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chaisshitposts · 7 months

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𝐌𝐮𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐞 𝐓𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 & 𝐎𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐓𝐨 𝐇𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐀 𝐃𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐒𝐮𝐛𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐜𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐝

hello there! welcome to another blog for the nerdy manifesters who want to feed their logical minds. full disclaimer, these answers are solely based on the research I've done, and if you'd like to do your own research, you should! you are the creator of your assumptions and reality, after all. I will never stop encouraging others to find their own answers. while I was writing this, I had no idea someone had already talked about muscle testing on Tumblr, so, please do check out their post too!

what is muscle testing?

according to my holistic therapy, muscle testing is, "[...] a method of gathering accurate biofeedback on the body’s Physiological and Psychological state by stimulating the muscular system. The body’s cells know their entire history and what they require to regain full health. Muscle Testing is an elegant way to retrieve the knowledge imbedded into the cellular memory of the muscular system." ^1 when muscle tests are performed correctly, it allows the one being tested to have a direct conversation with the subconscious mind, aka the machine that controls the entirety of our body.

how does muscle testing work?

"Our bodies interact and move through the world by contracting and releasing muscles. A Tester will illicit either a contraction or release of certain muscles by applying gentle pressure to the muscular system. This testing unlocks the vast knowledge muscle cells by utilizing the binary contraction-release language of the body.

This simple, yet powerful process, is the first step of energy therapy, and it provides an accurate assessment tool of the client’s condition. This is a major part of Integrated Physical Emotional Clearing (IPEC) Therapy."^2

To better simplify what this means, everything that 'works' has energy flowing through it. You, me, your pets, the plants, and beyond. When doing a simple muscle test, you consciously may have a thought, or ask a question perhaps, and when the muscle test is performed, the subconscious will control your muscles in a way that gives an indication of 'yes', 'no', 'like', 'dislike' through a strong/firm or a weak/struggling muscle response that involves the muscles locking in place or stress causing weakness in the muscles. Energy therapy involves changing beliefs at the subconscious level with the use of energy, there are various energy therapy treatments, however, the one that I know about in a deeper sense is PSYCH-K. Again, I recommend you go and do some research of your own!

why would I muscle test myself or others?

muscle testing is just another application of holistic health, and there have been studies on how it can aid in decision-making, figuring out allergies, as well as what foods your body does and doesn't like. along with that, you are also able to test your subconscious' view on certain things that you are conscious of. bruce h. lipton details in his book 'the biology of belief' that DNA expression is not, "predetermined or unchangeable. Instead, the book details how DNA is influenced by signals emanating from outside the cell. The strongest energetic signals that cells receive are our thoughts, beliefs, and attitudes."^3 which is how we're able to manifest drastic appearance changes with our thoughts, feelings, etc, as well as completely eradicate health issues, pain, and other things of that nature with the use of our thoughts, beliefs, feelings, experiences, etc. the medicine you take for your colds is literally just energy, consider that.

how can I muscle test myself accurately?

there are various tests you can do. there are dozens YouTube instructional videos that can lead you in the right direction! however, my personal favorite is the sway test, which i will discuss a little further down. it takes trust in yourself, however, other people can muscle test you if you'd like a solid proof answer. even so, here are a few videos you can watch to better familiarize yourself with. please be advised, there are various ways to muscle test, I highly recommend that you do all of them and figure out which one feels right for you, your body will know.

The Finger Pad Test

Pendulums for Muscle Testing

7 Different Self Muscle Testing Techniques

how can I muscle test other people accurately?

How To Do Applied Kinesiology Muscle Testing

also, whoever you're testing or if you're being tested, your chin must be parallel to the floor while your eyes are looking downwards for the most accurate testing while your arm is being pushed down. the position of your eyes allows you to fully engage your subconscious without worrying about your conscious getting in the way of accurately testing others or yourself, it's been believed to assist in dissociation.

what are some benefits to muscle testing?

since muscle testing is apart of energy therapy, energy therapy has the ability to benefit all areas of life, including, but not limited to— relationships, family, individual growth, and overall well-being whether that be physical, mentally, or emotionally. if you find yourself struggling with certain thoughts or beliefs, muscle testing allows you to have a conversation with your 'higher self' aka your subconscious.

how does muscle testing correlate to manifestation?

when you perform muscle testing on yourself or others, you're able to connect with your 'higher self' aka your subconscious which uses about 95% of your brain on a daily basis, it knows when a lie is being said as well as the truth. after you've established what 'yes' and 'no' is according to your subconscious by making statements you already know the answer to (Examples: [My name is [insert your name]. I have [color] hair. My name is [fake name that's not yours] I have [insert wrong color hair]), you can then ask anything you want. You can also make statements and see if your subconscious agrees with you or not, that will then allow you to take the necessary steps you need/want in order to become your best self.

how can I do the sway test?

stand up with no distractions (no TV, no music, no outside conversation), feet should be shoulder width apart and planted flat on the floor. or if you are unable to stand, just sit up as straight as you can manage. then, lift your chin up so that it's parallel to the floor, facing forward, and focus your eyes down on the floor. once you're done with that, state "my name is [insert name]", notice which way you lean naturally, make sure you're relaxed, this'll be your 'yes/like/true'. you can do this a couple times to make sure. and then you state "my name is [fake name]," notice which way you lean naturally, this'll be your 'no/dislike/false.' once you've established that, you can ask questions, make statements, and anything else you want, you can even test supplements by holding them in your hand as well as holding certain foods. your body may lean forward, backwards, sideways, etc, it's all based on the individual. please be advised that at any point in time you can retest from your yes/no answers by making the statements above, as many times as you want, just to make sure your yes/no answers are the same. I would recommend that you do this after every question you ask, just to give yourself the satisfaction. but again!! do what feels right and what makes you feel that you're getting the most accurate answers.

what are some ways I can muscle test myself without fear of my tests being inaccurate?

practice whatever test you feel most comfortable with, or have someone else test you if you're unable to fully trust yourself. personally, I find that the sway test is easiest. you can also use a pendulum as a muscle test if you'd like, whatever suits you as the individual is what you should go with.

how can I use muscle testing to heal my limiting beliefs, trauma, and other detrimental things that have been holding me back?

muscle testing gives you a deeper insight on the beliefs currently settling in your unconscious/subconscious mind. truthfully, you'll find out things you probably would have never expected to be there in the first place, hidden away somewhere. who better knows you better than you?

is it an absolute necessity to muscle test myself when trying to create new assumptions/testing whether or not my beliefs have changed on a subconscious level?

nope, not at all! this is essentially the same thing as getting your palm read, your aura read, having a tarot reading, and other things of that nature. It's up to you on whether or not you want to try this out or if you think it'll work in your favor.

how can I use muscle testing and psych-k simultaneously to benefit myself to the max?

in my previous post I provided the instructions on how to do psych-k, and if you fully watch the video you will notice that the demonstration involves muscle testing before and after the psych-k treatment. you can do the muscle testing on yourself with various methods, and then you can figure out how your subconscious stands on your conscious belief/affirmation. if the subconscious likes the affirmation or views it as true, then you're golden. however, if it sees it as false, then the next step would be to ask your subconscious 'Is it safe and appropriate for [name] to balance for this goal?' If the answer is yes, then proceed, if the answer is no, you may have some underlying issues that need to be addressed before that. It's very rare for the subconscious to say 'no,' however.

after receiving a 'yes', you will then ask 'are all systems ready and willing for a balance of this goal?' once you've gotten your answer, you will go on to do PSYCH-K.

after performing the necessary steps to implement this affirmation/goal/ etc into your mind, you may do another muscle test and see where you stand.

what are some questions or affirmations/afformations, and belief statements I could use to muscle test?

I am a master at manifesting.

I can manifest anything I want right in this moment.

I am ready and willing for change.

My desires are already mine.

I am intelligent and capable.

and if you struggle to come up with your own affirmations or questions, check out this video and see if it'll help you!

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personally, I've only learned about muscle testing and psych-k within the last three days, and I've already had results. before I started doing this to myself, I did it to my brother and ma (they're my guinea pigs 🧍) and they both experienced some weird tingling sensations in their brains after looping a single affirmation. I decided to do the same for myself, but with self muscle testing. my manifestations are coming in faster than ever just because my subconscious now believes I'm a master manifester. plus, I used it to change another belief I had and I actually started crying like a lil' bitch. 🧍and I'll be honest, yesterday I muscle tested myself and asked 'can I enter the void right now?' and my subconscious said yes. so, there was an attempt on my end where I used the lullaby method, lulling myself to sleep with just the words 'I Am', and when I went to sleep, I didn't enter the void, but I had a dream. I can't entail what the exact details were specifically bc it's personal but it was about my family members who've hurt me in the past, with lots of rage and anger. and when I woke up, an affirmation immediately popped up in my head 'I forgive those who have hurt me and I'm ready to move on.' bruh. this isn't what I consciously wanted, but obviously my subconscious thinks I need to work on this matter before I can ascend and so, I'm gonna trust myself.

gotta be honest, I've read other people's posts where they have had their 'eureka!' 'aha!' moments and their little epiphanies... thought they were all completely bullshit and I was a hater, but gods-- that shit's real, and now I gotta make a change within myself, and it's time for you to do the same.

references + extra resources

Quoted Information

PSYCH-K

The recorded lecture about PSYCH-K (it's an hour long but I think the knowledge is worth it)

Rewrite Your Mind

#muscle testing #manifest #manifestation method #law of assumption #god state #loa assumptions #law of attraction #laws of manifestation #manifestation #manifest anything you want #psych k #psych-k

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freckliedan · 5 months

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jam. listen. i know its a joke in the new dapg but dan asking phil ”would you say you’re a man now” and phil Strongly replying ”no!” is doing something to me

SAME! god. i have so much to say about the ways phil fails gender actually. it's a different way of navigating gender than dan's, which. i think i have made it deeply clear how much dan's way of navigating and exploring gender means to me. but like!!!

gender is socially constructed. man and woman are categories that most people fall into, and the way those categories are defined is decided collectively. and like—the most broadly accepted definitions of man and woman in western society include heterosexual attraction and presenting gender in a way that is appealing to the opposite binary sex/presenting gender in the way most acceptable to patriarchy. that makes all queerness gender nonconformity.

there's different degrees of it, of course—i'm not saying there's no cis queer people, or that all lgba+ people are actively gender nonconforming. there's self determination in claiming trans & nonbinary identity! that's not something i'm going to apply to people who don't claim it. and there's assimilationist lgbta+ people of all identities putting a lot of energy into conforming to cishet expectations of gender performance.

what i'm saying is that in the eyes of many, to be anything but cishet is inherently a failure to perform gender "correctly". on a really base level, that's why the misogyny, homophobia, and transphobia can't be effectively fought against in isolation, and why our liberation can only be acchieved through solidarity.

which like. this is perhaps not the point of my reply to this ask, but it's the framework that allows me to articulate WHY i'm so insane abt phil and gender, even if his is a quieter transgression from expectation than dan's?

like phil's emphatic "no!" on whether or not he's a man? it makes sense! he's not, not in the way manhood is defined by so, so many people. phil's gender is that he's gay. i don't think he personally registers that as something besides cisness, but like, it's something deeply relatable to me in my transness! it's a cool queer way of existing and identifying!

idc if it was a joke in the video! that's also some real shit! welcome to den does gender studies about dan and phil. please keep talking to me about these things forever.

in conclusion. wrow. phil's gender is faggot just like me 💛

#jam replies #anon #amazingphil #phil lester #phan #<- tagging all my original posts this this year #g?#anyways i haven't actually taken any gender studies classes. i'm just stoned and also smart

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keelanrosa · 25 days

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possibly a wildly out-of-touch opinion but shit like "vote blue no matter who" should apply to like. the president. not every single political race in america.

("okay but the phrase is 'no matter who' --" yeah because it became popular during the 2016 election when we had about twenty people in the Democratic primaries, the "who" was Biden or Yang or Williamson even if you prefered Sanders, not the bluest candidate for the local school board.)

all the "ohh, you think voting blue will help? Democrats are just as bad!" bullshit is completely inapplicable for races where a third-party actually has a chance in hell of winning and people should already be taking ten minutes to Google policies instead of treating voting like rooting for a favorite sports team

(also just plain bullshit anyway but that's a whole other topic.)

on the flip side the presidential elections are so fundamentally broken i'm honestly not sure a third-party candidate legally can win. we sure as shit don't elect our presidents based on who gets the most votes and electors are generally already dedicated to a specific candidate. so shitty as it is, it's a binary choice until the system is completely revamped on a level which will take years and quite possibly decades under the best of circumstances, and it's not exactly gonna speed up if the president is openly and actively trying to create a dictatorship in the most literal 'appointing Supreme Court judges he thinks will help overturn elections' sense of the word.

#us politics

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nothorses · 1 year

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A crucial part of the conversation around transandrophobia is the distinction between personal identity and sociopolitical categorization; or, to borrow one of my least favorite made-up grad school words, "positionality".

"Positionality" refers to where you exist in relation to power. It's "white" vs. "person of color" or other race-related classifications, it's gender, orientation, socioeconomic class, ability, "fat" vs. "thin", and whatever other axes of power you can identify.

"Personal identity" is how you choose to describe yourself; the words you prefer, the specific labels that make sense or feel right to you, and the words that may technically describe you, but that you don't want applied for any number of reasons.

The difference between these two things is why, for example, "bi" might technically describe pan people as well, but a lot of them don't actually identify as bi; and why, at the same time, a lot of statistics around bi positionality- the specific oppression that targets bi people- also apply to, and include, pan people.

The issue is a lot bigger than this, and there are a ton of arguments within the queer community based around the conflation of these two concepts in one way or another ("don't call it the queer community" comes to mind). But the one I'm interested in here is the way this impacts transmasc discourse, specifically.

There's a particular confusion that happens with trans people's identity vs. positionality in queer discourse. Cissexist society says that trans people's identities don't matter; that they do, and also should occupy the position of whatever gender they were assigned at birth. Position determines identity.

The common argument to this is to just flip it the other way around: trans people's identities do matter- and that those identities determine positionality.

This makes sense, to some degree:

Trans people face transphobia: identity = trans, therefore position = trans.

Trans women face misogyny: identity = women, therefore position = woman.

But it also concludes:

Trans men identify as men: identity = man, therefore position = man.

"Tans male privilege" is the notion that trans men, upon identifying as men, instantly gain access to the position of maleness.

But this is easy to poke holes in; telling someone you identify as a man doesn't stop them from seeing you as a woman, and that's kind of a vital function of transphobia in the first place. In fact, doing so would immediately subject you to transphobia.

So people think: okay, if trans men don't occupy the position of "man" because they identify that way, what does that say about trans women? Does that mean trans women do occupy the position of "man", despite identifying as "woman"? Does that mean they don't occupy the position of "woman" at all- and therefore cannot be subjected to misogyny?

Obviously, that's also not true! Trans women do experience misogyny; this is a well-documented fact.

And so do trans men.

And that adds to the confusion: if trans men experience misogyny, does that mean their position = woman? (And isn't that just what TERFs believe?)

The problem here is twofold:

We're still conflating identity with position- we're just arguing over which one determines the other.

We're ignoring that "trans" is itself a position. Trans people don't necessarily occupy the position of either binary gender; we are often just seen as "trans", and placed in that position.

This position is also a little bit unique in that it's particularly mobile: society doesn't want to acknowledge that this is a valid way to exist, and so the existence of the position is denied as much as possible. Trans people are, as a result, often categorized as "women" or "men" depending on what's convenient: if the transphobe in question can subject them to misogyny by categorizing them as a woman, or if they can paint them as "dangerous" by categorizing them as men.

If we can understand that position doesn't necessarily determine our identity- our actual gender- we can understand that trans women are both exactly as much women as cis women are, and that they occupy a very different position, and have very different experiences.

We can also understand, through these ideas, that trans men can identify as trans and as men, and that these identities don't necessarily determine position. Trans men don't occupy the position of "man", even though we identify as and are men.

We can also understand that trans men also aren't necessarily women, even if we do sometimes occupy the position of "woman", because every trans person can occupy that position if and when it's convenient to transphobia. The same is true of the "man" position and trans women.

#trans #transmasc #transphobia #transandrophobia #transmisogyny

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makapatag · 1 year

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more uv@eot shit

this is gonna feature words that dont rlly make sense unless you've read the rest of the manuscript

THE LOST AND FORGOTTEN ARTS

All Martial Arts are mostly banned, save for a few practiced and allowed by the PANTHEON for sport. Martial Arts are culture, you see. Culture not approved by THE PANTHEON is pushed to the margins.

And anything not approved by the Pantheon is the whole of humanity.

Here, drink this. That’s it. Hard to go down, huh? Yeah, haha, fucking–you’ll get used to it. You have to. That’s AMRI, it heals all wounds, it's made from the Semen of the God of the Binary Star we orbit. RIT, the last star before all the suns fade. They try to call out to us, you know? The solar flares scramble the Meta-Consciousness and fuck up the systems in The End.

It’s expensive as fuck, can only be bought by the Gods. How’d we get them? By fucking stealing them of course. How else? We destroy shipments, grab them back. We never get caught. We’re good like that. You, though? You’ll fuck it up. Unless you stick around.

You’re a ROOKIE aren’t ya? There’s a lot to learn about the THEATER OF SUBLIME VIOLENCE. That’s what we like to call this whole charade. Yeah, that is the term for the gladiatorial sports as well. For the Gods it might just be sport, but for us it's our entire lives. We spend our entire lives in violence, struggling to get out of hell.

Here’s the secret, Rookie. There’s no getting out of Hell.

So what do you do when you can’t reach heaven? You destroy it. “It’s easier to imagine the end of the world than the end of capitalism,” they say. So end the fucking world. Become the apocalypse. Some say this shit is depressing and defeatist as fuck, but I don’t think so. For the next world to be born the current one must be destroyed. It takes a helluva a lot of hope to get there. Let me teach you the ropes. You probably have some fighting knowledge, right? Everyone does, here in hell. Throw a punch, a kick? Yeah, that’s good. Gimme a grapple? All right, good enough, you gotta apply some more pressure around my neck but you’ll get the hang of it. That’s enough. Let’s get you to a Martial Commune. That’s where you’ll learn the ULTRAVIOLENCE ARTS. We like to call it just UV ARTS.

You ever heard of THE HEAD OF MARX?

THE HEAD OF MARX

Named after the economic thinker, the Head of Marx puts in mind the sleek plausibility of revolution. To be inducted into this art, you must recite the Communist Mantra and have your skull broken apart with anticapitalist enlightenment, then sutured back together to become a silver kintsugi, with threads of nano-mantra-wires made by the Monk Shatrasattva of the Broken Mountain Range, a well known Marx-Dharmist. The Head of Marx makes your head thicker than most. You become fucking determined. Your main attacking tool becomes your HEAD, you slam it down and destroy and kill the specter.

Art Traits

Posture: 3

Speed: 4

Style: Raider/Sentinel

Determination: When you describe yourself canceling out a Hit with your Skull, inflict Push 2 on one of the attackers, and then give them your Provoke 1.

Philosophical Juggernaut: When you make a close attack and describe yourself using your Skull, gain 1 Deflect Token. 1/Strike.

Impenetrable Power of Communism: At the start of your Riff, choose a square adjacent to you. Any attack that starts from that square or has a line of effect that goes through that square suffers Dullness as your burning Skull faces that direction.

MINOR MASTERY: THE HEAD

Things will never be the same.Your head has been shattered apart, and put together again. Your eyes are concetric bifocals to continue the Proletariat revolution. It is only through economic upheaval can everyone blast open the gates for the Path of Enlightenment. And once done, there’s still work to do.

For 1 Beat, you can use your head like a hammer. Make a Close Heat Attack, and then give the target a Knockdown 1 or Push 3.

EXCEEDS:

TRIPLE SKULL: +1 Beat to make the attack a Blast 3 Heat Attack.

ULTIMATE KILLING RHETORIC: Gain a STRENGTHEN TOKEN after the attack, and then Rush 1.

#ultraviolence at the end of time #gamedev #ttrpg #writing

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intranetprincess · 4 months

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I heard you like g-man.... do you have any hcs

(Sorry for taking 2-3 months to respond i just figured out where to find submitted asks) but YES I DO 😈I HAVE MANY!!

These headcanons apply to pretty much every iteration of gman i guess. But mostly HLVRAI gman bc they’re my main fixation 😭😭❤️

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1. GMAN NON BINARY SOMEHOW. bro uses all pronouns but probably uses he-him as a default because being masc presenting is probably good in patriarchal society on earth (boooo)

HE CAN SWITCH FROM MASC TO FEMME AT WILL, EMPLOYERS CAN SHAPESHIFT. HE USES IT TO ACHIEVE GENDER EUPHORIA HURRAYYY!!

But YEAHeah being an all knowing space entity i don’t think traditional gender norms really stick in his brain so they only align with them to make tangible sense to the average human 🚶‍♀️

2. (HLVRAI G-man specifically)

Gman is pathetic. okay, Saul Goodman levels of pathetic like if we think abt it they’re just an intergalactic salaryman that works tirelessly for the employers.

So as much as he’s mysterious and powerful compared to other members of the Employers he’s generally a very average guy. Swings his suitcase around awkwardly and shit. Massive dork. Hate her (love her), but the powerful impression he gives off is only ever used to show off to humans / non-employers.

The large speeches / monologues are just him trying to look cool and imposing to unsuspecting humans (sorry gordon freeman 😭)

3. Gman differs greatly to other members of the Employers because he’s kinder / softer than the rest of them. He shows a degree of appreciation for life on Earth and uses his powers to protect the smallest things even when they don’t matter in the grand scheme of things!! ( gman moving a snail out of the way so it won’t get crushed, putting a birds nest in a safe place etc )

I feel if the Employers did not limit their abilities they would cause larger positive changes with their powers!! ( I even headcanon that employers limit his abilities because he would overuse them for good causes, especially when the employers are dedicated to being a *neutral* party)

Their personal values also don’t align with the Employers AT ALL, they only comply to not be fired </3

As a result employers don’t really like him much because he’s too … nice compared to the rest of them ☹️

Again, this adoration for life is shown by him literally having a PET CROW!! I also imagine Gman ( and Employers in general ) have the ability to communicate coherently and intelligently with animals, so he honestly has full blown conversations with this pet crow when he feels like it.

They’re one of the nicer members of the Employers , even if larger actions say otherwise.

THEYRE A HISTORY BUFF!!!! He’s been alive for … ages so i definitely think they have knowledge of history / evolution / events that he often dumps to either himself or anyone that will listen </3

5. I based this headcanon off something I read somewhere AGES AGO(I may just be hallucinating) but I swear it said that Earth’s atmosphere messes with them AND that he struggles with human languages because space language phonetics are what he’s used to.

So I honestly like to think his strained croaky voice is just a result of Earth’s atmosphere difference compared to where the Employers reside - he basically just has hayfever from Earth LMAOOO

So when he returns to space/ wherever the employers reside his voice is actually pretty normal and average and totes not croaky, and that the long pauses he takes are just to sound out human words before he says them.😭

6. HE KEEPS PICTURESOF THINGS HE LIKES IN HIS SUITCASE / TRINKETS,, (autism..)

in hlvrai gman’s case he has a picture of Tommy etc in his suitcase so he can look at it and not lose hope while he’s doing boring Employer duties. I genuinely think our gman is the most sentimental/sappy so ofc he keeps things that he loves in his suitcase / jacket pockets to be entertained and joyful 💖 he’s so not beating the loving all life on earth allegations

7. Gman neurodivergent. That’s the post. He got that space autism. I won’t go into detail because i can’t put it into words but he has an undeniable autism swagger ✅

8. Uhh.. clairvoyance, future vision, literally altering the fabric of time, time travel, stopping time, girly stuff like that. That’s all canon anyway but i just really enjoy how fuckin overpowered she is😭!!

That’s literally all i can think of right now, if i ever think of more ill probably post them or make doodles of them skjdkfjd

TLDR: (HLVRAI) GMAN IS A DUMB SAPPY PATHETIC INTERGALATIC SALARYMAN WHO LOVES HIS SON AND KEEPS TRINKETS IN HIS SUITCASE!!! AND THE OTHER EMPLOYERS BULLY HIM FOR BEING A SWEETIEPIE ON DUTY!!! And has a pet crow. Yeah

and they’re transgender in every direction fathomable to man .. send tweet..💖✅

#gman #half life #hl2vrai #hlvrai #hlvrai gman #gman coolatta #headcanons #these are garbage but in a guilty pleasure way I’m so sorry #gwomansweep #they them gman #hlvrai2 #my hcs

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snowflake-sage · 5 months

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Something to help understand/interpret my art, also lore dump (if you care):

Mae and Sage both are my sonas, Mae is my MAIN sona, she’s literally ME, and Sage represents an ASPECT of me.

Mae uses She/her pronouns and Sage uses He/him, they are both non-binary characters that represent different aspects of my gender experience. Mae represents the more physical gender experiences Ive had, and Sage represents more so what my gender is. (This is sort of hard to explain, Mae represents the experiences I’ve had in relation to my physical body that I was born with, and the experiences I’ve had in society and how society has interpreted me and my gender. She’s still accurate to my gender, but her design is more surface level and obvious. Sage on the other had, represents my gender experience at its CORE, and how I actually feel as an individual, despite my body. I feel like I am simply experiencing a feminine experience in some ways because of my body and how society sees me, but I don’t feel like who I am at my core can be put into any box, hence me being non-binary. I feel very much like I’m sort of playing a game and this is just the avatar I have, and that who I am is neither male nor female. I just happen to have more experiences in one regard because of how I was born. Sage is the aspect that cannot be boxed. He is both masculine and feminine, and also neither male or female. He’s just SAGE.) (this is also extremely personal to MY OWN gender experience so if you don’t relate to this don’t think to hard about it, this is literally how I interpret my own identity, it probably doesn’t make any sense to anyone else)

Back to Mae representing my more physical life experience, she carries a lot of my trauma and bad experiences. She represents every part of me that has ever been hurt.

Sage represents a part of me that is less in the earthly experience. If you know what a “higher self” is, that’s basically what Sage is in relation to Mae. He is an aspect of me, and therefore an aspect of Mae, they’re part of the same character. He acts as a sort of “guardian angel” who loves Mae more than anything and he would literally go any length for her. Representative of the innate love that I feel like everyone has for themself until society fucks us over and makes us hate ourselves.

Sage and Mae are NOT romantic towards each other (any art drawn of that is non-canon, sometimes I’m bored) , they are more like a queer-platonic relationship. I wouldn’t say they’re “just friends” because their lore and story and relationship is pretty complex and doesn’t fit that box for me.

Sage is an angel in canon, that takes a physical form which is the form I always draw, I’m working on drawing his true form for lore but I’m still designing it.

Sage is an angel of healing, which is why he’s so tender and gentle towards Mae and in general such a honey.

Sage is an angel of healing, and represents the higher self, but he also represents the shadow self (if you don’t know what that is, google is your friend). He carries the pain and trauma from Mae indirectly. This is why he has a darker color palette, since he represents Mae’s shadow (I actually am contemplating a few other alternate palettes for him , a crème color palette as well a blue one, as I work through the lore I’ll decide when those apply). He is NOT a dark angel or an evil angel. His character is multifaceted and complex, and his color palette just represents what I just explained. There are evil angels in my oc lore universe but their color palette doesn’t represent that bc I think that concept is overused, also I like being ironic. Sage having a darker palette is again, linked to his relation to Mae and the trauma he carries from her.

Even though Sage is small and sweet looking he is literally insanely powerful, like CRAZY strong

Sage being the shadow self, and also being so close and loving to Mae represents that our shadow self is not a part of us that is bad and needs to be pushed away, but actually a part of us that is just hurt and desperately needs love and healing.

I draw a lot of art of Mae and Sage embracing, either lovingly or during times of turmoil. I draw a lot of art of Mae being physically or mentally hurt and being comforted or embraced by Sage, Sage having different reactions situationally. A lot of the time, Mae is representing the physical effects of trauma, and Sage is the inner self mourning/crying/ suffering the trauma. Sort of like how you feel terrible for your child self for being mistreated, or how you feel bad for yourself because of the experiences you’ve had. It’s like a depiction of self pity, but also in a way, self love. It’s like holding yourself and crying for how the world has hurt you, and wishing better for yourself.

It’s symbolism✋

#I needed to write all this out and tell people because I need people to understand the deeper meaning of my art bc it’s my soul #my soul put on a canvas #but also I highkey think it’s interesting #like this is juicy stuff #but also I just want the world to know there’s a meaning behind alot of what I draw #I mean not all of it #some of it is just me goobin around #but some of it is LORE BRO #ANYWAYS #thanks for reading this if you did #hope you think I’m interesting #if not it’s whatever I’m just drawing dogs on the internet #mae rambles #oc lore #lore

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Alright, most colds last a few days, so if you are still wanting things to poke at: Halsin as a druid (and a person) focuses a lot on nature. The "nature outdid you" line in reference to beauty. Here's the thing though: eventually both he and Ballard have to realize our beautiful boy is at best preternatural. I also don't think he'd be actively transphobic, but I can see that adding a layer of perhaps active skepticism that tends to come up when cis people deal with the concept of self for us. (He's also got some strong binary thinking for nature vs not nature re: cities.)

Which is basically a long-winded way of asking how Halsin's view of Ballard changes as more info happens.

I've been stewing on this for (checks timestamp) four weeks now and I'm still so ajdjdalsdlaj about it. I've been frustrated about it for a couple of reasons--foremost that I really like Halsin as a character, and it's been challenging to think of him more critically, but not insignificant is that it feels like the Halsin we see in-game has had a LOT of context shaved off him with a little bitty pocket knife. Whittled down, as it were! In terms of cut content it feels like he's definitely lost a lot of character nuance, the source of his guilt about the shadow curse, the reason for his dissatisfaction as arch-druid, the conflict between his solitary wild shape and the role he's been forced to take in his community, etc etc. I think in game Halsin has stellar communication skills and an admirable sense of priorities, even in terms of stepping away from the Grove. It's difficult to ascribe weaknesses or blind spots to him as a result!

(kind of besotted, I am aware, it's fine, that's why I imprinted more on messy Gortash as a love interest)

So I am going to talk about a couple of different ways of conceptualizing 'nature', and which end of it I think Halsin comes down on.

The first take on nature is that how you were made is the be-all and end-all. This is the one I am most familiar with, and shoot me if you've heard this before but this is the Catholic idea of it. Your nature is immutable and permanent and defined for you from day one! God's plan, fate's plan, these are truths that cannot be fought or hidden from and all of your actions will only bring you back into their path. This is such a good bed for tragedy to grow from--this is what happened to Oedipus, where multiple people's fear of and attempts to escape from a prophecy are the very things that bring it about in the end!! There is a satisfaction to that kind of tragedy, but that's all this idea of nature can be, in my mind. Foregone conclusions of doom.

On the other hand, the idea that your nature is contained within you and can only be expressed by you, and is constantly changing according to it's surroundings--it is the nature of bears to hibernate, it is the nature of foxes that turns their coats white in winter, it is the nature of salmon to change beyond recognition as they approach the spawning beds. Nature IS change, and to fight change is unnatural; to assume someone else's change is incorrect because it does not match your previous notion of them, or match YOUR internal changes, is wrong. Very obviously I think this is where Halsin would come down on it! With all of the ways that nature changes, up to and including the non-existence of binary sex, I just can't believe he would be anything less than serenely approving of being trans.

Much more likely, I think he thinks that being trans is cool and hot as hell and is super into it (the vibes I get are not chaser, to be clear--but there's a type of person who is just VERY excited to see tangible examples and proof of you having taken direct control over your physical form, you know? Halsin sees bottom growth and goes cuckoo bananas, Halsin gets a handful of little puffy nipple titty and implodes, imo. ally.)

Now, theoretically, this also applies to the idea that a bhaalspawn can change and is not bound by their birth--and in theory I think Halsin definitely would say he DOES think people can better themselves. Faced with the reality, that Ballard doesn't actually think he should stop killing people and just wants to be in charge of when he does--faced with the reality of Ballard's past and that he doesn't necessarily regret it--I do imagine even Halsin 'close my eyes real hard when something confronts my beliefs' might struggle. Again, having not played through the entirety of Act 3 or decided exactly what Ballard's end game is.... there's a very real likelihood of a falling out happening there as Ballard struggles to figure out self determination, but if they break ways I think Halsin and Astarion find solace in each other, Ballard having forged that V and put the work into seeing what the final leg of the triangle would look like.

#asks #character meta #halsin #ballard #i like halsin a lot i rly rly rly do i just wish we had more of his actual story so I could decide whether or not he is a man of conviction

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kiragecko · 1 year

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Made this in 2021, while trying to figure out this gender thing everyone was talking about. Organizing things is very helpful to me.

GENDER DIMENSIONS:

A Model of Gender

Part 1/6

Let's talk about gender.

You might have heard the phrase 'gender is a construct.' Today, we're going to take that literally. We're going to construct gender from the ground up.

Starting with nothing. This black circle has nothing in it. Some people have no gender. This is one of the meanings of 'agender.' (We'll get into the other meaning of agender later.) Another term is 'gendernull.' When asked to describe their gender, these people might say 'it isn't there,' that 'there's an empty space where gender is supposed to be,' or that 'they don't have much of that.'

Now let's add something! We'll add a white circle, and connect it to the black circle with a line. This dimension adds a sense of gender. It is not a specific type, but it is there! One way to describe having a gender is to say that you're 'allogender.' Usually, it's assumed that you have a gender, so this term isn't super common.

In the model of gender we're using, there are no binaries. (Okay, there is, but it's only there for a bit.) Gender doesn't have to be just there or not. People can have partial senses of gender. These are represented by the line in between our two circles.

The most common term for a partial sense of gender is 'demigender.' Any gender that isn't complete, but is there, can be considered a demigender.

Gender also doesn't need to be static in this model. It can fluctuate.

The term for a sense of gender that gets weaker and stronger is 'genderflux.' Some people go from no sense of gender, to full gender. Others fluctuate through a smaller part of the spectrum - agender to demigender, demigender to allogender, etc.

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Now lets add some of the genders that people can experience! For many people, their sense of gender is more specific then 'it exists/it doesn't exist'. The way of dividing up the 'it exists' area most familiar to Eurocentric cultures is into 'man' and 'woman.' This is called the 'gender binary'. (Told you we'd have a binary for a bit!) So we'll start by separating the gender circle into two circles - one with an arrow for 'man', and one with a cross for 'woman.'

You'll notice that we're adding here, not replacing. Man and woman are types of allogenders. All the previous things we discussed about sense of gender apply to them. Someone can be partially a man, mostly agender but slightly a woman, etc.

Western culture combines a lot of elements into the concepts 'male' and 'female.' These elements can be divided into some major categories, and are usually referred to as 'masculinity' and 'femininity'. Here are some things stereotypically associated with gender:

Biological Sex - what chromosomes you have. Also frequently applied to what your genitals look like, whether you have breasts, and things like facial hair.

Sexual Orientation - if you like boys, you must be a girl! If you're not attracted to breasts, you're not a real man! Drooling over a hunky actor is the sign that you're a woman instead of a girl! Men are expected to be attracted to women, and women to men.

Gender presentation - how deep is your voice? How long is your hair? How do move your hands while talking? How much space do you take up on the bus? How you look and take up space are expected to be tied to concepts of gender.

Gender dynamics - Women should support and nurture men. Men are expected to take the lead in mixed-gender conversations. Women are expected to share emotions with each other, while men should only talk about them with their wife. Expectations about how we act around our own and other genders are baked into concepts of gender.

Gender roles - Men should be in positions of authority. Women should do the household work. Men should be strong and successful. Women should be sexy. Gender comes with assumed responsibilities and limitations.

Gender identity - how you see and define yourself. For some people, this is mainly defined by the other elements. For others, it's an innate, separate sense.

This model is mostly about 'gender identity.' ('Orientation' comes up briefly in the discussion of 'xenogenders.') But all of the other elements can, and usually do, affect our sense of identity.

For some people, western concepts of gender have been imposed on their culture, and their relationship with western white culture affects their identity. If gender roles, dynamics, and presentation are different enough between cultures, they may become alienated from the western framework. Or they may have concepts of identity that don't exist in western cultures, and divide their models in very different ways than white people do.

For other people, one or more of the other gender elements are so uncomfortable that they struggle to, or can't, accept the identity that is usually combined with it. Maybe the gender roles they're expected to fit into feel painful. Maybe they can not understand gender dynamics and are frequently reprimanded. Maybe the rules of gender presentation are so stifling that they start to hate the identity itself.

Some people are able to reject these elements and keep their attachment to their gender. Other people find it easier to find a new gender identity, than to untangle the relationships between elements. They may talk about being 'male' but not 'masculine.' Or they may embrace 'femininity' but not consider themselves 'female.'

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You may have noticed that the agender, man, and woman symbols could form a triangle. Let's fill in the last line. Just like a person can be any place between a full gender and no gender, they can also be any place between genders.

Note: Some people do not have completely male or female biological sex. These people are 'intersex,' which is a biological sex, not a gender identity. An intersex person can have any gender. However, some choose identities that relate to being intersex and are between male and female, like 'intergender' or 'duogender.'

Some people feel like they have an identity between man and woman. These people are usually grouped under the 'androgynous' umbrella. (Androgynous can also be used to describe ways of dressing, acting, and presenting oneself. We won't be talking about those meanings here.)

Some androgynous people feel they have a mix or combination of masculinity and femininity/male and female. Others feel that they are something that is between male and female, related to both but not part of them.

Androgyne,' 'midgender,' and 'intergender' (though some intersex people feel this term should not be used by non-intersex people) are all terms that androgynous people might identify with. 'Epicene' is also a term some people use for their gender, meaning it is neutral between male and female. Epicene has multiple, sometimes conflicting, meanings outside of gender, and these can make its use ambiguous.

Like male and female, these genders can fluctuate, and 'demiandrogyne,' etc. exist.

Similarly to how gender can fluctuate, it can also flow. 'Genderfluid' is a term for people whose sense of gender can change between genders. It change change slowly - over weeks or even months; or quickly - multiple times a day. The change can feel subtle or obvious. Someone can change only between closely related genders, or between very different ones. They can have two distinct states, experience the whole spectrum between two end points, or have multiple distinct genders. Someone whose gender both fluctuates in strength and flows between genders may consider themself simply 'genderfluid' or choose 'fluidflux' as a label.

The genders experienced do not have to be equal. Someone can be one gender the majority of the time, and only experience occasional and short term changes. Or they can identify with one of their genders more than the others.

Another dimension we can now bring in is multiple genders.

We got close when we discussed genderflux identities. They involve different strengths of gender over time. Some genderflux people consider themselves to be multigender - the different strengths feel like separate genders, and they experience them separately. Other genderflux people may feel their experience of gender varies, but is not separate genders. Genderfluid people have a similarly varied experience.

People can also experience multiple genders at the same time. 'Bigender' people experience 2 genders (either at the same time, or fluidly.) If someone experiences more, they can swap out the 'bi-' for other number prefixes - 'tri-' for 3, 'quad' for 4, etc. - or use 'polygender' or 'multigender.' Some people feel like they experience every gender in existence, and may call themselves 'pangender.'

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So, we've covered gender as it relates to the western binary concept. People can be male, female, both, lack gender entirely, or any combination thereof. If you're ready, I'd like to add another gender (and a new circle, this time with a line that ends in a triangle) and get into the FUN stuff!

Note: Because we started our exploration with a complete lack of gender, rather than the traditional gender binary, there hasn't been an obvious place to insert the idea of being 'nonbinary.' That's because nonbinary means ANYTHING other than men and women. Agender people are nonbinary. Androgynous people are nonbinary. People who are extremely close to a man or a woman, but aren't quite one, are usually nonbinary. (Some may feel they are binary, despite the separation.) And people who experience this next dimension of gender are definitely nonbinary!

Not everyone sees their gender as something related to male and female. They have a gender separate from those.

Perhaps they have a sense that there have always been (at least) three genders, and for some reason this isn't common knowledge. Or they may feel they have a new gender that needs to be added to the model. They may struggle to describe their identity as anything other than 'not male or female,' or they may feel very secure in who and what they are.

We still don't have an agreed upon term for this sense of unrelated gender. An old term was '3rd gender,' but it was used in a LOT of really racist ways, and covered a much larger area of gender experience than I'm focused on at the moment. We generally avoid it these days. 'Aporagender,' 'aliagender,' 'abinary,' 'othergender,' and 'outherine' are all possible modern terms.

No matter the name, abinary genders are pretty similar to any other gender. They can be in flux, be fluid, be partial, or be mixed with other genders.

We started with 'agender,' and now is a good time to go back to it.

Looking at our diagram, you'll see a space between female, abinary, and male. Imagine being perfectly in the centre, not pulled in any direction. You have a gender, but it's undefined, has nothing specific, it's... 'neutral.'

Genderneutral' people have a gender, and that's about all they can say about their identity. Their gender is a blank piece of paper, with nothing written on it. This experience has a lot of overlap with being 'gendernull,' and the two sets of identities are often grouped together as being 'agender.' We're going to show it on our diagram as a circle with a diagonal line through it - a 'not' sign.

Not everyone distinguishes between these different agender experiences. Most terms for specific identities can be used for either.

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We have one final dimension in this model, and it's a big one!

Not everyone who experiences gender can describe it using gender concepts. Some gender isn't related to femininity or masculinity. It isn't a lack, a neutral feeling, or even a separate and distinct gendered feeling. Some people can only express their gender by relating it to non-gender concepts.

We use the term 'xenogender' to describe genders that incorporate non-gender elements. We'll show this dimension on our model as a purple star, instead of a circle, with a cross under it.

Some xenogenders can be grouped into larger categories, and we'll discuss some of those below.

Neurodivergence and mental illness can strongly affect how people experience the world. Some people feel their gender can not be disconnected from their brain make up. These genders are called 'neurogenders.'

For example:

Some autistic people struggle with social cues, and are unable to predict how a man or a woman will be expected to act in any given situation. They can grow up feeling very disconnected from gender, to the point that they may only identify as autistic, or consider their gender undefinable without also talking about their autism. A term they can use for themself is 'autigender.'

Some people dealing with PTSD feel that their gender was 'cut away' or damaged by the trauma they experienced. They might use the term 'caedogender' to describe their disconnected sense of gender.

Sexual and romantic orientation are related to gender in complex ways. Some people find that they cannot describe their gender without reference to their orientation. These are called 'orientationgenders.'

Someone who loves women, considers themself a butch lesbian, and has a complicated relationship with womanhood might call themself 'butchgender' or just 'butch.'

Someone who experiences no sexual attraction, and feels disconnected from a gender because of the sexual expectations people have of that gender, or the difficulty navigating gender roles without any interest in having a partner, may use the term 'acegender.'

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Some people feel their gender can only be described as an experience, or as similar to something else. These are called 'aesthetigenders' or 'noungenders.'

For example:

A person whose experience with gender feels like that of an alien interacting with something they don't understand might say that they're an 'alien' or 'aliengender.'

A person whose gender feels like energy, always shifting and moving, components understood and the whole hard to pin down, might describe it as 'energender.'

Someone who's spent years unable to describe themself, heard a certain song, and realized it encapsulated their experience perfectly, might use the name of the song to describe how their gender feels.

And that's our model!

Gender identity can be lacking, neutral, male, female, something else, or only able to be described in relation to a non-gender concept.

It can fluctuate in strength, flow between identities, or exist in multiple states at once.

It is related to, but not the same as, gender roles, dynamics, presentation, and orientation. It is also related to, but not the same as, biological sex. Maybe this discussion helped you find some structure in the mess that is gender. If it did, that's great! if not, that's fine too.

I'm not trying to say this is THE model of gender, or even that it is MY model. I created it as a way of synthesizing a lot of data that was hard for me to visualize and understand. I'm still working out my own point of view.

But if it makes things clearer for even one person, that would be wonderful. And if you have any insights, I'd love to hear them!

#gender #queer #nonbinary #agender #xenogender #androgynous #aporagender #gender stuff #abinary #gendernull #genderneutral #genderfluid #genderflux

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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 8 months

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By: Tired Transsexual

Published: Sept 1, 2023

Tired Transsexual*

When I first encountered the “trans community”, I carried the belief that it was built on acceptance, understanding and compassion. That it was a safe haven for individuals like me—transsexuals, propelled by dysphoria, navigating the deeply complex, intensely personal journey of sex reassignment. Sadly, over time, I’ve witnessed this community increasingly transform into a platform for what can only be described as sociopathic narcissism, exploiting the struggles of transsexuals for its agenda, and displaying an alarming antipathy towards those who refuse to comply with its convoluted narratives.

I want to first clarify what I mean by sociopathic narcissism. Sociopathy and narcissism are both personality disorders characterised by a lack of empathy, a sense of superiority and a disregard for the feelings and rights of others. When I apply these terms to the trans movement, it’s because I see a system that prioritises individual self-expression and validation over collective welfare and truth.

It’s a system that promotes self-identification over biological and psychological realities, invalidating the experiences of transsexuals who suffer from sex dysphoria. It’s a system that conflates the struggles of a minority with the desire for limitless self-definition of the majority, undermining the fight for legal protections and medical assistance that transsexuals desperately need. It’s a system that forces transsexuals into the same category as crossdressers, drag performers and fetishists, further stigmatising and marginalising us. A system that cares more about the societal validation of “non-binary identities” than the welfare of the transsexuals it claims to represent.

We, who should be at the forefront of the trans movement, are instead pushed aside, silenced, or even vilified if we dare to challenge the ideology. We are othered as “true transsexual scum”, “transmedicalists” and other derogatory terms simply for stating that our experiences are rooted in an unchosen, deeply distressing medical condition, not a fluid sense of gender or a rebellious stance against societal norms.

“My username reflects the exhaustion of navigating a world that often misunderstands or misrepresents transsexuals, not a personal failing. The tireless effort to seek clarity amidst ignorance isn’t a me-problem, it’s an us-problem. So, if I’m tiring myself out, it’s only because I’m doing the heavy lifting in conversations that most would rather sidestep. And if that’s exhausting for you to witness, imagine living it.”—tweet, Tired Transsexual, 30 August 2023

We are berated and vilified for seeking and advocating for medical treatment, which for many of us is a matter of survival. We are dismissed when we point out the very real differences between us and non-dysphoric individuals who claim the trans label. We are accused of being exclusionary, of being gatekeepers, when we simply ask for our unique struggles to be acknowledged and respected. We are denied the right to speak to our distinct experiences and needs by those who claim to care about us the most, and this leaves us with a profound sense of despair and hopelessness. An equally grave consequence of this “trans umbrella” and gender ideology manifests in paediatrics. Misconceptions and ill-informed policies can lead to irreversible decisions made for young, gender non-conforming children who may not have any true discomfort in their sex, yet have been encouraged to consider sex-reassignment therapy under the guise of “affirming their gender”. The severity of this issue and its implications for everyone included in the ever-expanding trans umbrella cannot be overstated. For readers unfamiliar with this level of nuance, consider the potential repercussions. When mainstream society finally grasps the potential harm being done, the backlash may reverberate beyond paediatric gender clinics and queer theory activist groups, negatively affecting public support for the LGBs & Ts—the lesbians, gays, bisexuals and transsexuals—who never asked for any of this.

“Many transsexuals worry that minors may be unable to give informed consent in an era where gender non-conformity and transsexuality have been intentionally conflated with transgender.”

The concern among transsexuals about paediatric transition is multilayered. Those of us who have gone through hormonal and surgical sex reassignment interventions ourselves understand how difficult and irreversible the process is. Many worry that minors may be unable to give informed consent in an era where gender non-conformity and transsexuality have been intentionally conflated with “transgender”, and where medical transition has been glamorised as a mechanism to achieve “gender euphoria” or “trans joy”, rather than a means of reducing distress and trying to reach a baseline of normalcy.

Additionally, many transsexuals argue that natal males and females should be treated differently in diagnostic safeguarding due to observable differences in aetiologies—teenage females dominate the red-flag category of “rapid-onset gender dysphoria”— and the greater difficulties of “undoing” the effects of male pubertal maturation when embarking upon medical transition.

While there are those who advocate for an outright ban on paediatric care, this viewpoint is far from universal among transsexuals. Many of us fear that such a ban would give momentum to those who want to ban sex-reassignment interventions altogether, creating a harmful domino effect and an existential threat to our lives.

In essence, the prevailing view among transsexuals is not against paediatric care itself, but against a medical paradigm where the clinical understanding of “gender dysphoria” has become completely detached from the sex-based strife that we experience. In our view, the watering down and genderfication of diagnostic codes (the DSM and the ICD) is a grievous mistake. Those classifications used to recognise transsexualism as a condition involving discomfort over sex characteristics. Now transsexualism is a diagnosis no more, and the reality of discomfort has been obscured by identity politics.

We argue as transsexuals that the psychosocial diagnostic model should be aligned with the emerging neurobiological understanding of dysphoria, with a primary focus on own-body sex perception, not perceived conformity to gender roles.

My own experience resonates much more closely with not just the older diagnostic category of transsexualism, but also with Stephen Gliske’s controversial 2019 theory, which proposed that dysphoria is a sensory perception condition caused not by cerebral sex dimorphism, but by the profound ways our brains map our sense of self, characterised by sex-atypical primal behaviour, own-body sex perception and distress, fear and anxiety. Unfortunately, Dr. Gliske’s paper was retracted by eNeuro in 2020, after a sustained activist campaign was launched against the journal. Today, transsexuals are such a marginalised sexual minority that our very existence doesn’t warrant a mention in the American Psychological Association’s latest guidelines on sexual minorities, despite transgender being defined as an apparently limitless umbrella term. In defining transgender this way, they acknowledge it is not synonymous with the word transsexual, yet they simultaneously choose to dismiss this meaningful distinction by omitting a term that once gave clarity, recognition and respect to our distinct medical condition and biological reality. How can the medical community provide us the care we need when we’re vanishing from the very documents guiding that care? How can transsexuals have honest, meaningful discussions about our healthcare, our rights, our lives when our very identity is stripped from us without any consultation?

“The inclusive transgender umbrella has, paradoxically, left transsexuals out in the rain.”

The trans movement, in its quest for inclusivity, has become a breeding ground for self-centred entitlement. It has completely lost sight of its initial purpose—to advocate for the rights and well-being of transsexuals—and has instead morphed into a free-for-all where any and all boundaries are viewed as oppressive, and where the feelings and experiences of actual transsexuals are disregarded by gender ideology (i.e., the notion that “gender identity” is a universal trait, rather than exclusive to people with transsexualism). The inclusive transgender umbrella has, paradoxically, left transsexuals out in the rain.

There is an urgent need to reclaim our narrative, to bring the focus back to the realities of being transsexual. As a society, we must resist the sociopathic narcissism that has overtaken the trans movement and re-establish a distinct space for true understanding, empathy and advocacy for transsexual rights and recognition. This struggle is not for an abstract, ever-broadening notion of identity. It is a fight for our right to exist, to receive the medical care we need, and to live our lives without being swallowed up in an all-encompassing trans umbrella that erases our identity and deprives us of the very language we need to articulate our experience. It is a fight for acceptance, not as an identity, but as human beings with unique experiences, challenges and needs rooted in material reality. We are transsexuals and we deserve to be seen, heard and respected as such.

Every application of the term transgender to us is an attempt to mask what we have done and as such co-opts our lives, denies our experiences and violates our very souls. We have had enough.

* Tired Transsexual is the pen name of an Anglo-American male-to-female transsexual who lives in the U.K. Her Twitter account is @tiredtransmed

"... gender non-conformity and transsexuality have been intentionally conflated with transgender.”

This is both deliberate and overt. Clinical dysphoria has been excised entirely from the terminology.

https://www.hrc.org/resources/glossary-of-terms

Transgender | An umbrella term for people whose gender identity and/or expression is different from cultural expectations based on the sex they were assigned at birth.

https://www.stonewall.org.uk/list-lgbtq-terms

Trans An umbrella term to describe people whose gender is not the same as, or does not sit comfortably with, the sex they were assigned at birth.

Literally, "gender non-conforming." It doesn't even allude to the very new phenomenon of late-onset anxiety around puberty. You're "trans" if you don't conform to outdated stereotypes.

Which becomes dangerous when gay people and those with autism, who are on average more likely to be gender non-conforming, are tricked by activists into thinking they were "born in the wrong body" in service to a Marxian cultural revolution.

It also means unremarkable and completely normal people can declare themselves "non-binary" or "cakegender," pretend to be "marginalized," and demand rights that they already have or aren't entitled to, and call you a bigot for not going along with it. And as the umbrella grows without limit, it further edges out transsexuals through this anti-trust takeover.

You're not a bigot for rejecting genderwang. Indeed, transsexuals are counting on us to do so, to help them take back both their healthcare and their dignity.

#Tired Transsexual #transsexual #gender dysphoria #transgender #trans joy #gender euphoria #medical malpractice #medical corruption #medical scandal #queer theory #gender ideology

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farmerlesbian · 1 year

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where is the line between transmasc/genderweird lesbians and Men with a capital M? i dont think there really is one, but as a lesbian who straddles that line, people are constantly trying to shame me onto one side or the other and its exhausting. i think sometimes the ppl trying to protect our community by keeping men out end up targeting mostly ppl who are in between or overlapping categories and are typically trans, instead of like, Cisguys preying on dykes. its become a real problem in the community just being visibly trans or butch tbh

i don't think it's possible to articulate A Line. i agree with you and don't really have anything to add!

i'll just say what i've said before. it's fuzzy/blurry. the nuances and intricacies of someone's gender through the narrow slice the internet (on anon!) is not enough for a stranger to make any sort of call about! it's something that individuals with non-binary gender experiences gotta use their own discretion about. people should go about these things with a mindset of using their best judgement and engaging in good faith, instead of like, pushing the boundaries of what is "allowed". instead of seeking approval and validation, seek to look inside onesself and determine 'is this for me? is this space for me? do i genuinely feel like i'm intruding and pushing the boundaries or do i feel like i'm being pushed out and unjustly excluded?'. those are different feelings and while i can imagine it's hard to discern sometimes, maybe talking with your irl people you can figure it out. yeah sometimes you gotta ask a clarifying question here and there to the organizers of the space in question -- i certainly do when seeing (nonlesbian) events for "femmes" and stuff like that haha!

i'm sorry that you're dealing with people being shitty to you about straddling the line. i know i see it, people having this like compulsive need to find rules and permission and categories for everything, needing to push people into one box or another in order to make sense of them, to know how to see you and treat you. and it sucks! it sucks even more because the boxes are WRONG! it hurts and they don't get you.

for ME, when i say "no men" i mean people who are men period. no additions no explanations no complications. just a straight up man. a fully binary man, if you will. i do not intend to apply this to people with funky genders. to trans folks straddling lines. i think if someone is genderweird or got somethin funky goin on they aren't a straight up Man capital M with no qualifiers! do you see yourself as a man or not, deep down? (general you, not you anon!) i do apply it to trans men and cis men alike. i see no reason to separate the two as if trans men aren't really men. because there ARE binary trans men. there are binary cis men! there are a LOT of them out there in the world! some of them are even on tumblr! are there ALSO trans men that feel also kinda butch at the same time and like a little dykey? maybe. i dunno any personally so i'm not gonna make harsh calls and big rules and statements. i'd expect people to make their own judgement calls and use their discretion and best judgment! i absolutely do not want to push someone out who feels that it is their community and that they deserve to belong in it. this is why i don't patrol my followers list except for bots (common lately ugh tumblr!) and obvious gross lesbophobes (quite rare).

sorry this got so long. lmao i say i'm not gonna add anything and then next thing i know you have an essay!! sorry!! hope it makes sense. basically i fully agree with you and i'm sorry you are having people shame you and push you. they should not do that and i do not support it and it is not what i think We should be doing as a lesbian community.

#ask farmer lesbian #mod alfalfa #i can't speak for anyone but myself #idk what to tag this as #gender #nonbinary #please tell me if this makes sense or if i'm being confusing #i can ask my woife to summarize if necessary she is a woman of few words #anonymous #'i have nothing to add' *proceeds to write an essay* lmao

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drdemonprince · 1 year

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While we are on the subject of eating disorders, I will once again send praise at the book Saving Our Own Lives by Shira Hassan, as it’s the first book I’ve ever read to apply a harm reduction framework to eating disordered behaviors.

Nearly every available piece of writing or scholarship on the subject of eating disorders assumes that a goal of recovery should be imposed on every sufferer whether they like it or not, and takes an abstinence based approach. this frankly does not make any sense, given that such a large number of behaviors and choices humans engage in on a daily basis can be wrapped up in an eating or excessive exercise disorder and ripping them all out of your life at once to attain a state of abstinent ‘recovery’ is impossible.

this is even more true when you take into account the fact that for many people, eating disordered behaviors serve many purposes. the book really helped firm up my own slow but steady realization that walking long distances each day, which i used to do as a form of excessive exercise was also a great autistic stim. it also provided me a satisfying way to zone out and drench my mind in podcasts when i was miserably lonely and consumed with compulsive negative thoughts.

my almost religious adherence to a daily walking schedule was eating disordered, of that i have no doubt. but it also gave a structure to my day and got me out of the house. in addition, my tireless exercise habits & eating restrictions were one of the few areas in my life where i have always felt comfortable expressing my boundaries.i might not have felt comfortable telling people not to touch me or not to speak to me in a certain way, but i always had the courage to tell someone i wasn’t going to eat something that i didn’t want to or that i needed to leave a function early so i’d have time for my exercise.

i also now realize that i have a very obsessive, ruminative mind, and fixating on numbers like miles walked was actually a better outlet than some of the other places my mind often went back then. eating disorders are one of the most dangerous and deadly mental health diagnoses around, so i dont say this lightly. it was still a less damaging outlet than some of the others i was flirting with at the time. my long ponderous hours of over exercise i found a lot of space and quiet to just simply think my little thoughts to myself, and a lot of that went some good places ultimately.

in an abstinence-only view of eating disorders that posits a person must only and always strive for “full recovery,” acknowledging the positive role an ED played in my life is not allowed. and that kind of binary thinking simply isn’t helpful, because my needs for physical stimulation, and time alone, and a means for expressing my boundaries were always gonna be there, and needed an outlet, and would find one of some kind no matter what.

over the years that i was not well, my eating disorder behaviors shifted, becoming less physically destructive while still scratching the psychological itch and not being “great” in a black and white sense. was walking long distances every day great for my health from a recovery or abstinence pov? no. but it was a lot better than what i did before. i had much more dangerous ED behaviors before that. instead of feeling ashamed of myself for having “backslid” in my recovery and still resorting to such methods, 2014-2015 me ought to have just been proud of myself for finding a way to meet my needs that wasn’t as destructive as the ones that had come before, and actually had a few side benefits.

i have not seen many people at all talking about EDs from a harm reduction pov and i think that it is desperately needed. online, all we see is a lot of well intentioned encouragement to make a ‘recovery’ that comes with many prescriptions for how a person ought to be living and what they ought to want. if you are still active in your eating disorder and not committed to recovery, then, the toxicity of the pro-ana and pro-mia spaces is the only place left to turn to, and that makes matters so much worse.

i wish we could develop the online, eating disorder equivalent of needle exchange spaces for people who use intravenous drugs and have no plan to quit. spaces where people can discuss strategies for mitigating the harm of their ED without being admonished for not valuing recovery yet, or ever. so much trauma is done in the name of forcing people to get ‘better’ when they don’t want to.

liberatory harm reduction is all about embracing an individual where they are at and not imposing an external value system or set of goals upon them, trusting that they are the only and ultimate authority on what they do with their body. and this does not just apply to drug use or sex, it applies to what we typically call eating disordered behaviors too. people with eating disorders often have a fractured sense of selfhood and autonomy, and institutionalizing them against their will or forcing them to eat certain things or to not exercise just further reinforces those issues for them much of the time.

im very happy to be recovered from an ED now, but for many years i did not want to be recovered, and the recovery-fits-all approach to the disorder meant i lied to every medical professional i ever saw and all of my family and friends. i wonder what an explicitly harm reduction rooted approach to living with an ED would have looked like for me.

#eating disorder tw

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johannestevans · 10 months

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Hi, this is the anon who was asking about the afab term stuff 👋

Firstly thanks for the longer explanation, I hope it wasn't too frustrating for you, I really don't mean to bother you, so if this is too many questions feel free to ignore it

Secondly, this has actually kinda explained a couple things about my own experience with the terms, like how people asking if I'm afab/amab (which doesn't really apply to me in a binary/dyadic sense) has always felt a little like someone asking my deadname. So thanks for making me consider that more from a different perspective

Thirdly, my experience from having my identity heavily medicalised (intersex healthcare in the UK is a mess) and from being raised by a doctor is that female sex vs female gender were two separate things, and that one doesn't always correspond to the other. I never really approached the idea that female/male sex weren't useful/real categories because their meanings to me were entirely anatomical definitions of a collection of parts that are usually found together. To me it would be completely the same to refer to them as Sex A and sex B, with the understanding that there are people who fit neither category. Intersex anatomy is often talked about as if its the crossover in a Venn diagram of characteristics, between the two categories of 'male sex' and 'female sex'. For this purpose having those categories for communication purposes, is somewhat helpful, e.g to say that an increase in my testosterone will cause my male characteristics to become more prominent. The categories serve a purpose for communication more than anything else.

If the categories weren't using the words female/male do you think it would be any better of an experience for you? Aka if the terms used to describe them had no relation to any gender identity, but there was still two prominent categories.

Of course I can see the issue with when people assume that you fall exactly into one category or another, so regardless of name/language no number of categories should ever be assumed to be a universal set, but that doesn't mean that the terms don't have positive uses. Our language exists for us to communicate, so if terms to describe a category of anatomical parts help us do that, surely they still have meaning/usefulness?

Nope, don't worry about it, Anon! If anything bothers me so much that I don't want to answer it, I'll say or I'll just delete the ask.

I absolutely think that some people do ask after ASAB because they want to just find out what people "really" are and whatever, have just internalised the whole gender aspect and do think of some trans people as being female (good) and male (bad), and there's so much transmisogyny baked into it, but also just... misanthropy, you know? Like a real distaste for the variety in humanity and a desperate desire to force everyone into particular categories.

The thing about current medicalised perceptions of intersex identities is that there are dozens of so-called "intersex conditions", but we literally have 0 way of knowing how many people are the "pure" standard of female with the exact female anatomy and the "pure" standard of male with the exact male anatomy without like, MRI-ing and later dissecting massive swathes of the population and comparing them all, and we don't do that because people want the male/female divide to exist when like.

It doesn't, not in the way people want to imagine it does.

These are broad categories people have projected onto people, and while I agree that medical professionals knowing someone's physical anatomy is valuable, I actually think that the M/F binary actually is more likely to harm them than otherwise.

Many doctors will meet someone who they assume was AFAB, and therefore they must have all this anatomy, and then they'll just put any abdominal or even chest pain down to their period, on top of not really caring how much pain they're in - and then they won't even check for shit like appendicitis or gut problems or even more significant uterine problems like endometrioisis, but also like... testicular torsion.

I frankly don't agree that "female sex" and "male sex" are genuinely useful categories. They're just weaponised too much for me to believe that - I think we should do away with M/F categorisations on birth certs and medical records, and that doctors should have to fucking, God forbid, examine people to see what their problems are.

I'm so sorry that you've received shitty treatment for intersex medical issues, several of my friends are intersex and experience just roadblock after roadblock - even as a probably dyadic trans dude with a few chronic issues it's just painful to navigate, and I just get pissed off because it's complicated by doctors religious devotion to a cis medical binary that's not nearly as important as they desperately want to believe it is.

#musings #anonymous

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astraltrickster · 9 months

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I think the thing that's really interesting about the egg joke phenomenon is that...it speaks of a very SPECIFIC trans experience. Not an invalid one, but an EXTREMELY specific one. The overwhelming majority of people I see insisting on saying it are fairly gender-conforming, pretty young, mostly white, probably-more-online-than-average trans people.

Even when it's not explicitly claiming that any gender nonconformity will eventually "go all the way" - that any man who paints his nails is secretly a binary woman deep down, she/her exclusively, or that any woman who likes cars and keeps her hair short and finds her tits inconvenient is totally gonna be a binary man in 5 years - there's still the assumption that everyone who ends up playing with gender is gonna identify as A Little Bit Trans, and probably start taking hormones, and that's a neutral to good thing...

And, I can see how that SOUNDS like a progressive thing to say, when you spend a lot of time in certain online queer communities, where "trans people don't owe you perfect conformity to their actual gender" is almost as widely accepted as "the earth is fucking round", but internalized bias makes a lot of people still act like suspicion of being queer is some kind accusation of wrongdoing. I mean, hell, we're getting past the "born this way" narrative and talking more about how yes, SOME of queerness is about deep-seated identity, but SOME of it is also about pushing back against unjust social constructs, and that lowering the stakes of exploration will eventually make more people identify with queerness, and that's just a neutral statement of fact - by THAT definition, it's totally understandable where the jokes come from.

Problem is, most of the people pushing back against them AREN'T cis people insisting that "nooooo, it's MEAN to even IMAGINE that someone might be a FREAK like YOU"; they're OTHER TRANS AND NONBINARY PEOPLE pointing out how this can reinforce stereotypes that have been used against US. Who have been gatekept from actual medical transition because, just like the person you're calling totally an egg, we DIDN'T reject every single thing that brought us joy but wasn't wrapped up in the right pink or blue wrapper. Who have had their identities denied even within the community because, like, okay, but you NEED to pick a side you're closer to because we NEED to know how to pigeonhole you, on an individual level, within our theory of your societal privilege that other people constructed on a demographic-wide level and explicitly CAN'T apply the same way to every single individual ever, in large part specifically because of people who lie outside the framework-

And we cannot tell at a glance whether you mean it in that understandable sense, or the gender-policing sense that's queerphobic, misogynistic, usually even straight-up racist garbage used to demand men constantly prove themselves by aggressive repression of every emotion but rage, and gets butches attacked by terfs and their conservative Christofascist BFFs for "violating the sanctity of women's restrooms", or somewhere else on the spectrum such that CONSCIOUSLY you mean it in the understandable sense but you still have a good bit of subconscious internalized gender essentialism that you've just assigned to taste instead of body parts.

And YOU cannot tell at a glance if the "egg" you just spotted really is as cis as you think they are - they might very well be trans in the OPPOSITE direction, or some other totally different way than you're "predicting" them to be, and so you're functionally repeating the exact same "ugh, you're wearing pink, look at this faggot, man card REVOKED lmao // nooooo, you'll ALWAYS be your birth sex deep down, the fact that you don't hate EVERYTHING associated with it and can't shake that mannerism learned over a lifetime on day 1 out of the closet PROVES it" that's been thrown at us all the fucking time to deny us anything from social support to actual literal medical care.

In short, look, go ahead and make those jokes, but please do it in a constrained space where people are all known to be on the same page as you. There ARE valid reasons not to fucking want to hear people speculating openly about random strangers' private lives and deliberately misgendering them for a joke.

#internet culture #internet etiquette #serious tag #side note i hate how its ALSO impossible to differentiate at a glance between people who say ''trans and nonbinary''#to INCLUDE nonbinary people who DON'T identify as trans #and people who say it to EXCLUDE nonbinary people who DO #i mean it in the former sense #to be 100000% clear #look im a little sick and i just saw a post about it and just ugh i hate the semantic gap #i wish we could communicate ideas telepathically

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trans-axolotl · 2 years

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I've been having some thoughts recently about intersex and disability and I'm gonna try to type them out in a way that makes sense. Something that I've been realizing lately is that I think about the word "intersex" and the word "intersex variation" as two slightly seperate things. To be intersex, you obviously have to have an intersex variation.However, intersex is a wide umbrella for so many experiences and covers a wide variety of experiences in having sex characteristics that are outside of the sex binary. and the concept of being intersex to me, isn't the same thing as having a specific intersex variation. for me, being intersex is a social and political identity and also is about the physical traits that make me exist outside of the sex binary; when I think about my intersex body I think about my high testosterone and my body hair and my ambigious genitalia. I don't think about things like anemia or low cortisol or bone density. when i think about my specific intersex variation, I do think about all those things like health effects and comorbidities with eds and genetics. for me, I view my intersex variation as a disability, but don't view being intersex as a disability. My intersex variation is disabling physically-it affects my mobility, causes chronic health problems, and has a huge effect on my physical health. I also face structural ableism for being intersex and navigate the medical industrial complex as a disabled person, I'm disabled by an inaccessible society, and I am deeply impacted by the ideology of cure. But I am not disabled by being intersex, by having a physical body with sex characteristics that is outside of the binary, by having my high testosterone and my genitalia and my body hair. For me, that is not a disabling experience and is not something I will ever need intervention for. And it's something that if I lived in a world where I wasn't affected by ableism and if I didn't have other health concerns, I wouldn't label it as a disability. Intersex is such a broad label that I think the experience of being intersex-having sex characteristics outside of the binary--isn't inherently a disabling one, and I think there are a lot of if not most intersex people who don't view their sex characteristics as disabling. But I think that when it comes to specific intersex variations, those can be disabling and that it varies between specific diagnoses more in terms of what our experiences are and how we navigate those labels. So I think it's totally possible to be intersex and not consider yourself disabled, possible to be intersex and consider your intersex identity to also be a disability, and also completely possible to be intersex and not see being intersex as a disability, but see your intersex variation as a disability. and regardless, I think that all intersex people face ableism because intersexism as a form of oppression is so rooted in ableism and I think that the social model of disability really lines up with intersex experiences.

I guess I'm curious if this resonated with any other intersex people and curious to hear what other intersex people feel about how disability applies to their personal experience with being intersex.

#personal #intersex #actuallyintersex #actually intersex #disability #chronic illness tag #dyadic people prob don't jump in to this discussion this is intracommunity stuff i want to talk #with other intersex people about

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