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natelia-aldelliz · 1 year

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Ghost gifts a single tiny ear loop to Soap one day. Says he noticed Soap had pierced ears. That rings keep from handling a gun or a knife properly. He doesn't make eye contact, tries to hide his face, even as he's already wearing his balaclava.

Soap blinks. Ghost has already given him gifts and only behaved that way for the very first one. He doesn't understand. The earring is very simple, but seems to be made of expensive material and not only covered with a thin leaf of gold.

"Didnae it come with another one?" he says, jokingly.

But Ghost flushes, turns his head, and lifts his mask, only enough for Soap to see the glinting of the other earring on his ear. Suddenly he understands that it's not simply a gift. Ghost favoured practicality, but he wanted to give him a ring.

He grabs his hand as it falls back down.

"Simon, what is this?" he asks softly, not daring to be hopeful just yet.

With his other hand, he reaches out to gently turn Simon's head back towards him. His cheeks and his nose are flushed, it makes the warmth of his dark eyes, generally hidden behind a sneer or a bored expression, undeniable.

He looks nervous. Johnny's heart is beating faster. Could it really be...?

"I know", Simon starts then pauses, uncertain. "I know I'm probably not what you thought you'd have, when you were younger" Soap wants to interrupt, to scoff, to protest that Simon is way better than anyone he could have hoped for, but doesn't. He never wants to cut off his love when he's barely starting to open up.

"I know that I'm not easy to be with some days, that I'm not friendly and easy going like you, like someone you'd deserved to be with." he continues, unconsciously pushing his face more into Soap's hand. "But... I love you, more than I thought I could, and I'd like... I'd like to be with you, for as long as you'd have me..."

Johnny's heart is soaring. He has no idea how to react. He'd have to get all the giddiness out first, and the moment doesn't seem appropriate for jumping around and squealing.

"Officially," Simon continues, voice quieter, out of breath. "If you want to."

A gigantic grin splits Johnny's face. All of his limbs are buzzing, he needs to stand up, to run, to explode something. But he's terrified to spook Simon so instead he just squeezes the hand he's holding rhythmically and moves his feet back and forth.

"Baby, are ye asking me tae marry ye?" Johnny says. He's pretty sure his voice is wobbly, but can't really hear it himself as the blood in his ears is louder than the rest.

Simon's eyes do something, what is visible of his face looks like he has an expression on but Johnny can't analyze it now, doesn't dare to see the hope in his eyes, the pleading in his brows.

"I... Yes, I guess I am," the love of his life says finally. "If you want to. You don't have to."

Soap can't keep himself in check any longer. He's making a high pitched noise, jumping up and down where he's seating on the bed, and throws himself at Simon.

"Of course ah fooking want tae!!!"

Simon lets out an excited giggle, swept in Johnny's mood, and tightens his arms around his lover. No, his fiancé.

This is the best day of his life. He just has to deal with this mission tomorrow, and then they can start to plan everything.

#cod mw2 #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #soapghost #and now a bit of angst as a treat :#soap goes on his mission and doesn't return - ghost immediately goes to look for him and only finds traces of a struggle #then price receives a bloody earring and instructions to give out state secrets in exchange for soap #ghost goes ballistic - price doesn't deal with terrorists but has to make them believe he does to gain some time #they need to find where they keep soap - when they eventually manage to rescue him he's in a pretty bad shape and cries when he sees ghost #he looks like he hasn't slept since he was taken and his lobe is covered in dried blood where his captors ripped the earring from it #he sobs in ghost's arms that he lost it #that ghost had given him something so precious and he wasn't able to keep it and ghost knows that it's only because he's been tortured and #sleep deprived but it still breaks his heart & he doesn't know what to do and how to make soap understand that he loves him no matter what #johnny needs a medic and fluids and sleep and stitches and a cast but he can't bring himself to let him go so he just carries him #and doesn't let him go until he absolutely has to even as soap falls asleep on the way back and even as the others look at him with a look #on their face - it doesn't matter anyway soon he'll be simon mactavish and everyone will know #as he's waiting at soap's bedside watching him sleep price comes in and gives him the earring - it's been cleaned and looks good as new #then price asks him if he's invited and after a minute of ghost looking at him with wide eyes he eventually nods #'of course' he says 'we wouldn't be anywhere without you old man'#and price gently punches him in the shoulder #'you have to stop calling me old the recruits are convinced I'm like 50'#and ghost smiles for the first time in a week - he won't stop though - not until he convinces the recruits that price is at least 60

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crow-with-a-pencil · 2 years

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Notice: all staff using the maintenance tunnels are now required to carry a high-powered flashlight/lantern at all times, preferably with a strobe function. If you encounter any hostile entities, vacate the premises and report its location to security immediately.

#oh dear #it looks as though the virus can manifiest in small but unfortunately timed ways #and now you've got a creature lurking in the shadows :/#just a bit of angst - as a treat #I'm actually really proud of the expressions on this one they came out nice #*ringing the lore bell*#my ârt #personal blorbos #fnaf #fnaf oc #firefly oc #sorry if it's hard to see I wanted to play with lighting #tw mild violence #remember when I said he can turn off alllll those light effects at will :3c ?#long post #awwww the little purple hints got skrunkled :(#leave a note if you noticed them anyway

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bandtrees · 1 year

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my opinion on the manga-to-anime mogami arc adaptation changes depending on who im talking to. when it’s people who lament them getting rid of the more brutal parts i have my whole speech about how mogami shouldn’t be this cartoonishly violent strawman who just wants to play dirty and an important part of his character is that, while he’s wrong, he has genuine points that mob needs to hear that help further his development through the season and that’s better expressed when mogamiland is more down to earth and realistic and not just senselessly brutal and knife twisting

however when it’s people who discredit the arc just because of its darker tone and because bad things happen to mob i just go like “YOU KNOW WHAT? THEY SHOULDV KILLED TWO CATS”

#babbles #mp100 #mp100 meta #ig #mob psycho 100 #mogami arc #keiji mogami #picked this from stuff sammi says cuz we go on this bit a lot lol bless em #also it does bug me when people just treat mogami like he’s pulling shit out of his ass #cuz his presence is more than just’bad guy mob needs to Prove Wrong’#they learn from eachother!!! mogami tells mob advice he needs to hear and mob makes him become a better person next time we see him #obviously not great by any means nor do i even think mogami’s RIGHT but. idk i don’t like ppl just making him #Look At This Wrong Evil Bad Guy Doing Wrong Evil Things n making him like generic angst torture machine #he has a personality and strong morals and that’s a very important thing about him #he’s not just a Bad Guy(tm) you can slot anywhere for Le Angst #sorry i love mogami I have demons.

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brighan · 9 months

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Cooldown doodle (DrifterXHuman!Ordis AU)

Sometimes I like to think about whenever Ordis malfunctions when being kissed he doesn't return it because Ordan believes it's wrong for him to have anything nice :')

#angst is my passion #warframe art #sketch #brighanart #cephalon #tennocreate #ordan karris #cephalon ordis #ordis #oc #doodle #yes different eye colors because heheheeee #also for once I'm designing a couple to not have size difference #well barely #just a little bit #as a treat

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silverwolf1249 · 1 year

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kryptonians have wings and need them to live au:

Wing au where all kryptonians are born with wings, and can hide or reveal them at will. If they lose their wings, their health deteriorates until they either die from the stress the loss of their wings causes, or they end it themselves.

The Kents are surprised when they find a winged baby in a spaceship crashing in their fields one day, but they love him all the same and name him Clark. They didn't let him out much until he was a bit older and figured out how to hide his wings, it was simply too risky.

As a toddler, Clark's wings were incredibly fluffy and full of down, still growing in. What you could see of his feathers were greyish blues, a rusty tone highlighting the upper parts of his wings. He wasn't able to do much more than flap them about until he turned thirteen, when his adult plumage came in.

That time was absolute hell on all the Kents, his parents not knowing much on how the help the itching and pain Clark dealt with as he molted and his feathers fully grew in. Martha and John poured over multiple books on birds and their wings in hopes that Clark's wings were similar enough for the information to aid them.

Clark had to take an extended leave from school due to an "unfortunate case of pneumonia". It all turned out alright in the end of course, and Martha absolutely cooed at her son's new plumage, vivid dark blue with vibrant red mingling amongst the upper portions of his wings (colors that would later inspire those of his uniform as superman)

Growing up, Clark knew he was different, no one else had wings, and he had been told constantly by his parents to keep his hidden. He learned very early on that it was because he wasn't from earth, but that didn't make his parents consider him their own any less. He later found out about all his other abilities he gained from absorbing the sun's solar energy, but his favorite ability was always the wings he was born with.

Sure, he could fly without them, but why would he? His wings were a part of him from the very beginning, and flying with his wings just felt so much more right than flying without them. When he found the Fortress of Silence, he learned more about his wings from the Jor-el hologram, discovering how important it was to keep them safe. He still decided to keep them out as Superman though, his near invulnerability extending to his wings as well, and he was loathe to fly without them.

Years down the line, and after having been a part of the Justice League for over a year, Superman was suddenly very aware about his wing's vulnerability after another Kryptonite incident with Lex. Superman worried, and ended up confiding in Batman about his concerns. This was Batman after all, he knew all of Kal's other secrets and weaknesses, what was one more? He still didn't know the man's name, but he would trust him with his life, and for now that was enough.

Thankfully, Lex had yet to figure out just how important Clark's wings were to his continued existence, but even if he never learned the truth, any lucky shot to his back could take him out permanently. Batman listened to it all and told him that while he would tell him to put on wing covers to shield them, suddenly having them one day would be incredibly suspicious. There wasn't much they could do other than to make sure Clark's back was always protected.

Of course, this wasn't a long term solution, and it caught up to them not even a few years later. Superman finally got hit with that lucky shot, and Bruce wasn't able to get there in time to shield the other's back. By that point, the core justice league members had learned of Kal's achilles heel, and panicked when they noticed Superman lying on the ground face down, his back torn to shreds and wingless. Batman however, was calm, cold and clinical as he ordered them to bring them to the watchtower infirmary and get a room with two operating tables prepared for surgery.

When Superman, unconscious from the pain, was set up in an operating room, the Justice League looked around, wondering what was next? Only to spy Batman removing the top parts of his armor next to the other operating table. Wondering what the hell was going on, they were absolutely shocked when a pair of wings burst out of Bruce's back, and they were identical to Superman's.

Despite the questions bubbling within them, they soundlessly leave the operating room to let the watchtower's medical team enter and get down to business. Hours after the surgery is over, they visit Bruce to get their answers. He's sitting up in his bed, unable to lie on his back, the two new neatly stitched incisions on his back preventing him from doing so.

Still under the influence of painkillers (not strong enough to cloud his mind of course), he slowly explains. When he learned of Clark's weakness, he did more research into it, using his at the time new connection to the computer in the Fortress of Silence to learn more about Kryptonian biology. He wanted to figure out if there were any ways to prevent Clark's death if he actually lost his wings one day.

Eventually, he did find the solution. On Krypton, wing transfers were rare, but the cases were well documented in the Fortress' database. Whoever sacrificed their wings would die, but so long as the person who had lost their wings received a transplant within 24 hrs, the one who lost their wings would survive with no lasting impact. The wings had to be removed within those 24 hrs as well, or the wings would be rejected, and both participants would die.

And Bruce was the guy with all the contingencies, both for if he would need to take down his allies, and to save them. He sneakily stole a few dna samples from Clark, and did his own research and testing. He eventually managed to replicate Clark's wings, but he knew that unless they were attached to someone, the transplant wouldn't work.

Eventually he made the conclusion that if anyone was to carry the spare pair of wings, it would be him. This was untrodden territory, but thorough testing had shown that Kryptonian dna was compatible with human dna, so at the very least, Bruce wouldn't die if he implanted the wings into himself.

Whether he would die or not if a transplant was required however, was uncertain. While humans didn't need wings to survive, Bruce couldn't be sure how the Kryptonian wings might affect human biology once implanted. Hell, he wasn't even completely sure if the transplant would work. The intermingling of human and Kryptonian dna from the wings could render the wings useless once removed.

There was just no way to tell unless Kal actually needed the transplant, and there was no way Bruce would let that risk fall on anyone else. In the end, it seemed like Bruce's gamble had won, since other than the gashes on his back, there were no other negative effects to his health, and it looked like Kal would make a full recovery as well.

As you can probably imagine, the justice league were not happy with his explanation at all, and neither were his family or Clark when he woke up(Alfred in particular was upset that Bruce had never told anyone what he had done, the batkids were just pissed and terrified for nearly losing their dad and they wouldn't even have known until much later). At the same time however, they understood why Bruce did what he did, self sacrificing idiot that he was. None of them could imagine a Batman without a Superman. Clark though, also couldn't imagine a Superman without a Batman by his side.

They were friends, Clark would even hesitantly call Bruce his best friend, but the incident had changed some things. Clark had always thought that Bruce had reluctantly became friends with him after Clark kept bothering him to be more social when they started the justice league. He knew that Bruce trusted him with his life, he wouldn't have revealed his identity to him otherwise, but the fact that he was willing to die for a chance to save him...Clark had just never saw that happening, until now he supposed.

He just wanted to know why? Why put himself at risk like this when he wasn't even sure he would survive the surgery? When he wasn't even sure if it was possible to transfer the wings to him? So he confronts Bruce one day, practically ambushing the man in the Batcave one night. And Bruce, as emotionally distant and secretive as the man can be, answers honestly, "I care about you." he tells Clark, looking away from the other to hide how vulnerable he felt, "There was no way I was going to let something like this kill you. Not if I had the possibility to prevent it. A chance is greater than none at all."

And suddenly, Clark realizes that he was awfully, terribly, and wholly in love with Bruce. How he had never noticed it before he wasn't sure, but this near death incident had made him reflect on many things, it would of course also make him reflect on his relationship with Bruce as well. And without even thinking about it, he finds himself kissing the other man.

For a second, there's no response, but then Bruce answers in kind. Clark feels his wings, wings that Bruce had risked himself to create and transfer, pop out of his back. They flutter a bit, before wrapping themselves around him and Bruce. And everything feels so, so right, like everything was going to be okay.

It wasn't of course, he and Bruce definitely had to discuss their relationship and how it might affect their current lives, both of them were still recovering from the surgery, and Clark's wings didn't really feel like his just yet, despite looking exactly the same. He was also pretty sure the other Justice League members were going to be ridiculously overprotective over him for a while after being so close to losing him, same with Bruce for being reckless and secretive as always. But for now, he let himself indulge in this one perfect moment.

#and then the next time superman appears it scares the shit out of Lex because he had been bragging about how he got rid of Superman's wings #but man's still got his wings and they look exactly the same #Lex out here googling do kryptonians regenerate???#look at my science bullshit isn't it beautiful #sobbing at the thought of bruce helping clark preen his wings or clark's wings doing a lil happy dance every time he sees bruce #tw suicide #only like implied in the very first bit but just in case #justice league #lex luthor #superman #batman #bruce wayne #clark kent #superbat #let them have some angst as a treat #fic ideas #it kind of became a drabble instead lol #wing au #i typed this all in one go and no editing so oop if it's rambly #kryptonian biology #can you tell how little i understand bird biology?#primaries coverts secondary primaries idk man upper part of wings go brrrrr #sorry this post got long af

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liauditore · 7 months

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tw dysphoria (i guess?), abandonment issues (it always when we talk about jimmy), just rambling about jimmy not being a toy but being dysphoric about it

(you can just delete it before reading if it could trigger you)

in my head all this "jimmy is a toyyy!!!" arc was not about haha toy story and let's ignore how they could know about it, okay, it's like how scott doesn't remember pearl and jimmy just OMG MY RANCHER, OMG SCAR, OH NO, GRIAN and yeah yeah yeah

you know that thing when everyone bulling person and calling them, for example, "monster" and they are like, well, a lot of people call me that, i should conform (megamind basically). that's something similar, everyone call jimmy a toy (which he's not) and he's starting to doubt if he's a human. everything joel did to him (or its all hallucinations or joel really can control it and make jimmy toy for some time) just making worth. jimmy wasn't a toy, was he? (in my headcanons sheriff jimmy it's cod jimmy that decided to try again but absolute opposite of what he was.)

and because of green also making hallucinations for him (i hope you knows green something like origin, you can find it something in romeos blog, i wrote about it a little), jimmy is really can't really say if he's not a toy. he doesn't want to belive it and we can see it in dialogues with scar, that jimmy refusing to be a toy, an action figure, everything besides who he really is.

i can imagine him, avoiding mirrors and reflective surfaces, so he won't see himself. i'm really inspired to write it all bc of cavetown dysphoric, it's so jimmy for me

it's been over a year now

i thought it was the end

but now i don't remember comfort

because what i am is what i'm not

i don't belong here, it's just hopeless

find me a way out

if you love me at all

don't let me hear what they say

cuz i can't stand it every day

i'm thinking that i should leave now

but i don't i think i'm coming back this time

it's killing my heart.

and scar was the only one who doesn't call jimmy a toy like 90% of their time together. jimmy knows that scar will leave, like his rancher left him, like emp1 scott left him alone with problem with cod father head and yeah yeah yeah....

i don't know, i just woke up and my brain wad like good morning, honey, it's time to make people suffer

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angst?? for me??? 🥺🥺👉👈

HKDHKHLADH SCrEAMING,, putting thoughts under the cut cus i already know its gonna get Long but hkhlkfdhjk

OuGH i love this 😭😭😭 although the megamind comparison kinda sent me lmao

side note i am. into very disturbing and messed up themes so you'd have to try very, very hard to upset me. so go wild in my ask box lol (i do have a good chunk of ppl who just have 'minor' in their bios following me tho so i might not respond to smth if i feel like it's 'too far' or hide it under a cut but yeah)

^realising this sounds like a "i am very badass" thing but i swear i just think stuff is cool 😭😭😭

BUT ANYWAY ouhfhkl mind break and objectification my beloved. i love taking the toy bit in an angsty direction cus i'll be honest i never really found the humour in it but it's TASTY recontextualized.

Jimmy's got a lot of fight in him but I'm just thinking maybe one day it all becomes a bit too much and he just.. goes limp in his seat, eyes glazed over, motionless except for his chest rising and falling with each breath. Someone (maybe Scar, since we're doing Scaridarity) finds him and is like "Hey, what's wrong? You okay?" and gets no response.

Scar would probably be somewhat uninitiated on the whole toy thing and be puzzled but I'd think he scoops Jimmy up and takes him somewhere safe til he recovers. and when he finally gets up he has a bit of a panic attack about what is real.

#asks #🔥 anon #cw mind break #cw dehumanisation #cw dysphoria #cw dehumanization #<-- i would probs classify it more as mind break but ill put it here for the song inspo #and cus its what ur tagging it as so who am i to argue lol #but yeah i like the toy bit much more as a psychological thing personally than anything literal #it just hits different when it's a flesh and blood Person being treated as if they have no will of their own #angst #whump #like. wear what we want you to wear. do what we want you to do.#we'll play with you however we like and once we're bored we'll leave you til we want you again #and you don't get to not like it. or like it. you're a toy. stupid. toys dont think.#uh yeah jimmy. jimmy. my babygirl #i cant believe this bullshit was inspired by a stupid toy story bit #quick side note i forgor to add. my funny headcanon for no one knowing if they remembered life series or not during the crossover is that #they do remember and scott and pearl are just pretending to not recognise eachother cus its awkward lmao

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br-disaster · 8 months

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what about favorite person? 👀

Ohh I didn't think more than one person would be interested in that one 😅

It's a very self indulgent hurt/comfort little fic. It’s the shortest one of the wips I listed and it's not as dramatic as the rest of them, I think 🤔 Maybe because it's from teen NHS's pov.

Anyway, here's a little bit of it:

"It wasn’t fair.

Whenever the brothers hang out together they would have so much fun just walking around and pointing at the expensive price tags on ugly and impractical outfits, Da-ge’s loud voice making the middle aged ladies turn their heads disapprovingly. Or they would buy the biggest popcorn bucket and watch whatever movie they could find available, even if the promo poster looked terrible. His brother was a fun person to be around, and he deserved better than looking at his phone every now and then while Jin Guangyao and Xichen-ge walked in and out of different stores without so much as looking back to see if he was still following."

and here's the other ask about it with a little more context 😚

#a little bit of friendship angst for nmj #as a treat #(i will take it easy on lxc and jgy tho)#huaisang is just a tiny bit biased

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jemmo · 2 years

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so this was just… emotional trauma the episode

#kinnporsche #vegaspete #I’m not ok #I’ve never been ok #and never will be ok #man vegaspete are so many layers of fucked up and it’s so difficult and heartbreaking to watch #I’m a mess #I’m in bits #that scene right after all the kimchay angst of them both just crying #and that whole scene outside the bar holy shit oh my got #they both outacted this ep #the way they were both absolutely distraught #the way Vegas was totally broken #and the way Pete is so uncomfortable with how he feels #god his whole monologue about being a human with feelings that was horrid #I felt so much watching him #be so messed up by how he’s been treated #knowing he can’t be the same #in the bathtub how he desperately defaults to that smile and being fine #begging porsche to not make him say it #bc he also wants to protect Vegas #and he hates that he wants to do that #hates that he’s been irreversibly changed #and hates that he can’t bring himself to completely hate him #that he feels so much for him and it’s so much love and hate #it’s every emotion directed at him and it’s so much it’s impossible and he can’t cope #and yet he just wants #outstanding

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eirenical · 1 year

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sooo… tell me more about that heiping smut. that sounds relevant to my interests for some reason. (yes, yes i just want to hear more about it bc i love it a lot. SO WHAT. DON'T JUDGE ME.)

(what if i put this one on anon! WHAT IF.)

Why, I can't imagine why a WiP titled "Laire fic heiping smut outtake" would be relevant to your interests! 😁 (And I have a feeling I would have known this one was you, too. CALL IT A HUNCH. XD)

[The WiP Title List, if anyone else would like to ask about one. ^_^]

ANYWAY, about a year ago, @laireshi wrote this AMAZING Heiping fic, Exploration, that had this line in the second paragraph:

It wasn’t as if he was actually expecting an answer, between Yaba’s inability to speak more than one sentence a week—and Xiazi was rather sure Yaba had used up all his words for the month begging in bed last night, and yes, he was very proud of himself for that one—and this having to do with the Zhang family’s Super Secret Stuff.

And that bit between the em-dashes caught me by the fucking THROAT and wouldn't let go. So I asked Laire if she would mind if I took a stab at writing that night before when Xiaoge used up his month's worth of words begging in bed, and her response was basically "YES PLEASE". ;D So I did. 😁

It's a bit under 3300 words now and I have maybe... one more scene to write plus some snuggling? I also have quite a bit more begging to get in for Xiaoge to fill that quota. XD So far most of his begging seems to be some variation of Hei Xiazi's name, but Xiazi doesn't seem to mind. ;D

But basically this has become an exercise of Hei Xiazi trying to figure out exactly how much soft pampering, how much teasing, and how many orgasms he can get away with giving Xiaoge before Xiaoge actually starts begging for real and not just screaming his name. 😏😁 So far we're at... three teases and two orgasms with Xiazi already planning round three?

It'll be a wonder Xiaoge can even WALK by the time the fic takes place. XD

(And yes, I just got distracted rereading the fic for the nth time while I was taking that tally. I really do need to finish this one and post it. MAYBE AFTER GRADING HELL WEEK IS DONE. AS A TREAT. 😁)

In the meantime... snippet behind the cut? Yeah. I think a snippet behind the cut. ^_^

Showers, Hei Xiazi had always thought, were a revelation. They'd not been common place when he was born, but they'd been installed in the house as soon as they were available. Xiazi had reveled in them then and continued to do so now. The pounding of hot water on sore muscles, the buildup of steam opening pores and congested breathing, the speed with which the grime fell from his overworked body… yeah. Still a revelation. But sometimes, just sometimes, there was no replacement for a nice long soak in a hot bath.

Especially with the right company.

Xiazi slid his fingers back into Yaba's hair, massaging his scalp as he lathered, then letting his hands drift lower to the tight column of Yaba's neck and shoulders. Did those muscles ever relax? Sometimes Xiazi wondered if Yaba even knew the meaning of the word. Digging his thumbs deeply into the muscles at the base of Yaba's neck, he slowly dragged them upwards to the knobs at the base of his skull. Steady pressure, deep strokes, coaxing those muscles to unwind, to let go of their knots, to ease the headache that surely must be forming from all that tension.

After barely a minute of those gentle ministrations, Xiazi was rewarded with a subtle, barely-there shiver and a long, low moan. Moments later, Yaba's head fell back to rest against Xiazi's shoulder, his body quickly following, settling softly into the curve of Xiazi's body. Exactly what he'd been waiting for.

Xiazi rinsed his hands in the bathwater, then filled the bowl he'd left aside for just this purpose. Shielding Yaba's eyes with one hand, he lifted the bowl and slowly rinsed the shampoo lather from his hair. Bowl by bowl, the lather washed away into the tub to mingle with the water, leaving Yaba's hair sleek and soft, his body growing heavier against Xiazi with every bowl full of water that sluiced over his skin.

It wasn't often that Yaba let himself be taken care of like this. It was weeks, months, sometimes years, after their each reacquaintance before Yaba would let his guard down enough to let Xiazi do this for him—before he could even begin to understand why Xiazi would want to.

After all, you maintained your tools, certainly, but you didn't buy them sweets. You didn't hold them close while they slept. You didn't coax and caress them until they agreed to let a day go by when they wouldn't be used. You didn't show them affection. And Yaba, Hei Xiazi had long since learned, viewed himself as nothing more than a tool, unless someone taught him otherwise. And that was the worst thing of all.

But today, when Hei Xiazi had drawn a bath for himself, had teasingly invited Yaba to join him, Yaba had surprised him. His expression had softened, those too long fingers drifting through Hei Xiazi's hair as their gazes met—one shielded and one guarded, though not so much as it had once been. He'd left the bathroom, then, puttered around in the hotel room for a while, turning off lights as he moved. He left only one lamp lit, softly reflected light the only illumination once he was done.

"Admit it, you just want to get a gander at my gorgeous eyes, don't you?" Hei Xiazi had said, as Yaba returned and slipped the black glasses from his face.

Yaba had shaken his head, a smile so fond crossing his lips that Xiazi's breath caught in his chest like a lovesick teenager's. Moments later, Yaba was peeling out of his clothes and slipping into the tub, and here they'd been ever since.

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eunoiastarz · 1 year

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inias should’ve tried to kill meg a little is all i’m saying

#she killed. his little sister. his best friend. in front of him.#YES he’s sad an pathetic #and don’t get me wrong he was likely in a state of shock and definitely went over to hold her #however just letting the demon who killed his sister stand around like she’s innocent is unrealistic #just little bit of angst and revenge.#as a treat.#->#spn angels #inias #meg masters

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charlataninred · 1 year

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#vent #sorry but I’m about to teenage angst post on main #i Do Not Like my father #it feels like every time we talk ends up in me getting scolded #and whenever I try to be like ‘I don’t appreciate how you’re treating me’ he ends up shouting #which always ends in me crying #and whenever I tell him to not raise his voice at me he says something along the lines of ‘I would t have to if you listened to me’#he apologizes later for yelling but it doesn’t mean shit because he does it again and again #and he’ll try to make a joke but again it doesn’t mean shit because we never talked about the issue and it feels like he’s trying to joke #away my feelings #and I went for a walk to cool off and he texted me saying he’d be in his office so I wouldn’t have to talk to him #but as I got to the last bit of road before my house he’s out there starting to take the dog for a walk #and instead of acknowledging that he KNOWS I’m not ready to talk to him given him saying he’ll be in his office #he tries to make a joke about how I should’ve taken the dog with me #it’s just. ough it’s so much harder to get on with him than it is to get along w my mom #my moms great with my dad it feels like I’m constantly walking on eggshells waiting for the next time he yells

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pyrriax · 1 year

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sincere doubts anybody will actually see this, but i wanted to do a poll anyways just because i want opinions

elaboration because Room:

i'm debating adding more chapters because i feel like the current+upcoming parts need more breathing room. i'm realizing the ending of the fic feels a bit rushed (at least imo) so. yeah.

#haunted ecosystem #au: where the dust settles #boo its a poll #for context: originally the next chapter is the end of the prison arc. its REALLY short-lived as it is #i mean it'll mostly just be giving stuff breathing room (and more character development + elaboration for pandora. which i don't think #anybody would really mind? you just get to see how he handles this stuff. i could give a little treat of some more interaction with #sylvester to make up for the angst party we have going rn)#idk im just debating. i was so SET on this being 30 chapters but now im realizing it needs a bit more time.#i could condense a couple of chapters into one so that i have the room while also being able to elaborate on this stuff #but also condensing those would mean like. a 10k chapter #which i'm trying pretty damn hard to avoid so i don't burn myself out

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foxwithashortsword · 2 years

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Oh boy let’s get going again. Picking up with Fox.

Fox is like Atlas in the sense that his timeline is very parallel to the og timeline in comparison. In fact, it is exactly the same detail to detail until post-future…That’s when Steven gets the short straw on life times 10.

Now this AU is rather odd, out of all of them. Probably because this Steven gets fucking spring-locked, yes I mean like the Fnaf games.

How? Well as we know post future Steven goes on a cross country trip, to all 39 states, Utah, or whatever weird SU version of Utah there is harbors the Fazbear franchise and to this curious teenager a pizza parlor with animatronic mascots sounds fucking rad. It’s not. It wasn’t, never will be.

So he wanders in, wide eyed and in awe of bright colors and happy guests watching rickety robots lip sync to old songs. But he’s alone and a particularly morally evil man notices, walks up, and offers him a quick and easy job. “Our suit performer is out sick today, you look like you could work the suit. it’s rather simple…I’ll pay you good for it.” And Steven, eager for new and unique life experiences, accepts.

Now he is instructed on how to wind up the spring locks and how to safely perform, allowing for a once in a lifetime experience of being an animatronic entertainer for children…Until he goes back to take off the suit and collect a generous paycheck he was planning to use on a date night with his girlfriend. The man is in there waiting for him to open and close the door.

So he walks in, metal suit heavy and clunking but Steven is too excited pay it any mind. But he feels a rather loud click on the back of his neck, something winds and then several somethings snap.

Spring locks kill people by piercing organs and releasing so much blood you choke on it if you’re conscious enough to not pass out from the pain in a couple seconds… but Steven is not like other people.

So whether it’s desperation or spite, he lives through every moment of agony until his body and nerves are too overworked and his body grows numb to the pain. Twitching and in limbo in the dark supply closet of a restaurant trying to scream through an esophagus that is now ripped and torn by metal barbs.

Naturally, this would fuck anyone up mentally, but he just can’t grasp the situation; the pure absurdity of it: how he went through all that stuff just to be beat and left to die in a mascot costume in the middle of nowhere Utah.. and he gets a little mad about it.

So day by day he gathers the strength to scrape up the wall, trying to get used to having a metal hook for a hand and eventually walks out of the room to find help. Lucky for him that one employee he talked to that day was on night watch duty, the man noticed him as soon as he walked out… the look on the man’s face was of pure terror, so pure and guilty that Steven puts the pieces together quick… and tears the man apart even quicker.

#yes it’s Fnaf don’t @ me #this AU was a little treat for me #when I dabbled back into Fnaf for a bit #but oh boy #the angst of this poor boy is just 🤌#one night he sees his phone go off #someone was calling him #he recognized that ringtone how could he not #he recognized that face how could he not #but he couldn’t answer the phone #the metal claws wouldn’t let him #he was alone

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