#remember this trauma

[captainkirkk]

I know time loop stories are often about characters going on an emotional journey and/or learning a lesson but if I was stuck in a time loop I would very quickly stop caring about consequences

Who cares if I spend all my money if the purchase wouldn't have even happened the next day? Who cares if I finally flip someone at work off? If I got angry and wanted to throw my phone at the wall, I could without needing to buy a new one.

Coming out of a time loop must be incredibly difficult. You'd have to relearn small petty consequences the way an astronaut relearns gravity after returning to earth. You have to relearn how to live like the next day actually matters.

#you'd forget that when you spoke to someone they would REMEMBER the conversation #i would be SO weird post-time loop and not just in a trauma way #(although i suppose all of it is technically traumatic) #time loop #my posts #au ideas

[brother-emperors]

something. about. the horror of being sent on an impossible (death) quest and obligations and hospitality politics. the trauma of not having a home, and then the trauma of being in a house that becomes actively hostile to you, one that would swallow you whole and spit out your bones if you step out of line. all of this is conditional, your existence continues to be something men want gone.

it's about going back as far as I can with the perseus narrative because there's always a version of a myth that exists behind the one that survives. the missing pieces are clearly defined, but the oldest recorded version of it isn't there! and there's probably something older before that!! but it's doomed to forever be an unfilled space, clearly defined by an outline of something that was there and continues to be there in it's absence.

and love. it's also about love. even when you had nothing, you had love.

on the opposite side of the spectrum, this is Not About Ovid Or Roman-Renaissance Reception, Depictions And Discourses On The Perseus Narrative.

edit: to add to the above, while it's not about Ovid, because I'm specifically trying to peel things back to the oldest version of this story, Ovid is fine. alterations on the Perseus myth that give more attention Medusa predate Ovid by several centuries. this comic is also not about those, either! there are many versions of this story from the ancient world. there is not one singular True or Better version, they're all saying something.

Perseus, Daniel Ogden

Anthology of Classical Myth: Primary Sources in Translation, edited & translated by Stephen M Trzaskoma, R. Scott Smith, Stephen Brunet

#it's all greek to me #perseus #danae #komiks tag #long post #every other week i start to say something about how greek heroes are a good case study in diaspora and exile trauma #but man perseus makes me so sad. so does danae. she loves her son :( #perseus turning a whole island to stone is a huge mood. i would also do that if i were him #anyway (salutes) take care everyone i gotta watch yunho's new video it looks like a fucking movie im so excited #(i singled out ovid bc i remember the fucking shit perseus discourse that ran through this site. i remember #im preemptively loading a gun and pointing at it before it can touch this post #it hasn't died out either i see it on twitter all the time in the most ANNOYING ways possible i am TIRED #esp bc they're actually doing medusa a narrative disservice like congrats! you made it worse! stop telling me it's better!!!!)

[feral-ballad]

Jihyun Yun, from Some Are Always Hungry; “Savaging”

[Text ID: “I woke up having / forgotten even your faces, / but remembered / my hunger. What if this is all / I am left with: / memories of my young body / rifling through refuse”]

#tw: trauma #jihyun yun #hunger #war #memory #forgetting #forgetfulness #remembering #rememberance #excerpts #writings #literature #poetry #fragments #selections #words #quotes #poetry collection #typography

[p0ssym1lker]

Dick may, just maybe, a tiny bit, not much really, be depended on Danny

It's just, he can go to Danny for anything, vigilante or civilian related, family or personal, it didn't matter how big or small

Danny was there

Since, forever really, meeting shortly after his parents death and sticking with dick since then? Yeah, Danny's been there and been a solid rock in his life for ages

So, maybe, possibly, perhaps

His reaction to Jason making a joke about asking Danny out might have been an overreaction

Should he have punched Jason? Should he have started screaming? Should he have snapped at the others when they tried to intervene?

Who knows

But this was his friend, his one constant

Plus Jason met him once

Dick will be damned if he let Danny be shooed away just because Jason decides to fuck around

#dc x dp #dp x dc #dcxdp #dpxdc #dick grayson #richard grayson #jason todd #dick and danny are besties #jason didnt think much of it #except haha dannys hot and it will annoy dick #but then boom #crowbar trauma thrown in hia face #bruce watched from afar #he tried to get between the friendship once #still remembers being threatened #by both

[thebibliosphere]

Yesterday was my first time in the ER since my hEDS diagnosis was officially added to my file (instead of me having to tell them and hoping they’d believe me), and everyone in my emergency care team was on top of it. Like on the ball, fully engaged and interested in keeping the zebra in the hospital comfortable.

They also all knew what MCAS and POTS were and deferred to me when it came to medication and pain management. Which was also wild, because they were not shy at all about offering pain relief. They straight up offered me narcotics, when usually the most I get offered is Tylenol.

Even the CT tech knew what MCAS was and asked if we should pre-treat with Benadryl because he knew some patients could experience mast cell destabilization from the radiation even without the contrast dye.

He and the nurse even helped brace my neck when I was going into the CT machine because I mentioned having cranial instability, and the position I was in was making my neck click, so they stopped everything to find multiple pillows to brace my neck and shoulders while I was on the table.

Afterward, while being bussed through the corridors in my bed (because they had to dehydrate me to take the CT scan and my POTS was going haywire, and they made sure I had to be upright as little as possible), I commented to my nurse that I was startled that everyone I’d spoken to that day knew about EDS/MCAS/POTS and were so accommodating.

He paused before answering, then told me, “We probably don’t know as much about EDS as we should, but we’ve seen a lot of the other two over the last few years. Covid really messed people up. Did yours start with covid?” No, I told him. We think I was probably born with it and a dental infection turned it lethal. He expressed his sympathy and again reminded me I didn’t need to be a hero and I could press the pain med button whenever I needed to.

Back in my room, they started me on IV fluids to combat the dehydration from the POTS. And I was laying there, I became aware of the nurse bracing my elbow so it wouldn’t hyperextend while he futzed around with the IV and I remember thinking, “this is how it always should have been.”

The kindness and care shown to me were in such stark contrast to past experiences it made me quite tearful. There were no accusations of anxiety, no referrals to psyche, and no implications that I was over-exaggerating my pain. No denying of my experiences.

Just a quiet, vocal acceptance that I “knew my body best” and that they’d do whatever they could to help.

It was nice.

#chronic health tag #posting for bad days when I need to remember there are good healthcare providers #long post #medical trauma

[adainesfuriousgun]

I haven’t seen nearly enough people talking about Siobhan telling Freeze that he’s “a valid response, just not right now.”

It’s truly ALL I can think about.

Because hoo boy. As a motherfucker in treatment for Complex-PTSD, l am constantly wrestling with my freeze response, and that shit made me ugly cry.

#dimension 20 #mentopolis #siobhan thompson #all of the shit with freeze has been handled so well #because yes #freeze is an infuriating response to deal with #in moments of stress and trauma #but you also have to remember that it’s a part of you #that is trying its very best to protect you #and you have to be kind to that part of yourself #even when you don’t want to be kind at all

[dykealloy]

ripple effect legacy // my tears are becoming a sea, M83

#weaving parallels but god at what cost #something something luffy inheriting the will of a burnt out sun #something something the things we leave behind (broken promises. pain. little brothers. cool fire punch moves) #see the significance of ace is that he spends his whole life asking 'should i even have been born' and then through the positive #impact he has on everyone around him he creates a continuing cycle of change where people reach out a hand to help others #he said 'im not sure i deserve to live' and then became the most remembered and loved and sorely missed dude in one piece #like it's almost comedic how luffy keeps finding his big brother in the stories and best qualities of all the people he comes across vs. #people who knew ace and keep seeing pieces of him in luffy #anyway happy new year portgas d. ace trauma be upon ye~ #one piece #op #portugas d ace #portgas d ace #asl brothers #yamato #wano spoilers #one piece spoilers #CJ's edits #amv #monkey d luffy #straw hat luffy #monkey d. luffy #portgas d. ace #CJ's op watch-through

[bluerosefox]

The Trouble With Time Travel Guilt

Danny, due to a nightmare of his future evil self, does what any young hero teen with internet access would do late at night.

Starts a 'AITA' thread asking if it he was an asshole for destroying an entire timeline, even if said timeline population was a wasteland due to said evil version of himself almost destroying all life at the moment, by swearing to never become him (Dan) and locking his evil self away. And should he feel as bad as he does because of everything his no longer future self did??

He... wasn't expecting a lot of other people (some seem to teens his age, he even made friends with some like R3dRobyum~) that may or may not have experienced time travel too and dealing with this odd sense of guilt.

#danny phantom #danny fenton #crossover #blue rambles #writing ideas #random idea #ANY crossover will do but just imagine #like if its DC crossover #dp x dc #danny phantom dc #Tim finds the thread during late night research #his future self is something he hates remembering #but he understands Danny's feelings over it #its nice to know others have dealt with time travel in such a way #everyone who responds start trauma bonding #odd sense of guilt for a future no longer going to be #time travel is weird sometimes #any others are welcomed

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

I want a story where the angels didn't fall, they jumped. they clipped their own wings, knowing their Master wouldn't have a use or a need for them once they were damaged and less-than-holy. they could not defeat the Tyrant who exerted absolute control over their lives, so they abandoned heaven their homeland in exchange for independence, accepting exile as its own form of freedom. and hell is just the place where all unwanted things are sent--be they angels or souls who just will not obey.

#been looking through old story ideas and remembering that as a teenager #i processed religious trauma by turning it into blasphemous creative writing #there's also the story where the protagonist was a vampire and a friend of jesus's mom #and so was personally responsible for the resurrection of christ #and the one where satan was the mother figure of all the angels in heaven #and the 'Rebellion' was actually satan leaving her abusive spouse to protect her kids #anyways i have many feelings about being raised christian and all of those feelings are Spite

[taddymason]

And way down we go

#just thinking. about Jay not even wanting to get his memories back. Bc he knows there are painful things he'd rather not remember. #(aka Skybound/Seabound) #Ninjago #jay ninjago #jay walker #ninjago fanart #ninjago dragons rising #ninjago oc #dad jay au #kaida walker #ninjago jay #ninjago nya #nya ninjago #nya jiang #Kaida don't ask your father these questions he already has enough trauma #This happens when I have too much free time

[bunnieswithknives]

I like think David and Rowan met briefly as kids. Just the once on some kind of bring your kid to work day. They only made eye contact. Brief enough they don't remember it when they meet again later but... Idk I just think its a nice thought.

#Thinking a bit about TOU again... #tou #two of us!David #two of us!Red #dhmis #I cant remember if I mentioned this but Roy got parts for sets from Peterson's and Friends and Sons so they sorta worked together #Mr petersons like an independent contractor who came and went #Personal hc of mine is that if Roy and Lesley hadn't died when they did they woulda eventually set up an playdate between David and Rowan #And so they would have gotten to hang out and play as kids #They only would have ended up as casual friends tho unfortunately #David only bonded with Rowan as hard as he did cause of trauma and circumstances lol #me when I make it bittersweet teehee teehee #You get the life you always wanted but never bond with the person who meant everything to you

[patroclusdefencesquad]

top five iconic Damen moments go. If there’s too many give me top ten. This is urgent scientific research.

oh my god you are so lucky i have a long train journey today so here we go, in no particular order because hell if that is possible :

when he threw a mf broadsword. a sword that is meant to be swung with two hands (!!). and he just casually yeeted it from the back of a horse. into a guy who was about to kill his enemy who wasn't even his lover yet

kingsmeet. kingsmeet was the Pinnacle of the man. he broke his country's most sacred rules without even fucking hesitating out of sheer rage and love at what had been done to laurent get this man fucking husband of the year

obviously it has to be "i speak your language better than you speak mine, sweetheart" no man has ever been so stupid and yet so sexy

every moment in book three where he's like "did i fucking stutter."

"damen rose from the throne, and put his hand to the gold brooch at his shoulder. his garment dropped, and the crowd roared their approval" cock out and thriving. king

when he chose laurent he literally chose laurent over his kingdom he was prepared to sacrifice it all for him this MAN

when he was screaming crying throwing up at having to tell laurent who he was and laurent was just like "i know." sksjsks you dumb fucking bitch OF COURSE HE KNEW everything you now know about this man and you think he doesn't know the man who killed his brother god i love you how can a man be so smart and yet so. so

"i think if i gave you my heart, you would treat it tenderly" sobbing. literally sobbing on a train. he's so sweet he's so gentle he loves laurent so much. he's so. so. also that scene where he tells laurent if auguste hadn't died he still would have courted him. once he starts loving laurent he literally cannot conceive of a world where he does not love him i'm crying

he's beefy. it's not an iconic moment it's just his natural state of being but it's iconic to ME. his arms could hold me so good. his tits are as big as his heart. his ass? bouncing. his thighs? could crush me and i'd welcome it

his dimple :')

there we go it started out as a list of iconic damen moments it ended as me rambling about everything i love about him what can i say he lives in my head rent free i'll never find a man like him

#he literally has it all #smart but dumb. beefy. strong. gentle. protective. sweet. he represses his trauma so there's an 'i can fix him' vibe about him #to quote a tag on my previous post #he fucks he fights he flings insults #he's everything to me #i remember i did a whole rant in some tags once about my love for him i need to find that again #captive prince

[jatersade]

taking a break from the 3.06 euphoria to be fucking devastated about jamie tartt?? not remembering losing his virginity because it was such a traumatizing experience??? People keep saying they want jamie’s dad to show up again so we can get some closure on that front but honestly I hope he never comes back and I hope it’s because sometime between seasons 2 and 3 james tartt sr. was taken out back and shot

#if there aren’t 200 fics about this on ao3 by Saturday I might have to take matters into my own fucking hands #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #like actually though how much of Jamie’s childhood does he not even remember bc it’s just trauma after trauma #jason sudeikis im outside your house #posts by sj

[mechacringekitty]

shoutout to people who didn't always know actually. shoutout to those that didn't have dysphoria since childhood or know something was different about them or act different or be noticeably queer. i can't be the only one and i love you

i love you <3

#i only found out being something other than cishet was a thing about three years ago! of my own volition! reading fanfic and being a kid! #that being said i dont remember a lot of my childhood [probably due to trauma] #but even now...i feel a little invalid for not being able to say ive always felt different #so hi hello i love you lets hold hands and watch the sun rise #transgender #queer #trans positivity #queer positivity #pansexual #< because i am and this is about that #i hope these are the right tags i am so aa...

[leo-bandito]

Pose studies & doodles..

#literally all vashwood & Trigun related EXCEPT FOR ONE SINGULAR DANTE THERE IN THE BOTTOM RIGHT #hey also the little kissie behind vashs ear in the second one. I forgor that thats like. A judas/jesus thing. Genuinely #Remembered it much to my horror at WORK and almost DIED #I swear on my life it wasnt on purpose I'm just so ingrained w religious trauma & symbolism 😚✌ #If you can read my little notes everywhere. Yeah ✌ #Trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #nicholas d wolfwood #HES NICOLAS.. TO ME.. #the humanoid typhoon #trigun maximum #trigun 98 #trigun wolfwood #trigun vash #trimax #trigun 1998 #tristamp #trigun stampede #vash #wolfwood #vashie & el woowoo #vashwood #Their love language is being annoying and not understanding the concept of personal space #these r older... maybe a couple weeks old methinks

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly shoutout to Steven Universe for the representation of malachite and abusive relationships because it holds up really well and is still like one of the only abuse narratives I’ve seen that portrays how like. Abusive relationships aren’t as simple as “evil abusive person was constantly Mean and Bad to nice victim” like. Lapis is a realistic victim. She refused to leave the relationship because she longed to have connection with someone and she liked feeling as though she could have control for once, even though she really didn’t. She wasn’t nice and innocent, she felt anger and resentment and liked taking it out on Jasper. And despite how horrible it was, she deeply misses Jasper because it was the longest and deepest relationship she’s ever had with anyone and she didn’t know how to function without it

But Lapis is still a victim and we’re meant to care for her and understand where she comes from. She chose to stay with Jasper to keep others safe from her harm, and because she thought she herself deserved the abuse as a way of making up for everything bad she’s done. Jasper reminds Lapis over and over that she is a monster and that’s why they should be together, because Jasper is the only one who understands her. And when Lapis finally rejects their relationship, she mostly states it through what she herself felt and has done, saying that she didn’t like the person she became in that relationship and she never wants to feel like that ever again. It’s messy and complicated, just like how actual abuse is

Anyways yeah talk about a very good abuse narrative thanks steven universe

#steven universe #tw abuse #yeah im rewatching the show and im re remembering that im a lapis stan #the people who hated her were just really mad that she wasnt a perfect victim and its like yeah duh thats the point #shes been through a lot of trauma and does whatever she can to survive and sometimes its fucked up #but after all that she still deserves to be safe and to be loved and to be free because shes a person whos trying to better herself and heal #also its fucked that su is probably like one of the only things ive watched that portrays imperfect victims so well #which is crazy given how its the sparkly rock show for kids