#life purgatory

[spite-and-waffles]

I know we've all had a pretty rough few years by now, but thinking of Tim Drake helps keep it all in perspective. For instance, if you were 17-year-old Pre52 Tim this year, it means that Bruce died in 2022. Steph, Connor, Bart, Dad all died and Bludhaven had gotten nuked with Dana in it in 2021. No Man's Land happened in 2020, Knightfall in 2019 and your Mum died in 2018, before you'd even properly got the job. And you still can't vote.

#if you're a Sri Lankan none of this beggars belief #2018 - Parliament coup. 2019 - Easter Sunday terrorist attacks. 2020 - pandemic. 2021 - worst covid death rate #2022 - economic crash mass protests state brutality fuel crisis open revolt dictator ousting fascist crackdown dictator coming back #this year has had like 3 yrs in it. living in comic book time would be less stressful #get on our level dc #comics purgatory #darkest timeline #life purgatory #tim drake #crack meta #the passage of time #happy 2023 #spite waffle

[pm-00]

El Mariana logged in, told the whole global chat the coordanates of blue's base, was killed with Tina a bunch of times, met a new creature which he named mike wazowski, died some more, had gay sex with his ex-husband and just fucking left

#all in a day's work #best like three hours of my life #el mariana #q!elmariana #qsmp #liveblogging #purgatory

[shaykai]

I just think that the UTMV fandom is sleeping on Afterdeath + Life

Edit: TikTok has dubbed this Lifeafterdeath

#if there IS a ship name let me know. if not help me think of one djdjjdjd #cause I’m like. 57% sure that purgatory is already a ship name for someone else #I feel like I’ve seen it before?? #anyways t h i s #doodle #utmv #undertale #undertale AU #reapertale #reaper sans #life Toriel #aftertale #Aftertale sans #Geno sans #Afterdeath #my first thought for a ship name was afterlife. but I feel like that more suggests it’s just Geno and tori #and I can’t think of one that includes reaper and tori nicely djdjjdjdjdjdjs #afterexistence or something djdjsjsjjsjsjs #soriel #until I find a ship name I’m tagging the separate ones #geno x reaper #reapertale soriel #lifeafterdeath #which is a perfect ship name btw djdjdjdj #Lifeafterdeath ship

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

only in death 💔

#ethan winters #resident evil 8 #resident evil village #re8 #rebhfun #resident evil #resident evil fanart #re7 #techniclly not true #because he basically lived 17 years in purgatory watching clones of his daughter die over and over again #wow his life sucks #im so sad thinking about

[tubchunk]

yes the possibility of qtubbo having been snatched away in the blink of an eye today to be sent to purgatory with no warning is fucking depressing. but do you know what could be worse?

qtubbo logging back onto the island, shaken and sick from radiation exposure, but everyone celebrates that he's alive and escaped capture.

only for him to tell them that its because he doesnt know when theyll take him. he's a dead man walking, a ticking time bomb. he has agreed to something and has no idea when theyll come to take him to purgatory. no idea what lies in wait for him.

and he spends the next few days trying to distract himself, while also getting his affairs in order. its sad, but no one talks about it. how he's walking around with a foot in hell, waiting to be dragged back in, with no warning.

and one day, q!fit and q!pac wake up, and they see sunny come to them, alone. and they just know what has happened.

the rain doesnt stop for the next 5 days.

#something something qtubbo has been playing with his life so much these few weeks #in a sick way this is the culmination of that #a game with his life #hes played it before many times #he dances with the arms of hell wrapped tight around him until he's dragged away #you can tell qtubbo is gone for good when the server falls quieter than usual #and the rain doesnt stop #qsmp tubbo #qsmp #qsmp purgatory #qsmp purgatory 2

[uncanny-tranny]

I think what might actually help the families of trans loved ones is to actually engage with where the trans person is at - especially if the family isn't quite understanding yet. When I came out, I was completely alone in figuring out my manhood. I had peers and I had exposed myself to so many trans people who explored gender, and while it was amazing, it isn't quite the same at times. I grieve quietly, sometimes, about all the missed opportunities that might have just made it easier for my family to have seen how utterly happy I was. It took them a very long time to actually notice that I was happy, especially once I got on testosterone. I'm lucky that they saw that happiness eventually, and slowly accepted it. My manhood is completely detached from their influence, both to my relief and chagrin. It's sad to me that I learned to shave from a kind online stranger, somebody who didn't even have a father and yet, I do. I have a father. I grieve at the loss of a potential shared experience. I grieve about the pain I went through when I was in that stage of transition, especially because it was raw and vulnerable. I grieve that many trans people today are traversing the path I had to, because it's sometimes lonely (even when you do have other forms of support).

It's hard to know that I will never have gotten my sense of being from my family. In many ways, it has severed a lot of connection with them because there were so many times that I was begging them to see happiness when they were focused on the idea that I was almost in a state of purgatory - flesh which felt warm but held no familiarity to them. I don't harbor ill-will toward them, I hope I don't leave the impression that I despise them. I understand what they felt, even if I can't conceptualize it myself. However, it's a raw wound in my heart, and I don't want to leave anybody else feeling that way, either.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #ally advice #i'm thankful that my manhood is the way it is. but it was a painful journey to get here and i did it partially alone #i absolutely am grateful to have had my friends and the trans people who made themselves known though. i owe these people my life #i still think it's not unreasonable to have wished for my /family/ to have been part of that journey sooner especially when i was young #sometimes it seems like parents who believe their child has died after they express their transness make that a self-fulfilling prophecy... #...in that the parent often aloenates themself/themselves from their child in a variety of ways... #...i was alienated from my dad when he threatened my transition - it became a self-fulfilling prophecy in that i shut myself down... #...i retreated inward and in a way became a ghost - corporeal to the touch but a spirit who may not be seen... #...in many ways i felt in limbo between life and death. it was a cycle of purgatory #and that is something i think is best avoided. it's lonely and scary and it makes it hard to imagine a future #i need to emphasize that even though this was shitty i am still lucky in so many ways #i just faced a lot of undue shit even so - shit i don't think was conducive to a good environment or well-being

[chayannesegg]

what i love about pierre and tubbo's relationship is that to pierre, him and tubbo have a great close relationship. he holds sunny dear to his heart and thinks of tubbo as a mentee/nephew. they tease each other, they prank each other, they have so much in common, they talk about create problems, he looks out for tubbo (in his own kooky uncle way)

meanwhile to tubbo, pierre is simply the world's most annoying old man (whose a bit obsessed with him)

#qsmp #qsmp tubbo #qsmp aypierre #like i think constantly of him in purgatory telling bad his wife wouldn't let him ditch their date for bad #but she knows he has to log on when he needs to 'babysit' tubbo #bro is not babysitting tubbo #he's not doing shit. half the time he's making tubbo's life harder and the other half he's doing his own thing #but mentally he's 'looking out for tubbo' and takes great pride in it and it's so funny. #because tubbo is there like 'why is this man obsessed with making my life worse!!!'

[the-mcyt-crackships-brackets]

#mcyt crackships bracket #polls #PURGATORY #noxintrus #evil xisuma #mogswamp #smallishbeans #life series #hermitcraft #content smp #empire smp #mogbeans #crackships polls

[gooperts-gunk]

im so crazy over the tragedy of everything q!bbh does being under a demon pretense even though he's a fallen angel.

do u think he just accepts the demon label because it's easier. do u think he believes it too, and catches himself in his thoughts with "oh, right. im not exactly that". and maybe he believes that he did this to himself? do u think what he did was to protect himself or someone? no matter the fall, he still has so much kindness to give and his brain just isn't wired the way a natural-born demon would be, he can't hold back instincts when time demands it, maybe that's why he fell in the first place.

and when he's finally bad, not good, it's treated like the end of the world, without empathy on why he would act out. do you think this keeps happening? the same scenario, multiple times, every timeline? he has to be used to it. so he has to take it in stride. he's good until he lashes out under extreme pressure, and suddenly he's called demon. and once again he's what heaven made him out to be. what he made himself to be, his brain would ruthlessly provide...

i don't think he wants to be that, though he hides secrets behind secrets of which neither identity is a home... but i don't think he wants to have to change, either. and i don't think that's wrong of him.

...you collapse atlantis ONE TIME and all of a sudden YOU'RE the bad guy and SURE it was FUN but REALLY now,--

#lots of expansion on this in tags beware #this is a draft from 2:40AM the day before i just felt something within me and i needed to write about fallen angel q!bbh angst NOW #this post is brought to you by q!bbh in purgatory and post-purgatory i will never forgive you purgatory 1 #no one can bear to have a healthy conversation about q!bbh's behaviors let alone TO q!bbh. BUT IF Q!BAGHERA WASN'T STUCK ON THE ISLAND... #i miss u bbh + baghera interactions let me see u soon pls #he isn't impossible to communicate with ur just not jiving with his autism right u can get through to him i swear BUT TOO LATE he DIED #now he doesn't remember!!! (unless that part of the library is recovered) u lost ur shot!!! (ur issues with him will rise again) #now every time bagi goes “'cause he's a demon” with bbh i go OH MAN SHE DOESN'T KNOW IT'S MORE... it hurts how flippant it is sometimes #because WE KNOW OH MAN WE KNOW IT'S MORE and this concept of him being fallen adds SO MUCH CONNOTATION to EVERYTHING he does #it isn't just DEMON THINGS it's GOD MADE ME THIS THINGS and i just can't wait to know WHY what did you DO!!! #your instincts are to be nice though cautiously detached when your life restarts so WHAT DID YOU DO IF YOU ARE NOT INHERENTLY BAD??? #goopert talks qsmp #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo

[setacin]

hi everyone! read watercolour blues by @oh-snapperss thank you for coming to my ted talk

#this has been sitting in etho art purgatory on my computer for far too long #ethoslab #ethoslab fanart #last life smp #last life fanart #the life series #seta art :) #angst

[trancegnder]

getting this out of my system

#EDIT i changed the text color it was too dark. girlmos? deimiss? is this anything #Anyway see my vision NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #my art #madness combat #madcom #deimos madcom #sanford madcom #hank j wimbleton #<- their heads are there so um they count #deimos in purgatory fighting for her life somehow managing to have complex thoughts about gender identity.

[phatcatphergus]

Personally, I think tubbo was a fed worker/scientist on egg island where he created an AI that was meant to help keep the main island running by maintaining the weather and creating enrichment activities for the islanders. But the Feds fucked tubbo over and cancelled his project because they didn’t think his work was helpful enough (people always underestimate him) but used it anyway without his input of any recognition of his talents. So he went rogue and changed the programming to be an antithesis to what the Feds originally wanted and crafted egg island to be a hell scape as a direct opposition to the feds original plan and took fed workers and experimented on them and made them play in the events that the AI created.

The feds eventually got through the disasters as mutilated one-eyes previous fed workers to him and took him down kicking and screaming before they froze him. But the AI learned from its creator and continued to created games and challenges and warped the ground and weather to create what purgatory is today.  The federation also ensured that none of its workers would go rogue again by completely removing all sense of emotion beforehand so no one could be upset if they fucked them over

#purgatory guy is the ai btw #it’s why he’s so set on making things fair #he’s never had a fair chance in his life #it’s also why he’s so drawn back there #he’s the creator and the weather changes with his emotions because he created the tech to do it #qsmp tubbo #qsmp #tubbo #qpurgatory 2 #qsmp purgatory

[royalarchivist]

Agent 18: Oh that seems good. You snitch, I give you an easier time. Don't snitch on Foolish.

Bagi: Ok. Can you allow me to snitch one last time on Foolish? Just for you, since it's just me and you? Foolish was talking to Quackity. You should be careful– he has a really close relationship with Quackity. [She tosses the book back to them] Yeah, keep an eye on him.

Agent 18: You're lying. He does not have a close relationship with him.

Bagi: Ok– you don't have to believe me, just watch them. You can observe them, I don't need to say anything.

(via)

#Bagi #Agent 18 #QSMP #QSMP Prison #oiBagi #January 20 2024 #Rare repost but I didn't catch her POV today and I just love how much Bagi hates q!Quackity's frickin guts because of ElQuackity #Quackity: Yeah I wasn't in Purgatory! haha! #Bagi: Don't care. Ruining his life anyways. L #she's so funny

[legendling]

something about weird bird guys in weird tricolor Minecraft murder parties.......

EDIT : reuploaded to fix wonky text and also add my signature aarrtahutgatuatgbwgsdgdgdgfdsfg

#ykw im really not too proud of how these came out but I wasnt really tryin for a masterpiece so what can ya do lol #qsmp #life series #trafficblr #traffic series #traffic smp #qsmp purgatory #qsmp fanart #grianmc #watcher grian #qsmp quackity #quackity #quackity fanart #grian fanart #legend's art #scopophobia cw #eyes cw #minecraft

[sarucane]

Ed Teach's Stories

From practically the moment we meet him, Ed's identity is unstable. We know who is he (Blackbeard) from context, from the story told by the the room around him, by Izzy and the flag his crew. But the thing is, Ed doesn't fit the story of the Mad Devil Blackbeard. Two of his first few words are "good" and "love" for crying out loud. He's called "Blackbeard," but his beard is grey.

This instability exists because Ed himself isn't sure what story he's telling--or wants to tell. "I shouldn't be bored, I'm fucking Blackbeard!" All through his early episodes Ed is in increasingly desperate tension with his own identity. He's trying to tell stories within stories, wanting all the stories to be true at the same time, yet aware of the reality that the world is constantly trying to wipe one or another of the stories away. And not really trusting that he can tell the whole story of who he is.

In the first season of OFMD, Stede wears a different outfit every episode. Yet Stede remains the same: despite his internal tensions (almost despite himself) there's a stability to his identity. But all through both seasons of OFMD, Ed putting on a new outfit means he's trying to tell a completely different story about himself.

And underneath this cacophony, there's Ed. And Ed is himself a chorus of stories, a living contradiction. A patricidal murderer who was protecting his mother; a paragon of masculinity who longs for softness and fluidity; a man renowned for violence and madness who has in fact carefully cultivated that reputation and is extremely careful with his violence; a killer who doesn't kill, yet who does kill all the time just at a bit of a remove; a half a dozen names and personas and yet always Ed; unloveable, yet deeply loved.

At the beginning of the show, Ed isn't actually good at telling his own story. He's good at listening to other people's stories, and conforming himself to them often without conscious effort. But when he tries to really tell his own story--asking Stede to run off to China, singing his break-up song song, going to become a fisherman--he fails. We don't understand in the first season why his judgement clouds, why he becomes weak when he tries to tell his story. But in the second season after spending half an episode in Ed's mind, a painful truth is undeniable: Ed, like Stede, doesn't think he's worthy of telling his own story.

So instead of telling his own story, Ed let other people tell his story. In the first season, Ed built off what Izzy told him he had to be. But he couldn't lose himself in Blackbeard, no matter how hard he tried. So in the second season, when Ed couldn't face living with his contradictions anymore, he wrote an ending worthy of Blackbeard.

All this, because Ed thinks he can only be "himself" by telling one, single story about himself. By denying his contradictions, rather than embracing them. Splitting himself in two to tell himself a story, rather than telling the story himself.

What Ed doesn't believe or trust is this: For Ed to really be himself, he has to be impossible. Two contradictory things, at the same time.

The second season of OFMD is about learning to embrace all these contradictions. In each episode of OFMD, character look at the same object or situation (a wanted poster, a unicorn, a velvety suit, a relationship, a past trauma) and they tell two completely different stories about it. Sometimes one of those stories turns out to be wrong, but more often than not both are true, and something else--something beautiful-- is born from the place where those contradictions meet. And the characters, Ed most of all, learn to accept and balance this dissonance.

Thematically speaking, I'd argue that's why the second season of OFMD is more fantastical than the first: fantasies are contradictions, real and not-real at the same time. And isn't that what transformation is, in the end? What you are and what you are not, meeting and becoming "you"?

Transformation isn't all good. At first, Ed's fantastic stories hide his pain or invoke despair

But later, the fantasies make their way into reality. The impossible begins to shape reality--and opens a way for hope.

In the last episode of S2, Ed emerges from the waves as the kraken--but there's 3 musical tracks playing, three themes: the kraken, Ed, and Blackbeard. Then he reads a love letter, and has a deeply romantic moment with his boyfriend. He puts on a new outfit to escape the British, yet his personality doesn't change at all. When Izzy first apologizes to him, Ed says "I'm the one who should be apologizing," but then Izzy changes his entire understanding of their relationship. Becomes the first family figure to offer Ed permission to be himself.

Contradictions galore, and yet Ed is still Ed. Both who he was formed into by other people (his father, Izzy, Pop Pop) and yet who he is.

In the final scenes, Ed begins to finally accept the tensions of his life. He tells Zheng that yes, he wants to kill Richie--but he doesn't go on a revenge quest. And while before his forays into being someone else meant changing his name, his clothes and mannerisms, his whole story, he doesn't act like that at all in the last scene of the ep.

And Ed's been able to do all this, to come this far, because of Stede. Stede, who Ed was drawn to because he was a "fancy man who leads a brigade of imbeciles," yet had won a fight with Izzy. Stede, who looked at Ed at his lowest moment, after Ed had admitted that the entire basis of their friendship had been in bad faith, and said, "I'm your friend." Stede who, even knowing Ed wouldn't want to hear from him, poured his heart into letters about how their bond was unbreakable.

Stede is everything he is, all at the same time. And when Ed was drowning in his own contradictions, (a rope tied around him that he could not undo and yet had put on himself) trapped somewhere "inevitable, yet impossible," Stede appeared as a fantastic, beautiful creature and brought him home.

Stede lets Ed be everything he is, and sees it all as true and worthy of love. Even when Ed fucks up, it's all right.

And sometimes, telling two different stories about something doesn't lead to a fragmented self, doesn't drive people apart.

Sometimes, it means understanding. Means acceptance, safety, connection.

From discordance (contradiction), harmony. A gentleman can be a pirate. A man can be a bird, or a unicorn. Izzy can have been one of the good ones and a fucking nightmare. And Ed can tell all his stories, they can all be true--and he can still be Ed.

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd spoilers #ofmd meta #ed teach #stede bonnet #blackbonnet #gentlebeard #okay every single s2 ep has A HEAP OF things where there's one “reality” and multiple stories: Stede's letters; indigo dye... #...zheng the soup lady; a betrayal; wanted posters; a storm; soup in purgatory; life itself; anne and mary to others and themselves; #; pinata and wedding cake; unicorn parts; what happened to buttons; ed's speech; stede's captaining skills; the suit; Izzy's shark #ned lowe's record; ed's treasure and the whole poison/positivity thing; ned's execution; having sex; stede's infamy #that's off the top of my head IT'S EVERYWHERE these writers are unbelievable #long ass post #ofmd season 2 love

[cute-pluto]

pruning

#watcher skizz #skizzleman #tangotek #solidaritygaming #jimmy solidarity #mcyt #double life #double life smp #trafficblr #myart #cutepluto screams #hi i litteraly forgot how i drew tango so i used his skizz goes to purgatory animatic fit