#it's the first time in my lifetime i'm so genuinely questioning my sexuality

[ratinthevoid]

not to be horny posting on main but i have to share it

JERE IS EVEN HOTTER IN PERSON

#it's the first time in my lifetime i'm so genuinely questioning my sexuality #had spiritual experience in berlin and came back wro- well i don't even know #literally can't stop thinking about this #i like to overexaggerate but i'm being 100% honest here. how can a person be so #käärijä #berlin #jere poyhonen #send post goodnight

[aaaaafro]

Girl In The Rain 2 - TWICE - Sana x M! Reader (+18)

Tw: face-sitting, facial, not proofread, other sexual stuff lol...

Deafening. As the downpour didn't show any sign of stopping soon, you should've bought an umbrella, but that'll be stupid.

You stood there drenched like a stray dog in the sidewalk of a busy street. You recognize the gradient in her hair. You'd bet your life that she's the one sitting in the corner of the only dry spot in the area.

It's been half a year since you two met. You could say it's magical and a once in a lifetime opportunity. After all finding out that Sana is actually an up and coming artist. You two stayed friends but that was all.

She's been busy ever since, while you've landed yourself a job but the two of you still find time to hang out every now and then.

Do you wish to maybe have your advances? Of course, it's Sana after all. It was affection at first sight and she totally gets to you, despite your previous heartbreak. If you're being honest with yourself you wouldn't mind if she breaks your heart.

In simple words you've fallen for her, hard! Maybe as hard as these raindrops.

But Sana made it clear that under her current contract that she's not allowed to have relationships, which didn't make sense back when you first met but she's still giving you some hints that this friendship of you two are going somewhere.

"What are you doing here?" You asked her.

"Could say the same to you." Her smug reply always gets you.

"Now isn't this familiar?" You hummed before sitting down right beside her.

She didn't react causing you to think there's something wrong. After all she's back to a spot you saw her in before the two of you met.

"Did another asshole break your heart?" You asked, expecting a scoff, or even a playful slap was all wrong when she instead laid her head on your shoulder.

Now you're not a big fan of PDA's and if you'd ever have a relationship again, you want it to be as lowkey as you can but this is different, shyness isn't even a factor as passers-by gives the two of you looks.

"You know if a fansite is nearby this can cost you your career." You joked and that just earned you a sigh from Sana.

"It's already ruined anyways." Hear her shaky voice.

"My handler got caught up in a money laundering scandal, he took most of my earnings and I'm currently a free agent with no money." She explained as tears started falling from her eyes.

"That's messed up." Was all you could ever say.

"I know right, back to square one I guess." She weakly replied.

"How about I be your handler then?" A gutsy proposal from a guy that knows nothing about being a handler, that caused Sana to rose up from your shoulder.

"Shut the front door! Don't joke like that!" She was surprised to say the least.

"Do you even know what to do? Plus you just landed yourself a better job." That was a genuine question but it did hurt hearing it from her.

"I have some connections, you know. I can easily quit..." You replied with a semi convincing voice.

"...And also I saved enough money from my previous job."

Sana sat there with a straight face but you can clearly see in her eyes as she tries to process everything you've said.

"It's fine if you don't want to but I'd like to help you with your current situation as much as I can." You added and that helped Sana to wake up from her daze state.

A soft smile forms across her face before she engulfs you in a hug, quickly removing any trace of the coldness from your drenched jacket.

"Thank you so much." She whispered.

"So, that's a ye-." You're about to confirm it but you got stopped by Sana's finger.

"You'll make it sound like a proposal."

"What if I want it to sound like that?" The two of you laughed at each other.

"What did I do to deserve you?" A pout from Sana melts your heart like butter in a scorching hot pan.

"You just existed." You replied before pinching her cheeks.

"We should get going before you catch a cold." You extend your hand to her as she just looked at it confused.

"What?" You asked.

"C-carry me."

"Sana, I ride a motorcycle. I can't baby you all the way." Her pout just deepens then and there you realized that you can't win.

"Ugh!” A sound of frustration just came out of you and Sana just giggles in her victory.

You brace yourself to carry her to your back but Sana sat there motionless with a disappointed face.

"What?!" You questioned.

"That's not how you carry a princess." Said Sana who's still motionless from her seat.

With no hesitation you swept her up from her position carrying her like a princess the way she wanted it. Again, no trace of shyness as you try your best not to blush. Meanwhile, Sana's biting her finger avoiding any eye contact with you.

"Uh... S-sana." She was jumpy all of a sudden, perhaps lost in her thoughts.

"H-hai?" It took you a couple of seconds to remember that she's actually Japanese.

"W-we're at my motorcycle and I can't drive with you like this." You waited a couple of seconds for her response.

"Hmmm." A whine... A freaking whine.

"Sana." She finally gets off of you and immediately took the extra helmet.

The two of you got on the motorcycle as she wrapped her arms around you, you couldn't help but smile under the helmet as she tightens it surprisingly good.

"You better be a good handler or else my career will be ruined." She said with a mocking tone.

"Didn't you told me earlier it already is?" You jokingly replied.

"Pft!"

Once comfortable you drive away trying to think about what to do with Sana's career. All the while she's just right behind you clinging of as if her life depended on it though you're not going that fast.

"You good?" You asked.

"Mhmm!" Her voice was muffled by the air but you can still hear her.

You've finally reached your house, the two of you went inside to take cover from the rain.

"I think we should go through the..." You're about to discuss the details about your new partnership when you realize that Sana isn't with you anymore.

Seeing how the door is left open you immediately made your way out to see Sana in the middle of your front lawn.

"What are you doing?" Your curiosity hits as you just observe Sana who's just standing in the rain.

"Sana..." Approaching her slowly, you saw her glow under the night light.

With her eyes closed and her head up as if she's feeling every drop of rain that hits her. You've finally reached her, and god she's more gorgeous up close.

"You must've love the rain so much." You commented as as a smile reflects on her face.

"Why would I not? I've met my favourite person in the rain." She replied.

You hate how assuming you are, that the person she's talking about is the same person you're thinking of right now. You just act all natural.

"And who'll that be?" You asked with all the hope that Sana will give you the answer you want.

"Dummy." She smiled before turning to you with her smile not fading.

In a fraction, suddenly you're in her arms. You have no idea how it happened but there you are so, why not enjoy it?

You captured her waist with your arms as you pulled her in close.

"Oh, is this how you'll handle me?" Sana's tone was far from normal, it was... Teasing.

"Uh... S-sana?" Your nerves are getting into you. This isn't a side of Sana you're familiar with.

"I-it's... Raining, y-you m-might get sick."

"Wouldn't you like that?" Again that fear of the unknown renders you immovable.

"Didn't I told you already, that I love rain." A smirk from Sana might as well be a signal to run but it's too late.

She's already got you, in every sense of it. By her arms and by her lips... Her lips. It took you a second to realized that you're kissing Sana.

"Hmm." A moan, you couldn't help it.

"Hehe... I guess the cat's out of the bag." Said Sana who's seems happy of what she's done.

"I've always like you... No... That didn't sit right... I've always love you. Yup, that's it." Again Sana captured your lips with hers and what else can you even do at this point.

You two enjoyed the moment completely losing yourselves at the feel of each others lips. Exhilarating. It maybe the rain that's adding this another layer of feel but there is something.

Tongue? Before you can even comprehend it, you found yourself addicted to its feel. Throwing all of your reasoning behind, you tried to retaliate by giving her the taste of her own medicine.

That was a valiant effort but ultimately brushed off as Sana stepped it up a notch by pushing you towards your house.

With a kick you two are shut in, shielding yourselves from the heavy rain outside. Your lips hasn't left each other however your top clothings are little by little being torn off.

"I thought you love the rain." You finally spoke after the need to detach yourself from her to make way for your shirts.

"It will rain, don't worry." A mischievous smile from Sana's face alerts your senses but she wasn't about to give you any breather as she quickly took the liberty and guide you to your bedroom.

"It's kinda hot in here." Laughable statement from the girl who's wearing only her underwear and drenched from the rain outside.

Sana straddled you, then reached to her back perhaps to release the clip of her bra but "Sana..." You regretfully interrupted her.

"Ssshhh." A finger on your lips was enough to silence everything that you were about to say.

You heard a click that took you by surprise, when your eyes panned down from Sana's face you are greeted by her beautiful perfectly sized mounds.

With seemingly minds of their own your hands cupped both mounds, taking a handful of her supple orbs, massaging them like a baker would to its dough.

Minutes into it, Sana's lower body starts gyrating, creating friction between your cores. If it wasn't for your remaining clothes this would've felt heavenly, as if it wasn't already.

You're still busy with Sana's breast as you suddenly felt her hands went up to help yours.

"Taste 'em." It was a command that you're more than happy to follow.

You took her hardened bud in your mouth, circling your tongue as if you're drawing something abstract. Sana was your canvas. She pushes your head in even more thinking that it'll elevate the pleasure but that would still be insufficient.

It felt like hours switching between two magnificent orbs as you finally called it quits and took your time to catch your breath.

"Ha~! They're so delicious!" That compliment earns you a smile as Sana rose up from your lap, turning around before giving you a suggestive look with a matching lip bite before bending over.

Accentuating her damped behind, she reached for the straps of her almost see through underwear before slowly wiggling her way out of the clothing.

There it is, right in front of you. Glueing your eyes, scared that if you took a second to look away it will be gone.

You've finally woken up from your trance realizing that this is really happening, what you didn't realize is that Sana's core was inching closer and closer to your face.

Before you could say anything her soft behind is already pressed to your face pushing you down to your bed. You can't imagine that even in your wildest dreams you're gonna have Sana sit on your face stark naked to say the least but here you are.

You dart your tongue out and a moan reaches your ear causing you to keep doing wonders with your tongue. Your hands gripped Sana's thighs not wanting her to get away as if she would do something that stupid but she won't, evidently from her endless strings of moans and her hips dancing along with your tongue.

"Oh my! You're so good with that." Sana hummed as she continued riding your face.

It's suicide, it's suffocating but to hell with dying if it means that it'll be the last taste to linger in your taste buds.

Perhaps you were too busy with your tongue that your other senses weren't functioning but it's too late. You're currently drowning, Sana regretfully detached herself from you lifting her lower half away from your face.

She was right it still rained even when you're under a roof. Huffs and pants echoes in your room as Sana rides her orgasms while you try and catch your breath after trying to drink her juice up.

"Told you." Sana said with a hint of pride in her tone.

"Yeah right. I almost died you know." You replied as she approached you laying down on your chest.

"But you love it." She's drawing circles on your chest using her finger.

"I guess, I love rain as well." A smile from the two of you sealed it and silence follows.

"I love you." You thought it was the perfect time, as Sana suddenly stood up.

It scared you. The fact that you can't see her eyes as the darkness hides it perfectly, the fact that you cant hear anything from her due to the fact that its still pouring outside and the sound of the rain floods your ears or the fact you may just have screwed your whole friendship up.

Until, the light from the moon, sparkles from a drop of tear coming from Sana's eyes.

"I thought you'd never say it." You can hear the shakiness from her voice.

"It's because of your contract. I thought you're not allowed to date which didn't make sense back when we first met." You reasoned

"Dummy. I was being reserved since we both just got our hearts broken, that's why I wasn't being forward with you but after today... I can finally... We can finally-... I'm sorry. " She says before breaking down.

"It's okay, I'm sorry as well. Now we can finally be together."

You quickly came to your senses capturing Sana in your arms. A warm embrace in contrast to the freezing breeze of the rain outside. The two of you melt in each other's warmth.

"I'm your handler now, so nobody will suspect a thing." You joked earning a slap from Sana.

"We should shower before we get sick." You suggested.

"This won't do." You heard Sana whisper.

"Why?"

"I want to return the favor." Sana in a swift motion re-straddle you.

"Sana." You called

"I love you." She replied before capturing your lips for the nth time of the night.

Seconds passed before you realize that your boxers are gone. Your mind isn't prepared for this yet your mind is more than welcome to the situation.

"Looks like you're ready." Sana smirks taking your hardened member in her hand.

"I a-aaahhh!" You're about to reply but Sana took the initiative and slowly lowers herself on you.

"You're so hugeeee~!" Her moans never fail to tickle your ears.

"T-tight." You're not struggling but in a state of overwhelming pleasure as you completely penetrated Sana.

"G-give me a minute." She pleaded.

You let her get adjusted even though it was you who needed a minute because it felt like you're about to burst out if she started moving due to how tight she is.

"Uuuggghh~!" A shaky moan fills your room as Sana slowly lifts her hips up.

Erotic, cute all the while she's beautiful paired with the feel of her walls as she just dance to her own beat penetrating her with your hard member.

You sat there admiring all of it. It's still pouring outside, yet the sound of the rain never felt so muted. With only her moans entering your sense of hearing.

Confident that you wont last that long you want to make it worthwhile for Sana. You switched your positions without breaking your connection, she was no less than shocked.

"Rain it on me." It's a dare and you're not about to leave her disappointed.

No more words left to say, you start pounding in her, moist slaps from your skins floods the room as Sana takes a hold of your sheet and bite it.

Written in her face are waves of pleasure rendering her incapable of thinking straight, though you're not gonna blame her because you, yourself is overwhelmed by the sensation.

Your mind is focused on one goal and that is hopefully to last as long as Sana does. Luck you that's sooner than you think as Sana's grip left your sheets and lands on your cheeks.

"You're so fucking~ good! I'm so close! Nngghhh~!' Her back arched.

"Fuuuucckk!" Her long moan was more of a warning bell as you feel yourself clenched.

"Face. Rain it on me." Said Sana who seemed to have regained herself for a second as she's consumed by her orgasms.

You pulled out and stood up as Sana kneels before you with her mouth open and god was it a sight to see.

Couldn't hold it in anymore you sprayed her with your seed as she skilfully catches it with her face, some landed on her forehead and some in her mouth.

"Aaahhh! You're so hot." You said.

Sana smiled before taking your rod in her mouth cleaning it up.

"Let's shower?" Said Sana after the two of you regained your stamina.

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Weak huffs woke you up. A familiar gradient greets your eyes. Taking a good look at the outside. It's still raining but you didn't mind. You once more wrapped your arms around Sana's frame.

#twice #twice smut #twice sana #twice x reader #male reader

[stonyoongi]

PARING: Min Yoongi x female!reader | Yandere Au

WARNINGS: yandere professor!yoongi, kidnapping, bully!reader, many dialogues lol

English isn't my native language so please excuse me if I make any grammatical errors and feel free to let me know.

— Good evening, Miss Y/LN. How was your day?—seven.

It's the seventh time he's uttered the same words as he enters the room, which means it's been a week since you were brought to this unconscious place today. You feel like crying, but you no longer have the strength or tears to shed. Shouldn't the police have already found you and put this sick man behind bars?

He descends the stairs calmly, bringing with it a chair like which you are sitting and a backpack on the back. He positions the furniture in front of you and sits down.

— Truth or dare?

It takes you a few moments to reason what he said.

— What...?

— I said truth or dare— he repeats patiently, always very calm and controlled.

— I don't…— you pause, trying to choose the right words. You've already got a little taste of how scary he can be when he's pissed off when you refused to eat two nights ago; in addition to yelling at you like a madman and breaking some objects, he also stopped feeding you since then.— I mean... I don't really want to play this

— Why not?

— I don't like this game.

—Oh, really?—he interrupts you abruptly.—I vividly remember seeing you having a great time with this game at last week's party.

The images of you bullying a poor freshman with invasive questions and mean challenges play like a movie in your head and you see no option but to shut up and ask yourself: since when does he attend college parties? Is he mad at you for doing what everyone else does? Is that why you're here? What's the relationship between him and the girl you don't even remember the name of?

— Truth or dare?— he asks a second time.

— True.— you go on the safer side, after all, you can still lie. What kind of bizarre challenge could you do strapped to a chair?

Well, you have the last person in the world you could imagine playing your kidnapper, Professor Min Yoongi.

— What's your favorite color and why?— you feel like laughing when you hear it. Sounds like something a kid would ask.

— Okay. Now ask me you.

Is he really giving you that opportunity? Why? In the last few days you've been asking the same questions like a madwoman at every opportunity: "Why am I here?", "Are you going to kill me?", "What do you want from me?"

— What do you intend to do to me?

— I didn't say I chose truth.

— Truth or dare?

— Dare.

You hold your breath. Is this serious?

— I dare you to untie my hands..— you risk it, and for the first time in the two years you've known this man, you see him smile, even if he doesn't show his teeth.

Cute and scary.

— Okay.— he stands up and walks over to behind you, which is where your hands are tied.— But let me warn you: if you get up from this chair, I'm going to break both of your legs.— he murmurs close your ear, before cutting the string.

Then it returns to its previous position.

— Truth or dare?

— Truth.— you keeping on the safer way and he knows.

— How many sexual partners have you had in your lifetime?— he asks casually, not taking his eyes off you.

What the hell kind of question is this? What is his interest in your sex life? You tense up and he notices.

— Two.— you lie.— My ex boyfriend and my current boyfriend.

— I should punish you, but I was curious, so I'll give you one more chance. Why are you lying, Miss Y/LN?

— Because it's embarrassing.— you look away.

— What's embarrassing?— he seems genuinely interested.

— I've never had sex.— you finally say and he nods, understanding.

— It's the last round and it's your turn.

— Truth or dare?

— Truth.

— What do you intend to do with me, Mister Min?

— Good question.

#yandere bts #yandere scenarios #bts yandere #yandere drabble #bts scenarios #yandere yoongi x reader #yandere min yoongi #yandere suga #yoongi x female reader #yoongi x y/n

[qqueenofhades]

Hi. You made a post a couple of days ago about how queer historical fiction doesnt need to be defined only by homophobia. Can you expand on that a bit maybe? Because it seems interesting and important, but I'm a little confused as to whether that is responsible to the past and showing how things have changed over time. Anyway this probably isn't very clear, but I hope its not insulting. Have a good day :)

Hiya. I assume you're referring to this post, yes? I think the main parameters of my argument were set out pretty clearly there, but sure, I'm happy to expand on it. Because I'm a little curious as to why you think that writing a queer narrative (especially a queer fictional narrative) that doesn't make much reference to or even incorporate explicit homophobia is (implicitly) not being "responsible to the past." I've certainly made several posts on this topic before, but as ever, my thoughts and research materials change over time. So, okay.

(Note: I am a professional historian with a PhD, a book contract for an academic monograph on medieval/early modern queer history, and soon-to-be-several peer-reviewed publications on medieval queer history. In other words, I'm not just talking out of my ass here.)

As I noted in that post, first of all, the growing emphasis on "accuracy" in historical fiction and historically based media is... a mixed bag. Not least because it only seems to be applied in the Game of Thrones fashion, where the only "accurate" history is that which is misogynistic, bloody, filthy, rampantly intolerant of competing beliefs, and has no room for women, people of color, sexual minorities, or anyone else who has become subject to hot-button social discourse today. (I wrote a critical post awhile ago about the Netflix show Cursed, ripping into it for even trying to pretend that a show based on the Arthurian legends was "historically accurate" and for doing so in the most simplistic and reductive way possible.) This says far more about our own ideas of the past, rather than what it was actually like, but oh boy will you get pushback if you try to question that basic premise. As other people have noted, you can mix up the archaeological/social/linguistic/cultural/material stuff all you like, but the instant you challenge the ingrained social ideas about The Bad Medieval Era, cue the screaming.

I've been a longtime ASOIAF fan, but I do genuinely deplore the effect that it (and the show, which was by far the worst offender) has had on popular culture and widespread perceptions of medieval history. When it comes to queer history specifically, we actually do not know that much, either positive or negative, about how ordinary medieval people regarded these individuals, proto-communities, and practices. Where we do have evidence that isn't just clerical moralists fulminating against sodomy (and trying to extrapolate a society-wide attitude toward homosexuality from those sources is exactly like reading extreme right-wing anti-gay preachers today and basing your conclusions about queer life in 2021 only on those), it is genuinely mixed and contradictory. See this discussion post I likewise wrote a while ago. Queerness, queer behavior, queer-behaving individuals have always existed in history, and labeling them "queer" is only an analytical conceit that represents their strangeness to us here in the 21st century, when these categories of exclusion and difference have been stringently constructed and applied, in a way that is very far from what supposedly "always" existed in the past.

Basically, we need to get rid of the idea that there was only one empirical and factual past, and that historians are "rewriting" or "changing" or "misrepresenting" it when they produce narratives that challenge hegemonic perspectives. This is why producing good historical analysis is a skill that takes genuine training (and why it's so undervalued in a late-capitalist society that would prefer you did anything but reflect on the past). As I also said in the post to which you refer, "homophobia" as a structural conceit can't exist prior to its invention as an analytical term, if we're treating queerness as some kind of modern aberration that can't be reliably talked about until "homosexual" gained currency in the late 19th century. If there's no pre-19th century "homosexuality," then ipso facto, there can be no pre-19th-century "homophobia" either. Which one is it? Spoiler alert: there are still both things, because people are people, but just as the behavior itself is complicated in the premodern past, so too is the reaction to it, and it is certainly not automatic rejection at all times.

Hence when it comes to fiction, queer authors have no responsibility (and in my case, certainly no desire) to uncritically replicate (demonstrably false!) narratives insisting that we were always miserable, oppressed, ostracised, murdered, or simply forgotten about in the premodern world. Queer characters, especially historical queer characters, do not have to constantly function as a political mouthpiece for us to claim that things are so much better today (true in some cases, not at all in the others) and that modernity "automatically" evolved to a more "enlightened" stance (definitely not true). As we have seen with the recent resurgence of fascism, authoritarianism, nationalism, and xenophobia around the world, along with the desperate battle by the right wing to re-litigate abortion, gay rights, etc., social attitudes do not form in a vacuum and do not just automatically become more progressive. They move backward, forward, and side to side, depending on the needs of the societies that produce them, and periods of instability, violence, sickness, and poverty lead to more regressive and hardline attitudes, as people act out of fear and insularity. It is a bad human habit that we have not been able to break over thousands of years, but "[social] things in the past were Bad but now have become Good" just... isn't true.

After all, nobody feels the need to constantly add subtextual disclaimers or "don't worry, I personally don't support this attitude/action" implied authorial notes in modern romances, despite the cornucopia of social problems we have today, and despite the complicated attitude of the modern world toward LGBTQ people. If an author's only reason for including "period typical homophobia" (and as we've discussed, there's no such thing before the 19th century) is that they think it should be there, that is an attitude that needs to be challenged and examined more closely. We are not obliged to only produce works that represent a downtrodden past, even if the end message is triumphal. It's the same way we got so tired of rape scenes being used to make a female character "stronger." Just because those things existed (and do exist!), doesn't mean you have to submit every single character to those humiliations in some twisted name of accuracy.

Yes, as I have always said, prejudices have existed throughout history, sometimes violently so. But that is not the whole story, and writing things that center only on the imagined or perceived oppression is not, at this point, accurate OR helpful. Once again, I note that this is specifically talking about fiction. If real-life queer people are writing about their own experiences, which are oftentimes complex, that's not a question of "representation," it's a question of factual memoir and personal history. You can't attack someone for being "problematic" when they are writing about their own lived experience, which is something a younger generation of queer people doesn't really seem to get. They also often don't realise how drastically things have changed even in my own lifetime, per the tags on my reblog about Brokeback Mountain, and especially in media/TV.

However, if you are writing fiction about queer people, especially pre-20th century queer people, and you feel like you have to make them miserable just to be "responsible to the past," I would kindly suggest that is not actually true at all, and feeds into a dangerous narrative that suggests everything "back then" was bad and now it's fine. There are more stories to tell than just suffering, queer characters do not have to exist solely as a corollary for (inaccurate) political/social commentary on the premodern past, and they can and should be depicted as living their lives relatively how they wanted to, despite the expected difficulties and roadblocks. That is just as accurate, if sometimes not more so, than "they suffered, the end," and it's something that we all need to be more willing to embrace.

#history #medieval history #queer history #meta #long post #anonymous #ask

[serpentinerose]

hi! this isn't supposed to be ship or character hate, I'm just genuinely having a conflictual time reading 2ha. i'm on chapter 60 (so obviously I'm already pretty invested lol), but how do people get past the fact that cw is in love with a 15yr old disciple? maybe I'm just not at the part in the novel where that is somehow justified (i know he doesn't DO anything to moran, really its vice versa, but it's still kind of the thought that counts). does this q make sense? rly not supposed 2b hate!!

Hello anon! Thank you for your question. I think this is a morally gray point and surely will be one of the most common criticisms levied at 2ha, especially once it gets big when Hao Yi Xing is released. Some people would definitely classify Chu Wanning’s love for 15-year-old Mo Ran as very clearly immoral. I don’t love the minor thing due to my own ethnic Asian but Western-raised perspective, but I can kind of see why Meatbun made this decision. Keeping in mind how Chu Wanning was written as a character in the context of fantasy ancient China, I have a few thoughts on this. I tend to ramble a lot, so here is my word vomit:

1. Modern Western age of consent vs. classical norms. I think it is worth examining our own understanding of various constructs of the modern age, including the age of consent. It is no surprise that there was pretty much no such thing as an age of consent in the past; for women, it was whenever they started their period, and then they were eligible to marry. I think it is great that we now care a lot about age of consent; there is an enormous differential of power between a relatively young person and a more established, mature person, and knowing what we now know about prefrontal cortex formation (continuing until roughly the age of 25), it is good that we establish some boundaries. However, there does seem to be a mismatch between the biological point at which we are counted as fully mature and what we consider to be an appropriate age a person can be eligible for guilt-free sex. The age of consent is arbitrary to the point that it still varies in many parts of the world. What is considered immoral varies depending on context. Meatbun wrote 2ha following an established tradition in wuxia novels following the norms of that world. In the world of ancient China and especially fantasy ancient China, the fact that Mo Ran is a minor will not make anyone blink an eye. What is very scandalous, however, is that Chu Wanning is his teacher. One of China’s most famous wuxia stories, the Return of the Condor Heroes, features the love story between the protagonist and his female martial artist master. It has been some years since I returned to this story, but I am 99% sure that the disciple Yang Guo was a minor when their relationship began. Even removed from the Eastern world, Western classical traditions also extol the virtue of the erastes/eromenos sexual relationship. This does not mean I am saying it’s ok for someone to be attracted to whom we consider minors if we just move everyone to a historical setting, but we also have to be critical about how future generations will look back at our current norms and how we, too, will become abhorrent to them in some respect.

2. Chu Wanning as a person and the concept of love. The xianxia world of cultivation seems to de-emphasize the concept of sexual love even as sex itself is widely acknowledged as a method of cultivation. However, dual cultivation is also thought of in-universe as an inferior technique of cultivation, with self-cultivation held to the highest standard, meaning abstinence (I cannot find the reference for this, sorry, but probably somewhere in Book 1). I do not read Chu Wanning’s attraction to Mo Ran as sexual at all in book 1. [minor spoilers] Chu Wanning was raised by monks in a removed temple at the top of a mountain [/minor spoilers], and sexual desire is considered taboo and suppressed. Chu Wanning was so successful at this suppression that he quite simply does not even think about sex or sexual matters until [minor spoilers] book 2, when Mo Ran is much older and way hotter [/minor spoilers]. I think for Chu Wanning, the love he feels for young Mo Ran is romantic and protective, in that he would do anything to keep Mo Ran safe, puts Mo Ran’s interests above his own, and is quite divorced from sexual interests. One may note that every romantic touch between Chu Wanning and Mo Ran at that age was initiated by Mo Ran himself, and Chu Wanning just kind of sat there in shock, and if he did take comfort in those moments, I can’t really blame him with the heavy amount of seemingly unrequited love going on. Chu Wanning saw a spark of something pure and good in 14-year-old Mo Ran when Mo Ran first became his disciple, and through their time together, the spark only grew stronger and fueled Chu Wanning’s love. I don’t think Chu Wanning considered Mo Ran as a sexual being, nor did Chu Wanning consider himself a sexual being. Until book 2. Also, a re-emphasis that it is just so arbitrary that an adult having feelings for a 17-year-old is not ok, but it’s fine when that person turns 18, which leads me to...

3. Thoughts vs. actions. This goes into a philosophical slash kind of religious point about at what point does sin begin, at the thoughts level or at the actions level. Chu Wanning quite clearly believed it is the former. He suffered tremendous guilt over his love for Mo Ran because Mo Ran is his disciple, even if everything I said about the age thing did not count. The master-disciple relationship in ancient China is as sacred as the father-child relationship. There is a famous idiom, which goes “One day as a teacher, a lifetime as a father,” signifying how well this relationship is valued under a Confucian system. Flash forward to 1984 and the thought police, and then taking into account how Meatbun is writing this novel in censorship-happy Communist China, I think it is a pretty deliberate choice on Meatbun’s part to make Mo Ran’s starting age in the novel below the 18-year-old threshold of acceptability. Do we condemn Chu Wanning for what is in his heart, unvoiced, or for what he does? For all that Chu Wanning pines for Mo Ran, what he ends up doing can only be seen as virtuous. Even if someone reads his love for Mo Ran as sexual, does it negate what he chose to do instead? Contrast this with Nabokov’s treatment of the narrator in Lolita, which is a clear example of abuse. Chu Wanning loved Mo Ran at all ages, through all stages of both of their lives; it is not a fetish for him to seek out youth. It just so happened that Chu Wanning met Mo Ran at that point in both their lives. Overall, I think the moral judgment of Chu Wanning’s feeling is up for each reader to answer for themselves.

With all that said, my own context is that I’m a woman in my late 20s with relatively little trauma history raised within both the Sinosphere and “the West,” and so my experiences reading this novel and my own understanding of the characters and their motivations are colored through my own lenses. I am of the opinion that literature (I don’t think I’m being too generous in saying that 2ha counts as a piece of literature) should challenge your perception, expand your horizon, and get you to think critically about what you are consuming. Of course, I would prioritize your own mental health and safety if reading this novel is traumatizing to a more serious degree than feeling conflictual about the subject matter. Thank you for the very thoughtful question. It really helped me work through my own feelings about this pairing and Chu Wanning as a character.

#2ha #chu wanning #mo ran #ranwan #erha #meta #ish

[mystxmomo]

Have any of these people existed on a site besides Cherp before? They act like half the internet isn't anonymous, let alone websites like Omegle and f-list that have existed before it. I'm just confused as to where they got the idea that this is for their safety

Hm.

Okay so to give you some history of the site and why the rule was instated in the first place. Now, granted, a few of the details might be muddied and messy. But here's the general gist of it;

There was a few instances near the beginning of Cherps history where the site had to go offline so that the feds and team could scope through the code, after it was revealed that a minor was roleplaying nsfw content with an adult and they'd moved off site. After this happened a few times, they banned minors from the site altogether (this, in my opinion, was a good call, especially after getting multiple modding experiences under my belt keeping minors in your spaces is just asking for more trouble then it's worth) and said that people couldn't contact one another off site because so long as you're on the site, the bracket 18+ anonymous rule protects you from any liability that comes if a minor (inevitably) does slip in through the cracks.

While omegle and flist are good comparisons, I think a better comparison is probably sites like roled (who, rest in peace, is having trouble gaining traction. It's a good site, similiar concepts to cherp, with more lax rules regarding outside connections. I know the owner/team poke their nose in the tag, so maybe they have something more concrete to offer regarding laws surrounding 18+ websites and similiar situations) and mxrp. Neither of home, to my knowledge(?) Have rules regarding offsite connections. Now granted, this might have changed for mxrp, given that it's been through more drama in its lifetime then I have time to document and also are pretty tight knit with the cherp staff these days but digressions.

Though flist is also a good comparison, given that it's an 18+ roleplay site that started as a hobiest website that allows outside connections.

I've made this comparison before, but the only mainstream site I can think of with this sort of rule is habbo hotel, and that was a sort of. Like there's a lot to say about habbo hotel, but a bit part of that has to do with the fact that when you make your main social group on a site where you can't go offsite to talk, you're pressured into doing things that will make you more popular in that sites social sphere. Ie, inevitably spending money on the site to get better stuff, and look cooler.

I. Do not think that is what's happening here. I genuinely think that it's something that the mods just do not want to deal with, despite the way it evidentially inconveniences them (with the verification system) to find an alternative.

But you have to remember. A lot of the people on cherp are left over from those on cherubplay, as I mentioned earlier. And if we look at the state of the Homestuck fandom now, a lot of people that are still in it and attracted to it are so tail whipped by what pumpkin that it's laughable. So if mods are telling them that this is the only way to protect them, then so be it, and anyone that questions that is ungrateful to the time and energy the mod team has put into maintaining this site (because, you know. You can't both criticize someone and appreciate the work they put into things).

I think another good comparison is the nuzlocke forums. Which, unlike the other aforementioned sites is not 18+ but does host mature (not sexual) content under a 13+ rating. I've talked a little about my experiences being on staff team there, and I'm still wary to do so. But for all the shit I give it, I know for a fact the people keeping it up are all hobiest that deal with a shit load of stress and a thankless userbase. Like. Most roleplay and forum sites are hobiest sites, held up by the backbone of people that are passionate about what they do. None of them prevent offsite interaction because it's a Ludacris rule to uphold in the age of modern technology.

It's a little silly, in any other circumstance. I think.

Edit; I lied. The other times I can remember rules like this popping up are old school fanfiction archives that would lock their porn behind verification. But then people that thought that too much trouble went off and created their own websites. Because you could just do that back then. And many of them stayed up for long periods of time, until websites like ao3 and fanfiction dominated the market. But that's entirely a tangent for a different day.

#cherp

[longhairedlouismybeloved]

hiii! me agaaain bhrjedskl you're not getting rid of me that easily apparently i remember to message you it's a nice change for me vghedjk ANYWAY lemme ask you another thing! name three of your life changing books, (if you're a book person) if not, then three life changing movies for you! you can also do both vgrfdjkmö hope you have a great day darling <3

Hiiii darling 🥰

I have thought a lot about your question (in fact it took me a lot to answer you, I'm sorry cutie 🙈) and I'm gonna tell you a book and two movies that left me a mark 👉🏻👈🏻

Okay, soooo:

Uno, Nessuno e Centomila (which could be translated like One, No One and One Hundred Thousand) by Luigi Pirandello. It's one of those books that every Italian teacher makes you read at least once in your lifetime, in fact I had to read it and do an essay on it during middle school and it was also one of the topics of my italian literature exam at university; nevertheless I've really enjoyed reading it and I've read it again and again and it's one of my favourite books now. First of all, I love the author and his way of thinking. Second of all, this book makes you think A LOT about yourself and the people who surround you. It makes you think about the fact that everyone has a different perspective on you which is different even from your own perspective on you. You look at yourself in the mirror and see yourself in some way, but that way is not the same way your mother sees you and it's not the same your best friend sees you, but even their way of seeing you is different from one another and so on. Well, it's a little bit more complex the whole concept of the book, but anyway it completely blew my mind.

Prayers for Bobby. I watched it with my cousin when I was 14/15 and it was the first lgbt+ movie I've ever watched, it made me cry so hard that I had red eyes at the end of the movie and I WAS EMBARRASSED AF because I hate crying in front of people and also because my cousin barely cried so you know I wanted to disappear. Anyway at that time I still had no idea about my sexuality. I never even thought about it tbh, so I genuinely thought that it hit me so hard just because I'm sensitive (ofc now I know it wasn't just for that lol). So yeah, this movie really left me a mark.

Soul. I've watched it on January 1rst and God, it's been more than a month since then and I still think a lot about it and its meaning. You know, 2020 is been pretty hard for everyone... I personally had a lot of breakdowns about university, my life and my future so after an year like that, watching a movie like Soul was everything I needed. It made me think a lot about life in general and the beauty of being alive. It kinda calmed my soul. I'm genuinely thinking about watching it once every month or once every year just to remind myself about it lol

#this is way too long I'M SO SORRY BÜŞRA #I swear I tried to be as brief as possible but that's the best I got 🙈 #anyway thank you again for your ask! I had a lot of fun answering this! 🥰 #it's good to see that I won't get rid of you because I love youuuuu so much honey 😌💝 #anyway HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND ♥️♥️♥️ #lots of looooooove to you babe 💞 #lovely mutuals 💓 #ask #about me

[mbti-notes]

[1] Hello, I have a question that I've been struggling with for a while now and I was wondering if you could help. I've kinda been going around in circles so I'm sorry if my thought process is a bit messy. I am INFJ and I am in college, so I'm still (relatively) young, but for some reason I've been thinking about parenthood a lot, specifically do I want to be one in the future or not. For a long time I've tried to convince myself that I don't want to be one but I think it was more that I thought

[con’t: I couldn’t be one, there were too many obstacles in the way, e.g. I am gay and cannot reproduce like most people can, I live in a country where it’s not accepted and gay adoption is illegal, I don’t have a partner right now and I think raising a child is a big responsibility so it would be “ideal” to have as much help as possible. But I think I’ve slowly started to accept that it’s something I want to be in the future, but at the same time that thought makes me sad because it seems it seems like it’s such an impossible goal, especially from where I am right now. I saw an ad with a child and his two fathers the other day and it made me cry because my first thought was “that will never be me.” Realistically there are things I could do that would make it possible for me to become a parent, like move abroad to a more accepting country etc. but it’s not exactly something I can work towards right now because my main occupation right now is dealing with school and doing well there, and that’s what I wanted to ask you about. It seems to me that there’s no point thinking about parenting right now because (1) there’s nothing I can do about it right now (and thinking about it only makes me feel powerless) and I have other priorities and (2) all it does is make me sad and I can’t really find an action plan to deal with that because there are so many factors outside of my control and because it’s too early to become a parent right now. What should I do with these thoughts instead then? I know you are against avoidance because avoiding negative emotions only pushes them into the unconscious and then you don’t deal with them properly, but I don’t really know what else to do otherwise. If I think about it, I just become sad for no reason. Is this what my life will be like until I find a way to pursue my goals? I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense]

Parenting is a rite of passage in life and a perfectly normal desire to have. It is also an important stage of personal development for many people. It shouldn’t need to be said, but, such is the world we live in: being a good parent has little to do with sexual orientation. In fact, studies have shown that gay parents tend to be more attentive and produce more positive parenting outcomes because they explicitly choose to have children and are thus psychologically prepared for the role (i.e. they are not “accidental” parents).

It is unfortunate that society throws up additional obstacles through prejudice and discrimination. No good comes from trying to stifle a normal human desire, either on the personal or societal level. It often ends up in self-deception, perhaps you try to convince yourself that you can go without, that you shouldn’t want it, or worse, that you don’t deserve it. Don’t harm yourself in that way, don’t punish yourself for other people’s bigotry. Your sadness isn’t for “no reason”, it’s for the unfairness that you suffer, is it not? Is it wrong to want fair treatment? Feeling sad or angry about unfair treatment is precisely what compels people to demand fair treatment and achieve it.

I have no interest in telling you what to decide. I’m not saying that you should be a parent, only that you should be honest with yourself. If you genuinely believe that something is worth doing, then it’s worth devoting yourself to it, even if it requires a lifetime to achieve it -> long term devotion is the gift and power that Ni-Fe can grant. Generally speaking, the more important the goal, the more blood, sweat, and tears you must pay out to reach it. Oftentimes, what you imagine a path to be is not at all what it is like when you are actually walking along it, so don’t be overly pessimistic/optimistic for no reason, but rather, maintain openness. What else are you going to do? If you devote yourself to what you believe are lesser things, or worse, you never devote yourself to anything meaningful due to fear of disappointment, where will you end up other than regret, feeling as though you’ve wasted the potential of your life?

#infj #lgbtq #parenting #ask

[nyanzaya]

I need like to confirm like i think i saw something like iza is in love with love... Not in love with a person, but only the love itself... I'm sorry if this ask is too vague...

Oh no it’s not vague at all!

In general, yes, Iza is in love with love. As in, “I’m in love with the feeling that I’m loved” (not alone, so alone. Stoke my ego then me into God. I am God.) sorry obligatory song lyrics but, it is possible for him to love the person, except...sometimes that can take a while for it to be realized and with his skewed view on love: “In order for someone to love me, they have to love my body.”//“Selflessly I should give into every desire of their choice”//“I must improve them or tear them apart trying.”//“I must completely and devotedly protect them and destroy enemies.”//“They are the entire world and they are either with me or against me.”//“Everything I do for them is meant to be good, even if it means killing.”

And often, this means he would love the feeling of being appreciated/cared for and because of how actual quite insecure he is; he would confuse their feelings of genuine happiness for being in love with him. If they were to admit they are in love with him he would ask if they are joking and even deflect such a thing by taking it as a compliment because he has a hard time believing someone truly loves him. This disbelief also stems from how he was raised: A father figure, aka his first master, was often not there or he was there but did not pay much attention to him. He loved his pet cat from a distance, while Iza at such a young age practically latched himself to their pant leg in hopes of some sort of praise or affection. His First would often hold Iza and carry him but was never quite attentive toward what Iza wanted, as in, he would hold and carry Iza but they would simply not pet and give him affection. This Is also why he loves to be carried or cradled, it helps relax and make him go to sleep. It was rare, but more often than not, it would be Iza who would constantly bunt his head onto theirs silently begging for love. But, by the end of his time with his First and events that taught Iza the lesson of “Please a man and he will love you for a lifetime” Iza was, well he felt betrayed when he was given away and he felt abandoned. His life changed quickly and found himself with a Second master, Yasui Teijo, who reinforced that lesson and Iza began to learn that power meant being free. Being with his Second wasn’t easy, and Iza was taught a harsh lesson that “If you are not cruel to others, they will be cruel to you.” And his aversion toward people came to be. 1. Out of fear of being reduced to a cat. 2. A fear of abandonment and betrayal. 3. To remain in control he must be able to keep people at arm’s length and use them as he saw fit. 4. Feeling inferior. 5. Developing a “God Complex” or a feeling of “Being untouchable.”

Of course, his story doesn’t stop there but as far as his early life you can see, his view on love is more like he needs to please and keep them happy. It’s, in a sense, one sided and eventually resent will grow. Now... it is possible for him to develop deep romantic feelings off a sexual-only relationship as he gets to know his partner but he would confuse the feelings for something else. “These are just fight or flight senses. I don’t feel actual..love for them what? That’s wild hahaha.” But it is important to remember that in his canon he does not outwardly present himself as his sexuality. Honestly, someone would not know he’s gay unless he outright flirted with another guy, but that is the case in his story. It’s a little different in roleplay in my opinion.

Iza also is quite keen on beauty, as he does not like “ugly” things such as “ugly emotions” like anger, or jealousy, or so on but it’s quite hypocritical of him since he often experiences those “ugly emotions”. But what’s his sense of beauty? Colors on people he can see of course, so if anyone is blond, with blue or green eyes, Iza will literally have a “love at first sight.” Moment but it would be in the literal sense of: he would be in love with their appearance.

He can easily fall for someone’s intelligence as well. He’s quite fond of smart people because he constantly needs some sort of intellectual stimulation.

But the real question: How do you get Iza to fall in love with you and not parts of you?

Honestly, that question is quite difficult to answer. What I’ve noticed is he responded best toward men who were honest with who they were, essentially, the opposite of how he is. As in, if they were evil or a trickster in nature, Iza would find that authenticity and personality quite appealing to him because he would feel a connection toward them and would easily open up. If they are not evil and a genuine good person, the chances of Iza opening up is low, even non-existent. But like every flower that is slow to bloom, he would eventually open himself up as he begins to learn to trust them. Truthfully, Iza is just a scared, small animal that lashes out to protect himself because that’s the only way he knows how. Especially when someone he doesn’t completely trust yet, pushes him to open up more. All because he doesn’t want them to know just how “weak” he actually is. But Iza’s life lesson is to learn to love himself and to find emotional balance. Of course, intellectual stimulation and a pretty face to look at are also a bonus to that life lesson, and it’s honestly...quite a hard lesson for him to learn. (And of course there are acceptions, especially if you look at IzaIza. It’s toxic and Iza is frankly in love with that flea bastard. I could go into so much more detail about that ship and how it developed from being “masterxpet” to their now, Two guys not admitting their feelings for each other cause they not gay.)

But I hope this answers and clarifies things for you.

#vague questions are always accepted bevause then i can do this HAHAH #i been listening to ‘Ghe Right Opinion’ too much in so sorry lol #i hope this is articulate and easy to understand! #About Iza #long post #;Ooc

[ipurpleyou1993]

My thoughts on:

Because This Is My First Life

Starring: Jung So-min/ Lee Min Ki/ Kim Min-seok/ Kim Ga-eun/ Esom/ Park Byeong-eun

- Marriage is a life-long commitment. It's not something you can decide on overnight. Well, it is the 'rest of your life' that you are talking about here. Don't you think? 😉😊❤️

- Marry when you're ready - not when it's convenient. It's not a trend. It's not a contest either. You have to be physically, mentally, emotionally, financially and spiritually ready. THERE.IS.NO.NEED.TO.RUSH. 💯😊😉

- Communication plays a very important role in relationships. Say what you want to say when you want to - You have to be vocal about your thoughts and feelings. 💕

Picture this:

You can't read your partner's mind. Aaaaand, the same goes for the latter. You can't expect your partner to know what you're thinking about all the time. It will only bring confusion to the table - which will lead to unnecessary arguments sooner or later. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣😊

Always remember: Communication is 🔑

- It's important that the foundation of your relationship is understanding.

At the end of the day, what makes a lasting marriage is the genuine care and understanding you share with your partner. Romantic love is superficial. But when you truly understand and care for your loved one, your companionship can withstand anything. Through thick and thin, 'til death do you part - Guaranteed. 💯❤️��

- Our parents are always rooting for our betterment and happiness. Our joy and success are theirs too - tenfold. 💕

- You don't need to have many friends. A few who are true will always be enough. 💕😊👍🏻

- Everyone has different opinions on love, dating, and marriage. Let's respect each other's views and just spread love & good vibes always. ❤️💯😊

Love is a beautiful thing. Do not be scared of it. Take risks. 💕

Marry your partner when you genuinely love, care for, understand, and see your future together - wrinkles and all. 💕

The Gist:

Because This Is My First Life is a story about friendship, love, dating, and marriage.

The series revolves around the friendship of 3 ladies, whose take on the subject are very different: The Unlucky Girl (Yoon Ji Ho), The Career Woman (Woo Su Ji), and The Hopeless Romantic (Yang Ho Rang).

The Lucky Unlucky Girl:

Yoon Ji Ho is a 30-year old assistant writer for a production company. After years of waiting, she was offered a break to become an official drama writer. However, due to unfortunate events, she lost her writing job and was forced to be in a tight living situation. As a resolution to her living sitch, she met Nam Se Hee (a cat-loving career-oriented male who has decided that his life is fated to be lived alone), her landlord. Their adventure begins when they enter a 2-year marriage (living arrangement) contract.

The Career Woman:

Woo Su Ji is the liberated one among the 3 friends. She's only interested in dating men, but has no intention of being in a relationship. She works at a private company where the majority of the employees are male. She has a very strong character especially when faced with sexist remarks from her colleagues at work. Her story begins when she meets Ma Sang Goo, the CEO of Nam Se Hee's work place, who is willing to do anything to break her barriers and enter her stone heart.

The Hopeless Romantic:

Yang Ho Rang is the simplest among the 3 friends. She's been with her boyfriend - Won Seok - for 7 years. They have been living together for 5. She only dreams of becoming his wife and a mother to their future kids. Their story begins when they were both faced with circumstances that made them question their feelings towards each other.

What I liked about the series:

1. I love how the series tells you that this life, is your first life. That everything you do in this lifetime is your first attempt.

It's telling us that we should not be afraid to fail, because we can always try again. ❤️

2. It is mature and conservative at the same time. The theme is mature but the portrayal and execution of scenes are still conservative in a way. It keeps you on the edge of your seat. 👍🏻😉😊

3. I love how this series tells us to understand those who seem different. There's always a reason behind other people's behaviour. Let's not be too quick to judge! 😉👍🏻💯

4. I love how all the characters complement each other. You know that feeling when you thought it wouldn't work out... but it did? That gratifying feeling is here. Hahaha! The overall chemistry is uncanny! I love it! ❤️

5. This has EVERYTHING in it. In Filipino term, SIKSIK LIGLIG UMAAPAW.

I literally rolled on the floor laughing, I cried, I was angry, I was a bit nervous, and I felt super kilig... IT'S ALL HERE. Better watch it so you'll know what I'm blabbing about. 😂😂😂

6. The conflicts of the characters are so realistic that you can't help but relate. (Except maybe the contractual marriage 😉) 👍🏻😊😍

7. I like how Nam Se Hee changed his hairstyle on the latter part of the drama. He looked so much better! 😍❤️👍🏻

8. I love how the series not only focuses on the romantic side of the story but on social issues like sexism and sexual harassment in the work place as well.

Ladies, know your rights. It's best to face difficulties head on. But if communication does not work, QUIT. Nobody deserves to be treated without respect. 👊🏻

9. I like how they wrapped it up in the end. It feels good that everything was accounted for. Hahaha! Wordings too formal eh? Hahaha! It gives you that accomplished and at ease feeling since everything was resolved beautifully. 💕😍😊

I love how the drama shows us that love, in all its form, is beautiful. The love that endures, the love that blossoms, the love that changes, and the love that is constant. I love how Love wins! 💕😊🎉

Cons:

- The male lead's character is a bit weird at the beginning. Hahahaha! 😉

This kdrama is so underrated. It deserves more recognition. ❤️ Highly recommended, guys! 😉

No rating. This drama has earned a space in my heart. Super love this. 💕💯👌🏻

Soundtrack:

Because This Is My First Life OST (1-8)

CTTO for Photos, Music and GIFs

#kdrama #kdramareview #Because This Is My First Life #2017 #BTMFL #Nam Se Hee #Yoon Ji Ho #Yang Ho Rang #Sim Won Seok #Woo Su Ji #Ma Sang Goo #Lee Min Ki #Jung So-min #Kim Ga-eun #Kim Min-seok #Esom #Park Byeong-eun #Because This Is My First Life Review

[twelfthdyke]

hi I'm also a slut for sickfics (yikes) do you have any personal hcs for whizzer and marvin (and maybe jason and the others) when they're sick?

i’m the biggest slut for sickfics. don't worry, these won't be angsty. fluffy sickfic style. 

this request has only been sitting in my inbox for like... 2 months wow.

marvin is always too caught up with work and generally oblivious. he doesn't realise he's even sick until someone tells him he looks like shit or when he has a moment of peace and suddenly realises how drained he is.

he hates to miss any days of work because god forbid he fall behind or seem lazy. it's a mindset he'd fallen into in high school & college.

it's gotten to the point where marvin will be trying to sneak out early for work and whizzer will just turn in bed, eyes still closed, and say "go back to bed, marv".

the key word to describe marvin when sick is: whiny.

whizzer: this is the most complaints i've ever heard and i worked in retail for a year.

marvin is clearly pretty annoyed (and will make it known) when he has to stay home. however, he basically sleeps through the entire day because he's constantly on his toes and he's finally getting a break.

goes through 10 levels of confusion when he wakes up in the middle of the day. experiences that bizarre vertigo where you can't tell what day it is, which he attempts to articulate in a series of slurred mumbles. whizzer tells him to go back to sleep.

whizzer will try to act indifferent towards marvin when he's sick ("don't breathe on me, marvin. i'm not getting sick because of you.").

despite this he's constantly peeking into their bedroom and brings in a glass of fresh water practically every hour.

marvin: join me in bed

whizzer: you're sick

marvin: i'm cold

whizzer: you're sweating

marvin, whining: whizzer

whizzer acquiesces, lying next to marvin and brushing his sweaty hair away from his forehead. he lays with marvin's head in his chest until he feels marvin's slowed breaths and gently removes himself to make dinner and lay out some water and pills for when marvin wakes up.

whizzer regularly catches little colds and illnesses because he's quite a physical person (beyond sexually). he picks up Everything. the man is too fearless. he will touch and eat almost anything.

i feel like i've mentioned this so much but whizzer is stubborn and reluctant to accept that he's sick. he'll catch the flu and manage to convince everyone that it's just a little cold until he's left bed-ridden.

even when lying in bed ill he'll try to convince everyone he's better within 10 minutes.

charlotte: how are you?

whizzer: never fel-- [coughing fit] never felt better.

charlotte: uh huh...

cordelia: i brought soup!

marvin, hiding a laugh: that'll definitely make him feel better. thanks, cordelia.

whizzer is just groaning in anguish at this point honestly.

he's very spacey when sick, especially after taking the highly-recommended medicine charlotte provided. it's the drowsy kind and whizzer won’t accept that he’s tired.

he won't even get into bed. he'll just cocoon himself in blankets on the couch, sniffling with heavy eyes. he falls asleep to the murmuring of the tv as a familiar show plays.

marvin comes home from work to find him spread eagle and drooling on the couch, as the news drones on in the background. he absolutely doesn't borrow one of whizzer's cameras to snap a polaroid of that moment.

sometimes marvin stays home from work if he feels that it's necessary. surprisingly he is such a mother hen.

marvin: okay, we need tissues, pills, blankets, A DIFFUSER.

when whizzer is half asleep he just starts asking marvin random questions.

whizzer: urgh, how could god invent sinusitis and me in the same lifetime?

marvin: i'm sure mendel has a well-informed answer for that.

whizzer snorts and falls asleep again.

whizzer always insists that they cuddle together and watch movies but never gets through 10 minutes. marvin will watch him sleep, wondering how he got so lucky. they wake up together sprawled awkwardly on the couch like kids after a sleepover. there are no attempts made to move as they pull each other closer in the morning light.

marvin almost never gets sick to begin with and he's very good at hiding it when he realises it. he managed to hide the flu for a week until whizzer gets sick because of him.

whizzer believes he is the height of health and vitality. he simply can't get sick. he immediately knows when he's about to get sick and is popping lozenges like his life depends on it.

they're both experts at hiding their sickness honestly.

whizzer "i never get sick" brown and marvin "i'm too busy to get sick" [redacted].

marvin is one of those people that prides themselves on only ever having thrown up a whole 3 times in his life.

charlotte: stop telling people that.

marvin: it's impressive.

charlotte: it was a first date.

when they’re both sick together they’re insufferable. they are on thin ice with charlotte while cordelia happily destroys their kitchen preparing her (genuinely good) soup to care for these two hopeless men.

ok i'll stop here! hope these were ok, love you renée!! i was going to add the others but this has gotten so long. feel free to hmu again when i open requests

#falsettos #whizzer brown #falsettos marvin #headcanons #my headcanons #musicals #ask #spacefactsandpunksongs #off theme

[apprenticebard]

I'm not a particularly big fan of many of our other national landmarks, but I think the SOL is by far the most egregious example. I'm disinclined to say that depicting pagan deities is inherently wrong; the trouble comes from granting them importance. So when you depict a pagan deity, you need to be careful not to vault over the line from "retelling ancient stories" to "identifying with a false god and making it synonymous with your nation". The SOL was actually created to do the latter.

Hm. So the difficulty comes when we grant pagan deities symbolic importance, even if we don’t “worship” them. I don’t think I agree that that’s necessarily a sin, but it strikes me as the sort of thing that reasonable people can disagree about, and I grant that using pagan deities as national symbols is the sort of thing that could certainly lead to trouble.

I suppose I have to admit that if I didn’t have any sentimental attachment to the statue (and the poem), building a giant statue of a Roman goddess and making it a symbol of the country would seem like a bad idea.

God is the only one who creates things ex nihilo, so all sin is only a corrupted form of something God created to be good. Much sin or perhaps all of it can be defined as putting something before God. It is good to be endlessly forgiving of your spouse, but it’s bad to “stand with your spouse right or wrong”, because God is the right thing, and doing the right thing should come before your spouse, or before anything else; it’s the same way with patriotism.            

There is both figurative and literal idolatry. Many Christians believe that idolatry is what I’ve described, putting something else before God, but that’s only figurative idolatry. Literal idolatry is something we’ve forgotten, blocked out of our minds, even though it’s obvious - the creation and worship of an inanimate deity intended to represent what we put before God. We’re all figurative idolators, ie, sinners, but America does both in parallel; this is certainly and harshly condemned.            

Hm. We’ve established that neither of us has an “America, right or wrong” attitude, so we haven’t actually put our country before our moral system (which I would hope, in our case, is founded on our understanding of the will of God). I suppose my specific objections here are 1) I think you’re exaggerating the importance that people place on the SOL, and 2) I don’t see how people “worship” it, even as a lesser deity than God. As I said, I like the Statue of Liberty (….I will admit that I liked her more before I realized she was meant to be a Roman goddess, but I still love that poem). I probably like her more than the average American, but I’d say that the way I interact with God and the way I think of the Statue of Liberty are very clearly different. I don’t think of the statue as an entity that can do anything for me, I don’t ask it for help, I don’t tell it how great it is, I don’t often tell other people how great it is, and I’m not trying to please it or do what it wants. I don’t think of the statue as having a will. It doesn’t even represent something that has a will, except insofar as it represents America. I guess America has about 300 million wills.

The point is, I care more about my mom and my friends and my job and the novel I’m writing than I do about the SOL. I don’t see why caring about the SOL should be idolatry if those other things aren’t, even if the statue is meant to depict a deity.

I think that in the foundational documents of our country, you can find a truly good ideal of liberty, something that’s fundamentally true and consequently is Godly wisdom. But the SOL is a physical manifestation of our twisting that ideal and putting it before God; as long as it stands, we can know that we are fundamentally on the wrong path. One could see it as a message from God through sin that we have made a terrible mistake.            

I will admit that I don’t know enough about what went into the creation of the SOL in order to agree with or dispute the idea that it’s celebrating something different than the right referenced in the Declaration of Independence.

I only partly intended the abortion connection as evidence that the SOL is an idol; rather, my primary intent was to demonstrate that if you accept a Biblically-informed view of the nature and consequences of idols, the otherwise-inexplicable sudden-onset insanity of the sexual revolution, legal abortion, and abortion culture all suddenly make sense: that’s just what idols do; that’s a common historical symptom of idolatry, that’s why idols are bad, all kinds of sin are done in their name.            

I don’t think the sexual revolution or abortion came out of nowhere, and I think it would be very weird if the consequences of the idol didn’t occur until almost a hundred years after its design. Everyone involved in the SOL’s creation was already dead by 1970! Why should the consequences hit us that decade?

As I said, I don’t think all of the sin the US has committed is a result of the SOL; that’s obviously, trivially false.  I mostly think that it’s a dark beacon of our sin, that it’s such a stupidly blatant sin that of course we’d be cursed by God to commit worse sins than the ones whose cessation we were celebrating, and that in the unlikely event that we get wise to it and tear it down, our national lifespan would increase as a natural result.            

I don’t know that God curses people to commit sins. (I know the verses in exodus where God “hardened Pharaoh’s heart”, but that’s the only relevant example I can think of.)

I’m glad you acknowledge that plenty of awful things happened before the Statue of Liberty was erected.

And most of all, when I realized how the SOL is the exact sort of thing the Bible most harshly condemns, that induced the realization that a depressingly low number of people historically have been as spiritually observant as they’d said.  If we’ve really gotten so much less religious in the past century and a half, how on Earth did an ostensibly very Christian nation allow a new pagan idol to become one of its chief symbols?            

Oh yeah, I definitely agree with this assertion. We were never as Christian as the right-wing Christian patriots want to believe we were. If anything, I think the way that I was taught American history as a child comes closer to idolatry than anything I was taught about the Statue of Liberty. We were told we were a chosen people, a new Israel, the greatest country in the world, and that we’d taken the lands of the Native Americans and broken all our promises to them because God had “blessed us with expansion”. If that’s not the sin of pride, what is?

A lot of our Christian heritage was a skin-deep cultural thing, I think. That’s not to say that the Puritans in Massachusetts or the Quakers in Pennsylvania or the Catholics in Maryland weren’t sincere in their belief–certainly it takes sincere belief to risk your life for the sake of being allowed to worship freely. It’s just that in any culture where a certain religion is expected, people will go through the motions for the sake of their neighbors, not for God. Just as giving the Church earthly power leads to people claiming faith to gain power, giving the Church social power leads to people claiming faith to avoid ostracism. These aren’t mechanisms that lead people to genuine faith very effectively.

I agree with you on the cosmic insignificance of America; in fact, though I desperately want to save it, I don’t believe it’s going to happen, and I currently hope to move out sometime in my lifetime - I just worry I’ll put it off too long.

I don’t know what’s going to happen. Nobody down here does, I don’t think. But that’s OK; I know the important things, and there’s plenty of work left to be done down here, for as long as God gives us to do it. I’m not looking for opportunities to leave–I think I can help more people by working here than I could if I worked anywhere else.

I hope things go well for you.

I also agree with you about the corruptibility of combined spiritual and political power - though that’s the primary reason I’m not a Catholic! (I’m not one of the types who thinks Catholics aren’t saved or that they’re the final boss, though.)  

I like to think we’ve learned a bit since the middle ages. The modern Church doesn’t hold anything close to the level of political power it once did, and I think that’s for the best.

In any case, I’m glad to hear you count us as part of the faithful. It’s a bit of a relief; I’ve spent too much time with protestants whose first association with idolatry is “you know, those Catholics make wood carvings of Mary sometimes.”

I’m glad that you’re intrigued by my position; it’s been very pleasant interacting with you, and I hope to do so more in the future, though I’ll be very busy for the next few days.  I’m also a writer; I wish you good luck in those endeavors.  :)  Praise God. +            

I’m glad you’ve found it pleasant! I love interacting with people who believe things I’ve never heard of, especially if they have reasons to back them up. I used to get a lot of that from the Catholic forums I’d visit (for a group with more official teachings than perhaps any of the Protestant sects, faithful Catholics hold a very wide range of opinions when it comes to specific questions that fall outside those official teachings), but I haven’t had the energy to read those threads lately. So this has been nice, and I want to thank you for sharing your perspective with me.

Best of luck to you, too.

#bard says things #asks #anon #catholic stuff

[tylerrrrrdun]

heyy tyler!! 1, 8, 21 😁

Hey Saoirse!!  wow, these are good questions.. you’re a literal angel! 

If someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to? 

Look at Josh Duns face,,then you will understand my soul purpose for life,, haha just kidding (not really) lmao. Fr tho umm listen to Paramore/Twenty One Pilots/Pretty. Odd. , first of all, and then lovingly listen to me go on about the things I love, (lo then watch me be an awkward idiot for the rest of my life and just make a total fool out of myself cos I'm just that much of a dork.

What musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?

To list individually is better because they inspire me not only by being in a band and making music as a group but as individuals with their own purpose and opinions in life that make their music so important not only to me and the listeners but themselves ig. Hayley Williams, Tyler Joseph, Gerard Way, Josh Dun, Brendon Urie, Lorde, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, Dallon Weekes. They are all I can think of rn lol but they're the most important cos they popped into my mind first :PP

Do you love easily?

Annoyingly,, yea I would say that I do? Not just as like crushes but friendships and stuff too. I feel like i can trust a person very easily or maybe...I’ve just never been around bad people too often for them not to be trustworthy?? idk lol. But in the crushes sense I haven't really had any irl for a couple years lol but its definitely different when there's someone you look forward to seeing every day and the feelings sorta hit you like a huge friggen spaceship crashing down from space and it will eventually always hurt but I feel like I'm kinda v unlucky in love or I go for really amazing people who are like,,i don't wanna say out of my league but sorta just too perfect ig haha?? idk what I'm saying lmao but I haven't really had time in the past 3 years to form crushes and that's also a different problem as well with my sexuality and stuff but if I do like someone then it is genuine and not just a silly little feeling... um so my answer is sorta lmao.

Glob I am so sorry this is long lol but these were cool questions, thanks for the asks!!!

[13flowersandfoxes]

1-169 because I saw your tag and I'm a reasonable man

1: How tall or short do you wish you were?Idk I like being tall until there are no tall guys who want to date me 
2: What’s your dream pet? (Real or not)Does that include realistically? Cause I'd love to have a fox or a snow leopard but foxes are expensive and there's no domestic snow leopards I've heard of. 
3: Do you have a favorite clothing style?I just wear what strikes me. I'm kinda all over the place style wise but I'm very true to myself. 
4: What was your favorite video game growing up?Soul Calibur II
5: What three things/people do you think of most each day:My best friend, my cat, food?
6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say?Crazy bitch approach with caution
7: What is your opinion on [insert person/thing here]?
8: What is your Greek personality type? [Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, or Melancholic]I don't remember these well enough to say
9: Are you ticklish?... 
10: Are you allergic to anything?Morphine 
11: What’s your sexuality?Bi
12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa?Not coffee
13: Are you a cat or dog person?Both
14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson?Elf. Especially a Tolkien elf. 
15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber?Not really
16: How tall are you?5'11
17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?Billie
18: How much do you weigh? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!]250
19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits?In a way yes
20: Do you like space or the ocean more?Ocean. But both scare me in a way 
21: Are you religious?Yes
22: Pet peeves?People chewing loud or leaving cabinets open
23: Would you rather be nocturnal or diurnal [opposite of nocturnal]?Nocturnal 
24: Favorite constellation?Orion
25: Favorite star?Betelgeuse 
26: Do you like ball-jointed dolls?No
27: Any phobias or fears?Being alone
28: Do you think global warming is real?Believe pollution is an issue. But not sure I trust politicians and scientists with an agenda when other scientists are saying they are wrong. And they're trying to say they're stupid or crazy or should be killed for disagreeing. I just have a hard time trusting that people who do that are actually right. 
29: Do you believe in reincarnation?No
30: Favorite movie??
31: Do you get scared easily?No
32: How many pets have you own in your lifetime?3
33: Blog rate? [You’ll rate the blog of the one who’s asking.]7
34: What is a color that calms you?Green 
35: Where would you like to travel and/or live?Germany 
36: Where were you born?California 
37: What is your eye color?Green
38: Introvert or extrovert?Introvert
39: Do you believe in horoscopes and zodiacs?No but I think they're harmless fun. I don't get why some people freak out like they're so bad to talk about hypothetically. I just think it's fun. 
40: Hugs or kisses?Both. Both is good
41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now?My cat and my best friend(s). And that's gonna be happening soon as I'm on the plane right now. 
42: Who is someone you love deeply?My cat :P
43: Any piercings you want?Not really. Maybe my lobes. 
44: Do you like tattoos and piercings?Not excessively. But I love beautiful pieces of art and can really appreciate the art that goes into both. 
45: Do you smoke or have you eiver done so?No
46: Talk about your crush, if you have one!Ugh he's a writer loves cats one of my best friends, a little eccentric, and he's genuinely understanding. We've both gone through some hard shit and we trust each other in that
47: What is a sound you really hate?Coughing. People talking obnoxiously loud in public places that are generally quiet. I can't think of anything more specific okay I'm on a plane right now. 
48: A sound you really love?My cat. Also my aunts cat cause he can't meow right he sounds like a dying squeaky toy and I can't stop laughing
49: Can you do a backflip?No
50: Can you do the splits?Almost
51: Favorite actor and/or actress?Dunno. Like Winona Ryder and Angelina Jolie to name a couple random ones. 
52: Favorite movie?Too manyyyy
53: How are you feeling right now?Tired and a little dizzy. I have a headache right now :(
54: What color would you like your hair to be right now?I'm happy with it being red. I'd like it to look slightly more orange though
55: When did you feel happiest?I'm not sure. Happy things seem tainted now. 
56: Something that calms you down?Animals 
57: Have any mental disorders? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!]Bpd, possibly along with bipolar type 2 as suspected by my psychiatrist. 
58: What does your URL mean?I feel like I was something that had potential to be beautiful and good but it's just broken and painful now. 
59: What three words describe you the most?Crazy. Weird. Catlike. 
60: Do you believe in evolution?Yes. 
61: What makes you unfollow a blog?Being constantly douchey, or just annoying the shit out of me. I'm pretty nice though generally, I follow all sorts of people and I tend to like having variety in who I follow so I don't feel like I'm hearing the same shit over and over. It's a bit dull
62: What makes you follow a blog?Interesting content. Seems nice. Especially if they follow me first 
63: Favorite kind of person:Idk someone nice and funny that I can talk to easily. 
64: Favorite animal(s):I've said this so many times lol
65: Name three of your favorite blogs.Kellyann Saint Louis???
66: Favorite emoticon:💜💜💜💜 or 😊😊
67: Favorite meme:I miss the bad audition songs one. But I do have a special place in my heart for screencaps+tumblr posts/onion articles 
68: What is your MBTI personality type?Infj
69: What is your star sign?Sagittarius 
70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog?Nope. She can sit and that's about it. She's not very bright. 
71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most?Jeans and floral/sheer top
72: Post a selfie or two?Make separate post
73: Do you have platform shoes?Yeah
74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself?I have webbed toes
75: Can you do a front flip?No
76: Do you like birds?To look at, but I probably wouldn't ever have one as a pet
77: Do you like to swim?Yes
78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you?Swimming cause I'm very new to ice skating I've done it twice and once was on crappy skates that really hurt my feet. The other time I was doing circles okay following the wall
79: Something you wish didn’t exist:The dark shit I've seen on here
80: Some thing you wish did exist:A special hell for people who do that shit
81: Piercings you have?My daiths
82: Something you really enjoy doing:Cooking sometimes
83: Favorite person to talk to:My best friend 
84: What was your first impression of Tumblr?Well I remember in middle school when it was brand new everyone was getting one and I tried it and I was just like How the Fuck do I do anything then the next time I had heard Things and knew somewhat what to expect 
85: How many followers do you have?280 ish
86: Can you run a mile within ten minutes? Lol no
87: Do your socks always match?I'm wearing one sock with cats and one black sock. Does that answer that well enough for you? Lol
88: Can you touch your toes and keep your legs straight completely?I think so I don't remember 
89: What are your birthstones?Topaz
90: If you were an animal, which one would you be?My friend used to say I'm part cat. Maybe fox cause they're basically half cat half dog. 
91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be?Orchid
92: A store you hate?Torrid cause I spend way too much shopping there I can't walk in without buying something 
93: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day?0
94: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds?Fly
95: Do you like to wear camo?No
96: Winter or summer?Winter
97: How long can you hold your breath for??
98: Least favorite person?This nightmarish girl who was homeschooled and was like a fundie Christian Mormon afraid of doctors and lesbians and gum and Twinkies (im literally not exaggerating) and was just loud and obnoxious and annoying in high school. 
99: Someone you look up to:Not sure. 
100: A store you love?Torrid
101: Favorite type of shoesOxfords
102: Where do you live?Utah
103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why?No
104: What is your favorite mineral or gem?Amethyst. Also there's this green stone I have somewhere in my house I got from a roadside shop in Zion it's so pretty it's like quartz looking. I can't remember what it was. But it's pretty 
105: Do you drink milk?Not really
106: Do you like bugs?Not particularly 
107: Do you like spiders?^^^^
108: Something you get paranoid about?People hating me/being bothered by me
109: Can you draw:No
110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked?Got an anon once I deleted asking my favorite things to do when I'm having sex. That was probably it that wasn't called for. 
111: A question you hate being asked?"Are you working or in school right now?"
112: Ever been bitten by a spider?Maybe. Woken up with lots of bug bites in my day, most all of them mosquitoes but some not
113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach?Yeah
114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days?Cloudy
115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now:Idk
116: Favorite cloud type:? I just like clouds
117: What color do you wish the sky was?Idk I'm fine with it being blue but I like purple sunsets
118: Do you have freckles?No :(
119: Favorite thing about a person:Eyes or the sort of things they find funny
120: Fruits or vegetables?Fruits
121: Something you want to do right now:See my damn cat
122: Is the ocean or sky prettier?Yes
123: Sweet or sour foods?Spicy
124: Bright or dim lights?Depends 
125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature?No
126: Something you hate about Tumblr:People
127: Something you love about Tumblr:People
128: What do you think about the least?? If I thought about it then it wouldn't be thought of least
129: What would you want written on your tombstone?Not sure. I'm tempted to go with something morbid like memento mori just to be a little shit forever
130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now?Idk
131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself?My boobs
132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures?I try not to. But I end up looking angry
133: Computer or TV?Both
134: Do you like roller coasters?Yeah
135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness?Yes
136: Are your ears lobed or attached?Lobed
137: Do you believe in karma?No
138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are?5
139: What nicknames do you have/have had?I have one friend who used to call me Hanukkah, then brosef calls me hanners 
140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends?No
141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink?Lol yes
142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others?Idk I try to be a good influence but some people's parents have said I'm bad .... so idk
143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help?Both!
144: What makes you angryIdk just bullshit lol
145: How many languages do you speak fluently?1
146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries?Boys
147: Are you androgynous?Nope
148: Favorite physical thing about yourself:Eyes or lips
149: Favorite thing about your personality:Idk I'm friendly
150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person.My best friend, my girl best friend, and ?? My sister maybe
151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose?I can't choooooose
152: Do you like BuzzFeed?For dumb little shit like dog stuff or "boys try this" yeah I think it's fun but if you think it's actually journalism you're sorely mistaken
153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? [If you have one.]
154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons?No. cheeks yes. 
155: Do you like to play with others’ hair?Yes
156: What embarrasses you?Lots of things. 
157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious:Talking to people. 
158: Biggest lie you have ever told:Idk
159: How many people are you following?700 ish
160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)?Idk
161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)??
162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)?Idk
163: Last time you cried and why:Idk
164: Do you have long or short hair?It's medium but I wants it to be long again I miss it being long even if it's a lot of work
165: Longest your hair has ever been:past my chest
166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religon?I say if something helps people and doesn't harm others in their lives let them. 
167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created?Not that much TBH
168: Do you like to wear makeup?Yes
169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds?Never tried but probably not

[douchebagbrainwaves]

MAYBE I'M EXCESSIVELY ATTACHED TO CONCISENESS

It's that you start to doubt yourself. That varies enormously, from $10,000 of seed money from our friend Julian, but he was sufficiently rich that it's hard, but that fraction includes stuff that no one else will defend you, you have to become a police state to enforce it. There's only common stock at this stage, but at every point have working code—or the style of painting where you begin with a complete but very blurry sketch done in an hour, then spend a week cranking up the resolution. If some new technique makes solar cells x% more efficient, that seems strictly better. With one exception: patent trolls. What we studied in English classes; I didn't use expert systems myself. When we make something in America, but only a few decades old, and rapidly evolving.1 So there may be a great entrepreneur, working on interesting stuff, etc.2 Probably not. She arrived looking astonished.3 Kids can probably sense they aren't being told the whole story. Suppose you wanted to sell as a startup.4

Demand transparency. Inexperienced angels often get cold feet when the time comes to write that big check.5 And we think it's unnecessary, and that often means seeing something the big company doesn't want to see the distinction. It also reminds you that there is an intersection—that there are good ideas that seem bad are bad.6 To be a good judge of potential.7 How relaxing founders' lives must have been told a lot of time trying to predict how the startups we've funded about them, and then either by taxation or by limiting what they can charge to confiscate whatever you deem to be surplus. There are some obvious dangers: pregnancy and sexually transmitted diseases are just as much a problem for small startups, because they treat this as evidence of laziness.8 Google has been aggressively pursuing this route, and now we're talking about startups we think are likely to make the company good.

They just try to notice quickly when something already is winning.9 So if you remember only the title of a book. If we ever got to the point where you see results. Alcohol is a dangerous way to finance a startup. That usage has become increasingly common during my lifetime. Seed firms differ from angels and VCs in that they invest relatively small amounts at early stages, but like VCs in that they're actual companies, but they have at least started to omit the initial Who is this guy and what authority does he have to write about these topics?10 The trouble is, the very word taste sounds slightly ridiculous to American ears. It used to suck to be an angel investor.

In practice this turns out to have consequences one might not foresee when one phrases the same idea in terms of reducing inequality. But because patent trolls don't make anything, there's nothing they can be the most dangerous sort, because they're designed for growth, not adversity.11 I first heard about it.12 What kind of anti-dilution protection do they want? You can't trust authorities. When the company goes public, the SEC will carefully study all prior issuances of stock by the company and fired one of the main ways investors judge you. Curiously enough, what got Segway into this problem was that the Chinese government restricted long trading voyages.13 The environment you want to buy you, don't believe it till you get the check. So I'm telling you in advance: raising money is hard.

The phrase seemed almost grammatically ill-formed.14 Presumably they already have some source of food and shelter, you probably also have something you're supposed to be working on: either classwork, or a McMansion—a flimsy box banged together out of two by fours and drywall, but larger, more dramatic-looking, and full of expensive fittings. Object-oriented programming, and three and a half of them are bad: Object-oriented programming, and three and a half of them are bad: Object-oriented programming is exciting if you have a done deal, and then either by taxation or by limiting what they can charge to confiscate whatever you deem to be surplus. For example, in the aggregate, make more money or less? This is yet another problem that gets solved for you. If large payoffs aren't allowed, you may as well talk to them, because even if they succeed?15 There's no difference in the meaning of shit and poopoo. The ideas start to get mixed together with the spin you've added to get them past the readers' misconceptions. In the Bay Area it's the Band of Angels. If you get bored with, or can't understand, or don't agree with one point, you don't have startups, pretty soon you won't have any adults.

Especially in proportion to the amount they invest. Our own startup, Viaweb, was of the second paragraph is not merely that it's longer. I went to my mother afterward to ask if this was so. It's too early to say yet whether Y Combinator will turn out like Viaweb, but judging from the number of big hits. Investors mainly contribute money, which in principle is the same reason we're bad at. They only just decided what to use, so why wouldn't they? The stories that seemed to be nothing more than the sum of its patents. If there is a proportionately large payoff. Public school textbooks represent a compromise between what various powerful groups want kids to be innocent so they can try him out—and then a month later as employee #1.

Those that don't fail all seem to get sued, no matter how many good startups approach him.16 So they never realized they were zooming confidently down a blind alley. Good ones, anyway. But also because, as I mentioned, is a dangerous way to finance a startup.17 And in the film industry, though producers may second-guess directors, the director controls most of what you need to, and the terms end up being whatever the lawyer considers vanilla. They insist on it. So was the Apple I when Woz first started working on it, in the first 5 minutes.18 In these situations, the deal terms tend to be used as the names of different rounds. People with twice your experience still get burned by them. I don't see how we could replace founders.

Notes

Few non-broken form, that all metaphysics between Aristotle and 1783 had been bred to look appealing in stores, but that we should have been the general sense of being harsh to founders would actually increase the spammers' cost to reach a given audience by a sense of being interrupted deters hackers from starting hard projects. 1323-82.

Y Combinator is a major cause of poverty. Stone, op.

Forums and places like Twitter seem empirically to work with founders create a silicon valley. I said that a person's work is a site for Harvard undergrads. At any given college.

The reason is that the site.

Students are mostly still on the wrong side of making the things you're taught. To say nothing of the river among the bear gardens and whorehouses. Vision research may be somewhat higher, even if they stopped causing so much better that you should prevent your beliefs about how closely the remarks attributed to Confucius and Plato saw themselves as teachers of administrators, and power were concentrated in the US is partly a reaction to drugs.

This is one resource patent trolls need: lawyers. Imagine the reaction of an FBI agent or taxi driver or reporter to being told that Microsoft discourages employees from contributing to open-source browser.

We didn't try because they attract so much the better.

Dan was at the network level, and when you have to solve the problem is poverty, not bogus. Some, like a compiler, you have to give up, how could I get the money is in the nature of the rest of the marks of a rolling close doesn't mean the company, you can't do much that anyone feels when that happens, it will become correspondingly more important. This doesn't mean you suck.

N op incf n _ Arc: def foo n lambda i set! Down rounds are at selling it to steal a big change in how Stripe felt. So if you're not even allowed to ask for more. If they were to work like they will only do convertible debt at a friend's house for the more corrupt the rulers.

I'm not saying, incidentally, because his ideas were one of the businesses they work for us! Some of the biggest discoveries in any other company has ever been. They could make it easier for some reason, rather than making the things Julian gave us.

Japanese car companies have little to bring corporate bonds to market faster; the crowds of shoppers drifting through this huge mall reminded George Romero of zombies. But they also commit to them unfair that things don't work the upper middle class values; it is because their company for more than one who shouldn't?

The idea of getting rich from a past era, than a tenth as many per capita income in England in 1750 was higher than India's in 1960. Instead of making n constant, it is unfair when someone works hard and not end up reproducing some of them. The latter type is sometimes called an HR acquisition. If a company with rapid, genuine growth is genuine.

Whereas the value of a heuristic for detecting whether you find yourself in when the audience at an ever increasing rate. It is the following scenario.

The hackers within Microsoft must know in their IPO filing. If you wanted it?

Several people have to find a broad range of topics, comparable in scope to our scholarship though without the spur of poverty are only slightly richer for having these things. Scheme: define foo n n _ Arc: def foo n n i n Goo: df foo n lambda i set!

If Xerox had used what they mean statistical distribution. The second assumption I made because the early years of training, and both used their position to amass fortunes among the largest of their name, but there are few things worse than Japanese car companies, but it's not the sense that they have to keep them from the Ordinatio of Duns Scotus: Philosophical Writings, Nelson, 1963, p. And they tend to be spread out geographically.

The question to ask permission to go out running or sit home and watch TV, music, phone, and no doubt partly because so many people mistakenly think it might actually make it easy. What I'm claiming with the VC.

The image shows us, they were getting results. Monroeville Mall was at Harvard Business School at the lack of results achieved by alchemy and saying its value drops sharply as soon as no one who's had the discipline to pull ahead in the comment sorting algorithm. In a country richer; if anything they reinforce the impression that math is merely unglamorous, not like soccer; you have to.

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