#this was supposed to come out months ago

[luimagines]

To Cope

Another commission!

They asked for platonic Time, helping/consoling Reader after the death of a loved one.

Masterlist

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It was hard to explain.

The pain… The pain was enough to shut you down. It was raw. It was deep and primal. It cuts you to the core. It knocks you off your feet. You felt like you were falling even if your feet were still planted on solid ground.

You felt sick. Nauseous.

Tears pricked at your eyes before you could fully control yourself. You counted yourself lucky that there was no one else around you at the moment because if someone saw you, they would ask questions. And you would have to answer. And if you answer, you don’t think you would be able to hold yourself together for as long as you’ve been managing to. Saying it out loud would make it real. And if it was real, then there was no coming back from this.

You had lost them. You weren’t even home and they’re gone. You’re never going to see them again. They won’t be waiting for you when you open that door.

A sob rips out of your mouth before you can stop yourself. This isn’t the place to cry. The others are going to hear you. You won’t be able to explain-

A twig snaps somewhere to your right.

You hold yourself tighter, holding your breath as if that’s going to stop them from finding you.

You don’t even bother to look up and see who it is. You curl in tighter, trying to squeeze the pain out of you. The other person pauses. You can’t see them but you can hear that they’ve stopped moving. Slowly, as if they weren’t sure how to go about it, they approached you and sat by your side.

You sniffle, cursing yourself internally. You didn’t want anyone to see you this way. You had hoped that you would return early enough to hide your tears. But now you’ve been caught. You struggle to open your mouth but you still find the courage to speak. “...Go away…”

It's more a plea than a demand. It sounds pathetic. You feel pathetic. It’s too much to hold in and another sob slips past you.

An arm wraps around your shoulders and pulls you tightly into their side. “Let it out.”

You gasp and look up. You hadn’t expected Time to find you. He looks at you patiently and you can see the little worry lines beside his eyes. Gently, he raises his other hand and wipes the tears from your cheeks. “You can cry… It’s ok…”

It’s as if the dam broke. Before you can even register the forces in your heart, sobs tumble out of you in a river of emotion. It’s too strong for you to hold back anymore. 

Time turns and pulls you into his arms, holding onto you tightly. It’s just enough for you to let go of your emotions. It’s the strength you wish you had to squeeze your feelings out. 

Your heart hurts. It hurts so much.

Time says nothing and sighs to himself. He brings his hand up to gently run his hand over your head in soothing motions, holding onto you as you cry. You don’t hold him back. You’re still trying to pick up the pieces of your crumbling walls.

Time is ok with this. He doesn’t know all the details about the death of… well… All he knows is that your very world revolved around them. And now they’re gone. He… can only guess what that feels like.

The moment passes and your sobs dissolve into hiccups. You finally grab onto Time and tuck your face into the crook of his neck, looking for comfort from the man. 

He doesn’t hesitate to hold you back. Time holds you tighter than before and starts to gently rock back and forth. 

Eventually your hiccups subside as well but Time doesn’t push you away. 

A beat passes as Time keeps rocking and petting you softly. “I’m sorry.” He says. “I’m sure you wanted to be alone… but this isn’t something you should deal with alone. We’re all here for you.”

You sniffle and keep quiet.

That doesn’t stop Time though. “Take all the time you need. We don’t have to move at all tomorrow. Breath. Save your strength.”

You bite your lip, feeling a little indignant. “It hurts, Link. They’re gone and I- I’m- I can’t even-”

“Shh…” Time wipes away the last of the runaway tears. “Don’t. There are many things in this life that we cannot control and there are many things that will happen when we least expect it. We’re simply at the wrong place at the wrong time.”

A whine escapes you. You clutch onto Time like a lifeline, gripping onto his shirt and shoulders as if something threatened to tear you away. Time says nothing about it and simply holds you close.

“...I already miss them.”

“I know.” Time whispers, aching on your behalf. “That feeling won’t go away. You just learn to live with it. You learn to find a new normal.”

You can’t accept his words. It’s too fresh. It’s too recent. You shake your head, threatening to sob once more into his shoulder. “...I don’t want a new normal.”

Time doesn’t want to see you hurting as much as you don’t want to hurt. “You can’t stay this way. They wouldn’t want you to stay this way.”

His words strike a cord and you finally lift your head to look him in the eyes. Time’s heart sinks. You look destroyed. Time wipes your face again, even if the tears are slowing down. “It doesn’t have to be today or tomorrow. All in due time. I’m sorry you’re hurting. I can’t help as much as I’d like.”

You sniffle again and lean in, resting your head on his shoulder once more. As much as you don’t want to admit it, you really needed that cry. “...You’re helping enough… Thank you, Link.”

Time nods and wraps his arms securely around you. “I’m here for you.”

#linkeduniverse #linked universe #linked universe x reader #lu x reader #lu time #this was supposed to come out months ago #but it was the only thing i could move around easily while readjusting the new soulmates from the start chapter #i hope you enjoy :D

[plutonicbees]

in distress. stuck in universe city. send help.

last drawing for ace awareness week! i always say that aled last is so gender but i am also enthralled by their hints of demisexuality throughout heartstopper/radio silence and the fruition of it in his coming out scene with daniel. love aspec representation in the osemanverse, ty alice <3

[id in alt text]

#hand doodles are definitely via frances #tumblr makes it look shit but click on image for better quality and glimpse star freckles :) #this was supposed to be a happier aled bc they've got their post-depression post-coming-out era pink hair #but i was listening to the radio silence audiobook while drawing and it was the second half of the book.... #bg is based off of aled's tattoo from a drawing alice posted on instagram a few months ago ⛤<3 #aled last #aled last fanart #radio silence #radio silence fanart #universe city #osemanverse #osemanverse fanart #radio silence alice oseman #heartstopper #aled heartstopper #aled radio silence #fanart #art #drawing #artists on tumblr #my art #aspec #demisexual #aspec character #asexual awareness week #ace awareness week #alice oseman #digital art #heartstopper fanart #heartstopper comic

[natelia-aldelliz]

Soap : Is something wrong with Price? I don't think I've ever seen him in such a bad mood!

Ghost : Even when you accidentally blew up the unauthorized explosive experiment you were illegally working on in your room?

Soap : Even then! And he wasn't that pissed off, he was more.... Disappointed... which honestly is way worse...

Gaz : I know, right, it's horrible when he looks at you like that, last time I almost cried!

Soap : Yeah! Right Ghost?

Ghost : I wouldn't know, I behave myself like a normal adult. Why do you think he's mad? Have either of you done something recently?

Soap : No! That's why it's weird!

Gaz : Not me either. You sure it's not you this time LT?

Ghost : Of course it's not me.

Gaz :..... Could it be... A spat?

Soap : A spat?

Gaz : Yeah, with Nikolai. Y'know, trouble in paradise?

Soap : I don't think so, last time I heard them talking to each other he was complimenting him, saying he made so much progress in Russian that he'd start teaching him cursive, that's good, right?

Ghost : Russian cursive? Good? No need to look further Johnny, you know why he's pissed off. Nik's probably having so much fun with it too.

#cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #kyle gaz garrick #captain john price #cod nikolai #ghostsoap #soapghost #nikprice #just imagine them supposed to train some recruits and instead they're in a circle gossiping #and the recruits are trying their best to listen in inconspicuously #this is based on the six months i spent trying to learn russian in college too many years ago #russian cursive is a nightmare #and this is coming from someone who reads 18th century french priests little baptism certificates books for fun #anyway i'm still pushing my nikprice propaganda they deserve it #too few of us out here smh

[honsool]

Wordle – BTS edition (insp)

#ot7 #bts #bangtan #btsgif #networkbangtan #btsedit #hyunglinenetwork #namjoon #hobi #jungkook #jimin #jin #taehyung #yoongi #wordle #this was supposed to come out 2 months ago but alas here we are

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[lesbiansanemi]

I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao

#i have had to piss for probably the better part of an hour now #because they decided to take a shower together and have been in there for well OVER an hour now #and this is a nightly occurence atp sometimes MULTIPLE times a day #we have one bathroom.... can yall not be considerate enough to not be in there for up to TWO HOURS AT A TIME??? #also it's such a waste of fucking water.... #idk we've hit a point where i literally hear the bf doing anything and i get pissed off #but also tell me why i'm sitting in my room (which shares a wall with the bathroom) and i can hear this man hacking and spitting shit up #and this is also something that happens multiple times a day #like.... dude.... why are you spitting up toothpaste so fucking loudly oh my fucking god #but yeah no i'm like my roommate's only friend atp and he's about to not have me lmao like we're about to reach #'i'm cutting you off when i move out' levels of me being pissed off with this whole situation type shit #and apparently the bf convinced him to come out to his family which his mom was chill which is good #his dad's side of the family though....? not great. and my roommate KNEW that would be the case cuz we'd talked about it before #also love that my roommate has constantly talked about moving out of the city we live in because he hates and also there's no good career #opportunities for him here (which is true) #and now. MAGICALLY. he's like 'idk i think it'd be best for me to stay here' #like oh my GOD???? are you hearing yourself???? are you fucking stupid???? you fucking hate it here??? #but sure throw your life away and ruin all your meaningful relationships for a guy you met six months ago jfc #and the thing is i *know* my roommate we've been close CLOSE friends for nearly a decade now #i know he is not like this.... like yeah he's being insane by allowing this but also i know these aren't the kinds of decisions he would ma #and also i know he wouldn't treat me like this all on his own #it's the deranged fucking control freak of a guy he decided to date and my roommate has too many of his own issues to put his foot down #about certain things and tell the guy no so he's just allowing him to completely take over his life #and fuck everything up until the bf is the only thing he has left once it's all said and done #and yeah. it's painful to watch. but also wtf am i supposed to do because obviously my opinion is not respected nor wanted regarding this #that has been made PAINFULLY clear #ugh this is so fucking horrendous #what is it with ppl who start to date someone and then go clinically fucking insane and destroy their lives all for this one person #who. realistically. they barely know in comparison to all the other ppl in their life #like explain it to me jfc

[peachypinkygloss]

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#I can't. #this is- #wtf literally #idk why im telling y'all this dont listen to my cries lmfaooo #how am I supposed to react #when the dude... that had a crush on me #made his everyday goal to win my heart (kinda worked ngl) #who left for 6 months to suddenly come back this summer #became the centre of my world once again #is now in a couple with a guy #mind you he didn't tell me #I just figured it out. #its so much more complicated but god. coming from him? im fucking baffled #thats such a weird feeling #just remembering the things he was telling me not even 2 months ago #I never had a stronger connection with a guy ever in my life before. #i literally dont wanna see him ever again :D

[opalthea]

also, hello padisarah nonnie !! it's good to see you again :>

i decided to not answer your ask regarding the wholeeee stuff.. because i don't really care what they want to do anymore. i've done my part of speaking up about their behaviours and calling them out - which made a lot of people open their eyes for once instead of ignoring the warnings they got from me or other people. and i think that's all i want to do.

THIS WILL FORMALLY BE THE LAST POST ABOUT THEM. I will not answer any asks regarding it anymore, so if you want to make your own posts regarding those users, please use your own platforms, thank you.

as much as i encourage speaking up, i also don't want to give a flying duck about them anymore. y'know, like, i spoke up because i couldn't tolerate them and their behaviours anymore - couldn't just keep quiet when my mutuals are knowingly or unknowingly talking to shitty people like that. if they started a new blog, just let them. i don't really care anymore 😭 all i hope is that my mutuals and those that see this are more aware of internet safety and who you surround yourself with. it was already exhausting trying to warn others about them and not being listened to until i made this shit public — i'm not going to start becoming a blog that runs on discourse just so some can finally realise that this person was shitty and that person was the devil.

thanks for also caring abt me and informing me of their new url, i appreciate that a lot! it's on my blocklist now + the mutuals they've tagged on that post too 💀 if, however, i blocked you without a good reason why, or if i blocked you before you knew of this and had already cut ties with them, feel free to send me a message or ask on a different blog! i took precautionary blocks when it comes to having those kind of people as mutuals so .. yeah.

#visitors from teyvat : padisarah anon #thea answers #the post was made because i just couldn't stand the audacity of certain people still claiming to be the victim. #imagine claiming yourself as the victim when your story wasn't even straight. #venting in public but you can't even pick a plot. were you banned or did you leave willingly first without being punished? #then proceeded to say you were wrongly banned when you were literally guilttripping the mods . what did you think- #was gonna happen when you come back? did you think our arms were open then? #you left first . to avoid consequences . now that the consequences are staring right at you #you chicken out? you curse at the effects of your actions? YOUR actions? what about the people you've affected . #you say you aren't the same person you are a year ago but you only left a few months ago and you still affect the mental health of many . #our server wasn't even a mental health server. it's a positivity server. you're supposed to use it to get serotonin boosts #or boost other people. not a place for us to be your therapists and fix your problems. #i still can't get over the fact that neither of them can get their stories straight. wdym a year ago lmao. it was literally 4-5 months ago. #and you still act the same as ever. venting about how you wanted to kys or break down when a damn post unrelated to you talks- #-abt ur fav character in a scenario where they don't love you. #do you realize that the artists and writers' works you consume are for the general and not just you. what is your logic . #and i know you see this . you vague about us all the time. did you think i didn't notice. #the only mercy i've granted you was the peace for 4 months. you tell me i was dogpiling on you but you didn't change at all . so entitled t #-your ways of thinking and what you think is right. #in the first few weeks of u in that server i was the only one who thought better of u. funny how that turned out. #cuz u didn't change then and you wouldn't change now. #idk how many times i hv to repeat this but i blocked each n every ONE of them. including their moots. #and including anyone who interacted with them. im not sorry. if you were wrongly blocked then u can shoot a dm. #otherwise stay blocked and stay mad loser L.

[darththrog]

Having a mental breakdown over my final exams was not on my 2023 bingo card.

So anyway, I've got my final exams in like 20 fucking days wow...and I've got no idea how I'm about to survive.

My dad straight up told me he can't afford to pay for my college fees if I don't get good grades and get in to uni through merit. Our financial situation is as fucked up as united's win streak cause we kinda cooked up all the money we had in my mom's kidney treatment (it's still ongoing btw)

You guys have made me the happiest when I had no one else to turn to and have made me feel important and special in all the ways possible. And for that I thank you and I love you all so very much more than yall could ever know.

Lmao this ain't a suicide letter chill.

I think this is just to inform u guys that I've decided to uninstall tumblr for quite a while (until my exams are over) and I'll be back once everything is done.

God idk how I'm about to survive without u guys 😭 I'm gonna miss all my moots. I'm gonna miss roasting Dortmund every match day, i'm gonna miss the gifs, the memes, everything...

Idk how long I'll stick to the plan, I'll probably come here by tmrw lol but I hope I can control myself and remove all distractions cos my life quite literally depends on the marks I score in this exam (I hate the education system)

So, I guess it's goodbye guys ❤

...for now.

#until we meet again #lol ill prolly come back two-days later but anyway #was supposed to be posted 3 months ago 💀 #but hey its progress #will return in mid May #peace out fellas #darththrog out (for now)

[nimue-hidden-lake]

2 Of My Friends Review Enstars Characters

Except not even I know what I'm talking about

I forced two of my friends to sit down for 2 and a half hours to review the main boys of Ensemble Stars! I cut it down to 91 minutes though because no way I visualize 2 and a half hours. Sit back, grab a snack and hopefully enjoy!

I cannot control what my 2 friends say about the characters, just wanted to note that!

ft @watersofcamelot

#ensemble stars #enstars #video #youtube video #my video #youtube upload #This was a pain to edit and even extract. It was supposed to come out 2 months ago actually! #Thus it is a bit outdated at points but it took some time to cut. I am. publishing it anyway! #But better late than never! Enjoy! #(I will get clowned on... I already know it) #(Well... If I minded I'd keep it behind closed doors so go nuts!) #Youtube

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#tfw ur life has been so busy that u forgot that with a new school u have a new email to keep track of #and u forgot to hook it up to ur outlook so now u open it up and see emails from abt a month ago #telling u to do TA orientation stuff. uuuuuh oops #so i guess i have some bullshit to figure out tomorrow. also i should finalize my class sign up staff #stuff* bc when i was doing yhat my brain was on fire. also i should email my new boss. oh god. why didnt i check that email???? #i dont even kno if im supposed to b a TA this semester??? i should just email the guy but also i dont wanna roll up like yo #im already damaged goods bc ive suffered a whole year in a state of burnout. also i fucked up my sign up process by not paying attention #but uh hi hello nice to meed u again for the 2nd time in my life. this is definitely not a bad omen for things to come #ugh. why have i done this to myself? i cant even call to try to fix anything until Monday. fuck. #but i mean. i cant b thr only one who's ever done this. so maybe itll b fine? hopefully? #but i wouldn't have this problem if id just fucking looked at my fucking email in the 1st place #i can already feel it. this is where the overlap starts. the overlap between my old lab and my new lab #will it tear me into pieces? perhaps. i have to shift into go mode. i cant b a sad sack anymore #ugh. im usually really good at being on top of stuff like this bc im such an anxious freak but here we r... #unrelated

[mashmouths]

anyone want to pull an edna pontellier with me

#we realize that we're alive individual people with agency and sensations we can pursue but are trapped by societal expectations (originally #Heavily gendered but this was also like 150 years ago) but we cannot give up our newfound selves for the sake of our children like we're #supposed to so we strip naked on a beah like a newborn animal bare before god for the first time and swim out and drown #spoilers for 'the awakening' i guess sorry #to put this is modern terms does anyone want to pull a brian david gilbert 'and now i am going to throw myself into the sea' with me but we #don't come jogging soggily up the beach towards the camera at the end we just actually drown #sorry to once again be sad on main i just. i cannot keep having the same breakdown every 3 months! every quarter i have to re-realize 'oh i #probably don't actually want to die i just cannot in any circumstances keep living like this' and then i keep living like this #i am so tired. i am so fucking tired of effort not meaning anything bc i try and try and try and i still can't turn anything in #finals posting #anyway edna and adèle should've kissed who's with me. adèle comes over and watches edna's kids while she's out gallivanting and recognizing #her personhood like a good little wife but she also is the first person to welcome edna im and like connect personally with her? edna is a #lesbian but she died before she realized that was an option. hot take. #whatever i hope everyone has a fun and safe st. paddy's #a post

[the-middle-grounds]

I can't remember where I was in editing the 4th chapter of Three Strikes but I think I was in the last one so what if I just said "Screw it" and uploaded it either tomorrow or Saturday after doing those final edits.

#Rambles #Let's forget it was supposed to come out 8 months ago #please let's forget that so hard

[t4tbedehopmar]

GOOD MORNING AND HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY TO REBEL IN RIVALRY!!!!!!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

#AND THE CROWD (koha) GOES WILD WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #oh i perfectly remember that morning a year ago...... i was sat in the subway and i KNEW i was coming out in pokemas but not when #and BOOM i'm right there and i started screaming and then i choked. i'm always choking as u can see KFGSJAHDJAHGSJAHSJAHSJJAJ #in fact i also choked this morning but for a whole different reason (choked w my medicine. i have a. a cold in summer) #i'm very pathetic wldn't u say..... sighs wtv ik u guys love me for my patheticism. or smth slajsjhdk #anyways i have to leave now! i'm supposed to be having a graduation today but i'm not going so yeah XD #SO LIVE LAUGH LOVE REBEL IN RIVALRY!!!!!!!! just u wait and see guys next month is MY month 😌😌

[gentlethorns]

god this SUCCCKKKS i'm trying so hard not to be negative and look on the bright side but there like. is no bright side lol. i am angy

#she bork #tbd #idk like i said yesterday this position switch sucks and i'm not a fan. no benefits. also i'm mad bc this is supposed to be my weekend off #but i work tomorrow bc technically monday and tuesday were my days off (even though monday was a FUCKING HOLIDAY so no one works) and i #haven't had a weekend off since like the beginning of the month. two weekends ago doesn't count bc i was supposed to work sunday and didn't #go in bc it was MY WEEKEND OFF and no one told me about the schedule change and then when i found out i accidentally no call no showed after #i woke up i was really upset and anxious all day. we have a friend over this weekend and he comes today and i do not want to go to bed at #fucking like 9 pm bc we rarely see him. that and i feel like shit as it is lol i feel like my arthritis is flaring up bc we're in a cold #snap. so honestly i'm considering calling in tomorrow but i haven't decided bc i don't want to fuck up my attendance anymore than i already #have bc they put me on a corrective action last week bc of the aforementioned ncns and like i'm not exactly in danger of being fired but #being on a ca is not good. so i'd rather just let a sleeping dog lie and take the L on tomorrow lol

[dadfag]

Damn shawty you move on quickly

when the dick is good the dick is good

#tf else am i supposed to do.. sit around and wallow in misery? i didnt plan this shit anyways #stop my entire life because my ex fiance who treated me like a chore for a year and i split #i got broken up with a month ago but felt single for longer #anyways where the fuck are these anons coming from i have 400 followers on this account #its summer dawg the sun is out the weather is beautiful go do smth #anon #✉️¹