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turtledotjpeg · 11 months

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This came from a randomized AU prompt involving flight attendants and characters meeting in a coffee shop - I went with the main four meeting in an off-brand airport starbucks (plus melody because I have a blorbo agenda here :P), but got thoroughly sidetracked drawing melody + pika as flight attendants haha

(gon & killua meet in the airport and quickly hit it off, but while goofing off they accidentally bowl over leorio who really needed that coffee after 18 hours in transit back to medical school

kurapika is about ready to murder leorio - not for the coffee stain, but because he didn't apologize sincerely enough - but then gon jumps in very politely and says it was his fault and he's very sorry. kurapika decides to let it go :)

some handwavey logic later and they all end up on the same plane. kurapika gives gon and killua extra bags of the little pretzels and nearly kills leorio again for trying to flirt with melody. they all have a feeling it's not the last time they'll cross paths 🙂)

#hunter x hunter #hxh #melody hxh #senritsu #i got very self-indulgent with this au lol (/ ~ \)#side cut melody is lowkey my pre-curse headcanon for her #went from having the side half of her hair to the bottom half :'D #also in this au her scars are burn scars #i went with transfem kurapika here (i think that's the right word? like trans and feminine but not necessarily binary female)#kurapika is kind of schrödinger's gender headcanon to me (as in‚ all of them at once unless i need to choose for a given scenario)#self-indulgently made her a gal here but that's not to say canon krpk wouldn't absolutely wear this outfit too (he 100% would)#...i think i'm now deep enough in the wall of tags to admit. that in my heart this is a kurasen au #kurapika took the job to (somehow) gain intel on this universe's version of the kurta massacre and #melody helps her keep her sanity in customer service hell (and vice-versa tbh)#(nostrade owns the airline. i have a terrible feeling that the neon of this au is out there piloting passenger jets on instinct alone)

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thetragicallynerdy · 1 year

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The mood of the day is apparently "time to write the most self indulgent fanfic of all time"

#its a modern au jim/ed feat trans fem ed and shifters and romcom style shenanigans #its so self indulgent

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fiendtheanonymous · 4 months

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Greens genderqueer posting hours let's go because the brain worms never stop, headcanons for my (still unnamed) AU time:

• HIM knew they were both trans the entire time, from the very beginning when they first found out about their existence, HIM knew instantly. The moment it clicks for the greens and they talk about it with one another for the first time, HIM pops up from their lair and congratulates them. The greens are not happy about the fact that HIM knew this entire time and didn't tell them. Why? Because it was funny and also an entertaining form of psychological torture that they didn't have to do anything to set up since it was all Butch and Buttercup. They proceed to kick HIM's shit in for this.

• They are T4T (GQ4GQ/NB4NB specifically) 💙💖🤍💖💙/ 💜🤍💚/💛🤍💜🖤 (yes I am a self indulgent bastard making one of my childhood OTPs explicitly T4T, what are you gonna do about it? I'm not only a trans greens propagandist, but a T4T greens one too MUHAHAHAHA!!! >:3c Cringe is dead!)

• Buttercup gets a lot more comfortable with wearing stuff deemed to be more "feminine" such as dresses and makeup once they come out and transition. A large point of their discomfort regarding these things came from the fact that they were seen as a girl/woman, not due to the clothing and makeup itself. They still do majorly present in a way that would traditionally be read as masculine but they will fuck around with options they once pushed back on.

• Neither Butch or Buttercup change their names. Butch due to the fact that they're a genderqueer/non-binary butch and their name is perfect and Buttercup due to the fact that they built and constructed what their name meant given that they were only given it due to the fact it started with a B. They do also go by Bud though (which fun fact: was Buttercup's original name before Craig McCracken decided on Buttercup).

• The greens both specifically paint their eyelids the same shade of dark green to hide their eyelid color. Canonically, the Puffs and Ruffs show sexual dimorphism via their eyelid colors (which are purple and red respectively, unless talking about the digital seasons which I prefer to ignore LOL). These eyelids darken during puberty into much deeper shades of purple and red, and the Greens being dysphoric about this fact both chose to paint their eyelids a uniform green and make something distinctly genderqueer out of their experiences, have something shared between them, and make something out of their unique species biology.

• Butch doesn't really wear dresses for the most part, but will do so for special occasions and big events. It isn't really a gender thing and they don't think that butches shouldn't be able to wear dresses because you can do whatever you want with your gender forever, they just find them really uncomfortable.

• Buttercup isn't a constant binder due to the fact that their chest dysphoria fluctuates. Butch got them their first binder.

• Honestly both of them don't really have much body dysphoria I'd say, main ones I can think of would have to be chest dysphoria for Butch and hip dysphoria for Buttercup. Most of their dysphoria more so manifested socially, pertaining to their voices, facial hair, and various non human aspects of them:

ex: in my AU, Adrenaline-X (the main type of X found in their species bodies that's used for powers and healing) is a finite source that can be used before it has to be replenished via rest. In testosterone based systems, Adrenaline-X runs out quicker but can be used for more powerful high energy attacks, in estrogen based systems, Adrenaline-X runs out more gradually but cannot be used for super powerful high energy attacks. This is a point of dysphoria for the Greens which mostly (but not completely) levels out once they start HRT. Given that they were running on the prior system for so long, remnants still remain so they almost have this mixed system of sorts leaning toward the effects of the HRT they're on, both beneficial and also... once again, distinctly genderqueer.

• The greens would talk about their dysphoria which each other constantly prior to them realizing they were trans, but they both had the mindset that "hey, everybody's like that" so you'd just have conversations where one of them would bring in obvious gender dysphoria and the other would be like "oh hey me too! I think everybody's like that though", repeat ad nauseam until they were 18.

• Speaking of facial hair, Buttercup lasered off Butch's facial hair with their eye beams during a scuffle a year or two before they realized they were trans. It never ended up growing back much to the delight of Butch, and interesting to see they reacted so positively to not having facial hair anymore in hindsight.

• Given that they were kids and teens during the 90's/2000's, they did not have the language to describe their experiences as genderqueer growing up and just thought something was wrong with them. Townsville's bad record regarding GNC/trans people was also a big influence on pushing back their feelings.

• Another factor into why they didn't realize they were trans: when they did find out about trans people, it was explicitly binary trans people. While they related to these experiences a lot (to a point in which it scared them), they could not related to the idea of wanting to be a woman/man at all which made the process of finding out they were trans to be much harder. They were! Just not in any binary sense. Not MTF/FTM, not even transfem or transmasc (which are much broader terms which they wouldn't have been able to have access to regardless given that they're newer). Given modern language, I'd solidly place them as atrinary (even more specifically, maverique) regardless of the fact that they do present in ways that could be read as fem/masc and transitioned in ways traditionally ascribed to transfems/transmascs (because presentation and transition goals do not equal gender!)

•Genderqueer clicked for them pretty instantly once they actually found out about the term especially given their heavy connections to trans experiences they'd read about, which also made them recontextualize being trans and their experiences with dysphoria (which were not an "oh everybody experiences this" thing like they brushed off for so long). This initial realization was complicated, while they were happy to have language to describe them, they also had to come to terms with the fact that they were trans in an environment that would not accept that and that brought a lot of grief. Especially given that there weren't nearly as many accessible online resources and any in person resources they'd try to get would just... out them to everybody.

• The greens stayed closeted for two years after it finally clicked for them, mainly out of fear of losing what they have with their families, fear of rejection, and fear of backlash from Townsville given their high profile status as supers (even with the Ruffs not being superheros and just... existing for the most part nowadays they still have eyes on them at all times). Their suspicions were right and it was a difficult process for their families who had their own ingrained negative beliefs about being GNC or trans along with how important of a concept sisterhood/brotherhood was to them. Also Townsville fucking sucked about it truly just so atrocious. But it was the best choice in the end and they managed to get through it with their families. Townsville still sucks about it btw given that their ideas of queerness come mostly from queercoded supervillains in the city.

• The greens are the worlds worst communicators regarding their feelings/struggles and also have truly atrocious coping skills about being closeted. The only reason they came out in the first place was because they went on a bender and their families dragged them back and questioned them about it. They kept shooting various theories out as to why they were acting like this until Boomer of all people ended up guessing that they were trans. Some of the other theories included them being in a cult (suggested by Brick), them having a drug problem (suggested by Blossom, Miss Keane, and The Professor), and them being conspiracy theorists (suggested by Bubbles).

• Once they transition, sometimes the two of them will dress as one another post transition specifically to fuck with people. They will also sometimes dress as they would have pre transition to fuck with people. The lengths they will go through to do this are absurd, some highlights of these extents include: Butch also now having a binder, Buttercup specifically doing voice training so they can talk at their pre T voice range, binding/tucking not for euphoria purposes but for mischievous gender purposes, and convincing the Professor to get them access to colored contacts in their eye colors so they can use them solely to fuck with people. Now that they're a lot more comfortable with themselves post transition, they're more than happy to be explicitly genderfucky.

• The two of them end up shaving their heads at the same time to signify the beginning of their transition and to see how they change alongside one another. They do this once more time a couple years later, however it isn't for trans and rebirth symbolism reasons that time, I will get into this in What Once Was. :)

•Given the amount of transphobia they've been subjected to, the both of them are basically experts at turning any sort of transphobia flung their ways on its head. Transphobes have zero wiggle room they've heard everything and will be delightfully spiteful and petty towards anybody who attempts to be a bigot.

• Given that they'd were coming to terms with being trans in the late 2000's/early 2010's, they have attachments to terms that would be seen as more archaic now. While they mainly refer to themselves as genderqueer (also another example of them IDing with terms they had available to them as non-binary hadn't gained traction yet when they realized they were trans) and trans if asked, they also often refer to themselves as transsexual.

• A pretty solid reason as to why they prefer calling themselves genderqueer over non-binary is for the fact that the genderqueer flag has green in it. Yes, seriously. They fall under both categories though.

tl;dr These green bitches are trans and spiteful about it!!! Good for them!!

#ramblings #Greens Transposting #Unnamed PPG AU #wrote this at like 12 in the morning but I'm queueing it to be posted later #I legit have more I could say I wrote 9k words about these bitches being trans in my AU #but I've gone on long enough #this is so self indulgent and I'm not sorry

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olympiansally · 1 year

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“Listen” L whispers against his neck and Light has to fight a shiver. A fake moan echoes around them and L shakes his head slightly, hair tickling Light’s neck. “That’s not how people sound when they’re turned on, Light” he whispers, voice deep against Light’s skin, deeper in Light’s brain where the sound lingers, weaving a path of melted braincells. L is a man on a mission, a man with a purpose. He’s fucking unbearable.

Light is a brilliant director who doesn't make mistakes, but he can't seem to shake this annoying editor insisting there's something wrong with the sex scene of his latest film. A “death note characters in the film industry AU” that is mostly just an excuse for smut

#alright so here it goes I did it #my first trans Light smut yay :)#lmao #I decided it was now or letting it sit for another who knows how long so here we are!#having them be in the movie industry is very self indulgent I know but I’m very happy to finally get this au out of my head and posted lmao #So anyway this is it!!#Go read go read :)#lawlight #death note #death note fanfic #death note fic

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specialshinytrinkets · 2 years

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Trans Rob this, trans Larry that. What about that one cashier boy?

This is purely self-indulgent, because.... he's got the vibes y'know (<- hasn't met any trans person [knowingly] irl). Not really implementing it into the main AU, but it could be a side addition ig

If ur asking about the voice — he stresses it out, that's why it sounds so sickly and rough /nonsrs

Separated doodles because my canvas is a mess under the cut gduevdjvdbdhdhdgdjgdhdv

The last two are of adult Grave, the homeless-looking husband. Any good marriage consists of one preppy person and another just dressing in whatever's in the closet, all the others are doomed to fail /j

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bruisedconscience · 2 years

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experience in spades

tw: some violence, mentions of gender dysphoria

part 1 of.. many

Wilson nearly dropped his keys trying to unlock the door to House’s, finding it frustrating that the door was even locked anyway — so often the door was let unlocked when House was home, and he was home, he’d said he was home, so why was the door locked? Was he not expecting Wilson even though he’d texted an hour ago, at a stoplight driving himself home with a split lip and a bruised eye through evening borough traffic...

The door unlocks and Wilson’s so frustrated he’s now nearly in tears, wanting his shoes off and the shower on and so, so much more, frankly, if he were already asking for wishes granted. He’d been thinking on solutions the whole way home — not the pain, he’d already taken the recommended dose for that — but for these kinds of scenarios to not happen again in the future. It was simple.

“There you are,” House deadpans, turning his head from his spot on the couch to see Wilson. “Y’know, the dishwasher has been really— The hell happened to your eye?” Not just his eye (his wet eyes, ugh, great) but his mouth, too. Greg starts getting up from the couch, reaching for his cane clattered across the coffee table next to a near-empty tub of cheesy balls. Wilson holds up his hands. So House pauses.

“I know what to do,” Wilson says. He sounds excited, not drug-manic but...still, off, somehow. Didn’t sound like stressed Wilson. It sounded like ‘I am not at home in the world and I am fixing it, now’ Wilson.

“Find Mr. Durden and ask for the sign-up sheet?” House cut back.

“No,” Wilson grins, and maybe that not-manic assessment from a few seconds ago was no longer accurate. Wilson’s eye pinches even further shut from the smile. “I gotta learn how to pee standing up.”

#[ .warnings and .tags will update w/ each part! ]#drabble #drabble: james #hilson #trans james wilson #[ self indulgent au ]#[ i must confess ]

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