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aromantic-pantyanarchy · 4 months

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It's me. I'm the cis, heterosexual, aromantic man. I will never marry, I will never be married, I will grow into middle age and elder age and I will die unmarried. I will be forced to support a household of myself on only my wages alone for the rest of my life. I will be asked about women and marriage and children by my family for the rest of my life (or men, the progressive ones might say). I may not ever come out to them. I feel like I burned my coming out on something stupid. I don't want to explain it. I don't want to run them through the definitions and intricacies. I don't want the acceptance without understanding, placating me with ceased questions and poor explanations to other, drunk adults.

I like my hair to be long, I spent a year with it dyed a golden blonde with dark roots because I like the trashy party girl aesthetic. I want to dye it again with pink tips. I like painting my nails, black and blue are my favorite colors. I like wearing chokers. I also like wearing baggy jeans and ratty hoodies. I like having stubble. I like having chest hair. I like having a square jaw and broad shoulders. I wish I had a flatter stomach and a thinner profile frame. I don't know what this makes me, perhaps this is something no more GNC than Machine Gun Kelly. I think about this a lot, how queer my appearance truly is. I should think about it less. I have thought long and hard about if I could be trans or if I could be non-binary or if I could be genderqueer and the conclusion I ultimately came to is that I most enjoy being a man open to whatever self-expression I want.

I don't date, but I've thought about it. I would like to meet people, and I would like to have sex with them. But I don't want to hurt them. I fear if I explain what I am beforehand it'll scare them away. I fear if I explain after they'll feel manipulated or abused. I don't know how many people in the dating scene want what I want. I fear my own lack of experience will make me a bad lay, an embarrassing story to tell to confidants in hindsight. I fear my own virginity, a boundary to those I wish to be like. All of these fears are baseless, as I've not been able to even begin a single relationship in my life. Despite this I still heavily identify with terms like "slut" and "manwhore" and "thot" because my interests lay so deeply within casual sex, sex without great intimacy or emotion. This may be some form of stolen valor. I hope the true sluts are not too mad at me.

I made this blog several years ago because a mutual of mine reblogged memes making fun of aro and ace people, making fun of the concept of aphobia, and in addition well known aphobes. I didn't feel comfortable talking about aro stuff on my main blog, for as little as I talk about it. Living through the ace discourse of the 2016 era has largely caused me to cringe in embarrassment any time I am forced to discuss my orientation with people who aren't aro or ace themselves. I no longer follow this person. I unfollowed many people I was mutuals with from that time, most of them because they posted too often about how much they hated men and I didn't want to see that, some because our interests simply drifted too far apart, only one for explicit aphobia reasons. (Also one because they became a "both sides are bad, any vote is wasted" libertarian, but that's unrelated.)

I guess at this point I don't care deeply about what strangers on the internet think of me. If a trusted friend told me that they don't think I'm truly queer that may hurt. But I am going to continue to use the word for myself. I take up no resources. I go to events that are open to me. If an event was not open to me, I think I'd not want to go anyways. I am not a hypothetical, I am not a strawman, I am a person with lived experiences both within and exterior to the queer community. If you hate me, I will permit you to continue to do so. But ultimately, I am who I am, I cannot change these facts, and I would not choose to do so even if I could.

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the-blacker-the-berrry · 2 years

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I made MGK into an anime character ✍🏾

#mgk fanfic #concept art #digital art #portrait #fanart #illustration #original art #sketch #machine gun kelly #cover art #anime art #digital arwork #jojo fanart #jojo's bizarre adventure

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moontrinemars · 2 months

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Asteroid Pan in Natal and Synastry Charts

Once again, this information is compiled for my use and posted for shared convenience. Read my bio for a disclaimer and practice common courtesy if you're interested in using my words or work.

To start, we have to understand the context of Pan, whether as a mythic figure, a divine patron, or both.

Pan is a rustic god, whose domain extends over shepherds, hunting, panic, and folk practices, especially of music or prophecy. He is a companion to Dionysus, and travels with his nymphs.

🐑 Often, but not always, he is depicted as a satyr. Other times, he is represented with horns, but no hooves. Still other times, he is shown as humans, but in the company of satyrs, as well as normal goats.

🐑 He is mischievous, a giver of terror, as well as an eager pursuer of love and pleasure. But he is also a guardian of flocks, a practitioner of animal husbandry, so he is not entirely flippant and impulsive.

🐑 Essentially, Pan was a playful, festive spirit who enjoyed toying with the nerves of strangers and engaging in bestial mating rituals, but he also fully committed himself when guarding the vulnerable. He likes to watch people squirm, but he doesn't want to see the innocent flock actually harmed. Thus...

Asteroid Pan [4450] represents teasing, stimulation, excitement, and impulse control (or lack thereof). He also correlates to roles and relations based in pursuit, such as leader-follower and hunter-target.

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Prominent natal placements of Pan indicate how such a position as his is fulfilled or obtained by the native.

For others who practice a faith that involves some form of the hellenic pantheon, I have listed how I interpret natal blessings from object-asteroid aspects here and are interested in my approach. You can interweave those basic interpretations with the ones I’ve provided and get a rough approximation of how I'd interpret the aspect.

Tight and significant conjunctions will create a sort of "wildcard leader" aspect to the native, empowering the native to vacillate between solemnity and joy when engaging with that role, while oppositions will invite a tension or controversy (that ultimately contributes to personal growth, if the native is healthy) from either pursuit of desire or acts of guidance.

🐑 John F. Kennedy is a great example of a Pan-Sun conjunction native. A steady leader who instilled feelings of unity, known for his lustful pursuits, maintaining good humor in the midst of strife, but certainly someone who spooked certain contemporaries.

🐑 Fascinatingly, his partner, Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, has her own special relevant placement, a Pan-Venus conjunction opposite Pluto. Venus is the planet of values and is correlated to ideals and partners, so a conjunction draws her rational mind and physical needs to Pan-like personalities. Pluto opposition correlates this magnetism to her own generational traumas and transformations. That her Pan-Sun partner was assassinated sitting right beside to her? Worth noting.

🐑 Beyond her connection to her husband, however, Onassis was also a leader of the flock herself in her time as First Lady, mainly in that she became the face of an aristocratic American style. While her status is permanently tied to the tragedy of her narrative and the shock of the JFK assassination, her light, 'tasteful' ensembles contributed to the guidelines of upper-crust American femininity.

🐑 Meanwhile, Marie Antoinette had Pan conjunct Pluto, and we know where her indulgence lead her. Beyond the obvious tie from debauchery to death, this aspect also suggests a dread or anxiety tied to the concept of shepherding, or being in a position to guide.

A few other noteworthy individuals with Pan conjunctions and oppositions include:

Rita Hayworth, Machine Gun Kelly, and Empress Josephine all have Pan conjunct their Ascendant.

Lucille Ball's Pan is conjunct her Pallas-Saturn conjunction.

Pan conjunct Neptune was an aspect in Catherine the Great's chart. Meanwhile, Pan opposite Neptune features in the chart of Fiona Apple.

Pan conjunct Lilith is present in the charts of both Kurt Cobain and Princess Diana!

Marilyn Monroe's Pan was opposite her Vertex, and thus conjunct her Antivertex.

Squares and trines create relationships between that planet's domain and acts of pursuit and guardianship.

🐑 Like Jackie O, Tobias Forge of Ghost also has a Pan-Pluto opposition, but this is complemented by tight trines with Neptune and multiple Muse asteroids, as well as a square with Orpheus. In this case the aspect with Pluto manifests with an alternative influence on culture, as a frontman for a band which inspires both fanatical devotion and a consistent amount of controversy.

🐑 His project itself is a mockery of the powerful institution that is the Catholic Church, but concerts and fan spaces are a place of comfort, and funds from a certain cover song are literally donated to a charity which organizes safe spaces for the vulnerable (summer camps for trans kids).

🐑 Obviously, Neptune and the Muses correlate to art, which connects those Pan themes perfectly to his music. Even better, Neptune rules spirituality, delusion, and mystery. The band's theme is religious, and all members used to be anonymous until a dismissed court case forced Tobias to publicly identify himself, though all other members retain anonymity.

🐑 Britney Spears's Pan is trine her Vertex, Sun, and Lilith, as well as being opposite her Moon. The trine aspects, especially with the Sun, positions a spotlight on her ability to collect massive amounts of fans (aka followers) by making her own choices, and committing to the honest, unapologetic performance of sensual, intimate power.

🐑 The Pan-Moon opposition further speaks to her past and sense of self being in direct conflict with follower-following relationships. This may reflects her struggle to reclaim personal financial autonomy from her former guardians, but I'd shift focus to her relationship with the public, and how contentious it became when she tried to grow and leave her chaste teen image behind, prioritizing adult expression over imposed responsibility to censor herself to comply with outrage from parents.

🐑 This contention actually fed into and fueled Britney's narrative: the rejection of her after she expressed her wild side empowered her to pursue her desires as a new type of female role model, one that had been slut-shamed but come out the other side all the more iconic and beloved. (There's a lot more that worth exploring there, too.)

🐑 Liam Gallagher of Oasis has his Pan squaring his Sun, Mars, and Midheaven. Anyone who knows the fraught history of the band won't be surprised to see an aspect that promises challenges in how taking a leadership role relates to overall growth, animal instincts, and the personal pinnacle of honor.

A few other noteworthy individuals with natal Pan trines and squares (along with other placements) include:

Megan Fox's Pan is conjunct her Mercury, trine her Mars-Ascendant conjunction, and square her Moon.

Britney Spears's Pan is trine her Vertex, Sun, and Lilith, and opposite her Moon.

Liam Gallagher of Oasis has his Pan squaring his Sun, Mars, and Midheaven.

Major Synastry: What Synastry Aspects with Pan Mean

Synastry involving Pan indicates a relationship which instills anxiety, lust, and comfort simultaneously.

Conjunctions reveal a focal point of frenetic, kinetic energy in the dynamic. The Pan individual engages with the other's object like a big, red button that is begging to be pressed. They know it will fire up the other's nerves in whichever way, but it's just so tempting...

🐑 For example, two natives with a double Pan conjunction share a raw and mutual lust, a desire to play chase with one another. This can mean quick, stimulating, and playful foreplay. Both also want to see the other person's desire. This placement doesn't necessarily want a hunt - it wants a game, some sort of race or play-fight where both members are equally participatory.

🐑 It also indicates a willingness to play with each other's minds. On some level, both individuals like the idea of having the power to give the other a scare. They each like the feeling of messing with the other's head, no matter how much they care.

🐑 House overlays are crucial for mutual conjunctions. I'm looking at a Pan-Pan conjunction that lands in one of the native's 12th every time, regardless of zodiac and house system. This empowers the aspect of fear in the relationship for this native. It also transfers their pursuit to the realm of fantasy. They may desire to take that role in the relationship, but they are more likely to imagine it than to actually act upon it.

🐑 It also means the other person in the relationship may have no idea the lust is mutual. The 12th house native relegates it too well. This might frustrate the other, making them feel denied or rejected. They may sense reciprocation, but they feel a need to push the 12th house person until they break down and express it. But the 12th house native also won't be able to clearly see the other's playfulness and aggression for what it is: a signal of lust and even care, missed due to doubt.

🐑 For another example, Pan conjunct Saturn would give the Pan native an easy way to push the Saturn native's buttons. Saturn will clam up at any suggestiveness from or about Pan, mostly because any wildness they exhibit makes them feel less in control.

🐑 Ultimately, however, Pan is a guardian of the flock as much of a member of Dionysus's retinue. Pan can contribute to Saturn's goals and take the reins when necessary. Pan makes Saturn anxious, but ultimately Saturn comes to see the potential for stability there.

🐑 Saturn has major power to turn Pan on, but it takes a while to build. Pan may not consider Saturn that way at first, only to realize after some time that Saturn drives them absolutely crazy, and then they'll be hard pressed to stop fantasizing over them.

🐑 Pan is a follower as much as a pursuer, and if Saturn accepts their advances, Pan will adopt them as one of their own, and be sure to care for them regardless of whatever chaos is going on. If Saturn shies away, Pan may get frustrated and lash out, or may try to tear down whatever stability Saturn relies upon.

🐑 Princess Diana had her Pan conjunct the Pluto of Prince Charles, and Dodi al Fayed had his Pan conjunct her Ceres-Vesta conjunction.

🐑 Diana's ability to garner a following is tied to the tragedies defining Charles personally as well as those of his generation. Diana's grief and devotion connects to Dodi's capacity as a pursuer and follower. If you know anything even generally about these three, you likely immediately understand how accurate this is.

A few other noteworthy pairs with Pan conjunctions in their synastry:

Empress Josephine's Pan was conjunct Napoleon I's Vertex.

Prince Philip's Pan was conjunct Queen Elizabeth II's Pallas-Pluto conjunction.

Nancy Spungen's Pan was conjunct Sid Vicious's Lilith.

Megan Fox's Pan is conjunct Machine Gun Kelly's Mercury-Pallas conjunction.

Oppositions indicate a more fixed pursuer-pursued dynamic. There's a similar flow of energy, but it seeps out, and is both more confrontational and more indirect than with conjunctions. Pan seeks to provoke the other into revealing that part of themself.

🐑 For example, I see Pan opposite a Chiron-Juno conjunction. This is already made more complex by the involvement of two objects, but essentially, the Pan native enjoys maneuvering the other into exposing their romantic hurts, and even gets pleasure from indirectly forcing them into embodying a spousal or sensual archetype. Chiron-Juno finds the teasing, erratic attention of Pan frustrating, both sexually and emotionally, but also compelling.

🐑 So, that sounds really abstract, but how this plays out in real life, is we have a pair where one is always needling at the other about their experiences with relationships. Maybe the Chiron-Juno native is inexperienced, or has traumas. Once the Pan native learns about this, they find it hard to resist dredging those up whenever the chance arises. Something in them just likes watching the other squirm over their romantic insecurities.

🐑 As for the second part, the Pan native will find it exciting when the other has to fill the roles represented by Chiron and Juno. This is the soul's caretaker (Chiron) and the erotic counterpart in body and mind (Juno). Combined, we see a mistress-as-missus figure, the second wife, or simply the erotic healer. Chiron's link to the 'hurt healer' and Juno's statistical link to infidelity and eroticism may also suggest the willingness of the

🐑 Again, houses play a big role here. In this chart, Pan falls into the Pan native's tropical 6th and sidereal 7th, so the other's Chiron-Juno conjunction falls into their tropical 12th and sidereal 1st. The reason why the Pan native feels the need to push the other's buttons about is because they see the other's pain as something hidden from them that is key to understanding their place in this world, and yet also is a reflection of a crucial part of themselves, and so they feel the need to take control in their day to day interactions and of their relationship, specifically by exhibiting the leadership and predatory traits of Pan.

🐑 Let's look at another chart. I see Pan opposite a Pluto-Nymphe conjunction. Nymphe is correlated to nymphs, who commonly kept company with Pan in his travels. This looks like a relationship with both natural comradery and tension.

🐑 The Pluto-Nymphe individual may alternate between playfully elusive and intensely confrontational. The individual is both drawn to and afraid of being captured or hunted, and exposes their wilder side when they want to intimidate others. Their visceral desires and bright spirits only make them seem more ethereal, and thus, out of reach.

🐑 However, this only makes for all the more fun a game to play in the eyes of the Pan native. No ethereal spirit is above a good trick and no force of nature is too powerful to chase down, and besides, a target that positions itself as out of reach is only going to be more satisfying to take in hand.

🐑 On the whole, the amusement and protectiveness that Pan brings can provide some much needed levity to the Pluto-Nymphe native's fears, but the opposition and the asteroid involved will make the link a magnetic, if at times humbling and challenging, one.

🐑The Pan native will also encourage the other's sexuality, and may try to provoke, trick, or guide the other in their embodiment of raw sensual power as a natural force. In fact, the Pan native might be most delighted to find that when pushed to the brink, the Pluto-Nymphe native turns the tables and puts them in a position of prey instead!

Some noteworthy examples of Pan oppositions in synastry:

Napoleon I's Pan was opposite Empress Josephine's Lilith.

Prince Albert's Pan was opposite Queen Victoria's Vesta.

Nancy Spungen's Pan was opposite Sid Vicious's Pluto.

Megan Fox's Pan is opposite Machine Gun Kelly's Pluto-Lilith-Juno conjunction.

I had originally intended to go into sextiles and quintiles in natal charts; squares, tries, sextiles, and quintiles in synastry charts; as well as how aspects to specific related asteroids play out, but I think that's a little ambitious considering everything on my plate right now. Nevertheless, I hope you enjoyed the post, and as always...

If you're interested in more interpretations of Pan in the natal or synastry chart (or even the divisional/harmonic charts) feel free to reply, message, ask, or reblog! I have a lot of projects I'm working on but I love to chat.

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thatredheadwriter · 2 years

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why are you here

dieter bravo x reader

You and your ex show up at the same event. When you meet in the bathroom to talk, it turns into more. Inspired by the song why are you here by Machine Gun Kelly. (The song is way angstier than this fic, but the concept is there.)

This is an NSFW oneshot for female reader with Dieter Bravo of The Bubble. This work contains smut and mature language and should not be read by those under 18. As a writer, I will attempt to make accurate warnings for each of my fics, however, I cannot guarantee that I will identify each and every sensitive topic. My works regularly contain swearing, allusions to/mentions of sex, and canon-level violence.

Content Includes (but is not limited to):

Reader has hair

Angst (they were a couple, now they’re not)

Swearing

Mentions of drinking and edibles

Mentions of sobriety/partial sobriety

Reader has an unnamed male date

Dieter is slightly jealous

Pet names

Semi-public sex

Body worship (I wrote Dieter as a tits man, it just sort of happened)

marking/biting/hickeys

Oral, female receiving

P in V sex, unprotected (this is a bad decision, don’t do this)

Mirror sex

Hair pulling

Creampie

Optimistic ending (I can’t end angst with angst, I’m sorry!)

I don’t know much about addiction/recovery but I’m fairly certain that starting/rekindling relationships is advised against during the beginning stages of the process. But this is fic, and people are individuals. Make good choices.

Please read at your own discretion and remember to consume your fanfiction responsibly.

“You’re really here with him?”

“You’re supposed to be in Cancún.”

Your words tangle together in the empty bathroom, bitter words clashing with the chic marble tile and gold fixtures of the venue. In the dim light from the vanities, you could see Dieter’s chest heaving. For a split second, you thought you detected a hint of hurt in his eyes, but he quickly covered with a dry laugh and a hand run through the curls that had been precisely styled to look messy and carefree. You hated how good he looked.

It was the first time you’d really seen him since the breakup. Of course, you’d seen him nearly everywhere–on the cover of a magazine in the rack at the drugstore, a thirty-second story on the news, ads for his newest project plastered on every billboard in southern California. But seeing him here, the way you used to have him, real and warm and so much more than Dieter Bravo the famous actor, it twisted your gut.

“I wouldn’t have come if I knew you’d be here,” you said quietly, leaning in the corner created by the wall and the vanity, eyes still trained on the broad expanse of his back.

“Why? Is it that appalling to be in the same room as me?”

The venom in his voice stings, but it soothes the part of you that’s wanted to pick up your phone and call him for weeks now. Despite your initial panic when you saw his familiar shit-eating grin from across the room–one that quickly disappeared when he saw you standing there–you knew you needed this. You needed to build an immunity to him, to become inoculated to his pull.

“No, Dee. We just agreed to give each other space. And I didn’t think you’d want to see me.”

“Well, you’re right. I don’t want to see you.”

It’s silent for a moment until you sigh.

“I’ll go.”

“No, I-I want to get out of here anyway.”

“Dieter, you’re the actor, I’m just a writer. Trust me, they’d rather have you here than me.”

He mumbles something under his breath, an old habit of his that’s always driven you insane. With a little too much irritation, you ask him to speak up.

“I said I’d rather have you than any of this shit!” he growls.

A few months ago if he’d taken that tone with you, you’d be on your knees immediately. For all your problems the two of you were always really good at one thing. But he doesn’t get to have you and push you away at the same time.

“What the fuck, Dee? You just said you don’t want to see me.”

His fingers twitch by his side, and you realize for the first time that he’s sober. Well, sober for Dieter–you’d seen him down a few whiskeys and there was no doubt he’d popped an edible or two before coming, he always did before a big social event.

“I…I didn’t want to see you because I hate seeing you alone. Happy. Without me. And I know that’s fucked up. God, and now you’re with fucking-”

The words tumble out way too fast, “I’m not with him.”

Anyone else would have missed the way Dieter’s eyes darkened or the tic of his jaw, but you caught it all. And it went straight to your core. His eyebrows knit together as he tried to understand what you were saying.

“I, um, he asked me to come with him tonight as his date, but I don’t…it’s not like that. I haven’t really…since….” your confession trailed off awkwardly and suddenly it hit you just how stupid your situation was. Standing in the bathroom of a LA club, telling your ex that he’s the last person you’ve been with.

“Sounds like you’ve missed me,” he smirks, and it makes you want to crawl into a hole and never come out. Dieter could be such an ass sometimes.

“Shut up.”

His voice is saccharine sweet, “Oh, it’s okay baby. I missed you too.” He closes the short distance between the two of you, standing so close you can smell his expensive cologne and a hint of the product in his hair. Your thighs clench at the memories it brings.

One of his ring-clad hands tentatively rests on your hip, his thumb tracing intoxicating patterns on your hip through the fabric of your dress. The other comes to rest on the wall near your head, leaving you caged in by his surprisingly strong frame.

“Do you wanna feel how much I missed you, pretty girl?” he leans in to purr before nipping at your ear. Swallowing thickly you manage a nod. Dieter chuckles at your demeanor, and you watch mesmerized as his hand on your hip moves to delicately encircle your wrist, pulling it gently towards the now-obvious tent in his pants. You were surprised by the sounds that escaped the both of you as your fingers found the outline of his hard cock and squeezed.

“Lock the door,” you pull away to unzip the back of your dress, and when Dieter turns back around you find yourself extremely grateful you hadn’t worn a bra. He’s practically salivating and a moment later he’s on you, all lips and teeth and tongue worshipping the skin of your breasts. You’re driven back into the wall and your fingers tangle in the root of his hair as he marks your chest with evidence of his praise.

It’s not long before you’re urging him lower, allowing his thick fingers to slip under your dress and push it down past your hips where it falls discarded on the bathroom floor. Your panties follow soon after and then you’re stepping out of both just as Dieter traces your seam with the pads of his fingers, making you whine for more.

“You’re so wet,” he says offhandedly, as if commenting on the weather or asking a coworker about the score of a game the night before. “Tell me, who is this for?”

“You, Dee,” you sigh contentedly as one of his fingers begins to draw lazy circles around your clit, “It’s all for you. Always for you.”

Back pain and knee problems be damned, Dieter missed your pussy. He dove in like a man starved, forcing your legs apart with his shoulders. When your knees started to give he simply tossed one of your legs over his shoulder, not ready to be denied his favorite treat.

“Shit, Dieter,” you gasp, hips grinding into his face, chasing a quickly approaching high. You’d forgotten how good he was at this. How much he loved it.

You cum hard when he slips two fingers inside you without warning, the sudden intrusion stretching you more than it would have months ago when you were being treated to this nearly daily. The slight pain mixes with the pleasure and you can’t help but cry out as your orgasm works its way through your body, your hand breaking away from Dieter’s shoulder so you can bite down on the flesh of your fist. The muffled bass from the other side of the wall only serves to remind you exactly where you are.

“Missed you, missed this,” he sighs tiredly, placing a kiss to your thigh when you finally tug him away from your sensitive clit, his cheek resting on your leg as he looks up at you with a kind of exhaustion you’d come accustomed to seeing in the mirror lately.

“I need you, Dieter,” you unhook your leg from his shoulder and slide down the wall so you can finally pull him in for a kiss–the first one since he’d thrown his stuff in a bag that July night and stormed out after one too many fights about schedules and work and bad habits.

The taste of you is heavy on his tongue, but that was never uncommon with Dieter. One of his hands runs through your hair and you would be embarrassed of the noise you make if it were with anyone but him. He knows you inside and out, better than any before him and you know you’ll miss this when it all falls apart again.

“We don’t have to do this,” he finally breaks away, gasping for breath and searching your face for an answer.

“Please fuck me, Dee,” you whine, and that’s all it takes before he’s pulling you up to stand again and spinning you quickly to face the mirror over the sink.

You watch, captivated, as he undoes the buckle of his belt and makes quick work of his button and zipper. He’s going commando, another not-so-surprise that makes you giggle.

He’s careful with you. Not in the way his fingers dig into your hip or the way you’re pressed hard against the cold vanity, but he’s gentle as he pushes in–bottoming out in one slow stroke that has your eyes rolling back in your head.

Dieter is still and when you look at him in the mirror, you see him standing behind you with his eyes closed, breathing hard.

“Fuck,” he groans, “You’re so fucking tight. Not gonna last…”

“Dieter, just shut up and fuck me,” you pant, forehead dropping to the cold marble as you clench around him.

“Oh no, pretty girl. I wanna see you,” Dieter’s hand slides up your back to tangle in your hair, gently pulling until your eyes are meeting his in the dim light and you nearly come again as he pulls out slowly before filling you again with a snap of his hips.

Your mouth falls open at the feral look on his face. His eyes are fixed on the place where the two of you are joined but you can’t tear your eyes away from him. The sun-kissed skin of his chest glistens with sweat and the thought crosses your mind that it’s been far too long since you’ve left your mark on his neck. You’ve missed the little sounds he makes when you’re teasing him, making him beg to fuck you.

“Missed you, Dee,” you pant, a tired smirk painting your face.

“Yeah?”

Dieter’s close, you can tell by the stutter of his hips and the furrow of his brow.

“Gonna cum for me Dieter?”

His eyes meet yours in the mirror and he nods pitifully, a desperate whine leaving his lips as he races towards his finish. “Where do you want me?” he chokes out.

“Inside, Dee. I wanna feel it all.”

Your words push him over the edge. His face twists in ecstasy and you can feel his cock twitch inside you. The hand on your hip slides down to rub hard circles on your clit, not stopping until you cum as he finishes inside you. He finally releases his hold on you and lets you slump back into the countertop.

Dieter tries to lighten the mood. “You don’t know how happy I am that you’re not with that prick,” he laughs halfheartedly as he pulls out of you. He can’t stop himself from crouching down and watching his spend leak out of you, fingers tracking through your combined releases making you shudder. The next thing you hear is a slurping sound and you’d kill to see him right now.

But he’s considerate and he knows you’re already close to overstimulation, so Dieter wets one of the fancy hand towels and uses it to wipe the mess between your still-boneless legs. When he’s finished he tosses it in the bin and retrieves your clothing for you.

“You ready to get out of here?” Dieter breaks the silence once you’re both semi-dressed, and what you have to say next crushes your spirit. You finish zipping up your dress and turn to face him.

“This doesn’t mean we’re getting back together.”

He spins around, nearly falling over as he tries to tuck his shirt back into his slacks. “I meant what I said, I-”

“So did I,” you stop him with a hand on his chest, fingers smoothing the wrinkled fabric and toying with one of the buttons he’d left undone. “It doesn’t mean that we’re going to be good together. I miss you, and I want to work this out with you. But we can’t just fuck every time we have a disagreement.”

“I know.”

You smile softly up at him, basking in the warm glow of his rare vulnerability. “ Do you still want to get out of here? That diner over on Imperial is open 24 hours and you love their chicken wrap.”

For just a moment you’re terrified he’ll say no, and your heart catches in your chest.

“Sounds great. But I think I’ll have my dessert back at your place,” he licks his lips and eyes you up and down suggestively.

“Dieter!” you groan, unable to hide your smirk as he squeezes your ass one last time before the two of you prepare to face the public once more.

#dieter bravo #dieter bravo smut #dieter bravo angst #dieter bravo x reader #dieter bravo x reader smut #dieter bravo x reader angst #dieter bravo fanfiction #dieter bravo fanfic #dieter bravo fic #dieter bravo oneshot #dieter bravo x female reader #the bubble #pedro pascal character #dieter is a mess but he's trying

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fuck billie joe armstrongs shitty kid for tweeting there was gonna be a MCR reunion and ruining it for so many of us. yeah people had their theories or whatever but its the place of fans to figure that out from clues and have fun with the mystery of it and hope. its not the place of billie joe armstrongs rich bully spoiled brat to tweet that out and snicker about spoiling it for his 15 year old fans because his daddy told him.

it was something very very small and insignificant but it just showed how little they understood what being in a band is about and how little respect they had for the magic/story/creativity aspect. and how all they cared about was abusing every iota of clout for “tea.”

like its so small and pointless and not many people saw the tweet or paid attention to it but it gets my blood pressure going. the attitude of it makes me so mad. they thought it was so funny to use their privilege and connections to spoil an artistic endeavor a massive and much more respected rock band was planning for nearly a decade.

like the entire breakup of the band, their last song, gerards comic, the new concept album, the branding, so much work into this story about a fallen saint rising from the ashes because that creative aspect and fictional world and story is so important to kids in their target demographic that need something to escape into and believe in. and swmrs didnt give a shit at all. so many other people in the industry and other nepotism probably knew and kept their fucking mouths shut because NOBODY behaved as egregiously as swmrs did. to be honest, swmrs were probably not intelligent enough to comprehend the concept they were going for in the first place because the best they can come up with is fucking april in houston.

and thats why mcr is so successful, because they have that magic and are so committed to the bit and the art. so many people have worked on this for so many years. and instead of learning from that they ruined the big surprise for a bunch of kids and tee-hee about how “i know something you dont!!! my rich daddy told me!!!! my daddys rich so i can piss all over art!!! ha ha!! i can ruin christmas for a bunch of 15 year old girls because im a big big man in a rock band!!!” just because they could. ALSO fuck cole becker personally for rolling his eyes at mcr and saying it makes him cringe and you can outgrow something like that. GROW UP.

and im sure theyd roll their eyes if someone told them the tweet wasnt cool because “its just a joke bro its no big deal dude!!! it was just a joke bro!!” like using your fanbase to bully joeys teenage ex was “just a joke bro!! its just twitter tea!!! its a tweet its not a big deal!!” with time ive come to realize swmrs made their bed and were already lying in it before anything ever happened because of that attitude. theyll whine and cry about the literal teenage Carolinas Ultimate Netflix Tweet that ruined joeys life and career forever like she even mattered. gerard is friends with jimmy fucking urine and pete wentz is who he is and brendon urie is he who is and matty healy is who he is and machine gun kelly is who he is they will have careers forever because they understand the bare minimum of artistic integrity.

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Where did the idea for Anamnesis come from?

Nobody asked, BUT I'LL TELL YOU. Way back at the beginning of my fic writing journey, at the height of the Megan Fox/ Machine Gun Kelly "You smell like weed" "I am weed" shit, I saw someone say they wanted to see a one shot based on it. And I was like, "Oh, that's nice. I hope someone writes it." And then, thirty seconds later I was like, "Oh, wait, that gave me an idea for a scene. I can be the one to write this." So I did, and I sent them the link, and I'm really forgetful about names so I can't remember who they are (I'm sorry if you're reading this), and a few people commented that they would like to see more.

I also wanted to see more, but I was in the middle of writing Clueless Teens and I didn't have enough ideas to make a fic of it yet anyway, so I put it on the back burner and let it brew.

I knew I wanted it to be a bit sloppy. I wanted there to be drama and I wanted the drama to be dumb. But, I also wanted to try to branch out a little bit and try my hand at something that didn't come naturally to me- writing a story that was meant to hurt.

That still wasn't enough to build a plot from. Clueless Teens was coming together easily because I had the Attack on School Castes bonus pages from the AOT manga volumes to use as the skeleton for the fic. With Anamnesis, I was already out of my element and I had nothing to lean back on as I constructed a rough outline (which wasn't much of an outline. Mine usually consist of the end and then a list of things I want to happen in between in no particular order). And, I still needed a real external conflict beyond normal young adult relationship drama. So I bounced ideas off my brother and realized, "Wouldn't an alternate universe alternate universe be kind of silly? Like, an au where they keep meeting versions of themselves from alternate universes? And that finally gave me something to work with, because how are they meeting other versions of themselves? Why? Who are the people involved and what do they want? How does this impact their daily lives and their relationships?

So that helped a lot, but I still didn't know how to end it and I didn't know a lot of what would be happening in between. But finding those answers was like pulling teeth, so, I just started writing and hoped that the act of writing would pull it together. And, it did. It was hard and it was frustrating and I had to delete many, many portions and start over, but once I got the world built and the character's dynamics and personal demons figured out, I was able to chip through all the stone and find the shape of the fic underneath.

So that's how I came up with Anamnesis. I decided I wanted to try something, and then fought tooth and nail to finish it, because this thing did not want to write itself like my other fics have. It was painful. I had to dig into my own issues to help me write theirs. I like to use my fics as an escape from that stuff, and with this one I had to face it head on. I'm beginning to think the results might have been worth it, but I wanted to give up again and again. I only just barely staggered to the finish line.

TL;DR: I wanted to see if I could write angst and ended up slapping together a bunch of different concepts until I had a finished product.

#Anamnesis #creative writing #fanfic #eremika fanfic #writing process #this feels silly. I'm not a professional #but I guess that's fine. People might be curious

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The general public have no clue that Ben is a married man. It’s pretty common to see comments like “wait, Cumberbatch is married?!” on social media like Twitter, Reddit and Facebook. And the people who do know about Sophie don’t know their relationship status or even if they have children. They talk as if Benedict was acting like Machine Gun Kelly

Or the Kardashians. But then again, the septics perception is a bit screwed since they spend their time looking up Ben and Sophie.

Tinhaters usually don't understand the concept of privacy. It doesn't mean never speaking about your family, it means sharing what you want to share, when you want to share it and to whom you want to share it.

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tagged by @ladyarduenna to post 5 songs on repeat

ok i'm going to mostly exclude the ones that were repeated due to contemplation of possible vids or while writing

Fashion by The Royal Concept

I've looped this song heavily since college? No idea how I first heard it though, probably random Spotify wanderings. Anyway gotta respect a song that decides to open with "I dress like shit"

The Wire by HAIM

My one (1) exception to excluding songs looped while writing, bc it was come across and then looped while writing that Caitlyn/Vi fic for Fandom 5k, and well, it's a good song for them. By the end of S1, they're both definitely feeling "I fumbled it when it came down to the wire" :)

Please Stand Up by Sea Power

At the beginning of this year I went on a marathon of all Sea Power songs and per survival of the fittest this is the one that lived to be repeated endlessly. Heavily vibe with "If there's anyone asking, did you get a rush? / There's no point in asking, it wasn't enough"

I Heard Your Voice In A Dream by Smash cast

Another song that's a go-top repeat for several years now, though I've never watched Smash. I really like Jeremy Jordan's voice here. On the fandom side, I keep adding-and-removing it as the Arkady song on my forever-in-progress Violet Liu playlist. The song as a whole doesn't really work for them - that is not the kind of fracture point they'd have - but I find it very hard to resist the line of "So sing to me and I will forgive you"

my ex's best friend by Machine Gun Kelly and blackbear

I have listened to this song so many times and I still cannot draw the relationship chart this song describes. If someone has please tell me.

Tagging whoever wants to do this!!

#meme sheep #music #i.e jaggedwolf is very lyrics-focused #i mean i vibe w the music music of all these but i have no idea how to describe any of those parts of the song #ladyarduenna

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“in his machine gun kelly era” DONT SAY THAT T.T <\3

they just hit hoseok with the hetification ray and called it a punk concept

#asks

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HALESTORM's LZZY HALE And JOE HOTTINGER Perform With SOPHIE LLOYD At 2023 HEAVY MUSIC AWARDS

HALESTORM's Lzzy Hale and Joe Hottinger were joined by rising guitar virtuoso Sophie Lloyd during their May 26 "unplugged" performance at the Heavy Music Awards at London, England's OVO Arena Wembley. The event celebrated the most influential and ground-breaking artists and creatives in the heavy music world.

HALESTORM was nominated in four categories at this year's ceremony, including "Best International Live Artist" and "Best Album".

The 27-year-old Lloyd is one of the most prolific guitarists on the world wide web, a trailblazer who is redefining the concept of a "bedroom" guitarist. A talented composer and accomplished musician, Sophie graduated from the prestigious BIMM in 2018 with a First Class Honours BMus in Popular Music Performance, honing and refining a talent she has nurtured since childhood. Since then, she has amassed the kind of following that even the guitar gods she grew up idolizing would be envious of, with a reach surpassing three million followers across her social channels, built through a steady stream of sharing her talent via guitar "shredleys", covers and her own original material.

Most recently, Sophie could be seen shredding on stage as guitarist for multi-platinum recording artist Machine Gun Kelly on his recent "Mainstream Sellout" world tour, which included sold-out shows at legendary venues such Madison Square Garden in New York and Wembley Arena in London.

Earlier this month, HALESTORM teamed up with country singer Ashley McBryde for a reimagined version of the band's song "Terrible Things", which was originally featured on the Lzzy Hale-fronted outfit's 2022 studio album "Back From The Dead".

This past December, HALESTORM released a deluxe edition of "Back From The Dead". "Back From The Dead: Deluxe Edition" includes seven previously unreleased B-sides, including "Mine", a 1980s-inspired rocker. "Back From The Dead: Deluxe Edition" is available digitally, on CD, and cassette tape, marking the first time that the album has been offered in those physical formats.

Lzzy (vocals, guitar) and her brother Arejay (drums) formed HALESTORM in 1998 while in middle school. Hottinger joined the group in 2003, followed by bassist Josh Smith in 2004.

In December 2018, HALESTORM was nominated for a "Best Rock Performance" Grammy Award for its song "Uncomfortable". Six years earlier, the band won its first Grammy in the category of "Best Hard Rock/ Metal Performance" for "Love Bites (So Do I)".

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#sophie lloyd #dod collaborations #lzzy hale #halestorm #2023 news #Youtube

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recentlyheardcom · 1 year

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Machine Gun Kelly Snort Cocaine Off Megan Fox’s B***s As Part Of Their Halloween Concept And It Is The Dumbest Sh-t This Year

Okay, so the purpose of Halloween in ancient times was to dress in costumes, lit bonfires, gather as a family, and ward off ghosts. Now that we are certain, no ghosts or spirits are attacking us, can we ban it already? CUZ presently, Halloween is a for some wh-res or weird people to display some… Read More »Machine Gun Kelly Snort Cocaine Off Megan Fox’s B***s As Part Of Their Halloween Concept…

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ear-worthy · 2 years

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DIA DE LOS MUERTOS (IN HELL) Podcast Released For Day Of The Dead Holiday

On the heels of their recently released scripted musical podcast, The Ballad of Uncle Drank, Audio Up has now released the next installment of their webby-nominated ‘In Hell’ podcast series, which to date has spanned across Halloween, Valentine’s Day and Prom season.

Titled Dia De Los Muertos (In Hell), the four-episode fictional podcast (created by Audio Up founder and CEO Jared Gutstadt) releases its first two episodes just in time for Day of The Dead holiday, across SiriusXM audio entertainment platforms — including the SXM App, Pandora, and Stitcher — and other major podcast platforms in the U.S.

Marking Audio Up’s first Spanish-language project, the podcast is starring the iconic Danny Trejo, chart-topping rapper Snow Tha Product, Jared Gutstadt, and newcomer Balam.

Ushering in new Halloween traditions with their campfire ready horror musicals dating back to their COVID era experiment with Machine Gun Kelly, 24kGoldn, and iann dior’s Halloween In Hell (which spawned a chart topping podcast and music streams in the millions), Audio Up’s Spanish language sequel will mostly follow the same formula but for a brand new language and audience.

Dia De Los Muertos (In Hell) picks up where the adventure leaves off with the Devil and Gazul looking to steal souls, this time finding themselves out of their comfort zone at the Day of the Dead festival in Mexico during their version of spooky season.

In this series, a band from Cancun called Mensajeros del Mictlán is invited to an unknown music festival during Dia de Los Muertos, only to find that the festival has been organized by Satan himself. Dia De Los Muertos follows Satan (played by Trejo) in his attempt to recruit more souls into Hell. We follow the Latin band Los Mensajeros del Mictlán who have received an invitation to perform at the All Souls Music Festival in Mexico. But what our heroes don’t know is that this music festival is part of Satan’s evil plan to round up more souls into the Nether World. Eventually, the band shows Satan — through a musical adventure — that it is necessary to expand his mind and horizons beyond his activities in the Underworld. Each episode unlocks new music within the series and across DSP’s.

Packed with music from original Latin artists such as Snow Tha Product alongside the debut effort of up-and-coming artist Balam, Dia De Los Muertos (In Hell) promises to be one wild comedic adventure and journey through the depths of the underworld and beyond.

Audio Up CEO Jared Gutstadt says, “These are the sort of campfire stories that I was told as a kid at overnight camp meant to scare, entertain and in success become a new form of folklore. The music coming from these projects is absolutely phenomenal, and working with some of the top Mexican and Mexican-American talent across acting and music has really brought this whole thing together. Danny Trejo is an absolute legend of action films, and Snow Tha Product is someone who we admire greatly for her ability to become a chart topping artist with a brand new independent lens. This feels a lot like the early days of nineties indie cinema. We’re trying to create IP of the future with these concepts, and we’re excited to unlock more Spanish language content along the way.”

“I’ve played a lot of bad dudes over the years, but this is the first time I didn’t have to stab anybody,” said iconic actor Danny Trejo who is set to play Satan in the series. “Sign me up again, homes, this podcast thing is cool.”

“Day of the dead is a magical time of year… letting a new audience into this fantastical world through our podcast and immersive world is really exciting and new,” stated Snow Tha Product. “This is a funny, cool and awesome story. The songs are fire and Audio Up is breaking some new ground. Getting to work with the legendary Danny Trejo is the icing on the cake. I’m proud to be part of this podcast”

Dia De Los Muertos (In Hell) released its first two episodes on October 25th, with episode three releasing on November 1st, and the final episode releasing on November 8th.

#podcast #horror #fiction

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Power season 2 cast

They both know, had the past played out differently, Davis could be locked up alongside his big brother, but Theo questions if the guilt’s enough for Davis to keep his promise. Patrick case, now the biggest defense attorney in New York City. But now, they sit on opposite sides of the law with Theo serving an extensive prison term, and Davis, off his win in the Tasha St. Theo Rollins used to run the streets with his little brother, Davis MacLean. In a character description for the role, they give some background information on Rollins: Now, his little brother is going to enter the picture.Īccording to TVLine, Starz announced that Redman would be joining the cast of the show as Theo Rollins, the brother of Maclean. The Power spinoff is headed into its second season, one that ended with Meth's character, defense attorney Davis Maclean, securing a big legal battle. Frank plans to expose his police chief for his knowledge of and associations with the drug tests on New Orleans citizens, but we don't see that happen.Method Man's longtime partner in crime Redman has officially joined the cast of Power Book II: Ghost, and in it, he will play the brother of Method Man's character. The father-daughter duo hit the road together before the credits roll, leaving Frank and Robin behind. Project Power ends with Robin, Frank, and Art saving Art's daughter, Tracy, and taking down the operatives who held her captive. We just want to see how the audience feels first." Some questions remain unanswered. "And we did have thoughts about it going in other directions, but I wouldn't want to jinx it. I think that there are definitely many more directions the story could go, and the concept is so much fun, and you could imagine it," Joost told Digital Spy. "We wanted to design it as a fully enclosed, satisfying, entertaining story. I think that there's really, really cool possibilities and I hope we get to make some of them come true." The directors also think there are ways to further explore the film. "You can keep mixing and matching in really exciting ways take Friday the 13th and then put superpowers in the middle of it. "You could do a Power film as a horror movie or as a sci-fi movie or a coming-of-age movie," he explained. Screenwriter Mattson Tomlin is hoping for a sequel, per Forbes, as he originally pitched the film to Netflix as "a way to Rubik's Cube so many different genres." The story of Power can fit into various genres. "And that's the heart of the movie for us-the relationship between Robin and Art.” However, they scaled that back to " more room for the dramatic scenes," Schulman explained. Joost added, "We have a massive list of powers, and their corresponding animals."

"There's a version of this movie that has, like, twice as many powers," Schulman also told Yahoo. Schulman and Joost said there were many more superpowers that didn't make the final cut. In some instances, popping the pill can be fatal, as a few unlucky users are said to have exploded after swallowing the capsule. The catch? One doesn't know what kind of power they will manifest upon taking the drug. But the film's powers also go beyond the animal kingdom: Gordon-Levitt's Frank has bulletproof skin, Machine Gun Kelly's Newt can set himself on fire, and Foxx's Art basically has bomb-like abilities. Many of the superhuman abilities triggered by the "power" pills are based on animals, such as regenerative qualities, joints that bend both ways, or bones that protrude from the skin to be used as weapons. Skip Bolen/Netflix There are many more powers to be explored. Surely enough, the Reddit discussions have already begun. "But I don't think we would ever presume that something should have a sequel until the fans ask for it." "Well if you start a Reddit chat thread, maybe you can get the demand going," Schulman told Yahoo UK of a possible sequel. However, they're waiting to see how fans react. Project Power has not yet been confirmed for a sequel, and its directors, Ariel Schulman and Henry Joost ( Catfish, Paranormal Activity 3, Nerve), didn't want to assume that it would get one. The directors are waiting to see if fans want a sequel. The film just arrived on the streamer Friday, August 14, but there's already speculation over whether the story will continue. The New Orleans–set flick stars Dominique Fishback as Robin, a high schooler selling the drug to provide for her diabetic single mother Joseph Gordon-Levitt as Frank, Robin's police associate who tracks people using the pills but also takes them himself and Jamie Foxx as Art, a former test patient for the substance combating the whole operation to find his missing daughter. On the heels of Extraction and The Old Guard, Netflix has expanded its original, big-budget fare with Project Power, an action film imagining a world where mere mortals take pills that give them superpowers for just five minutes.

#Power season 2 cast

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