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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ you deserve a love poem }

— 10. 6. 23.

you deserve a sweet passage

dedicated to your likeness. 

a description of a gentleness

lingering in our touch.

I want to write lovely things

about you -

we were warm in bed and

your brown eyes - so beautiful-

blinked slowly, sleepily. and i

kissed you, hard. and we were

satisfied…

…and you were on too much benadryl,

and I was about to relapse and im so,

so afraid you're going to abandon this life-

abandon me. 

I wish I could write a

love poem about you.

you deserve a better life.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ remove myself }

— 10. 11. 23.

watch me shove and slide

myself out of my 

maroon decapitation wound.

removing myself from my body,

I stand on my own sunken shoulders.

finally, free from 

the feeling of this awful vessel.

watch my fly-wings unfurl

- the further I fly, the closer i am to divinity.

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prompt - remove

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[whimsy-wallfish]

I guess im kinda brainstorming character dynamics for this storyy. very early brainstorming, there's no plot or anything yet but I'm putting inspo and info under #sheepdog story

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the lamb’s desire

— 11.17.23

i, a lamb

overcome with a frivolous desire -

a desparete desire 

to feel my flesh 

between the wolf’s yellowed teeth.

oh wont you tear me apart,

ill cry out in pleasure.

oh wont you let me become part of

something greater than myself.

the sheepdog tries so hard 

to prevent my pain-crazed nature

- doesnt he see if different from the flock

  doesnt he know im meant to stray.

the sheepdog flatters me,

though i know he will never

sink his fangs into my flesh

as the wolf has sworn.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ stuck in a dream-state }

— 10. 4. 23.

and so I'm seeing myself

stammer out a list

of symptoms.

plan? intent? 

she sounds so tired…

and I avoid a hospital stay.

to deal with dream-states,

she divulges,

one can be prescribed low-dose antipsychotics,

- but you're on meds that should be working.

there's no biological basis,

- you're on meds that should be working.

you're just directionless,

get a job, get a therapist,

- you're on meds that should be working.

I don't pretend to be a professional

but damn, my meds aren't working.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ help me be unblemished }

— 10. 14. 23.

dear, won’t you 

draw out my digestive tract?

can’t you cut me open and

do away with my innards?

I want to be 

bubblegum pink inside

- unblemished by blood and bile.

you could help me,

and you could so tenderly sponge the incision

- unburdening me from filth and flesh.

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prompt - sponge

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[whimsy-wallfish]

i may dislike myself

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i'm not a healthy person to be around ;

- 1.9.24

a laundry list of

ways i cut you up

and a promise of

several years apart, 

at least.

im sorry - my hands have

grown into knives and

i'm careless when i dance.

eyes shut in the moment - 

i don’t see your crimson red

until you've bled all over me.

i can only think of 

another woman,

my current love - i must.

i can only think of

removing my hands.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

poem inspired by a recent salvia trip :3

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tripping, dripping 

— 11.22.23

i am raining from scaly-cloud skies -

dripping from the oak trees

down to the earth below.

ive formed ravenes of countless cycles.

i erode earth away again and

let the predetermined pathway

run its course.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ can't swim, can we? }

— 10. 5. 23.

the water quality is progressively degenerating.

surely there's a sewer leaking

into my fish-pond skull.

must be…

the water is ever so dull.

my head, filled with catfish 

that can't swim, that can't breathe.

and that can barely see each other.

shit clogs their crimson gills;

shit covers their eyes blurring

every thing, every thought. 

once they darted and they danced

through crisp water, unconstrained.

open my skull and

empty the waste and replace

it with soothing stream water

- free me from this murky madness!

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prompt - degenerative

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[whimsy-wallfish]

shrooms will fix my brain

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omitted ;

- 1.13.24 

i always omit

myself from the

narrative of my life.

faded and 

only watching.

i am not a human,

i am an observer.

it's a frightful shock 

when my form is found -

acknowledged.

i shouldn't be so solid

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ delirious darling }

— 10. 4. 23.

my darling! you're delirious!

that bottle of pills

which imparts unto you,

scenes of violence and

dark entities closing in.

it's okay, baby, it's okay!

and you can't keep a train of thought 

but maybe I can convince you

that you're safe.

my darling, I can't lie to you

and say -

it doesn't frighten me

the way you crave to be frightened. 

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prompt - delirium

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[whimsy-wallfish]

auuughh i thibkc my brain broke my memory is fucked

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[whimsy-wallfish]

decided to work on poetry in the early morning, then my novel wip during the day. so expect >:)

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that artificial chocolate scent

— 11.15.23

my mahogany-colored 

bunny plush,

chocolate scented and

obtained at age fourteen

during a starving phase

- one of the first of dozens to date

i still  inhale

its artificial aroma

in attempt to quell my appetite

every once-in-a-while

some sick sense of nostalgia

for the earlier years

of this disease.on

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[whimsy-wallfish]

jokes on me !

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dashed expectations

— 11.26.23

a frivolous expectation of mine -

ill smoke and

a poem will come to mind

the automatic flowstate 

will make me feel intelligent again,

im sure

so i smoke and

of course i dont do much -

i stare at 

the blank page 

- inept.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ if I kissed you }

if I kissed you

it would taste of chemicals 

swimming circles around my sinuses,

and of coffee and creamer,

syrupy sweet.

one taste overwhelms the other,

is that okay?

do you know which one?

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ we ponder too much }

— 10. 12. 23.

i dream up a blissful haze.

it's you and me,

and we laze

by the bank of a pond, pristine.

i play with your hair.

we look down and do not

pause to ponder our reflections.

we step through them

- we let them ripple out.

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prompt - pond

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[whimsy-wallfish]

meow gonna try to write a poem or piece of flash fiction daily.. need to get back i to writimg idk (asks are open for prompts!)

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consume my sickness ;

- 1.11.24

a coughing fit !

smoke-infected

                     self-inflicted. 

i hack up my lungs and

all of their eyes turn

on me.

the thrill of this sickness being seen.

won't you surrounding strangers

come, consume my lungs?

eat the entirety,

every inch of my illness !

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