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aguinhaac · 1 year

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Oh well, guess its time to do it huh? Another miraculous review, I Don’t really know what to say at this point, let’s just get this over with

Today we’re going to review the fourth episode of season 5. Jubilation

We start the episode with Marinette doing a walk listening to rock, but then a billboard starts plating the alliance ad… again… breath aguinha... breath…. Astruc, buddy, Pal. COULD YOU PLEASE STOP TO REPEAT YOURSELF? WE KNOW THAT NOW THERE’S THE ALLIENCES, ARE YOU PROUND OF THE ANIMATION OF THE AD OR SOMETHING? STOP IT, I ALREADY MADE THIS JOKE 3 TIMES, MY FOLLOWERS ARE TIRED, SO PLEASE STOP.

Tikki asks why Adrien is in the ad if he isn’t a model anymore, because all kwamis that aren’t Plagg Nooro or Dussu are just morons, wait but if this ad is playing for some time now, wouldn’t they have seen it before? and Tikki would have asked this before wouldn’t she? I really bet Gabriel don’t have money to put this ad in more places, considering it was in a fucking billboard. So Tikki, w h a t ?

Marinette tells Tikki that this was just a digital 3d model of him, wow that must have been expensive, maybe that’s the reason Gabriel couldn’t play the ad more than like, two times.

But that’s just a theory… A GAME THEORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR- sorry

Tikki: you in the other hand are still in love with the real Adrien

Marinette: oh no that’s over, as long as I’m-

Marinette whispers: as long as I’m ladybug, I refuse to be in love with Adrian or anyone else

Aww Marinette, no need to whisper, just scream like you always do, no worries you can always count on plot armor

But I really like Marinette finally trying to develop as a person and just forget about love, she needs to worry about Paris, that’s cool, lets see how long it will last.

Spoiler: it lasted 2 episodes…

We see Mr. Damocles as “the owl” trying to save a kitty, dude haven’t you learned your lesson already back in dark owl? I know he is kind of a moron but that doesn’t make sens- OOH, DON’T TELL ME, DON’T TELL ME HE IS GOING TO BE JUST LIKE ANDRE, NO MR DAMOCLES, NO PLS NO, I DON’T CARE ABOUT U BUT PLEASE, PLEASE THAT IS A ONE-WAY STREET,

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Mr. Damocles ends up stuck in an iron bar and his owl mask gets broken, Marinette tries to help him but a copycat Ladybug shows up and saves an old stupid man, yeyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Turns out, Marinette knows who is the ladybug copycat, a girl called soqcline, soucline? Wait a second.

Ohhh its Socqueline,Thanks google

So, they go to Socqueline mom’s stone, which a craft store

They talk a bit and we find out that Socqueline was a school friend, which sucks at first, like where the hack have you been for 5 seasons young lady? Have you drunk some invisibility tea or something? You weren’t in another city like Felix or Zoe-su SO WHERE THE HACK HAVE YOU BEEN?

Mr. Damocles shows up there to buy a new mask, while that Marinette tries to make Socqueline AHH I CAN’T, I AM NOT FRENCH, I AM NOT EUROPEAN, I DON’T KNOW HOW THE FUCK YOU WRITE THIS GIRL’S NAME AND I AM TIRED TO LOOK ON GOOGLE ALL THE TIME, SO I WILL JUST CALL HER BRITWO OK? SHE IS PRETTY MUCH IT JUST A CHEAP BAD COPY OF MY DARLING BRIDGETTE, THAT DIFERENTLY FROM HER HAS A PRONAUNSABLE NAME.

Marinette tries to make britwo confess she is the ladybug copy, which she struggles with, at first I thought, OK must be hard try to make her confess without saying you are ladybug, BUT WHEN BRITWO WAS SAVING MR. DAMOCLES MARINETTE LITTERALY TELLS “Socqueline?” SO IF YOU ASKED HER IT WOULDN’T REVEAL ANYTHING, THE HECK MARI?

Britwo uses her alliance to check the paint stock

Marinette: wow, it’s the first time I’ve ever seen alliance in person!

Britwo: It’s a life changer, it got everything, wanna try it?

Britwo: just start with the magic words, please alliance, how many steps have I walked today?

AA (Alliance Adrian): you’ve walked 520.32 steps today socqueline, well done

Marinette: wow it’s amazing

Britwo: right? Is like having an Adrian all for yourself! What a dream

Hmm She is a creep, got it.

Marinette: you can hardly tell the difference between this and the real Adrien.

Britwo: YOU KNOW HIM?

Sorry I just need to point this out, how the heck she found out? Just because you say a 3D model looks like the person that doesn’t mean you know him, I’m imagining this girl taking some friends to watch marvel, and then appears a 3D model of idk, iron man and then her friend tells her, wow man that 3D model sure looks like Robert Downey, and then britwo screams out of nowhere: YOU KNOW HIM?

Marinette then starts to tells britwo ALL OF ADRIENS PROBLEMS TO SOMEONE HE NEVER MEET, WHAT A COOL PROTAGONIST, KIDS YOU SHOULD TOTALLY TELL YOUR FRIENDS PROBLEMS TO SOMEONE HE NEVER MEET, THAT’S THE RESPONSIBLE THING TO DO 👍

BUT THEN, Britwo thinks Adrien and Marinette are together, which Marinette responds saying

Marinette: we’re just friends nothing more, its just like you, you’re just a high school girl who sometimes helps her mom, nothing else right?

Britwo: uh, exactly.

Marinette: just like Mr. Damocles, he is just a principal, right?

Damocles: no, I’m not a principal, I’m a superhero, I MEAN IT’S THE OTHER WAY AROUND

Marinette: well it’s a good thing you are not TRYING TO BE A SUPERHERO, BECAUSE ITS VERY DANGEROUS TO DO THE SAME THING THEY DO WHEN YOU DON’T HAVE MAGICAL POWERS OR SUPER SUITS

Britwo: yeah, but what if it is a relief to ladybug to have people to help her

Marinette: no way she would have want that, its too risky

Britwo: yeah, but you gotta know when to step in

Marinette: but in this circumstance it’s ladybug job to take risks and no one else, because if everyone takes risks ladybug may have to take more risks in order to deal with their risks, WHICH IS EVEN RISKER

Damocles: sounds like someone is jealous because she wants to be a superhero

Marinette: I DO NOT, I’M MARINETTE, I AM VERY HAPPY TO BE A NORMAL GIRL WITH A NORMAL LIFE, AND SO SHOULD EVERYONE ELSE

Ok 2 things, being a superhero is hard, you have to deal with more than just the supervillains, you lose your freedom, everyone expects you to be perfect, any mistake you make may have catastrophic consequences and you blame it all on yourself, you gain more traumas than a child in twitter, be a super hero is hard I understand your side Mari. SECOND, I hate Mr Damocles now.

WHAT THE HECK DUDE? FIRST OF WHERE IS YOUR DEVELOPMENT? I LIKED YOUR EPISODE, THE IDEA THAT PEOPLE CAN HELPWITHOUT PUTTING THEMSELVES IN DANGER IS SOMETHING I LOVE, I LOVE DARK OWL, THERE ARE SOME BAD PARTS BUT IT IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE EPISODES OF THIS GOD FOR SAKE SHOW, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH HIS DEVELOPMENT? AND THE PHRASE “lOoKs LiKe sOmEoNe iS jEaLoUs BeCaUsE sHe wAnTs tO bE a sUpErHeRo” FUCK YOU, I shall not call you by your real name anymore, you will now be Mr Damoshit.

Mari uses britwo alliance to find out if she is or not the fake ladybug, save this information, its important, and found out that yes, she really is she impostor, good I don’t have many followers I bet I would get at least one billion sus comments if I were popular,

By the alliance Mari discovers that there’s dino’s attacking the city and transforms to go fight them, with britwo, Mr Damoshit is sad because of what marinette said, really dude? But then Marinette comes back and gives back britwo alliance, saying that she forgot to lock her scooter, but the alliance says that Marinette walked kilometers in just some minutes, but britwo think this is just a bug and life goes on.

With that said Gabriel receives a message from his alliance saying that a teen ran through KILOMETERS in just a couple minutes and that she probably was ladybub

Huh cool Gabriel use the alliances to try catch ladyb- WAIT A MINUTE, IF YOU CAN SEE WHAT YOU DID WITH THE ALLIENCES, THAT’S THE WAY MARI FOUND OUT ABOUT SOCQUELINE, WHY THE FUCK DIDN’T USE THIS TOO? HE COULD HAVE SAW FROM BRITWO ALIENCE, SEE SHE IS THE FAKE ONE.

BUT THAT WOULD INCLUDE SEEING MARINETTE AS LADYBUG AND HER PLOT ARMOR IS BIGGER THEN THE FUCKING PLANET, SO THE WRITTERS JUST LET THIS PLOT HOLE,

Gabriel transforms and akumatize Mr Damoshit. Into darker owl, stupid name for a stupid character, Monarch tells him that britwo is ladybub and gives him the power of jubilation.

Darker owl Appears at the craft shop which britwo record an audio with alliance, but darker owl just uses his gift in britwo showing her bigger wish, be a real superhero like ladybub and chat noar, takes her earrings but find out that she really isn’t ladybug,

Mari as ladybug shows up and discovers that the akuma is in darker owl’s mask by an audio britwo recorded in her alliance, see how this Socqueline is just a copy of Bridgette, they even copied the super intelligence my darling has, Adrien receives by the alliance a video from darker owl saying that if they don’t give him their miraculous britwo is going to fall in a can of paint and die, you are trying me to like you again by being a charismatic supervillain, but this is not going to work, do something really good and remarkable or your name will forever be Mr Damoshit.

Adrien transforms into chat noir and they both go fight darker owl

Chat noir saves britwo while ladybug just uses her lucky charm, pls mari the only good part of your character was that you always did the work, pls don’t be like Adrien and not just sit your big fat ass and do nothing plssssssssssssss,

The lucky charm is an alarm clock, but before ladybug can think of anything, ladybub sees that chat was going to be caught and go save him, which darker owl uses the gift in them making the biggest, no, one of the biggest shipping fuel I’ve ever seen in my life

The dream is about they defeating monarch and getting married, they show off the super heroes from the around the world specials to remember that those existed and that they were cannon, some chat blanc reference, they have the most DISGUSTING BABIES OF ALL CARTOON HISTORY, NO LOOK AT THAT

I didn’t like steven universe baby designs but Jesus Christ.

But then they discover that this is a dream because of the lucky charm alarm clock, they have a sad moment and kiss, like that scene would have been better if it was after determination and if chat noir/Adrien wasn’t in love with Marinette, the way they put that just doesn’t make much sense

Ladybug wake up and start to beat the shit out of darker owl, chat noir also wakes up and starts to REALLY BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF DARKER OWL, ladybub even had to say for him to slow down

And then…. CHAT NOIR TRIES TO FUCKING CATACLYSM HIM, DUDE, WHAT THE HELL, HE IS HORRIBLE BUT JUST TAKE HIM OUT OF THE SHOW, DON’T FUCKING KILL HIM, THAT’S JUST ABSURDE MAN, OMG HOW IS HE STILL CONSIDARETED A HERO, JESUS CHRIST.

BUT chat decides to don’t kill him and just cataclysms the mask instead. They search for the pig miraculous but find nothing so just give Mr. Damoshit a magical charm,

Britwo apologizes with ladybug and Marinette gives her mom the paints she bought, and her mom gives her a gift, an alliance, but she gives it back because it’s too dangerous.

And then we have a scene where ladybub and chat noar talk about the fight with darker owl. And that’s where the episode ends

Really this episode is hard to give a note, it is the best one so far but yeah. I think Britwo was kinda annoying and kinda of a creep, Marinette wasn’t at her best but she wasn’t at her worst either like yeah that with Adrian's secrets where bad but not the worst she's ever done, chat noir didn’t show up most, he was just there to add some shipping fuel and to make him look bad I guess? No really what was the plan when they made chat almost kill someone? And Mr. Damoshit, do I need to explain myself

That’s kinda of it, I will give this episode a 6/10 its ok

Thanks for seeing see you in the next post

#miraculous ladybug #mlb #miraculous #mlb salt #miraculous salt #mlb sucks #miraculous ladybug salt #jubilation spoilers #ml jubilation #mlb jubilation #miraculous ladybug jubilation #Miraculous Jubilation #Youtube

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yamsgarden · 2 years

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I learned how to make Toon Water just for WW’s return

#my 3D #wind waker #the legend of zelda #this game litteraly saved my life way back then #i dont like thinking about those dark days #but ww is one of my happiest memory #and im so grateful for it

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fixing-bad-comic-art · 3 years

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fun asks for boredom: do you read books? have you been to the LIBRARY lately now that it’s open again? do you want book recs? (bc im full of them PLS) - if not books, what are you doing with your free time? tv video games movies? what’s occupying your thoughts, what are you obsessed with right now? wanna infodump on anything? or vent? i want to listen :D

ive been a few times! i love the work area at my local library bc its always quiet and its got really nice views, so i visit it a lot. but im not a big reader tbh. im dyslexic and a lot of books are just too hard to get through unless theyre digital and i can change the font to something thats easier to parse which not all books/apps/websites let you do. and anybody who says the built in tts systems that these apps have are good enough, are lying to themselves. so most of the time when i buy/burrow a book its usually just a reference book of some kind.

and on that note, this is a Big reason i dont read a lot of comics, that crowded faux handwritten font a lot of them use is hellish for me to try and parse.

and its a bit of a joke amongst my friends that if im not actively making something im probably yakking on deaths doormat, lmao. right now im mostly into writting and doing digital paintings, but spinning and crochet are old favorites

and like, right now my biggest obsession is dnd, i love dming and the more role play focused sand box campaigns. and before anyone points out that theres better systems for role play focused games, i know, i actually like how janky dnd is on this front because it gives both sides of the table way more freedom to do what feels right.

like This is my rant, letting the players Genuinely argue through their character to try and get something done is Way more interesting than just making them role 1 die and do some math.

like, theres this one moment in the first campaign i ran for my best friend that i keep coming back too.

she had accidentally (on her part, this was my plan all along) traded away a mcguffin to the absolute last person she would want to have that.

when Summer(the npc) came to collect the mcguffin from Shiana(the pc) i Could have had zen(my bff) role 1 d20 and add shiana's persuasion modifier to it. and just on a role of the dice i could have decided where this litteraly game ending mcguffin would land.

if Summer gets it an eternal summer would ravenge the world. but her brother in law would be given more time with his family and a chance at survival.

if he didn't Shiana's brother in law and close friend was more likely to... not die, but also not exist anymore. but her holding onto it gave her time to maybe save both him and the world.

by not basing this on a dice role shiana got to Argue with this fairy to try and get her way out of this deal. zen got the experience of him arguing right back and trying just as hard as she was to get the damn thing.

and because she couldn't just role to persuade him they ended up having one of the most intense fights while she was Running For Her Life because she, Zen and shiana, not a trick of luck, royally pissed off the embodiment of Summer. she got to call on the power of both gods she had a connection to and nearly died from overwhelming herself with their power in a desperate bid to buy herself some time.

because we weren't using any strict rules for this, or really Any rules, we were able to tell a story that was much more engaging than one dice roll ever could be.

like, tldr, dnd Is good for role play because its Very easy to just ignore the clunky/underdeveloped rp rules when needed.

also dnd has tieflings. i like tieflings. think theyre Real Neat.

#not a fix #does Any of this make sense?#nah #but im fuhken Vibin #garnet babe

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handonhaven · 3 years

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I've seen every theory there is about Landon/not being Landon. And this one I saw made me speechless. They said they it wasn't Landon because since he's gotten back Handon hasn't had one fight. I'm sorry but how far do you have to reach to come with that one.

I know there are a lot of theories that could be possible. The only one I don't think is possible is the Landon we see is someone else. It wouldn't make sense and I just don't see the writers going that way with the story. I think the three most likely are the he's spilt, someone put a block on his memories and there's someone else in his mind with him.

Another theory I saw of someone saying that wasn't Landon is that Wade said the monster hates fire and Landon is a Phoenix they're made of fire and it still went after him. But the thing is Landon doesn't have any Phoenix powers right now.

Another thing I've been seeing is people say this episode just proved that Hope doesn't really love Landon if Wade was the one to notice something was off about Landon. Yes there is something a bit off with Landon but I don't think it's to the point that someone would be like yep there's something wrong with him. The only thing about that scene that didn't make much sense to me was the situation that they were in when Wade said that thing about D&D. Clearly Landon was more worried about Hope so of course he wouldn't remember playing a game of D&D right then and there. Or Wade telling Hope that Landon would never do something to hurt but still stabbed her. That wasn't him doing something to hurt her That was him doing something to save her. It was litteraly said That was the only way and they were running out of time. Wade and Josie was just standing there talking about if they should do it or not, which could have cost Hope her life.

I know there are people who think it's weird that he only remembers things that includes Hope. But that doesn't add up. If he only remembers stuff with Hope he wouldn't remember the qoute from when they were class, he wouldn't remember anything syfy/fantsay relate or how to play/what is D&D etc.

Wow I'm sorry that got really long.

Oh my gosh. I should’ve seen that coming, but I really didn’t haha. Of course they would say that. They’re reaching far, which they’re quite used to doing at this point. These people need to learn that having a fight and having a difficult conversation are two different things, and the obstacles Hope and Landon have gone through have only made them stronger to get to the point where they are now. They’ve been working through those obstacles and are on the same page. Not that those people would realize that...

And I’m with you, I also really don’t think that Landon is someone else. I don’t think the writers would do that either, that’s going too far. I just can’t see them having it end up being someone else who’s been kissing and cuddling with Hope this whole time, that would be disgusting. Plus there’s a ton of other reasons why that wouldn’t make any sense. And I agree, I think the split theory is very likely. And his memories could be blocked as well, though I hadn’t thought of someone else in his mind with him! That could be possible!

And yeah, as far as that Phoenix theory goes, Landon doesn’t have those powers right now, so there wouldn’t be any fire involved so you’d think that’s why the monster wasn’t affected. But I know some people have thought of the theory that if he split, this could be his human side, which could also explain why the monster didn’t sense his Phoenix side if it isn’t there.

Ahaha I’ve been seeing that too, which is ridiculous. You’re right, there have been some things that aren’t quite right, but nothing that noticeable, particularly when you look at it from Hope’s perspective. Because what reasons did she have to be suspicious before this last episode? She should’ve been more concerned about him being unable to remember the prison world, but that’s purely the writers’ fault because they clearly haven’t wanted the characters finding out what happened yet. So I’m not even gonna count that. And Hope also doesn’t know about her necklaces, she knew Landon grabbed them when he was dissolving, but she couldn’t know that he still had them after. And besides that, Landon has been acting like himself for the most part. His mannerisms and gestures and so many little details point to him being Landon. And him acting more “perfect” at times is not enough to cause suspicion, he’s not done anything that out of the ordinary for him. And Hope has just been happy to have him back so it makes sense that she would appreciate him more and see him as more perfect after she thought she had lost him. But none of his behavior before this last episode has been suspicious enough on it’s own.

And everything Wade noticed happened only in this episode anyway, not before. Hope wouldn’t have known about the D&D memory, it happened to be a memory involving just Wade. Up until now, it’s only been his prison world memories that Landon has seemed to forgotten. And yeah, the scene with Wade talking about D&D didn’t make much sense to me either. It was just a very strange time for Wade to bring that up. Because exactly, Landon was focused on saving Hope and it was a very desperate situation. You would already be in a panic if that was happening so I don’t think it was that odd that he couldn’t think of it. But they’ll often throw in weird and random stuff to move the plot forward, so I think it was just one of those times. But regardless, that’s still something only Wade would’ve noticed Landon not remembering. And Hope was not herself when she was turning into the creature and went after Landon. And Wade was the one who knew more about the creature as well, so of course he was the one to wonder about the creature being attracted to Landon.

And as for the stabbing thing, there’s a lot I could say about that which I might post about later because that whole thing was just dumb. I literally thought the same thing! That situation was not about hurting Hope, it was about saving her. Exactly, it was the only option and there was no time left. Yep, Wade and Josie just stood there and it looked like they were gonna continue to stand there and Hope would’ve been gone forever. Landon knew what he had to do to save her and he did it. And of course he didn’t want to hurt her, but there’s no way he’d ever let anything happen to her, so of course he would do the hard thing in order to save her. And he literally does that, he saves Hope’s life, and then Wade‘s like, “Landon would never do that!” What?? 😂 He really thinks Landon would just let Hope turn into some other creature? I mean, in any other circumstance, he’s right, Landon would never hurt Hope. But he would also never take any chances with Hope’s life and there was no other choice. And Hope understood that too. But they took him saving her out of context in order to make it look bad so it would seem like something he’d never do even though Landon would always save Hope. And Hope knows he would, so it makes sense why she wasn’t suspicious.

So her not noticing the things Wade mentioned has nothing to do with her not knowing Landon well enough or her not really loving him. For whatever reason, the writers decided to have Wade figure it out. Possibly because Hope wouldn’t have considered it even if she had noticed something after all the trauma she went through from losing him and when she just got him back. So she needed an extra push to know that something is wrong probably?

And I didn’t know people were saying that about Landon’s memories, but yeah, that doesn’t add up because he’s definitely remembered things not including Hope, like all that you mentioned. But it would be interesting to know if the memories he’s forgotten all have something in common and what that could mean.

But no worries at all! You’re talking to someone who writes super long posts and responses (as you can see 😂) so it’s absolutely fine! Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me!

#answered #3x11 #spoilers #legacies spoilers

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3cf · 4 years

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Underrated Character - Deke Shaw "I'm a damage person from a damage world" "that's just me, guy from the future who doesn't belong"

He comes from a dystopian future where he has lost his parents, lives in a world of daily violence and hunger, a kill or be kill environment, with no nature, no real freedom, and for him nothing to be hopeful for. He is quite desillutioned, especially about the whole prophecy idea because he has lost his parents because they were 'believers'. He may seem quite selfish, when rating out for instance, but he has only been able to count on himself for a long time and he is in a context of survival which doesn't necessary reveal your best side but the other brighter side exists. He does not take him that long (compare to a life time) to be ready to help this group of strangers even though he starts a bit shyly, proving that he is not selfish to the core. As he says it himself, he’s seen people willing to kill for someone else but never to die for before, and he becomes one of them. At the end he takes huge risks (his little survivor life) to enable the team to come back. Sadly, his father will never know Deke took on his legacy and Deke, who left in complicated realtionship with his father, will not have the chance to hear him recognise his actions and that it makes his father proud.

Once in the 'past', where he arrives instead of dying, seeing him dicover just the tinniest bit of the new world is refreshing. It's his unique position that makes him the one who sees hope and beauty that he shares to comfort or to help other refocuse on what they need to preserve (at a moment where the team and its members are in some personal hard times and team conflicts). One of his fear turn to matter has litteraly said "You should walk away, you know what happen when you care about someone".

Then he leaves SHIELD, because he thinks he might die very soon and if he doesn't, the Earth would likely be destroyed and he wouldn't really have taken his chance to explore the world (which basically is the biggest inaccessible dream where he comes from). Plus, he is longing to belong and to find a place but it's not something he has really finds in his time with SHIELD (and his afraid to find there as the risk of losing SHIELD people is high) and maybe out there he will.

Obviously, when he is seen again he is pretty annoying but during his CEO time, he remains polite and treat people with respect and even if he is about making money he is also concern about creating a better future. The whole sexualizing Daisy in his game is more than problematic and he has zero excuses for it. Soon enough he is willing to take risk to help others as Sequoia. A lot answers of his choices of douche bag behavior are given when he explicitly says that he doesn't understand why he is not more love or approved now that he has does want society tells you is the most valued and popular, making lots of money, being quite famous en social media, being a boss...

He is clearly desperate to find a place, to obtain approval and to feel loved but he may not have followed the best path to do so, but maninly by being misguided (which happens easily for him as he is out of 'time' and has grown up in a different world, in some ways he lack tools to have enough judgment on those fields of life). Of course he is responsible for himself and accountable for his own actions, but he is a lost, lonely person evolving in an environment he never had concrete helped to apprehend correctly. He would really benefit if someone takes the time to talk with him calmly, if someone listen to him and explains to him with patient why they have a problem with his behavior; because what he tends to get are mumbles, coldness, annoyance and second degree remarks that he does not understand.

Following 'Code Yellow' his new word is violently ripped apart. Obviously, there is the Sarge situation that is there and they have the world to save and they dissaprove of his behaviour, but still, he got no consideration, nobody seems to care enough to realise it and to simply acknowledge it, which is quite harsh for him. He keeps to feed some weird ego pleasing, 3rd person talk, flattering himself words but it feels like he does it to provoke some recognition of his actions, not understanding that doing do it will not play in his favor. It also shows is continous search for approval is far from over.

His relationship with Snowflake is really one of two lost souls who wants more warmth in life and more belonging. "Snowbunny she gets me. She said that my soul was like a butterfly that was just dying to escape. And you know what? that's exactly how I feel."

In the end of the season, he expresses a stronger desire than before to be part of it (and share the pain and fight when they occur) and to stay at the lighthouse by choice (the base is litteraly where he has leave his whole life and accumulate all his trauma in his 'original time', so staying is a big choice).

All of this always imprinted by the special Deke touch (that you naturally appreciate, or not, or only from time to time).

Overall, I feel like he fits the underrated character category because of his general relationship to the team (with Jemma being quite an exception). But also because I feel like he deserves a bit better in terms of storytelling on the show. He has some nice light scenes and a few more serious ones but in the end I feel like I often kind of rejoy on crumbs when it comes to his character (compare to others with less or the same amount of time) though they managed to make me care about him and be curious to where he goes and how is arc evolves.

The show is really great at characters and at dynamics (main SHIELD ones but secondaries, frenemies, enemies, guest stars.... too), definitively its greatest asset to me. So... I hope to see (soon!) some more quality Deke content in season 7.

#Agents of SHIELD #aos #30aos #30aos day14 #3cf post #Deke Shaw #catching up s7 is almost there

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links-abbiegen · 4 years

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Just finished bioshock 1 (good ending) and here are my thoughts:

So, I think BioShock might actually be my favourite game and I hate myself for missing out on this gem!! This game is amazing, its world building is amazingly creative. The whole asthetic in general is incredible and very creative! I dont even know what to call it (my sister and I like to call it scuba-punk lol) I've never seen anything like it. The charachters are all masterfully written and its incredible how well made the plot twits in the story were. I think I only predicted that Jack was Andrew Ryan's kid because I found that audio log where they were saying these diving sphere things were gene coded to andrew ryan but people with similar dns like family members are able to use it. But I didn't predict "would you kindly" or that atlas was frank fontaine. Also the game really knows perfectly how to handle the different weapon types and bullet types. In general, from a gameplay perspective I've had lots of fun. The game knows how to keep the gameplay fresh, not having too many complicated mechanics and just when you get bored of a weapon? Boom! You get a new one. Got bored of that?! BOOM, NEW PLASMID! in general I thought that plasmids were great from both a story and gameplay point. (Little funfact:I have slight entomophobia and yet to me the most fun to use plasmid was the insect hive) I thought they were all very unique from the way they played as well and how every plasmid brang a different aspect into the gunplay, acting differently with every weapon. Now...I think I should talk about the one thing that I disliked. And that was the difficulty towards the end. Now I'm not the best gamer but I was doing really well the whole game but the resources got extremly spare towards the end. Like around the moment I entered apollo square I barely had any ammo, any med packs, or any money. I only had a lot of eve syringes but beating the game with only plasmids seems a little hard. So I fucked my way through apollo square but at the Prometheus point it was just too much. I had litteraly nothing. So I committed a sin and..well..turned it one point down to easy. I know I know shame on me but..God the game was really fun this way. Like After half an hour I had more money than I ever needed to spend. It felt a bit wrong though. Like I beat fontaine in a minute maybe. And yet I still had fun! Now let me get back to what I enjoyed. Lets talk about the small section between Prometheus and fontaine yes? The section where you play a big daddy. Wow holy crap that was fun. Already got me all excited for bioshock 2. It was really nice and it rewarded the more open eyed player (hacking sentry guns for example instead of just wrecking them). Next I wish to talk about moments that stood out to me. First...that ffffffUCKING SATISFACTION I FELT FINDING THAT BASTARD SUCHONG PINNED TO A TABLE VIA A BIG DADDY DRILL!! god i wont forget that audio tape with the puppy... now. Another moment that stood out to me was andrew ryans death. They way it revealed the whole would you kindly thing. And the way he stood to his philosophy till the end. "A man chooses, a slave obeys" and indeed he chose. He chose when, how and why he dies. Truly and insteresting individual. Next..what also stood out to me was the entire stay in fort frolic. It felt so different from the rest of the game. Yes, the entire game feels unerving and claustrophobic and scary but fort frolic just...made me feel extremly uneasy. All these insane artists, especially sander cohen. And then that scene where Jack finds his mom. Or that audio tape of sander cohens um..poem. you know which one i mean. In general all the wax corpses or those fucking wax spider splicers. I hated those dudes.

now lets talk about the ending yeah?

Now like every sane human being I chose the good path (I dont trust people who harvest little sisters) and wow. Wow holy fuckles. It was so satisfying to see the little sisters kill fontaine. He got what he fucking deserved but...thats not what stood out to me the most. It was the cutscene..how we took them back to the surface, those little sisters...how we saw them grow up, ger edcuated, get married get the life they were never allowed to live! I almost never cry at video games but that scene made me feel so god damn happy. Especially that last shot where we see jacks hand as an old man and all the other little sisters taking his hand, wedding rings on each of their hands. They were able to live because we saved them from this nightmare. My sister sat next to me and she cried. "Its been over 10 years and this still makes me cry" yeah. I dont cry. But..I bassicaly did inside. It felt so right..so deserved. I'm so happy. Bioshock wasn't a game to me. It was an expericne. A journey! And I think that if you haven't been on that journey yet? Trust me. Its 100% worth it.

Thats all folks

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mymoviefaves · 7 years

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I’m gonna go on a quick rant on feminism/femininity and Disney here.

It just riles me up when people seem to get the idea that femininity means a lack of feminism. When people take a look at the girl in the pants and the girl in the ballgown and says the one in pants is more feminist and empowering than the one in the dress. The whole point of one of the many aspects of feminism is that as women we have the right to choose to be and wear whatever we want. A woman in a dress is just as feminist as a woman in a burqa, and they’re both just as feminist as a woman in a suit or a woman in a bikini. And beyond clothing, a woman who’s married and in love is just as feminist as a woman who’s single. Here’s where Disney comes in, no one princess is a better more feminist role model than another. It’s important to have more than one type of role model yes, but just because one girl likes to fight and another girl likes to sew, it doesn’t mean that one is a better role model. All the princesses and other Disney ladies have good values to teach us and our kids in different ways and I’m gonna go through them with you. Oh, and just for good measure, I always include trans women in my feminism, so terfs, this post isn’t for you.

Snow White:

For one thing this girl is 14. She is a child and her outlook on the world and her dreams in life shouldn’t be measured up to an adult’s. She’s kind, caring, and yes, she does dream of true love’s kiss. But she’s 14. When I was 14 I was dreaming of the same damn thing. But what we can learn from her is that when you care for everyone, even strangers, you’ll see that kindness returned. When she’s lost in the woods and scared for her life, she still finds the strength to be kind to the animals. In return they show her to the Dwarves’ cottage. She’s sweet and decides to clean up the place and take care of the dwarves out of the kindness of her heart and they return the kindness by giving her a home when she had none. At the end she’s rewarded with the true love’s kiss she wanted. We can even learn from the Evil Queen that vanity is a terrible thing.

Aurora:

The main thing to remember about Aurora is that for one thing, she met Phillip when she was a baby. The other thing is that while the good fairies did love her and take care of her, she grew up isolated and alone. She’s always had these dreams of meeting someone (anyone) else to break that isolation. But in that isolation she’s still strong, kind, and trusting. She loves her adoptive aunts, and for a side character(might make a post about that later) I would still count her as a good role model because of that kindness.

Cinderella:

Her, I’m definitely going to expand on in another post. But, she’s one of my favorite princess. Ironically, not one of my favorite movies, but she’s an amazing character and I love her. She’s a survivor of child abuse. That’s the very first thing that you need to understand about her. She doesn’t stay happy and content with a grin and bare it attitude, she got mad. She was snarky, and she only found happiness in the little free time she had and in her pets/friends. All she wanted that night was to go to the ball. All she wanted was one night to have fun and get out of the house. She wanted one night where she wouldn’t be berated and yelled at and ordered around. And when she met the prince, she didn’t even know who he was. She didn’t even mind that she would probably never see him again. And at the end she more or less saved herself. She didn’t wait around and sing a song from her tower to get rescued, she asked her friends to get the key and help her out. She was smart enough to pull out the other slipper. There’s nothing wrong with getting help from those around you and there’s no shame in asking for it. There’s nothing un-feminist about getting help, especially when you’re an abuse survivor. And that’s what Cinderella is about. Her fairy godmother coming to help her. Women helping women.

Ariel:

The one big thing that made the Disney renaissance so great is they decided to follow the rules of Broadway musicals. One of the trademarks of this is the “I want” song. That’s the motivation for the main character and it’s the driving force for the plot.

Ariel wants to live in the human world. That’s her dream. She desperately wants to be a human. Eric was just the straw that broke the camel’s back. Ariel is strong willed and curious. She’s the undersea equivalent of an anthropologist. She’s 16, so of course she’s going to make stupid mistakes, but she gets to live out her dream in the end and become a human. The main point and what makes her a wonderful feminist role model is that she uses that drive and curiosity to pursue her passion.

Belle:

I’m not sure I have to go into too much detail about her although I will mention, she is not a victim of Stockholm Syndrome. And to be honest how would being an abuse victim make her any less feminist? Anyway, of course she’s smart and loves reading. She loves adventure books and that’s what her “I want” song is about. She wants adventure and she wants someone who understands her and doesn’t think she’s weird for her interest. She’s a good role model not only for her love of reading but also of course for her kindness and seeing the good in people despite their appearance.

Jasmine:

She. Is. Not. A. Prize. To. Be. Won. Moving on,

Kidding. But anyway she’s great because what she values is freedom and love. I feel like a lot of people forget is the line, “when I marry, I want it to be for love”. She wants to make her own choices in all aspects of her life and she decides to leave her life of privilege to pursue that freedom. You can hear and see it sprinkled in all around the movie (and the stage show). She sees herself as a bird in a cage and she’s happiest when she’s free and litteraly flying. And at the end she chooses Aladin. It’s all about her choice.

Pocahontas:

So unintentional racism, stereotypes, white savior trope, erasing history, and pairing her with the horrible monster aside for a moment...

Let’s talk about 18 year old Disney Pocahontas as her own character. The main thing that comes to mind when I think of her is strength and bravery. She knows herself and she knows what she loves, and she’ll do anything to protect it. She also cares about the earth and environment. All of those are wonderful traits to have as a role model.

Mulan:

Again, I don’t think I have to go into much detail about why she’s a great feminist role model. She’s usually who everyone thinks of when it comes to great feminist characters.

But what I will say is one thing not a lot of people mention in her great feminist role model-ness is that she doesn’t mind being feminine. She knows the ”perfect porcelain doll” isn’t her, but she doesn’t mind dressing up when she can make it her own. Another thing that I’m surprised get’s as ignored as it does especially since it’s scattered through the whole movie including her very first scene, she’s smart. She’s not a fighter, she’s a strategist. She makes her chores easier for herself. She wins the game of Go on her way to meet the match maker. She figures out how she can protect her dad. She uses the weights to her advantage. She does trigonometry in her head on the fly. She comes up with the distraction and using the fireworks. And the epitome of it all, she uses the symbol of femininity in the movie, her fan, to outsmart Shan Yu and take his sword.

Tiana:

Can you believe I’ve heard people say Tiana isn’t feminist enough? Most people know how hardworking and practical she is, but she also learns a very important lesson that you’ll never be truly happy if you don’t let loose and have fun in reasonable amounts. She’s an amazing role model just as wonderful as everyone else in the line up and her morale is one of my favorites to try and live by. “Fairytales can come true, but you’ve gotta make them happen. It all depends on you.”

Rapunzel, Merida, Anna, Elsa, and Moana:

Honestly I feel like I don’t have to do much defending for these four. Everyone on this site has already pointed out what great feminist role models they are and many people regard them plus Tiana and Mulan as the “best” most feminist princesses. I love them all too, and of course they’re all great feminist role models, I just don’t think there’s much I could add.

Anyway, I think a /lot/ of other Disney ladies are also wonderful feminist role models but this was supposed to be just the princess lineup. and I might make separate posts for them. But if you’ll notice I didn’t take relationship status, style choices, hobby choices, sexuality headcannons, or appearance into account when talking about what great role models they are because you shouldn’t. Of course women and girls deserve more than just one type of girl to look up to, but one type of girl isn’t any better or worse than another. You can be hyper feminine like Cinderella, Not feminine at all like Merida, or a little bit of both like Mulan. You can be smart like Belle, or naive yet kind like Snow White. All of them are wonderful.

I’ll go ahead and leave you my favorite Disney feminist hero.

(she’s amazing. google her real quick)

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five-guns-days · 7 years

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✌, ☯, ღ, and ☂!!

✌ : Fondest role-play memory, between muses?

☂ : Spread some love: mention someone you’ve met that has influenced you or your writing in a positive way, and explain how.

Oooooh, that such a complicated question to reply to. I can’t answer with one. I will also enjoying this reply for answer another thing you send to me.

@americanparamedic : I need to expose a long time ago thread between your muse Mel and Five, when I was on the run to fresh out my muse concerning his timeline — and we have that thread when the inner conflicts of the Doctor blow out, about his feelings, about his distance compared to love — and how Mel decide to share the pain with him. I still keep it in memory. It was so…touching. And quite I might have still the reply lost in my drafts; I loved the oncoming date, and the conversation in a nice chalet for talk about things. By the way, all the threads with fluff between Bruce and Five make my day.

Where I begin? This is one of my longest partern who had saw my muse evolve, grow, until who he is basically; and we have dynamics of lovers muses having complicated issues to deal with. When the level of angst is sometimes too hard for each other, the best of fluff.

@tiimecrash: THEIR FIRST MEETING. I just love the cuteness of Five into that thread, who hadn’t planned to go into that shop and ended up to have the best moment of his life he decide ‘why not’ about taking her as companions. It’s angst as hell but the AU when Five die early for save Jamie (who got me to bring NPC Six) and the reality she had been forgotten appear, making them obligated to working that out for both, the new Doctor doesn’t understand why he care so much about Jamie for didn’t remember the moments together — and the implicit subplot Five will come as ‘the villain’. How Six and Jamie are cute together. How this event touched their travels. It had ruined my feels, it still ruin me — but everything is so beautiful about it. I’m also fond of the thread in the 40’s when Five expose how much he care for her and won’t lose her…

Basically: Jamie is the person who had influenced the most, in the better, the life of Five, to the point both muse/mun can’t imagine him without her. She is everything for her and it’s mutual, and we litteraly explore everything.

@smithjanesarah : the first thread we had finished recently, when you have in first meeting, a pissed Five who ended up to being a ass in the end with Davros by destroying some Daleks, blow up a entire ship, finished off a old enemy just because they try to kill him when his mood had turned angry to the goal of Davros — while try to be a nice chap.

Because I can't choose, because also all these threads bring many parts of my muse and explore lot of various things, whatever it’s emotional or temporal, here a list of shoutout of people when I’m in love with all the threads we had begin / already have : @ivory-rabbit, @couldyoudoit / @coolbcwties / @theidealiist / @tocmany ; @amaziingrace / @silentempress / @ladymacleish ; @thiefofnobility ; @knightedscientist / @verydoctory ; @fiiveroundsrapid : @batteredoptimist ; @sepulchrebound ; @timewastes & lot of you

☯ : Greatest challenge to writing your character?

ღ : What sorts of plots/characters/scenes do you have the most difficulty writing, and why?

The first time I received it, I had an idea about how to answer. It’s true in the sense I need to check out information when I face this problem but does it reflect the real challenge of my muse? No. Truthfully, I’m not a scientific person, and it’s is the nerd-domain of the Doctor, my threads being mostly emotional or historical related, it don’t appear much.

Nah. I have two real challenges with this muse.

First.

KEEPING HIS TRACK HIS EVOLUTION THOUGH THE CANON

I love the Fifth Doctor; this is no new knowledge for no one. It’s true, no deny here, that I have a deep affection for the later-season 21 Five (the last three serials, and how much Caves of Androzani hurt my heart and destroy me, I’m in love with every sass remark he have and basically the bravest soul he is) for how I had decided to step up my muse, and how I expose my love.

However, I don’t want to stick into one period. I want to explore overall Five, and let’s say it, overall the Doctor (that my second point) — that meant see the difference between the three seasons he have, how this optimistic, full of life Doctor ended up with heartbreak, disappointment, understatement about social connection for finished as the closed off, wise, sassy man in the end. That meant everything that had impacted of his past lifetimes, which are memories for him, are still here, can still bring consequences, can exposed the changed man he had become; with regrets, joy, moments of sadness, general impact during his life. That meant understand how his past companions had impacted his own personal travel, see the unsaid emotional evolution.

That is my challenge. Not only put Five correctly, but the soul of the Doctor directly.

Which lead to….

MY ADD ELEMENTS DEVELOP THE CANON AND STAY IN CANON

This is the challenge I have each time I answer a thread upon that blog.

When I first beginning writing Five and because I have no concrete idea about make his Timeline working out, the AU elements as the mafia, Rokkenjima or Featherine were mostly exposed, or even, the main thing, his forbidden memories about his future — within thinking, and because I love deeply Five and for reason of personal continuity of the TV/Big Finish I care a lot of, now these elements are mostly implicit develop in a subtle way.

These elements, altougth some can be considered as Out of Character because doesn’t seems to following the core of the Doctor, have a logic explanation about it, and are more 'general exploration’ than only let Five concerned — the goal of them is to explore the Doctor in general, with a objective point of view associated to the subjective, with lot of 'what if’ for explore emotionally, in all details, what the Doctor could think about his travels.

I wanted to do some explanations about it, for example, the no-omniscience of the Doctor despite his forbidden memories who had portrayed as negative and a curse for him — but I think I will only do it with a point expose the difficulty how challenging it’s is: Featherine.

Featherine, for what the Doctor expose of, sound only like one characteristic of himself: the anger towards the future, the anger towards the painful life filled of loss, the wish to fight that. True, it what happen when the muse show that part of 'himself’. It’s is portrayed as a villain (it is but it’s more complicated than that). However, it’s is more than just that. Featherine is also the paradox on itself: it’s because the past knew about the future he created it for the future, which mean, without the future, the past wouldn’t have think about it + for the future this name is a remind of the past, of who he is truly is and for the past that name can twisted him for ended up as angry as the future.

Featherine can also be another name for the Time Lord Victorious. Featherine can be also another name for the Other (in the meaning it’s is 'no human no Time Lord but something else’, I hadn’t arrested opinion for it’s up of the reader to decide). Featherine is a pre-seventh persona when he is into his chess master phase, with the manipulative behavior, the objective point of view, the consideration of take some events as a game and have lot of distance emotionally because it’s need to be done — Featherine is the name of the Fifth Doctor is question, inside his whole soul, for had been forgotten by his future self and be the only name they can remember with that face.

Knowing that this path of thoughts, both general and applied to Five, applies for every little detail I had added into the portrayal of his. How, another example, his 'mafia’ (aka humanitarian organization because it’s what it’s truly is), is a way to create Featherine in the sidelines, to test how Time react to his own actions and helped out his own Timeline without be known (that is the true meaning of the existence of this 'hobby’, whatever the others reasons my muse said) which served also a constant reminder for Five he is a healer.

Which is also the reason I find myself needed lot of time of think about what going on in the head of Five depending of the situation he is — when the struggle is mostly emotionally for write some scenes. I want it right. I want the emotions right. The feelings right. The word right. Because it’s all done in the intropesction, I need to got it for explain what he think.

Concerning scenes and plot difficult to write, and it’s going to be ironic: how angry Five can be and when his ‘Featherine’ part showing of. It isn’t really a problem of the portrayal on himself, I know here is a ass without mercy — but it’s emotionally I struggle for me because I’m aware it’s going to turn into a horrible angst who create lot of emotional damages. I don’t holding back my muse but on that special situation, I do.

It’s also hard for me to dealing with too much angst, or unplotted emotional angst for let my muse inside a confused state who will going to do mistakes and can do whatever he think at the moment for fix the situation and for the mun be a bit clueless about what going to do before Five explode / do a mistake he shouldn’t have done — that why I prefer horrible angst be plotted. Or if not plotted, at least, knowing everything will be fine. I have a real bad experience in my earlier years of roleplaying with IC drama, especially unplotted and out of the blue so I need a reassurance of a happy end.

#answered #after weeks of thinking about it #anonymous #long post

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levi-lev · 7 years

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Sans? Can monsters die of a broken heart? Is it possible for monsters to die of sadness? Emotions can either increase or decrease the production of important hormones such as adrenaline. Adrenaline has the effect of narrowing the main arteries, putting a person in a situation where they may die of heart failure. Humans can die of sadness and a broken heart. I just wanted to know about the monsters can die of sadness and a broken heart.

Damn, pal, ya really asked everyone on the fandom XD

My answer is no.

Because monsters have no heart.

Here me out buddy. Monsters are litteraly made of magic, hope and kindness. And so, the only way to hurt them is touching directly their souls.

So, first, monsters have no organes, no brain, no heart, no skeletons inside them, they are not biological, you see what i mean ? So a heart failure can not kill them in any way.

And no you don’t die of sadness, you die of an infarctus, it’s pretty diferent, it’s not a psychological phenomenon, and doesn’t have anything to do with a heart as a methaporical term for “center of the emotions”(that is your brain my dear)

So no. First, humans don’t die of being sad, they die of their body or brain malfunctions, or their own will to die.

Now about hurting the soul by the sadness. It is pretty clear in the game that what is keeping monster alive is hope. Or HP. so to kill a monster you have to destroy all their hope. So it isn’t sadness that could kill them but dispair.(despair ?)

And monster being what they are (like reaaaallly optimistic people, much more than human, like it’s been a thousand years we have been locked but hey, let’s smile and tomorow will be brighter, i mean, they litteraly are hope. So i think you can’t kill a monster unless you wish so much to kill them that you hurt them physically, which is how chara kills.

More, there are elements in the game :

Toriel, despite having lost her two beloved children does not die, even if she is “broken hearted” (as in “sad as hell”) because maybe she has hope to save other humans that may fall.

Sans, when someone kills papyrus does not die, because he hopes to kill you or to see you change your ways to come back on a pacifist.

And let’s talk about Alphys. she clearly has wanted to die really hard on some point in her life. And yet, to die, she had to hurt herself physically by falling in a waterfall. She could not just wait and be normaly depressed until her soul cracked.

So no, the souls can’t be broken by sadness.

But this is only my way of seing things, kiddo, and you can have your own headcanons, i love reading fics where sans is dying of depression and then papyrus or asgore or anyone saves him, or etc.

But hey, it’s not canon ;)

sorry for my poor english by the way.

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What are your favorite aer/ti moments?

Heyyaaa nonny!!!

Omg that’s quite something to ask thank you!! Hadn’t talked about my girls in a long while.

I’ll be honest i’m just recently back into the OG and the last time i got advanced enough in the game for a full answer is a few years ago so some scenes might escape me as we speak, especially since well, by virtue of being companions and sometimes scenes that are unlockable only if you bring them or not with you, some may have skipped my mind.

But man I love they so i’ll try to sort out some of my favorite moments that stood up to me.

In a way i can’t help but do them in order though because it really showcased how they went from strangers to friends very quickly.

.... i’ll put it under cut because i ended up rambling ahah

First it’s probably only my headcanons but i love how Aerith immediatly teases Cloud when she hears about Tifa for the first time and presses to know more about her. In itself, like i think the game wanted us to interpret, it can be just Aerith teasing Cloud and all- but when right after they see Tifa being taken to Wall Market and the way Aerith immediatly jumps “it’s Tifa? I’m going!” before Cloud even has a moment to say anything is glorious to me. No matter how you interpret the dynamic of those three it showed how eager Aerith was to get to know Tifa, and that’s something i find very sweet.

From that point on every Aerith’s “we need to focus to save Tifa” and stuff warms my heart. I mean she’s the one that comes up with plans in Wall Market to get to Tifa, and originally she wanted to go in the Mansion alone to help her. Pretty huge for a girl she has never met but Aerith is so eager it’s kinda sweet.

On more official moments, their meeting. Which have Tifa be at first kinda defensive while Aerith immediatly gets into friendly mode with her. Which i find even funnier because Aerith doesn’t bring up Cloud is with her for a bit, almost to keep dragging some time to get to know Tifa. There’s something about how cheerful Aerith is in that scene while Tifa remains puzzled by this stranger that I find oddly endearing. And, adding to it, how the moment Tifa exposed her plan (and once more, before Cloud said anything about helping the plan), Aerith immediatly jumped into trying to help her regardless of what Cloud was planning to do. And I love how Tifa put al her trust in Aerith in that moment: that she had never met her before but those exchanges and the way Aerith was with her so far made her trust her blindly.

This trust extended later in Sector 7 when Tifa trusts Aerith for Marlene, and this leads to one of my fav scene when Aerith had been kidnapped by Tseng and it’s Tifa who runs to the helicopter and extend her hand trying to reach Aerith. And while Aerith is in danger, her full concern is into reassuring Tifa over Marlene, cryptic and quick enough for Tseng not to catch up on it, but enough for an unspoken understanding to go with Tifa.

Following that are all the scenes from Aerith’s home to the Shinra’s building where Tifa keeps bringing up how to save Aerith. Now granted, so do Barrett and Cloud, and for good endearing reasons as well, but i find Tifa’s particuarly cute after her efforts to try to save Aerith’s earlier.

Now that’s for the big scenes that I played recently so can talk in details about how they made me feel ahah, but i just find all of those endearing. They warmed up to each other very quickly and leaned on each other, trusted each other, and I cannot help but read it as Aerith’s bubbling personality getting under Tifa’s walls. You’ll tell me, but Tifa is someone who is opened to contact, and yes indeed, to a point, but Aerith entered her life right at a moment where she was on her guards due to being surrounded by enemies, on a secret mission, yet she still managed to find her way through Tifa without even Cloud to have any impact on that matter. Like it could so easily have been Cloud pressing Tifa to give Aerith a chance or something, but instead the girls created their bonds on their own and even against Cloud sometimes.

And the fact Aerith entered Tifa’s life right before she lost a huge part of her life with Sector 7 going down, it became a bound worth protecting and something to be kinda alert about- Shinra had already taken everything Tifa loved, from her family to now her newfound family. She has Cloud, Barrett and Marlene remaining at this point - And Shinra was in the process of taking Aerith, after Aerith went out of her way to take care of something that mattered for Tifa.

Meanwhile for Aerith there is just something very sweet with her personality in general of being so eager to make friends, and she’s always gentle with everyone they met really, it’s just that her jumping to meet Tifa has more focus and it seems like she was so eager to befriend her above all else. Honestly i cannot read their scenes as anything else than “Oh no she’s cute.”

Okay so onto moving on on the points that are more blurry for me, Tifa and Aerith generally makes a very good team together in term of comments, they complement each other a lot. I think I recall if you don’t take either of them in the boat to the Costa Del Sol, you find the two of them discussing together at the beach and having fun, laughing at each other’s jokes. This sort of dynamic also expend in the Golden Saucer where they team up in a more cheery ways while the guys are kinda brooding. There’s something very sweet in their dynamic of always having some sidewords for each other, of having things to laugh about. Like, in their interraction, even as slight as just comenting on the situation at hand, it feels they are friends and they share how they view it, often even almost as a private joke between the two of them.

I wish I had more exemple after that but that’s where my memories mostly blackout. Up there i’d say it’s their general interraction that shows this complicity that is noteworthy rather than specific moments, so it’s hard to just point at a throwaway dialogue that i think would showcase their dynamic as a “moment” in a way?

So i’m gonna jump right next to the angsty bits with Aerith’s death if you have Tifa in your party and the way Tifa so gently cup Aerith’s face after her death before running away crying. There is so much raw emotions there for Tifa to express, and it’s so painful to see it in motion. Aerith’s death hurt everyone, but Tifa and her had been so close so far that it is so painful...

Which is even more accentued later when on the Highwind Tifa brings up that Aerith was the one who wanted to see the new world the most, that she was so eagger to live and explore it, and that she couldn’t and that it wasn’t fair. This scene I think is one of the most intense one for me even for all its unsaid. It implies the conversations Tifa and Aerith could have when the party couldn’t hear, that under all their banters, they have had deep conversations about the World and their goals and what they wanted. Aerith had shared a lot with Tifa- and Tifa lives with that memory. She laments that Aerith cannot see what she wanted, the cherish that world she wished Aerith could have seen. And there’s... something so heartbreaking about it to me.

Some more are in the movie alas, but two things: “Dilly Dally Shilly shally” that both Aerith and Tifa use in the movie, that implies again on some of those private jokes they may have had, of those ways their minds could connect and parallel each other. Ofc in the movie it’s especially to try to kick some sense into Cloud when he’s losing himself, but it’s extremely telling on the sort of dynamic Tifa and Aerith had that carries on after Aerith’s death in the way Tifa keeps using those words too. It showcases their connections to each other, of the impact they had on each other.

And finally, the “Somehow, I knew you were there, Thank you” when Tifa realizes Aerith had acted during the final act of the movie. That she looks up to the water we know had been spilled by Aerith, and that she smiles so softly thinking about Aerith being still by their side, being still there to help them, is... something that is litteraly making me cry right now as i recall it ahah. There’s just... something so soft in this unspoken support from Aerith and this trust Tifa put in her that extend far beyond death, and of how much Tifa had somewhat felt Aerith’s support still, that it can help her moving forward.

I’m aware this list bases a lot on interpretations of scenes and of the implications of the unsaid, but this is what i’m a sucker for ahah.

Everytime we see them interreact, there is nothing but joy, deep trust and bound. When they talk about each other, there’s this respect, this wonder, this intimacy that is visible by their borrowed vocabulary or their profound conversations. And all of this was shown to us by a few scenes of them interreacting showcasing their immediate eagerness to be friends and this unbreakable trust they put into each other up until the end.

If I was to pick ONE scene that i like above all though, it will be Tifa’s reching up for Aerith when she’s being kidnapped by Tseng. Just, to see Tifa run out to Aerith like this and desperately trying to help her, even before even knowing Marlene was safe, and yet how Aerith immediatly tried to reassure her on that.... it is a perfect exemple of how their connections happened quickly and how they ended up caring for each other to that point.

But ye basically that’s *waves at post* it. I’d probably have more exemple as i move on in my current playthrough, if not, my point still stands. I love the implications of their dynamic and the few we see just warms my heart.

But i’ll be crossing fingers for more interreaction in the remake ;O

I hope it seems like a good answer? ahah

Take care! :3

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By The Pulse Of A Heartbeat

Part six of a 2018 Camp NaNoWriMo Yu-Gi-Oh! GX Elementshipping novel. Based on rp’s between myself ( @getyouraoion ) and my amazing, precious Twin’s Jaden ( @kiibx ), By The Pulse Of A Heartbeat tells the story of how Aoi and Jaden met at Duel Academy and formed their incredibly tight friendship, eventually falling into a relationship, and how they handle the various threats thrown at them over their three years of schooling.

There are currently no triggers, but should any arise, they will be tagged.

STILL IN PROGRESS. Please forgive any typos you may find~

Tagging @starisia, as this wouldn’t exist without my wonderful Twin <3

Summary:

Duel Academy is the place to be, the dream school for many kids. Be it through intense studying, duel prep schools, scholarships, or being rich enough to buy their way in, most kids have had their sights set on it for a long time, knowing it to be the perfect place to start towards a career as a professional duelist. Someone has to Dethrone Yugi and take the title of King of Games, and everyone wants a shot!

Except that is, for Aoi Sakazaki.

Falling in love with Duel Monsters when her father bought her several cards in her childhood, she makes the choice to try her hand at the entrance exams, despite having no idea what she wants to do with her life… And just barely squeaks her way in. Her poor exams scores, combined with even poorer grades, land her a solid spot in the Academy’s Slifer Red dorm - The lowest of the low, where students are almost expected to drop out if they don’t advance to Ra Yellow or Obelisk Blue, first.

The rank comes with the rest of the school looking down on them, as well as the worst lodging the furthest distance from the main campus and fewest privileges compared to the other dorms. But it also brings a surprise friend in fellow Slifer student Jaden Yuki, who seems to have absolutely no problem with the hand they’ve been dealt.

It’s not long before Aoi and Jaden find themselves caught up in a whirlwind of an adventure, dealing with exams, classes, ‘evil’ teachers, and somehow still finding enough time to explore the island they now call home. But living on Academy Island isn’t all fun and games; shortly after their schooling begins, things around their home begin to change, and rarely for the better.

Neither friend has any idea what lies in wait for them in the next three years… But is it an adventure they’ll be able to tackle together, or will it end their time at the school - and them - before it’s even begun?

It’s time to put their skills where their mouths are and find out!

Or be miserably left behind in the dust, that was, her legs still sore when she ducked out of her room and made her way down the balcony the following afternoon. It hurt to even walk, though there was no way she was missing this meeting, only releasing her iron grip on the thick binder hugged to her chest to knock on the door at the end.

The previous day's race had brought them to a stretch of beach on the island's southeastern side, water crystal clear and waves far more gentle than what usually hit the rocky cliff behind the Red dorm. With just about everyone exhausted after their first half a week of classes, they'd had the beach mostly to themselves... And like a couple of kids, settled for building a sandcastle until Syrus had caught up.

Sandcastles, jumping around in the surf, checking out the surf shack, nudging each other into waves, crab catching... By the time night had fallen, they'd done it all, Aoi and Jaden dripping wet from impromptu 'swims' in front of a campfire while Syrus took to scolding them and reminding if they got sick from swimming in the middle of October, they were on their own!

But it was a dose of normalcy, of happiness, she'd needed since coming to the academy. It'd been impossible to get too close to her roommates, and there was no way she could talk to Chazz the way she did Jaden, either. Even Syrus she was still guarded towards, keeping a fair bit of distance between them at all times, though he didn't seem to mind despite it all.

Jaden... There was something about him that just seemed to make it all melt away. All the stress, all the worries, her defensiveness and desire to keep her distance – Around him, she couldn't help but laugh and relax. His enthusiasm and grin made the day brighter, for sure, and in a place so determined and full of competition as Duel Academy, it was a breath of fresh air she hadn't known she'd needed until it'd nearly mowed her down – Litteraly.

Even when he opened the door, she could feel the tension melting off her shoulders, tight grip on her binder loosening slightly at the sight of that grin. Whatever it was about him, she didn't want it to ever change.”I though y' would b' out today, honestly.”

Jaden chuckled, stepping aside to let her in. “Nah. I can't feel my legs.” Closing the door behind her, he crossed the room to drop into a desk chair, a hand burying itself in his hair for a gentle scratch. Her laughter wasn't enough to make his grin fade, though it did get him to look up as she came closer after kicking off her shoes, pulling out another chair and setting her binder down on his desk. “What?”

“I can't feel mine either,” she managed out between laughs, sinking into her seat far slower than he had. “Calves, mostly. Y' run t' fast.”

“Need to stay quick on my feet. Can't avoid friends and waves otherwise, y'know.” His eyes practically sparkled, the tease enough to get her to reach out and ever so gently push at his knee. Touching him of her own free will was still slow going; nudges and pushes had been as far as she'd gone, still wary of being too physical with him.

Still, it wouldn't stop her from taking out her deck and flipping open the binder she'd brought. “This is m' entire collection, mister speedyfeet. I'm n' good with homework an' m' grades're 'bout as good as yours, b' I try an' keep this organized th' best I can.” Her fingers ran over the clear plastic sheets, cards set into each of the nine slots. “Monsters, spells, traps. In that order.”

“And a page of charmers,” he pointed out, lifting several of the pages for a look at what lie beneath. “Wait... Is this all of them?! You've got them all?!”

Aoi laughed, flipping over the pages herself. “Mhm. M' charmers are m' favorite. All it takes is one little flip, an' y' can grab a monster off y' opponent's field n' problem. An' then once y' got that, y' tribute 'em both f' th' next form, th' familiar-possesed charmers. They work out a lot better then.”

“Mm, still level fours.” Placing a finger one a copy of Raging Eria, he reached over for the deck set down nearby with his other hand, spreading it out on the desk and nudging out both Eria the Water Charmer and Familiar-Possesed Eria. “See? You don't need the tribute.”

She laid a hand over his, gently guiding the pointing finger to Familiar-Possesed Aussa, letting it rest over the effect text there. “Look again. I don't need it, n', b' doin' it that way? There's extra damage t' b' dealt. Th' tribute grants them piercing damage. An' with an 1850 attack... Could d' some good damage.”

He nodded, glancing between the binder and spread out deck. Though he was still smiling, the look in his eyes had changed; he was more serious, focused, so much unlike the boy she saw in class. As if there was something that just clicked mentally whenever he looked at their cards. “I've never seen 'em myself, but I've heard of the charmers. Attack's good... Your favorites?”

“They are. See-” She paused, the hand still holding his lifting so she could flip the page, “they have three forms, matchin' traps, an' three of 'em have familiars t' match their second form: Jigabyte, Inari Fire, an'...” A groan. “Nefarious Archfiend Eater of Nefariousness.”

The returned laughter brought her grin back. It wasn't her fault Aussa had a weirdly named familiar! “That's why they're all here. Er.. Except f' Eria. She's m' favorite above 'em all.”

“Then we keep Eria.” The moment she released his hand, he set about sliding several other charmers free, pushing them and the water magician up higher on the desk. “Here- It's your deck. What do ya wanna save from this one?”

“Eria... An' this...”

“You sure? What about this one?”

“Mmm... Nah, that one. N' Jigabyte, either. I have an idea. What about this one? Think it could work?”

“Pfft- It could- You've got a better idea going now, huh?”

“Yep- All 'cause y' pointed it out.”

An idea, that was, that would take them both the majority of the afternoon to execute. The sun had begun to set by the time Aoi leaned back in her chair, hugging her new deck to her chest; why hadn't they done this sooner?! “It's perfect! Ah, Jay, y' th' best f' this!”

Both teens paused, sharing a surprised glance. Had.. She just called him Jay? The hours hadn't been just deck talk either, jokes and vague stories of their pasts worked in between cards. He knew her father worked for the power company back home and had bought her Eria, and she knew he'd spent a lot of time dueling with the neighborhood kids in his hometown... And with little, smaller tidbits added in, it'd clearly led to... What, exactly?

Jaden's lips spread into a slow forming but broad grin first. “Hey, no worries- It's a cool nickname! But y'know what would be even cooler?”

“I'm gonna read y' mind an' say a duel.” She laughed, flipping the cover of her binder closed. “Depends. What time is it? 'cause I'm getting' hungry an' Professor Banner's cookin' is amazin'. M' stomach beats out a duel any day.”

As her deck found its way to her lap, his PDA came up from the pouch on his belt, the hem of his shirt tugged aside enough that she could see it. Her own was usually shoved in her pocket; maybe the school's store would have something similar? A holder would certainly come in handy rather than sitting on it every day! “...Six-thirty. Could probably get one in – Though I'm with you! Never miss a meal around here!”

“Tell m' 'bout it.” The tease was soft and gentle, widening her own smile at the sight of his nonchalant shrug. “What can I say, I'm a growing boy-”

“Y' got th' same endless stomach I d' is what y' are.”

“Heeey, no fair-”

“Wanna get back at m'? Get y' duel disk an' let's g'! I jus' gotta grab mine from m' room- Meet y' b' th' stairs?”

“Deal.”

All but bouncing out of her chair, Aoi sipped her deck back into it's case; while it wouldn't stay there for long, it was better than accidentally dropping it while she tugged her boots on, making it a point to do so while leaning against the wall by the sink. The angle gave her a chance to watch him prepare, too, shrugging out of his uniform jacket and tying it around his waist. She'd never seen him without the blazer before...

Making sure the colored tongues of her shoes were straight, she stuck her tongue out at him and ducked out the door. She could always go back for her binder later, but for now she needed to get past her roommates and ignore the challenge called out by her friend for teasing him. She'd already agreed, what was the point of a formal challenge, anyway? If she'd agreed, it wasn't needed – Except for the dramatics of it, which she was quickly learning came easily in their newfound friendship.

Thankfully, it took all of three seconds to sneak past Kassidy and Mia and grab her duel disk from beside the sink before she was out again, sliding the device onto her arm. The familiar feeling of the wide metal band slowly tightening around her arm was almost comforting, relaxing; why was it just the idea of a duel of late eased a lot of tension? Taking her deck from the case and sliding it into the disk's slot ranked up there with it, the click of the band settling into place and deck held tight in the device's grip bringing a smile to her lips.

“Having fun without me?” Jaden questioned, stepping out of his room with a quick tug to close the creaky door behind him. Blazer still tied around his waist, he'd donned his own disk, deck already set and a wide grin on his lips. If she didn't know better, she'd think him a three year old on his way to the candy store, not a 15 year old headed out to duel!

She waited until he'd joined her to turn, the pair making their way down the balcony together. It was amazing how much more comfortable it was to have someone to talk to! “N' way. Y'know... Nothin' on this island's as fun as y' make it. Y' even made a walk t' th' beach fun.”

He bowed his head with a broad grin, gesturing to let her down the stairs first, to which she bowed in return with a laugh. “You've never had fun at the beach before? C'mon, Aoi, you make it sound like nothing's fun here!”

“It's n'. All th' studyin' an' th' homework... I fell asleep on that Spell Theories paper we had t' write. Pretty sure drool doesn't count as a theory.”

“...We had a paper?”

“Jaden!”

His grin faded into a sheepish smile, then a laugh shared between them, honey meeting green-blue. Settling his hands behind his head, he took up the lead, guiding her down the slope towards the cliff bellow. The red dorm had the fewest privileges of all the dorms, students even looked down on to the point of being expected to drop out, yet they had the best place to duel – a small, rocky bit of cliff the waves constantly crashed against, and this afternoon was no different.

“Gotta admit, this view's the best on the island,” Jaden blurted after a few moments, stopping by the line of large rocks making up a bit of a barrier on the cliff's edge. The breeze ruffled his hair, hands finally coming out from behind his head, smile falling to one of contentment and peace. “'Specially from our dorm. Yellow and blue don't get anything like this, I bet.”

Aoi sighed, biting the tip of her tongue right after. There it was, the reason he kept dragging people in; his boyish charm and optimism knew absolutely no bounds, the desire to see others happy and smiling as wide as he did harder to stop than a cockroach. He could bring in even the coldest, hardest soul and make them smile, of that she had no doubt... And she now suspected that smile had caught her a month earlier, when she'd first seen him at the exams.

“I wouldn't doubt it. They're nowhere near th' sea like we are – I mean, blue's got th' lake, right? They... would... Jay?” Just mention of the lake had turned his sunkissed cheeks a pale shade of red, stance shifting to reflect his sudden sheepishness. What in the world could've been wrong with mentioning the lake? It wasn't that far away and- Oh, for goodness sake, it was a lake! “Y' got issues with th' lake? I know y' can swim, s' what's wrong?”

All he did was shake his head, pressing his lips tightly together. The gesture was enough to make her laugh, but not eliminate her concern; what could've happened between him and the lake that would result in this? Everyone on the island already knew how he'd happily tell a story if it meant getting a smile or helping someone out, but this was a little on the ridiculous side, wasn't it?

A second later, he turned to face her, arm raised to show off his duel disk. “It's nothin', I promise. We came out here for a duel, right? Time to get your game on, Aoi!”

“M' game's always on, Jay, jus' y' wait!” A quick movement of her arm to match his activated both duel disks, the electronics starting up enough to get her even more excited than she had been before. Several large steps put a decent amount of space between them, fingers all too used to the routine quickly drawing their starting hands, plus an extra for the barely quicker raven. “Ladies first- M' draw!”

This was already going to be easier said than done, and she knew it. She'd at least drawn a monster she wanted in her first go, but the rest wasn't quite as helpful... Pulling a card from her hand, she set it down on the disk, grinning at the charmer that appeared. “Aussa th' Earth Charmer, in attack mode! An' I'll set a face down,” a pause, sliding another card into the spell and trap zone, the hologram of the set card appearing between her and the brunette monster, “an' it's y' g', Jay!”

Aussa's 500 attack wouldn't get her too far, a thought that hit her harder than an 18-wheeler once her friend grinned at his hand. She knew his deck; full of elemental heroes, it was a challenge to anyone who faced it, with him being currently unbeaten on the island. Just like she knew he'd get rid of her face down – a tactic confirmed a second later when he held out a spell to show her before sliding it into his disk, the larger hologram easier to see.

“Mystical Space Typhoon destroys your face down! I helped you build that, I'm not risking it!” His chuckle was the only thing she could hear over the winds, sharp gusts forcing her arms up to shield herself and cutting through her set spell. That wasn't good... Book of Taiyou's effect would've needed some specific timing, but she'd hoped to protect Aussa by using it to flip his monster face down. Without it, she was defenseless, waiting for the gusts to ease before removing the card and sliding it into her disk's graveyard, with Jaden following suit a second later.

And he wasn't done, either, slapping a monster down before she could even try to guess what he held. “Elemental Hero Burstinatrix! Sorry, but I've gotta take down that charmer of yours – Attack Aussa with Flare Storm!”

She barely had a chance to shield herself from the heroine's flames, focusing instead on the life point counter on her disk ticking down. The drop to 3300 was one she could easily say she'd expected, mumbling an apology to Aussa while sending her card to the grave. It was still a new deck, one she was still learning, and things like that were going to happen, especially against the top duelist of the Slifer Red dorm. “Y' n' gonna get away with that one!”

Still completely at ease, her friend shrugged his shoulders, practically beaming. “Then c'mon, it's your draw! Show me what you've got!”

Why was he so bright and happy? Just like when they'd been building her deck, the spark in his eyes was less 'Slifer Slacker' and slightly more serious, focused – and overall like a kid with a brand new bunch of balloons. She couldn't say it wasn't cute, either, his clear excitement putting her at ease with her next draw. “Y' got it! I hope y' ready f' this one!”

Her eyes widened a fracture at the sight of her drawn card; if he wanted to see her best, he was about to get it! “I'm settin' two cards and throwin' down a monster in defense mode. Y' might have helped m' build this, b' I don't think y' gonna guess what I have in store f' y'!”

“Why would I want to?” He paused, two fingers set on his deck. “This duel's a blast! If I knew what was coming it wouldn't be any fun!”

“...Y' th' biggest dork I know.”

“I'm gonna take that as a compliment-”

“It was one, s' good.”

Any confusion he'd shown melted away with his draw. His stance shifted just slightly, showing more confidence than before, though she wasn't quite sure how that was even possible – Either he'd drawn something good or he was bluffing to throw her off... And worse, she was ready to believe a bluff that good!

“I'll throw down a face down myself, and summon Elemental Hero Avian!” The winds whipped up again with the hero's appearance on the field, but it was the face down card that appeared seconds before him that had her attention. For all she knew it was Polymerazation, though if it was, wouldn't he have used it already? To be fair, with a spell and trap left in her hand, she should've played her own, and.. Hmm...

So lost in her thoughts, she nearly missed the movement of his arm, a dramatic sweep to point at her face down monster. “Go, Brustinatrix! Attack that face down!”

In return, she lifted her own, one of her cards raising with it to reveal her trap. “An' I'm activatin' Unpossessed in return! On top that...” Aoi grinned; he'd fallen into her trap, the hologram of her monster flipping in reply to Burtinatrix's attack and bringing with it another charmer, hiding behind her staff and deflecting the fire thrown at her. It couldn't have worked out any more perfect! “Meet Hiita th' Fire Charmer! Her 1500 defense beats out Burstinatix's 1200 attack, s' y' get 300 damage from it!”

It wasn't the grand attack she'd wanted to, but there was something about seeing him take the hit that did wonders for her confidence. She'd actually dealt damage to their dorm's ace – and it she had her way, it wasn't the only damage he'd take, either! “An' that's n' all, Jay – Flippin' Hiita activates her effect! She grabs Burstinatrix from y' field and brings her over t' mine!”

Even with the distance between them, she could tell his eyes were on her rather than Hiita's grin, or Burstinatrix switching sides, slowly floating down to a stop beside the spellcaster. That feeling of being watched sent a shiver down her spine, but... Were his lips moving? Was he talking to himself? They were the only ones there - “My turn's over, then. That's a pretty good move there.”

“Thanks. Y' b' amazed what y' learn from listenin' t' y' friend durin' deck buildin'.” Whatever that had been, she wasn't going to question it, drawing her next card... And bursting out into laughter right after. “Remember when I first got t' y' room? An' I had t' tell y' 'bout th' charmers?”

His expression fell, shoulders sagging some. “You didn't-”

“I did! I'm tributin' Burstinatrix an' Hiita t' special summon her more powerful form, Familiar-Possesed Hiita! An' t' top that off, I'm activatin' m' other face down, Brain Control! This lets m' take y' Avian, t', f' this turn only!” With the continued slumping of her friend's shoulders, Burtinatrix faded from the field, leaving behind a rush of flames to consume the charmer. By the time Avian had switched sides, the fire had rolled away to reveal the far more powerful Hiita, twirling her staff around as an entrance. The perfect entrance, in her opinion, stifling a giggle with a lightly closed fist at his clear pout.

Like before, he was back to grinning and confident in no more than a heartbeat. “Attack?”

“Attack, definitely! Hiita, Inferno Rage! An' Avian, follow it up!” But this time, the attack was less satisfying, even if it did still give another confidence boost. Watching him shield himself from Avian's quills was one thing, but Hiita never held anything back, launching an oversized ball of fire at him. The connection forced him down to one knee, rubbing at the chest where the brunt of it hit in a reminder that though they were just holograms, the technology had advanced enough since the days of the Battle City tournament years ago, now coming just solid enough for the duelists to feel some of the damage they took.

And it didn't matter if Jaden was her opponent for the time being, he was still her friend. Hurting him was the last thing she wanted to do, concern hitting her hard at the sight of his shoulders trembling. “Hey- Y' okay? Didn't t' hard, did it?”

With the end of her turn, Avian returned to his side of the field, bringing with him the faint sound of laughter. Well, that explained the shaking shoulders... “I'm fine! Didn't expect that- This duel just got a lot more fun!”

Nuts. The kid was nuts.

His next draw had her shaking her head, more than amused; was there anything that could bring down the energetic boy before her? Even down to 850 life points compared to her 3300, he didn't seem fazed in the least-

“Now you're gonna meet one of my best heroes! I'm activating Polymerazation, fusing the Sparkman and Clayman in my hand!”

Though that could be why, Aoi realized, turning her attention from the brunette to the clouds and thunder rolling in above them. If that wasn't enough to make her nervous, the giant that descended from the storm was, the sparks coming off his hands and body the perfect match for Jaden's brilliant smile. “Aoi, meet Elemental Hero Thunder Giant! Hiita, too- 'Cause when he's summoned, his effect activates! It destroys one monster on the field whose original attack points are lower than his! Thunder Giant, blow Hiita away with Static Blast!”

“Kindda good thing I'm n' afraid of thunderstorms, huh?” Enough so that she only flinched with the loss of Hiita, Thunder Giant's electricity zapping the spellcaster like a lightning bolt in the midst of a real storm. “B' y' forgot 'bout m' trap!”

“What about it?”

“B' destroyin' one of m' monsters, once per turn I can replace 'em with a spellcaster from m' deck, s' long as it's of a different attribute an' has 1500 or less defense! An' since all I can d' is play defensively, I'm gonna summon out Gemini Elf in defense!”

As if on command, the requested card popped out from her deck, letting her switch Hiita for her replacement. The twins weren't exactly the sight she wanted to see, but at least they were a shield between herself and Thunder Giant-

“Avian, attack Gemini Elf! Thunder Giant's Voltic Thunder's coming right for ya, next!”

Not for long, anyway, her elf gone mere seconds before the lightning followed. That she could do without in the future, the attack reminding her just how hard the monsters could actually hit – and how realistic it could feel in some cases, knocking the wind from her and leaving her knees trembling. It was a reaction that passed rather quickly, but it was still frustrating none the less, especially knowing it'd dropped her down to 900, just 50 points higher than Jaden.

Pulling another card from her deck, she barely gave it a glance before throwing it down on her disk, following it up with another spell. “Last ditch effort- I'm summonin' m' favorite, Familiar-Possesed Eria! An' with her is Magician's Right Hand- as long as this's in play an' I have a spellcaster on m' field, y' can't use spells! Eria, attack Avian!”

“Sorry, can't let you! My face down activates- Hero Barrier!”

How had she forgotten about that? Eria's wave formed from the tip of her staff, spreading and growing as it raced across the field, just to disperse on hitting the barrier protecting Avian. She'd been banking on his face down being a spell, not something that could protect his heroes from attack. And as long as she only had her one monster, she couldn't even try again, waving a hand to Jaden with a slight bow. “Then it's y' move. An' speakin' of moves, that was a good one.”

“Thanks, I try.”

Their shared laugh at least made things even better, her eyes drifting closed. “'M sorry, Eria. I kindda failed y' this time.” And it meant she didn't have to see Thunder Giant destroying her favorite monster on his duelist's call, or watch Avian follow it with his attack, though not knowing when the quills would hit made the sting that much worse. Letting the pain roll off as fast as it'd hit, Aoi sunk to the ground, sighing softly and turning her gaze back up to her companion just in time to see him point with two fingers and grin, lips parting for the now familiar call of “That's game~!”

Slowly, her duel disk deactivated, the cards sitting in the graveyard ejected and carefully removed before the disk itself returned to standby mode. A loss was to be expected when testing a new deck, sure, but... A loss was still, and always would be, a bummer.

“You okay? Here.”

Jaden's voice pulled her attention away from her deck, cards returned to it, just to stare at his by now familiar red boots. Green-blue followed the curve of them to his jeans, then further up to his wast, stomach, chest... And finally the warm smile he wore, hand extended to help her up. “That was a seriously sweet match! We've gotta do that again!”

This time, placing her hand in his lacked the usual awkwardness she normally felt, replacing itself with warmth. Warmth from a friend, from his smile, the easy and careful way he helped her up, having an opponent who respected her, knowing he meant every word of his praise – she couldn't find the source of it, but it was by far nicer than the wariness she'd always felt around others. “Y' want a rematch? M' charmers're n' match f' y' heroes, y'know.”

“You kidding? I thought you had me with Hiita! I just got lucky with Polymerazation-” He paused, his stomach growling just loud enough to interrupt him and make her fight to hold back laughter. “Maybe we can get that rematch after dinner.”

“I'd say y' thinkin' with y' stomach, b' t' b' honest, I am t'. Dueling really makes y' hungry, huh?” She gave his hand a little tug before releasing it, turning for the slope they'd taken earlier. As adorable as his pale pink tinted cheeks were, she didn't feel the need to comment on it, especially not when they were both clearly starving! “C'mon. Let's get some food in y'.”

In a heartbeat, the brunette was right beside her, sniffing at the air. Gods above, did he ever remind her of a puppy sometimes! “I think I smell soy sauce- And fish! There's always fish! Er.. No wait, it's pineapple- ...Peas?”

“...Fried rice?”

“Nah. Banner's specialty is fish. I think.”

“Right now I'd probably eat a horse.”

“Not alone you're not! I'm hungry too!”

“An' y' sniffin' th' air like a dog! I can tell y' are!”

Jaden laughed, nudging her side with an elbow. “Pigs don't do that?” he teased, running ahead to avoid the playful swat she aimed at his head. “Gotta try harder than that! C'mon, Aoi, we've gotta get our dinner on!”

She shook her head, pace picking up to a jog. He had a point, and dinner did smell good, so... “What're we bein' s' slow f'? Dinner waits f' n' puppy!”

#By The Pulse Of A Heartbeat #starisia #kiibx #blackthvnder #elementshipping #Part Six #I don't like writing out duels #They're too long and difficult to make interesting #But a longish part with one regardless!#And a bunch of cute dork friends #Because Aoi and Jay are adorkable seriously <3

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ihatelifeandithatesme · 7 years

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A quick summary of my 16 years of life Untill 4 grade i was a "normal" child.i had friend and such.i was really joyfull to the point of weirdness.but in 5 grade i switched school for the first time It was a really bad school.i was constantly asaulted by kids between twice smaller and bigger than me.i wasn't used to anythinf like this.i was constantly crying and my mum was picking me up from school I was not as joyfull anymore but i kept my weirdness leading to me being uterly alone One day it clicked me And the next time the same bully tried harassing me i went ballistic and decked the fucker down I started getting used to this.i got friends I only fought for my and my friends protection I however did not establish a deep bond with the 3 closest people to me When i moved in 6 grade they cried for me I did too but deep inside I didn't care.i wasnr atached I however had let my hair grow long because i saw a boy with long hair and i liked it(i am aswell a boy) I got alot of harasmenr in 6 grade for my looks but got through 7 and 8 grade i was Yet again i. A new school.a private school This is a important moment as the friends i got here were the most permanent Both years i was generally a really friendly kid .more than half of all the classes were my friends.my class being really close to me.i however increased my weirdness and unpredictable charactwr in the sort od randomly slapping my friends Being energetic I was a medium height kid but really thin.i didn't enjoy fighting when it ocured but i didn't back down due to my ego.i did however earn some reputation as insane because i went batshit if someone hit me My friends all relied on me for emotional help and life advice and i was vakked a professional psychologist by many I am actually not full of self esteem but i always act like it.i laugh easily and am hard to offend Fast forwars to now 9 grade I moved again to another school All my friends missed me I just regreted not having as many people to talk to but didn't really feel attachment.just lack of entertainment In my new school I overdosed coffee on my first day and made the worst impression evver.still i cant get the ckass to like me.just because it is good for my intentions.not because i want them.more later I had All my life Dealt with a really shity environment My parrenrs fought and broke up 8 times just untill i was 7.i lost count after that.i was abused alot.i never felt anyone close to me I never shared as i didnt get through the problen easier no matter who helped What i felt was rhw definition of depression But i enjoyed ir I was independent from people and frienda Even if hell rose id still stand alone I felt good But 9 grade changed alot for me First off I was instantly a attraction amongst girls as i had grown to be 6'1.i had long slightly curly black hair which was the most liked thing in that school for some reason and i had started having a pretty decent physique due to working out And a lot of girls wenr for me My old friends told me to go for it But i didn't feel atractes to any of them Like.some were a perfect 10.but thats it.they might be pretty or sexy and even have a great personality But i wasn't atractes to girls I wasn't atractes to anyone really I didn't feel any affection of any sort except loyalty towards old friends and those who proved themselves But then i met a girl Lets call her. A She was extremely smart(i always liked smart people as they were more fun to play mind games with as they returned fire.in a friendly way ofc) She was really funny We were friends But she had something in her noone else had She was what i dreamth of in 7 grade The definition of soulmate We were the same She hugged me.i was unused to it She had a boy friend and i knew Bur she slowly started to like me I did aswell Which was new I had liked before.but this was different I actually felr her dear and important for me I cannot stress how much i lived for our chat and meetings After we started huging I burnt for hugging her I was entrapped We both confesed liking each other She kisses me once and then left as she was in ahurry I was shoked However si e days later i had a dream It was me and i.i told myself that i am weak I know how this will end.as does eveyrthing in life I yelled at myself that she is different Me.or what looked like mr said that she is a weakness to me i cannot afford I woke uo. But i knew that was true I sensed how ataches i had grown to her How much i cared But deep down i felt reality I told her i want it to end as i felt i was weak But she cried.it tore me inside I gave in We wenr on We were getting really close She started makinf out with me when we were alone I must stress rhat i NEVER initiated anything with her.she texted first and ended last She was going to break up with her bf for me On her initiative as well However A inside conflict apeared And i as always dealt with it alone for 2 weeks.i was detached from everyone in The meanwhile. When i finished however She was different And then she told me She taught i had sropped loving her(she was legit i was a total shit these 2 weeks) And her bf was over he startes making our and well They had sex She said she didn't want it but did enjoy it I broke down I was o. The verge of suicide for days Ihe came to pick her up and told me hi(we were friends) and because i always caries a knife for practical reasons Almost stabbed him I wanted to tell her i wanted it all to end but didnr know how to not hurt her One day i did She just took it and said she wanted as well I was slightly to say.shocked She just left me and wanted to leave I got worse Days later I realised i can't live without her I pleaded foe us to get back Quick story We did.it was all good She was however keeping her bf close As she was me We were getttinf closer Words of us havinf sex were excahnges I was really shy so ir was more of a "I wanr you inside me" She was legitly feeling me that way I was at a sleep over bur we didn't do shit.i was barely brave enough to fall asleep with my pants.we slept in one bed I was supposed to go again in april Ahw was enthusiastix enough and talkes about"that" enough to know what she was gonna do then However 2 weeks prior to April She started acting weird Whrn i kissed her she pushed me away and said she was Getting too horny or didn't wanr ir in public so noone can see us Howvwr2 i felt somethi f was off Day comes I wake up past the time i was supposed to go to hwr place I panic but no messages or calls In the eveninf she texts if i am angty at her for anythinf I loose it I learned fro. A source she incited her bf over and he slept there Guess what fucki f has happened.. I just loose it and break her off She again.says she acted that way because she wanted me to leave her so she didn't have to leave me and wanted to be friends I was however back in my old.psycho self 0 feelings except fucking hate I say i will anihilate her Shit goes on Fast forward I do t anihilate her as the last part of the loving me saves her.i could litteraly ruin her life. We started acrinf friendlier.i was uninterested i a. Friendship with her but she wantes it.we wenr our wirh a group Her eyes were always at me She wanted me to hug her but i always cut her off Fast forwars to abparty She gets drunk Confessed she still loves me it was all a mistake she cut me off becauae she felt like it was wrong I decide id give her a chance but risk no more I tell her to leave her bf She does so.he however thinjs she is just too drunk We decide to do it togheder the next day We dont.she says she doesn't want him. To be hurt and needa time alteadr two weeks to cut him off oai lesly I comply Later she wanrs a month I comply Then she wants 3 months I cut her off as it is getti f out of hand She was keepi f us both and was delaying f the inevitable She cries and goes suicidal I comforr her as best as i can.she is shocked how normal i acted when she told me the worst shit I gave her 3 months just so However i noticed she wasnt doing any damage to him.she was just enjoying havi g us both at the same time again.i get agitated I preasure her to do it She says that she nevwr said she was goi f to do it and she wantes 3 months to decide notbto do it I comfirm my fears.i say to her Now or never.me or him fuckig choose stop bei g a whore and stop playing She tries manipulatinf me sayi g that she wo t be with someone as psycho as me I say so beit You lied to me for the third time Thirds strike You are out This time you will hold your fucking words I say i will tell her bf(from now on Y) About eberything without savi f the details Unless she told him first I forced hwr to tell Y everythinf I laughed because she herself fucked it all up Fast forwards Y forgives wvwryrhinf becauae he is mad in love However A tried to hide that she still has him Says she is now single and feels lonely She wanrs2 ro get nack with me but wont say it Ive been betrayed too many times Burned by thw samw fire too many times She lost before she started What fuels me now is not fear of death or kust general curiosuty towarda life Ir2 is pure hatred towarda all that oposed me And i sweari in God and the Devil i will anihilate her and everythi f she loves for what she did to me.to Y and what she keeps on tryinf to do I was the perfect angel for her and now it is time to raise hell on fucking earth

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automatismoateo · 7 years

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I just told my parents that I'm not a muslim and it was my worst decision ever. via /r/atheism

Submitted March 18, 2017 at 01:36PM by BaselNoeman (Via reddit http://ift.tt/2nyg7t0) I just told my parents that I'm not a muslim and it was my worst decision ever.

I'm a 19 year old Egyptian guy living in the Netherlands, I've been raised a muslim, but all hell broke loose when I told my parents last night that I am in fact a non-believer. I am an open person respecting all people who make the choice to pursue their faiths, but boy would I lie to y'all if I told you I don't hate religion with a burning passion. It destroyed my life and it seems like it will keep on destroying the rest of my life

I've started to realise I might not have been a religious person by the time I was 12 and started lying to my parents about whether I would have prayed or not. While fasting I would sneakily eat some snacks when my parents were not watching and everytime they told me to read a little of the Quran I would act like I did and play video games in my room. I've always hated the rules and traditions of this religion and the moment I realised that I was living a lie (even though I was young) was the moment I started to realise that I am not a muslim. In fact I didn't believe jack about the things I've learned about this religion. The things I read in the Quran, the things my whole family have been feeding me, the things my Imams said to me, the things they were saying on television...

I knew this was a secret and I just had to take this secret to my grave, but it got harder to keep it a secret as I grew older. I must have been 15/16 when I really started to become a teenager. I got into smoking weed, I started having sex with my girlfriend and the time and I would drink alcohol from time to time. These were the things that I truly enjoyed, I didnt care about the fact that my parents would ever be okay with that, I am a man that just does whatever he pleases and no one can restrict me. As time passed by my parents started to realise that I am not that holy. From time to time they would find things like lighters, rolling papers, condoms etc in my room and I always just took a scolding followed up by some promises that I would never do it again. But this week I got caught with the worst of all things. A bottle of whiskey. God that was so dumb to even bring into my house but all right they found it, I knew they found it because it wasnt in the place I hid it in. Along the whiskey was a little joint and a condom.

Yesterday I heard my parents arguing about me and shortly after that my father wanted to take me for a drive. I got in the car and my father brought me to the mosque and we'd start praying (me pretending to pray of course) and after that at 9 PM he brought me to his store a few miles away to have a talk with me. The whole 30 minutes drive was awkward as fuck and we didnt say shit to each other, I just knew I was fucked. We went to this room and he told me to wait. I waited for what seemed like forever and eventually my dad came to me with a box. He emptied te box on the table and the box contained all the "bad" things they found. Condoms, rolling papers, that stupid bottle of whisky and many more things. That was the moment I knew I just had to tell him. I've been living a lie all my life and I dont want the lies to eat me up. "Why is my son like this" he asked. He started pointing at a joint "Of course you would tell me that this is from one friend" and then he pointed to the bottle of whiskey saying "and that one over there is from your other friend. But I know it is a lie. Your mother wants to believe it but I simply can't. Tell me... why is my son like this".

I told him the reason why it didnt matter to me that I did bad "bad things". I started telling him everything, about how I am not religious and I don't believe in god, never did. How I just always acted like I did in order not to break the hearts of my parents. I told him there was no saving me and I stood by my choice, I no one will make me believe in a god, its just the way I was. He was shocked, he asked me "and what now...". To which I replied "well of course having said that, I know you will never accept this. Thats why I kept it a secret all my life and I see no other choice than us to part ways since no atheist could be living in the house of a religious family". He said that I took the words out of his mouth. But it was stupid, I am stupid. I just thought this was a way of freeing some load, but it was way worse than that and I realised that as the discussion proceeded with my dad. I am stupid because I have no back up plan, and I never did think of a back up plan. I recently became un employed, college is not going wel and I have 300 euros saved up. Enough to bring me exactly no where. Anyway back to the story, after I told him everything he told me that he was a failure as a dad and that I am his failure, he said to me that he will tell everyone in the future that he has just 3 kids instead of 4. And I accepted all that, I always kinda hated my father anyway. However that was not it... I had to tell my mother and brothers. 30 minutes went by, we were back home and my father just gathered everyone around a table and told me to tell everyone my little secret. I told them...

The talk I had with my father was mild, he kept saying mean things to me but I didnt care. But as soon as I told my family, lets just say they reacted bad, really really bad. I could shoot myself in the head and they probably wouldnt have cried as much. My oldest brother, the one I talk to once every month even though we share a room, just went to our room and started crying and destroying stuff. My mother was devestaded, I tried to calm her down but she didnt want me to touch her. My sweet mother, the mother that has been so loving to me. That was the first time I saw her look of disgust. She hates me now. She told me that she will not leave me, that she will bring me to Mecca and bring me to the best imams in the world and all that stuff, but I just told her that that wouldn't work out. My father just brought me family pictures and a scissor and told me to start cutting. They all hate me, I brought sadness to this family and it will take a long time to heal. My parents gave me an ultimatum and I have till tonight to decide. Either I try to get religious or I can never show my face again. I will never be able to call my mom asking her how she's been, and I will never be able to see my brothers again. One of the 4 being my best friend but he has down syndrome so it will be hard to keep touch with him. I just regret my choice to come clean, I really do... I whish I could have taken this secret to my grave. Yesterday was litteraly my worst day ever. I just dont know what to do, I cant make this choice, fuck this choice. But I know one thing, I hate religion for what it did to me. And it may seem edgy but I just want to type it out: fuck religion fuck islam fuck every brain washing fairy tale fuck

I am very not okay at the moment but I just wanted to share my story and it felt good to type it out. English is not my native language so I am really sorry if I hurt your brains.

#reddit

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