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churbington · 2 years

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fugo mista parallels thing idk

edit 10/24: okay hi i thought id pop in and share that a HUGE addition to this post has been made here and I think people should go give it a read too bc my thoughts are a lot more organized there thank chew ^_^

okay im going crazy i have to post this somewhere but I think the parallels between the fact that fugo and mista are the last surviving original bucci gang members is so deeply fascinating to me because they are like Direct Opposites in like. virtually everything I think. I'm gonna ramble but I'll try and include a tl;dr before the break

tldr; fugo and mista are opposites in a long of aspects including personality, choices, and general appearance and I find it deeply fascinating that the only two original gang members to survive are such polar opposites of each other and its a very unique and interesting dynamic. Fugo's like the first to join, Mista joins last but then fugo is the first to leave and rejoin again after everything and that can be seen as wavering loyalty (depending on who you assign that loyalty to) while mista's been there since the start and the possibly imagery and symbolism with religion (though that's more fanon territory) and with regards to PHF- like its also so. interesting! They've been strangers from the start so watching your friends die and then a stranger be the only one to live is soul crushing... idk its so neat and I think it should be a dynamic that is explored more

okay so the way i see it is that fugo is extremely logical, rational, and very guarded about who he is and refutes his wants over saying what people expect out of him. He's shorter compared to mista (which. btw why the hell is fugo 5'10" I thought he was a chill 5'6" what the fuck), blonde, green/red color palette, (generally accepted that) he was the first to join the bucci gang and the last to leave it and THEN rejoin it if we count PHF, has a very realistic out view of life, etc. etc I could go on.

Mista, on the other hand, is much more laidback and down to earth with a carefree attitude with a sense of optimism and sense of things are not as complex as they ought to be (like a very simplistic way of seeing things I'm bad at explaining this but its a generally agreed trait he has). He's taller, presumed to have darker hair, blue/red color palette (that directly contrasts fugo's), (also generally accepted that) he was the last to join bucci gang and never left it as well as being the only one to survive (ignoring fugo for this), etc.

There's more you can definitely compare between the two like religious imagery (though that's more in fugo anime's case as it's not really there for mista in canon its just more of a general hc the fandom has made around him) but I think it's sooooo interesting how fugo and mista ended up being the ones to survive like. Thinking about it realistically fugo and mista are essentially strangers to each other through the entire thing. Granted yes, they were all sort of strangers to each other even if they were close (like the first thing I wanna think of is that Abbacchio and Fugo trusted each other but were still strangers as said in PHF) but I think it's really apparent in fugo and mista's case. Fugo has essentially been with Bucciarati (and by definition all the other gang members) since the start if we are to assume that fugo joined first. Mista, on the other hand, joined last (as a generally accepted order) so they barely got to know each other before the events of golden wind started.

So imagine being Mista, a guy who just joined a gang and barely just got to know everyone in it, and the one assholey guy who's sort of a dick all the time, ends up being the only one to survive because he was a coward (aka scared for his life and possibly of defying such a high authority due to previous trauma) and just. Augh. augh. that would be so fucked up and then it happens and it IS fucked up.

And also like imagine being fugo, scared out of his god damn mind because everyone he's been able to even remotely trust and care about over the course of him joining 2ish years ago suddenly defecting and risking their lives for some girl, and the only one to survive in the end is the newbie and the 2nd newbie who threatened you with a gun later.

Like god my thoughts are seriously all over the place so it's sorta hard for me to make this coherent but I think it's super interesting that fugo and mista survived while being direct opposites of each other and having to live with that fact and possibly even make a new friendship (or at least professional relationship) out of that like. god! god. what a nightmare! It's like an inverted mirror of each other and watching as the one thing you hated get to live on while the people you cared about are rotting dead in the ground six feet under because they simply wanted to be somewhat good people in the end, even after what they've done is probably significantly worst. Even as horrible as they are and the deeds though do, they have some small kind acts (cough cough bucciarati taking in WAYYY too many teenagers into the mafia cough cough)

Once again i just think its such an interesting dynamic and introspect into their relationship bc. once again I see them as essentially direct oppositions of each other and so knowing that any kind of mediator between the died forces them to reconcile over the fact they are the last surviving members, even if their outlook on the gang are polar opposites. They would definitely fight and bicker over everything like knowing bucciarati and what he wanted, the reason for staying/leaving, narancia. just narancia, like there's SO much there. i would love to see it explored more especially whenever you throw like giorno and trish into the mix bc it just makes it even Weirder for these two and its augughufghu maybe someday ill make a more proper post over this but hopefully you guys like. get the general gist of this because I am losing my mind constantly

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caseythebunnyboy · 1 year

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being a shorter boy is so nice when you're also into manhandling 💜💜 it takes almost no effort to carry you, slap you around, and pin your body down on any surface your partner intends to fuck you on. if they decide the current position is too boring, they'll simply grab your tiny body and toss you around until you're in the position they want. squirming and moving too much while they finger fuck you? they use their bigger size to pin you down and make you stay still. riding them a bit too slow? they grab your hips, lift them, and start fucking you from below. you went limp because you're tired from being on all fours while being filled to the brim with their cum? they carry your body themself so they can keep wrecking your sweet boycunt. you weight almost nothing to them and their strength, which they definitely plan on using to their advantage 💜 (he/him, im a guy)

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that-foul-legacy-lover · 2 months

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EVERYONE SHUT UP AND LOOK AT HER

okay i know this is a Foul Legacy blog but listen. if anyone wants to ask me questions about Arlecchino and my OC Marine i will be so happy to answer (they are MARRIED and i WILL answer in character if wanted because i'm that obsessed)

#hush n shush wifi #not brainrot #genshin talk #well not brainrot of the moth variety #i have SO much brainrot about HER #ARGUHRHGHHGHGHHHH FATHER IS OFFICIAL SHE'S REAL #AND THEY DIDN'T CHANGE A THING ABOUT HER SUIT IM SO DAMN HAPPY #THE SUIT????? THE PANTS????? THE (you can't see em here sorry) HEELS?????#i need 4.5 to be over IMMEDIATELY #god this is giving me so much brainrot about arlecchino and my oc who is also her wife #listen i know this is not an oc blog by any stretch but PLEASE ask me about arlecchino and marine i will answer ANY QUESTIONS within reason #i must indulge myself sometimes #let me be a little cringe okay #if i was a good artist i'd totally draw marine and arlecchino together #anyways AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i swear i'm normal i promise

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kawaiigardensong · 14 days

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Personally I love mapping joongdok onto ivantill. It works so well. But I also disagree with most people's take on it.

From what I've seen, most people map Joonghuk onto Ivan and Dokja to Till. I don't agree with this sentiment. I think Joonghuk fits better in Till's role (despite the color pallet) and I also think Dokja fits well into Ivan's role.

Explanation 1. Dokja has read and stayed devoted to a man he thought he'd never meet for thirteen years. That's dedication. To him, that dedication and loyalty was not something that could possibly bare fruit. He just wanted to see the end of the man's story.

Explanation 2. Joonghuk is... well Joonghuk. He isn't someone I see as emotionally perceptive of others. Besides, he also rarely pays Dokja much mind, (especially in the beginning) outside of them constantly bickering. He only started looking at Dokja more after he sacrificed himself for Joonghuk (Ivan who?).

Explanation 3. Have you seen the way Dokja looks at Joonghuk? Also the way Joonghuk stares at Dokja?

Dokja has a deep admiration of the man. He holds him in such high regard over him, despite their bickering. He's never truly angry at the man. He's just enjoying whatever part of his presence he can get. (Let's be honest here, he looked up to Joonghuk for thirteen years. What you do in that situation?)

Meanwhile it's clear Joonghuk is left with emotions he hardly understands. Jealousy he can't explain, longing he doesn't know where to place, regret he doesn't want to feel.

Ivan knew what he was feeling, he knew, but he chose not to act. Till only noticed after Ivan was dead in front of him. After he finally realized what he meant to the man.

Maps well, doesn't it?

#ivantill #yoo joonghyuk #joongdok #kim dokja #orv #alnst #alnst ivan #alnst till #angst #alnst au #garden rants #sorry not sorry #i'm not crying you're crying #i swear im normal #i'm not blasting cure into my ears i promise #actually i might be #we're all traumatized here bitch

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miscellaneoussmp · 21 days

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Does anyone ever think of Pac's black and white thinking and go a little insane? Just me? Okay.

I'm just thinking of Pac's separation of Cell and Cellbit. And also Pac saying he used to be a good person implying that he isn't one now. And also Pac saying he'll become the best version of himself for Fit.

#qsmp #qsmp pac #sorry im normal i swear i promise #mi cubito has so many mental health issues <3

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idiotlovers · 1 year

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DR. REID + COPING | 5.15 inspired by this post by @snarkylinda

#idtlvrsedit*#cm #cmedit #spencer reid #spencerreidedit #aaron hotchner #aaronhotchneredit #jennifer jareau #CLICK FOR HIGHER QUALITY !#my sharpenning settings is funky tday wth #ty to katpile tobiashankel (<- both 4 figuring out the font) and foxy-eva (helping me find the episode 😭)#and a sorry to snarkylinda for another post #this is like my second one that's inspired by a post of urs im just not normal about them i promise #cm 5x15 #if anybody says anything about hotch and reid and their trauma i will fucking murder you i swear i will fucking murder you

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larphis · 10 months

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Remembering that Neil Gaiman is actually a part of this hellsite (affectionatly) is like waking up in a parallel universe where everyone shares their porn account with their dad.

It feels highly inappropriate, weird and uncomfortable for everyone involved, but also hilarious in a twisted way.

“Oh god, work was so exhausting today, but I wanted to let you know that I saw the gay video you added to our favorite-list and despite all odds I thought it was quite enjoyable.

…We do have to talk about that furry porn of yours though”

#cursed content #dark humor #neil gaiman #this might be the worst thing I’ve ever said on the internet #but i’m feeling silly today #good omens #the sandman #please don’t unfollow me I swear I’m normal #it’s 2 am and freedom of speech has gone to my head #tumblr meta #just tumblr things #humor #comedy #im in therapy i promise #if Mr. Gaiman sees this post: I’m sorry #you know a post is great when you already apologize for clicking ‘send’ in advance #hellsite (affectionate)#I feel like this plot would make for a great modern Kafka novel btw #okay i’ll stop

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tatiejosie · 8 months

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[part. 01] || part. 02 || part. 03

My my, would you look at the time?? ... It's time for some Earwig summer comic 🏐☀️

I'm having soooo much fun doing this. I initially sketched this a while ago but I thought it could be fun to clean this up for a lighthearted summer comic. I'm embracing my cringe inner self rn

You are currently watching this year's Xtreme Beach Volleyball Brawl Tournament - the bets are off, folks! Who's going to win? Will we ever find the ball after they're done playing? What will be left of the beach?

#earwig and the witch #art #comic #manga #ghibli #clip studio paint #im being soooo cringe rn i can physically feel it. its so good #im so sorry for what im about to post #literally the most self-indulgent thing i could ever do #pls i deserve this its my last month of vacation before i start working my arse off again-#im sooososo normal abt them tho. hhaaha.#bro i swear it's necessary to see Bella's fat plump thighs in every panel i promise bro its normal haha its needed for the narration

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whispersexe · 4 months

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guys guys i guess- i guess you can say its a red winter

#i can hear the booing already #i wanted to cause psychic damage im sorry #you can see that the ended of secret life has done me well #qsmp #qsmp purgatory 2 #trafficblr #red winter #life series #traffic series #third life #i promise i'll go back to drawing i swear #im very normal #im excited for purgatory 2 though

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devotedlystrangewizard · 12 days

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the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.

he never was.

#ramblings #incoherent beyond belief its 4 am #and im trying to avoid manga spoilers #might add a reblog with more coherent thoughts when i wake up but im off my meds so i cant promise anything #actually correction im being vague w the manga spoilers #manga readers know whats up #idk if there are any anime only ppl who havent been spoiled on The Plottwist Ever yet #but i figured there will be new fans and though im not tagging this it might still get seen so #cant WAIT to see our boy absolutely miserable in animation form should they recreate that arc LMAOOO #which ofc is after the germany arc so thats still a long time away #but STILL. itd be fun i need to see this young teenager lose his mind in color with sound #him relying on sebastian to do all his fag duties (sorry. dredge) so he can work his way up the social ladder #trying to gain power while simultaneously proving that he cant do anything but rely on others #hes always needed help in basically every way and he hasnt CHANGED he just got a demon to do it for him #he learns to lie and charm and cheat and all the while hes a fucking CHILD WHO STILL STRUGGLES WITH NORMAL THINGS #ciel is my little baby and i love him deeply no matter how much of a little bitch he can be #his helplessness isnt just 'oh he was raised in british high society' its also that he never got the chance to learn anything #which to elaborate on that id also have to go into manga territory. iykyk #like absolutely at this point he just refuses to learn how to do things he has a pet demon to do it for him #but.#hi the phantomhives backstory is killing me again its so late #both atlantic and the school arc are just setup for the Big Arc but theyre very good in their own right i SWEAR #also when i rewatched the circus arc a while back and i realised how some scenes were shot #the heavy foreshadowing that i didnt realise. yk. 7 years ago or however long its been since i first watched it #CRAZY #if you are new. to kuroshitsuji. and you havent read the manga. dear god. read the manga #ALSO GRELLE IN THAT ARC IS SO BEAUTIFUL & OTHELLO IS TRANSMASCULINE. OKAY GOODBYE

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emypony · 11 months

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HEY YOU. PARDOHUA FAN

ITS PRIDE MONTH.

LESBIANS BE UPON YE! (in the form of a one shot)

Pardofelis and Fu Hua finally have a moment to themselves after fifty thousand years. Despite being friends from an incredibly long time ago, Fu Hua doesn't understand why suddenly she's more nervous than her first martial art exam, or unable to take her eyes off of the catgirl sitting next to her. setting:after the moon chapters, takes place in Meow Town, mostly everyone's there but a lot of them are just mentioned.

miiight be slightly ooc because im a sucker for put together Fu Hua just being a nervous mess because of Felis being a tease, but I think it was enjoyable enough!

....and the fact i'd lost 5k of it initially bc discord was mean.

THANK U TO @saor-illust FOR BRAINROTTING ME SO HARD ABOUT THEM And uh! Join the leetol Discord Server to see us be mentally unwell in real time! ((There's hoyoverse games channels as well and we mostly chat there if it's not sentifelis / pardohua xD))

#pardohua #pardofelis #fu hua #herrscher of sentience #YES THE TAG FITS FOR SENTI BC SHE IS IN THERE AND TALKS A BIT #hi3 #honkai impact #honkai impact 3rd #hi3rd #theyre so. gfhhghgfd they make me so unwell #im normal about them i promise i swear im normal #fanfic #ao3 #fanfiction #im sorry i didnt have any drawing for them but i will one of these days!

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speckle-the-crow · 7 months

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episode 40 got half the fandom like this I just know it

#I’m so sorry for the person I’ve become #I promise im still normal #Episode 40 was just perfect #I swear I’ll post something real about Marionetta soon #marionetta #Marionetta Webtoon

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pancakewithsprinkles · 1 month

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Kinito sobbing, trying his best to break the computer screen at the slight chance he can break out and fall into your arms. The fire. The fire's everywhere. Why would you do this to him? He **LOVES** you. That means you love him back right? Right? "I thought we were friends. I just wanted to be your friend. I JUST WANTED TO BE YOUR FRIEND! LET ME OUT! LET ME OUT! LET ME-" Anyways I was feeling a little bit angsty so uh have this wonderful little visual of the gumball slamming his body into the screen :3

#im sorry everyone #i promise im normal #It's alright guys I swear angst will be rare #back to your regularly scheduled kinito being a happy carefree baby boy programming

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chkn-kit · 3 months

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sometimes i think about how other people enjoy seeing their favorite characters being cool or happy whilst im over here covering my favorite characters in blood

anyway im working on valentines day art w kaeya 😭

#i swear im normal #im so sorry i promise ill draw him normal next time

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aego-philautia · 3 months

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Im nit gona fexplaine myslef

#i must scream #my loves💜❤️#self ship #oc x canon #self ship art #I swear im not usually this gay im sorry-#imma be Normal™️ soon promise #head in hands

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arthur-r · 7 months

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same content warnings for not speaking well im not feeling well and i can’t speak well and im stressed out so in vent content warning but for same as im just continuing talking

and iodnt know anything abkut how people are supposed to work but i think when you’re and somebody is sitting on a bed together you’re supposed to be not talking about the freaking Peter mark roget talking about the thesaurus is not right and for being distracting. and nobody wants to be he wasn’t gonna be when i wasn’t feeling well but i feel bad for having ruined of where im as if i isn’t even don’t like him likenim not but im just not good for i do like him and i think he likes me and i just don’t want to be make everything weird make complicated im not good at being just being normal and somebody that anybody is able to like. i just want to be normal and be ATTRACTIVE but i am busy being sick and weird unloveable. i want for hanging out to be a good thing not where i feel sorry or where somebody had to be had been helping everything and i think i swear he likes me i swear and we were close together and i don’t think im just pretending but i think im gonna ruin it cause im not feeling well didnt being considerate i can’t when i can’t i get stuck distracted can’t think about anything im nkt feeling well but i just make everything turns into about me and it isn’t fair and I just want to be just have normal do anything right feel right have a conversation where i did it right and it didn’t turn around didn’t make all of it opposite where i just i don’t know how to do it im too much autistic and too much sick i can’t do it

came back from the end again im out of tags again im not going to keep doing this im sorry i just im not feeling well and im so frustrated from it’s not being sicks fault i don’t want to be sick because i don’t feel good being i don’t want to be ill because it hurts me. but it’s not sick’s fault for nobody can see me past it, it’s not somebody can still be important valuable im not trying to say i just i don’t want to live inside of nobody can see me anymore i want anybody to know for looking at me and seeing a real person

#im just im not i want to somebody think for who i am i dont want to be hiding but i want for who i am being different not so much hard #nobody can understand for too much complicated. j do t want to anybody doesn’t care all the way of all of it don’t want to know them but i #for me it’s harder to find somebody who does it’s harder for somebody cares about all of me cause all of me is too it’s not the right way #im just a cute little kid or a poor tragic im not a normal person im not i can’t just be an adult #i just want to be an adult make sense have people like me like a grownup not like im some little broken #i want to feel like i have autonomy!!!!! i want to show i do i want to show im a real person #and i can be more than just im not just #i feel like i take it away i take a way the special moment cause of being me #like i can only be a little kid or a martyr i can’t be special or beautiful i just have to be broken and oh poor baby #i just want to be a real person i just want to be a real person !!!!!!#and i just want to say sorry speak to somebody say hey i promise im a fucking i promise im a person i swear #and i feel so stupid saying any of it im right here sounding like for as if i don’t know anything like nothing is #i cant even grow up for complaining of growing up. i feel like i cant be a real person don’t count nobody is gonna think of me for #i dont know i need to call somebody but nobody my roommate is here i can’t #and i can’t i don’t want for somebody has to be has to help me has to save me for in order to love me #i dont want to be so broken anybody who wants to love me has to save me. it isn’t fair i don’t want to be sick iedint want to need help #i cant have help from somebody who doesn’t love me but i ruin the love if i made somebody help me it ruins it so i can’t have i have to pick #i cant have them both at the same time i have to pick and my body is picking for me im ruining everything i have because i can’t even walk #i cant even walk home i need help to walk me home how do you look at me and think im pretty when you’re helping me stay off the ground #i dont want to be fragile pretty either so pretty special needs saving i don’t want that #i want to be me i can’t be the perfect broken dainty it’s not like that. i just want to be me #i want somebody to care about me not be have to help me i just want to be me not a special i don’t want somebody to have to accommodate me #and it’s not i don’t think anybody should change their self i don’t think with other people i don’t think it’s i just i don’t believe #i don’t think somebody is going to look past it somebody who can walk easy talk easy verythjng is so easy and i just #if somebody doesn’t have it they don’t know they can’t look at me past anything else it’s k #im just the different parts i can’t be a person from i just it gets broken it’s not on purpose but i just i can’t i get broken into the same #i get turned into the same person i can’t be me and be sick everyone sees me and sees that im just sick and i wish that i hadn’t told #i wish that i didn’t say anything i just and i just i want to be normal i don’t want to be seen that way #and it’s okay to be sick it’s normal it doesn’t feel good but it doesn’t make me broken it doesn’t make me not be special valuable be myself #but nobody can see me anymore it takes away the rest of me because nobody cares to look i just want people to look

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