#yea im drawing i want to draw so bad

[yayee-prsp]

#what is this for what is this forrrr #JUST so you know i did have a specific ship in mind for eacb of the options so choose wisely and/or let the universe decide <3 #yea im drawing i want to draw so bad #yayee pspsps

[tianhai03]

some re8 doodles ive done in the past two days

bonus: (featuring dante from the devil may cry series)

#drew that first two ethan doodles bc i saw a lot of people drawing him like that in fanart and i was talking to a friend abt it #they asked for some examples to look at but i couldnt find any so i decided to draw him myself lmao #then people on twitter liked it a lot and asked me to draw more re8 stuff so i figured yea why not #always fun to draw something different every now and then :) #anyway im still in the middle of watching a shadow of rose playthrough i cant wait to see whats gonna happen next #<already knows one of the biggest spoilers it has but still wants to see how emotionally painful the story is gonna be #resident evil #ethan winters #rosemary winters #chris redfield #alcina dimitrescu #karl heisenberg #allyart #cw // blood #forgor to tag the blood my bad

[135crow]

It’s the silly man!!!

#idk how you draw his hair tbf #yea ik his hat has like 5 diff sizes and colors here but i made these on separate panels and partially on different days #the • _ • eyed one is pretty old i forgot about it #i wanted to draw ASL so bad but they are hard to draw aaaag #and one with shanks #need more cartoon physics drawings tho #also saw his outfit from the new arc and just had to #i made him overly adorable here which is surprising considering how i usually draw 😭 #like i have a law drawing im proud of but i wanna draw more laws before posting that but it’s going to be the opposite probably #monkey d. luffy #luffy #one piece #op #straw hat luffy #one piece luffy #fan art #art #drawing

[umblrspectrum]

mspaint is so fun when i've got no fucking idea what im doing

#honestly this was just like #my bf and a friend both use mspaint sometimes/always so i wanted to try it out #im not used to no stabilizer but its working i think #the fucking fill tool SUCKS though #where the FUCK is my ONE PIXEL WIDE GAP #but yea i like mspaint #just add layers and we're all cool #no im not even going to bother trying to shade this #i got so cocky after Those Two Drawings and i've now realizing i still have no fucking idea what im doing #anyways incase you haven't noticed im trying to incorporate a couple more curves into my style #instead of just pure sharp edges #i like it a lot more tbh #murder drones #murder drones n #serial designation n #mspaint #art #i feel like using the “artwork” tag is a bit pretentious of me for what are just sketches so im going to stop using it #if i feel especially bad later then i'll go through the rest of my posts and take it off there too #if i cannot replicate this style in clip then im just fucking moving to mspaint

[harvestmoth]

more rejuv things but its. its just this guy again, im sorry shes all i can draw

#everyday im like i wanna draw :] and then i just end up with this thing on the page #i refuse to draw hands holding. because i cannot and im too lazy to figure it out #oh yea a couple of these i havent posted before because theyre lame to me but ill put them here for now #anyways!! #i was gonna say something about a couple of these but i forgot #oh well #pokemon rejuvenation #does she. lose her ribbon in blacksteeple. i forgot #she still has it to me.. #to me her c15 hair tie is a torn part of the ribbon #anyways again. yesterday i finally figured out what the rejuvrp is. very cool stuff im so incredibly intrigued by it #i have no idea whats going on! but it looks so cool ill try to read it more later. #oh right again about the rejuvrp thing. the character designs ive seen are so so so cool i want to draw them so bad #i think i have to ask about that first though and there is! no way i am going to do that!!! i do not want to bother them #and i think my heart would explode from the fear of it all before i even typed the message. #that and im very lazy! theres a very good chance i wouldnt even draw it in the first place #anyways unrelated but i think if i get another comment from someone on something i Will Actually Explode. #i see someone said something and it kills me on the daily. what is happening... thank you.. i appreciate it very much... #sorry to whoever read all of that. um. hi youre really cool and i hope you have a good day/night #i think being on twitter has done something to me i have to leave it immediately. anyways back to twitter #wait actually i should go back to playing rejuv. im still in the grove from when i first posted the gym leader melia au. im afraid to leave #also play pokemon rejuvenation no i will not stop saying that everytime i post one of these

[problemcore]

been real cloudy here, without any rain

#halfway thru this i realized i was drawing myself and not gumi and i had to take a moment and re-gumi-fy the drawing #cant help being a gumi kinnie i guess U_U #dnoodles #vocaloid #i guess? idk i dont think a lot of people will reblog this. i actually kinda hope not. #hello dear followers #yea wow i have um. not been drawing at all lately. #not even simple doodles. i couldnt even pick up a pen. #so i sat down. turned on my favorite music. and drew what i wanted. #not what i wanted to see as the result #but what i wanted to let out of my system. #i dont really care if this looks good or bad. i dont care how messy the lines are. i dont care about the colors or the background #i just wanted to have a good time drawing again. and have a good time i did :) #i have a big drawing ahead of me i need to do. that i Want to do. #im scared of it not turning out good. especially since its for a friend. especially since im being paid for it. #but. im gonna let myself enjoy it. sink into the feeling and let the pen move on its own. indulge in the joy of creation. #i missed art. i missed posting. #sometimes i think about how i was able to crank out so many drawings in high school. #not without extreme determent to my grades of course. but still. i was drawing So Much. and i utterly loved it. #i still wish i could go back to that. perhaps i will. perhaps i wont. #but i want to let that wish go away. and. i guess. start a new chapter. #reinvent my relationship with art. #its going to be bad. its going to be messy. its going to hurt your eyes. and its going to be fun. #WOW okay that was an essay. thank you for reading. #im gonna go eat something and. actually get back to drawing. hehe

[benetnvsch]

seriously obsessed with your furry knkdzs thank you for them <3

waaaaaaaah- thank u thank u ;; they are My Favorites so they get the Furry Treatment PFFT-

have another as a treat :dances:

#BUT YEA THANKS IM KINDA INSECURE ABT SHARING FURRY ART ON MAIN BC IM A WEENIE SO THIS MEANS A LOT WEEPS #kite draws #bsd #Bungou stray dogs #LITERALLY ?? GET IT CUZ THEY'RE DOGS LITERA- (gets shot by bad joke police) #kunikidazai #knkdz #kunizai #Dazai x kunikida #kunikida x dazai #kunikidog #kunikida doppo #Dazai osamu #kite watches bsd #furry art #I have been drawing all of these on the same canvas and just have been hiding layers lol #the title of them all is lmao and when I export em I just add a number this was LMAO3.png #the background was overkill perhaps but I wanted to shade fancy and needed a light source SHUSH #also peep Kunikidas tail wag LOL I am proud of that #nothing is sillier to me than giving animal character actual animal behaviors #like imagine a cat girl who coughs up hair balls time to time I love her girlboss

[evilsartcorner]

#QSMP #qsmp fanart #fanart #tazercraft fanart #qsmp mike #guys idk how to tell you this but I have not watched a single tazercraft stream or nothing #and yet I CANNOT stop drawing mike IDK WHY #idk portuguese I just read about what he gets up to on qsmp on tumblr and go crazy #maybe its the constant cool skins and skin changing maybe its the angst maybe its the green guy w glasses sobbing I DONT KNOW #but anyways ya I want to draw so bad all the time but school is a bitch and I have like zero free time currently so im not dead just yea #miras art

[maskedchip]

yknow at this point i have drawn so many images i can draw pretty fast now. i think that's the best outcome after years of tormenting over how slow of an artist i was. mainly bc i really had no idea what i was doing, so i would spend HOURS on just a full-body character design or something of the like. of course all the practice and time spent studying anatomy or color makes things easy now (also obsession but we already know about all that)

i think its hard to learn that not all your art is precious and by that i mean of course u cant create masterpieces in a day and shouldnt torment over not being able to get something right the first time. the silly doodles all count towards something. i joke about having perpetual wips but i think my favorite thing is saving past ideas and reworking them later just to see how they changed. bc art, like people, is so dynamic. constantly changing.

and the best feeling is making the art u imagined years ago come to life or you get a bit closer to producing the work that you saw in your head. mmmmm growth.

#i think it took years of pain and frustration and i still feel uneasy about my art but i aim to improve always so i think thats a good thing #like these days i dont really care about quality or what the people will like. i just draw whatever idea and post for funsies #and i want to be able to do that for a long time 😭 #all my vent post are about art bc i dont wanna be too personal online LOL but I FEEL BAD I JUST HAVE A SERIOUS CASE OF IMPOSTER SYNDROME #SORRY #but yea i read every tag and the essay length ones always make me happy like thank you. <3 for simply looking at my art. it means a lot #im at a weird part of my life sorry if i get all sentimental and wistful i just. woa. art 🧍‍♂️

[doodlboy]

They're here!✨️

Fusion deets under the cut! [Big Ramble]

So!! Aventurine is one of the most stable fusions in this au, as Mammon and El's personalities mesh very well bc they're both silly goofy lil guys. They are also the 2 that are most often fused for long periods of time because they get along so well, nearly garnet level of permafusion, but they do have to separate more often.

The inspo for them was japanese delinquents depicted in media [ex. Mondo from Dr1, Josuke from jjba], both Mammon and El are troublemakers, and their fusion is no acception to that trait. Also! I designed them to fit each other so they would fit this fusion bc Aventurine came to me before either of them were polished designs, and I really liked the concept!

Because of Elliot's attempted shattering, his gem [and psyche] is permanently cracked and can't be healed by any diamond's healing ability. This will carry onto every fusion he's part of. That's why the right side of Aventurine's sunglasses are cracked, so they can display that trait when the color of their glasses cover their one blind eye.

Aventurine's personality takes after Mammon the most, with Elliot's calm demeanor taking a backseat [unless they're destroying smthn, that usually all Elliot]. That being said, this is one of the more intelligent / tech-savvy fusions as well, combining Mammon's nearly instantaneous calculations and problem solving skills, and Elliot's extreme dedication to learning a new concept or hobby every few weeks and you get a very surprisingly intelligent fusion[to some].

Cocky and a bit of a smart-ass, It isn't uncommon to hear them go "Bow before the Great Aventurine!" puffing their chest out and strutting about the au equivalent of the House of Lamentation [possibly a ship? Currently unknown]. Though they're known to be a harbinger of mischief, Aventurine is a very level-headed and well-balanced fusion, so y'all will probably be seeing more of them sooner than later.

#obey me #om gem au #obey me gem au #obey me mammon #obey me mc #digital art #gem ocs #aventurine #at some point i will be drawing the first time they fused. bc its in my brain i just want 2 finish the rest of the main cast first #im bad at writing so if the desc kinda sucks im sorz #yea but basically aventurine beamed themself into my brain at like 4am a few weeks ago #so thats why el and mams refs are on their fusion sheet bc i designed them after i had the idea 4 the fusion in mind #but yea #my funky lil au is still going. slowly but its going #elliot doodles #elliot rambles #mayb ill do separate lore bits for the characters when i get 2 it and make a masterlist or smth 🤔

[quinn-pop]

Mayta Knight day 4 - Loss

this is one of those comics you can easily tell was unscripted but 1. the loss of one’s self is probably one of my favorite themes ever and 2. i infect everything i draw with fluff (apparently)

bonus:

#text in notes !! #as you can probably tell i did some very bad editing on this one #I REALLY hated how some of the panels turned out so #this is the only way it’s somewhat presentable okay #pen art struggles #you can just pretend it doesn’t look like mk’s poking kirby in the eye… #anyway yea this is my maskless mk headcanon #the paw pads are very much just because i like drawing them #and i love when people give him scars and all but im not good at drawing those and keeping them consistent n whatnot #and then ill have to commit to deciding whether he’s fluffy or not and im not ready… #kirby #kirbyposting #meta knight #metadad #mayta knight #my art #seriously someone tell me how that works #oh. Yeah. and ignore 5 finger mk. please. Please i dont want to redraw this LMAO

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#guess whos back in therapy bby 😎 #the lady i saw was nice. 1st appointments r always a lotta blah blah blah so much to cover #and im always like bleh whatever im not that bad but when u put it all down on paper it is sorta a lot lol #i got the comment. hm u seem to kno a lot abt the dsm. and like listen. i have been meticulously categorizing my problems for the last 4 #years. and i like to learn so ya kno. also said yea it sounds like u r having hypomanic episodes. #and asked if bipolar was a possibility and like if i was bipolar that would absolutely blow my god damn mind. im pretty sure its just pmdd #but whatever. im open to the possibility. mostly i wanna hear someone else perspective on this #i feel like im collaborating on a project. like gimmie ur notes i wanna see if were on the same track. bc im insane like that #i always feel bad when they apologize for asking invasive questions. like neh its fine. i got nothin to hide and i dont give a fuck #also i told a class of my peers that my distraction from research is drawing narut0 fan art. again bc i do not #give a single fuck. Professors response: hopefully we get to see it some day. bro. if u ask me i will show u. i do not care #i mean. probably nothing too weird but i feel like most of my stuff is safe to share. i just come off looking like a weeb i guess #but yea back in therapy bc my mum reminded me bc the ppl around me irl r also worried for my well-being based on my behavior lol #i mean its just bc i complain that im in like psychological pain a lot. so lots and lots of bitching abt my brain ^^ #the lady i saw did fall a lil bit into my trap. like what woulf ur life look like if u had everything under control? bc it seems like ur #here and ur starting a phd what more do u want? and im like mwahaha but u see i can do school #i can do school so good. i am the best at school and thats it. i am otherwise barely functional #so i can be successful on paper and dysfunctional when it comes to having a life :-] #but whatever. well see what she wants to follow up on next week bc i threw a lot at her #also went to my office for the 1st time. it is really nice to sit in a working lab and watch ppl interact. but also i do feel like im #dying if i try to sit in that room with 2 other ppl lol. so well see how it goes. i may find somewhere else to hide #unrelated

[poke-poke-poke]

pls remember to water your goomy

(... yes, that is a bootleg lotad watering can---)

#pokemon #pkmn #goomy #art #poke's doodles #uh. #oc #i guess #he's me lol but pkmn oc as well i guess #i've not. posted him before on here - i think - but im being a lil silly today ;] #yea this is just. a simple doodle #i wanted to draw goomy real quick to cheer up lol #i lovvvvv themmmmmmmmmm so muchhh #if i had a goomy they'd be sooo soggy and happy and gooeyy #uh u know that post like - 'ur ducks? disorganised - my ducks? orderly' #that but 'your goomy? dry. - my goomy? moisturised and refreshed - in TOP form' #unrelated to my goomy praise - the idea of. in universe pkmn product bootlegs is SO funny to me........ #like - the canon lotad watering cans are super cute - what if. some people make cheap and. 'bad' versions of it- #it. probably isnt clear from this doodle though............. i think about it a lot though - same with other pkmn universe products -- #- like clothing- pkmn accessories and snacks - medical products for specific pkmn? #.... i feel like this is too much rambling for 1(one) doodle----------

[blueiight]

🙄 srsly ur not even gonna publicly defend ur friend when u know folks are completely misrepresenting the situation (and lbr some of that subset of fandom were just waiting to take her down a peg ever since she suddenly got popular). hiding in vague tags when u see people straight up lying abt her is so lame.

Yk i wasnt even gonna engage u or any of these other anons whove been screaming at me since 9 am my time yesterday accusing me of defending harassment or accusing me of being a ‘bad friend’. but ig i got time this morning n ur my springboard for answering them all. I Been Getting phil jackson level of racist troll anons calling me slurs calling for my own death too [which is hilarious lol real deal ppl tried to kill me n im pose to fold cuz anon #50 said die blueiight! like lol ok. at least say it behind ur real blog] & accusing me of being in some evil posse or like u accusing me of ‘not defending ppl’ enough bc i made a half assed delete tag post b4 going to clean up my lab yesterday that essentially said dont use a black woman’s untagged readmore that mentioned nobody as an excuse to harass a particular black woman under the pretext of ‘defending’ much less blame said individual’s emotions for other people’s cruel decisions to harass others. i might as well elaborate. situations where real people are harassed or being talked about require more maturity + thought than someone having a bad opinion on a fictional dynamic. this is not a matter of people's biases impacting their fictional analysis. these are people's biases against real life black women impacting real life black women [albeit on the internet but real ppl r behind these screens!], and i am a black woman myself. im not some 2 faced friend or some anon harasser im a real black woman. n to anyone reading: harassment is not caused by someone else being ‘protective’, online harassment is motivated by an individual/s cruelty. individual writers venting on their own blog r not responsible for anyone else’s feelings or someone else being cruel. u r responsible for as an individual for ur own feelings n ur own actions. no one is or should be so easily influenced by anyone's venting to the point of going to harass someone else. that is not how harassment works and that is wrongfully scapegoating. unless u have proof of someone’s ip or even some conjecture like typing styles to where yk the @s of anyone sent so n so (which ik none of u can pull up bc theres no proof of such) or w/e, ur just talking shit & being messy. u would think a shared interest woud make yall wanna act like u got some sense but yall wanna act like the teenagers u were never allowed to be in cliques over 2d yaoi. why r all u , even other black women, always so fucking weird to black women? willfully misinterpreting everything we say, tokenizing individual black women& attacking when that ‘token’ expresses any sort of feeling like i need all yall to go do sum bout yall selves and get the fuck for real. yall run black women out these fan spaces bc of ur parasitic relationship to their work, then wonder why everything is so white. its cuz the only fan creators u treat like human beings are older white ppl or fans of color that reinforce their views. i see right the fuck thru all yall.

#yn. #yn answers #im not sure what u want me to do that wont draw even more hatred toward ppl #cuz idgaf bout yall hating on me i just allude to the hate ive got so yall dont think im being a smug asshole lol #im reticient bc i dont want more hate that a real person is already getting to go her way. #theres a difference between me railing on bad takes & me defending a real human being whos getting hate from other authors who .. yea #i cant believe i even have to clarify this but i do #Yall just want me to fuel mess to see black women make complete fools of ourselves so u can say see thats why they cant be in fandom #w the they or the woke or w/e racially charged euphemism u have #not to mention most of these ppl have me blocked for w/e reason thats their prerogative so id essentially be talking to a brick wall? #like other ppl send me this shit i aint checking for them? stop sending me or anyone else shit about this #its envy cuz she got more kudos or w/e than them or disliking the tropes she used? #now ppl use this situation as pretext to call her 'problematic' to excuse their petty dislike #even in the fandom space.. they was never teenagers in cliques so they live that out as adults on the web #im glad i got banned from stores + got toe up rl so i wouldnt be sonso age doing <-

[fruitsyrups]

ok so like tbh im bored of doing the whole "drawing an AT character every day of december" thing which i doubt anyone was, like, particularly invested in, except me bc i wanted to prove something to myself i guess? anyway. i've proved enoughhh

sooo yeah. i'll probably just go back to posting art irregularly lol

#tbh i mostly just want to try 2 get back into writing but i am silly n i keep making excuses like ''ough i have 2do That Thing first'' #and then i put it off and end up doing nothing for like 90% of the day #sooo. yea #i also have this one other art piece that i have to finish (read: start) soon #so im not doing very much drawing outside of things i feel ''''obligated'''' to do (not in a bad way bc i'm enjoying doing the other thing #but it is. like. on a deadline. so naturally i've been procrastinating a lot)

[ouchhq]

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#i just need to vent for a second i dont really want to bother anyone to talk about this so yea here i am #i have been so depressed for weeks. so depressed. more than i have been wanting to admit to myself #i cant stop crying #i am such a failure at life… i am not a good enough artist or a good enough person for what that matters #i really feel like no one cares about me or about being around me #i have been losing will to even draw because i feel like i am not even that good at that… i know being good isnt the point but still #i feel so bad…. i am literally 24 and i look at how my life is and im like ..? how #and i remember how i used to picture my life at this point when i was little.. i literally thought id have kids by now like ??? i thought #id be starting a family and id be working and starting to put money away or whatever #and id be full of people who love me around.. #but im here laying in bed crying because its just another day of not being able to get out of bed of 9 years of clinical depression #i thought i was doing better since i started art school.. but here i am #barely ate at lunch and still feeling like i might throw up #started thinking again about sh and s*****e after a really long time. kinda heartbreaking when i realized it #i cant focus on anything and i cant work on anything.. all i want to do is sleep #oh well