#something like this happens

[renjaminnifer]

the last post i made like this isn't relevant anymore but guess whose family got fucked over and has no bill money!!! its confusing but somehow a bunch of money got yoinked from us and the only thing we've been able to pay is the light bill. rent, internet, and everything else is fucked unless i get some help

i'm gonna set up my commissions again and then link them here but for now here's my p*ypal and kofi bc jesus christ. and for the love of god ignore my deadname

125/600

#fuck my whole LIIIIIIIFE #everytime we are doing okay for even a second #something like this happens #oh hey ur car battery died oh hey ur windshield got shattered #hey we took all ur FUCKING MONEY!!!!!!!!! #i wish i could work but my stupid fucking body is like. glass bones and even worse muscles #whatever man

[greta--gill]

i know folks have been (rightfully) posting a lot about some of the other bits of this episode which really dissected what happened in the tournament, but this specific moment, for some reason, has been sticking with me.

“she had to watch that,” feels like a terribly perfect exemplification of how this world cup went down. the lack of distribution of playing time, the lack of quality coaching – this episode is a masterclass in actually not saying vlatko’s name lmao – and the general consensus that there are some things that could have been controlled and changed. it breaks my heart, mostly because i’ve realized that the reason this whole thing is hitting me arguably harder than i expected or maybe even harder than it should is because these are the players i grew up watching. i guess it just signifies to me that i’ve gotten older in a really tangible and substantial way. i was 15 during the last world cup. i’ll be 20 soon. my first memory of professional women’s sports was, “morgan in the box! wambach in the box!” and things are just different now – for the better, yes, but still: different. in large part, things have ended. people have moved on. and yes, i’m excited for this new generation, but lots of us who were kids then aren’t kids anymore. even players who should be on the field have got shows and podcasts, families, and great achievements outside of this team that, like tobin said, they dedicated their entire lives to, as they should. and they’re saying goodbye to the game and to the team they were once a part of.

it feels a little too simple to look at it and say “it makes me sad” because i’ve always wanted myself to have something more articulate than that, but it really does just… make me sad. it’s obvious to say, but anybody who’s been saying that these women should shut up and dribble have it wrong. their existence and their occupation is inherently political just by being women who plays sports. you realize how much of sports is so much bigger than sports – about how sports teaches emotion, love, most especially an unconditional kind of love: the kind of love that says, i will love you even if we lose, especially if we lose – and i’ll keep talking about it forever.

#uswnt #one day i’ll shut up! #but not today! #i just think there’s something really beautiful about team sports and sometimes you really only know how much people love something when #something like this happens #wwc23 #tobin heath #christen press #alex morgan #re-cap show #vids

[soldier-poet-king]

Lmao bitch i THOUGHT given how much shit bro 2 has caused lately it'd be a good opportunity for me to slip in my tattoo plans without my mother's extreme disappointment and I was wrong! God forbid my mother ever approve of me or any of my decisions! Or even just neutral non judgment! Not even that I gave her forewarning rather than just showing up one day in a few months with ink! My mother never takes interest in me and my accomplishments and interests, so why would I expect anything but disappointment over something I knew she wasn't keen on in general? Oh but it's FINE if bro 1's perfect gf has tattoos (which, imo, are tacky ones but that's a matter of personal taste) but she's perfect and can do no wrong and is the feminine daughter my mother wishes she had so whatever I guess

#franposting #SCREAMS #like yes yes I bitch constantly about my dysfunctional family #and parents who are not abusive. like. they didn't hit us. we were fed #but the emotional manipulation and neglect and immaturity???? #THE UNWILLINGESS TO ACKNOWLEDGE FLAWS OR CORRECT FAULTS OR GO TO THERAPY????? #like. they barely gave a shit when i graduated with multiple degrees #idk why i expected even a NEUTRAL response to this #everytime i wake up aching from a dream where im out and loved and not constantly holding my breath #i remember that my parents are like This #and while i might have the barest tolerance i would never be loved #im not even really properly loved now #they love as well as theyre able. but tbh that isnt very well. and they dont try to improve #IM JUST. #everytime im having a decent day thinking my beautiful thinky thoughts #something like this happens #plus major subway delays #its late i got home so late #but im too angry to skip the gym no matter how much i want to #i need to be in some sort of acceptable physical pain for a bit. i have too much anger #and its really just. grief. #and i keep my mouth shut and i smile and play peacekeeper. what choice do i have? #days like today i remember when my father straight up told me that i was not the daughter my mother wanted!!!!!!!!! >:) #consider. i did not want to be a daughter at all. gender schmender. its a prison and i am first and foremost a creachure

[weaponizedhorse]

[ID Jennifer,

Thank you for all you do at Moda. You make us a better company and a better place to work. You are appreciated more than you know.

Happy Holidays, Anonymous. END ID]

So someone went to HR at my mom's work, got our address and sent this card along with $100 :')

This is such a bless that is really needed cause we are super strapped for cash right now and even more so after I used my food stamps to order from Walmart and somehow they delivered the wrong order? Like not even one item was correct and it's gonna take over a week to get back in my account.

Somehow every single time we are in a bad spot like this God provides. Every single time. We are so blessed and my mom was on the verge of tears when I read the letter to her, it was just so sweet:)

#mom #Christmas #God #It is honestly crazy how every time we need something #something like this happens

[liquidstar]

If my mom sees a significant amount of blood she gets lightheaded, and has fainted on some occasions. Once it happened when we were kids, I wasn't there to witness it but I heard the story from my dad. Basically my brothers, around 7 or 8 at the time, were playing outside while my mom was making their lunch, and she accidentally cut her finger. It wasn't anything serious, but it drew a fair bit of blood and she passed out. My dad saw this and rushed over, but he didn't really know what to do so he just sort of started slapping her to wake her up (not recommended, but he had no idea and panicked)

At that exact moment my brothers both came in from playing, and all they saw was our mom unconscious on the floor and our dad slapping her. So, like, without even saying a word to each other they both just INSTANTLY start whaling on him, like, full blown attack mode to defend our mom. Which obviously didn't help the situation, but she did wake up and everything was fine.

Now our dad says that he's actually really glad they attacked him over what they thought was going on, because it means he raised good boys. And I still think that's true, they're very good boys.

#i think about this story sometimes like yeah I'm proud of them for that too actually. good job baby brothers #they're not babies anymore of course they're turning 20 next year which is crazy #but they're still the type of people who'd do something if they saw something of this sort happen for sure #respectful of women and everyone else too. they're good guys #I'm glad I ended up with them living in my house against my will for like 14 years #anyway i have no idea where i was for all this but my best guess is probably a friends house given the time period #i was always at my besties house lol #i hope she's doing well too actually. haven't spoken in forever... #bestie from greek elementary school... if you're out there... let's get muffins and fanta at the bakery across the street again someday 💜☮️

[and-corn]

shoutout to the "foolproof" bread recipe I fucked up entirely for inspiring this

#something different from what I normally draw! #I said this when I realized the bread was NOT making it and I made myself laugh out loud #also...if you happen to really like this it's available in my threadless shop - acorn.threadless.com #tw: cursing #typography #lettering #graphic design #illustration #original art #digital drawing #digital illustration #comedy #humor #relatable

[zytes]

this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen

#misc #I encourage anyone dyslexic to try rotating him in your mind. I can’t do that; which is why I’m asking you to. #also: a bunch of tags are surprised this isn’t ‘shopped #it’s the lighting. backlit by the sun (which is diffused through the water) but also forelit artificially #the artificial light - a flash pack or something - casts a hard shadow under the creatures arm #which normally wouldn’t be possible if backlit by the SUN; you’d see a less-hard/more-fragmented shadow above water #as light sources ‘compete’ in a sense - and since there aren’t any light sources which can outshine the literal sun #it looks a bit weird when the darkest shadow is being cast from any other origin point - which is what’s essentially happening here #I don’t know the mechanics of how light travels through water; but I know the effect is substantial even with relatively short distances #also: it’s been balanced and color corrected by the author of the photo - who made deliberate choices to bring out the full potential #so it’s not like it’s a fresh and untouched export #but the kind of ‘tacked on’ appearance of the creature is a result of the lighting conditions within the image

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[uncanny-heart]

my forever favorite character dynamic of all time

#this has happened like twice ever butshshhhhhjjjhshhhhhhhjjj #hannibal #reanimator #arcane #(almost) #pathologic #(a little bit) #i feel like im forgetting something

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

the fact that shakespeare was a playwright is sometimes so funny to me. just the concept of the "greatest writer of the English language" being a random 450-year-old entertainer, a 16th cent pop cultural sensation (thanks in large part to puns & dirty jokes & verbiage & a long-running appeal to commoners). and his work was made to be watched not read, but in the classroom teachers just hand us his scripts and say "that's literature"

just...imagine it's 2450 A.D. and English Lit students are regularly going into 100k debt writing postdoc theses on The Simpsons screenplays. the original animation hasn't even been preserved, it's literally just scripts and the occasional SDH subtitles.txt. they've been republished more times than the Bible

#due to the Great Data Decay academics write viciously argumentative articles on which episodes aired in what order #at conferences professors have known to engage in physically violent altercations whilst debating the air date number of household viewers #90% of the couch gags have been lost and there is a billion dollar trade in counterfeit “lost copies” #serious note: i'll be honest i always assumed it was english imperialism that made shakespeare so inescapable in the 19th/20th cent #like his writing should have become obscure at the same level of his contemporaries #but british imperialists needed an ENGLISH LANGUAGE (and BRITISH) writer to venerate #and shakespeare wrote so many damn things that there was a humongous body of work just sitting there waiting to be culturally exploited... #i know it didn't happen like this but i imagine a English Parliament House Committee Member For The Education Of The Masses or something #cartoonishly stumbling over a dusty cobwebbed crate labelled the Complete Works of Shakespeare #and going 'Eureka! this shall make excellent propoganda for fabricating a national identity in a time of great social unrest. #it will be a cornerstone of our elitist educational institutions for centuries to come! long live our decaying empire!' #'what good fortune that this used to be accessible and entertaining to mainstream illiterate audience members... #..but now we can strip that away and make it a difficult & alienating foundation of a Classical Education! just like the latin language :)' #anyway maybe there's no such thing as the 'greatest writer of x language' in ANY language? #maybe there are just different styles and yes levels of expertise and skill but also a high degree of subjectivity #and variance in the way that we as individuals and members of different cultures/time periods experience any work of media #and that's okay! and should be acknowledged!!! and allow us to give ourselves permission to broaden our horizons #and explore the stories of marginalized/underappreciated creators #instead of worshiping the List of Top 10 Best (aka Most Famous) Whatevers Of All Time/A Certain Time Period #anyways things are famous for a reason and that reason has little to do with innate “value” #and much more to do with how it plays into the interests of powerful institutions motivated to influence our shared cultural narratives #so i'm not saying 'stop teaching shakespeare'. but like...maybe classrooms should stop using it as busy work that (by accident or designs) #happens to alienate a large number of students who could otherwise be engaging critically with works that feel more relevant to their world #(by merit of not being 4 centuries old or lacking necessary historical context or requiring untaught translation skills) #and yeah...MAYBE our educational institutions could spend less time/money on shakespeare critical analysis and more on... #...any of thousands of underfunded areas of literary research i literally (pun!) don't know where to begin #oh and p.s. the modern publishing world is in shambles and it would be neat if schoolwork could include modern works? #beautiful complicated socially relevant works of literature are published every year. it's not just the 'classics' that have value #and actually modern publications are probably an easier way for students to learn the basics. since lesson plans don't have to include the #important historical/cultural context many teens need for 20+ year old media (which is older than their entire lived experience fyi)

[soaked-doors]

the history book on the shelf is always repeating itself

#something sinister happens in my brain when I think about the 1 and a half parallels between these two like uhm #silly and grumpy. I’d get into it but we’d be here all day #one piece #luffy #roronoa zoro #zolu #red hair shanks #dracule mihawk #mishanks #OPLA #one piece fanart #my art

[blue-thingies]

Apparently the Elite Four is going to appear in the anime in april, and I apologoze for the person I might become if that's true

#I have not been seeing the anime since they were out of Paldea #BUT IF THIS IS TRUE #its time to watch it again #every time I think Rika is fading to the bg of my mind #something like this happens #my wife really be living free rent in my brain it's been months

[ato-dato]

Aziraphale please! He’s been through enough!!!

#this took AGES #but I really like it I think #anyway #can you tell how intense my hyperfixation has gotten?? #really intense #I rarely think of something that isn’t these two idiots #anywayyy #have a nice 5 days till season 2 #good omens 2 #good omens #good omens season two #aziraphale #aziracrow #ineffible husbands #crowley #anthony crowley #I Hope this happens on s2 #art #artwork #my art #fanart #digital art #drawing #comic #fan comic

[cyancees]

i have neither a good imagination nor aphantasia, but a secret third thing

#adhd #doodles #show this to your therapist instead of failing to explain it like i did #me: its like i cant control my thoughts like i was trying to think of something earlier today but #all i could think of was this giraffe eating leaves and no matter how hard i tried to focus the thought would just. replay #my therapist: what happens if you try to let the thought just play out #me: ........ i dont know but i dont want it to be there at all when im trying to do simple addition in a maths exam #10k #100k

[madohomurat]

trans women are everywhere and are so eager to be seen and heard but only if they feel safe around you. if you hardly ever have trans women interacting with you, especially online, then consider there might be a reason for that and you should address it

#the same thing happens with black people #black people are everywhere! especially online! black gay and black trans people! #but when your community is suspiciously devoid of them then theres something wrong and you need to acknowledge it #even if its not intentional you need to think about how theres minority groups who do not feel safe around you at face value #this is why loud and outright support and solidarity is so important #black people and trans people and etc minority groups will assume you are unsafe unless you explicitly state otherwise #you can't just sit there and say 'well they didnt approach us so its not our fault for not including them!' #like did you TRY to get them to approach you?? #cy texts

[magnusbae]

To illustrate this post by @mayahawkse I would like to visualize to you the difference:

A post in 2023:

A post in 2014:

A zoom out of the same post:

This is what a community looks like.

See how in 2023 almost all of the reblogs come from the OP, from their few hours/days in the tag search. Meanwhile in 2014 the % of reblogs from OP is insignificant, because most of the reblogs come from the reblogs within the fandom, within the micro-communities formed there. You didn't need to rely on tags, or search, or being featured. Because the community took care of you, made sure to pass the work between themselves and onto their blog and exposed their followers to it. It kept works alive for years.

It's not JUST the reblog/like ratio that causing this issue, it's the type of interaction people have. They're content with scrolling and liking the search engine, instead of actually having a reblogging relationship with other blogs in their community.

Anyways, if you want to see more content you like, the only true way to make it happen is to reblog it. Likes do not forward content in no way but making OP feel nice. Reblogs on the other hand make content eternal. They make it relevant, they make it exist outside of a fickle tumblr search that hardly works on the best of days.

If you want more of something, reblog it.

#i said i wont ever rant about this bc it's unseemly but HONESTLY. #you simply cannot complain about not having enough of A or B or C and then never reblog / interact with the content you love. #If you LOVE something you cannot just leave a like and silently wait for more to happen #I know countless of content creators that simply stopped doing art/writing fic/making edits #You need to understand that fandom content is made FOR the fandom FOR the engagement FOR the entertainment and fun it makes. #If a content creator does not have fun IN the fandom-- why would they spend the scares free time they have on making this content? #And we're not talking about things that you don't like-- no one expects you to reblog things you don't like. #However I think it's safe to say that when a post has more than 5k it's not some random shitpost with no value. #tumblr issues #tumblr #content creators #buns.txt #something something please don't starve your local clowns