

[bongjuiceconcentrate]

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#this is gonna be so tmi sorry i’m advance but #how am i supposed to deal with having a body and every mental illness and stomach problems and throat problems and being ugly and having no #hobbies or life skills or a job #i need to find a job but i also have to deal with my stomach and my throat so i can be well enough to actually move my body to find a job #but i don’t have much money left so i can’t focus on those things either so i’m spending literally hours a day in the bathroom and it hurts #to speak #and i don’t want to feed myself i don’t want to take my meds i don’t want to do anything but get high which also physically hurts also bc #throat #and i have to do PT everyday so i can shit better but i also need to find a job so i can’t waste silly energy on things like that but then i #can’t get a job because i feel like shit and am shitting literally all the fucking time #and obviously the logical thing should be to just take care of my health today so i can be good to #tomorrow to find a job right? wrong actually! tomorrow it’ll be something’s #and the day after that #n the day after that #and every day after that one too! #but no one is actually willing to help me with anything because i am a 1 dimensional human being who spawned yesterday who has never heard #of things like “’building tenacity’ and ‘having structure’ there’s actually nothing wrong with me i’m just lazy i guess! #but if i wanna kill myself that’s wrong and bad and needs to be stopped immediately #other people seem to look at suicidal people and go ‘i have no reason to want to kill myself so other people just need to push it through :) #thug it out lol’ and it’s like actually these are very good reasons to want to die #i have spent the last 9 years actively in treatment actively working on myself actively trying to build a better life #it has only gotten worse #don’t talk to me about getting over to the other side. i’m on it. it’s just as bad as every other one of the sides #life doesn’t ever get better for some people and just because that wasn’t true for you and your life did get better doesn’t mean other #peoples lives every will get better. like it is straight up not possible for me to have a better life. and i know this for a fact because if #it was #i would have it now and i would have had it for a while

[clouvu]

yknow what. *undooms your yuri again*

#genshin impact #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #arlevie #hi they still make me feel mentally ill #finished arle's story quest and like the brainrot has gotten worse actually #obsessed with the fact that Clervie is like the only girl to look at Peruere and say “I can fix her” and ACTUALLY fucking fix her #well like. for the most part. #shes still a little bit fucked up but in her defense clervie ended up giving up on life and the pursuit of freedom and died in arle's arms #WHICH YKNOW ADDED A HINT OF EXTRA TRAUMA but we dont talk about that

[the-real-list-of-ominous-threats]

Happy Valentines Day, someone please take my evil-hot-men brainrot bc these characters are fr ruining my brain. Yes this is a threat, you WILL take my brainrot.

#fuck it i'm tagging this with the guys im thinking of #*deep sigh* #... #albert wesker #jack krauser #strade btd #william afton #jonathan crane #phillip graves #medic tf2 #the list has only gotten worse with time #dear god this is a disaster #the brainrot is real #very unfortunate update: #karl heisenberg

[justmaghookit]

We talk a lot on tumblr about seasonal depression in winter but also we should talk about the seasonal depression experienced in summer by people living in areas where the heat becomes unbearable.

#when the heat gets so bad it literally renders you unable to do anything much less experience joy #my summer depression has only gotten worse as the summers get hotter and hotter #bird chatter

[youspeakshit]

re: lando norris, starbucks, F1 and boycotts

the first rule of Formula 1 is understanding these privileged men do not give a shit. they partake in the most elite sport there is, where only 20 people can do it at a time. it's a bubble of money and luxury they thrive whitin.

just don't put anyone on a pedestal or your hand on fire for any of them. not even the ones that seem like the good ones.

personally, I expect the bare minimum of no homophobia, no racism, no sexual misconduct or assault. but I do not expect them to care about world problems as strongly as we do. bc if all went to shits they will run to a safe mansion, and we'll be the ones left to survive.

embrace fandom and friendships, the fun of the races and the drama, sharing gifs and fics and edits, and put THAT above your favorite driver!

#eveytime a driver i like has a bad race i think it's the universe keeping the balance and humiliating this hot millionaire #formula 1 #f1 #text post #lando norris #like the level is so low i dont even expect them to be faithful partners to the WAGs 😭 #not even seb and lewis are safe from this btw #i say this so ppl dont upset themselved too much abt them #NOT defending the drivers at all #i wish it wasnt like this but the elitism of the sport has only gotten WORSE so.... #no hope for change anytime soon :/ #charles leclerc #max verstappen #lewis hamilton #george russell #discourse

[iggysol]

A Mother's Promise || A Daughter's Burden

anxiously counting the hours until the next ep by actually finishing a wip

#rwby #rwby v9 #rwby 9 spoilers #ruby rose #my art #she is Not^tm having a good time rn friends and it has only gotten Worse~~ #god she is fucking going through it #i'm living for it but also baby noooooooooo

[blujayonthewing]

pitched battle inside my brain between the part of me that's desperately shaking myself by the shoulders going "YOU HAVE GOT TO ACTUALLY LIVE THE KIND OF LIFE YOU IMAGINE INSTEAD OF JUST SITTING AROUND IMAGINING IT UNTIL YOU DIE!!" and the part of me that's clutching my face going "is this allowed? is this allowed?? is this allowed???"

#trying to plan a solo cicada pilgrimage and getting brainworms about it yeehaw #'making a lot of plans and never actually doing things in real life' has been a problem for literally as long as I can remember #but I also feel like I've developed a learned helplessness over the last several years that's gotten worse as I've gotten older?? #me age twenty: I think I'm gonna take myself to chicago next week because I feel like going to the zoo #me age thirty: am I allowed to go camping alone. am I allowed to do a solo road trip. I need a grownup #to be extremely clear I am very much allowed and this is not justin's fault and I don't know where it comes from #like I'll run things by him lowkey seeking 'permission' that I don't even need and he'll be like 'yeah that sounds good to me' #and then I STILL won't do the thing because like. my brain keeps insisting there needs to be a grownup in charge?? HELLO I'M GROWNUP #anyway I'm doing cicada trip solo BECAUSE-- the drive is so long I want to do five days because two of them will just be driving #and he can't get that much time off work right now #AND because I literally only want to Be Camping and Looking At Bugs but he'd get bored of a week of that he likes Activities #me this morning getting insecure and weird: what are your thoughts... on cicada voyage.... #him after at first not even understanding the question: I'm SO excited for you?? you deserve to get to go absolutely feral??? #I do.... ;n; 💕 why am I so scared to be a person....... #about me #cicada quest

[mothssoup]

— maybe you’re both a little scared of having the other’s lives in your hands again

SORRY SORRY I HAD TO DRAW THIS SCENE THEY MAKE ME ILL

#double life smp #double life spoilers #desert duo #gtws #goodtimeswithscar #grian #my brain has been whirring like a ceiling fan since this episode came out n it’s onLy gotten worse #how am I supposed to interact with the outside world #also feeding into the lovebird grian propaganda based off that one post #my take on the turning silly times into plot: #scar is tryna avoid recognising the soulmate thing because they’ve had this song and dance before #they’ve has their lives tied and well that turned out swell for them didnt it #so he doesn’t acknowledge it in a attempt to protect grian and maybe himself #GRIAN HOWEVER #actively acknowledging it because it’s scar and its like being in the desert again and the wound from last season still hurts so he just #throws himself back into protecting scar mode #and they’re both a little scared because they don’t want to lose eachother #or maybe they’re tired of hurting eachother #anyways are there like #normal double life watchers #people who just watch for their silly YouTubers and then go about their everyday lives #do they even exist #my art B)

[ghost-bard]

Youre kidding me. Porter is a multiclass teacher and he wont let one of his students multiclass your fucking kidding me he called gorgug a c+ student while hes taking freshman-junior artificer classes i hate his guts so much my fucking goodness maybe gorgug wouldnt be a c+ student if he wasnt taking on a 400% workload you bitch i hate himmmmmm

#fantasy high spoilers #d20 spoilers #d20 fantasy high #d20 fhjy #fantasy high junior year #how is it that ppl are hating on the rat grinders for things mostly out of their control and being like. petty highschoolers #and not this grown ass adult that is actively getting in the way of his students academic success #like wow this is a teen girl with unresolved mental issues and in a shitty system #and then a teacher who actively insults his student compares him to his close friend and just makes life worse for him #and yet the teen girl is the issue i see how it is #like yeah im on ep 7 so technically i havent gotten that far yet. but im aware enough #to know the hate surrounding kipperlilly and the rat grinders is fucking stupid and mostly has no nuance #yes im saying this in my tags bc tbh i dont freak weirdos telling me how much they hate kipperlilly #like jeezus LMAO #anyway i dont like porter any more in fact i think my disdain has only grown #fuck that guy fr

[lornasaurusrex]

I miss you Lorna… this is such a mess

This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope you’re all doing well!! I’m sorry to see nothing has improved.

I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. 💕

Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.

The video is still on YT.

#Anywayyyyy #The fandom added a whole lot more C to my C-PTSD #So a nice random message every few months instead of a freshly posted death wish is LOVELY. #Don’t fret. On meds and therapied but fresh tf out of money from it so @ L and H… lornasaurusrexx at g*ail is the PayPal if ur bored 🙃 #I hate to be like this but protect your hearts. They’ll never be able to look out for you guys and they feed these trolls ammo for snacks #and it seems to have only gotten worse. Gotta keep them hets hetbaited for their money whilst actively encouraging them to bully yall? Why? #STILL!? At this point it feels like they’ve both chosen that path deliberately now and I find it quite gross. but I’m also very far removed #So don’t worry about my opinions. Keep trusting your own intuition!!! You all see it. I love you guys and your beautiful hearts and empathy #But I hope they can sleep at night knowing the absolute fucking genuine WRECKAGE they left across the Big Gay War generation/era of Larries #Don’t worry guys I’m just as dramatic as ever. None of this has anything to do with them coming out or anything. Just how we were treated. #But trust I fuckin mean that shit from the deepest darkest pit of my Demon Larrie™️ heart. They encouraged this. 🤷🏼‍♀️ #Anyone who cares about my actual life updates: I’m a school nurse now and will be working at a bougie summer camp over break #Had a surgery I needed. Got new tattoos and piercings. In a happy and healthy relationship with the best dude for almost a year now. #OH and I went to New Zealand last year with Prettytruthsandlies!!!! We made a pact back in our Big Gay War/college days to go. And we DID!! #I got overstimulated and overfed and puked in Hobbiton. 🤣 (It was the best time of my LIFE GENUINELY🥰🥰🥰🥰🥹🥹🥹) #Okay BYE LOVE YOU GUYS #There are better and more humane ways to maintain a closet ..like literally STFU entirely. Ignoring it and not exploiting a kid is FREE #🇵🇸

[quietwingsinthesky]

you think sam ever wonders if dean would have tricked him into saying yes to lucifer again if it meant saving his life.

#like. disclaimer: Dean would Not do that. not even if he was desperate #up to you if you think it’s because that’s where he draws the line about disrespecting Sam’s autonomy #or because he’s just so fucking furiously jealous that Lucifer has already gotten so much of Sam to himself that dean won’t give him more #either way he Wouldn’t. but. sam doesn’t know that does he. #the facts sam has are 1) dean okayed an angel entering his body and 2) dean lied to him about an angel being in his body #and 3) dean probably would have kept lying about it after ‘Ezekiel’ left. never told Sam what was in him. #so what’s the difference between one angel and another really? especially since Lucifer could have made that offer with much more experience #of course he can patch Sam up. he’s done it before. he’s torn him up and put him back together so many times. child’s play really. #I think the only comfort Sam would have about this is that Lucifer would not be able to help himself from giving away the game #he wants Sam’s attention sooo badly. he’d want Sam to know that he’s healing him from the inside #well then. what’s worse. his brother lying to his face about the devil possessing him. or Lucifer being the one to tell him everything. #can Sam kick Lucifer out? yes I think so. does Sam think so? very different question. after all. he couldn’t push Lucifer out last time #that he let him (hallucifer) in <3 #spn #sam winchester #lucifer spn #Dean winchester

[jopzer]

just noticed jamie flinches before the wembley hug what if i exploded into a million billion pieces.

#beebles #jamie tartt #ted lasso #royjamie #<- technically #im feeling a little bit like a rabid dog #like of Course he did but ive never Noticed it what if i died #i know this has definitely been picked apart a million billion times but holy guacamole #like not only does that comfort come from the least likely person in the room #its the person he has actively gotten into physical fights with before #and jamie is so so so wound up and clearly in such a weird head space #and then roy is coming at him like a fucking train and just fucking. #holds him. #he and roy have been fighting like caged dogs for years and hes being silent and steady and warm against him #doesnt say anything doesnt expect jamie to say anything just fucken holds him #auhfugsiufhiuahd #i dont think he expected roy to hit him but i do think theres a panicked moment where he thinks he might want to and maybe thats worse #jamie tartt you will always be famous i love you sm. #mr dunster this goes to you also for the acting choice there

[lunalikestowriteanddraw]

I have discovered that my favorite ship dynamic is “hyper sexual/flirty character” x “greasy wizard who has not slept in weeks”

Coincidently, I have also discovered that my favorite characters in general are also “hyper sexual/flirty” and “greasy wizard who has not slept in weeks”

#caleb widogast #mollymauk tealeaf #widowmauk #y’all I love them way too much #they have been stuck in my brain for the past 8 months #and it’s only gotten worse #I eat sleep and breath Widowmauk #and it doesn’t necessarily have to be romantic #i just love these two so much #please help me #also coincidentally #Gale is my favorite bg3 character and stole my heart the moment I knew he existed #and he is also a greasy wizard who has not slept in weeks #yall I have a problem #critical role #critical role campaign 2 #baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 #the mighty nein #baldur's gate 3 gale #gale of waterdeep

[beebfreeb]

I just started following you and I think your OCs relationship with age (dot) as well as actually having older OCs is really neat!

Thank you so much! Weird relationships to age is one of my favorite things to do (autism metaphor) + I like to have variety in my characters as much as possible, though I do find myself having personal trends... Also, with older characters you can put fit more events in their life before it starts to sound silly.

#Ahh the ''always perceived as a child when it's more complicated than that'' #or my favorite the ''put into the world as an adult with the bare minimum and being expected to behave normally and function'' #which I do with a lot of robot characters but also the Salesman TBH. #He was born a preprogrammed adult with a business degree in his head instead of any life experience. #If there was more oversight he would've been really good at his job. Instead he is so so so weird and doesn't know what food poisoning is. #I got Sales on the mind... SAD! #Anyway there is a sort of beauty in a 30-40 year old character who has only gotten worse