#we are simply winning

[i-spilled-the-starjuice]

Guys I frickin did it

I made a ding gang website BRUH

I did it all by myself

holy sht

Definitely lost at least 4 of my marbles but it's DONE and I can check that off my new year bucket list babeyyyy

Look I even made product photos

#my art #original art #silly little guy #starjuice #new website #stickers #art shop #yippee #yippeeeee #small artist #self run business except I wish it wasn't self run because hot dang this sht is hard #i can't believe i did this #on time no less #we are simply winning #carpe diem or whatever

[softiedingo]

I just woke up and then there's this man wearing a tight leather jacket 🥹

#jose pedro balmaceda pascal #pedro pascal fandom #pedro pascal #pedropascal #look at the way the jacket is tight on the shoulders and arms #this man is growing big #and yet is so cute #today is a great day to be a pedro fan #amazing how we always keep winning #we simply don't know what it's like to live without crumbs #cause this man keeps appearing suddenly and randomly in places #softiedingo

[lauradonnelly]

KIT CONNOR and JOE LOCKE 📍 Dream It Fest | 17 September 2022 

#heartstopper #heartstopperedit #heartstoppercentral #heartstopperdaily #kit connor #joe locke #heartstopper cast #heartstoppercastedit #we as a fandom simply keep winning 🏆 #tas makes things #p: kit connor #p: joe locke #joekit #dif 2022

[stealingyourbones]

I’m so tired with people continuing to tag me in posts with tags in the posts implying I’m attempting to gatekeep dpxdc.

I’m just asking folks to read some wikis or maybe watch a DC tv show to get more ideas because the content in DC is so expansive. I’ve been trying to push this since July of 2022.

I’m writing it like this so people just understand. I just want to show folks the cool thing I enjoy and That theres so much more content to play with when you either do (or don’t idk at this point bro) choose to look more into the greater fandoms of the Crossover.

You can write whatever you want, I would just think it would be cool to see the looking into cool DC stuff by the community.

I’m not gatekeeping or trying to prevent people from writing fanfic. I read all forms of dpxdc fics at every level of fanon to canon to AUs to Ghost AUs.

I’m just trying to push a cool thing I like to show other people the cool thing I like?

#the amount of vague posting towards me has been fucking bananas lately and folks have tagged me in posts that are just not the point I’m- #trying to make. id just like to see cool funky Dc stuff and it’d be rad to see more Dc centered stuff like Animal Man or Hitman #dpxdc #bones rants #i have received only 8 death threats this time around in my DMs this time so I call that a win #people can have differing opinions and stuff like fuckin you do you bro #I’m simply expressing my opinion. i won’t reply More to this post to prevent it going into an argument chain but yeah. #sometimes it’s just agree to dissagree but we both like creating fanfic

[redhoodie1723]

the imaginary carlos and charles beef that some fans are convinced is going on is giving Netflix DTS trying to convince us that charles and sebastian were mortal enemies that prayed on each other’s downfall nightly

#can’t people be happy or sad for one driver without tearing the other down #ik teammates are often pitted against each other and stuff but like #they’re both having good seasons #they’re both showing off their strengths #charles is still doing well in the WDC and even tho max is likely to win this year charles is still gonna get more chances with ferrari #and carlos is doing a great job in showing other teams why they should give him a seat next season #regardless of whether u think they’re good friends or just coworkers it’s clear they respect each other a lot #and i get being upset that charles didn’t podium in suzuka #but that’s not carlos’ fault and he did everything that he should’ve #charles still has a phenomenal race and his fans shouldn’t insult carlos simply for racing #and similarly carlos’ fans shouldn’t insult charles for not placing higher than carlos #when charles has shown how good and consistent of a driver he is in the past few races #just because the two latest ferrari wins have been carlos’ doesn’t mean charles is suddenly “overhyped” or “washed up” #like chill y’all #focus on the bigger issues #like whatever the fuck is going on williams #charles leclerc #carlos sainz #cl16 #cs55 #ferrari #formula 1 #f1 #1655 #c squared #2024 japanese gp #as a maybe month old fan i probably shouldn’t be having many opinions about this #but whatever lmfao #they’re both hot why are we pitting them against each other #they hate when two sexy bitches are winning

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

idk who this interviewer guy is (mehdi hasan apparently!), but i really appreciate his little romangerri manifesto and jsc answering with the most delightful tone in her voice when she says “i don’t think so” about it being over. (it wasn’t over! it still isn’t over!) i transcribed the clip just for fun!

Do you think that Roman and Gerri's story is over at that point? We can only imagine, I guess. JSC: I don't think so. I feel like, well, I don't know what's in Jesse and the other writers' minds, but I feel like the fact that even just so little bit [sic] of the narrative of their relationship is referenced in the very end ... but the fact that we're looking at each other and it's hard for us is proof that there's ... there's still some kind of attachment there. I mean, I've always thought that, you know, what Gerri wanted was a business relationship with him, but in the course of events I think, you know, he got under her skin. She got really attached to him, and she's not used to being attached to people and she probably didn't recognize what she was feeling. So I think she's, you know, not a sentimental person, but finding herself still feeling worried for him and, uh, empathy for him. I mean, Succession's kind of this cold, chilly, objective world where there really isn't empathy. It's like it doesn't really exist in the little pretend universe of it. But I feel like whatever version of it that there could be, that she's feeling that for him.

#romangerri #roman x gerri #gerri kellman #roman roy #j. smith cameron #we just keep jsc press tour winning!!!!! #succession #i also really love the insight that gerri didn't even really recognize her own feelings for him #it's giving 'i was in the middle before i knew that i had begun' 😘 #also i like that everyone in human society is simply a freaking nerd for this relationship #it's human catnip. it's irresistible.

[jojo-schmo]

I made myself a personal playlist with the fnaf songs I like (because wow I’ve missed out on like five years of bangers and need to catch up!!). I thought I would make myself a playlist cover with my precious Helpy bear to inspire even more joy from it!! He stole/borrowed DJ Music Man’s headphones. :3

#I’d share the playlist itself but it is very much not done lol #also most of the songs are probably not unique to my playlist snd simply the ones I’ve liked most so far #there’s definitely better playlists out there for fnaf music fans haha #I mean if anyone REALLY REALLY wants to see it I can share but it’s too imcomplete to put on here do ya get me #anyway I love Helpy he became like my number two comfort character overnight lol #I love everything about him. his eyeshadow. his little buck teeth. those giant blue eyes #and I needed to experiment with bold line art and color so here we are! a win win win situation! #also I got a Helpy plush today and can finally kiss him on the forehead #life is really turning around for old jojo #anyway if you read this far you rock. thanks for reading this silly woman’s streams of consciousness hehe #fnaf #five nights at Freddy’s #Helpy #freddy fazbear pizzeria simulator #art

[statementlou]

So I see folks pointing out that Louis' circle A tattoo is more likely an aesthetic choice than an announcement of a political commitment to anarchism, and saying basically that that maybe makes him a bit of a poser and I mean- I GUESS. But I don't like to look at things that way and I don't think it's useful. As I see it the subversive sexiness of the symbols of resistance have ALWAYS been gateways for people who are drawn to the struggle in vague ways and that's GOOD. Aligning yourself with those values is good no matter the reason, in my book, especially given the wretched options available out there, but also the journey doesn't necessarily stop there. Gatekeeping queerness victimizes people who are just trying things out and starting to discover that it may run deeper than just trying on a new look who should instead be welcomed and helped along their path, and I fail to see how gatekeeping political affiliations is any different (plus how counterproductive to actual movement building is that?)

ANYWAY. What I really want to say about Louis is that while I KNOW that Louis is probably not secretly a theory reading anti-state communalist anarchist, I think that actually Louis' optimism and idealism (and his unwavering commitment to allying himself with the working class and embracing those roots) are a perfect fit for the philosophy and always have been. I know that anarchism is mostly understood as being about throwing molotov cocktails and fighting the state (and the allure of its symbols are that they signify this, a terrific aesthetic for him to choose to sign on with in my book), but that's honestly largely cartoonish stereotyping that comes directly from anti-anarchist state propaganda. That resistance is necessary in this hellscape of oppression we live in and is super important, but in its heart anarchism is only about the state in that the state and capitalism currently stands in the way of its goals. The whole point of anarchism is that it's NOT about the state! It's about being able to imagine something better than a state, it's about how we live and about how we SHOULD live, it's about HOPE and picturing something utopian and something free of the ways capitalism pits us against one another! What could be more Louis than that?

"I need you and you need me and I love that" is as beautiful a way of talking about the cornerstone of anarchism that is mutual aid as any long winded essay I've read (even if what he meant was contextually different), and I think when he talks again and again about how special the space fans have made around him is he is expressing an intuitive understanding of the importance of autonomous zones, places and moments outside of the shitty life imposed on us by the system (also a huge part of anarchist thought). Maybe I'm just being an optimist but I think that Louis DOES understand that caring for people and wanting self-determination and freedom for all and allying himself with the working class involves a certain amount of resistance to and positioning yourself in opposition to the state. Thinking the symbols of smashing that state are cool isn't meaningless; it's a CHOICE. There are other cool symbols out there and I just happen to think that feeling a resonance with certain ones is something in and of itself, even if at this moment he does not choose to start a fight with the media about it all.

#long version of this part maybe later… (orrr maybe here and now oops lol): #I believe we are all born natural anarchists with a desire to live in mutually supportive ways and in freedom #it only gets beaten out of people by the trauma of the system and being forced to struggle to survive #Louis shares with many privileged people a certain immaturity of not understanding those struggles #but I think that 'immaturity' can include- in smart and good people- not having lost sight of that utopianism #because they are able to conceptualize it because they live the way we all should be able to #free of so many of the survival struggles #(I think that in some areas maturity is code for 'beaten down to a good capitalist') #anyway and that's why autonomous zones are important: #because you HAVE to have the experience of freedom sometimes to be able to move towards it #you have to experience wins to be able to keep fighting #it's the candy crush theory of organizing lol like: people will simply give up and lose hope if everything is struggle and despair #and nothing is hope and success #you don't have to win the whole fight to get glimpses but you have to have moments #anyway a song I love that is about that is Saturday Night by the Coup it's a BOP go check her out she feels like winning #boots is a commie but that's okay he Gets It :P #anyway #anarchism #blah blah blah #I love being a louis apologist I should add that to my header what can I say: I love him #also look how many WORDS I can churn out when there's no show😂gotta fil the time somehow #send me questions I beg you we've got a long couple months ahead #comrade louis

[lovecolibri]

I feel like oliver is doing this to lead us on bc they won't do buddie anymore bc they replaced it with a cheap version and Ryan doesn't want to be gay on TV and what the fuck am I supposed to do with this info???? How do we take revenge on fox

Okay. Here's the thing. I don't have ANY room for negatively because I'm too busy celebrating being fucking RIGHT. And so normally I would ignore this or try to placate but the thing we are NOT going to do, is put words in Ryan's, namer of the Buddie ship, mouth. I believe he's already played a gay character before in a movie or something? And with Oliver out here flat out saying FOX shut down a storyline "a couple years ago" which is around the shooting that was filmed in Lovers Framing and so romantically coded?? Yeah, I refuse to let people spread misinformation and try and lay this at Ryan's feet when we all Been Knew it was a FOX call.

Also, they literally set Tommy up just like every other LI Buck has had! He falls into something unexpectedly, he makes a mistake off the bat, ye doubles down because his childhood trauma kicks in and he panics about being left. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Tommy is sweet, and might be here for a few more episodes, and might even stick around in some capacity if the audience likes him (Josh as a character eternally looking for love would be an easy way for the show to keep Lou on and accessible if needed), but there is NO WAY Oliver "I'm always careful what I say because I know people will read into it and I don't want to be accused of baiting" is just stringing people along.

I'm absolutely not saying you need to fully board the clown car, I totally get needing to manage your expectations for your own mental health and wellbeing. But in managing your expectations, don't go so far that you suck ALL the joy out of the information out there by catastrophizing worst-case scenarios in order to feel miserable instead of excited. You gotta find some middle ground in there.

#my sweet nonnie friends #911 #buddie #oliver stark #WHY ARE YOU ALL BEING SO WEIRD ABOUT RYAN?!?! #all lou said was the storyline needed to shift and they had to ask oliver if HE was willing to do something not previously discussed #and he was! because he was gonna fucking do it anyway #please please please learn SOME reading comprehension #NO WHERE did lou say ryan WASN'T willing he simply said oliver had to be asked first and was on board #i'm trying so hard not to have this be one of the toxic positivity condescension posts #because anything can always happen nothing is set in stone and managing expectations is important #especially if you have emotional regulation issues (i would know) #but good god leave ryan alone for real #and take the win that we have been right all along and FOX was the problem

[romansmartini]

i think some people (especially on this web site) interpret succession the same way that people would interpret, like. glee. or bbc sherlock. or any media in the past decade-ish before queer characters and couples were more common in media. in the way that essentially boils down to “popular entertainment is so heteronormative, i need to hunt for clues that show the creators know gay people Exist beyond homophobic stereotypes” because that validates the queer person watching and any potential queer readings of the characters. and that period of time is still SO fresh, and queer representation in media is still not what it could or should be. 

but it’s just interesting and i think kind of unfruitful when people interpret the scenes of this show as clues or proof that greg is gay irl or something.

not only is that just patently Not The Point Of The Show, it’s also like. we don’t need to see a scene where greg comes out as gay. his dad who abandoned him was gay. logan calls every one of his family members a faggot if they do something he just slightly doesn’t like. tom asked greg the first day they met if greg would kiss him as a power play or plea for affection or a sign of his latent sexuality. etc etc etc. and all of these connect inextricably to the show’s actual themes and message. what exists in the show already is so much more meaningful and complex than any cumulative “proof” could be, and i think interpreting it as such undervalues the show’s thoughtful writing. 

#just seen some posts that got me thinking 🤔 #succession #don't get it twisted. i am still delusional and i want those guys to fuck and believe in my heart they will #i just think that we can and should interpret queer messaging in shows differently than we did 10 years ago #and having greg say 'im gay uncle logan' is just simply. unnecessary #the queer community does not necessarily get a win if that happens. hopefully the win is viewers analyzing the reality of homophobia #in rich/white/intergenerational places #and most importantly. the win is looking at those guys and thinking. yeah they are fucking silly style

[smashstappen]

Las Vegas gave the people (lestappen fans) what they wanted (lestappen 1-2) to stop hating it 😂

#best strategy #lestappen #simply lovely #max verstappen #lestappen 1 2 #things we love to see #I have never said anything bad about this track ever #if you want to win max verstappen over give him charles leclerc

[fjordfolk]

100% don't punish the growl and listen to your dog and your puppy is not an evil mastermind AND ALSO seeing how Melis behaved today and latey, feeling very validated in our approach to her outbursts of screaming thrashing gnashing teeth being less "sorry sorry never mind" and more "ok buddy are u sure though"

time will tell if she has another ride on the melty brain hormone train coming (Sparta didn't - but she might) but at this moment in time, Melis is a pretty tolerant, people-oriented, socially intelligent little dog who's displaying some very pleasant traits. and who has not growled or snarled or gotten near threshold in many months. at this rate our worst puppy might end up our best dog

#her impulse control is tons better (as one expects when they start to hormonally mature a bit) #and its not so much about teaching her to moderate her behaviour anymore as it seems like she finally understands #that the best way to the best outcome for her is simply to #behave. and take it easy. and trust us and the environment to make things work out in good ways #conflict free resolutions etc #to be fair i think melis has ALWAYS been socially intelligent #i dont think she wouldve adopted the behaviour style she had if she wasnt. she learned VERY EARLY (pre-8wks) #that if she blustered big enough she'd win anything. and that became the most convenient and successful way for her to behave #so all we really had to do was make that behaviour inefficient. not punish it - that wasnt necessary #because the wanted behaviour requires less of her than the unwanted one does #anyway i love her and her remorselessness to bits and now we can foster her need for chaos and violence in productive and harmonious ways #<3

[mono-blogs-art]

Revue Starlight Sports Festival Draft!

As you know, the big Stage Girl Sports Festival Revival will take place in February - literally just a full day event of the various cast members of Revue Starlight (from anime, game, and stage plays) will participate in a funky pretend-highschool sports festival. Today the full teams were decided via draft stream!

The team leaders had previously been announced:

Koyama Momoyo (Aijo Karen, Seisho) - Yellow Team "ZERO" Tomita Maho (Tendo Maya, Seisho) - Blue Team "This is..." Nomoto Hotaru (Yukishiro Akira, Siegfeld) - Red Team "HOT" Nanaki Kanon (Yanagi Koharu, Seiran) - Green Team "shuThuarunomi" (集中あるのみ; "sTay focused")

Also quite funny to me that 3 of the team leaders (all but Maho) are former Sera Myu performers... the Sailor Moon squad has taken over

As is tradition at this point, ensemble member Jinko Moe is the MC for this stream and explains the rules. In the first two rounds, all leaders are free to pick 1 stage girl of their chosing per round from the roster as their top picks. If any chose the same person, they will have to decide by draft - the loser can then choose freely again. After round 2, all other rounds are chosen by draft completely by luck. We already knew not all cast members are going to be there so not every stage girl is available for chosing. Suzuko Mimori (Hikari), Emiri Kato (Tsukasa) and Shiina Hekiru (Souda-sensei) are going to be the MCs at the event, so they won't be participating as athletes either. Also, Tsukui Minami (Suzu) and Kobayashi Yuka (Yakumo-sensei) are a "2 for 1" deal, as they won't be able to make the whole event (iirc).

Team Zero's name is the most easily explained. Moyo gets a lot of praise from her colleagues and chat for her genius team logo design. The E is a crown with tomato jewels... I'm in awe

Maho explains the pronunciation of her team: The "..." is performed dramatically with the eyes, like the above. Lol

Nossan's design of course features Hot-kun, Akira's favourite food & beloved plushie. The Hot-kun icon is actually the inside of a chili, not a sun. Apparently.

Kanon struggled quite a bit with finding a team name, and after consulting with the other leaders in their Line chat group, she wanted a good Koharu line as the team name. Koharu's "うるさい." ("Shut up.") came to mind, but she thought that was too rude for a team name, so shuchuarunomi it became. She placed a big T (position zero!) for the "ch" sound. Complicated, but clever.

Time for drawing the teams! In round 1, everyone is asked to present their top picks for their team.

Moyo's is: MATSUZAWA! Aka Matsuzawa Kanon, who plays Shiro from Siegfeld Middle School!

Maho's is the one and only Sato Hinata - student council president of Seisho herself, Hoshimi Junna.

Nossan's top pick is: Ikuta Teru of Futaba fame!! And funnily enough...

Kanon's pick is also Teru!!! She even drew a tiny Ponzu (Teru's dog) to sway the public. The crowd goes wild. They have to let fate decide who wins over Teru for their team, and Nossan comes out on top. So Kanon gets to choose again, and her next free pick is Haruchan! Aka her fellow Photon Maiden bestie, Iwata Haruki of Mahiru fame.

Time for round 2, and last round of free picks! Again, Moyo goes first.

Moyo's second pick is Saeki Iori, who plays Rinmeikan's Yuyuko!

Maho's second pick is Sasaki Mikoi aka Mikoron, Shizuha of Frontier!

Nossan's next pick is Koizumi Moeka aka Moepii, who plays the one and only Banana! Complaints from the other leaders are heard for her making her team too strong. Lol. We'll see about that.

Kanon's pick is Kuge Kokoro of the Siegfeld Middle Schoolers, who plays Minku! No overlaps this time, so everyone gets their first pick!

The next picks are all made by random draft, so it's really just up to luck. Kanon is praying to get at least one other Seiran member for her heart. Everyone is praying not to get Aiai (lmao). Kanon manages to draw Tsumutsumu, another Photon Maiden member, making it a 3/4 for her team (with the fourth PM member, Hinata, sitting in Maho's team). For Nossan, she manages to draw two people very close to her - Ozaki Yuka (Michiru) and Kadoyama Yoko (Hisame), two of Akira's girlfriends. Moyo gets both of the Yumeoji siblings. Maho gets to draw her bestie's wife, KDHR. Kanon's wish is fulfilled by drawing the 2for1 duo of Minami&Kobayashi, her fellow Seirans. The crowd goes wild when Nossan draws Aiai, her team being declared the noisiest for sure (they're not wrong, this will be utter chaos).

Final distribution:

Yellow Team "Zero": Koyama Momoyo (leader; Karen), Matsuzawa Kanon (Shiro), Saeki Iori (Yuyuko), Tono Hikaru (Shiori), Fukagawa Ruka (Ryoko), Kurachi Reo (Fumi)

Blue Team "This is...": Tomita Maho (leader; Maya), Sato Hinata (Junna), Sasaki Mikoi (Shizuha), Ito Ayasa (Kaoruko), Kudo Haruka (Yachiyo), Takeuchi Yume (Mei Fan)

Red Team "HOT": Nomoto Hotaru (leader; Akira), Ikuta Teru (Futaba), Koizumi Moeka (Nana), Ozaki Yuka (Michiru), Kadoyama Yoko (Hisame), Aiba Aina (Claudine)

Green Team "shuThuarunomi": Nanaki Kanon (leader; Koharu), Iwata Haruki (Mahiru), Kuge Kokoro (Minku), Tsumugi Risa (Rui), Sato Yuria (Kuina), Tsukui Minami (Suzu) & Kobayashi Yuka (Yakumo-sensei)

Info & Graphics can be found on the official Revstar twt , the stream was archived so you can watch the shenanigans yourself here!

#revue starlight #i just had fun watching this stream and wanted to do a write-up. nothing more. #sorry if there are any glaring mistakes... #seiyuu #video #butai shoujo dai-undoukai #personally i think team HOT will win. that line-up is crazy. #but also team ZERO very strong with all these young theater kids. #but lets also not forget. team this is with maho and hiichan. like hiichan is JACKED. #lol we will see!!! #personally i think i have to root for team shuThuarunomi simply because. #Youtube

[lavenoon]

Good news, @clxckwork-sun-n-moon's Hunter Edition Eclipse accepts kissies! <3

#post let luce #fnaf sb #fnaf sb au #hunter edition #fnaf eclipse #clxckwork-sun-n-moon #I was gonna write today but then saw a very smoochable eclipse and here we are #kiss the boy!! #I will not run to not further fuck up my bad knee and also I am simply not a sporty person #this seems to be a win for everyone <3 #my art

[malyen0retsev]

“This is what love does. In the stories, love healed your wounds, fixed what was broken, allowed you to go on. But love wasn’t a spell, some kind of benediction to be whispered, a balm or a cure-all. It was a single, fragile thread, which grew stronger through connection, through shared hardship and trust.” - Leigh Bardugo, Rule of Wolves

Jessie Mei Li, Archie Renaux, Kit Young, Jack Wolfe, Freddy Carter, Amita Suman, Danielle Galligan, and Calahan Skogman as the Main Four Couples of ‘Shadow & Bone’

#i had to i simply had to #LIKE LOOK AT ALL OF THEM. WE WIN WE WIN THEY'RE ALL SO BEAUTIFUL #shadow and bone netflix #shadow and bone cast #shadowandboneedit #shadowandbone #uservalentina #userlyra #useremary #janielook #jessie mei li #archie renaux #kit young #jack wolfe #danielle galligan #calahan skogman #freddy carter #amita suman #malinasource #malina #wesper #kanej #helnik

[rawliverandgoronspice]

The more time goes on, the more I think we (= westerners, especially white westerners) are just so fucking bad at guilt. I feel like guilt is among the most pernicious and dangerous emotions out there --not because guilt is literally deadly in isolation, it is an excruciating emotion but it will not kill you in itself, but because we have been trained to associate guilt with worthlessness (I partially blame christian values, the idea of impurity and sin --not to downplay, of course, the danger of a community judging you or being expelled from that community on the basis of being considered a danger to its other members due to the thing you've done that has been generating this guilt), and so we must, absolutely must, protect ourselves from simply feeling that guilt and processing its cold indifference washing over us, and we must do so through any means necessary. This can involve defensiveness, denial or reject of that guilt altogether so we are mentally protected from having to reevaluate ourselves and our place in the world, or can involve wallowing in and using it to self-harm --focusing on the pain and on self-hate rather than on what the guilt is telling us about ourselves and our heritage; blinding ourselves to it still in a twisted way.

I think it's also complicated to know how to manage guilt in a world where we're generally (as a whole) deeply powerless. It feels unfair to be called out about not doing enough when you know that pulling even mediocre heroics on your own will most definitively do almost nothing, hurt you, and be buried in a way that might be extremely unhelpul --not to mention, that it would actually hurt you in a very real and final way and lead to entirely thankless results, even if it was the morally correct thing to do. I do not want to pretend that it's not, very often, the results that awaits even serious and well-practiced activism --or even mild activism, major shoutout to everybody who got maimed or arrested or even killed on zero basis simply because they happened to be at or even near a protest, when they were not brutally attacked for no reason even outside of activism because an officer was racist or sexist or queerphobic or simply bored that day. There are genuinely good reasons to be scared.

So we feel guilt because of this fear, because of our isolation from any serious movement and the fact that we privilege our comfort over letting action taking over whatever else we have going on, and because fear and comfort knowingly keep us into inaction --or action that doesn't feel like enough, or that we feel doesn't achieve much of anything (which I think is never true: even giving someone a glimpse of hope for a second because we made an effort towards them is always always worth it in my opinion, it's not nothing and it's not a cop-out --of course it's not enough and we collectively need to find ways to do more, but it's not nothing and it should never discourage people from taking action --but I digress). But I think we start making a mistake when we point at this very real powerlessness as a shield from the guilt. Both can coexist. Both have to coexist. It isn't fair that some people are being forced to be courageous when we can afford to remain cowards. It is not even a moral judgement that condemn our souls forever, weakness is human and lack of individual reach against an overwhelmingly powerful and removed system even more so; it is a simple fact that we *have* to acknowledge if we want to take a clear look at the actual situation instead of camouflaging it behind self-justifying walls to give ourselves temporarily relief from that awful feeling. And I'm not saying it's not a constant effort, to keep those instincts of self-preservation at bay, or that some people don't have really good reasons that they cannot act more than through social media or miniscule donations or by talking about it around them, or being powerless to even do that without putting themselves into real and concrete danger --or that letting guilt in will be pleasant or even healing. It won't be. But it's also not the point.

Yeah, I get that it's hard to truly reckon with the fact that almost everything that made us (= westerners, especially white ones) is soaked with blood, imperialism, white supremacy, sexism, queerphobia, and a whole sweve of truly rancid ideologies that we cannot afford to passively accept as our lot. We were not given a choice in that legacy, and we don't have a ton of leverage over reorienting our haunted civilizations into something that isn't a horrible nightmare; but it is a fight that is happening right the fuck now.

I genuinely think guilt is a feeling we are not taught to handle in a healthy way; and because we have essentialist, pseudo-religious and punitive justice concepts terminally untangled with that feeling, guilt governs our politics and our private lives in the most rabid and unchecked way imaginable. But guilt will not kill us, unless we allow it to, and it will help literally nobody if it does. Guilt isn't evil in its soul-crushing pain as much as it is informative. Guilt is unbearable, unfliching clarity. But fever boils us alive because there is an infection that needs to be destroyed.

#thoughts #personal #not zelda #palestine #free palestine #guilt #cw self harm #(not graphic and really in passing) #sorry it's quite different than usual and it's a lot and I don't know if I'll agree with everything in five seconds #but I feel like we don't talk enough about the impact of guilt on our lives and psyches (and politics) #I am not great at guilt either (tho tbh I don't know many people who are) #but I'm trying to get better at simply... shutting up and Feeling It #I'm sure there's a way to face guilt that isn't destructive or self-pitying or generally useless #but I am.... I am so pessimistic about the future #not in a: let's all give up and cry but in a: we must fucking brace ourselves and look after one another #and put our foot in the sand right now because everything is unnacceptable and we need to acknowledge it much harder #if we let it fester it will only get uglier and uglier #and it doesn't mean we won't win or that hope isn't an absolutely essential component to it all #I am ultimately optimistic that there is an After to capitalism and imperialism and that brand of self-centered preservation and brutality #and this general oozing of toxic and unprocessed guilt #But #let's say that we'll all have to lead our own fights against it at some point #and I think that time should be right now #tl;dr imo there's no hope for justice and genuine resistance without facing guilt and resisting the urge to deny or fret against its ache #which doesn't have to equate with allowing guilt to rule us and use it as a tool of self-torment #anywayyyyy #saw a LOT of very weird reactions to the gaza genocide in my personal circles #some that really disappointed me even though they came from people I know to be better than this #so #yeah