#what. do i have but a shell.

[mainfaggot]

I wanna kill myself

#in both a serious and unserious way #the serious way is bc i feel like i keep massively fucking myself over which affects my parents and sisters too and i cant get myself to be #realistic and healthily optimistic like im so fucking pessimistic it's a major concern #the unserious way is way more funny im so fucked guys 😭😭😭😭 #this crush is so pathetic. more dire than last time #i just stopped functioning i couldn't get more than ONE SENTENCE out to her even tho i ended up sitting across from her holy shit she #probably thinks im some moody weirdo bc last time i was malfunctioning but super enthusiastic and this time #i was like . quiet. and just. shy in a way that made me feel uncomfortable so why wouldn't it extend to her #this morning i was like idk what the point of anything is. why am i even trying to befriend her #wont this just end stupidly like last time i had a crush in uni? like the time before that in high school? #i have nothing to offer like lets say by some grand miracle she and i study together we get friendly we become #acquaintances and then it turns out shes also Interested in me #then what???? what do i have that she doesn't already have in her life??? #i feel like i cant GIVE anything all i do is impose myself upon people #like deal with [this] -> me and all my baggage #and its like okay if she likes You she'll gladly deal w the rest but thats the thing why would she even LIKE ME #what. do i have but a shell. #an image. #i have nothing but neuroticism and depression underneath #thats what it feels like although realistically that cant be fully true #and also isnt it superficial of me to have a crush on her? all i know is that shes beautiful she speaks spanish so well and that shes quiet #in the way thats charming and im kind of afraid of disturbing her peace #z.post

[soup-child]

The fact that Adaine "i don't know if im asexual im 15" Abernant and Riz "why is everyone so horny im definately aroace" Gukgak both being in the same show is incredibly important to me

#like i was just like adaine at 15 and have slowly shifted more towards riz but i like that both are shown #having 2 characters with similar aspec experiences and showing how they react differently is great #and do i think adaine is ace? not really i think if she feels attraction she would put that on the back burner while she deals with her #anxiety and her family being the worst and even now thats shes dealt with all that i dont think its a storyline shell dive into #i think what im trying to get at is that having people support her being ace would help adaine regardless of how she ends up identifying #and i think that riz having a friend (one who doesnt identify as ace) is important for him and feeling like he fits in while being aroace #i dont know if that made any sense but they are best friends #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy #riz gukgak #adaine abernant #you'll have to pry aroace riz from my cold dead hands #<- thats my aroace riz tag

[jeeaark]

If Greygold was a companion, what would be the best way to initiate a romance with them? Would they go for the “L” word early or an Act or two later?

The "L" word was lube, right? Right? Else showering Durge/Tav with kisses Gomez-Addams-Style is the alternative.

Maybe the Nat 20 romance isn't the best way for Tav/Durge, but it sure is for Greygold. You just know Greygold scared that Dream Guardian away the first time and has been low-key obsessed with that armor since

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #durge #greygold #bg3 fanart #bg3 comic #Sometimes I have to make Greygold's idea of a good time sould like its wild stuff in order to make a really REALLY dumb joke #But truly they just wanna cuddle the SHIT out of anyone who goes out of their way to get that dream guardian armor for them #everyone thank the anon for the “L” word joke #and the silliest thing I have ever drawn #what are you doing to me guys- got me drawing durgexgreygold fluff and I still don't know jack about durge howdidthishappen lskdjdklj #I suppose Greygold's favorite type of folk are dorks who are complete disasters with mushy bits- tough coconut shell or not #so. every companion in this game

[a-study-in-bullshit]

i refuse to be embarrassed of who I am and what you once were just because you changed and think I should too

#webweaving #web weaving #the queer experience #queer #trans experience #queer identity #queer solidarity #the human condition #very aimed but shell never see it #recently a friend of mine said she didnt think she liked girls anymore which id no issue with experimentation of gender and sexuality is #smth everyone should have a right to do w/o judgement but shes now acting like i should change as well seeming like shes embarrassed #of what i am and what a lot of our other friends r #bit too personal for this acc lmao #a-study-in-bullshit

[vigilskeep]

if you took a bad enough hit while dao rock armour was active, could you have scars from blunt force trauma that spiderweb like cracks in stone

#i should be so fucking asleep right now but hear me out. minerva. landsmeet duel. loghain has shield bash. do you hear what im saying #i was thinking about magical scars for him actually #but that fucking armour. you have to cook him in it like a lobster in its shell #sometimes i think mages are overpowered for that fight realistically #and then i remember those close quarters and how fucking massive i think he is #he’s like a foot and a half taller than minerva. crikey #okay im saying fuck a lot but the crikey is a sign. need to sleep. need to sleep #but minerva literally cracked open during the landsmeet divorce #and only afterwards when nobody is watching letting her skin turn back from stone #holds it for so long that wynne can’t fix it clean #loghain SHOULD have a scar too for matchie matchies #its crushing prison she usually uses. crumpling that man like a tin can #that could fuck you up. less visible though. i’ll workshop #i dont think shed get enough of a grip to pull off something like #a handprint burn #maybe a slice across the cheek from a blade of ice #i’ll workshop. i’ll workshop. goodnight

[turrondeluxe]

Do you think Breakdown has nightmares about what happened with MECH? I think Knock Out would be a nice thing to wake up to if he ever has night terrors

(P.S: Do transformers even have nightmares?)

Oh he definitely has

#i like to think they do indeed dream #added to all the time from war and shit his night terrors just get worse #knock out there's for him when he realizes something wrong #(I think bd doesnt really tell knock out when hes having one of his night terrors) #having knock out with him always calms him down tho #also just wanted to tell that i drew this while listening to jack stauber's Just Take My Wallet on loop #and the whole What's the softest way to say #until the end of the song just makes me think of ko slowly losing bd off because of the trauma until he becomes a shell of a man (bot) #((quite literally)) #also hey yall how are yall doing #im doing Awful but hey! this ask was from april and its answered now B) #might answer a bit more before the semester starts again #ask #anon #tfp #transformers prime #tfp knock out #tfp knockout #tfp breakdown #breakdown #knock out #kobd #maccadam #doodles #my art

[bambeebirdie]

This is for @bluepeachstudios ‘s Ghost in a Shell. It’s really good you should read it.

I looked at exactly one picture of Jupiter Jim and went “yeah this should be enough to draw him.” I will not be answering if it actually was

Have some bonus content under the cut!

And sketches

(I love any character who can say “I don’t want to go back to prison” it’s like the funniest thing to me)

#i don’t know what compelled me to hand write that text. it’s not very good #we just don’t do things the easy way here. that’s why I render with an app on my phone. i don’t believe in simplicity #i had a plan for a lot more full body shots but then I couldn’t find any good lair references so I decided to screw it #I’ve never drawn rise characters before. this is my first time drawing them and expressions wow #I’m not very good at style copying and my default is so much rounder than rise is so that was just a woof #i should say all text in these shit posts aren’t canon at all. you can figure out where they likely take place yes #but they never show up in story #just a little fyi incase anyone decides to check it out #the entire inspiration for this post was just watching 2003 and going #WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY DID THAT?? #ghost causally dropping the most wild facts about his life has like endless shit post potential #yeah I went to space. stole a ship. went to jail. aided a fugitive. held a dictator at gunpoint #and folks that’s just one arc. go watch 2003 #i debated making angst as it is likely more currently topical but I’m a shit poster at heart #chapter 29. how we feeling boys? I’m actually doing rather well. i think just the fact the build up is over and I’m so tired I no longer #have emtions I’m just pumped for the next chapter whoo! #i started to lose mojo very fast while doing this but I wanted to finish today so I did. i hope it’s not too obvious #yeah anyways go read ghost in a shell #go watch 2003 #go read ghost in a shell #i’m gonna go to bed now #ghost in the shell #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2003 #tmnt 2018 #fan fiction recommendations #fan art of a fan fic #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles 2003

[soap-ify]

hello (going to pretend that i didn't disappear AGAIN)

#i'm sorry #i have been saying the same thing for a while now and i hate myself for it #these weeks have just been so horrible and i'm just so?? #i have lost interest in everything and now i just feel like an empty shell #it's an awful feeling i can't bring myself to do anything no matter how much i want to #it just hurts a lot i don't really know what to do at this point #i suppose this was me taking a break again i haven't written at all #i tried to. came up with two paragraphs and then dropped it #life has just been so weird lately and i really miss you all. #ANYWAYS... #ruru rambles

[emmabirb8]

I think the part that frustrates me the most is the fact that THEY CREATED THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY FOR A COMPLETELY UNHINGED VAMPIRE GUILLERMO AND THEY FUCKING SQUANDERED IT

#i really thought that's where they were heading with it after he drank that blood #and they panned over to the 'private party' at that restaurant #they should've had guillermo be the one who just straight up slaughtered ALL the people there #and the other vamps would've been kinda shell-shocked but also proud #and nandor could have grimaced at the camera and explained that the full transformation can have weirdly strong effects sometimes #idk man IT COULD HAVE BEEN SO GREAT AND SO FUNNY #AND THEY FUCKED IT #wwdits #wwdits fx #what we do in the shadows #spoilers #guillermo de la cruz #wwdits season 5 #exit interview #my posts

[apple-spider-vinegar]

Not a Norman Osborn Apologist or a Norman Osborn Hater but a secret third thing

#redemption may be possible but he's gotta earn it with like his blood sweat and tears #he's gotta have his ebeneezer scrooge moment of realizing what a miserable shell of man he has become #how he has alienated everyone who cares about him and that is not a long list of people #and he can only try to make amends with the ones he hasn't killed #i have found vanishingly few post-nwh fanworks that tackle this in a satisfying way if they even try #many do not #do i yearn for the father-son reconciliation? in my heart of hearts i do #but i think it would be better if harry doesn't go for it right away #even if he wanted to he might not trust it and years of being brushed off and criticized would not disappear overnight #someday i should make the post about how norman could really love his son but it might not matter #anyway sorry for making a whole separate post in the tags but there ya go #green goblin #norman osborn #raimiverse #op

[useful-boy]

Having seen everything Class of 09 has to offer, I just wanna say that Nicole is the most interesting hypocrite I've seen. She hates all men by default because she sees them as pedophiles and rapists (which almost all of the adult men in her life are), yet the one time she gets into a relationship it quickly turns into abuse because of course it does, and the second she's the one doing the abusing, she immediately gets a power rush from it and talks about how great it is that she can treat her girlfriend like shit with zero consequences, meanwhile we all know she'd absolutely look down on a guy for doing the same to his girlfriend. It's okay when she does it to a girl though and even tells her best friend "don't knock it til you try it". Never let her date anyone again please.

#though the alt route where they dont date and ari ends up telling her how Badly she wants her to do fucked up shit to her #sure does feel some type of way #shes like. actually begging to be abused in this one while in the other she realized she was being abused and got out of it #girl trust me you do not actually want her you cannot Handle what shell do to you #class of 09 #...does nicole have a last name. fuck i binged everything already but i forgot it #i dont think she does #nicole class of 09 #abuse #toxic yuri

[dennisboobs]

blacked out and came to with a document full of macden

#ada speaks #ada writing macden in 2024........ hm #its all dennis introspection but i have a Plan #the funny thing abt macden is that mac is so goddamn dense i can commit to usual den shenanigans #charlie is way too perceptive it doesn't usually work #i will laugh if i manage to post this before any of my longass fics #its. playing with some concepts i have used before (i will say. victoria being conceptualized as an entirely separate person.) #i find den's separation of self really fascinating bc for me the trans experience has been. hm #playing a part for the masses but knowing who i am beneath that #its opposite for dennis but also the same. he doesn't see vicky as himself but he doesn't have a core either #he's a shell hosting her in his body but she also feels like the most authentic version of the self #and thus. gender euphoria. very weird and complicated gender euphoria. #one dennis holds himself back from expressing to its fullest extent #what was i talking about again #oh yeah macden. that's there too. i think probably den's gonna put the moves on mac but i haven't decided how itll go..... #this fic is just dennis doing psych student brain things thinking abt mac and their relationship and breaking it all down

[disastertwins9000]

heeyyyy guyysss :)))

so here’s the thing… i’ve got way too many hyper fixations atm so i’ve been gone and i’m very sorry. have these homie doodles as compensation and explanation ;)

#lee do you realize what you just said #so basically if i have to be in love with the owl house then my favorite twins do too #i needed to draw the blorbos watching the blorbos #rise leo cultured them #2012 tmnt #rottmnt #the owl house ig? #my artwork #disastertwins9000art #tmnt 2012 #rise of the tmnt #save rottmnt #2012 leo #2012 raph #homies in a half shell au #homieswelcome

[thejadecount]

Crazy idea: in the ROTTMNT universe, after hearing about these sightings and encounters with these mutant turtle ninja guys named after Renaissance artists Hollywood gets a crazy idea and produces two movies with deadly accuracy about them

These are the live-action TMNT movies

The ROTTMNT turtles proceed to watch and make fun of the live action movies

And then during the Big Crossover™️, they are absolutely flabbergasted to find out these guys are real

#GUYS IMAGINE HOW FUNNY IT WOULD BE #Rise Donnie: WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOURE REAL #Rise Leo: huh they don’t look as bad as they did in the movies actually #the live action tmnt: what are you guys talking about? #Rise Mikey: MEGAN FOX IS THAT YOU??? #guys it’d be hilarious #I need a oneshot stat #rottmnt #rise tmnt #live action tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt crossover #2014 tmnt #2016 tmnt #fun fact I actually haven’t watched the movies #because of how absolutely horrifying the live action turtles look #but I’ve heard the absolute banger that is Shell-Shocked #and have watched the plane clip at least ten times #so yeah #I just think this would be really funny

[vohtaro]

#girl idk #madara uchiha #if you squint /lh #real talk tho i was thinking about ghost in the shell again #but i’m also so head empty so i just kind of wanted to draw something that made me think of it #even if it means nobody else gets it <3 #it;s fine bc i don’t even know if i get what i’m doing #should have used a colored background…… damn </3 #anyways gn #vohtaro art

[yorshie]

Pea Brained Bounce House time. Was thinking about the earlier Mikey bit. Then I started thinking about Warm Coded. And then:

Raph’s got like. This thing, when you’re working out with him. He uses the cover of coaching you to stare.

It’s not until he’s got you doing chairs against the concrete wall, and you look up in pleading askance on how much longer you’ve gotta hold the position, that you finally catch the way his attention is trained on the swell of your stomach. The uncanny focus of his gaze on your thighs as the muscles start to tremble and seize up.

Raph likes to stare.

#……. hm. is this gonna be a blood orange fic? #are they gonna converge? #looks at the blurple fic I’m already planning. fuck. this might be a blood orange fic #but how would that even work? #Mikey is so much harder to set a boundary with than Leo and Donnie #and what about my head canon of Mikey sneaking into Raph’s bed during nightmares? #I could just see. raph wakes up and readers all against him all warm and cuddly #he goes for the sleepy morning action #but his hand knocks against Mikey’s shell and there’s like the awful dawning realization that his little bro is cock blocking him #cue Mikey waking up cuz you smell all warm and he wants action too #only for the same realization to have th both going >:[ at each other #raph gets up like fuck this I’ll be a good boyfriend I’ll go get breakfast. you want pastries doll? I'll get you fucking pastries #and Mikey’s like fuck that I’ll be a better boyfriend I’m gonna go make homemade juice #and then reader is like. wtf where are my cuddly buddies? Why is everyone so pissy this fine morning? #<- zero clue they are in the middle of a pissing contest #goes to take a morning shower and gets interrupted cuz Mikey doubles back #youngest sibling gotta take advantage of the older one being out and all that #I could just see him all annoyed halfway to the Kitchen before going *wtf am I doing* and backtracking to corner reader in the bathroom #raph drags reader back in his room and closes the door in mikey's face when he gets back with pastries #cuz personal space (nest) privileges and it was cold outside and damn it he's was a good boyfriend he deserves cuddle time #also he didn't get mikey any pastries #proceeds to show reader there's more than one way to enjoy a pastry #……… have to think about this one actually plot poly is hard #raccoon rambles