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#vader: ...if i don't will you keep hugging me?
iggy5055 · 9 months
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Yandere Emperor Darth Vader X reader Part 3
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Summary: (Y/N) lands on Coruscant, the foreign planet and giant palace that was now her home being a bit too much at first. Vader, refusing to let his love suffer shows her something that helps her adjust as they grow closer.
Warning: Yandere, manipulation, obsession, age gap.
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I couldn't believe my eyes. I knew Coruscant was big, considering there was over several trillion people who lived there, but this was just outrageous.
My jaw was nearly on the floor, It was a beautiful planet, the sun was setting so half the planet was dark and the other light. On the dark side I could see all the lights from the never-ending city making it glow beautifully. Most of the lights where white but every now and then there was a cluster of bright playful colours. From here it looked pretty small but considering we just entered the atmosphere it wouldn't look as big as it should. On the other side that still had daylight I could see the a shinning light from the sun reflecting off all the beautiful shinny buildings on the surface.
I had jolted back into Anakin when we came out of hyperspace. His arms where still wrapped around me securely, my back was tightly pressed into his front. The little box on his chest with a few buttons dug a little too uncomfortably into my back but I don't say anything. I look back at Anakin. All I could see was the dark red almost black lenses that covered his amber eyes. His mask really was intimidating, it made me a little nervous. I shrink into myself a little. The Emperor of the whole galaxy really was intimidating, it made sense someone with so much power was bound to be very intimidating. It helped that I knew he wouldn't hurt me me and what he looked like under the mask, but seeing him in full body armour was pretty nerve raking.
I could feel her fear. She felt so anxious seeing me in my full armour. I didn't like seeing her so scared, it hurt me even more knowing that she was scared of me. I started to rub my thumb across her shoulder and made sure not to squeeze mer middle too much with my other hand. I preferred touching her bare skin with my own but this would do till we landed and where in private.
She stared back at me with a nervous look on her beautiful little face. I leaned down again, whispering into her ear not wanting to scare her anymore, just sticking to talking in a low so as not to frazzle her anymore.
"When we land I'll show you your new home, my love. I promise you'll love it."
She seemed to relax at my words, nodding her head and giving me a slight smile. My heart melted at the sight of her. I continued to massage her shoulder and give her a little squeeze with my arm wrapped around her middle giving her a subtle hug. I loved her more than anything but I still needed to be seen as an intimidating leader. But at the same time holding her close to me told everyone else to stay away from her.
She flinched a little as I pulled her into me, closing her eyes tightly and looking down. I could feel a little pang of pain from her. I gave her a little once over but couldn't see anything wrong with, my love. I keep my voice low as I talk to her again.
"Whats wrong, my love? Why are you hurting?"
She looks back up at me after a moment, her face still twisted in discomfort.
"T-the thing o-on your chest is d-digging me into m-my back."
I immediately losses my grip on her significantly, moving my hand to her other shoulder looking down to my chest where my chest computer rested. It was what circulated clean air into the suit to let me breath. I hadn't even thought about it digging into her poor soft skin.
I lean my head down and gently rest my masks forehead onto the top of her head as a sort of kiss.
"My apologies my love I hadn't realized."
She smiles at me again, pain no longer plaguing her. She opens her mouth to say something but was interrupted when Captain Shaef Corssin came over to us interrupting her.
"We are starting our landing my Lord, we wi--"
He was cut off when I removed one of my hands from my loves shoulders and held it up in a pincer shape, holding him up and choking him as he hung slightly in the air.
My Empress seemed to hear the sound of his pathetic choking and attempts to beg and tried to look past me to see the source of the noise. I gently wrap my remaining arm around both her shoulders now holding her to my chest face first, ensuring she didn't catch sight of the pathetic fool behind us.
She looked up at my innocently, the look on her face wanting me to kiss her non-stop.
"What where you going to say my Empress?'
She blushed a little at her new title, she must have been in too much amazement to realize I had already called her that earlier.
"I was going to say it was fine, it was just a little uncomfortable with most of my back being exposed."
I knew she couldn't see me but I made sure to make a feeling of happiness and calm wash over her in hopes that she would know I was smiling down at her. From the look on her sweet face she seemed to understand.
I was a little thankful that she couldn't see my face as my loving smile turned into a harsh scowl as I stood strain once more keeping my love close to my chest while being mindful of my chest computer. Her small hand where now pressed to my chest now, being mindful of the buttons on the computer. I would be sure to teach her what all of them do so she wouldn't be so anxious around them.
"Now. What where you saying Captain."
My voice was full of malice, I regretted that my love had to hear my me speak with so much anger in my voice but I would be sure to make it up to her later. I knew she would hear me talk like that to others many times and at some point I knew that she would see me kill someone eventually but I still didn't want her to see me in such a way just yet. She needed to feel safe no matter what and that would take time.
The captain was now on his knees, his hand gripping his neck as he coughed and sputtered trying to gather his bearings.
"W-we will land in t-ten minutes m-my lord."
I shoo his away and look back down at my love. I reach my hand up and begin to stroke her soft hair. It hurt to see he close her eyes tightly when she saw my hand moving but at the same time I understood her anxiousness.
I would have to be sure to talk in near whispers and make sure to do soft and slow movement around her to be sure she felt safe and she could grow accustomed a lovers touch. Not only that be she would have to get used to a completely new life style.
I continued to caress her and gently tell her about Coruscant and how wonderful her new life would be till we touched down on said new home.
The Executor landed with a harsh hump, for someone like me I didn't even notice it anymore but for someone like my love, who had never been on a ship in her life her first landing would be pretty harsh. Any jolt or thump or sudden noise made her jump or flinch or gasp.
I only felt myself getting more angry at the second. My love was clearly overstimulated. All these new things hitting her all at once and yet I couldn't do anything about it but wait for the startling ordeal to be over and take her to our room so she could calm down in my arms, safe and sound.
When we finally where secure in the hanger and ready to start unloading everything (Y/N) was shaking like a leafs. Her eyes where closed and she was not clutching her hands together till they where snow white. Her head was buried into my chest despite how uncomfortable of a position it is.
I stand straight and look out the bridge window. It was already dark, if she had a normal day she would probably be heading to bed soon, but she had just woken up a few minutes ago. I will show her around our chambers, maybe show her the throne room and my office so that she could find me when she needed and end it with showing her the garden. Some of the plants glow in the dark, I sure she'll like them.
I continue to card my fingers through her hair as she shakes in my arms.
"Come, little star. Let me show you to our room. The palace isn't far, You can rest soon."
She doesn't lift her head from my chest but she does nod. Oh what I wouldn't give to take off all this cumbersome armour and hold her in my arms, kissing her till my lips fall off and hers a sweetly swollen and puffy.
I slowly drag my hands from her hair back down to her shoulders and turn both of us around to the doors. No one dared to speak a word. all of them keeping their heads down not daring to look at me or their new Empress. I wouldn't have to hold a ball or a banquet of some kind and a coronation to crown her as the Empress of the galaxy but that would come after she grows custom to em and we get married. Rumours will spread by then so everyone will know who she is and who she belongs to. So the ceremony's will really all just be for show.
I lead her out of the hanger and onto a private much smaller ship to take her home. We where completely alone now with no chance of us being seen so I pulled her close and allowed her to curl up into my lap. Once again we sat in silence as she begins to breath a little easier. I gave her a little drink that she was slowly nursing on. I gently rubbed up and down her soft exposed back. Most of her cloths that I got her where revealing but not slutty. It was perfect for me to have the some kind of skin contact in public while not exposing too much to others.
It took me a while to figure out what clothes would work but these really where perfect. All her cloths had open backs with a kid of cap of some kind to both match mine and and let me have easy contact on her but she isn't exposed to any other eyes. However the plunge neck line on her clothes that exposed her tits did irk me a bit but at the same time I couldn't help but enjoy the little liberty.
She had little goosebumps all over her skin. I knew she was a little cold but at the same time it made her more willing to cuddle up to me for warmth, all thought I will admit that my suit doesn't give much warmth.
I gaze out the window into the brightly lit night. You could see the Coruscant palace now in all its glory.
I tap (Y/N) on her shoulder. She shyly looks up at me with her big doe eyes silently waiting for me to tell her what I wanted.
"Look over there, my love. Your new home."
She looks over to the window at the place. Her jaw nearly hit the floor. She had such an amazed look on her face. She has mostly been looking down in her lap or at her drink so she hadn't really took a moment to look at Coruscant at all. I imagine she hadn't seen buildings as big as this in her life. I doubt she had even thought that building so big where even possible.
I kept gazing down at her and her adorable look of shock and amassment. She was so cute I wanted to burn the look into my memory.
I couldn't believe my eyes. Never in my life had I thought someplace like this could exist. The lights where extravagant. Everything was extravagant.
My breathing got a little heavy. Suddenly this whole situation hit me. My new home, my new life. My smile started to drop, My hands started to shake.
I didn't now how to react. This was all too much.
I felt Anakin pull me closer to himself, if that was even possible. His hands slowly moved over to the drink in my hand, gently taking it out and placing it on a little table in the hover car. Even the car itself was ridiculously fancy. I mean who has ever heard a a little table in a car.
He lifted his hand up to my face. Cupping my cheeks and guiding my head into his shoulder, taking my vision away from the city. In all honesty his shoulder wasn't very comfortable because of his armour but even with the uncomfortable armour digging into my cheek the gesture was still comforting.
I closed my eyes. Slowly gathering my thoughts and trying to get everything straight. I understood everything that had happened up till now. My being rescued, the trip to Coruscant and now we are on our way to the Grand Imperial Palace that was now my new home with the Emperor who was now apparently my lover. I understood and now I had everything in order but it was still overwhelming.
I couldn't help the tears streaming down my face. I let out soft hiccups every now and then as I tried to keep my crying as quiet as possible.
Anakin was gently carding his gloved hand through my hair quietly cooing at me as I start to slowly calm down.
"Relax, my love. It's ok. You will be ok. Just breath with me."
I did my best to follow his breathing. Feeling the rise and fall of his chest throughout his suit. The sound of his breathing helped too.
I wasn't sure how long we had been sitting there but after a while Anakin raised my head to look up at him, or, well, his mask.
"We are here my love."
I look over to the window again, and sure enough the Palace was there. My breathing was getting a little uneven again. What happened after this? Where do we go? What do I do? I could feel my head fill with a heavy ner painful fog.
Anakin helped me get out of the hover car but the second my feet touched the ground I felt everything go black.
I was a fool, I can't believe I let this happen to my sweet little love. I had overwhelmed her too much, shown her too much at once. Of course she passed out.
I kept pacing the room around the luxurious bed that me and my love now shared, that she was currently passed out in, with rage.
I had been so happy, so consumed with my love for her, knowing that soon she would be in my, now our, home and live the most luxurious life imaginable with all the most luxurious things ever known to any spices in the galaxy. She would want for nothing, need for nothing, always safe and loved and cared for in every way imaginable in my arms. But in all that happiness and the distraction of dreaming of the future I would give her I didn't keep my force around her. I wasn't monitoring her as much as I should have been.
This was my fault. My doing. All because of my carelessness.
I angrily took off all my armour, throwing it about the dark room. I was sure to close all the blinds once I tucked her into our bed. Once she passed out I caught her before she could fall too far, no part of her ever having the chance to hit the floor before I immediately wrapped her in my force at the sight of her starting to fall. It only made my rage worse. Not at her, never any her, but at myself. I could feel her overwhelming fear, her concern and her nervousness.
I also felt a horrible head ache coming on once she was out cold. The darkness of the room would help, even if it was dark the city lights did plenty to replace the sun and would no doubt still be too bright for her hurting mind.
My armour was know completely removed, I had on a pair of comfortable loose fitting sleep pants and forwent a shirt. Just as I had finished putting away my violently tossed armour in its proper place and gotten a bottle of pain killers and some water to give my love when she woke I heard her whimpering.
Her face was harshly twisted in a pained expression. Her body so tight it looked painful. I rushed over and set the cup of water and bottle of pain killers down. I sit down beside her, running my fingers through her soft hair. Gently my knuckles make their way to her cheek, gently guiding them down to her jaw. Her face relaxed some but her body was as tense as ever.
I felt her mind was in such painful turmoil. Even in her sleep she was hurting so much, so scared, but at my gentle caresses she begun to calm a little. I couldn't help the feeling of pride that grew within me knowing my touch made her relax, even just a little.
After a few moments of my hands caressing her hair and soft skin her beautiful eyes began to flutter open. Her eyes where lidded, trying her hardest to keep them open with all the fog and pain in her mind. Tears started to form her eyes making then shine like crystal and beginning to cascade down her now reddened cheeks like a waterfall.
"Oh, my love~"
I cooed at her taking both her cheeks in my hands, caressing her puffy cheeks with my thumbs, gently pressing my forehead to hers as she sobs loudly in my arms.
"It is ok my love, I have you, just relax."
She was shaking like a leaf in my arms, so scared and in so much pain.
"Its ok, my love~"
I gently sit her up, regardless of her quiet protests, moving behind her and letting her lean back into my warm chest. I reach over for the pills and water. I take out two pills and place them in my hand once again placing down the bottle.
"Open wide my love, this will make all the pain go away."
She opens without any kind of hesitation. The action makes my heart warm at how completely she trusted me but at the same time it hurts knowing that even with her completely trust I didn't take care of her properly. I hold up the water to her lips as she gulps it down. Once she was done I placed everything down and tilted my head down to her cheek to give her a peck on the corner of her soft lips.
We sit in silence for a while as she slowly relaxes more and more in my arms as the pain meds start to take effect. I was sure to keep my force around her, being sure to comfort her and ease some of the pain myself. I could tell she wasn't tired anymore even if it was dark.
After a few minutes of holding her in our bed, she starts to calm, her mind relaxing. Her turmoil calming significantly. While our room was big it was also pitch black. You could see almost nothing in the room at night and with the blinds drawn like this. Just being in a dark room with nothing to see, nothing to become overwhelmed with, helped her stressed mind.
"How are you feeling now my love?"
She looks up at me with her big eyes, the slight remnants of tears could be seen under her eyes. They where slightly puffy and a little red.
"Better."
I smiled down at her lovingly, Her voice was a little hoarse and it was just nearly above a whisper. All that crying taking a clear toll on her.
She was still in stock to an extent but clearly not willing to go to sleep. From the time I took her to now she has been sleeping for a good chunk of that. She couldn't fall asleep even if she wanted to. But that was only her mind. Her body was clearly weak with exhaustion but laying in bed wouldn't do anything for her.
"How about we get up and get you a little something to eat, then we can go down to the gardens and we will see how you feel after that, Hmm?"
Hers eyes where still pretty sluggish, most likely from the pain killers that told have started to take effect, but she nodded and moved to get out of my lap but before she could get to far I pulled her back by her waist and gave her cheek a kiss then stood with my love in my arms.
"You're body is exhausted my love."
I started to walk towards the door to our room but despite my words she still squirmed in my arms a little, trying to gently get out of my arms without angering me. I could feel how nervous her mind was to annoy me even if she trusted me.
Little did she now that nothing she could do could annoy me, that is except from her trying to leave and her hurting herself, but without her memories its highly unlikely she will try to leave unless it would be to explore which I'll let her do once she's comfortable here, but never without me. And hurting herself, I would never let her do that. Besides she will sparsely ever leave my side.
"Now now, my love~, let me take care of you. I wouldn't want you to faint again."
I press my lips to the crown of her head, letting them linger there as she stills in my arms, going completely limp as I open the door with the help of the force.
As I walk over to the dinning room I could feel her become completely limp in my arms, her head resting on my bare chest. If it wasn't for my force surrounding her I could have thought she had passed out.
Her head nuzzled into my chest. I looked down at her, her face was completely relaxed. Just as we made it to the doors, I leaned down to kiss her head again, opening the door in the process.
In Anakin's warm, safe arms I take in my new surrounding. The room opens with just a flick of his finger, like magic, but of course I knew better than to believe that. But there was no doubt the force was, well, for lack of a better word the force was a mysterious force to recon with. For instance this constant presence. I always felt him, in my mind, surrounding me in a blanket of safety.
The room was grand, a large room that was black and red themed with hints of gold here and there. The sealing was huge, pillars going all the way to the roof and a red carpet adorning the floor right underneath the biggest dinning table I have ever seen in my life. Despite its grandiose size there sat only four chairs around it. Two sat at separate heads of the table, they where much fancier then the other two, clearly for people of importance such as the Emperor. The other two sat on the sides of the table and while still very nice and comfortable they couldn't have been better then the chairs at the heads of the large table.
To the right of us was two grand glass double doors, much taller then Anakin the black marble stone floor stretched out passed the doors and from the windows making up the doors it seemed to drop off into a staircase. I didn't get to sight see too much before Anakin walked over to the chair at the head of the table to the left. I thought he would have just place me down and taken his seat elsewhere but instead he pulled the chair out with he force and sat down, me still in his lap.
I squirmed a little, both out of awkwardness but also to get a little more comfortable on his muscled thighs. even if I wanted to get off his lap his gentle but firm grip on my body told me this was where I was staying till he decided.
The second we sat servants came out from the doors around us, carrying platers of foods and placed them on the empty table that now seemed to have no free space on it.
I looked in front of us, well in front of us for Anakin, for me I was looking to the side out the doors. I knew Coruscant was a planet that had very little to no plant life, so I found it odd that when I took a closer look out side the doors to see green. Endless plants and trees with flowers of all kinds of colours. I couldn't see too much of it but from what I could see it was the most beautiful place on this planet of metal.
Lost in thought I hadn't noticed that the empty plate in front of us was now full of food, nor that Anakin was trying to feed me. I only noticed when he had placed the small piece of fruit he was holding to my lips, breaking me out of my stupor.
I look back up at him, I must have had a funny look on my face because he chuckled.
He rose up his metal hand, the one not holding the fruit, and ran it through my hair down to my cheek and jaw.
"I'll take you into the garden later my love, first you will eat."
He presses the fruit a little closer to my mouth the juice dripping down my chin a little so to avoid to much of a mess I open my mouth to eat it. It was so juicy and sweet. I had never tasted anything so good in my life. I groaned a little at the taste it was just so good. It was only once I had swallowed the fruit that I realize how hungry I actually was. I reached over for more food only for my wrist to be grabbed gently by his mechanical hand and brought back over to my chest. I was going to turn my head to question his actions but before I could look over at him I felt warm lips on my neck.
I yelped out in surprise not expecting it. His lips trailed up my neck, following the trail of juice that had dripped down my chin and apparently my neck.
I look back over at him shocked at both his actions. Was I not supposed to eat? Then why did he feed me? Where we supposed to do something first like a blessing? I didn't take him for a religious man but he could use the force so maybe? And the kiss, while welcome there where people in the room. It didn't seem like a thing an Emperor should be seen doing especially to someone like me in public.
Anakin just smiled gently down at me, seeing nothing wrong with his actions.
"I know you are hungry little star but you need to eat slowly or else you will get sick. Let me."
Without another word he held another piece of fruit up to me. it wasn't the same fruit as before but it still looked really good. He didn't even bother explaining his kisses, nor did he seem to care about the public setting all that much.
After taking the other piece of fruit from his fingers I discreetly looked around, all the servants where now standing against the wall surrounding us, not daring to look at us, instead opting to look straight ahead at the servant standing opposite of them.
I looked back out the windowed doors again. It was dark so the plants out in the garden weren't fully visible but from the city lights I could make out some colours.
I continued to feed my love but it was clear it wasn't me or the food that her focus was on, more like she was just eating because I was feeding her despite how hungry she clearly was, otherwise completely lost in her own thoughts.
It was clear the garden was all she could think about, but first her health came first and that meant eating but being lost in her own thoughts wasn't hurting anyone so I would let her dream until I fulfilled them as I fed her.
I had fed her a fairly juicy piece of meiloorun and the juice once again ran down her chin to the column of her throat. While there was nothing wrong with her getting lost in her own thought that didn't mean I could try and distract her a little.
I started from the bottom of the droplet, slowly kissing and sucking my way up to her jaw. I take my sweat time not being in any kind of rush, my little star on the other hand seemed to feel differently.
With the use of the force it was clear that she wasn't uncomfortable;e with my actions or the feeling but our setting, the fact others where here, not like she had to worry. If any on them valued their lives, they won't even steal a glance. Regardless, I didn't like her being uncomfortable so I wouldn't drag on my affections.
I kiss the corner of her lips before finally pulling away and leaning back into the chair once more. Her face was as red as my lightsaber, it seemed to glow almost as bright as it as well. The sight of her made me chuckle at her.
I take my flesh hadn't and gently caress her cheek with my knuckles.
"Do you want to eat more my little star?"
She seemed to ponder the question for a moment both gathering her flushed thoughts and seeing if she was in fact still hungry, I had fed her for a while, not like she seemed to notice, so lost in her own little head.
After a moment she shook her head, before I moved however I strengthened my force around her, making sure she really was full. once I was satisfied I quickly hoisted her up into my arms and started to carry her out to the gardens she seemed to long for so much.
Once she realized where we were going her eyes lit up brighter than any of the lights on Coruscant. I squeeze her tightly to my chest, the contact making my heart flutter.
I didn't want to take her outside forever. The closer we got to the doors the more I wanted to turn and take her back to our room, safe for everything and anything in my arms. I had my sober with me and the security here was stronger then anything in the galaxy but still.
Some part of me revealed in the fact that the servants and guard saw how I treated her, how I held her, how she belonged to me. but on the other hand I wanted to lock her away, I wanted to be the only one who every saw her soft fave and kind eyes full of trust however the contrasts don't stop there, I want to hold her, always and forever. always to have a part of me touching hers I know she safe and protected but most importantly loved. Looking her away would eventually break her, and I could imagine no greater pain than hurting her.
I wanted to make all her hopes and dreams come true, like I said, she would never want for anything, and right now my little star wanted to go to there garden, so in the safety of my arms that is exactly where she would go.
Opening the doors with the force I could hear the servants scatter out of the room once me and my love cross the threshold.
I refused to wear my armour and mask around her all the time, oesspeshally when we are spending time together, such as eating dinner, or simply walking around eh palace together, of corse of locations out side the palace I will have to wear it, I already don't like that my servants are seeing my face for the first time but even without it I am still an imposing figure, but now the have a face to the fantom. They know I am human and have emotion when they should see me as an imposing emotionless being. But for my love, my reputation means very little as long as I have the power to do as I please and keep them in line.
A rush of fresh air hits us as we ever the open space of the garden, I could feel my love wiggle around in my arms, clearly wanting to explore a little by herself, so clearly awestruck by what she saw in front of her. Reluctantly I let her go but I remain close to her at all times, often resting my hand on the small of her back softly, just letting her know I was here.
Occasionally I would add a little more pressure only for her to whip her head around to look at what just toucher her, clearing get so lost in her own head she completely forgot she had company. I usually didn't like getting ignored but with her it wasn't an insult but a compliment and a win for me. it meant she felt safe enough with me that she was able to complete ignore my presence and yet feel no danger even though I was right behind her, just out of her peripheral vision.
Every time her little doe eyes shpt back to look into my cold and sharp ones she would smile a little making my heart flutter once again.
As she walked around admiring all the different kinds of flowers fawns and other arrangement of plant life I took a few steps back. We had been walking around the massive garden for around thirty minutes now but we event even seen one third of it yet, she was certainly taking her sweet time.
After about ten more minutes I was surety she completely forgot about me, even going so far as to quietly call her name but she gave me no reaction.
I decided she had walked around for long enough, se would have all her life to walk around and memories every single plant in their garden. Slowly while keeping my force tightly around her I summoned one of the servants, instructing them to bring me something warm to drink and to set it up in the garden, she hadn't eaten as much as I would have liked so I was sure they brought some sandwiches for us as well. Once I was sure they had set everything up again I went over to my little star, She wasn't hard to find. I knew where she was the entire time so all I had to do was follow the force.
When I would her she was sitting on the side of a stone raised flowers bed delicately holding a flower in her hands and smelling it as she admire the colours of the petals. Her back was evidently tired to me which was in my favour, slowly I walk over to her. Once I was right behind her I wrapped my arms around her body, caging her in my arms with hers pinned to her sides. She lets out a frightened little yelp and for a moment I can tell she really is scared something bad is about to happen to her.
Before she can scream too loudly I turn her around and incase her lips in mine, effectively stealing her breath away. I pull her into my arms as I kiss her deeply. ensuring she is comfortable.
After a moment she realizes I was the one kissing her, she goes from scared for her life to embarrassed. I could feel the heart radiating off of her cheeks as she finally kisses me back.
She is shy, clearly inexperience, but she is young, an dI had no problem taking the lead. being her first made me ego swell. Being able to teach her new things, discovering her pleasures together for the first time. The thought of it alone made others parts swell.
Slowly I unlock our lips, letting her catch her breath as I rest my lips on her forehead. I could feel her heart beating wildly in her chest, I had clearly scared her but she knew she was safe.
"Hello my love."
I could help the chuckle that escaped my lips as she gently slaps my chest.
"That wasn't funny, you nearly scared me half to death."
"I was just playing with my my love, I would never let anything harm you."
I reach my hand up to her cheek, caressing it with the gentleness of a feather.
I was about to tell her about the food I had us prepared but just as I open my mouth I could hear her stomach growl lightly.
Her face flushes with embarrassment and all I can do is chuckle at her.
"Come my little star, I have some food for us."
This time I place her in her own chair but remain close, but this time the table was very small so I was within arms reach of her.
She looks around the selection of sandwiches in front of her and picks a meat sandwich, slowly she takes a bite as I sip on our warm drink taking in her beauty.
She moans at the shirt of her sandwich and I find myself closing my eyes and taking in the sound, looking it in chest in my mind of later. But still, I wanted more, I need more. But all in due time. I had no need to rush her.
I open my eyes again to look over at her, a crumb on the corner of her mouth. I lean forward and kiss in away. She gasps at the sensation. not expecting me to kiss her again so suddenly but I could tell she liked it when I kissed her, I just seemed to have developed a habit of doing it at unexpected moment.
She blushes looking away and continuing to eat her food, taking the occasional sip of her drink.
the garden had a bit of a chill to it, especially at night and I could see bumps appear all over her skin from the cold, the warm drink helped some but it was clearly time to go once she had finished.
I stared at her as she slowly ate her food, enjoying every bite. As I look at her kind face s she eats I find my mind wandering to all the things I have planed for her, for us. All our firsts, seconds and thirds, they would all be mine.
I imagine at some point her moments will slowly start to come back but all I would have to do is erase them again, while being sure to keep all of our memories, her true memories. And at that moment I knew.
I could never let her go, and I never would.
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cookybananas · 19 days
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This Wasn't The Plan (Former!Anakin Skywalker x Reader)
Angsty. Spoiler alert: main character dies
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When an old friend reaches out to you asking for help, but the mission doesn't go as planned.
This is set 9 years after the events of Revenge of the Sith. Your former lover, Anakin Skywalker, has turned to the dark side and had become a Sith Lord by the name of Darth Vader. But you don't know that. You believed in Obi-Wan's lie that Anakin had died on Mustafar and that the Republic had fallen into the hands of the Sith Lord, Darth Sidious who had created the Empire. The hunt for surviving Jedi ensues. This forces you and Obi-Wan to go your separate ways and into hiding to protect yourselves from the inquisitors who are on the hunt for the both of you.
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I packed some rations in my bag, the last thing I needed before heading out. I looked at my lightsaber that was on my bed, deciding if I should bring it or not. After putting some thought to it, I sigh to myself, clipping it to the belt of my old Jedi robe I was currently wearing. I set out to meet up with Obi Wan at the coordinates he had sent me. It had been 9 years since I had seen my good friend. I didn't think he would ever contact me again, especially through the force. But apparently this was an urgent matter.
Obi-Wan told me there wasn't much information given to him when he reached out to me. Apparently he had gotten a holographic message from an unknown individual, saying that there were some former Jedis needing our help on the planet of Kashyyyk. I was hesitant at first about the mission, but he convinced me to come along with him. Plus, it's not like I had anything better to do with my life. I was a scavenger, I tore apart ships and weapons from the Empire and resold the parts to make a living off of them. I didn't earn much, but it was enough to keep me alive.
The Jedi had fallen years ago from Order 66. My masters, my fellow Jedi who I had trained with, the younglings whom I taught, most of them didn't make it from the purge--they were all killed. Anakin, the love of my life was killed right before the Empire had rose to power, I lost my best friend; Padme. Obi-Wan and I had gone our separate ways and went into hiding. Just when we thought everything was going well at the time, that glory had dissolved as if it were nothing.
There have been many times I had cried myself to sleep at the thought of losing Anakin. Part of me still believes that he's alive somewhere in the star system and part of me wants to believe what Obi-Wan has told me; that Anakin is truly dead and that I need to move on to live for myself. As much as I wanted to reach out through the force to him, I couldn't. I was worried that an inquisitor was nearby and could sense me. Or worse, the belligerent Darth Vader who has been in a pursuit of killing Jedi since they had they had fallen. I had to close myself off the force many years ago. Now that Obi-Wan needs me, this puts the both of us at risk of falling into the hands of the Empire and Darth Vader.
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"It's good to see you again my old friend." Obi-Wan said, embracing me into a tight hug, to which I happily returned. Obi-Wan aged quite a bit the last time I saw him. The wrinkles around his eyes were prominent now, his beard grown out and untamed.
"And you as well Obi. Maker...it's been so long." I said, getting a little teary-eyed at our little reunion. Obi-Wan looked at me with sad eyes, nodding in agreement.
"Well, we have a long way to Kashyyyk, that should give us time to catch up Y/N." He gave me a small smile, as we made our way into his small ship, setting course to Kashyyyk to help our Jedi brothers and sisters.
"Do you have a plan?" I spoke up, breaking the long period of silence between us. Obi-Wan scoffed at my question.
"Well of course I do Y/N, you didn't think I would go in blindly would you?" He replied, smiling to himself. I snorted at his response, reminding me the many memories I have of him, Anakin, and I back in the days of the Clone Wars. Anakin and I were the ones that would go guns-blazing in during missions. Obi-Wan would always be the person coming up with the plans beforehand, to which sometimes Anakin and I did follow, sometimes.
Obi-Wan runs over the plan with me. The coordinates that he was provided had given us a location at a base in the lush forests of Kashyyyk. Apparently that's where the Jedi are said to be located. Once we land, we would split up to find any remaining Jedi and relocate them back to Alderaan. Obi-Wan had been in touch with Bail Organa since the fall of the Republic and had informed him about this mission.
The ship lands on an empty landing pad that was located outside the entrance of what looked like an abandoned temple. Obi-Wan and I exit out the ship, taking a look around our surroundings.
"I've got a bad feeling about this" I spoke up, scanning the environment.
"Meet me back here in an hour. If you can find any Jedi, we'll relocate them to Alderaan." Obi-Wan said.
"Sounds good to me." I responded. We both make our way into the temple, going separate ways once we enter.
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The Sith Lord stands tall as he gazes at the stars through the windows of the ship. He ponders to himself, when all of sudden he felt something in the force. Assuming that the presence was belonging to his former master, Obi-Wan Kenobi. Vader smiles to himself for being able to finally have Obi-Wan walk into his trap after what he had done to him all those years ago. But then he felt the pull become stronger and stronger by the moment. No... it can't be, the Sith Lord thinks to himself. It couldn't possibly be her. Y/N... You died 9 years ago. The remnants of your ship were in pieces when he had searched for you. You couldn't have survived the impact at the state of ship he found it in. When Anakin--Vader, had found the japor snippet that he had given you was on the ground, it pushed him further to believe that you had died on impact. He believed your clones got to you when Order 66 occurred. He blamed himself for causing your death. You deserved a better fate. But at the same time, he didn't want you to see what he had become.
Vader pushed his thoughts to the side. Still believing that you had died all those years ago.
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A good amount of time had passed. I wasn't sure how long it had been but it surely has been over an hour. I hadn't seen any Jedi yet, yet alone any traces of any Jedi being here. Something isn't right, I know it isn't because the force has been trying to tell me something since we landed.
I felt another presence in the force. It didn't feel like it was Obi-Wan. I froze in place, hearing footsteps in the distance; becoming closer and closer to me. I turn around, igniting my lightsaber as I was met with an inquisitor standing behind me with their double-bladed lightsaber already ignited.
"Well, well, you're not definitely Kenobi. But I'll gladly take you in as well." The inquisitor said, stepping closer to me as I took a step back. I wasn't fit to fight them. It had been years since I last fought with my lightsaber. Without thinking, I immediately turned around and ran away from the inquisitor. I took out my comlink to get a hold of Obi-Wan as I ran to find the exit.
"OBI-WAN, IT'S A TRAP!!" I yelled into the comlink, but I was met with static in response. The connection wasn't strong, perhaps the inquisitors had intercepted our communication or the connection on Kashyyyk just wasn't as good.
I found myself in what looked like an abandoned throne room. I hid myself behind the throne, trying to catch my breath as I tried to disconnect my force signature so the inquisitor wouldn't find me as easily. I cursed myself for agreeing to come along with Obi-Wan on this fallacious mission.
As the footsteps of the inquisitor drew nearer and nearer to the room. I overheard the inquisitor's voice, as if they were talking to someone else. I peaked my head over the throne to see the inquisitor in the doorway talking to a holographic figure on their wrist.
"Lord Vader, it's important that you know that not only one Jedi has fallen into your trap but two." The inquisitor said boastfully, holding up a hologram of Lord Vader.
"Very well inquisitor. Locate them now. I will deal with Kenobi and his friend accordingly. I want them alive." Lord Vader's mechanical voice booming through the hologram.
"Yes my lord." The inquisitor turns off the hologram, scoffing to themselves and kicking a pebble off the ground. "Why do they matter to you this much?" the inquisitor says under his mouth.
I held my breath, hoping that the inquisitor doesn't walk into the room I'm in. When I don't see them in the door way I make a run towards the door, only to be stopped by the inquisitor.
"Nice try, but I have orders to follow Jedi scum." the inquisitor spat at me, blocking the doorway. I furrow my eyebrows, igniting my lightsaber again.
"You won't take me alive."
"I wish I didn't have to, but I have orders from Lord Vader himself." the inquisitors says before swinging their double-bladed lightsaber. Our lightsabers clashing with one another. I try catching my breath as I fight the inquisitor, but the 9 years without fighting, has made me lose some abilities in my Jedi skills.
"I see the years have not been kind to you. You're out of shape grandma." the inquisitor comments. I grunt in response and roundhouse kick the inquisitor, sending them flying across the room. The inquisitor gets back on their feet again and darts towards me.
Just when I think I can take them down, the inquisitor's blade makes contact with my shoulder. I cry out in pain as I'm thrown off balance. I step back, grasping my shoulder that was just cut. The cut was bright red and burning.
The inquisitor laughs at my pathetic state. Determined to take down this inquisitor, I run towards them with my saber. I was able to dodge their first swing, but on the second swing, the inquisitor's blade had found itself impaled through my stomach. I let out a gasp. The inquisitor looking surprised at themselves at what they did.
The inquisitor draws their blade back. My saber falls out of my hand and rolls away from me as my body hits the ground. I clutch the part of my stomach where I had been just stabbed.
I try to control my breathing as I watched as the inquisitor walk out the room without saying a word to me. The building starts rumbling, as if it was starting to crumble down.
Then next thing I know, I see Obi-Wan running into the room, running up to me.
"Y/N!" Obi-Wan kneels down and cradles me in his arms. He brushes a strand a hair away from my face, his hand now holding one of my hands.
"Y/N stay with me now. I'm gonna get you out of here." Obi-Wan looks at me and looks down at my wound. His eyes were filled with panic with the hole inside my stomach.
"O-Obi Wan, you have to go." I said weakly, looking at him.
"I won't leave you here Y/N." He responded, squeezing my hand and body tightly.
"Y-you'll die here." I said as the building starts to crumble piece by piece. Pieces of stone and debris falling from the ceiling.
"Don't say such nonsense, we have to go" He pleaded.
"Obi-Wan...My place is here.. and... he's here...I can sense him." I breathe out. The hole in my stomach making it harder for me to breathe.
Obi-Wan's eyes widen. He knew he was here as well. Obi-Wan was about to lift me off the ground until I spoke up.
"Leave me here Obi-Wan...Get out of here...S-save..your..self" I huffed out my last breath.
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Your body goes limp in the arms of Obi-Wan. The last thing you saw was a dark figure, watching from the doorway before your body succumbed to your injury. Vader... You whispered under your final breath before dying in the arms of Obi-Wan.
Obi-Wan lets out a strangled cry. He closes your eyelids as the feeling of guilt creeps up on him. But the mourning over his good friend was short-lived. Obi-Wan freezes in place as he feels Vader's presence nearby. When he looked up, he saw the Sith Lord standing by the doorway, menacingly. Obi-Wan, lays your body down on the cold stone floor, now towering over your body to square up with the Sith Lord.
Vader who had been watching the entire situation unravel, his breathing became heavier as he starts to hyperventilate. Causing the temple to shake even more, pieces of the temple fell down around them. He had felt you, he felt your pain. Your first cry was enough to have the Sith Lord come and look for you, but your second cry was enough for him to feel the amount pain you were in.
"What have you done?!" Vader's mechanical voice barked, echoing through the room.
"This was your doing Anakin!" His former master retorted. Vader slowly makes his way over to him, striding menacingly to where Obi-Wan and your lifeless body was.
Obi-Wan backs up away from Vader. Vader kneels next your body and touches the nape of your neck to find a pulse to confirm that you weren't dead, but it was too late. He clenched his fist and lets out a booming cry. Obi-Wan couldn't see it, but he was crying under the mask. The building continue to shake more under his agony.
"Leave. Now." He said, glancing back up at his former master. Obi-Wan was hesitant at first, but soon nodded in response and made his way out of the crumbling building towards his ship.
Vader scooped up your body and carried you bridal style out of the building, making sure to give you a proper burial once he landed on a planet worthy of your funeral. As he makes his way out, he and Obi Wan look at each other one last time before Obi-Wan takes off in his ship.
Vader boards his ship, laying your body down on the table. He takes off his helmet, revealing his long blonde locks and handsome face that were still in pristine condition. He examines your face for sometime. Forgetting how beautiful you were. The years have not been kind to you. He noticed how your cheekbones are more prominent now, perhaps due to lack of food and having to remain in hiding. He brushed your hair with his gloved hand and started whispering all the things he wanted to tell you. He wanted to start a family with you after the war was over, but it is far too late for that now. He wanted to raise his family on Naboo, or Alderaan. The life he dreamt with you, had diminished the day he founds the remains of your ship.
He started to feel guilty for being the reason of causing you a great deal of suffering and now, he was now the reason for your death. He sat next to your body and had held your left hand that still bore the wedding ring he made for you. You both had gotten secretly married on Naboo, just right after the Clone Wars had begun.
After a good amount of time had passed, Anakin--Vader had eventually gotten up from his seat and took off his cape to cover your body with it.
This wasn't how the mission was supposed to go. He didn't expect you to be here, let alone be alive. All he wanted was his revenge on Kenobi, but little did he know that you would be caught in the middle of it.
The guilt that Obi-Wan had felt was unbearable at first. He wished he didn't rope you into this mission. He didn't think for one second that this could have been a trap for himself and for the both of you. Obi-Wan lives out his days with a heavy heart for being the reason you died.
Vader spends the next several years alone, wondering about the day he will kick the bucket. It isn't until one day, a new hope emerges and relieves from him the dark side. Where he would redeem himself and be reunited with you as your force ghost had waited a long time for him to join you in the afterlife. Together, you both spend an eternity together without having to suffer ever again.
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vodika-vibes · 30 days
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if you don't mind, could I have topaz with crosshair in the summer please? ❤️
Enjoy The Show
Summary: Crosshair doesn't get to spend much time together with his kitten, what with the Empire hounding his every step, and having to go on missions for the Rebellion. But every now and then he makes it his mission to spend time with you.
Pairing: TBB Crosshair x F!Reader
Word Count: 548
Prompt: Topaz - Affectionate Love
Warnings: None
Tagging: @trixie2023 @n0vqni @imabeautifulbutterfly
A/N: So, this is based in the AU that I'm half building where the situation in TBB is switched. So, Crosshair's chip never activated but the others did. Crosshair was forced to join the Rebellion in a desperate attempt to protect Omega.
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The summer air is thick with humidity and the crowds of people moving around Crosshair hum with an excitement that feels inappropriate with the state of the galaxy.
His Kitten tells him that people need things to celebrate, or else they would fall into despair, and he knows that she’s probably right. She usually is about these things.
And while Crosshair would, usually, never dare to step foot on Naboo —it’s common knowledge that Vader watches this planet like a hawk— today is different.
Today is Queen’s Day.
And no one cares about one silver haired clone…or, more importantly, the woman he’s here to meet up with. 
Crosshair drops some credits at a food stall, ordering two pita sandwiches, and then follows the crowd of people for a time, before he veers off towards the lake. 
And…there. Sitting on the dock, her feet dipped in the water, her head tilted backwards to focus her gaze on the darkening sky. “Am I late?” Crosshair asks as he steps on the dock.
Her head tilts backwards, and she beams at him, “Not at all. I got here early.” Crosshair walks over to her and sits on the dock next to her, close enough that he’s pressed against her side.
“Not too early, I hope?”
“Hm.” Her smile is warm and fond, and Crosshair feels a surge of affection, “I spent the majority of the day with my family, Cross. No need to fret.” She takes the sandwich that he offered her, and then leans her head against his shoulder, “I’m glad you could make it.”
“As if I would miss a date with you.”
She laughs softly, and rubs her cheek against his shoulder. Crosshair flashes her a small smile and hooks his arm around her waist, pulling her into a tight side hug.
There are a lot of things that need to be said. Offers that need to be made. It’s only a matter of time before people start to realize that she’s the Rebellion’s inside person on Naboo, and Crosshair wants her safe before anyone figures it out.
But those are all conversations for later.
“Are we going to be able to see the fireworks from here?” Crosshair asks.
She nods, “Yeah, I think it’s the best location. No one comes here to watch them, they’d rather climb up to the roofs of the buildings.” She makes a face, “So it’s quiet. Private.”
“You just wanted to get me alone.” Crosshair teases.
She tilts her head to look at him, her smile soft and warm, “Well. You’re not wrong.”
Crosshair keeps his gaze locked with her as the first of the fireworks shoots up to the sky. Red and blue blossom across the dark sky, taking the form of intricate blossoms.
But he can’t tear his gaze off of her. 
Off the way she looks under the moonlight.
Off the way the fireworks reflect in her gaze.
Crosshair’s hand comes up to cup to her face, and he leans in to press his lips, gently, against hers.
He feels her sigh into the kiss, and he feels her relax against him as she allows him to control the intensity of the kiss, and Crosshair is pretty sure that he’s never loved anyone as much as he loves her.
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dokoni-mo · 2 years
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Koi No Yokan || Darth Vader x GN! Reader (Chapter Five)
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summary: you were always one for breaking conduct.
SFW
word count: 5001
warnings: unhealthy parent-child relationships, arguing, allusions to canon-typical violence, mentions of death, crying, swearing, usage of the force, fluff, reader is referred to things such as "pretty" and "beautiful" , palpatine being palpatine, general despair, slight angst
chapter's tune // youtube version
a/n: yeah so uhhh this is the chapter that made me cry and y'all will see why shortly LMAOOO but anyway enjoy!! taglist open!!
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When the exit ramp of the shuttle opened up to you, and you were greeted with the sight of your lush, vibrant, colorful home planet, you were filled with one thing and one thing alone: dread.
It wasn't because you were upset to be home; in fact, it wasn't that in the slightest. After spending the last handful of months on the Executor, you were happy to be home again. Your planet was much more alive than any Empirical vessel could never hope to be. No matter where you looked, everything was teeming with color and vibrancy. All of the architecture was ornate and beautiful, hand-crafted by the best the galaxy had to offer. Hell, you were just simply happy to breathe fresh air for a change, and see a plant for the first time in the while, and feel the warmth of the nearby star on your skin.
You didn't dread being home. You just dreaded being home with them.
Your fiancé seemed to sense your unease when you and him made your way down the exit ramp, a few stormtroopers falling in line behind the two of you for protection. When the two of you came into view of what and who exactly was in front of you, you couldn't help but feel how your smile dropped. At the other end of the landing pad stood your mother and father, your dad waving at you in the distance while he held your mother close. Both of them looked as if they had not a care nor worry in the world. Moreso, they looked as if they weren't seeing their child after months in which they could have very well been dead. As if what they had done had been fine. It made all traces of a genuine smile fall away from your face, your eyes even dimming in the process. Vader seemed to notice this, and reached his hand down to touch the small of your back reassuringly, his mask pointed down to you. You tried to smile back at him the best you could, but even you could tell there was weariness that lingered in it.
You liked being home. You just didn't necessarily like who was waiting for you there when you arrived.
After squaring away a few things with a few officers, you and your fiance walked side by side down the runway of the landing pad to greet your parents. You tried to put on your best smile as you headed closer and closer to the couple, but it was partially in vain. You were good at faking it, but not that good. But, it would be passible. For the time being, at least.
"I sense your unease." Your fiancé rumbled next to you, making you steal a glance up at him. You were quick to realize that he was trying to be secretive about the conversation, so you looked back ahead in front of you, keeping your voice low as you responded.
"Was it that obvious?" you asked.
"Yes. Even on the way here."
You stifled out a little laugh, "Yeah, well, let's just say I don't have the best relationship with these two. I'm sorry in advance for whatever they say."
Before your fiance got to say anything in response, the two of you met up with your mother and father. To greet you alongside the customary how-are-yous and the you-look-wells, your mother pulled you in for a quick hug, as well as your father. The pair tried to greet the sith lord next to you, but not not much avail. Your father was brave enough to try and hold out his hand for a handshake, but Vader made no attempt to reciprocate the action. Instead, he stood straight ahead without a word, still as a statue as your father had to awkwardly retract his hand away. This helped you to make your smile a little more genuine that it was.
"We're so delighted to have you here, Lord Vader." Your mother chimed in, trying to break the ice with your fiance as best she could, "Especially alongside our (Y/N) here."
"It is of no trouble." He said in response; short, flat, at to the point, making you steal a glance up at him. He wasn't acting exactly like the Vader you knew. Around you, you had found that he was more wiling to say things; say longer things. You were able to hold a good, nice, back-and-forth conversation with him, and didn't struggle to figure out what to say in response. But, he was always different around others. He was a man of few words when in public, you had found. He didn't talk with much inflection, and often threw subtle insults around like it was nothing (mostly because to him, they were). Realizing this only added fuel to make your smile more genuine.
That meant he was comfortable being himself around you now. He didn't need the mask of Vader.
But thinking of such things; it made your mind wander. You knew that your fiancé was at least a decent amount of cybernetics. This never bothered you, of course, but you found yourself wondering just how much was metal under there. When you hugged him, you felt the muscles underneath his armor. You knew he was still a man, no matter what. But still, you couldn't help but wonder...
Just what did he look like under there?
Before you could think more about it, you were snapped out of your trance by the sound of your mother saying your name, making you look back over to her.
"How did you find the trip, (Y/N)?" she asked, "I hope the accommodations we sent where pleasant. For the both of you."
"Oh, yeah, they were fine." you said, flashing up a smile at the sith next to you, "It was great actually. We got some nice quality time."
Your sentiments earned a nod of approval from the sith next to you.
"Excellent!" your mother exclaimed, "We're so glad to hear!"
"Let's go inside now, yeah?" your father chimed in, "Come! We'll discuss more important matters somewhere more private! And more air conditioned!"
Your father let out a hearty laugh at his own joke as he turned on his heel, walking away alongside your mother. When their backs were turned and they were a good distance away, you let out a sigh, letting your smile drop from your face as you followed behind them. Your fiancé followed alongside you, stealing a few glances down at your annoyed, dejected face. You were glad the initial meeting went well, but maker above were you dreading the next part. If you thought that they were playing up their friendly, grandiose act now, you couldn't wait to see just how much of a show they would put on for Vader. You knew that if you were annoyed, he would most likely be annoyed already as well, or would soon share in your sentiment.
These thoughts plaguing your mind, you felt a twinge of regret bubble inside of you. You just wanted a chance for the both of you to get away, you didn't want to just make him annoyed.
Maybe you were worrying about nothing. Maybe it wasn't nothing. Who knows at this point. You just hoped your parents wouldn't be so insufferable.
"You are unsettled again." You heard Vader rumble beside you, making your lips part as you looked up into his lenses again, meeting his gaze.
"That obvious again, huh?" you asked, trying to keep somewhat of good spirits.
"There is no need for you to fret, (Y/N)." He reassured you, "Your mother and father are decent."
You let out a soft snort, "Yeah, for now at least. It won't be long before you're annoyed too."
Vader paused for a moment before speaking again, "I deal with several irritating individuals, (Y/N). I am sure that it will not be something I am unable to bear."
"Just... If you want out, just feel free to tell me. Or let me know somehow. I'm good at getting away without anyone noticing, alright?"
"As you wish."
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Sitting down with your mom, dad, and fiancé was painfully awkward. Well, at the very least, it was awkward to you. You weren't sure if your parents were capable of feeling awkward, let along the stoic sith seated next to you. Your hands were in your lap, gently holding onto the teacup that you had poured for yourself to keep you occupied.
Although you had been away from home for a good while now, your parents seemed far more keen on talking to Vader rather than you. They talked almost endlessly about the Empire, and bombarded the sith with any and every question that came to mind. From trooper accommodations, to funding, to implementation of the Empire's rules, to even questions about mundane life within the Empire, they asked and asked until their heart's content. You had to hand it to your fiancé though; if he was getting annoyed by the interrogation, he wasn't showing it to well.
Perhaps he was used to it.
You were quiet as the three of them talked about all that came with joining the Empire. Joining in on the conversation was pointless. Even though you spent a good amount of time right in the heart of the Empire on the Executor, you knew you weren't as knowledgeable as he was. You'd just be a distraction from the matter at hand. But still, you tried to keep your simple, polite smile on your face, even though you felt how much it wanted to fade away when you stared down at your teacup.
Tracing your finger around the rim of the cup, you tried your best to distract yourself so you wouldn't die of boredom. Even though you knew you very well could leave if you wanted, you knew you would feel bad doing so. Leaving him behind with your dreadful parents? How cruel would that be. Alongside this, you feared just what your parents would say about you whilst your back was turned. They were known to gossip, and you didn't want a bad light to be shone on you. Especially in front of the man you were to wed.
So there you sat. In spite, and in determination.
Deep in your thoughts, you felt an odd sensation tickle against your leg. Shifting your gaze downward, you saw a heavy, black boot slowly creep its way over to your smaller shoe. It eventually rested itself next to your own, strong and sturdy and unwavering. The simple action made you flash a smile over to the man next to you, who the boot belonged to.
This was probably his way of telling you he knew. He knew how bored you were, and how you felt bad about his interrogation. And this was his way of letting you know about it.
Smug bastard.
"(Y/N)," your mother spoke eventually, making you slightly jump in your seat at the sudden use of your name, "you seem dreadfully bored over there, love."
You leaned forward to set your teacup down on the table in front of you, just in case it almost spilled again with another flinch later on, "Yeah, well, I am. It's not like I know much about this stuff."
Your mom tried to awkwardly chuckle away your snarky remark, "Well, how about a change of topic then, hm? If that's alright with you, Lord Vader?"
"If it will spare my fiancé the discomfort." he said. You smiled over at him again.
"Right, of course." your mother said, taking a sip of her tea.
"So what did you two have in mind?" Your father asked, "We want to make sure everyone's happy here, yeah?"
"Right, well..." you begun, "I think the both of us would just like something low-key. We're both in agreement that when the time comes it should just be small and intimate. It's just more special that way."
Looking over at your mother, you could see the disappointment flash in her eyes as her gaze dropped briefly to the floor before settling back onto you. This made your dart your tongue across your lips. Oh shit. You knew what was coming.
"Well, dear," your mother said, "Your father and I just want to, erm, propose something to you both; What if we were to have the ceremony here?"
You glanced over at your fiancé for a moment, but he offered no such gesture back.
"Here?" you asked.
"Yes! We can decorate the entire manner for the two of you! And we can invite the neighboring systems to-"
"Mom. No. I already said; we want something small. Just close friends and family. That's it. We can have it here, that's fine, but not some huge spectacle."
"Come now, (Y/N)!" Your father chimed in, "Don't you want to celebrate the union? Show off in front of everyone?"
You stared ahead at your parents without another word, your brow furrowing in confusion and disbelief. How... dare they. They really want to decide this for you too? Wasn't deciding just who you were going to marry enough for them? They were always like this. They didn't care about your feelings, or any of your thoughts on any matter. All they cared for was themselves. You didn't want to admit it; you had fought against the notion for so, so long now. You had always held out hope that they only did it because they wanted to keep your best interests close to heart.
But now? You didn't believe it. Not one iota. Not only because they weren't listening to you, but they also weren't listening to him. You and Vader had talked about this before. You both knew what you wanted when the time came. And for them to not honor that? After causing both you and, more importantly, him so much trouble already? They were lucky enough that the pair of you had gotten along. You could give them that, at the very least. But to overstep such a welcome? In a matter such as this?
You wouldn't have it. You wouldn't have it for him. He deserved better. And you were going to fight for that, for your marriage's sake.
Your fiance could sense your burning fury as you sat next to him, your shoulders tense and your hands squeezing into fists. He turned to point his mask down to you as you stared ahead at your mother and father, seeing how your cheeks had heated at your rage. He spoke your name softly as he lifted up his hand to you, reaching out to touch your shoulder in attempt to ground you back to a calmed state. Before he could, you let out a soft, exasperated laugh.
"Are you shitting me?" you asked your parents, making your mom's eyes widen and your father's smile fade.
"(Y/N)," your mother hissed, "don't speak to your parents in such-"
"In such a way?" you finished for her. Your anger now bubbling inside of you, you stood up rather quickly, making the ornate, dainty coffee table in front of you shudder slightly at the speed.
"Can you really even hear yourselves right now?" you questioned, "This isn't about us, it never was. It was about you. You are the ones that want to show off. You are the ones that want everyone to kiss your asses because of something you created. Do you think that's fair? Do you really? Please, both of you don't give two shits about our marriage! You only care about yourselves!"
Picking up your feet heavily, you stomped over to the doors, lingering in the doorframe for a brief moment with a sneer.
"The two of you are really the most selfish, manipulative people I've ever had the displeasure of being related to. Until you can put your filthy prides aside and honor what we both want; I want nothing to do with you. Either of you. Thanks for fucking nothing."
With that, you exited that posh, velveted room, slamming the door behind you. You could feel the tears begin to prickle in your eyes as your shoes clacked down that long, empty hall.
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It wasn't until after just before sunset when your fiancé came to find you.
He could sense that you were in pain, that you felt bad about the meeting with your parents earlier. Even from all the way at the other side of your parent's estate, he could feel it. He assumed that you felt bad about your outburst, and about leaving them alone in there with your mother and father. He could understand that. And he could understand why you would resort to such measures as well. In fact, he even agreed with you. It was beyond unfair for them to try and gain control in such a way. He wanted the ceremony to be perfect. For your sake.
But that was the thing. In your words, the dark lord realized something so very intriguing to him; You weren't fighting for you, you were fighting for him. You wanted him to get what he wanted; and the fact that you wanted the same was just dumb luck.
However, this notion made him troubled. You had fought for him so, so very hard these last few days. Had he not been fighting for you? Had he not shown that he cares as much? He didn't want you to start believing as such. He did care about what happened to you.
He was just never one to verbalize it. At least, not anymore.
Perhaps that's why he felt so compelled to check on you. That alongside the fact that your anguish was strong. Strong enough to ripple the force around you, without you even being sensitive to it. He could feel just how hurt you were, and feeling you in such pain...
He felt that pain too.
It didn't take him long to find your room. In fact, he didn't have to ask anywhere where it was. All the sith had to do was follow the trail of your emotion through the force. He knew he was heading in the right direction when he felt that feeling grow stronger. Once he felt that it as at it's peak, the dark lord was greeted with two long, sturdy wooden doors, with two members of your home planet's royal guard perched out front. The two men made no effort to stop the sith from walking up close to the doors; seemingly knowing just who the dark lord was, other than as your fiancé. Vader paused outside of the entrance for a moment, leaning in his armored head close to the crack between the wooden slats. He listened intently, trying to gauge just what exact state you were in before he entered.
Nothing. You made not one peep from inside of your room.
Even though most people would walk away at this, assuming that you just weren't in there, Vader did nothing of the sort. He knew you were in there. He could feel it, and he was certain. And because of this, he didn't hesitate to take action. Slowly, he lifted up his mechanical digits to the wood in front of him, striking them against the surface a few times to signal he was outside. After a breif pause, he heard your voice from inside; quiet and weary, and almost unsure.
"Come in."
With your permission, the dark lord opened up the doors to your room and stepped in, making sure to close them behind him. You were sat upon your bed, legs dangling off the edge of the mattress as you hugged one of your pillows to your chest. Your eyes were slightly red and puffy, telling him silently that you had been crying not long ago. Despite your weary state, you smiled up at the sith, sniffling as you used your wrist to wipe away any tears that may still be visible.
"I'm glad it's you." you said. "I was wondering when you'd show up."
The dark lord took a few steps closer to you. As he did, you scooted yourself over moreso to the edge of your bed, silently inviting him to sit next to you. He did as such, the wood of the bedframe groaning beneath him at his weight as he turned his body to face yours.
"Are you alright?" he asked.
You breathed out a little laugh as you shrugged, your gaze faltering to the floor for a brief moment before returning to the lenses of his mask, "I'll be okay. It's just... I didn't expect them to do that. I mean, maybe deep down I did, but... I don't know. Maybe I overreacted. I'm sorry."
"You have nothing to be ashamed of, (Y/N)." your fiancé reassured, "I concur with your sentiments. It is unfair of them to proceed with such... measures."
You let out a soft giggle, and the dark lord could feel a sense of pride well in his chest at being able to make you smile in a time like this.
"You have a funny way of talking, yknow." you said.
"Is that so?"
You nodded, "Don't stop, though. I like it. It's very you."
Without another word, Vader and you stared at one another, the dark lord making note of the soft smile on your lips. The sith had to admit; he had always found you attractive. Your features had complimented your personality exceptionally well, and you were fierce. He liked that about you. And, in all honesty, you were still attractive, even when upset. Even earlier, when you were angry, you were still beautiful to him. Not only because of your appearance, but because of simply just you. You were a perfect amalgamation of the best characteristics of everyone he had ever loved in the past.
So, to him, it wasn't hard for him to admit:
he was falling for you. He could feel it.
And the way you looked at him?
He could feel you shared the same sentiments.
Vader was the one to break the silence between the two of you, his gaze still transfixed upon your face.
"Your parents wished for me to inform you of tonight's festivities. They stated that there will be a... get-together, as they put it."
With a roll of your eyes and a long groan, you flopped yourself backward onto your mattress, brining up one hand to clasp over your brow as you closed your eyes.
"Ugghhh, that means they invited everyone and their grandmother here!" you stated, "Of course they'd do that now, of course!"
Amused at your display, Lord Vader stood up from off your mattress, taking a few steps over to the door to linger in its frame as he spoke again to you.
"It will begin in about one hour. I shall see you there."
All you did in response is lift up one of your arms, giving the sith a tumbs-up as you rubbed your headache away.
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About an hour after your fiance left you, you started to hear the faint, distant rumble of the guests filing in to the main corridor of your parent's manor. You took this as your cue to get up off of your bed; and furthermore to stop your pity-party and join the real party. Pushing yourself off of the plush mattress and sheets, you padded your feet over to your full-length mirror, slipping on your shoes along the way. Once you were a good distance away from the glass, you gazed at your reflection as you smoothed out your clothes, using your fingers to comb through your hair.
Although it had been a fair while since the events prior, you were still bitter. You weren't necessarily mad anymore; you had never been the type to stay mad for too long. Too much of a headache. But still, you were bitter. And you had every right to be. Staring ahead at yourself, you were reminded of just everything your parents had ever done to you. The times they put you aside for their own gain, to the times they didn't even bother listening to your thoughts to begin with. Perhaps that's exactly why they had you. They wanted another thing to show off. Seeing as you were about a year younger than the other nobles' children, your theory had weight to it. Your parents had seen them have something they didn't, and couldn't tolerate it.
A frown made its way across your lips.
Fuck them.
They had never given a shit about what you had to say, so why should you? Why did you have to listen to what they said? Make accomodations for them? Give away what both you and him want for them?
That was the thing. You were an adult now. You didn't have to. And they knew that. That was exactly why they were trying so desperately to control you now. It was sick.
And it was also exactly what he didn't do.
He never tried to control you. Not once. At the very most, he would lay out all the facts about a situation in front of you. But he let you choose what you wanted to do. Being with him was freedom. And that's where your parents had failed. They did just what they didn't want to do; give you free will.
And perhaps that was why you felt your heart swell whenever you looked upon the sith lord these days; and why you came up with a plan.
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Vader had began to wonder if you would ever show up. He knew he was terribly out of place in the middle of that corridor, looming over the other guests dressed in posh, intricate clothing in his usual pitch-black armor. the candlelight of the hallway was beautiful, as well as all the décor and refreshments that lined the walls and spirals. But, most certainly to the sith, the people in it were not. He was smack-dab in the middle of all the incessant chatter. And frankly, he was getting rather sick of it. His presence stuck out so much that the nobles had taken it upon themselves to try and drum-up conversation with the sith. He would have none of it, and used his intimidation to drive them away.
However, he knew he could only do this for so long. Eventually, he knew people would get more brave after seeing he wasn't in the mood for killing anyone that evening. Lord Vader was a patient man, but not that patient. But, he knew having you around would make it all the more bearable. You were the perfect distraction for him. Perhaps he could even have fun if you were here with him.
Keeping that notion in mind, one could only imagine the relief the dark lord felt as he saw your smaller form push through the crowd, a look of determination in your eyes. He noticed how a few of the people tried to talk to you, but also noticed how you politely slipped away as quick as possible. You were on a mission to get to the sith at the other end of the room.
And it was quite amusing.
Eventually, you were able to push and maze through enough people to get to the dark lord. You smoothed your clothes as soon as you came within conversation distance between yourself and Vader, your cheeks slightly reddened from your efforts. Vader noticed that look in your eyes as you stared into the lenses of his mask. That determination.
He quite liked that look.
"You are late." was all the said to you, placing his large, mechanical hands upon his belt. He watched as you playfully rolled your eyes, crossing your arms over your chest.
"Yeah, I am." you said.
"I was beginning to wonder if-"
"Do you like parties?"
The dark lord was taken aback by your sudden question. At first, he thought it was your attempt at a joke. But, as he studied your face, and saw that same look in your eyes, he quickly realized you were serious. He stiffened his shoulders at this, tilting his head to the side.
"I... no. I do not." he said.
You breathed out a smile, "Good, I don't either."
The dark lord kept his gaze on your frame as you took a step closer to him, standing next to him shoulder-to-shoulder. You leaned in close to the sith, standing on your tip-toes to try and reach his height better. Meeting you halfway, the dark lord allowed himself to lean down to you.
"Do you see that big, fancy vase over there?" you asked him, pointing in the direction of the furnishing. Following your gesture, Vader gave you a nod.
"Yes."
"Good." you continued, standing flat on your feet again as you looked back up at him, "You have that, like, magic hand-thingy right? That lifts up objects and does the mind tricks and all that?"
Vader tilted his armored head at you again, "The force?"
"Yeah, that. You use that, right?"
"Yes, I do. (Y/N), I do not see how this is-"
"I want you to explode that vase with it."
Vader could feel how his shoulders stiffen at your demands. You wanted him to do what?
"(Y/N), I do not think that is wise." he stated.
"Why not?" you asked.
"There is no need for that. If you wish to see a display of the force, I will show you at another time."
You let out a little groan at him "Come on, Vee! Please?"
You took a little step closer to him again, reaching out your hands to his. The sith watched as your little fingers wrapped themselves around his palms. Your hands were gentle against his, and Vader's gaze lifted from them to your face as he felt you squeeze against him.
"Just trust me, alright?" you spoke, just loudly enough for him to hear with a smile. The dark lord stared down at you for a long while, studying your face. That look of determination still hadn't left your eyes. However, looking further, he saw something more.
Hope.
Maker above, how pretty you were. How could he possibly say no to such a face?
Eventually, the dark lord gave you a nod.
"Very well." he rumbled out to you, watching as your smile grew at his agreement. You stepped out of his way as he looked over to the vase in question, feeling how your hands slipped out of his. Dipping his armored chin down in focus, Vader reached out with the force around him, bending it to his will. Within a few moments, he had done as you asked, seeing how you flinched in his peripheral vision as the vase shattered into a million pieces.
In the fallout, the nobles in the room had all turned their attention to the scene, and began chattering away as they interrogated one another about what had happened. The dark lord looked down to you as the commotion filled the air, seeing as how your smile grew as you scanned over the crowd.
"Alright, that's it!" you exclaimed.
"What do you mean?"
"Come on, let's get out of here." you said to him, looking up to the dark lord as your smile widened.
The sith tilted his head to the side again, "What-"
"Come on!" you pleaded again, "While they're distracted!"
Quickly, you reached your hand down to the dark lord's own, grabbing one with haste. Vader watched as you begun to speed off in the opposite direction of the crowd, keeping him in-tow as you quickened your pace. The sith had to walk rather briskly to keep up with how fast you were, his cape fluttering behind him as he kept his eyes on your back. Your hand firmly wrapped around his, you were nearly running as you led your fiancé to the large opening in the rear of the corridor, a giggle escaping your lips as you pulled him into the lush, green grass of the outdoors.
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Although it had probably only been a few minutes since you had first enacted your scheme, to the dark lord, it felt like seconds.
Within a few flashes of a few moments with his hand within yours, you had quickly led the sith far, far away from the venue of the party. Even if the party had been to celebrate the two of you with the other neighboring systems, you surely didn't seem to care. You didn't look back once, you were steady in your tredge forward. And for being so small compared to him, shit did you have some stamina. You had been nearly running this whole time now, with a rather large sith lord dragged behind you. Lord Vader was impressed.
Eventually, you let go of the sith's hand, quickening your run into a sprint as you let out a laugh. Vader lingered behind you, walking as a steady pace as he watched you frolic in the scene around the pair of you. With the faint, distant sound of music in the background, you had led yourself and your fiancé into a large, spacious opening; a meadow. Although it had been quite dark due to the fall of night, the bioluminescence of the flowers and lightning bugs around the area gave off plenty of light, coupled with the shine of the two moons in the sky. the meadow was outlined with large, thick treeline, and beyond them tall mountains and waterfalls.
The dark lord could hear the rustle of the leaves and grass as he pushed through across the space, feeling how his boots made the fauna below fluff beneath his weight. His hands on his belt, the dark lord watched as you ran through all the flowers and grass, hearing how you laughed at your amusement.
So this had been your scheme all along. Have him create a diversion for the crowd, so you could slip away unnoticed. How clever you were for this. The sith found himself wondering if you had used that tatic before.
Although he wasn't ever one to do such a thing himself, he could commend you on your efforts. He was glad that you had come up with such a thing, even. He was getting rather tired of the party anyway. And this place you picked out; it was beautiful. Lord Vader didn't get to see such luxuries very often. Had you had this place in mind the entire time? Did you happen to stumble upon it just not? Or perhaps, was this a place you often frequented in your youth? Vader found it rather endearing to think of every possibility. And, even more endearing that you had thought of him during this possibility.
Even though you were a good distance away from him, the sith felt so close to you. It had been a long, long time since he had allowed himself to let his guard down like this. Looking back, the last time was probably Mustafar. Just before the duel. When she had tried to convince him to come home again. Thinking about it now, she had been right. He should have gone back home. Perhaps things would have gone a lot differently for him. He would be the master he always wanted to be. They would've had their baby. He would've been a father. He would still have her, his brother, and his sister by his side. That's what should have happened.
But, gazing over at your form, hearing your laugh across that beautiful, lush meadow, Lord Vader had found himself puzzled.
If that was what should have been his fate, why was he grateful that it hadn't been? It was what he wanted, wasn't it? So why?
The dark lord watched as you turned around to him, waving one of your arms in the air with a big, giddy grin on your face as you slowed your run to a stop. Your chest was heaving from all your activity, but you were still not slowed in the slightest. You were calling out to him; calling out the nickname you had given him, telling him to hurry up and catch up to you. He gave you a nod in response, and watched as you turned back in the opposite direction.
As you waved over to him, you had apparently not been conscious of just where you had been stepping. Suddenly, you had tripped over something in the grass, and were knocked down off your feet in an instant, leaving you lying in the grass.
Concern washing over him, the dark lord quickened his pace over to you. You hadn't moved in that brief time since you fell and when Vader had made his way up to you, and it made him worry? Had you hurt yourself? Were you able to walk still? Did you hit your head?
Taking a knee next to your body, Vader looked down at you as he reached his hand out, placing in on your shoulder and giving it a light shake.
"(Y/N)?" he asked, a hint of worry in his baritone voice, "Are you alright?"
Lingering his hand on your frame a second longer, Vader could feel the light buzz that eminated from out of your chest. Swiftly, you turned over to lay on your back, a big, dopey smile on your features as you laughed up at him, your hands reaching up and settling on his shoulders and upper arms.
"I can't believe you fell for that!" you exclaimed breathlessly in between your laughs, small tears beginning to prickle at the edges of your eyes from your amusement.
Vader should have been mad. He was never one for jokes as such. He should have scolded you for attempting to worry him in such a way, all for the sake of your own humor. But he didn't. He couldn't even. The way you smiled up at him, your eyes filled with pure, raw joy as you laughed. From the sound of it, this was probably the first time you had laughed so hard in a good, long while. You needed it. And frankly, he was glad. Glad that he could be there to supply you with such a thing.
And, he had to admit. It was a little funny. And your laugh was rather contagious. So much so, that you had shocked the dark lord hovering above you.
Without him even realizing it, Lord Vader could feel how from behind his mask, his own lips had turned ever so slightly upward at the sound of your giggles. As quickly as it came, it faded away; mostly due to his utter shock that it had been there in the first place.
He had smiled.
When was the last time he had done that? Genuinely?
He couldn't remember. Not with any certainty. That old, foreign gesture had been lost to time, long long ago.
Kneeling there next to you, feeling your hands upon his body as you rode out your giggles, Vader was faced with his question from earlier. Why didn't his fate end up the way it should have? Who was to blame for that? Was it himself? Was it his master? Was it the order?
No. It was nothing of the sort.
As time stood still around himself and his fiancé, Lord Vader came upon the truth.
Way back then, he didn't get what he wanted. He didn't get the rank of master. He didn't get the girl. He didn't get the life with her. He didn't get his friends. And for a long while, Lord Vader had thought the story ended there. That his life really was a tragedy, one to be told around campfires for years to come to warn of the misfortune of bad decisions and the coercion of the dark side.
But none of that was true.
For fate had been kind to him all this time. Fate did not give Anakin Skywalker what he wanted. It gave him what he needed.
You.
Every mistake he ever made, every lie he ever told and every heart he ever broke; they were never in vain. All of them were just one piece in the puzzle that led to you.
You were his chosen one all along. No one else.
Faced with this fact, staring at your beautiful, gorgeous face, only one thought passed through the sith lord's mind. Quiet, only loud enough for a fleeting memory to hear.
Thank you, Padme. Obi-Wan. Ashoka. Mother.
Goodbye.
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11 - Shamy Babysitting on Date Night
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Part 12
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"I don't understand why we can't come with you to dinner like always mommy!" Evelyn grumbled sitting on the couch while I was putting the last of our stuff back in the suit cases. Georgie was in the bathroom putting his belt on in his jeans.
I was wearing a short green dress with a blue jeans jacket. My hair was curled and I was wearing some tenna shoes instead of heels. Sheldon and Amy were coming back tonight from their honeymoon so I asked if they could babysit for us. "Because you're father and I are going out for date night."
"Are you going to have another baby tonight?" Aurora asked, finishing her grilled cheese at the tiny dinner table with her mouth full.
I almost dropped the ear ring I was trying to put in. I blushed , wishing that they didn't think that date night was always about babies. "No, that isn't always the case. For your information the doctor said that I needed to not do that during this pregnancy."
"Alright you two be nice for your uncle Sheldon and aunt Amy. You're mom and I'll be back in a few hours." I heard a set of boots hitting the wooden floor where I smiled eyeing my husband up and down. "Wow Y/n. You're still as sexy as always."
Blushing at his words he walked up tugging me into his chest where my hands rested on his chest. "Georgie stop…not in front of the girls."
"Ewww!" Aurora and Evelyn both grumbled in discgust.
Three knocks on the other side of the door made us break away recognizing Sheldon's voice. "Georgie and Y/n, Georgie and Y/n, Georgie and Y/n." Shaking my head I remembered that he would do it as a child and I was thankful that he did once because one time Georgie and I were just laying underneath the covers of the bed in the garage with no clothes while Connie was watching Aurora. We had a fun time that night and I would have been horrified if he walked in on us.
Turning the door handle open I separated from my husband's embrace smiling at the newlyweds before me. "Hey Sheldon. Amy, how was the honeymoon?"
"Great. Thanks for watching our place." She responded sitting down the suitcases nsat the door.
Sheldon pulled out a notebook and began searching throughout the apartment. We honestly did our best to keep most of his the way it was. He quickly entered the room holding up some of his figures from Star Wars. "Which one of you had Obi-Wan and Darth Vader hugging. They aren't friends!"
"Me uncle Sheldon." Evelyn raised her hand with a weak smile peeking over the couch.
Amy closed the door coming over to sit down at the kitchen table to be across from Aurora. Georgie shrugged on his black jacket holding the door open for me. “We’ll be back thanks again guys.” Intertwining my hand with my husband’s I smiled knowing that we really needed time alone. It wouldn’t be long before I would be in the tough time of my pregnancy. I could already tell this baby was going to be much bigger than the girls were.
Georgie and I actually ended up going to a Mexican place. He pulls out my chair for me sitting across the table. He picked up his menu with the waitress coming over to us. “Can I get you two started on magretia’s or something else to drink?”
“Uh no I’ll just have water.” I replied knowing that I couldn’t because of the baby.
“I’ll have the same and we will split a chicken chalota.” Georgie told her where I sent him a confused look handing her my menu watching her walk away. “Don’t give me that look if ya can’t drink then I’ll do the same.”
Running my fingers through some of my hair that fell in front of my eye I shook my head feeling my heart skip a beat at how sweet his is. No matter how old we got he always was a sweetheart to me. “Georgie you seriously don’t have to do that. I didn’t mean when you had alcohol sometimes with Evelyn.”
“Nah don’t worry about it, Y/n. I promise you it’s no big deal to me.” He waved his hand simply reaching across the table squeezing my hand in his with a smile on his face. For the rest of the evening the date had gone pretty well until his phone started vibrating so he showed me the video call of his brother.
Taking the phone from his hands his brother was completely panicking. “I can’t believe you left me with these two. Penny and Bernadette decided to come over and make cookies with Amy and the girls. Now they are all hyped up on sugar.”
“Sheldon, they will tire themselves out in a few hours.” I responded back seeing Aurora suddenly jump up onto the back of the couch. She then flung her arms around his neck nearly choking him where he both collapsed onto the floor dropping the camera. “Oh lord…Amy help the little sugar creature has me!”
Georgie started hitting his fist on the table chuckling alongside me. Throwing my head back I knew we were probably making a scene by the amount of laughter we we’re sharing with the rest of the resultant but it was so hard not too. “I ate so much candy, Aunt Amy is the best!” At that point Evelyn was running around the room swaying her arms around in the air.
“I would like to apologize Y/n. Penny and Bernadette came over with some stuff to have cupcakes and wine. Don’t worry we didn’t let them get into the alcohol.” Amy picked the phone up from the floor apologizing.
Sheldon shouted back, making her hang up the phone. “Amy, they are insisting we do karaoke. Help!”
The waitress came back with our food and drinks so I put the phone down wondering what the genius would be like as a father. Shoving a bite of food into my mouth I winced feeling something sharply kick inside my stomach. “Argh crap!” Dropping my fork I rested my hands on my stomach feeling a few more things of pain coming.
“Y/n, darlin’. What the hell is wrong. What’s happening?” Georgie shoved his chair back rushing over to me. He puts one hand on my shoulder staring at me with those worried brown eyes.
Clutching my eyes shut for a brief moment I knew this had happened before when I was first pregnant with Aurora. The pregnancy with Evelyn went a lot more normal so I was hoping this one wouldn’t be any trouble. “Urgh…Georgie call an…ambulance…it’s the baby I think…something’s wrong!” He squeezed my hand grabbing his phone frantically trying to dial 911.
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Sweet @aigoos tagged me, so here we are.
If you are tagged, post a picture or write out the names of your fics/WIPS as they are in your computer/phone. (Explain the names if you think it's necessary)
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I kinda cheated and showed you only my 'Obikin' folder. It hides in the 'SW related' folder in which there are 2 other WIPs (that will probably never see the daylight lol):
- 'SW what if something': Vader didn't die and Luke hid his father on some lost planet, but has to ask him for help after Leia and Ben are being kidnapped. I wanted a very angry Ani rampaging the entire galaxy like "What do you mean you've taken my daughter and grandson???? You are so gonna die". This with Luke who follows him like a happy golden retriever puppy and Han who wonders why Vader is scarier as their ally than as their enemy. All this under the very amused eyes of force-ghost Obi-wan who throws Ani in battles like Ash throws Pikachu. Oh and they all hug at the end bc my mental health needs Ani to hug his children.
- 'SW something I wanted to keep (Ani and Padmé divorce)': I like to give long names to my documents lol. This one is quite self-explanatory x)
To go back on the Obikin folder, you have an insight of how I'm working:
1) I try, as much as possible to have a 'storyboard' bc it's way too helpful. They mean nothing, I love it.
2) then, well, I write the fic lol. If it's a long one, I like to have another doc on which I only have the chapter I'm working on. This is because it allows me to focus on one thing at the time and because my laptop sometimes has issues opening +20 pages docs so I go easy on it x)
I'm not going to explain them all because this post is already too long, but...
- 'Obikin because I need therapy...' is actually the very first Obikin fic I started working on. It wasn't even that bad so maybe I'll finish it one day x)
- 'Dancing with the waves' is actually the WIP I'm really working on and, unless I post OS, will be the next fic you'll see on my AO3.
- 'This FUCKING picture' exists because there is a picture of Ewan MacGregor in a kilt that lives rent free in my head and when I saw it I thought "damn... Anakin is so going to rail him" (I'll post it once it's done, yes I promise)
- 'The will of the Force' has nothing to do here because it's not an Obikin fic even though these two idiots are concerned x)
The 'Dance with the waves (title?)' folder simply contains each chapter, one by doc.
The last folder contains:
- 'I'll thank my car', first OS with smut and I'm still very fond of it;
- 'I'll thank the empire 1.0', this one disappeared in a fire;
- 'I'll thank the empire 2.0', this one will disappear in a fire;
- aaaaaand... soon enough, there will be 'I'll thank my/your desk' because I have very strong feelings about Obi-wan fucking Anakin on a desk, don't ask.
That's pretty much it.
I have no idea of who to tag so if you want to do it feel free, you can blame me x)
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kenobster · 8 months
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Hey - just wanted to send a note after your last post bc I didn't interact with your Vader mpreg posts and wanted to explain why ,- it's not at all because I find you grotesque or any of those other terrible things!! I love your writing, I'm just in an Obi-Wan whump hyperfixation rn and scroll past anything that doesn't mention him 😭 I'm so sorry, it was never my intention to dig up any bad thoughts!! Sending you hugs ❤️
Hey friendo ❤️ Thanks for the ask and for sharing your feelings with me! I'm super grateful for your reassurance, you are very kind. I also really want you and everyone else to understand that y'all did absolutely nothing wrong. (Radiates huge hug energy for everyone!)
Like, I have scrolled past many a post without interacting with it. Sometimes I've even scrolled past posts that I want to interact with but am simply having a bout of executive dysfunction for whatever reason. There've also been many, many, many times (practically every time honestly) in which I do not reach the end of my dash by the end of the day and countless posts are lost to the whims of time because of it. And yeah, people will try to make us feel guilty for that. People who are hurting will especially try to make us feel guilty for that. There is post after post after post after post on this website demonizing people who don't comment or reblog for "ruining fandom." But those posts aren't being fair. Those posts are just coming from people who are hurting.
The truth is that life just be like this sometimes.
Regarding the other thing you said, I am well aware people follow me for a variety of interests! I know that not everyone shares my interest in horrifying atrocities against trainwreck villains, and that's fabulously okay with me. :) I like having differing dimensions and moods and places to exist. It's good for rainy days like today! And I'm very grateful that my broad spectrum of interests doesn't stop you from enjoying the things I post that you are interested in; that makes me incredibly relieved to hear!!
But yeah, so an interaction with a post about, say, Every Shadow isn't an interaction stolen from Vader's uterus. At least, not in my mind. It's true that I may be having feelings right now that are first affecting my ability to work on tamer/more popular interests -- but that doesn't mean I've forgotten every single wonderful person who has conveyed enjoyment of those interests! To the contrary, those people (you included!) make very happy and will continue to make me happy and have no bearing on my sad feelings in any way whatsoever. I enjoy asks about shadow AU and reblogs of Every Shadow chapters and likes of my dumb hot takes just as much today as I will next week and as I did last year. Yo, yesterday, someone even commented on one of the first Loki fanfics I ever wrote (back in 2014!), and even that gave me pure and utter joy. Believe it or not, there's no possible interaction any single one of you could have with me that could dig up bad thoughts or otherwise hurt me. So please don't ever feel like my sad feelings are reflective of anything anyone did or didn't do. <3
My sad feelings are a Me Problem, not a fandom problem. And sometimes Me Problems are nobody's fault. Sometimes people feel bad or need to take steps to preserve their mental health, and it's only the fault of some stupid brain chemicals trained to cause certain illogical reactions. But I'm gonna be fine, anon, so you keep being you. :)
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novelmonger · 1 year
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Moments That Bring Me Joy: Star Wars Episode VI - Return of the Jedi
On a whim, I've decided to go through some of my favorite childhood movies and just list all the moments in them that bring me joy. I'm fully aware that many of the stories I loved as a kid are deeply flawed, but I just want to take some time to appreciate what they did well. Just because I'm focusing on the positive doesn't mean I'm unaware of the negative.
Note: I chose the word "joy" deliberately. Not all of the moments that bring me joy bring me (or the characters) happiness. Scenes involving death or pain might not be very fun or cheerful, but I find joy in a good story well told.
And here's the end of Star Wars! This one has always held a special place in my heart, because I do so love a good ending ^_^
Han and Chewie's reunion is the best :') I especially love the way Chewie scoops him into an enormous hug and Han sort of gingerly pats him back.
I love watching Luke's problem-solving during his fight with the rancor.
"I used to live here, you know." "You're gonna die here, you know. Convenient."
"Boba Fett? Boba Fett? Where?" *turns around and smacks Boba Fett's jetpack, making him careen into the sail barge and fall into the sarlacc pit*
Lando's scream as the sarlacc's tentacle grabs him.
"No, wait, I thought you were blind!" "Don't worry, I can see a lot better!"
"When 900 years old you reach, look as good you will not, hmm?"
"Many Bothans died to bring us this information." Inside joke: "My emotional state really isn't the greatest."
"Keep your distance, Chewie. But don't look like you're keeping your distance. I don't know. Fly casual."
"I see them. Wait, Leia!"
I love the Ewoks. Everything about them ^_^
"Han, can you reach my lightsaber?" "*extreme frustration* Yeah! Sure!"
"Well, why don't you use your divine influence and get us out of this?" "I beg your pardon, General Solo, but that just wouldn't be proper." "Proper?!" "It's against my programming to impersonate a deity."
That one Ewok who just keeps clinging to Han's leg <3
The note of almost-regret in Darth Vader's voice when he says, "It is...too late for me, son."
The Ewok that jumps on the speeder bike and lures all the stormtroopers away, cackling madly! XD
"Your overconfidence is your weakness." "Your faith in your friends is yours."
"It's a trap!"
The Ewoks to the rescue! I love all their different ideas and tactics for fighting the Imperial soldiers--the ones that work as well as the ones that...really don't. And I especially love that, even though the Ewoks are mostly there for comic relief, we still see the toll the battle takes on them, and how some even give their lives in the struggle.
Chewie swinging across to the AT-ST with a Tarzan yell! XD
The Ewok in the AT-ST with Chewie stroking his hair appreciatively as they decimate the stormtroopers.
"I love you." "I know."
The way Luke goes completely ballistic when Darth Vader mentions the possibility of turning Leia to the dark side. Like the protective brotherly instinct that's been there all along just rearing its head with the feral rage of a lion....
Luke clenching his fist--his mechanical fist--and looking over at Darth Vader's mechanical hand he just cut off. The way he makes his choice, straightens up, and tosses his lightsaber aside, standing tall against the Emperor. "I'll never turn to the dark side. You've failed, Your Highness. I am a Jedi, like my father before me."
Possibly my favorite moment in the entire original trilogy is when the Emperor tortures Luke with Force lightning. Maybe that's a weird favorite, but...I just love everything about it. The Emperor's sadistic pleasure in Luke's screams, the way that Luke is completely helpless but calls out to his father--and calls him Father! The way Anakin looks back and forth between the man who has held him captive for so long, and the son that he suddenly realizes he loves, he loves! The way he hauls the Emperor up and throws him down the shaft, to fall and die an ignominious death, crying out pathetically the whole way down. The way Luke looks up with confusion as the lightning dies down around him, showing that even though he was begging Anakin to help him, he didn't really believe he would, he'd given up all hope of surviving, he was ready to die...but his father saved him at the cost of his own life. No matter how many times I watch this movie, this scene never ceases to be so powerful it takes my breath away.
"I'll not leave you here. I've got to save you." "You already have...Luke. You were right.... You were right about me. Tell your sister...you were right...."
That dumb little bit of irony where Han thinks Leia's in love with Luke (somehow, after everything!), but then she tells him that they're siblings....
Everything from Darth Vader's funeral pyre through to the end is just *chef's kiss* Perfect. Utterly perfect way to end the series. The quiet moment for Luke to grieve his father. People all around the galaxy cheering the fall of the Empire. The joyous abandon of the Ewok's celebration, using stormtrooper helmets for drums. The music that plays, oh, that music! Definitely in my top five tracks of the whole series. I want to bottle it up and bathe in the feeling that music gives me for a whole year. And all the Rebels being reunited, hugs all around, and then Luke looks over, and there are the ghosts of the three Jedi he knows and loves, watching over him....
I love Star Wars so much. It's given me so much joy over the years <3
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panickedscribbles · 2 years
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Honestly, it's hard to call Darth Vader evil. I mean yeah, he did terrible, unforgivable things, but like... have you met the guy?
He's got no limbs left and bargain bin discount replacements welded directly onto his stumps, 8th degree burns to his entire body, his lungs are medium rare, his boss pulled half his ribcage out so he could shove a windows 95 gaming PC (complete with RGB lighting) into his chest cavity, he's constantly being pumped full of pain/anger enhancers and whatever the hell """"Sith Chemicals""" are supposed to be (my money's on Palpatine's home brewed gamer girl bath water), his coworkers are all either cult raised fruit loops or self absorbed spanners (and anyone who has worked customer service can tell you that sometimes the only way to deal with the worst of the worst is to imagine strangling them to death in your mind. It's not Vader's fault he Can strangle people to death with his mind), a solid 20+ years of his existence were spent so far removed from comfort, safety, and happiness that when his son hugged him, he pretty much died on the spot 'cause his body couldn't process positive emotions.
I mean seriously, at what point do you have to just say "yeah, you know what, committing atrocities is probably a fair coping mechanism for you to have, even if it isn't healthy." Don't get me wrong, he's still a terrible person, but under those conditions I think he's doing about as well as can be expected.
Good on ya, mate. Keep trying your best.
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sunshinesdaydream · 10 months
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Ok you asked for it so you have to live with my coursed thoughts which tracked me all day.
First kriffing Jar Jar hung like a whale. I can't get over this and even more the thought about Grevious. I mean don't get me wrong I love some thirsty and weird Star Wars fans but the comment about his mecha-schlong made me scream WHY I don't wanna have this images in my head.
And then there is Cody. Much better thots thoughts but I can't get the images of his thunder tighs out of my head. Him cracking up some clanker necks with his tighs make me SO unwell I can't. Please stop doing this to me and people please stop bringing this up again and again. Just imagine what he could do else with his tighs. 😩
I hope you had a nice day so far. Love ya!
Yeah that post haunted me ALL DAY. I had to act like a normal human during a meeting and an area walk while I had the whole JarJar Grevious Vader thing in my head.
Now Cody... he's right up there with Rex. Cody, he's such a good guy. then you add in the thighs? Damn Cody, why? How many of your brothers have you taught to do that or did you keep that to yourself? The muscles in that man's legs, the things he could do with them. The things I could do TO them... WHY???
Now that I'm home and able to relax before sleeping I'm doing great! Also, actively replacing the disturbing post from this morning with clone thirst.
Love You! Also BIG Wrecker hugs!
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iggy5055 · 3 months
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You know I was thinking maybe if you don't think it's a bad idea to do an Emperor Vader / Anakin part where the reader is left alone in the palace Anakin isn't there he is doing his emperor duties (obviously he didn't want to leave her).
There is a storm and she is very scared, Anakin senses that his love is scared so he decides to abandon what he is doing. He arrives quickly, when he opens the door to his room (y/n) sees Anakin and runs to hug him telling him not to leave her alone again with her head buried in his chest.
Anakin comforts her until she falls asleep in his arms, reassured that he is there watching over her.
Before she fell asleep she gave Anakin a little kiss on his chest in the most tender way.
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Yandere Emperor Darth Vader x Reader Part 3.5
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Waking up is always peaceful nowadays. Slowly turning over and seeing my little star sleeping peacefully, all snuggled and cozy in our warm plush blanket, her head nuzzling into her overly stuffed pillow. 
I gently reached over to push away a piece of hair that had fallen over her forehead. Leaning in a little closer my lips gently brush against her forehead. It had been almost a month since she had come to our new home. I had taken the first week away from my duties to take care of her and help her acclimate to her new surroundings and lifestyle but I had to go back to work eventually. 
I sighed softly as I semi-unwillingly got out of bed. I hated leaving her, but I had work to do that others would kriff up. As much as I wanted her to be by my side all day it was still far too early for her to start learning how to be a true ruler of the galaxy. I had already announced to the galaxy I had taken my empress, but I have yet to let her make a public appearance. 
For the past month she has been getting acquainted with the palace. So far she could easily get around our private wing just fine, she knew where the garden was and had found the library and had been visiting nearly every day. I had also shown her how to get to the throne room if she ever needed me when I was working. I had a private study but that was also in our private wing. Often if I still had work to do but could no longer bear to be away from her I would take my work into the study and have her sit with me. 
I had given her a holo pad, something that took her a while to understand and actually use but once she figured it out she started to carry it around. Also so she could contact me whenever she pleased. 
Once dressed I looked over my shoulder to loot at my sleeping star once more before I had to go. I always had to leave early but there was no reason for her to be awake at such an ungodly hour.
Once the door shut I reached out and wrapped my force around her body. I never did it when I was with her torso just keeping a light hold on her mind. I never really had to unless I wanted to know what she was physically feeling, my constant hold on her mind telling me what she was thinking and help her calm down but whilst I was gone there was never a moment I wasn't wrapped around her and deeply buried in her mind. 
Not only did it let me keep track of her movement's and wellbeing throughout the day but I would often send her little signals like a warm feeling in her tummy or a calm feeling when she would feel overwhelmed or start to overthink. She didn't know that I was the one doing these things. She knew about the force but as far as she was concerned that just meant I could move things around and use a lightsaber. And I seldom saw a reason to enlighten her. 
I had shown her my ability to move things but I have yet to show her my lightsaber ignited, however she has held the hilt itself. I couldn't help but coo at her face when she first held it. She had looked up at me with such wide eyes, she knew what a lightsaber was but had never seen one and was clearly amazed by the hilt. I had often caught her eyeing the shinny hilt whilst we were together. Eventually she asked me if she could hold it once she received a little boost of confidence from myself already knowing what she wanted but I wanted her to be comfortable enough to ask me for anything, no matter what. 
After a while she finally figured out how to read my body language enough to know when I was willing to let her do certain things. Honestly the only thing I didn't really let her do was go to specific areas of the palace but she didn't know her way around well enough to get to them anyway, and getting off my lap before I was done with her. After a while she had gotten into the habit of just grabbing it occasionally, fiddling with it when she was bored, often when I had her on my lap whilst I was doing paperwork. If I felt she was getting too bored I would use the force to float it around her head and let her play with it while it floated around. 
I smiled at the memory of the first time I had done it. She had gasped, thinking she had accidentally dropped the valuable tool only for it to gently float around her. My eyes were focused on the papers and holo pad I had in my hand but I couldn't help but smirk at her smile and little giggle.
Walking into the throne room I could already feel the deep-seated corruption and greed that polluted the room like a poison fog. Greedy politicians that only wanted to benefit themselves. It wasn't common for me to work with the senators and representatives of the planets I ruled but I did have to have audiences occasionally.
And as much as I would like to, I can't spend all my time with my little star, regardless if something felt off today with my love and I found myself on edge already. Today was definitely not a day to test my patience. 
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Mornings always felt colder when I was alone, regardless of the weather I felt lonely and cold in the massive bed I shared with Anakin. 
Slowly opening my eyes I find my hand wandering over to the other side of the bed where he often slept, only to find it as empty as usual, empty and cold. I slowly turn my head and look over as if feeling the need to visually confirm that she wasn't there. 
But regardless of the lonely bed I found the feeling disappearing rather quickly, as if to just vanish into thin air as it was replaced by a feeling of calm and cozy. It was a feeling reminiscent of sitting by the fire with a fuzzy blanket and a good book on a cold dark day. I found it odd, any bad feeling I had always disappeared quickly, as if the deep safety I always felt would cast a large shadow over any other feeling. 
I looked up at the ceiling with a soft smile on my face, it made sense. I really did feel safe and above all loved in my new home. I let out a soft sigh as I closed my eyes again, allowing my body to take its time waking up. Anakin always insisted on never waking me up when he did despite my constant being that was so constant at this point I imagine it was more than annoying but regardless of my constant pestering he was always gracious and told me he would never wake me up so early, no matter how many times I asked with a slight smirk on his face. 
Sitting up in bed after having a good stretch I look over to my bedside table to where my holo pad was. I slowly picked it up and scared the screen for a second. Occasionally Anakin would leave me a message in the mornings, the fact that there wasn't meant he was busy today. 
Sitting up I looked outside the window, the dark black curtains had already been pulled back so I could see the beautiful view of the city. I furrowed my brows a little. I had always been greeted with a bright and sunny morning but today it was still mostly dark. I get up and wrap the soft robe Anakin had gotten me and walk over to the window. 
Never in my life had I seen a more angry sky. The clouds were dark gray and black as they swirled violently far above us. I felt uneasy at the sight of it like a rock had settled in the pit of my stomach. Something about the dark clouds seemed to bring a primal uneasiness to me. 
I move away from the window and go to grab my data pad and make my way over to the dinning hall. Anakin always seemed to know if I had eaten or not and tended to become a little peeved if I hadn't. 
I had sat at the head of the table and started to fill my plate with the food already set out on the table. I quietly ate breakfast as I looked over my holo pad. When Anakin wasn't in bed when I woke up he almost always left a message for me, activating the holo pad didn't bring up any messages meaning he was probably really busy. 
I let out a yawn as I finished up my food. I grabbed the cup of warm caff that was beside my plate and headed over to the library. 
Entering the large magnificent room never failed to amaze me. Tall black marble pillars stood several meters above my head, reaching all the way to the roof. 
The library had two levels, the second one following a grand staircase with books adorning large bookcases. I had only read a few books so far but lots of the books were in languages I couldn't even read, but the ones I had found were amazing. Stories of distant civilizations, worlds completely unknown to me, books of universal plants and fauna, animals I could never have dreamed of. There was so much knowledge I had never even dreamed of hidden on these shelves. enough to keep me busy for a lifetime. I had just picked up a book I had left the other day to continue reading. It was a book about Dathomirian culture and info about the planet itself. 
Settling on one of the many comfortable couches I open the book to the page I left off on. The culture and practices of the Dathomirians was very intranet and mysterious, practices I had never considered before like tattooing their entire body starting at a young age, each tattoo having a deep meaning and all markings being unique and helps to distinguish the members of their communities. 
There was also information on the Nightsisters, the female counterparts to their male dathomirians, unlike the men and their vibrant coloured skin the Nightsisters had more of a light gray color to their skin, with lighter coloured tattoos that don't cover their whole bodies.
The book itself was large with many chapters on the history of the species and planet, I became so enraptured in the pages I hadn't even realized it had gotten dark till it happened.
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I scowled as I made my way back to my stars and my room. Those damn politicians and senators had taken up all my time, never taking a breath before trying a new way to suck to me or to try and convince me to favor their system. 
The sun had already gone down, the city being illuminated by the lights as a storm began rolling in.
I had done my best to keep tabs on my little star but in trying to get my day done and overweight as quickly as possible I had neglected to keep a very close 'eye' on her. I made my way over to the kitchen to instruct the staff to bring our supper to our room, wanting to be alone with her for the rest of the night. 
I could hear thunder crashing outside, the sound rattling the windows, it was clear that the storm would last us all through the night and most likely the rest of tomorrow. It would make a good excuse to stay in with my love. 
As I make my way to our private wing I feel a sharp pang in my heart before I feel it in the force, I could feel (Y/N) distress, it felt the same as when I first brought her to her new home. I ran towards the library, nearing bursting the doors off the wall. It was dark, all but a single candle by a book on a table but I didn't need the light to know where my love was.
Running over to the corner she was sitting in, her back against the wall and crouching down and cupping her cheeks in my hands, She gasps and tries to get away from me, her eyes screwed tightly closed as tears cascade down her red cheeks and down onto my leather gloves.
Her loud sobs broke my hard as I moved to hold her close only for her to scream as another clap of thunder seemed to shake her soul.
"Shhhhh, my love, it's me. You're ok, just breathe."
She wouldn't relax as I continued to try to calm her down with my words, flooding her senses with the force that seemed useless in her panic. 
I slowly remove my hands from her cheeks to pull off my helmet, setting it aside.
Placing my hands back on her cheeks and forcing her to look into my eyes.
She gasps as she finally focused on me, as if she had only just realized I was even in the room with her. She stopped for a moment only to collapse back into my arms in sobs. 
I lift her in my arms and take her over to the couch to sit. Holding her close in my arms and thunder continued to crash outside. every time thunder would go off she would yelp and flinch at the sound. 
I keep her pinned to my chest as I try and comfort her rooting around in her brain to try and figure out what was wrong. After a few minutes of rooting around I finally realized what it was. 
The thunder sounded like a blaster bolt being fired, it wasn't something she remembered consciously, it was a physical reaction to PTSD. Even if her brain didn't remember it her body made her think something was wrong without her actively knowing what it was scared of. 
I let out a sigh of relief, obviously I wasn't pleased my darling was scared but at least she hadn't been hurt or attacked. 
"Shhh my love, it's ok. Nothing can hurt you while you're in my arms."
After what felt like an eternity of me trying to calm her I decided to use the force, blocking out her sense of hearing in a desperate attempt to relax her. 
Slowly but surely she began to calm down, no longer able to hear anything. Once she began to breathe normally I placed my arm under her knees and one on her back lifting her. She gasped a little as I lifted her and started to walk back looking up at me with big wet eyes. I give her a soft simile as I make my way to our room.
Once we arrive I gently place her on the bed and move away to take off the remainder of my armor only to feel her hand wrapped as tightly as it could around my arms, Looking back at her with surprise I knelt down to her level, realizing my force a little so she could hear me but nothing else. 
"Don't worry my love, I'm not going anywhere."
"Please."
My heart breaks at the sound of her voice, so soft and broken.
"Shhh my love."
I place my forehead on hers, slowly coaxing her to lay down. Once she was laying on the sheets I took a step back so I could remove my armor. Once it was off I crawled over her, hovering over her, my elbows on either side of her head as I brought my lips to her ear.
"You never have to be afraid of anything, not as long as I am here. I'll always protect you."
She sniffled softly, hiccupping a little from left over sobs. She lifts her arms and wraps them around my torso, her nails lightly digging into the skin on my back. I groan softly in her ear, loving the feeling of her clinging to me. 
"I'll always keep you safe."
I kiss her forehand, scowling moving down to her eye-lids and cheeks, kissing every tear.
I continued to hover over her and kissed her softly till she had calmed down, her hiccups quieting down as she finally went limp under me, her arms no longer clinging to me for dear life, instead just hugging me gently.
I lifted myself up, moving to crawl under the covers, pulling her with me till we were snuggled together in the middle of our bed. Once the blanket was wrapped tightly around her, one of my arms under her head as a pillow and the other kept her close to me by her waist. Our legs tangled together in a mess of comfort and love. 
I kiss her forehead once more as I slowly feel her fall unconscious in my arms.
Right as I had closed my eyes feeling content with her in my arms I felt her soft warm lips on my bare chest. My eyes slash open to look down at her lips pressed tenderly to my chest.
"Thank you, I love you."
Her voice was blurred with sleep but I heard her well enough.
My heart began beating faster than it ever has in my life. I kissed her every day, told her I loved her every chance I got, but this was the first time she kissed me, the first time she had said she loves me. 
I couldn't believe it at first, but as she fell asleep in my arms, her words replaying in my mind, burning it in my memory for all eternity I knew, I finally had my true love.
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💕 What is your favorite fic that you’ve written?
🧪 Do you research for your fics?
🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?
📚 Is there a fanfic or fanfic writer you recommend?
🤩 What led to your interest in the fandom?
💕 What is your favorite fic that you’ve written?
I think I would have to go with Sing Me a Song. I learned a lot and really enjoyed writing that one, and, despite its flaws, I do feel proud of it. Crosshair is a fun POV character to write, and I had so much fun writing his relationships with the other Batchers.
🧪 Do you research for your fics?
I do! I actually get really easily side-tracked when writing. For "Postmortem," especially, I spent a lot of time researching lethal injection drugs and medical information, something I'm not familiar with at all. Sing Me a Song also had me researching computer/virus terminology a lot (or asking my partner about it.)
🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?
I find Crosshair difficult to write, though I've gotten more accustomed to him. Especially before season 2, we didn't really have much to go on for his characterization in canon, which necessitated me re-watching scenes to try to pin him down. I am definitely guilty of writing him too soft a lot of the time, but it's a fun challenge to try to keep him in-character.
📚 Is there a fanfic or fanfic writer you recommend?
There are so many I enjoy! Right now, I'm following Snapback by TooManyTeeth and Silent Shot by IsadiahInDisguise. And I eagerly read anything by @saturn-sends-hugs and @the-bi-space-ace. The last fic I read was "An Honorable Burden Best Shared" by @renton6echo, which made me laugh. ;)
🤩 What led to your interest in the fandom?
I've always loved Star Wars, since I grew up watching the movies practically on repeat with my siblings. Attack of the Clones was my favorite one because I loved the arena battle with the cool creatures. As a little kid, I refused to watch the ending of Return of the Jedi because it made me sad when Vader died, or Revenge of the Sith, because the ending when Obi-wan and Anakin fight upset me.
I don't really remember my exact watch order! I seem to remember watching TBB and the final season of TCW all out of order because I had no idea who Echo was, and had to go back and watch Echo's episodes after being introduced to him in TBB. I also don't remember when I decided Echo was my favorite, but, given the genre of characters I gravitate toward, it shouldn't have come as a shock. (Spoiler alert: they're all traumatized cyborgs.)
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vodika-vibes · 10 months
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Part 3 of the Post Order 66 thing.
I've been jumped by plot bunnies and they're now threatening me with a big stick. Send help!
Tagging: @starrrgazingbunny
It's been 3 and a half months since Dusk rescued Cody from the clutches of Darth Vader, and Cody seemed to be doing well. Well, as well as any vod could be given the situation.
Dusk wasn't ashamed to admit thar he watched his ori'vosd like a hawk that first month, especially around the children, but Cody really seemed to just enjoy cuddling Rhawl and Yin. Marral was a lot more hesitant, but even he's warmed up to Cody since then.
Currently, Cody was holding Rhawl tightly, as the toddler drifted off to sleep on his shoulder. "In a couple of years he's going to be able to carry you, vod." Dusk teased as he eased the toddler out of Cody's arms, "also, you don't have to pick him up every time he asks."
"Yes I do." Cody replied, looking down at Rhawl with adoring eyes, "but you should probably put him to bed so we can plan properly."
"Yeah, yeah." Dusk shifted his grip on Rhawl, before he carefully maneuvered him through the ship and laid him in his bed. The toddler stirred unhappily, but Dusk just slipped his plush tooka into his arms, and he settled back right away.
He took the time to make sure that Yin and Marral were settled as well, and only then did he slip back up to the cockpit, where Cody was sitting.
"They're going to be furious that we're leaving them on Alderaan." Dusk said as he sat in the navigators chair.
Cody snorted out a laugh, "You wanna bring them to Coruscant?"
Dusk shook his head, "Of course not. Yin still has nightmares about the Purge." He sighed and tangled his fingers through his hair, "But if we do this right, Fox will be here, so I can tolerate them being mad at me."
Cody glanced at Dusk, "Palpatine keeps Fox close-" he started, and he was startled by Dusk's bitter smile. "Dusk?"
"Business as usual then." He replied, "Don't worry, Cody. This," he gestured vaguely, "I've done before."
Cody stared at him, horror growing on his face, "vod...Dus'ika. Was Palpatine abusing-"
"We didn't talk about it. But we all knew that Fox was Palpatine's favorite punching bag." Dusk said quietly, and then he leaned back, "Honestly, knowing that Palpatine is a Sith explains so much...Fox is going to need more help than Bee can give."
Cody watched him for a moment, "what do you suggest?"
Dusk glanced at him silently for a moment, "I have a friend on Coruscant. She'll help."
Two weeks later, a nondescript ship landed on Coruscant. Two men left the ship, paid their fees, and vanished into the Coruscant crowds as though they never existed.
An hour later, Dusk knocked on a metal door, and waited. "You sure about this friend, Dusk? If she rats us out-"
"She won't." Dusk promised as he glanced at his brother, though he glanced back to the door when it slid open. He motioned for Cody to follow him into the building, and Dusk easily maneuvered the twisting halls.
A door opened at the end of the hall and a slight young woman with vibrant ginger hair poked her head out. "Dusk," she sounded so relieved.
"Hey Kanna," Dusk accepted the hug she offered him, and he lightly dropped a kiss to the top of her head, "did you get my message?"
"I did." She ushered them into her apartment, which clearly doubled as a surgical suite, "You're going for Fox?"
"I am." Dusk nodded once, "Cody, this is Kanna Rae. She's a Jedi Healer."
"My master made sure that I survived the purge, she shielded me with her own body." Kanna explained at Cody's questioning look, "I've been here ever since. This used to be a Shadow safe house."
"Wait. How many Jedi survived the purge?" Cody blurted.
Kanna grinned, "More than you'd suspect. But we're here about Fox."
Dusk sat in one of the beat up chairs, "Palpatine has been gucking with Fox for years. With his mind and shit, are you able to help with that?"
"Generally yes. But it's been years, it's not going to be a one and done treatment, Dusk." Kanna warned.
Dusk shifted, "You know...the kids are getting to a point where a jedi teacher wouldn't hurt."
Kanna frowned, "You're asking me to leave."
"It's not safe for you here, red. It'll be less so when we steal Fox. And I wouldn't trust anyone with his treatment other than you." Dusk said quietly, and completely honestly.
Kanna scowled at him, but she didn't seem inclined to refuse. "You'll have to put me in Carbonite to get me on the ship. Miralukans are being hunted."
"Deal."
Dusk, Cody, and Kanna hammered out the remaining details with startling efficiency, and within 4 hours, Kanna was safely thawing from Carbonite under the watchful gaze of Bee, and the two men were taking up their positions in preparation to steal Fox.
It was actually embarrassingly simple. The Stormtroopers didn't even look at them as they entered the barracks. And poor Fox was so overworked that Cody didn't even feel bad about drugging him with the sedative.
Well. Maybe a little.
Getting him out was a little trickier, but their story, that their friend had over done the alcohol, was accepted with little more than a disgusted shake of the head...and then they were home free.
7 hours, and one surgery later, the ship that Dusk borrowed from Alderaan was well on it's was back to Alderaan. And Dusk was sitting at Fox's bedside.
His ori'vod had woken up about an hour prior, but hadn't said a word, just looked at Dusk in utter misery.
Kanna, who had been watching from the door stepped into the room, and she lightly touched Dusk's shoulder. "Palpatine is a monster, Dusk. But I can help him. Trust me."
Dusk looked up at the younger woman, and then he smiled, "Thank you."
He turned to check on Fox, just before he left the room, and he felt his heart break. Fox was clutching Kanna as though she was his only lifeline, and broken sobs ripped from his ori'vod's throat.
He allowed the door to slid shut, just as Kanna started smoothing her fingers through Fox's hair.
"He'll be okay," Dusk said to the empty hallway, "Kanna will take care of him." And then he turned towards the front of the ship.
Maybe it was time to reach out to the Rebellion, maybe Bail would be able to help him.
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My journey as a dad began almost 5 years ago. I know I have a long way to go, but here's what I've learned so far. "Tired" isn't an option. - I work in the office every day, 5 days a week, 6:00AM to 3:00PM. The distance between home and work is approximately 25km and I ride my motorcycle as my daily commute. Which means, I leave the house 2 hours before my shift just to be sure that I won't be late. The My workload's not that heavy, but the process is quite a pain. (Kinda tolerable) There are times when I don't want to leave the house and just lay down with my family and hug them. I want to see my boy wake up, yawn and stretch before starting his day. I want to drop him off to school more often and pick him up after. I want to do a side trip to the mini-toy store near his school and buy something for him. But I need to work so I can have money to buy things for him. LOL. If you drive every day, regardless if it's a 2 wheeler or 4, you understand how draining the traffic is. The route I take going to work and going home is the same. According to Waze, though, it's the "Fastest" route. *exhausted sigh I get home beat. Tired. Just want to lay down. Sleep. Relax. But it's the opposite in reality. When I get home, I want to see my boy. I want to play with him. I want to hear his stories on how his morning went. How school was. If he ate breakfast or lunch. How many stars he got from his teacher. Stuff like that. But there are times when I really can't function properly when I get home. And I mean, shutdown. Body shutdown. Arrived home, removed my riding jacket and lay down. I can rest, yes, but then I feel like a total asswipe for doing so. And when my boy just squeezes himself trying to get into my arms, I feel somewhat relieved. That's one more thing I appreciate about him. He gets it when I'm tired. He'd just lay down beside me or leave me be. "So, this is how it feels like to have a small human love you." I think to myself. And yes, after a long day at work, coming home to them makes it worth while. Your kid will ALWAYS copy what you do. - Literally and it goes both ways. I remember a time when I was taking the motorcycle for a wash. I was scrubbing it, washing it, getting all the dirt out, wiping it and even applying wax to it. After a few minutes, here comes my son with a micro fiber towel of his own, about to wash his bike. LOL. I offered to help, but he said "No" because, according to him, he "got this". The same scenario happened when I washed the car of my brother-in-law. After washing the car, I was wiping the excess water from the roof and I could see him wiping away as well with his mini-car. There was even a time when I was cooking. I was chopping carrots and other sorts of vegetables. I make it a habit to have him sit down at the counter top when his mom's not around just for me to keep an eye on him. Later that afternoon I see him chopping up his clay and putting it into a toy pan, making sizzling noises as he goes. LOL Moments like this really makes you feel good. On the other hand, kids also tend to copy your bad habits. I tend to raise my voice when I get angry. And just for perspective, I've received a compliment before that my voice is just like James Earl-Jones / Darth Vader. (I kid you not.) There are times when you're just at your limit and people just keep poking you until you have no other choice than to explode. And just as mentioned, I tend to raise my voice. Little did I know, my son hears it. And apparently, according to some of his aunties, he's been raising his voice frequently as well. This made me feel like a failure. I felt so little despite my big size. Made me feel irresponsible. Letting my child see his father like that. I talked to him and told him that it shouldn't be that way. The inevitable happened, right when I told him to not shout or raise his voice, he asked "Why". And I explained. Good thing is, I haven't heard anything about him shouting anymore. Though there are times when it's involuntary for him (surprise, surprise).
Be CAREFUL of the words you speak. - Let's get real. These are kids. They don't know much. That's why we're here (Parents, yes. You and me and everyone with an offspring) to guide and explain things to them. Don't ask your kid "What's wrong with you?" just because your child broke a glass or spilled water. A kid tends to ask themselves these question and would actually doubt as to what would the answer be. No one wants their child to overthink at an early age. Specially with kids who are about 4 - 5 years old. They're chatterboxes by this age! They don't know the answer to all of the questions. Do we? I'm not a perfect parent and if there is one, I haven't met them yet. Tell them the words from your heart. Words that would make them feel loved. Make them feel that they belong in your arms, that they'll be safe in your arms. At this age, that's one of the major things we need to make them feel, dude. LOVE. You'll never know how time flies so fast. Take? NO. MAKE time and spend it with them. - I've been more frequent at work than I'm supposed to. I don't know, I guess I got used to working remotely since I did for 2 years. Now, I'm in the office. Sometimes, I tend to think the inevitable. "I'm not getting any younger." Yes, it's true. But neither is my kid. Neither is my wife. When I think about it, it puts me in a mood where I just want to hug them and never let go. Plant small kisses on their face just to let them know how much I love them. When night time comes, we always wash ourselves before heading to bed. And the first ones to hit the hay would be me and my boy. We'd talk for a while. I'll ask him how his day went, he'll ask me where I went, I'll say "to work" and he'll follow up with a "why" and I'll answer "so that we'll have money to buy food, to pay bills, for your school and to buy toys" and he'll ask again, "why" and with that, I've opened up an endless loop. (I really need to know when to shut it LOL)
I explain why I raised my voice or why I got mad when he did something bad. (Not intentional rhyme). And I always make it a point to make it clear for him that I'm not mad at him or angry at him. I explain that I'm only mad at what he did, not at him directly. Most of the time, he'll fall asleep in my arms. Just before I sleep, I gaze over his face. rubbing his hair, playing with his ears, pinching his cheeks and small lips. And quietly, I overthink. "I don't want this moment to go away." "I want you here always." "I want the best for you." "I'm sorry." "I won't let anyone hurt you."
I make scenarios in my head that are quite realistic. I imagine him leaving for high school, when he wouldn't need his mom or dad to drop him off anymore. I picture him going out on a first date. Heck, I even picture him leaving for work, but we wouldn't know if he'd still be under my roof by then, would we? Well, I'd prefer it though. My most precious gift. He does me proud every time. There's nothing in this universe I wouldn't do for him. I've said this before and I'll say it again, I've got a long way to go with this fatherhood thing. And so far, I think I'm doing okay. Unless someone says otherwise. LOL (The self doubt is real). Thanks for reading and see you in the next episode!
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24 - The Jedi Legcay Lives On
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Kenobi's Future
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Tatooine was the safest place in the Galaxy for us. If Vader came again we could be ready. We proved to him that love was stronger than the Dark Side. "I love you my Obi-wan...always and forever."
The sandy dessert of Tatooine never warmed my heart more than in this exact moment. Years ago we came to this place broken from the deaths and betrayal of Order 66. My heart was broken over the loss of my sister. The only person I trusted with my life before I met my husband. The ships door opened outside our little hut. Intertwining my right hand with Obi-Wan's he sucked in a sharp breath slowly walking down the metal ramp. The wind blows my hair around while I kept my other hand resting on my lightsaber clipped back to my belt. "Mommy, daddy. You're okay!" Padme's innocent voice broke through the air.
"Oh Padme. I've missed you." Obi-wan dropped on his knees immediately letting her fling her arms around his hug. She buried her head into him smiling with his arms tightly wrapped around her little body.
The front door of the hut opens and I don't have a second to process who tackled me almost to the ground in a hug. Stumbling on my feet I smiled wrapping my arms around Kiera's form. "I felt your force going out mom. I thought we had lost you..." She sobbed into my shirt until we broke the hug.
Squeezing her forearms she gripped my shoulders. Her hair is a reck and I could see circles under her eyes meaning she didn't sleep well. I probably looked much worse since I haven't slept or really ate good in months. Foosteps approached us where I saw Cassian and his Droid coming forward. "I'm sorry to say this but we have to go. We've been assigned on a mission by the general."
Obi-wan and I shared the same glance waiting to hear Kiera say she would leave home with him. We were going to have to accept the fact that there will come a day that our children might leave us. That is the fate for every parent. To give your children the best chance in life. "Cassian, I can't go with you like I previously thought..." She trailed off stepping up to him where he looked down since he was taller than her.
"Mommy, are they gonna kiss?" Padme stands in between the two of us as we watched the pair in front of us. Obi-wan shrugged his shoulders to her question focusing on his other daughter.
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Kiera's POV
Cassian's eyes stared down at me where I wrapped my arms around myself. My lightsaber attached to my hip even though I knew the Empire would be stupid to come after us. I'm still not trusting that my parents were keeping more secrets from me but I have to stay here and protect my family. That's what the Jedi are supposed to protect the ones who can't protect themselves. "Can I know why. You seemed pretty determined on my ship?" He questioned shoving his hands in the pockets of his jacket.
Bending my head to the ground I sigh kicking some sand up with the tip of my boots. "I'm sorry Cass. It's just...this place - I thought that I needed to see the world beyond this place. But I was wrong. I had everything I needed right here..." Grabbing my hands in mine I felt some tears slipping down my face. "My heart belongs to you. You're the first and only guy I will ever...that I'll ever love. But I have to stay here and become a Jedi before I join you. Just know I - I love you Cassian Andor."
Instead of giving me a verbal response he tugged me into his chest grabbing the loops of my belt. He cups my face in his hands crashing his lips onto mine deeply. I gasped shortly melting into his hold wrapping my arms around his neck kissing back. Leaning into his embrace I smiled into the kiss knowing that I will miss this feeling but my destiny is to keep the Jedi life alive. That's what Master Yoda told me and my sister when we were younger. Cassian cradles my face in his hands breaking the kiss. "I love you too, Kiera Kenobi...if I am being honest I never expected to find love. The rebellion is what consumed my life until I met you. The fight you have and you feel things deeply. Never change who you are. Stay my girl and when the day comes I'll be here when you're ready."
"Kiera, I'll be there for you too." K2SO raised his hand making us chuckled with grins on our faces.
Holding my hand up I lay my head on Cassian's chest with his arms wrapped around my waist kissing my forehead. "Thank you K2. Thank you both. You opened me up to something to fight for now."
Hours later I struggled to not cry when the two loaded back up on their ship and took off into the sunset. Climbing up onto the roof of our house I sit down hugging my knees to my chest staring off into the distance. The wind blows through my hair when I closed my eyes sensing someone else watching the sunset with me. It was away on a small farm leading to a boy with short brown hair watching the sunset like me. "Luke, may the Force be with you." I mumbled under my breath feeling the force flowing through him. Padme and I weren't the only Jedi children anymore.
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Changing into some clean clothes I feel my husband's arms wrap around me from behind kissing my forehead. Leaning my back into his embrace I sighed in relief. This is what I was hoping to get back to. Being in his arms with our children safe and sound back home. Turning in his hold I run a hand through his hair eyeing the scar underneath his other eye. Slumping my shoulders when he looked in the mirror earlier I could see he didn't like the reminder of what he had done. "I did it protect you princess Y/n. I couldn't let Vader hurt you more than he already has. I already lost someone I considered to by my brother. I wasn't going to lose the love of my life."
"Obi-wan, look at me. You'll never lose me or the girls. I would travel the entire galaxy if it meant I would find my way back to you. If I would end up right here like this with you. Because like our daughter said you are the only man I shall love." I vowed wrapping my arms around his neck grinned brightly. Leaning up on my toes I kiss him slowly feeling him cup my face in one hand kissing me back until we felt a prescence watching us from behind.
My former smiled sitting on the foot of our bed hands on his knees. "Stop on my prescence you need not. Came to say how thankful I am on your return I have Master Kenobi."
We broke away striding over to him sitting on each side of him so he was in the middle mirriong our grins. Yoda looked up to me with a smirk on his face then looking back to Obi-wan. "Knew you would do something reckless I did. Can't be apart anymore can you two. Suprised she isn't with a third child I am."
"Master Yoda, I...we aren't that bad." I blushed deeply at his words.
"We haven't had the time to - ugh!" I elbowed my husband in the ribs seeing him rub the back of his neck with a bashful smirk on his face.
Yoda crossed his arms over his chest walking over to the opened window where we could see Kiera and Padme watching the sunset together. "Right about them I was indeed. The future they are."
"Master Yoda, do you think Kiera is still reckless to become a Jedi?" Obi asked intertwining my freehand with his. Glancing up to my husband he did have a good question. If Kiera wasn't a good Jedi then the burden fell on Padme.
Yoda turned around giving us a proud smile pointing his index finger between the two of us. "Worry not my padawan. Wrong I was about your eldest one. Faith in them I have."
"So there the future to...a new hope." I mumbled out before he nodded I'm agreement disappearing. Obi-wan draped an arm over my shoulder with me laying my head in the crook of his neck watching Kiera and Padme. Things were going to be okay as long as the Jedi legacy was in their hands.
Hi readers, this is the end of Kenobi's Future. Thank you all for reading and leaving feedback
Comments really appreciated ❤️
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How very special are we?
For just a moment to be
Part of life’s eternal rhyme✨
Despite all the differences… how harmonious these two look together. In fact, I wanna write a post about why I believe in their relationship. A post about why do I see exactly Vader and Piett together. They do deserve each other. Part of life’s eternal life💜
Do you prefer vertical or horizontal edits more? (Important for me!)
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