#things jealousy does doe bruh

[choccy-milky]

bruh i need to vent about a rude comment i got on my recent chap and also about clora, cuz its something thats been on my mind for a while now. it has spoilers to my most recent chap tho so im putting it below

so in my most recent chap clora gets hit by the killing curse but thanks to seb sacrificing himself for her, it doesn’t work/she survives. and I got a rly rude comment about how that’s super cringe and that clora is a "shoe horning of every possible manifestation of Mary-Sueism I have ever seen." theyre dropping my fic after almost 500k words bc apparently THAT’S where they draw the line and that "just somehow pulling it out the bag and surviving a killing curse from the power of love. In simpler terms, it’s absolutely cringe worthy" and "forgive me if I rolled an eye at the yet again invincible nature of Clora Clemons-the-one-eighth-Veela-extraordinaire"

BUT LIKE LMAO TELL ME U DIDN’T READ/WATCH HARRY POTTER WITHOUT TELLING ME. that’s literally what happens to harry??but its only cringe when it happens to our "mary-sue" clora? like yeah sure love magic might be a bit cringe but IM LITERALLY JUST PULLING FROM THE SOURCE MATERIAL. of all the things to take issue with in my fic and interpretations, theyre taking issue with something that’s canon BAHAHA.

and since im on the topic of clora being mary sue can I just say I hate the misogyny/internalized misogyny that i've seen some people (NOT A LOT, THANKFULLY) treat her with. like i get it, im not pale and blonde and as conventionally pretty as clora is, but even if I was, is that a reason to hate me?? and does being beautiful and well-liked = mary sue? bc as far as I know, mary sue is a chara who is just naturally amazing at everything and doesnt need to try hard and theyre just inexplicably great for no reason (like mc in the base game BAHHAA) if anything the mary sue in MY fic is seb LMAO (but hes a boy so its ok). like clora has worked hard and studied magic all her life due to being a squib and wanting to make up for not being able to DO it. she isnt good at flying, seb is still better at her than duelling, shes really short sighted when it comes to doing/thinking whats best for others and can be a huge idiot.... and like. the only guys that have even shown interest in clora on a real scale have been seb and leander (and then lawley for blackmail purposes, and also bc he hates seb) so its not like literally everyone is falling over themselves for her?? like her interactions with the main cast of boys (ominis, garreth, amit) theyre all indifferent to her LMAO but still, the fact that shes pretty and guys here and there might look at her and go o shes cute! doesnt make her a mary sue SORRy thats just called being attractive idk its just annoying that ppl automatically see a nice kind beautiful female character without any VISIBLE flaws and go SHES TOO PERFECT!! MARY SUE!! WAH IM JEALOUS! and like I get it bc when I was younger I probs would have been annoyed by clora as well due to my own insecurities and internalized misogyny but hey, how about u just realize that’s ur own problem and your own jealousy, and not a real one HAHAH anyway ive since evolved bc I used to be a ‘not like other girls’ type girl back in highschool. trying to be super tomboy-y bc I thought being feminine was cringe and too basic but now ive embraced it and love girly things and dresses and charas like clora who are still strong and showcase their strengths and weaknesses in subtler ways, and I want to smooch her and make out with her. get behind me clora ill protect you🤺🤺🤺

#choccytalky #finally using that tag #tho its more like CHOCCYRANTY holy this is so long BHAHAHA #also one more thing idk why ppl think its ok to give unsolicited criticism to fanfic writers. like these are stories we're writing for US #and for free like u dont have to rudely declare how unhappy you are with it and that youre stopping. like what do u want me to do #do u want a refund?? BYE!! JUST GO!! like. i also wouldnt want unsolicited criticism or critiques on my visual/drawn art #and ppl understand that. so whys it so hard to understand ppl ALSO dont want it on their writing? both take effort #and giving actual valid criticism is a skill (which is why it was literally a CLASS when i was in uni) #i need a drink #and by that i mean COKE ZERO BABYYYYYYY #AND MORE DRAGONS DOGMA 2

[btnclmrttn]

if it's alright may i request saitama, genos, and garou with a fem reader with massive tits? like just how would the boys react (nsf/w mixed w sfw hc's pls :D) to a reader with the big naturals, which if you do this request tysm!! :D

aight bruh. I have experience in this field

If he had a Big Tittied S/O

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SFW

He don't like you borrowing certain t-shirts cause you stretch them out and make that weird sag in the front. He specifically got 2 shirts a couple sizes up to avoid that

He comments often about your back hurting he doesn't know how you do it fr he feels bad

Crumb magnets, we can all agree. Always says some shit like, "Saving some for later?" when you eat something that he knows will cause that. Definitely laughing at you

N/SFW

Hope u like breast/nipple play bc it's basically mandatory for him (with consent ofc) Sometimes he just does it cause he's bored. Like he doesn't want to have full on sex he just wants to play with them and get you going like organic stim toys

Falls asleep on them midway through sometimes. Best sleep he gets

The internal struggle between wanting to fuck you hard enough because the way they bounce is just cool to him and not wanting to hurt you/temporarily paralyze you waist down so you can't do shit

If you wear any sort of pretty lingerie/leather it's gurenteed you won't be going anywhere for a few hours. Or days. The outfit might be ruined too. He gets quite animalistic

SFW

He has the math on the actual size of them thanks to endless shameless staring to perform the calculations. So take him bra shopping with you, cause he WILL know what will fit or not.

Same with shirts he'll tell you if they'll flatter your shape or squish out wrong. And he don't care if you stretch his shirts out on accident

Somehow knows if someone is staring and will confront them loudly (a bit of possessive jealousy if you will)

N/SFW

I've HC that Genos loves all things squishy matter what part of the body it is, so he does like hugging/squeezing them. Not always in a sexual way, though. He's just been metal for so long he's forgotten what his own flesh felt like so it's more of fascination.

Aside from that he likes having you grind/hop on his dick while he's sitting up/against something, say like on a couch, as he sucks on your tits

How he had the conversation of getting micro vibrators installed in his fingertips, you'll never know. Might have installed them himself to avoid that explanation. Very handy for universal use!

You got polka dot tits always. That's where most of the hickeys go. You can't wear low collar nothing for SHIT. It might be done on purpose

SFW

Dude is insensitive to how sensitive tiddies can be, pain wise. He likes fucking around and squeezing/poking them to get on your nerves. It's recommended if he keeps up his bullshit to punch him in his own tiddy.

Missing a bra? He's wearing it and waiting for you to notice. Always in the outside of his clothes or his head over his hair

He never realized how useful they were at holding shit and insists you help him with looting shit from places, or stores.

N/SFW

Absolute tits dude hands down he's got mommy issues. They make him more submissive if he focuses on them too much. So while he likes teasing/sucking them, if he gets too into it he starts switching up

While his preference is being on top, he can't help but watch how they move when you're on top. It's a consistent internal struggle. The visual of it makes him cum faster

Same with boob jobs, he's not lasting more than 3 minutes max. Essentially, big tiddies are the magic to get you a very whiney, submissive bitch if you choose embrace that power

He likes cumming on them so whether it's oral or vaginal/anal he pulls out to cum on them

(edit: corrected the spelling and took out "bitch" because y'all ain't bitches)

#one punch man #opm #anime #opm x reader #saitama #genos #garou #saitama x reader #saitama hcs #genos x reader #genos hcs #garou x reader #garou hcs #caped baldy #blond cyborg #garou the hero hunter #saitama n/sfw #genos n/sfw #garou n/sfw

[celaenaeiln]

Im sorry, but what is this obsession with turning robin Dick into a angry monster? He wanted to kill the guy who killed his parents and that makes him bad? Because I’ve wanted to kill people for a lot less so *wipes sweat from brow* oh no.

Was Robin Dick deranged? Yes. Psychotic, bonkers, had a couple dozen loose screws? ABSOLUTELY YES!

But was he also sweet, awe-inspiring, caring, and happy? Duh!! He was the first child hero bro! Ofcourse he was. He had to be because he was a child hero born in the 40s and they might’ve been depressed as hell but they sure ain’t gonna show that on the outside!

Late teens Dick was a dangerous, flaming hot, fashion designer bag of rage and stress and he’s fucking valid for that because Bruce kicked him out because he was worried and jealous. I wouldn’t know where to throw that all rage either if that was me. Certainly not running a team of the best child heroes, unlike him- the crazy asshole.

And why. Why. WHYWHYWHWYHWYWHYYYYY ARE PEOPLE ALWAYS COMPARING JASON AND DICK?! If one exists the other cannot. Bro, they’re not a fucking coin. So WHY?!

Ok. Okay. Lets say that Dick had anger issues because he wanted to kill his parents’ killer. Then did Jason not have anger issues because he threw a drug dealer that had nothing to do with him off a roof to the man’s death thus leading to a fraught relationship between him and Batman until he died? No? Then fuck off!

Why does one have to be boxed into a category so the other can look better. Dick and Jason both developed anger issues but at two different times. Dick’s started when he and Bruce began feuding at 17. Jason started when he came back with a vengeance at 19. Oh. Would you look at that. They both got angry because of Batman at around the same age! What a coincidence. Perhaps writers did that because they needed them to move into a new story arc in their lives like what actual people do at 18.

And here’s the main thing. If Jason was a cute, innocent angel that became angry and temperamental after coming back from the dead, then why can’t you grant the same olive branch to Dick? How can you say that Jason had the capability of changing from robin to Redhood while Dick could not do the same for his Robin to Nightwing? Looking at the comics, Dick was super sweet (“Holy Batman!”) so why is it so hard to believe he changed too when Bruce ripped his family colors from him and threw him out on the streets because of his own jealousy and love.

So can we please, please change the fucking narrative here? The Golden Boy grew into a multifaceted single parent who has too many kids and is in charge of the whole world and The Cool Kid became an incredible crime fighting warlord who fights for Justice even in outer space. They’re both equally cool, right?

Now back to what I was saying -THEY ARE NOT WHO YOU THINK. The real angry kid here is Damian so why are you pushing that brand onto both of these two when they were nothing like that?!

That label-making factory should be shut down and sued for fraud because here’s how it is:

Dick - deranged, happy robin. The one you whip your head over your shoulder at to make sure you heard him correctly because he says the craziest shit in the most chirpiest of tones. He’ll set fire to a bad guy’s pants and walk back whistling to a secretly approving Batman (canon btw).

Jason - rational, boastful kid. The one you smirk at because the both of you saw someone egg a house who you know is owned by an asshole. He goes into battle fists first or he’ll hold back Batman when he’s gone too far (canon btw).

Tim - bruh no labels because what the fuck is he even. He’s a combo of Jason and Dick. He’ll say something that’s crazy but in a completely calm voice so you dismiss it or think he’s joking (canon btw).

Damian - rational, angry kid. The one where he’s angry but he’s cute and he means the best so you wanna wrap him in a blanket and throw him up in the air and laugh as he shrieks angrily on his way down. He’ll steal the bat sign and run around with it until Batman makes him put it back (canon btw).

So, in conclusion, because my English teachers taught me to end any essay with a concluding paragraph even though this sounds less like an essay and more like a stream of words from my consciousness - Jason and Dick were happy kids. Yes, Dick grew angry at 17 because Bruce wouldn’t let him stay with the titans and he fired him over a bullet wound but no, you cannot use Tony Zucco as his defining point.

Because, to be fair, you are not your past. Your past can shape you but it does not define you. Where you come from does not dictate who you will be. That depends on you and what you believe is right. And neither Dick nor Jason let their pasts define them. So don’t call either of them angry robins when they were both happy as possible.

Please give this some thought because having either one of them angry so young isn’t fun for anyone. Love to see them raging though. Give me wild, powerful Dick Grayson effortlessly whirling down dozens of enemies in a storm of electrical fury. Give me crazy, badass Jason Todd taking down men in a fiery blaze of a tornado given form. Give me that anger. Just not at fucking 8.

#canon vs fanon #sick and tired of the dick vs Jason debate #why don’t you compare Roy vs Artemis? same thing #rant post #dick grayson #nightwing #jason todd #red hood #bruce wayne #batman #tim drake #red robin #damian wayne #robin #robin!dick #robin!jason #robin!tim

[massacredkitty]

How did you meet your gf?

I NEED THE LOVE STORY!!

ok fasten ur belts its long bruh

we met when we were both in bad places mentally & personally speaking, nat saved my life more than she really knows

we got close reeeaally quickly because we had the same interests and what not. and i was crushing hard she had me giggling and kicking my feet almost every hour of the day (still does...)

BUT she had a girlfriend at the time. and god help me because i was falling in love with someone i couldnt have

and then we get to APRIL. on the 10th of april i wake up, and im unfriended on everything and we dont talk at all, im miserable all day blah blah AND THEN SHE TEXTS ME

"i dont think we should be friends because it makes my girlfriend uncomfortable" UMMM........ ok. and then i proceed to cry for three days straight. i dont eat, i cry myself to sleep, i r*lapse. very theatrical of me but i was heartbroken

but through the tears i was lowkey whoring myself to other girls, which is when i found my now ex. but i just wanted someone to fill the void nat left (didnt work)

SHE EVENTUALLY COMES BACK, and we're friends again. she is still with her girlfriend and i am talking to like... 7 different women AND men i mean i was really slutting it out

eventually i get with my now ex but i am anything but loyal (shoot me I KNOW.) i was still flirting with other people and MORE, just searching for someone that reminded me of nat in even the slightest. but none of them were her

SEVEN MONTHS GO BY. im in a relationship but also actively fucking around with other ppl, nat and her gf BREAK UP. oh im pissed because now she enters her playboy era and is flirting with every girl that breathes and then shes telling ME about it

and i am mad as hell, i start taking it out on MY girlfriend. just causing conflict and tension to get the jealousy out of my system which i know is bad you dont have to tell me. am i sorry? not really

17TH OF NOVEMBER. nat decides to confess she used to like me when she was with her girlfriend, and she was falling in love with me. AND IM LIKE???? WHAT! it just flips my world over and of course i tell her that i felt the same, (both of us failing to mention that we were still in love...)

and literally the day after this happens, my girlfriend finds out this. now i had previously told her that i had never been in love before, a lie but i love to lie. so obviously she is real upset and breaks up with me

and i jump on nat's dick like... IMMEDIATELY. i ditch all my fuck buddies, my attention just fully on her. and we start flirting a LOT and its so cute theres so much tension and things we both know but dont say omg it was so fun

and finally FINALLY she asks me to be her girlfriend and i very happily say yes!

moral of the story i will do anything for my girl

#MASSACREDKITTY .ᐟ #natcat #i love my girlfriend

[randomgentlefolk]

CPC CHAPTER 167

YO PROPS TO WITCH!!!

Hm, I wonder how Leelathae writes in her diary? I mean, does she write them in just dialogue, or narrative, or what? Either she is writes in dialogue, or she described the witch pretty well for Gwen to recognize who the witch is.

I mean, I didn't expect these ingredients, but sure. Does this imply there's a cemetery near The Pastel Kingdom? Cause Leelathae isn't allowed to be far from home, right? And I doubt she would ask someone to get dirt from cemetery for her...

I wonder what Leelathae plan was? Cause she didn't get the chance to execute it since her portrait was stolen by Leland. Or maybe she did execute it while in the Plaid Kingdom?

I agree with the witch so much. The painters fr did Leelathae dirty 💀

THE WITCH WASN'T LYING. SHE DOES LOOK COOL AF. LIKE. BRO?? HOW AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO FALL IN LOVE.

Huh. How does the ingredient turn into a paint-like liquid?? None of the ingredients are liquid based. Maybe the dirt?

This whole spell thing is sick man. It's so dang cool!! I wonder if anyone notices Leelathae sparkling?? I mean, one of the maids has got to notice right?

Also I've never knew there's tea inside snickerdoodles (chai is tea, right?). Well, it's not like I've ever tried snickerdoodles, but last time I read the recipe, I don't remember tea being in the recipe. But that was years ago so it might just be my memory.

Well, the mystery of the portrait is finally solved! And yet there's another mystery.. what writing did Leelathae put behind her portrait? Yes, the diary is one of them, but there are other things too. Like those brown and green papers. I'm guessing it's a message toward her kids?

Ohh, that's why!! Leelathae was glowy because of the spell!

BRUH SO WAS IT LIKE, A MISUNDERSTANDING THIS WHOLE TIME?? I did kinda predict it in my really old post, but I was joking T_T

Something's kinda bothering me about what Leelathae said in her 3rd wish. Why is she only talking about her daughters? What about Jamie? Or is there a hidden meaning that I am not getting here? If someone would enlighten me, that would be nice.

Aw. It's actually pretty sweet when you think about how they didn't even know how to speak to each other at first, but they still fell in love with each other <3

Oh. Oohhh....okay. This doesn't justify what Leland is doing right now, but it sure give a big reason for it. Yikes. Damn. That must've hurt.

Okay okay, let me just remember the past episodes to realize all the causes here.

Leland's parents died due to tragic carriage accident (didn't a carriage accident happen more than once? Tho I can't remember to who besides Leland's parents)

His best friend, Jack, didn't arrive to Leland's parents' funeral, which is the moment he needed him the most (not Jack's fault though, since he was literally stranded in an island)

Leland obviously has a little crush on Jack, which is why it hurts him when he found out Jack brought Leelathae to Pastel Kingdom (again, not Jack's fault). I think this is where he jealousy starts, the point where Leland thinks he has to be better at every love things than Jack.

He overheard Jack saying he didn't need him, which is probably the nail in the coffin for Leland. I mean that monologue Leland has? That's kinda internal mental breakdown right there. (I gotta say, this scenario is kindaaa similar to Gwen overhearing Frederick calls her ugly. I wouldn't say it's the exact same thing of course. It's just the overhearing that makes it similar)

So! Looking at these 4 reasons, it is highly likely that Leland has some problems (no shit sherlock). HEAR ME OUT. I don't know what it is yet. I was thinking of abandonment issues, but I have yet to read much about it, so i'm not sure yet.

HAH! Glad Leelathae decided to haunt his dreams tho!

OH SHIT OH SHIT. NAH LELAND NAHHHH. HE BETTER NOT. ....well at the time i'm writing this the next episode is already out so.. guess we're gonna find out...IN THE NEXT REVIEW!!

Yeah I haven't read the episode yet lol. I bet it's gonna be chaotic though.

That's it for now, until next time.

Mono out! (But still in to hear your thoughts)

#cursed princess club #cpc #mono reviews

[whchenlvr]

hi elle! can I request what the union members would be like when they’re jealous? or you can do eunjang it doesn’t matter ;) anyways love your writings!

i love YOU and yes THANK YOU

when they’re jealous ;

donald na

donald wouldn’t like letting his jealousy show, since you often assure him that he’s the only one for you, but sometimes he can’t help it.

he was in a meeting one evening, and you were waiting outside his office for him to finish when one of cheongang’s men sits across from you. since you don’t want to ruin any potential relationships for donald, you’d put on a smile and greet him kindly.

you realize his intentions may not be as pure as you thought just as the meeting ends, and donald steps out to see you and the man. laughing. together.

you and the cheongang man part ways when you follow donald into his office, closing the door behind you. “it wasn’t what it looked like... that was a nervous laugh, i swear.” 

“y/n, it’s not a big deal. i trust you.” he does trust you. he just doesn’t tell you that there’s a knife under the table and the cheongang man on his mind :)

jake ji

jake hardly gets jealous, but you find him hilarious when he does.

you’d be wearing shorts and a tank top to combat the terrible summer heat when your boyfriend stops by to visit, and of course, that’s when a rowdy bunch of men passes by. you wouldn’t think much of it, but jake hates the way they eye you up and down so much that you have to hold him back from confronting the guys.

you’d tell him to ignore him, and jake would just pout like a child and flail a pointed finger at them. “they were looking at your butt! when i do that, you whack me with a magazine! so not fair.” 

“well, they kept their hands to themselves, until someone i know...” 

“i’m defending your honor!” 

“no, you’re being jealous.”

“yeah, cause they can look for free.”

“bruh, i’m gonna smack you!” it’s all outta love guys dw <3

dean kwon

like jake, dean also has his manga collection, but he tries to be subtle about it. you’re the one who expresses your love for it, and you always ask him to wait to start a new one until you can read it together.

one thing you’re trying to work on is your excessive kindness because sometimes you can’t differentiate when someone is just being nice back, or if they’re flirting with you.

you were in the library with dean and spit up to search for different genres. while your boyfriend was on the other side of the manga section, a boy from school approached you with a comic in his hand. “if you liked the promised neverland, you might like this one, next.”

you took it and thanked him, not seeing the problem, but you were unaware of your boyfriend drilling glare-holes in the head of the guy looking you up and down. you’re obviously surprised when dean appears at your side, pulling the comic from your hands and slamming it into the guy’s chest. 

“we’re leaving.” was all he said before leading you out of the library.

wolf keum

a jealous wolf is a dangerous wolf.

you wouldn’t think much of his sudden silence at first, since he does have the tendency to let his phone die and forget to charge it. until the male friend you’d been hanging out with texts you saying there’s some freak with purple hair stalking him. you’d instantly track your boyfriend down and pull him away from whatever schemes he’s up to, scolding him for being creepy.

he’d gotten better at managing his jealousy when he was around you, but one night, some guy couldn’t keep his hands to himself. and neither could wolf.

the touches weren’t risky or uncomfortable, but wolf waited until the third time the man touched you before breaking. he leaped at the man, and wolf’s jealous streak wasn’t the only thing he broke that night.

jimmy bae

my god, i think jimmy would be one of the most jealous people in the world fr.

he’s a different person when he’s with you and his friends then how he likes to perceive himself to the public, so when that “leader of yoosun” comes out in the form of jealousy, he’d be good at making it known to you that he is obvious, though, whether that be verbally telling you or simply putting an arm around your waist.

in one case, you’d be on a date together when someone comes up to you, rather shamelessly, and tells you how attractive you are. you’d brush him off with a “thanks”, but jimmy’s grip would tighten around you. “y/n, if he doesn’t take his eyes off of your legs, i’m going to break his teeth.”

you decided it best to continue the date at home.

jack kang

jack isn’t one to get jealous often. there have been moments where he’s come close, but jack trusts you enough to hold your own. and that was true until you went out one night and ended up slightly more than tipsy.

you hadn’t meant to drink so much, especially in public, since you were an affectionate drunk, but what was done was done.

you’d be with your friends, flirting with all of them (in a friendly/joking sense of course) and jack can just feel his blood pressure slowly rising. he doesn’t want to get jealous or upset, but when one of your male friends places a hand a bit too low on your back, jack gets up, grabs your hand, and pulls you out of the club.

honestly, you’re more grateful than upset, and a little amused to see your boyfriend break that stoic facade. 

hopefully you don’t mind that they’re spaced out! lmk if it looks better the other way :)

#weak hero #weak hero webtoon #weak hero class 1 #weak hero x reader #weak hero manhwa #donald na #jake ji #dean kwon #wolf keum #jimmy bae #jack kang

[99liners]

yandere a⇝z hcs: kaiho!jjk;

pairing: detective!jeon jeongguk x trophy wife!reader

original oneshot: kaiho (it is advisable to read the oneshot first)

warnings: yandere!jjk, toxic relationship dynamic.

part of: tatemae; 建前 — a bts series

[yandere alphabets from here.]

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

↳ detective!jjk’s love language. if he is feeling very lovey-dovey then his touch would be gentle, feather-like even, lightweight and soft. nothing like what the darling is used to in general.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

↳ he can and will kill for his darling, that too, right in front of his darling. he does not care if it gets gore-y, disgusting, unsanitary, bloody — basically anyone who ever even thinks of bothering or touching their darling, he will put that service revolver to good use.

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

↳ he would not mock his darling, that is not his style. he will treat her with the basic decency — would give her time to cope up, would give her the basic amenities, etcetera.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

↳ he is not above the good ol’ surveillance. basically he will violate her right to invasion of privacy based on his morals. he feels entitled to that right. if he thinks that it is required to keep her or his family safe, he would totally do it.

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

↳ zero. zilch. nada. naught. he ain’t showing shit to his darling. he is not the emotional type nor is he any emotionally mature. to him, showing his darling his vulnerable side would mean that he is painting a weak picture of himself before her. bruh, sign jjk out.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

↳ he would be so amused. frankly, he does not think that his darling has it within her to fight back. he has only ever known her as a docile little creature that he gets to ruin over and over again. so, if she fights back, he would be taken aback at first but then, would end up enjoying it. it is not like she can win against him anyways, so, might as well enjoy it while it lasts.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

↳ it definitely did not start as a game but if his darling ever gets it in her cute little brain that she can leave him, he will enjoy the chase. but then again, he is not a patient guy so the ultimatum will be out soon.

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

↳ definitely the white room torture scenario. [you can find the ask here.]

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

↳ he has already married his darling so he is not too worried about future or children. he knows his darling would never dare leave him lest there be dire consequences so he is not worried about that either. he just wants a carefree and peaceful life ahead.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

↳ he is not the jealous type. 

if he ever becomes jealous of another guy, pretty sure he is going to set the guy’s car on fire but in front of his darling, he will pretend that he did not even know about this friend of hers! what kind of a sick bastard sets someone’s car on fire? tch tch tch.

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

↳ jjk is… crude, if that makes sense? like he was left out of civilisation and stashed in some cave. he feels awkward to even say “you look beautiful” out loud. scratches his neck a lot when he is feeling nervous and the only thing that makes kaiho!jjk nervous is acting like a normal boyfriend and/or husband. how do you serenade someone? how do you tell them that you love them and are happy that they are in your life? guess, he will never know.

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

↳ oh, he was always very straightforward. he has this image of a straight arrow who cannot act cute for the life in him and is very honest. he had already told his darling that he wants to settle down and he is not dating just for the sake of it. he likes her and the dating phase is him confirming that she does not have any baggage that might bother him later on in life. turns out his darling is a clean slate, an ordinary person and then it is just a matter of time for his darling to fall for him and agree to marrying him.

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

↳ i would not say his work persona and his home life persona is drastically different because he does not really bother to look like a good guy in front of others. yes, he would not react in a crash manner, would keep his temper in check cause he is a senior detective and has to keep up some standards but he is not going out there trying to colour himself any different. pretty much any one can figure out his personality. he is an open book.

of course, with his darling, he is more raw, undefined, unclassified. with her, he comes undone, all his restraints disappear.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

↳ you dare commit transgressions against this man? lol. would deprive his darling of food, water even, for days till he drives her to the very brink of insanity and when is she finally about to give up — accepting beyond a shadow of doubt that jjk knows the best for her, he is the love of her life and that his darling would never do anything to hurt him or go against him. 

he breaks dangerous criminals for a living, he has quite a number of torture techniques up his sleeve. testing him is not advisable.

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

↳ right to have a job, right to take decisions about your own reproductive organs, right to lead a free life in general.

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

↳ not much, at all. least patient guy you will ever find. everything has to be done now, every decision has to be taken now, everything has to be said now — that kinda guy.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

↳ in case darling dies, jjk ain’t moving on, he would literally be too heartbroken. he is outwardly destructive so might go off-track and become a rouge cop but he would lose interest soon and just lock himself up in his house till he eventually dies too.

in case darling escapes, oops, my bad. i mean if she even tries to escape, jjk will drag her back by her hair. there is no escaping him.

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

↳ regret and jjk in the same sentence? please! the only way he would ever feel remorseful is, if and when, darling dies (in any way but naturally, like due to diseases or old age.)

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

↳ his behaviour owes ties to how he was raised. kaiho!jjk comes from a cop family, he is the third-generation cop and a morally corrupt one too, at that. his dad is the typical strict asian dad who used physical punishment to raise jk ever since he could probably walk. his mom is a simple housewife. then he became a cop as well, dealing with criminals all day, having to use violence against them to catch them or reprimand them. he owns multiple guns, from shotguns to snipers, he kind of has an affinity towards violence.

so, imagine a guy who was beaten up by his father all his life if he ever, like you know, did something wrong and then career wise also, he deals with notorious, dangerous criminals all day. what kind of mentality do you expect him to have? he is extremely physical. his touch hurt you? yeah, well deal with it. i am not saying he was raised to be toxic but sometimes children get repressed cause of their parents’ actions. jjk has always been in that environment and obviously he has an ego which gets fed more and more as he works with high-profile personalities like jhs, myg, ksj and other prominent people of south korea.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

↳ sir detective!jjk here has the dacryphilia kink. coupled with his ego and size kink, when he notices your tears, it turns him on. (a) if his darling is tearing up during sex, it boosts his ego cause he knows he is hitting just the right spots and his darling is too sensitive as a result of his actions. (b) if his darling are crying in general, he is the type to immediately get turned on by that.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

↳ well, he is not the jealous type so there’s that. he also does not care what his darling does (like who she goes out with and stuff) as long as she is with him when he needs her by his side.

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

↳ stroke his ego and he will be your puppy. would do anything his darling wants as long as she keeps his pride well fed. make him feel like a big, important man and he will come putty in your hand but there is no escape from jjk.

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

↳ would they ever? his personality is self-explanatory. he also, mostly hurts his darling without meaning to hurt her.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

↳ he will not go to any lengths at all to win his darling. he worked his charm within the six months that he dated her and come marriage he showed her his true self the very morning after the wedding. he is not big on romantic gestures and feels like he has already won her love so he deserves all of it for the rest of his life without working for it.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

↳ not for long, his patience runs very thin. he is the type of guy who would rather build his own furniture from scratch than stand in the check-out queue at any store.

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

↳ would he? oh lord, he would took so much joy while breaking his darling, if and when, he shall be required to do so. it will have to be one of those rare moments where he is beyond just angry, like the drabble no. 1. he enjoys seeing that fear in people’s eyes, it gives him a sense of thrill. like breaking the criminals for confessions.

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[tobiasdrake]

This place is beautiful. I wasn't sure beauty like this could still exist on Mesa Island. I hope I get to meet the Butterfly Matriarch. She sounds pretty cool.

To be fair, she wasn't wrong. Shopkeeper said the contrast between time periods was pretty cool here. Credit where it's due, it super is.

OH MY GODDESS YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL

The little spots of turquoise on your give just the lightest splash of color contrast to the browns and yellows and EEEEEEEEEEEEEE

You are. I am at maximum jealousy right now. Envy levels through the goddamn roof.

I am about 80% sure you're actually a moth, not a butterfly. But I don't fucking care, because you are killing it either way.

With gusto. I--

Oh fuck me

Thanks, uh... Navi?

So the giant bat monster exists in the past but is temporally corrupting her here in the present, even though that one Messenger in the interim already slew it at some point in the interim. I have so many questions about how this works.

Time travel is so fucking trippy.

Oh, this is going to be way easier than I thought it would. I figured Firefly was going to zoom around and I'd have to attack only when the temporal bubble is illuminating your face.

But if we're just going to throw down trailer park-style, that's super easy. @ me, bruh; Let's fucking go.

Ha! Bat monster doesn't have shit. These screeches are trivially easy to dodge. What else have you--

Oh. Well. Uh. Okay. I'm sorry I insulted your--

RED IS DOWN AND UP IS LEFT

It's fine. It's fine. Just. Drugged. I can deal with this. Just have to stay perfectly still and wait for the nausea to pass.

TEAM EFFORT LET'S GOOOOOO

Nobody is ever prepared for the twirly-doos. Twirly-doo is the ultimate technique of the Messenger lineage. I'm a fucking buzzsaw in flight.

Thank you, Shopkeeper, for this wingsuit. It's so-so in mobility but crazy powerful as a weapon.

There's a lot of value in beauty. It gets the short end of the stick because the good parts of beauty are so immediately evident that it makes the bad parts more conversation-worthy. Not a lot of morals out there like, "Beauty is a great thing and you should appreciate it!" because everyone already does by default.

But it is complicated. Beauty is like a work of art. It takes blood, sweat, and tears to manufacture an aesthetic precisely to the (often unreasonable) standards of society - and once it's done, it has to be cared for and maintained lest it begin to degrade over time.

And no one appreciates it. They think it just happens. Like it emerged fully formed into the universe one day. It's easy to fall for a pretty aesthetic painted over a rotten core because we're already so busy taking beauty for granted that nobody ever engages with what it means in the first place.

...

So, I guess what I'm saying is: Sucks about the bat thing. Sorry you had to live with that. But also, I see you. The clean waters and vibrant grasses and towering, living trees are a testament to the volume of work you've put in over these last centuries, and I see you.

Oh, a time bubble firefly of my very own? Thanks! I'm sure she'll come in handy.

Hold up, your Messenger was MONKSHROOM!? HOLY FUCK. I know exactly what curse I want to lift.

What's up, best buddy? I brought you a friend! I think she can help with your, uh, condition.

Oh yeah, Navi is definitely going to sue someone.

You don't remember?

Shit. Well. Um. Short version: You're not expected to deliver the Scroll anywhere anymore. Missed the boat on that one. But I might have some good news for you. How do you feel about the color blue?

Inexplicably, negative some-odd hundred years. Not sure how or why you time traveled again after failing and getting cursed but it's temporal metaphysics. Shit's fucked on a good day.

Yeah, not gonna sugarcoat that one. You fucked this place up so bad that they changed the name. Which, admittedly, isn't hard to do when there's only one bastion of civilization left in the world and it keeps being periodically destroyed. Endlessly repeating incursions of catastrophic destruction make preservation of world knowledge difficult.

It's like having a library that self-immolates every 50 years. At some point, you get used to starting over from scratch.

Wear earplugs.

I'm sure. I'm just happy that she's finally rid of this curse. I've invited her to Game Night twice. Maybe this time, she'll actually come.

#the messenger #drake plays the messenger

[mandalorianchronicles]

Bruh, I met someone before character x reader was even A Thing that openly admitted to be possessive of characters. She was like, "Oh yeah, I usually hate all of the female characters because I want the guy to be mine." Yeah, everyone has their own headcanons and stuff because that's how things happen. But jfc chill out with the hatred or have the decency to keep it out of the tags. Let me enjoy my ship in peace. I've been a Bo fan since TCW she deserves Good Things. Let her have this. (1/2)

Anon, continued: This is literally fiction and it's not that deep. I also feel like people forget/ignore/refuse to accept that they can just ignore canon? All because the source material does something doesn't mean you have to follow it. It's not Canon or It's Erased From Existence. There's no little trophy for ""winning"". I've been around in fandom a long time and this stuff still gets on my nerves. If you aren't having a good time then leave. No one is holding you here against your will. (2/2)

I merged your posts so I could answer it in one reply.

Yes, everything you said is 100% facts. There are certainly the people out there who are a little out of touch with reality, and this is a big fandom, so we have more than our fair share. I do think that the character x reader fics have exacerbated the issue though, because I feel like I'm seeing a LOT more people citing "jealousy" as their reason for not shipping canon couples. That's all anecdotal, I haven't gone back and counted posts or anything, but I'm definitely seeing a trend.

Westerners tend to get very particular about canon and what does and does not fall into that category. But we are also huge creative contributers to the "fanon" side of things, and I think it's best that we have a balance. For instance, I don't have a lot of good things to say about the sequels (particularly TRoS), but you'll never catch me saying, "that's not canon because George Lucas didn't write it" or because "I didn't like what was written". If I find something I don't like and I feel strongly enough about it, I'll write my own content.

In regards to ships, I think it just projects insecurity to go into the ship tags just to drag a ship. Maybe go generate discourse, like "which ship do you prefer and why?" We have polls now, so that's great. But for someone to take an ask like the one you just gave me, and then use it to list all the reasons you don't like the ship and finish it up by tagging the ship in question is obnoxious. Or they just drop in with a negative original post to hate on a ship. Just make an anti tag. It ain't hard.

#dinbo #bo-katan kryze #din djarin #the mandalorian #shipping discourse #mand'amour

[carinavet]

trope rating game

tagged by @suspiciouspopsicle (It's funny how some of our answers were almost exactly the same and others exact opposites.)

rules: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic? -10 -> very dissuaded  0 - don’t care either way  +10 -> very enticed  nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged.  Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

Age gap: -5

Not for me. Kind of icky.

Codependency: Either -10 or 10. There's no in-between.

Look man, fucked up relationships can be really fun -- if they're done right. But it's the way they're done/the vibes that determine if it's amusing or annoying.

Obsession/Possessiveness, jealousy: okay in my head those are two different things. So for obsession/possessiveness it's a good 8 but jealousy is -5.

It can be really fun to take emotions into extremes. That whole "You are mine" mindset where "you" are all the person can think about, all the person wants to think about, is great.

But the "You know other men?!" mindset is just annoying.

Opposites (grumpy/sunshine etc): 10

It's about completion, it's about being complimentary, it's about watching how they play off each other and interact, it's about filling in the other's gaps, it's about--

Enemies to lovers, Enemies with benefits: 10

@suspiciouspopsicle said: "Enemies to lovers is fine, but I have a lot of trouble wrapping my head around enemies that also fuck. like...are you using protection? is your weapon in reach at all times? can you really trust them???"

Yeah that's the POINT! That fear is what makes it fun! The inevitable point when that tentative trust is tested (and fails?) is what makes it interesting! The "I trust you with my life but not with my most basic goals" is fantastic! That decision to be vulnerable with that person anyway is what makes it so emotional when you realize "Oh shit, I CAN trust you!"

Friends with benefits: -8

Eh, I just don't find it interesting story-wise.

Sex to feelings: 0

Just depends on how it's done.

Fake dating/relationship: -9

Mostly because there's fucking ALWAYS a scene where somebody says "I don't believe you're dating so you have to KISS to pRoVe It!!!" or at the very least an annoying emphasis on obnoxious, obviously put-upon pet names. Bruh maybe I just don't like pet names and fuck you if I think I'm going to put my affection on display for your benefit. Some people's relationships are chill and that's none of your goddamn business.

Friends to lovers: 0

Again, just depends on how it's done.

Found Family: 0

If I go looking for fanfic it's usually because I want someone to bang but found family can be fun too.

Hurt/Comfort: 8

Aaaaaaaaangst!

Love Triangle: -9

Laaaaaaaaame.

Poly, open relationships: Again, two different things. Poly 8, open -10.

Honestly OT3s are something I used to hate but then I played When the Night Comes and didn't have to choose between the two most attractive guys and went "oh shit this is kind of hot actually?" and now lately I've been super into MMF triads.

Open relationships, on the other hand, are lame. My fictional romance needs at least a little bit of obsession.

Mistaken/hidden identity: 5

Mostly depends on how it's done, but it can be really fun to see how someone acts when they have no expectations to live up to.

Monsterfucking: 10

Seriously, I'm looking for recs, people. REAL monsterfucking, none of that soft shit. I want to be scared.

Pregnancy: 0

Again, I'm more interested in how you GOT pregnant, but the soft relationship stuff can be fun too.

Second Chance: -5

Mostly not interested in why you need a second chance to begin with. Especially if there was cheating involved it's a hard no.

Slowburn: -8

These CAN be fun but I'm impatient, haha.

Soulmates: 0

Again, I like the "love of my life" level obsession, but does that need to be actual soulmates? Meh. Not really necessary.

Not tagging. Do it or don't.

[wench-and-jezebel]

Dark Angel Reaction: Art Attack

Jezebel (@typicalopposite) reacts [with occasional asides by Wench (@scripted-downfall)

We had spare time before this episode, so have fun with our bonus content! Link available here!

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["Must be a guy thing" Ah, yes, women don't exercise]  Or a decent person thing, ya know

[OH YEAH THERE'S APPARENTLY A FAMILIAR FACE IN THIS!  @witchy-writer-lady told me abt it]

The circles that have been talked in this scene  [Ma'am calling him out on circular sentences like she doesn't do that constantly]

There is plenty more romantic.  Weddings are so overrated and expensive ☠️☠️🤣

“Why not?”  OC!

🤣🤣🤣 This woman deserves to have her dress stolen if she didn’t notice it gone from two feet away [asdfkjalfdkj you're not wrong]  She’s blind as hell with both eyes intact ☠️☠️☠️

Oh Sketch noooooo

Get ‘em OC  [No "Get 'em Normal"?]  HES SO MEANNNN ☠️☠️☠️☠️  [You do realize NoBody there does Any work right alkdsjf]  That’s true 🤣🤣  [Not even Alec, love him as I do alskdfj]  Oooooof  [He legit just sits there chatting with Normal about boxing the whole time.  Or delivering single packages]

Oh! Hello Logan!

NORMAL 🤣🤣🤣

His little “hm she’s aight” look

[This was me earlier today!!!  I understand his aversion to public speaking  aslkdfj]  ☠️☠️☠️ Moood

Oh Buddy

[His look at her alskdfj]  Their little exchange was cute tho  ['sigh' This is true]

Poor Normal  [I knowwww!  Will the hostage situations never stop?]  Right?!?

[An actual coherent monologue alkdsjfa]

Loooool I thought the brother was Palmer (Ducky’s Assistant you haven’t met yet)  [idk for sure but that's not the pertinent one… Watch for Daphne]

Poor Max done got put in her feelings

Le gasp  [Oh, last name drop!  I forgot Max's last name was on screen.  I don't think Alec's is]

Ooop! We get more jam pony

He said ten bucks  [tbf, they are in an economic depression]  True 🤣🤣

[Normal be lying abt the bip-bip-bip-ing]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Poor buddy can’t have a good family!  Oooof

Was that SPN Mary?  [Yup!]  Le gasp

Oooooof jealousy

[That was a painfully fake smile, Max]

[Also this be the plot to your Nomral fic.  But more guns.  And less love life.  And Normal's in a leather jacket and not a bathrobe]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Oh boy: Logan done put his foot in his mouth

[I'm cringing in preparation for this ep btw.  Heads-up]  Oh noooo

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Jezebel: Midpoint!

Wench: Bravo!  Ma'am remembered better than I… do go on!

Jezebel: Ok so first off it’s a Jam Pony ep which has proven to be some of my favorites!  And I swear I love a “I don’t like this person but I don’t hate this person so I’ll help” storyline

Wench: Poor Normal alskdjf

Jezebel: Yusss.  Alsoooo POOOR LOGANNNNNN!  BUT MAX TAKING UP FOR HIM WAS ADORABLE, IM SORRYYYY!!  But then here comes Mary-

Wench: Daphne

Jezebel: I know 🤣

Wench: Hmph

Jezebel: -and just threw a wrench right in it

Wench: And finally the jump I paused it on  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  In that dress… Just…. Wot ☠️🤣🤣☠️☠️

Wench: Apparently we have lots of photos to give y’all this time alskdfj On we go!

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I swear ☠️ The dress makes the jumps look so bad ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Oooof

Mood max

[Okay but he lost his job because of the messenger service so-]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Buddy she’s no angel

Bruh CAN NO ONE KEEP UP WITH SHIT  [I mean.  Technically she just.  Decided to leave with it]  FAIR

[Remember when I said I was.  preemptively cringing.]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️oh shit the second hand embarrassment

[Poor Normal expecting to get killed tho]  Ooop Normal reality check on being a good person lol  [Let it be known, btw, that Normal in s2 has very good moments and very BAD moments.  I recognize this.  But for now I'm enjoying his minorly-asshole-ish-but-no-worse bits.]

This man and his bitch slaps

I love "defenstration"... it's one of my favorite words

Poooor Normal

[Have fun.  I'm.  Not watching btw.  Tell me when the speech is over plz.  I'm.  I have it muted.]  I have it turned down☠️  I’m still cringing at the faces

This.  Is Tony coming out of Logan

Max coming through again  [Okay, now you're uber-whacked; technically she only came through because she caused the problem in the first place by not handing the paper back]  Fair  [This is the one non-anti-Max comment you've made that I don't agree with]  🤣🤣🤣

[This.  Is an NCIS episode.]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  ["I've got a military vessel heading out to-"]

A ghostttt  [Max disappearing: Cas-coded]

Oooooop-  [Plz let DaphMary be a lesbian]  SBC… If not OC GON make her one

[This whole dress thing is so ridiculously unrealistic.  It's pulling me out of the story.  She definitely smells like trash and yet no one seems to notice; she's bound to have it all dirty, stained, and ripped, and yet she's acting like she's gonna return it... just wot]

OOOOF  THAT WOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TODAY

[Showing off her powers again 'sigh']

☠️☠️☠️☠️  [She (Max) annoys me]  Fair

Oh boy

OC 🤣🤣  [Um.  DaphMary looking like she was heading over to OC as soon as she caught the bouquet.]  RIGHT

[Um.  UM.  THEY ACTUALLY DID THAT!!!  DAPHMARY I FREAKING LOVE YOU]  Oooooop!  Dean’s getting a new momma.  [Well, he always seems to lose one, so he needs two]  Oooof  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Ooop-  Somethings missing on miss presses neck 🙂

“You first”  Heart eyes

[I.  I think we found out why she dumped him… Lickity-chicks]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️  Logan’s not clueless I love it  [This is true!]

Dawwwww!  Genuine smile!  [I will give you that Max/Logan are good in this scene]  

Another dawwwww

Le gasp

Buddy HOW BOUT YOU NOT  [HE WAS TESTING IT]  “My feet work again… Lemme break em”

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Jezebel: Ok! End point! 🙃 Jam pony still are my all time favorites! Like you said it’s the Normal fic but make the girl a painting ☠️☠️ and the depression is his, you know, will to live.

Wench: lkjlkj;lkj oof

Jezebel: Also Logan was adorable in this one.  Very Tony-esque.  And his family sucks.

Wench: All true

Jezebel: But DAPHNE(MARY) 😮‍💨💕 love herrrr!

Wench: I KNOW!  I FORGOT THEY DID THAT AND JUST.  GOLD

Jezebel: OC really just be coming in and swooping up all the ladies.  Also, Max was annoying but her taking the necklace made me happy. So *sigh* 😤  I’m conflicted

Wench: This is fair!  To be honest, she’s not as bad in s1 as she is in s2.  It’s her dynamic there that causes the issue.

Jezebel: Ending note. Catlike jumping in leather = meh, goofy but believable / catlike jumping in fancy schmancy dress = the stupidest thing I’ve ever seen

#dark angel #dark angel reactions #reactions #episode reactions #s01e11 #art attack #max guevara #logan cale #normal #original cindy #herbal thought #sketchy #jezebel (pr)

[godsrejectedmartyr]

i hate that i can’t relate to friends my age.

they all like to brag about being the average tv teen drama show teenager.

we all have boyfriends but even the way we treat having boyfriends is different. “omg you guys my boy is the hottest most sexiest man in the world 😩””we fucked on the first date 🤭””i’m taking back the kinkiest friend in the group title 😜”

pls stfu 😭 first of all that’s nasty i don’t need to hear what you do with your boyfriend (sex repulsed asexual here 🤮), second of all having sex doesn’t make you cool and you’re actual children for thinking that it does💀 also what’s kinky about having the most vanilla sex in the world 😭 idfk bruh

not just that but the mental health stuff gets to me too and i hate that it does. cuz i don’t wanna be invalidating to their negative experiences, and i also don’t wanna make it a competition on who has it the hardest. but they think they’re so cool and quirky when they have a bad mental health moment and impulsively chop off their hair or dye it or something. meanwhile i’ll be going through episodes of literal psychosis for days on end and on occasions even weeks, oding, cutting inches, and no one will know.

and it’s not just that kind of stuff but sometimes they’ll also talk about other things they do, like signing up their band to perform at these events, or going out with friends and doing drugs or going to school events with their dates and what not. i don’t find this particularly annoying but i feel disconnected cuz i feel like i have no life or any involvement with the world around me. not to mention i feel like i’m being rushed into adulthood and never really having the chance to be a teenager due to being literally cripplingly suicidal all throughout my highschool career.

maybe i only feel this kind of resentment out of jealousy. just they just get to act like normal teenagers i guess. and not just that but they’re always so open about the things they talk about, so much so that i know they’d shit their pants if they really knew me.

i feel like no one irl knows me. my boyfriend is the one irl who knows me most, and even then there’s things i keep from him.

i like the friends my age, they’re funny and they’re good people, but i’m not like them. i know i could change that if i really wanted it instead of just brood in jealousy while locking myself away in my room while i starve myself, but adult responsibilities will start to hit me in just a few months. i won’t even have turned 18 when my teen years will be seemingly over.

i know life’s hard for everyone, i don’t know why i always think i have it worse or why i alway get upset when my friends talk about the outings they have or the shit they do. not to mention, how am i to know that they’re really telling the full story? as far as they know i probably have the easiest life known to man being the happiest person there is. i should know i’m not the only one who hides things.

i hate for people to know the things i do or have gone through because it makes me feel pathetic. not to mention i don’t like the attention, and telling people about all my business feels like i’m trying to get people to feel bad for me or like i’m bragging about having a hard life that in reality probably isn’t that hard. i’m just a cry baby little bitch to likes to make things harder for themselves for no reason. but even after all of that i sometimes wish for certain people to realize and find out how fucked up i am. even more fucked up than i let on in my diary blog. cuz sometimes the things i think, do, and want are truly disgusting. i wouldn’t even feel comfortable posting about it all on here.

my account is supposed to make me anonymous. but am i really anonymous when the name “godsrejectedmartyr” now has a personality attached?

[awkwardwithapause261]

Spoilers for Episode 1 of Interview with the Vampire.

Smart using modern technology to make his entire house accessible during the day. Less feeling of claustrophobia

I feel like if his mother hadn’t rebuffed him in her anger and grief he probably would have given accepting the dark gift a little more thought.

That’s deep about how the last sun rise he ever saw was one where he watched his brother kill himself so why would he ever want to watch one again. Like he finds it fitting that the sun hurts him now as it did the last time he was human.

Lestat gave off the one night stand turned obsessive because the dick was so good energy with his waiting on his balcony every night ass.

Lestat says he only give death to those that deserves it then turned around and offered death to Louis. He’s saying the Louis that is picked cleaned shackled by so many things that other people want him to be, but is never enough or appreciated deserves death. But also he’s saying everything that makes him all those things his strength, brilliance, love and loyalty deserves death too. But maybe death and refocus on more worthier things.

He gets major brownie points for not being racist.

Louis my dear you should have known Lestat was bad news when he said he saw you threaten your brother and decided yep I’m staying.

He doesn’t like being ignored or replaced. Case in point by him killing Lily.

Showing up at the funeral and causing a scene was a calculated move. Which I expected from him yet I hated because like bruh let Louis bury and grieve his brother in peace.

I say Claudia will be his niece or I want to say someone works in one of his brothels, but I feel like that’d be too gross given she’s going to be a teenager.

That’s all for now I might have more later.

He brought Lily to his house so that Louis would feel more comfortable having sex with him but also because he wanted the first time he had sex with Louis to be special and private not in some whore house. Like oh my god My heart.

The actors that play Louis and Lestat are amazing.Better than Brad and Tom’s portrayal of them IMO. They having amazing chemistry. I love seeing Jacob Anderson play a more in depth expressive character from what I saw of him as Grey Worm, but Sam Reid’s Lestat really grips you though.

I got a question though. What’d the guy turning the street lights off do to deserve death?

Lestat definitely had something to do with Paul’s death.

When Lestat, Louis and Lily were at Lestat’s house Lestat reached out for Louis I guess to stroke his head but Louis leaned forward unaware of Lestat’s actions so Lestat played it off like he was admiring the couch.

I think his family did know that he was/is gay. His sister’s look during the walk said “Why does Louis have to do this here of all places when momma already blames him enough as it is?” while His momma’s said “You(the sister)better get him or I’mma kill him” whether that look was for Louis or Lestat or both IDK and what I heard when She declined his offer to walk her home was “Why’d you have to bring this man into our lives?”

Also someone on youtube pointed out the difference between book and the show. One of them being never not ever is blood wasted when a vampire is feeding so the messy church scene would never have happened however I would say that Lestat wasn’t strictly feeding on the priest, but more of taking his rage and jealousy out on him. Rage about everything that happened to him in the past and Jealousy that Louis rather confide in the priest than in him.

#lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #early access #Season 1 episode 1 #1x01 #Spoilers #Claudia #interview with the vampire #amc

[rivilu]

Fuckin hell when I people in the tags said leliana is way too easy to sneak romance they weren't joking huh

I was checking the wiki for every conversation and she STILL had the jealousy talk. BESTIE. BESTIE WHEN!! WHEN DID I GIVE YOU THAT IMPRESSION!

Morrigan also always does that thing where she says "could there mayhap be more between us 👉👈" after I've already gotten my warden fricken proposed to, but at least she has the decency to understand there was nothing happening ndnsndn

Leliana, the ONE TIME I do a run where I try to bring you along and talk to you more, you do this to me. Bruh.

#shut up river #leliana #dragon age origins #i have to complain because i now need to backtrack at least three missions. maybe more. to find where that shit happened #WHYYYY LELI WHYYYYYY #HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK THAT'S A POSSIBILITY ORION'S A RAGING HOMOSEXUAL DNKDKAKSK #(that being my mahariel for anyone not familiar with this blog lmao)

[nagasakidivision]

❌ for Haruto, 🌙 for Shirou and ☕for Damien :3

Haruto

He...does not get jealous as easily as you'd expect given how high-strung he is! Which still means he does get jealous somewhat often. Usually if he does it's because he feels like someone else is getting credit for something he wanted, if he thinks someone is getting more attention for something he deserves credit for. He's extremely competitive and driven, and a lot of his self-image is based on his success so he doesn't respond well to any disappointment on that front.

Interpersonally it's...not as bad. On the occasions he's close enough to someone to be open with them, he tends to only get upset if he feels like someone's not being as genuine/vulnerable with him as he is with them. Being authentic is a huge step with him so he'll be pretty jealous if he thinks they're taking from him without giving back, especially if they're being more open with someone else (hi Shirou.) (in Shirou's defense, Haruto is partially reading in things that aren't there, he jumped to the conclusion that Shirou knows most of Damien's secrets and vice-versa and just isn't telling him.)

He tries to not show it if he's jealous but it's...pretty obvious. He gets comparatively cold and passive-aggressive and tries way harder than usual to one-up someone. Gotta prove he's the smartest person in the room and all. If it's more a case of interpersonal jealousy he'll just try to hide it until he snaps at them over seemingly nothing after letting negative feelings build up over time.

Confronting him about it is better in the long run but he will definitely deny it, get mad someone pointed it out, refuse to acknowledge he could be on the wrong side of something for a while, then calm down and (very sheepishly) possibly ask for advice in dealing with it.

Damien

It's unusual for him to actually be genuinely relaxed. He has what they call in the psychology field "dopamine-seeking behavior" which leads to "bruh moments" or "potentially illegal activity." Essentially he gets bored very easily, cannot handle being bored, and goes off to make his own fun. He needs to engage in something more or less constantly. When he does finally calm down, it's usually in chill social situations or right before he finally falls asleep.

Probably the moments where he's the most relaxed and content are sleeping in the sun with Lucia. He likes being on the move and outdoors but there's something nice about curling up underneath a tree on a lazy afternoon where he has no other obligations. He needs to have wiped himself out doing something else first. He's pretty simple in his desires at the end of the day: food, friends, and the natural aesthetic beauty of the world around him set him at ease.

He absolutely wears his emotions on his sleeve so it's not hard to tell when he's...anything. The biggest tell for relaxation is he's not fidgeting and might actually focus on something for longer than five minutes.

Shirou

Honestly? He's tired all the time but he's so out of step with his own emotions and body he doesn't realize it. Part of it is just being that used to it, part of it is...well, dissociating from himself to keep working as much as he needs to. He usually doesn't realize how tired he is until he just straight up collapses. He's working an extremely stressful job where he's exposed to death and grief on a regular basis and that's without going into his, uh, """"second job.""""

The fact he tries to hide everything about himself is really not helping him here. He's heading towards a massive burnout fast and will probably end up dying young at the rate he's going but that's what he says he wants, so, who knows. He's convinced himself this is all worth it as long as it he's helping other people.

Your only real clue he's hitting a breaking point is that he'll probably just start randomly dozing off if he's left in a sufficiently quiet area. Unfortunately, he will deny anything is wrong if he's asked. He'd need to be in a state of a complete breakdown before he ever admits he needs help.

((Thank you for the ask! >vo b ))

#hypmic oc #hypnosis mic oc #nagasaki division #haruto hirabayashi #shirou sonozaki #damien #fan division #hypmic #hypnosis mic #ask meme

[souperfluidslut]

dudes I might actually be fucking bipolar. I don't think it was just a bad relationship with my ex. I may have been onto something with all that research. because why have I been spiraling for almost a week because I wanted physical affection from pink and they simply aren't able to meet that need all the time and my emotional response was "isolate. feel guilty and ashamed for isolating and be afraid you're ruining the relationship. consider that maybe y'all are a bad match and you should just end it. be released. still feel like something is wrong forever."

i felt comfortable and secure with them up to this point. even in previous instances where I wanted affection and they said no/not right now I was chilling. what the hell is different now.

and this shit even extends to the polyamory aspect of things. I'm fine with the fact that they have other partners and I ALSO have other partners (obvious if you read my posts 💀) but sometimes I do catch the Bug (jealousy) and whenever it happens I get drowned in thoughts like "oh so you're not actually comfortable being in a polyamorous relationship. you should break up with them, clearly you can't handle polyamory. you're a bad partner." the only ones that hit me that don't sting are "they like this person better. it's a drag to be with you since you're still locked under your mom so they like seeing people that have more freedom to move than you." those are just Bruh Moment thoughts.

man I should probably mention all this to them but I'm TERRIFIED of telling anyone this. cause it's not exclusive to our relationship. it does this with my friends. it does this with teachers and mentors and just actually myself. I don't know what it is. how do you tell the people you love "hey so my brain is telling me you absolutely fucking hate me and I should remove myself from you so you're not burdened by me. I know it's not true but it keeps going and it's really bad and it hurts tbh." in casual conversation.

i hate not being able to trust my own brain and emotions. I'm so tired lol I'm so so tired.