#manipulation is stressful help

[lilac-whump]

I have never worked so hard to manipulate people before and it is going SHOCKINGLY well

#dnd #dnd shenanigans #secretly evil #how has nobody seen through my lies #comitted a murder in game last week and tricked everyone into thinking my victom ran away #except the victim he obviously knows cuz he has to make a new character #manipulation is stressful help

[writer-room]

Listen when people say they want Percy to go on a villain arc most times I see it as they want him to go dark, want him to start murdering, maiming, going full Luke, etc. And I support that. If anyone deserves to kill people it's this kid.

However, let us be realistic for a moment, because I quite like the other alternative. Villain arc Percy usually entails "he's finally had enough of the Gods bullshit & will do things his own way". Let us think on this. What would Percy most likely do in this situation? Would it really be murder right off the bat?

I think he'd be the pettiest, annoying little shit there is. And because one can't usually threaten the Gods in a way that truly matters, but they can make them sweat really hard.

This goes beyond ignoring their calls and leaving them on read. He refuses to give food offerings unless it's the nastiest shit known to man. Bribes the cyclops into hucking huge objects up Mount Olympus before they all scurry off. Finds the olive tree Athena gave to Athens, and while he wouldn't have the heart to destroy it, he'd for sure rip off a branch & mail it to her (Annabeth nearly had to put them in witness protection).

Eventually it gets to the point he has Nico on speed-dial and offers him a shit ton of fast food & a 'get out of Percy's quest bullshit free' pass if he could hop into the Underworld and yoink up some annoying spirits or dead monsters to piss off the Gods. When the Gods get pissed at him Percy just silently pulls out some safe-for-demigods phone like "hang on I wanna see how many happy meals I owe Nico for bringing Typhon back up". They know he is not bluffing.

Could the Gods counteract him? Yeah, sure, Hera gave him amnesia and it was like 90% effective for a while. However, he kind of went off the rails, everyone else went off the rails, and then they had even more Roman nonsense to deal with. If anything it both solved but also made even more problems. And a much angrier Percy. So, frankly, they're very confident it could work, but they're a little worried about what the aftermath would be.

Ares suggests just killing him. Poseidon takes offense to this. Artemis scoffs and says even Ares couldn't beat him. Everyone stops for a moment. The question is not asked verbally. But it is seen in the darting eyes and shifting seats.

Can they kill Percy Jackson?

Well, sure, they must be able to. He's a powerful kid, no doubt, with powerful allies, but they are Gods. Of course they can kill him. So that's not the real question, they wouldn't dare really entertain such a thing to ever confirm if it was true, but this is rather the layer of frosting hiding the real atrocity of a cake underneath it.

What will they lose trying to kill Percy Jackson?

What will remain standing in the face of some 18-year-old who lived one of the hardest knocks of life, loves so much it makes them sick, is so completely unaware of his own strength not even they know its full extent, and currently has absolutely zero fucks to give about the end of a reign longer than he will ever understand?

They decide to quietly shut the lid on that whole fiasco and let Percy do whatever he wants.

Unfortunately, they can't exactly ignore everyone else. And everyone else is who Percy cares about the most. So, think of it more like leaving a grenade in a locked box in the attic. Just hope and pray you've moved out before something gets curious and starts rummaging around up there.

#percy jackson #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #rick riordan #dark percy jackson #ideas #talk #text post #greek gods #annabeth chase #nico di angelo #typhon #pjo headcanon #to be entirely clear percy is still someone who did just like manipulate bob into murder #and poisoned Akhlys thru her tears fully intending to kill #among other things. hes still that person. however hes also the guy who helps leo make some weird machine #and they try to test its flight by riding it off a cliff over the lake w bamboleo by gipsy kings blasting #hes still totally that guy (under stress but i say that not as an excuse just as an 'he doesnt do it on a whim. but he still Can') #but hes also like. stupid. & u gotta get him at the right Vibe before he starts to get like Really concerningly murderous about things #usually hes the regular amount of murderous like most halfbloods are bc they deal w too much on a regular basis #i think that a percy turning 'dark' would b him looking the gods in the eye & saying 'no lol. also u suck. L + ratio.' #& then when they try to fight him on it only THEN does he while still holding eye contact begin to make the ocean levels rise #specifically targeting important places to those gods & havin his ocean buddies destroy the place #u wanna dance god boys? he will spare humanity on some rock but he Will destroy everything else #he is one-shotting monsters bc hes not dealing w this. some bs happens & he just grabs some monster by the throat & makes them spill #if that doesnt work he just walks into olympus w pandoras box 2.0 & starts to open it until the gods will talk to him. they start talkin #bs again. he slowly opens it again. they talk. he shuts it. they spew more bs. he opens it a little faster. they give in #dark percy to me is someone who doesnt DEFAULT to violence but who realized 'oh i can just do whatever i want' & found that gods react #best when its violent. he only does this w gods & monsters bc he chooses fastest route to get what he wants. but he recognizes violence Bad #so he just looks for the most receptive response. & then he abuses it relentlessly. but he also hates the gods. come stop him btch u wont

[the-matron-of-ravens]

I just gotta make peace with the fact that I see the relationship between FCG and Dancer VERY differently than the majority of the CR fandom.

But ho boy every time I see a post about how FCG is abusive and Dancer is standing up for herself I just die a little inside

#critical role #cr spoilers #four sided dive #four sided dive spoilers #Fresh Cut Grass #FCG #Dancer #you’re telling me that there’s nothing wrong with treating an obviously sentient automaton as a non-sentient Helper Bot for years #we know from FCG’s mechanics that his stress goes up the more and more he’s used without rest or recovery. #so what does that tell us about how Dancer treated him? #that she used and used and used until he broke #and sure it makes sense she’s traumatized and I don’t even think she’s wrong to not want to be around him #but I just can’t ignore the fact that she essentially placed this freshly born bot in servitude with no plans to let him go #or tell him he’s a person #and if we’re saying FCG is manipulative for needing to fix dancer and not knowing how to take no as an answer - well… #who taught him that his entire purpose was to serve fix and help dancer??? #that doesn’t just go away #and don’t tell me she didn’t know he was sentient #we’ve seen every NPC with two brain cells to rub together recognize he’s sentient

[s0fter-sin]

so lately i’ve been obsessed with a 141 dancer au

gaz runs classes, has a youtube channel and quickly becomes one of the most sought after choreographers in the music video scene. soap is his dance partner for his classes, he helps run them and does demonstrations with him

ghost is also a choreographer and he’s gaz’s Arch Nemesis

he's famous for never performing his routines, never doing public appearances without his skull mask and being highly exclusive with who he allows to perform his choreo which earns him his name (since he’s a ghost creator). gaz however is a social media darling, his classes and videos regularly doing huge numbers

they both popped up around the same time and are neck and neck in terms of popularity and skill and they immediately rub each other the wrong way

gaz accuses ghost of not actually choreographing his routines himself bc no one has ever seen him dance and ghost thinks gaz is a clout chaser who's just in it for the fame instead of passion

he became a dancer as a way to channel his rage after years of being an underground fighter, the discipline and physicality helping him more than fights ever did. he hates the thought of someone just using it just to get famous when it literally saved his life

deep down they know their accusations are wrong and they have a grudging appreciation for the other's talent but they'd both rather die than admit it

price is a famous dancer turned director they both work with frequently and they always fight over him; trying to get their routines picked for his music videos. he's also the only one in the industry who's ever seen the ghost perform (before he got famous and before the Incident™)

he finally gets fed up with them constantly being at each other's throats and hires them both to work together and choreograph a joint routine. they're both famous in their own right but this video is for a huge artist so neither of them can refuse no matter how much they hate the other

gaz has a gymnastics background but also a ballet background which lends him to a more fluid style whereas ghost’s style is stronger, more masculine with sharper movements so they naturally end up butting heads

then there's soap who has a completely different style altogether, focusing on a more modern, breakdancer style which makes him see everything completely differently

but it also adds to his self-doubt bc he didn't have a formal dance education, he built his entire repertoire by himself. people see him as inferior to gaz who has that very formal, highly disciplined style. his insecurities about only ever being seen as gaz's demonstration partner and that he can only do gaz’s routines so all his skill is just an extension of him instead of being seen as a dancer in his own right forces him to adopt a rigid - destructive - perfectionism in himself and his body

soap meets ghost before the first rehearsal. he gets to the studio early to practice when sees this beautiful man dancing

he has no idea who he is but he moves so seamlessly, almost better than gaz, and he immediately falls a little in love. the man catches him watching in the mirror and he flusters, getting worse as the man just smirks at him and flawlessly completes the routine

soap tries to save face and asks him to teach him the routine he's doing

the man agrees, introducing himself as simon. the style of the routine is familiar to soap but he can't focus on it when simon's hands are on his waist, guiding him through the steps; his chest pressed up against his back. they work together beautifully, picking up each other's body language and dancing together easier and better than they've ever danced with anyone

then gaz arrives and the vibe in the studio immediately changes

simon's easy confidence becomes hostility, pulling up the skull gaiter he'd let hang around his neck as he practically pushes soap behind him to square up to gaz

soap’s shocked when gaz hits back with the same energy until he realises it's the same way he acts whenever he talks about ghost and his stomach drops

he steps out from behind ghost to side with gaz and the betrayal in simon's eyes hurts more than anything he's ever felt

from there it's romeo and juliet; camp gaz versus camp ghost as they fight over every step of the choreo and soap is the poor bastard stuck in the middle

soap tries to channel that “you’re my best friend’s rival, i have to hate you,” mindset but he can’t forget the way it felt to dance with simon

and how much he wants to do it again

#my friend mimi introduced me to gymnast gaz which made me think he grew up in competitive gymnastics and left it to be a dancer #whether his family was disappointed in that decision i havent figured out yet #the Incident™️ was roba getting simon directly from the underground and manipulating him into working at his strip club where price finds h #and pulls him out when roba tries to force him into sex work too #soap earned his name for being such a clean dancer and never making mistakes during performances #which just make his insecurities worse bc now he has to live up to his new reputation as well as fight of the gazs partner image hes gotten #farah and alex are definitely team gaz and i think nikolai would be his manager #then im thinking alejandro and rudy are team ghost with laswell as his manager #then bc soap is the odd man out hes used as tie breaks when they get into arguments about what move should go next in the routine #the pressure of picking correctly and the routine being essentially on his shoulders freaking him out just as much as having to choose #between his best friend who expects him to always side with him and ghost who always has good ideas #this isnt a negative haz au btw i think it would be a good way to explore his arrogance and stubborness #hes decided ghost is his enemy and nothing can pull him away from that #(except for what eventually does but im not sure what that is yet lmao) #i want soap at some point to completely overwork himself and his bad knee swells and gets irritated and finally gives out #and its ghost who forces him to take a break and convinces him that working his body to death wont help him be a better dancer #cue tender wound care and ghost backstory as he reassures soap that he is an amazing dancer #he offers soap a no stress space at his studio if he ever wants it & gaz overhears and thinks soap is betraying him and leaving so cue angs #we’re a team. ghost team #coming out of my cage and i’ve been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #kyle gaz garrick #simon ghost riley #save post #john price #cod 141 #soapghost au

[baladric]

is it NORMAL to lowkey dissociate upon getting out of very informative therapy sessions, like we talked about autistic burnout/sensory overwhelm again and she asked me if it could be informing my chronic pain flares and/or vice versa, and yet again im like,, Äch Nae, The Symptoms

#she is so fucking smart and breaking me down into my component parts #and she doesnt even know the worse 2/3s of my trauma #which i think is helping her identify the subtler shit #like not immediately like 'well the avoidant tendencies likely stem from the abusive stepmother #'calling you Manipulative for voicing things like idk acute physical illness from active food poisoning' #bc she doesnt know about that! #instead we discussed burnout's symptom of making verbalization very difficult #and i was like oh fuck wait is THAT whats been happening my whole life oh my GOD #bc it IS whats been happening!!! #i experience a sudden jolt of stress hormone from conflict and become tongue-tied #feels like failing a string of dire persuasion checks #and so i've learned to avoid those moments at all costs!!! #even the cost of losing me my father and oldest friend

[mugentakeda]

i dont think that aziraphale accepting the position to reform heaven was a stupid or bad decision when you look at it from the greater good angle and thats always been the angle aziraphale has chosen to make his decisions. its the exact same as the squabble they had under the gazebo in s1 just slightly to the left

#crowley is a pessimist so when he decided there was no hope to help the earth he wanted to take aziraphale and run as far as he could away #and aziraphale is an optimist and picked doing basically the impossible and toed the line of falling to save humanity #at GREAT COST #if it werent for adam at least #because aziraphale is nothing if not extremely selfless #its why he housed gabriel despite how horrible and manipulative gabriel was to him before #its why he picked taking the position to help reform heaven to what heaven needs to be over running away with crowley #and while he loves crowley i doubt running away with him when aziraphale could help his brothers and sisters in heaven would make him happy #At All #and crowley was definitely right about the fact that heaven is toxic #it wont bend to aziraphales changes and it will definitely take advantage of his kindness and itll definitely end horribly #but at the same time im glad that aziraphale went with the decision he thought was right and true #even if itll be hard and painful #idk this season and its ending was stressful but i just loveeee aziraphale dude #good omens

[prettypangolins]

just got a scam dm that said:

Yo hi there! I’m very sorry to bother you at this time but I’m hoping if you’d be so kind to check the post that I pinned on my blog and maybe give it a little help by boosting/sharing it? it’s for my cat who struggles to breathe :((( and we need help to get him the tests that he needs. Thank you if you do as it would really mean the world to me and I understand if you don’t, still appreciate you and stay safe! Btw, please do send me a msg to reply or answer the ask privately instead as I dont want other blogs to think im a spambot or what, sorry for asking this, praying you’d consider! 🥲🙏

however the blog has only been reblogging and posting for 14 hours i'm just like... go away????

i saw a post about scams like this a little while ago, so i'm wise to it but it feels HORRIBLE bc kitty. but it's usually a scam. if you get one of these, report and block. you're not a bad person for not engaging - even if it's legit, you don't have to reblog/boost/donate just because you feel bad or guilty. but also, if you're getting a dm request like the above it's very very very likely someone trying to make money by pretending to be a legit person asking for help in a way that seems genuine but isn't. i've never seen this person in my notes. idk who they are. the wording of the pinned post is designed to evoke that 'omfg i want to help!' sad response by telling you how bad things are, etc. and get you to act without thinking

but details with this one are off. i mean, the pinned post says 'next payday is on june 10th' but today is the 12th of june now and 14 hours ago in was the 11th. prior to the 'please help!' post, 9 posts were reblogged in the space of 2 minutes (not too unrealistic for tumblr), then there's the help request, followed immediately by 14 posts all with exactly the same timestamp, which... you're either reblogging desperately without looking at what you're posting from the 'for you' or 'explore' page, or that's a queue, set to dump those 15 posts at that specific time to make the blog look legit at a glance (most likely what happened). the posts after that are at more random (last post was 5 hours ago, the dm was 4 hours ago)

so yeah i feel kinda guilty, but there are people out there who rely on this to manipulate others and take advantage of our desire to help so that they can line their pockets

(also if you feel guilted into reblogging to 'signal boost' a post asking for money, it's going to be seen by followers who reblog for the same reason and maybe even give money to a total stranger who told us something bad happened and has then let our desire to help and guilt over not acting do the rest. it's okay to break the chain. we can't care about absolutely everything or help absolutely everyone, and we just burn ourselves out if we try to)

#sharing so if anyone else doesn't know... now you know #these are scams #but they seem genuine which is shitty as fuck #it's making me doubt myself... maybe they *are* legit? #but don't go fuckin dming people like that and asking not to post the ask so they're not considered a spambot #that kinda tells you that they're spamming! #'signal boost!' and 'please help!' fuckin shitty manipulative tactics #you (yes you reading this) are NOT a bad person for not engaging with these dms and posts #it's good not to pass on the stress/guilt/sense of obligation #obv for legit causes it's different but you still need to be careful just in other ways

[scattered-winter]

😈🤲🏻 <- guy asking for a winter ramble(TM) about eliot spencer <333

tw for uh. abusive relationships and manipulation and shit like that. like I said. I'm going feral.

LISTEN HE'S SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm specifically going super insane over his relationship w moreau because it's very clear that there Was In Fact some kind of relationship there. like ?!? the thing I'm the most insane about is how moreau seems to get under eliot's skin in a way that none of the other marks they've had can. I'm thinking specifically about the scene when hardison and eliot go face-to-face with moreau for the first time. eliot actually looks nervous, which is a look we haven't seen on him like .. at ALL. his whole THING is being the unrufflable, unshakeable team hitter who doesn't balk at anything, and so seeing him so visibly distressed was SOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a collection of some of my favorite expressions in the ep:

he literally ??? has tears in his eyes in the last one as he's begging parker not to ask what moreau made him do ??? i am ??? in shambles??????

and like. any other character showing this amount of emotion wouldn't even phase me because that's like. not a lot of emotion for someone to show but when it's eliot ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, especially since there were so many microexpressions I couldn't possibly get a screenshot of because they're soo blink-and-you'll-miss-it like ,, jaw ticks and lip trembles and voice trembling and shit like that. because it's eliot, the guy who hardly ever cracks, who's showing this much open emotion, it's the equivalent of someone scream-sobbing onscreen. I'm actively going insane

because it's like. moreau must have had ?? so much power over eliot in the past ???? the way he was acting in that scene, the way he was being So confident and almost...mocking .. taking every opportunity to throw the fact that He Knows Eliot into their faces (saying eliot prefers beer, calling him "old friend," reminiscing about "the old days," etc). he was deliberately trying to get under eliot's skin and the thing that makes me insane is that it WORKED. eliot was already so tense and ready for a fight even before moreau showed up, and it was SO !!! so !!!!!! even when hardison was drowning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eliot didn't have the luxury of showing his stress and worry on his face because if moreau Knew he was scared for hardison their whole job would be blown!!!!!!!!! and it is SUCH a favorite trope of mine where a character has so force themselves to be impassive while a member of their team (bonus points if it's a S/O!!!!!) is in danger !!!!! so really this concept had me from day ONE

and like. the concept of them being A Thing (tm) romantically before canon. not in a cutesy healthy way but in a "there's 13 layers of manipulation and control and one-sided codependency and moreau was using eliot as a tool and a weapon and it's all about eliot being his possession and eliot was trapped in a cycle of manipulation and wanting so desperately to be wanted and being controlled and even after breaking free from it he still had lasting scars for years" kind of way. for moreau it's all about possession and control and for eliot it's all about having a place to belong even though he's losing parts of himself along the way. because the worst, darkest thing from eliot's past* happened while he was working for moreau, and he didn't tell the team about it. now, that's not really a shocker, because the team lies to and withholds information from each other all the time but !!!! still !!!!! there's been this level of Openness eliot and the team has had in the last few eps I've been watching where like ..... if anyone has any questions abt their past, they'll answer them pretty willingly. but he specifically asked parker not to ask him what he did because he didn't want to tell her !!! (which ALSO makes me insane because .... he literally can't say no to her????????? even though he Doesn't Want Them To Know ,, he fully knew that if she asked he would Tell Her ... aoughhh)

*I don't think they ever confirm what that was but bro.....I Have Theories (tm)

and like !!!!!! eliot being used as a tool by his abuser, and doing the absolute worst things he's ever done in his life, that will haunt him forever, and then even years after leaving moreau behind being shoved face to face with him ??!!?!?! I really hope moreau comes back in later seasons because eliot was DISTRESSED and I was EATING IT UP !!!!!!!!!!!!! and I also have had a LOOONG lasting love for whump/angst tropes where one character has been Controlled And Manipulated by another character and even years later that person still has so much power over them ,,,,,,,,, it's SO.!!!!!!!!

if I take some liberties w all these concepts ,, there's SOOO much potential there. moreau being a "toxic ex" but crank the toxicity up to 11 and throw in a healthy dose of whumper/abuser behavior and he somehow gets a hold of parker and hardison and basically forces eliot to leave the team and come back with him ,, kind of a "you don't belong to anyone but me" kinda deal ,,,,,,, oughhhgogughgghghh

#this was SOO scattered because my thoughts are basically just any variation of !!!!:D!!!!!!>:D!!!!!!!!! #i'd like to add the disclaimer that i'm only just getting into the beginning of s4 so if there's anything else that comes after #in regards to this #then i don't know about it <3 #but i know im right <3333333333 #anyway this is where i reveal my longtime love of fucked up relationships where there's a clear power imbalance #and psychological/emotional/maybe even physical torture involved #not in a hot kink way but in a sinking my teeth into them and dissecting every aspect of the emotions and conflict #i LOVE writing emotions. grief and manipulation and trauma and sadistic control and someone being controlled. #it's sooooooo fascinating to explore in writing. and ougghghh <3333 #just to clarify im not woobifying eliot in any way im just squeezing him like a stress ball <3 #he's not my little meow meow he's my blorbo SCRUNKIFEROUS soldier hope this helps <3333 #UGHGHUGHG. I AM PUTTING BOTH HIM AND MOREAU INTO A BEAKER. I AM STUDYING THEM. #i also have SUCH a love for the person in the control/manipulation position being SO confident and mocking to the person #they used to control even years after they left. #eliot meeting moreau face to face years after the fact and moreau still has just as much power over him as he used to???? #making eliot feel just as helpless as before ????????????? #BOY I EAT THAT ONE UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT BOY!!!!!!! #ugh. anyway. going soooooo insane abt them. This Close to writing 10K of emotional manipulation and torture #and maybe some physical and psychological torture too because <33333 #and then an additional 7K of healing and moving on with a much more healthy relationship w his bf and gf godbless #ugh. SOO many thoughts. i literally have a headache from this. teehee <3 #leo 🌻 #leverage #eliot spencer #tw manipulation #tw abuse

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 195

Adjective: Cloistered

Noun: Crown

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Cloistered: having or enclosed by a cloister, as in a monastery; kept away from the outside world; sheltered

Crown: a circular ornamental headdress worn by a monarch as a symbol of authority, usually made of or decorated with precious metals and jewels; the reigning monarch, representing a country's government; an ornament, emblem, or badge shaped like a crown; a wreath of leaves or flowers, especially that worn as an emblem of victory in ancient Greece or Rome; an award or distinction gained by a victory or achievement, especially in sports; the top or highest part of something; the top part of a person's head or a hat; the part of a plant just above and below the ground from which the roots and shoots branch out; the upper branching or spreading part of a tree or other plant; the upper part of a cut gem, above the girdle; the point of an anchor at which the arms reach the shaft; the part of a tooth projecting from the gum; an artificial replacement or covering for the upper part of a tooth; a British coin with a face value of five shillings or 25 pence, now minted only for commemorative purposes; a foreign coin with a name meaning ‘crown,’ especially the krona or krone; a paper size, now standardized at 384 × 504 mm; a book size, now standardized at 186 × 123 mm; a book size, now standardized at 246 × 189 mm

#i quite literally kept falling asleep while putting this prompt together #so i apologise for being 8 and a half hours late and for any typos i may have missed due to that #im just glad this week is over cos work was stressful and exhausting to say the least #anyway there are some very interesting directions this prompt can go #i initially thought about writing about a royal person who grow up locked away from the outside world #and being manipulated by their parents to ensure they helped the wealthy and not the commonfolk when they had to rule #but i didnt know about the nature/plant definitions of 'crown' prior to googling so i may do something with that instead #or i could perhaps combine those definitions for my poem #im definitely not going to work with the teeth definitions of 'crown' #i can tell you that much #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least #*grew

[childofaura]

Broke: Mephiles’ design being grayscale Shadow is a lazy design choice.

Woke: Mephiles’ design being grayscale Shadow is genius because of his nature in attempting to appeal to Shadow’s past traumas with promises of revenge and justice, like the inner voice that constantly tells you to simply let go.

Bespoke: CRYSTAL LOOK IS METAL.

#Sonic the Hedgehog #I cannot stress how much I love that Mephiles and Shadow are so intertwined #In SA2 Shadow’s villain was less Eggman and more his own inner demons #In Shadow the Hedgehog it was less Black Doom and more the empty gaps in his memory (but also Black Doom later) #But in 06? It’s purely Mephiles #Because after everything previously there’s nothing in his past that’s left to overcome #Just Mephiles #Imagine being faced with someone who looks almost exactly like you #Who not only knows you but really KNOWS you #That scene in the Flame Core where he taunts Shadow with the image of his future self being held in stasis? #He KNOWS how humanity had screwed Shadow over #And let me tell you Mephiles’ manipulation was the strongest out of any villain who used Shadow as a tool previously #But he underestimated exactly how much Shadow’s past experiences had helped solidify his identity; his goals; his faith in his own path

[selenealwayscries]

as a swiftie im blocking people who are too parasocial about taylor rn 💀 i dont care if you think im a toxic person or whatever but shes obviously dropping the til dawn tracks as a PR stunt to clean up after her mattshit insane boyfriend and herself

i also dont care if you think im jumping ship or not believing in her enough . as an ex Dream (mcyt) stan that mentality was literally taught to me by the larger fandom and i still feel its linger effects on me as a person 💀💀💀

my friends and Twitter mutuals and i were all groomed into defending an adult man against legitimate criticism im NOT doing it again for taylor . NO ONE is worth doing this for.

#moondrop.txt #taylor swift #snow on the beach #karma is a relaxing thought #matt healy #not putting too many tags cuz im not familiar with the swiftie tagging systems #i cannot stress this enough . i was groomed into this mindset and im still undoing the damages it did to me #i cannot look back at that time of my life without being genuinely horrified by how i was manipulated by a guy ive never met into defending #so much of him #youre right btw . i AM doing this out of self preservation . because no one is ever worth this much energy defending #hope this helps <3

[thedragonagelesbian]

anders have you forgotten who tf you’re talking to.

#cyrus hawke #anders you cant just say things like this to cyrus. #he is already so worried about you and also still very angry at you for lying about the potion #and also guilt tripping him into helping you plant the bomb in the chantry #and is thus also angry at himself for being worried about you even after you manipulated his good will & kindness like that #you are solely responsible for at least three of his stress migraines in the last two weeks. anders pls.

[aku-zone]

My mom thinks we're going to sleep early and finish cleaning out the appartment tomorrow. Little does she know i'll be doing it while she sleeps

#muahaha i'm such an evil mastermind. a master manipulator (just likes being nice to people) #i'm so EVIL (wants to help) #i enjoy human SUFFERING (doesn't want my mom to be stressed about it)

[alphalesbian]

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#i need a break. a long long break. every day some gargantuan emotion or situation or something happens. #how can i even get a break this long. i basically work every day. i dont even have the money or anything to really do it either. and it #feels often like my mediation here is not enough. this sucks. kinda really sucks that my immediate family for the most part cannot be #bothered to be decent people. kinda sucks that my sister is so manipulative and disregarding. kinda sucks my brother is so down right now. #kinda sucks my landlord aunt and uncle who are like Money Rich both know how washy our situation is and do nothing. like less than nothing #btw. no house care in the 10 years weve lived here. lmao. but higher rent always! every year! kinda sucks that i cant even have the energy #to branch back out to anyone but my closest friends. kinda sucks that im having health issues. kinda sucks that they might be serious. kinda #sucks how im alone through it all again and again. kinda sucks how i have no money ever. kinda sucks how most of my time is spent with some #worry or stress. i seriously need some respite. this is all so much. im doing okay and managing. but damn if it seriously isnt a lot right #now. so much individually that i cant ask for help with it. so much that i cant manage it myself necessarily. this isnt even exaggeration. #it feels like this whole year ive just been hoping to scrape by. which admittedly isnt good. i need to get away and get help and get healthy #mostly healthy. id be able to take on things alot more seriously if i wasnt experiencing what i do. physically. mentally. i feel like im #doing okay. things hurt and things dont feel normal. but im okay right now. i need a break.

[www-dot-panopticon-dot-com]

#eye strain CW #vent #do not reblog #I got all bitchy at my mom today. and my older sibling. and my mom says I’m like that all the time… I guess I don’t disagree? #and mom seemed really stressed today. meanwhile I’ve been lounging about. I thought I was sick and my mom did too #(she checked my forehead for a temperature) but also I lounge about every day? #I’m on college summer vacation and I don’t have a job and I don’t help out around the house anywhere near as much as I should. #I just piss people off and try to instigate them. #and be manipulative. like I’ll be like ‘lmao I slept in so I guess you either gotta wait for me to shower and be late for this event that I #don’t want to go with you guys too or you’ll have to leave me here lol’ #I’m kinda. the worst. #and not even in a cool ‘campy villain’ way like I want to be perceived #just. the *worst* kind of worst. #and I can’t bring myself to do *anything* about it. I just want to laze about #I can’t bring myself to do anything about any of these things #text post #delete later #my posts #cipher.txt

[kethabali]

hopefully they accept my transfer and i can have like 6 months to look for a new place with a nicer landlord that's number 1 and number 2 a functional apartment with a good history of reviews. learned many things from the first time so now it will be better

#i was very stressed the 1st time about making mistakes but well #that is inevitable isn't it #esp in something as complex and manipulative as the housing system™️ #a freshly turned 20 year old is bound to get fucked over without any support #now im 1 year older lmAO and i have many more resources and support so #🧃 #ranting really does help i should not stop journaling #until i forget ab it for a few weeks and spiral and go insane b4 i remember again #besides i think i just realized why u shouldn't tell them about the voucher #it's not so they don't reject u its so they don't take advantage of u #they shouldve put the reason in the packet i read bc i dismissed that #my autistic ass #ofc im not gonna listen to a rule that didnt have a good explanation #but now i have suffered and learned so #yay? #i just realized how i switched topics over so abruptly #my adhd ass too