#one of the reason why I'm dying

[chaoticly-shy-dragon]

Me, after watching the Kenobi trailers: I'm dying for the wrong reasons. *continues hers torturous existence*

#owen delivered such a burn #it was expected after all he grew up on Tatooine #but damn #also the Inquisitor lasy the really intimidating one #i know you won't be able to flush him out in the way you want but #he is vader's! #kenobi #kenobi series #obi wan kenobi #anakin skywalker #darth vader #the sequence #the armor putting sequence #one of the reason why I'm dying #Inquisitor Lady** #star wars

[oh-warizoro]

Perfect take on Zoro. Perfectly executed by Mackenyu.

The way EVERYONE is trying to have him work for them. Mr 7, I'm here with an invitation. Captain Morgan, Join the marines or you'll die tied to a cross.

Luffy, sets him free, doesn't force him to join, let's him go, let's Zoro decide where he wants to be;

And Zoro finds out that place is by Luffy's side. Ain't that beautiful?

#I shall pay extra attention to see the exact moment Luffy wins him over #This is adorable #I think Zoro went through a lot by himself #He became a pirate hunter out of necessity #I'm sure he had pirate and non pirates trying to recruit him. To have him in their debt. #But Zoro won't follow someone that will take away his freedom and stand in the way of his dream. #God. I love this so. Much. #Thinking about that scene where Luffy just breaking down over Zoro's almost dying state and Nami's losing it bc Luffy could've done smth to #stop it #And Luffy's just like 'I couldn't stand between him and his dream' #And yes!!! That's it!! That's what this always was for both of them #That's the reason why the Pirate hunter the demon the beast the Roronoa Zoro follows Luffy and stays by his side #Fuck me side ways opla thank you you did not fail me on Zoro take #zoro #mackenyu #zolu #ish #§mine #one piece live action #opla s1 #text #opla

[lady-of-the-spirit]

Every day I think about how and why The Promise writers could have the gang agree so easily to Zuko asking Aang to kill him

#even if it WAS for a fair reason why was aang the only one who was like WTF about it. why were they all so ready to agree to zuko dying. #idk just. no one really having a reaction except aang and then katara nodding at aang to encourage him. bothers me. #regardless of why zuko asks him - he doesn't want to turn into ozai and start a war again - why aren't they more freaked #this is on the writers not on the gaang i promise i love them #atla #avatar #avatar the promise #i'm saying stuff

[count-doodoo]

idk if this is a hot take or not but i would literally rather everyone just throw all their insults and criticisms of me at my face. like i'd rather just know. a) so i can fix the problems and b) because the not knowing drives me bonkers (what if everyone hates me, a social anxiety story. but seriously what if everyone hates me tho--). getting notes like "sorry to bother you but this thing you've been doing has been really annoying for awhile" is legit The Worst because we could've fixed that!!! i would've tried to do better if i'd known!!! i don't ever claim to be a good person, let alone a perfect person, but i do /try/ to be better!!! (but then again no one would be /wrong/ to assume that me attempting things scarcely results in success so like)

#honestly lbr the real reason i have social anxiety is simply because i myself am a fucking bitch #and thought crime doesn't exist bc what you don't know can't hurt you. that said if i knew anyone thought about me the things i've thought #about others. i think i would implode like some sort of dying supernova or something and burst into flames and vaporize out of shame and #probably an unhealthy dose of anger or whatever. #and it's not like i'm gonna assume everything has the same kind of brain as me. i know we're all different. but i also can't quantify how #because my brain is the only one i've ever had. it's the only one i've ever really known. my head is the only one i've ever been in. #why am i being so real on the dooku stan blog recently #fuck i need to go back to poop and fish jokes gdi #doodoo.txt #**again not fishing for compliments here just need to vent my brain's toxic fumes. actually i'm fishing for insults. degradation kink??? #the entire world is probably just like i am once again asking you to go to therapy #jokes on you that's where the trauma's fro-- ok no shutting up now

[a-lonely-dunedain]

12.............. with Corunir?

So you have chosen... Tur-Morva. *evil laughter* wherein the rescue instance goes horribly awry in a canon-compliant way

“Eth… Help me” Ethedis hears a weak but familiar voice behind her, one that she would be overjoyed to hear in any other circumstances and speaking any other words. She was a split moment from sprinting down the tunnel, where she had heard Bregadir frantically calling for a healer mere seconds ago. 

Instead, she stops and pivots around to see Corunir collapsed on one knee, breathing heavily and bleeding more so, a deep shadow of crimson growing beneath him. Horror sets in the pit of her stomach.

She stoops to steady him just in time as he falls forward into her arms. “I think… wounds reopened…” he mutters faintly as Ethedis struggles to reposition him to asses his injury. 

“Corunir…?” No response “…Corunir!” She calls frantically, still to no avail. He’s fading fast. She fights to bury the panic welling up in her heart. She has to stay calm if she is to have any hope of saving him. She prays someone else heard Bregadir’s call for a healer, she cannot help both of them.

There is a long cut on his stomach, that seems to be the primary source of the blood. The wound is not fresh, seeming days old yet healing very poorly. No doubt an injury sustained during the Grey Company’s capture and left to fester after he was thrown into that dark cell, just beyond the reach of his kin. It seems to have reopened in the battle. His strength has already been long spent, and this rapid loss of blood would be enough to push him over the edge. His face is pale and his breath slows with each moment, he is minutes away from death.

She puts her hand to the wound, applying as much pressure as she can in her already weakened state. “Please… just hang on. Just a little longer…” she pleads, blinking away tears. He cannot hear her. 

She takes a deep breath and turns her mind outwards, beyond herself and this small corridor. She does not know how deep below the earth they are, but deep enough that she cannot hear the slumbering trees or even reach their roots, but she doubts they would be willing to lend her their power anyway, not while it’s still winter. She keeps searching. She finds some moss, it wants to help, but it is too small for this task. 

After a search that, in reality, barely lasted a moment yet it felt like hours, she finally finds something. An underground river, flowing swift and strong beneath the earth, unaffected and uncaring of all else, yet holding great power. She begs the dark cold waters for aid, to lend her its strength and grant this dying man in her arms new life. 

‘Please. Please just buy him a little more time. Let me save him. It isn’t his time yet. Not here. Please.’

There is nothing. The river has no reason to care. She fears it will give her nothing.

Nothing, and then the sound of rushing water thundering in Ethedis’ ears alone, the shock of cold water in her veins, and an unfamiliar power flowing through her hands. Flowing like a torrent of water too powerful for her to tread in such a weakened state, yet tread it she must. She sends it into Corunir’s near-lifeless body. Close the wound, stop the bleeding, give him the strength to survive. 

There is water now, but not from the river, it flows from Ethedis’ eyes. Her hands tremble and her arms burn as though she has been swimming against the current of an ocean. Acting as a conduit of power such as this would test her limits even on a good day, and this was anything but ‘a good day’. 

She cannot do this. She cannot hold onto this river. Corunir is still bleeding. If she stops now it will not be enough to save him, but she cannot hold on. More water escapes her eyes, a sob from her throat.

Suddenly she feels another set of hands atop her own, calloused, worn, and strong. A familiar voice beside her, it belongs to Golodir.

“Easy, Ethedis, easy. You’re doing well. It will be alright.” If he is afraid, his voice will not betray it, and that is all the better for Ethedis. 

With the practiced confidence only an experienced captain could possess, he manages to steady her. She can hold on a little longer, she is not fighting alone, Golodir found them. He says it’s going to be ok, and she believes him.

She keeps it up just long enough, but not a moment more. She cracks open one eye and sees Corunir's bleeding has finally slowed, if not stopped altogether. Some color has returned to his face as well. She thinks it is safe to stop now. She looks over to Golodir and sees worry in his eyes, but no fear. He simply nods at her, she thinks she hears him say something, but she cannot make out the words. She lets go and collapses. She thinks Golodir caught her, but her body is numb with cold and she can’t feel much of anything. He calls out to her, but she lacks the strength to respond and consciousness quickly abandons her. Corunir is alright at least. Golodir found them, everything will be alright.

(Yaaay Golodad to the rescue! there was meant to be another part to this, where Corunir comes to later and actually has the chance to talk to Ethedis, but it wasn't coming together fast enough so I'll probably just add that part *gestures vaguely* "later". I DO like what I had so far, but it was my first time actually properly writing dialog between those two and I wanted to make sure I did a good job, ya can't rush it. you'll see it later.)

#anyway heeey look my first time actually writing about the ranger I'm so obsessed with! #idk why I put it off so long I think I was just worried about doing a bad job #you know when you have a blorbo you care so much about you're afraid to make content about them bc what if it won't be Good Enough #yeah me with Corunir #I still don't even know how to draw him #ty for the ask friend! #I'm doing these horribly out of order I still haven't technically gotten to the first one yet oops #oh well! #love that cameo of Tossdir literally dying in the background hehe (the reason Bregadir was frantically calling for a healer) #also hi Bregadir how do you keep showing up in my fics? #my favorite background character has to be that moss tho #I wants to help!!! it's just moss it can't DO anything but it wants to help!! I love it #lotro #lotro fic #Corunir #Golodir #lotro oc #Ethedis

[flowerflamestars]

Timeloop au snippet

The arrow that caught Elain might have been Hybernian. It might, fletched in shining black, have come from the Night Court’s hands. What mattered- what stopped everything in sick, numb horror, was that the iron and ash barbed bolt went right through her.   The Archeron sisters, the same in this always: dead, or fae.   Fae just long enough to die again.   Feyre wailed, but Nesta- Nesta, Cauldron water dripping, catching unreal silver off her ruined nightdress, more flame than person, the wind abruptly screaming in this airless, trap of a palace- Nesta grabbed the first soldier who approached her, and ripped his head clean off.   “No,” Nesta said, dropping the skull like it was nothing, sick sound of flesh and bone on cold, wet stone eerily familiar. She looked up, through it- Hybern wounded, frozen in fascination. Tamlin bound, Rhysand on the floor, Feyre weeping in his arms- looked past them all like none of them were real, and found Lucien.   “Not like this,” Nesta hissed, a silver-eyed fury, blood splatter stippled so thickly across her face and neck it was dripping.   He thought he might have winnowed. He certainly didn’t bother to walk, waste the time.   “I’m going,” Nesta said, absolutely sure, rocking back a step.   Not alone- not if he could help it- not- Lucien didn’t need to say it, much less try to stop it. He was already reaching, she was already there, taking both his hands. A question, silent, raised on her upturned face, eyes searching his expression.   Lucien squeezed back, as much as Nesta’s sheer grip would allow.

“Not like this,” he agreed, quiet, and leaned it.   She made it quick.

#Undying! DEVOTION #the darkness is so present #but also #theres are two threads here #one being growing familiarity #friendship and flirting and teamwork #and ALSO #there is basically a story of love being told inside out and sideways #they are not doing things in reasonable order! #they are DYING TOGETHER! #(why would lucien ever let her die again when he could just go with her?) #(when ever has Nesta not felt fundamentally alone?) #HOME WAS A TRUTH AND LUCIEN VANSERRA SON OF TWO COURTS WHO COULD NOT TOUCH HAD NEVER HAD ONE #!!! #I'm going insane #I'm so excited for yall to read this #no one has correctly guessed what's happening #(except for Nesta) #(she's in denial) #getting bloody and silly and sexy #lucnes #lucien vanserra/nesta archeron #no grave can hold my body down

[bonefall]

i know that you’ve mentioned the Oakstar Pinestar Tigerstar Bramblestar leader lineage, but have you ever talked about the medicine cats, with Leafpool Jayfeather Alderheart?

I haven't spoken about them yet! I think it's because, unfortunately, I have a lot less good to say about the concept

It frustrates me that the Medcat role is supposed to be sacred, special, and the ONLY social role in the Clan that can stand up to the leader because of its separation; and TWICE in ThunderClan, unwilling cats were forced into it.

With the Tiger leader lineage, I think all of them make really compelling antagonists and there's a line of both ambition and trauma that's fun to talk about, how they end up taking that out on their families and the societies they're responsible for.

But with Leaf/Jay/Alder, Jay and Alder both did not want the position... and it comes with so many extra restrictions. The fact that two disabled characters (Jay with blindness, Alder with what could be severe anxiety) are forced into vows of celibacy so they can be 'useful' to their societies REALLY badly bothers me.

Especially Alder, because the opening of AVOS is miserable. The scene where he's forced into the role in Apprentice's Quest is gutwrenching to me, and then later in River of Fire when Velvet is in camp, Jayfeather has to try to enforce that celibacy vow and... ugh! I don't like it!

And they don't, y'know, frame it like it's a horrifying thing either, or... anything, good OR bad. It wasn't even until Thornclaw was complaining in TBC that they even made a point about all of the major positions of power being filled up by Firekin.

This rant has been really unfocused, but I guess the difference is like... the Oak/Pine/Tiger/Bramble succession adds a lot to the idea of a running prestige in their lineage that contrasts with the horrible things they did with their power.

Leaf/Jay/Alder succession felt more like the Erins being unable to stop focusing on Firekin for a SINGLE modern arc, and shoving every disabled member of the family into the den to still be 'special...' which it stops being, because 2/3 of them didn't want to be there.

#I really hope that makes sense LMAO #Alderheart #Jayfeather #Leafpool #Bramblestar #Tigerstar #Pinestar #Oakstar #Warrior Cats Analysis #For my rewrite I'm actually leaning HEAVILY towards Alderheart being raised as a kittypet and being drawn to the clans via his visions #With Velvet being more of a childhood friend he thinks about a lot #He is also not related to Firestar at all because he is the son of Jessie #AVoS my detested #I love the idea of telling Warriors with the approach that it is a flawed society yknow? I think the books are bad at doing that though #which is why I've reduxed the Medcat Vow to be something corrupted into a method of social control #Because it CANNOT exist for a legitimate reason. It's one of the most senseless parts of the entire thing. #It ONLY makes sense when you interpret it cruelly. #Alderheart deserved better #And also he shouldn't have been a main character dying on this hill #Even for the parts of AvoS I reread for this I was like ''wow I wish we were with Sleekpaw and Needlepaw rn''

[heffrondriving]

oh well, at least seeing my fave boys re-recording paralyzed in the studio instantly cheered me up ahh ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა they just sound so good and never miss with those stunning vocals!!! 💖 istg if this song doesn't happen bc of all this brainrot tomfoolery abt it i'm going to throw hands >:((

#kendall in his Cool Dad™ shades aND HIS LIL BEARD STROKE BEFORE SINGING GOT ME FLOORED TALENT IS STORED IN THE SCHMIDT SCRUFF CONFIRMED!!!! #also the way ken smiles proudly at carlos and claps while he kills it on the mic;; my soul is entirely cleansed +1000 kenlos love hp :'>✨ #ALSO YESSS FINALLY JUSTICE FOR MORE CARLOS SONG PARTS PLEASE AND THANK YOU VV MUCH!!! <3 #i never really talked abt it here but please know that his chorus in honey is one of my most favourite things in the world ever and it's a #HUGE reason why honey is my most fave new btr song so far. smth about it just itches my brain and sends me into excited zoomies like a pup #my hopes for this is that they really amp the new instrumentals. like proper rock levels with distorted guitars and crunchier mixing ykyk #make us really feel that hype!!! it's one of the main reasons paralyzed has never quite been up there for me but that's only bc i'm an emo #pop-punker metalhead loser with too many expectations who's been dying to cover said song in a mad post-hardcore style forever so yeah #i wamnt them to release paralyzed so bad;; if y'all asinine fucks screwed this for everyone up big time i am going to turn into the joker ! #n e way *makes shitty meme on my directly on my google photos to cope with the online stress and dreadful waiting and hits post* #btr #big time rush #kendall schmidt #carlos penavega #paralyzed #song #video #rusher #stop it forever #big time songs #good luck loverboy #do pretty girl don't speak

[chromotps]

The thing about Ace/Sabo is that the ship is less about them being brothers but more like them sharing a childhood friendship? That had the potential of becoming something more in the future. Except it didn’t, for obvious reasons. And yeah not everyone’s a fan of that, but people also like the raised by wolves/son of a noble dynamic they had as children. While I agree Sabo does kind of feel like he was stuck to Ace&Luffy as an afterthought, with a piece of chewed-out gum — his existence doesn’t… I don’t know, feel out of place? I also enjoy how kinda tragic his character is, and how he carries that tragedy with him? In the form of Ace’s devil fruit (Sabo also canonically hallucinates and there was an instance where he admitted to hearing Ace’s voice, during his fight with Burgess? so yeah, not everyone’s cup of tea again but I’m a huge fan of hurt/comfort so having a character go through a psychotic depressive episode because of the insane guilt he feels? Just, yeah. Plus there’s something really poetic about him literally eating Ace’s DF and still considering it „Ace’s powers” etc) and the way I see Sabo/Lu is through Ace/Lu (and partially Ace/Sabo) anyway. Because Sabo is trying to fill out the role of an older brother/friend for Luffy that he’s well aware is impossible to fill — because nothing ever will be the same for Luffy. Nothing or no one could even come close to making it up for Ace’s loss to Luffy, and Sabo knows he’s kind of a cheap copy of that (figuratively and literally lmfao, as I know people have been calling him low-budget Ace), but still he tries to? And the fact that Luffy is technically his only remaining family (or at least someone he willingly considers family). And I kind of see it as a parallel to how Ace’s approach to Luffy changed after Sabo’s „death”? Because Sabo was the „kinder” brother, the nicer one, the smarter one, it was usually him who took Luffy’s side whenever Ace was annoyed with him? And the one who explicitly asked Ace to look after Luffy — which then was one of the direct reasons why Ace changed the way he treated Luffy, forced him to be more patient/learn to love and eventually led to Ace willingly becoming the „older brother” figure for Luffy. I’m in no way trying to convince you to like Sabo, don’t get me wrong!! I’m just trying to show an example how Ace/Sabo isn’t necessarily brotherly either (like, I don’t know, Sabo/Luffy seems to be?). And it’s just that while I’m first and foremost a huge Ace/Lu enjoyer I also think Sabo did have a significant impact on their relationship both before and after Ace’s death.

((!! sorry i took a while to reply! i made that post before work on Friday and then got slammed until just now fdghjgk)

the odd thing is, I mostly agree!! I think I had to vent bc i saw ppl (a few specific sabo fans haha) on twitter acting like luffy would feel nothing toward ace but be obsessed with sabo. and, lol, no. but what YOU said makes total sense. like, yes, Ace + Sabo definitely has a different, more involved feeling to me than Ace & Luffy. I've had some ships in the past that fit the raised by wolves/runaway noble trope... the charm of the noble feeling like "this is the only person I feel like I can really be myself around" and the wild one thinking "i like spending time with this noble—they're tougher/kinder/funnier than i gave them credit for" AND/OR "society has always rejected me, but this 'cultured' person accepting me heals that pain a little bit"—all of those things are really charming.

Maybe if we'd seen more about how ace and sabo became friends, or if there were more emphasis on sabo's acceptance being what helped ace's anger (instead of, just from how i saw things, it being mostly luffy's unconditional warmth toward ace that did it?) then I'd personally be more feral about that dynamic, haha. But it's like you said, I guess it all depends on what we each connect with. I dont find tragedy alone compelling... I'm depressed enough already as it is LMAO!! if I think too hard about how viscerally sad Sabo only remembering Ace after he'd died is, my brain just shuts down. But I've got really good friends who would EAT THAT UP. Like, yeah, it is beautifully poetic... hahaha now i'm laughing thinking about my friends who were really into Hamlet and Romeo & Juliet finding out about Sabo & Ace and being obsessed, ahaha (they're not so into One Piece tho, only jjk... at least, for now!! 😈)

it's hard to put into words, but there's something about Sabo being a revolutionary vs. ace and luffy being pirates, that kind of explains why my brain sees A+L as very very very different than A&S or L&S. But like, that's just my brain and how my heart likes to focus on characters with really codependent relationships/dreams/themes, hahaha...

#also if we're talking tragedy #so many people have said it better than i ever could but #the beauty and drama of marineford #i live in denial and usually like imagining a timeline where ace was severaly wounded but lived through it #but canon #gosh #ace dying in luffy's arms bc luffy was in danger and he had to protect him #and he only had to protect him bc luffy was too weak from fighting his way through hell for ace #the love was there and it mattered and it didn't change anything but it mattered etc etc i'm WAILING #i don't know i'm bad at explaining why one of those tragedies makes my brain feel things and the other one doesn't quite as much #i wish i could express it better!!! sometimes i'm so frustrated with how i feel like i'm not really getting across the point i meant to #ace had been looking for that love his whole life!! he died KNOWING he had it!! (also like i didn't mention whitebeard here but #all that love ace received being the exact reason he had to turn back....) #and luffy!! luffy knowing he mattered to ace so much--ace loved him so much--he would die for him.... #and going forward with that rock-solid certainty that he's loved in the new world #i'm going to fight a traffic sign. i'm at a loss. #ANYWAY i don't know if this was interesting or annoying as an answer but....... hopefully it was at least a little fun? #and if we just connect with different things in one piece then--not too surprising #with how big the story is!!! #the beauty of fandom etc etc different perspectives coming together and all that #meta #op #asl

[oculusxcaro]

Another side effect of the experiments Khare underwent is that her cycles effectively shut down. She no longer has periods but is now infertile as a result of their genetic meddling.

#🌈 || musings #🌈 || headcanons #period mention tw #period mention cw #Yet another piece of humanity Prometheus stole from her #On one hand no more periods is great! #On the other hand amphibians and piscine are so sensitive to changes regarding hormones and stuff so #Probably not going to be that great for her in the long run #Another reason why she's practically got no sex drive #Belated sinday post because cramps hit me hard last night #I'll be back in a bit to finally answer some stuff now I'm actually awake #Hair is dyed clothes are washed

[lucy-shining-star]

Hmm...searched in Polish to try to find out about christianity stance on vampires and find out that one of causes of turning into a vampire in slavic folklore is suicide...Hmm...

#dracula daily #dracula #i kind of had this in my memory but wasn't sure of it #another reasons was dying of hunger which is also kind of...interesting in context of dracula eating that much #also about christianity #christian church stance at least in poland seems to always be that they don't exist #and church forbidden burning corpses which was how old slavic funerals looked like so people came up with other was to stop people #they suspected of becoming vampires after death #into waking up as said vampires #...also i didn't know that one person widely suspected of being a vampire was niece of one of our kings #...also i'm not sure why i searched in polish not in english. but. i do not regret it #tw:suicide

[nagitoedit]

you don't have to read this is for screaming in the void

#trying to explain that i'm struggling without saying the big most important part of why i am struggling is . #like oh i'm struggling because uh . the issues. what are the issues? well . they are issues that i refuse to elaborate on #so it doesn't help anybody. but like how am i supposed to explain to my mom that the reason i've become so severely depressed is because #i'm suicidal. like oh btw ^-^ i hate the life you gave me and brought me into so bad that i want to die. but it's no big deal so don't worr #about it. #which like that wouldn't be how i meant it at all but of course that's also implied or something #which just makes me think of other things like that if things weren't so bad id be able to get help but help is inaccessible. #ughhhh i just hate this it's so agonizing. like cant things be a little less bad. i'm not having fun being like this and people are #reasonably irritated with me because only based on what i'm willing to tell just. isn't the full story at all and would obviously just. #not make sense because i'm leaving out major parts of what's happening and why. #and tbh i'm constantly going back and forth between like. coming out as suicidal. mainly because like. well. it kinda worrying me. #because for like months now i've almost daily been fighting off suicidal thoughts and often even having suicidal meltdowns #yesterday i was standing near a ceiling fan and was like hmm wouldnt it be nice if one of the blades came off and stabbed me through #the back of my skull and killed me. but then i thought no that would be too traumatizing for my family #as if me dying at all wouldn't be. which i also thought of. idk just thinking about the idea of #i want to live but not like this. because yeah. my mom said that she thinks reading bad news is why and it's like well . of course it is #but should i just stay completely unaware of what's happening in the world. but also bad news is just unavoidable #but yeah it is why i'm depressed. climate change racism homophobia transphobia covid wars economy etc like #these are things that i can't just. ignore? and am i seriously the crazy person for being upset about these things? #well she does think i'm crazy for still being scared of the dangerous virus that is currently the third leading cause of death in the us #like last night she was like ' it's good to be cautious but you're going over board' i'm friends with people who could die from covid. #'over board' i care about them and other people and i don't want them to die. i don't want to be permanently disabled by a virus with #a 20% chance every time i catch it to permanently damage my immune system and give me long covid. <- according to cdc #but whatever. i do genuinely want mental help. i think i need s different medication or a diagnosis bc uhmmm . i am unwell #but that's expensive. #i have an appointment with a doctor today for a med check because i don't think my ssri is working . obviously #as i am as you can tell absolutely overcome with severe and debilitating anxiety and depression. lolzors #whatever. except not because ouuuughhhgh <-unimaginable suffering #mypost

[bumblingbabooshka]

Strong choice for the Voyager writers to make TNG-Q a misogynistic creep. It didn’t pay off at all and actively made me hate his character but hey, it was strong.

#His comment about Chakotay's tattoo was also kind of racist so that's -chefs kiss- awful #I literally would have murdered VOY-Q myself just to spite TNG-Q #Absolutely no moral dillema in this episode for me sorry Janeway - let the man die he's lived literally since the universe was created #TNG-Q is giving such strong 'I'm not gay bc I love men - I'm gay bc I hate women. We're not the same :)' vibes #Tuvok got promoted to 'ship lawyer' because he's somewhat familiar with asylum practices and approves of suicide ok I love this episode #I really do like this episode even though I hate TNG-Q so much #I really can't believe people ship him and Janeway together...what's going on.... #It really did have to be Janeway v Tuvok on this one for reasons I can't describe right now but it's so right #Tuvok's 'I'm as curious as you are Captain' ...the crux of it #this moral dilemma is SO flimsy to me HEHEHE there was a TINGE of maybe SOMETHING when TNG-Q said that since Q are immortal one dying could #have disasterous consequences but then RIGHT AFTER Tuvok was like 'Right. But Don't You Execute People?' and the answer is YES!??? #HEHEHE WHA T!?? WHY DIDN'T YOU WRITE THAT THEY ALSO JUST GET IMPRISONED FOREVER???? #Thi s whole court is out of order.... #YEAAH HEHE I fucking LOVE when star trek says 'you know this history? it was actually aliens. yeaaah aliens did that. v_v' #SNRKEHEH THE TERRIBLE PHOTOSHOP JOB ON RIKER'S P HOTO #Janeway's God Complex on full display in this episode and I love it even as I disagree with her 1000% <3 #Tuvok agreeing with her is also why they work so well together <3 I am also disagreeing with him 1000% <3 peace & love #Q. You are NOT blushing. Your lips are GRAY. You are a CORPSE. #the surrealist symbolism of the Q continum ... VERY good I LOVE surrealist symbolism ~!!!!! #OH GOOD TNG-Q graduated from misogynist to creepily insistent harasser..... #'I never did anything like that for Picard' we GET it writers we get it SO much that you DON'T want Q to be GAY #you' re leaning TOO FAR in the other direction he's LITERALLY the worst guy in a gender studies class now #If TNG-Q tried to caress my cheek that man's losing a finger at LEAST. BYE. #So funny of VOY-Q to be like 'ok I'll think about it :)' and then immediately uber eats some poison #hilarious and a delight to the end VOY-Q -salutes him- #aaaand that's all for this #for all the TNG-Q lovers I'm so sorry for whatever they did to your man uhh I've only seen Voyager so sorry for the slander but please try #to see him through my eyes v_v #liveblogging

[rubys-domain]

i kinda don't want to play genshin tbh. i just want to play minecraft

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #i swore i wouldn't sleep later than 11 pm. but man #for some reason doing weekly bosses doesn't make me feel like i actually/did/ something in the game #at this point i don't think it's feasible to do every single weekly boss every week anymore #cuz there's already 8 and we only get the 30 resin discount three times #in total we'd need 390 resin to do all of them #which is literally two days' worth of capped resin and an extra 70 #one weekly transient resin from the teapot barely matters #i'd honestly rather grind normal bosses. even though i don't really need to anymore on main #unless i really want to max ascend all 7* members of my teams (*xingqiu's in both of them which i will rectify as soon as i get yelan. or #kick him out of chong's team in favor of melt. whichever comes first. would be sad but the abyss is cruel like that) #man i'm NOT looking forward to breaking up chongqiunett for the spiral abyss #they've been stuck together like glue literally since i started playing the game #i've alread max ascended chongyun cyno baizhu and bennett #not xingqiu because. oceanid man. it's painful #i really should though. as a sort of thank you for carrying me through the entire game alongside chongnett #maybe this'll be my excuse to build yanfei now lol #a little nervous about fighting the primo geovishap cuz i haven't fought it since that one world quest. which was AGES ago #but if i can beat raiden shogun without dying then i should be fine. hopefully #why couldn't it have been pyro regisvine ;-; srsly the most fun boss to beat up #atp i really should be focusing on like talents and artifacts but like... #i don't have any motivation to level anyone's talents up tbh. much less crown them #i'll probably double crown cyno at the very least. but everyone else... #i'm still a little exhausted from triple crowning chong tbh. literally the most massive resource sink in the entire game #(ik artifacts are worse resource sinks but shh im complaining here) #the minute after i gave him his last crown i was more broke than zhongli #leveling characters is way more fun than leveling talents ;-; #i don't mind going back to the taishan mansion forever and ever until the release of snezhnaya #it's just... the amount of mora i need for this shit... #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

i have this fic idea but i haven't written anything creatively in EIGHTEEN MONTHS and i am afraid i forgor how to write

#also there's a couple other reasons why i can't write it but tbh i can overcome them. so really there's no excuse #anyways the idea is #and bear with me here #that next episode opens with eddie waking up a little bit confused trying to take in his surroundings #and realise he's Not at his home #and we see whatever it is that happened hit him all at once #camera pans around #and boom. he's naked in bed with marisol #BWHAHAH I THINK I'M VERY FUNNY #i just want to see his demi ass panic over his life's first one night stand!!! #maybe show up at buck's later trying to seek reassurance because how the hell were you doing this *regularly* man wtf i'm dying here #and buck is trying to be helpful but also having the time of his life because living with the woman whose babydad you are is hard #and his boy best friend is giving him good comic relief #anyways manifesting #911 spoilers #um i guess?

[bravevolunteer]

my default interpretation that i will reference in regards to mrs. afton IS her separating with william and, unable to earn custody of michael ( and evan/liz if it applies, though i lean towards her leaving after their deaths due to the grief and continuous deterioration of everything ), leaving hurricane. of course like a lot of assumptions made for my bio this is flexible based on interpretations and plots, but whenever i talk about her these are the events that i'm referring to

#it's been on the brain for?? No Reason so i figured at least clarifying this was in order bc its vague in my docs lmao #i just. i GET why her possessing ballora is so popular but i don't go with her dying as my default #warning the rest of this is just me delving into hcs lmao --> #i don't think she WANTED to leave michael there but william is the one with the stable income and residence and as terrible #as mike and william's relationship is i DO think in theory william would fight for custody if need be out of spite and possessiveness #and both michael and his mom knew that..... he just has REALLY complicated feelings about this and it makes me sad.......... #watching his mom grieve (which he feels responsible for) and suffer as everything falls apart and KNOWING she had to get out #but no amount of acknowledging this stops the loss from HURTING. nothing stops the sinking realization that is is Just Him And William Now #as it will always be for years and years to come.... and he can't help but once again think it must be deserved #everything about him makes me insane i'm sorry #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc